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lesbianwyllravengard · 5 months ago
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Yeah I actually fr believe that if you like a character I hate then you're stupid and dumb and stupid and should explode and I'm so serious and genuine in that. Heed my words
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silverwhittlingknife · 8 months ago
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can we have a hint about what the spring break tim patrol chapter of red letter day contains? (you kept having dick say "if the joker shows up" and tim's "he won't." for me to be convinced that goes off without any trouble)
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i'm sure it'll be fine. :D
i am delighted you're enjoying the story <333 i haven't updated it in soooo long but i got some very sweet comments lately so i have been looking at my scribbles again <3
#tim: he WON'T show up okay?? and if he did i'd be FINE. dick thinks i'm gonna fall on my face if i do anything on my own ever#dick: that is not true!! that is NOT what i said stop putting words in my mouth#tim: i literally watched this entire city by myself for FOUR YEARS and don't say bruce was here because lots of the time he wasn't#dick: listen i am JUST SAYING that last year you almost DIED A HORRIBLE DEATH a lot#dick: and i personally rescued you from near-death experiences & you were not exactly helpful or forthcoming#dick: so sue me if i'd just like to clarify that i will at least get a PHONE CALL if something goes wrong#dick: as opposed to OH I DON'T KNOW you go off to fight jason or ra's al-ghul behind my back and then you almost DIE#dick: and i have to go chasing after you AFTER THE FACT because you didn't bother to explain to me the stupid thing that you were gonna do#tim: that was NOT stupid and -- i KNEW you were still mad at me about that --#dick (unconvincingly): i'm not mad at you (more convinced) YOU'RE still mad at ME --#tim (unconvincingly): no i'm not. (more convinced) look i get it you obviously think that i suck which fine WHATEVER --#dick: i never said that and i'm just asking for the basic professional courtesy of a heads-up!! the city's my responsibility so -#tim: i know you're on a power trip about this but gotham is actually MY city too so --#dick: excuse me i am NOT on a power trip. i'm BATMAN which means that --#tim: you sure are#dick: oh don't even go there - let me point out that ONE of us is being an uncommunicative jerk and it ISN'T ME --#tim: you are literally trying to micromanage how i do a milk run that i could do backwards with my eyes blindfolded --#dick: i'm not micromanaging!! nightclubs can be -- i have a NORMAL degree of CONCERN okay so --#tim: -- so either you're lying to me or you think i suck; how exactly am i supposed to tell you stuff if you don't trust me -#dick: what?! i trust you!!! i just --#tim: you just DON'T trust me??#dick (trapped): i trust you. i'm just saying. if for example the joker -#tim (defensive): who i could handle#dick: or jason -#tim: who i could also handle!!! try to be a little less condescending maybe#dick: oh come ON. look you're obviously kinda testy about me going out of town which fine whatever but i'm just trying to -#tim (testily): i'm not testy. what does that even mean 'testy'
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soggy-fishsticks · 27 days ago
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hey guyss
small rant thing about personal 🏳️‍⚧️ stuff below, sorry if it sounds annoying 😭
Lately for the past 2 years, I've been thinking about going by other alternative names. Because ever since I've started to actually understand my trans identity, my current one has been feeling pretty meh (for various reasons), y'know?
Even though I've been picky and thinking about it for a while, I think I've found a name that I kinda like: Vivien. While i guess it tends to be thought of as more feminine, I think I like the more androgynous feeling of this name, and I like that it can occasionally still be interpreted as "masc".
But the reason why I'm sharing this is is because, tbh, I'm kinda scared to share it with friends and family irl. Not because my friends would care (or that I would be in danger!!!!!!! im safe!!!), but because 2 years ago (after I came out as trans) I had picked out a different name and mentioned it to two members of my family. Both times I got made fun of. ☹️
It wasn't even a crazy name, either- like mold or sock. Was it a bit uncommon? Sure, but it wouldn't turn any heads. One of the family members I told was my mom, and her knee-jerk reaction was to VEHEMENTLY say that she wouldn't let me call myself that </3 (again, the name was normal.) But when she caught wind of her reaction really hurting me, all of sudden she had a complete 180 and told me that she thought the name was cute and encouraged me to use it, even though she made it VERY CLEAR that she DID NOT like the name. 🙁 and it's like hi um no thanks. I will not be calling myself that anymore what
Ever since then, I've been a bit scared to open up about any name-related stuff. ☹️ So I was thinking that maybe, for any mutuals who might happen to see this, that you guys could maybe call me Vivien for like, a week? As a trial run? I want to sort of break out of this shell, but I don't think I'm ready to even mention it to my friends yet. 🙁 Of course, I won't stop you guys from referring to me as my user, but I just want to see if this is something that I like enough to risk being made fun of again 😭
And maybe you guys could tell me your thoughts on the name, too? Personally I think it's pretty androgynous, but I don't really want to go by something that could only be interpreted as feminine and just screams "GIRL!!!!!🫵 GIRL!!!!!!🫵WOMANNN!!!!!!!!!! 🫵🫵🫵🫵" y'know?
