#I'm procrastinating interview prep

[cuddlebugsirius]

I'm back with more! (I'm greedy and love your hc's) If you want, atelier wolfstar, but just wolfstar is fine too!

☼ - appearance headcanon

ൠ - random headcanon

Oooooooooh we can absolutely do atelier wolfstar headcanon! 😃😃😃

☀️ Remus' appearance:

- he's tall

- he's not obviously muscular beneath his lovely grandpa jumpers and corduroys but he has purposeful strength, built from years of manhandling his *ahem* conquests, which is something Sirius capitalises on every chance he gets

- he's got freckled olive skin and his scars stand out against them, especially the one on his thighs and back

- his hair is a mousey brown, a little bit red on the ends where the sun has worked it's hardest. it's super fluffy, not curly but wavy and very dense, short-ish at the sides and longer on the top. very grab-able.

☀️ Sirius' appearance:

- like 5'9/5'10? I don't really imagine him to be super short but he's shorter than Re for sure

- looks mean, is a cinnamon roll. he wears his leather jacket and carries those sweets that look like cigarettes (maybe they're an English thing but they were basically a chalky white stick about the size of a smoke we all used to suck on so it looked like we were smoking until they disintegrated) to act intimidating when he's out alone. it keeps people from talking to him.

- his hair. it's... collarbone length. I used to hc it longer but he's had it cut. it's still pullable and he can put it up but little pieces fall out everywhere. black, of course, to contrast his very pale skin and his very pink cheeks. with strong eyebrows... Levy level eyebrows.

➿ I'm gonna do a couples hc for the random, which is that they constantly forget where they are and end up smooching and cuddling and staring adoringly at each other. food shopping, staff meetings, at traffic lights...

Ask me more questions from this list!

[theogony]

going insane. will not be back shortly

[kuiinncedes]

bruh y am i acting like i dont have this interview/presentation in . 12 hrs 😀

[fluffyllamas-23]

I'm procrastinating on prepping for my interview tomorrow by thinking about sicknarios.

So what about something where A is usually a pretty light sleeper and early riser. They don't even usually need their alarm, but if they do manage to sleep until it goes off, they're up without needing to snooze it.

When they're getting sick, though, one of their tells is that they're SO tired and are hard to wake. B is downstairs sipping on their coffee, having their early morning "me" time when they hear A's alarm blaring but don't hear any movement from the bedroom. They already thought it was weird that they woke up before A, and then that A didn't wake up when B got out of bed, but they brushed it off. Now curious (and admittedly very concerned), they go up to their's and A's room to find them still fast asleep and dead to the world under the blankets. B has to shake them awake, and when A finally opens their eyes, B inhales sharply at how glassy they are. Now that they're getting a good look at A, they see just how flushed, pale, and clammy they are.

B immediately switches into ultra-soft care taking mode, and starts fussing over A.

Bonus points if B is a marshmallow for A, and ONLY A.

[chalkrevelations]

Further procrastination adventures with Stray Kids (no I'm not supposed to be dealing with holiday prep, why would you ask :shoves envelopes in a bag and sits on it:):

Hands down, the most hilarious part of the Buzzfeed Interview With Kittens is - on being asked what two superhero accessories they'd each come equipped with - Felix responding "I'd need a sword and a gun" in a tone of voice that suggests he already has plans for how he would use them.

A little bit, I've been osmose-ing that Felix probably deserves a little bit of random destruction, as a treat.

[bandit-heart]

This past week I decided to embark on a 6 week life-improvement challenge for myself (up to my birthday) with habits I want to incorporate in my day-to-day. I failed. Miserably. I succumbed to every bad habit I meant to avoid and completed only one goal.

So next week I am doing things differently.

My goals for next week look like: • No social media • No YouTube (unless educational/coding related) • No TV (which is something I AM doing well) • No podcasts • No eating junk

♥ Journal once a day to clear my thoughts ♥ Read books ♥ Spend time with God ♥ Study coding and related things ♥ Work on coding projects ♥ Sleep more

I need to build better systems so that the things I want to do become the simpler choice-- notice I said simpler, not easier. The whole reason I meal prep every weekend is because I want eating real food to be the simpler choice. I didn't accomplish what I wanted to last week and this week I have two interviews I am preparing for.

