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arvandus · 1 year ago

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Guys. GUYS. This song. THIS FUCKING SONG....

https://open.spotify.com/track/5eXnC2B5RU5fAhfwvV2ABD?si=28871c4782154d7c

Nothing sums up the pining between Dabi and Reader more than this song right now...

I want you Yeah I want you And nothing comes close To the way that I need you I wish I could feel your skin And I want you From somewhere within

It feels like there's oceans Between me and you once again We hide our emotions Under the surface and try to pretend But it feels like there's oceans Between you and me

I want you And I always will I wish I was worth you But I know what you deserve...

UUUUUUGGGGHHHH.

#Arvandus rambles #touch vibes #dabi vibes #perhaps the mood song for chapter 15????#I've listened to this too many times today #I'm normal #I'M FINE

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triglycercule · 6 days ago

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sometimes i like to think that horror comes to dust's room late at night just to talk to phantom papyrus. no he doesn't wanna talk to dust. horror probably doesn't even CARE if dust's awake at the asscrack of dawn or rambling off to the hallucination too loudly this late at night because he just wants to talk to phantom papyrus

horror's not delusional enough to believe that phantom paps is actually real and his own papyrus like dust does but sometimes he really wants to,,,, so just for these short moments between them he wants to pretend that the hallucination is his papyrus. that he gets to talk to his own brother before everything went to shit and before he ruined his brother's life. yeah sure phantom paps kinda says some crazy stuff that horror's papyrus never would back then but so what?? dust's papyrus is the closest thing he's got and at least he doesn't have to deal with the guilt at even LOOKING at his brother's face (the sunken eyesockets,,,, the uneven teeth,,,,, yeah no) because there's nothing there. horror doesn't have to do anything but keep his back turned to dust and just talk to papyrus through him

they both keep their backs turned to eachother when they do this because neither of them can stand looking at eachother. dust especially because hearing horror sound so much like how he was before. horror sounds so lighthearted and relaxed and just,,,,, normal that it almost reminds dust of himself. maybe if he closed his eyes and tuned out his own voice he could just imagine the moment being a conversation between himself and paps back then before he had to kill him over and over. dust doesn't want to have to look back and see horror's mutilated skull and his permanently replaced eye. he doesn't want the fake scenario he's choosing to indulge in right now to be broken

and then i think they talk like that for a long time; because horror has a lot to say to paps about himself and what he regrets and dust has a lot of reminiscing to do on the good old days before he lost himself :3

#this one is a bit more SERIOUS than i expected.... no funny little triglycercule rambling today for some reason.......#i do really like this idea though. it seems like one of the only ways that horrordust would bond in a more canonical sense #no they don't fall asleep in bed with eachother after this. in fact horror doesn't even say BYE when he leaves #they just move on with their lives afterwards and pretend none of it happened #and when they need it most then they can drop their guards ever so slightly at 2:30 in the morning through a fake middleman #horror doesn't like being this vulnerable around dust but he knows DAMN well the other won't tell #dust has no reason to say a thing about their midnight chats. maybe he just doesn't like being vulnerable at all #and it's true that dust wouldnt tell anyone because tbh he gets to ask horror things he'd ask himself #maybe he'd lie a bit here and there about what paps said so he can ask something like do you regret it after all this time #just to see if horror feels the same way that he does even though they have different circumstances #to see if the most sans-like in his eyes of the 2(3) of them can understand what he feels and understands how it feels #horror regrets it too but he's here and he did what he did. dust almost likes that he has someone to relate to him tbh #sometimes he needs to be reminded that he should regret everything he did especially when he feels manic or just apathetic #he probably needs the reality check and if horror isn't the most grounded out of the 3 i dont know WHO is (low bar but he is arguably is)#ok time to turn this into the mtt! killer SO bashes them for these little midnight rendezvous #makes SO many remarks about how theyre really pathetic for practically roleplaying a conversation between sans and papyrus #SO many jokes about what the two probably get up to in there. so many jokes about how this is some weird kink probably #but in the end despite all the shit talking killer's never been part of one of these conversations #in fact he doesn't even go NEAR dust's room late at night due to this #he just cant he doesn't want to. because if he hears horror's voice being so lighthearted and joking #and dust saying words that sound so similar to what papyrus would say (maybe he's even imitating his voice)#it would upset him a LOT. or maybe not? either way killer avoids that area like the plague when horrordust chat #maybe he'd sit down by the outside of the door when he's FEELING. killer won't let himself believe in the delusion dust and horror have mad #but he can't stay for too long because then dust and horror start talking about regrets and their wrongdoings and now he can't listen any #but either way i trio-fied it and that's all that matters!!! this might actually be one of my FAVORITE ideas i've ever cone up with :333 #killer sans #horror sans #dust sans #murder time trio #tricule hc

