#I'm never going back there obvsly

[vasfasan]

fuck it, i'm in my season 5 era *stops going to the barber*

[apatheticlexicographer]

MOTHERFUCK i did not realize how much those antidepressants made me feel physically psychologically and dare i say spiritually like a peat mummy

literally 2 days off them and i've experienced more joy, lucidity, motivation and general good vibes than i did in the whole 2 months i was on them 😭😭

[klaipeda-witness]

Baselessly speculating about the implications of Lower Decks S5E9 Fissure Quest (spoilers obvsly)

Hearing Garak and Bashir's voices again saying new lines gave me a hit of serotonin that I'm gonna be surfing on for weeks. Alexander Siddig and Andrew Robinson both extremely still have the juice.

Garak hiding in the conduit in the wall is a callback to him having to go into the wall in the internment camp in By Inferno's Light, no? Crying screaming throwing up etc

Hologram Bashir a) exists and b) has a mobile emitter, meaning that he's from a universe where Bashir's secret was never exposed (or one where they have a more welcoming attitude towards the genetically enhanced?) but where Bashir was otherwise exactly the same, and either ended up as the medical hologram on Voyager or I guess they managed to make copies of the mobile emitter after Voyager got back to earth? (I actually haven't finished all of Voyager yet sorry :') )

How the fuck did Garak end up as a Star Fleet doctor. The things he says indicate that DS9 is otherwise the same, how did that even happen lol. How do you pick up surgery as an exiled spy and then get inducted into Star Fleet. And you might say hey, maybe he joined Star Fleet after he ended up in the multiverse, but the Harry Kims are all dressed like they were the day they got gabonked onto the ship! I think he came there dressed like that!! I love it though

And was he therefore a Star Fleet doctor on DS9??? Unfortunate place to station the federation's only cardassian doctor lol. And was Bashir still the CMO?? Is Bashir dead in Dr Garak's universe and so when the Bashir medical hologram showed up in the multiverse, Garak had a second chance to be with the person that he is cosmically tied to across all universes? And the hologram Bashir presumably didn't know who Garak was when they first met!!! Could someone please write a fic of that where Garak realises he gets the second chance he never thought was possible?

Actually, here's my theory as to how alt Garak could end up in Star Fleet: He asked Worf to sponsor his application to Star Fleet to fuck with him like he does in In Purgatory's Shadow but their universe's Worf was like "Okay"

Dr Garak is also a sweetie, I liked it when he was like "these Harry Kims are stronger than they look! He'll be fine". Sweetie behaviour.

"You do know I would follow you to any reality" I don't think I will ever recover

They kissed on the mouth for real

I love engineer Mariner, I hope she comes back for the finale.

Curzon!!!!! Curzon was there and he was a klingon weaboo!!!! That's how you know he was the real deal

There was the correct amount of Harry Kims on that ship. He's just a little guy

Garak seems like he would be good at racketball doesn't he. I think so at least

Such a good LD episode, can they please uncancel the show, my god. We need like 3 more seasons.

[ardenrabbit]

Did you delete the other antidote series? The one where Lance ended up being the one who was bit?

[falling to my knees in a very dramatic fashion]

Aaaaghdgjdhd so the answer is that I deleted it off AO3, but I'll repost it if you want. A while back, someone irl found my AO3 whom I did not want to find my AO3, and I panicked and deleted a bunch of stuff. Obvsly I could never delete Antidote, since it's how my wife and I met, but my work count went from like 21 to 8. I'm honestly never gonna finish Switch, but I'll put what I've done back up?

So basically, never ever ever ever ever go looking for someone's AO3 if they didn't offer it to you lol. That's a terrifying invasion of privacy ✌️ It's not cute or funny and you didn't win anything. (Not directed at you, anon, just. In general 😅 I might still be upset about it.) I'm sorry for freaking out about it and essentially punishing the people who liked those fics for someone else's decision. I'll put Switch back up as soon as I get the chance 💜

[danrifics]

re: amazingphil vs phil lester vs a secret 3rd thing. if phil is autistic like many of us autistic ppl (including myself) seem to think i dont think we'll ever see secret 3rd phil. obvsly for everyone social dynamics are a performance but i feel like for so many autistic ppl it's even more enhanced with a very keen awareness of who's watching you and what they expect at all times. essentially what i'm saying is that secret 3rd thing phil is unmasked phil who will never ever be on camera

yeah i hard agree with this like i think phil is much more private than dan even tho dan is pretty private and i think he keeps a certain part of himself back to keep it that way! and like without getting in to the autistic thing too much (people always have issue with it so we’re not fully going there rn) i have this other person i am with certain people cos it’s when i really get to be myself and i definitely think phil has that going on too and you’re right well probably never see that

and tbh the only time i think we get close is when he talks about anxiety and stuff like that i don’t think we’ll ever actually see that person

[moistvonlipwig]

FOR THE MEME obvsly i need to know your angel opinions and also buffy if u have any

yay :D

BUFFY:

