#I'm very attached to this blog and tumblr tbh

[donutdrawsthings]

I haven't been enjoying going on Tumblr for a good while now when it comes to casually reblogging things... I just keep finding myself closing the app and feeling so Angry about what I read for various reasons! Outrage or just regular frustration. Because of that it's also become more and more appealing to hang out on bluesky instead, since I AM seeing what I want to see over there!

I'll be spending a long time unfollowing a lot of people here to kind of get a blank slate and get back to the stuff I want to see... but until then, You'll find me being more active on bluesky!

[e77y]

Should I make a poetry/personal creative writing blog... I'm afraid to! But my therapist said I should because I'm afraid to! Should I do it yes or no 😀

[pastelaspirations]

AAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK, CRRYIINGGGGG, WAIT, WAIT, HOLD ON, WAIT

OH MY GOOODDDDDDDDDDDDD, HE'S SO FREAKING CUTTEEEE, MY SHY LIL BABY BOIIIII, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

I'M CRYING, MAN, I'M CRYING. O K A Y. FIRST OFF. I can't stress enough how. Freaking shocked I get when people draw my versions, okay.

AND I SHOULDN'T. I SHOULDN'T, OKAY. I SHOULD BE USED TO IT BY NOW.

But n o. Literally every time. Every single time I see one of my bois, or one of my girls if drawn using the official genderbent versions lmao, without fail. I just stare in astonishment and go "OH MY GOSH, THEY DREW THEM EXACTLY AS HOW I IMAGINED THEM-"

....Can you see why this is stupid.

I have the literal, actual, canon reference sheets on my blog. I draw them more often than I don't. I am literally handing the "how to draw my characters exactly as how I see them" on a silver freaking platter, I should not be surprised-

ANYWAY, ANYWAY, HE IS SO FREAKING CUTE. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. WE GOT THE FULLY COLORED VERSION WHERE HE LOOK SO SWEET AND SHY AND CUTE. T H E N, T H E N, WE GOT BROOMIE, ALL GLAMMED UP LIKE IT USUALLY IS. THEN WE GOT SHY INK, WE GOT DISSOCIATING, EMOTIONLESS INK, AND THEN ANGY, "ABOUT TO LET YA HAVE IT" INK✧˖°.

Also just. The lil grinning Ink in the corner. I am w h e e z i n g. He looks like such a scrunkly, happy little goofball for once. He looks like he just told the stupidest joke ever and knows it. So he's just sitting there, grinning and snickering at his own freaking joke like a moron.

You know what, you deserve it, Ink. Freaking laugh at your own stupid joke, let's go, that's so incredibly based ngl-

GUYS GUYS GUYS GOOO read ''Perseverance'' by @pastelaspirations !! ABSOLUTELY beautiful story that had me hooked since the start.

I am so obsessed with this fic and can only ever think about it everyday. At work or at home it is STUCK in my head.

If I hyperfixate on an AU of an AU it means it's GOOODD. READ IT !!!!

[slightly-crazy-pyromaniac-vixen]

This is a Lancer RP blog

((OOC: This is my first time doing this form of RP, really only made a Tumblr acct for this tbh. Lancer is something I've gotten into somewhat recently, so please go easy on me! Sofie is a bit of a pyromaniac and it's my first time playing someone like that.))

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VortexWish:

"Hey Omninet! This is my first ever post, so I'll just introduce myself a little, I guess! I'm VortexWish, but I can go by Vortex if you want to call me that! I'm also called Sofie to some, but here I go by Vortex! I just got back from burning a hole through a few people with Kasya.. introduced me to the omninet right after I got back to the station, and oh boy was I hooked. I am a freelance merc pilot right now, doing odd-jobs and BASICALLY ANYTHING people pay me to do! Last Breath is a Worldkiller I salvaged several years back when just roaming around, saw a funny looking flamethrower and decided I wanted it heh. Turns out it wasn't a normal flamethrower! Kasya's actually a plasma thrower! A very, VERY beautiful display of white flames whenever I use her.. she is amazing! Oh, I should also post a photo of myself too!"