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crabussy · 3 months ago

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I cried so hard while writing all of that. headache now. worth it. I'm so glad other people care about this just as much as I do. let's never give up hope ever

#listen to my gibberish boy #AND LIKE. I SLEPT 8 HOURS. I'VE HAD ENOUGH WATER. I'VE BEEN FOR A WALK I'VE TALKED TO MY FRIENDS AND WHANAU TODAY #this isn't the product of me being overemotional. this is just how much this topic means to me #I just start crying whenever I think about it too hard #I'm so glad other people haven't given up. I'm so glad I get to devote my life to species that would otherwise have no hope of surviving #I am going to learn the FUCK out of these university courses #and in 40 years time I will see more birds than I ever did growing up #in 40 years we will have too many takahē to individually name #in 40 years I'll be 58 and I'll be walking on a coastal trail and I'll see pīwakawaka and tūī and kerurū and I'll think to myself #hey! I did that! they're alive because of me!!#CRYING AGAIN. HAVING A TIME WITH THIS ONE I GUESS

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coquelicoq · 1 year ago

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Natsume: You didn't sleep a wink last night. Why not go and grab a few now? Natori [sparkling]: I'm just fine. It takes more than sleep deprivation to dull my dazzling self, so don't you worry your fussy little head. Natsume [concerned]: Nonsense like that is exactly what someone suffering from sleep deprivation would say! Sensei: Oh really? Has he been sleep-deprived every day of his life?

so i've been watching the natsume dub -

#sensei referring to matoba as the 'pirate-princess-tightrope-walker'????? PLSSSS #sensei to natsume about matoba: your wussy little punches won't do jack #also yes sensei he probably has been sleep-deprived every day of his life. this man is a dumpster fire #thanks to qserasera (thank you qserasera!!!) i've been revisiting the natori and matoba episodes #i had started a rewatch earlier this year but got sidetracked early in season 2 so i'm picking up from there #so to refresh my memory i read through the episode summaries i had written for season 1/early season 2 #and got SO EMOTIONAL??? just from reading the summaries? what the fuck???#me earlier today: i can't reread le petit prince right now because my heart can't take it #also me: tra la la let's see what natsume is going to do to pulverize my soul into powder today #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #natori shuuichi #my posts #anyway i probably would never have tried the dub except that someone put some clips of english dub matoba on here #and i was OBSESSED with the voice acting???#i'm so glad i decided to try it because so many of the line readings are just delightful #natsume and sensei's bickering especially #i don't love madara's youkai voice. and i like the japanese voice playing touko a lot better than the english voice #but it's nice to be able to listen and like do the dishes at the same time! i love subs but you can't really multitask #i guess since this is the dub i should be calling him master not sensei but i'm too used to sensei #i must say though that i'm really enjoying natsume calling him 'master kitty cat' in full earnestness #i don't speak japanese so i wasn't getting the full effect from 'nyanko-sensei'#i get now why tanuma was so embarrassed

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charliethomascoxuniverse · 1 year ago

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💕 Charlie Cox as Ishmael 💕

Moby Dick (2011) Pt XXIV ~

“There are certain queer times and occasions in this strange mixed affair we call life when a man takes this whole universe for a vast practical joke, though the wit thereof he but dimly discerns, and more than suspects that the joke is at nobody's expense but his own.” (MD, Ch 49)

#so as I am blessedly able to remain successfully upright in my chair today...on with the Ishmael/MD project!! 😅🙏#poor confused Ishmael...he's sent to tell Ahab they've found their first herd of whales at long last...#but Ahab is too busy exhibiting signs mental instability to pay proper attention to him LOL #this is the last set of pics I'd taken so I'll have to carry on where I left off last time #...good thing I've many audiobooks in need of listening to xd #Ishmael #charlie cox #moby dick 2011 #moby dick #herman melville #whale weekly #baby charlie #screencaps

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swan2swan · 2 months ago

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Gonna just listen to this one and reflect.

