#I'm so grateful 🫂

[meownotgood]

when did you started csm ? did you liked aki from the beginning ?

I read chainsaw man about two years ago! aki was always my favorite... when I saw him in the first chapter he was introduced I was like, yes. this is the character for me. but after I reread chainsaw man was when I grew really obsessed with him haha

also, this ask reminded me that earlier this month was my 2 years of writing fanfic anniversary!!!! happy 2 years me and aki 🎉

[ohharrypls]

I took this letter to a memorial but wanted to share here too.

"Thank you Liam so much for being in my life and shaping so many childhoods. Thank you for giving us love, support and encouragement through your and One Direction's music during the hard times and highlights of our lives.

You were a kind, generous and charitable person who encouraged so many to follow their dreams and be as kind as you were. You had the kind of smile that shone in your eyes, brighter than any star, and gave us so much comfort.

Thank you again so much for the music that helped me get through everything life threw my way.

I don't want to say 'goodbye' but instead see you later. Thank you for everything. You made me strong.

Rest in peace, My Angel

I can't say thank you enough, but truly thank you for everything Liam. I can't believe you're gone. I've lost count of how many days its been, but each morning I keep waking up expecting the news to change, but it doesn't 💔.

I keep saying each night "I'll see you tomorrow. Things will be different tomorrow.", just so I can sleep and have hope for tomorrow, but the news still doesn't change 💔. But one tomorrow, we all will see you again.

Songs I keep revisiting whenever I miss you tons is You're Beautiful by James Blunt and Drops of Jupiter by Train. I think they capture the type of person you were, beautiful inside and out. An angel. And at peace now. ❤️

Whenever I need reassurance, I'll look to the sky, because I know that's where you are now.

Rest well

[trovesoftreasure]

“I am the sky and the power of every storm that has ever been. I am infinite.”

happiest of happy birthdays to my darling @waxladrian ♥️

[a-s-levynn]

@murderofcrow It's finally with me and i'm totally not sobbing. Nope. It's just raining inside my room. Heavily.

I'm never taking off this bracelet. I'm going to be buried with it. 😭

And my own little clay catboy is perfect in every way, he is going to live on my bag when i'm finished staring at him at all times on my desk. 💞

Crow you are an absolute gem of a person and i love you so much even if i'm not saying it every day. 🫂

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends so much!

wish I knew how to react when they say they love me back

[stuckinapril]

loving the therapy vibes u have planned and i have 1 single piece of advice for u: the things you truly, sincerely, DONT want to say out loud, are the most important to say ❤️

got it, thank u so much my divine angel <3 i do have an issue w obscuring the ugliest things out of fear of judgment or being misunderstood, but if she's as good as my friend says she is she'll hopefully see through that and help me navigate it. i'm rly excited :)

[fuwaprince]

I'm so grateful for your help! Thank you everybody for reading, reblogging and helping me get what I needed! 💓 I showered and got myself started on a few things that I got tasked with this morning. Noticed in the middle of a break that my list was totally taken care of! Afterwards I'll have to play ketchup (catch up)! Still nervous but kind of excited! It's a relief knowing that I'll at least go into tomorrow's interview with nice smelling deodorant to wear in addition to Neosporin to keep my nasty infection from becoming an even bigger eyesore. Thank you for the kindness and thank you for the support!!!

[izzy-b-hands]

There was another very generous donation to my GoFundMe today, and I want to say thank you so much to whoever donated (if whoever donated is on here, and i hope they are so they can see this)🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Please know the money is going towards repaying on debts, towards food and other necessities, and it's been a huge help, and this is even more so, I can't thank u (and everyone who's donated/helped me in any way through all of this) enough, genuinely 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

U guys care me and I'm. not used to ppl actually caring about me and helping and just. thank u so much 🫂🫂❤️❤️!!!!

[february-academia]

22.10.2023

I moved to a new city recently for a research project. So I've been busy. These are the few pictures, I clicked here:))

[fynposting]

feeling sad so OOOO JUMPSCARE FYN THINKING

(Cut incase ya don't wanna read bc its just sorta rambly)

I think it's interesting how I was born and raised to destroy. It was never "Oh, you'll be a good artist/actor/singer!" Growing up, it was always "you'll be a demolitionist when you're older."

It recently hit me that I'll never be GOOD at making things, they'll always come out wonky, or broken, or not right.

But that's what makes it good!! People say cave paintings are beautiful, and they're not perfect.

I was told recently that practice makes perfect, and hey, I listened this time! It's surprising how much more likely I am to listen when you're not condescending lmao

Anyway

I was never gonna be good at singing, or acting. I was born to break things, to be angry.

But I'm human, I want to create, I wanna shout into the void somehow, with a "hello!! Can you see me?? I'm here!! Hi!!"

