#I'm very nervous but also excited
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Now I can finally reveal what I've been up to for these last months...
I'M MOVING TO JAPAN β¨ Osaka, to be more precise (hi Majima)!
I'm going there now on June 26 to study and improve my japanese so I can make my comics and doujinshis in JP too! I'm gonna stay there for at least 2 years but my plan is to stay there for more time or even permanently... Let's see what the future will hold! Like a lot of us, I always had a lot of admiration for japanese culture, art and language, and visiting Japan has been one of my biggest dreams since I was little and I can't believe it's becoming real π₯Ίπ (living in a 3rd world country is almost impossible to travel abroad lol)
Since I have to be there in one month and I'm moving to a whole different country, you can already imagine how busy I am setting everything up (visa, flight tickets, renting apartment, taking online tests for my classes, medical appointments, etc etc etc) xD I can't tell yet how my art making process and posting schedule will be affected during the month of June but I'll do my best to keep working on 80s Goromi doujinshi during this time because it's very important to me π€
Also, in the future, if you notice that I'm suddendly reposting my old Yakuza comics in JP somewhere like Twitter or Pixiv that means I'm already making sweet progress in my studies dsgjkdfhfkd
#now I can even make some field study for my Yakuza comics#excited but also nervous lol#I'm pratically starting my life over from zero#but I have you guys; the blorbos and my art so that makes me feel more comforted <3#it'll be challenging at first but also VERY rewarding#looking forward to see what the future will hold#also speaking of blorbos I'M DYING WITHOUT DRAWING THEM AHHHH#really I feel naked??#they're my 2nd oxygen lol#I wanna draw them so badly and I even wrote some new short comics before bed#but I'm very busy and don't have the time to relax my mind and draw them ;;;;;;#I hope I can draw my babies soon because I need them#gaz talks#real life#kazumaji
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fellas. my friends said they ACTUALLY want to watch cats 2019 with me and i was SHOCKED because like. who would. want to do that. i am delighted. HOWEVER it will take everything in me to not pause it and clarify every five minutes about my opinions on the movie
#they do want to watch it to see how bad it is but they know i really like cats the musical so it's like. i have to make it known that while#i don't like the movie and love the musical i still like parts of the movie#i don't think they care that much. but i can't believe they want to watch cats with me and i'm extremely excited#and it will take SO MUCH in me to not ramble the entire time we're watching the movie about everything going on#ouh. autism moment#i know they're probably just going to make fun of it and laugh which i get but also i'm just very excited...i like the movie in some ways#so i just hope!! they enjoy it!!#i've never shared anything about myself and my interests with my friends like this so sorry if i sound silly about how excited i am#im excited and nervous because i know they'll hate it and make fun of it the entire time which i get since the movie is pretty terrible#but also i am very passionate about cats and i do unironically enjoy watching the movie for how silly it is#ooooh. anxiety#this feels silly. am i being silly right now
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[a stay to burn (only to drown instead) AU/what-if scenario that takes place after the events of the main fic]
βMonths ago, you asked me to run away with you.β You said, trying not to tell yourself you were making a bad decision. You couldnβt even look at him as you said it, unwilling to see what his face looked like. Instead you focused on your feet and the stained wood floor beneath them. βDoes the offer still stand?β βDo you want to be on the run?β With me went unspoken, even though you both could hear it. βI just need toβ¦ clear my head of the city.β You looked out of the water stained window and you could feel Edwardβs eyes on you. βItβll just be a small road trip. Weβll come back.β You werenβt sure if you were lying or not. or, road trip with edward. things goβ¦ well, as well as they could.
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CHAPTERS:
chapter one: i Tried tO be gooD (am I no good?) chapter two: a dangerouS game (but one i wAnna Play) chapter three:
#I've had the idea for this fic since like March so I'm very excited to finally share it. I am also nervous.#my younger sister helped me with the playlist so shout out to her#stbotdi#atr&d#stbotdi sequel#edward nashton x reader
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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the director of the indie movie i'm gonna be an extra in messaged me today and asked if i'd be interested in a day player speaking role!!! yes i'd be interested!!!!!
