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tit summary/thoughts/spoilers under the cut!! <3
hiii wanted to make one of these just so I can ramble about everything bc what a crazy night LMAOO gonna make another post about the day so this is just about the show
my soul left my body when the lights went dark omfg, that is literally one of my favourite parts about concerts/live shows. the smoke and lights was a lot but the second they came out it’s like everything cleared up, i loveee how they come out with their backs to us and then the happy silly music when they’re running around saying hi hehehehe
the whole intro/beginning part was so fun i just loved the bits when they were just talking to us, canada love, the history of dnp/why we're all here etc etc. the dolls/diorama is such a fun little phistory recap, though i will say it was not as wild as i was maybe expecting or what they've done on other nights lol. they "wrestled" in the first one, nothing in the manchester apartment, "kissed" (69-ed lol) in the london one and that was it but they were all SO well made (shoutout pj and sophie), i loved phil's hoodie for the 2 apartment era hehe
role model or no-le model: very fun section, i wish i could tell you all the fill in the blanks we did but i can't remember for the life of me lol i shouted yaoi so loud for all of the lawyer dan ones but alas :( but i do remember lawyer dan writes erotica about timbits, then when the side by sides came up on the screens after it had been changed to "Phim Phbits" which made them both genuinely laugh it was so sweetie. we killed regular dan and doctor phil
phanspiracies were: toilet, clothes, tour bus and wedding. honestly very solid picks, it was so surreal seeing those "phan proof" comps of them wearing the same clothes on the screen down to the zoomed in picture of the underwear from the christmas cookies video 😭 the tour bus clip will never not be crazy but it was SO funny bc we cheered so loudly after phil said it was true that they shared the bed and dan was judging us but all i could think about is the stunned silence from phantwerp day one, i will never forget listening to that live and it's probably been so entertaining for them to see the shift from that lmao. the wedding edits were so funny dan was like "i know you had that as your desktop background for 6 years" and someone behind me was like "YES I DID", dan's little kick and cheeky smile at "i'm just opposed to anything traditional" ok sure
i can't remember which section this was during it was something to do with discussing a past era but phil said "maybe I was just horny" and i screamed lmao
the boxing segment ajdjkskjsf i have been waiting for it my entire goddamn life tbh and it was so fun. no one told me about the visuals on the screen ok why do they look so GOOD in them?? i wasn't actually expecting them to knock each other out or anything but it did seem a tinyy bit tamed down from what i've seen before, like they were being very gentle with each other lol but it was cute, the bite was still bite-y and the run around the theatre was craaaazy, the camera following them is so good lol
they yapped for moose. meese. meeses for a minute straight and i forgot it was supposed to be a bit it was so natural they're good at it whether they like it or not
oh yeah that's the other thing. they are fucking INCREDIBLE performers. like, they are so good at what they do and it was one of the highlights of my life getting to experience it irl. the show is incredibly well paced, the script is funny, the audience participation makes it but it's so insane to see how well they work together. the comfort and familiarity after so many years plays a huge part (there was a solid like 7 shoulder touches btw) but their dynamic is soooo good, they play off of each other so well. literally everything @cheekyvank described to me about dan as a performer is true. he was ALWAYS moving, he moves his mouth and bends and grooves and does the absolute most but it's soooo natural, like he has so much fun doing it. that man is a theatre kid all grown up and it's incredibly endearing but he's also a master, like he was MADE to be on a stage, he's so fucking good at balancing between roasting and teasing us and pointing out at people and winking and he called out someone filming without actually saying anything and it was so smooth and lowkey hot but also like jesus i didn't even risk TRYING to take a picture i am sooooooo scared of him. also thanks to you @jonsaremembers i was looking forward to the 4 g's all night, i am their geeky girlie forever and ever 🫶
and phil. oh my sweet precious baby angel. my heart was burstingggg with phil love all night. he is so, so so so good literally everything right with this world tbh. you can tell he has SO much fun on the stage as well, there's moments where his smile softens or he just looks out onto the audience and i want to shower him with love and affection (and we did! i honestly think one of the loudest screams was for "normal phil" during role model hehe). he is so effortlessly funny, the silly little run over to the microphone every time for the "hiatus" was one of my favourite bits of the show. i absolutely loved his getting real with us bit, it reminded me so much of his youtube videos- and i hope he knows how powerful and meaningful that "light entertainment" is for us. his voice was soooo soft and gentle it was like we were his children he was talking to which i guess we kind of are in this context. i love him forever and ever
