#I'm tryna OD

[state-of-disorder]

"Jon Pork, or whatever his name is, is shagging the fly emo?' - My Mother after watching GO2 S2E6 (Read in an irish accent for extra accuracy)

[simonisferal]

not you again. "scaramouche x male reader"

YOU were the smart kid in high school till he came along and ruined it. Now that he got you shipped away to your grandmother's, you're out for revenge. To beat him is your greatest wish but would that change now when he's your seatmate, partner. and roommate? Oh for fuc—

warnings: physical violence/fighting, the occasional underage drinking, heavily sexual themes and intercourse + some kinky shit (honestly, who knows), scaramouche is scaramouche 🤦‍♂️, exes to academic rivals to lovers, vulgar language, angsty(mentions of SH, suicidal thought, OD/ED), slow updates, homophobia (sort of), i know nothing about law so don't come at me, slow burn, and i think that's it!

written pieces will marked with 📖

pheonix wrights — miles edgeworths

ᴥ season one — glow up, dick up

episode one — who the hell are you and why is your bitchass tryna fight me?

episode two — a man can't punch another man without it seeming homosexual nowadays, can he? 📖

episode three — if im sent away, im taking my dignity with me / fuck you

episode four — yes grandma, i'll rub your bare feet. just don't call grandpa over to tell his war stories again... 📖

episode five — i wonder how much he's suffering right now

episode six — in my slut era!! (i stay home with grams and gramps watching family fued)

episode seven — you'd think being the new kid is shit but it's actually worse since i'm hot

episode eight — who is juicytoot124 and why are they liking my tweets??

episode nine — fuck the school, fuck the students, and fuck the chairs too / who is he talking to

episode ten — this is NOT the USA miley cyrus was partying in 📖

episode eleven — holy shit, he has a sister? or is that his girlfriend..? 📖

episode twelve — kaeya, pass me the bottle; i’m getting wasted tonight

episode thirteen — holy shit. am i hallucinating or do i see a bobble-headed bitch coming my way? 📖

episode fourteen — it might be the paranoia coming in but i hear cops 📖

episode fifteen — how's my day? oh i was hiding in a fucking closet with my ex boyfriend from the police because of someone decided to steal alcohol. i wonder who.

episode sixteen — so i can't be a whore but my enemy can fuck around with his ex? not cool.

episode seventeen — wait, summer's over? i was just getting ready to rot in bed!

episode eighteen — basically what i'm hearing is that i'm a god and everyone loves me! /sarcastic

episode nineteen — yeah, so, what i just said previously was a fucking lie. 📖

episode twenty — ah shit, here we go again. 📖

ᴥ season two — and they were roommates?

episode twenty one — my clear conscience can't take this anymore; time to escape prison!

episode twenty two — everything i say was a joke unless you're into it, then it's not 📖

episode twenty three — first day of hell

episode twenty four — am i interfering someone's love triangle??

status: ongoing

started: 04/13/24

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(@simonisferal 2024)

[smegmafactory4ever]

You look so fuckable

I'm walking sex, pedal to the metal with the disco tech I'll be grinding up the dime and OG Now light up the joint, I'm tryna OD Like, "ooh, that's that shit I like" Kinda bugging off the mid bitch, you alright? Now why y'all worried 'bout the fuck I do? I'mma let y'all know when the fuck I'm through, like (Bitch) They like the way I grind, they like the way I flirt They like the way my noonie is peaking out my skirt You're never gonna do it like us, work the hips then shake the bust And Jesus is always with me, even when my boyfriend gives me hickeys, like "Oh my God, this bitch is crazy, what the fuck's she's saying Stacy?" Never mind me, bitch, I'm getting on Cutting up coked out horny songs, like (Uh) You bitches need bass to bump Come and look me in the eyes, baby, face the funk Pull up in the O2, hard top, ass up Belladonna, this shit beats hard as hell, sis

[doingthehardthings]

Clocking in for #noexcusenovember @m0tiv8me

Morning no looking at phone-- ✓

Meditation--✓

25 minutes of abs & arms-- ✓. Here's a video of me trying to do 2:50 seconds of plank, struggling and ultimately failing. But, I almossst had it. This workout was sluggish in general. It's evident to me that I'm real good at doing the easier things--the things i like, such as walking 'til my feet ache--but putting in work with weights is so hard for me because it is much, much harder. trying to train the resistance out of myself. or something. my form during a lot of this is not the best. i tried tho hehe.