[Attached is an image of Sofie Lorenzen standing atop of her Worldkiller named Last Breath. She has the biggest smile on her face as she looks out over a sea of burning white flames, seemingly covering two entire mechs and the surrounding area.. not stopping it's burning. Sofie, or Vortex, seems quite small in height, but it's hard to determine her actual height. She looks to be a marble fox at a glance, with beautiful ruby hair flowing from her head down her back and to her ankles. A wonder that hasn't caught on fire! She also has a bit of a lighter ruby color to her eyes, and is wearing a full armored firesuit in black and yellow coloring, obviously protecting her tail too.]

"Well! That's me! A Vixen who stands the test of time! If you're curious to my height, it's 4 foot 4, short I know, blame my parents for that one! Do ask any questions about me, or just reach out at all for anything! I like meeting new people!"

[necrotic-nephilim]

Sorry if this might be a rude question but why don’t you just make a seperate account for your nsfw fics?

not rude, it's a valid question! tbh it's a combination of a couple reasons.

i started posting anonymous dead dove batcest fics long before i had the balls to make a tumblr. at first i was content to just leave them unassociated with each other because i didn't really care about them being tied to me. i made this blog to actually show solidarity to my partner who wanted to make a sideblog for Sandman comic stuff so we could cheerlead each other and be brave together, since i've wanted to make a batcest sideblog but i've been nervous about actually having to get it going. (mal ik you're reading this go be brave and actually make your blog so i can cheerlead you damnit-) only did it dawn on me then that i should probably mention the fics i've written on the blog after like, three of them were posted anonymously. and it would've annoyed me to have half of them anonymous and half of them not, because notifications for them would've gone in different places. i could go back and take my fics off anon if i wanted to, but i can't switch the account they're on without taking them down entirely and that'd fuck over people who have them bookmarked already.

which, ties into my second reason, if i made an entire second ao3 account it'd be harder for me to see notifications, reply to stuff, and post things for both accounts because i'd have to constantly switch. and honestly i'd be terrified of accidentally posting on the wrong one on a brain fog day. posting fics is always the most tedious part of writing them for me lol. it's easier for me to stay logged into one account and have all of my stuff in one place for me and just use the anonymous collection when i feel like it. if ao3 pseuds worked like tumblr blogs, where you can't see all my side blogs but i can, i would've used pseuds, but since you can see all pseuds on an ao3, i felt it was a moot point.

and the last reason is i just feel more comfortable being anonymous on ao3 because of the rise in anti culture. on tumblr it's very easy for me to just filter that out and find the people i want to follow and block the people i don't. i don't mind getting hate, on tumblr or on ao3. but i think, for whatever reason you want to blame it on, there's been a massive boom of antis on ao3 who are very entitled about how they read on ao3. i tag extensively, but i just feel safer from getting targeted attacks if everything i write on ao3 isn't attached to one profile. if people like a fic i wrote, want to find more i always link my tumblr in the notes, but if an anti wants to get huffy with me, they can't easily track down my other things. they definitely could if they wanted to, but being anonymous on ao3 just makes me feel more secluded, in a weird way. it's like saying "if you want you can come find me but on here i'm just a weird faceless guy throwing stuff in the void". i've used ao3's anon feature a lot, actually, i used to be a hydra trash party dumpster kid back when that was in it's prime.

i also used to be vaguely popular on a different tumblr blog and my main ao3 and while i think it'd definitely be cool if i got a decent chunk of followers on this blog too, i don't really miss having fanfiction do so well i got targetted hate on all of my fics from the same people, i had my fics stolen, etc. it was really exhausting for me. i have 120+ works on ao3, not counting what's anonymous, and that level of exposure tires me, even when i use my main ao3 to post things that aren't trashy. it's just a weird feeling knowing so many people are subscribed to you on ao3 and what if you post something they won't like because you jumped fandoms again, or you're posting something niche, or you don't think it fills enough fandom tropes to be well-liked. i used to obsessively think like that, and it made me not write the things i wanted to because i cared about numbers. and i don't want to slide back into that hole. writing on anonymous is mostly to remind myself i wrote this for me, and if other people like it, they can come find me, but i don't have to perform like that anymore. if i get a really weird fucked up idea, i can write the really weird fucked up idea. at the end of the day, just makes me more comfortable! but i get it's a super confusing set up from an outsider perspective so, i really don't mind the question, thank you for asking!!

