#I'm just sharing this response & my thoughts on it to this blog bc I'm seeing plenty of folks in my sphere very afraid about this

[peachsayshi]

PEACH YOUR BABY DADDY!SUKUNA.....

He distanced himself bc he's not a good guy, he's got a shit job, can barely pay child support but he does what he can. And he always looks after your daughter when you're busy, takes every moment to be with her that he can, even tho he knows that you're the more capable parent. You were always too good for him, and he was your bad boy fling, your mistake.

"I think you love momma more." His daughter told him, bless her unfiltered thoughts. She was probably right. Somehow, after all this time, he still found you completely stunning. He felt guilty for the way he treated you, seeing you persevere and thrive as you've gotten older. If anything, you got more beautiful with each passing day, and he couldn't be happier that his child was being raised by you, even if that meant he had to be out of the picture.

"maybe I do." He chuckled, a tinge of regret to his words. He remembered the ways he hurt you, the look on your face when he made you cry. His selfishness. It was always his selfishness that got in the way. "But I'm not good at it."

// brutally soft // III. 

baby daddy!sukuna x reader 

tags: non curse au; tension; reader and sukuna are co-parents; girl dad sukuna; mentions troubled past with sukuna; alludes to significant size different; mentions drug use and drinking; mentions cheating; sukuna being soft; unrequited love; angsty | | read this for more context & this & this

note: (I am so sorry this took me so long to respond to) but!! you don't get to leave something like this and not expect me to sweetly return the favor by meddling with your feelings the way you did mine. because holy shit, nyx, just hearing sukuna say "I'm not good at it" in a hushed, sad voice made me want to take my own ribs out.

dni if your blog is blank / ageless / or are a minor

"mama! guess what!" your daughter says. "I have a secret!"

you smile to yourself because she always has a secret to share these days. little, innocent things that capture her attention which seem worthy of keeping confidential.

"you know," you say as you help her into her dress. "you're not supposed to tell secrets when you have them..."

"but I tell you everything, mama!"

you lift her up in your arms, the weight of her body getting heavier by the day and reminding you of how fast she's growing.

sukuna is taking her to visit her uncle yuji, and she has been over the moon about it. you place her on the seat of her vanity, and proceed to fix her hair since sukuna will be arriving in twenty minutes, and you want to make sure that she's all set once her dad gets here. you giggle at her response, "okay, okay, what's the secret?"

she looks at you from the mirror's reflection and covers her mouth as she chuckles.

"hey, what's with the sly face?" you prod, holding a chunk of her hair gently between your palm.

"do you know ms. kiko?" she asks, referring to her pre-school teacher.

"mhmm, what about her?"

she giggles again. "well, she told told mrs. chiyo that she thinks daddy is cute!!"

your heart thumps. oddly.

you're not immune to the way that the women look at the father of your child. it's the same alluring, seductive energy that drew you to sukuna in the first place.

but it's been years since you've both been intimate together in any capacity, you're sure that he's probably got someone on call if and when necessary. considering he has more spare time than you do without a child running around, you're pretty sure that sukuna is satisfied with whatever situationship he's in. you've learned to swallow the discomfort of the idea of sukuna with other women. just like how you had to bury the hurt of the very one who tore your relationship apart.

you hum at her observation, your fingers idly braiding her hair.

it's not like you were single anymore either. you've been casually dating a lawyer on and off. it wasn't serious per se, but it wasn't a fleeting relationship where it made you feel like you were entirely free of the attachment.

he's even met sukuna at this point.

granted those dates are few and far between, but you were a single mother who worked full time.

trying to commit to a relationship is hard.

even though, you would love to share all this with...someone.

"anyway, I had to warn daddy to be careful..." your daughter interjects.

"warn him?" you repeat with a smile, her choice of words adorable.

"yeah! so, I told daddy that ms. kiko was in love with him, and asked him if I should tell her to stop..."

"stop?"

"being in love with him!" she responds with a grimace.

that makes you laugh. "and why would you do that, hmm?" you question gently for fun.

"because I know that daddy loves you more, mama!"

your heart thumps again, harder this time. so hard you feel it nearly knock the wind out of you. you clear your throat to ease the apprehension while your daughter kicks her legs with anticipation.

"and how would you know that?" "because," she insists, "daddy told me that he loves you more than anyone else in this world"

her words spill out of her, a glass of water that's been carelessly knocked over. you scrunch your brows as each word registers into your brain, soaking over your to do lists and mental checks.

"what?" you whisper as you stare at this little girl who has already carried on the conversation.

