#I'm so sorry but that's just my sister in a different Font and I love my sister

[chalkanthit]

Forgot to post him, but it's my problematic fav!

[mysadblacksoul]

Let's talk about Clancy, eh? (plus the livestream)

So I'm watching the livestream (the vod) and I decided to share my opinions about each songs!

without the first 4 singles

But tbh I think I'm an Overcompensate girly, that before hearing the rest of this album this is my top 1

With Backslide as a close second

Wait why should I increase my volume

Oh that's why

It was a trap

Okay Midwest Indigo, let's go I'm so ready

What an outfit Mr Joseph

Omg it's so bouncy

JIM

JENNA

I love the shouty lyrics

This MV is so goofy what the hell

Okay so it's so happy, so funky I love it!

The drums make want to do a lil dance

Hope the next one won't be sad

Yes Tyler, this song will go so hard live, I agree

And yes, put Josh on the mic!

Routines In The Night everybody

Oh so it's the rap one?

It's much less bouncy, but I can still tap my leg to it so I'm fine

You think that this is like the sister song to Ode To Sleep?

The chorous is so catchy what the hell

Yes! Give me those adlibs!

The dances, the visuals, the face card that never declines

What is he eating for Lord's sake

I can't pay attention to the songs when every time one ends those fools pop up on my screen again lol

"not every video is gonna be lore based" my ass

Wait so Routines is not lore oriented? But I see so many references :((((((

Vingette!

So it's a crowd's favourite? Aight

Oh it sound so nostalgic

More rap? okay, okay

Omg the vocals????

It's so different, like I can't predict where are we going with the beat

The bridge is so out of place but so in place???

What is going on

No but I see why they like it, for sure

God I love all the Joshes in the MVs

So Jenna's version will have another MV?

Sounds fun!

Oh it's soft version

So this is a fanmade mv for Jenna, how cute

No for real it is emotional, but in the best way possible

This version is filled with so much love, I can't even explain

The flashbacks to the young dudes? I might cry too

Yeah I se the vision. Like The Craving does feel more "right" played on the ukulele. It gives it much more emotion!

Now you just bully him lol. Tyler has two hands to hold two ukuleles, this is lore guys

Lavish whoo!

Before we start why the hell is the title of this song the only one written in different font in the lyric sheet in the CD, huh?

O damn man in black, get it I guess

The vocals are so dreamy, so different

Another leg mover

Why all of this songs are so catchy are you putting crack in it or what

It's also very chill so far

I also really like the use of the strings, it makes the song more full!

It kind of sounds like a movie soundtrack? Or is it just the MV that makes it feel this way

The silliest MV so far lmao

And seeing the amount of work that went into it makes it even better

And now Navigating!

I have to stop myself from looking for lore

I'm 3 seconds in, why it already sounds like a bop

This might be my new favourite song from this album

The electric guitar? With the synth? 11/10

The chorous is so amazing, simply

Will the bridge be sad or will he scream

Oh come through with this bass

JOSH ISN'T REAL THEORY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE WE IN THE FOREST FIC

Where did he go irl lmao

No for real it might be my favourite now, sorry Overcompensate

The Bandito one is the real one, write that down

NO I THINK I JUST GOT IT, THE WHOLE LORE MAKES SO MUCH SENSE NOW

What the hell Tyler, we have such a different taste then

Snap Back let's go!

What is going on

I'm like a second in

Oh no, it's broken

Instead of Snap Back premiere we have the premiere of Next Semester (ukulele version)

I'm not mad at all

Okay, let's go for real this time

Oh it's so dreamy

So this is the MV with head shaving lmao

BACKSLIDE, I heard that everyone

The drums are really shining on that song

And I love the contrast between low tone verses and more melodic, high alibs in chorous

The bridge seems sad I fear

Or are we picking up the tempo?

Nah we are putting more adlibs now!

Even better

Oldies station better be nostalgic

And quick question before we start, what the hell did you do to Josh?

Is this ballad?

Soft, fun and with funky vocals!

The lyrics are so beautiful, god

Omg Josh lmao

What a contrast to the song lol

Oh we are switching

I don't know how to justify it, but it feels like such a twenty one pilots song

Like it just makes sense for them to make it

I really like it

Honestly At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb sounds silly from the start

So is the MV

I really like the rollercoaster of the vocals. They are kind of all over the place, but still makes a lot of sense

It's the beat drop on the "drop"

Oh rap some more sure!

Why does he want to fight in every MV

Very fun, very chill and then you have the post chorous that are hard hitting

Love the contrast

Am I crazy or did they use kalimba in the end? I might be wrong tho

That's so sad that we are already finishing

One last track

Paladin Strait whoo!

I'm afraid that this one will be the sad one

The tears producer

The heart clencher

The ukulele strikes back

Love those low vocals

It's a song to sway this time

The drums strikes back

I don't know why it kind of sounds like the end of the western movie. Like after the good ending the cowboy is walking towards the sun, you see my vision?