xoxo ig, see you guys later *rides away on skateboard*
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numberoneanika · 8 months ago
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Honestly the roleplay blogs are stronger than I am because if I saw a post where people were saying my blog was annoying and calling me corny I would jump in a large pit and rot away
#I don't think I should tag this one#Okay I've typed my emotions out. For a more normal way to put it: While it makes sense to be upset#best move. I'm sure the blogs in question would be happier if you just told them about the roleplay guidelines than if you made a post#where multiple people call them annoying. Like can you imagine if someone said that about a writing blog#'So sick of x reader fics in the tag I don't want to see that and they're all so out of character' What a dick move.#It is a different case with rp blogs I'll give you that. But I think the principle of the matter stands#unless it doesn't and everything I said is stupid#original ramble below I was so mad for some reason. im not mad at anyone really. everyone is cool. love you guys#I get why people are unhappy that theyre clogging up the tags#like despiar dev said not to and people want to see content of despiar thyme not just ask blogs#I saw someone say they just blocked them and like. I get why. however. people do not know everything#but my brother in Christ you're not helping the matter!!!!!!!!1 send them a screenshot of what despiar dev said!!!!help other people!!!!!!!#just politely tell them instead of weirdly vague posting it helps everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe they just don't know#misspelling the tags so no one finds this post. I will actually be so pissed if people find this and r upset#Oh I'm sorry THIS is the post you're noticing? You have followed me for over six months and you haven't said anything about any other negat#negative feelings i've expressed. I see how it is#I wish the drdt confessions account was still open but whatever fucking whatever#sui mention#personal vent#whatever I guess
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mildfevermystery · 7 months ago
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Chika SSR #1197 and SR #2242 [Transparent, Edited/Extended] ※ Credit is appreciated but not required.
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tackrusso · 12 days ago
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i'm like i have nothing to be stressed about and then i'm having a breakdown in the car and then i'm like oh okay maybe i do have things to be stressed about
#number one. living with my parents. that shit is INSUFFERABLE#there is never a break from the questions and the prying and the needing to know everything i'm doing and everywhere i'm going#and what i'm eating and how much i'm eating and how i slept and when i slept and how long i slept etc etc etc#i'm only working four days a week but i'm working two jobs and it's beginning to wear on my nerves#my mother was like we're going out last night. then they didn't go out. frustrating but whatever#then this morning she says oh i don't think we need you at work today#i'm like thank god i'm so tired i can go back to bed. ten minutes later she changes her mind and then gets mad that i'm frustrated#she's like well I WORK SIX DAYS A WEEK#YOU WORK FROM HOME MOST OF THE TIME AND YOU MAKE YOUR OWN HOURS. WE ARE NOT THE SAME#also i have to work fine but don't dangle a day off in front of me and then take it back#i'm planning on leaving this job soon to go full time at my other job WHICH WAS ALWAYS THE PLAN and she's full tilt guilting me about it#i still haven't heard back from any schools and i can't start planning my next steps until i do#i can't start planning ANYTHING until my primary job officially takes me on full time#no idea when that will be!#and then what. if i get into school i move back to canada. if i don't get into school do i still move back to canada?#do i go south? do i stay fucking put? I DON'T KNOW. and ALSO#collaborating on music with **** is all fun and games until i keep writing lyrics i cant share with him because they're OBVIOUSLY about him#also i have no time to work on any songs because i'm NEVER ALONE THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE IN THE HOUSE#re: **** i'm being so normal about it i'm smiling and saying have fun visiting your long distance girlfriend. whose name is my deadname. :)#then just minor things like i'm booked for a haircut next week which is stressful in itself#i have a LOT of baggage with hair cutting in general and also people touching my hair. also i don't know what i want to do with it exactly#and my citizenship interview is in less than a month and it's not that i'm worried but what happens if they don't give it to me?#would they revoke my greencard? i mean that would be insane right? but who fucking knows at this point#okay so maybe i have a couple of things to be stressed about
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protect-namine · 13 days ago
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you don't understand how much I felt the slow saline drip of gaining interest in a character, and instead of going, "oooh. interesting. new blorbo?" I instead went, "...really. that guy? oh. oh no."
