#I've been here for yearsss

[catgirlxox]

omg who made these cause girl same

[wishfulsketching]

What a year, huh.

I'm not going to talk about how everything is going to shit in the real world, that's not what this post is about.

I can remember that before Gotham, I had a bit of trouble trying to get inspired about art. I did end up doing a lot of original art due to that, tho. Gotham was the nice return to a hyperfixation that got me back to creating, which felt like a saving grace tbh. I draw A LOT, you may have noticed. I thank my ADHD for that. So, when I'm unable draw I do struggle spending my time in any meaningful way.

I also started reading again this year. Murderbot Diaries got me by the throat, I love those books so much. I've also liked T. Kingfisher's books so far, haven't read that many yet, tho. I also read in english, not the translated versions, so it's a nice way to "use" my english skills.

I finally started needle felting this Christmas! I've been meaning to do it for yearsss. Bunnydog was my ever first attempt, Slowpoke was my second.

Arcane season 2. Woohee, I had totally forgotten when it was going to drop! It was a good thing tho, I was saved from a lot of painful waiting around, hah. I might've chickened out of the Zaundads fandom back in the day but it's so much more chill now. Well, kind of. I do see people complain a bit in the tags. Plus I bet it's a lot worse in other sites. ANYWAY!

I feel like that in this short time after season 2, I've gotten better at art and got my groove fully back. I am so grateful for people who just keep being so nice and support me here adsfsdfo! I said it back in 2021/2022 I think but I'll say it again: zaundads fandom has been one of the nicest fandom I've been part of. (I have to mention tho, so is riddlebird fandom)

I'm still a bit overwhelmed with all the attention I'm getting, I admit, but I am also so happy I get to share my unhinged love for this stupid little man.

My next year will start with job hunting and balancing my mental health (I've been "in recovery" for years, it's gonna be a adjustment to start working. I am still very much struggling but not as much so I have to find a job that doesn't kill me in a month lol).I've also made one new years resolution which is that I will more actively display and live my preferred identity and not just go "eh whatever, I know how I actually feel like so". Not gonna be easy because I get embarrassed about everything and will want to backpedal so hard at the start but uhhh...I'll try not to? Eh.

Yea. So a lot of new things for the next year and I already feel tired. But hopeful!

I'll end this post by randomly sharing my fave CJU gameplays because his gameplay vids always help me to relax:

I couldn't find the playlist so here's PART 2 and PART 3. I really love the story in this one.

A game I expected nothing from and now rewatch this playthrough ever so often. PLAYLIST

Love the game, love the commentary, love the vibes! PLAYLIST

[jackhues]

oops - b's version

note: this takes place in 2030, bee's 22 years old and graduated uni. she's in med school

summary: in which sid accidently spills who bee's boyfriend is

buttercup's world! au masterlist

buttercupcrosby

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buttercupcrosby: life lately <3 (we're not including all the times i cried during med school)

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kevinkorchinski: wow i can't believe you taught him how to put your shoes on -> buttercupcrosby: that's actually him taking my heels off and then giving me his shoes bcz i was tired -> kevinkorchinski: s i m p -> buttercupcrosby: okay? and what about it? -him

userone: nah girl's been soft launching THE SAME GUY for years now -> usertwo: we're never gonna learn who he is

e.malkin71geno: ooh what you reading? -> buttercupcrosby: percy jackson!!!!!! -> e.malkin71geno: the greek one that make you go crazy -> buttercupcrosby: ... okay that's fair

mackinnon29: i've noticed this isn't the spam, which means my comments will not be super unhinged -> userthree: NO NATE YOU NEED TO GO UNHINGED WE NEED TO KNOW WHO HE IS -> mackinnon29: please don't yell at me -> buttercupcrosby: he's tearing up rn -> mackinnon29: i'd watch my words if i was you

penguins: that's our baby crosby -> buttercupcrosby: AYEE PENG-WIN TN?? -> penguins: don't shoot the admin 🏳️ harass the players

stephmarner: ooh my girl's glowing 🥰 -> buttercupcrosby: mwah

userfour: WHO'S THIS YT MAN AND WHY'S HE WITH MY GIRL??

userfive: we're never finding out who he is are we 😭😭 -> usersix: frr! it's been yearsss

