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I told my myself I'd be single for the rest of my life

But here I am, falling in love with every part of you - Alix

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Mmm, baby

It's just me and you

They couldn't see what I see in you, yeah

'Cause I believe in you

You're the only one I choose

Even though you break my heart, my heart

(Even though you break my heart, baby)

I know what we are, our love's too young (oh baby)

Even though you break my heart, my love

I'ma need you, I'ma need you, I'ma need you, yeah

Show me your broken heart and all your scars (oh, oh yeah)

Baby, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take you as you are

(I'll take you as you are, yeah)

Show me your broken parts to know your flaws (oh, oh yeah)

Baby, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take you as you are

(I'll take you as you are, yeah)

It's just you and I, ooh yeah

Just a phase in our little lie, yeah

We can sex all night, ooh-ah

I see the want to in your eyes

But you know I'll break your heart, your heart

'Cause I know what we are, and our love's too young

Even though I'll break your heart, your heart

I'ma need you, I'ma need you, I'ma need you, yeah

Show me your broken heart and all your scars (ooh, oh, oh yeah)

Baby, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take (I'll take baby)

I'll take you as you are (I'll take you as you are)

Show me your broken heart to know your flaws (ooh, oh, oh yeah)

Baby, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take (you'll know I'll take you)

I'll take you as you are (I'll take you as you are, yeah, yeah)

Oh-oh, ay-ay

You know it, you know I know it, baby

No, no, yeah

You know it, you know I know it, baby

You know, you know, you know

You know, know, oh

You know, know, baby

As I am, baby, won't you take me as I am?

As I am, as I am

As I am, baby, won't you take me as I am?

As I am, as I am

As I am, baby, won't you take me as I am?

As I am, as I am

As I am, baby, won't you take me as I am?

As I am, as I am

verses

pre-chorus

chorus

interlude

outro

I'm completly obsessed about this song. It's not really known in this album as much as "The Hills" or "Can't feel my face" but it's such a good one!!

It expresses the feeling of love that Abel has for a certain girl. He accepts her with her positives and negative sides and is aware of what means to have a relationship. He is ready to commit to it.

The repetition "I'll take you as you are" means the disperate need for that girl even though she has imperfections.

Let's break down the song now a little. In the first verse, the speaker introduces the girl, knowing that people won't accept their relationship.

In the pre-chorus Abel expresses the regret that they might break up because of their differences. Because they have an opposite lifestyle. He knows he won't let go to drugs, which is his addiction, that if he keeps having(and he knows he will) they will have flaws in the relationship.

He doesn't care about the girl's past even though he wants to commit to a relationship to her. Maybe that's because he still has some of his behaviour from younger him when he had lots of one night stands. But as Genius lyrics say it's probably just a cover up for another one night stand. "It should be noted that leading up to Beauty Behind the Madness, Abel’s been focused on a relationship with one girl over having sex with many. "

You can see in the second part that he falls into his old behaviour, wanting a one night stand more than building a lasting relationship.

In the end the girl doesn't want to commit with him even though he accepts her past. She doesn't want to go in for a relationship with him because it means to accept his lifestyle full of drugs and girls.

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It's five AM, my time again

I've soakin' up the moon, can't sleep

It's five AM, my time again

I'm calling and you know it's me

I'm pushing myself further

I'm just tryna feel my heartbeat beat (beat)

I wrap my hands around your neck

You love it when I always squeeze

It's five AM, I'm high again

And you can see that I'm in pain

I've fallen into emptiness

I want you 'cause we're both insane

I'm staring into the abyss

I'm looking at myself again

I'm dozing off to R.E.M.

I'm trying not to lose my faith

And I love it when you watch me sleep

You spin me 'round so I can breathe

It's only safe for you and me

I know you won't let me OD

And if I finally die in peace

Just wrap my body in these sheets

And pour out the gasoline

It don't mean much to me

It's five AM, I'm nihilist

I know there's nothing after this (after this)

Obsessing over aftermaths

Apocalypse and hopelessness (hopelessness)

The only thing I understand

Is zero sum of tenderness (tenderness)

Oh, baby, please just hold me close

Make me believe there's more to live

Around, around, around, around we go

In this game called life, we are not free

And I love it when you watch me sleep

You spin me 'round so I can breathe

It's only safe for you and me (don't let me go)

I know you won't let me OD (don't you let me go)

And if I finally die in peace (ooh, yeah)

Just wrap my body in these sheets

And pour out the gasoline

It don't mean much to me

Ohh-oh-ooh

Oh-ooh-ooh-oh

Ohh-oh-ooh

Ha, hey-uh

Hey, huh, hey, huh

Huh, huh, huh, ha, huh

This song is among my favorites from this Dawn FM album. They express the feelings of emotional pain, emptiness, and a struggle with addiction.