This song is full of hope, so amazing

God the lyrics sounds like Clancy is finaly free

I might cry

It sounds like good ending to the trilogy

So it feels like a scam

It's too good to be true

But I don't know, maybe after all the ending of this story is good for all of us

What, is the silence in the official audio or is it just the end of the livestream

NO WAIT THERE IS MORE

no

wait guys no

FPE?????

WHO THE HELL

IS IT BLURRY

WHAT THE HELL

Now I need the MV to see what the hell is going on

The End

Nah, I'm not leaving you like this

I still think that Navigating is my fav from the new songs

But I'm gonna go listen to the album some more and then decide for sure

It's a good mix of everything, very twenty one pilots style

I just wished for more rage and screaming, but we need to be calm sometimes, I get it

There isn't a song that I don't like, that's for sure

So yeah! This are my feelings, thoughts (and prayers)

Give me your favourite song in the comments!

[franzkafkagf]

Hi! Sorry to bother but I really like your posts and i wanted to ask you ,what are your fave dynamics in HOTD ?

Have a good day/night !

not a bother at all!!!

i‘m a giant aegon stan so i can‘t help but be insane about alicent and him (mean, look at my mobile theme lmao). the mother mary-ism of her, seeing him walk up to the cross. woah. i‘ve written about alicent’s thoughts on her son here and have made a web weaving (atp shoutout to these post. they changed my brain chemistry)

I plan to do so much more once s2 comes! her trying to gaslight herself into thinking crowning him is the best thing for him (spoiler; to crown him is to kill him alicent!) and also his neediness and just the pure need to be loved and appreciated and him finally getting that (the coronation… woah). what have you created, alicent? she sees rhaenyra in him, she sees viserys in him, she sees her dead youth in him, she sees herself in him, she sees the disappointment, the potential squandered, she sees his blood, BUT DOES SHE SEE HIM?!?!?

other than that rhaenyra and aegon are so fascinating to me... there is regrettably not a lot there. I mean.... its targaryen custom to have the firstborn son marry his older sister (aegon 1 and visenya??? hello???) they were literally fated but it didn't happen and it ended in tragedy. they're such great foils to each other it makes me insane and makes me wish for a diff version of the show focussed on their dichotomy (i'll forever have what sort of brother steals his sister's birthright? and AFTER YOU, YOU ARE THE ELDER-> SHOOK!!!) -> THEY ARE THE SAME BUT IN DIFFERENT FONTS

another dynamic I'm getting into are alicent and cole -> the love is there, unspoken but it's always in the room. him being a surrogate dad to the green siblings is canon for me. cannot wait for him to become hand. him at rook's rest - will make me turn fully insane!

[cerealandchoccymilk]

Trigun Bookclub: Trigun Vol.1, Chapter #02

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Continuation of my Trigun annotation for the book club. I'm doing a deep-read of the Japanese original print (reread) and Overhaul 1.0 (first read) side-by-side, and writing down everything I notice from small details, version differences, translation differences, etc. (and being gay about the characters <3 always important)

Here are the beloved non-analysis sillies...

And the rest is under the cut. read my notes boy!!

[link for if the images aren't in horizontal rows]

The second page has an error - 悪夢 was probably misread as 悪魔 ("happen" and "awaken" are also the same kanji). It should be "Then, the nightmare occurred." It's really cool that this still works really well considering...y'know (not saying for the first-time readers ;) )

I just love how that drawing of Vash is so cool and serious...

...and then you turn the page and he's in the most pathetic cunty pussy-out pose you've ever seen. Easily one of my favorite panels. Also made a math question for funsies. sorry to anyone who got high school flashbacks, but I absolutely loved trigonometry lmao. I could do this forever.

A little pun(?) that may or may not be intentional - In Japanese, someone with a bounty on their head is called 賞金首, lit. "bounty neck" ("neck" sometimes signifies the entire head). The locals call out for the bounty-neck right as Vash hurt his neck lol

I love how creepy Vash moves sometimes. absolute cryptid

This is entirely a Japanese-only detail, but I really loved how Vash said バヤイ (bayai) in the sobbing in French line, because my mom also says that instead of 場合 (baai) when she's being silly lmao. Also, it's notable that in Japanese, Vash says フランセ語 ("Francé-go," where "go" is the suffix for languages) which may be either another miles->iles/double-dollar situation, or just him speaking silly like バヤイ.

Also, the line after that would more accurately be "How am I supposed to deal with all these locals?"

Here, the "Really?" is actually Meryl saying something like "I'll give you a hint."

Meryl tends to be the one responsible for the braincell in fanworks but it's important to remember that she absolutely is dumb too (affectionate).

I'm so glad I wrote that reminder about Meryl's speech, but I don't think I'll be able to do it justice here when I have so much more to talk about. I'll have to write another post later, so I'll link it when it's done. The gist is that she talks like a stereotypical high-class anime girl, and the trope is from how a similar demographic in Meiji-era Japan actually spoke.

