#I'm not the smartest lmao
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My dad, jokingly: "I'm badman"
Me: "haha sure" (not thinking he's anything like batman)
My dad: *left/ separated from my mum when I was a teen, started a GTA gang that helps bullied kids, ended up emotionally adopting like 8 kids and helped them through bullying, suicide, abuse, etc.*
Me: *was hurt by an abuser and had to deal with said abuser being forgiven by family around me*
Me: *gets into Batman lore*
Me: ...
"Wait a second..."
#I guess this makes me Jason Todd lmao#I love him don't get me wrong#but he's also literally Bats here with the leaving and then coming back with eight adopted kids#and me going through a whole thing with wanting to cut off certain people#having anger issues#and having a complex relationship with him and at first feeling a bit like I was replaced#Like damn#He really is Bruce and I'm way too much like Jason#Also thinking about hoe my older brother feels overly responsible and tries to act like a leader#He's so much like Nightwing/ Dick Grayson#Overly forgiving and trying to be more of a leader than he should be and the family oriented type of guy#Don't get me wrong I love him too#Buuut as the younger sibling it's my job to pick on him a bit#Our relationship is a bit like Jason and Dick with comradery but with jabs at each other and not always agreeing with how to do things#He's more of a moderate liberal tyoe too#Wants to save everyone on all sides whereas I'm more of a radical leftist who can hold a grudge#Yeah I can definitely see the batfam in us lmao#Idk what middle brother would be#maybe a bit like Barbara with trying to be the smartest? He's not exactly an overachiever but I think he longs for our mum's attention#I mean we all have sure but I think he's in deeper with that#Me and the oldest one were/ are the more rebellious types or I guess the ones that questioned our parents more#Whereas he kinda goes along with everything and backs them up and seeks a lot of approval#Not a bad thing but can make him sort of dependant and try to seem stronger and smarter than he is/ or needs to act#And ofc out of all us I'm probably the most rebellious#less so when I was little but after not being believed when I said I was abused by a certain old shithead was a big c#*shift for me#Made me trust their judgement a lot less and look for my own path ig#So very similar to Jason there with seeing flaws in Batman's morals and rejecting them because of how they got him hurt#Sort of like how I rejected/ reject the moderate âall sidesâ standpoint in my family#there's a lt of forgiveness given to people who don't really deserve it in our extended family
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Unsettled, Lila shuffles closer to her mom. Mom isn't really talking to anyone else right now either, instead standing still and removed from the rest of the cluster now that they've mostly finished eating, watching. She hides her face into the fur behind Mom's shoulder and presses in, trying to make the pressure push back all of the anxiety crawling under her skin like little mites. Mom stays still under the weight of Lila shoving against her, readjusts only enough to curl around her a little more, and Lila feels it when Mom turns to scent carefully at the top of Lila's head.
"Lila," Mom says, soft against her ear. "You alright, sweetie?"Â
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#N posts stuff#dimension 20#d20: stupendous stoats#burrow's end#lila#tula#d20#N posts stories#really had to fight for that word count lmao but the draft was So Close that i couldn't be satisfied with anything else#Lila's clingy kind of 'my mom is the best and the bravest and the smartest person in the whole world; bite me' is so so cute to me#jaysohn is the 'Bolted without hesitation' child & Lila is the 'I lost sight of my mother for 2 seconds and i'm Panicking' one#which is very relatable. shoutout to 'constantly hovering behind their mother's shoulders' children <3
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ik i shittalk john kramer a lot (he deserves it idc he's a BITCH) but amanda is such a shitty fucking jigsaw I dont care how hot she is she's just so bad at doing jigsaw's job
#kiln talks#I'm watching saw 3 rn I'm on a roll#amanda sucks so bad at this LMAO#also i shittalk the jigsaw apprentices a lot abt stockholm syndrome bullshit but rn I'm like. yeah. ok sure#goddamn it i am once again a victim of thinking john kramer is the smartest bitch ever i hate him so much i hate jigsaw#WHEN WILL THESE BITCHES LEEEAAAARRRNNNN#KILL THE OLD MAN FR#KILL THE MOTHERFUCKER I NEED HIM TO DIIIIEEEEE#I Hate the saw movies bc the scariest things to me r unavoidable situations n if I were in saw i simply avoid it by not being american#jeff please kill him faster etc etc
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oh boy this story buckle up
so small confession I didn't predict the queen's death per se?
like I didn't say oh the queen will die soon lol then she did it's more complicated than that? it's kinda hard to explain what happened exactly? (or at least I'm having trouble explaining it)
also disclaimer: my memory is kinda shit so take what I say with a grain of salt
sooooooo this all started last year when I ended up in possession of an overpriced deck of playing cards and didn't know what the fuck to do with them
I was talking about these cards in a discord vc and an online friend of mine (who is a witch) told me about cartomancy (I think that's how it's spelled) which is basically tarot but with playing cards
now I've always been interested in paranormal and witchy shit so the idea that I could tell the future with playing cards defiantly caught my attention plus I seriously had no idea what else to do with these cards
after she explained it a bit and sent me an article that had a chart with some common meanings for the cards I really wanted to jump in heads first so the next day I ended up dragging an irl friend of mine into testing this out
now the idea of asking questions to an object and getting answers wasn't new to me
in middle school my friends and I would ask the small milk cartons we'd get with our lunch questions then flip it (kinda like a milk magic 8-ball) and we'd mess around with other silly fortune telling things
so jumping into this we both thought it was just a fun little thing to fuck around plus we were only doing a yes or no spread (you pull one card positive meaning means yes negative means no)
for the most part we asked actual questions (will tomorrow be a good day? will I find love soon? etc etc) until my friend asked FOR SOME REASON will the queen of england die next year?
I don't fucking know WHY he asked this but he did and when we pulled the card and got a no
THEN MY DUMBASS ASKED IF SHE WOULD DIE SOONER AND IT SAID YES
now since we didn't know she was actually gonna die a few days later this we laughed our asses off thinking lol what a funny quirky turn of events but that's not gonna happen right? RIGHT!?
WELL CUT TO TWO DAYS LATER AAAAAND THE QUEEN'S FUCKING DEAD
to say we lost our shit is a bit of an understatement
so yeah I guess it was more we fucked around and found out and the queen was collateral damage???
the silver lining of all of this is that lead me to look more into cartomancy (yes I really did fuck around with PREDICTING THE FUTURE and didn't know that much about it other then the info my friend told me which wasn't much since she only knew vaguely about it cause she focused more on tarot yes I would 100% die in a horror film) and later tarot
I still have the deck of playing cards btw (after all of that they were finally worth the price lmao)
#there's discord screenshots of us losing our shit but I'm too lazy to find them rn#yeah I'm not the smartest lmao
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fondly thinking about my best friend.
no idea how she's managed to stick it out with me this far but i'm amazed that after over 6 years she still has enough patience to tolerate me.
when i don't feel like i'm good enough, she reminds me of who i am. when i make mistakes, she doesn't treat me any different. when i'm highly dysphoric, she just /gets/ it and shows me unrelenting support and encouragement. she's my #1 hypeman, and i am hers.
there isn't another person in the world that's been able to make me feel even.. remotely okay in my own skin, about how i look and how a body feels (i would also say about who i am, but i'd be lying).
i realize that i've always had a bit of body dysmorphia and generally don't enjoy looking at my own face because it's.. very uncanny to me. i don't have a proper sense of style. but she always just?? has something nice to say and she does it so genuinely that you can actually believe that she means what she says. because she's the same.
i'll go out looking like a 12 year old boy and she's just. fucking. there for it. she'll cheer for it. do it with me. and then we'll walk around the block looking like two lil' dudebros together because we own the same clothes. and fucking hell.
this girl is too good to me. i absolutely don't deserve her.
sometimes it's hard to believe that someone like her exists.
and that i get to be witness to it.
there's caveats, of course. we talk so rarely (we go weeks without), the interests we share are few and far between and there's.. so many things i could never tell her because i will never get over that fear of losing her.
there is no right moment and there isn't a time and those are things i neither need nor want her to know, because it would change the way she sees me.
and i guess that seems callous and detached and dishonest.
but we are there when it matters. i am there when she needs me and i will always pick up her pieces.
i want her to have a good thing. she sees me as a good thing.
so i'll let her have me this way.
#the one person i've not yet managed to hurt and i don't think i ever fucking will#i'd throw myself off a damn cliff first#this girl just saw me one day when i showed up to school. decided i /seemed/ too cool for school and adopted me over the summer.#like what. how. i am THE lamest guy⢠AND SHE somehow STILL thinks i'm cool what a nerd UGH#it's just sad that we're at the point where we have little to tell each other because our lives are so different & we live far apart#at least we can take naps with each other and just chill out when we meet. we can just.. be in the moment together and enjoy it.#and that is still. everything.#also like. i generally don't take selfies but i did a few days ago because i thought i looked kinda cool and i told her about it and#she really wanted to see & she is the only person i'd ever send selfies to and she just...#'bug those last three could work as a hot fuckboy tinder profile' LOL bless her that's the funniest shit i've ever heard#IDK IT'S that thing where you love and care so much for someone that they become infiniely more attractive than they are at first glance?#but she's the only person that i'd ever actually be able to believe. because she is so fucking genuine.#i'll also never get over the fact that she is the smartest and most studious person i know but listens to the most anti social german rap#like LMAO okay girl! you go! i hate it but i love you#it's just a funny contrast that she listens to the filthiest shit imaginable hahaha#personal
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Right, so I'm supposed to do stuff here. Anyways, howdy hey to whatever poor soul finds this blog, you can call me Random. My goal is to talk about random lore for UTDR related characters (including fangame characters) so people don't get them wrong. Will I talk about EVERY UTDR character? Nah, probably not. But I'll talk about the main cast, then post about the rest whenever I want. I guess I should make tags for my own crap, so, uh... #random's insane rambling - This'll be used when I post on this account and I'm not explaining characters like this is FNAF lore. #random's lore drops - Well, this is self-explanatory. #randoms mini rants - I talk shit about the logic of some characters as MUCH as I fucking want. #random's filler drops - the relationship between two characters, literally just filler content so i can procrastinate longer on posts. ...Well, that's about it, really. I mean, what else am I supposed to put here? Oh, wait, I'm supposed to talk about myself? Uh, well, hi, I'm Random, I'm fine with any pronouns, mainly referring to myself by They/Him (Most preferred to least preferred pronoun), and uh... yeah, that's it. You aren't getting much from me. Edit: Might as well add my "main" blog, even though nothing is going to happen there, aside from a reblog or so (I rarely use it lmao). @thatrandomuseriguess is I, the funny man. arandomuser was taken.
#UTDR#uh... that's about it lmao#I ain't the smartest so what do I even put here?#is this adding too many tags? sorry if it is#I'm new to posting#Oh that's right#I gotta add something like âfirst post ever lmaoâ for a tag right? no? oh okay
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OMFG THIS COMMENT. GUISE. THAT LAST SENTENCE IS SO FUCKING RAW
edit: i see a lot of people arguing over the 'eat the rich' thing and i'd like to clear up my standing currently! i know they aren't the same kind of fancy multi-million corporation that our beloved phrase talks about, and the reason i agree to a point with this comment is that watcher is evidently trying to become that. they're doing some shitty things in regards do disregarding poorer fans, and are seemingly blatantly ignoring the economic crisis by saying 'everyone can afford that!', all in direct contrast to their entire branding of being leftist and openly supporting things like eat the rich.
"You said 'eat the rich' then handed us the forks, laid on the plate, and expected us to spare you?" at least from my understanding isn't flat-out saying watcher are now the rich we eat, but are well on the track to becoming so, and are quickly developing the same ego.
BUT!! don't like people directly hating on steven like that!! they're all grown men who can make their own decisions, and pretending like shane and ryan are out little baby beans and then calling steven evil and whatnot isn't okay. they can all be held equally accountable. though i do somewhat understand being the most disappointed in shane, as he's the one who speaks on shit like eating the rich the most, and is generally more outward with his ideals, so it's perfectly reasonable to feel betrayed more deeply. but bottom line is they're all equally accountable for this decision.
some shit we can't take back. i probably got pissed and said some weird/uncool shit initially because of the intense emotions i was dealing with, which other people amplified. i do regret some of the things i've said to a point when it comes to being hateful, but i can't just un-say it all, so i'm not even going to try. i'm going to leave everything be and allow it to serve as something to look back on for what not to do in future circumstances. while this new path for watcher is, in my opinion, not the smartest and generally really shitty, they're human beings who make mistakes, and they deserve our acknowledgement of that.
in short, i don't like it but i'll stop being a bitch about it because they don't deserve that. also sorry for the wall of (probably incoherent lmao) text i got passionate <3
edit 2: guys. im screaming. the apology was amazing imo and i genuinely think they really mean it, like it doesn't seem bullshitted. i think they realized they fucked up for reals and feel bad. im so happy for them, but also for us as fans. yay :D
#watcher#watcher entertainment#we are watcher#shane and ryan#ryan bergara#ghoul boys#shane madej#i cant even bring myself to type 'all hail the watcher' as a tag anymore#sighhh
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You can run but you can't hide
Author: bvidzsoo
Pairing: vampire hunter!Jeong Yunho x vampire!female reader
đŹ Warning: rather suggestive, gore, blood, violence, death, murder, lot's of blood drinking, manhandling, toxic relationship, lots of hate ngl, maybe some medical inaccuracies, slight power dynamic? đŹ Word count: 25.8k đŹ Rating: mature đŹ Genre: vampire x vampire hunter romance, enemies to lovers, they've known each other for centuries, modern time setting, doctor!reader, cop!Yunho, smut, angst đŹ Summary: You thought your life ended with your sister's, but then you realised there was nothing sweeter than revenge. Finding the vampire hunter who had killed your sister proved to be easier than you had first anticipated, but you changed your plans last minute. Walking away after turning him into a vampire wasn't your smartest move, and you'd learn to profusely regret it.
A/N: Oh my, oh my, lovelies I'm back! Starting off the new year with this monster of a oneshot? Yup, this took me like two weeks to write, and I hope it's good and that you'll love it! ^^ I'm working on a Mingi mini-series, so look out for that! Let me know if I didn't tag something, and let me know what you thought of this piece! I appreciate your feedback lots. <3 I hope y'all had a lovely weekend, and honestly, huge shootout to @spiralala because if they didn't send in that ask, this oneshot wouldn't exist lmao, so if you read this, I hope you enjoy it! Man, my gallery is a shrine of Yunho performing that Oz thingy, istg I have a problem but he looked so hot that day ugh...see y'all again soon! ^^ divider
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           There was nothing more pleasant than hearing the writhing manâs moans on the floor, his eyes rolled to the back of his head as he clutched his forearm. His face was bruised from the blows he had taken prior, blood dripping from the corner of his mouth as his smooth light blue velvet suit was all muddy and torn. The violin in the distance created a haunting ambivalence with the rattling wind, chilling you down to the boneâŚif you could feel it. I circled the man, his left hand still tightly clutching his silver stake, and a malicious chuckle tumbled past my lips. He looked pathetic laying in his own pool of blood, his pride not letting him beg for his lifeâŚyet. I could make any man beg; he wasnât different. Once the venom started spreading through his bloodstream, heâd be screaming for me to put him out of his misery. If he begged nicely, I might make his demise quicker than planned.
âLook at you,â I snarled, lips curling into a disgusted smile as he blindly whacked his hand out, trying to aim for me uselessly, âSo pathetic, so frail, soâŚhuman. Werenât those serums supposed to make you strong?â
The man heaved a sharp breath, his eyes snapping open. They were hazy and painted with pain, but the fire was still rampant in them, furious, and so ready to wreak havocâŚif only he could, âIâm-Iâm going toâughâI will kill you, monster.â
âYeah? You will?â I chuckled, giving his torso a good kick, making the man cry out in pain. He tried to pull his legs to his chest, still gripping his silver stake, sweat beading his bruised face. He breathed through his mouth, his right hand convulsing as his jaw clenched, âWhen? Are you sure you can do that right now, darling?â
âDonâtââ But he couldnât speak as a yell tore through his lips, his whole face going beat red as he trashed around on the cold forest floor. The leaves had long died, and snow was supposed to fall anytime. I watched as the man tried to regain some sanity, but his veins started blackening. The venom was spreading, once it reached his heart, he was a gone man.
âDonât what?â I hissed, grabbing the layers of my skirt and bunching them up so that I could crouch down next to him. He tried stabbing at me pathetically, barely able to lift his arm anymore, so I kicked the stake out of his hand, sending it flying into the tree closest to us. It stuck into it, my jaw clenched as I watched it, wondering just how many of my fellow vampiresâ lives it had taken. The man at my mercy was a vicious hunter, the best in their coven, and he had taken my sisterâs life. He deserved no mercy nor forgiveness, and none would be given to him tonight. He had messed with the wrong vampire, I shall not stop until my sister is avenged, âIâve dreamed of this moment, hunter. Want to know why?â
He spluttered words intangibly, and I gripped his thick black hair to yank his head back. His eyes flew open and he tried to trash away from me, but the venom had his body mobilized, âYou think I donât know?â
His words were barely a whisper, his throat no doubt on fire. His sheer willpower was impressive, others wouldâve already succumbed to the excruciating pain. My eyebrows furrowed slightly, curious as much as confused. How could a mere mortal hold on for so long? I wouldâve found it impressive if it was anyone else.
âYeri.â The utterance of my sisterâs name brought a painful stab to my frozen heart as if I was the one stabbed to death by the vampire hunter at my mercy. Her name leaving his lips felt like a sin, it made bile rise in my throat as my hands started shaking, paralyzing anger streaming through my bloodstream. He had no right saying her name, his smug smile despite the painful wince burned into the back of my mind. I moved fast without thinking, gripping his jaw into a crushing hold as the hunterâs eyes widened. He didnât look confident anymore, a shuddering breath left his lips as his body started trembling. My sharp nails dug into his skin to draw more blood, and I relished in the fire that burned through my body, leaving me even more hungry for revenge, for justice.
âYou know what?â I whispered through gritted teeth as our eyes bled into each otherâs, our faces mere inches away as I yanked him up effortlessly. He moaned in pain and clutched at his bleeding bite wound, his eyes slowly becoming bloodshot. Soon, he wouldnât be able to see, âI was going to kill you, to end your pathetic existence for once and for all.â
He gulped nervously, but he showed no fear on his face, making me even angrier that he was still holding out, acting like this was nothing. I wanted him to scream in pain, to beg for his life, and promise heâd do anything for me if I kept him aliveâŚbut the vampire hunter remained true to the tales told about him around campfires. He was unafraid, dedicated, focused, fierce, and unapologetic. To think he couldâve lived for another day if he hadnât fallen for my trap was almost satisfying enough. The ball was beautiful, people inside the castle were drunk, causing mayhem to their liking. The hunter had been part of the celebrating people before I managed to lure him away, far away from any prying eyes. He was strong and had managed to cut me here and there in our tousle, but it was nothing compared to the cuts I had given him. Cuts that would stay with him for eternity. I smirked, watching as life slowly drained from his once handsome face.
âBut you made me realise something, hunter,â I paused, making sure he could still hear me as his heartbeat started vanning, âLetting you die is no punishment to someone like you, itâs an honour. And I cannot let you have it after what youâve done to my sister, YunhoâŚno, I will turn you into the monster youâve hated your whole life. Iâll create something you were taught to hate, to hunt. And Iâll enjoy every single moment of it, hunter.â
Nothing but Yunhoâs widening eyes with fear and desperation couldâve given me this immense satisfaction I felt as my words dawned on him, words sputtering past his lips, intangible and breathy as he tried to grasp for his psyche. But he was far too gone to try and save himself now, and I closed my eyes to drink in the broken pleas falling off his lips, the begging and panic that coursed through his body, so delicious, so thrilling to take it all in. I bit my bottom lip as I felt my fangs shift, poking past my lip as Yunho shook his head furiously, his eyes filled with tears. Their redness blurred with his tears was almost beautiful.
âNo, donât do itâplease,Y/N, you canâtââ
âI canât?â
His screams fell to deaf ears as my fangs pierced the pale smooth skin of his neck, drinking his rich and warm bloodâŚat least what was left of it. Feeling his lax body in my arms reminded me of my sisterâs numb body, and I ignored the burning of my chest as I sucked the blood out of his system, only to replace it with a piece of mine, forever part of me for I was his creator and him my genesis.
