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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
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If you feel comfortable please tell me about your middle name in the tags too! I'm nosey and don't know what to do with my own middle name lmao
#polls#i've never posted a poll before but I've been thinking about this a lot lately bc I've always hated my middle name and like#if i'm already changing my name#may as well change my middle name too#i've been asking people irl but i'm running out of people to ask on account of I don't talk to people irl
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stories of three little birds for @jkvjimin ♡
texts & paintings, by first appearance: Die Drei Spatzen (The Three Sparrows), poem by Christian Morgenstern // In einem leeren Haselstrauch (In a bald hazel tree), painting by 6-year-old me // Three Little Birds, song by Bob Marley & The Wailers // three little sparrows, painting by Annemiek Groenhout // Three Birds, poem by Ben Onachila // Birds on a Branch, painting by James Coffman // Birds of a Feather, song by Billie Eilish
#btsgif#btsedit#dailybts#bts#bangtan#bts maknae line#web weave#vminkook#usersky#userkelli#tuserandi#userdimple#raplineuser#usermaggie#userines#*jk#*jm#*th#*gifs#my lovie baby pat I've finally managed to finish a gift for you#I'm so sorry that it's so late but please know that it's made with so much warmth and care and love (for you)#just making it put me in such a lovely headspace. just like you always do so it simply fits#I hope these little birdies will always make you happy angel#I love you!
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Heaven Official’s Blessing donghua new short film OP 🦋
#tgcf#hualian#xie lian#hua cheng#san lang#heaven official's blessing#tian guan ci fu#tgcfedit#mxtx#mxtxnet#mine#tgcf: gifs#gifs: donghua#i am YELLING??????#donghua opening art is always SO stunning#and the tgcf donghua team does such a beautiful job#i'm so excited for the short film!!!! i can't believe it's real T.T#i haven't giffed in forever and i don't like how these turned out but I've spent too long on it so#anyway hualian i love you always#😭🦋💖#tags are broken no surprise there !#also sorry for giffing late!!!! and happy new year everyone :D
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HI HELLO?? HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW BDAY CARDS??? HELLO JAMILL??? MY GOSH THE OTHER TWO WOULD BE BOTH PROUD AND BLUSHING -- I MEAN I AM AND IM NOT EVEN A JAMIL STAN
I don't usually do arts for the JP release... I prefer to wait for the ENG......... but........
IF THE GROOVY ISN'T A PILLOW FIGHT I'M RIOTING!!!
#I HAVEN'T BEEN NORMAL SINCE SEEING IT#I SPEEDRAN THIS ILLU#I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER BEEN SO FAST#I'M ALWAYS LATE USUALLY#ok but let's be honest#Leona is def the kind to barely wear anything#if they put him in full pyjama I'll consciously chise to ignore canon#Vil must have the most beautiful dress gown#I'll die when Cater will get released#NEVERMIND AZUL I WONT SURVIVE IT#anyways yes Vil and Leona would love seeing him like that#mello's drawings#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#my art#art
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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 4.5: Morning Period.
(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#mdzs au#Yunmeng Jiang training arc AU#This is 4.5 because it was originally all supposed to be part of the same comic#This part wasn't as punchy and I was close to scrapping it but I figured I'd at least give it a chance.#Despite the fact I already had it in pencils...cleaning it up took a very long time. Still hate it. Sunken cost fallacy enacted: It lives.#Okay quick commentary (I'm very late to post today)#While this is supposed to be a 'snapshot' of routine - Wei Wuxian slept in. Normally he is up earlier.#Meaning he delayed the dueling part of the day. Hence LWJ's hand gesture.#I also imagine that LWJ and JC have a bit more of a friendship in this AU since they spend a few hours in the morning sans WWX#I always enjoyed how JC and LWJ on paper seem like they would get along but Do Not in canon. Let me have a world where they do.
