#I'm tired of fangirling while black

[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

I watched Fright Krewe in February, and it is now September and Tumblr still has no content of it. Black Fangirl Problems strikes again at Tumblr.

Edit: Just realized that I haven't seen the second season. March was right about where my life went quite wrong. Lemme go find this...

[redtsundere-writes]

Imagine:

Heartsteel Members As Iconic BTS Moments

Contents: Funny moments, SFW

Word Count: 569 words.

Author's Note: Hello again! I'm sorry about my absence. This has been a busy week since I just graduated from college! I'm finally a certified translator! So, you'll see me around here more often 0.0

> In an interview, Heartsteel was asked what they like from one another. K���Sante looked at Yone and said: “I like your brain.” Yone felt appreciated and thanked him. After that cute interaction, it was his turn to say something nice to Kayn but he struggled to find a good thing to say about him. “I like your eyebrows” Yone finally said. Kayn flexed his eyebrows on fleek to the camara before turning to Sett. Without a beat he goes: “I like your elbow,” and then giggled. Sett felt offended by the weird compliment tried to elbowed him since he liked it so much. 

> Kayn loves his fans more than any other Heartsteel member, so he screams the fandom name into a mic everytime he can. Kayn will scream “HEARTSBEAAAAAAAATS!” at random times during interviews, podcasts, and concerts.

> In Japan, Yone explained to the interviewer that the other members of Heartsteel arent very good at speaking japanese. Out of nowhere, Aphelios says to the interviewer in fluent japanese: “I like your videos, your videos are so nice.” “Oh, well, he can speak a little” Yone said dumbfounded. 

> In another interview, Sett kept singing Despacito throughout the whole show, embarrassing himself. K’Sante kept repeating that he was a rapper and not a singer, so people wouldn’t think that Heartsteel songs sound like that. 

> The interviewer asked how they deal with girls and fangirls in their dating life. Ezreal simply answered: “I don’t think”

> At the Grammy’s, someone ask who is the bad boy in the group. Everyone quickly looked at Kayn. He just smirked to the camera with confidence. “I’m bad boy,” he said with his ego up his ass. 

> Yone was hosting a Q&A at a fanmeeting. He picked a question about them hanging all the time because of Heartsteel. “Do you ever get tired of eachother since you live together?” he read aloud. Ezreal jumped from his seat and hugged Kayn over his shoulders. “No, you are my bro,” Ezreal said with a big smile while the punk tried to push him away, even if he liked the attention. 

> K’Sante has a tradition with Heartbeats at every concert. He will craft red hearts to incorporate into his outfit on stage or show in creative ways for the audience to show his appreciation for their support throughout his career.

> At a podcast, Aphelios revealed that he likes to draw, he even showed some of his drawings. The host encouraged him to post his drawing to social media. Aphelios said that his drawings were a secret. The host giggled and said: “Not anymore since this will be uploaded to YouTube.” Aphelios stayed quiet after that fuck up. 

> At a radio show, the host asked Heartsteel members to present themselves and say something most people don’t know about them. K’Sante went first and thought about a secret he was willing to share. “I’m hungry. Top Secret,” he said, making everyone laugh at the booth. Sett confessed: “My underwear is black.” Everyone looked at him confused.

> At a Halloween Special, Heartsteel went to a haunted house. Sett tried to square up at every zombie he saw. 

> They were playing air hockey at an arcade once. K’Sante and Sett were playing against eachother. Sett hit the pock so hard that it flew out of the table and landed on Aphelios nuts. Everyone laughed at him while he was holding his balls in pain. 

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[reyreadersblog]

hihihi!!!! Can I please req some Grayson and Lyra hcs? Like cute or angsty ones idm 💕

Hii pookie, of course i can💟♥️

Hope you like itt

Pairings: Lyra Kane x Grayson Davenport Hawthorne

A/n: all of these are MY hcs, so if you don't like it, please be respectful🙏🏻

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LYRA X GRAYSON HCSS

• Idk if this makes sense but if Lana del Rey was a couple they would be the one, because they are so Lana coded♡

• when Lyra gets tired wearing high heels, she takes them off and gives them to Grayson to carry it.

• my guy would do ANYTHING for her.

• Grayson is very sensitive when it comes to his hair, but Lyra is the only one who can touch it.

• she's a WILD animal, i'm telling you, when she wants to do something, she will do it no matter what or how risky it is, And Gray is always dying when she sees her doing something dangerous.

• they had litearl investogation on each other, i'm not even kidding, not even a fully solved case would have as much documents as they did.

• she calls him by his middle name, Devenport🤭 thanks to @lyrakanefanatic for this idea.

• Lyra's laugh makes Grayson WEAK.

• they're a switch...i'm just gonna..leave it here.

• they'd have a heartbreaking, soul shattering love confession outside in the rain.

• sometimes Gray calls her love as a joke.

• it would take them a WHILE to become a couple.

• they both have daddy issues, yayy.

• they can easly tell when one's mood changed.

• periods are very hard for Lyra, so Grayson tries everything he can and is really careful during that tine if month.

• when they fight, it's actually something REALLY serious.

• Lyra is kind of a sunshine too in their relationship (compared to Gray), but with more of a sarcastic persinality.

• she can make him do anything with her eyes and smile.

• Grayson unbraids her hair.

• they are the IT couple, fans are crazy over them.

• Lyra gets super jealous when fangirls talk and swoon over Grayson.

• HAND. ON. THE. WAIST. y'all. That's his way of claiming her.

• both are pretty dominant in their relationship.

• they have a code word too, like how Averyjameson has tahiti (probably lilies)

• one time Grayson wore all black and my girl diedd.

• they would have so much banter.

• Grayson would fs propose to her with the black opal ring.

[zacian117]

The Psycho

Flight alternative

Lando Norris Fanfic

⚠️Warnings: blood, decapitation, killing

On Thursday, October 12, 2023. A fit 24-year-old British man with curly brown hair, grey hazel eyes, and tan skin. Wearing a dark green hoodie with the number 4 in yellow, blue jeans, and black Converse shoes. A papaya and black-colored Mclaren drove smoothly through the road surrounded by the fall season forest.

He was tapping his finger on the wheel and humming to the music playing on the radio. The music was then interrupted by a call.

“Hey Lando, how’s the drive to the hotel?” A male British accent voice asked. “Hey Max, It’s going great … I’m almost at the hotel in about 5 minutes … I’ll call you back when I get there … Bye,” Lando then ended the call.

When he got there, he parked in front of the hotel. It was getting dark and windy. “Well, here we are,” he muttered to himself. He got out of the car and opened the trunk to get his backpack. Thunder started to erupt with the dark, windy sky. This sent Lando into a fright, giving him goosebumps on his skin.

He closed the trunk and put his backpack over his shoulders. He went inside the hotel, to be greeted by two customers and a worker. The two female customers were yapping about something, minding their own business. One of the female customers was a brunette, the other was a blonde.

Lando went up to the receptionist to book a room for himself. “Um, excuse me, can I book a room, Please,” Lando asked. “Well, certainly.” The male receptionist replied. He was pale like he hadn’t been outside for his lifetime. He was thin with wavy dark hair and had blue eyes. ‘This place gives me the creeps’ Lando thought to himself while looking around the lobby floor.

“Okay then, I will need your name, please.” the receptionist stated “Lando Norris,” Lando replied to the receptionist. He saw the name tag of the receptionist’s name, Larry Ravenswood. “Well, here you go Mr. Norris,” Larry then gave Lando the key to his room, room 217. Lando walked toward the stairs to get to his room.

The two lady customers looked at Lando with recognition. “Oh my god, it’s Lando Norris,” the blond girl said with excitement. “You are totally right, McLaren’s infamous Formula 1 driver,” the brunette taunted.

Both girls started to fangirl about him. Larry on the other hand didn’t show it but, his eyes showed that he was annoyed. He could tell that Lando looked tired and that he wanted to go to his room to rest.

Larry interrupted the conversation that both of the ladies were having with Lando. He cleared his throat and said, “Excuse me, but I think Mr. Norris needs to go to his room because he seems a bit tired.” in a sharp motionless voice. Both women pouted and scoffed at Larry for interrupting the conversation.

“Well, then, I’ll take my leave.” Lando nodded at the ladies nervously because he did not want to speak with them again. Then he looked at Larry and thanked him.

Lando went upstairs to his room to rest for tomorrow. When he got to room 217, he opened the door and went inside, closing the door behind him, and locking it. He leaned against the door and breathed a sigh of relief.

He walks through the small hallway to see the king-sized bed. On the right side, there was a door that led to the bathroom, in front of it there was a television, and on the left corner next to the television was a table with two chairs.

He placed his backpack on the bed and took his shoes off. “I should call Max that I’m at the hotel,” He says to himself. He grabs his phone from his pocket and dials his best friend's number.