The boy's pussy faces the world yet again. I love all the faces he makes!! look at him!!!!!!!!!!! he's so cute

The text on the board here was very messy and squished, but it says something like "Vash the Stampede Absolute Capture Task Force Headquarters." Honestly don't know how to fit all that into the board though so uh good luck on that for 2.0... Also dear god Vash has so much energy... He's just been running for 3 hours straight...!!

Fun fact: the equivalent idiom to "fight fire with fire" in Japanese is "use poison on poison."

Love how Nebraska is just like "no we didn't jailbreak, we just let ourselves out :/"

Translation error for Milly and the chairman - Milly is saying "Why do things keep getting worse and worse!?" and the chairman is mumbling "What's the deal with you two..."

Showing some love for his pretty pretty eyes..........(gives him so many smooches in my head)("i can imagine anything" image)(can't add it because i reached the 30 image limit)

The "Freeze!" is actually untranslated, just re-typed to match the surrounding font. Also, that panel is the first time Vash's antennae is shown bent!! It goes back up immediately after that though.

Fun fact #2. Vash says ara ara. if you even care.

This line never fails to hit me hard. They're all desperate mothers and sisters, and they're taking on the bad role because nothing's more important than their dear children. (reminds me of a certain someone...)

I've seen someone mention this before, but Trimax definitely adjusted the number of plants. Fifty!?!? Also, in Japanese, "plants" and "died" were in quotations.

I love the gun pull in the right panel. Vash obviously definitely doesn't intend on shooting, but is rather showing off his skill and resolve as an intimidation tactic to throw the girls off-guard.

God this entire spread is just so RAW.... (here's the post that's mentioned in blue. it just reminded me)

Some more hypes and sillies. The impact that "KISS MY ASS!!" had on my first read was phenomenal!! It's so silly!! and cool!!!

And then there's this!! Another favorite part of mine. Vash's antennae are bent again! They kind of alternate between straight and bent from here.

The green writing about the onomatopoea are more of just a translation note rather than a suggestion. I can't think of any good beckoning noises in English :V

And finally, Milly calls "Mr. Bomb" "Bomb-kun" in Japanese which I think yall would enjoy lol. And happy strangling her saturday tuesday.

The Japanese version of the annotations are in the reblogs, if anyone wants them.

I have Chapter #03 mostly ready, so I'll probably post it tomorrow morning and try to speedrun the rest of the chapters because this is taking longer than I expected!! God there's just so much to say!! (Also gotta remember to write about Meryl's speech!!)

And thank yall so much for the feedback on the Chapters #00-01 post!! I didn't know so many people were interested in such small details!! Love (and peace) yall 🫶🤞

[just-in-case-iloveyou]

get to know me tag 🌻

@sugarcoated-lame my darling🧡 thank you so much for the tag 🥰

1. were you named after anyone?

i'm pretty sure y'all can guess my real name, but yeah, i was. my name means "she who will rise again," which was neat, because my parents read about an American Indian woman who worked closely with an ethnologist to record hundreds of hours tapes cataloging her tribe's language. a language that no one spoke, until a cardboard box containing those tapes was found in the Smithsonian Institution the year before i was born. my parents loved the name and were blown away by the story.

2. when was the last time you cried?

two days ago, it's been a rough month

3. do you have kids?

no kids, but i do have a fur baby 🥹 ditto, Kricket

4. what sports do you play/have you played?

i did dance and gymnastics a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away. 🩰 after that, i played basketball and softball in middle school, and volleyball from middle to high school. 🏀🥎🏐

5. do you use sarcasm?

at this point, i'm pretty sure it's a coping mechanism for me.

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

smile first, then eyes (mostly because i'm nearsighted, so eyes are a little harder)

7. what’s your eye color?

hazel, i guess. they're green on the outside and brown on the inside.

8. scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings, for sure. i'm too chicken for scary movies 🐔 and i like to feel happy 💖

9. any talents?

Kicket, babe, i feel like we're kind of the same person.

i can sing, and if i'm comfortable enough with you, i'll sing along to things in your presence. i used to take voice lessons and do musical theater, but since my anxiety developed later, that's a big no-go nowadays. i'm also a solid advice-giver (but i can't take my own), and i used to stress-bake a TON in university. i suppose i'm pretty good at random trivia! and i'm okay at painting, but i only really do it at those paint and sip places lol.

10. where were you born?

Orange County, California 🍊

11. what are your hobbies?

again, same person, different font

PUZZLES!!! reading, watching movies, singing, baking, thrifting, playing video games (i'm a sucker for the Nancy Drew mystery games). i'm trying to get better at cooking. i used to do creative writing and write poems, but i haven't in a very long time. i feel like i should try to get back into that. and like i said, paint and sip is also fun lol

12. do you have any pets?

at the moment, my sister has a pittie mix named Moose, we've got a lovebird named Peach, and a tortoise (African desert maybe?) named Shelley (we didn't name him). we lost my sweet girl Bell and my baby boy Percy not too long ago 💔💔

13. how tall are you?