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TRANSCRIPT FROM THE TSN PODCAST, GUEST STARRING SIDNEY CROSBY (3:09 - 7:35)

podcaster: switching gears a bit, you have a daughter, correct? she's in med school i think.

sidney: yeah, buttercup, bee, bumblebee - she's got lots of nicknames *laughs* she finished university, doing a double major in sports management and biochemistry. which is pretty tough, especially since she was on the hockey and lacrosse teams. but she loved it, and she somehow managed to graduate in four years, so i'll take it! she's going to med school in chicago now, trying to be an anesthesiologist.

podcaster: wow, that's - that's a lot

sidney: *laughs* it's a lot, yeah

podcaster: fans noticed that you've been going on vacations more during the summer. is that to get bee's mind off of school, because you're not playing anymore, something else?

sidney: oh, it's a mix of everything, i suppose. bee's real busy during the year. she went to stanford for four years, now she's in chicago - like over the last few years, she's just had a lot on her plate. so yeah, we like going out a lot during the summer. but we spend time at home too. we all play monopoly together, we go fishing, they push me in the water-

podcaster: i'm sorry, they push you in the water? you're sidney crosby, i thought mackinnon idolized you growing up

sidney: not anymore, bee made sure of that. it's worse because they got connor involved in this too, so it's three on one. i mean i used to hold the fact that i'm a better hockey player, but they've been breaking records and i'm out of the game now, so- *shrugs*

podcaster: *laughing* oh man, this is gold

sidney: what're you gonna do? i mean, nate's been here too long for me to kick him out, and connor - it doesn't look like he's leaving any time soon.

podcaster: connor bedard's been having a great career, especially over the last few years. do we have you to thank for that?

sidney: no, no, he's a great kid. he's really good at hockey, he was amazing even during his earlier seasons. but i think the media was a little bit crazy about him, and once they calmed down, he got a chance to flourish. nothing to do with me, he's great on his own

podcaster: but you still like showing him up?

sidney: *smiles and shrugs* i mean i don't go up against him in the league anymore, so sometimes i gotta do it in the garage

END TRANSCRIPT

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buttercupcrosby and _connorbedard

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pinned buttercupcrosby: thanks dad 🙄 -> userone: THANK YOU SID

_connorbedard: you're not getting away from me -> buttercupcrosby: i fucking love you so much you have no idea -> usertwo: 😭 you don't get it 😭 he's using a percy jackson quote 😭😭 she loves those books

userthree: HOL UP! THEY'RE ENGAGED?? -> userfour: well they've been together for like three years now

mackinnon29: i'm so happy i can say whatever i want without checking whether it's ur spam or regular

mackinnon29: you guys are disgusting -> buttercupcrosby: disgustingly cute

marner_93: ugh we're finally allowed to talk about it

penguins: congratulations!! totally not crying at how big baby crosby is, nope -> e.malkin71geno: i am -> buttercupcrosby: aww geno🥺

[hisuiofthegreen]

for k resurrection fest i present my sims 4 version of homra ☆☆☆

i've been working on making a k sims world for yearsss and this one is still lowkey a work in progress as i get more CC (i already have... so much...) anyway happy k anniversary hehe theres more pics of the lot and the individual sims below !!!

im also working on scepter 4 right now and will try to post soon but the headquarters is not ready for public view yet .-.

heres some more pics of the lot, i tried to make the second floor living room as screen accurate as i can but theres not a lot of pictures of it :/ the rest is totally not canon but they needed bedrooms for the game to actually be. playble LMAO

sorry if anything is formatted weird, i havent used posted on tumblr since 2016 :")

[memopmiff]

As a self taught artist, how many years have you been drawing. They’re really good. Trying to mentally prepare myself so I’m not too overly critical with myself.

Hello!💕 I've been drawing since I was a kid, art has always been a hobby of mine. Although I never took it seriously and I drew on and off. It's only been this past few years that I'm trying to draw more!

I'm gonna share this: I often get very critical of myself and my own art, thinking why are these artists improving so fast while I take years to see an improvement, and I get discouraged. But everyone learns at their own pace so please don't be too critical with yourself when you jump into it. You also don't need to prepare yourself, the most important thing is making sure you enjoy what you create and have fun! (It's when you draw with passion that gets the best results!)

Here I'll show you how my Azula used to look like

And this is my Azula now

It took me yearsss, much longer than most, to improve so I'm confident you'll have a better shot at this than I do!

