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I keep clenching my jaw for literally no reason and it's driving me crazy 🥲
#like what do i have to be stressed about rn#I'm literally doing nothing#have no real commitments#all the free time#why is my body acting like it's stressed#ugh
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Executive, we are not functioning
#Most days I genuinely love that I have Autism and ADHD#a lot of self acceptance work went into that#right now I will say it is fruatrating#i have been sitting here wanting to do 3 tasks#thinking about the tasks#but I cannot get my brain to tell my body to get up and do them#I'm literally doing nothing#not even Animal Crossing#Because at least that'd be productive
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shen jiu's brother is exposing STERNOCLEIDMASTOID ALSO KNOWN AS THE SCM (PICTURED IN DRAWING) in addition to being implied to be exposing THE JUGULAR NOTCH BETWEEN HIS TWO CLAVICLES (COLLARBONES) SOMETIMES ALSO REFERRED TO AS THE CLAVICLE THOUGH IT IS OUT OF FRAME for every beast on the peak??? like some kind of harlot????
#svsss#shenbros#update: i know the muscles on the muscles on the neck are not the clavicle#(and knew that upon making the post)#the description was intended to be pithy and funny not an accurate description of the post#thank you for trying to inform me. there is literally nothing i can do other than delete the post at this point though#if you have rbed the unedited ver it will always be the unedited ver and everyone who rbs from you will also share the unedited ver#it will unfortunately continue to piss you off. i'm sorry.#i'm also sorry if the updated caption is rude.#danart
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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess
#ramble#ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so#i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion#i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party#i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is#basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft#like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering#and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it#i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear#but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them#and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs#but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT#and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird#idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it#like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going#recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know#maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel#hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible#i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask
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thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:
the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)
it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.
"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)
as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.
that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.
#tl;dr the demon is a metaphor about dissociation and trauma and it's doing its job thematically fucking pitch perfectly that way the end#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age meta#this mission is like ds9 the wire in terms of episodes you really can examine from a thousand different angles#and find something new and soulcrushingly sad every time. exactly my kind of episode in other words#whenever people say there's nothing to him but coffee and spite jokes some small part of me goes 'oh I'm so incredibly sorry!#it must be really hard and so impractical to go through life without being able to read :'( get better soon'#is that very nice of me. perhaps not. is the writing here *perfect*? of course not. but some people are also dedicated to being#wilfully blind (presumably b/c they would have preferred to see something else?? idk man)#lucanis' reaction to taash going 'I'm sorry I'm such a bad crow :'('... he could NEVER do what caterina did with him no matter what#you just can't use him like that. he needs the clean family/enemy/contract distinction or you just break him!!!#caterina literally what are you thinking. every day I ask myself this. (probably 'the only other option that keeps the seat in the family#is illario. so that's right out of course' lmao)#god forbid it happen anytime soon if it should happen b/c there's Stuff that needs working through first lol but he'd be such a soft dad
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delete me
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let's try this again
@jumalanpelko fanart !!!!! suncat!!!!! i hope she is still recognizable after so much rendering w random colors!!
#jumalanpelko#suncat#art#artists on tumblr#jumalanpelkofanart#jumalanpelko fanart#e_e_#everything everything#choice mountain#arc#music art#music#cw dead animal#<- the fish not suncat#starlingfawn's art#2025#cw body horror [maybe??... just to be safe]#HITS YOU WITH THE SALMON MOTIF!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE SALMON BEING USED IN SYMBOLISM#I LOVE SALMON THEY'RE SO COOL AND EPIC AND AWESOME!!!!#i finally read this comic because i'd get updates of it in my dash constantly and i didn't want to have the whole thing spoiled so yeah!!#it was such a fun read!! the characters and world are literally so interesting and the artstyle is so unique and cool....#suncat <3333 i sure hope nothing bad happens to her#i do not know how cat bones work... i tried referencing an image but i still thing i fucked her up i'm so sorry...#this took me like 3 days.#i drew the entire thing [except the fish for whatever reason] on one layer. in the same layer as the sketch.#why? no idea i enjoy suffering and i want to get better at not having three thousand layers which is working actually....
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Now I have to ask- WHY do you hate Pacific Rim?
Okay, fair warning, this is about as bitter and salty and small-minded as day-old caviar. But. My bitter, salty (probably fishy) opinion:
Pacific Rim is only a good movie because it's a well-written story about robots punching monsters.
That's it. That's all there is to the movie.
I started out merely disappointed by Pacific Rim. We went gaga for the preview materials that promised these unique well-rounded character pairs and trios with these idiosyncratic robots from all these different Pacific nations... And then the movie itself is about some bland white American guy who pilots a robot named a racial slur, the second most fleshed-out team is bland white Australian guys, and the Chinese team is there, kind of, in the background, but don't worry they're going to die first. The "character-driven story" turned out to be "various characters take turns punching aliens" but, sure, whatever, I love the MCU so why not.