[pub-lius]

Can I ask what your fav historical figure is? I looked at your blog so I think it is Hamitlon, but there are plenty of others here so I'm curious now. You have a great knowledge about many, but I do not know which one is your favorite. Answer if you want, if not ignore it! :3

i am neglecting my tumblr children i am so sorry i have been working retail and yearning for nature

this is actually kind of a difficult question tbh. id say my default historical figure is hamilton bc idk i just find him really interesting and when i dont have anything else to research, i research him.

but also i really enjoy female historical figures for their personalities way more than i do the men, not just bc the men are usually politicians and politicians suck, but because they all overcame the patriarchal rules of society in their own way, and i find that very inspirational and fascinating, so i always have a more emotional connection with women like elizabeth hamilton, mary shelley, theodosia burr, etc.

i also am DEEPLY attached to john laurens because of how he’s a lot of things at once and i relate a lot of his life to my own personal experiences. if i could give that man a hug, a lot of my problems would go away. and ofc lafayette is my comfort historical figure because he’s just happy to be there and where he is is absolute fucking chaos and war and plague and an overall hellscape

but, then again, a vast majority of my personal interest in history revolves around hamilton because… he’s just… he… sometimes… um… yeah?

hope this answers your question! thank you for the ask <3

[sandshrew]

hi girlies, long time no see. tbh I was just logged out of this account for so long I kinda forgot about it...I logged back in and saw I had a backlog of like, 4k posts....

just spent the past like 20 min deleting them all LOL. sad tumblr doesn't really have xkit or anything anymore to mass select posts, I had to manually select them all....ugh. I just hate having so much history on my accounts tho, I used to say so much embarrassing stuff so I usually try to purge every couple months.

it feels weird to scroll back on tumblr...well, I'm kind of lying. I DO have another tumblr I've been more active (?) on (kinda). I use it as an actual blog tho, to make long, properly written posts and well...blog to myself lol. not the freeform head empty run on posts I usually make here. I have a photoblog I occasionally use sometimes as well, but I'm thinking of just deleting that and having only the longform blog since I enjoy that more. we'll see.

I'm tempted to delete this blog just bc having 3 different tumblr logins is a lot...but like I said, if I delete the photoblog it'll go down to 2 which isn't terrible. idk!

this blog has been with me my whole life basically...well, at least the sandshrew url has. your girl is now 30 and I've had sandshrew since I first made tumblr at like 14/15. I'm very attached to it. Maybe I'll delete this account (that is a remade one anyways) and move the url to my main blog and use it for some kind of pokemon sideblog bc I feel bad having it go to waste...hmm

anyways I feel bad I don't post often here but I truly don't have much to say....says me who just YAPPED this whole post about nothing

ANYWAYS hope you're all doing well <3 I do still often think about all my tumblr friends and mutuals, if anyone is still around I hope life is truly flourishing for you

[queerromancerecs]

Hello hello and welcome!

Queer Romance Recs, is, as the name suggests, a place for queer romance recommendations. Why? Because queer writers and romance writes tend to be indie, and they could use some love and support, and we could all use more things to read.

This blog was created in an effort to build more of a queer romance community, but tbh, since none of the promotion has encouraged much widespread sharing, I'm going to keep it going, but I suspect most of the recs going forward will be by me, the mod.

This is not a problem; I like to rec whatever tickles my fancy. However, while I do read f/f, I do not read much published, contemporary f/f. (Original Fic, historical, fantasy, yes but the majority of published romance is still contemporary and I just don't read that much.)

I mention this because recs from you all are still very much welcome. The guidelines are below. If you want to contribute, feel free. Also remember that contributing can even just mean reblogging posts that interest you. We are here to support each other and authors!! Share the love!!

This is for recs of published queer romance and romantic fiction. What does that mean? Romance must central to or a significant part of the story, and at least one of the main characters must be lgbtqa+.