Sorry for the long answer haha I wish you the best of luck with drawing!!

[wrestlezaynia]

Hiii mate, thanks for replying and answering those questions 😁 I know I don't need to reply to it but I wanted to anyway. So I'm not expecting you to reply to this one 😂 (not that you shouldn't reply if you feel like it 😆)

Ugh honestly I can't get enough of these two. I think it's cause of their history as well. They really are like an old married couple 😌. Absolutely lovee that Hug me! Hold me tight! gif!! They are soo affectionate and not afraid to hide it.

Honestly I'm veryy late to the party. I discovered them only a little after they won their tag titles last year. So I've had to go back and do a bit of digging and now and then I'll find something that everyone already knew about yearsss ago 🙄😂 and I'll get all excited over it, but no one to get excited with cause everyone's already been there done that 😂 (also absolutely no one I know likes wrestling or really even knows about it 😭) I know I've missed out on a LOT with these two 😭 and I get only glimpses of the past here and there, but I guess as they say better late than never 😁 So I'm enjoying your posts as well as the other zowens supporters haha that's how I get my "fix".

Its pretty admirable to be able to write like that, putting down words on paper that were once in your head, making the people reading it feel all kinds of things 😊 I'll definitely be keeping an eye out for more writing from you. Also um... skinny dipping 😳 what are you tryin ta do to me 🫠 😳 can't wait 😆

Ta

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PS. I have no idea why I liked Hey Arnold! as much as I did back then now that you brought it up 😂

Your messages always bring a smile to my face, thank you so much! And it's okay, I still find myself delving into old interactions between them and going feral, so you're definitely not alone. Feel free to drop by anytime so we can gush about them together! 🤭

[quailxcrossing]

aside from Kennedy, do you have solid voice claims for any of your ocs? I’d love to know what their voices sound like — whoever comes to mind first!

oooooo!!!!!! fascinating question- honestly! i do not have many voice claims! even the ones i have i know aren't perfect, bc i have really strong voices for my characters in my head! so for me to pick a voice claim, they gotta be like, 95% or higher close, and im soooo picky. even Kennedy's, when I had a dream as Kennedy my voice wasn't their voice claim but instead their actual voice

so i can basically give you all of them! its like. 4 guys i think.

Goat is FoolishGamer! I can't watch minecraft content but my best friend showed him to me! You can hear him here

and honestly. honestly. Quackity as Auï is like.....maybe an 89% match......thats pretty good!!!! but again i literally Cant watch Minecraft so i haven't consumed tons of content of them to make sure....

Magic is potentially beabadoobee, but truly mostly in her song Beaches! Beaches is also one of her themes so thats why the very strong visual of Magic singing it directly came to mind....but also im not completely sure. im just listing this one despite it being a 90% match because i truly have like nO voice claims

Cian is Girl In Red. once again, highly linked to One song! A lot of my voice claims are musical bc thats honestly how I consume most of everything. especially in the start of this song when she's singing-speaking more, goddd its Cian

you can't tell anyone but i think Runo might be Jesse Eisenberg but ONLY in Rio. Blu. the parrot. THE ONLY THING IS that Blu doesn't have Runo's accent but I think thats gonna be hard to find.....this information has burned a hole in my brain. idk what to do about it.

and thats....genuinely....it? voice claims are so harddd I've been hunting for Caius for YEARSSS, his voice is one i only hear when its very quiet and they speak...in my brain...it is so distinct and softttt and im in tears no one has ever been able to sound like my beloved caius

[gerards-blood-3]

3, 9, 13, 17, 18 and 39 for the ask gameee :]]

Thank you for the askkkk

3. 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

Okayyy this is really hard but

1. Your Name Engraved Herein

2. Bride of Chucky

3. Bottoms

9. tell a story about your childhood?

The only mildly fun thing I ever did was live in El Salvador for almost a year lmao thats all I got

13. what are you doing right now?

Nothing but being on here lmao

18. do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

I guess idk why they wouldn't exist

39. Withcindy, I've been watching her for yearsss and love her content sm and before I got my YouTube banned she would respond to a lot of my comments and knew me from my dumb username lmao

[havootu]

This is 33 Spins back to me.