The first character I first fell in love with: Queen C <3 The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: I truly have no answer for this question. There are characters I didn't vibe with on Buffy who I loved on Angel (see below) but I don't think anyone who stayed on Buffy rose in my estimation to a particularly surprising or impressive degree. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Oz, who is actually my least favorite Buffyverse character. He bores me and I think being boring is the worst offense a TV character can commit. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The character I love that everyone else hates: You know ten years ago I could've said Dawn and it would've been a good answer. For all that Buffy fandom on Tumblr has mutated in some ways I dislike, I am at least glad to say that Dawn no longer works as an answer to this question. ...Unfortunately that means I don't have an answer for this question lol. I like Riley okay, I think he's funny, but I don't love him and I think his arc goes to a deeply weird place after S4. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Giles. I first watched the show when I was 14 and I enjoyed Giles's snark. But as I've gotten older and become a whole adult I find myself liking him less and less. I have serious issues with how he treats Buffy and Xander and I admit to finding the whole Ripper backstory rather dull. I understand that he isn't actually supposed to be an ideal father figure, he's supposed to be flawed, etc., but his flaws are not ones I find terribly interesting and fandom's insistence on painting him as Buffy's awesome dad deeply grates on me.  The character I’d want to be like: I admire Anya's lack of shame, willingness to call out bullshit, and financial literacy. Otherwise, I wouldn't want to be like any of these people lol. The character I’d slap: And if I said Willow Rosenberg...? A pairing that I love: For all its many flaws and complications, and for all that I think some of its fans simply should not be allowed to speak on Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I do still harbor a deep affection for Spuffy, particularly in the end of S5/beginning of S6 era. A pairing that I despise: It's gotta be Bangel sorry Bangel mutuals/followers 😔 but I am trying to be nicer about it #livingandlearning

ANGEL:

The first character I first fell in love with: Cordelia Chase of course. The song remains the same. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: ANGEL my mans I thought he was sooo boring on Buffy lol and now he is my second favorite Buffyverse character <33333 love that guy!!! (But also Darla because she truly did nothing for me in Buffy S1 but she is so amazing on Angel.) The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Okay, so, I do like Fred. There are times (like in late S2, early S3, and the Jasmine arc) when I see potential in her for a really great and interesting character, and I think Amy Acker is actually the strongest actor in the cast. But a lot of the time she is written to be, like, the generic awkward nerdy waif character you see in every Whedon property, and I don't find that archetype terribly appealing. I also think the insistence on constantly sticking her into love triangles served her character really poorly, especially since I was never particularly convinced that she and any of her suitors actually knew each other very well. The character I love that everyone else hates: Connor fans RISE!!! The character I used to love but don’t any longer: When I first watched the show I really liked Lindsey in Seasons 1 & 2. I loved his sendoff episode and thought he was a great character. ...Then he came back.  The character I’d want to be like: I'm going to steal your answer and say Anne Steele because I truly do think she is probably the most aspirational hero in the Buffyverse. The character I’d slap: Disclaimer that I do love Wesley BUT I would slap him in late S5 after Fred dies and he starts acting like he is the only person who knew her even though they went on like one date. In particular I would slap him for stabbing Gunn which. Fuck you, man. You would've signed the paper too. A pairing that I love: Cangel obviously. But also Weslah. A pairing that I despise: Fresley my nemesis!!! >:[

[sun-ni-day]

Five Ships & Five Fandoms

Tagged by @eevylynn (obvsly I have shitton of them, so imma go with most recent ones i'm currently fixated on; order is random, not ranking)

Clark/Lois/Oliver/Chloe of Smallville: the more I rewatch, the more I see how perfectly that poly-relationship would fit into narrative.

Buck/Tommy of 9-1-1: Buck coming out as bi and falling in love with a man for the first time is a thing of pure beauty. And what a man!

Tarlos (TK+Carlos) of 9-1-1 Lonestar: canon gay ship between main characters on a procedural show and it's absolutely perfectly written? It's more likely than you think. Insane chemistry, complex love story development, no cliches... Just chef's kiss! (Bonus: playing a gay character (TK) and befriending his openly gay co-star (Carlos) encouraged Ronen to come out as bisexual).

Merthur (Merlin+Arthur) of Merlin: oh yes, I do love to torture myself, thanks for asking. Still, worth it. And Arthur will be back, OK? So says the prophesy!

Clois of Superman and Lois: parents-of-teenagers stage of their love story have never been shown on screen before - and it's beyond our wildest dreams. Chemistry is absolutely perfect, two people who've been together for almost two decades, know each other inside and out, trust each other completely, love fiercely and tenderly, no doubting your partner, no jealousy, no unnecessary relationship drama - AND on top of all that love their children and struggle with all the same things most parents do, same fears and doubts and mistakes... Perfect writing, stellar execution by actors, all around an absolute delight!

tagging @startrekmemequeen @massharp1971 @jennie-may @frostysfrenzy @fighting-naturalist

[noellewrxtes]

tag game! thank you for tagging @tantou! <3

Are you named after anyone ?

i am actually named after two people. my first name that i go by irl comes from a shakespeare character. and then my middle name is noelle and that comes a family tradition. for reasons, every generation there is a girl with the middle name noelle. i don't know how far back that goes but somewhere back in my family line was the original noelle.

What sports have you played ?

i ran track and cross country in middle school and played volleyball in high school, but i was not good at it. i was a good runner for track, but not a good digger or server for volleyball.

Do you use sarcasm ?

i have a very sarcastic sense of humor. i don't think it's actually a good thing, ha. i can be a bit too cutting and then i feel bad about myself.

What is the first thing you notice about people ?

i think just general vibe? people are intimidating to me so whether or not they seem like nice people is usually the first thing i pick out.

What’s your eye color ?

dark brown

Scary movies or happy endings ?

i've never really been big on scary movies, so happy endings.

Any talent ?

i think i'm a decent singer and i actually sketch really well with pencil and paper. digital art is weird so it doesn't always come through when i'm doing something digital. i've gotten better! but i still think my best work is by far paper and pencil.

What are your hobbies ?

writing obvsly. i don't have much free time rn but when i do i also like video games! i've been wanting to play hades so bad lately and i'm having to force myself to do other things instead so i don't fall behind. honestly though when i'm bored i usually default to writing.

Do you have any pets ?

i have a husky! and he is the best boy in the whole wide world and i love him to pieces and i will fight anyone who says huskies are bad dogs, they're not bad, they just need exercise. like, an obscene amount of exercise.