sister daniel. INCREDIBLE follow up. i knew it was coming and nothing prepared me for Her. another part of the set design/production that is so well done, the visuals and the bass dropping when she comes out is SOOO fucking good. i have never screamed so loudly in my life. i would do anything she asked me to. the underwear were so fucking short i could not see a THINGGG like. fucking hell. lots of pulling the dress down and legs crossed/staying sat the whole time though lol which fair but the confessions and water spraying was fun, it will never not be funny when dan shames people for opening their mouths after they say it's sister daniel's bath water lmfaooo
the SONG!!!!!!!! the most fun. in the entire world. it's so good it's so fun. the lyrics, them going FULL boy band mode, the hands folding over and doob grab was infinitely more devastating irl. dan is so fucking good at the dance i love you forever terminal theatre kid and i think phil has reached the peak of how well he can do it and i want to give him his flowers for trying his damn best every time you keep doing you baby. the part where it kinda slows down and they're just doing the geekiest moves ever like those are my BABIESSS dfjksajdks standing up to rave with dnp in a room full of phannies was the highlight of my entire fucking life.
this was SO much longer than i anticipated and i'm probably still gonna go on about things as i remember it but it was genuinely the most fun and memorable night of my life. i love these two silly little guys so much, it was so surreal seeing them in person after over a decade and i would do anything to experience it again but i'm so, so grateful i got to do it once and i will cherish the memories forever. and this has only made me more insane about them and cemented the fact that i wholeheartedly believe they love us, this new era, and that they're not going away anytime soon so i WILL see you guys back on the internet and hopefully outside of it one day again too <3
(i lied here’s the one picture I took aka far from dan’s prying eyes during the part where they’re not there being gay getting out of their clothes)
#dnp#dan and phil#phan#tit tour#titspoilers#tit spoilers#terrible influence tour#titronto#titblossoms#my show
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weekly tag wednesday <3
thanks for tagging me @mybrainismelted and for making the game this week <3
Name: deanna
Age: noel
Are you in school, do you work full-time, or other? im a work at home mom
Tell me about your morning routine on a school/work day: up at 630am to get kids ready for school, make breakfast, pack lunches, school drop off. come home...take meds, eat a food, do some work or chores!
What do you usually have for breakfast? some potato, some vegan sausage/egg bites :> (but usually just drinking coffee for the first 3-4 hours im awake tbh)
How many breaks do you take during the day? uuhhh im not structured enough in my work and chores to answer this LOL
Do you go straight home when you are done? i work at home. but also yes, im definitely a go straight home bitch whenever i've had to go Somewhere Else
Do you like to go out in the evening? fuck no
Do you cook dinner or order in? we do take out once a week, on saturdays, as a treat
How do you entertain yourself in the evenings? very tired in the evenings so ocne the kids are in bed im usually watching a show or movie while i fold laundry. though recently my new video game came out so ive been playing that and falling behind on the laundry lol
And finally, tell me about your bedtime routine: shower, pjs, brush teeth, takes meds, get into bed, try not to look at phone past midnight (fail)
tagging some nuggets to maybe play, either way consider it a big ole XOXOXO <3
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the culmination of 10~ hours of work. a GUY
also the failures
#heart art!#adventure forward#af2#cyalm#im so sad that roblox doesnt like transparent textures. i liked how those feathers came out#maybe i'll add them back later. but i've been working on this for like 3 days and i just wanna show it off at this point#also maybe put more details in the textures.#i learned a valuable lesson: block benchhhh Bad with Textures#i think making the og textures was like 3ish hours. and then i had to remake them in blender bc the Texture Bleed.#anyways. i think this turned out good for my first time doin smthin like this. learned somethings. and i would def like to make. More.#esp since this model doesnt work the best lol#(he tried usingit as a starter character and he was only legs)#anyways. yay !!! bye
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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#my mom has been ranting about my weight for like 3 days straight lol#I'm 217 lbs yes I'm overweight but like#the things she says make everyone else uncomfortable too and I wish it didn't#i don't think me being thinner would actually fix any problems#she's always just found something to nitpick#it's always really really funny when i tell her i haven't actually put on any weight in years#i've actually maintained my weight without gaining for several years now#which is kinda an achievement on its own#i've not lost any but i don't gain either#and that's cause i work hard to at least a lot of the times monitor what i eat and i do work out#not as much as i should or used to but still#i gently reminded her today that i did have a personal trainer and nutritionist and it didn't really help#that's not for my lack of effort either i really worked my butt off#and then i got an injury and that ended things#but even then I think i lost maybe 5 lbs total not a lot#and even my trainers were like hmmmm#my body just doesn't shed it#so whatever#i'm a very body positive person! my mom doesn't affect me dw :)#i'm jus saying it's annoying#nothing frustrates her more than the fact i'm comfortable and don't have body dysmorphia the way she does so it's 100% her projecting