#AAAAA i'd have a speaking role!!!#i messaged back we're in contact rn#i don't have details yet#but HOW COOL IS THAT#shoutout 2 montana and the very niche film market here it puts me at the top of people's lists LOL#i'm nervous though like i actually would be DOING SOMETHING not just wandering around!!!#also i think i was wrong before when i said no pay#i think there is pay???#idk i'm just sooo excited!!!#live
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Omg, I actually did it! I finally joined a queer dating/friendship app!!! EEEEEEK!!! I'm sooooo nervous!!! I literally have almost no queer friends IRL so I don't have anyone to get excited with me!! π₯³
One of my New Year's resolutions for 2024 was to put myself out in the world more and try my best to be more social, meet new friends (as well as potentially find a partner), and explore all my passions, hobbies, and interests with like-minded people.
As a very shy bisexual woman, it's so hard to meet other queer people, especially when you live in a more conservative area. So when I joined a queer dating/friendship app I was was SO surprised to see how many other lesbian/bi women were located near me.
Also, for some reason I've always had this super toxic thought in my head that queer women wouldn't be attracted to me because of the fact that I'm S U P ER femme/girly and I think I look very 'straight' to the average person assessing me. Trust me when I say I was genuinely SHOCKED at the matches I was getting like??? Why did I think such terrible things about myself and my sexuality? I feel really silly for thinking that and I've realized that I have a lot of inner work to do regarding my sexuality and self-worth.
This is honestly such a new, exciting experience for me and was so healing for my mind and mental health to just be able to communicate and talk with other queer women. I know this isn't writing related but it's really not something I can share with other people or on my other social media (yet) so I knew I had to make this post bc I'm just SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!
It honestly makes me wanna cry a little. It's a very emotional feeling and also feels so freeing to just BE MYSELF and not have to hide my queerness or be afraid that someone is going to find out I'm bisexual and act really awful/disgusted towards me, you know?
Regardless of whether I find a partner or make new friends and whatnot, I'm super proud of myself that I'm not denying this part of myself anymore. I'm exploring my sexuality with people who know what it's like to be queer in this crazy world we live in. It's a really awesome feeling. ππππ
Anyways, if you've made it this far thank you so much for reading this silly lil post and wish me good luck! Happy New Year!! π
#faye speaks#faye's personal posts#not writing related#bisexuality#bisexual feels#i'm very nervous but also very excited#i'm just so happy that i can FINALLY explore this side of myself in such a positive way#if you're queer i KNOW you KNOW this struggle lmao#this was/is SUCH a healing experience too#sorry for making this silly little post#but thank you for reading
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my art trade for @oddpizza because i have no self control and i finished it today already!!
also whoops uuhhhh my hand slipped
#seriously your characters are so cuuute though!! i feel bad i didn't follow you earlier heh#super excited to see how yours turns out though β¨β¨#my art#pizza tower#pizza tower oc#pizza tower peppino#also! i was very very nervous about doing this but hopefully it turned out good! i'm trying to kick my anxiety down and call it a bitch!#at some point im planning on doing art trade stuff of my own so#lets gooooo yeah!!!
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Big tattoo tomorrow π
#very excited but also very nervous#what if I'm stinky#what if I sweat a lot#what if I talk too much about baldurs gate#AAAAAAAAA
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Introduction
Heya! My name's Harley, and my pronouns are they/them :)
I've been reading and writing whump for a long time now, but have lingered in the shadows for too long! I've finally had some inspiration and motivation to try posting some of my stuff, and fingers crossed I can keep up the momentum and update regularly if people like it <3
Before I even knew it was a thing, I've been working on a BBU-adjecent universe with dozens of characters. It's set in a modern fantasy world, where there are multiple races such as demonborn, werewolfs, dragonfolk, and so on living alongside humans in present day. Unfortunately in one country in particular, humans are seen as no more than slaves and cattle, and they have no legal rights or protection from the very hungry world around them >:)
I will do my best to tag all of my work accurately and reliably, but if I ever miss anything please just let me know and I'll fix it asap! As a general coverall warning, though, there will be a significant amount of violence, non/dubcon, and other 18+ nsfw content. I'll put a full list of things you can expect below the cut! I'd love to take prompts and requests, of any kind!
This has rambled on for long enough now, so I'd just like to say a special thanks to @hold-him-down for giving me that last push to put myself out there, and @ashintheairlikesnow, @pigeonwhumps, @peachy-panic, @nicolepascaline and so many more blogs for being such wonderful inspirations!