28 years old is far too young. Far, far too young. Talented or not. And this ending really, really made the show. The gorgeous, upbeat song kicking in at the most suspenseful moments, or the lowest points of despair, always kicked the show right back up into a "Hang on! Something else is gonna happen! We're gonna take another swing!" mood.

Then they did what so many other shows should do, and ran credits that used clips from the episode you just watched...reminding what you had seen, what the characters had done, what had been accomplished. And the moments they featured were so often intimate, emotional bonding moments, because the whole darn show was a reflection on youth, hope, and mortality, and the point was that you bond with others as you grow.

#....I think that's all I've really got #sayuri #rip #requiescat in pace #dang #I'm so upset #....one more listen today #it's that SECOND HALF OF THE REFRAIN that hits during the recap clip that gets me every time #anyway #call your loved ones #hang out #bond #life's too short for far too many

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exoexid · 3 months ago

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slowly but surely surviving the horrors 🫡

#i've never been away from tumblr for that long before... sometimes lifes gets really complicated </3 #i haven't started fruits basket #i still haven't watched the last ep of iwtv AND I'M DYING TO DO ITTTTT #soon i will have the time i hope hehe :-)#but yeah i missed this blog so !!!!!!! this summer wasn't a summer per se but i already expected it wouldn't be #i came back home and it was a nice experience after a sad experience after another nice experience and another sad ex-#so yeah :o) today i had a wisdom tooth removed for the first time in my life!!! i'm in pain!!!!!!!!!!!#BUTTTT next monday is my birthday so yayyy!!!!!!!!!!! let's not think about it too much i WILL explode ^-^#read so many random books hashtag i love you local library and still haven't listened to chanbaek's cb but I'M GETTING THERE #i missed so many things omg... the block b reunion? THE B.A.P !!!!!!! reunion? i cried. the t**il accusation (ohhhh don't make me talk #if i speak............ 😐😐😐)#so yeah. yeah. so many things can happen in two months like wow #anyways hi tumblr!!! <3 #dara.t

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heffrondriving · 1 year ago

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soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧#also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :>#i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀#(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!)#but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo!#also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯#okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

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sysig · 4 months ago

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Everything day

#Had an Extremely long Game Day with smol today and I think it fixed my brain so that's great news #Past week has been rough!!!! Got hit with a semi-minor anxiety episode and a pretty serious depression episode to bookend last week #I'm all good it's just - took a bit out of me lol #Any number of things really too many to list so I'll just sum up as blegh - feeling better now #Started a new printing project!! Looking forward to that hopefully gonna do some test printing tomorrow #It Should work out well but pfbtl I can't count on my formatting skills for nonsense - shapes wtf are those #Been drawing <3 Been writing <3 #Thinking quite very seriously about returning to doodle roots something awful #I tend to spend a Long Long time editing my stuff down by three different phases #Makes them very pretty! But I think I've had enough of that for the moment #New! Novelty! Needed and necessary and I'd rather Write about these than fuss more about how Pretty Or Not they are #They're pretty enough! I've made shapes on paper that previously didn't exist and now I can think about them as they are! Magic!#So that's the current plan - do still have One more step of editing to do before that lol but smol had offered me videos to listen to during #Good to have longer videos so I'm not constantly start-and-stopped #Oh and Pepper went into molt Again and just came out and he's genuinely gigantic now #And so dark! Handsome boy was a nice soft brown when we picked him up and so tiny small and now he's nearly black and huge #And so furry now he's definitely at least twice as fuzzy #Got him to eat - he was definitely hungry but he seems to be pacing himself still #Everything everything

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seaofreverie · 6 months ago

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Wanted to start working on projects for my part-time school this weekend but instead all I have the energy to do is lay in bed and play mario kart or lay in bed and listen to music