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had a really good pear today! also woke up nicely, so :3
#just me hi#i usually avoid eating pears cuz i really really hate getting sticky and all my pear-eating experiences are from like. being 7 yo hgbfhsv#but it was good :D#n yea woke up today and i've been cured!! was sick for a couple days (not badly but ouh not comfy i'll say lol) and i'm as grand as a grape#//oh i tried journaling a couple months ago btw - i think a couple months ago ? - and that did not work out for me no sir hghfhsv#you're telling me i need to interrupt what i'm doing ever so often to get around to saying that i'm feeling 3 inches off from how i was#earlier? and then i rate it ? the rating was fun but i dunno about the rest of that boss lhfhsgs#no more of that i guess! it was a bit boring too i'll say lolll#+ also they didn't send me a confirmation email so i am not going to bother going to their site again. hard rule: no confirm email no#traffic! i have no reason for this aside from the fact that if it gets hard to remember then how am i supposed to find stuff if i don't hav#it starred!! tsk tsk tsk!!#//ooo friend is chattin me#okay i shall return!! [spooky voice] proOoOobablyyYyYyYy !!#toodles :3
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i have reached approx 80k words for a/b fic, which is the same length as the completed sebis fic i have on ao3, so i feel like that's an achievement, so hooray
#so not sure about the latest section yet. but anyway there can be drafts ofc#i've just been kinda dozy for the past two days despite getting ample sleep. perhaps too much sleep lol#but yeah. 80k words and not even to the end of arc 2 (out of 4) :O#anyway. so like i feel like the first couple of paragraphs of the latest section might not be right yet#but yeahhh. it's okay. tomorrow is a day off from writing so maybe i'll work it out on saturday or something#oooh i have 100200 words in the doc atm. so the last 20k is trash ofc#anyway violet is about to set berbrooke up with benedict lmao and benedict is gonna have to dance with him#but she's also on the lookout for the mystery gentleman benedict danced with at the prev ball#so :3 skjfngk#i love that in this AU benedict has to deal with berbrooke and his very unwanted advances#a/b fic#fic talk#80k by the end of ch16 section 1 or like a lil bit after that into section 2
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... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything#the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly#AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish#There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway#with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but#wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms#and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it#smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard#starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day).#throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a#little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull#dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol#I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games!#and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a#nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature#control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot#and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time...#Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time#I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST#to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc.#poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie#and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc.#ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up#and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW#literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff...#AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l
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good morning!! <3
#woo it's sunday that means going to get breakfast#that already means today's gonna be good :3#beyond that my plan's the same as yesterday - doing companion quests in hsr#and by that i do like a quest a day lol#i've also been tempted to rearrange some things on my f/o list#like change how tertiary works (bc it's currently like part time f/os)#but i wanna put some charas that i only think about like when voice lines or in-game events remind me of them#bc that's technically the same concept#bc i'd feel bad taking them off the list completely as i still love them#my brain's just focused way less on them than even on my other secondary f/os lol#anyways#i think that's it so far this morning#so i hope you have a good day/night! <3#morning rambles
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im going tooo,, try to get more writing done tomorrow i really want to, but im gonna be honest here and let ya’ll know i’m almost a week off of my adhd meds due to a handful of unfortunate reasons and my focus and energy levels *are* suffering
#ive woken up at like 2 pm every day this week since i've been off from work and then stayed up to like 6.#i have shit to do but im tired all day and only have mental focus at night for a while then i get tired again#shit sucks lol#but ily all <3#oocobalt
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Don't let anybody convince you that 1080p is "low resolution" for a video file.