Whumpy Likes/Interests/Content:
BBU and BBU-adjecent
Dehumanisation/pet whump
Slavery and captivity
Noncon/NSFW
Kidnapping and hostages
Parental/familial neglect and abuse (non sexual)
Scarring/branding/body mods
Amputation (necessary for health of whumpee)
Whipping, caning, spanking (impact play)
Collars, muzzles, blindfolds, plus general bondage and restraints
Extreme humiliation and abuse
Heavy emotional and mental trauma, manipulation, etc
Minor character death
Self-harm and/or suicide (attempted only)
Guilt-ridden whumpers
Hugs, snuggles, aftercare
Recovery, redemption, revolution!!
Squicks & Things You Won't Find:
Animal abuse of any kind. Assume if there's a pet mentioned, it's functionally immortal <3
Major character death - no matter how rough things get, the main guys will pull through... Somehow! Everybody deserves an eventual happy ending :)
General homophobia/transphobia etc - there are moments sprinkled throughout some scenes, such as an abusive parent deliberately misgendering their kid, but it's never the main focus.
If there's anything you're interested in that I haven't listed, you can usually assume that I'm probably down for it and just haven't gotten around to it yet ;)
#whump#whump intro#whumpblr#whump community#fantasy whump#i'm very nervous but also excited about sharing my stuff with you guys!!
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i have an over the phone job interview in the morning!!!!!!
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i just posted my first kuroken fanfic. i'm kinda freaking out
#haikyuu#kuroken#i'm very nervous and very insecure#but i'm also very excited#it's my first haikyuu fic ever but i still hope it doesn't flop..#even though it's just the first chapter
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made an appointment for a psych evaluation today so I can go on T eventually :)) where I live u need 3 different evaluations before receiving HRT so it's only a small step but it's something !!
#I'm very nervous!!#but excited also#can this be tagged as trans joy?#I think so#trans joy#personal stuff
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Had a vision this morning, tried a new perspective :]
Suggestive drawing of Ori under the cut
Those tela-novelas sure are interesting to watch when you have company, eh?
That is all
Have nice day :]
#rottmnt#art#save rottmnt#my art#third season#future leo#sffl(wg)#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt future leo#hot as hell#hes so babygirl#pretty bastard#gotta admit i'm nervous to post this#cuz i've never done this perspective very well#but i think it looks nice#also please appreciate the hip peeks#cuz you can see his usually hidden scar#and i was really excited to add that cuz i love his scar#it's messy#but i think it's good enough#hope y'all like it
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sometimes you feel like you'll never write again, and then time goes by, the sun is shining and you think you could do anything as long as you put your mind to it....... πͺ
#it's hard to remember everything passes eventually lol#hi guys#I'll be posting the first chapter of the prince aki fic soon#I decided I'll try to post the chapters as I finish them#I'm quite. nervous#because I've never made anything quite like this before#but I want to try!!!!#I'm still working out a lot of world building things#I want to make sure it's consistent before I start posting#if there's a plot hole later on. pretend u don't see#I'll also post a masterlist with a taglist if you want to be tagged in the chapters#not sure how this fic will be received... if many people will like it...#but fuck it.... we ball...#also I made a very cute elf aki for the masterlist lol#I'm impressed with the masterlist I made...#excited to share
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is anyone else going to the concert in oslo on sunday? i'm going alone but it's been a long time since i've been to a concert and i've also never been to oslo before... i would really love to meet up with someone :)
#joker out#i would manage alone but also the anxiety...#i'm so excited! but very nervous haha#and like. i understand norwegian pretty well but i never speak it and so it's daunting going somewhere where it's not my native language#even though most people speak english#but yeah it would be nice to have a friend!#also feel free to dm me!!!
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my show goes into tech tomorrow!!!
#I'm very excited but also nervous#And I'm also backstage and I havent seen the show yet so I'm scared to tell ppl to come.#My philosophy is that if I'm working backstage I wont tell ppl to come unless I like the show or if I'm doing something actually visible li#Like puppeteering#But if Im performing I will tell them to come even if Im not impressed by everything bc even if everything is bad they will still see π«meπ«#naoise.txt
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