Because someone may notice and shout back.

[chrisbangz]

ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊ send these stars 🌟✨💫 to your favorite blogs and remind them how bright they are! ெ♡༚

ahh thank u lau 🥹💗

[mannequincemetery]

i had such a beautiful day yesterday filled with incredible, invaluable memories and fun and joy at the state fair and all of it shared with the love of my life makes it a living dream; and we're together to share the dream 🥺🥺🥺💘💘💘 i'm SO lucky to be his ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[fahedshehab-new]

Urgent 🆘️ call: 🚨🍉 Donate, please donate..🥺😓

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I have a beautiful family consisting of a wife and five beautiful children. So I hold on to patience and faith, and I pray to God to inspire us with the strength to overcome this harsh experience, in this turbulent world. Be the reason for our survival.. Support us and protect our lives. We have the opportunity to travel , but the obstacle is the travel costs. Help us collect them. There is talk of opening the crossing. Quickly, help us collect the travel costs. Have mercy on us from this homelessness and loss.

Your donation = our stability

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Thank you for not letting me down . Thank you for comforting me.. I am grateful to everyone who donated and to everyone who shared this post to reach people..

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[kiroshang]

OH YOU BEST BELIEVE I’VE WATCHED HIS ROMANCE SCENES ROROOROORROOR WHY ARE THEY 8 HOURS LONG 😨😨😨😨 frothing at the mouth and adding him to my writing list

ALSO IM GOING TO DO A NEW YEARS APPRECIATION POST SOON (just busy writing lol) THAT’LL DEFINITELY INCLUDE YOU BUT FOR RIGHT NOW I WANNA SAY IM SOOO GRATEFUL FOR MEETING YOU AND FOR ALL OF YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT <333 I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING 2024 <3333

MWAH MWAHHHH

AUGHHH HALSIN MAKES ME FOAM.... he's so urghgh SNARLS AND EVERYTHINGGG AND AUGHHH I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE FUTURE WORKS OF HALSIN MWAAAAAAAAA UGH UR DOING GOD'S WORK ILY GLOSSY OMFFF

[binniesoob]

this wasn't supposed to make me cry.

[hyuuukais]

heyllo :3

can i request reader x chan? reader is overwhelmed but keeps it in because that’s what they see chan doing a lot of the time. but eventually it builds to a breaking point where the stress causes them to completely shut down. chan doesn’t know exactly what’s wrong so it might be cute if he just sits on the floor in front of reader and plays clips from a song he’s working on and asks for their opinion (by basically talking out loud to himself) and then after reader calms down they are able to verbalize they just need a human weighted blanket and to be told they are doing amazing and their efforts are not going unnoticed.

im fine. 🥲

just hold me, tell me you love me

pairing : chan x reader

notes : me vs the long title. anyway thank uuu for being my first request! i hope this lives up to ur expectations and can provide u some comfort 🫶 sending u hugs and love 🫂💙 sorry it's taken a bit long to get back to! kind of was getting this feeling myself and have been unable to write, but i think i'm getting back

warnings : reader is overwhelmed, mentions of anxiety, fear of opening up to someone, reader is called pet names (love, baby), reader breaks down

wc : 1.4k

All week there's been a growing pressure in your chest threatening to spill all over the floor and leave you a mess, lying on the ground with nothing else to give. Give, you've given all you can, and now that you're home, you can't do it anymore. You seek peace in the quiet of your shared bedroom, your boyfriend still at work in his studio.

Your boyfriend, who works hard day and night. Your boyfriend, who's loving and caring and sweet. Your boyfriend, who you're scared to open up to when things get really hard, because he doesn't share with you either. Although the relationship isn't fresh, going on a year and a half, there are still things you don't talk about. You don't want to burden him with your struggles when you've always been able to power through by yourself.

Fisting the sheets under you, you can feel the need to cry in your body, the hollow feeling in your chest and the tightness in your throat, but nothing comes. It's like your body knows you're too tired for even that simple of an action, for even one tear to slip. So instead, you sit the the blanket over you, face peeking out to stare at the wall with tired eyes. You can't sleep. If you close your eyes, you know you won't drift off and wake up feeling better, you'll just lie there for hours.

"Baby?"

Something spikes in you when you hear Chans voice ring out through the apartment, curling into yourself more. He shouldn't be home this early and yet, here he is, calling your name and wondering where you are; you're never in bed this early. Chan continues to call out for you until you hear the bedroom door opening quietly.

"Love?" Chans footsteps get closer, and you can feel the edge of the bed dip with his weight as he sits down. "My love..."

