#I'm sick of being quiet about this

[atruehiro]

Not quite back yet, but just wanted to pop in to say Hiro and Megan's friendship is still one of my fave things in the series.

Hiro deserves a friend his own age that isn't a rival or painfully forced romance, and out of the three teenage girls the show introduced, Megan had the least amount of forced romance tropes. And she also brought some much needed normality to Hiro's life.

[shithowdy]

realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

[recklessmoss]

needed to experience the "making a new oc" euphoria again so,,, woe,,, Gorgonopsid be upon ye,,,

[nametakensff]

Have you guys ever been so disgusted by family snz that you actually start crying

[lady-corrine]

Just a reminder that Linda Antonsson, whose name appears on The Rise of the Dragon's cover, is a disgusting racist and homophobe, and a raging mysoginist besides.

She threw an absolute fit when the Velaryons were cast and even now she keeps using AI to portray Alyn Velaryon as a white man on her twitter. She also threw a fit concerning Rhaenyra's kiss with Mysaria.

She has a clear prefference for Aemond and Aegon, which would not bother me at all, if only she would stop obsessing over Rhaenyra and how much she dislikes her, both book and show.

Her bias and evident dislike/hatred for Rhaenyra's character becomes obvious if you read the rise which was written by her and Elio. Any love or positive trait for Rhaenyra is reduced as much as possible or down right inexistent.

[crabussy]

everyone in my school loves to scream as louyd as they can on purpose to hurt me just because they can

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Happy STS Elli!

What inspires you to write? Are there things that you know that you can get inspiration from or does it just come randomly?

Happy STS!

For me, inspiration doesn't mean "to write".

There are, and always have been, a lot of stories floating around in my mind - ideas, scenes, vibes, outlines. I get inspiration from literally everywhere, from talking to my friends, and video games, and scrolling past images or prompts, and reading books, and spending too much time on reddit, and…

Many remain daydreams, or character backstories, eventually lost to time.

Now for actually being able to sit my ass down and get words on the page? I don't know. It comes and goes as it pleases. Having a beehive where a brain should be does NOT help, let me tell you that.

I just. Can't focus on shit lately. Can barely make it through a chapter when reading. Every day is just suddenly over, and I got nothing done, and I am so tired. I have a completely outlined short thing I have been trying to write since Nov, and it's like pulling teeth.

I could do with several months off work while everyone leaves me the fuck alone. How would that be.

[licorishh]

Hey as a super introverted but not shy person I'd just like to say the jokes about extroverts "adopting" introverts to "get them out of their shell" are actually completely unfunny and it just goes to show how little respect a lot of y'all have for the fact that we genuinely don't want excessive social interaction and that y'all are forcing us to do something that brings us extreme physical and mental discomfort because you perceive our introversion as a failing rather than as purely a difference in personality.

We don't need your "help" to socialize. We're not children. We're simply not interested in spending every waking second of our lives talking to people and being talked at in return.

[mortimer]

I understand the concept behind not making suicide jokes being better for your mental health because it's like patterns of thought right. I stopped making self deprecating jokes for that reason & it has helped the way I think about myself, at least on a surface level. But also as someone who has been consistently suicidal for over ten years I would rather be able to joke about something instead of making suicidality this untouchable sacred thing that you can never talk about. Like, not making suicide jokes didn't make me less suicidal but being able to joke about it (within reason) has made me less ashamed to be suicidal. Because frankly I think that's something I'm going to continue to be living with long term and the more it's stigmatized the harder it is to actually get help without getting stripped of your rights and thrown in a jail ce-I mean mental wellness center for a month. Idk. My position on that very well may change as my mental health does but that's where I stand right now.