"after me, obviously," she presses - because no one can take her place when it comes to the love that you and sukuna both give her.

"wait-wait..." you say a little breathless, your hands suddenly trembling as you do your best to finish the job you started. "what did your daddy tell you? I didn't quite-"

"he said he loves you more than anyone else in the world..." she repeats, her focus on the rogue hair brush that sits at her small vanity. "so, yeah, that's why I asked daddy if I should tell ms. kiko to stop saying he's cute..."

"your...your daddy is just being silly..." you murmur, trying to underplay the statement. you slip the hairband around her second braid to secure the style in place.

impossible, you think. that's impossible.

so much time has passed between you both.

you buried that part of your past long ago.

left it and refused to look back-

"nu-uh. he said that I don't have to say anything to ms. kiko. that it's okay because he loves momma more, anyway. but daddy also told me once that he's not that good at it," she adds on, her fingers picking at the bristles of her bright purple brush, "whatever that means..."

"when did you and your daddy have this conversation..."

the realization hits her then, and she stares up at you before covering her mouth. "oops," she states, glancing from side to side, "I pinky promised daddy I wouldn't tell you that..."

before you can fish out anything else from her, she hops off her seat, her feet pattering away as she moves across the room towards her pile of plushies.

"who should I take with me?" she says loudly, brushing aside the fact that she said far more than she should. she stands with her hip jutted out and her finger pressed against her lips, her back facing you.

you have to lean against her closet to steady yourself. you do your best to rationalize sukuna's words, trying to decipher the pieces in this game of whispers.

your mind flashes to the horrid break up five and a half years ago. a memory that exists hazily in the back of your mind, to the moment of you standing in sukuna's dingy old apartment holding a lacy white bra between your fingers.

it was not yours.

"what is this?" you gasped, your breath straining as your chest rose and fell with unease. "what the fuck is this..."

it's the only time you've ever seen sukuna panicked.

your memory only captures his words in blurs.

of him drinking too much.

way too much.

of him not waking up alone but swearing that he thought he was was you.

of him not recollecting his own thoughts because he blacked out that night.

of him being just as shocked when he realized the warm body next to him was not his girlfriend.

he begged you to forgive him.

"Baby, I swear. I fucking swear I will clean up my act. I-I'll never fucking drink again. Fuck, I went too far last night. One of the guys was passing around these pills I shouldn't have fucked around with them..."

you couldn't.

you couldn't accept any of it.

you already tolerated so much with him.

the drinking, the recreational drug use, his inability to keep a job, and him nearly ending up in jail for causing fights.

but you saw so much more in that man - and yet, he proved you wrong.

this betrayal spoke volumes.

this betrayal proved to you that you were expendable to him too.

that you just weren't that important.

that shadow of that man doesn't exist anymore. not with this new version of sukuna in your life.

he almost makes you forget the past. this man; your daughter's sunlight. her knight in shining armor. the source of her joy.

he may not have been good at loving you, but that little girl has him in the palm of her hand.

and he loves her with all his might, it feels like his absolution.

"mama?" your daughter calls out, snapping you out of your thoughts.

she's standing right in front of you now, holding a rabbit plushie in one hand and a penguin in the other.

"can I take both?" she asks innocently, her wide eyes glittering brightly as she remains oblivious to your own personal drowning.

"n-no," you stammer out, and affectionately poke the small dimple in her cheek. "just one, my love. we all know your uncle yuji will have more for you when you see him..."

her eyes widen, "that's right!" she exclaims, "he always finds the best and softest ones!"

the bell rings, and you abruptly stand on your feet.

your throat tight, your stomach fluttering.

"daddy's here!" your daughter cheers, and instantly runs out of the room.

you pick up her weekend bag and sling it over your shoulder. you pause and exhale softly, telling yourself to relax before following in her footsteps.

sukuna's deep voice greets you first.

"look at these braids on you..."

you find them both at the foyer, your daughter already scooped up in her father's big, muscular arms. his hand is tugging at one of her braids and she's smiling wildly in his direction.

he's wearing an oversized leather jacket, the fit only bulking up his stature. your daughter is gripping his black tee between her hands, and she yanks it gently before asking: "can we go now?"

sukuna smiles and your spine shivers.

age has done wonders for him too.

"easy, princess, let me say hi to your mom first..."

your fingers grip onto the strap of her weekender bag nervously. you don't know why you suddenly feel very aware of how you look.

of the fact that you're completely barefaced and running on five hours of sleep. that your choice in clothes is a pair of unflattering sweats and hoodie which has some coffee stains on it. you desperately need to wash your hair, and are due for a manicure appointment.

sukuna turns to face you, "hey you, I didn't notice you standing there..."

you clear your throat again, "hi! sorry...I uh-I didn't want to interrupt..."

sukuna adjusts the hold on your daughter, allowing you to approach him as he couldn't take off his boots.