“Hello? Hey, Max how are you… I'm doing great… Yeah just got my room, but this hotel doesn’t feel right… It's like giving me the heebie-jeebies, but all in all, I'm still alive… Yea, I should get some rest… It’s 10:00 pm here… Well, then goodnight.” With that Lando ended the call between him and his best friend, Max Fewtell.

Lando opens his backpack to grab a pair of sweatpants. He went to the bathroom to change. Once out of the bathroom, he gets ready for bed. But then he hears footsteps walking by his door, through the hallway outside of his room.

Lando went to check what was going on outside of his room.

He checked the peephole, but there was nothing. He opens the door to see the hallway was empty.

He closes the door and locks it. “That was weird,” he mumbles to himself. Then he goes back to bed, turning off the lamp and pulling the bed covers over his head. He closes his eyes and drifts off to sleep, deafening the sounds surrounding him.

3:00 am, Friday, October 13, 2023. Lando’s sleep was disturbed by a loud, sharp, piercing cry.

He bolted out of his bed, with his heart racing in fear. He stared at the door, taking in a few deep breaths trying to calm his heart down. He went and grabbed his shoes, put them on, and quickly rushed out the door to see where the scream came from.

He ran through the long hallway until he got to the staircase. He slowed down, seeing droplets of a strange red liquid on the stairs leading to the lobby floor.

Lando went downstairs to the lobby following the red liquid to a ballroom that was still under construction. He kept on following the trailers of red liquid until it stopped at a slightly opened white double door. He moved the door wide enough to see what was inside.

There were candles around lighting up the room, there was blood all over the floor, and there was a chair right in the center. On the bloodied floor, there were body parts in different directions on the floor covered in blood. The insides were smeared on the floor, everywhere. And on the chair, there was the decapitated head of the blonde chick he saw in the lobby with her mouth wide open, as if she were in shock, face covered in blood.

Lando’s heart raced uncontrollably, thudding in his chest so hard he could feel it echoing in his ears. His face drained of color, leaving his skin ghostly pale, while his eyes widened in shock, pupils dilating as they locked onto the horrifying sight. He was frozen in place, sweat falling on his face.

What caught his attention was muffled noises coming from the room next door. He went up to the door and creaked the door slightly open.

He saw the brunette lady on a chair tied up, her mouth covered in duct tape. Tears fell from her eyes with panic on her face. She was looking at something or someone. A figure came out of the shadows with a bloodied knife in their right hand, swiftly moving it from left to right, as if they were taunting the woman.

She started to hysterically cry. “You two wouldn’t keep your damn mouths shut!” A familiar voice that Lando recognized said. The figure went behind the brunette, placing the sharp knife near her cheek. The figure was none other than the receptionist, Larry Ravenswood.

“Look at what happened to your friend and you know what, that will also happen to you. The reason why I’m doing this is because I want to,” Larry says menacingly in a low voice. He crouched down in front of her, knife on her chin, pouting his lips, as if he were poking the woman on the chair for fun.

“Well then, bye-bye”, Larry motionless declared. Cutting the throat of the brunette girl. Muffled cries of pain cried through the tape on her mouth, later the cries died down. Blood was dripping out of the dead brunette’s throat. Her eyes were still open with no emotion in them, her face drained from its colors declaring that she died from blood loss.

Lando quietly gasped. He backed away from the door, tears forming from his eyes. He put his hand over his mouth to prevent any noise. Listening to Larry Ravenswood cutting up the brunette woman with the bloody knife.

He witnessed something horrific. He shouldn’t have seen this, he should’ve minded his own business, but he was curious. Curiosity kills the cat.

Lando to a few deep breaths, then ran back to his room quietly. Once there, he opens his door and rushes in, closing it shut and locking it. Leaning his back on the door, Lando slid down taking deep breaths and trying to calm himself done. His heart beating rapidly. Tears falling from his eyes. He got up from the floor and walked to the bed.

He took his shoes off and went under the covers. Lying down on the bed, staring at the ceiling. He couldn’t sleep… he just couldn’t… It just keeps flashing in his mind… Why did he run?... Just Why?

In the Morning, Lando packed all his things in his backpack. He exited out of his room, going down the stairs to the lobby floor. On the lobby floor, he went straight to the receptionist to check in his room.

“I would like to check in my room, please,” Lando shakenly said giving the key to the female receptionist. “Okay then, Name please,” the female receptionist answered. “Lando Norris.” He responded to the receptionist. She typed on the computer to check in the room, “That would be $221, Cash or card?” the receptionist offered. “Uhm, card please,” Lando stated giving the receptionist his card to pay.

The receptionist gave Lando his card back after putting in the information to pay for the room. “Here you go, we hope you like your stay,” the female receptionist added with a sweet smile. “Thank you,” Lando uttered leaving the hotel and going to his car.

Once he got to his car, he opened the trunk, tossed his backpack in, and closed it. He then went to the front door of his car, opening the door, and getting inside. Sitting down He took a few deep breaths, calming himself down from what he just witnessed at night. He turned on the car and started to drive the morning fall-season forest.

“I really need therapy after this,” Lando mumbled to himself driving through the road surrounded by the forest

[infamous-if]

I’m curious what the RO’s homes/bedrooms look like because I think it can tell a whole lot about someone 🤔

I'M GLAD YOU ASKED. I was actually ruminating over what Sev's room/apartment, in particular, would look like the other day.

Seven's room is very dark to me. Black walls, a lot of band posters plastered everywhere. It's a mess but an organized mess. Very much what a music enthusiast's room would look like in a 2000s teen movie lol. They've never grown out of the 'fanboy/fangirl' phase so they'd just have posters all over, they have a dresser of vintage records on one side and a mirror full of photo booth pictures and photos of their life tacked to it. Their bed is never made, mostly because Seven is always in bed when they're home. Seven has clothes strewn just about everywhere but they claim to know where everything is. A lot of ripped-out pages of scrapped out song lyrics on the floor. My imagination of Seven's songwriting process is a lot of pacing, a lot of humming. They get their best ideas while doing other stuff like cleaning and cooking. Outside of their room, their apartment is also messy with a lot of novels strewn about. Seven is very sentimental so every gift they've ever gotten is on display. Their bathroom is clean but messy; just a lot of hair products and makeup everywhere. Seven's "I just rolled out of bed" look is a stylistic choice lmao

I can imagine Sev being a very annoying neighbor to have since they always have music on and they're always singing. Seven has never actually cleaned their place quickly because of all the times they stop to have a mini concert in their living room. Seven is fun when they're alone lol

Orion's is expectantly clean and very minimalist. His room is barren, a plain black bed with a metal headboard. He always has incense burning and has an air purifier and a lot of tech. Everything is spotless and there's not anything out of place. Orion's place is a lot of dark furniture, a lot of leather, and a lot of gray and white in terms of looks. He has a large glass balcony that he likes to do work on in the mornings. I imagine him to have a large closet with all just suits on one side and just...straight up black clothes on the other. Orion isn't one to wear anything colorful. His neighbors love him and want to connect with him but Orion is not interested lol More than a few times he'd come home and just plops himself on his couch and falls asleep due to how tired he was.

Sebastian's home is large but sparsely decorated. He has a big TV to play his video games on and it's what you'd think is a stereotypical young guy's place: brown couch, some video game memorabilia, and some sports stuff. He has a huge gamer computer setup he built himself. He uses it for games and for coding and general data stuff. Sebastian likes displaying all of his goodies and stuff and he doesn't touch Maya's room, which is much like Seven's in that it's super cluttered with music stuff and posters. Sebastian's house is what a default sims house looks like: nothing stylish, just generic furniture.

Victoria and G's is luxurious that leans more to anything that they like they just toss it in there. Huuuuge with plushy colorful couches and overpriced designer furniture. OH! If anyone has seen Cara Delevigne's AD...that's what their house would look like. Just chaotic everywhere with so many knickknacks and things that it's like an assault on your every single sense. Funky wallpapers, leopard rugs. A lot of that, surprisingly, is G's doing. G was very set on designing their house. They're barely home and live mostly in hotels anyway so it doesn't really matter.

August's is pretty generic; gray walls, purple bed. They live with their family (August was supposed to live with a roommate but I changed it to better fit their route) and Clare tends to be the messy one. I would say August's room is half and half, it's pretty empty but what they do have takes up a lot of space like their drum set and their huge speakers. The house is big (August's parents are pretty well-off as politicians) and very Grecian in appearance. August doesn't have much knickknacks and things like Seven. They're pretty detached to sentimental things like that. It's a very standard room, the centerpiece definitely being their drums. They have a huge computer set up, though, like a gamer set up like Seb's but they don't use it for games lmao

[revel-inbluehues]

Oh my goodness gracious, I am several different types of broken rn. I just watched episode 7, and I NEED TO RANT AND I'M PROBABLY GOING TO LEAK A SPOILER OR TWO.