Published works means traditionally published, indie-published, or self-published. This includes free works and works published by authors available through their blogs or websites. It does not mean fanfiction. Fanfiction rec blogs exist already, please use them.

Fiction includes purely prose work as well as webcomics and graphic novels.

Romance means genre romance and also fictional works with a strong romantic element. The difference between the two is that genre romance requires a happy ending or a happy-for-now ending, and romantic fiction does not. This should be made clear in the rec itself under Genre. If the story is part of an ongoing series and the ending is not yet clear, please say so in your recommendation. Erotic romance is also allowed but again, indicate that under Genre.

(e.g. for a genre romance book that is also fantasy, label it Genre: Romance and then add a sub category if you like. If it's a fantasy novel primarily, then label is just Fantasy.)

Lgbtqa+ means queer. It can mean m/m. It can mean f/f. It can mean nb/nb. It can mean an m/f romance with a bi heroine, a trans f/m love story, an aro character finding a life partner and feeling weird internal feelings about it, three ace people falling in love and never having sex, and so on and so forth.

Content tags: You don’t need to list all triggers, as that is impossible. But please at least list any of the obvious ones under "content tags" Suggested content tags would be like: SA, attempted SA, CA, CSA, graphic torture, etc.

Recs can be only a few sentences or a full essay. Just say what you like about it and why you feel others should read it.

Recs must also include a link to the work: the author’s website, Smashwords, Amazon, wherever, but at least one, as well as a picture of the cover. (In the case of art-heavy work, more pics can be used.) Please use alt text for any images.

No self-promotion from authors. No non-romantic genre fiction.

And please, if you want your name in the rec, please add it to the bottom or top. I thought Tumblr kept the names attached with submissions but it doesn't. Whoops.

Required format:

Cover Image (if it has one)

Title (including series name if applicable)

Author

Summary: (c & p the professional one or write your own)

Genre:

Ship type: (m/m/m, f/f, nb/trans m, etc)

Why you like it:      

Content tags if applicable                                                                          

Link

If you have questions about a rec, you can ask about it.

Entries with incorrect format will not approved but you will be contacted for any necessary corrections/additions.

Hate speech and harassment are not allowed. I will happily block you.

In the interests of disclosure, this blog is run by R. Cooper, a queer romance author. Obviously, I will smile and be very happy if my work gets recommended here, but I am not going specially tag it or comment because it feels a little sus for me to do that. If the format is correct, I will just approve any such posts like the others.

[storyuntrue]

NAME?: mondy.

PRONOUNS?: she/her.

MOST ACTIVE MUSES?: at the moment rowena macleod is the strongest one. tony stark and molly hooper are burned into my mind though and they are always present and always willing to play. l have strong connections to all three and it hasn't changed for quite a while, idk i guess i just get very attached to my main muses. and matthew crawley is getting up there as well tbh.

EXPERIENCE/HOW MANY YEARS?: i've started and continue my role playing on tumblr. it's been god knows how many years, i know it was when i turned either sixteen or seventeen-ish? i know for a fact that i've deactivated my first rp blog in 2014 (elizabeth swann btw, maybe i'll bring her back someday) and i've played her for a loooong while (also just found a vid i uploaded to youtube for my first rp buddy and that was in 2012 so iT'S BEEN A WHILE).

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: really depends on my mood, but at the same time nothing hits quite as well as heavy angst that makes you cry lmao.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: i prefer short replies purely because i can get quicker to them. i also believe that there is a time and place for lengthy replies and that it doesn't always need to be that. with good plotting it's so easy to throw down several paras, but if it's an introductory sort of thread, writing more than a paragraph or two becomes challenging tbqh.

PET PEEVES?: i used to write with someone who basically paraphrased my replies every single time and left furthering the plot purely to me. it was lowkey agonizing.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE?: not at all. most of my muses, especially those three mains mentioned, are geniuses in their respective fields, and are sexually expressive and free. i'm nowhere near their level of intelligence, demisexual, and live a very, very boring life lol. i do share tony's crudeness though, i love dirty jokes asdfg.