His hand brushes over your shoulder, but you can't face him. When you bring the blanket over your head more, he seems to get the hint, shifting to lean against the headboard next to the statue that is your body, unmoving and heavy. You can feel him fiddling beside you, and soon, a soft melody fills your ears. It's enough to distract you temporarily from the raging storm in your head, focusing on the beats, and when Chans voice comes through, it's like you can feel a sense of comfort washing over you. Although it's not enough to completely take these feelings away, you're grateful for what he's doing.

"This song has been giving me trouble," Chan comments over the music, sighing heavily. "I can't figure out if I like the chorus or not, and it feels like it's missing something in general, but I don't know what. What do you think, baby?"

Unable to answer verbally, but still wanting him to know you're listening, you roll around so you're facing him. He chuckles as you bury your face under his thigh when you see he's sitting cross-legged, the pressure on your face oddly comforting. Chan places a hand on your back, his arm resting behind your head as he rubs small circles over your thick layer of blanket. Another song starts playing after a while, another soft one, too. You relax under his touch, feeling the vibrations through his body as he hums along to this one and makes occasional comments about changes he'd like to make.

Exhaustion hits you like a ton of bricks, your eyes fluttering shut as he keep playing different songs and telling you all about them. Both of you are aware that he shouldn't be playing so much unreleased music, but all Chan cares about in this moment is you, helping you, calming you, loving you. The company will never know anyway.

"Chan," You whisper, voice barely audible. His humming stops and he pauses the music, looking down at your limp form with furrowed brows. Moving your head slightly, you're able to look up at him on an angle, the cool air of the bedroom breaching your blanket cocoon.

"What is it, baby?" Chan moves some hair from your face, leaving this palm to rest on your cheek.

"Can you just-" You clear your throat, one hand coming up to play with the hem of his shorts at his knee to calm you more. "Just hold me, tell me you love me?"

Without words, he shifts down to your level and nods. Carefully, Chan guides you to face away from him and brings you close to his body, your back pressed tightly against his chest. His chin rests on your shoulder, now enveloped inside your blanket as he holds onto you tightly, scared that if he let's go, you'll fade away. The thought of you being in so much pain, whether physical or emotional, is something he can't bear; he can't sit on the sidelines and watch you wither away. Neither of you speak as you lie there for what feels like hours, although it must only be a few minutes. The feeling of Chan's breath on your neck is oddly comforting, your own hands finding his arm around your waist and holding onto him.

Something about the way Chan is holding you, comforting you without the pressure of being asked what's wrong, has you finally breaking down. It starts small, holding back a few tears, but a few escaping despite your efforts. Then Chan shifts closer, pressing soft lips on the skin behind your ear.

"I love you, you know that? So, so much," He whispers, inhaling the scent of your shampoo as he buries his face into your hair. "You're doing amazing, baby, and I mean that. I thought... I thought something might have been wrong, but I didn't know how to go about this. I'm sorry it got to this point, I should have asked. I want you to know you can always turn to me, okay?"

His words have the dam breaking and soon enough, the sobs ripping from your chest have you gasping and hiccupping like there's no tomorrow. You don't register the way Chan tries to soothe you as he pulls you around and into his chest. Subconsciously, you wrap your arms around his shoulders and roll his body onto yours, his head sitting in the crook of your neck. The weight feels nice, grounding, and you can finally hear Chan speaking again.

"Shhh, it's okay, you're okay." Chan whispers into the skin of your neck, one of his hands smoothing back your hair. "You're okay, I'm here, now breathe, alright? Breathe, baby."

He inhales deeply, and you do your best to mimic his movements. It's shaky, but you're doing it.

"Good job, you're doing great," Chan keeps his voice low as he speaks. "Keep breathing."

It gets to the point where you don't need to think about breathing anymore, your head throbbing slightly from the sudden outburst of emotion. Chan's body stays on yours, but he props himself up enough to look at you, his palm on your cheek and his thumb wiping away any remaining tears. You can barely look him in the eye.

All he does is stare at you with those pretty, dark eyes, but you realize there's a dampness under them matching yours. You open your mouth to question it, but he shakes his head, a soft smile on his face.

"I don't want you to be in pain alone ever again." His thumb continues to caress your cheek, even though the tears have dried. "I love you too much to let you go through that. Whatever's going on, tell me when you're ready, yeah? For now, just let me gush about my beautiful partner until they're feeling better."

You can't help the small laugh that escapes you as Chan surges up to pepper your face in kisses, saying praises in between each one. With every kiss, you can feel your face heating up until you try and cover it, but he just grabs your wrists and pulls your hands away. Eventually, he slows down, pressing one last kiss directly on your lips, and settles back onto you.

"Let's stay like this for a while," Chan suggests, knowing you need it, but so does he. "My favourite place is in your arms."

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