Okay, firstly, the first half was hilarious, just FX and MQ being absolute comedic gold. I completely forgot that FX was afraid of women since I read the novels a long time ago, but it was hilarious. He looked so disgusted. Them getting in funny situation is good as it is, but the animators did a fantastic job at the facial expressions of FX, MQ and the background heavenly officials who were hearing all of this play out. I laughed at it all, and poor SQX being embarrassed, tired, and exasperated at the dice shenanigans that he had to deal with earlier.

But, funny as it was, the second part was my favourite bit.

I literally froze when I saw Fang Xin. It was beautiful and terrifying at the same time. Knowing what that blade had done, the history it has made it so much more impactful since this is the first time since this is the first time XL is seeing it in 600 years or so while this is the first time HC is seeing it in around 800 years if I remember it correctly. It is such a metaphorically heavy blade, and seeing its design and animation is so very beautiful.

Meanwhile, LQQ commented on how different XL seemed, and XL responded on how this is how he always was, just that LQQ never knew it. Even still, XL felt like a teacher to LQQ, so I feel like no matter how separate XL tried to be, he did very much care for LQQ as I'm sure the next episode will show.

But I think the major part that got me was LQQ's speech about not becoming full of resentment or like XL, which is one hell of a gut punch. Once again, bravo to the animators for that little cut to XL's eyes widening. I always knew LQQ was a parallel to XL, and it is most clearest here. In that moment, XL knew that he was LQQ's White No Face, and that, in LQQ's perspective, where he started the worst moments of his life in a twisted attempt to make LQQ just as resentful as him. It was a fantastic comparison and a terrible irony to XL, something he clearly acknowledged as he laughed and tried so hard not to cry. XL's comparison to the White No Face is something that will probably hurt every time, since to XL, only he and JW know about it, and he's unable to share the burden of what happened, which probably just hurts even more. The parallel between LQQ's words to XL and XL's words to White No-Face is so painful, especially to XL, who thinks that it's his burden to bare, and it probably hurts more when you consider that he literally just got Fang Xin back.

And throughout all of this, the one other person who knew all of this, and wanted to share the burden was standing right next to him, looking hurt and about to cry as he watch his most loved hurt. HC knew the significance of it all, and it was a stark reminder of all the times he failed to protect the one he loved the most, and since this right after he accidently hurt XL as well, this must be painful for him too. There is so much foreshadowing for all the donghua-watchers only and so much tragedy underlining this scene.

The part where XL hesitated to hold Fangxin, when you know everything, hurts so much. It caused him so much trauma, wielding it would have just been such a painful reminder.

Let me move onto fangirling before I cry.

Firstly, I was waiting for the daruma doll bit for a while. He looks so cute and angry at the same time. It's adorable, and I laughed when LQQ side-eyed HC in the daruma form.

Secondly, why do HC and XL still look so HOT EVEN AS THE WEIRD CANDLE DEMONS, OMG???? HC with horns, blue skins, and black sclera is going to haunt me for DAYS, and XL looks so good with it as well. The candles on their heads look so funny though.

The next episode is for the Qi Rong simps, and I would like to remind everyone that Qi Rong, heathen that he is, is still physically hot, even if I have the visceral desire to punch him.

[pablitogavii]

Hii, could you maybe write a sub gavi smut like he‘s all whiney while edging him and he‘s begging you to let him cum, but you don’t give in so easy

Swap Roles

"Seriously? She literally licked your face!" you were angry about the incident that happened at the bar Pablo went with his teammates one night after a win where a fangirl asked for a picture but started licking his face in the middle of it.

"Amor, tranquí. It's not a big deal. I didn't expect her to do that but it was funny afterwards nothing else.." Pablo said nonchalantly while eating some cereal the next morning.

"Funny? Right! So if I go lick some guy at the bar that would be funny??" you say with your hands on your hips and he had a nerve to smirk taking his last bite before walking up to you cockily.

"Amor, if you want to lick something..I might be able to help with that" he teased but you were in no mood for this still quite pissed off that he wasn't taking this seriously.

"Fuck you Gavira!" you only used his last name when he seriously fucked up but he was still messing around winking at you and acting like this was all one big joke.

"I'm a little tired now..but I could never say 'no' to you nena" he was about to pull you closer but you stomped your feet as you walked away into your shared bedroom and slammed the door behind you.

You made plans with Francesca and Aurora to go out tonight and swap roles a little to teach Gavi a lesson. You would never of course do anything close to cheating on him (you loved him so much) but you wanted to make him feel worried so he sees it's not a joke.

You finished getting ready around ten getting out of the bedroom to look for your heels when Pablo caught the sight of you in a black mini dress pausing his game immediately.

"Amor, are you going somewhere?" he asks while furrowing his eyebrows considering that you spend a whole day not talking to him inside the bedroom.

"I'm going out with friends tonight" you said coldly while he jumped off the bed to walk up to you and observe your quite mouth watering little outfit.

"You look beautiful, nena" he says and you mentally cursed him for being so adorable making it impossible to be angry with him but you remained cool.

"Thank you. I won't be back until late so don't wait for me" you add sparking his curiosity a little and that certainly the plan knowing that although eh was playing it cool in front of you, his possessive nature was driving him crazy right now.

"What do you say when some hijo de puta tries to touch what's mine?Hm?" Pablo asked with a smirk and unlike all other times, tonight you were not going to give him the satisfaction..after all you were still mad at him!

"I'm running late, Pablo. I really have to go now!" you grab your bag and quickly peck his lips without answering leaving the apartment before he could protest.

Pablo was agonizing over where you were all night, unable to focus on his game any longer calling Pedri to talk it through.

"You told her tranquí and offered sex as an apology? Ai Pablito! " Pedri was explaining to Gavi why you were mad like a teacher explaining math to toddlers.

"But you were there and it was really nothing Pepi, like I don't care about some random girl when I have the best girl waiting for me at home" Pablo said and Pedri reminded him that's all he was supposed to say to you instead.

"Mierda! What now? I can't sleep knowing she is out there alone... I have to go!" he hung up before Pedri told him that was probably a bad idea but decided to let him do what he wanted knowing how stubborn his best friend can get at times.

"Pablo is asking where I am. Should I answer?" you ask looking at Aurora who was mad at his younger brother for the way he acted as much as you but reminding you how much Pablo worries underneath all that cockiness.

She was right. He was probably worried sick since I never go anywhere without telling him in case of an emergency. It was our way of caring for one another. You shared your location with him.

Pablo entered the club looking quite disheveled not really changing form his sweatpants and an old Barça t-shirt from earlier. His heart clenched and his fists tightened when he finally spotted you sitting at the bar with a drink in your hand talking to some guy who was desperately trying to make you laugh.

"We're leaving!" Pablo appeared and you were quite shocked almost chocking on your drink.

"Pablo Gavi. I'm a big Barça fan." the guy said reaching his hand out and you wished he knew how wrong that was in that moment.

"Yeah and that's why you are flirting with my girl, right! " Pablo turned towards the man and you saw that if you didn't stop this it would escalate quick.

"Amor!" you used the nickname in hopes of calming him down and thankfully it worked as he turned right back towards you still clenching his jaw in anger while you held his flexed bicep. God! He was so hot when he was angry!

"We're going home.." he repeated calmly this time although you knew he was quite pissed off which part of you wanted all along.

You sensed that if you refused his anger will definitely cause a problem neither of you needed right now. After all, your angry bird wasn't known for managing his impulses well.

"Alright, bye Ethan" you said getting up and taking Pablo's hand as he purposefully snaked his arms around your waist so that his hand lingered on your ass for the him to see. If you didn't know he was angry, you would have smirked at his little action.

"Bye Y/N. Nice to meet you!" Ethan said as you were walking towards the exit door.

The car ride was dead silent as Pablo was gripping his steering wheel (let's pretend our baby can drive hehe) and you remembered that you didn't tell Francesca and Aurora you left.

"I should probably tell Fran and Rory that I left.." you said out loud and Pablo turned to look at you for a quick second before looking back at the road.

"You were there with my sister and Pedri's girlfriend?" he asked mentally cursing Pedri for not telling him that while feeling relief that you didn't go there to meet with that skinny douchebag.

"Of course I was! What did you think?" you said happy that he was at least talking so that you don't have to endure an uncomfortable silence.

"So how did you meet Ethan then?" Pablo asked bitterly and you rolled your eyes knowing that this was a perfect chance to turn the tables on him.

"Amor, tranquí. It's not a big deal. I didn't expect to meet him, he just sat next to me at the bar." you said while looking at your phone trying your best to act disinterested same way he did this morning.

"And then offered to buy you a drink right?" Pablo said through gritted teeth and you just shrugged seeing the same frustration you had this morning radiating off him.

"Mhm.." was all you said and Pablo was starting to loose his cool as you finally arrived to your shared apartment. You went straight into the bedroom taking off your heels and looking for you pajamas in the closet.

When you changed, you saw Pablo pacing inside you shared bedroom clearly still very much pissed off.