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about you, love
#this is CORNY and i am CRINGE but i do not care this is MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH!!!!!!!! (aka account)#'ur always so late' i know. i am. i'm sorry. your vbs person of tumblr has reached peak hagdom#i say bro and dude to trick everyone into thinking i'm some sort of gangsty teenager. i am not#project sekai#prsk#akito shinonome#shinonome akito#toya aoyagi#aoyagi toya#akitoya#anywho. i miss them kinda. i wanna draw more but like i said i'm reaching the end of my time#vivid bad squad#art of fbi's
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☆Giyu Tomioka☆
Extremely belated birthday gift for Art ♡ @apparently-artless
#knyedit#knysource#anisource#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#demon slayer#giyu tomioka#sky gifs#userartless#usertorichi#hiiii art <333333 hope this is okie <333333333 I picked him out the list you gave me because of course I did#I'm very sorry for making you a birthday gift a million years late :( everything got in my way and my hiatus and shdhasdasda#but I still wanted to do something for youuuuuuuu#so also consider it a gift for always being so friendly to me!!!!!! hope you have the best remaining of your year <333333#and next year I will be sure to make something on time !!!!!!!#ilyyyyy#I always like making these type of little sets
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ultimately when it comes to shipping and fandom space treatment of aspec characters i just don't accept "aro/ace people can still date/have sex" as an answer from nonaspecs. like yeah. mhm. okay. now i think we both know that you're not saying that out of real interest in the diversity of aspec experiences. so you can turn in your seventeen-page essay on why and how you plan to examine this character's aspec identity within the context of a romantic or sexual relationship complete with evidence from canon and peer reviews from multiple aspec people within the next week or i'm putting you in the pit from the edgar allen poe story
#you know. the one with the pendulum#'hey. why are you as an allo person shipping this aspec character like this'#'oh aspec people can still date/have sex!'#'yeah. now can you answer the question that i actually asked you'#like goddamn just say you don't care they're aspec and you want to fulfill a sexual/romantic fantasy with them. that's Fine#it like. sucks. for sure. lotta aspec people will be unhappy with you. but everyone is entitled to their own wants and experiences.#but i'd prefer you just be honest with it rather than using our community's conversation points as retroactive justification#and ONCE AGAIN. you guys are real fucking cavalier with this shit and it shows a real fundamental lack of respect for aspecs#when most of you would NEVER ship a canonically gay character with the 'other' gender. cause again. it would suck.#you can do it. nobody's Stopping you. but it would suck.#and we understand that putting a queer character in situations that erase that queerness is shitty! until it comes to aspec characters!#and whoa... there it is again... people don't consider aspec identities to be queer... crazy how it always comes back to that#anyway. you all know what i'm talking about. have seen many posts about this lately#it is [ long sigh ] unfortunately a very hot button issue with the advent lately of alastor hazbinhotel#which. again. god i wish there were other canon aspec characters to be having this conversation about.#but we'll have to do our best with what we have#aromantic#aromanticism#arospec#aroace#talking#aspec#asexual#asexuality
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no way she's alive ?? yea those mental health breaks because social media makes people suck are wild huh
#star wars#clone wars#star wars fanart#ahsoka tano#captain rex#anyway i bring you this a) because i'm going back to my tcw roots of late and b) because i miss them terribly#as you can see because i can't handle reality i put her in the novel design#cause wdym they split up after order 66 haha what no that didn't happen you're crazy#read it however you want idc ^^)b any interpretation of their dynamic is the best one i think#yea anyway in this amount of time i've gotten a lot better at anatomy and i don't really care about social media anymore#but i have like nowhere to put my art now so *shrug*#star wars the clone wars#artists on tumblr#i've wanted to do one of those post-type drawings and i am .-+ too lazy +-. to color it sooo#signature got cropped sigh. whatever#if you see a mistake no you don't. you know the drill#also i finally watched bad batch season 3 around christmastime and hewiutgeh.#singlehandedly took the show from a 4 to a 10 for me so thx dave filoni we love u as always >>>#lowk kinda missed it here *gazes fondly at the bot spam and screaming and cursing in my feed*#btw i have never used instagram in my life so if this is formatted wrong it's your fault. bye#someone tell me whether or not i should tag this as rxsk because i am very much debating#does tumblr even like them anymore ?? i know ao3 does they're still going crazy over there (>1k works God bless)#“bro's first post back and she's yapping her head off” cmon you know me by now anyway can we talk about season 7 ahsoka#i find no fault in her. she is perfect. she is the greatest version of any star wars character ever at all#no i will not be thinking about whether or not anyone told her about fives. no i will not be thinking about whether or not anyone told echo#ok that's enough bye i'll wait for this to get four notes at most and three of them being comments screaming at me#one more thing uhh suspend your disbelief since anakin liked the post. rots didn't happen and everything is fine !!#my art
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"I can be a creator, the creator. It has happened before, and it will happen again, many times."