The day I went from "Pacific Rim is overrated" to "Pacific Rim is the worst thing that has ever happened to human civilization, I'm extremely normal about this" was the day I saw a Tumblr post suggesting we replace the Bechdel test with the Mako Mori test. Because Mako Mori has her own plot and doesn't kiss North Carolina at the end, making her a whole new type of feminist icon.
To which I was like:
We are talking about the same movie here, right? The Pacific Rim that can't even pass the Bechdel test? The Pacific Rim that's all about might-makes-right, the Pacific Rim that has ONE speaking role for ONE female character in its (from IMDB) 50-person cast? The Pacific Rim that repeatedly puts its only female character in danger and has her rescued by first Idris Elba then North Carolina? THAT Pacific Rim?
Is there a different Mako Mori I haven't met? Because the one I've seen a) has a character arc driven by deciding whether to obey her father or follow her heart, which is as inoffensive and stale as an unblessed communion wafer, b) does nothing that Ellen Ripley didn't do 30 years earlier, but with about 5% of the character depth Ripley got, and c) stands there in silence looking sad as two men punch each other over the question of her virtue.
Any post assuming this movie invented the idea of "small Asian woman kicks monster ass" needs to learn its damn history. Especially the ones acting like her being physically small is somehow a feminist bonus. There's something embarrassingly ahistorical about the whole thing.
And look. I get how we got here. I know how easily Tumblr backs you into a rhetorical corner of "calling a story Good can never mean merely 'enjoyable'; calling a story Good must mean 'virtuous'". Until next thing you know you're arguing that actually, shipping Obi-Wan/Darth Vader is a net good for all of society, because gay divorced middle-aged tyrants who use supplemental oxygen and murdered their exes in a custody dispute over the one kid (out of two) they actually care about deserve to see themselves in sci fi too! You only end up in that corner because half the time you're arguing against someone who says that shipping Obi-Wan/Darth Vader is literally the same thing as supporting father-son incest, so your real reasons for shipping them (1. foe yay, 2. old man yaoi) seem wildly insufficient.
Much of what I see about Pacific Rim seems neck-deep in the "it's not allowed to be a Good Movie unless it single-handedly dismantles the patriarchy" fallacy. There's nothing progressive about shipping two dudes best known for chopping off each other's body parts with laser swords. And there's nothing progressive about a movie having its only female character hug the male protagonist at the end instead of kissing him. You're allowed to like a thing just because it's well-made, without acting like a bog-standard normatively-broey action flick somehow invented a new form of feminism. Anyway, "Pacific Rim is a perfectly fine movie" is the hill I will die upon, heretical though it may be.
#nothing to do with animorphs#pacific rim negativity#sci fi#feminism#tumblr fallacies#incest mention#if you like movies where the female supporting character hugs the male protagonist at the end instead of kissing him#may i suggest: star wars jurassic park the abyss the day the earth stood still x-men logan's run aliens & about 400 others#however — in pacific rim's defense — imdb says there is one (1) additional female cast member#who plays Pleasant Docile Female AI Voice in the computer of Racial Slur: The Mech Suit (so it's got that going for it)#imho not enough to make up for north carolina and ozzie jr.'s literal slap-fight over Mako Mori's Precious Virtue; but it does have that#i'm so so so glad we're finally having a complex conversation about wonder woman (2017) instead of pretending it invented feminism#(not that i'm an elektra (2005) fan who's salty or anything)#i want that complexity in pacific rim and it's really not there#anyway i warned you all this would be petty and irrational#stay tuned for my essay on how - if you reeeaaally think about it - Iron Man (2008) basically invented intersectionality
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girl...WHEN??? WHERE????
what are you talking about???? when you kept him isolated for 14 years??? when you robbed him of bodily autonomy???? when you exposed him to his mother's corpse to akumatize him, TWICE????
wait, wait—OH you mean when he was terrified for his life, literally begging you to stop after you beat him up. my bad.


no? OH, you mean when you forced him to leave the country and the love of his life.
Huh.