"Amor, tranquí" you used the same phrase again and that tipped him off.

"Stop saying that! How would you feel if I..." but he couldn't finish that sentence since you interrupted getting angry yourself.

"Had your face licked by some random bar girl? And then tell me that it was funny!?" you reminded him and he just stared quietly with his face getting red as you got really close to him.

"I didn't let him buy me a drink...I just wanted you to see how it feels when the roles are swapped…not funny right?” you say and his eyes widen as relief made him calm once more.

"I'm sorry.." Pablo said with pouting face and you smiled moving closer and hugging him before kissing his neck playfully making him relax under your touch while snaking his arms protectively around your waist trying to take off your pajamas but you stop him.

"Not so fast...I'm still really mad at you" you smirk pushing him on the bed before getting on top of him and he smirks letting you do what you please.

It was a rare occurrence that you were the one in control because Pablo is very dominant in bed but it pleased you that he was letting you do as you wished tonight.

You took off his shirt quickly before kissing down his chest to his infamous v-line starting to tease him through his sweatpants still not letting him take them off.

"Amor..stop teasing me!" he said but you just smirk reminding him that he needs to make up for being wrong so he just groans letting you proceed with your ministrations.

You finally took off his sweatpants and boxers touching the prominent vein on his cock while licking your lips looking up at his hungry eyes.

"I just wonder how badly she wished to lick your cock instead of your face..." you say with a smirk stopping your movements and he looks down at you in complete shock.

"W..what?" he whimpered a little his cock already leaking precum begging to be sucked.

"That bitch from the bar...how badly she wanted to get her tongue on your cock..but this is only mine!" you say finally licking his shaft from base all the way to the top making him throw his head back in pleasure.

"Fuck! Yes it is princesa!" Pablo said through shaky voice enjoying you actions.

You kept pulling away when he wanted to go deeper massaging his balls in agonizing circles knowing that always drives him mad.

"F..fuck..l..let me cum" Pablo groaned as you started to suck him off making him grab your hair in a ponytail and guide you where he wanted. You hollowed your cheeks and the moment you felt him twitching in your mouth you pulled away whipping your lips and smirking at his defeated expression.

"You've been bad.." Pablo's dominant voice was back and you smiled as he immediately flipped you over and teared off your pajamas in one swift motion..you knew denying him orgasm would awaken the angry beast you craved so bad.

He entered you in one swift motion starting to roughly pound making you scream his name on top of your lungs scratching his back and chasing your own orgasm.

"I don't give a shit about any other girl! No other girl would ever drive me crazy like you do princesa! I love you! F..fuck..I feel you..cum with me!" he said and you both reached your highs laying down next to each other sweaty and completely out of breath.

"I think it's clear that we are perfect for each other princesa.." Pablo said through a smile turning to the side to look at your sweaty face before pulling you closer and capturing your lips into a passionate kiss.

"From now on, I'm the only one allowed to lick you!" you said after the kiss and you both chuckled cuddling closer to one another before falling asleep in each other's arms.

[nevadas-night-time-novelist]

Holy fucking shit your askbox is open

I have been waiting for this

Ahem ahem...

So, I have been fangirling too much on one of your oneshots (SQ x Knocked Up Reader)

And now I shall request more fics about the children.

Thank you!

Main 4 - Raising the babes

Started this ages ago and finally got it to a finished state lol. my apologies for the wait, anon. I hope you're still around.

HANK Lilith (she her)

"Steady." Hank grumbled in their usual husky, gravelly voice. Lilith's arms shook, the gun was heavy in her little hands.

"I-it's really heavy dad." Hank let out a sigh through his nose, or what was left of it.

"I know, but you need to learn how to use it, and how to be safe around it." Being involved with Hank was dangerous, but being his family put a target on your skull. Child or not, if the agency found you or Lilith, you'd be executed just to spite the man.

As much as Hank was devoted to their family, they knew fine well that they couldn't be around them all of the time to protect them. Even the SQ couldn't guarantee your safety every second of the day. Learning to fight back was the only way you two would have a fighting chance.

Being Hank's partner meant he'd already trained you up to be a threat to anyone, and now it was your daughter's turn to learn the harsh world she was born into.

"I'm scared." Lilith looked to you, her eyes the same blood red as her dad's own.

"So was I when I first picked up a gun," You knelt to her level, putting a comforting hand on her shoulder. "but you'll learn that it's just a tool, like any other. You learn how to use it correctly and you'll be safe." You kissed her forehead, and adjusted her arms, Hank carefully putting his large hands over her's as well.

"Hold your breath, steady your arms,"

[ B A N G ]

One of the glass bottle Hank had lined up shattered, and Lilith dropped the gun in fright. "That was scary!"

"But you did it. Overcoming challenges laid before you... First step to becoming strong and unkillable like me." Hank felt pride, and they picked up the gun. "Just... Don't drop it again."

SANMOS Mars (he him)

Baby Mars was a blessed little guy, having not just two parents, but three, and their whole support system to fall back on. Both your lovers are dutiful dads, but Sanford rarely ever wants to put his lil man down. He's got one of them baby carriers custom fit for his bigger frame, and Mars is his spitting image.

With curls of black hair, a chubby build and pout, it was like San was carrying his little mini-me. Mars had mixed skin, a dark grey, but slightly lighter than Sanford's, as well as dark freckles across his full body.

"Think we can find some tiny round sunglasses for babyford?" Dei joked to you while he was warming up some formula milk. "Totally, we could get him a little tank top, grow his hair out and make locs with them." You replied and laughed.

Sanford rolled his eyes, but smiled as well. "I just wanna protect my babe."

"A." Mars weighs in his opinion, throwing his arms up at Deimos as the smell of warm milk hits his nose. "It'll be ready soon yah little monster." Dei smiled and softly pinched his cheek, making Mars squeal happily.

"Let me get him ready." You took Mars from Sanford and set him on your lap. "You should get some sleep Fordie, you've been up with him all night. Relax and cool off, Dei and I got this for now."

"I'm not tired." Sanford lied, immediately yawning and taking his sunglasses off. He had dark circles under his eyes. "You're absolutely tired." Deimos snorted, handing you the warm bottle.

"Relax wonder-dad. Go get comfy and rested, the three of us will be waiting for you when you get up." You gave the big man a kiss, and he finally agreed to get a few hours sleep.

2BDAMNED Rhea and Phoebe

Raising twins was a handful, everyone in base had to chip in a little now and then. Doc was sitting on a soft cushion on the floor, trying to not give himself back ache with shrimp posture, as Rhea chewed on the arm of her stuffed dog toy, and Phoebe was playing with wooden blocks Sanford had kindly made for the girls.

"Hey handsome," Doc arches his back slightly as your smooth hands rub against his shoulders, a pleasant shiver runs up his spine. "you three having fun?"

"Of course, they're engrossed in their own little worlds, and watching them develop is fascinating. Pheebs is working on her hand-eye coordination, which is wonderful to see, and Rhea is... enjoying herself."

Rhea raised her arms up to you, always happy to see her parent. Luckily each girl had their own favourite parent, you being Rhea's, and Doc being Phoebe's, so juggling toddlers wasn't an issue for one of you.

You embraced the little troublemaker, picking her up into your arms and giving her a cheek kiss, earning a happy squeal. "Damma!" Her chubby fingers grabbed your neck as you cuddled her into you.

They'd been born looking similar, but developed differences as they aged. Rhea took more after Doc, dark grey hair tied in little twin tails to show off her pretty face, maroon monolid eyes and a crooked smile. She'd be the spitting image of her dad, if she didn't have your skin and nose.

Phoebe on the other hand was like the opposite, her hair was like your natural colour, tied back as well to keep it out of her face. Her eyes were mirrors of yours as well, and looked wonderful when the light caught them just right. She had Kyle's paler complexion and thin nose.

"Hello my little moon~" You cooed sweetly to her, Doc had insisted on naming both girls after moons, which Deimos laughed about at the time. 'Three moons in one base, you building a solar system here old man?"

Rhea yawned widely, little white puppy teeth lined her mouth. "They've been up for a while, I've already fed them, and was hoping to try and educate them a little bit, but it looks like someone's ready for a nap." Doc smiled to you, making his deep set crows-feet more apparent, each wrinkle in his face seemed to get more and more defined as the days went on.

He made a very handsome DILF. "Perhaps I'll take Phoebe and work with her one on one, and give Rhea a lesson later. Shame, I was going to talk about the stars with them." Rhea's head perked up, all signs of fatigue suddenly removed.

She loved space, Doc had even gotten the lads to paint the nursery into a galaxy, with bright glow-in-the-dark stars stuck to the ceiling. "Staaars." She reached out for her father, heart set on looking at pictures of the night sky over sleeping.

Phoebe was slightly more grounded to earth, interest in the things in front of her, as opposed to those miles and miles above. "Blocks." She pointed to her cubic toy, heart set on continuing to destroy and rebuild with them.