33 trips around the sun just to fall back to me. 32 has stripped me of every mask, every preconceived or programmed thought, every fake smile every unnatural movement, every thing that i used to call Crystal. Down to the bare soul core of who I am. I have no trace of it left. I am raw, I am open, I am free. Finally! To be a version of me i never knew who I was I've been reaching for this authenticity for YEARSSS! I've been reaching for me! Nothing has ever fulfilled me like ME!

Thank you Goddess, Thank you self, for leading me back to the only thing I've ever wanted.

MEEEE!!! Now, I shall rest!😩🙂‍↕️😌

Happy Birthday to Mee!!🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 If you want to send me some love, send it here $girlonaplanet

[sugar-omi]

Can I just say that I've been following you since April or May I think. I've read your stories and I love how you've improved over time. I also love how unhinged they've become in terms of horniness lol but keep doing you and take care of yourself.

-👓

LMAO HELP NOT THE UNHINGED HORNINESS..... YOURE NOT WRONG THO, THERE HAVE BEEN MOMENTS. N IVE TOTALLY ABANDONED FOLLOWING CANON OR BEING TAME AT THIS POINT

tysm though omg... 🥹 i can't help but tear up a bit bc that is a long time to put up w my shenanigans!!!! tysm for reading n enjoying my stuff 🫶

this blog was originally just a way to get back into writing, something that did and does make me quite happy, and to finally get all my cove brain worms out LOL

i hadn't written (for myself, school work does Not count) in yearsss n honestly im so glad there's an improvement, and I hope everyone enjoys the newer stuff compared to the beginning lol

but now this blog has become quite cozy, n I enjoy writing all my rambles, n everyone else's infectious thoughts n rambles, I love some of the unhinged things that happened around here (like with demon cove, or leaving cove for baxter) n some other times I can't think of. bc i do know I had a few much needed good, hearty laughs at everyone's jokes n comments n stuff.

it's great, this fandom is very sweet n im happy to be apart of it<3 tysm for reading so long, N THIS LONG-ISH POST. I didn't mean to ramble lol

IHOPE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO 👓 ANON!!! have a great day 🥹🫶

[luc3ks]

Hey you probably get this a lot but your arts so great man. I've recently found you again after adoring your earthbound art on instag way back when and it's been so nice to see your art again :] Recently got into sonic and that's how I found you here! Hope drawing makes you happy and will continue to :) Thanks for sharing it with the world!

oh thank you so much 😭💛 my prime EB time was yearsss ago I can't believe u found me again HAHA but I'm happy to hear :]]

[thegreatimpersonator]

This isn't a big deal at all, but I'm visiting my home country rn and I quite literally never hear Taylor on the radio here. Since moving to the US, I heard Love Story once yearsss ago, Anti-Hero once last year, and that was it. I haven't even been here a week and I've heard her thrice. Which wouldn't be an issue except she plays every fucking time I leave my house in the US either on the radio or at a store or at work. It's just too much!! I can't think of another recent artist that's been overexposed as much as Taylor and it's just a bit tiring. I hope she takes a long long break after Eras tour and the overexposure dies down.

she truly just needs to chill

[pacifymebby]

Don’t know if this will be a long winded answer but, why did catfish break up and why is van coming back alone?

I listened to them in the past but was never too into the personal lives, but I could have sworn I saw an interview where van said they were friends and he wanted to be in band so they formed one. Like they were friends first

Okay so I am not the expert here and @catb-fics might be able to fill in any gaps.

But to try and keep this brief rather than give you the David Attenborough series on it, Van, Benji and Larry were all friends first, originally they had two other members in catfish, one was Billy Bibby and then the other idk? But billy was on guitar and the other drummed, idk what happened there but they both left... (This was fucking ages ago though, pre any albums as far as I know)

Anyway Bondy was playing with another band at the time, that Van was a massive fan of, I remember hearing or reading somewhere Van say he basically begged Bondy to join the band cause he was Bondys No1 fan.

So Bondy kind of wasn't friends with them to begin with, like wouldn't have been anywhere near as tight as Van/Benji/Larry.

Bob I think was in school with them but wasn't friends with them, idk how they met but he joined the band after the original line up too and from the sounds of it wasn't besties with the others pre joining?

I've nowt to back any of this up with either btw

Anyway yes I guess the two people who have left were not there from the beginning anyway so it does make some sense as to why when things went wrong they were the first to leave.

Other than that we haven't exactly had a concise or balanced/official statement as to why they broke up.