How tall are you ?

i am 5'10" or 178 cm, so relatively tall i think

Dream job ?

lawyer of course! genuinely i really really enjoy legal research and analysis. i'm a pretty analytical person anyway so breaking down the facts of a situation and the legal authorities to try and find the exact right angle to argue our side is a lot of fun to me. like, litigation is one of my favorite things to do. every time someone makes a new filing in a juicy lawsuit my day is made. the pure joy when someone files a counterclaim can keep me going for days.

tagging: oh gosh! @loving-that-officey-feel, @evaofkonoha, @chexennne, literally anyone who wants to!

[faemorningstar]

I've watched like. 5 episodes of the live-action Netflix AtLA series and i need to say. something

obvs spoilers under the cut and i won't put it under my usual atla tag

WHAT THEY DID TO BUMI'S CHARACTER WAS A DISGRACE

LIKE OBVSLY I UNDERSTAND IT BUT I STILL HATE IT

like. the new things that they add to the story do not make up for everything they took away

i get that they were scrapped for time but i hate how squashed and condensed the plot is in each episode, it feels like the story is cramped and can't breathe

and everyone keeps saying that Aang is just a goofy kid, but they never show him being goofy? he's just serious and wise all the time and it just. sucks the whimsy out of the story. the whole point of Aang being silly & goofy most of the time is to make the serious scenes more impactful and here they just... aren't. like honestly a lot of the emotional beats are just a miss for me.

I would have respected them more if they had let Gyasto tell Aang that he wouldn't let the other monks take him away!!! that was his best line in the show and taking it away changes his character!!!

and my god the scene where they show the Airbenders getting massacred in the first episode??? you fools it wasn't about the cool fight between airbenders and firebenders it was never about that!!!

i swear there are things i like about this series, i swear but...

the references to the running gags in the old show are funny but shallow

i did like the scene with Chong and the travelling musicians

i never liked The Great Divide episode so that was the only thing I was glad to see go

of course the cinematography is excellent

and I like that Azula, Mai & Ty Lee are fat

but it's just. so much of the bad stuff overpowers the good

am i going to keep watching the series? yeah, bc i'm stubborn like that, but then I'm going back to watch the original cartoon

[roublardise]

hi!!!!!!!!!! 10, 13, and 17 for spotify wrapped please please please <3

HIIIII THANK YOU 💕

10 - Rootless - MARINA

I've got nowhere to go I'm a stray cat on the roam Choking on a chicken bone For a home sweet, no sweet home

is it on my destiel fic playlist? obvsly... it's SUCH a castiel song to me he's a stray cat meow meow 😭

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13 - gold rush - Taylor Swift

At dinner parties I call you out on your contrarian shit And the coastal town We wandered 'round had never Seen a love as pure as it And then it fades into the gray of my day-old tea 'Cause it could never be

is it on my destiel fic playlist? it was in the first songs i added, and then i put it out bc i had too much taylor, and then i put it back on bc it really fits 😳

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17 - my tears ricochet - Taylor Swift

And you're the hero flying around saving face And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? Cursing my name Wishing I stayed

is it on my destiel fic playlist? i thought it wasn't but i just checked and it is 😭😭 other fun fact: this song has been on my wrapped every year since it came out

[dyketectivecomics]

Okay, have some #JustNightForceThings tonight bc i want to do ficlets with them too but i rlly should focus on this thread I've got for retrieval but i LOVE THOSE KIDS UGH

-Winters may’ve brought them together, but they def break away from his Mission™ and his manipulations. They totally ‘Put it to a vote’ when he has something Actually World-Endangering and only IF they all agree on the Not Trap quality of the mission

-bringing Eddie back onto the team bc they could totally use a heavy hitter that’ll actually hit things and also he deserves to hang out with them too!!!! (and Zach needs Someone who’ll Back Him Up) ((but lbrh, eddie only has his back half the time bc the Boi is an Idiot, but we love him))

-Zach gets a new, mission-relevant nickname every couple of weeks bc he Always finds something to fuck up & they tease him Mercilessly for it

-ofc Raven becomes the reluctant leader. she’s the only one who has long-term exposure to working on a team. but she's basically the horse in charge of a bunch of dogs, yknow. a slightly bigger child who can dial the phone a little better than the others its ok tho, bc acting mediator & esp making those Quick Decisions as a hero is what she’s been gearing up for Clearly. 

-Traci & Skye, chatting up every mystic they come across bc they LOVE meeting new ppl & bonding with them (and sometimes flirting with more than a few, you go girls Get It!)

-klarion & alice totally get up into Shenanigans. in fact, little less than half the time one or both of them are involved in whatever Disaster/Drama the team’s gotta deal with for the week. (Traci and Skye STILL won’t let them live down the Bursting Bubbling Brewing situation)

-when the JLD catches wind of them, they try to step in without being Too overbearing but they still kinda are. some mentorships offered. lots of places proposed for bases. more than a few team-ups i’ll get more on that some other time probably bc idk who else is actually interested in this 

[mevekagvain]

Chapter 351 - Rael's gonna get an error 404 at being called a comrade because he's never had friends before.

- Takeo's gonna break his teeth holding his bullets one day. It does look cool though so ig it's a worthy sacrifice.

- Gaitan not having any pupil or iris or whatever is just like a random detail the artist felt like doing. Maybe to match how M-21 doesn't have any while in ww mode either? At least in these chapters, he has them in later chapters. For M-21 I'm just gonna say his body is acting funky and his eyes are really rolled up, but for Gaitan I'll hc him as blind. He very obviously isn't canonically but 😶

Chapter 352 - Gaitan not getting angry when taunted is just 🥺 Just "yeah that was my bad anyway back to killing you <3 ". Grui and Gaitan have a similar loud and calm dynamic as Urokai and Zarga but you can also still see they're diff ppl so I'm glad.