"How about you teach in here? You can read to both of them, I'm sure they'll both enjoy it. Rhea can look at the pictures, and Pheebs can just listen." You sat with Phoebe, offering her another block.

"Thank you Damma." Phoebe smiled to you, finishing a star shaped tower using coloured blocks. Doc sat down, Rhea on his lap and he laid a book in front, starting from the beginning.

"The constellations are patterns of stars formed in the sky, there are many to discover...."

...

From a distance, a star faced figure watched his nieces with a softening in his heart. He found it strange when his brother had told him he was going to live a mortal life for a while, and he couldn't understand it, not at first. But now, seeing the family he'd made, Maker couldn't help but smile.

[peachyghuleh]

Fanfic: The Outing (Copia helps the reader through a panic attack)

Hello lovelies! Hope you like this one! It's another Copia fic because I'm a Copia fangirl. This one is a lil longer but I wanted to make sure I set the scene.

In this fic, sister Imperator asks the reader to acompany Cardinal Copia, Aether and Dew on a shopping trip for ministry supplies. The reader's anxiety gets the better of them when they're shopping and has a panic attack. Luckily, Copia and the ghouls are there to make everything better.

WC: 2.3K

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The day began pretty normally for me, I was doing my daily duties which happened to be dusting the windowsills and sconces in the hallways of the abbey. Sister Imperator made her way towards me, and I shot her a sweet smile as I always do “Good morning sister Imperator, how’s your Sunday so far?”

“Very good thank you sister, I do have a favor to ask though. Would you mind accompanying the Cardinal on a little shopping trip? We need a few essentials and I need someone to accompany him and his ghouls, keep them in line” she smirked.

“Of course, sister Imperator” I replied.

“Great! Go find C in his office, he should be ready to go by now” she told me.

I gave her a quick bow and made my way through the halls of the Abbey to the Cardinal’s office. I was about to knock on his door when it opened, the Cardinal caught my eye with a welcoming smile “Ah sorella, are you accompanying me today?”

“Yes Cardinal” I replied.

“Ah yes, we’ve known each other for a long time cara, call me Copia, it is my day off after all.”

“Thank you! Car- Copia” I said with a smile I simply couldn’t hide.

We began walking towards the huge doors of the Abbey, a few ghouls in toe, Dew and Aether tagged along for this trip. We walked in comfortable silence, just enjoying the magnificent architecture of the Abbey none of us were tired of, even after living here for so long. Once we got outside, Copia went to grab his car and I waited with the 2 ghouls. Aether put his arm around my shoulders “So, what flavour of ice cream are you getting?”

“Ice cream?” I said, pondering what he meant, this was just a supply run, right?

Suddenly, I felt 2 hands grab my waist, I turned around to see Dew standing there stifling a laugh. “Satanas, you scared the shit out of me Dew” I scolded.

We were interrupted by Copia pulling up in front of the doors in his classic white chevy. He indicated for me to ride shotgun which I gladly accepted and hopped in the front passenger seat while Aether and Dew took the back seats. The ride into the neighboring town was peaceful, we had the windows down the entire time, the wind blowing through my hair instilled a much-needed sense of calm within me. Copia decided we needed some music, since I was the passenger, I assumed the role of DJ and started playing Ghost. It started with ‘Kiss the Go-Goat’ which we all gleefully sang along to, Copia even commented on how he liked my voice. I then put on ‘See the light.’

“Ah cara, I love this one, it’s such an underrated song!” the Cardinal exclaimed.

“It’s one of my favorites!” I replied, a smile beaming on my face.

We all began singing intently:

‘Every day that you feed me with hate

I grow stronger

Drink me, Eat me

Then you’ll see the light’

We quickly pulled up into the town and Copia parked up the car, making sure to fill the parking meter.

“So, what were the essentials Sister Imperator wanted us to get?” I asked.

“Just a few things, black candles for mass and some incense.” He answered.

“We always make a day of it though little one, we go shopping and make sure to get ice cream!” Dew said as he strolled on ahead like a child who was too excited to wait for his parents.

I really needed a day like this, I had so much pent-up stress and anxiety and just needed something to take my mind off everything. We started in a clothes shop, it seemed particularly busy, which wasn’t unusual since it was a Sunday. Aether and Dew wandered off on their own, looking at the men’s section, while Copia followed me to the women’s section. He picked up a black pleated skirt and held it up excitedly “Ah, Sorella! This would look very cute on you, si?”

“That’s adorable Copia! I’m not sure it would suit me though” I said, coyly, not being a very confident person.

“Nonsense Cara! Go try it on, if you like it, I will buy it for you, si?” He offered.

I decided to go try it on in the fitting rooms, surprisingly I actually really liked the way it looked. It made me feel confident, which was something I didn’t get very often if at all. I made my way back out to Copia ready to tell him that I loved it. As I exited the changing rooms, I noticed it was far busier than it was when I went in. A lump formed in my throat, and I grew warmer by the second. Dew came behind me and grabbed my waist “ooh what have you got there, little one?” he grabbed the skirt out of my hands, “Sexy! Are you getting it?”

I nodded slowly in his direction, feeling overwhelmed by the amount of people who were in the shop. “Are you okay?” Aether asked with mild concern on his face. I managed to snap out of it briefly to give him a smile and grabbed my skirt to take to Copia. “I’ll get this one if that’s okay?” I asked Copia. “Of course, Tesoro, anything for you” he replied, with a comforting smile.

We made our way to the cash register and my heart sank as I realized how big the queue was. “We’re gonna go wait outside Cardi” Aether informed us as both the ghouls left the shop. The longer we waited in line, the more anxious I became, the blaring white lights in the shop made my head feel foggy and the heat made me feel dizzy. I grabbed onto Copia’s arm, feeling my heart begin to beat out of my chest and my lungs unable to fill to capacity. Nausea overtook me. Copia looked down at me with concern, “Sorella, are you okay? You look pale.”

“I-I need to-to get out, I need to go” I mumbled before slowly stumbling out of the shop, bumping into shoppers and clothes racks as I went. I made my way outside and leaned up against a brick wall, slowly sliding down to my bum, feeling the air escape my chest but unable to fill the space it left. Dew and Aether rushed over to me, shortly followed by Copia rushing out of the shop to find me. “What’s going on?” Aether asked, using the softest tone he could.

“I-I…can’t…breathe…” I muttered, grasping for air between words. It felt like there was a huge weight on my chest, like someone was sitting on me.

Copia knelt beside me, placed his hands on either side of my face and turned me toward him “Cara, you’re okay, we’re here.”

Aether sat beside me, holding my shoulders to comfort me while Dew stood in front of me to shield me from potential onlookers. I felt chills throughout my body and the sheer anxiety I felt in that moment was dizzying. It was a terrible cycle, the anxiety made it harder to breathe and the breathlessness made me more anxious. “Breathe with me little one, in…out…in…out” Aether guided me through my breathing until I felt like I could catch my breath again.

Warm tears trickled down my face as I realized I had succumbed to my anxiety once again. Copia wiped my tears away gently and pulled me into a warm embrace, the smell of cologne and his breathing pattern grounded me in the moment. “Cara, it was just a panic attack, you’re okay, we’re here.”

“Maybe we should take her back to the Abbey” Dew suggested.

“No, I want to enjoy my time with all of you. I can’t let my-my anxiety get the better of me” I sobbed.

“Okay sorella, we will stay out, lets just get you somewhere quiet and we have a drink of water, si?” Copia said.

Aether and Copia helped me up off the cold floor, holding an arm each to steady me, the panic attack had left me dizzy. We made our way to an area with picnic benches and parasols, “Sit, please Cara” Copia pleaded as he gestured to one of the seats. Dew had already gone to get some drinks, he came back pretty quickly with 5 drinks, a juice box for Copia, an energy drink for himself, 2 waters, one for me, one for Aether and another juice box? “Here, have some juice too, it will help with the dizziness” Dew handed me a water and a juice box which I thanked him for and took sips of both.

“I’m sorry” I muttered.

“Tesoro, please don’t apologize” Copia requested, “Do you know what bought this on?”

“I-I just…it was the clothes shop…I came out of the changing rooms and it was just so busy, I got hot and bothere. Then I felt like throwing up and it just got worse.” I sobbed.

Copia put his arm around my shoulders, embracing me “it’s okay cara, how about we go back to get that skirt and move on, we can go to shops which are less busy, si? You can wait outside with the ghouls while I get your skirt.”

I nodded, feeling better already with his presence and patience. After sitting for a while, we made our way back to the shop, Copia went back in to get my skirt and we waited outside in the shade. “You gave us a bit of a scare there little one” Dew told me. “Next time, please tell us if you start to feel off” Aether added. I tried to apologize but Aether cut me off “Nope, no apologizing, we just care about you.”

“Thank you” I shyly responded.