#i started taking meds two days ago and over those two days i've felt even more dead energy-wise than before. if that's even possible #i hope this passes sooner than later because the semester's almost over #and i want to prepare something better to pass this course with than those projects that everyone did in class #and then it will finally (or rather already. time feels fake) be summer and no more obligations of such type. for now #altough i'll admit these last few months were rather easygoing #in terms of stuff i had to do for a set deadline and such #it would have been a much harder time for me otherwise #at least i'm getting this stuff sorted at last. slowly but surely #and enjoying my time gaming and listening to 4-5 albums a day on average as of the last two days #maybe 2024 is the year when my mental health problems finally caught up with me #but then with some dedication and direction i can also start getting out of it for once and for all #like i actually want to be proud of what i've done this year. because it's a lot #and it's things i wouldn't have found myself capable of just a few months ago #like. making this blog and actually sharing my feelings and thoughts somewhere #years of being your own only confidant really messes with your brain and ability to function as an adult it turns out #but yeah i hope i can get this sorted now and the meds help and make it easier to go about my previous plans for making myself feel better #i'll try not to post about this too much but i really needed to get this out today #i know many people vent on tumblr anyway but my brain will always make me feel bad about anything and everything i do lol #vent tag

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vilevampire · 6 months ago

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I loaf technology

#context: I've been learning japanese for the past. um #*checks date* 2 months or so.. well. there was also one time I started studying then gave up in 1-2 months but I'm not counting that #and it's been coming along but by far my biggest weakness is my lack of vocabulary #I don't find the grammar super difficult but since I only know 800-900 words #(for comparison the average native speaker knows about 20k words)#most of the time that I read/listen to something and don't understand shit it's bc there's too many words that I don't know #I learn 20 new words a day thru flashcards + occasionally pick up some words here and there subconsciously just from watching stuff in jp #(that's also how/why I started watching inazuma eleven recently. and now I know too many fucking soccer terms in japanese)#but still I'm an impatient boy so I was like ok. what if I try to read stuff to pick up more vocabulary #usually this would be near impossible (or rather incredibly tedious) because I don't know enough words to really read anything #and I'd spend forever just looking up every single word that I don't know right #well thanks to the power of technology and a good pop-up dictionary extension I don't have to worry about that #and today I managed to install the extension on my phone too (I didn't know it was possible or else I would've done it sooner)#so now I can read. japanese inazuma eleven fanfic from my phone. lol #it'll still be pretty annoying of course since I'll have to look up MOST words anyway #but at least the process will have been simplified by a lot #anyway. that's why I loaf technology #lucasings

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ereborne · 9 months ago

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Song of the Day: March 15

“Over Yet" by Hayley Williams

#song of the day #very exciting to have one of my brothers tell me entirely unprompted that he's enjoying the current playlist #a very big win #I spent most of my work day today doing what I've been thinking of as 'evil rubber-ducking'#where the IT guys throw me the especially Difficult faculty members--the ones who can't be helped because they won't listen--#and I trick them into actually talking me through what they're doing so we can find the problem and fix it #(eternally amazed by people who request help and then refuse it. you called me bud. you submitted a service request ticket on purpose.#oh you can't do your job without connecting to the vpn? that's great we can't fix it until you tell us what's fucking stopping you)#mostly this 'tricking' takes the form of me being a sweet young butter-wouldn't-melt Southern girl in over my head with mean IT guys #bless them (derogatory) these folks who won't let IT even attempt to start working through the 'have you tried' scripts #because they know they're getting something wrong but are too angry-embarrassed to admit they don't know what #are still delighted to mansplain the idea of a remote connection to me #--that's not fair. I shouldn't mischaracterize them it's mostly not mansplaining.#the two today were yankee-splaining me. city-splaining maybe.#what would a hick like me (y'all is one person. all y'all or some'a y'all for multiple people) possibly know about enterprise networks--#anyway they were using the wrong login credentials and were so sure of themselves they'd never even tried the other set just to see #bless. their. hearts.#(IT owes me so many little favors like this now. the latest database tweak I asked for got done live while I described it to them)#anyway anyway! love the chorus on this song #'to get out of your head yes break a sweat / baby tell yourself it ain't over yet'#makes me move my head every time

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softshuji · 1 year ago

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y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.