Current time
           It had always amused me that despite all the monsters lurking in the shadows, humans never learned from their mistakes. Nighttime in a big city made no difference to the daytime, the wicked still prowled, catching the innocent in their web of lies and tricks. And due to that, the hospital never slept at night. The electronicsâ low buzz was like a constant ringing in my ears, I could hear it even when I was far away from the hectic environment. My forehead creased as I read through another file, wondering where Yeosang had gone when we still had so many patients whose data wasnât placed into our database. On a night like tonight, busier than usual, we were short on staff, so I had no choice but to help out with the administrative work if I wasnât needed in the ER. My office was far away from the hustle and bustle of the emergency room, but still close enough that I was easily reachable in case of an emergency. The clock on the wall kept ticking, and my head had started aching at some point in the night. I still haven't gotten used to the fluorescent lights and the strong smell of sanitiser even after sixty years of being in the field. I was, however, thankful that I managed to get over my bloodthirst.
I cannot say there hadnât been incidents when I had just started working as a doctor, but it was easily explainable if you knew how to cover your tracks. Besides, my coven was influential enough to get me out of trouble if I managed to mess up even after all these years of practice. I sighed and reached for my thermos, taking a sip of the salty fresh blood I had borrowed just at the beginning of my shift. Nobody would notice, there were enough blood donors daily, allowing me to take a few blood bags for myself and my coven. With the changing of times, we also had to change and accommodate to the modern world. Life was a lot easier now, and if you kept a low profile and knew the right people, staying under the radar wasnât too difficult. If there was anything I missed from the eighteen hundreds, however, it was the possibility of coming and going without anyone keeping tabs on you. Social media was a fun thing that I couldnât fully enjoy, not unless I wanted the leader of our coven breathing down my neck and locking me away for a century or two. So, empty and blank accounts were the only way to go by if I wanted to watch those stupid, but hilarious, reels that my coworkers sent to each other. Nobody was supposed to know, but I had one follower, and that was Yeosang, easily the first human I had actually grown to somehow care for.
He was adorable yet fierce, very loyal, and the hardest-working person I had come across in the few years I had been alive. But speaking of Yeosang, I glanced at the clock again and wondered if he had decided to take his much-needed break. It was close to midnight, he would usually join me at this hour and eat his meal in silence while I typed away on my computer. I pushed the glasses higher up on the bridge of my nose and focused back on my task, knowing it was best if I got this over with before the next influx of patients came. I wasnât in the mood to work afterhours tonight, our leader had come up with a new tradition solely for her own enjoyment, and I needed every wink of sleep I could get if I wanted to sit through a night of nostalgic vampires conversing about the rottenness of our current worldâŚas if we werenât part of what made it worse. The clock to my left beeped and I jumped as the door of my office suddenly slammed open, Yeosangâs frantic eyes falling on me.
âDoctor!â For such an angelic face, it would surprise everyone when they first heard his deep voice, âWe need you down, there was a shootout close by and several police officers were injured. You are needed to take care of the less serious ones.â
Well, duty calls then. I pressed the power off button of the screen and took my glasses off, closing the buttons of my white gown as I followed after Yeosang. His heart was beating fast as he dodged the few people in the hallway, hurriedly leading the way as I kept up with his pace. There was no reason for us to take the elevator, so we quickly ran down the stairs and headed for the ER, which was once again filled with patients in need.
âDoctor Bae!â The head doctor yelled once he noticed me, Yeosang and I headed over, âRoom three is yours, we will send the patient in as soon as weâve got his information noted down.â
I nodded and headed for the private rooms just past the doctor, eyes set on the third room. Yeosang ran ahead and pulled the door to the side for me, and I thanked him quietly as I rushed in to wash my hands and quickly wear clean glows. The screen on the wall beeped and I looked up at it, reading the extent of the copâs injury. He was grazed by one bullet while he needed another one taken out, stitches no doubt necessary. I nodded to myself and was about to mentally map out my actions when the door was pulled to the side and Yeosangâs comforting voice flooded the room.
âRight here, Doctor Bae will now take care of you.â The manâs back was to me, and Yeosang was already at the door, âIâll be back to assist you, Doctor, but Iâm needed at the front desk still.â
I ushered him out with a flick of my wrist, knowing that I was capable of taking care of the patient on my own. This wasnât my first time stitching up bullet wounds, besides, if the man was able to walk inside on his own, he was doing better than I had first expected. The examination room wasnât too big, so it took me barely three steps to cross over and come to a standstill in front of the patient. Mouth opening to ask for the place of the injury, I froze when my eyes finally fell on his face. The silence was eery in the room as the manâs head raised, one reddish eye staring back at me widely. His heartbeat stuttered, and his blood smelt fresh andâalive. He wasnât supposed to have a heartbeat. My mouth dropped open as my eyes ran over his face, trying to make sense of the situation. He looked the same as all those years ago. Youthful and handsome, slopping nose and pouty lips, cheeks flushed and jawline prominent. One eye, however, was hidden behind a black eye patch, his dark blue hair framing it so people wouldnât stare at him. And yet, the sight of the vampire hunter wouldnât have been so shocking if he didnât feel soâŚhuman.
Without thinking, I grabbed his chin and tilted his head back, eyes tracking his smooth neck. The bitemark was gone since it wasnât the first one on his body, long healed, yet the paleness and coldness of his skin felt familiar under my fingertips. His jaw had clenched as he yanked his head out of my grip, his expression transparent for once. He was seething, it was easy to see the hatred in his one eyeâŚanother telltale that he was a vampire, which left me confused as to why his heart was still beating.
âLook at you,â My voice was quiet, almost disbelieving as I let my eyes roam over his sturdy body, âI thought you wouldâve killed yourself once you awakened as a vampire, but no, youâre living like all those monsters you hunted.â
His jaw clenched as I smirked, something heavy settling over my chest. Was it satisfaction? Then why did I not feel any pride gazing upon him? Wasnât I supposed to feel smug and fulfilled that my creation was right in front of me? A successful transition was rare, sometimes the venom destroyed the human if they were too weak physically or mentally. I hadnât even stuck around to make sure Yunho would indeed transform into a vampire, I wasnât interested enough to see it to the end. The thought of knowing that I had made him suffer as much as I had suffered upon the loss of my sister was enoughâŚit was everything I needed. So, seeing him now, the same body and soul I had drained the life from, why wasnât I over the moon to know he had made it? That he was punished and living the nightmare I had trapped him inside of.
The shouting voices outside the room snapped me into action, I was a doctor first and foremost here, and he was my patient. I wouldâve loved watching his blood dry out of his body as I made his bullet wound worse, but I would have lost everything I had built so far. Besides, he was a vampire, that wouldnât kill him. I grabbed the hem of his leather jacket, intending to yank it off him, but suddenly long fingers were wrapped around my wrist.
âWhat are you doing?â Yunho hissed, his one eye narrowing suspiciously. I paused and raised an eyebrow.
âPatching you up, since Iâm a DoctorâŚâ I trailed off, letting it hang in the air as Yunho scoffed, his grip tightening around my wrist. It didnât hurt, but it wouldâve crushed my bone if I was a human, âWhy are you bleeding? Vampires donât bleed like this.â
But Yunho didnât answer, he just pushed off the bed, towering over me. Any vampire hunter coven wouldâve scrambled to have Yunho with them, he was practically designed to be one. Intimidatingly tall with a strong build, able to hunt and good at combat. He was fierce and fast, he was so quiet even the vampires failed to hear him coming. The serum his coven had forced him to drink only enhanced his skills, making him stronger and quicker than a human was supposed to be. He bled like any other one but his wounds healed faster, his grip was of iron, able to snap anyoneâs neck in two. I wasnât scared of him, not now, not back then. I had taken care of him once and showed him that he wasnât untouchable nor undestroyable like he was made to believe. The pure rage I had felt back then was nothing but a simmer now, but it only needed a little timber to set it off once again, destroying anything in its path.
âIâm like this because of you.â Yunho was breathing hard as he grabbed my arm with his other hand, gripping it a bit too forcefully. I didnât flinch as I stared up at him, trying to keep my satisfied smirk at bay. Provoking an irate vampire was never smart, especially not a stronger and bigger one, âIâve been looking for you, Y/N, and Iâm going to destroy you now that Iâve found you. You and your coven too.â
I chuckled cynically, grabbing his wrist to squeeze it until his hand turned blue from the loss of circulation, âOh, really, now? Is that all youâve got? An empty little threat? Iâm soââ
But I never got to finish my taunting as I was flung into the nearest wall, the breath knocked from my lungs as I collided with the strong surface. I caught myself quickly, though, and looked at Yunho unimpressed. Was this the best he got? He had done more damage as a human compared to this.
âThatâs not how you treat your doctor, Yunho, should I sedate you?â The brush of wind touched my cheek as Yunho stood in front of me once again, perhaps impressively fast. I smiled at him, crossing my arms in front of my chest, âWhy donât you sit down andââ
I gasped as my airways were constricted by a choking grip, the back of my head colliding with the wall as Yunho threw me up against it again, his fingers locked around my throat in a vice-like grip. My jaw clenched as I hissed at him, kneeling him in the groin. If this is how he wanted to play, I was going to give it to him. I kicked him in the stomach, sending him stumbling back as his eye narrowed again, darkness settling over it. I chuckled and ran towards him, throwing a punch that he easily dodged, but not so much the knee in his gut that had him groaning and hunching over. I chuckled and grabbed his hair, yanking his head back as he glared at me, âWhen will you learn that you canât defeat me?â
Instead of an answer, an elbow came up and knocked my head back by the chin, making me bite my tongue painfully so. I hissed as my fangs poked past my bottom lips, letting Yunho know that I was triggered. Before I could get it back under control together with the fire in the pit of my stomach, he grabbed me by the hair and dragged me over to the medical table, grabbing the first thing he couldâŚwhich was a scalpel that he held dangerously close to my eye.
âWhen will you stop underestimating me?â Yunho growled, and I tried to yank my head away, hands gripping the edge of the table, as one wrong move would have the scalpel in my eyeball, âIâm not a human anymore, Y/N.â
Before I could answer, the rattling of the door caught both of our attention. I sucked in a deep breath as the door started opening, Yeosangâs heartbeat pattern already familiar, âDoctor, Iâmââ
But thankfully someone called his name out before he could pull the door open, âGosh, okayâIâll be with you in a second, Doctor Bae!â
âWhoâs that little weasel?â Yunho leaned down, his hot breath hitting the side of my cheek, âYour little blood bag?â
âWatch your mouth.â I hissed and braced myself on the table as I forcefully yanked myself away and out of Yunhoâs grip, kicking the back of his knees, and making him buckle forward. He was still holding the scalpel, so I yanked it out of his hand and held it to his neck as I yanked on his hair, âHeâs a nurse, leave him alone.â
Yunho chuckled, grabbing my wrist and twisting it until I yelped, having to release him. He wasnât even phased by the sharp knife cutting into his neck, fresh blood dribbling down his neck. His scent was sweet, almost intoxicating as my mouth started salivating. But I had no time to waste as Yunho twisted around, rising to his full height, grabbing me, only to fling me into the wall on the other side of the room. The door rattled as my body collided against it and a sharp pain shot up my spine, leaving me breathless as I lay on the floor, holding myself up by my arms.
âDid the modern age make you weak, Y/N?â Yunho taunted, his lips pulled into a vile sneer as he stalked towards me. I chuckled, brushing the hair out of my eyes as I looked up at him. Before I could answer, however, the door started opening again.
âDoctor, Iââ I was up in a second, pushing the door closed and keeping it shut despite Yeosangâs struggle to open it.
âGet me gauze!â I called out, watching Yunho as he hadnât stopped advancing towards me, âFrom my office!â
âBut thatâs tooââ
âNow, Yeosang!â I shouted as Yunho snickered, grabbing me by my skull and squeezing. It wasnât enough to crush it, but I winced as I tried to kneel him in the groin again, but he was smarter this time and knocked my leg almost out from underneath me with his. Then, very predictably, I was once again flung across the room, crashing into the machines and utility metal desk, a pained groan leaving my mouth as my side started throbbing.
âDoctor Bae?â Yeosang sounded alarmed as I heard his footsteps come closer once again, âIs everythingââ
âYes! Get me that gauze, now!â I shouted again, standing up and throwing Yunho a glare. Iâve had enough. I gritted my teeth as he chuckled, stalking towards me, no doubt wanting to throw me against another wall again. The room already looked like a mess, I couldnât let him break even more expensive equipment. So, when he was close enough, I moved behind him before he could catch me, grabbing him by the hair and yanking as hard as I could as I veered him towards the examination table. I pressed his head against the cold metal and leaned forward, eyes set on the silver cutter I kept there for emergencies like this one. Yunho was trashing around like a wild animal in my hold, and I had to strain my muscles and use all the strength I had to keep him put with my body, but he thankfully went lax when the silver touched his cheek.
âYou are done, do you hear me?â I hissed close to his ear, anger seeping into my voice, âI will not let you walk into my workplace and act like an animal. If you wish to kill me, fine, you can have your way outside the hospital.â
âA vampire having a conscience?â Yunho huffed, relaxing in my hold as I pressed the silver cutter deeper into his cheek to make a point.
âTimes have changed, Yunho, but donât think I have forgotten what you did.â I hissed and he shouldered me, making me step back, my grip falling from his hair. As he whirled around to face me, his face was red, his chest rising and falling rapidly. I didnât drop the silver cutter even though it had started burning my skin too. It seems like Yunho didnât take his time to train himself with silver, the cutter had left an angry red mark on his cheek.
âOh, Iâm glad you havenât forgotten, Y/N.â He smirked, my stomach dropping, hatred blinding my mind, âI just regret not making it more painful for her, I wonder how much torture she couldâve taken beforeââ
The slap echoed in the trashed room as my chest fell and rose rapidly, my hands trembling as I tried to push the vision of Yeriâs numb body out of my mind. If I lost control in the hospital, everything would be compromised. We wouldnât be able to just leave. I couldnât let Yunhoâs presence and words shake me up so hard, I was his creator and heâd never be able to dominate meâŚitâs not how things worked. Yunho slowly turned his head, glaring at me fiercely as he suddenly grabbed his side, wincing in pain. The black fabric was soft in my hand, and as I looked back up at his face, I realised I had yanked the eye patch off his face, now two round, but sharp eyes staring back at me. The eye that he had concealed looked normal, without any faults, until I looked closer. I still remember what Yunhoâs human eyes looked like. They were a rich brown almost like dark chocolate, warm and deep, it was easy to get lost in them. And the concealed eye had remained the same as if his humanity had refused to let go of him. My eyebrows furrowed as I tried to recall having come across something like this before, but I came up empty-handed. Was he a vampire? Or was he a human?
âWhat are you?â I whispered, eyebrows furrowing as fresh blood oozed out of Yunhoâs bullet wound.
âThe monster you had created.â He hissed, his fangs suddenly flashing as he opened his mouth, his reddish eye bright under the white fluorescent light. But his heart continued to beat and his blood continued to flow, his brown eye odd against all the anomalies of his being. Before I could patch him up, however, he whirled around and stumbled towards the door, having me race after him.
âWhat are you doing?â
âI donât need your help, I can heal just like you.â
And then the door was pulled open forcefully, rattling under Yunhoâs strength. Yeosang was in the doorway, hand outstretched, and his eyes widened as he looked up at Yunho, then at me, confusion slowly overtaking his expression as he looked past us, and inside the examination room. The gauze I had asked for was in his hands, but he seemed lost for words.
âWhatâwhat happened?â He asked quietly, coming to Yunhoâs aid when he stumbled forward, trying to leave the room. Before he could speak up and say anything, I chuckled and walked back inside the room, trying to tidy up the mess we had created.
âHeâs a bit dizzy so he stumbled and fell.â Yeosang looked more confused as he held Yunho up, who was becoming paler by the second, âDonât worry, heâs okay.â
âHe doesnât look okay, though,â Yeosang muttered and veered Yunho back inside the examination room.
âJust bring me water.â Yunho croaked out as he finally lay on the table, wincing as he tried to get rid of his leather jacket. Yeosang nodded and hurried towards the bottle of water, grabbing a clean cup for Yunho.
âNow stay silent and let me fix you.â I hissed under my breath as I tore his tee apart, eyebrows furrowing at the many scars littered across his abdomen. The first bullet had grazed his ribs and the other one was ledged in an otherwise life-threatening spot, but Yunho would be fine once I had extracted it. I made sure Yeosang didnât see the second bullet as he handed Yunho his water, eyes sweeping over the room.
âIâll try and fix up this place,â He muttered under his breath, giving me a questioning gaze. I nodded before I looked back at Yunho, who had started sweating. So much for playing the tough guy, he couldnât even fix his problem without my help. But I didnât forget what he had done to Yeri, and he wasnât safe from the coven. They would hear about this, and Iâd find out what caused him to turn into this half-looking human and vampire.
           The end of my shift came with the orange sun brimming the horizon. The hospital was relatively calm once the police department left, and because we had to keep up the appearances, Yunho was advised to return in a few days to get his stitches checked. I hadnât actually stitched him up since his body was already healing by the time the bullet was out, but nobody had to know that. One look from him told me I wouldnât return to my coven if any human found out about his true nature. It was ironic, wasnât it? Having to hide amongst the creatures you once used to be, used to love and cherish. Now, there was no resemblance to the human he had once been, just the pure darkness of the creature he had succumbed to. I recognised the look in his eyes, I had stared at it many times in the mirror in the past, but for someone so desperate to preserve their humanity, it was disarming to see none of it left in him.
The sounds of the busy road became white noise as I got off the highway, the dirt road leading me far away from the lively city and deeper into the forest. A typical location for a vampire covenâs mansion, but itâs what worked best for us. Nobody bothered us here, and we didnât bother others eitherâŚwell, except for the few neighbours who shared our wish for solitude. But the houses were far paced out, we rarely saw each other. If the elderly couple had already died, I wouldnât be able to tellâŚexcept that the light was on outside their porch, and the man was having his first cup of coffee for the day ahead of him. He raised the mug in a greeting and I made sure to wave at him, wondering when was the last time I did a wellness check on them. They had no family to take care of them, so, out of generosity, I would visit them every few months to make sure they were as healthy as possible.
The mansion came in sight as I drove towards the driveway, four garage doors hiding our other luxury vehicles. I was never one to show off our unlimited wealth, but our leader had an eye for collectable pieces and wasnât shy to parade around the city with them. I parked just to the side and took a deep breath, closing my eyes as the carâs engine was killed, utter silence wrapping around me. I smelled like the sanitiser from the hospital, and my white boots were dirty from Yeosang accidentally stepping on them in his rush to help other officers once Yunho was taken care of. My wrists ached from having typed on the computer numerous patients data, but my skin was cold and smooth. I didnât have to worry about growing bloodthirsty, not for another week. The fridge inside the mansion was stuffed with blood bags, so making up another lie as to why Iâd have to check on the blood donors again wasnât necessary for a good month. I had a feeling Yeosang was growing suspicious of me, heâs been by my side for four years, and without undermining his intelligence, I doubted heâd ever figure out I was a vampire. There were few clues he could catch onto, and heâs seen me in the daylight, so he couldnât actually blame it on the fact that I only took night shiftsâŚif it came down to that and I didnât know better, I could also say he was a vampire too since he only took night shifts as well.
I flinched when I felt warmth on my face, and I blinked my eyes open, staring into the blinding rays of the rising sun. Another day had come, a new beginning for humans, and the moment to retreat for the monsters. I wondered if Yunho was capable of walking in the sun without feeling fatigued or nauseous, I wondered if he fed on blood or food like humans, and I wonderedâŚwhy he was back just now. Was it sheer coincidence we had run into each other once again? Or was it the bond that connected us, somehow always leading us to each other in the end? I sighed and grabbed my purse and keys, getting out of the car and shivering at the cool breeze of the morning. Summer was a few months away, half of my coven might leave for the time being and retreat to colder places, but I couldnât. I had a job and a life outside of being a vampire, I knew Yeosang would ask questions if I just up and left. In fact, I was more than sure heâd try to follow me. We had gone to a team dinner a long time ago, and in his drunken stupor, he had confessed that heâd follow me to the ends of the Earth because he trusted my judgment and expertise. Perhaps it was that moment which made me adore the frail human, wanting to make sure he was safe from other creatures like myself.