“Ah tesoro, I got the skirt you wanted” Copia showed me inside the bag, I tried to grab the bag from him, but he wouldn’t let me hold it “I will hold this for now, you just relax, eh?”

I smiled slightly, realizing that I had people who cared about me truly. We made our way down the strip of shops, stopping every now and again to look in shop windows. We made it to the shop which sold the black candles and incense we were sent to pick up. After making our way in, I began looking around at the curiosities which were contained in this shop, ones you wouldn’t expect to see in towns as unsuspecting as this one. Copia caught me looking at a pentagram necklace, it was silver so it wasn’t exactly cheap. “You want this one tesoro?” he pointed to the necklace.

“N-no Copia, its too expensive, plus you already got me this skirt!” I replied. “I think I’ll go wait outside, I can feel myself getting warm again.”

I waited outside the shop, ghouls only a step behind me, making sure I was okay. Copia wasn’t long and came out with a bag full of candles and incense. “So, is it ice cream time?” Dew questioned. Copia nodded with a smile forming on his face, “We’ll get ice cream and then head back.”

As we approached the ice cream shop, I began deciding what I wanted. Mint choc chip is my favorite. Dew opted for double chocolate chip, Aether had strawberry and Copia opted for vanilla. “I’ll have mint choc chip please!” I told the cashier. “Make it a double scoop please” Copia interjected, that put a huge smile on my face, I didn’t have ice cream often at the ministry.

We grabbed our ice cream and began to make our way back to Copia’s car. “Hmm, I never saw you as a mint choc chip girl” Dew said flirtatiously. “It’s my absolute favourite” I replied, feeling ice cream drip down my face, “although it’s already starting to melt, I’m not sure I can finish all this.” Copia took his handkerchief out of his pocket and put his finger under my chin, taking the handkerchief and wiping the melted ice cream away. It was a nice feeling, like I had a father. Dew and Aether ended up sharing the last of my ice cream as we approached the car.

We all piled into the car once again, “Crank up the air-con Cardi, it’s roasting in here” Aether pleaded. Copia turned the air-con up and I felt a rush of cold air hit my face, it was very much welcome in the heat. We waited a couple of minutes to set up the music, I started to feel cold and shivered a little. “Do you want me to turn off the air-con cara?” Copia enquired. “No, no Copia, I know it’s warm, I don’t want to impose, I’ll be okay, I decided to wear shorts today” I laughed.

Copia took off his jacket and placed it on my lap, it was warm and comforting, “Here tesoro, this will keep you warm until we get back.” I melted at his generosity and father-like tendencies.

We decided to listen to Year Zero on the way back, all of us chanting to the opening:

‘Belial, Behemoth, Beelzebub

Asmodeus, Satanas, Lucifer’

As we approached the Abbey, we turned down the music we had blasting on the way back and Copia pulled in front of the Abbey front door. “Would you both give us a minute?” Copia asked the ghouls. They both obliged, offering me a thanks for a great day out as they made their way into the Abbey.

“I have something for you tesoro” Copia told me as he handed me the silver pentagram necklace I was eyeing up earlier.

“Satanas, this was expensive, why?” I asked, confused about why he would do such a nice thing for me.

“Oh tesoro, you are worth so much and deserve the world, we all love you here” he answered.

I reached over, embracing him in a hug, tears streaming down my face, knowing that this is where I belong, and this is my family.

“Thank you, Cardinal Copia.”

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[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

This is not to say I'm back or will be active, even though I have popped in more recently, but something is on my heart that I wanted to try to see if I could cast a net for kindred folk to connect or possibly create that much needed marginalized pocket of a fandom.

On this post, either reply, reblog with commentary, or put in the tags the fandoms and/or entertainment media that isolated you or made you feel like you could not connect with it due to misogynoir, antiblackness, and/or colorism against Black female characters, actresses, or fans.

Let this be your sounding board and possibly, your chance to find others in that/those fandom(s) who really wanted to socially enjoy, but never found their pocket.

[seannesruins]

I'm so used to being on my own that compromises feel suffocating. I'm not sure if OA lang ako or what but I while I miss my girlfriend, I also miss being alone.

I miss eating out without having to order white rice. I miss splurging on fancy restaurants, eating overpriced pasta paired with an overpriced cup of coffee in Makati CBD, the extra greasy Pizza in Poblacion that my friends and I eat on the streets after downing 3k on cocktails and a mix of booze. I miss getting wasted that I tripped on my 3 inch heels and sprained my ankle for a week.

I'm so tired of spending 1k on Filipino food. (No hate but my dad cooks Filipino food everyday. I want to spend money on something I don't get to try everyday.)

I miss watching movies in the cinemas. Granted, I have 5 active streaming subscriptions (Netflix, Disney+, Prime Video, HBO Go, and JuanFlix) but there's still something special with the old SM Cinema's busted seats, and Ayala Cinema's busted speakers. I miss the crowd's gasps in between scenes. I miss seeing couples on a date, holding each other tight in the dark, those two senior citizens who finally had their schedules match after decades and decided to watch Poor Things. I miss catching glimpses of celebrities when the lights turn on after the credits roll, like how I fangirl over Erik Matti after catching the screening of Buybust. I miss the big screen, seeing Cillian Murphy's piercing eyes on IMAX.

There's something special about the cinema experience that home streaming just can't suffice. I love cuddling with my girl but I'm so tired of it being over a Filipino mainstream film. I want our popcorn filled hands to hold over shitty seats that won't recline over a European black comedy.

I miss having my nails longer, painted in gray or tan or even red at times.

I miss wearing lipstick.

I miss having my hair side shaved.

I miss listening to weird underground music, or heartbreaking songs without it being translated as me being unhappy but simply because I just liked the song.

I miss talking to other people, without being doubted.

I miss going to events, even though I'll be there alone and I'll mostly lurk in the background. I just love being immersed somewhere, anywhere.

I miss not having to defend myself over the smallest things, as if I'm always on trial.

I miss the time when I didn't feel like I have to lose a part of myself just to be loved. I miss not having to compromise the things that I want to fit someone's definition of love.

I miss the time when this is just a post of my own personal thoughts. Because now, when she sees this, she would translate this as me being unhappy with our relationship.

I just miss breathing, and it feels like I haven't been doing that for a while now.

I just miss being treated like the princess for once. I miss being told to dress up. I miss the fancy meals, the flowers, the movies.

Am I asking for too much?

But I am in love so I could never ask for any of this.

So I'll wait for her to be home. We'll order another rice meal, watch Netflix and chill.

And hope that eventually I stop asking myself for the life I used to have.

[two-lovers-intwined]

Concert

Hi! I know it's been a little bit since I last updated this, life has been busy lately, college has started up again and I've been working almost every weekend.

However, this blog is important to me, and so is my girlfriend, so I don't want to abandon this, even with a busy schedule.

Earlier this year, my favorite artist was going on tour for the first time, and my girlfriend knew how much I love their music. They were going to be in my state, and fairly close to where we live.

My loving girlfriend decided to surprise me by getting us tickets for them... Well, it was supposed to be a surprise. They couldn't keep it a secret for more than 2 days.

She let it slip that we were going to see an artist, and I immediately knew where she was going to take me. I can't remember it perfectly, but I think I cried when I figured it out? (I cry super easily, so I wouldn't put it past me.)

Of course we started planning together right away; what we were going to wear, when we would leave, who's house would we stay at afterwards. And the day that we were going to see them happened to be exactly a month after our one year anniversary.

Usually, I dress pretty masculine while my girlfriend dresses feminine, but that night, we swapped! I wore a tight (but comfy!) black dress with cherries on it, did my hair half up half down, I even wore high heel boots, and she wore a patterned button up that she borrowed from her grandfather, a pair of nice shorts, and slicked her hair back with gel. She looked absolutely gorgeous. They always blow me away with their beauty <3

The concert was insanely fun. It was super intimate, there was probably only about 50 people there, and it took place in a small bar(?). We bought merch from the artist's partner before the show started, I got a shirt, my girlfriend go a tote bag, and we both got little stickers and pins as well. We sang our lesbian hearts out, since the artist is ALSO a butch lesbian icon, we jumped, we shouted, we laughed, it was amazing in every single way.

There was one song where the artist told everyone to slow dance with someone, and of course my girlfriend and I immediately got together. I'm taller than her normally, but with the heels I was even taller. My arms draped over her shoulders and around her neck, her hands held me close to her, the slow music played in the background. I swear, I was in heaven for the duration of that song. We just stared at each other, smiling and giggling. I could look into her eyes and watch her smile for hours and not get tired. She's so pretty, she still makes me nervous sometimes.

After the concert, we were able to actually meet the artist, since there was so little of us, the line wasn't too long. I was fangirling so hard, I was incredibly giddy when we got up to them. They gave us a hug and we got pictures with them, and they even said we carried their one song (because we screamed it and almost nobody else knew the words). They signed my shirt and her tote bag, and said we were cool. It was awesome. I want to be their friend so bad.