For anyone who feels offended or excluded by religion, this next paragraph may not be of interest to you.

My pastor often talks about the enemy, and how what he wants is to distract you, to mislead you, to turn you away from the life you could have. And what's more distracting than social media? Than our phones? We listen to someone else telling us what a good life looks like, what we need to buy to make that happen. We get sucked into content designed to enrage us, scare us, and make us feel inferior. And sometimes, when I am feeling terrible about having wasted time watching YouTube shorts, I think about how this has distracted me. And I wonder what value I felt I would get from what I just watched. So I am going to try to start a new habit: After I pick up my phone, I will ask myself why I picked it up. Because I'm bored? Because I'm lonely? Because I'm fighting the urge to sleep? Because I'm procrastinating a harder task that feels overwhelming? I hope that by having to explain myself TO myself, I will be able to put the phone down and refocus on more valuable things. I think I may also switch my phone to grey-scale when I begin working on computer stuff. Idk. I'm just brain storming now.

If you're still here, thanks for reading. I hope you're warm and cozy at home. And if you, also, are seeking self-improvement, good luck! And I hope our week ahead brings success and contentment.

[darkmoonkestrel]

daily kestrel 46:

today was a good (busy) day in the school library! we saw one class from each grade, so I got the full K-5 spectrum all packed in to one. I was able to bring in the supplies that the subathon got from my wishlist and it brought me such joy to be able to do that

we went to the other place that we really wanted to see, and liked it. really, really liked it. as in, cut the list price of our home ahead of the two showings that are scheduled for tomorrow and are planning on putting together an offer on the place (pending an inspection), really liked it. it's in a quiet neighborhood but really close to a lot of things off of a good interstate exit, and only 15ish minutes from the ren faire grounds. it's got so much room for customization and improvement and to make it ours, i'm fully embracing Paige's idea of manifesting it, the good vibes are carrying us on bc it just feels like our house, idk how to describe it. also shit's scary but c'est la vie

i tried to read to Peyton on the way home, but we got two pages in before Birthgiver called, so we spent the rest of the car ride home on the phone with her. i worked on my schoolwork after we got home, and Paige made the hotwurst for dinner - I did my due diligence and ate half of one before passing it on to Peyton, and I'm now realizing I have had no other significant food. i should fix that before bed. despite dicking around in the office while occasionally working, I managed to get my blog post done, do one of my readings, and prep my interview questions for tomorrow in a better order.

i opened up google drive for a school thing and it defaults to my old gmail account sometimes, and the excuse to procrastinate overruled, so I looked through some of my old things - a monologue from acting senior year of high school, a couple late high school and early college notes/projects (including a document that simply said "notes from chem review:" and nothing else), and things related to Sommer. pictures, the senior letter I wrote to her, the tracklist from the playlist I made for her... it's times like this that I have to remember that post "the versions of my life that I did not choose are none of my business" or whatever, ya know?

anyway, I'm tempted to get up around sunrise to take a shower and then head to the farmer's market to snag some brekkie before we have to get the house cleaned and prepped and vacated for the first of two showings tomorrow. idk if we're going to come back to the house between them, we shall see. also, viper's baby was born today, and with a head full of hair! i really need to finish his quilt so the little dude can have a cool ass first christmas present. I hope I'll have time to finish it with the move and all coming up

[sanddusted-wisteria]

Earth and Sky [Ongoing]

Part 1 of A Cosmic Garden

F!Builder/Qi; fluff and angst

Warnings: Will contain spoilers for the main story.

Also on AO3

Summary: There are flowers growing in Qi’s heart. Not literally, obviously. But figuratively. He knows what they are, of course. But he doesn’t dare think about it. Whenever he tries to, the wooded vines coil a little tighter.

There’s a beautiful dark sky in Wisteria’s mind. Not literally, obviously. But figuratively. A part of Wis really does want to turn her head up. But she doesn’t. If she does, it’ll be impossible to look away.