- Aaand Takeo and Tao's eyes have also rolled back to reveal only whites as they increase their pain power output. I just feel like not being able to see is also a bit of a debuff for these guys but okay.

Chapter 353 - A tiny pupil appeared on Gaitan's eyeball but I'm deigning to ignore it <3

Chapter 354 - Regis I'm not sure if honour and werewolves was a concept a millennia ago, much less now.

- I would never be down for modification but bring able to shoot lazer beams is cool lol. Useless, but cool.

- Hi Raizel.

Chapter 355 - You better believe it Maduke. Muzaka being alive is all Ignes Roctis and 9th's doing. The rest of the Union knew jack shit.

- This is one killer look.

- If Noblesse wasn't published weekly meaning that the creators were rushed and overworked and barely able to do the minimum, I'd go on about the symbolism of this panel. It was though so it's likely just a coincidence so I'll only state that it's cool that the cloud of debris looks like a fur coat/cape.

Chapter 356 - Muzaka vs Raizel round 2: Electric Boogaloo. I say this because Raizel backs off immediately.

- Muzaka wondering why tf he's being called a traitor like idk maybe you beat up some wws while you were sleepwalking 820 years ago bro. But yeah Maduke and his ilk just made shit up. Though you could say he is a genuine traitor since most wws apparently are big fans of genocide and he isn't which goes against them and etc etc etc but that's obvsly bs so.

- Rip Grui. Cut cleanly in half.

- Muzaka's ww form eyebrows make me think horns or insect antennae. He's basically Muar 2.0 design wise.

Chapter 357 - Cool, under Gaitan's left arm is a robot arm. So is the skin on top of it fake or real or what?

- I always found it utterly hilarious that Muzaka told Raizel that he wasn't allowed to kill his family but then he went and killed them himself ajjsksks. Like I get why but it's still funny. Imagining Raizel just thinking "why did you stop me if you were just going to do it yourself???"

Chapter 358 - So Lunark and Kentas have met Muzaka before, as children is said outright and presumably at the same time is what seems to be the implication. Which... yeah they really do seem related.

- Frankenstein, Karias, and Seira turning up late...I think they went and had a nice long chat over cake at some cafe before arriving.

- Raizel sighing because of Muzaka and Frankenstein in the same chapter... he'd never treat his family like this thankfully. If he did sigh because of his brother I think he'd be bullied.

Chapter 359 - I like how despite Frankenstein doing petty acts towards him, Muzaka is still all "Glad to see you bro <3 ". Which makes sense since that's how he is @ Raizel too but it's funnier with Frankenstein who's mad at him.

- Muzaka is like a distant but affectionate uncle to Kentas and Lunark.

- Wow way to hurt my feelings there Muzaka. "You're no longer alone... I guess I don't have to worry anymore." Who do you think you are? Ashoka? I don't carry around tissues.

[neverendingdream111]

Sk8 found family brainrot time

(I've recently finished watching it and I'm in love with this idea)

-> ok I'm a sucker for our catboy Miya, ngl

-> so let's start here

-> imagine it was his b-day, he woke up somewhat excited bc everyone loves this one special day of the year

-> he walks to the kitchen, his parent are eating breakfast and continuing with their routine as usual on a work day

-> his excitement dies slightly bc they didn't even realize he was there

-> it's basically canon at this point that his parents are assholes and care only about his fame

-> so he reluctantly enters the kitchen and greets them, meekly adding that it's his b-day a few minutes later

-> they try to mask their surprise with wishing him happy birthday and saying that they'll buy him a present after work

-> he barely manages to contain the scoff bc he knows they'll probably have to stay overtime

-> turns out he was right

-> he kind of expected it tbh, it's not like they don't do it every year

-> anyway, he went to school like he normally would, and since he doesn't have many friends (if he has any) nothing was out of ordinary

-> a bit gloomy, he came home seeing that no one was back yet

-> so he sat down at his desk and started doing his homework

-> just as he was finishing he got a message from Reki that all of them are meeting at Joe's restaurant before going to "S"

-> he replied with "See you there" and closed his books, going to the kitchen to make himself something to eat (some leftovers from yesterday's dinner and a protein bar)

-> it was dark already when he left

-> when he arrived, it was oddly dark inside and so he called out if anyone was there

-> suddenly, the lights were turned on, blinding him for a second, and in the next he heard a loud "SURPRISE!" along with some popping sounds (prbbly confetti)

-> when he opened his eyes, he saw that the tables were arranged mostly to the sides of the small space in the restaurant, except for one in the middle on which was a cake decorated just like his skateboard with sprinkles on top

-> everyone was standing next to it with grins on their faces

-> he was too stunned to realize he was crying, only noticing it when they started asking him if something was wrong and Reki came closer, seriously worried that something bad happened

-> Miya started furiously wiping his face, but the tears just wouldn't stop coming

-> "s-stupid slime! Of course I'm okay!" he wasn't

-> no one ever, and I mean ever, have prepared a surprise party for him, and the whole situation with his parents just made him more, well, emotional

-> they all just laughed it off and hugged him (family hug!!! they even forced Kaoru, tho he did beat Joe up later for that)

-> Miya even got a small birthday hat with a pompon on top (they bought it as a joke, though his inner child and cat wasn't complaining, especially about the pompon)

-> then it was time for the cake and, after he made a wish, Joe was assigned to cut it into pieces and then they sat down, talking about everything that came to mind

-> they almost forgot about the presentssss!!!

