#I've been MIA EVERYWHERE lately

[jasonsthunderthighs]

Sorry I haven't been postin lately.

I got grounded.

[simpfordemetri]

No need for perfection- Jane Volturi

⟳ & ♥︎

TW: Mentions of binge eating

Request by Anon: Hi! I've been lurking on here a while and love your work. The Volturi aren't loved enough, especially Jane. Can I request a one-shot of Jane? Preferably one where the reader is dealing with insecurity, so Jane tries to make her feel better. Sorry if it's been written before!

Being in a castle full of perfect people who resulted to be vampires wasn’t easy ,less when you are still humanly imperfect. Your skin wasn’t clean and porcelain looking , your lips were often chapped due to the hot of Volterra , your hair didn’t look perfect and most of the time it was messy and you often need to use your glasses which you don’t particularly like .

You were surrounded by perfection and angelical features ,god ,even their voices were flawless .Even if you look closely for details you didn’t find anything out of place.

And with that ,many insecurities appeared in your mind ,trying to look for solutions ,buying loads and loads of make-up or giving a chance to try and use eyes contacts so you didn’t have to wear your glasses.

Your actions seemed unnoticeable, for you at least ,because Jane;your mate, could tell everything that was going on .She knows you like she knows the palms of her hands ,she always know what’s happening just by hearing you breath. However ,she didn’t say anything, not yet.

But everything became too much when you started to skip meals ,but then you couldn’t contain your hunger and ate an unhealthy amount of food until you were physically sick . Food wrappers were founded everywhere in the room ,your intents of hiding them useless . And Jane was finally loosing her mind as she was watching you fall into a rabit hole more and more everyday .And the worst part ,she doesn’t know how to help or what was happening .

Research was done by her ,even using the help of her biggest fear ,technology, she read a bunch of articles finding about Binge eating and the consequences of it .Her stomach sunken at the sudden feeling of how bad you might feel .Eating until your stomach can’t take more and then dealing with the pain ,the distress and sleeping out until you feel a bit better.

Jane wasn’t the best helping or calming down someone ,it wasn’t her forte. She is used to deal with feeling by shutting down and throwing a tantrum .But you weren’t like that and humans emotion were pretty different in her opinion.

Preparing herself and thinking about what she is going to say and being careful about her words ,she finally knock on the door of your shared room ,waiting for you to invite her inside.

Sitting on the bed next to you and grabbing your hand in her ,interlocking each other fingers while her gaze meets yours directly. She sighed trying to find the words to start the awkward but necessary conversation.

-I…I might have noticed what you are doing to yourself ,Y/N- Her angelical voice sounded like a whisper ,however you were able to listen to each word she said .

You didn’t talk, your eyes giving a confused look encouraging her to explain herself.

-Your recents eating habits aren’t healthy ,you are hurting yourself and I know looking for a solution right away might be difficult, so for now I just want to understand what is going on in that beautiful mind of yours ,Cara Mia-

You stayed silent for a few minutes ,secretly mad at yourself for letting your beautiful mate noticed and worrying her ,and also trying to find the answer to her question .

-I…I really don’t know how to answer you Jane. I suppose i have been feeling a bit bad lately, being surrounded by perfection and ethereal looks ,and then there is me , a simple human walking through this big castle being completely lost on what is going on .Things have go put of control I’m not going to lie .I’m so sorry-Your voice cracked in your last words ,looking sorry at her as your eyes were covered by tears.

-My beautiful love, you are the only thing I need and completely perfect by my eyes .However ,little human, perfection is subjective ,I don’t like perfection as anyone is complete perfect even if they think so .You have no need of hurting yourself like that as a form of punishment .And by that darling ,you are MY simple human. -Her lips turned into a soft smile as she grabbed your face pulling you close to her .

A very gentle and soft kiss was planted on your lips ,her hands caressing your cheeks as she falls on top of you laying both of you in bed ,decided to show you how precious you are .

[citrusy-lemons]

pancake-cakes

tasm!peter x reader

summary: late night cravings bring out some deeper feelings.

author's note: HOLY SHIT, count on me to go MIA for a month after posting. honestly tho i'm so sorry, i've got school and extracurriculars and projects and shit and i haven't really gotten time to write and my schedule is still super hectic, hopefully i'll be able to get other stuff out soon but no promises :/

let me know what you think? constructive criticism is welcome and please be nice :)

see, the middle of the night wasn't meant for this. it's to sleep and dream and pee.

not for baking a cake without having most ingredients of the cake. but you'd gotten a sudden craving and it was a weekend tomorrow, so bad decisions were inevitable.

did you have a million assignments to do? maybe. but peter also had a million assignments to do and he was still here, so technically, he's also making bad decisions. he was aware of that fact.

mind you he did try to convince you to go back to sleep at first but you wore him down. he didn't put up a big fight, he never did, against you.

he's convinced himself that he was only there to watch over you and make sure you didn't slice a finger or spill the flour, not to help you out with your late night shenanigans. but he was cutting up the strawberries so, really, he didn't have a strong resolve.