TIME TO WRITE?: it used to be during the daytime. then i kinda messed it all up by writing exclusively only while i was at work and chilling when at home. then i switched jobs, am no longer able to write while at work and struggle to write at home cause so many distractions. but i'm slowly getting back there, and it seems like evenings are more creative this time around.

TAGGED BY: @ofaflower TAGGING: @theirmadness @fluorescentmortem @bornofthedawn @edenhusk @araneorum @coeurexpose

[theafictionado]

Hello! So, you may have noticed I'm On Here but also Not On Here. I've been very inactive but have no intention of deleting or abandoning this account - but basically I'm trying to stay off all endless-scroll social media (including tumblr) as part of a prolonged effort to keep my mental health out of the toilet, so you'll sort of see me around here occasionally, popping up and then probably vanishing again. If you want to get in touch, do send a message - and tbh if you see a good post you want me to also see, send it to me directly because I'll probably miss it otherwise haha

The username change also isn't meant to be anything dramatic - honestly I've been meaning to do it for ages, since my old one was literally something goofy I came up with off the cuff when I made this account as a teenager and I don't feel super attached to it. I thought "but I need to maintain brand recognition!" and then I thought "that's corporate thinking! And also you're allowed to reinvent yourself at any time!" So here we are! The blog of the same name is also the best place to find my stuff online, anyway - I mostly fandompost in long form these days, so hey, enjoy that if that's the kind of thing you enjoy!

[soviet-siscon]

Not the same anon but on the subject of you meeting only two people who "got it", one reason this blog is encouraging to me is I see anons! It makes me wonder how many people get it but are too scared to ever admit it with their name attached. It's nice to think about how it's probably safer than I expect to talk about these things with people in private in a context where we can make each other feel safe, even though then it also makes me even sadder that the whole, like, panopticon makes it still unsafe to ever find out how many of us there are. There's always more of us than it feels, and even more people who would actually listen if they were allowed to, but the consequences of talking to the wrong person are too bad to make it worth it to find out just how many people are actually safe. Most people definitely aren't safe.

oh yay! I'm glad to hear that.

it's funny, i made this blog after I'd put it off for ages out of a feeling of "that's probably too far" and it's honestly been really nice to have this space to talk about shit and talk with other ppl.

i was very inspired by a girl who got kicked off tumblr a bit before i made it and I found her blog and sending anons really helpful, definitely the first time I've ever gotten to tell another person about my complicated feelings about my brother. so it's nice being able to do that for other people in return :)

i wish it didn't feel so like.... dangerous to run this blog sometimes tbh, like if i fuck up or something links it to my main blog and then suddenly it's callout central, but i don't think that fear will ever overcome enjoying my time here.

I'm glad i get to talk to people about all of this and share my thoughts and feelings and I'm really really glad i can be an anonymous askbox to dump thoughts into because a lot of people are in much more precarious "if i post the wrong thing I'm dead" situations that i am.

this is kinda just introspection i suppose but it was a nice message and made me think :)

[weird-dere]

twyla!!!!! how are you doing? how’s spring treating you? i have a silly little question if you don’t mind me asking: how’d you pick your pseud? i love hearing the stories behind the names we use online <3

It is Kae, my beloved!! :DDDD

HYELLO :3 💋💗💗💗💗💗💗

I am doing okay this morning. And in general as of late I have been working on improving myself in certain areas regarding my health uwu.

Spring has not really felt like spring??? If that makes sense, nature wise, temperature wise, global warming, y'know the deal hekdyeidhss.

And life has been lifing fr tbh.

But I do think new opportunities have been flowering to foster a better relationship with myself <3.

I do hope spring this year, and life itself, has been treating you kindly my dear. I hope all the goodness you justly deserve has been making it's way to you 💛☀️✨️🌼.

Tbh about my pseud idk that it has a particular inspiration 👁👃🏾�� LMAO.

I had an internet friend who I'd been rping with for a couple years on a couple different sites and she wanted me to make a tumblr account so we could try it on here. Did not really know how tumblr worked at the time and did not use it very much. When she was helping me with creating my blog, she said I needed a pseud, so I picked a name I always thought was pretty 🪷. I'm not sure I was aware the name existed until I heard it in Monster High though, so maybe it stems from that??? But I have grown very attached to my pseud :3. On here it just feels like me!! Y'know? owo 💜💜💜💜

I am smoochin u and cuddling u rn 🥰. Secretly texting one sir Zoro when u aren't looking so he can blow your back out later >:))))))))).