I locked the car and headed for the front entrance, listening to the gravel crunch underneath my boots. I could use my vampire speed, but there was something in me that wanted to enjoy the mundane things today. Itâs not like I could shut off my powers and heightened senses, but I had control over them, and it came in handy quite often. If not because I had to appear human around the humans, then for all the things that went down inside the mansion. Fifteen people werenât little nor much, but they each had needs and cravings that I honestly found no joy in overhearing anymore. Over two hundred years of housing together did that to you. For once, the mansion was silent as I entered it, locking the door after me since I knew nobody would leave the house until twilight. The property we lived on was huge, the mansion was probably capable of housing up to thirty people. I had no idea how our leader had found it, nor how she managed to convince the realtor to let us have it, but it was luxurious and somehow comfy still, I liked it. It looked a lot like those Pinterest vision boards I did for myself about a hypothetical small apartment in the heart of the city. I could leave the mansion, and step out of the motherly arms of the coven, but it wasnât that easy.
They depended on me and I needed them. All my life, the vampire one at least, they were the closest thing to a family, they were the only constant in my life. I grew and learned with them and from them, they forgave my mistakes and rarely punished me, but maybe that was because they didnât know what I had done all those years ago, in 1822. Nobody knew about Yunho anymore, the feared vampire hunter had just disappeared one day and his own coven had gone to war with ours, only to massively lose against us. Our coven had been bigger back then, some perished and others decided it was time to move on, but those who had a deep sense of loyalty and craved to belong somewhere were still here. I headed for the marble stairs, the interior just a tad bit colder than outside, my footsteps loud as I followed the stairs to the third floor, where most of our rooms were. We had maids and a few butlers, but that was only because our leader preferred blood fresh from the source, and to be honest, we were too lazy to keep the whole mansion clean, so we needed a little bit of help. The closer I got to my room, the more my stomach twisted with nerves and uncertainty. I couldnât keep Yunho a secret anymore, not when he was so close to us and a very potent threat. I could tell he still hated our kind, and I knew just because he was one of us now didnât stop him from wanting to kill us. And because he was a cop now, he could easily get rid of the coven without anyone raising any suspicions. I wished this was only about our safety, but his existence could be my sisterâs salvation.
Knowing that the wisest thing to do now was let our leader know about Jeong Yunho, I stopped in front of her door and took a deep breath, telling myself that facing punishment was good if it meant Yeri could see another break of dawn. I raised my hand and knocked against Joohyunâs door, three times in the pattern that told her I was calling for a meeting, then hurried to my room to get rid of my things. I had left my gown at the hospital, but as I walked inside my en-suite bathroom, the stench of the disinfectant was sickening, so I quickly splashed water over my face and scrubbed my hands until they were raw. I pulled my hair in a low ponytail and changed out of my tight black blouse in exchange for a comfortable sweater that felt like a shield around my body once Joohyunâs sharp eyes were to stare me down. I knew I had to do this, it was for my sister. So, I left my room and hurried towards the meeting room, one floor below, not bothering to knock since I knew everyone who needed to be inside was already there. The heavy door opened easily under my hands, giving way to the dimly lit room with a long table in the middle. The floors and walls were covered in pure marble, glimmering in the yellowy light as I eyed the vampires sitting scarcely around the table.
Sooyoung, who was our financial advisor, looked like she had just been awakened, and I knew Iâd get an earful for not letting her have her beauty sleep. Seungwan, who looked bored as her sharp nails clicked against the wooden table was busy sketching in her notebook, her hair a mess, and I wondered when was the last time she had gone to sleep. She was a renowned artist, and speculations were going around the internet that she was the reincarnation of a princess living in the 17th hundreds, her current photos compared to the paintings made of the princess. It didnât take two to guess whether she was a reincarnation or not, those inside the coven knew the truth. Then Seulgi, who was glaring at me annoyed, didnât even bother sitting down, her arms crossed over her chest. I wondered if she had ever come across Jeong Yunho without knowing his identity, she was the head chief of the police. She was probably supposed to head in right now and I was keeping her back, maybe thatâs why she was so annoyed. Lastly, our leader, Joohyun, sat at the head of the table, expression gentle as her arms rested on the massive chairâs armrest. She looked tiny in that big chair, but then again, she had always been tiny.
âWill you explain why youâve evoked us here?â Seulgi snapped, her annoyance spilling into her tone as I gulped, advancing further inside the room. Behind Joohyun, a thinly veiled curtain served as a divider. What was beyond it wouldâve made my heart race in nervousness, the lump in my throat choking if I allowed myself to miss my sister too much.
âSit down, Seulgi,â Joohyun muttered, still only looking at me, âYou will give me a headache if you keep pacing around, your job isnât more important than a council meeting.â
That seemed to get Seulgi to tense up, but she couldnât say anything against Joohyun, so she took her seat close to hers, crossing a leg over the other as well as her arms across her chest. I gulped and stood at the other end of the table, gaining Seungwanâs attention as well as she stopped doodling. Sooyoung was more awake now, easily able to notice my hesitance since she had always been a good observer.
âYou did something, didnât you?â Sooyoung asked, narrowing her eyes in disdain. Joohyun raised her hand to silence everyone, looking around the room before she leaned forward, her long black hair silky and straight as it fell to her hips.
âLet her speak,â She snapped, raising an eyebrow, âWhy did you invoke the council, Y/N?â
It was now or never; I couldnât back out anymore. I licked my lips and pictured myself speaking to my boss, who was an old man, borderline insane but still an exceptional doctor. If I imagined I was speaking to him, who rivalled Joohyunâs sharp features, the words came a bit easier to speak. I lowered my eyes to the table and decided to tell them where it all started, âAfter Yeri was killed, I was on a rampage to find the hunter who had done that to her. It took me three years, but I found him, he was a Jeong, from the Jung hunter coven, and he was their most prised soldier. His name is Jeong Yunho, and heâŚheâs still alive. After I found him, I planned on killing him, but he said things that angered me and I didnât go through with it, I bit him a second time andâŚleft.â
âYou left?â It was Seungwan asking, her eyebrows furrowed, her tone alarmed.
âIs this why that fucking vampire-hunting coven attacked us?â Sooyoung snapped, her sharp eyes burning into the side of my head as she stood up revolted.
âEnough, let her continue!â Joohyun snapped, and everyone settled back down as I pursed my lips, reluctantly looking up at Joohyun. Her expression gave nothing away, but she had one hand fisted and it was enough to tell me I was in trouble, big time.
âYes, I left him there, and yes, thatâs why the coven attacked us,â I admitted shamefully, even after all the time that had passed, I havenât stopped feeling guilty for the loss I caused, but it was only fair. He had taken Yeri from us, I took him from the Jungâs.
âIâm just impressed you managed to take Jeong down,â Seulgi muttered, ignoring Joohyunâs sharp glare for interrupting me, âBut I suppose something happened, otherwise you wouldnât have admitted to trying to kill him.â
And she was right, I nodded a bit embarrassed, âYeah, heâsâŚalive. And a vampire, but not really, Iâitâs difficult to explain. When I bit him a second time, I knew heâd become a vampire but I didnât stay there until the transformation went fully through, I felt the bond between us spark to life and ran off. Humans were also coming inside the forest for some reason, I couldnât let them see me. But heâs back, and heâs not fully a vampire. He came in tonight with a bullet shot, heâs a cop, and his heart is still beating. He bleeds like humans and he doesnât heal as fast as vampires, but heâs inhumanely strong and fast, and his eyesâŚone is crimson and the other brown. But heâs still youthful, he looks the same as back then, and he hasnât aged one bit. He is a vampire, but heâs somehow also a human, and IâŚI donât know. I made a mistake, and I have to fix it before it gets bad.â
âYeah, you better.â Sooyoung snapped, her face red from anger, âIf I knew youâd be this daft, I wouldâve never transformed you.â
âI didnât ask to be transformed!â I snapped, turning sharply to glare at Sooyoung, who deflated in her seat and looked away, âNone of us did, Sooyoung, Yunho is the only one I transformed besides Yeri.â
A deafening silence settled over the room, however, it didnât last long as Seulgi was swiping on her phone rapidly, her eyebrows more and more furrowed as seconds passed by, âYou donât mean this Jeong Yunho, do you?â
I gulped as she turned her phone, showing me his profile, his information written in small letters right underneath his picture, âThatâs him.â
âHeâs in my division, way too small to come in contact with me.â Seulgi muttered, turning her phone to look at it as Joohyun motioned to be handed the phone too, âHeâs been an officer for six years, always gets the most brutal crime scenes, and does some private investigation from time to time. Heâs also great undercover and refuses to work with partners, heâs quite promising, I cannot lie. A few other officers have been fighting over him to get him in their team, but he refuses them and says he wants to stay in my division. Do you think he knows who I am?â
âI doubt it,â I shook my head, pulling out the chair to sit down, âUnless heâs kept in contact with the Jungâs, who know our faces.â
âHe hasnât,â Joohyun spoke up, still staring at the photo, âThe coven wouldâve long killed him, itâs impossible heâs still in contact with them. But if heâs operating on his own, heâs a greater danger than the coven itself, heâs a rogue and they are dangerous. Itâs good you told us, Y/N, even if heâs the fruit of your mistake, getting rid of him now is better than never.â
âWe canât get rid of him.â I whispered, but they all heard me as my eyes went past Joohyun, falling on the divider, âNot yet.â
âWhy?â Seungwan asked confused, looking towards the divider as well, her eyes solemn as she stared longingly at it. Yeri was beyond the veil, I hoped she could hear us, hear me that I hadnât given up on her, not now and not ever. If this didnât work, Iâd find another way to bring her back from her eternal slumber. I was a doctor, medicine was evolving in ways one could only dream about back in our days, Iâd find a miracle and make her live again if I had to.
âThereâs an ancient tale,â I gulped nervously, Joohyunâs eyes narrowed as the other three girls watched me closely, âThat says if a vampire is placed in eternal slumber, their essence isnât lost yet. We can save Yeri if we find her hunter and feed her their bloodâŚthe hunter who had tried to kill her was Yunho, and heâs here.â
âBut heâs a vampire,â Joohyun spoke, finality to her tone as if she thought I was insane for bringing this tale up, âAnd the hunter needs to be human in order to bring the fallen vampire back, the blood needs to be fresh and untainted, which you had made sure isnât anymore.â
âHe is human, Joohyun!â I exclaimed, feeling desperation crawl up my chest, âHalf human, but itâs still there. He could be useful, we could try at least. The tale doesnât say anything will happen to the vampire if the ritual fails, no?â
Joohyun pursed her lips, glancing at Seulgi who looked uncertain, âGiving away our location and identities is very risky, Y/N. Even if nothing happens to Yeri if the ritual fails, we will suffer. Sure, he isnât in contact with his coven anymore, but if you say his strength can rival ours, heâs a threat. I cannot risk exposing my whole coven to something like that, itâs enough that he knows you still exist. Heâs too close to us, get rid of him before I interfere.â
I opened my mouth, ready to plead, but surprisingly, Sooyoung beat me to it, âItâs about Yeri, donât you miss her too? I want to hear her joyful laughter again and look into her soulful eyes, our coven has been so cold ever since she diedâŚand if we have such a high chance of bringing her back, why should we waste it, Joohyun? We could kill Yunho anytime, I can do it if nobody else wants to, Iâve taken men down twice his size and strength, Iâm not afraid.â
âThis isnât about whoâs afraid and whoâs got more ego, Sooyoung!â Joohyun snapped, slamming her palm on the table. Seungwan jumped and looked down, chewing on her bottom lip.
âEveryone wants something, Joohyun,â She spoke up quietly, playing with her fingers, âHe must want something too, maybe heâs looking for someone, maybe he wants to kill someone, if we find out what he wants, we could blackmail him into helping us. Think about itâŚâ
âSheâs not wrong,â Seulgi muttered under her breath, swiping left a call that seemed important by her exasperated sigh. Silence settled over our group as everyone looked at Joohyun, awaiting her final decision. She didnât look pleased or trusting of our ideas, but I knew she missed Yeri just as much as the rest of us. She was my sister, but she was everyone elseâs sister too. She was young when I had turned her in order to save her from sickness, she never really had the chance to grow up and become a woman, she was everyoneâs little sister.
âSeulgi, find out everything about Jeong Yunho and bring the information to me in two days,â Joohyunâs tone was final, her jaw clenched. I tried to keep the smile off my face, but I was beyond ecstatic. Finally, we had a real chance of awakening Yeri, âMake sure the others donât know much about this, especially not that heâs from the Jung coven and Y/Nâheâs your responsibility. Keep an eye on him, find out more about his peculiar condition, and bring him to me when I say so. Everyone is dismissed.â
We stood at once, but I didnât leave the room like the others, my feet carried me towards the thin veil. I pulled the curtain to the side and proceeded further inside, eyes falling on the altar that allowed Yeriâs body to rest upon. Her body was placed on silky cushions, a thin blanket pulled over her body to keep her warm despite her not needing it. I took a deep breath and neared her, staring down at her frail skin, with no wrinkles or blemishes on her face as her eyes remained closed. Her chest fell and rose, a dark splinter still in her, close to her heart, from where Yunho had attacked her. Her wavy blonde hair was faded and her lips were a light pink, making her look closer to a corpse than a living being. She was sicklier than even a vampire. I gulped and gingerly traced my fingers over her eyes, wishing to see the flutter and open, their familiar crimson just a distant memory.
âWeâll meet soon, Yeri, I promise,â I whispered and leaned down to press a kiss to her forehead, hoping she could feel it and hear my words too. She was beautiful, her white dress spilling off the altar as I committed her serene face to memory once again, then turned, my mind set to find Jeong Yunho and make him pay one last time.
           In all my six years of working at the hospital, I hadnât bothered taking any days off . There was no reason for me to go on a vacation, I had already seen most of the world. Besides, I didnât tire like humans, so really, there was no need for me to take days off. Besides, I felt it was my duty to be at the disposal of those humans that needed me. So, when I called in and told my boss that I would like to take the night off since a family emergency had come up, he was rather surprised but mostly happy. He even added that I should take off another day or two and have a quick relaxing trip while I was at that. If I thought more of it, I might take him up on his offer, but not to go on a relaxing tripâŚbut to bring back my fallen sister. Yeosang, however, was less enthusiastic about my sudden absence.
âWait, what do you mean something came up?â I could hear the confusion through the phone as I walked down the dimly lit streets, water splashing against my boots since it had rained not long ago. I hated the muddy smell of the earth after the rain, and especially all the worms that sought refuge above ground.
âWell, exactly that, Yeosang.â I answered amused, glaring at a drunken couple that was ready to fuck by the wall of a building on a rather busy street, even at this ungodly hour, âOne of my family memberâs dog died andâŚI need to attend the funeral.â
I hoped I didnât jinx it, Sooyoung would have my head if anything happened to her lovely Bishon Maltez, Haetnimie. Yeosang paused, releasing a long sigh, then hummed, probably feeling bored all alone in my office. It was past midnight, so he mustâve already had his meal for the night, âIâm sorry to hear that, my condolences.â
âYup, I will let her know,â I muttered half-heartedly, eyebrows furrowing when my eyes zeroed in on the neon sign above the door Yunho was just about to enter. Two days ago, Seulgi placed a heavy folder in front of Joohyun with all the necessary information about Jeong Yunho, and now, I was tasked with following him and finding out more about his âmundaneâ life since there were very few records about it. He was rather good at keeping low-key, it was annoying. Not even the trace of a money transfer, I wondered how he did it. Thankfully to Seulgi, we still managed to get a basic background check on him, hence I knew his location now. His apartment was in a rather high-end part of the city, which was surprising since I thought heâd want to stay away from humans. He often bought beer after being finished with his shift and conversed with the old lady at the laundry mat, who lived in the less fancy apartment complex next to his. He also liked petting stray kittens, even if they hissed at him at first. I thought animals sensed evil, but then againâŚSooyoung did own a dog too, and she was an angel, liked everyone but Baekhyun who would bark back at her.
âHey, Iâll talk to you later, Yeosang,â I said as the bouncer let Yunho inside the nightclub, spiking my curiosity. Was he really here to admire some pretty ladies? Is this how he fed? A bit perverted and sadistic, but I couldnât judge him too hard, âHave an easy shift.â
âThank you,â Yeosang muttered, and I figured he was pouting since our conversation was short cut, âDonât stay up too late.â
âOld habits die hard.â I chuckled before hanging up, then cut the line and smiled at the bouncer charmingly. He eyed me up and down, not budging. Great, of course, heâd let Yunho in without a blink, but not a fine lady wanting to enjoy some other fine ladies.
âAre only men allowed inside?â I raised an eyebrow, rolling my shoulders back. I wasnât too muscular or too small, but I looked far from threatening still. Unless I showed my fangs, of course, âThought the pretty ladies were for everyone to enjoy.â
I flashed him a hefty bill from my pocket, and the bouncer coughed and looked towards the line, pursing his lips. He glanced at the bill before he nodded, knocking on the door. It opened swiftly and I flashed the bouncer a charming smile before I slipped inside, making sure the bill landed in his opened palm without anyone seeing. And just like that, my eardrums were overwhelmed with loud thudding music. I squeezed my eyes shut for a second, willing myself to acclimate to the sudden change. The blinding lights made my eyes water and my head ached from the much too loud noise, the sweaty bodies making my skin itchy, but I willed my mind to focus on finding Jeong Yunho again. I knew he was in here somewhere, but I needed to find him to observe him more, learn his patterns to know how to lure him into my trap. I had done it once, I could do it twice. I didnât need Sooyoung to interfere like she so much wished to do, I was grateful Joohyun knew that and told her to prepare herself for the ritual, instead.
The club wasnât exactly like I had expected it to be, the dance floor was filled to the brim with raunchy dressed people, drunk or high out of their minds. The pretty ladies performing were there too, trapped in glass cages, their makeup sparkly and their dresses skimpy as they danced provocatively, prompting even more lustful eyes to watch them. A few bills were caught in their bras or the string of their visible thongs, and men were desperately throwing even more at them. Turning my head away from the sight, I looked towards the bar, hoping to find Yunho there, but it was almost as if he had vanished. Finding a tall and hunky man like him shouldnât have been so hard, not with his dark blue hair and the distinctive long leather coat he was wearing tonight. Not giving up just yet, I ventured further inside the club, scooping out the place, trying to locate the restroomsâŚmaybe he had gone there. I felt someone slap my ass and my irritancy instantly flared as I whirled around, crimson eyes burning into hazed ones. The man wasnât ugly, but he was too drunk to know where he was, and he had touched me without consent. He tried staggering towards me, but I stopped him before he could, hissing at him, my fangs showing. Even a drunk man knew to stay away, and after he raised his hands in surrender he stumbled away, already finding his next victim.
I scoffed under my breath and walked away from the overcrowded dance floor, eyes narrowing when I realised there was a narrow corridor right by the restrooms. And just like that, Yunho was back in my sight as he appeared out of nowhere, rounding the corner and hurrying down the hallway. I followed after him, hastening my pace to keep up with his long strides, and felt a little hesitant when I saw two big-looking bodyguards blocking the middle of the hallway. They didnât stop Yunho, though, so I hoped they wouldnât stop me either. I clenched my jaw and held my head high, making sure to not look them in the eyes as I neared them. If they were to stop me, I would just knock them out. I knew I was too close to Yunho, that he mightâve already noticed my presence, but there were no signs he had, so I continued with my pursuit once the bodyguards didnât even as much as glanced down at me. The walls were blood red, and Yunho had long rounded the corner to the right, disappearing to somewhere else. The music from the rowdy club was just a dull sound now, and something lower and much slower flooded the corridor as I came closer and closer to the corner. Then, as if I had been teleported to another dimension, this room was bigger and less filled with people.
The lights were dim and burgundy, coating everything and everyone in a reddish haze. The people in here were also fancily dressed, sitting around huge tables, bottle girls in their laps or walking up to their tables with fresh champagne. The sight was jarring, but I played it off as I looked for Yunho again, who was at the bar now. He was leaning over it and speaking to the barman, who was smirking at him while checking Yunho out repeatedly. Yeah, anyone with a good pair of eyes would appreciate his looks, especially his innocent face when his eyes were filled with darkness and danger. I gulped and walked to the very end of the bar, where a man was already sitting and could cover me from Yunhoâs eyes with his large body. I wasnât here to get anything, but I suppose I wouldâve looked suspicious, so I flagged down another barman and asked for a Hugo. The man I decided to sit next to glanced at me a few times from the corner of his eyes, but I kept looking straight ahead so he wouldnât try and speak to me.