#ml#miraculous ladybug#the math is not mathing#i'm sorry for the salt but this unacceptable I am BIG MAD#adrien agreste#gabriel agreste#ml spoilers#miraculous ladybug spoilers#ml recreation#ml recreation spoilers#nothing says love like a deprivation chamber#AND SHAME ON MARINETTE FOR DECIDING WHETHER ADRIEN SHOULD KNOW THE TRUTH OR NOT#STOP!! ROBBING!! HIM!! OF !! DECISIONS!!!#literally a mar stan till I die but smh at the writers#TWO WEEKS OF PANCAKE DON'T ERASE A LIFETIME OF ABUSE#ZAG DO BETTER#'the good father i tried to be' girl you are DELULU
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one episode in and I am already obsessed with how the Gozyuger protagonist is if those emo werewolf memes were a person
I'm not really confident in my ability to draw live action human people so hopefully this doesn't look like ass lol (this is why i haven't really done any tokusatsu fanart much less post it lol) (i also don't know if the meme im referencing is super obvious or not but other people beat me to drawing the more obvious emo wolf memes lmao)
#super sentai#Gozyuger#gozyu wolf#tokusatsu#meme art#he fucking bites people and howls at people he's literally a middle school wolf girl and thats so fucking funny#i find it funny that on my main nobody is going to know what the fuck i'm even talking about#meanwhile people who managed to find my sideblog have seen me do nothing but tokupost constantly#to the point i got some toku followers that probably dont even know that that blog isnt my main#im sorrrryy i havent done super sentai or kamen rider fanart idk how to draw real people aaaaaaaaa
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Oh, Lala...
#atla#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#atla art#atla azula#princess azula#atla ursa#suki#atla suki#kyoshi warriors au#kyoshi warriors#Kyoshi Warrior Ursa AU#wip#I felt like sharing a little snippet of a two-page comic I've been working on for AGES#Literally you have no idea for how long this has been sitting on my drafts#Mainly because I keep getting sidetracked by new AUs and sketches and projects. But that's nothing new so#This one is a deep-ish dive into the basic character dynamics between the Fire Siblings as well as Ursa and Suki#Or should I say#Between the siblings Ruolan and Jian Li regarding their mother Noriko and each other.#I know the names can get rather confusing. I'd love to explain the reasoning behind them if anyone would like to know tho#Moving on#There's a lot to unpack in that scene#The characters are different from how we know them due to their circumstances in this AU. But they have things in common with the og series#Of course that remains for you to see#I'm so excited to finish this and share it with you guys!#Some of you have been asking about Azula/Ruolan and Ursa/Noriko in this AU and I am here to deliver#I love the dynamic between this little family SO much it's driving me insane#That being said#What do you get from this panel alone? What do you think it's happening?#I'd love to hear your thoughts on this
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I think it's been generally accepted that the simplest answer to people asking if dnp are a couple is, "well they built a house together, so make of that what you will" because that's the only really concrete fact we know of that speaks to their current relationship status. but sometimes I think - damn, is that even just an important *clue* to the status of things? or is that kind of *it*? is there anything more you need to know about two people than that, at the end of every day, the only people they'd want to completely let their walls down around is each other? that only the two of them know what the other looks like first thing in the morning, still in their pyjamas & before coffee; or at the end of a rough day, cranky and stomping around and eventually tired and soft enough to say goodnight; or frustrated to hell over the menial tasks needed to keep a household going like doing the taxes or getting the right groceries..... I could keep going on. we might really never know whether dnp call each other husbands or partners or boyfriends or best friends or housemates, or if they're exclusive or open, whatever. but what we do know without any doubt is that they are It for each other. they are each other's no. 1 most important person. and that is most indisputably shown through the fact that they built a house together. they chose to create their own little world within the world. the place where they can be 100% who they are, 100% of the time. and they want to share that place with each other.
what more is there to know?
#fuck sorry why'd i get SO emotional#but i really do mean everything i said#i was just watching a video in their london apartment and it just hit me - they've LIVED TOGETHER for more than a decade#and literally nothing could be more important to know than that they LIVE. together. their lives are shared#idk. void please tell me if i'm making any sense!!!!#dan and phil#dnp#phan#rambles#*
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I’m with you, my love The lights shining through on you Yes, I’m with you, my love It’s the morning and just we two
#spike btvs#spuffy#spuffyedit#btvs#btvsedit#buffy the vampire slayer#it's terribly simple#you know you want to dance#injuries cw#bites and chews and gnaws on anyone who says buffy didnt love spike. BITES and CHEWS and GNAWS on them.#like is that not the whole point? of him? of his entire character arc? of his burning to ash as he breaks the sunnydale high school#(AKA buffy's personal cage within the slayer's cage that was sunnydale itself AKA the place where he and buffy first ever fought#and he nearly killed her for the very first time but was foiled by the immense love someone felt for her) as he breaks that place to rubble#in a way also very reminiscent of the first time they slept together and Literally Fucked A Building Down. anyway as he's doing ALL OF THAT#like sure she doesnt HAVE to love him she doesnt owe him anything and even if she did love isnt about obligation. but when buffy says#that she loves him in that scene. theres nothing to indicate that she doesnt feel it. that she isnt telling the truth.#idk man. people take a man who is dying telling someone not to love him as the gospel truth when i feel like its more ... like maybe he's#making a misguided effort to be kind? he's telling her ''dont get too hung up on the vampire thats about to catch on fire#and get your pretty ass out of here while you still can please.''#whatever. WHATEVER. in the perfect btvs that lives in my head most of ats isnt canon but esp the part where spike comes back and doesnt#immediately 1. ASK IF DAWN WAS OKAY 2. upon being told by angel that he cant be put in touch with buffy because [mumbles] misogyny?#go ahead and engage in a flirt campaign at harmony until she breaks down and calls buffy for him. those would be like the FIRST TWO THINGS#that spike did after he came back to unlife. first two things frfr#i'm gonna end the tag rant there. hmm
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note that this poll is meant to represent romantic (though not necessarily sexual) ships, not your favorite QPR. If you like, say, Aisha/Alec or Lisa/Taylor as strictly platonic partners, but only in this scenario, then please don't pick it as your favorite ship!