-> Reki gave him some wheels for his skateboard specifically designed by him, along with one or two mini-skateboards that he sometimes plays with

-> Langa, being the confused bean that doesn't really know what people would like to get, bought him a small black and purple keychain in a shape of a cat and a figurine of said animal (when the others asked why, he said that Miya sometimes gives off cat-energy and tho he got an earful from the boy he still didn't change his mind as he should)

-> the best uncle in the world, Shadow, gave him sweets and other kinds of junk food, bc he thinks that Miya should live a little and stop eating those goddamn protein bars

-> Cherry is rich, we all know that, so he got him a new videogame (cue to Kojiro arguing with him, but who's surprised at this point?)

-> and Joe gave him cookies (baked by him obvsly) and some new headphones (even though they weren't from the top shelf, they were good enough to not break in a week of using or so, and also they looked stylish so why not)

-> all in all, Miya was so touched he almost cried again

-> he kind of let it slip that he never had a party like this and in the emotional moment didn't deny that he truly felt grateful for having them

-> yes, that's right, that's Shadow crying while hugging the poor boy

-> this day may have started and somehow turned into one of the worst days in the entire year, but in the end it just helped him realize that he got really attached to these idiots that were now arguing about God-knows-what

-> and he wouldn't trade this family for anything in the world

*cries*

26.04.21

~Nana

[pugszler]

present mic, toga, midoriya, jirou, & todoroki ❤️❤️❤️

present mic: last time u screamed

not sure about screaming but i did some anguished shouting this past weekend bc i found out some major manga spoilers for bungou stray dogs that for some ungodly reason i hadn't heard about yet lmao i am. in mourning........

toga: what do u wish was socially acceptable but isn’t

errr... i'm sure there's plenty of interesting and thought-provoking answers i could potentially come up with for this question but my brain is empty rn so i'm going w a basic dumb answer. honestly wish i didn't have to worry so much about how other ppl would see me if i were to bare my very hairy unshaved legs out in public. :( i love wearing shorts but i can't remember the last time i was either brave enough or hairless enough to wear shorts in public. :(

midoriya: who/what did you idolize as a kid and in what way have they let you down

tbh i genuinely don't think i've ever been the type of person who has idolized Anyone in my life?? like back in grade school when they told us to write essays about someone we look up to or saw as a personal hero i never fucking knew what to do for those essays bc i never rlly admired anyone in that way and i still don't think i do? idk that prob sounds rlly weird... i blame my trust issues lmao. anyway if i had to answer i'd say my dad but i'll leave it at that bc yeeesh i don't want to dig into that stuff rn.

jirou: OK whats ur secondary passion that u had to put on the back burner and u kinda angst about low key but actually high key

yknow at first i thought this question was super confusing and absolutely indecipherable to me but now i'm like ohhhh i get it. and i think that in my case my choices for what i wanted to major in when i was in university explains it perfectly. cause i ended up majoring in information science (literally the study of information and what we do w it) bc one of my biggest passions in life is organizing shit if that makes any sense? i just. love organization. and like originally i wanted to major in library science since that's technically a part of info science (or... info science is a part of lib science? i forgot which it is, it's one or the other but they're super connected subjects) but would have required me going to grad school and i was like lol fuck no. so i went w the undergrad option of info science. ANYWAY.......... i chose info science... but i also really REALLY wanted to major in linguistics. that's my answer. i Adore learning about languages in a broad sense (and also in a specific sense but fuck man... learning a secondary language is difficult af and it takes way too much time and energy so i doubt i'll ever be fluent in any other language besides english unfortunately). like i love listening to foreign languages and learning about their differences w other languages and GRAMMAR omg... i Do love grammar lmao. english (grammar) was literally my fave subject in grade school (not the literature part tho lmao. i liked reading and writing a lot but i hated the historical critical thinking parts of english class lmao books suck). and like... i just think about how different my life could be/have been if i focused All of my attention on learning about linguistics or english (cause w the latter i could have also potentially dove into the world of professional writing or hell maybe even creative writing!) like i legit think i would have become such a different person than who i am today if i had prioritized those interests of mine instead of info science/technology subjects. and obvsly i still have a passion for languages today! but... it really is kind of a secondary thing in a weird way. like i love it all a lot... but i'm not an expert about any of it at all really. i never put in the effort to really study those fields even tho i still wish i could... but rn it'd be extremely difficult for me to try paying more attention to those interests of mine in my life currently. it's hard to handle much at all these days... so yeah. :( it really is a back burner kind of passion of mine.

todoroki: tell me right now what’s making u sad and I (the asker) will fight it for you

hahaha there are so many things that make me sad :) but ugh i guess one of my main concerns rn is my body and how it looks and how i feel about it. i have always been extremely self conscious about my appearance and i genuinely have never thought of myself as attractive neither to myself or other people. i'm ugly as fuck and i'm NOT happy or proud about it. i hate it. i want to like my body. and... i really want other ppl to like my body too... (or at least just me in general...) i want ppl to think i'm attractive. i want to look pretty and beautiful and sexy. i legit want ppl to desire me carnally. but for the life of me i CANNOT figure out how to un-uglify myself!!! no matter what i do to tidy myself up or try to look pretty it just never fucking works. and it makes me so fucking sad that i can't do such a simple thing... just working w my body to dress how i like, style my hair how i like, accessorize how i like... i can't do it and it makes me feel so pathetic and sad.

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June, 1976 (WITT One-Shot)

A/N: If you want to remain in the taglist pls interact with this one-shot even if you haven’t read book 4-5 yet. A like or a comment is fine, the people who don’t want to continue reading obvsly do not interact and I’ll delete from the taglist :) -Danny

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Emily was tired, but she'd spent all day overthinking and she was done, it was time to grow up.

She could hear Lily Evans' voice ushering Severus Snape away, he'd been coming around for several hours during the day trying to apologize, but he'd finally crossed a line.