The Hugo was delicious as I sipped on it, turning around in my seat to further observe the room. The women dancing in here mostly lacked their bras, and a few guys who were placed in glass cages wore nothing but jockstraps. Yunho, who had migrated from the bar, was now speaking to someone sitting by a large table, surrounded by men in suits and women in tight body dresses. Yunho didnât sit down, his eyebrows were furrowed as he stared down at the man smirking at him, pointing towards a young-looking guy in the glass cage. I looked at the boy and wondered how old he was, his ankles were wobbly as he danced in his heels, his chest red and eyes mostly cast down. I wondered if he needed a way out and if I could provide it to him. My thoughts, however, quickly returned to Yunho as his body tensed, eyes turning into slits as the man he was talking to laughed loudly. I took a sip of my drink and watched as Yunhoâs hand balled up into a fist, his arms shaking. Would a massacre occur now? Or was he strong enough to withhold his anger? I watched with excitement licking up my stomach, suddenly realising that I was watching my creation.
And he was a fine piece at that, visually, it would be even more satisfying if he was a strong-willed vampire as well. My suspicions were confirmed when Yunho took a step back, nodding his head stiffly and stalking off. I finished my drink when I realised there were multiple corridors leading to who knows where, and Yunho was headed down a brighter one. The light was distracting as it flashed over my head, my footsteps louder than I wouldâve liked them despite the music playing in the main room. Yunho was ahead one second, and then the next second my back was digging into the hard wall, my airways restricted as Yunhoâs large hand wrapped around my neck, squeezing mercilessly.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â He hissed under his breath, jaw clenching even more. I could practically hear his teeth gritting together, it was a jarring sound. I couldnât speak with how strongly he was squeezing my neck, so I opened my lips and grabbed his wrist, trying to make a sound to no avail. His grip loosened just enough to let me speak as he towered over me with his menacing height.
âWhat?â I chuckled, my throat a bit scrappy despite the drink I had just minutes ago, âCanât a woman enjoy a place like this one? The girls are rather prettyââ
âBullshit.â Yunho hissed, suddenly pulling himself away from me as he glared at me. I smiled, adjusting the collar of my black shirt, pretending that I was then dusting off the corset I decided to wear tonight. Yunho didnât say anything else, but suddenly, he took off back towards the main room, me hotly following after him. Well, since I had been already discovered, there was no reason for me to pretend I wasnât here. Maybe if I talked to him, I could get more information out of him.
âWhere are you going?â I called after him as Yunho hurried back down the corridor, walking too fast but not that it looked unnatural to the human eye. He didnât answer, obviously, so I just followed after him. I felt eyes on us as we stormed through the main room, and Yunho came to an abrupt halt when the man he had been speaking to suddenly raised an arm, his head tilted as he was looking me up and down curiously.
âBrought a snack for me?â My eyebrows furrowed as I turned to look at the man, ready to lash out or even bare my fangs at him, but I realised he was human. What an odd thing to say, then. Too focused on the man, I didnât notice Yunho stepping closer to me, nor did I realise he grabbed me until he was squeezing my bicep so hard I almost whimpered. I know we were vampires and our pain tolerance was higher, but he could be a bit gentler with me.
âFound her for myself, actually.â Yunhoâs tone had completely changed from how he had spoken to me. It was velvety, dripping with cynicism yet honey at the same time. One glance down at me and his eyes narrowed slightly, âMind if I donât share her with you tonight?â
What was going on? Who were these people and why was Yunho hounding me like his life depended on it? Taking a deep breath, I realised his cologne was oozing off of him, dark and somehow sweet, nauseating for my sensitive nostrils.
âYouâre quite quick, Jeong.â The man huffed, clearly displeased by Yunhoâs words, but he chuckled and flicked his hand, turning his attention away from us. I looked up at Yunho questioningly, but he started pulling me after himself, his jaw clenched tight still. I had to sprint to keep up with him, and my arm was turning white from how hard he was squeezing me. But he didnât slow down until we left the weird room as he pushed me towards the corridor that led us here. I stumbled before catching my footing and whirled around annoyed, glaring up at him as he stormed up to my face.
âStop pushing and pulling me around, fucker.â I hissed, craning my neck back to glare into his eyes. Yunho huffed, an unamused grin settling on his lips as he tilted his head.
âWhat are you doing here, Y/N?â He asked, tone gravely as I smiled, trying to tone down my sudden anger.
âClubbing, what else am I supposed to do here?â I raised an eyebrow, but Yunho didnât seem to buy my explanation. I wouldnât stand around here and let him manhandle me more, so, I turned to leave but as I rounded the corner, I was being held back by my nape, Yunhoâs hot breath hitting my ear from behind.
âI know youâre lying to me,â He hissed, his grip tightening around my nape when I tried to brush his touch off, âWhy were you following me all night long?â
I chuckled, staring at the backs of the bodyguards who seemed like mannequins since they werenât moving at all, âWhat are you doing in a dodgy place like this one? At first, I figured you were just a pervert coming here to feed, but clearly, I donât know enough about you. You are my second creation, and you turn out to be pitifulââ
I gasped as my back collided with the wall loudly, a sharp ache shooting up my shoulder blade. I glared at Yunho, pushing at his chest when he came towards me, but he didnât budge too much. I didnât try too hard either, so maybe thatâs why.
âShut your mouth,â Yunho growled, his face contorted in pure anger. I laughed, letting my head fall back against the wall as I watched Yunho, âYou donât know nothing.â
âYeah?â I hummed, chewing on my bottom lip as I let my eyes take him in again, âI pride myself on having a good eye for beauty, but reallyâŚthat broody personality of yours ruins it all, Yunho. A master would usually want to be proud of their offspring, but you are making me question my judgment all those years ago. I should have let you die, shouldnât I?â
That seemed to hit a nerve as Yunho huffed through his nose, his neck flushing red. I smirked, raising my eyebrows to provoke him even more, but he was still practising self-restraint, so it wasnât fun anymore. Deciding that I wanted to know more about this place, I continued, âWhy are you here, Yunho? And whatâs this club?â
He seemed to consider his answer for a second as he glanced towards the motionless bodyguards, I wondered why they werenât reacting to our little fight. Maybe they just didnât care, maybe couples fought all the time in these narrow corridors.
âIâm undercover.â Yunho barely but whispered, knowing that I would hear him, âSo get the fuck out before you ruin the whole operation!â
I pursed my lips, looking left and right, slowly nodding my head, âRight, youâre a cop. Interesting choice for a career, you miss hunting, donât you? Makes sense, I supposeââ
I was cut off as noise filled the corridor, coming from the red-light room. It was two men, conversing with each other, saying something about Yunho andâŚme. Yunhoâs jaw clenched as he heard them too, pressing his tongue to the inside of his cheek, shaking his head. He looked annoyed as he looked back at me. I blew his cover, the men were coming to get him. I suppose the man he had been talking to was the one he was after, and now I had probably ruined Yunhoâs credibility to him. Not wanting to be captured for no reason, or for a bloodbath judging based on Yunhoâs rapid heartbeat, I did what I thought was best for a distraction. Just as the two buff men rounded the corner, I slapped Yunho hard across the cheek, the sound echoing in the hallway. Even the two bodyguards glanced back before minding their own business again. Yunhoâs eyes widened as he held his red cheek, slowly turning his head to look at me bewildered.
âI hate you!â I screamed shrilly and grabbed the collar of Yunhoâs leather coat to yank him into myself, making him knock me back against into the wall since he lost his balance. His eyebrows furrowed for a second, but then I slammed my lips against his, our eyes stayed open as Yunho stiffened. The press of our lips was painful and Yunho had started pulling away, but my grip tightened on his leather coat as I pulled him even closer, my eyebrows furrowing as I subtly moved my eyes towards the frozen men sent to take care of us. It seemed like Yunho finally understood what I had in mind because his body relaxed a bit, large hands coming up to cup my cheeks strongly. His eyes slowly fluttered shut and so did mine as I pressed up on my tiptoes to kiss him better, letting him tilt my head back just a little bit. His lips were warm and slightly chapped, the opposite of my cold and smooth lips. The kiss was aggressive and lacked any warmth or pleasure as our lips smacked together painfully, but at least the two men sent to take care of us were slowly backing away.
My lips parted in a silent gasp when Yunho pressed me back up against the wall, licking into my mouth with little care as I grabbed the back of his head, fingers tangling into his smooth dyed hair. I yanked on the short strands as he sucked on my tongue, starting a burning fire in the pit of my stomach as I tried to keep the sounds threatening to leave my mouth down, eyebrows furrowing as a pleasurable feeling bloomed in my chest. Iâve kissed many before, but neither had felt so right and so fitting. Maybe it was because he was my creation, but the longer our mouths stayed glued together, the more clouded my mind became with his scent and beating warm heart. I could smell his blood pumping through his body, the veins on his hands bulging and a rich blue, his fingertips digging into my cheeks painfully. My fangs ached as he pressed his body against mine, keeping me caged between himself and the wall, my nerves on fire. If my heart wouldâve been able to still beat, it wouldâve been racing and flooding my cheeks with warmth, instead, it was my ears ringing and my stomach churning in unexpected want. Unable to hold back as Yunhoâs tongue slid against mine, I grabbed his neck to keep him locked in place and swiftly sunk my fangs into his bottom lip. He let out a loud whine as fresh, rich-flavoured blood flooded my tastebuds, making my eyebrows furrow as I moaned.
The taste lingered on my tongue as Yunho pulled back with a loud gasp, his bottom lip slightly bloody as my jaw ached even more, my fangs yearning to sink into his smooth veins. I was breathing hard as Yunho kept me immobilised against the wall with his own body, his eyes shaking with anger. The men who had come to take care of Yunho had backed down, probably to report back to their boss.
âYouâre human,â I whispered as I licked the remnant of Yunhoâs blood off my lip, hands balling up into fists as I struggled to hold back from biting him again. He hadnât been this sweet as a human when I had transformed himâŚor maybe I just hadnât had blood from a living source in too long? That could affect how I reacted to fresh blood.
âIâm a monster.â Yunho looked disgusted as he forced the words out, his jaw clenched and face still close, âYou did this to me.â
âYeah, I did, but youâre not fully a vampire, are you?â I whispered, looking into his eyes once again, observing the crimson of one and the brownness of the other.
âItâs your fault.â Yunho hissed and I hummed, reaching forward to touch his chin, but he knocked my hand to the side with hatred written all over his face, âI will rip you to shreds if you cross my path ever again.â
I chuckled, âNo, you wonât, because you canât, Yunho.â
He licked his lips, tilting his head as he slowly leaned back close, lips ghosting over mine as I gulped, feeling something in me tremble at the proximity. I wanted his lips on mine again, my fangs in his skin and his blood on my tongue.
âIf I canât kill you, Iâll stake you like I staked Yeri.â My blood froze as I looked at Yunho with tense shoulders. His smile grew, looking smug and taunting, âWill you scream like she did? Beg for mercy and call for help? For your sisters like she had? Oh, what I would do just to see the light drain from your soulless eyes like hers had, slowly, teary, and shakingly, with your name dying on her lips.â
I prided myself on having great self-control, on knowing when to stay level-headed, and on not losing my head when provoked. But not even Yunho had expected the speed nor force I threw him against the wall with, both hands wrapped around his neck and squeezing until I could feel his muscles caving in underneath my skin. His eyes were bulging as he tried to claw at my hands, push me away and free himself, but my whole body was rooted in anger, wanting to take, to destroy, to avenge. I felt sick to my stomach as bile rose in my throat, my body shaking as Yunho tried to gasp for air, his eyes glossy, and I wanted to hear the snap of his bone, I wanted his head to roll to the side boneless, I needed his breath to freeze in his throat, his lungs never to function ever again. And I wanted to rip his still-beating heart out too, just for good measure. But wouldnât that make me the monster he thought we were? The monster he had become? There was no light left in Yunhoâs eyes, in his soul and heart, his body remained the same while he had lost his psyche. I felt tears stream down my cheeks, hot and burning, as I ripped myself away from Yunho, who started wheezing for air and fell to the floor in a ball, coughing and holding his neck. The bodyguards glanced back but didnât do anything when I looked at them.
âIf I canât kill you, then Yeri will.â I gritted through my teeth, and with one last glance at him, I didnât even care who saw me, I left the club in the blink of an eye, chest heaving as my head thumped, bile rising higher into my throat until I was forced to find a trashbin and double over it. Acid burned my throat as much as the tears in my eyes, but I willed myself to take a deep breath and relax my muscles. Yunho was still human, his blood and heart at least, so he would bring Yeri back. He would pay for what he did, and Iâll be there to watch his downfall.
           We knew whatâno, whoâYunho was after. The universe had mysterious ways of working. Perhaps it was his punishment for taking so many innocent lives, perhaps it was the curse I wished to put upon him when I found Yeriâs motionless body lying on the cold floor of Seungwanâs castle, right in the middle of a ball where she was supposed to find a suitor for herself. I sighed as my eyebrows furrowed, eyes staring down at the paperwork without seeing the words. The ER had been busy all night long, Yeosang and I had just caught a break, Kai and Jennie telling us theyâd cover for us while weâd take a breather. I didnât think I needed it until the brisk night air filled my lungs, Yeosangâs steady heartbeat a nice reminder that I was alive. He was silent until he excused himself to grab some much-needed coffee, asking if Iâd like a cup too, much like always. The answer was always the same, no, thank you. Coffee was too bitter and didnât help me stay alert, so I preferred not to drink it for appearance's sake. My phone pinged with a new message, and I was finally able to release a sigh of ease. Yunho was supposed to come in to check on his non-existent stitches, I had begged the head doctor all night long for him to appoint Yunho to me again, making up all sorts of far-fetched explanations.
âWhatâs got you thinking so deeply?â I flinched hearing Yeosangâs deep voice next to me, having failed to notice his approach. Yeah, I was too in my head if I couldnât notice an approaching human.
âLife, I guessâŚâ I muttered as I leaned over the railing, looking down at the ground. It wouldnât be a high enough jump, not to me. Yeosang just hummed and mirrored me, taking slow sips of his warm coffee. It was very bitter based on its scent, I wondered how he could stomach it.
âTime flies by fast, doesnât it?â Yeosang spoke quietly, his cup of coffee hanging over the railing, âOne second youâre just a child, and then the next youâre supposed to make money and look out for yourself in a world that mostly isnât fair.â
Humans had different issues than us, I glanced at Yeosang and saw his eyebrows furrowed deeply. I wondered if life hadnât been kind to him. It wouldnât be fair if anything happened to Yeosang, he was too good, too kind. I hummed, watching him take another sip of his coffee before he hung his head low.
âMy best friend is sick,â He whispered, voice gravely, and something stiffened in my chest. Perhaps it would have been my heart breaking for him if it were still functioning, âVery sick. Iâm a nurse, I know so much about medicine and how to help people, I know the best doctors and yetâI canât do anything to help him. Heâs going to die, Y/N, and I canât stop it.â
I had never heard Yeosang so broken before, so small and helpless. My eyebrows furrowed and I sighed, figuring he looked like he needed a hug right now. So, I turned towards him and grabbed his bicep, making him look at me defeated. I offered him a small smile and pulled him towards me, confusion visible on his face as he let himself be manoeuvred around. My arms wrapped around him in a friendly hug, hoping it would be comforting too. He remained stiff for a few more seconds, but then his arms wrapped around my torso and he placed his chin on my shoulder, squeezing me for a second.
âThank you.â Yeosang whispered with a smile in his voice, âI didnât think Iâd find a friend at my workplace, especially not a doctor, but youâve treated me with respect since the beginning. Even when I still felt nauseous taking blood.â
We both chuckled at that as I remembered Yeosangâs rocky start at the hospital. He needed a good year until he got completely in shape and accustomed to the life he had chosen, and that was understandable. What he did wasnât easy, yet he managed better than most people I knew. Before the hug could become uncomfortable, we pulled away and Yeosang took a sip of his coffee to hide his small smile. Turning humans into vampires wasnât like what it used to be. Mistakes happened, of course, but my coven believed in giving a choice to the human that wished to turn into one of us. We didnât just take it greedily, we asked and told them what this life came with. We didnât just stop existing one day, even when the earth threatened to stop spinning, weâd be here, living and breathing. We werenât invincible, no, but we were durable and stronger than those around us. Joohyun had always believed even vampires could be forgiven for their sins, and bringing another person into our coven without a deep reason meant expulsion from it. I gulped and took a second to reconsider my words, but I hated seeing Yeosang in pain.
âAnd ifâŚthere was a cure for your best friend, would you want him to have it?â Asking without explaining first was greedy, but maybe I didnât want to lose Yeosang and his kindness in this unfair world. Surely if his best friend became a vampire heâd wish to follow, no? That was greedy of me and wishful thinking, but I had long stopped asking for forgiveness for my sins. If I truly wasnât greedy, I wouldâve never transformed Yeri, I wouldâve let everything progress by its natural rhythm.
âThere would be a price to pay, I supposeâŚâ Yeosang was smart, he knew there were things he couldnât explain, I smiled as I nodded, âYes, I would want him to have it as long as he does too.â
I hummed, deciding that bringing this up to Joohyun once the whole Yeri thing was over would be worth it. Our coven was tight-knit and strong, filled with talented people, offering a home to Yeosangâs friend would be nothing. Heâd learn from the best and become even better. Perhaps it would be Joohyun or Seulgi turning him, after all, it was inevitable for the offspring not to take attributes from its creator once the transformation was through, it was smartest if the bite came from the best of the best vampires.
âWell, thenââ Before I could tell Yeosang that I might be able to help him, my phone beeped, signalling that Yeosang and I were needed down, âJeong Yunho just came in, Iâm needed, but you can stay and finish your coffee.â
Yeosangâs eyebrows furrowed as he grabbed my wrist before I could hurry away, âIs this that man? The cop who was shot at twice? The one who fell over and destroyed the whole room?â
There was a tinge of scepticism and amusement in Yeosangâs tone as I hummed, averting my eyes because I hated lying to him, âYeah, so I better go before he falls over again.â
Yeosang snorted as he released my wrist, raising his eyebrows, âI wonât have to fix up that room again, right?â
âNope, I promise.â I blinked at him innocently and he shook his head, leaning back against the railing as I headed for the door, âIâll call you when I need you, donât come down until then!â
Yeosang nodded and I turned to race back to the ER, using my vampire speed since nobody was around, besides, I knew nobody was interested enough to watch or rewatch the security cameras. I fixed the collar of my white gown and nodded at the receptionist, showing her a thumbs up when she pointed towards private room number three. The head doctor spotted me and gave me a curt nod before he was whisked away by a nurse, who rushed him down towards the cardiovascular section. The door to the room was already open and Yunho was sitting on the table, his hands intertwined and placed in his lap as he stared at the floor. I pulled the door closed behind me, shutting us in, silence enveloping around us. I knew he didnât need to get checked, but it would be too suspicious if I came in and he left right away. Besides, this was my chance to get him. I had told Joohyun that Yunho was partly human, so his blood was useful to us. This was the best time to knock him out and kidnap him. Heâd do the same if he was in our spot, Iâm sure of it.
âGood evening, Mr Jeong,â I spoke up as Yunho raised his head, rolling his eyes.
âWhatever, why did I have to come to the ER again?â He sounded stoic and unimpressed, âYou know I didnât even get stitches.â
âYes, I do, but the rest of the staff doesnât.â I snapped, trying to keep my vexation at bay, but after our last encounter I couldnât help but look at him with spite, bile rising in my throat as his words echoed in my head, he was insufferable, âSo unless you want to be discovered, you sit on your ass and shut the fuck up.â
Yunho smirked as I walked closer to him, tilting his head, âCareful, your true colours are showing, Dr Bae, whereâs the tempered and kindred-hearted Samaritan wannabe?â
I released a long huff, an unamused smile settling on my lips, âI suppose someone like you doesnât deserve that treatment from me, so thereâs no need to act differently around you. Besides, are you sure that itâs just an act? Iâve lived for over two hundred years, people change.â
âPeople, yes, not vampires.â His eyes narrowed as I came to stand in front of him, my hands in my pockets, fingers playing with the syringe hidden there.
âYouâre wrong about that, Yunho, but youâre too rooted in your hatred to notice it.â Yunhoâs rosy cheeks twitched, his eyebrows furrowing some more, âIf you wouldnât have been so blinded by your stupid covenâs preachings, you would have seen that the coven youâve been hunting for centuries werenât your enemy.â
âYeah, right.â Yunho snapped, his jaw clenching, âEvery bad thing thatâs happened to me was because of you and your leader. I wonât let you walk away anymore, not now that Iâve found you again.â
I smiled, gripping the syringe as I could tell Yunho was getting more and more aggravated. His heart was picking up its rhythm and his eyes were slowly darkening, the crimson swirling deep in his pupil.