5'2" i'm almost pocket-sized!

14. favorite subject in school?

English and Social Studies (history, geography, psych, etc.)

15. dream job?

this is gonna sound insane, but ever since i was 11, i've always wanted to work for the Naval Criminal Investigative Service (NCIS). it sounds squirrely, but long story short, i started watching NCIS and CSI: Crime Scene Investigation around that age, and i just got SO interested in criminology and forensics.

no pressure tags: @lewmagoo @laracrofted @seresinhangmanjake @withahappyrefrain @roosterforme @ohtobeleah @mamachasesmayhem @bobgasm @bobfloydsbabe @attaboylew @attapullman @mjskeletons661 @lostinthefandoms11 @pinkdaisies1106 @mandylove1000 I’m a little late to this so sorry if you’ve already done it 🧡

[komori--shoma]

Hi I'm new in your blog . I just saw a post about your OC that she hates Yui even though she is her sister . Just why ? Sorry it reminded me wattpad stories that Yui is a bitch and her sister is an angel and all diaboys like her . Is you oc like this ? It's not hate I just wanna know the reason?

Ok, funny little fact, I was in Wattpad from when I was like, eleven I think?, until just two, one year ago. Shoma was created around 2018 or 2019 (I honestly don't remember at this point, I might be wrong). She was born in Wattpad and, funny enough, I saw so many tittles with 'Yui's lost sister' with that same dynamic that old me thought, "You know what, I'm going to do it my way. Fuck it.", and Shoma was born. Her personality was PAINFULLY, OBVIOUSLY based in Harley Queen and other characters and she wasn't exactly human and the way I wrote it makes me want to squeeze my phone like a dog toy.

GOOD THINGS (I think) THAT I DID THO: I actually gave a kind of "good reason" for Shoma and Yui to not like each other (Which, spoilers, is because of their own trauma towards Seiji and the Church, the brainwashing, the whole 'locked up in a basement' themes, which is kind of the same back then as now, but better executed and less "Wattpad" like?), and that I didn't want my girl to have any romantic feeling with the Diaboys. I wanted to be different, yes, but I also wanted something that would entertain others while reading and not be the same stuff but in different font. Something that would not make them hate Yui, nor roll their eyes at how ridiculous it was (back then what I wrote it wasn't considered that ridiculous).

But in short:

Is Shoma an angel? No, but she's a teen when the story starts AND when she finds Yui and the other boys. Do they Diaboys love her? Barely know her and most definitely would . Maybe Subaru may have bonded with her in another universe, but who knows.

[theimaginatrix27]

So I've gotten a few of the revamped Discworld audiobooks

I really like what I'm hearing so far!

The ones I currently have are Small Gods(again), Wyrd Sisters (due to the miniseries I watched bits of as a small child, and which was my introduction to the Disc, though I knew it not then), Soul Music (I paid more attention to that miniseries, though I never fully processed "Susan's grandfather is Death" because I didn't know the context/missed the beginning), and Amazing Maurice (which was the first Discworld novel I ever read courtesy of Vision Australia).

I also got a set of BBC audio dramas, but I wasn't satisfied with some of them (the guy who played Death was not a bass and Death can't just be a tenor/baritone with a reverb slapped on I'm sorry I didn't make these rules.)

So, let's start with Small Gods, because I listened to the play version and then the new version read by Andy goddam Serkis.

So Andy did a phenomenal job, but who was expecting any different?

He did give Brutha a deeper voice than I expected from a seventeen-year-old but I got used to that (also I had just listened to the audio drama wherein Brutha was played by another tenor so I was a wee bit biased).

He also turned Om into David Lister from Red Dwarf and I don't know how to feel about that one except I hope Terry was listening in the afterlife and found it just as hilarious.

After consuming three separate versions of this book I can state with confidence that I would absolutely die for Brutha if that would not make him sad. He was such a good boy.

Death shows up just a little in this book but I'll gush about him in a minute.

Apart from the other plays, which I skimmed through, I've only read Soul Music, so let's just move on to that one okay?

Death has his own voice actor. I mentioned this the other night when I made the post wherein I related my discovery of the new set of audiobooks, but guys he is. Killing it. (pun absolutely intended and also completely true.) His voice is deep and dark and rolls like thunder and is the perfect balance of black honey on black velvet and GAH I LOVE IT. There need to be audiobook narrations awards just so Peter Serafinowicz could get seven.

Sian Clifford is also amazing, and captures Susan very well, as well as every other character, and I enjoyed listening to her extremely very much.

Seriously Peter's Death is the best iteration of Death I've ever heard and I watched the miniseries of this book, which had Death played by Christopher goddam Lee!

Peter does not, notably, attempt to speak for the Death of Rats. I do not mind this. Sian's "SQUEAK"s were adorable. (Can you do the Death font on Tumblr? I think I've seen the Death font rendered weirdly by my screen-reader before and I dunno if it was on here or TVTropes.)