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Wis and Qi seem like they can’t be any more different. She’s just trying to get her feet back on the ground, while he’s trying to reach the stars. But there’s common threads between the two of them, and thin as they may be, they’re strong enough to pull them together…and their hearts, too.

A/N: So Builder, Researcher, Rooftop's suffering a bit of the ol Block at the moment, so I needed something else to do to keep my writing fingers fresh. That, and I needed something to do while I procrastinated on job interview and finals prep lmao. Luckily, the nice folks in the MTAS Tumblr community sparked a massive wave of inspiration for my own builder character, Wisteria! I have so many new ideas I want to develop with her (including finishing that Grace mini-series lol), starting with this! It gives me an opportunity to write for a different character for a bit, touch on the missions I'm not able to cover in B,R,R, and overall just let myself be a bit more indulgent (dare I say flowery). It's definitely a little different than what I've put out so far, but I hope you enjoy regardless!

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Chapter List:

Part 1: Wisteria sinensis

Ch. 1: Seed

Ch. 2: Sprout

[oraclekleo]

Hi Kleo! Since you’re answering questions today, and I’m in a procrastinating mood, I have a couple 👀

1) what kind of food do you like to cook vs. eat? And the kind you don’t like as much?

2) do you think anyone can become good at tarot? If I wanted to start practicing what would you recommend?

3) what are the readings you’re the best at in your opinion? And the ones you like the most?

That’s it for this interview, thank you so much! 🙈

Hello!

Happy procrastinating to you 😁

I think I like most of the meals I can cook. I rarely cook something I wouldn't like myself. My favourite meals are the simple and quick ones. I love to indulge in cooking and baking once in a while but most of the times I'm really lazy and I cook with as minimum effort as possible and I have mastered the super fast dinner prep by now. I love all sorts of stir fry variations. I eat mostly chicken breasts for meat so it's usually that + onion + some veg + soy or oyster sauce (or both) + spices and rice or noodles with it. If I'm not in a mood for Asian style, I will go for Italian(ish) type of meal. Like my shortcut versions of pasta bolognese or carbonara. 😁 I don't really like local cuisine, Czech cuisine. It's just a bit bland for me.

Absolutelly anyone can start, practice and learn tarot. It's all about intuition and intuition is like any muscle in your body, the more you flex it, the stronger it becomes. You don't even have to be spiritual type of person. My sister is one of the least spiritual people I know (and Czech Republic is famous for being very atheistic country) and I still gave her a deck of tarot cards and she use them once in while. You can get yourself a deck and just start. Your way, under your conditions, on your pace. Don't let others to tell you how to walk your tarot path. If you want some tips, yes, I can give you as many as you want and you can search online for inspiration but it's really about your personal approach, about what feels most comfortable for you. I think the most important advice I would give is to pick a deck that truly speaks to you. I don't have the RWS tarot deck till this day because the imagery doesn't speak to me. It's the most popular design but I don't have it in my collection. So make sure you pick a deck that's aligned with you (preferably coming with guidebook for a start) and not a deck you see others using.

😂😂 I don't know... I think I have the most fun with the hot and dark types of readings like the Kinky reading. Those are the ones I actually find entertaining doing. I think I'm pretty good at personal readings, too as I have a lot of positive feedback on these but the spicy readings are my favourite. Which is a paradox because I'm 32 year old virgin, I have never even dated anyone and I have no intention to start. Despite that I'm pretty open minded and curious on the theoretical level so I enjoy these types of readings. While I like use Jung's teachings in these spicy readings I wander into the more of a Freudian territory. 😁

Thank you so much for your little interview. I hope my answers satisfy you and don't hesitate to ask follow up questions. Also if you need some particular advice on how to start with tarot, I'm here to answer anything. 💝

Kleo 🦄

[whvspershq]

i'm all wrapped up with work and just hanging out prepping for an interview tomorrow, so why not pop in and help me procrastinate with some apps or questions?