6 mile hike--✓. Or just about. I clocked in at about 5.7 miles, but I'm ganna count it.

I wore my new pjay top that I'm obsessed with on my walk. So cozy.

Cutest thing I saw was an adorable man tryna walk his dog, insisting we go this way! we go this way! But Dog decided no, bub, we are going THIS way and led him in the opposite direction. who's walking who, I asked.

Found a gorgeous swing that does NOT squeak when you use it. Had a friggen blast on it.

Home to my heating pad (which I'm sharing with the cats, of course); a gorgeous salad with ground turkey meat and some pickles on the side; christmas lights; a late cup of coffee & nada, which is a fun and gorgeously filmed show: a real ode to cooking and food, which I have been thinking about a lot lately.

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Ex-husband is coming tomorrow to say his goodbye's to Oli, and to grab the few items remaining of his that I did not throw away. An act of grace and humility on both ends. I hope we can spend some good and healthy time together, and maybe talk a bit more about anything else that needs saying.

Never imagined I'd ever see him again. This year continues to be my teacher. This year continues to instruct.

[blamemma]

what didn't you like about the ric3/enchanté transition? legit question 'cause I'm just dumb

not anything specific, i think what i was tryna say in that ask if they've gone from ric3, a daniel ricciardo merch brand with fun videos and fun designs that everyone got excited over and daniel ricciardo as the face of the brand, to enchante a luxury clothing company that feels a bit soulless, without actually changing any of the product. ric3 merch was GOOD for the most part, nearly everything i ordered from them was v good quality, but enchante is now marketed as this luxury brand....but it's still the same stuff as what was sold on ric3? we're just missing fun merch items which mention or place ode to daniel....and lacking fun marketing techniques (ric rodeo and enchante chalet u will always be famous). genuinely the reason i dropped so much $$$ on ric rodeo is because of that excitement we allllll felt from that level of marketing that year.....and although i didnt buy anything there was a v similar response to enchante chalet

answer me this @ daniel's team.....are u selling mini helmets next year? where will u be selling those?

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

I think I fucked my liver up bad

Uh. Soo the jaundice shit never went away. It's never as bad don't get me wrong. But while before I only jaundiced when I was going overboard, I now keep a light shade of yellow pretty much 24/7. My eyes are never fully white

I'm not gonna bother going over all the symptoms I've gained since I oded earlier this month. Shit hurts but no where near unbearable. I've been holding out on talking bout it cause of that. Partially because I didn't want to explain and partially cause I didn't think anyone would take it serious because of how mild the symptoms were at first. Ah well mild aint the word. Expected..? I dunno in my mind knowing that most of that was the leftover dph beating my ass made it feel a lot better. Least I knew exactly what I'd be feeling and around when. Now? So many random pains ;_;

I'm thinking I have hemolytic anemia that was more than likely because of the excess bile shit I never could fully fix. Ik it sounds like I'm just self diagnosing to make myself sound more pitiful but if I went through the shit I've been feeling it'd probably be more obvious. I'm sorry I'm not explaining in detail there either. I'm kinda half sleep tryna write 😭

Either way in my mind that is uh.. ig that's my consequence. I'm hoping it is just anemia from that day and not just the tip of the iceberg. Unless it's not even that heh. Then ima be mad

I feel like shit on and off. I swear it's so random. Sometimes I forget anything happened and I'll just be existing. But then like today it's like my entire body burns and aches. Once again, not unbearable. The burny feeling is moreso uncomfortable not painful. But the burning + the random dull aches everywhere is fucking annoying

I remember in the past being paranoid about what'd bring my lucky streak to an end. Ig this is it. I don't know if it's fair to call it that tho. I'm not hurting too bad honestly. It's nothing I can't handle with it not being constant. Did I get off lucky? I'm still here. My jaundice isn't bad. My stomach isn't horrible. My speech is mostly normal now that I've gotten used to not relying on guesstimating sm lol. Eh. I'll be seeing soon. Guess I really don't need to question it anymore