I didn't get the Nigel version of this book but I heard the sample and he did what he always does with gloomy characters and made Susan sound cartoon glum and ... I'm glad that's not what I experienced here.

Terry's references are like finding chocolate coins every now and then when you turn a page and I love them.

In short, I believe I've made an excellent investment.

I really hope whoever narrates the Vimes books is as good as the guy who played him in the Night Watch drama. I think he was different from the guy who played him in the Guards! Guards! drama, which is why I'm pointing him out specifically. I'm sure I'll love the choice regardless, but I'm still gonna voice the hope.

[neteyamsilly]

omg hii im so sorry if you already answered this i tried looking for an answer on your page but couldn’t 😭 but when do you think your neteyam bridgerton will come out?!? no rush ofc im just really excited!! im loving the sully family fic btw, it’s amazing!!! hope you enjoy the rest of your week ❤️‍🔥

Hi anon! No worries, I haven't talked about this from what I remember either!

The answer is I HAVE NO IDEA. It was the reason why I opened this blog because I couldnt get rid of the brainrot and then I posted the sully family fic because I needed to get rid of THAT brainrot & then the overwhelming support on i will soften every edge overtook the inspiration, and now we're here 🤠

I have plans to be completely done with the main story in the next two weeks, and then see where my house of stone goes when I'm done! The more it sits on the shelf the more ideas I pile up for it, to be honest.

Like, Anurai!reader has her own character design compared to sister!reader who has little to no descriptions at all for example. But don't worry, it's not an OC (bc I see this often where it’ll say reader but its really an OC with a name and everything), they are about how you dress and what you put on yourself, the reader yourself isn’t described!

Some of the behind the scenes process for the fic I feel OK to share:

I want to repurpose the Anurai ppl and where they live, not really the forest but somewhere like a savanna at the edge of the forest that would pop the big bone sanctuary more. And like I said, I also want to take more creative liberty with her accessories and the way she dresses with bone masks and everything! And to go with a different pattern design than Omatikaya and different tail stronger to climb and act as another limb with full on cat-eyes that dilate and shrink for hunting/adaptation purposes, so that they are still forest people but in a different font, really. These are still on developmental stages I'm having fun with it, so it's not forgotten at all, anon, don't worry!

[shjayd]

1st post not via iPhone 🤨

ok... i'm typing this from my laptop. i like you enough to download you to my laptop, Tumblr! 😉 i don't think i can even edit any of my font or anything, so that part sucks (if in reality i can't), so i'd say app via iPhone > Windows when it comes to you, #TUMBLR <- idk if that will even tag in the middle of my post/only at the end.

GOTTA START SOMEWHERE.

previous text complaint: taken back

it's time to get this started ⌚ i heard about you from the Netflix true-crime documentary, Hotel Cecil or w/e, & the thought of posting my thoughts like a social journal (among some other things I've ran across or made self - i like to do calligraphy and hand lettering. i've became creative AFTER getting clean AFTER getting pregnant with my daughter. i always was, i guess the drugs took that part of my imagination away? i'm also obsessed with astrology. if you ask me, i'm a professional astrologer 🔮🌙✨..🤥🫤😤

Taurus Sun, Taurus Moon, and Rising Gemini... i know. a SCARY, yet BEAUTIFUL mEsS. ❤️‍🩹 i'm also very educated in mental health. from personally, to genetics, family and friends, to past work experience. i was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (BPD) after my HORRIFYING encounter with Post-Partum Depression, PPD, (although i've most likely suffered from my BPD since a very young age. my mother and brothers who lived with me all of my life would agree). i just never took, nor wanted to take, what my mom and family dr. told me a/b therapists & referrals to psychiatrists anywhere near serious. i honestly thought everyone felt/acted the way i did with both my lowest of lows & highest of highs 🤯… to me, it was always “this is what everyone has to go through. this is life. this is life… everyday”.

i'm a twin, my mother & i are as close as they come (it’s scary b/c I know she won’t be here forever, & both my daughter i I NEED her. forever). her EVER leaving us is another thing I refuse to even think a/b. NEXT SUBJECT;

yes, DADDY ISSUES 🙄 i was the wildest teenager into my late 20s. that was all until i FINALLY realized my self-worth & left my toxic, to say the LEAST, ex-gf, FOR GOOD, & ended up with my life-long best friend's brother, who i've been close, actually very close with, ever since i met his sister when we were ~10-years-old. he saved me. then our daughter came at the most perfect time to save us, as we started to go down that path holding hands. i'm DEF. not going to go into depth, y'all would drown, if you haven’t already.