[amber-isnt-a-precious-stone]

okay i'm tired now but imma look at the much ado about nothing fruk crack fic i wrote in a mad rush until 4am in the morning a few weeks ago and see if anything is salvageable 👀👀

[pompadourpink]

Hi! I turned 18 a few months ago. Before my 18th birthday I was a “kid”. They treated me like a one. As soon as I turned 18, I became an “adult”. All of a sudden I was treated like a one. Yesterday no one would listen to me, today they want me to give voice to my words. For them, sometimes I'm a kid, sometimes I'm an adult. For them, sometimes I'm wet behind the ears, sometimes I have to deal with things all by myself. I'm so confused. They have never let me be an adult before. They never prepared me for adulthood. What am I supposed to do? Is what I am saying important or it isn't important because I don't know anything about life yet?

Hello,

Good news: you are absolutely not alone.

Many people here fail their first year of university (myself included) because they go from having to ask permission to go to the bathroom to living by themselves, getting to choose when they wake up and go to bed, being expected to pay rent, bills, deal with roommates, in full charge of their chores, food, laundry, having to save, buy couches, get into relationships, find friends, etc. in two months and all that freedom is so overwhelming that they overheat and have a breakdown. Imposter syndrome is a common consequence of this type of education and I remember feeling like a crook when I got my first jobs after somehow nailing interviews, laughing hysterically after buying my first car, or being dumbfounded when my dad asked me if I thought he should retire or continue working, a few years ago.

Because I didn't feel worthy of any of it.

Everything you feel and think is important - whether people take it seriously or not is another problem. Sometimes you will genuinely not be able to provide a mature answer because there are things you haven't experienced yet, some other times it will just be a case of you being considered too young to use your brain by boomers. And if you are a minority, you'll pay the price too.

Here's some advice:

Don't be afraid to communicate when you're upset, but don't burn bridges. Stay calm even when people don't deserve it. Anger, envy, frustration, bitterness, will not serve you, they'll make you constantly miserable, can ruin your reputation (which cannot be undone) and might have long-term consequences. If someone is attacking you, depending on the situation, ask them very softly what the problem is and how you two can fix it together, or ignore them and walk away if it's a possibility. Bullies get bored when victims don't engage.

Learn how to cook. 100% the most useful skill you can learn.

Read the posts I linked below and spend some time on Youtube, Wikihow, Reddit, etc. to learn about 1/ finances, 2/ nutrition/health, 3/ anything domestic you might need (sewing, grooming, cleaning, meal prepping, etc).

Living with roommates for at least a year or two, while annoying, is a very teaching experience that I would recommend. You need to personally witness how other people live, and treat their interior, bodies, finances, etc.

Start working out regularly so you can die old and healthy.

If someone you know personally makes you feel disrespected, set boundaries immediately. They can't get away with it. Discuss it right away, explain why you think it's unfair, and ask for an apology. If you can't get one or are getting ridiculed, it's evidence that this person is around you for the wrong reasons. When people tell or show you who they really are, believe them the first time.

*

Other posts:

Adulting: stuff you need to buy, I don't know what to do with my life, advice for teenagers, starting over alone, Murphy's law: be proactive or burn, things to start doing when you turn 18, money education 101, invest in yourself, feed yourself well, stop procrastinating, put yourself first, it doesn't only happen to others, grooming 101, pick your battles, the truth about discipline, advice for young women, one day,

Self-dev: becoming an eloquent speaker, making yourself happy, you do you, about priorities, you're better than you think, labels aren't a good idea, overcoming obstacles and fear, confidence over appearance, advice to my 15-year-old self, getting your sense of self back, battling insecurity, dealing with hatred, the importance of gratitude, battling frustration, battling bitterness/entitlement,

Health: battling depression, wanting kids when sick/disabled, why you shouldn't give up, don't be your own bully, coping mechanisms, help I'm overwhelmed, living with mental illness, dealing with anger, dealing with a horrible job, social media isn't real,

Business: moving abroad, career picking, work/life balance, creating a study schedule, you're not their parent, your boss isn't your friend, happiness vs capitalism, careers are messy, language studying, facing injustice, you are not a robot, fear of public speaking, reaching your goals, about teaching, being your own boss,

Relationships: you're not his maid, finding a good partner, making friends, healthy relationships, surviving a breakup, dealing with family, codependency, green and red flags in relationships, healthy boundaries, about age gaps, craving for love, my partner or my dreams?, making friends online, you do look amazing, beauty is meaningless, no need to rush, relationships are everything, surviving being ghosted, dating 101,

More: art isn't meant to be useful, becoming a runner, how to adult 101 (phone calls, job searching, prepping for interviews, to-do lists, etc.), adopting a senior cat.