"you know, i think that when the box says 'pancake mix' you're supposed to make pancakes," he said, turning to you, who was reading the back of said box.

were you trying to bake a cake in the middle of the night with pancake batter cuz you didn't have the stuff for the cake and didn't want to go to the grocery store to get it? kinda. would peter have gone and got the stuff himself if you'd asked? yes.

"i didn't listen to you the last 17 times, i'm not gonna listen to you now, and besides," you said, pouring the mix into a bowl, "a pancake is just a cake but made on a pan instead of an oven. we're just changing the recipe a bit," you shrugged, like it was obvious and he was the stupid one.

"there are so many things wrong with that sentence, i dont even know where to begin,"

"here's a hint, don't."

you were being mean, you knew that. you didn't mean it. peter knew that. and you knew that peter knew that but you would apologize later. he knew that. he sighed dramatically.

"you wound me,"

you rolled your eyes at that. pretending to be annoyed at him was easy. wiping the smile away from your face when you were around him wasn't.

"if i had a dollar for every time you're wounded, i'd be filthy rich."

he glanced up at you. he knew that that wasn't completely a joke, it had a bittersweet tone to it. was that the reason why you were up at this ungodly hour? peter knew that you'd been stressed lately, he didn't know he had a hand in that.

"hey, you wanna tell me what's up?"

you didn't meet his eye, but you did stop fiddling with the bowl. almost immediately, you grabbed the knife out of his hand, mumbling, "you're cutting them all wrong,"

you both knew that wasn't true. one of the perks of having grown up with may was that peter was a fantastic cook. he'd been doing this sort of stuff forever. you needed to get better at excuses.

he gently laid his hand over yours to stop you and said your name softly, pleadingly. a long pause. you complied.

"it's just that," you started with a sigh, and dropped the knife, "you're my best friend peter, and i know that being spiderman means a lot to you," hesitation creeps up as you get to the actual issue. peter senses a 'but' coming. you look at him.

"but you come home every night with bruises everywhere, in pain, and i know you say that they'll go away in the morning and they do but," you're rambling now, he doesn't stop you.

"you have to see it from my perspective, i-" another sigh, you look away, "i get scared, peter."

oh. you were worried for him. he wonders how he didn't realise that before. that time he came home with a stab wound and you looked like you were going to cry he thought you were nauseous at the sight of blood. peter was an idiot.

"i know i shouldn't but i dont like the thought of you getting beat up every night." you were talking with your hands now, "imagine how you would feel if i came home with bruises all over my body and told you not to worry and that i'll be fine in a couple hours." you looked at him again. there was a sort of pain in your eyes. peter wishes it weren't there.

"it doesn't feel good peter. and you assume that i'm supposed to be okay with it?" you took a deep breath and closed your eyes, turning back to the strawberries. your hands were shaking.

peter thought about it. about what you'd said. you were scared for him and he understood that. it couldn't have been easy to be with someone like him. but he couldn't very well abandon spiderman. it was a part of him now. he knew that you knew that, but at the same time, he understood your point.

he thought about how he'd feel if the roles were reversed. if you came home with the type of wounds he did every night, he would be terrified. he couldn't blame you, of course he couldn't.

but he was spiderman, he had a responsibility, an unspoken vow to this city. he had opportunities and powers that no one else did, and he wanted to do good with it.

he hadn't asked for it, but he still had it. if he gave up being spiderman, he didn't think his conscience would let him live with it.

"i'm not asking you not to be spiderman," you spoke, finding your voice, "of course i won't do that. i'm just saying..." you trailed off, unsure of what you wanted and whether you were allowed to have it.

peter took both your hands into his, silently begging you to look at him. you did.

"i know what you're saying, and i understand. i don't blame you, i get where you're coming from and i promise, i'll be fine," he said, softly. he knew you were anxious about his safety.

"i can't give up being spiderman, and i know that's not what you're saying, but you have to understand, i can't not do it, it's a part of me, and i swear i will be more careful," his brown eyes bore into yours, willing you to understand. you blinked and unconsciously looked to the floor.

"but what if, being careful isn't enough one day? what if it isn't just some robbers or burglars but some other things? what if it's one of those aliens or mutants or something and you can't defend yourself? what am i supposed to do then, pete?"

you closed your eyes again, trying to stop the tears. peter's heart was tearing itself knowing that he was the reason for them. how could he tell you that him being the cause for your tears hurt more than any knife in the world?

"hey, look at me," he said, searching for your eyes. you shook your head but looked up at him anyway, the tears in your lashes resolutely not giving in to gravity.

"nothing is going to happen to me. i've handled stuff like that, you know. i know you're worried and upset but i promise, nothing will happen. you need to trust me, okay? we're going to be fine. please, I need you to trust me."

he said your name like it's the last time he'll ever get to, not in a way a friend is supposed to.

you sniffed, "i trust you, i do. it's this city that i don't trust," you steeled yourself, "but if you're sure, and you believe we'll be fine, then i do too."

he cracked a smile then, and pulled you in for a hug. a tight one. neither of you let go for quite a few minutes. you relished in it.