âDid you never try to find out more about the bond between the creator and its creation?â I quirked an eyebrow, and based on Yunhoâs clenching jaw, it confirmed that he knew about it, but not enough, âYou knowâŚI made a mistake after I turned you into a vampire. I left you to fend for yourself, I left you alone and unprotected from the hunters. I can admit my mistake, sure, but Iâm also conscious taming you mightâve never worked like with other hunters.â
Yunho released a long huff, sneering at me, âI wouldâve ripped you to shreds.â
âYes, I know.â I chuckled, tilting my head with mock concern, âI heard the carnage you caused once you awakened. As much as I find that hot and appalling at the same time, you ostracised yourself from every coven by doing that. Thatâs why youâre alone now.â
âNo,â Yunho smirked, slowly standing up to tower over me. I gulped as I tilted my head back, unafraid, âIâm alone because I choose to be. I donât need anyone telling me what to do or breathing down my neck like your stupid coven leader does. Even as a human and a vampire hunter, I never operated on my covenâs terms, thatâs why I managed to kill so many vampires.â
I tried to smile, but my blood was boiling in anger as he leaned closer, licking his lips slowly as he took in my expression. Something made my fangs ache the longer we stared into each otherâs eyes, my stomach coiling as his sweet blood called out to me.
âThatâs why I still manage to kill so many vampires.â Yunhoâs deep voice was nothing but a whisper, taunting and full of himself. My hands started trembling as I itched to bash his head in and scream at him, a sinking feeling settling in my gut this time, âRemember Seonghwa? Oh, poor little, gentle, SeonghwaâŚâ
I couldnât breathe, and my vision blurred as Yunho snorted, raising his hand to cup my cheek, fingers tracing my cold skin, âHe begged, a lot, he even promised to stop drinking blood altogether. He almost had me convinced, I canât lie, his eyes were just so innocent, and he was really loyal to you, did you know that? He actually loved you, fascinating, isnât it?â
I wished for Yunho to drop dead, for the ground to open up and swallow him alive, for the earth to roll into his lungs and choke him to death. I bit my bottom lip to stop myself from whimpering when he grabbed the side of my neck, caressing my skin so lovingly that he couldâve fooled anyone. There were faint bruises around his neck, my fingerprints ebbed into his skin in an ugly black and green, perhaps he was too human for simple bruises to heal fast, âWould you like to join him?â
Hate was something I had grown familiar with a long time ago. It was an emotion that wrapped around my dead heart and cocooned it in a safety net, protecting it from the coldness of the world, the unfairness and tragedy that followed everywhere I went. In this second, I knew that it was no accident Seonghwa just perished one day, disappearing without a trace and a word. My bottom lip threatened to tremble as I gripped the syringe firmly in my hand, fingers wrapping around it tightly. Then, before Yunho could strike again, I moved swiftly and plunged it into his neck, injecting the sedative into his body. Yunhoâs eyes widened as he wrapped his hand around my wrist, yanking the syringe out, but it was already too late. I knew heâd fall to the ground, so I grabbed his arms and pushed him down on the table as he gasped for air, his eyes becoming hazy as he tried to stand, but his muscles were too relaxed, his mind slowly slipping away from his grasp.
âIâll see you in hell, Jeong Yunho.â I hissed before his eyes fluttered closed, his body going lax on the table. With shaky hands, I fished my phone out of my pocket and texted Joohyun that I had Yunho, and that they had to come to the hospital now. She replied that they were on their way, equipped to take Yunho back to the mansion. Without allowing myself to think about the fact that Yunho was the cause I lost two people I loved mostâYeri, my sister, and Seonghwa, my loverâI dialled Yeosangâs number while I walked to the door and locked it.
âIs the room still in one piece?â Yeosang asked jokingly and I tried to smile, but I felt hollow.
âThe room, yes,â But I wasnât anymore, before Yeosang could realise something was wrong, I continued, âCan you get me a gurney without anyone asking questions?â
âIâwhat?â Yeosang sounded confused and surprised, but he was up on his feet and moving based on the click of the door on the other side of the phone, âIf the head doctor is busy, I might get away with it.â
âGood, Iâm in room three, be swift, yeah?â
âOkay, Iâll be there in five.â
And just like that, Jeong Yunho would never see the daylight ever again.
           I was exhausted by the end of my shift. The sun was high up in the sky with a few clouds obscuring it as the morning traffic was rambunctious, with angry and impatient drivers honking every few minutes. The ride home felt like it would never end, the highway was blocked off at one point and I had to wait for twenty minutes until we could get going again. Yeosang, my light and saviour, had proposed staying on a call with me after he saw my state by the end of our shift. He rambled on about cooking a delicious breakfast before putting on his favourite show, rolling into bed, and falling asleep to it. He hadnât asked questions when I had let him inside the small room with the gurney, eyes falling on Yunho, a flash of recognition crossing Yeosangâs features. I expected him to ask questions and demand answers I couldnât give him, but he just chuckled and told me he was glad the room had stayed intact this time. He, once more, didnât ask questions when Joohyun arrived with her two bodyguards, two buff men who were more than excited to haul Yunho on the gurney and out of the hospital, placing a white sheet over his body so nobody would grow suspicious.
âCome straight home once youâre done with your shift,â Joohyun had muttered, her eyes falling on Yeosang, who was busy sanitising the table Yunho had been laying on moments ago, âMake sure he doesnât say a word.â
There was a threat in Joohyunâs words that didnât sit well with me, so before she could leave, I grabbed her arm and glared at her, âYeosang isnât a threat, donât make Mark follow him.â
Joohyun considered it for a second as her eyes fell on my co-worker again, a contemplating look crossing her features, âYunho was your first mistake, so Iâll let you off the hook this time, but make sure itâs not repeated with this Yeosang guy.â
And I knew she meant it, I wouldnât mess up anything with Yeosang. He didnât know the truth, but he knew something wasnât right. As long as he didnât ask too many questions and didnât try to find out for himself, I could help his best friend, and perhaps even offer him eternal life. But all these thoughts were pushed to the back of my mind as I pulled up to the mansion, the sunrays were just a bit hotter today as they rosied my cheeks. I could hear a commotion inside as I walked closer, the door opening before I could even grab the doorknob. Seulgi stood in the foyer with her arms crossed, expression displeased.
âYour little hunter killed a maid, screamed to be let out for hours on end, and finally stopped when Seungwan went inside to give him another sedative. Heâs been silent since, but heâs tried to break free at least three times.â I sighed, closing my eyes as I leaned against the wall, my feet aching from having stood on them so much all night long, âNow, thanks to him, everyone in the mansion knows of our plan, and there have been upheavals. Joohyunâs been holding a meeting since five oâclock, welcome home, Y/N.â
My jaw clenched as my head pulsated, muscles begging for a long hot bath. I suppose I wouldnât get that, not yet at least, âWhat do you want me to say? That Iâm sorry?â
âNo,â Seulgi scoffed, walking closer as she grabbed the tray of food off the table in the middle of the room, âHeâs your creation, so go tame him. I donât care what you do with him, but if heâs not well-behaved, I will kill him before we can awaken Yeri. This is your mess, so fix it.â
My jaw clenched as she pushed the tray of food against my abdomen, forcing me to take hold of it, âHeâs been refusing to drink any blood, so go feed him. He canât be malnourished when we need his blood.â
âCanât I take a bath first?â I asked defeated as I let my bag fall to the ground, hopeful that our maid would notice it and take it up to my room for me. I donât think Iâd have the power to come downstairs once more today before I get to sleep. Seulgiâs face, however, was a clear answer that I wouldnât get a breather before Iâd have to face Yunho, so, I sighed and headed for the wide staircase, trying to steel my nerves and push through just for a little bit more. My phone dinged, and I grabbed it before I could head down the hallway to check Yeosangâs message. It was a selfie of him and his favourite plushie, a cute expression on his face as he winked at the camera. I chuckled and snapped a shot of the meal on the tray, telling him my breakfast was ready tooâŚeven if it was a lie. After covering for me today, I felt like he deserved to believe my being was normal, even if not true. Yeosang didnât deserve to lay awake at nightâor day, in our caseâwondering why I was so strange and whether he was safe or not by my side.
I came to a stop in front of the room Yunho was held hostage in and looked down at my black heels, ankles a bit wobbly. I stepped out of the heels before pushing them to the side, instant relief flooding my calves and toes, a quiet groan leaving my lips. If Yunhoâs hearing wasnât already focused on every little sound, now he certainly was alerted of my presence outside his door. I didnât knock even though it felt wrong, just unlocked the door and hurried inside to make sure he didnât try to leave. I expected him to be all up in my face, expression maddened and chest heaving, his face red from anger and his muscles shaking from straining, but I was met with a Yunho sprawled out on the queen-sized bed, his feet dangling off the edge. The lock clicked into place behind me as I walked further inside, taking in the brightness of the room. The blackout curtains were completely undrawn, a harsh stream of light flooding the room. So, Yunho wasnât as bothered by sunlight as the rest of us. I kept my eyes on his unmoving body as I proceeded further into the room, placing the tray on the desk. There was a bottle of water, half emptied, next to some painkillers that looked untouched. Right, I had used a higher dose of the sedative since I didnât know how his body would take it, some side effects like a headache and nausea would be expected for a humanâŚbut Yunho wasnât fully human, so we had no idea how his body would take it.
The silver tray clinked as it slipped from my hands slightly, fingers shaky from exhaustion as I took a deep breath, telling myself that I would be soon done here and in the safety of my room. The sound, however, elicited the skip of Yunhoâs heartbeat as his head raised, eyes narrowed when he realised it was me in his room. Perhaps he was still under the influence of the sedative, thatâs why he looked slightly dazed. He stood, slowly pushing himself up as I released the tray and set it aside, ready to leave, but suddenly he was all up in my personal space, crowding me against the side of the desk. I flinched, taken aback by his actions, and gripped the edge of the desk for stability. There was exhaustion in Yunhoâs eyes as he stared down at me, then looked past me at the tray. There was no reason for me to feel nervous all of a sudden, especially not when my anger was far from being gone, but the sudden closeness allowed for me to inhale Yunhoâs scent greedily, gums itchy as my fangs wanted to grow just a bit longer to sink into his warm skin.
âIs that for me?â Yunhoâs voice was raspy as he nodded towards the food on the tray, and I glanced back to look at the copious food.
âYesââ My answer was cut short when a hand wrapped around my neck, slamming me against the wall. I groaned in exasperation and grabbed Yunhoâs wrist, my nails sinking into his skin as I scowled at him, annoyance flaring up my insides, âYou have to stop throwing me around, itâs getting old, Yunho.â
He didnât say anything as his fingers started squeezing harder, making it difficult for me to breathe. But I wouldnât give in, not when we were so close to having Yeri back, so I kicked at his legs until he had to step back, his crimson eye gleaming under the natural light.
âYou took me as your hostage,â Yunho spat, his heart slowly starting to race, âAnd youâre planning on using me to awaken your sister, wasnât she dead?â
âI see theyâve explained everything to you.â I smirked and patted down the front of my blouse, an expression of satisfaction crossing my features as I raised an eyebrow at Yunho, âHow does it feel to know you didnât actually kill my sister? Even betterâŚyou are going to bring her back to lifeââ
But truly to Yunho, his anger got the better of him as he slammed me back into the wall, squeezing my cheeks together so it was difficult to speak. I mustâve looked silly with my lips jutting out, the pressure on my cheekbones wasnât light, but I couldnât help but feel satisfied by his reaction.
âShe wonât come back, Iâll make sure of that.â Yunho hissed, his eyes searching my face, âYouâve led me to your lovely hideout, too, Iâm going to hunt down every single one of you, Y/N. And Iâll leave you for last so that you can watch everyone perish right in front of your eyes.â
I slapped his hand away as I sneered at him, resisting the urge to punch him, âYour threats, too, are getting old, Yunho. If you think you can just waltz in here and take down a whole coven, you are wrong. Nothing is the same anymore, weâve changed too. What makes you think youâd get away with it?â
âIâm part of the police.â
âAnd so are we.â A beat of silence passed as Yunho processed the information, eyebrows furrowing for a second in confusion, âNow eat your goddamn food and behave, Yunho, donât make it harder than it has to be. You shouldnât have killed that maid, she did nothing to wrong you.â
âA human willingly subjecting themselves to vampires are just as vile as the creatures we are, I should put each one of them out of their misery.â Yunho hissed, his jaw clenching as I huffed, pushing him back by his chest to free myself. I barely took a few steps, however, when Yunhoâs iron grip around my bicep stopped me, âTake that disgusting thing away from me, I donât eat human food.â
I paused, eyebrows furrowing. I thought Yunho was more human than a vampire, so how come he didnât eat normal food? Maybe he was just trying to play with us. I took a deep breath and turned my head to look over my shoulder at him, âDonât think you can toy with me, Yunho, the less difficult you are, the faster weâll be done with everything.â
âIâm a goddamn vampire, how do you expect me to stomach regular food?!â Yunho snapped, his patience running thin once again as he whirled me around, dragging me back towards the desk. I stumbled over my feet due to the force but caught myself on the edge of the desk. I threw him a heated glare, narrowing my eyes at him in annoyance. Getting manhandled by him was turning old rather fast.
âYou taste and smell human, your heart is still pumping blood, why do you think I assumed you ate food like any other human?â I scoffed, grabbing the tray to take it away with me. If he didnât want to eat normal food, fine, I didnât care. He could starve himself, at least heâd die faster once we were done with the ritual.
âStop saying Iâm human!â Yunho screamed, his voice wavering, âIâm a fucking monster, Iâm just like you! That thing they gave meâmy covenâthat serum made me like this! I didnât die nor become completely a vampire because I was already digesting vampire blood, to begin with, unbeknownst to me. My system was used to it and couldnât break the particles down accordingly, Iâm an abomination.â
So thatâs why he was like this, then. I knew the hunters were taking something back then, something that enhanced their strength and speed, but I wouldâve never thought they willingly drained the blood of vampires just to harvest it for terrible experiments. I sighed, looking down at the tray in my hands. I didnât understand why Yunho hated being a vampire so much, after all those years, I assumed his prejudice would lessen, but no, he was still rooted in his hatred for us, indoctrinated to take us out no matter whatâŚno matter if he was one of us, now.
âCan youâŚâ I sounded tired as my jaw clenched, my exhaustion catching up with me all of a sudden, âStop calling us monsters? Calling yourself an abomination? Itâs notâweâre not the devils you were made to believe we are, Yunho, we were once, yes, I canât deny that. But not anymore, weâve evolved with the rest of the world, weâve changed our ways, itâsâŚwe donât kill for the fun of it anymore, canât you see that? Canât you try and understand?â
Yunho shook his head, expression filled with disgust, âMaybe you think so, but I see it first hand, day after day what vampires are capable of, the many lives they still take, the families they rip apart for entertainment, the people they drive mad because they canâso donât come here and try to lecture me about my beliefs when you donât know shit!â
I jumped when Yunhoâs curled fist came down on the tray I was holding, sending the contents to the ground as the porcelain shattered and the delicious-looking food splashed all over the floor. I stared at it, dumbfounded, until I felt something warm trickle down my palm, between my fingers. I hissed as I registered the sting of the cut left by the sharp edge of the tray, turning around my hand to bring it closer to my face. The wound wasnât too big, located in the centre of my palm, but it oozed more blood than it was supposed to. Perhaps the cut went deeper than I expected, that would explain the dull sting of pain travelling through my nerves. Nothing a little sanitiser couldnât help, though I doubt the wound would stay open until I reached my room to clean it up, it was already slowly closing up. There was a strained inhale, however, and I realised Yunhoâs heart was racing as I slowly lifted my head. His face had paled and his lips were parted, saliva gathering in the corner of his mouth as he gulped down the excess, his eyes shaking. Yunhoâs scent was suddenly overbearing as he stepped over the mess on the floor, his eyes fixed on the blood that had pooled in my palm. I felt something deep in my gut coil, my skin feeling peculiarly hot as Yunho gripped my hand harshly, raising it to his face.
I stopped breathing as I watched his eyes flutter closed, nose almost buried into my palm as he inhaled long, his lips parting even further as a small groan slipped through. My eyes widened, and before I could pull back and make sense of his sudden actions, fingers cradling through my hair at the back of my head immobilised me, the grip firm and strong as I felt cold and sharp teeth sink into my neck. I tried to recoil from Yunhoâs fangs sinking deeper into my skin, but he was suddenly much stronger than ever before, flushing me against his body in an iron grip as his fangs hit my artery, making me groan in pain. I could feel every single muscle in my body tense up at the intrusion, my brain commanding me to fight back as bile raised in my throat, my fingers curling into Yunhoâs form-fitting black blouse. It stung as he greedily gulped down my rich blood, the gurgling noises were loud as I was moved backwards until my back hit the wall. I was too exhausted to fight back with my whole being, but the more I tugged at Yunhoâs hair in hopes heâd release me, the harder he sucked, moans slipping past his lips. I was getting lightheaded as my legs became sore, unable to feel my toes I gasped, something snapping deep in my gut.
A scorching hot flame travelled through my body, making me gasp loudly as my head fell back against the wall, lips parted in a whine as I leaned more towards Yunho, baring my neck for him so heâd have more access to it. The light-headedness turned into a daze one only experienced when drinking from their partner during sex, and suddenly I was aching all over, my fangs pushing past my bottom lip as my gums ached, âYunho, wait, stopââ
But he didnât listen as he slotted a thigh between my legs, pressing it against my suddenly aching core, and I moaned, relieved by the pressure, but it wasnât good enough. If he continued drinking my blood, heâd leave me too drained. I couldnât let him do that, but I couldnât make him budge as he clung to me, whimpers slipping past his lips as if he hadnât fed in over a month. I had never experienced anything like this with anyone before, drinking blood without having sex wasnât pleasurable, it was painful and appalling, but right now all I could think about was Yunhoâs strong thigh pressing against where I needed him most, my hips slowly starting to move as I ground against him. Yunhoâs large hand curled around my jaw as I felt his fangs finally retract from my neck, the bite leaving a dull pulsating in my neck. I felt breathless, my body on fire as Yunho raised his head, both eyes bloodshot. I wouldâve gasped at the sight if it wasnât for the lips that pressed hungrily against mine, tasting my own blood on Yunhoâs lips felt foreign but not as disgusting as one would expect.
There was something about his warmth and his racing heart that made my brain feel intoxicated, making me realise this wasnât enough, that I needed more and that I needed it now. I groaned as our lips tried to find a rhythm, but Yunho wouldnât surrender as he nipped at my bottom lip, trying to lick into my mouth as I resisted giving in fully to him. He was so warm it felt as if his body was burning up, much like the sun, melting away the coldness that clung to mine all the time. It felt like when I had awakened, aware of everything surrounding me and so overly sensitive. He gripped my hip with one hand as the other still cradled my jaw, and suddenly started guiding my hip in a dangerously slow rhythm, making me groan against his lips. I couldnât fight back, though, it felt too good to ask him to stop, and yet it wasnât enough, so I finally parted my lips and allowed him to explore my mouth with his eager tongue, suckling on my tongue like it would satiate his hunger. Yunho moaned as I felt his hand on my hip start to trace up my torso, gripping at my skin through my clothes, cupping my breast as he squeezed it, not stalling as it travelled up to rest at the base of my neck.
âWhy is your blood so sweet?â Yunho rasped out as our mouths finally detached, my lungs felt on fire despite us not having kissed for too long. I needed a second to realise Yunho had asked me a question, mind fogged up with desire as I could finally grind against him however I wished. Yunho looked down between us and groaned, his grip tightening just a bit around my neck, âAnswer me, Y/N.â
âI donât know,â I whispered, eyebrows furrowing when Yunho grabbed me again, stilling my movements, âFuck, Iâm not lying, I genuinely donât know. Your blood is sweet too, too sweet, and I couldnât stop thinking about it. Anytime your scent hit me harder, all I could think about was sinking my teeth into your skin, your warm and rich blood, the aching of my fangs.â
âYeah?â Yunho groaned, his eyebrows furrowed as he leaned closer, his lips ghosting over my neck and I shuddered, fingers tangling into his dark blue hair.
âYeah.â I keened as he pressed a gentle kiss against my neck, tongue lapping at the teeth marks that hadnât faded yet. Feeling his tongue against my skin made me tremble as my body felt ignited by sparks of desire, and I massaged Yunhoâs scalp as he continued peppering kisses against my neck, sometimes nipping at the skin without biting into it.
