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protect-namine · 2 days ago

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you don't understand how much I felt the slow saline drip of gaining interest in a character, and instead of going, "oooh. interesting. new blorbo?" I instead went, "...really. that guy? oh. oh no."

<- guy with a li tianchen icon ends up blorbofying liu xiao. alas, I have played myself 😔

#mine musings #but he won't eclipse cxs. cxs is still my lc blorbo of all time #but i was so surprised how much lx snuck up on me #bc i'm writing a shiguang fic right. i can tell it's gonna be a long one and it's primarily about shiguang facing The Horrors™ (of course)#and it's non-linear (of course) and i write non-linearly anyway and it's just the kind of story where i *have* to write the endings first #so i was like. okay. i'll write the endings. they'll be my north star. roadmap to shiguang #and then my brain decided: wait. i want to write xiaochen epilogues to this #me (eyes squinting at lx and ltc): ?????????? this fic is not about you???? stop. go away #like it makes *sense* for them to be there. they have roles in the story. but it's like #you know how in the yingdu op lx hijacks the screen to print his english name in red letters #that's literally how it feels writing this fic. lx is hijacking it to have the last word even though he's supposed to #just be in the background scheming or whatever #like. what in the metanarrative experience...! why are you hijacking my fic lx!! this is not about you!!#and yet it kinda does naturally circle back to you in the end?? fuck #and i am!!! so mad!!! like truly!!!! i'm getting so heated just writing these tags lmao #i literally cared about you the least when i checked the hothh pvs so whyyyy are you. climbing the faves list. stop. go away #if i get annoying about lx in the future i apologize in advance #especially next friday #omg i feel like i'll be annoying about it actually bc he's so (gestures hands) vague about everything and i'll be like:#[standing emoji] viewers are gonna misinterpret you lx. and you're letting them #I'M probably misinterpreting you #is this fun for you? i bet you're having fun #ughhh. hell character. shaking him in a glass jar. putting him in the washing machine #microwaving him microwaving him microwaving him

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