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Today's Seal Is: Aquatic Kazoo

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me when i wanna talk about my special interests but i got the vampire autism where you gotta invite me to talk about smth first, otherwise i wont say shit or dont know what to say because i feel like im annoying

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kid, when life gets you down you got three choices

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is bro looksmaxxing perhaps??

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queerplatonic cohabitation is so weird. you're my soulmate. you're my best friend. i'm not in love with you and never will be. i'm not in love with you but people will always think i am. we're family and something more. something as old as humanity. something that feels new. we'll never get married but if i had to it would be to you. you tell your parents we're roomates. we're gonna buy a house together. i trust you more than anyone in the world. some days it still feels weird to hold your hand. i will never know what it tastes like to kiss you with tongue. i want to know what it feels like to grow old with you. sometimes in the middle of a conversation about groceries i look up and realise we're turning into our parents in a hundred little ways like the silliest, softest trope of an old married couple, and i don't hate that for us. i wish they wrote more stories about this kind of love. i wish i wrote about it, too.

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rattling my cage, fighting against the temptation to stay up all night trying to make an animatic for an AU only I know exists

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always got your back

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CJ The X on Perfectionism

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One hand blogging the other strokin that thang 💯💯

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old art !! : D

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old art !!

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Having written a lot of complete, novel-length fics at this point... I want to say that it's a lot of work and that it's not weird to struggle to complete a creative project. I don't think it's a moral failing to have WIPs or abandoned works or ideas that just don't pan out for whatever reason. It's not a Bad Thing that you've done to yourself or to anyone else.

Like, I don't want to position myself as a big fandom authority here, I just want to speak from my experience and maybe reassure someone by agreeing that completing any creative project is not easy. I have WIPs and abandoned works you haven't seen. I have ideas that I know I'll never follow through on, both achievable and unachievable ones. Writing takes time and effort that has to be taken from elsewhere, and sometimes work is too exhausting and dinner still has to be made and decent sleep is too important, so you just can't do it. Dedicating time to any one hobby means less time for others and that kind of sucks sometimes. Sometimes, I just don't FEEL like writing and I'm not going to "suffer for my art".

It's flattering to be held in high esteem sometimes for writing long and complete fan stories (I have other fan creators I personally admire for similar reasons), but I do want to make it clear that it's a lot of work (writing is work no matter what you're writing!), I'm pretty lucky to be able to do that work more frequently than many others, and I personally don't think anyone should hold it against themselves (or against anyone else!) if circumstances get in the way. Sometimes, things just don't work out and we need to give ourselves time, or even just move on. I appreciate people's slow-to-update WIPs and abandoned works and stories on lengthy hiatus and fic ideas that will never be written.

So, like, if anyone is feeling a little down because they have a story that they're struggling with... I feel that. I don't think it's weird if your fanfiction is important to you or to feel like you've fucked it up somehow. I don't think you're a bad person or a bad writer if you take years to finish a story or if you have to give up on one because you've outgrown it. I think it's cool to share what you have if you want to share it. I think you're cool.

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Okami Sequel - Project Teaser

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H A C H I M A C H I ✨💙