"god, okay i know i'm being silly, i'm sorry," you said after you'd pulled away, rubbing at your eyes.

"you're not being silly, don't be sorry. it's completely okay and valid. don't ridicule your thoughts, you're allowed to feel," peter said, in a scold-ish manner that he'd no doubt learnt from may.

"and please step away from the strawberries, and go back to butchering your so-called 'cake'," he said with a teasing smile, bumping his hips into yours to move you back to the bowl of pancake mix.

you scoffed incredulously, back into your playful demeanor, "excuse you, i would have perfected this pancake-cake if i weren't feeling sleepy right now, so, unfortunately for you, you won't get to taste this deliciousness, whenever i do get to make it,"

"oh, what a tragedy, i won't get to torture my tastebuds with whatever concoction you manage to brew up,"

you shoved at him, not that he moved an inch, and grabbed the plate of cut strawberries.

"just for that, i'm gonna eat these strawberries in bed using your pillow as a table, and you know i can be a very messy eater," you laughed like an evil sorcerer and ran towards the bedroom.

peter, horrified at the thought of sleeping on a sticky pillow, ran after you, forgetting that he had sticky hands himself. (pun intended, i'm sorry i couldn't not do it)

"come back here you!"

the pancake mix in the bowl, the half pack of strawberries waiting to be cut, and the anxiety were all left forgotten back in the kitchen.

[yet-another-aoex-account]

Thanks for tagging me @wojtekaneko ❤︎

Currently reading: Nothing at the moment really, started reading Dracula by Bram Stoker last semester but i left it unfinished

Favorite color:

Grey, orange and blue, but i like grey the most

Last Song I Listened To

Against the kitchen floor by Will Wood, i actually want to make a Reigen edit with it someday haha, who knows if i'll ever make it but it exists in my head

Last Movie I Watched

Puss in boots 2! Really really good, i never watched the first one but people in tumblr recommending it (along with some friends) convinced me and it was great, loved every second of it

Sweet/Spicy/Savory?

Mainly savory, i like sweet flavors but i have very little tolerance for them, i can't even handle a full piece of cake lol

Currently working on

Nothing other that homework sadly, it's my last semester at uni to finish my credits and one of my teachers is kind of an asshole and his assignments have been giving me a lot of trouble cause he's very strict with the requirements and also doesnt seem to be aware that we have other assignments other than his u.u and i dont wanna fail any assignment since i've fallen behind on uni and I don't want to take another year to graduate.

But! the last personal thing i got to work (?) on before all this was a pinterest board for my DnD character

Tagging:

@belowdek

@sometimes-lifesucks

@the-book-smiled-at-me

Thanks for tagging me @disasteroulik! It's so fun to do these :D

Currently Reading

I'm slowly getting through my long fic list, and few manga series I'm trying to catch on (tbhk, noragami, bsd) oh and I recently started omniscient readers viewpoint!

Favourite Color

Lately it's been sort of desaturated warm green. Also dark blue as always is up there c:

Last Song I Listened To

Nightingale by Queen Bee. Great song on great album, I highly recommend ^^ (fav song on the album is currently Kakitsubata)

Last Movie I Watched

Everything, Everywhere All At Once. It was really interesting to watch, but I think I still have a lot to discover about it!

Sweet/Spicy/Savory?

Mainly sweet, especially cakes and cookies! I'm a sweet tooth to the core!

Currently working on

I'm doing some illustrations for a language book, so I'm trying to focus on that because it's most demanding. But I'm trying to do stuff for myself, like fanarts and aus! Im still holding onto the mp100 stuff strongly, but I'd like to do more for the other fandoms I'm in!! Here's some wips:

Tagging:

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@silversaucekai

@birdmenmanga

@the-fourth-one

[lokiscarlip]

*Yawns* What's up, fólk?

Sorry I've been a bit MIA lately, but just after celebrating the big New Year thing, of course, there were more holidays cropping up.

I tell you, last Tuesday was HUGE for Sig and me. We hit all three notorious big-ass celebrations. Started off small in New Orleans, and it was fun. Sig showed her tits and got ALL THE BEADS. That's my girl. Then we skipped over the Atlantic to hit Venice's Carnival. That mask up there was mine for the whole shindig, and let me tell you, we had such elegant fun there. Which kind of gave us a bit of a relax before we headed down south again to the biggest, wildest festival of them all. Brazil. Rio. Carnival.

Let me tell you, Sig and I had SO. MUCH. FUN. It was wild, we drank ALL THE DRINKS, we ate all the food, and we fucked...

Well. I mean, there were tiny sparkly costumes everywhere. We might've sort of gotten a hold of a few of them. All that glitter and glitz. Feathers everywhere. How could we not, you know, fuck all over?

