#I'm strangling myself

[taruruchi]

I rewatched Descendants yesterday and I've been so normal ever since

[clinicallyinsanedumpsterrabbit]

So I may have got The Book of Bill and it has me in a slight tiny itty bit of a death grip hyperfixation where all I've been able to imagine is his pathetic toxic ex ass

This pathetic triangle has once again parasitically wormed his way into my brain after years of absence

Also he totally would try and gaslight Ford and say he probably just lost the shirt when he stole it if ever asked where the shirt went

Ok so I could've put a ton of things in that last, panel, so I did, with some joke suggestive ones as the last two below the cut

I'm going to explode him with stock video explosions a bajillion times over

[give-me-one-good-reason]

Mario wishes that Luigi might take things a bit more seriously when he's worrying whether Luigi is even alive

[kuleachi]

smile for the camera!

[sleepingfancies]

you will never see me letting anything bad happen to davrin im so serious. "in death, sacrifice" and all sure but it's not going to happen tho. not if its you

[goldkirk]

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

[lithiumrox]

"I'm just Matilda"

"Matilda's dead."

And whose fault is that, bitch?

[thegeminisage]

clips that make me think about tarsus iv

[fisheito]

Imagine you have to set up yakumo's enclosure for the next couple months. How do you set it up and what do you put in there?

oh NO.! THE PROPPHECY HAS BEenm FUFILLED

i am standing in my room, leggies rooted to the floor. i am in shock .frozen and i have no idea how to proceed. there is a perpetual pathetically sobbing serpent under my blankie.

[guard-en]

bitches that giggle make me so fucking cute aggressive this is so dangerous FOR YOU AND ME I MIGHT GRAB YOU AND SQUEEZE AND YOU POP!! I MIGHT PUNCH A WALL AND BREAK THE WALL OR MY DAMN KNUCKLES!!! DON'T PLAY GAMES WITH MY BIG GAY ASS I HAVE NO WAY TO REGULATE CUTE AGGRESSION.

[ordinarytalk]

I FINALLY QUALIFY FOR PUBLIC SERVICE LOAN FORGIVENESS

My initial student loan was $54,935.92.

I paid over $30,887.83*

My loan is currently at $51,756.93.

I thought I had made all 120 qualifying payments last year. I had to submit and resubmit the PSLF application multiple times, because it kept getting sent back because of problems with how my employers signed the form. It turned out some of the payments didn't qualify, so I had to stick with helljob for at least another year.

I definitely had made 120 qualifying payments this year, so I sent the application in December 2023.

Just got notified now that I have made all qualifying payments. I've made three extra payments, even.

"After we receive the approval, it may take up to 90 business days to process this information."

Three more months of helljob, because I still don't trust this is going to go through and I don't want to quit until I know my loans are gone. I do not have anything lined up after helljob, and I'm terrified of losing my helljob health insurance because I got medical complications. But I hate helljob. I hate helljob so much and my first emotion waking every workday is despair.

At least the loan payments have been paused until the reimbursement is processed. Theoretically I should get reimbursed for the extra payments, too.

* This was only my qualifying payments. The total amount I paid was higher. The website isn't showing me the non-qualifying payments and I have to submit a formal request to get my full payment history. I submitted the request, but it will take a few days to be sent to me.

[northwest-cryptid]

I literally feel like I'm dying and I need to see a doctor, but I can't worry about that right now because

My bank account is literally in the negatives because I'm too disabled to work and can't make money but I can't worry about that right now because

I'm months overdue on getting my car new tags, but it won't even start if I could drive it so I need to jump the battery and get gas which I don't have money for, but I can't worry about that right now because

People are still expecting me to be social across numerous friend groups and it's pulling me in so many directions that I'm stretched so thin I'm running on no social battery for the last month, but I can't worry about that right now because

I still need to actually clean the house, do the dishes, clean the cat litter boxes, vacuum, and do my laundry... but I can't worry about that right now because

I still need to actually set up my new desk so I can stream since I haven't been able to do that for weeks and streaming is unfortunately my only source of income for how little I make every month, but I can't worry about that right now because

My partner is going through a really hard time right now and I need to be there for her and do what I can to make sure she's okay.

[puzzledmemories]

((got a random assortment of replies out, and something for the m!a for nasch in the works. Hoping to finish that up tomorrow))

((got a couple in the inbox and a good amount of drafts still. I will hopefully work on more tomorrow!))

((i am up waaaay too late for having to work tomorrow but I have no self control tonight, I didn't want to sleep, and it's that time of the night where my bosy doesn't want to sleep anyway. Had some very stressful work moments today and it feels like a lot is happening, but tomorrow I hope will be calmer! Next Tuesday will be very interesting to see play out, and the week after that, we hopefully for real have a new staff member starting. I think things will be calmer once we hit that time.))

[piplupod]

waaait. what if. i delete or private this blog. and then make a personal sideblog on my art account. and then just frolic over there without feeling like i have 900+ dead blogs staring at me and waiting to pounce on me for saying smth without attaching five hundred disclaimers to it. WAIT ACTUALLY THAT MIGHT NOT WORK BC I GET SCARED PPL WILL SEE ME LIKING "PROBLEMATIC" (read: i may misread or misunderstand posts or maybe its just someone venting bc theyre having a bad day or maybe its a good nuanced post about abuse or trauma or some other complex topic) POSTS ON MY ART ACCOUNT. HM. ARGGHHH I HATE TUMBLR

[vaguenotions]

I know it's because I'm single and bitter. But I swear to fucking god if my roommate and his boyfriend don't stop talking about the messages they get on Grindr I might fucking explode.

[kiseiakhun]

Reading up on invasive plants continue to be a mistake because now that the garlic mustard's died back I am instead seeing dog-strangling vine everywhere. Admittedly Vincetoxicum rossicum and Vincetoxicum nigrum are pretty metal names but they really are out there blanketing the edge of every disturbed field and choking out the rest of the plant life...