Also, I am curious, if you feel like answering? If not, ignore this part lol. Is Kae a pseud? Or is it actually related to you in some way? What's the story behind it?

[clatoera]

Hi! I just saw your reply from the anon asking about your thg story! I'm not usually one to send asks or even post on tumblr (never was tbh), but this just hit so close I felt the need to say, me too! That's why I followed you initially, I just gasped at your bio and thought "there's more people like me on here!" and pressed follow!

I too was that insufferable 14 year old. I could not get away with wearing any form of braided hairstyle without being teased that I was trying to be Katniss (I probably was half the time haha). My friends, family, school teachers, everyone knew I was obsessed with the Hunger Games.

It fizzled out gradually for me too. I think it was just the natural progression with the films coming to an end etc etc. It never left though, obviously.

I re read the books before reading the prequel. I'm so with you on these books being a whole different experience now that we're closer to Finnick's age than Katniss and Peeta's. 16 seemed so so old to me, so imagine what i thought of characters like Finnick and Johanna. I can't even comprehend having gone through something like they did at my age now, let alone at 16.

I think back then, the main draw for me was definitely Katniss and Peeta's relationship. It still is one of my favourite things about the books, but after rereading them and the prequel, I agree that there is so much we missed, just by simply being too young to fully comprehend it. I find that I now have a larger interest in the political scope of everything and just the world in general (like...how tf did they rebuild the whole country after mockingay? need to discuss!!)

anyway, sorry for the long "ask". i'm so excited to see another tumblr returner on here! i've been coming back every so often to get content for other things i love, and have only recently taken the plunge and become a little more active.

I suppose there is a sense of shame a lot of us were made to feel about liking the things we like and coming on the internet to form passionate communities around it. I feel the same, it very much is a service to my teen self to come on here and find joy in rediscovering the things I love as well as using this site to explore my new interests. A reclamation, I suppose. I'm a bit more confident now. Back then, I would never, ever have sent asks or made my own posts. I think my 14 year old self is very happy for me, for this little

hope you're having a good day/night, whatever time, where ever you are in the world! :)

Hi hello! I read this as soon as it came in this morning, and wanted to respond, but wanted to be sure to give it the enthusiastic and lengthy response it deserved, that my brain could not formulate at 4 am when I read it.

I am so glad others feel the same. I remember in the early days, I was on Tumblr ( my main blog has existed since 2012 lol), but not active in fandom spaces. I was a fanfic writer. And on Facebook I was REALLY active in fandom and was literally participating in like..Hunger Games RP in Facebook comments. Wild. I was so into it.

Whats really settled with me, as a 25 year old woman, is like..the way mentors had to feel. My baby brother is 17 years old. He is a baby to me. He is just a child to me. I cannot imagine being Johanna or Finnick or Annie, mentoring at my age (or younger, actually), to kids my brothers age. Teenagers feel like Kids and I feel such an immense sisterly, guiding, mentor-ly role to them. Even college kids, I've been a mentor for pre-medicine students in my sorority for years, and those 18 year olds vs me, at 25? massive difference. I cannot imagine watching someone my little brother's age fight to the death. I cannot imagine someone my baby cousin's age, who is 12, fighting someone my brother's age. I cannot imagine watching someone my brother's age lead a war, lead a rebellion, and go through the things Katniss does. I can only imagine the horrors the past Victors learned to feel, and the emotions attached to their tributes every year.

more things that I am horrified by?

Katniss and Peeta. 16 years old. About to be MARRIED in the Capitol.

Gale, 18, working in the mines.

Again, Katniss and Peeta, with the (albeit fake) baby. 17 with a child? I remember being 16 years old, my best friend in the world had a baby. I was there. I remember watching her become a mother far too young, and I have watched ever since the way she has struggled and what it did to her mental health. Two 16/17 year old kids, having a baby, is a horror that should be addressed beyond what I at 16 thought it was. I was so team yes let there be a baby! as a child. But now? Now I see the horror of that. I Have delivered the babies of girls that age. I have held their hands as they are alone in the world. I'm going into a field specifically to help girls and women, in this position especially.