"she all ready for me?" he asks.

"mhmm" you answer quietly, at a complete loss for words because all you can hear is "daddy said he loves you more than anyone else in the world."

you hand off the bag to him, which he takes with ease.

"it's not too late to join us," he offers, but you give him a small smile and shrug of your shoulders.

"trapped with work unfortunately,"

sukuna glances in your daughters direction, "I tried..."

she pouts your way. "you sure, mama?"

"yeah, my love, I am sure."

you slide into sukuna's frame, doing your best to carefully not touch any part of his broad canvas. you stand up on your tip toes and place multiple kisses on your daughter's cheek.

"I love you and I am going to miss you like crazy these next two days," you state sweetly, feeling her wrap her arms around your neck to give you a hug and a kiss in return. "promise me you'll be on your best behavior..."

"I promise!!" she answers.

you find the courage to meet sukuna's soft eyes, the ease on his face doing nothing to help your shattering state.

"I guess you're both set then," you say with a sigh.

he furrows his brow at your tone, and leans forward to make direct eye contact toward you. your lips part slightly at the close proximity of his face with yours, and he tilts his head like a curious cat before asking: "you okay?"

your heat burns so naturally. your heart ready to climb it's way up your throat. you blink back in surprise at his question, and stutter out a "I-I'm fine..."

"you sure?" he presses as he casually stands upright again, like he didn't just pop the bubble of your personal space. "you seem a little off..."

"I am okay," you reassure with a firm nod, before dropping your gaze down at your feet as you shift your balance. "I-I just have a lot on my mind today is all..."

there is a gentle tap just underneath your chin, your attention lifts up to look back at sukuna. his expression is stoic, but you can see the concern in his tense jaw. he taps the space just beneath your bottom lip, your insides turning at the gesture he used to do to you countless times before.

"anything I need to be worried about?" he asks calmly, his choice of words a veil over his obvious unsettlement.

you feel like you really can't breathe then.

your mind spins to when you carelessly kissed him. to when he returned the gesture at your daughter's play.

what seemed so innocent now feels like a serious overstep.

your hand circles around his wrist and you pull him away from you. "I'm fine, Ryomen," you acknowledge politely, trying to keep your words detached but kind.

after you see them both off and shut the front door, you find yourself pressed against the wooden frame. your back weakly glides down the surface until you're sitting on the floor. you bring your knees close to your chest, shaking at the prospect not because you don't want it to be true, but because you are terrified of allowing yourself to even open your heart to sukuna again.

he broke you. he hurt you. and yet, he somehow was the only thing that healed those wounds.

he is the reason why you were able to bring your daughter into this world. he treated her with immense love and supported you in every capacity to build this imperfect little family with you.

ryomen sukuna - your dark angel. the source of your deepest pain, and the reason for your happiest joy.

the wall that you've kept between you and sukuna exists as a safety barrier. you can peek over whenever necessary, but it doesn't mean you ever have to cross that boundary.

and yet, you've caught yourself with the consideration of sitting on the ledge, or maybe even stepping onto the other side.

all it takes for you is to then see the cracks and damages of the past as a reminder of what keeps stopping you.

"get a grip of yourself" you mutter out loud.

you let go of that love. you remind yourself, and you both are better for it.

sukuna is a completely different individual now, and you are in a much happier place than you were before.

the whirlwind romance, the intense passion and addictive excitement fizzled. the sparkle having faded the moment his betrayal was revealed.

maybe your love for each other is just too destructive when intertwined so closely. but existing loosely as small strings, and tethered to the singular entity that lives and breathes because of it...

maybe that should be more than enough for you both.

and you don't know why the thought breaks your heart a little.

[catboybiologist]

Hi! I’m CatboyBiologist.

Formerly a femboy, now a trans woman just starting HRT, and a PhD student in molecular biology. I started using this online persona as a fun, shitposty way to explore gender a few years ago. I post selfies (generally sfw, but somewhat sexy, so minors and ppl who don’t like that have been warned), rambles about science, tutorials and advice from the stuff I’ve learned by being a femboy in the past, nature pictures, stuff about the ocean, my adorable grumpy little tortoise, and unsolicited opinions on random nerdy topics. Any pronouns are fine. I don’t plan to socially transition for a while, and still present as a man most of the time, so I’m used to whatever you wanna use for me (for now, I’ll update this if that changes). Please send me pictures of your pets or other cute animals in your life!