âI could suck you dry,â Yunho mumbled, biting at my jaw just a bit harder, making me yelp. He raised his head so we were looking into each otherâs eyes, both burning with want in them, âI could rip your heart out even, or I could tie you down and escape, kill your whole coven and come back to finish you off later.â
I chuckled, one hand sneaking down his torso, grabbing at the obvious bulge in his jeans. Yunhoâs jaw suddenly clenched, his eyes shifting downwards before he looked back at me, âReally? Could you do that when your dick is straining like that against your pants?â
âShut up.â Yunho hissed, disgust crossing his features before he slammed his lips against mine for a second time, making me laugh as I tried to dodge his insistent kiss. My amusement didnât last for long, however, because I was suddenly hoisted up, legs around Yunhoâs hips as I clung to his larger body, confusion written all over my face. Yunho didnât look at me as he took us to the bed, sitting down with me in his lap as he leaned closer, burying his nose in my neck as he inhaled deeply, long fingers digging into my back as he felt me up. I closed my eyes and shifted forward just slightly, back arching when Yunhoâs hands settled on my hip, realising I was seated right over his dick, his bulge pressing up into my clenching core. With an experimental roll, I tilted Yunhoâs head back and leaned down, lips hovering above his as he breathed through his mouth, eyebrows furrowed and eyes ablaze as he stared up at me.
âIâm your creator, donât think you can harm me as easily as youâd like.â Before he could say anything, our lips met again, moving hungrily as I pushed my tongue past his teeth, tasting him again with hunger, hips picking up a steady rhythm as Yunhoâs hands helped for an easier glide. He tasted like mint and candy, not as sweet as his blood, but almost just as satiating. It was a constant push and pull between us, and I knew I didnât want to be in his arms like this, but something just felt right about letting him kiss me, touch me, feel me up, and even feed from me. I suppressed a moan as he ground up just a bit harsher, his fingers to leave faint bruises if he squeezed any harder, mouth warm against mine. He tipped his head back as my hands cradled his cheeks, fingers buried in his warm skin as our tongues continued to tangle together. A particularly slower roll of my hips, however, had Yunhoâs eyebrows furrowing as he turned his head, breathing loudly as his chest heaved. I smirked and kissed his cheek before dipping my head, exploring his soft skin and appetizing neck, his bulging veins practically begging for my fangs to sink into them.
âIs thereâfuck,â I teased his skin by biting into it without leaving a trace, licking the faint teeth mark with my tongue before it could disappear, âThereâs a deeper connection between us, isnât it?â
I hummed, pulling back to look down at Yunho, my hips finding a slower rhythm just to antagonise him more, âYeah, I made you, so in some ways we are connected. It manifests differently in each vampire, though.â
Yunhoâs eyebrows furrowed and suddenly he stopped me, leaning forward so that his lips hovered over mine, âYou think I canât kill you?â
âI know youâd like to try,â I chuckled, pressing a mocking kiss against the corner of his mouth. Being with Yunho felt right, something about our bodies being so close to each other felt calming despite the hatred we carried for each other. I couldnât trust him, but something told me he wouldnât rip out my heart right now, âBut when I turned you, I only wanted you to suffer and not actually lose your life. When one turns into a vampire, it takes attributes from their creator and the purpose theyâve been turned with matters for how theyâll look at their creator. I know youâll eventually find a way to kill me, but until then, youâre physically unable to do so, Yunho.â
Yunhoâs jaw clenched as he stopped my ministrations, hatred and disgust swirling in his irises. He didnât say anything for a second, but the hand around my throat was a good warning that he thought about choking me again. At this point, he made me think he had a kink for seeing me fight for a single breath, and it wasnât as hot as one would think. But behind all those strong emotions, there was fear hiding behind Yunhoâs brown eye, his bottom lip quivering when he spoke.
âI hate what I am, and I will make sure all of us eventually die, I wonât let humanity become enslaved to vampires.â He whispered, gripping my neck just a bit tighter, âYou can keep me here all you want, Y/N, I will never help you. Yeri will remain in her slumber because I refuse to give you my blood, and you canât take it if I wonât let it.â
I smiled, patting Yunhoâs cheek almost affectionately, âI canât, but Sooyoung and anyone else can.â
I pressed a chaste kiss against his lips before detaching myself, oddly feeling cold and guilty. I didnât want Yunho to hate me so ardently, but the feeling was mutual despite me having pushed it to the darkest corners of my mind. He had killed Seonghwa, the man I wished to live with for an eternity. There was no scenario in which I could forgive Yunho for his sins, and I trusted heâd be punished for everything heâs done one day. Yunho remained motionless as I stood, patting down my hair and readjusting my blouse, my swollen lips tingling as Yunho licked his. My desire wasnât the most important thing, I wasnât here to sleep with Yunho, no matter how much my body yearned for it.
âI will slaughter you if you touch meââ
âEveryone has a price, Yunho.â
âI donât, Y/N.â
I chuckled, walking past the mess on the floor as I grabbed the key out of my pocket. Yunho couldâve taken it this whole time, yet he didnât. He knew where it was, his eyes now fixed on it, but he made no moves to stand from the bed. His cheeks were flushed and his pouty lips even plumper, his blouse askew, and the bulge less visible in his jeans.
âYes, you do, Yunho.â I twisted the lock and turned to give his defeated body one last look, âSong Mingi.â
And I left the room as Yunho gasped, springing up from the bed and banging on the door to be let out. Everyone had a price, even Jeong Yunho. A life for a life.
           The full moon was high in the sky, its gentle light radiating through the open windows. The breeze was cool but nobody could feel it in the dimly lit room, red candles burning away as the strong scent of blue sage filled our nostrils. The vampires around me wore dark burgundy capes, the hoods draped over their eyes as their hands remained buried in their sleeves. My fingers gently traced Yeriâs soft hair, her skin pale and sickly as she remained unmoving. The conference room had been transformed for the ritual, Yeriâs body now aligned in the middle on an altar decorated with white flowers and a silky tablecloth. Her dress was pristine, the small gems embroidered into it sparkling if the light fell on it just right. My dark gown touched the floor as I remained standing next to Yeriâs body, murmuring reassuring things to her in hopes she could hear me. The low murmur of the other vampires suddenly stopped as the double doors opened, Mingyu and Chanyeol carrying a tied-down Yunho inside the room. The silver around his body dug into his skin, and judging by the prominent vein on his forehead and his straining jaw, it was more painful than he could handle. Our eyes met as he was dragged towards the altar, Mingyu muttering a low warning in his ear before Yunho could even think of escaping.
Joohyun, wearing her white dress followed inside, a flower crown prettily decorating her head. She looked innocent, dainty, like an unassuming maiden as she took slow but powerful steps towards the altar, a book in her hands. The long sleeves of her dress hid her hands, and I flinched when I felt a hand grab my shoulder. Sooyoung motioned to the side, gently pulling me away from my sisterâs body as my gut coiled nervously, eyes falling on her before watching Yunho again, scared that heâd try to kill her once more. Flashes of Yeriâs bloodied body made me close my eyes, my hands shaky as Sooyoung offered her hand silently, a support she knew I needed right now. I released a shaky breath and watched as Joohyun went to the head of the altar, standing behind Yeri. She looked down at my sister and smiled softly as she traced her eyes for a second, then looked up with a hardened expression. Yunho was dragged next to her by the two bodyguards, trying to trash around in their grips, but the silver only made his skin burn more, so he succumbed to the pain and stopped moving around. His chest was heaving and everyone could hear his racing heart, our eyes found each other once again and I could see just how much he wished to kill every single one of us in the room. I donât think I have ever felt someoneâs hatred as intensely as Yunhoâs right now. My jaw clenched as I looked away, focusing on Yeri instead as Joohyun opened her arms, her eyes fluttering closed.
âEveryone, please join hands.â Her soothing voice rang out in the quiet room as everyone followed Joohyunâs instructions. We all stepped closer to the altar, our hands joining together as Yunho looked around frantically, probably looking for a route to escape, âWe are here, Yerim, we will set you free. Your suffering ends today.â
I gulped, feeling a tightness in my throat as I looked at my sister, everyone elseâs head bowed down in respect to the coven leader. Joohyun met my eyes as she opened the book she had brought with her, an ancient artefact that carried all of our secrets. Perhaps Yunho knew that too because his eyes widened as they fell on it, trying to mutter something, but the rag tied around his mouth made it sound intangible. A slow hum left Joohyunâs throat as she grabbed the silver knife placed on the altar, the book placed by Yeriâs head was flipped open to a page I had never seen before. The gathered vampires followed Joohyunâs lead, and soon I found myself humming lowly in my throat, feeling like I was being electroshocked each time Joohyunâs intonation changed. She was humming a lullaby I hadnât heard before, but the rest of us kept the initial hum going, concentrating on keeping it uniform. Joohyun raised her hand, muttering a quiet prayer before she cut her finger, drawing a bloody cross on Yeriâs forehead. Yunhoâs face morphed into disgust as he tried to speak, yanking on his restraints to no avail as I watched him with furrowed eyebrows, coming to a sudden realisation. Joohyun would kill Yunho once the ritual was over, he wasnât allowed to live another day.
That wasnât the realisation, however, but the voice that whispered to me to save him, to take him away before the light faded from his eyes. It was always hard for the creator to watch its offspring perish, but there was something deeper about this that I couldnât fully understand. Yunhoâs eyes shook as we looked at each other again and his jaw clenched when he was hauled forward by Mingyu, Joohyunâs arms extended as she continued to mutter under her breath an incantation in an ancient language Iâd never heard before. I didnât want Yunho to die once Yeri awakened, I had promised a life for a life, and suddenly I realised the voice I heard in my head wasnât mine, it was Yunhoâs low timbre pleading with me to find a way out. He was looking for Song Mingi, whoever that was, he couldnât die until he found him alive and breathing. My eyes widened as Joohyun raised the silver knife high, her eyes completely white as she hissed. I tried to move towards her, suddenly afraid sheâd kill Yunho right now, but Sooyoungâs grip on my hand tightened, yanking me back to my spot. She shot me a warning look, enough to tell me that if I broke the circle, the ritual would not work out. So, with bile in my throat, I was forced to listen to Yunhoâs racing heart as Joohyun cut a small gash on his neck, grabbing the back of his head and forcing it down.
His blood trickled slowly as he forced his eyes shut, arms trying to rip his silver chains apart, but I could smell his burnt skin mixing with his bloodâs intoxicating scent. I could feel my fangs poking against my bottom lip, but this wasnât the time or place to yearn for Yunhoâs sweet blood. My eyes zeroed in on the first blood droplet as it splashed against Yeriâs closed mouth, then another, and another, until it was enough to trickle inside her mouth. Joohyun continued chanting, her voice rising in volume as did the hum of the vampires, and I realised I was doing it involuntarily as if I was entranced by our leader. Joohyunâs head snapped back with a sickening crack as her mouth opened, all sounds halting as Yunho was trembling, fear, anger, and disgust swirling in his irises as more blood trickled down his neck, wetting Yeriâs lips. Then, as the silence stretched on and Chanyeol had to catch Joohyunâs limp body when it fell backwards, there was a loud gasp as if someone had been suffocating but managed to break through the surface. The vampires froze as my eyes widened, watching as Yeriâs bloodshot eyes snapped open, disoriented and full of fear until they fell on the hovering hunter above her.
I felt my knees wobble as I watched my once again living little sister grab the back of Yunhoâs head and yank him down, sinking her fangs into his neck. A pained sound left Yunhoâs body as Mingyu stepped back, a satisfied smirk on his face as he let Yeri have her way with Yunho. The vampires looked astonished as our circle broke apart, some taking steps back while the others remained frozen. I could hear Seungwan crying behind me, her sobs loud as Seulgi hurried to Joohyunâs aid, snapping orders at Chanyeol as to what to do with her. Sooyoung remained on my side, her grip bruising on my bicep as we watched Yeri breathlessly, my eyes filled with burning tears as Yunho struggled to break free from my sisterâs attack. She looked famished, her eyes were gleaming red and she was greedily gulping down Yunhoâs blood, long nails piercing his skin as her eyes snapped around the room alarmed until they fell on me. Yunho had stopped trashing around, his breathing becoming shallow, and I realised that his heartbeat was alarmingly slowing down. Feeling an unexplainable pull, I jumped forward and pushed Yeri off him, her fangs dripping with his hot blood as Yunho slumped against the altar, struggling to breathe. Sooyoung was by my side, cradling Yeri to her chest as I rushed around the altar, holding Yunho up and yanking the rag off his mouth.
âWater.â He heaved out, struggling to breathe, âI canâtâbreathe.â
I felt myself panic as I looked around, but nobody seemed to want to help the hunter. My jaw clenched as I heard my sisterâs timid voice asking what had happened and why everything felt so weird, but upon my eyes meeting with Sooyoungâs, I understood that sheâd take care of my sister while I tended to the hunter.
âCome on,â I whispered and hauled Yunhoâs large form into my arms, his weight pressing but nothing I couldnât handle. I felt judgmental stares follow after me, some murmured even, as I hurried back to the room Yunho was held inside, wondering if my heart would be racing in fright if it was still beating. Yunho was mumbling intangible things, but I didnât focus on them as I barged inside the bedroom and hurriedly placed him on the bed, my skin burning when I touched the silver chains. They were enchanted so that Yunho couldnât break them, but they came undone easily under my grip. His arms unravelled from around his body as he groaned, trying to turn onto his side as he squeezed his eyes shut. I hurried to the desk, grabbed the bottle of water he hadnât touched since yesterday, and uncapped it as I held his head up, knees sinking into the soft mattress of the bed. When Yunho realised I was helping him drink, he gripped my hand greedily and downed the bottle, breathing hard as his head fell back to the mattress, eyes half opened as he tiredly looked at me.
I gulped and stood back, putting distance between us when I realised his heart had a steady rhythm once again, âYou didnât let her kill me.â
I huffed, an unimpressed smile pulling at my lips, âItâs not just you who canât kill me, Yunho, I canât kill you eitherâŚfor now.â
âFor now.â Yunho echoed, his voice gruff as he curled up in a ball, his teeth chattering, âI will escapeâand there will be no trace left of the Bae Coven.â
And I knew he meant it, so I hummed and pulled a blanket over his shivering body, knowing that he needed the rest. I left the room with a sinking feeling in my stomach and locked the door twice, pocketing the key to make sure nobody would be able to enter it. I couldnât risk them doing anything to Yunho. But until he recovered, my sister was the most important thing.
           The mansion felt more alive than ever before. Itâs been barely three days since Yeri awakened, yet joy and laughter filled every hallway of the otherwise sombre house. It felt like a rock had been lifted off my chest, like I could breathe easier as I could finally smile and enjoy another sunrise. Yeri, despite her brightness, hid a darkness she thought we couldnât see. She was trying to come to terms with the fact that sheâd been dead for over two hundred years and that the world she once knew wasnât the same. It was hard, I could see it in her forced smiles and her jumpy body whenever someone crept too close to her as if she was expecting to be staked again. I couldnât understand her pain, but I could be there for her to help her out. My bed no longer was empty, sheâd be waiting for me after my shifts, her pyjamas pink and her hair now short. She looked gorgeous as the sun beamed inside, surprisingly she craved the summer warmth more than any of us. I smiled as I entered my room, a phone she still struggled to understand in her hands, her eyebrows furrowed as she kept pressing the screen.
âWhat are you doing?â I asked with a chuckle, walking closer to my bed. Nobody had seen Yunho in the past three days, and nobody but me was allowed to enter his room. The coven was undecided about his fate, and it was all thanks to Seungwanâs kindred spirit and my insistence that keeping him alive would benefit us. The others didnât have to know that somehow a selfish part of me had grown dependent on the vampire hunter, the thought of losing him now sounded terrible. He was a bad man worthy of punishment, but the song of his blood was stronger than all the bottled-up feelings Iâd felt for him for so long.
âSeulgi downloaded some game for me, apparently,â Yeri answered as I kneeled on the bed next to her, my room now decorated in pink trinkets. Yeriâs always loved pink, she even wanted to dye her hair the colour once she found out it was now possible, âBut this stupid thing wonât work!â
Her accent was heavy and of different times, it brought a sense of nostalgia over me as I grabbed her phone out of her hands and placed it aside. Yeri just pouted as she looked at me, her calmness managing to settle my nerves. Our bond was special, after I had turned her into a vampire, something connected us like nobody else. I could feel her emotions and she could tell where I was all the time, whether I was safe or in danger. Knowing that she finally wasnât in distress managed to make me feel less bad about the fact that I couldnât be by her side all the time due to my job.
âWhat did you do today?â I asked as I brushed a strand of short hair out of her eyes.
âSooyoung showed me theâgarage and we went for a ride?â Yeriâs lips pursed as she grabbed my hand to hold it, âBut she said the horses and carriages were replaced a long time agoâŚI really wanted to go on horseback, though.â
I chuckled, taking in my sisterâs less pale complex and her reddish irises. She wasnât warm, but her voice filled my chest with adoration, âWeâll buy you some horses, Iâll talk to Joohyun.â
âIs it true you wonât let anyone see the hunter?â Yeriâs voice was just a whisper as I looked down, chewing the inside of my mouth.
âYes, I have to sort out some issues first, Iâm sorry.â Yeri just hummed, and then I felt her hand cupping my cheek.
âIâm not mad at you,â She was smiling softly, her eyes sad, âYou can do whatever to him, heâs yours. If you wouldnât have turned him, I wouldâve never returned. Seungwan told me all the things you did for me, the research, the places you visited to find out more, thank you. I knew you were a great sister, yet you surprised me once again. I love you, Y/N.â
I leaned forward to hug her tightly, sniffing a bit as I felt the tears burn my eyes, âI love you too, Yeri, Iâm glad you are back.â
âMe too,â Yeri giggled, but then her excitement died down, âThis world is scary, though, I donât think I like it here.â
âYouâll get used to it, a lot has changed and a lot has improved, living now is a bit more comfortable.â Yeri nodded as I slowly got off the bed, looking towards the bag I had discarded at the door.
âYouâll go see him, right?â She pointed towards my bag, âThatâs why you brought home blood.â
I hummed as I grabbed the two blood bags out of my bag, gripping the doorknob, âI have to, if I didnât hear his heartbeat, Iâd think he was already dead.â
Yeri chuckled as she fell back into the pillows, clutching one to her chest, âDonât take too long, I still have so many questions before you fall asleep.â
I laughed and nodded before closing the door, then headed for Yunhoâs room which was one floor underneath us. I could feel my hands sweat for no reason, something in my gut twisting. I fidgeted with the key as I stopped in front of his door, debating whether I should knock first or not. Most of the coven was asleep now or out doing their daytime jobs, but a few remained in the mansion to hide out. I unlocked the door and slowly pushed it open, looking first at the bed, but Yunho wasnât there. My eyebrows furrowed as I realised I could smell his scent inside the room, but it was faint. His heartbeat, however, was strong and telling me that he was inside the room. The door clicked shut behind me as I realised the windowâs lock was broken, now wide open as the breeze billowed through the curtains. My eyebrows furrowed as I whirled around, looking for Yunho. Was he inside the bathroom? The water wasnât running, but maybe he was in there. But if the window was open, why hadnât he escaped yet? In my confusion, I failed to notice him creeping up on me, one large hand wrapping around my throat from behind. I froze, hands holding the blood bags tighter.
âYou finally came,â Yunho muttered into my ear and goosebumps erupted on my skin, his lips warm as they brushed against the shell of my ear, âThought youâd never visit your favourite vampire hunter.â
âYouâre a bit bold, donât you think?â I questioned, making Yunho chuckle, âDid you regain your power?â
âMostly,â Yunho hummed walking us closer to the window, âBut Iâm famished.â
âThatâs why I brought you blood.â I raised one blood bag, but Yunho tsked, âWhat? Is it not good enough for you?â
âI have my ways of hunting, and right nowâŚâ My jaw clenched as he lightly nipped at my jaw, âIâm craving something fresh, something warm, young, and something thatâs inside this mansion.â
My eyebrows furrowed as Yunhoâs hand tightened around my neck, the two of us standing in front of the window. He chuckled, and before I could ask what he meant, he kissed the corner of my mouth tauntingly before his lips brushed against my ear once again, âYou didnât lock the door.â
The glass cracked as my head collided with it, making me let out a pained yelp as I fell against the windows, blood bags falling from my hands. My head thumped painfully as I hissed, trying to regain my bearings as my vision swam for a second, turning around to face YunhoâŚexcept that he wasnât inside the room anymore, the door wide open. My eyes widened as I felt a chill run down my spine, with feet tangling together, I dashed towards the door, mind whirling where he couldâve gone. And then, the thought struck me like lightning, and I screamed Yeriâs name as I dashed up towards our shared room, my hands shaking as I barged inside. The window was still open, a pink shawl on the floor as she lay on it, her eyes closed andâI stopped breathing as I kneeled next to her, unable to tell if she was dead or not. But gripping her cheeks painfully, she stirred and blinked her eyes open, confused and alarmed.