I think to that letter Plutarch wrote Katniss, where he literally says he would put her all through it again for the same outcome.

The youth of these tributes is haunting. If there were capitol doctors around they would be pediatricians. Let that sink in. The things these Victors would need is a pediatrician (also a psychiatrist and a surgeon probably).

Please message me (anyone can actually to talk about this) to talk about these things. The hidden horrors that are missed at 15, that stare you in the face as you reexamine as an adult. I'd love to talk about it in depth. I'd love to talk about how it has shaped me.

But seriously HMU because I want to talk about that most mockingjay rebuilding :)

[cryingyetcourageous]

blog indecisiveness

[[I'm attached to this blog layout and username since I've had them for so long, but I also want to change them...

tbh I have no issues with the theme except a few details like font size, but when I try to go into the HTML to change those minor issues, Tumblr won't let me save. It gives an error message about URLs that aren't accepted, so I guess they changed what they allow but it's not retroactive, meaning I can't have a "new theme" that breaks these rules (and even minor edits would be recognized by the system as a new theme)? I think?

For my own personal accessibility purposes, I may need to find a new theme. This layout is so tiny. I had issues with it even when I was younger, but now it's just annoying.

And as for the username... I just don't like it that much ^^; The emphasis on crying, even when juxtaposed with "yet courageous," feels a bit off. It's not bad, necessarily, but it's very much a name that I look at and think "Oh, yeah, I definitely came up with that as a teenager." A bit overdramatic. I think I'd rather change it to a reference from a folk song or poem, but again, I've had it for so long.

Theme is probably changing today, and username is still up in the air.]]

[m1d-45]

hello again my far love/p

there's something I feel like I need to explain?? I have a Tumblr account but I prefer to be anonymous for asks and such, I just prefer it bc I get shy(and a little paranoid that people can see me yk, I like to be a fly on the wall) I've also just began using 🍄 to ask in blogs and I've gotten attached

I've been following and liking your content before I asked yk and I'm sure if I gave you the name I go by online you'd know what my account is lmao, tbh at this rate I don't think I mind, you and teddy are cool people and I do want to talk more/play genshin with u all

I just felt like I needed to clear that up and when I said that I should create a blog I mean like, a writing blog where I post about things and such, ofc If I end up doing this I would let you know. my only issue with that is motivation and inspiration

speaking about that tho, your 1k special

- how 'insert character' felt when they became your vessels

- letters (I've seen this one before)

- windtrace/events with the creator

I think that's all the ideas I got rn, you could always do a prompt based one where it's like "can I have a latte with strawberry and chocolate with diluc" and latte = fluff, strawberry = SAGAU and chocolate = date hcs

- 🍄 (never take precalc if you're bad at math, it's sucks and I hate it. I have a test on Thursday 😭) (I feel like playing genshin with y'all would be so fun tho)

[i was gonna make a joke here about dramatically receiving a letter, then realized that you know what, rp is not something i want on my genshin impact fanfiction blog]

i 100% get the like fear of being Perceived but like…. in the gentlest way possible, i feel like a character in a shakespeare play, talking about intense worldbuilding with my vaguely queercoded best friend as we profess to be knights by each other’s side until the very end, no matter how bitter, for the audience to hear (it’s foreshadowing for how we die together on the battlefield)

(hello to everybody that isn’t 🍄 anon or teddy anon, how are y’all tonight)

uhh re: creating a writing blog, insert link to that post i made abt my tips for blog things, referencing point numbers one and seven.

also i like the letter one. that’s a good idea. i will consider it. should probably sort this out prior to 1k but ehhhhh

(i would love to play genshin with you i am both ar 58 and so bored-)

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4 and 9!

Asks for multimuse blogs || Accepting !

4. Is there a muse that not a lot of people roleplay with?

Yep, I dare to say that there's more than one xD Mostly Sam and Moriarty.