I'm going to sleep now im actually in the middle of this nonsense rn I'm so tired. My body hurt :[

[whitemochacoffee]

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I don't understand why i'm still alive i'm so miserable its not enough why did i have to wake up i cant fucking take it anymore at tbis point tryna OD with my chronic illness meds has proven fucking useless how many times have i tried only for my weak ass body to be resilient enough to handle what would have killed others im so fucking tired i cant takw it anymore im so tired

[suxdixx4god]

i don't wanna be the lesbian in 2024 that has to be an example of how i can have 80,000 girls be my besties and not be interested in them like that but i'll do it for this hoe she's like crack or something like it don't meet girls like that all the time it's like why they put crack in u i'm tryna hit that constantly OD and leave my body u got a ~vibe~

[tg-pilled]

I'M WALKING SEX, PEDAL TO THE METAL WITH THE DISCO TECH ‼️ I'LL BE GRINDING UP THE DIAMOND OG, NOW LIGHT UP THE JOINT I'M TRYNA OD ‼️ LIKE OOH THAT'S THAT SHIT I LIKE ‼️

[triggeringtommy]

i smoked all my weed n now im like ugh gonna try n take a break from it and just keep gettin my lil nic vapes once a week andddd im gonna tryyyyy to take my meds but it's just annoying having to take them to be told I'm normal or im more pleasant to be around lmfao why can't i just od or be a semi functioning addict again being sober is tough stuff yall fr fr i want 2 drink n be fine but that always leads me to other things :( Thank God I live with 3 other stoners so if I'm rly down bad ill be fine w/o my own weed but like I'm rly tryna focus on Only depending on my prescribed medications aside from nicotine :) fuckkkkkkkkkkkķkkkkkkkkkkkk im gonna overshare in the tags ;)

[thelensofyashunews]

Bronx Rising Star DThang Is Ready To “Lose It”

Standing out with his tireless intensity and menacing bars, DThang is quickly rising to the top of the busy Bronx drill scene. Looking to rebuild the momentum he had before a stint in jail, DThang jumps right back into the rap game with “Lose It (Freestyle).” Over eerie production, DThang brings his signature Bronx bounce to the track, letting his opps know he’s officially back and feeling unstoppable: “Think I'm lackin', then you must be dumb / Think you better than me, then you stupid / Tryna spin on the opps, really lose it.”  Previously shared as a viral live performance, “Lose It (Freestyle)” was many people’s first introduction to the rising Bronx rapper, making its official studio release a perfect way for DThang to re-introduce himself.

"Lose It" continues DThang's fiery start to 2024. After the rapper's exoneration earlier this year, he made the most of his first months out. DThang didn't wait to leave jail before dropping new music though – he shared the invigorating freestyle "Hard Day's Night / Last Day In" just before his release. The heartfelt music video for "Last Day In" racked up over 4.2 million views in three weeks. Upon his release ,DThang was greeted by his mentor French Montana, who gifted him a fresh piece of jewelry and took him shopping for the latest fits. On Valentine's Day, DThang delivered a fresh ode to all of his smoochies, with "Smoochie Valentine," inspired by Nelly and featuring a cameo by the legendary rapper in the video, which reached the Top 20 on YouTube's Trending Chart for Music with over 1.7 million views. Most recently, DThang shared “Drill Cappers,” a ferocious missive aimed at fake drillers and clout-chasters.

DThang emerged in 2021, leading a Bronx drill wave that took his city by storm. He tore up the streets with songs like "Gz Bop," "LIKE" and "Play It Back," generating tens of millions of views on his raw and authentic music videos. Alongside peers like Kay Flock, Sha Gz, and Bando, DThang was set to define the sound of Bronx drill for years to come.

Now fully exonerated and back in the drill game for good, DThang is ready to turn heads in and out of the Five Boroughs with his hard-nosed rhymes. Keep your eyes peeled for a new project, coming soon.