And top that off with the following Valentine's Day?

Let's just say that we had such a good several days in a row there that...shit. Sig might've gotten me pregnant.

Haha. Not really. No.

How's the rest of the crew doing here? Hey @one-coming-is-enough, this is one of your holidays, innit? Or the start of one leading up to another one? That one where one portion of your folks have to give up the shit they really love for a month or so? How're you after the two big holidays this week? Did you get some partying in?

Don't mind my moving slowly today. Sig was...brutal, and we had far too much fun.

[areyousanta]

Sorry I've been kinda mia everywhere lately. The horrors are horror-ing

[citnamora]

pls tell me more abt ur arospec ace attorney headcanons. my personal fav is lovequeer aro phoenix wright 4 loveless aro miles edgeworth.

Lovequeer Phoenix makes me SO happy!!! AND YESSSS LOVELESS ARO EDGEWORTH!!!!!! Aro4aro Narumitsu is hands down my absolute favorite flavor of the ship!! Oh my goodness!!! ARO4ARO SO TRUE!!!! Two aros absolutely demolishing amatonormativity with their level of trust and devotion to one another <33

Seeing this ask got me so excited to indulge because I'm aro so obviously I love projecting my community's, and my own, labels onto my favorite characters! But AA is something really special because there's very little canon romance which means lots of room for interpretation!!

(So a lot of my headcanons are a result of them just looking like the flags because the arospec community is full of beautifully colored flags I can't help but see everywhere)

Phoenix is recipro to me because any time he's shown romantic interest in someone it's pretty much always been when they hit on him first. Like the idea doesn't even cross his mind until then!! From what I've seen from recipro individuals this is a really common experience which is why it Makes Sense to me! I'm generally open to any and all arospec Phoenix headcanons because they just click with me (for obvious reasons, LOL)

For me, Iris is demiro because her whole story with Phoenix just screams it to me. She probably went in only hoping to get the necklace back from her sister's next victim and then she gets to know him as this kindhearted guy who would do anything for the people he loves and she falls HARD. I don't think they were "dating" the whole time which I'm pretty sure was confirmed by Iris herself but I honest to goodness believe they were lovey dovey in those last weeks or months leading up to Dahlia stepping in! I should also confess I'm a Feenris shipper, haha, so I'm biased on that front. Demiro Iris just means A Lot to me

Maya is aroace lesbian in that she thinks girls are really pretty!! And also in how she kept moving between the aroace and lesbian labels to the point she decided she'd label herself both. This one was mostly inspired by her going "omg that girl was so pretty" to just about every girl she meets which feels very, very sapphic LOL. I hc she's romance indifferent in the sense she doesn't mind dating but it's not something she actively seeks out! Though I think she'd love the meals that come with dinner dates- she's got food on the brain 24/7 after all (just like me for real)

Mia is pan angled aroace, more specifically greypansexual aro! Because she gives me romance repulsed aro vibes at first but her relationship with Diego (and possibly with Lana) would point to her being more romance ambivalent. Pansexual Mia is a headcanon I've had for a looooong time as far back as my first AA hc document while greysexual is a recent development. She's always been aro to me! Aro plant mom <3

Franziska is quiromantic to me. I mean, she's the palette of the platoniromantic flag! This headcanon only came about because of that 4koma comic where Phoenix makes Franziska flustered by telling her Maya's being strong for her because she sees Franziska as a dear friend. I just got the vibes. Also, the colors! I honestly don't think she'd see the appeal of romance with or without the feelings she can't distinguish. She enjoys her independence and I can't see her "settling down" in the slightest

Now, I've bounced around with where I think Edgeworth is on the aromantic spectrum. But I know damn well he belongs there! Lately I've considered Edgeworth being lithro gay, whether he loses feelings upon entering a relationship or doesn't want to act on them in the first place I'm honestly not sure. (Edgeworth is an interesting case for me because I flip flop between him having feelings or being omniaromantic lol) Probably never getting married regardless. Even before the lines about it I had my doubts! I like the idea of him marrying for tax benefits but outside of that.. I can't see him ever entering a traditional marriage let alone traditional romance. It feels out of character for him

There are others but these are by far the most developed ones! Recipro Phoenix and aroace lesbian Maya are my favorites because they feel the most accurate in regards to canon but pan angled aroace Mia is also up there. I'm probably going to post more arospec headcanons as I come up with them because y'all seem to really like them and I like talking about em!!

Thank you so much for asking!

[theskee]

Lately, as my child has started school, I've reflected on a lot of bad experiences I had where the system failed me entirely. But... I also started thinking about Mr. Ellison a lot.

When I was in 6th Grade I had a Geography teacher, and his name was Mr. Ellison. He had a very large collection of Chucks in various colors with various embellishments, and the two pairs I recall with the most clarity were the POW*MIA chucks, and his bubble gum pink ones.

On the first day of middle school when I walked into his class, he had a guitar in the corner and a POW*MIA flag on the wall. I was familiar with these things, as they were things my grandfather also had. But my grandfather was a deeply religious republican, and very pro military.