Other less popular taylor ships (like Taylor/Alec) are not included in this poll, I will be posting a second poll with Taylor-specific ships later
make sure to tell me what you think and why you think it!
#poll#worm poll#wormblr#wormposting#worm parahumans#projected winner: Wolfspider#note: aisha has never been a part of any polysiders ship i've ever seen (which is probably a good thing)#not to be overly dramatic (i'm going to be overly dramatic) but doing this poll feels a bit like walking solemnly to my own execution#smugbug is my favorite but it's gonna lose to wolfspider. probably pretty badly.#but The People Have To Know. this is my sacrifice. remember me (my favorite ship is about to lose a poll)#and it's not even an unpopular one! i can only imagine how rebel sqrrl feels--she likes needlepoints. Needlepoints! literally the only one#i tried so hard to gerrymander the poll like “no QPR unless it's smugbug you can vote for smugbug qpr” because i wanted it to win so badly#but that's not fair. The People Have To Know. remember me (my favorite ship is about to lose a poll)#and probably not even that badly. it'll take second place! by a significant margin probably! this is nothing#note that i am only tagging EXPLICITLY canonical relationships (that is relationships DIRECTLY STATED TO HAVE HAPPENED) as canon#so even though aisha/missy is heavily implied to be canonical it is not canon by these standards
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on again off again on again
#hi guys#i like this album a lot#and this vocaloid#what do they have to do with each other#absolutely nothing#but i'm five months into an utatane piko hyperfixation#and all I've been drawing is him (literally)#so this is the result#autism blast!!!!!!#tried doing that thing where i make art solely for myself#that maybe only i will appreciate but thats ok#i'm just posting it bc i kinda liked the end result#ok tags time#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#art#procreate#vocaloid#utatane piko#piko utatane#radiohead#in rainbows#eyestrain#maybe
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Don’t wait up…
colored this panel from @thegunnsara's Back to the Past comic (part 6) :]
the bottom panel was so striking when I first saw it that I just needed to color it heheh sorry it took a while to finish ><
orig under cut vvvv
#the title is literally nothing I just pulled it out of my ass bcus I wanted a title#first thing I thought of and I didn't want to overthink it wwww#I hope you like it sara#your art is very inspiring to me <3#I'm still learning tho so don't look at it too hard -3- I don't really know what I'm doing#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt au#fuckinnnn idk what else to tag#rottmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt raph#kp coloring#I love coloring shit like this it just takes me so long to finish them T-T
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How it feels to not like timebomb after s2
#I'M NOT A HATER I SWEAR I ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE IT ON PAPER#i do however think that it came literally out of nowhere and was hella rushed and kinda ridiculous#like. if the argument is that original ekko fell in love with jinx it doesn't make sense because they were enemies for most of their lives#if the argument is that current ekko fell in love with au powder and now projects these feelings on jinx it's kinda uh. messed up#because she's a whole different person. entirely. it doesn't matter if both these version started out as a 9-year old powder. they had#extremely different lives and experiences and thinking that “there's still this kind of powder in jinx deep down” is straight-up awful#OR even if he didn't project his feelings for powder on jinx why would he love her in the current universe? last time they met she blew them#up and now she wants to commit suicide. there's literally no reason for him to have any kind of feelings except the slight friendly#affection that's left from all those years ago. and yet the show and most importantly the fandom treats them like a couple??? i don't get it#also it's kinda insane that s2 turned jinx and ekko into flat shipping material#again. obviously i have nothing against the shippers and do not condemn it in any way. i'm just expressing my thoughts on the matter#also what pisses me off the most. is how in ep9 jinx in fully painted with ekko's symbols here and there. has the bandage (?) on her chest#like vi. has a hood that looks like a drawing that isha made. and yet there's no fishbones or any reference to silco at all#i mean. i get it s2 hates him but i can't help it#they gave her all these relationships and pretended that they're significant to her and yet they didn't have any proper development#to really earn it#arcane critical#arcane season 2#anti timebomb#jinx arcane#ekko arcane
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