We were so tired when we got home, we went straight to bed, but even when sleepy, she was still radiant. The entire night was perfect, probably one of the best nights of my life if I'm honest. I love my girlfriend so much, and I love how she loves me.

I'll add a picture I took of the artist we saw, if anybody knows them, let me know! <3

[iamfebruaryfour]

I LIIIIIIVE!!!

Okay so if it wasn't telling enough, I have been (and I think still am) in a book reading hiatus 🥹 I'm sorry!! But life just got... so busy. But recently, life has been, well, fairly interesting.

So okay before that, HELLO!! I haven't been on tumblr since FOREVER!! My last post was 4 years ago omg! I deleted the app, and stopped going on tumblr for a while, but I redownloaded it just now cause I have soooo much to talk about. Yes it's still about books, but there's another factor added: BTS.

Yes I am ARMY now 😂 I tell you soooooo much has happened!! But i'll fast forward.

Okay so it was about sometime after i've posted my last book summary that i felt a change in me. Suddenly I was too tired to read. My eyes would fail me everytime I open a book. 5 minutes in and I'm too sleepy. It doesn't matter what genre, what kind of book. I don't know then what happened but as I looked back, I concluded that it was because of my work. I had change jobs that time and suddenly work increased, and became more challenging that I didn't realize that it sucked all the energy out of me. Slowly i stopped altogether. Even my instagram and goodreads are all still in cobwebs.

The I met the men who would ✨literally✨ change my life. There were only 3 things that made me fangirl this hard and that was Harry Potter, Taylor Swift and ARASHI, and even these three didn't compare to how i've fangirled with BTS (though i still am a potterhead, a swiftie and an arashist at heart).

Skip to the point it's getting long!! --- So as all armys know these men are hella poetic in their lyrics, especially the rapline, especially namjoon, and I truly believe it's because they love to read. I believe that, cause when I was in my bookworm era, i'd use words I never thought i'd use, and I was more confident in using them, compared to now, I really felt that I'm always short of words to use that I more often black out when I speak in english.

Okay okay so BTS, they love to read. And they have ✨book recommendations✨!! And there's so many!!! I've kept the lists and wanted to go back to it when i'm ready to read. But still, I hadn't had the will to start. Until...

Hello, Beyond the Story: 10 Year Record of BTS.

So yes I am currently reading it now and savoring EVERYTHING. Though I still feel that tiredness I was talking about, but this time I have sheer will. The need to finish this book AND read the tagalog version (which I heard and saw was really really good) is very strong.

I plan to make a post about it after I finish them, but wait, this isn't even what this post is about!!

So remember the ✨book recommendations✨ list?

Book reco list 1 (twitter)

Book reco list 2 (goodreads)

There were some titles here that I knew I already had. Some I already read, but most of them just gathered dust in my shelves (don't worry I cleaned them!!)

What I found so far that I already have, plus The Alchemist aaaand Fahrenheit 451 -- two of which I've already read so it's not currently here on my shelf, but i'll have to look for it anyway. Ah I know I have Metamorphosis somewhere here too.

The I Decided to Live As Me I bought cause of them, and I just bought The Midnight Library but I don't have it now. I read parts of it via pdf but again I hadn't finished it!! I hope I finish it now, now that I have a physical copy. Am also planning to look for Almond, the Magic Shop book and the Omelas. After that i'll stop buying and finish everything 😅

I had Me Before You but i sold it!!! Why 😩

What's funny here is as I was laying these books down to take a photo, I realized that three of the books here have bookmarks 😂 it means that I was able to start it, but hadn'd finished it.

So what does this mean for me? Am I going to be back from hiatus? 😂 To be honest I really don't know 😂 But i'm really happy that i've found a new reason to pick up a book again after so many years. I wanted to read so much, I just feel like I can't, but now i'm reading again!! Even though it's because it's about or related to BTS (though don't get me wrong i'm happy it's about BTS!), it's still something! And by seeing these laid out books of mine, i just wanna read them now.

*just adding this gif cos i miss them hahah 🥹

[tiikerikani]

I sold the last cape!!

2023.05.19 – Helsingin Kultturitalo

I wore the same outfit again.

I wish I didn't have to do it but if I'm on the metro in my costume and questionable-looking people show up close to me I leave at the next stop and hop into the next car or wait for the next train. I'm self-confident enough to be out in public like this but not to deal with the harassment, especially without a common language to communicate firmly in.

The usual suspects were not there as early as I was to loiter around outside. People would show up but they'd go to the restaurant next door and get coffee or drinks. It was warm generally, but cool in the shade. My hands were getting a little cold from me standing outside for an hour but this is practically tradition now.

As instructed, I asked Merch Lady to run back and get the two missing signatures for my playing cards.

The one from the "regulars": "I got the cards signed ages ago." (Good for you. I wasn't originally going to have them signed because I figured it'd be a common thing people would want to do.)

I did not see the blondes.

It started like 10 minutes late probably because it took a while to usher everybody into the room.

Although I bought this ticket the instant they went on sale, please believe me when I say that I did not intentionally buy the dead center seat in the front row. It didn't look like that on the map!!! As you know I find it a little awkward to be RIGHT THERE!! directly in front of Senpai and I wonder if something went through his mind about it too. Or not. I assume it's a pretty typical fangirl move.

I still don't like it but I guess that's just how they're doing the ending to Samaan mutkaan kaatunut now, going into the transition track while they move stuff into place for the acoustic set. With a dramatic song like that, the silences can be immensely powerful, and it's likely one reason it's the last track on the album. So it kinda sucks not to have that dramatic silence at the end.

It's hard to capture in a still picture but they're headbanging at this point (you know, where the song goes epic)

But I also didn't like the other end of this transition - this time he did introductions instead of starting right into Exodus. IIRC, he'd previously done introductions after the song. Does this shave some seconds off the running time?? Who knows. A cold open makes it so much more EERIE. (Indeed, it DOES open its respective album.)

All four ladies were wearing the pendant :)

Markus was wearing normal people black socks.

The strings doubled (?) their parts in the recorded intro to Faarao, which I don't think I have seen them do before. Normally they just play the recording, although a couple of times they have actually performed it (albeit slightly shortened).

Speaking of which, the ladies do a little "walk like an Egyptian" bit during the bridge (as you do)

In Turku I had seen somebody leave with one of the remaining capes, and during my awkward chit-chatting had found out that there was apparently only one left after that.

"HEY! I recognize you from the Facebook group!" somebody calls out to me. He says he really likes the cape and wishes he had one, and said that Senpai had told him they had all been sold.

"It's your lucky day! You see that hanging on the wall over there? It's a blue one, but it's THE LAST CAPE and it can be yours if you want it!!"

So he bought it :D

I told Janne that I had hoped to talk to Senpai last time and was hoping I could do that this time, but he was like "everything would be crazy if he came out here" and I suppose he means that Senpai is now too much of a big deal to pop into the lobby after concerts because he'll obviously get mobbed. I think it's his own choice whether he wants to talk to fans or not; it's not something his bandmates can decide on his behalf…

But in any case, I suspect that I am still on Senpai's good side. ("I think he likes you," says the fan whom I met last summer.) If he were tired of me, he wouldn't keep gesturing at me in the same song, whenever he can see me in the first row. I've run out of fingers to count the times he's done this. He is clearly doing it intentionally. But I can only speculate why… (You're not obliged to follow the literal meaning of the text with your choreography???)

So okay I'll go home like a normal person. I figure they were having some crazy party somewhere anyway.

There's always room for one more infectiously happy Senpai picture

[Concert write-up archive and master calendar]

[rosemary-morgan]

HC’S - They comfort you after a nightmare

Hey, lovely ones (❁´◡`❁) I hope you’ll enjoy my HC’s  🖤🖤

This AU is set after the Battle of Hogwarts, where Sirius, Remus and Fred are still alive.

And as always a big thank you to my dear friend @fangirl-ramblings. 🖤 she has been beta reading for me 🌹

Warning: mention of nightmares, angst

Characters:  Fred Weasley, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Draco Malfoy

Fred Weasley

You are constantly troubled by nightmares. Even though it's been a good six months since the battle at Hogwarts, it keeps coming back to you in your dreams.

You keep dreaming about Fred dying and being taken from you. It all feels very real and you always wake up scared and sweaty.

The fact is that you saw how Fred was badly hurt. No one believed that he could survive such a severe attack by a Death Eater. But he had and he was with you now.

Still, you have not yet fully dealt with this shock and it keeps catching up with you.

Fred, lying next to you, also woke up. Your restlessness was not lost on him. "Y/N?" You could tell he had been brought out of sleep as his voice was still quite husky and tired.

Of course, you were immediately sorry, because you didn't want to wake him up, but the dream had also pulled you out of your sleep. Your heart was still beating like crazy, sweat was on your forehead and cold was running down your back. Your fingers were shaking, cold all over, and you tried to calm yourself down. "It's okay, Fred..." But it was clear from your voice that nothing was okay.