âY/N?â
âLock the door and the windows, do not go out until I say so,â I commanded as I rose to my feet, body now shaking from anger as I realised Yunho had tricked me on purpose so he could flee. I slammed the door behind myself and fled the mansion as well, sweating under the scorching hot sun as I turned around in one spot, trying to clear my mind to find Yunho. He was close, without drinking blood, he wasnât as fast as usual, and the sun would also hurt him now, so I wondered where he was hiding. Taking a car wouldâve been too obvious and loud, so that meansâŚmy eyes fell on the forest, and before I could blink my feet were already moving towards it, branches snapping under my weight as I ran fast, trying to track his scent down. The sounds of the forest felt disorienting with all the flowery scents making me feel nauseous, the birds chirping over my head feeling as if they were taunting me since I couldnât hear Yunhoâs heart anymore. I stopped to catch my breath and closed my eyes, hearing the creak not far from here. Would he go there to try and refresh himself before he continued trekking back to the city? And just like that, faint sweetness made my throat go dry. He was here, close by, and I would catch him.
I took off running again, pushing myself just a bit further despite the strong sun making my muscles ache, and I almost missed him as I wheezed past a deer. He was using it to mask himself, I smirked as I stopped behind a tree, watching the two move as one. The deer seemed almost unaware of Yunhoâs presence right next to it, but Yunhoâs narrowed eyes told me that he was trying to find me as he felt the place out. Without giving him the chance to find me, I pounced towards him, scaring the deer off as Yunho hissed when my body collided with his, pushing him down to the ground. The scenery felt eerily similar, except that it was daytime now and Yunho was as much of a vampire as me. The last I got to straddle him in a forest was the night I turned him into one of us after having played around with him for a bit. Yunhoâs chest fell and rose rapidly, his eyes burning as he gripped my hips and tried to flip us over, but my thighs squeezed his torso firmly.
âDid you think you could outrun me?â I chuckled, raising my eyebrows at him, âYou havenât had any blood in three days after you were nearly drained, I thought you were smarter than that, Yunho.â
âHowâs your sister doing, by the way?â The question paired with his insufferable smirk felt like a punch to my gut, and before I could stop myself, I landed a harsh slap across his cheek. Yunhoâs head whipped to the side, but instead of the anger I was expecting, he started laughing, his shoulders shaking as he suddenly went lax underneath me. I glared at him as I gripped his jaw and forced him to face me, his cheeks and neck were red, his pointy lips chapped, and his dark blue hair messy.
âYouâre fucking lucky I created you, Yunho.â I hissed, grip tightening on his jaw. He hummed, staring up at the clear sky.
âI almost thought you had forgotten about me,â It seemed like he wasnât done taunting me as he pushed his lips out, looking up at me with his big eyes, âShouldnât you look out for me? See? You abandoned me again, and then youâre surprised I canât trust youâŚâ
âQuit the bullshit, Yunho.â I snapped, fed up with his attitude as he laughed, one hand sneaking to my lower back as I tensed, âYou canât leave until the coven hasnât decided your fate. Joohyun wonât let you leave now, most likely, and itâs your fault.â
âEverything is always my fault,â Yunho groaned as he rolled his eyes, his other hand sneaking up on my thigh. My eyebrows furrowed as I looked down at his hand, feeling that warm flicker deep in my stomach. It was back, that feeling of belonging and lust as I stared at Yunho, confused by his words and actions, âIf you would have just killed me, I would be out of your hair right now. Admit it, Y/N, you wanted someone to play with and thatâs why you walked away in the end.â
âI did not want anything to do with the man that tried to kill my sisterââ My words died in my throat when I was suddenly flipped over, my back hitting the cold ground. I froze as Yunho now kneeled between my legs, his hands trailing up my thighs as I frowned at him. This wasnât like the Yunho I knew, heâd be threatening me and trying to kill me by now. What was his plan?
âAnd yet here you are, with him between your legs and his fangs sunken deep into your neck.â He smirked as he lowered himself, biting my jaw mockingly as I tried to slap his head away, but his fingers intertwined with mine, hands immobilised on both sides of my head.
âYunhoââ My warning fell on deaf ears as his teeth sunk into my neck, a moan falling past my lips as the initial pain didnât even come this time, just soaring hotness that travelled through every limb, alighting the dormant fire underneath my skin. My head fell back as my fingers tightened against Yunhoâs, his heavier body pressing mine firmly down into the ground. He grunted as he took more blood, his hips grinding down almost teasingly as my eyebrows furrowed, stomach clenching in yearning, âI thought you didnât feed from living people.â
Yunho chuckled as he pulled back, licking my neck and kissing up to my ear, where he nibbled on my lobe, âYou are not alive, though, and I think I found a new way to feed. Arenât you just so pliant, Y/N?â
My jaw clenched and I turned my head swiftly, aiming to headbutt him, but he was faster. Yunho laughed, thrusting once as my thighs tightened around his hips, my eyes bleeding into his with anger, âYou donât seem to hate it as much as you make it seem.â
âGet off, Yunho!â I snapped, ripping my hands out of his as he slightly leaned back, tilting his head in amusement, âWhatâs gotten into you all of a sudden?â
He grinned and braced his weight on his hands, but he didnât sit back. I glared at him, but he didnât seem to care as he pretended to think, âYou said I have a price, and youâre right. Your little sister is well and alive once again, how about we make a little deal?â
That sounded horrible, âWhat deal?â
He leaned down to press a chaste kiss to my lips, and I shouldâve been embarrassed that I chased after his lips when he pulled back. Yunho was amused by it, one hand coming to cradle my cheek as he hummed, âI saved your little sister, you help me find someoneâŚâ
âYou saved her?â My laugh was humourless, âAfter you killed her, rightâŚâ
âSong Mingi.â Yunho snapped suddenly, his features darkening. So, he was done playing around, huh?
âWhat about him?â
âYou said I have a price, and that it comes with him, well you were right. That Seungwan girlâŚshe seems to know him.â Right, Seungwan could find anyone in a matter of hours, âYeri is alive, so help me find him.â
âWhy?â I raised an eyebrow, tilting my head, âWhoâs he to you?â
Yunho looked reluctant to speak, but he gave in when I raised both eyebrows, âSomeone whose life I ruined a long time ago. I was foolish and I went back to my coven thinking theyâd help me, instead, they locked me up and started experimenting with my blood when they realised I was half human. MingiâŚheâs a victim of that experiment, heâsâŚheâs like me just moreâŚviolent.â
Understanding washed over me as Yunhoâs eyes lowered, âYou created him, didnât you?â
He looked at me without answering, and I just knew, âYou love him.â
Yunhoâs jaw clenched and I scoffed, something like regret, anger, and disgust swirling in my stomach, âYou want me to find your lover for you after you killed mine?â
âYou can do whatever you want with me once I know Mingi is well and alive, just help me out this once.â He didnât look into my eyes, but he looked so small as he lowered his head. I scoffed, wanting to refuse him, to rip his head off, but I couldnât. The pain, the uncertainty and the yearning of not knowing what happened to your lover hit me like a truck, and I felt pity for Yunho because I knew what that felt like.
âOnce you find Mingi, youâll never cross my path, do you understand?â My eyes were hard and my voice cold as he looked at me, face impassive, âAnd if I see either one of you, I wonât hesitate to kill you.â
âDeal.â Yunho didnât even miss a beat as he sat back, extending one hand.
âMake it a blood promise,â I smirked as Yunhoâs jaw clenched, but he bit into his palm and so did I, our blood smearing together once we shook hands.
âIâll leave your coven alone, then, but if I see you or Yeri, youâll be dead.â I chuckled and nodded, sitting up as Yunho got off me, surprisingly even helping me up. He remained gripping my arm as he pulled me close into himself, his eyes soft for the first time Iâve known him.
âThank you.â He whispered, his eyes fluttering closed as he leaned down, our lips meeting in a soft kiss. I gripped his nape and pushed up on my tiptoes, our lips locking together as Yunho hummed, pressing more kisses against my lips as we pulled apart.
âThank you too, although Iâll never forgive you.â Yunho smiled, stepping back.
âThatâs alright, Iâll never forgive you either.â I nodded, watching him step into the sun, making me wonder how one man could be as beautiful as Yunho. Before he departed, however, he seemed to linger for a second, his eyebrows furrowed.
âThere was a belief in my covenâŚthat a soul that is suddenly ripped away from this realm will wander back to claim whatâs theirs.â I didnât understand what he meant by that, but before I could question it, he continued, âHow long has it been since I killed Seonghwa?â
I froze, breath stuttering in my throat, âAre you sayingââ
âHeâs around, you just have to find him.â A small smile settled over Yunhoâs lips as I felt tears brimming my eyes, hands shaking. He turned his back to me with a chuckle, waving his fingers as he took off, walking further into the trees.
âIâll stop by to get my refill later this week!â Yunhoâs voice called as I listened to his even heartbeat, feeling weak all of a sudden as I had to lean against a tree for support. I had Yeri back, and now all I had to do was find Seonghwa once again. A shuddered breath left my lips as I smiled, flipping Yunho off before I started walking back to the mansion, keeping to the shade since I was already feeling lightheaded.
Maybe keeping him alive was the best decision I couldâve made, after all.
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it's an interesting question, kind of hard like, my two close friends both forgot my birthday so hmm maybe it's me at zero not even aware lol ... going through the kind of trauma I did at a young age leaves me with less in common with my peers, men definitely have fewer friends than women, there's more competitive vibes between guys than ladies. It's always been my understanding this is why men live shorter lives, since widows have social networks to fall back on but widowers become the poster -men for the lonely-man movement and it's why they die off sooner. I always resolved myself to try and be immune to this pattern, from a young age, so maybe that's why I could say I have no close friends, and we guys have a soldier drive to be stoic, we don't talk about mental health problems until it's too late. It's absolutely like the smiling dog in the burning house, how I feel at times on this, thinking back to wishing I had put bros before hoes...fortunately I stay young at heart and have made a ton of casual friends this year so hopefully that can continue and mature...
I actually haven't seen data on this, it seems like an important question to ask, but I would bet "no friends" is a deeply sticky category. If you are 15 or whatever, doesn't mean that much yet, but if someone has no close friends at age 30, I would bet at age 40 their odds of still having no close friends is ~80%? It is a combination of "if you haven't made them yet it probably isn't your skillset and people don't change that much" and "overwhelmingly the way people make new friends is via connections with existing friends".
It does seem relevant to the data, because if the correlation is low, then "everyone goes through more lonely patches" is a bit of a different conclusion than above.
#how close is 'close'#hmm#friendship studies#gender studies#can you call a friend close when they forget your birthday? lol hell no#đ#not a gift i wished for but even acknowledgement...would have meant something#also possible i have a mildly photographic memory and dates / birthdates stick to my brain like glue so i never forget anyone's ever#i can't hold ppl to the same standards i give out clearly lmao but these homies are the smartest guys i know lol#they're gonna feel trbl when they remember it's apologies they're still close friends i'm still at 2 it's a shitty 2 but 2#maybe i just have to let it feed a bit of my ego and that's how i dissipate this disappointment...no one can be at my lvl clrly lol#their dad did buy me dinner the night before my bday so it's an honorary excuse...lol
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hi so can you do a fic where The straw hats thought we died but when they retuned to scabaody we also come back?
Like the straw hats are like
WAIT YOUR NOT DEAD? HUH
âStrawhats x reader
âSummary: Everything seems to fall apart before their eyes when you die, only to find out that you were enjoying yourself in Sabaody and not in your grave.
âWarnings: none
lmao this was fun to write for no reason đđ¤đť
The loss of a loved one is a difficult battle, everyone on this crew has experienced at least one death of a family member or someone close to them to call them family, they hoped that pain would not damage their hearts again, unfortunately, you shattered their hearts when they found your limp body on Sky Island when you decided to go your own way.
With their hearts in their throats and their eyes red, they had to say goodbye to you bitterly, burying your body in a cluster of soft clouds, they were silent for a minute until Luffy was the first to give the signal to leave, he knew you would have liked that they were not so sad and that their adventures had not yet ended like yours.
They lamented your lack of presence, you always made everything a little more enjoyable with your nonsense, you managed to fit in perfectly with each of them and although you were not the smartest, most cunning or powerful on the team, they did not expect your early departure.
It was when they arrived at Sabaody for the first time that they thought they were going crazy, thinking that they had gotten over your loss, someone strangely like you seemed to be hanging around that island.
Luffy could clearly see how you were riding some attractions, Nami was confused when she saw you trip over a huge root, Chopper thought that the smell of disinfectant had made him hallucinate and see you eating cotton candy, Usopp simply thought he saw a ghost, Brook thought you came back from the dead to exact revenge when he saw you beating up a couple of guys who seemed to bother you, Franky could only catch your laugh, but it was so similar that he thought his brain was playing tricks on him, Zoro and Sanji bumped into you, but neither you nor they were paying attention as something bigger was catching everyone's attention and practically everyone was jostling each other.
While, oblivious to all the suffering, pain and coping that your companions had to do, you woke up buried in clouds a while ago, managing to get down and reach Sabaody miraculously like a stowaway on another pirate ship, you had planned to look for them and scold them a little for thinking you were dead, but your plans were thwarted when you found the island too much interesting, well, you had been 'dead' for a while, it was okay if you enjoyed a little time at the attractions before looking for your companions.
The thing is that you got so distracted and forgot to find them, if it weren't for the fact that, coincidentally, Jinbe âwho you didn't know since you didn't get to know himâ recognized you from the brief conversations they had with him about you, he was waiting in the queue to buy something and you were just behind, you started a chat to kill time.
"You look terribly like a person who died in the crew I'm part of now, I mean, because of the descriptions they made."
"OhâŚ"
The blood on your face disappeared at his words, remembering now that you had a crew to return to, and that in fact you were that supposedly dead person, you laughed nervously, wanting to resume your search, although there was no need.
"Hey, Jinbe, here! We were looking for you."
You blinked like an owl as you saw Luffy greet him with his characteristic smile, calming down as you saw the others walking a little further behind calmly, you smiled fondly when you saw them, making eye contact for a second with your captain as you sipped the drink you had gotten before, he casually greeted you by saying your name and you waved back, focused on finishing your drink.
"Wait a moment, youâŚ" he narrowed his eyes looking at you again, drawing the attention of the others "Are you the twin of our dead comrade!?"
You choked on your own drink, Chopper patting you on the back.
"No uh- in fact it's me, the original, only and loved-"
"WEREN'T YOU DEAD!?"
You covered your ears when you heard Nami's scream, your tongue went dry and your body seemed to get smaller when you saw her gaze, everyone had different emotions reflected âLuffy and Zoro were still a little confused because they really thought you have a twinâ but Nami was the most furious, she started hitting and pushing you.
"GIVE ME BACK THE TEARS I SHED FOR YOU!"
"AW, OH, SORRY!? YOU LEFT ME FOR DEAD!"
You ran in circles avoiding the navigator, protecting your head from her light blows while you apologized for not having warned that you 'rose from the dead'.
"Well, who knows, maybe it's a zombie."
"Robin, you're not helping me."
You whimpered, hiding behind Sanji and Franky, waiting for Nami to calm down, it wasn't a reunion like you planned âyou didn't plan anythingâ but everyone felt a little relieved, leaving behind the bitterness of losing a partner and enjoying your company now that you were with them again.
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10 things + r. reigns
authors note: so, a lot of this stems from convos with the lovely @fearlesschimera where one tree hill was brought up. and i loved me some nathan and haley. plus, i'm loving everything about this otc era and needed to write something about it now vs having to wait with my other stories cause we ain't there yet lmao
might be a part two. idk if this even makes sense tbh
words: 3.1k
warnings: none, really? some language? kayfabe story.
There are exactly two sides to Roman Reigns.
The good side and the bad side.Â
And Nova Reigns has experienced them both with an unfortunate increase in the latter versus the former.Â
She can pinpoint exactly when it started, too.Â
When things started to get difficult again.
2020. COVID. While the world was an absolute mess, chaos and death occurring globally every day, her husband of over ten years wasnât much better. Heâd decided to stay home, not wanting to risk bringing home anything that could put her pregnancy with their first daughter, Arabella, Bella as they affectionately called her, at risk.Â
It was also so he could figure out just what the hell he was doing with his career. Roman was frustrated. Tired of going along with what was always told of him instead of doing it his way. And itâs why when he returned back to work that summer, he came back a completely changed man. Bigger, stronger, meaner.
This was a different Roman Reigns. The likes of which the WWE had never seen.
And itâs been a ride ever since.
Up and downs along the way.Â
A lot of ups up until WrestleMania 40 where after 1,316 days as the undisputed universal champion and unable to let go of a betrayal from so many years ago, Roman lost. He lost his title and something so much deeper that night.
His sense of self.
Nova did the best she could in the months heâd been off to keep his spirits lifted, to support him, often encouraging Bella to ask her dad to do stuff with her even when Nova technically could. Asked him to care for their two year old daughter, Camillia, Cami, as she worked from home, something sheâs done for almost the entirety of her post college career.Â
But most importantly, Nova worked to help Roman repair the relationship with their oldest son, Roman Jr., RJ, as theyâve called him since the day he was born.
To say the relationship is awful would be an exaggeration. No, itâs justâŚ..fragile.
A fragility that Nova has tried so hard over the past couple of years to strengthen to no avail. A large part of the issue being the fact that her twenty year old son is just as stubborn as his father. Twins, she often calls them. Similar heights, build, personalities, etc.Â
Great when they want to be. A pain in the ass when they donât need to be.
A painful situation all around though, especially when she thinks back to how this all started, to how someone like Nova ended up with someone like Roman.
And itâs a simple answer, really.
He was an idiot.
Well, when it came to English, that was.
Once upon a time ago, Roman wasnât the massive WWE superstar that he is now. He was just Roman Reigns. The typical, popular jock of their high school. A football player with the stereotypical ego to match. And she was just Nova, the geeky underclassmen who always had a secret crush on the boy she never thought in a million years would look her way.
And truth be told, if not for the fact his coach threatened to bench him if he didnât raise his English grade, he probably never would have. Hell, sheâs certain the only reason he knew she existed was because she was the best and smartest kid in class, so of course their teacher would recommend her for a tutor.Â
The answer was initially no. Not necessarily because she was opposed, but more because her crush on him was too big to not get distracted. Even though his jerkish tendencies should have done just that.Â
But Roman has always been charismatic and persistent, and before she knew it, sheâd agreed. And that agreement changed everything because it showed her for the first time the nice side of Roman, the side that secretly loved music and was surprisingly good at math. The side that struggled with feeling like heâd never be good enough or live up to his familyâs athletic reputation both in football and wrestling.
It made her realize and see that Roman was just as human as everyone else.Â
It made her fall in love with him.
And that was rocky, too. Navigating his constant struggle of wanting to admit his feelings for her while also being embarrassed about her and wanting to hide their relationship. It created a fair set of conflict, and Nova shed her fair share of tears.
Especially as she sat on the floor of her bathroom, plush, purple rug cushioning her bottom but not the blow that was the two lines on the pregnancy test in her hands. But, seven months later, with her mom on one side and Roman on the other, she shed a different set of tears. Different kinds of tears.
Happiness.
Happiness at welcoming her first child into the world, Roman Reigns Jr.Â
RJ
Being teen parents, especially at the tender ages of 16 and 18 was most definitely nothing like it was depicted on the reality shows. It was rough, especially as Roman started college, opting to stay local to help her raise their child as she finished her senior year. They fought, they argued, they disagreed, but at the end of the day, they still loved.
And it was that love that carried them through the rocky years of Roman trying to figure out just what he wanted to do with his life as Nova worked a job and raised their son while pursuing her degree in software engineering. She also stayed local to benefit from the help of her family while chasing her dream. It was rough, it was hard, but they did it.
Even with having to be on food stamps and financial assistance at times to take care of their child, Nova struggling to enter the male dominated workforce of tech and Roman not always having consistent income, they did it.Â
And they were happy.
They still are. JustâŚ.not like it used to be.Â
Nova still loves her husband with all of her heart and soul. Theyâve been through too much together for her to ever really leave him, but sheâd be lying if she said it didnât cross her mind from time to time. Especially over the past four years, watching him almost revert back to that bully from high school as he manipulated and mentally abused his family, his cousins, his lifetime best friends so much so that the Bloodline he worked so hard to create crumbled right before him.