Mr. Ellison was not.

Mr. Ellison had this air of Quirky Hippie about him, with his salt and pepper mullet and his goatee, playing guitar in class sometimes. But It's been over 20 years since I was in that classroom, and he, of any teacher I ever had, stuck with me.

Day one, he was wearing his pink chucks, a pink button down, and said pink was his favorite color. He said you couldn't chew gum in his class unless it was Asper Gum and I don't think any of us knew what that was. He was light hearted fun and then one day, he made us design a US Flag with 51 Stars on it, and while we did this, he explained Puerto Rico. A subject that I had never once heard mentioned by the adults in my life. Prior to this lesson, I didn't know that Puerto Rico was a US territory, let alone that the citizens living there couldn't vote in Federal elections and weren't represented in congress. And then he mentioned how much they contribute to our military. And he asked us, a bunch of 12 year olds, if we thought that was fair.

And that was the first time I was ever encouraged to think critically about our country.

He pulled out his guitar one day and began singing the official state song of Florida (our state)-- "Old Folks at Home", otherwise known as "Swanee River". And this was pre-2008. The original lyrics hadn't been revised yet. So the second he got to a single mention of plantations, his fingers squeaked on the strings and strummed to a halt and he showed outward disgust. And asked us if we understood why it was already disgusting and then let us read the rest of the lyrics through the overhead projector while he introduced us to the concept of Racism.

It wasn't critical race theory by any means, but he urged us to be aware that racism is everywhere.

He showed us a video set to "Let the Bodies hit the Floor" that showed the horrifying aspects of the war in Afghanistan and after to we discussed Islamophobia, and the horrors of war.

Mr. Ellison was the first and to this day, only teacher I ever had that talked about American Imperialism, about colonization in a negative way, about the real impact that war has on soldiers, and how the country fails to care for the people who fight for it.

I must emphasize that this was a Geography Class and I think we looked at a map maybe 3 times the entire school year.

But in Ellison's mind, if we were going to talk about the world around us, it seemed like he felt that the thing worth knowing was our impact on it. He discussed climate change, geonicide against the natives, and how the land we sat on was stolen and soaked with the blood of people who cared for it far better than we do.

And all of these things were presented in questions posed to us: "What do you think about this?"

He challenged the concepts of masculinity and decried violence so often, showing the boys in the class that pink is just a color, that being soft is okay, and that there's nothing cool about being a war hero. But never so directly. He did it by offering up a chance to think about these things that were so widely accepted to be true.

I can't say for certain if Mr. Ellison was a leftist or a centrist or something else.  What I can say, is that I don't think I would have become a leftist myself, if he hadn't primed me to think critically about everything I know, and seek to form opinions based on what I believe to be right. Mr. Ellison was strange, but one thing I'm certain of: he hated the idea of human suffering more than anything else.

He was just some middle aged white guy with pink shoes and a guitar for some of the students around me, I know that. But for me, he was an important figure that helped shape me into the person I've become today.  He was the first openly anti-war and anti-racist person I'd encountered in my life. I come from a military family that watched Fox News and listened to Rush Limbaugh on road trips. I'd been inundated my whole childhood with ideas that ran completely counter to what Mr. Ellison taught me. And he taught me not by convincing me with arguments to agree with him, but presenting the chance to think about how things made me feel with the facts I'd been previously denied.

And then to decide what I was going to do with those feelings.

What kind of person I wanted to be.

And if I could go back and thank any teacher I've ever had, it would be him. I think I'm a better person for those lessons he taught.

But I cannot find jack shit on a map.

[unfurledluna]

Hello! Here's a little about me!

My name is Luna! My pronouns are she/her. I am 20 years old. I am Mexican and bisexual. I like to draw, read, write, watch TV and movies, musicals, and listen to music so I will mostly be posting about that! :)

Some of my interests and favorite things!

Books: The Lesbiana's Guide to Catholic School, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe (and the sequel), Hearstopper, Radio Silence, Loveless, Solitaire, Ophelia After All, Last Night at the Telegraph Club, Perfect on Paper, This is Why They Hate Us, The Luis Ortega Survival Club, An Absolutely Remarkable Thing, Cemetery Boys, One Last Stop, Red, White, and Royal Blue, We Are Okay, and Imogen, Obvisouly. I love to read so if anyone has any recommendations I would love to hear them!

Tv Shows: Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, One Day at a Time, How I Met Your Mother, Parks and Recreation, Anne with an E, Hearstopper, Sex Education, The Good Place, The Owl House, Gravity Falls, Steven Universe, and Everything Sucks. Currently, I'm watching Our Flag Means Death season 2!

Movies: Everything Everywhere All At Once, Spirited Away, Mamma Mia, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, Portrait of a Lady on Fire, Kiki's Delivery Service, Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind, Ponyo, My Neighbor Totoro, Encanto, and Tangled.