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<- guy with a li tianchen icon ends up blorbofying liu xiao. alas, I have played myself 😔
#mine musings#but he won't eclipse cxs. cxs is still my lc blorbo of all time#but i was so surprised how much lx snuck up on me#bc i'm writing a shiguang fic right. i can tell it's gonna be a long one and it's primarily about shiguang facing The Horrors™ (of course)#and it's non-linear (of course) and i write non-linearly anyway and it's just the kind of story where i *have* to write the endings first#so i was like. okay. i'll write the endings. they'll be my north star. roadmap to shiguang#and then my brain decided: wait. i want to write xiaochen epilogues to this#me (eyes squinting at lx and ltc): ?????????? this fic is not about you???? stop. go away#like it makes *sense* for them to be there. they have roles in the story. but it's like#you know how in the yingdu op lx hijacks the screen to print his english name in red letters#that's literally how it feels writing this fic. lx is hijacking it to have the last word even though he's supposed to#just be in the background scheming or whatever#like. what in the metanarrative experience...! why are you hijacking my fic lx!! this is not about you!!#and yet it kinda does naturally circle back to you in the end?? fuck#and i am!!! so mad!!! like truly!!!! i'm getting so heated just writing these tags lmao#i literally cared about you the least when i checked the hothh pvs so whyyyy are you. climbing the faves list. stop. go away#if i get annoying about lx in the future i apologize in advance#especially next friday#omg i feel like i'll be annoying about it actually bc he's so (gestures hands) vague about everything and i'll be like:#[standing emoji] viewers are gonna misinterpret you lx. and you're letting them#I'M probably misinterpreting you#is this fun for you? i bet you're having fun#ughhh. hell character. shaking him in a glass jar. putting him in the washing machine#microwaving him microwaving him microwaving him
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horsemage · 9 months ago
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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂
#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch#it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who#have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that#when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in#a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs#and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and#they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times#like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying#I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so#I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of#them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in#their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door#this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl#this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything#AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great#emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too#is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of#knowing how to coexist politely in public#anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who#found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness#I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think#hater hour over love u guys bye
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robinsnest2111 · 9 months ago
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I need to stop saying "it's whatever/doesn't matter" whenever things go wrong at my expense and others try to apologise for having a part in things going wrong.
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torgawl · 1 year ago
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gojover? i barely ever know her
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zincbot · 10 months ago
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the hits stop coming and they don't stop coming
#every time i think i can't feel worse i discover a new blow#TO BE FAIR. IT'S PROBABLY NOT EVEN THAT BAD#i'm just like. really sensitive or something annoying like that#the worst part is that usually when i'm feeling low i can hinge my feelings on smth like 'if this happens that means everything will be okay#but then sometimes. it happens. and i still feel like the world is ending. so that didn't work now what do i do#ugh i didn't even feel this bad when i was like in the hospital a few months ago and it's literally just like. (in summary)#2 people i love are mad at me. i did really poorly in my exams and might lose my gpa. my car (highly attached) is breaking down and i need#get a new one#i start a new job tomorrow and i heard bad things about it from my classmates who started before me#+ i have serious doubts in my ability to dress neatly and well with all my shitty poorman clothes#+ i started breaking out#+ i just noticed i lost a bunch of weight likely from my hospital stay and i dunno how to get that back#+ my doctor said i'm not likely to get full mobility back at this point and it's upsetting me#also my spare tires are missing#ugh i'll be fine. i'll be fine i'll be fine i'll be fine. i'll be fine#i'm good at dealing BUT ONLY WITH SOME OF THESE. i can deal with the car and the job and the health. but interpersonal shit?#which is the thing upsetting me the most? wow surprise surprise local autist doesn't do people good#UGH anyway sorry for complaints on main i just feel like i got too many straws rn#it's 10:30pm i'm sure i'll feel better in the morning (ignoring the fact that i've been feeling almost exactly like this for days)#ugh. it's fine. i'll deal. only way out is through or whatever
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phantaloon · 2 years ago
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modernpygmalion · 14 hours ago
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Gave him the boot
Ended it with my fwb today bc the steady realization i have been in love with my ex best friend who i blocked and ghosted a year ago is too much for me to bear, even tho Johnathan was going to be a lot of fun bc he was into the exact same kinks as me in the exact same way and matched my freak to an eerie degree
So im gonna just kinda settle into maybe becoming one of those professional yeaners who still pine over their homoerotic object of affection like 70 years later. Wish me luck, I might become a published poet in like 5 years if i can channel whatever this is constructively!