As a scientist, I’m also documenting my transition! This google sheet will be updated at least monthly. I also have additional metrics I’m keeping to myself, and pictures that go with this, but I’m not sharing them publicly yet. Keep in mind that this is just one person’s experience with HRT, and may not represent universal trends!

Adding a little something here, bc I think it was an interesting bit a writing: if you want to see me respond to a transphobe about what "biologically female" means, here's a thing I wrote about it. CW for transphobia and discussion, obviously.

Also, if any of my measurements look weird, its entirely possible I fucked up. Let me know if anything looks off!

Here’s some of my favorite pre-HRT pictures:

If you want to see more of my pre-HRT selfies, browse the “femboy” tag on my blog!

And as of this writing, I’m only 2 days after the start of HRT, so here’s a picture with my tortoise that’s technically post-HRT (but with 0 time for actual changes):

If you want to see my future post-HRT selfies, browse the “trans selfie” tag on my blog!

Also here's another really cute picture and fanart of my tortoise by @whalesharkcat:

I have affectionately given my tortoise the title of The Grumpus.

I also wrote a couple of tutorials and general vibes about being a femboy before I started HRT:

Sometimes I make shitposts of myself, I don’t take myself too seriously:

This includes the way I came out on tumblr:

And here’s an overly serious, long ramble about trans thoughts and things that I wrote shortly afterwards:

Later addition: Someone asked how I take selfies, so I wrote a quick and dirty guide with some tips on how I do so in response to their ask:

Oh yeah and apparently I was a 196 microcelebrity? I never to thought I was popular enough for that but apparently some people do 🤷‍♀️. So uh, hi 196 tags, I'm abusing you for my pinned post LOL

As for terminology, I personally do think of myself as a “man who is becoming a woman” as opposed to having always been a woman. If that doesn’t resonate with your experience, I totally get that! But that’s why I freely call pre-HRT me a femboy, while still calling post-HRT me a trans woman. I’m also keeping the blog name as CatboyBiologist for the forseeable future, because at this point, Catboy just seems like a gender neutral term to me.

I’m also trying to put together a script for a podcast regarding how studying biology influenced my perspective on sex and gender- lmk if there’s any interest in that! It’s probably gonna be way too long and indulgent but oh well.

So uh. Yeah. I don’t end these types of things well. Byeeeeee

[paladinsbrainrot]

in light of an imminent teaser......

it is very important that everyone acknowledges that the marketing team will largely base a teaser on what they think the general audience wants, because they're trying to build hype for the show, and will want to draw in as many viewers as possible.

this post said a lot of what i wanted to say but the main gist of it is that you shouldn't expect much of a will focus in the teasers to come -- but mayyybeee we'll get lucky in the trailer. my point is: because of how swept under the rug will was in s3/4, the GA probably doesn't care much about him. he's not super important in their eyes. they'll likely be more drawn to something with characters they're more familiar with, like eleven. this doesn't mean will won't have a main focus in the actual show, because we have proof of that from the duffers' interviews, it just won't be what the marketing team particularly wants to pander too.

noah schnapp has also been a veryyyyy controversial figure as of late, and this will only add to this idea of keeping will's focus on the down low until the season comes out. i don't like to talk about him on my blog bc i personally don't support him but i think it's just important to note. just think about when ross posted the will bts picture for the first time and everyone on twitter was flaming him, and how every bts picture of him that has come out since has been met with negative reactions from the GA. he will be criticized no matter what, if it is a will-centric teaser or not, but having a heavy focus on him in the teaser won't make those who don't support him and his beliefs want to tune into the show. this is just simply coming from a marketing perspective -- his reputation puts the show under hot waters. this is also likely why he wasnt in the tudum special that the show put out in september, while finn, gaten, and caleb were. i just want everyone to be realistic and temper their expectations so that they aren't disappointed when the eventual el-vecna centric teaser comes out. praying tumblr won't be a dumpster fire then.