Bondy posted something on insta what feels like yearsss after the initial split haha

So it sounds like it was a breakdown in relationships.

I personally feel that it's probably to do with the way catfish were thrown into fame, relentlessly worked to the bone for like 5 years and didn't get any rest, that does untold damage to mental health and personal relationships and it's actually not all that uncommon for bands to fall apart under that much pressure.

Bondys little notesapp thing is the only thing we've heard from any of the band directly I think?

I wasn't sure if Benji was coming back with Van or not I don't really know???

Sorry I couldn't be more helpful 😭😭

[nereidprinc3ss]

your response was absolutely lovely, cause YES ENGAGE WITH WRITERS!! I remember a few years ago when I was writing in a different fandom (I've literally been in a slump for yearsss, but my love for CM is slowly bringing that back, lol, anyway) every comment, every dm, every interaction was the absolute highlight of my experience on here.

when you write something, and there literally sometimes comes a point where you're like "I absolutely hate this now, but I will finish it" and then you hit "post" and you wonder "Does someone actually like this, or is it just bad?" seeing people interact quiets that self-doubt I'm sure many writers feel and it's so rewarding

anywayyy, I promise I will spam you, I'll literally clog your notifications at some point, if that's what you want, hah. you'll literally get sick of me.

again, absolutely loveee your blog, and you are an absolute sweetheart, so please, continue being you because I'm sure your sweetness is making many silent readers less silent and more engaged❤️

ahhh ok thank you so much i was worried you might feel like i was yelling at YOU but I wasn’t it was just something i had been thinking about!!

and yes interaction and engagement from readers rlly is what makes posting worth it! like i do WRITE for the fun of writing, but i share it to engage with other people in the community! if you like someone’s work the best way to encourage them to create more is just to be kind to them, and i don’t mean just me but anyone who posts work you enjoy!

and to be clear i am so, so appreciative of all the interaction i get! im not asking for more so much as reminding anyone who may be on the fence about sending an ask or commenting or reblogging w their thoughts on the fic that it will always always be welcomed and appreciated by every single writer! they will never think you’re annoying (unless you comment something essentially demanding more with nothing else, like the other day i posted the masterlist for dybmn and someone just commented ‘7!!!!!!!’ damn not even a “i liked this”? like girl use your words……. but i digress)

ANYWAY didn’t mean to make this so long winded again but yes there are my thoughts because i love to make them everyone else’s problem😎😎

thank you for being so sweet and understanding!!!

[shanie]

Hiii Shanie! (is that what I should call you? 🤔) I'm the guest from ao3 that sent you that long ass comment 😆😅

Just wanted to start of by saying how extremely sweet it was of you to do this and also how much I appreciated you taking the time out not once but twice to write back! Tbh yes my dumbass did not realise what "noodle incident" meant till you explained it so thank you for that 😊 clearly I'm a bit new to all of this. 😅

Honestly I'm extremely late to the party. I discovered zowens only a little after they won their tag titles last year. I had no idea who they were before that. I took a break from wrestling for about 13 years and only got back into it by accident because of Sami, then Kevin, then zowens. I was switching channels and stubbled upon zowens who happened to be on screen at the time.

So I've had to go back and do a bit of digging and now and then I'll find something that everyone already knew about yearsss ago 🙄😂 and I'll get all excited over it, but everyone else has already been there done that 😂 (also absolutely no one I know likes wrestling or really even knows about it 😭)

I know I've missed out on a LOT with these two (their "glory days") 😭 and I get only glimpses of the past here and there, but I guess as they say better late than never 😁 So I'm enjoying your stories so so much. It's pretty incredible the way you write and the journey you take us on through it.

Ta

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PS. the draft this week..zowens..😌

Hello again, nonnie! 

Glad you could make it! 

I was hoping to hear from you. This mess of business with AO3. Bleh. Hope they get it straightened out soon. 

First off, don’t feel bad for not knowing what “noodle incident” meant. I don’t know if a ton of people do these days. TV Tropes as a website has sort of fallen into obscurity in the past decade or so and that’s where I got the term from. Looking it up, the definition on the site (found HERE) apparently comes from Calvin and Hobbes. Of note: The way I use the term isn’t exactly correct because I have explained the pneumonia incident a little, and will do so in upcoming writing more, but I use the term improperly anyway because it makes sense to me. 

