#I'm sick and sad and want to be better

[hachama]

I haven't taken any Tylenol today.

I've been drinking herbal tea and water, and I ate a little birthday cake and a bowl of soup.

I feel incredibly shitty, but also I want to make sure when I see my doctor tomorrow morning I have a full understanding of my symptoms, unmasked by medication.

The phone nurse asked me to do an at home covid test and verified that the ones I have are still considered reliable. The test was negative.

Last night my cheeks were so flushed I felt like I had a sunburn. My temperature was 97.7. This morning, with no fever symptoms, my temperature was 95.9. So that's fun.

I'm also out of my favorite tea and running low on soup.

[beneathsilverstars]

if i failed to protect my kid during the apocalypse and they almost died wandering on their own but got rescued by a team of four competent, battle-experienced adults who cared about them very much and made them feel less scared and useless but refused to let them fight, i think that would be a pretty decent outcome and i'd be pretty okay with it. sure i could dream up a better situation but there's a hell of a lot of worse ones too.

[foreverxdaydreaming]

x

[adore-gregor]

ayyy

[zemnarihah]

do i even care. right now no. i can't i can't even focus on anything. ig i'll be upset later but also i feel like i saw this coming

[medicinemane]

There's honestly... just so many people, just so so so so so many people in this world where I'm like... aren't you people tired of this fucking... you know, I was going to call them clowns but that's really disrespectful to clowns, these people could never get their face on an egg...

Anyway, aren't you tired of this childish jackass? Don't you just want to ignore them and never have to hear about them again? If we just ignored them they legitimately would go away... don't you want that?

And this applies to... just ungodly amounts of people, from jake paul to even elon musk (just... don't touch his shit, he'll run out of money eventually with how bad he is with it), to just... name an annoying famous person and you'll name someone I've literally forgotten right now that I could never have to hear about again if people would just ignore them (unless they committed crimes, investigators are welcome to pay attention while gathering a case)

Yet the answer's always "no, we're paying so much attention to them!" and I'm just like... why? Why would you watch jake paul box? I heard about that and was like "he's still doing that shit?", and yet I guess it made a lot of money yet again and it's just like... ignore him

These people could go away, and yet

[icewindandboringhorror]

........creachure

[moonchild-in-blue]

Sometimes all you need is a good ol' coffee shop au tbh.

[nobodybetterlookatme]

how are you feeling today? did you make it through unscathed?

Yeah I definitely didn't 😭 I've been hella congested all day and I definitely have a cough, but it's more bc my throat is bugging me than anything. I don't think I technically have a fever, my temp's just slightly elevated from where it normally is. It's fucking miserable bc I can't breathe through my nose and the damn thing fucking hurts, and I'm kinda uncomfortable and a little achy, but other than that I'm mostly just tired and a little hazy and generally just don't feel great, so I'm not dying like my partner was lmao. But yeah, all this to say that I'm fucking pissed at him and I literally feel like a goddamn plague rat 😭😭

[pinkished]

the hozier concert for this wednesday was cancelled 🥹💔

i'm sure it'll be rescheduled or smth but i hope hozier himself feels better soon!! not to sound like... stalker-ish but he's looked a little under the weather from recent photos, i hope he knows he's loved and is resting 💖💖💖

[darkmothsy]

Everyone would be better off if I didn't exist at all

[vaguely-functional-directions]

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[hiddenmoonbeam]

I see mutuals learning new and improved things about themselves and their interests today, and so I thought maybe it's time I admit that despite how very straight I am and how I'm attracted to every man ever, I just don't see the appeal of Sirius Black, Idk I've tried but I'm just fooling myself, he's not that hot or special actually 😔 and I've realised I get so bored of reading fic where too much focus is on him.... might have to stop altogether....

[fobnsfwdoodlesbackup]

I just saw ur tags and I'm sending love!! hope u feel better soon <3333

Thank you! 💕💕💕 My voice has been out and I'm waiting on that first paycheck from the new job 🥴 so I'm just trying to chill out for a bit. There hasn't been a lot of time for art with my work days but I'm trying to figure out how to change that, I don't think I can go very long without drawing!

[b-blushes]

obviously there's a billion other things but one thing that sucks about being sick/disabled is that most of the time i don't have enough energy to both get to and from somewhere, and also BE in the place. brain-wise and, like, life-fulfillment-wise, things would be way better if i could spend more time somewhere that isn't by myself in my house (although for much of the time this is the best environment to manage my various disabilities), but physical-ability-wise, often the travelling to and from a place takes all the 'spare' energy i have, so i can't actually *be* at the place without experiencing a level of various symptoms that negates the benefits of being there in the moment, or being so so ill when i get home, or the 'being at the place' leaving me unable to safely travel home in the first place. it sucks.

anyway i guess that the flipside of that is super strong appreciation for the instances that i *can* do things, the people that help me get places, and the people who're happy to meet outdoors and/or with precautions. it makes a huge difference to have some things to look forward to, even if i am greedy for more!

[lvckheart]

When I think I'm finally having a good relationship with food and my body... my ed strikes again