— Notes on poem 16, This House of Dreams
#alan wake 2#alan wake#I'm late to post this but thought I'd share it outside the Remedy server :-)#Tried to mix elements of Art Deco with symbolism from depictions of the Nataraja#Since I've always thought that the dance relates to Alan's predicament as a creator embroiled within his own creation kind of well + etc.#The scratched name at the bottom is supposed to be Scratch as Apasmara but it looks like a label lmao#Tried to forgo the many arms#But the hands still try to get at that simultaneous concealing & revealing#I don't know lmao I am certainly being pretentious. I think I would like to remake this sometime.#I like to think that in being limited to a silhouette there's little distinction between Wake/Zane. Ah the excuses I make for my laziness#Okayokay I'll stop haha
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So I've been replaying Final Fantasy 15
#I finished the game for the first time yesterday and I'm NOT OKAY#yes I'm like 8 years late. But time is a scam anyway#If you've written ff15 polyship fic I'm coming for it. Love from guest user *keyboard_smash*#anyway come scream with me about the game please#Also no I can't draw hats don't @ me#my art#final fantasy 15#ffxv#ff15#prompto argentum#noctis lucis caelum#gladiolus amicitia#ignis scientia#ardyn izunia#chocobros#polyship roadtrip#Implied at least. Always in my heart#this was also an excuse to test my use of screen tones. Success?
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I think it's fascinating that the quotes:
"Have you forgotten sir, we were at war? A fight with an alien race for the very survival of our species. I feel I must remind you that it is an undeniable, and may I say fundamental quality of man, that when faced with extinction, every alternative is preferable."
"When you spend every day fighting a war, you to demonize your attackers. To you, they're evil, they're subhuman. Because if they weren't, what would that make you? What I'm trying to say... is I've been afraid to see you for what you really are. You're our brothers. Our sisters. And the things we've done to one another are unforgivable."
"These guys want to use us, take us away from our families, and send us all over the dad-gum galaxy just to test if their agents are ready for the big fight? Well... guess I'm interested in showin' em exactly what a big fight is all about! So I'm not ordering you to go. I ain't even asking. You do what you gotta do, Private."
came from the same series whose standard fare is lines like:
"What in the hell are you two doing?" / "We're being executed by our own men, sir." / "Cut it out."
"I only drink the blood of my enemies, and the occasional strawberry yoohoo."
"You always said I could sleep when I’m dead, Sarge, and guess what? I am dead. This purgatory is about to become purga-snore-y, yawn!"
...and both categories manage to be a poignant statement about the nature of war and what it does to the people in it.
#everyone always talks about the more dramatic bits of rvb with the speeches and the 8+ seasons of plot development as the anti-war part#but the comedicization of the violence and death that the characters go through. the tongue-in-cheek gung-ho attitudes.#the way that they're so desensitized to the idea of death or gruesome injury to the point that it's!!! a comedy show!!!#all of that is just as much a statement of the fucked up nature of war!!!#it's like Col. Flagg and Frank Burns in M*A*S*H. they're so simultaneously into and detached from the war and it's a STATEMENT#idk I'm just. thinking about my favourite anti-war media. drawing mash-rvb parallels. and suddenly had to scream about it#might reread the paper on rvb being anti-war media. for enrichment.#not video games#late nights with ali#ali watches rvb#rvb#red vs blue
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AWEEEE YOURE SO GAY CHUUYA THIS IS SO CUTE
@bioluminescentcat
Chuuya: "But, thank you. I'll be okay. After all, I know how to deal with Dazai."
Chuuya: "I'm sure Dazai will eat anything as long as it's mainly crab.."
@azapofinspiration
Chuuya: "Well, as long as it's not overcooked, that is!"
Chuuya: ".. yes please."
Commissions/Ko-fi
#ask#update#bioluminescentcat#azapofinspiration#anonymous#bsd chuuya#bsd hirotsu#bungo stray dogs#(Short one just to get back into thingsss)#(I've been obsessed with Terraria lately so I may have been playing that more than I should..)#(Hirotsu seems like the kind of guy who will always have a spare bag with him)#(Feel free to ask Hirotsu any cringe skk questions I'm sure he has answers ha!)
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Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me? (2024) written & directed by Taylor Swift
So tell me everything is not about me …but what if it is?
#taylor swift#tswiftedit#tswiftgif#who's afraid of little old me?#fake movies are back!#the silent film I used was a gem of a picture directed by the wonderful William A. Wellman#You Never Knew Women#(1926)#the circus theme was so sad in this movie somehow it's perfect for this song#and for the last one I know it looks like technicolor but my intention was paying homage to Roger Corman :')#this song gives Roger Corman vibes#a weird crazy witch who lives in a castle and who's always angry#because she's been misunderstood all her life#and since Taylor's on a mashup spree lately I decided to mash it up with Mirrorball a little :p#hence the miss americana scene#TTPD#the tortured poets department#and! I know that's a male lion but let's just pretend it's a her#sad truth is mane just looks better I'm sorry
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Gave him cookies
#cayde 6#destiny hunter#destiny#destiny 2#destiny the game#my art#I'm late but anyway haha#always said that I'd give him a thousand#well not happening but at least like this
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