It's a scheme created by Big Screen in an effort to sell you more pixels!
#Tetranymous.txt#This post brought to you by:#Curse of extremely slow internet#I had to upload a 3 minute video for an assignment and it took THIRTY (30) MINUTES. On top of render time!#With the router once again threatening to just drop out entirely for absolutely no reason (it does this multiple times a day)#Can't be network load either since this is like... 4am.#If we can't get FTTP by the end of the year I'm seriously looking into coaxial ethernet; even if it's just to stop the drop-outs#Although it may require some fernangling; I don't know if the one place the router can plug into is near any TV outlets#Coupled with the current LEGALLY MANDATED 3g shutoff network provider device blocking my interwebs access is currently Very Not Good#(the like 3 3g towers I connect to near home and on my uni commute have still yet to be turned off lol)#BUT through the power of Total Commander and some online documents I may have figured out a way to get my phone connected again >:)#And if that works I've gotta email Optus and Sony very niceys to ask for An File. It's literally 1 file that's stopping VoLTE from working.#Anyways TLDR my lenovo thinkvision monitor from 2008 is the maximum resolution anyone could ever need#No display needs to be any bigger than that! (I've been considering getting an older 4:3 monitor for a while lol)
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The image used in the background of the Gravity Falls logo HAS BEEN FOUND!!
It's located in France!!
I made a thread on Twitter explaining the full story and how I even asked Ian Worrel and Alex Hirsch about it, but lemme run down quickly how it was found and where it is!
After 3 years of searching with some friends on and off, we had no real luck. I've been working on a video about it for a while but decided to try one more time. My friend @trickengf suggested looking at international logos as they may have more of the image available and sure enough...we found logos like the Japanese and Russian GF logo had more visible detail of the image.
From that, Tricken made a remake of the image and used it to find it. He ended up finding the source at about 3AM for me, lol!
My friend Fried Oreos then confirmed the image was old enough to fit the criteria of pre GF pilot, by determining the image was on the Textures website it was sourced from since 2008!
Then, my friend Alex M managed to buy the HD image and we were able to analyze its metadata for more info!
Turns out, the image, called "LandscapeMountains0009," was taken by a Nikon D70 camera on April 18, 2007!
THE GRAVITY FALLS LOGO IMAGE IS ALMOST 18 YEARS OLD!!
From there, we began looking for the location. The meta data had no location, but other images taken around the same time showed signs of maybe the location being in Europe.
After over a day of searching, Tricken, Alex M and Oreos FOUND IT!!
The location of the image is a mountain range near the town of Sers, France...near the border with Spain.
Exact coordinates of the closest viewable angle of the image is 42°54'23.2"N 0°06'05.6"E
This is a major discovery and one I cannot believe we did. While this search was started by me in 2021 with some friends, it was TrickenGF, Alex M and Fried Oreos who deserve all the credit for this discovery! They were the geniuses who tracked all of this down and were able to connect the dots to get to this point.