[cozza-frenzy]

Being a system can be hard sometimes and it's made a lot harder when singlets who are aware of our plurality just... refuse to engage with us on our terms. Like because this is a condition we can mask, we should mask around them. All the time. Because we make them uncomfortable. And I guess it's their right to feel uncomfortable when what they're seeing isn't "normal"? When the person in front of you suddenly changes voice, changes body language, there's an instinct in the back of your head that tells you they're being deceptive or manipulative. That there's something wrong with them. Ableism is one thing, but it's hard to fight against an instinct, and most people won't even acknowledge the existence of this one because they think only animals have instincts. But anyway; when singlets tell us to stop being so overt about it, whatever way they put it, they're always basically saying shit like this: "It would be so much easier on me if you didn't act like the person you really are, and instead just pretend to be (host), the one person in your system who I consider 'real' " "I'd like to ignore the fact that all of you exist and pretend that you're (host), so I'll just talk to you as if you're (host), because you're basically all the same person anyway" "You're mentally ill and being reminded of that makes me uncomfortable, so if you pretend to be (host) that means I don't have to think about it"

It must be nice to be able to ignore this. To be able to just walk away. To be able to ask us nicely just to make this one allowance for you, and then pretend that our disorder doesn't exist, because seeing us this way stresses you out too much. We don't get to do that. No matter how stressed or upset or aggressive someone in our system gets, we can't just walk away from them when it's inconvenient for us to deal with. We share a body and a brain. Things happen all the damn time without our conscious control, whether that's splits, flashbacks, even alters fusing together or going dormant can happen without anybody getting any warning. We're almost constantly stressed, because even with our system's high levels of communication and co-operation, we don't know when something will happen that will destabilize us for days or weeks at a time. It's one thing when strangers do this. It's one thing to mask in public spaces where being openly mentally ill might put us in danger. It's a whole other thing when people we thought cared about us pull this shit. Singlets be fucking normal about systems challenge, difficulty: impossible. - Terry

[katamarigender]

crushing a can against my forehead talking to this person grAH

[thundertide]

Just a quick note that I've got a new theme up! <3 Was kindda time for a refresh, among other reasons, so @yoroiis and I spent a couple days working out a new look! Everything is still how it was for links, and in the next day or two I should have Ayaka's temp about up, too - Some things came up, including the loss of our other dog, so being productive lately has been... Kind of difficult and made this the first real project I've been able to focus on in days that wasn't simple edits over on @sakurarisen and my multi-blog-wide lore. If there's any issues with the theme, feel free to hit up my inbox and let me know so I can get them fixed! <3

~Pom

[muskpunk]

when eating doesn't make brain stop being Bad: uh oh

[arctic-hands]

I like having joined a book fandom that's still new and fresh cause we get to nerdily bond as we devour a release of a new book in the series and I get to see all the theories and discussions and memes in real time as opposed to years later when everyone else knows how it ends so I have to block the fandom bc of spoilers. It's a feeling I haven't had since a teenager bc as of late I drag my ass into a fandom like a decade after its hayday and miss all the fun stuff

But it sucks ass that I am no longer as weirdly and eerily patient like I was as a child and the nine month wait for Heavenly Tyrant to come out is driving me crazy

[hellchilde]

pros to coming out: living as your true authentic self, being able to dress in ways that suit your gender, hearing people use your preferred pronouns (and name if that's your jam - my coming out did not involve a new name), etc

cons to coming out: YOU HAVE TO COME OUT EVERY SINGLE DAY MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY EVERY TIME YOU INTERACT WITH A NEW PERSON OR SOMEONE WHO FORGOT

[halfpintkay]

Tell me, why is it that people who prefer to stay at home and just keep to themselves get judge for not doing much over the weekend? (of course not much is pretty much my response to people who ask and I don’t care to give really any details about my weekend to...I could probably spend the weekend out state and I’d still be like “Not much” when asked about my weekend except for a few people)   Seriously I always get judge for preferring to staying in and reading a book, playing a video game, or watching a TV series over going out  and being bored where nobody talks to me even if I’m just sitting there staring into space ( I get judge for all my interests by my own family anyway soo...)....It also helps that this past weekend my dog was recovering from being neutered so I wasn’t really in the mood to go out and stay out for hours upon hours...most I did was go to Lowe’s and take advantage of their Memorial Day sale and bought two ceiling fans for my apartment and that’s about all I did this weekend beside rewatch Stranger Things (watch the first three seasons in this whole weekend so now working on season four) and you know what it was fantastic.