[gold-onthe-inside]

get to know piper - song edition

"but I'm a beat down, washed up, son of a bitch. i got one more cigarette and all my money is spent, but i'ma be damned if i let it keep me down... you know that it's not over, it's okay to let yourself hurt, swimming in the murky water. won't you come on out?" - beggar's song, matt maeson

"if I don't get better than this man in my skin, if i let go, would you hold on? would we fly? is it safer if we just say that we tried? are we laughing at the danger? are we dancing after death, you and I?" - dancing after death, matt maeson

"the things that i lost here, the people i knew, they got me surrounded for a mile or two. left at the graveyard, i'm driving past ghosts. their arms are extended, my eyes start to close" - the view between villages, noah kahan

"it's an ode to the hole that i found myself stuck in. a song for the grave that i dug. there's a murder of crows in the lowlight off boston and i see your face in each one" - halloween, noah kahan

"being me can only mean feeling scared to breathe and if you leave me, then i'll be afraid of everything. that makes me anxious, gives me patience, calms me down, lets me face this, let me sleep and when I wake up, let me be" - afraid, the neighbourhood

"so give me your worst excuses, any reason to stay. give me your lips, the taste of her, i'll kiss them again. i'd rather you walk all over me than walk away. give me the worst of you 'cause I want you anyway" - worst of you, maisie peters

"i will burn this city down for a diamond in the dust. i will keep you safe and sound when there's no one left to trust. will you take my hand? we can make our stand" - start a riot, banners

"i took my love down to violet hill. there we sat in snow. all that time she was silent still. so if you love me, won't you let me know? if you love me, won't you let me know?" - violet hill, coldplay

"i know every streetlight and maybe the colours will fade. this is the place we were made. by the late nights and fires on the beach made by the small town secrets we'd keep. all that I know is no matter how far away this is the place we were made" - place we were made, maisie peters

"they told me you were a killer. i saw your collection of hearts and i shoulda known better. 'cause they told me you were a killer and i've got no doubt that the only way out of this thriller is if i am a killer too" - killer, valerie broussard

"my friend died, it's been years, still grievin' and i thought time would be somehow healin'. when love finds me, i'm too numb to feel it, why the fuck am i still here breathin'? well, i would pray, but i don't believe it. oh, woe is me, but i don't care either. life is not the way that it seems, but maybe this will all be a dream" - plastic bag, ed sheeran

"the more that i love, the less that i feel. the times that i jumped never were real. they say that all scars heal, but i know maybe I won't but the waves won't break my boat" - boat, ed sheeran

"please, don't give up on me yet, i know i'll get better, i'm just not better yet. can you tell I'm trying? running out of breath, i know i'll get better, i'm just not better yet." - you signed up for this, maisie peters "but darling, there was no spark left for us. we won the battle, but lost the heart." - ghosts, banners

"tell my maker up above that i have had enough." - i can't carry this anymore, anson seabara

"i know that i'm talking too much and i'll get nowhere tryna do it at once, but oh my god, i wanna be someone." - stay young, maisie peters

"they say i may be making a mistake. i would've followed all the way, no matter how far. i know when you go down on your darkest roads, i would've followed all the way to the graveyard." - graveyard, halsey

"and you always say i'm never satisfied but i don't think that's true 'cause all I ever wanted was to be enough." - enough for you, olivia rodrigo

"i'm the love of your life until i make you mad. it's always one step forward and three steps back. do you love me, want me, hate me?" - 1 step forward, 3 steps back, olivia rodrigo

"too bad, but it's the life you lead. you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need. though you can see when you're wrong, you know you can't always see when you're right." - vienna, billy joel

"in youth, you'd lay awake at night and scheme of all the things you that would change but it was just a dream." - warriors, imagine dragons

"standing on the cliff face, highest fall you'll ever grace. it scares me half to death. look out to the future, but it tells you nothing so take another breath." - icarus, bastille

"i see a mountain in my way. it's looming larger by the day. i see a darkness in my fate. i'll drive my car without the brakes." - mountain at my gates, foals

"i'm afraid of all i am. my mind feels like a foreign land." - arcade, duncan lawrence