Love,

Mum

[sweetswesf]

Check In

What I Did

Responded to a post I was tagged in in the channel for the Black-male dominated professional engineering group I am in outside of work...was honest about what going through a layoff is like and how people should support people going through it and immediately regretted it

Got through 4 DAYS of 100 Days of Python in a day to catch up

Didn't work out...sat at my damn desk ALL day and neglected dishes and eating better and working out...all to catch up with Python

Received yet another request to meet with this CEO next week who made a random post about a podcast episode I did...I have no clue where it's going and why he has not given up on trying to meet ME after all these years, but we'll see...

Bumped my face against the cabinet door AGAINNN

Finished Alice & Wonderland finally a few days ago and couldn't help but draw parallels, pick out the themes, and cry when Alice slayed the Jabberwocky! "OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!"...that's what I'm going to do with these things I've been battling

online shopped for like 2 hours (I know...way too long) for back to back days because they're having a special: spend $150 and get $100...I'm very indecisive because I don't have much time to shop and don't want to do it often, and the stuff I buy tends to stay with me for YEARS...and I had a LOT of gift cards at Free People (THAT IS MY STORE!!!)...I bought these! Hopefully they fit, hopefully it was worth it...I feel like I keep trying with little pieces...one day, people are going to be sending me my designer wardrobes for free...these are going to hold me over and hopefully inspire me to the attract the opportunities that help get me there; I like comfortable, cute, unique, different things...with a feminine hippie undertone:

What I Learned

They say people will be more attracted to you the less they know about you, and for someone as open and vulnerable as me, this has been hard...I guess this is why I feel like this blog is so therapeutic: I can get my feelings out, have them read without knowing who the reader is and without the reader knowing who I am

Feeling

Dependent on my friend...I really look forward to meeting with her biweekly; she couldn't come to our meeting today and I felt a little sad...it made me scared because I'm so used to being left/made to look dumb

Accomplished...I've built Hangman, Rock, Paper, Scissors, and a few other things; I regretted starting the 100 Days of Python since I already know the language instead of going harder on the Algos, but I am doing it to get to the harder lessons on stuff I don't know and just to get faster with the language which will help me both in the algos and on the job eventually, especially since, I tend to lose my train of thought mid-algo sometimes...Like today, I figured out how to add recursion to my problem by accident, and recursion is really difficult for me...PLUS, I'm learning a lot of new tricks and resources I never knew of even in these beginning lessons...most importantly it's getting me up to work at my desk and reminding me that I can sit for long, knock out some Pomodoros and ...I worked more hours yesterday than I have in one setting all month...

My A1C levels are on the bridge for pre-diabetes...like if I was 0.1 over on my score, I would be considered pre-diabetic...so I need to get that in check...I was inspired to check by this healthy Black YouTuber Hallease and my grandmother has diabetes...that life is NOT fun...movement helps but it contradicts going hard on this interview prep stuff...I added the Pomodoro Gym Chrome extension to make sure I get up because my FitBit watch KEEPS giving me a rash...I hate it...

Glad I overcame the paranoid thoughts of having a brain issue...

Sad at all the time I've wasted in the past on social media procrastinating from doing the work and making things harder for myself

Glad I meet weekly with an old colleague...white girl gets me and we relate...but she reminds me of an old friend that ended up ghosting me and acting like she didn't know me...PEOPLE are hard to trust

Takeaways

I'm going to get better at this stuff

I'm not getting fat...looking in the mirror I see more definition in my body despite me feeling chubby cheeked in the Google Meets video

Going to start doing Advent of Code: 25 Python challenges in the month of December...happens every year since 2015...I attempted once and gave up after like a day; FINALLY found the name of it after reaching out to a mentor to me who helped me get ad revenue on my project from bootcamp

I don't judge homeless people who spend money on drugs or other non-essentials...it's a HUMAN thing to spend things on what feels good in the moment and lose sight of what the money is really for...we're all trying

I can't judge people who are laid off, collecting unemployment, or food stamps, etc.