*the specifics are overrated with no existing relevant meanings here*

i've been on this Earth for ✨almost✨ thirty whole fucking years. yes, i typed out the word, b/c I now have this BURSTING animosity for the number 3, however, 4 is mine. my best best friend is a 2-year-old, teeny chonk, only 2 years old, more dramatic than me, sassy-ass, genius COVID baby. (she was conceived in 2019, so, that was... a.. normal different?) she's 28, ✨ALMOST✨ 29-months-old. her name isn't important, so I'll just refer to her as 'quack'.. 🦆

..............🥰🥰🥰

we live together with her daddy - minez first 🏃🏼‍♀️🥇😂 - my other best friend. (〃￣︶￣)人(￣︶￣〃) •i also enjoy: "adult" coloring books, THC, journaling, Amazon Prime, the little things, elephants, my vape, bullet journaling, bellly laughing, my dishwasher, baby clothes, wood-burning, doodling, Hulu, ACKNOWLEDGMENT, roses WITH sunflowers 🌹🌻, ORCHIDS, my desk, ear-buds, Aaron Hernandez, my little space on earth instead of the internet - my desk & sketchbook, & ANYTHING organizational/cleaning... •i dislike: Scorpios, fantasy movies/series like Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Game of Thrones - sorry, not sorry 🤷🏼‍♀️ - shitty parents, mornings, Karens, uppers, Instagram, judgmental humans, my fingernails when they aren't done, & typos. I have a love/hate relationship with Pisces, both male & female 🐠 i'm as blunt & unfiltered as they come. oh, & you can't hurt my feelings (a big s/o to my past traumas). i'm.. an opened, closed book... if that makes any sense to you? now go ahead & try to break down my walls to get to know the real me! i’m the best friend you could ever have! 🤞🏼😸🥳 OKAY! that's enough for now. follow me, & let's get to learn more about e/o & our little spaces on the internet. if you've made it this far 🙂 i'm going to stfu now. (didn’t lie a/b a thing. told you i tend to start rambling. bad.)

• i want to leave you all something pretty to look @ as a preview of what this journey entails💭

[moonchild-in-blue]

🌻🌱✨ for the ask game?

Hello hello, thank you for the asks, dear anon, these are wonderful! Sorry if I'm replying a bit late, Real Life has been a bit consuming these days 😬

🌻 what sort of setting would have you most likely to get lost in the beauty of things?

Damn, that's a great question. I think either in an art museum (how very original, I know), or somewhere deep in the forest/surrounded by greenery. Museums are one of my favourite places to visit - there's a reason why I studied art - and i'm one of those people that can get lost for hours and hours and hours on a single piece. It's so beautiful and human, for us to have built spaces dedicated to the preservation of culture and beauty. And with each piece, whether it's a Romantic painting or a contemporary avant-garde installation, you can feel how everyone seems to be screaming something to the world. And we get it! And love it! Look, we're here and alive and breathing! And nature, of course, it's just... Wow! A cute leaf! A ladybug! A beam of sunshine!! Trees!!! Beauty is everywhere.

🌱 what’s something you’d like to learn more about?

Humm, so. Regarding something I already have some knowledge on, but would like to further deepen it, definitely Art History. I took that subject all throughout high school/uni (both under and post-grad), but I really want to take one of those more intensive online courses just for that. Uni was more practical, so we didn't go as deep into it as I had liked. But if we're talking about something that I know very little to nothing about, would have to be Typography. I've been meaning to do some studies/research on the different types of fonts, etc, but somehow never got around to it. I find it fascinating!!

✨ what scents do you have strong memories/associations with?

Oh, thank you so much for choosing this one, I adore this type of questions!! Anything that connects abstract concepts with the senses is 100% my thing. For the scents, two very particular come in mind. I vividly remember the smell of herbal toothpaste, the kind that resembles cough syrup or vaporub. My grandparents used that kind of toothpaste, so the smell reminds me of their bathroom and of summers spent at their house with my sister. We were really young, and life seemed so promising and impossible. It was nice. The other is the smell of lemons. It's one of my favourite scents in the whole world. Back in uni, I used to work at this dingy chicken shop in NE England. It was ugly and gloomy, and not super pleasant to be in. Everyday I came home with the smell of oil and fried chicken clinging to my skin, and for the 7 or 8 hours long shifts, that was all I could smell. Well, for a while there, we had this cook that used to make really good salads. Why? He added lemon. I remember being in the middle of my shift, exhausted and with my feet sore, and the smell of freshly cut lemons suddenly filling the air. I remember telling him how much I loved that smell - he told me "now, whenever you smell lemons, you can remember me". It's been 4 or 5 years since, and I still do. Clear as day.

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Your recent post about Fandom in the Before Times is so interesting--thanks for sharing your experiences! I'd never really thought about how that element of pre-archive curation undergirded the entire shape of fandom. My fam Acquired the Internet in 2003 (on a generous, "why would anyone ever need more Internet than this" 3hr-a-month AOL plan, LOL) and I totally remember hurriedly saving as many fics off FFN as I could so I could print them out in 8pt font to read offline. My first fandom where I really ID'd as a Writer (as opposed to a webdesigner) was in the LJ-era, but that fandom still had a privately hosted archive that the plebs could only dream of being asked to join. (It was very exclusive--I've never experienced a fandom with stronger BNF culture than that one, and I wonder if that's a generational/fandom-era-related thing too?--but, hey it was also a really great archive! So much good reading all in one place!) Anyway, that whole thing makes total sense when thinking of it as being an artifact of How Fandom Was Done immediately prior to spaces like FFN/LJ. THIS ISN'T A REAL ASK, I GUESS, SORRY just a "loved this post!" comment but I'm too chicken to add it to the big thread!