You guys are amazing and I am beyond grateful for all of this.
Finding this image means that fans can now recreate the Gravity Falls logo as they want with anything they want. For example, Tricken made this for me using the image :D
Or, you can do this, lol
We now have it!
For 12 years as we looked at the Gravity Falls logo...we were in reality looking at a mountain in France...NOT Oregon!
So, I guess this is a major W for France but sorry, Pacific Northwest, Gravity Falls is actually French, lol!
I still can't believe we found this. I'm so happy :P
#gravity falls#gravity falls fandom#mabel pines#dipper pines#alex hirsch#mabel#grunkle stan#dipper#that gf fan#dipper and mabel#trickengf#Gravity Falls logo#Gravity Falls logo image#Texture#Gravity Falls is real and it will never die#2024 has been a great year for Gravity Falls#Sers France#France#French#Oregon#pacific northwest#Lost Media#Found Media#Bill Cipher#the book of bill#vive la france#I wonder how Alex Hirsch will react to finding out his show's logo is of a hill in France
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Hm. I am getting the distinct feeling that either revanced broke or some apps are doing smth real shitty
#rat rambles#anyways guess who's youtube completely stopped working#It's fine I can watch on browser but it's still very annoying#And the tumblr thing is even more annoying hense why I've been like completely off of tumblr recently#Maybe the universe is telling me to take an Internet break but like I have just been starting to feel a bit better#My family got a new dog the other day btw not relevant to the rest of this post but her name is karla and she's a very anxious doggy#I'm just waiting for laundry rn so that's why I'm posting at all lol#Might have to switch to posting from my laptop soon if things don't get unfucked#Which wouldnt be the end of the world but sure as hell would be annoying#Idk maybe it'll motivate me to finally make a proper blog theme#Idk what Id do for a blog theme tho tbh#An oni theme would be rly fun but it would also probably age poorly (as in the second I get into smth new)#So maybe an oc theme?#That could be fun#Not sure what characters Id use but maybe mascot and/or midas#Idk but chances of me actually doing it anytime soon are slim#Rly if I'm gonna customize anything more it's gonna be my toyhouse page#Oh also good news I'm going to do a pet sitting job for my aunt and uncle at some point#It'll be like 3 weeks I think and I'll be getting paid 700 buckeroos if I'm remembering correctly#I already have a lot of thoughts of how I'm going to spend it even if I should probably try to save at least some of it#There's just a lot of ppl who could use that money more and better than me and I don't wanna be stingy during times like this#I have also might buy like a new game since I've been interested in playing smth new#There has been one game I've been eyeing for a while and I have a mutual who likes it a lot but idk if I'm ready for new blorbos yet#But oldie or whatever her name was calls to me. She tempts me so#I'm open to other game recommendations tho just know that I'm gonna be picky on more story heavy games#Again I'm not exactly on the hunt for new blorbos rn and getting new story hyperfixations is scary to me lol
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tw eating disorder talk in the tags btw. just me being open for the first time in a long time but no numbers or specifics that could be triggering do nawt worry
#i was hospitalized for an nervosa in jan 2022#and since then i have relapsed two times in the past two years#i was reading my journals and food logs from the inpatient and outpatient progreams#and wow. i was so fucking unwell#two years ago i was so severely depressed and so severely malnourished#i was incredibly frail in every sense. it was scary. I thought I'd die of starvation before suicide at one point#but ever since i was released in the spring of 2022 i told myself that if i wanted to kill myself it wouldn't be from an eating disorder#because I'd want to eat a nice last meal at least 😭💀#also because the way i was suffering at my worst was terrifying and so painful in the slowest way possible#skip to present day#i relapsed during summer 2023#i was restricting my intake+over exercising+lost almost all the weight that i was restored to and was getting frail in every sense again#but i was running on adrenaline and i was working 6-15 hours a week and cooking 'for fun' so no one noticed#it was not fun cooking btw i was being neurotic about portions and calories and ingredients#LOL anyway#I've been in a semi recovery period for the past 4 months#but