Starting off with the first couple of lyrics you can find the hour "5am" which is a big deal in his song. He references to his 2015 song "The Hills" which stated:

"I only call you when it's half-past five"

Also, 5am it's usually the beginning of the dawn, which is the setting for the album.

Later on, you see that he is dying from an overdose, which is common if the person gets sick. In this cases people with ODs typically throw up while lying on his/her back, suffocating with his own vomit. That's why the girl he is with in the room is turning him around. 

In the chorus he states that if he were to die, to simply wrap his body in the sheets he’s laying in so that no one has to see the flesh boil, pour gasoline over his corpse, light a match and toss it. No burial, no funeral, nothing.

In the bridge, the 2nd lyric, The Weeknd says that life is like a Prison. Because he's a nihilist he doesn't care about what he does since life doesn't matter. This goes back to his BBTM song: "Prison".

Overall this is a great song which I personally love. I hope that you like it as much as me and you were happy with the eplainations of the song 🫶🏻 I took some ideeas from the Genius app since some lyrics I didn't understood myself))

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Websites to learn languages by reading

Hyplern

Language Crush

Readlang

Vocab Tracker

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So, I've decided to make a list of French speaking YouTube channels for those who would like to improve their French while wasting time on social media:

NEWS

• Le Monde (also a TV channel)

• Le Figaro (also a magazine)

• HugoDécrypte - Actus du jour

• BLAST, Le souffle de l'info

TALK SHOWS/INTERVIEWS

• Origines Media

• Le Crayon

BOOKTUBE

• Audrey - Le Souffle des Mots

• annelitterarum (Québécois French!)

• Rêve ta Vie en Lecteur

• La bouquinade

• Jeannot se livre

• Sous le ciel (Québécois French!)

GAMING

• Fuze III

• Ninjaxx

• Myrolame

• KoldGeneration (Québécois French!)

• BellePinte (Belgian French!)

• PIXIA

• - NS -

• - PLOUF -

• Lu K

CINEMA

• Regelgorila

• WatchMojo Français 

• Topcorn (Québécois French!)

SCIENCE

• Linguisticae

• Nat Geo France

• TheSimplySpace

• Science & Vie TV 

OTHER

• Trash

• HIBOU SAGE

• Trucs De Fou

• Info ou Mytho ?

• SYMPA

I hope this list was useful! Good luck with learning French :)

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Websites to practice Front-End

(22/02/2023)

Today I wanted to share websites to practice your frontend skills.

Front-end is complicated for my head (ask me to solve an algorithm with structure while but not to center a div HUEHHUE).

BUT at the same time I love a well done and coded design/ui. That's why today I want to share resources to help you train

1- Front-End Practice

They have 3 levels, beginner, intermediate and advanced. There's no "answer" so you can't copy the code, it's just you trial and error until you get to the template (which really is a website that exists)

One thing I thought was really cool here was that it tells you what you're going to practice the most in the exercise, color palette and search features.

It's very interesting for a front-end not to be dependent on a tutorial, because from what I've seen in interviews, they ask you to make a layout and you won't be able to make one yourself if you don't learn to break down a single layout from the beginning and try and making mistakes until it's perfect.

2- DevChallenges

I find the projects not only beautiful visually but also interesting to practice. Here you already have the solutions that other people recommend, but again I think it's best for us to try and make mistakes until we get similar.And it also sorts the levels.

Here an example:

Cool huh? Well, I hope this helps someone who is looking for projects to practice with. We can invest a lot of time trying to make a layout, so having something ready I know helps a lot.

I wish you good studies and a great Wednesday, drink water.

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Beginner JavaScript Projects

POV: You’ve studied HTML and CSS, you’ve made some cool projects and now you’re moving on to learn JavaScript. If you're just starting out learning JavaScript, it can be helpful to have a list of beginner projects to work on in order to get your feet wet and gain practical experience. 

I’ve combined a list of 5 mini projects to be working on - some I have done myself! Don’t worry, for each project I've added a video tutorial that you could use as a reference to help with your own version of the project!