In Sam's case, it's my fault, because I made them before my hiatus and never given them proper time in the spotlight. I'm planning to change that very soon, once I've recovered some brain power.

As for Jim, I suppose that it's because he isn't an easy muse to interact with, also because of how specific his canon is. I need to work on giving him some verses, both general ones and maybe other fandom AUs, to make him more approachable!

9. why were you drawn to each one of your characters?

Oh boy xD Let's see how I can answer this one without writing a novel xD

Abigail: What got me interested in her first and foremost was the duality of the character. For a good part of her arc we don't know whether or not she had truly helped her Dad killing those girls and, if yes, to what extent. The series unfortunately doesn't analyse it too closely, but she tends to swing between two kinds of behaviours and identities: the traumatised victim who is trying to get her life back together after it has been shuttered and the manipulative accomplice who exploits the circumstances to get away with a clean slate. Useless to say, I like to portray her as the latter wearing the former's mask as an act. Another reason why I chose to pick her as a muse is because she has a lot of potential that however was never used. Gotta make up for that xD

Five: For him there's no big, complicated reason tbh xD He's just the type of character I enjoy, both when consuming medias and while writing. Practical, sarcastic, smart, witty, with poor manners because he couldn't care less about being polite (unless it benefits him). But also characterised by a tragic past, a lot of trauma, flaws that caused his downfall and a fierce attachment to something (in Five's case, his family). It's a lot of fun to explore the different sides of his person and find out where the lines blur!

Sam: They are my OC, so...I basically built them fitting the fictional family you, Chloé and I came up with. In a way, they have Abigail's same duality (victim vs perpetrator), but in this case the second side gets openly cultivated by their new family and I found interesting to explore the effects that such an environment can have on someone who has never truly been taught the difference between right and wrong. Sam grew up as an outcast, unwanted and unrecognised, and the very first time they find acceptance is under a woman who believes that killing men for their own advantage is her family's right. That's a fascinating combination xD Also, as a non-binary mun, I've been wanting to write a non-binary character for a while now!

Crowley: He is one of my oldest muses, one of the firsts I picked up when I started to RP on Tumblr. He used to have his own sideblog and all, before I decided to make this multimuse. I had a lot of fun writing him, also because he embodies the only kind of good guy I can and like to properly write. Someone with good intentions but also questionable methods and even more questionable morals. Also, even if in the book/series isn't shown much, I like to dig into the trauma of his Fall and all the consequences of it, how it has left him torn between what he wants to be and his demonic nature. So yeah, another traumatised gremlin xD

Will Graham: Speaking of trauma, here is another embodiment of it xD What got me fascinated with Will first and foremost is the way the series portrays his "pure empathy": how he can put himself into the killers' shoes, actually live through their fantasies, and how all this constant exposure to this twisted minds end up changing him. That's definitely another thing that drew me to Will. His character arc, evolution and how the potential darkness inside him emerges and takes shape. Obviously, all this happens through a lot of struggles and contrasts. Also, gotta love the sass xD

Will Byers: Together with Sam, he is my traumatised kid x'D He has been my fave character since season 1 (and he stayed vanished for most of the season, so that should tell you how much I liked him since the very start). What pushed me to pick him as a muse have been basically two things: the huge potential for the exploration of trauma / PTSD / sexual identity crisis and his connection with the Mind Flayer. There's just so much that could be done in both directions!

Moriarty: Ngl, I picked up Jim as a muse mostly as a challenge. I want to try my hand at a villain and he has always been one of my faves. Love me a psychopath who also has a ton of charisma and a sense of humour (I find him beyond funny xD). Moreover, ages ago I had come up with a whole backstory for him and this was my chance to do something with it!

Gabriel: Last but not least, he is literally one of the first two muses I had back when I started to RP on this hellsite. He is one of my fave characters from the show, has been even before we found out that he was Gabriel (and I refused to acknowledge the shit they did with him in season 13). He is a bit like Five, character wise, but with the twist of being an insanely powerful being. Plus, I loved adding bits and pieces from the Norse myths to his backstory / portrayal, and that was an additional reason because Norse mythology is my jam!