Music: dodie, Mitski, Laufey, mxmtoon, Matilda Mann, Lizzy McAlpine, and Orla Gartland.

Musicals: I love musicals so much! I work at a musical theatre!! Here are some of my favorite musicals: Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812 is my all time favorite! I also like Hadestown, SIX, Waitress, Falsettos, The Phantom of the Opera, and Moulin Rouge.

Other things: Moths! Butterflies! Lepidoptera in general. Cute animals! I have two dogs named Tiger and Oso that I will probably also post about. I love Sanrio and Cinnamoroll is my favorite! I've also been trying to get into video games lately like Life is Strange.

I love to draw a lot! Most of my art is self-portraits or depicting mental health. I have a few mental illnesses (Depression, Anxiety, BPD, OCD, CPTSD, and dissociative disorders) so it helps to be able to draw them. I'll be uploading my digital art and art from my sketchbook. I may also share some writing about my experiences with intergenerational trauma. I'll try to share some of my experiences with mental illness and trying to heal from a traumatic family.

Here's a drawing I made of myself!

Thank you for reading all that! Feel free to message me at any time if you want to talk or be friends! :)

[syrupsyche]

4, 9 and 14 for the music ask game :3

4. A song you’d put on a playlist for a character you love

Hmm lets go with Cosette for this one:

I've gotten good at making up metaphors I've gotten good at stretching the truth out of shape And all these words are sweet and meaningless You can't trust a single thing I say

Idk feels very Cosette, from when she's very young and lies to protect herself, and even to when she's older and hides from Valjean so that he remains happy. The Moon Will Sing from the same artist is also a great Cosette & Valjean song but that's probably a topic for another time...

9. A song in a language you don’t speak

Placed this on my OFEA playlist bc of the Antigone themes but it's a great song by itself!!

14. A song you love to sing along to

I don't know why but I've been hearing this song everywhere for the past few weeks and every time I've gotta sing AND dance along to it. It's ingrained in my body.

Thank you for the ask Kitty!! Sorry for getting to this late again 😭

[smallishbabes]

hello arah!! how are you? how's everything? how's blossom? classes? life in general? i've been busy, but everything is going great! i'm finally learning how to fly (SO FUN), and i'm still writing my thesis (slowly but surely). anyway, miss you!! <3 - cat

CATTTT MY FRIEND!! :D I missed you too! I just sent you an ask too! We’re both just so eager to see each other LOL! POGGG FLYINGGGG!!! The Catcopter dream is alive! I’m sure your thesis is gonna be amazing since you’re taking your time writing it :)

Classes are good except for my accounting professor because I realized they’re tryna weed out the accounting majors, so I’m gonna make sure I do well in that class out of spite. The rest of my professors are cool though.

I spent lots of time with Blossom when she was with me during winter break! I haven’t seen or heard from her lately, but I always miss her a lot. My other cats, Mia and Lexie, though have been very clingy to me, following me around everywhere. It’s very cute :]

Personally, I’ve been doing well albeit very busy. I got another job recently and spent all weekend working and if I wasn’t working, I was doing homework. It’s a good busy though! I usually have lots of free time so I’m glad I’m doing something productive.

[bioerin]

I posted 4,589 times in 2022

60 posts created (1%)

4,529 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@empiria-caterima

@chiqita

@oddishblossom

@str-ngeloop

@inthetags

I tagged 2,004 of my posts in 2022

#yeah - 57 posts

#eurovision - 26 posts

#yes - 20 posts

#cool - 19 posts

#supernatural - 19 posts

#self reblog - 18 posts

#me - 12 posts

#tag game - 12 posts

#ask game - 11 posts

#the phantom of the opera - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i once told a customer a magnet was 90€ and they just looked at me for a while and i did not get it until they asked 'that expensive' until

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Tagged by @frost0wl to tag 9 books I plan to read this year.

I have to admit I don't plan to read them all this year 😬 just plan to read them... sometime...

See the full post

9 notes - Posted January 19, 2022

#4

Trick or treat 👻

Look at Nietzsche asking for pets

(Send me "trick or treat" 👻)

10 notes - Posted October 31, 2022

#3

Tagged by @oddishblossom thank you!! loved your songs!

4 Songs I’ve Had On Repeat Lately:

Pas de Deux by Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky

REPRISE by The Lumineers

Migraine by Twenty One Pilots

Es atnācu uguntiņu - Latvian folk song (the song and dance festival version has been playing in my head a lot)

Tagging: @lalalalan @psychicbanana24 @drearywhispers @coldjellyfishsoul @bumblebee-bea and anyone else who wants to

12 notes - Posted February 22, 2022

#2

hey hyehyeyehye!!!!! i'll be going to finland in 3 days i'm super mega exited i'll be visiting mostly the south and the lake area and whie i'll be sure to enjoy the view i wanted to know if you have food recomandation? you are my closest mutual to there so you must have heard of some traditional dishes, i already have my eyes on karjalanpiirakka c:

hiiiiiiii

omg that's so nice!!!! good luck in finland!!!!!!! have been there only once when i was kid and i don't remember much, but only good vibes

the best thing i've eaten that is originally from finland: juustoleipä. i might be saying this just because i'm a cheese enthusiast, but it's a squeaky cheese that honestly does not have a lot of spice, but it's nice in texture and overall feeling.