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Basic image gallery 📸

A web page displays a grid of images and allows the user to click on an image to view a larger version of it. This could come in handy when making Tumblr themes 👀

The JavaScript side: Handle the user's clicks!

Video tutorial: [LINK]

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Simple to-do list app 📝

A web page that allows the user to add, remove, and mark items on a to-do list.

The JavaScript side:  Manipulate the page's HTML elements and store the to-do list data in the browser's local storage!

Video tutorial: [LINK]

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Basic calculator 🧮

A web page with a simple calculator that can perform basic arithmetic operations.

The JavaScript side:  Handles user input, perform calculations, and display the results on the page!

Video tutorial: [LINK]

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Random quote generator 📜

A web page  that displays a random quote from a predefined list of quotes each time the page is loaded or a button is clicked.

The JavaScript side:  Selects a random quote from the list and displays it on the page.

Video tutorial: [LINK]

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Simple rock-paper-scissors game 🎮

A web page that allows the user to play a game of rock-paper-scissors against the computer. I did this project during my coding night classes! 😊

The JavaScript side: Handles user input, generates the computer's move and determines the winner of the game.

Video tutorial: [LINK]

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I hope this helps someone, it's really good to build projects as you're learning! JavaScript can be a bit tricky towards the harder concepts so it's good to have a good understanding of the basics, project building helps with that! Thanks for reading and have a nice day/night! 💻👍🏾

[⏪ previous programming post]

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15 Days of Deity Devotion

This is a shortened version of the famous 30 days of Deity Devotion.

I struggled to complete the 30 days challenge because it is sooo long and I felt that some parts were redundant, so I wanted to make a shorter one compiling all my favorite parts + a fluff one I wanted to add.

Day 1 - Basic Introduction

Day 2 - Genealogy 

Day 3 -  Symbols & Attributes

Day 4 - Favorite Myth(s)

Day 5 - Names & Epithets 

Day 6 - Relations to Other Gods

Day 7 - Offerings - Historical & UPG

Day 8 - Festivals and Sacred Days

Day 9 - Sacred Places or where the Deity was Worshiped 

Day 10 - Devotional Practices 

Day 11 - Piece of art (visual, music, writing, etc…) in which you see this Deity 

Day 12 - Aesthetics you Associate with this Deity

Day 13 -  Your Own Art about this Deity

Day 14 -  Your Relationship to this Deity/How do they Influence your Life?

Day 15 - What do you wish to learn/Where do you want this relationship to go ? 

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HP 101: Where to start

Hellenic Polytheism can be a bit daunting to start off - and it’s hard to know where to find the right information or what to research! Hopefully this post will help to give you a starting point - but please don’t base all your information off of one person! NOTE: I may link posts with conflicting information/methods. I leave it to you to decide what feels right and fits for you!

Websites, book lists and PDFs:

Theoi.com

Library Genesis

Hellenism resources

PDFs of myths

HP online accurate resources

Classics, mythology and modern worship

HP book list

Accurate resources

Book recommendations and online resources

Bibliography of Black-Centered Resources for Ancient Mediterranean Studies

The types of HP:

Recon vs. Revivalism

Reconstructionism vs Revivalism

The basics of practicing HP:

Making libations

Introduction to epithets

Veiling basics + a veiling primer + basic hair binding and veiling + hellenic hairstyles in religious rites

How to write a prayer

Daily prayer journal

How to pray, praise and worship the Theoi

Homeric hymns - helpful for writing devotionals, hymns, etc. (external site)

The Delphic Maxims

Basic Hellenic supplies

Oaths

Sacred places

Offerings (and whether or not to eat them)

Hellenic khthonic ritual

How to honor Ouranic and Chthonic gods

Hellenic Calendars and when to worship deities:

The days of the month

Devotions for the last day of the month

A Hellenismos calendar 

Hellenion.org calendar (external site)

Hellenic festival year (external site)

About the Hellenic calendar of festivals

Pronunciation and terminology:

Hellenic pronunciation for the Theoi + Hellenic pronunciation pt. 2 + article

Khernips + Khernips pt. 2 + pt. 3

Miasma, khernips and katharmosis

On Lyma

Hellenic terminology (external site)

Finding / Information on deities:

Sacred animals of the gods 

Theoi.com (my go-to)

Household gods

The Nymphai

Odds and ends:

On household worship

Other resources:

List of devotees on tumblr

Practical practicing of HP

This wonderful resource masterpost!