over the past 2-3 weeks I've been struggling really hard mentally again#like i feel insane. i cant turn off the calorie counter in my mind. i cant eat certain things out of pure unfiltered anxiety. im clinging#to this feeling of immediate and temporary relief that i get from controlling things#i follow my meal plan provided by my registered dietitian and psychologist but#i get so anxious about it and it's crazy how fixated i get on different aspects of what/how im eating#it's like over time I've become orthorexic. HELP anyway#the point is. this break has made me have so many deep urges to go back to restricting and getting worse#for the sake of temporary and immediate relief + a sense of control#but i realised that as much as i feel i need to be in control. it's not worth it#it felt worth it over the summer but it wasn't because the c psych and RD wanted me to try another hospital program if i couldn't get myself#back on track with just their help#like being informed that my routine of neurosis was worse than i thought was so . unexpected#i thought i was fine. it wasn't anywhere near as bad as it was back in late 2021 or early 2022#but it was bad! i had low blood pressure i was getting hypoglycemic i was dizzy i was lightheaded i was getting sick every month
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that's it i'm quitting ooooooh i wanna quit so fucking bad
#she bork#they're making me switch positions w the other team lead so i'm losing the inbound team (which i hate bc 1. they hate the other team lead b#he sucks and ik they're going to suffer and 2. EYE built that fucking team from the ground up) and also losing my consistent schedule AND#losing my immunity from closing AND losing my extra $1 an hour for my overnight hours so essentially i'm taking a fucking pay cut!!!!!!!!!!#there are no benefits to this and that's it i have decided i'm fucking quitting this holds nothing beneficial or enjoyable to me anymore. i#applied for a remote writing job already so we'll see if they get back to me i have my fingers CROSSED.#lol yes i only applied to one but i'm hoping that if i only throw one dart at this dartboard it's a bullseye. if not i'll keep looking it'l#just take longer obviously bc i'm not quitting without something else lined up. i'm crazy and restless but i'm not an idiot#forgot to mention that i've known this was coming but i was under the illusion it was taking place mid-january but now have just been told#it starts NEXT WEEK. so the schedule i had for the next two weeks?? now incorrect and wrong. god this is going to make moving once we find a#place (again) so much more difficult bc i missed my chance to request time off for january already but w my old 3:30-11 schedule day in and#day out it would be fine to plan around bc it's consistent. now who fucking knows. not to mention the fucking traffic i'll get stuck in#every day going to and coming from work??? again will make moving more difficult bc that'll probably shave like 1.5-2 hours off my time#outside of work. god this sucks this sucks this sucks i hate it it feels like a punishment (even though my boss told me not to think that bc#he knew i would lol) and idk for what???? i feel like they think i'm inept in my current position and idk why. hate this hate this hate this
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the awokening has passed! woaw
#just me hi#i'm awaaaaaaaaaake (somehooooooooooooow)#despite drinking (some let's be honest) water yesterday my lipsh are STILL dry. the agonies#that's alright though because my back also hurts. [double take] wai....#/Anyway planning on designing a new character today :3#which i probably won't now that i've said it but that's just full disclosure for you#also want to write today! even higher chance of not happening but a guy can dream hhdjvffd#//also been thinking of changing my theme a bit and today would be a good day to get started doing that.........#but i probably won't so ❤✰~-~-~-*\(.ᗜ.)/*-~-~-~✰❤#<- that guy has magic :000#/ngl i don't know What i would even change it to lol#so that holds off those plans (that will definitely happen anyway at like 3:38 a.m. on a thursday) for now hhh#//mmm apples#they're not my favorite but i wish i had one lol#easiest fruit to eat. man#even grapes are sticky sometimes and that's a roulette#[old cowboy voice] they called me Sticky Grape Hand Roulette back in the day. i had the stickiest hand in the west....#//[squints] these funkin. tags are So Thick i can't tell if i've gone over the tag limit#is that the point here. to foil me#it won't work!!!#[yes it will]#!!!
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