"It's not your fault, you know?"

Matthew's voice caught her attention, he'd stopped at the foot of the stairs, one hand propped on the wall.

"Snape and Evans have been fighting for months now, I think it's because of what he's been doing with the Slytherins... you know, the cult stuff."

Emily averted her gaze to the fireplace.

"I know..."

Matthew hesitated, he'd promised himself that he wouldn't go back to being Emily's therapist, but something was different this time, it wasn't her usual kind of sulking.

"Are you okay?"

She looked at him over her shoulder and frowned.

"I'm not the one who got called 'mudblood' by a close friend."

"No, you weren't," He admitted. "Which is why it's so strange to see you all sad."

"I'm not sad."

"Is this about James?"

He didn't want to know, but alas, he'd asked.

"No," She made a face. "I don't think I care about him that way anymore."

"It's easier said than done," Matthew crossed his arms, his shoulder now leaning on the archway of the stairs.

"What do you want, Ruddy?" Emily groaned.

"I don't want anything from you," The boy replied. "But I have the feeling that you need to talk."

"I do," She said. "Not with you, though."

Matt nodded, he sighed.

"Good luck, then, have a good night."

"'Night."

Emily watched him disappear up the stairs, she didn't know why, but the memory of his burning gaze before he kissed her came back then, his intense determination as he held her closer... That moment Emily had found herself unable to move away, to say no. She wished she had his courage to just do stuff even when he was intimidated by them, she needed that kind of bravery tonight.

Lily Evans entered the tower two minutes later, Emily stood up abruptly and the redhead came to a halt.

For a moment none of them spoke, then Lily's face showed tons of fatigue.

"What now? Is it your turn to call me a stuck-up bore because I didn't agree to go out with Potter?"

Emily shifted her weight from one foot to the other.

"Can we talk?" She asked shyly. "I promise it's not a trick... I'm sorry."

Emily's behaviour towards her was usually hostile, tonight her voice was gentle, and even a little afraid.

"You're sorry?"

"I don't expect you to believe me," Emily continued, lowering her gaze. "I know you and Snape were close — I don't understand how can you like him... listen I suck at apologies, can't you just say it's alright so we can go to bed?"

Lily crossed her arms, standing straighter.

"No, I think I want you to try harder."

Emily groaned, she sat down heavily and started to think her words carefully, Lily inched closer.

"Boys can be cruel when they're not thinking — Anyone, really... I've been brutal myself — Matthew and I almost stopped being friends a few months ago, because I don't like talking about my feelings," She laughed dryly. "I don't know what is it about today that it just... I don't want to be a tormentor my whole life, let alone to someone who is... tolerable. I'm sorry for making your life a living hell these past few years."

Lily sat down, although she kept the seat between them empty to keep some distance.

"You didn't make my life a living hell," She replied. "I... can admit you're a bit clever... even likeable — that last match when you threw Lewis a bludger after he called you a midget... it was kind of funny."

"The boys walked me everywhere that week, they thought Ernest was going to try and get back at me," Emily bit her lip, but she was now smiling. "I mean, I lived in fear for days! Thinking he would spike my drink at some point with poison or something... Until Matthew cornered him outside D.A.D.A. class one day, poor Lewis... he looked so small in comparison..."

"Anyone looks small next to Matthew, he's a giant," Lily grinned. "Well, if it's any consolation, I was planning on murdering you in a much classier manner than poison, but since you've apologized, I guess I won't have to kill you after all."

Emily snorted, her eyes lingered on Lily, who looked like she'd been crying for most of the day, and yet still had enough energy to sit down and talk with the girl she'd detested for the last four years.

"Why are you being nice?" She asked in annoyance. "I mean I'm glad you're kind of accepting my apology, but I thought you'd be a bit colder, walking away before I could even finish..."

"What kind of person do you think I am?" Lily raised a brow, with the orange light coming from the fireplace her green eyes looked far more intense than usual. "If I'm honest, you should thank Remus... he's tried to convince me that you lot are far better than you look..."

Emily sighed, when she was young she'd do mischief for fun, but now that she was older, and considering all the weird stuff that was happening outside the school, she was starting to think that maybe her group of friends were indeed changing for the best.

"I'm going to be honest with you too, Evans," The girl took a deep breath. "Being the only girl in my friend group is turning out to be pure torture. I'm in desperate need of a girlfriend."

Lily's mouth twitched a bit, but she didn't laugh.

"What makes you think I want to be your friend?"

"Oh, I don't think you want to," She raised a brow. "But maybe if we're on good terms I'd be able to ask you for a tampon without having to swallow my pride first."

Lily did laugh at this, she shook her head. "Holy Merlin, Sultens, you're loopy."

"You would be too if you were seated next to Sirius every day!" She paused. "So... are you willing to make peace?"

Lily examined her carefully, four long years of quarrels sat between them, but a lifetime of friendship could be ahead if Emily was truly sorry. She was a nice girl, and really smart too, she was annoying only when she was taunting Severus, and he was no longer her friend.

Lily stretched out her hand.

"Very well, but if you go back the deal is over and we'll be less than strangers, understood?"

"Sure."

She retreated her hand before Emily could grab it.

"Hang on — this is not Potter's idea, right? You're not trying to be my friend just so I date him later?"

"Lily, if anything I hope you and James never date," Emily snickered. "Nothing personal, you're just way too good for him."

"...Alright."

They shook hands, she'd meant what she said about it not being personal. James was a boy, a very silly one at that, and even though they were really close friends, Emily was no longer a blind supporter of his doings.

Funnily enough, this seemed to be related to Matthew, she couldn't stop thinking about that kiss! Merlin, he was a good kisser...