I believe I am going through a lot of these experiences to become more humble and judge less

Taking this time to focus on building skills is a good thing...I'd rather do it now than when I'm too old...I saw another guy on LinkedIn leave his good job to do the same: train up skills as he knew he wouldn't be able to work and do both...I'm excited to see who I will become after I learn these skills

I don't like my gym crush anymore...I embarrassed myself trying to get his attention in the gym and it was like chasing down a child...I already attract attention being this short, bulky, Black girl amongst all the men on the weights level...I noticed his new neck tattoo of praying hands and it just read to me "irresponsible spending" and I know I shouldn't think that way because I just bought clothes when I have PLENTY of them already and nowhere to go...we all try...

I have to stop panicking and getting in my head

How I Got Myself Out of a Rut

Prayer; reminding myself that God won't leave me

Pushed myself to finish the coding lessons

Told myself that I won't be in this forever, I'm going to get better, I'm limitless, and me getting to the next level is predicated on MY actions

Goals Completed

Found a therapist

Stopped listening to people worried about their own circumstances and remembering God works on his own time and that I am in no rush...

Got back on the ball

Being kinder to myself and stopping guilting myself if my energy isn't always on 100%

Goals To Complete

Strengthen my relationship with God

Understand the main concepts I need to from Interview Cake, AlgoExpert, etc. in 6 months, NOT less than 3

Drop my body fat percentage to Marion Jones, Michaela Cole, or Jade Cargill levels

Consistently fight urge to fill up my time with social media/YouTube

Fully forgive my family & build a great relationship with them

Be more confident & faithful

250 steps/hour & 10k steps/daily consistently

Drink more than 64oz a day consistently

Go on a date with a guy I actually like who actually likes me too

Learn more about my gym crush & get him to ask for my number

Get a house similar to that one in Spain

Update my personal app

Complete 100 Days of Python

Complete Advent of Code

Decorate the plastic Christmas tree with the ornaments I HAD to buy

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

OKAY THIS IS ACTUALLY AN IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT BELOW THE CUT SO IF YOU FOLLOW ME OR SOMEHOW SEE THIS JUST LIKE, READ THIS BECAUSE IT IS TIME SENSITIVE. IF YOU ARE READING THIS TOO FAR IN THE FUTURE AKA THURSDAY APRIL 14TH 2022 ONWARDS JUST SMILE AND NOD

Alright I had this breakthrough about 30 minutes ago and have been going thru it since. But I have to explain something in a low enough word count to make sense here goes nothing:

i am in... a lot of advanced study research seminars right now and all my remaining papers are due by Wednesday. As you can imagine, a lot of them are far from complete albeit very prepped

one of the most daunting ones is actually in auditory format because it's on sound/music and contemporary literature

my original project was a podcast with my irl bestie but i didn't have the time to do sound engineering and editing over discord and the commute to my house didn't work out so i just said i'd do it alone and then proceeded to not do any of it

i was going to change it to a video essay because i've been watching a lot of those and it flows well in my head... but it's a lot of work to be procrastinating alongside other research papers so i doomed myself to a miserable wednesday... UNTIL LIKE JUST NOW

NEW CONCEPT: Why does some music Make The Brain Scratch Good™️ and do people's music stims share anything in common that can be conveyed in means other than auditory experiences? (aka can literature replicate the stim or at least articulate it adequately)

WHY THIS IS RELEVANT FOR TUMBLR DOT COM:

well, it would be real nice to have y'all be in this since i can only bother so many of my limited friends. here are potential roles:

Google Form— you'd probably just fill out some basic questions like your age and submit a specific part of a song that makes you stim or scratches your brain (just the name & link with the timestamp). I don't need your name. I will also include clips my own songs and ask your thoughts on it (stim or no stim, how you felt, why or why not, etc...)