Regardless, stay tuned for more info about the pneumonia incident!  I will warn you though, the current story it’s being written into, “Never Say Goodbye”, is VERY dark. I’m probably going to have to up the rating on it. I use my writing as therapy and I’m going through some stuff right now, so this is how it is manifesting. Hope this doesn’t make you or anyone else hate me, but just know that writing it is helping me cope with my pain and getting me to a better place. 

So yeah. Forgive me. 

Second, don’t feel bad about just discovering Zowens in 2023. Some of the best people just discovered Zowens in 2023! I don’t know how much of last year you’ve managed to see but there is a fair amount of stuff just between summer of 2022 and fall of 2023 that is epic. If you haven’t gotten to explore it yet, I recommend starting HERE. It’s an episode of The KO Show from back in May of 2022 that planted the seeds of the entire Zowens storyline that would go on to them becoming tag champions. That said, as another video reference, that episode of the KO Show would actually be followed up on in August 2022 to properly start the storyline... in a post-show segment after Smackdown in Montreal. Finding video of that post-show segment can be difficult, but HERE is a fan video that has most of the encounter, minus the section that involved Matt Riddle (and the Zowens hug he spurs on) 

Really though, if I had to offer some key highlights, just in WWE, I’d recommend the last ten minutes or so of NXT’s R-Evolution PPV, their match at Battleground 2016 (DEFINITELY Key viewing), The very end of Hell In A Cell 2017 (and the Zowens segment from the next episode of Smackdown), the 10/31/2020 episode of Talking Smack, The leadup and immediate aftermath of their WrestleMania 37 match, the clips I linked above from May and August 2022, Royal Rumble 2023 main event (OMG THAT), and most of all, the ENTIRTY of the 3/17/23 episode of Smackdown which, telling you now, as a Zowens shipper was like a friggin fever dream the night it happened. Cannot understate how that was some Joker Origin Story stuff that night, but the payoff was AMAZING.  

All that said? Like Kevin said at WrestleMania 37. They met, at this point, almost 22 years ago, and the journey has been nuts. If you want a good, easy-to-absorb rundown of those 22 years or so, I highly recommend Mithen’s substack Ring the Bell. It has so much information that starts from the beginning and goes step by step along the path. They’re writing a book too! Keep an eye out for that. 

Anyway, it’s great to see you here and if you need any more tips about how to dig further into the story, let me know. I know you said “Their glory days” but the truth is, in their own words, they’re “Destined to do this forever” and the glory days aren’t over yet. The story has been going on for over 2 decades but it hasn’t ended yet and I don’t believe it ever will. The Sami and Kevin show, and by extension, The Kevin Steen and El Generico show, will never end. 

Over 20 years and counting.  Long live Zowens/Steenerico 

Enjoy the ride. 

[faaun]

so sorry to hear abt how things ended with this girl, knowing that ending it was for the best doesn't make it any easier emotionally :(

situationship breakups are genuinely so devastating in ways that normal breakups aren't, when a long-term situationship I was in ended I was so distraught that I literally couldn't eat for a week, cried so hard I threw up a couple times, and was a wreck for ~3 months... I remember feeling like I would never be able to move past it and like the pain would never end but in reality after 6 months of separation w the person I was happier than I had been in like two years 😭 the pain seems eternal while you're in it but now the version of me that experienced that pain is so far in the rearview mirror that I can't even remember what it felt like anymore... the world will open its arms to you over and over and over and offer you so many new chances for love and one day the heartache will fade into the distance ily

a friend just messaged me saying the exact same thing :') yeah, it is genuinely soul-crushing / devestating. i haven't experienced smth like this in yearsss there just is like...waves of horrible intense heartache + the not eating is so real i feel too full all the time somehow ??? it feels actually never-ending and like...i've been posting a lot abt it here but i feel guilty abt that and i also don't want to keep talking abt it to my friends abt it and idk what to do . who do i tell ! how do i just !! live ! how am i supposed to buy groceries and go on walks like i don't remember how it felt to tangle my hands in her hair !!!

i'm really glad you got over it eventually anon, my past breakups have taught me the same; i hope i find that peace soon, and i hope i forget what the pain felt like and i hope i never forget the love behind the grief (trying to appreciate the empty space she left) i hope the world opens its arms to me again !! i hope it's soon !!!! i hope tomorrow will be better ! i hope it's not as eternal as it feels !