also idk how familiar you are with rye bread but i also recommend that! i honestly have no idea if it reaches south europe and if you already eat it regularly

you could also try the scandinavian salty liquorice but i personally think that food was invented by the devil and only demons can enjoy eating it lol

as for karjalanpiirakka i have no idea, never tried any! hope it tastes good!

anyway, enjoy your time in finland and i hope you will be able to escape the death heat of summer i imagine italy being!!! (although it will still be hot probably idk)

20 notes - Posted August 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Tag People You Wanna Get to Know Better

Tagged by @oddishblossom thank you!! Really liked yours!!!

Relationship Status: single

Song Stuck in My Head: Mamma Mia by ABBA it's because I read a post recently about the movie mamma mia and the song just... emerged

Last Thing You Googled: the try guys (bc i saw a post how they've... fell apart. they did.)

Time: 20:55 at the moment

Dream Trip: I would like to go everywhere starting with Alaska. I just feel like no one would be there and I could just be.

Last Thing You Read: your love is sunlight by doodlebutt. a wangxian au fix-it fic which was just so nice to read

Last Book You Enjoyed Reading: Golden Stage. Huh I really have not read any books since 2020 yikes. Anyway Golden Stage my wonderful enemies to lovers book loved it with my whole heart.

Last Book You Hated Reading: The Girl With Nine Wigs. Got that book as a gift ages ago, and it is probably very bad of me to say I didn't enjoy reading about a girl with cancer based on true events. But I won't lie, I did not like reading it all. The main character tried to be relatable with the reader but I never connected with her, so I guess that was the problem.

Favorite Craft to Do in Your Free Time: does assembling ikea furniture count? I've recently moved and everything in my room is from ikea now. And I even got a little toolbox kit from ikea!! Look at me go! I just have to learn how to make holes in the wall and then I'll be unstoppable.

If that doesn't count I would say creating little trinkets now and then? I don't really have time to do anything, but I like to do stuff like gluing glitter to an old key and putting it up on a wall, or tying something to a string and creating a cat toy, things like that.

Most Niche Dislike: I don't like cut flowers. Of course, if I ever get any, I'm polite and thank people, but overall I just don't like taking a cut flower and putting it in a vase to die.

Opinion on Circuses: The only time I went to circus was the only time I saw my biological father in person. I was eight and it was very, very weird and thus circuses has always been tied to that event in my life and I feel very weird about them. This event is most probably tied with me not liking cut flowers, because before that I had no opinion about them, but then my father came to see me and gave me flowers and I was very, very uncomfortable.

Do You Have Any Sense of Direction: Not really, I am really bad at it. However, after taking a few wrong turns I would find my way anyway. But I know people who are worse than me and cannot even follow google maps, so I'm not that horribly bad.

Woosh this was an interesting tag game that took me places I did not expect to go!

Tagging (no pressure): @empiria-caterima @coldjellyfishsoul @frost0wl @ante--meridiem

21 notes - Posted September 28, 2022

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[wheniamamonster]

Sorry I've been MIA Reasons why (if you're curious) under the cut

A friend invited me to her wedding in Bali, and I asked my parents to come with me. She then invited my bf, so he came with as well. My parents wanted to go to other places in SEA after Bali, and meet with some other relatives of mine there. So the final plan was to go to Indonesia first (meet a cousin there), then Thailand (meet a couple aunts and an uncle), Cambodia, and Vietnam (meet another aunt).

Leading up to the trip I realized I didn't want to stay in a relationship with him anymore (and have him go on the trip), but it was too late for me to break it off. But I mostly wanted to break it off cause I just wasn't interested in him anymore.

And I knew he wasn't right for me, but I didnt realize how awful he was until the trip.

Like straight out saying awful racist things in front of me. Questioning how people in SEA are able to afford 'nice' cars (since he can't). Asking me if my family can even speak English (as if the Philippines wasn't a fucking american colony). Assuming that he wouldn't have to pay for anything since I invited him. Assuming that when I was asking him for money, that the money was to pay for my parents/relatives costs instead of his own. Completely unhelpful towards my parents or any of my relatives. Like never helped my dad carry any of HIS luggage. And when the car broke down in the middle of Cambodia, wouldn't let any of us tether to his phone to get help. Would only be willing to help me (sometimes), but anytime other people were involved he would be completely uninterested. Oh and yelling/swearing at me for crossing the road without him.

The worst thing is he didn't think he did anything wrong at all during the trip. Idk if you can tell, but yes he is white. Broke up with him a couple weeks after we got back. And just been in a mood since. Idk if it's cause I'm still angry that I didn't realize how much of a shit person he is. Or because he insinuated I was cheating on him as the reason why he 'knew' we were going to break up. So fucking original of him assuming that a bi woman is cheating on him 😒🙄.