She shook the thought away, now was not the time for nonsense.

"I'm very honoured to be your acquaintance, Evans," Emily grinned.

"Call me Lily. Only Professors call me Evans... and Potter, but you know I hate that."

"Got it, Lils."

July 1996

"...I don't think this is right," Mel tilted her head. "Brownies are mean to be brown... not pitch-black."

"You burned them," Harry was standing behind them with his arms crossed, clearly upset.

"How could you burn them, Erick? They were in there for five minutes!"

"Are you sure..." Erick stabbed the mixture with a knife and made a face. "Ugh — they're still liquid in the middle!"

"How the fuck did you do this?"

"I thought it would work just the same if I doubled the heat and put less time," Erick sulked. "Ovens are weird."

"This is why we told you to stay out of it," Harry replied. "You don't know how muggle stuff work."

"I do know!"

"Then why did you burn the brownies?"

"Don't fight," Mel intervened, grabbing the platter and throwing its contents away. "Oh well, at least we ruined my birthday cake and not someone else's..."

"That's not okay," Harry frowned. "You should have a proper cake."

Mel looked at him and grinned. "I'll eat yours, then."

"How's everything going in here?" Emily walked in, behind her Lupin followed.

"Uncle Lu!" Mel rushed over to his side and hugged him, the man chuckled. "You came!"

"Well, hadn't been around for your birthday in a long time, I thought you'd like it," He said, lovingly patting her back.

"I do," She beamed. "We kind of ruined the cake, though, so we should buy doughnuts or something."

"It's a good thing I brought this, then," Lupin lifted his bag and placed it on the table, inside there was a beautifully adorned red velvet cake.

"You just saved my birthday!"

Harry and Erick shared a moody expression and grumbled complaints, Lupin laughed.

"The kids insisted on doing the cakes this year," Emily explained. "I told them it was not an easy job, but they insisted."

"Mel and I have done this before, Erick was the one who wanted to be in charge when he can't even make tea without magic," Harry glared at him.

"Muggles stuff are too complicated, alright?" He huffed.

"I don't mind," Mel said without paying attention to them, she was still beyond happy with her uncle's presence. "I wanted to give my mum a break, Leggie's been a bit hard to handle lately..."

"Is he?" Lupin looked at the little boy Emily was holding. "Is he ill?"

"No, he just cries a lot," The woman sighed. "Wakes us up every night."

"I thought that forcing my mother to bake when she's clearly too tired to be doing anything apart from feeding a baby was a crime," Mel stated. "So I took care of it."

"Then Flint messed it up," Harry taunted.

"And then you fixed it, Uncle Moony," The girl smiled. "So there's no harm done, right boys?"

She looked over her shoulder, raising a brow as if urging them to stop bickering before they embarrassed her in front of Lupin. Both mumbled their agreement, not quite meeting her eyes.

"Lovely," Mel looked back at the adults. "Who wants lunch?"

Mel and Erick were in the kitchen talking in hurried whispers, she appeared to be upset, the young man too. Emily and Remus were in the drawing-room, Harry was upstairs changing Reg's diaper.

"Do you know why they're arguing?" Remus asked, staring at the pair.

"Dumbledore came by this morning before breakfast," Emily sighed, leaning her head back on the couch. "Talked about this mission he had for Erick — you know how eager to help that boy is... so of course the old man came and put his offer on a silver platter, and Mel won't let Erick go on his own, so being the generous soul Dumbledore is," She said sarcastically, "He said she could go too if she wanted to."

"Really?" Remus frowned. "Well... he's been giving her lessons for years, Mily, perhaps he knows she can handle it."

"I don't care," She said bluntly. "That's my daughter, my daughter. Matt's daughter. How can he continue to risk my family's life like it's nothing?"

"You know Matthew did all he that because he wanted to, Dumbledore had nothing to do with his decisions."

"I know," Emily took a deep breath. "But he's got a lot to do with Mel's... she idolizes him."

"You think so?" The man looked over his shoulder again, staring at his goddaughter.

"I don't see why else she'd be so keen to follow his orders..."

"Maybe because she feels guilty?" Remus offered. "After what happened in the ministry..."

Emily pressed her lips together, she didn't want to talk about that.

"That's not her fault and she knows it. I told her it wasn't."

"You weren't there," He said gravely. "She went out of control. I had never seen anything like it, her magic was dark— I mean that literally. All the spells she did came out pitch-black. Dumbledore was the only one who could put a stop to it."

Emily's eyes grew worried, she looked over her shoulder as well and her gaze landed on Mel.

"You think it could be the same thing that Ariana Dumbledore had? That disease?"

"No one knows what happened to her," Remus said. "Not even Matthew knew, and he was part of the family... but it could be. Maybe Dumbledore knows something we don't, maybe this will help her... perhaps she needs this."

Emily stayed silent for a moment, then she groaned.

"I hate that we're always meant to trust him blindly."

"He's lived a hundred years, he might be wiser than all of us, don't you think?"

The woman scoffed, she looked ahead, deep in thought.

"A hundred years... Matthew couldn't even make it to twenty-one! James and Lily barely did... Sirius spent twelve years in Azkaban — But at least we all knew how the war looked like then, Remus. We fought for years... my daughter just turned sixteen, she still goes to school!"

"And yet she's already done her fair amount of fighting," The man raised a brow. "We didn't have the experiences she's gone through when we were her age. I stand with Dumbledore, she can do this."

"I'm not saying she can't," Emily grabbed the empty plates to take them to the kitchen. "I'm saying she shouldn't have to sacrifice her youth. Dumbledore asks for too much, I'm sure he's got someone else that could help him with the mission, but he's obsessed with making Mel his perfect copy."