Frowning, Fred reached out and tenderly stroked your arm as he looked up at you. It was still dark, but you were clearly visible through the lights shining on the street outside. "What's wrong, sweetheart?"

Hearing his soft and soothing voice was incredibly comforting and you knew that Fred was stubborn. He was always there for you and as you could see, at all times. Eventually, you told him what nightmares were plaguing you again. Without hesitation, Fred pulled you into his arms. As you snuggle against his warm chest, he gently strokes through your hair. 

You hear his heartbeat and that tells you that Fred was with you. "It's okay, Y/N. I'm here." And he wasn't going anywhere. You smile, slowly calming yourself. Fred made you feel safe and secure. 

Even though he gave the impression that he was calm and relaxed, he was very worried about you. It hurt him a lot to see you crying and that these nightmares torture you was terrible.

"Hey, how about some ice cream? And watching a movie?" Fred wanted to provide a distraction and he knew how much you liked to fall asleep in front of the TV. "Now? At this time?" you asked in surprise. "Yeah, why not? It's Sunday. We don’t have to get up early.”

Finally, you go into the living room and make yourself comfortable on the couch. Watching a comfort movie of your choise. Eating your favorite ice cream and you already feel much better. And while you watch the movie, you cuddle with Fred on the couch. 

Soft kisses and tender whispers fill the room. "I love you, Fred." "I love you too, darling."

Sirius Black

When Sirius sees you tossing and turning in bed, he knows you're having a nightmare. He doesn't think about it for long and starts to wake you up gently.

He nestles against your body, whispers softly to you and caresses you tenderly for a long time, until you slowly wake up from your sleep. 

Your heart beats like crazy and you are unsettled at first, because you first have to understand that you are in your bedroom. And safe.

"Hey... It's okay, sweetheart. You're okay..." Sirius' soft voice brought you back to reality. "Sirius..." You immediately snuggle up to his warm body and Sirius wraps his arms around you, making you feel loved and safe. As long as he was with you, you had nothing to fear.

You were so incredibly happy to have Sirius with you. He always made you feel safe and after such horrible nightmares, you needed that. These were the moments when you were glad that you were not living alone in this house.

Sirius knows what it is to be plagued by nightmares. They can scare you terribly.

On such nights you often take a walk. Just like this night. The cool and fresh air takes your mind off things. It helps you to relax and it is easier for you to talk about what you have experienced in your dreams.

Sirius listens to you carefully and always gives you good advice, as he has learned to deal with nightmares. 

Back at home, Sirius brews you a hot tea while you make yourself comfortable on the couch with a warm blanket. 

And after Sirius brings you your favorite tea, he lights the fire in the fireplace and joins you under the covers. He, too, likes to be warm.

"You're not alone, Y/N. I'm with you." Snuggling against his chest, you take in his pleasant scent of fresh mint. You feel so much better, and Sirius is feeling it too because as long as you're not feeling well, he's restless too. 

"Thank you, my love," you whisper before tenderly kissing his lips. 

His eyes are so soft and warm, just like himself. "I love you, Y/N," Sirius whispers as he kisses the back of your hand and your forehead.

How lucky you are to be Sirius Black's soulmate.

Remus Lupin

You woke up from a dream that scared you terribly. So much, that at the moment you are even afraid of the dark.

With shaky hands, you feel nothing beside you but cold sheets. Remus was probably still awake. With a sigh, you wipe your wet eyes before reaching for your wand. "Lumos..." you whisper, and immediately your surroundings brightened a bit.

You decide to look for Remus, because you really needed his closeness right now. Remus radiates something calm and pleasant. You feel safe with him and in moments when you are afraid, you just want to be with him.

Finally you find him in the living room,  with a book in his hand and a hot chocolate, where he had made himself comfortable on the couch.

You smile at the sight. He's wearing only a white shirt and his black, tight-fitting shorts. Wasn't he cold then?

It wasn't long before Remus notices you. A bit surprised to see you, he raises his brows curiously. But your red cheeks and glazed eyes tell him you've been crying. "My love? Is something wrong?"

"The nightmares... Again..."

With an encouraging but, at the same time, sad smile, he put down his cup and tapped his lap with his hand. "Come here, dear..."

Instantly you go to him and sit on his lap, whereupon Remus wraps his arms around you and you wrap yours around his shoulders. There are still a few tears rolling out of your eyes, but you feel much better already.

Again and again Remus gently strokes your back, letting you cry, whatever you want. He's there for you, and for that you're very grateful.

"Are you feeling better, darling?" he asks you as he strokes your hair and finally kisses you. With a blissful sigh, you return the kiss and you taste the chocolate he had drunk earlier.

"What have you been reading, Remus?" "Huh? Oh, well, the Grimm brothers' fairy tales!" Remus knew you had a Muggle book or two on your bookshelf, and today he had picked out this older book and liked it.

And so did you. You put your head on his lap as you asked him to read to you. You just wanted to go back to a gentle sleep and preferably with a fairy tale.

And Remus' gentle voice quickly led you to find your peace and fall asleep on his lap. Safe and sound.

Draco Malfoy

He knows how much you are plagued by nightmares. And he also knows that he was to blame of it.

The nightmares had begun shortly after the Battle of Hogwarts. He is plagued by bad nightmares too. But he hides this fact from you, because in the end he wants you to be well and to feel safe with him.

He himself would somehow cope with his nightmares. 

Draco has done many things during his time at Hogwarts that he is not proud of, even felt ashamed of many things, but he had to look forward and you give him a lot of strength.

And so also on this night, he doesn't find you lying next to him. You have a habit of walking around the house when you couldn't sleep. 

Draco finds you on the terrace, in the cool wind of the night. You don't seem to mind being exposed to the cold, yet Draco doesn't want you to catch a chill.

So he grabs your warm robe and drapes it over your shoulder as he walks to you in the cool night.

Hugging you from behind, he buries his face in the crook of your neck and breathes in your scent.

"How long have you been out here, darling?" You instantly lean against his chest and close your eyes, feeling the warmth radiating from him. "Having a bad dream again?" "Yes..." He could hear in your voice that you were crying and your eyes were still wet from the tears you shed that night too.

You saw so much death and destruction. How could you forget that?

And it always hurts Draco that you are tormented like that. You are so strong, but still you were only human. A better person than he would ever be. To this day, he doesn't understand how you can love him. 

These questions torment him at the moment, but he forgets them when you turn to him and snuggle against his warm chest. Momentarily he presses you against him, covering your face with numerous kisses, before he takes you in his arms and brings you back to your bedroom.

Looking at you full of affection, but also sad, he strokes your hair, kissing you softly. "I love you, Y/N." "I love you too, Draco." He'd never admit it, but your words made him all the happier.

And you loved him because he had saved your life years ago, and because behind his facade you met the man you wanted to share your life with.

"Now sleep, my dove. I will stay with you." And you knew you could trust Draco's words.

Snuggling against your body and holding you in his arms, it was Draco who couldn't sleep that night. He wanted to be there for you in case the nightmares came back to you.

[whysojiminimnida]

LMAO at that taekooker in your inbox being upset at seeing jikookers "debunk taekook moments" in the taekook tag when literally all jikookers do is CORRECT lies and misconceptions that taekookers spread. I'm sure there are some but a majority of jikookers are not in the business of debunking taekook moments. if it happened it happened. What we do not tolerate is taekookors lying about things that taekook haven't done and THAT is probably what that taekooker is seeing

hiya hiya @onthiskindofthing! You ain't wrong. I MEAN do not get me started on the veritable MORASS of MISINFORMATION to which we perfectly nice individuals and collectives have been subjected.

Just since Vegas we have had, to the best of my memory: A JK/Tae "golf date" based on a laugh in the background of a five second video WHILE JK WAS STILL QUARANTINED IN HIS ROOM

A "JK said he'll keep holding onto Taehyung" when he clearly said Jiminie; A "private dinner date" that was neither private or a date that erased Hobi entirely and when that didn't work, resulted in Hobi getting hate via Weverse;

A filtered (heh) photo of Jungkook's new ink that made his microphone and all other black ink look green and therefore meant he had colored it specifically for Taehyung; Complete IDIOCY over a rideshare to the point that violence was threatened against Jimin via anti accounts on Twitter; Rumors of some type of insane ridiculosity free taekook demonstration-style y/n fangirling in which the demonstration is three rude signs and fifteen bad attitudes and still ain't nobody legal; A not entirely authorized but probably authentic pic of Jungkook at Hobak on Saturday night; And I haven't even checked to see what kind of hellacious tomfoolery has happened on today.

My synapses are getting stretched like Jiminie's hamstrings. Keep holding onto Jiminie, there, Koo. Don't lose your other hand.

BELLA I AM TIRED AND IT IS NOT EVEN 2 PM MY TIME WHAT THE HELL GOES ON THIS IS MADNESS And you're absolutely right.