WOW, printing fanfic was such a mood! I have a sister who is 3 years older than me, so she went off to college and had ~a LAN connection~ instead of our crummy dial-up (we had roughly the same plan as you, although the bandwidth was probably worse because it was 1996) and she used to print off fanfic for me, it was a glorious time.

Something else I thought of along the way is that I was in comic book fanfic, and thinking about it now, I can see how the online spaces mirrored the experience of hanging out with fans in an actual comic store-- owning back issues, knowing lots of the Silver Age lore, being special friends with the owners or employees was all part of building clout. Although I was on the younger end, the people I was writing fanfic with had published 'zines and went to cons, so they brought those cultures in, too. People wrote a fair amount of filk (writing songs or changing the lyrics of a song to be fandom-y) in those days, too, which you almost never see anymore! One really big difference, though, between online and offline spaces, though was gender. There were *a lot* of dudes in that fandom compared to what I see now, but even so, it was heavily skewed toward women, which is exactly the opposite of what you'd see walking into a brick-and-mortar comic or gaming store or a campus anime club.

As the Internet grew and democratized, the culture of online spaces sort of replaced the "comic book fans" culture, imo, and that's one of the reason fanfic and fandoms are so much more mainstream these days. I think you're exactly correct that BNF/gatekeeping are somewhat an artifact of that time, although I do suspect it varies a lot from fandom to fandom.

I actually love hearing people's Early Experiences in fandom, so thanks for sending this in, and also thanks for tolerating my middle-aged lady ramblings. 😁😁

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excerpt from iwitby: jam and toast

i am forever impressed with how garbage tumblr makes images, so please click for better quality. i'm hesitant to make the font bigger or fewer words per screenshot because that would make these long excerpts even longer on your dash, but if you would like that, please let me know

transcript and taglist under the cut

When I come back to reality, I exclaim, “Wait. You’re sitting on the island?”

He freezes, bread halfway to his mouth. “Why not?”

“You seem too proper for it.”

He shrugs. ‘No one’s here to tell us no. Like you said, nothing matters in the House of Gerwyn.”

Nothing matters. That almost certainly means he doesn’t care about what we’ve been doing—it’s either to please the House, or he’s just bored. Everything matters to me, but who cares? It’s all the same. I’ll get my heart broken either way, even though I’ll never tell him everything. That will stay locked in me forever.

I smile, helpless in bliss for the moment.

“My sister loved exactly this kind of jam,” Cassius says through a full mouth. I freeze.

“You—you have a sister?”

“Yes. You didn’t know that?”

I suck in a breath. “No.” I’m scared of seeming too interested once again to ask questions, though my head is full of them. Her name? What was she like? How did you survive leaving her, because I didn’t survive leaving mine.

“I miss her,” he says idly, oblivious to the effect he’s having on me.

My eyes shut against a wave of grief. Victoria does not cross my mind often—I don’t allow her to—for exactly this reason. Her face, bright and optimistic, is there behind my eyelids, her dark eyes full of hope. The warmth of her grubby little hand in mine is a ghost I long for.

“Sarpedon?”

I open my eyes to dark reality again, pierced by a golden mask and red hair. “Yeah?”

“You looked…” He shakes his head, but I don’t let him get away with it this time.

“No. What were you going to say?”

I know he’s staring at me, I know he is, searching my eyes for answers. I try to close them off, make things harder for him.

“You looked sad.”

Such a simple phrase, like something a child would say.

“Why?” he asks.

“My sister—she and I got separated when we were kids.” My voice is tight, my words clipped. The room is dark, but I feel like the spotlight of heaven is shining on me, exposing me. I’ve never told anyone this story. I never thought Cassius Pyrrha would be the first to know.

“Her name?”

“Vic—Victoria.” I stare at my fingers, unable to face him, even masked. I wish I had a mask.

“Sebastian and Victoria.” Another shudder goes through me as he says my name. Names do not have power like flame and darkness do, but there’s something indescribable about hearing mine pass his lips. “Where were your parents?”

“Dead. We’d just left their bodies behind. We were trying to get to the mainland when we, um. When we got separated.”

“Let me guess. You sought revenge on the person who took her from you and got a taste for blood?”

Blissful wonder is quickly replaced by red hot anger. After everything we’ve done, I’d hoped he might see me differently, but apparently not. His voice cuts like a ruthless knife, like the knife I didn’t use. “I don’t want to hurt people who don’t deserve it. I want to hurt the people who do. I get no joy out of harming innocents. Let’s clear that up right now.”