Remus didn't try to argue back, little could convince Emily at this point, she'd never been a fan of Dumbledore, and after Matt's death it was no secret that she openly disliked him, but she still followed his orders, because she knew Dumbledore was the only chance they had to win this war.

Mel and Erick entered the room, neither of them angry, which made Remus think they had reached an agreement.

"I should leave," The man stood up. "Leon's been quiet, maybe Harry managed to make him sleep."

"Or maybe he's just playing with him," Emily stood up as well. "Really, I never thought Harry would get so attached to a baby..."

"I'll miss you, Uncle Lu, I hope to see you soon," Mel said, her eyes avoiding to look into Erick's direction.

"Me too, little Em," Remus hugged her tightly, he whispered in her ear. "Be good to your mother, alright?"

Mel looked at him with confusion, but she nodded anyway.

"So?" Emily crossed her arms. "What are you going to do?"

The young witch stared at her mother, Remus knew that expression. It was true and very strange, how she could have her dad's gaze even though her eyes were exactly like her mother's, but he knew that look, he'd seen it in Matt the last time they had spoken. Mel was done being a kid.

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MY OPINION ON MADE IN ABYSS SO FAR BECAUSE IM BORED AND I WANNA TALK ABOUT SHOWS N STUFF I LIKE

Ok so i am fully caught up with the manga now and i wanted to talk abt it, maybe i'll do smth similar with other shows and stuff i like because i dunno it's fun to do.

Spoiler warning eep oop

Ok so lemme start with the anime (only season 1 is out atm):

I absolutely adore it. The secenery iss stunning and mmmmh the music holy badoly it slaps. Everything gives you this sense of longing and adventure which, well is the whole point of it. Just as the cave raiders are sucked into the abyss by sheer curiosity and a longing for the unknown so was i. The animation is really neat, and i don't think there was a single point while watching where i was bored or distracted (which is rare for me ngl). I really enjoyed most of the voice acting aswell, and oompf. They delivered in atmosphere. I mentioned the sense of adventure and longing but the emotional/painful scenes are so so immersive. Lemme tell you i didn't cringe and feel with a character this hard in a long time. The whole thing with Mitty loosing her humanity and Nanachi finally being able to kill her to save her dignity was extremely sad.

Overall i adored it, and i think it does almost everything right. Obvsly it's not perfect, nothing is, but i'd say as an adaptation it is amazing.

Ok so now the 3rd movie. Basically it's like madoka magica as in there are 2 movies that are a recap of the whole show and a 3rd one that is a continuation (ok with pmmm its a bit wonky as to wether or not it's canon but with the mia one it is)

Hmm i'm very mixed tbh. So the movie encompasses about 12 chapters of the manga i think. Basically, i feel like it should have been a bit longer. But i also feel like that would have made it boring.

I was very confused at somw parts but now that i read the manga i think i get it.

Bondrewd is a strange one. My friend said he was dissappointed because he heard he's gonna be a terrifying villain but he didnt find him that way at all.

And indeed he was a lot nicer than i thought he was gonna be. But obviously he's not nice and fucked up what the fuck. I feel like they left out a few details from the manga which led to some parts being a bit outta nowhere/confusing...

But in the end Bondrewd is pretty creepy considering everything. I just don't fully understand how Nanachi kinda forgave him in the end??? Like, yeah he's praising them and is really nice to them but??? Come on?? Did they forget about Mitty? I...can someone exblain i genuenly don't understand how Nanachi could be so okay with it.

Uh but the animation and music are god tier once more.

Ok so now about made in abyss in general/the manga:

I adore the story. In the end it's, well, an adventure anime but the setting and story make it so very unique. The worldbuilding is great and hrrng i adore the creature and character designs a lot. There obviously is a lot of thought and care put into this.

I love the concept of ascending from thee abyss being harder and harder the further down you go. Yes, they're going on this adventure to the bottom of the abyss, but you also can't help to be kinda sad about the fact that they'll never be able to go up again.

I love the characters, a lot of them are pretty unique. Speaking of them, lemme go over some of them:

Riko: Ok so she's the MC and tbh. She's adorable, and i think the best choice for a main character. She's adventurous, eager to learn and find out more about the abyss. She knows a lot and is smart, but since she's a child also naive and well, kinda weak physically because she's just a human child.

Reg: Reg is wholesome but i'm kinda conflicted about him. Like i certainly don't dislike him but as someone in the manga said: He's kind of like a dog. I don't think he's a bad character but i'm not the biggest fan of "i need to protect you" characters if that makes sense?? Also some of the running jokes are kinda dumb ngl

Nanachi: Mmh i love floofy bunny. They are pne of my fave characters design whise. I also adore how they are a lot more knowlegable and less naive despite probably being kinda stuck looking like back when they became a Narehate.

Ozen: I love. Her. Hhhhhhh tall woman go brrr. She is irredeemably bad. You could mark it off as very tough love but let's be honest it's a little too tough even for that. She's a white whistle and honestly? I love how they've been portrayed so far. While they are national Legends, being able to go down as deep into the abyss as they please and enduring horrible challenges, they're not portrayed like heroes or nice people. Because let's be honest even if you're a 2m tall lady who can pulverize rock you 1. Still will get a mental toll from all the things that go down in the abyss and the pain from ascending and 2. I doubt you'd come far if you just were a nice, fair and friendly person.

That said, the only thing i don't like abt her is how she's portrayed a bit too sadistic towards children in the small side comic strip thingies. Like jeez i know it's supposed to be comedy but come on.

Ozen looks rlly cool tho and her design slaps so much, i also love how women and men aren't really seen as different too much as in who can and can't become a good cave raider.

Also i love her VA like the deep voice thing? Also her back? That's kinda funny and it adds smth to her design and character when she's just hunched over like some vulture.