"i've been picking up my heart, he's been picking up her. and i never got past what you put me through but it's wonderful to see that it never fazed you." - mr perfectly fine, taylor swift

"pulled the car off the road to the lookout, could've followed my fears all the way down and maybe i don't quite know what to say but i'm here in your doorway. i just wanted you to know that this is me trying." - this is me trying, taylor swift

"memories can hurt you, how the words can burn you, making you feel alone, turning your heart to stone. life can be a nightmare, leave you feeling so scared. what are you going to do? where are you running to?" - hold your head up high, oh the larceny

"you can drive all night, looking for the answers in the pouring rain. you wanna find peace of mind, looking for the answer." - cigarette daydreams, cage the elephant

[annashiddenlibrary]

It's five AM, my time again

I've soakin' up the moon, can't sleep

It's five AM, my time again

I'm calling and you know it's me

I'm pushing myself further

I'm just tryna feel my heartbeat beat (beat)

I wrap my hands around your neck

You love it when I always squeeze

It's five AM, I'm high again

And you can see that I'm in pain

I've fallen into emptiness

I want you 'cause we're both insane

I'm staring into the abyss

I'm looking at myself again

I'm dozing off to R.E.M.

I'm trying not to lose my faith

And I love it when you watch me sleep

You spin me 'round so I can breathe

It's only safe for you and me

I know you won't let me OD

And if I finally die in peace

Just wrap my body in these sheets

And pour out the gasoline

It don't mean much to me

It's five AM, I'm nihilist

I know there's nothing after this (after this)

Obsessing over aftermaths

Apocalypse and hopelessness (hopelessness)

The only thing I understand

Is zero sum of tenderness (tenderness)

Oh, baby, please just hold me close

Make me believe there's more to live

Around, around, around, around we go

In this game called life, we are not free

And I love it when you watch me sleep

You spin me 'round so I can breathe

It's only safe for you and me (don't let me go)

I know you won't let me OD (don't you let me go)

And if I finally die in peace (ooh, yeah)

Just wrap my body in these sheets

And pour out the gasoline

It don't mean much to me

Ohh-oh-ooh

Oh-ooh-ooh-oh

Ohh-oh-ooh

Ha, hey-uh

Hey, huh, hey, huh

Huh, huh, huh, ha, huh

This song is among my favorites from this Dawn FM album. They express the feelings of emotional pain, emptiness, and a struggle with addiction.

Starting off with the first couple of lyrics you can find the hour "5am" which is a big deal in his song. He references to his 2015 song "The Hills" which stated:

"I only call you when it's half-past five"

Also, 5am it's usually the beginning of the dawn, which is the setting for the album.

Later on, you see that he is dying from an overdose, which is common if the person gets sick. In this cases people with ODs typically throw up while lying on his/her back, suffocating with his own vomit. That's why the girl he is with in the room is turning him around. 

In the chorus he states that if he were to die, to simply wrap his body in the sheets he’s laying in so that no one has to see the flesh boil, pour gasoline over his corpse, light a match and toss it. No burial, no funeral, nothing.

In the bridge, the 2nd lyric, The Weeknd says that life is like a Prison. Because he's a nihilist he doesn't care about what he does since life doesn't matter. This goes back to his BBTM song: "Prison".

Overall this is a great song which I personally love. I hope that you like it as much as me and you were happy with the eplainations of the song 🫶🏻 I took some ideeas from the Genius app since some lyrics I didn't understood myself))

[toxiicatiing-a]

“I don’t know what’s more bothersome; the fact that some pathetic Earthling is attempting to impersonate me, or that, while pretending to be, well, me, they attempt to... court that annoying yellow bug!”

The thought of anyone even thinking that the Autobot Bumblebee was good enough to be her partner was sickening.

“I’m going to purge, at this rate.”

[commanders-sole-braincell]

Update on the PC reflecting my emotional state

Turns out it’s a batch of dodgy coolers and they’re talking about sending me a new one to uninstall and reinstall myself

[httpsgwenkim]

how much panadol tablet in mg can i take that will make me pass out but not die