Then while this was going on, my uncle passed away from cancer. We were supposed to meet during the trip, but the cancer suddenly spread everywhere and it was terminal. So yeah, just in a weird mood lately. My mother's pressuring me to start dating again, but I'm just so uninterested in anything right now.

Ugggghhhhhhhhhhhh

[dimpled-rapper-stan]

Tag Game

Thank you @ifeellikeabeanie (I'm so sorry I'm 10 million years late to doing this :'3)

Rules: answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people you want to get to know better

Nicknames: Zuzu, Zu, Z, Goth GF

Zodiac sign: Scorpio

Height: I capped at 5'5"

Last movie I saw: Deadpool & Wolverine (10/10 would recommend)

Last thing I googled: small wooden easels (I was looking up the available heights to buy some)

Favorite musician: In general between Monsta X (Wonho included) and Chase Atlantic. If it's a soloist, probably Machel Montano?

Song stuck in my head: Currently it's this

Other blogs: @the-perfect-switch and @the-real-zatae (I also have some others I haven't used in decades and may or may not revive but these are currently the main active ones)

Following: 964

Followers: 281

Do I get asks: Once in a blue moon

Amount of sleep: depends on the what I have to do the next day really. On work days I try to get as much sleep as possible so I'm not foggy and grumpy at work but on weekends and holidays/vacations I become a Creature of The Night™

Lucky numbers: 14 I guess? It's my birthday

What I'm wearing: a black vest and orange shorts

Dream job: full time graphic designer, part time dancer

Favorite food: yes

Instruments played: piano

Languages: Fluent in English and Creole. Know a good bit of French and Spanish. Learning Korean, Japanese and German

Favorite songs: currently, Cotton Candy from Helluva Boss, Not Like Us - Kendrick Lamar, Uber Everywhere - Motto, Tack Back - Kes

Random fact: Apparently I do very theatrical poses in my sleep

Idk who to tag since I've been MIA for ages and most of my moots have changed urls while I've been gone so anyone who sees this can do it and just pretend I tagged you T-T <3

[zemfruit]

what have you been watching? do you have any recs yet? you want some?

I'd love some recommendations. I've been watching quite a lot (for me at least) and I'm always looking for more

my freshest ones are basically encapsulated in this post, but here's an extended version if you want to read tee hee all of them are basically recommendations

My freshest specimen is Being John Malkovich (1999) loved it. I didn't have the time to form any coherent or critical thoughts on it yet, all I have in my head is "that was so fucking cool" It was pretty absurd? Ahead of its time? I don't have the language to talk about cinema in a smart way woops (i made doodles tho)

I finished Little Miss Sunshine (2006) yesterday. A wonderful journey of failure and dealing with just that. Very optimistic, cute and heartwarming. Very flawed but lovable family. There's a gay uncle

There's Be Kind Rewind (2008), finished yesterday too. Doesn't take itself too seriously, in between the silly are very real and cool moments. Pretty light and heartwarming overall, tho the ending is kinda open-ended? pretty bittersweet imo) and like... for the whole movie i was like "do i know this woman from somewhere?" and like yeah, i sure do, it's Mia Farrow and she played Arthur's grandma in Arthur And The Minimoys

Then there's The Lobster (2015) once again, absurdist? Metaphorical? I absolutely loved the weird world (I sure as hell feel like that sometimes as an aromantic asexual) and the open-ended ending.

the only things I watched in the cinema lately were the sonic live action movies and the spiderverse movies. Honestly loved all of them.

Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022) wow. like wow. It felt... so sincere. And absurd? (do you see the pattern?) And cool. And scary, and sad and funny. It sure as hell lulls you into this being a normal movie about family drama for the first few minutes. It's still very much about family drama, don't get me wrong, but it's so much more. I do not have language necessary to express how much i love this movie.

aaand right now, at the time of writing, i am in the middle of Inherent Vice (2014). I am so confused. I did not like the first 30 minutes, i hated them. I almost fucking cried (from confusion and frustration). I had way too many questions. I came in here ABSOLUTELY blind. I was so fucking confused?? had to read the blurb, i guess it did answer some. im somewhere around 50 min mark, and i think im starting to like it? Idunno. Very conflicted (i wrote in my diary "Whomst did i learn of this movie from. I need to fucking murder them" i really do need to do just that)

and here's my to watch list!!!

back to the future trilogy, citizen kane (1941), ex machina (2014), isle of dogs (2018), nope (2022), speed racer (2008), taxi driver (1976), the french dispatch (2021), decision to leave (2022), the worst person in the world (2021), vabank (1981 and the new mario bros movie. oh and the barbie movie too. oh yeah after be kind rewind i guess arthur and the minimoys too

[fullmetalscullyy]

hi is the royal server open

hey anon!

it is indeed, here's the invite if you're interested