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#I found the real sufferers tweet. real. i knew i was gonna end it as soon as it began bc i love to self sabotage.#i was talking about it yesterday like lol I'm gonna blow that up but today has been suckerpunch after suckerpunch of reflection#and examination and just being like damn okay. but yknow! i love to turn my pain into art#so ig since i don't feel like writing about my anime beau I'll just write some poems about whatever the hell the mess i call a heart is#there's a few other guys i still need to turn down gently but lol idc maybe i should blow up#did stupid impulsive shit like sending an email like omg can we talk but tbh. its not healthy. pretty much since i left i wanted to go back#even though i blocked everyone bc i was mad at him i wanted to just run away somewhere only to be with him#anyways last night i was so intp Johnathan and then it clicked the terms he was using and how he was using them were just like my ex bestie#i think the worst part of being intensely jealous and anxious and acting out when you feel threatened is when you know you're doing it#but can't stop. i like to leave in those situations bc i hate who i become#not only is it healthier for me to leave but i do it out of protection of others too. especially if ik im asking for more than i should or#want something that isn't mine to ask for.#i don't think i regret it though. i don't really regret any of my choices these days bc for better and for worse i need to learn these#lessons. but ig when i realized it last nov i kinda just tried to obsess + fuck it out of my system but now as I'm examining the true depth#of my emotions a whole year of no contact later im just like. ah. so that's why it feels like half of my soul has been severed#and then having to look at my own hand holding the blade. there's a detachment from myself but nobody to blame but me#man the poems just write themselves! here's hoping i get some coin from it ig.
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slimyenemy · 15 days ago
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no like i really just stop caring about this stuff so immediately when there's no one to be attracted to like that lol it's kinda funny
#just stops feeling like anything that much at all#like you always post such awesome things come on#imagine not being interested#idk idk i'm trying to think of something to say that wouldn't probably sound a bit annoying but it's all just words fr#are you sure you don't feel uncomfortable with me like paying a bit too much attention to things you like to talk about or something?#because i lowkey feel like a huge stalker every time i even just look up a song or something it's like so weird#or like imagine posting about something myself i'd feel so inappropriate#but also like why not who cares#but idk :D#me talking about it like that probably already makes it feel weird#stupid awkwardness c':#is someone going to get mad at that now or what demisexuality really is exactly like asexuality like 90% or the time#like when you're not in a relationship with someone you do develop this kind of attraction to#and asexuality doesn't necessarily mean a person can't or wouldn't want to have sex because like it literally can still be enjoyable i gues#but not for me because with me nearly everyone just automatically becomes creepy and insufferable and acts like i owe them that and stuff#and it feels horrible and i hate it and now i'm actually seriously traumatized about that#so no no way thanks#love them specifically so much though it's insane❤️#damn i think i'm making it sound like they were insufferable too and like no they really weren't#okay can *you* even name a reason why i wouldn't be more interested in you than in someone else?#because i'm crushing hard and can't think of anything#sorry c':#❤️#means you're cool to feel whatever you feel and that acting on it in a way that enables people who are abusive to me is still weird#all the usual#it really is sad that people are like that and that we're like that because of that#like i said a few hours ago mhm
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akqrus · 4 months ago
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The fairly odd parents theme song was WAYYYY ahead of its time kajsjsksjskssksjksk
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samderella · 4 months ago
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Living with my in-laws after evacuating from a hurricane be like
I appreciate you love and want to spend time with me, but if you don't let me hide in the guest bedroom and write nonsense for five uninterrupted hours, I will scream
#water is out at my place for at least a month minimum#out-laws happily invited us to live with them and they're like oh yay Sam is here#and I'm like if I was home and dealt with this much social time in a row I would turn my phone off and not talk to anyone for three weeks#but no you expect me to hang out with you for at least a couple hours every night#and are concerned if you haven't seen me yet in a day#every time I overhear them ask my partner if I'm okay when I'm just trying to recharge my social battery it goes back down#the autistic energy drain of being perceived#now that I'm living with people other than my partner again every action I do at home has to go through a filter#is this inconsiderate? too noisy? will get in the way? am I being rude by not interacting with my hosts to the degree they desire?#am I fully clothed when I go get a snack or get high???#I've lived by myself since late 2016 and moved in with my partner in 2018#for a reason! it takes so much mental energy to be considerate to the degree I wish to be ahhhhh#anyway I'm 11000 words into the flower shop au and 5000 into chp. 5 of APNJ#post date entirely unknown as I am an introvert living with lonely extroverted parents who miss their family constantly and love me#I could go stay with mine but that would be even worse soooooo#my hurricane experience could be 1000% worse so it feels wrong to complain too much#but unfortunately I may still be driven mad if I live here for over a month#vowed never to live in this state again RIP#using this tumblr to vent because again don't feel like I can complain too much#was extremely lucky on so many accounts#but I would really like to go write smut without being concerned I'll be summoned for game night or whatever#as an extreme oversimplification and dramatized example#I miss home :(#we officially got power back today but city sent out another alert saying still no water for no idea how long#wooooo#shoutout to anyone who bothered to read this I'm using the vent as a way to amp myself to get back to writing#I've had a very emotionally complicated week and a half and even when I do get time to write I don't do it because not in right mindset#I miss May when I cackled to myself while writing terrible smut#my stuff#vent
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