Masterpost of Hellenic polytheism and Roman polytheism resources

Shops for Hellenic polytheists

Introduction to Ancient Greek History - open Yale course

Note: Some areas are certainly lacking in the information department, please add resources if you have them! I’ve included all I could find as of mid 2020.

Links updated June, 2020. Please inform me of broken links via askbox!

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Hi I realise that this probably isn’t the kind of ask that you usually get but I’ve been wanting to get into Hellenic polytheism for a little while now but have no idea where to start. Are there certain books or texts I should read? Are there values or rules I should know to follow? do I need to be of a specific nationality or worship specific gods within the religion? How do I pray and make altars? Are there specific clothing garments that should be worn?

again I’m sorry for the bombardment of questions but I have been scouring the internet looking for how best to go about this and have found nothing so I thought it would just be best to ask someone.

thank you in advance if you do end up answering this but if you don’t that’s understandable and thank you anyway :)

Hi there! It's alright. I'm open to all sorts of asks and happy to help!

Before we get into it, I'll be talking about some things that might be quite traditional, things I use as someone who relies on historical accuracy in my practice to a certain degree. You don't need to strictly do everything like the ancients did. If you'd like to reconstruct in your practice that's awesome. I know from my own experience that it can be difficult at first, so don't be too hard on yourself if you can't do something. It takes time, patience and a lot of learning.

Texts

IMO the basics are The Iliad, The Odyssey, Theogony, Homeric Hymns and such.

Theoi.com is a fantastic resource for myths, cults, and historical information on the gods. The website has a library where you can find plenty of classical texts.

Here's my post on how mythology applies to religion. I'd like to edit it soon and add a couple things but maybe you'll find it helpful.

These also might be helpful:

Perseus Digital Library

Sacred Texts - classics

What to avoid:

Hellenic Online Groups/Forums to Avoid

Authors to Watch Out For in Hellenismos

Rules

You don't need to be of a specific nationality, ethnicity or come from a specific background. It's an open religion, meaning everyone's welcome regardless of where they come from!

There is no one specific strict set of rules one needs to follow in order to be a Hellenic Polytheist. There are certain customs, for example when it comes to worship and of course, remember to learn and respect the culture and the tradition.

If we observe the history, there are things that might seem like some form of rules but it didn't just regard the religion. It was also about functioning in the ancient society and religion played an important role in said society. Not all of these rules may be applicable nowadays, though and they could vary in different regions.

Some of them include:

Don't violate Xenia

Stay true to your oaths

Don't allow Agos

Don't abuse supplicants

Stand against murder

Bury the dead

Try to approach the gods while washed

Obey sacred laws (they varied depending on the sanctuary)

Respect Pythia

Do not steal from temples

Now, in the modern-day reconstruction of the Ancient Greek religion, these are the so-called Pillars of Hellenismos:

Ethike Arête - the practice of habitual excellence

Eusebia - reverence, loyalty, and sense of duty toward the Gods

Hagneia - the maintaining of ritual purity by avoiding miasma

Nomos Arkhaios - observance of ancient tradition, (religious) law, and customs

Sophia - the pursuit of wisdom, understanding, and truth

Sophrosune - the control of self through deep contemplation

Xenia - adherence to hospitality and the guest-host relationship

It's more of a modern thing created for the purpose of reconstruction and has its origins in philosophy. They're pretty much the ideals the ancients admired and strived for, which can be mirrored in one's practice. I think they can be quite helpful. Not everyone follows the same pillars, however. They may vary depending on the practitioner.

Prayer & altar space

Your altar can be as extra or as simple as you want. Essentially, it's a space you dedicate to the gods. The altar doesn't need to be super big or too fancy. It's up to you. You can have one altar for multiple gods or a general home altar. It's quite practical. You can also have separate altars to the deities of your choice but that's not a requirement. For example, I have a general altar for Theoi where I normally pray and make offerings and separate altars for my patrons.

Some "basic" elements an altar could include are:

Candles

Something to burn the incense

A place for the offerings, e.g. a plate/bowl

A depiction of the deity, e.g. a statue, drawing, image

Something that reminds you of the, e.g. their symbols

You don't need to spend a fortune. Handmade things are always a good way to honour the gods.