He’s quiet. I finally face him to demand an explanation, but the way he’s ducking his head, clearly deep in thought, makes me pause.

“Why do you harm anyone?” he asks, repeating his question from earlier. “What happened to you to make you this way? If your sister was taken from you, why don’t you want to help others who’ve lost their families?”

I take a deep breath. We are at the crux of the issue that divides us. “You can help as many people who are screwed by the system as you want, but as long as it still exists, people will never stop getting screwed. Nothing more, nothing less than that.”

I stand and cross my arms, waiting for his reaction. What am I hoping for, approval? I don’t need anyone’s approval, much less Cassius Pyrrha’s. We’ve been fighting for years over how much he disapproves of me.

“I’m sorry,” he murmurs, “that you had to go through that.”

“Don’t patronize me,” I snap, my hands itching for something to grab onto, something to fiddle with. I hate this feeling. It makes me want to run and hide and never come out where another’s eyes can see me. Vulnerability.

IWITBY taglist (lmk to be added/removed) @magic-is-something-we-create @ashen-crest @inherentlywritten @justthehopeleft @a-forgotten-dusk @tangled-brambles-in-a-wild-wood @aelenko @47crayons @cielhelm @mel-writes-with-her-dragons @brittany-diamond @indecentpause @myhusbandsasemni @bronwennjames

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Oh Mädch darling, the loneliness.. I'm 24 now, and I've felt that way too! It's so hard sometimes! Despite having many people I was friendly with and a handful of close friends that I did things with often, and despite being extremely busy (like four performances in one week, with two tests and a festival coming up), I frequently felt very lonely while I was in school. There's a certain amount of isolation that goes on in school simply because you've got work to do!! And more often than not you have to be alone to do it! And for you, doing all that plus the whole.. global pandemic situation. It's rough.

Handling my loneliness and general mental health has gotten a easier since I graduated, but my life has also changed quite a bit since then - I'm lonely still, but I'm doing things I like to do, I engage in content I enjoy, and I talk to both of my sisters literally all the time. I don't have homework or deadlines, I'm not so busy, and I have time to relax.

There are definitely weeks (like two weeks ago I think it was) where everything is WRONG and I'm LONELY and I cry for multiple hours about it, but I talk to my sister, and listen to good music, and dance a little. I'll clean my room (because you know it's gotten messy while I've spent a week crying), and make my bed, do laundry, and maybe make a goofy edit of some kpop boys, while listening to my favorite songs, and things are more or less okay.

So I don't know if I can say being deeply lonely is 'normal' but it's definitely something people feel. I'm still young, and my sister would definitely have more things to say (she's brilliant and so so smart when it comes to people), but you kinda just gotta ride it out, and cry a little.

There's a video of a guy with captions in this somewhat psychedelic font and he says "take it easy. but take it!" So like, be kind and forgiving to yourself, but don't stop interacting with the world and your friends, and don't forget to get things done!

Anyway this is kinda long (is that just the norm for me now? 😅) but I just wanted to tell you that I'm rooting for you! I'm always here, and available to chat. Even if it feels awkward, you can reach out to me. 🥰🥰

You always make me feel so loved and warm, and I want you to feel the same! I hope you have a restful weekend!! Love you 💖💖💖 dkbtho

hey angel <3 sorry i’m getting back to this a little late 😭 i was watching yt and i literally fell asleep for a good 45 mins NDNJD that just shows u how tired i was from my clinical rotation today :’) right before bed too !!! lol

i turn 23 in december and just like, the older i become the more i realize this? not a lot of ppl know my whole uni sorry but let’s just say i’m not with my original nursing class that i originally started out with, and this year more than ever, being with no roommate for the first time and not playing my sport with my team this year, i realize that with the class that i’m in right now ….. i really just don’t click with anyone? i feel so disconnected like even tho everyone is nice to me and i ram just a friendly person in general, i feel so out of place and like, i don’t have that “rice or die” friend group :/ and i understand what you mean like especially now that i’m in my last year of nursing and i leave campus literally 2 times a week for clinical rotations, i have a ton of work on my plate …

i guess i’m just really nervous for graduation bc i don’t want to live alone, yet i don’t think i want to go back home? i’m an only child to a single mother, so it’s not like i have the wonderful support of sisters like you have, ya know? but i also think living in a different city will be really good for me bc i want to have these experiences, and ppl do it all the time. but i know this will come with loads and loads of loneliness … will i be able to handle that? will i meet ppl or be so exhausted from working 3 twelve hour shifts a week to be able to go out and make friends? these are the things that deeply trouble me dndndnndndjd and i wish someone could just talk it out with me irl 😭

anyways besides my blabbering, thank you for your sweet words and encouragement 💖 they always mean a lot to me even if maybe sometimes they’re just hopeful words, they really make me feel a little better 🥺 i hope you have a good night hun, and have a good weekend !!! 💞💗💖💓💘💕