And itâs only deteriorated since he lost the title to Cody Rhodes. Solo had turned on Roman, brutally kicked Jimmy out of the Bloodline and invited in non-family. Week after week, taking shot after shot at her husband, his cousin, his flesh and blood.Â
Going so far as to take the sacred ula fala and declare himself the tribal chief. An honor that was bestowed upon Roman by the elders of his family. It finally reached a point where Roman had enough, making his grand return at SummerSlam and preventing his once enforcer from taking the very title Roman still believes is rightfully is.Â
Heâs made intermittent returns since then, each one proving just why Roman Reigns is being considered one of the greatest of all time, even while still in the middle of his career. His aura is unmatched. The sales donât lie. The numbers donât lie.Â
The OTC is WWE.Â
But, Roman has been a bit on edge since he was unexpectedly jumped by his other cousin, Jacob, Soloâs latest dangerous addition to the Bloodline.
Nova especially knows he was even more pissed because sheâd taken the girls to his show that night, at his request.
He hates looking âweakâ in front of him, despite the fact that both were too consumed in kids' devices to pay attention. But, she was. And if anything, it was hard for her to see him be attacked like that, all alone.Â
No one in his corner.
Jeyâs moved to Raw.
Jimmy is still trying to figure out if he even wants to come back.
Solo has lost his damn mind.Â
SamiâŚ..no comment.
And Paul is still recovering from his brutal assault by the new Bloodline.Â
The island of relevancy has a population of one. And while that one is formidable as all outdoors, heâs still just a man.
Granted, as much as it pains her to see Roman go at this alone, itâs hard for her to feel all the way bad for him. He did this. His actions drove his family away.Â
Well, not all of them.
âGame!â Bellaâs soft voice pulls Nova from reflecting on memory lane as she redirects her attention to where her son sits on the sofa in Romanâs locker room, Cami on his lap, grabbing his phone.
RJ chuckles, unlocking the iPhone and asking, âwhat you wanna play?â
Cami gasps and claps her hands. âCookie!â
âCookie Kingdom?â RJ asks, clicking around on his phone and handing it to her. âThere ya go, lilâ bit.â
Novaâs smile is warm as she reflects on what feels like so long ago. âI remember when you were that little.â
RJ looks up at her, and it never ceases to amaze her how much he looks like his father. Complexion a little deeper, melanin he inherited from her, but outside of that, Roman could never deny paternity.Â
He sucks his teeth. âMama, donât start that.â
âWhat?â Nova pouts, leaning back into the sofa, Bella tuned out of the conversation as she watches Bluey on her tablet. Itâs always a bit funny to her how uninterested these kids just are when it comes to seeing Roman at work.
At least, not until heâs actually in their line of vision.
âYouâll always be my baby.â Because he will. Twenty and over 6ft tall or not, heâs her baby boy. âAnd speaking of baby, whatâs going on with you and that girl you been dating?â
RJ rolls his eyes and adjusts Cami on his lap. Heâs so good with his little sisters. âNothing.â
Nova smirks knowingly, picking up on the faint hit of redness on his cheeks. âSure donât seem like nothing.â
âMama, sheâs just a friend.â
âSo yaâll arenât sexually active?â
RJ turns up his nose, clearly disgusted. âMa, how you just gonâ ask me that?â
âBecause Iâm your mama and not ready to be a grandma, and your daddy would kill you if you were to get a girl pregnant halfway through college.â
Itâs not missed upon Nova how the mention of Roman seems to completely dampen his mood. RJ rolls his eyes. âLike he cares at all.â
His comment hurts her. Deeply. âRJâŚ.â
âIâm sorry, I donât mean to upset you.â
She ignores that apology, wanting to focus on the initial comment that has her stomach knotting for all the wrong reasons. âYour dad loves you, Junior. You have to know that.â
Thereâs a slight delay in his answer, and that alone is enough to make Nova know she needs to talk to Roman again tonight about actually talking with his son. A below the surface level conversation. A heart to heart.
âI know that, mama. I do. Itâs justâŚ.â RJ blows out a breath and shakes his head. âYou know how he is.â
She does. Very well. âYou can say it. Heâs an ass sometimes.â Sheâs so grateful for the headphones on Bellaâs ears and the deep infatuation Cami has with her brotherâs phone.
âYou said it. Not me.â Mother and son share a laugh, RJ admitting, âI know he means well.â
âHe does,â she agrees. âBut, that doesnât mean he canât do better. Iâll talk to him again.â
RJ immediately looks like he feels bad, which only makes Novaâs chest ache more. âYou donât have toââ
She lifts her finger to silence him. âYouâre my son. Heâs my husband. I love you both, and it kills me to see yaâll like this. Iâm gonna do what I can.â And thatâs a vow. The three of them have been through too much shit over the years for her to just allow the relationship between the two most important men to fall apart. She wonât let that happen.Â
She canât.
And speaking of, the door to Romanâs locker room opens, her husband walking in looking every bit as strong, powerful, and determined as he looked when he interfered yet again with Soloâs match and especially as he closed the door of that cage and challenged Jacob.Â
Nova shifts in her seat, the memory bringing up other kinds of feelings which are entirely inappropriate given the presence of her children.
Cami is the first girl to notice him, lifting up her little arms and reaching for him, nearly dropping RJâs phone in the process if not for his quick reflexes.
He most definitely got that from Roman as well, because Nova has not an athletic bone in her body.
Roman walks over and takes her from RJ, kissing her cheek, gaze almost reluctantly falling on RJ. âI didnât know you were coming.â
Nova starts to scold Roman for such a cold introduction to their son they havenât seen since he left for his sophomore year of college over a month ago. âMom asked me to.â
Sheâs good at reading between the lines, picking up on the fact that heâs essentially saying heâs only here because of Nova.
Not Roman.
Roman notices this, sheâs sure. Heâs a perceptive bastard. But, he says nothing. âHowâs school?â
âFine.âÂ
âRJ.â And her son can be a petty bastard. Like father, like son. She directs her statement to Roman, âI was thinking we could go to his game tomorrowââ
RJ, however, is quick to dismiss this. âYou donât have to.â
Novaâs gaze on Roman allows her to see the hurt that flashes in his eyes at the rejection. But as has been the case lately, he pushes it aside, replacing it with indifference. âYou heard what he said. He doesnât want us there, so we woââ
âThatâs not what I said.â RJ leans back against the chair and shrugs his shoulders, shaking his head, clearly frustrated. âYou always do this. Always hear what you want to hear.â He scoffs, head turned, muttering, âI see why everybody left you.â
Nova gasps. âRJ!â She sees it, the hurt thatâs just tripled and is about to be expressed in anger, leading to another big blowout between the two of them. Thankfully, this is the moment Bella finally becomes aware of Romanâs presence.
âDaddy!â She pulls off her headphones, climbs off the sofa and runs over to him, hugging his legs.Â
Roman doesnât hesitate to pick her up, both daughters in his arms as Nova leans over, running her hand through her fresh silk press. This. This is what she wanted to avoid. These are the kinds of situations that leave her in tears as she vents to her therapist about her ever growing stress levels, how torn she feels in what to do in moments like this.Â
Roman is her husband, but RJ is her son. Neither is fully right, but neither is fully wrong either. How does one handle that?
Thankfully, itâs not long after that Roman is being called to prepare to get back out in the ring. This means a probably needed separation from the two titans in her life. Nova holds Cami this time, while Bella hangs onto RJ as theyâre escorted ringside.Â
It takes a bit of persuasion to get RJ to agree to come with her. She can see heâs ready to just leave.
But, reminding him of how big a help he is with the girls seems to win him over because while heâs certainly not in the best of places with his dad, RJ is a mamaâs boy through and through. He loves him some Nova and would do anything to help her.Â
Even if it means helping her with the two siblings that came as a complete shock to him.
It still makes Nova laugh a little as she recalls the horrified and almost disgusted expression on his face as she and Roman broke the pregnancy news to him.
âI didnât even know yaâll still did that.â And if his statement wasnât bad enough, he just had to add insult to injury as the blunt almost 16 year-old he was at the time. âAinât yaâll kinda old to still be freaking?â
No.Â
Never that.
âDaddy!â This time itâs Cami whoâs calling out to Roman, recognizing his new music before he even emerges from the back looking as badass as he always does. Nova is temporarily in a state of awe, overhearing Bella asking RJ to hold her so she can see better.Â
Roman has come so far, done so well for himself, even with things with his family being a hot ass mess, thereâs still no denying he is it. That he has it. Itâs undeniable. She almost feels bad for Cody.
Heâll always be stuck in Romanâs shadow.Â
The thought makes her suddenly curious about what could be one of the reasons behind the strife between her firstborn and husband. Nova tucks this in the back of her mind, planning to discuss it further in therapy.
As Roman moves into the ring, Nova stands on the sidelines, holding her baby girl on her hip, smiling back and forth between the two. She watches Roman move around the ring on their commercial break
And when his gaze falls on the set of them, her heart swells as he mouths âI love youâ before seamlessly transitioning back into that hardened, determined expression.
And this is why thereâs two sides to Roman Reigns. The good side being the one that she sees in that brief, vulnerable exchange. The one that used to kiss her pregnant stomach as he confided in her his fears about not being a good dad, about feeling not ready, about worrying about failing in life.Â
Failing her.Â
Failing himself.
Failing their child.
The man who worked so hard and gave everything his all to prove he was someone, becoming that someone, yet somehow losing something in the process.
Nova knows itâs still in there though, knows that he is still the boy he fell in love with many moons ago. She knows that as frustrated as he makes her, as cold he can be, as disconnected he can seem, that love is still there and just as strong.Â
And sheâll fight for it.Â
For him.Â
For their son.
For their family.Â
She has to.
#roman reigns fic#roman reigns x black!oc#roman reigns x black!reader#roman reigns oneshot#roman reigns
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inner man challenge! (´・⢠ᾠâ˘ď˝Ą`) âĄ
hey babes!! okay, i know i said i was going on break but i got this sudden inspiration and yk i had to make a post!! so this challenge is called the inner man challenge, because it's all about fulfilling your inner man and staying in the wish fulfilled!!
WHAT IS THE GOAL FOR THIS CHALLENGE? â
making the state of the wish fulfilled your dwelling state
fulfilling your inner man
falling in love with imagination
not caring about the 3d
FIRST STEP! â
this is crucial! remove the intention of manifesting to be for getting in the 3d!!! "but girl.. the whole point of manifesting is to get it in the 3d" okay yes, if u want to believe that i can't change your mind. but to get it in the 3d we need to be fulfilled, and you can't be in the SOWF if you are still trying to get it! read this if ur still confused <3
me personally i feel like the reason why some people don't get results from methods, challenges etc is because they are doing the method to get it in the 3d, not to feel fulfilled. but thats just me đ¤ˇđžââď¸
SECOND STEP! â
now for the fun part, decide what you want!! df, db, sp, a billion bucks in ur account, being the smartest of ur class, moving out of your paren'ts home, getting into your dream college, literally go wild!!
THIRD STEP! â
fulfill your inner man when your inner man needs fulfilling! if something bad arises in the 3d that shakes ur confidence, fulfill!
having the urge to look in ur bank account to see if you have a billion bucks? close your eyes, imagine your inner man looking at her bank account and seeing the numbers go up by the second!
one of your family members makes a comment about how ugly you are?? would your inner man care?? NO! bc she's fine asf!
if anything 'bad' happens in the 3d, imagine your inner man saying "uh.. thats cute but i'm living my dream life rn sooo.."
WAIT, IS THERE A SCHEDULE? â
there's no schedule to this challenge!! no "in the morning say 1409834 affirmations, in the afternoon vaunt for 3 hours, in the night do starfish position and affirm for the void" NO!! literally just fulfill your inner man when ur inner man needs fulfilling!!
"don't force yourself to do a method you don't want to do! don't force yourself to visualize the same scene someone else even though it doesn't create any feeling of knowing inside of you and feels like a chore to you. don't repeat affirmations if you don't want to and don't repeat an aff you don't resonate with. do what you think is fun! and do what feels natural to you! by taking the pressure of being perfect off yourself, it's easier to imagine in order to experience, rather than to get it in your 3d." - @remcycl333
HOW DO I STAY IN THE STATE OF WISH FULFILLED THE ENTIRE DAY? â
no need to stay in the SOWF the entire day, we are always changing states! for example, right now you're in the state of reading this post, and i am in the state of writing this post. it's all about making the SOWF your dwelling state! so if you accidentally stay in the state of lack 7 times but you are in the SOWF 8 times, then the SOWF is your dwelling state! (btw don't count the times you enter a state lmao)
ANYTHING ELSE? â
get off tumblr, just delete the app.. like this place is literally just making you overconsume. you have better things to do!
if you have a negative thought don't spiral and think all your progress has gone to waste. breathe in and out, your inner man has it and that's all that matters.
have fun!! this challenge isn't like other challenges (soo quirky i know đ), it's meant to fulfill you instead of making you stress about the 3d. make fun scenarios in your head, vaunt, just have a good time!!
WHEN you get successes (whatever you consider to be a success: feeling that your inner man is fulfilled, or getting it in the 3d) send it to me or make a post about it using #star's-inner-man-challenge!
if you have any questions let me know in my inbox, bye yall!! đ
#star's-inner-man-challenge#imagination creates reality#living in the end#loassumption#manifestation#master manifestor#loa#neville goddard#law of assumption#loa affirmations#manifesting#the law of assumption#manifest#spiritual#spirituality#shiftblr#reality shift#things to manifest#shifters#shifting realities#reality shifting#void success story#void state success story#void state#i am state#loa tumblr#loablr#loa blog#manifest your life#manifest your dreams
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i feel like i need to have a list of mass effect 2 things i'll never stop thinking about, in no particular order
the entirety of the Overlord DLC and the fact that the paragon interrupt is pistol whipping Archer lmao
tali's response to the paragon interrupt (hugging her) after finding her father's body in her loyalty mission (the 'damn it. damn it, i'm sorry.)
liara and femshep's reunion during lair of the shadow broker (romanced)
joker's jump (i got him killed once SORRY JOKER)
how strong kelly chambers comes off IMMEDIATELY AND HOW OUT OF POCKET SHE CAN BE (bbgirl you would be the most unethical therapist ever)
legion's loyalty quest and the heretical geth reveal
so i destroyed the heretical geth and having a max out paragon meter but then getting that +30 renegade oops (i understand why but i would do ANYTHING for tali)
samara after killing morinth and her three lines: "Shepard. What do you think I will say? What can I say? I just killed the bravest and smartest of my daughters." and "There are no words. I will try another time. For now, show mercy on a broken old warrior and let us leave." and "I am a ruined vessel of sorrow and regret, but I am free." i wept
the little interlude femshep had with the liara picture on her desk
also rip to all my fish that i tried and failed to keep alive
[edit] I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TALI CALLING SHEP CAPTAIN AT THE END OF TREASON INSTEAD OF COMMANDER - both the absolute DEVASTATION and GRIEF SHE MUST BE FEELING and also HONOR she bestows on you in that moment i'm screaming crying throwing up
[edit 2] I FORGOT ABOUT THE GIANT HUMAN REAPER AT THE END?
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I ONLY JUST REALIZED WOKE REREADING R&J AND LIKE
THAT'S INSANELY FUNNY TO ME, MY BOY ROMEO REALLY IS A DUMBASS
Hey you do know that Rosalind is canonically a Capulet, right?
She's Daddy Cap's neice which makes her Juliet's cousin
It explains why her parents said no - they were also star-crossed lovers, in a sense
YES I DO!
#dumbass (affectionate)#caps tw#this play is so silly#it's just a silly little commentary on girlhood and how girls are forced to grow up at a faster and unfair rate compared to boys#and how when they dare defy it society turns them into the villain until it's too late#and then every other character is literally just a fool in disguise#'yeah man Romeo & Juliet is a very tragic story on girlfriend and relationships teens have with their parents :('#meanwhile benvolio is just a character that is ALLOWED to exist#he spins wildly exaggerated stories that take full pages to go into depth just for someone else to be like 'bullshit'#and then the story moves on in complete ignorance of what he said#and then he swears everything on his life#rosalind doesn't even show up in r&j and somehow she's the smartest person there#sorry I'm ranting about r&j again lmao#please excuse my like eighth grade level analysis of the damned thing XD
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Cloud receives fanmail from Lazard for causing him the least amount of trouble in SOLDIER (couldnât help but think of your recent one where he won employee of the month despite not being in that department lmao)
*Cloud opens up a letter*
Cloud: Look, I got mail from Lazard. He says he's proud of me for being the most responsible out of the group!
Zack, confused: But you're not a SOLDIER?
Cloud: Yeah, but he says here that I'm the most competent, reliable operative here and that I'll be a joy to have in the program when I finally make the cut.
Zack, jealous but trying to be supportive: That's great buddy!
Cloud: He also goes on to say how I'm the brightest, smartest person he's met in a while, and that my resilience is commendable.
Zack, extremely jealous: Awesome!
Cloud: He also says I'm strong and that he can see why Sephiroth wants me as his student.
Zack, through gritted teeth: Spectacular.
Cloud: Oh! He even added a fun fruit sticker at the end!
Zack: Sweet :)
Cloud: *sniff sniff* It's scented!
Zack: AFSSGSJALSBWHDHDEJSJ
#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#zack fair#cloud strife#crisis core#ffvii crisis core#ff7 crisis core
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I like Zaheer as a villain but he is so overrated tbh. Not only because he's not as smart as neither him or people think he is âif he were, he wouldn't have prevented facing Korra in a fair fight only for at the end being like "Oh, Korra, we're poisoning you so we can force the Avatar State and kill you in it; I'm sure that straight up telling you that and therefore giving you a heads up instead of taking you by surprise âlike Azula did with Aangâ will not matter at all because you totally won't be able to defend yourself after we trigger a literal defense mechanism that gives you the power of a God. Yeah the chains will totally stop that from happening because they're platinum so you totally won't break free even though the Avatar State also enhances your already impressive physical strength." Definitely that was not his smartest move.
It's because they put him as one of the top Airbenders in the franchise and like. That's not true lmao. Zaheer was a good Airbender compared to most of the New Air Nation but tbh you can't compare a guy who was already a skilled martial artist and who was adapting his skills to Airbending to a random guy from Ba Sing Se named Wang who's 38 years old who just got Airbending and hasn't done any martial arts before in his life. Most of Zaheer's advantage in fights comes from 1) him being already a skilled figher 2) people being taken by surprise because they didn't know he was an Airbender 3) people not being used to fighting Airbenders 4) him not holding back unlike most Airbenders. You think he's impressive for suffocating the Earth Queen? All Airbenders with a bit of training probably have the ability to do that (Gyatso literally did that against a whole battalion of Comet Firebenders), they simply choose not to because it goes against their ideals.
Airbending Zaheer could deal with average and a bit above average-good benders/fighters (like White Lotus members or Kya; Kya was a healer, not actually a fighter, and the White Lotus are talented and all but you can't compare those guys in Korra to the main crew lmao) due to his martial arts skills that adapt well with Airbending. He was talented, okay. He defeated Tonraq on top of a mountain while Tonraq had a limited access to water, cool. Now, him being one of Top Best Benders of the franchise? No lmao, most actual Top Benders TM like Iroh, Jianzhu or Amon could probably deal with him pretty easily. The rest of his Red Lotus pals could beat him. He is not even one of the best Airbenders, so don't put him in that top; he just got Airbending, he's talented but there is no comparison. You really think this guy is anywhere close to Gyatso? Kelsang? Aang?! Zaheer wasn't even at Book 1 Aang level. Zaheer needed to gang up with the rest of the Red Lotus against Tenzin because he was kicking his ass and Tenzin wasn't even breaking a sweat while doing so lmao. You put him against an actual Master and he gets bodied. Book 3 Korra would mope the floor with him with Waterbending and she could probably deal with him with just Airbending. Post Book 4 Korra could probably mope the floor with him with just Airbending. The only thing Zaheer does that makes him stand out against any other Airbender with more experience than Random Guy Wang or literal children is that he doesn't hold back like most Airbenders and that he learnt how to fly. And the flying thing, as impressive as it was, was less of a talent thing and more about that he could do it because he didn't have any earthly attachments anymore.
Zaheer was a great antagonist. I really liked him as a character, he was very interesting, his philosophy was interesting, to me he was the best antagonist in all of TLOK along with Amon and just behind Azula and Yun as my fave antagonist in the franchise. And he was talented and skilled, and a threat. But he is just not as powerful as some people make him out to be imo and that's it. Actual Top Tier Benders could eat him for breakfast.
#avatar the last airbender#the legend of korra#zaheer#avatar korra#tenzin#avatar aang#monk gyatso#kelsang
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