Discord Interview— hell yeah! I obviously won't do a lot of these but if you wanna volunteer as tribute you'd basically be doing the google form but live! We'll figure out timing later but I highly recommend this one for chatty mutuals since I'm already horribly awkward enough on mic but I am open to all potential participants

TLDR: comment if you're at least interested and that'll help me determind how/if to make the form and also see how many irls i gotta ask lol

[libraford]

I'm on here procrastinating prepping for a job interview, and I'm really appreciating your interview questions posts. Thank you for being so open with what you're going through, it is relieving some stress from me! All the best in your hunt and wish me luck for mine!!

Best of luck to you!

I think we should all be more open about the struggles of job searches. You'd love to believe that finding a new job is easy, but that feeds a different beast. And right now is an exceptionally weird time for people at all levels of employment, no ones really sure where their industry will be in six months.

Benefits us all to be candid.

[sweetswesf]

Check In

What I Did Today

Actually woke up w/my alarm

Procrastinated getting the day started after waking, but at least I did not hit snooze!

Worked out

Talked to my gym crush...albeit nervously, but I still did it!

Accepted the invitation to the event hosted by the only 2 men I've slept with...then invited a friend...then commenced to trying on what I plan to wear...I hope I don't have a nervous panic reaction and start shaking when talking to one of them like I did last time in a surprise encounter of them *eyeroll*

Worked for about 6 hours on the AlgoExpert videos! This is the longest I've spent on them.

Cooked all my meals, never ordered out, and ate pretty balanced!

Stayed pretty hydrated

Took a walk for 10 minutes after dinner

Got over 10k steps

Did BOTH of my face wash routines

Look at this progress!

What I Learned Today

Hash tables, stacks & queues, strings, & runtimes of their common operations

I can do this!

Feeling

Accomplished; I got a LOT done...more than I thought

Proud of myself; I didn't even need a nap nor did I get hella tired today

A bit more energized now that I'm averaging a bit more hours of rest at night and a little less constant stress...work put a LOT of stress on me...no matter what I did, I always felt like I was being watched or should have done something better, or that I should have been monitoring something that I deployed somewhere

Hopeful that I can keep this up and do better

Grateful that I don't have crazy headaches anymore...slight dizziness...but, I just remind myself to keep pushing through

Takeaways

I'm going to get something like that house in Spain

Don't allow my mind to think negative thoughts

As I have heard throughout my life, I gotta stop being so hard on myself...

How I Got Myself Out of a Rut Today

My friend telling more people I am looking when I am not trying to interview drove me nuts for many reasons: 1) I have a LOT of things lined up that I am PREPPING for!!!, 2) I TOLD him I was not trying to interview right now...MANY TIMES, 3) I would NEVER apply to the places he's volunteering my name for without running past me, 4) This lowers my stock having someone search around for me when I don't want or need them to...After telling him to chill and taking a big sigh, I got to work, because I need to shake this identity off me! LOL If I was prepared, I wouldn't even have aggressions like these! It sounds spoiled, but I hope y'all understand; I appreciate his gesture, but he's deciding to ignore my judgement despite me telling him, and throughout my life I have been trying to show people that I got it and some just don't trust my word, even if I was trying to prove it to them (which I'm not)...

Wasting less time overall

Telling myself it's okay to feel tired and that it was going to be worth it

Goals Completed

Found a therapist

Stopped listening to people worried about their own circumstances and remembering God works on his own time and that I am in no rush...

Got back on the ball

Being kinder to myself and stopping guilting myself if my energy isn't always on 100%

Goals After Today

Strengthen my relationship with God

Understand the main concepts I need to from Interview Cake, AlgoExpert, etc. in 6 months, NOT less than 3

Drop my body fat percentage to Marion Jones, Michaela Cole, or Jade Cargill levels

Consistently fight urge to fill up my time with social media/YouTube

Fully forgive my family & build a great relationship with them

Be more confident & faithful

250 steps/hour & 10k steps/daily consistently

Drink more than 64oz a day consistently

Go on a date with a guy I actually like who actually likes me too

Learn more about my gym crush & get him to ask for my number

Get a house similar to that one in Spain

Update my personal app