#i was thinking abt it earlier #but i've been crying so much lately like so much. almost every second day if not every day and i dont know why #actually i do kinda know why.#i think im hitting my limit with a lot of things and one of them is my parent dumping their problems on me #earlier today my mom told me again abt the whole debacle with my dad cheating on her multiple times and everyone knows i find this subject #too much for me i dont tlike to think about it or anything and im so tired of hearing it and especially when i lived through it trust me i #was literally there the whole cheating subject is very raw to me for many reasons and im just tired of being the emotional dump so often #especially because she always comes to me for everything all the time and im so sos tire d #everyone always tells me i should consider my own needs as a person and its okay to have them and yk in theory i agree with this but i just #cant. i grew up not having any needs met so how can i let myself have them now it makes me feel absolutely awful with myself to even #consider having to ask for something off someone and yet i know how wrong this is iknow needa and desires and wants are natural #but mine have always been on the back burner for everyone else. so its' no surprise ive let myself think im something to be used for other #peoples sake. whether that be physically or emotionally and especially the latter. because thats how i see myself someitmes. something #something to make people feel betetr about themselves that has no use outside of how i make them feel - just something to use until they #move onto the next best thing. something more entertaining and better value whatever that might mean something with less feelings less #sensitive. it feels like sometimes thats what i am. the indestructible never breaking hal that somehow has a solution to everything and can #always be there to fix every issue and is there to make people feel better but needs nothing in response #and god it really does feel like my problems dont mean anything to anyone #it does feel like no one thinks theyre worth anything #not worth listening to not worth thr same attention etcetc and yknow what i hate hate hate asking for attention and yet i get upset when i #feel like im not actually being heard or listened to #and i find it happens so often. sometimes i wanna hear it just once for once i wanna hear 'hey its okay to be upset i wish i could hug you'#or something like that god i dont want to be strong and nursing my wounds in private anymore #god i want a hug so bad and someone to just let me cry on them just once i want to be held and told someones got me instead of me doing it #for everyone else all the time #is thisselfish? it feels selfish to say #this is why it affects me so deeply whenever anyone does validate me or tells me its ok to want things or that im loved or anything nice #god i cant handle niceness at all it feels like it knocks me so bad it takes me ages to recover #and yet somehow all i can tell myself is that theyre only saying nice things because theyre being obligated to and not becayuse they feel #like they actually like me

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hummingbirdswords · 7 months ago

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#most days I feel like my emotions are broken and missing #and I wish I felt things with enough intensity for me to notice the differences between my different emotions #but then those days (like today) where I get hit with The Sads I am glad for the days when I'm mostly numb bc this is TOO MUCH #every minor thing is making me feel awful #my chest feels tight and I can't stop crying -- and I'm not used to crying bc of my feelings #like i need to watch sad things and listen to sad music for eye maintenance basically 😂 just to make sure they don't dry out #but today I've cried so many times that my eyes must be so confused

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pegasusdrawnchariots · 8 months ago

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the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet #I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through #idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :(#like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself #& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy #I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem #I had 4 social plans this month. that's it #that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!!#is this the norm for adulthood? :(#& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy #but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too #the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021 #but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all #I'm not going anywhere w this. idk #just one of those days #everything so fuck everybody suck :(#boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake #now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend #assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((:#I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake #& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx'#OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks #but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together!#'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc #'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!!#every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores #they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go #& I'm like any time!! I love u!!#& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired #like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(

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generatedreflection · 9 months ago

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I think it is an injustice that I can't look up the Rebirth soundtrack until I finish the game because it could bring me into contact with spoilers. What do you MEAN I have to wait until I'm done to hear these songs again! This self-imposed restriction is an affront to me personally!!

#ffviir #final fantasy vii rebirth #i have two modes with osts--either listen to it freely with no context because i don't plan to play the game soon #or listen to nothing and wait til i'm done to relisten #i usually take the former approach so it's been a while since i've gone into a game and heard all the music for the first time in context #god it's incredible #there are so many songs i want to hear again!!#this section of the story has so many good themes and they went off with these arrangements #and the new songs are so good too #i have to content myself with other osts at work today but AUGH

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