If you need to practice in secret you could make a "hidden" altar. I mentioned it here: LINK

When it comes to prayer, traditionally there are some customs depending on the deity:

When praying to Ouranic [heavenly] Gods, one should stand with hands outstretched in the air and palms facing upward

When praying to Chthonic [underworld] Gods, hands mustn’t be raised, and the prayer should be murmured

When praying to Einalic [sea] Gods, Nymphs and spirits of the earth, arms must be spread wide towards the sea; the hands are also be facing the cult image

You can pray out loud or silently, though. I often do it "in my head" whenever I can't do it out loud.

One more important thing. I won't ramble about it here but here's a great post about purification and miasma: LINK

Getting dressed

It's not required to wear a certain type of clothing however, if you're down for something like that veiling could be an option. Its purpose was to exhibit modesty. It was a common practice among women but it was not exclusive to them, men did veil as well.

It's a good way to honour Hestia, for example as she's known to wear a veil herself.

Here's an amazing post about it listing different styles: LINK

The most well know form of veiling involved using Himation, a rectangular cloak or shawl wrapped around the body and thrown over the left shoulder, like on the picture above but a more simple way to veil could even be wearing a beanie.

Or... you could always do it Achilles' way lmao! ↑ Whatever floats your boat!

Additional links

Here are some posts that might be useful:

Hellenic Polytheism Masterpost

Hellenic Polytheism 101

Cheat sheets for Hellenic deities

Offerings (traditionally)

Misinfo about Hellenismos

Hubris

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Offerings to Aphrodite

incense

foods: honey, fruit, olive oil, red wine, chocolate, sweets, water, vanilla, baked goods, honey cakes

talk to her, vent and tell her about your day

jewelry

write her poetry and letters

sing her hymns

perfume

self love

music/devotional playlists

flowers

statues

crystals

imagery of her sacred objects/symbols

mirrors

sand

ocean water

candles

makeup

Devotional acts

self love/care

random acts of kindness

feed birds

protect our oceans

clean beaches

enjoy and recognize the beauty in the world

sing to her and dance for her

stand up for yourself

support s3x workers, LGBTQIA+, and women

self pleasure

honor her children and Ares

love others

read love stories/poetry in her name (especially Sappho!)

*information taken from my personal book of shadows

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Being a librarian who wonders through the books, who reads at the candle light till late at night, who translates books from Greek, Latin and French, who goes to art museums, classical music, who writes poetry, knows all the readers of the library, who runs thought the rain and enjoys spending time with the person who loves by heart.. that’s what life is.. that’s what I’d want if money wouldn’t count..

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Why do we always focus on the reasons to be angry/sad when there are an infinite number of reasons to be happy

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looking back, last summer was actually great

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Grammar 1 lesson 3

Those days I’ve been learning some grammar so I’ll share it with you.

Pronouns:

Εγώ Εμείς

Εσύ Εσείς

Αυτός/Αυτή/Αυτό Αυτοί/Αυτές/Αυτά

To be verb (είμαι)

είμαι είμαστε

είσαι είσαστε

είναι είναι

Pronouns in Ac

εμένα/με εμάς/μας

εσένα/σε εσάς/σας

αυτόν/τον αυτούς/τους

αυτήν/την αυτές/τις

αυτό/το αυτά/τα

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Oh, the feeling when you realize that you now can browse sites in your target language and not feel lost

The feeling when you realize that you can, slowly, but translate sentences to your target language

The feeling when you hear someone speak your target language and you understand more than half of it

I live for this feeling

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Vocabulary | Lesson 2, part II

αδελφός - brother

εγώ - I

Ελλάδα - Greece

μουσική - music

φίλος - friend

γκαράζ - garage

δεσποινίς - lady

ταξί - taxi

και - and

Αγγλία - England

��ερό - water

τάξη - classroom

φαρμακείο - farmacy

αύριο - tomorrow

χάρτης - map

σαλάτα - salad

παγωτό - ice cream

ώρα - hour

άντρας - man

εσύ - you

άνθρωπος - human

περίπτερο - kiosk

γιατρός - doctor

μαθαίνω - to learn

καφές -coffe

ψωμί - bread

ποιος-who

γυναίκα - woman

λεπτό - minute

κρεβάτι - bed

ευχαριστώ - thank you

κοντά - close

μαύρος - black

βιβλίο - book

αγόρι - boy

δωμάτιο - room

κωμωδία -comedy

θάλασσα-big

φοιτητής- student