additionally, -- while i'm not counting on any ship-related clips in the teaser, maybe in the trailer -- it is important to note that we shouldn't take any mlvn/byler clips at face value or put so much importance on them. the duffers and teaser editors will want to include clips that most excite their general audience, and that, unfortunately, may mean a few mlvn clips here and there, because it is what the GA is familiar with. but it doesn't necessarily mean that the scenes will be positive, even if it looks like it in the trailer. the teasers like to screw with us. think of the 003/creel house teaser where they picked clips where lucas was rolling his eyes at max, and max looked upset in response. i remember lumax shippers on tumblr freaking out because they thought their ship was dwindling. these clips were never shown in the actual show and their interactions in the creel house ended up being very positive, unlike how the teaser suggested. in the first s4 trailer we got, we got a short clip of mike and el holding hands while roller-blading. while it looks sweet in the context, when you actually look at the scene, you see that mike and el are being portrayed in a negative light as they were both putting on fake personas to impress each other, and that the whole scene ended up zooming in on will and focusing on him anyway. my point is, don't immediately feel disappointed if we get a mlvn clip. the duffers will only share what they want us to see!!!

so in summary just don't expect much. i really hope they prove me wrong and we get a will centric teaser because i am soooo interested in his arc this season but i'm not getting my hopes up.

[earlycuntsets]

A healthy and reasonable criticism of the mcr archive that i’m 0% scared to share. I didn’t sign and NDA and i’m a free woman.

I will express my criticisms with both their practice and their pr.

this is my opinion and how I received them. if you want to turn this around on me, may you remember that I'm not the one responsible for the mcr archive. i'm a fan and they're a professional organization not god or jesus or anything like that.

practice: 

how can I view and appreciate the mcr archives work?

We have their mission statement

“My Chemical Romance community project whose goal is to collect & catalog MCR content for future posterity.”

linktree where you can see what they're sharing rn.

and what does the mcr archive so actively do? they share

2. sometimes a time sensitive drop box of files (from their link tree. files you dare not share, even if you credit them.)

3. barely (and sometimes just not) sourced social media posts that are kind of.. no different than what anyone else might share in terms of sourcing. the photos however seem to be really high quality versions of photos we’ve seen before and definitely some ones relatively no one has seen. They told me that’s because they pitch in to buy from photo agencies. and what the mcr archive posts is always excellent but it’s not everyone else’s problem you can’t find the info. I’ve dug up sources for ya’lls posts before when it takes two seconds to do. the places where you can add info, should have info. You should message other smart people in a group chat or something “hey can you look into this show for me, I can’t find the dang photographer” wheres the evidence of practice.

so It was an event/show. At the show there was a photographer. Look at their stupid haircuts, find out what 3 months in 2005 it was, check setlist fm etc

when I asked who took the pictures they told me “that infos actually not out there, we got it from a photo agency” who better than a f'n photo agency to know who took the picture I do not understand... you should have more info as a result

3. a mostly dead link list that credits back to themselves sometimes. seriously check it out you can’t do anything except the youtubes.

4. when they post a video, they haven't credited the yt a lot of the time. because they don't credit properly what ends up happening is they post and we're to believe the source is the mcr archive. which yeah no (credit where credit is due to them but sometimes you see it in funny places)

5. They informed me that they don’t check tumblr to see if the photos have been posted they just queue it when the time comes. It would save them a lot of time to reblog from someone.

maybe one of the amazing accounts that catalogue (thats what we’ll say to avoid eternal damnation) mcr extensively. Maybe all those blogs could be friends of the archive and we could all look forward to being reblogged by the great mcr archive

honestly they should reblog everything callmeblakes ever posted bc that shit is mcr history and archiving to me. just an opinion. in fact if you wanna know what I expect from the mcr archive, go to blakes blog.

6. It’s easy to have new mcr when everyone's falling all over themselves ready to give you their new mcr pics/video. But when there’s not it’s just this half effort mcr account It doesn’t do justice to those bits and pieces in between. The things that need to be saved still.

7. side note: I would like to credit the mcr archive as a bit of the inspiration for my website. I wanted to hoard everything and be excited about mcr. I needed the old important stuff I used to bleach my eyes with. So when I saw “the mcr archive” I was so excited to see well…

the archive????

I thought surely I wasn’t going to the right site. I thought for sure there was a “mcr archive” url, not a link tree, that would have all of this referenced content right? So fans can see the whole thing? no. Its always a limited time dropbox. That's why all the links are dead now. You can only get to what they have posted on instagram or tumblr.

The idea and concept and general execution of the mcr archive is good. it just seems they have fallen asleep on their laurels. And for the band I love, it should be better kept. Their content is excellent of course. photo agency quality scans.

For it being the “definitive mcr archive” I guess I just wanted more structure, more transparency and info and links where they apply. everything could be more accessible. it just seems to be run by not many people and they'd benefit from a larger team.

this is my personal critique that is 100% allowed to exist.

PR

I was recently messaged by an mcr archive member. their identity is protected but I will associate "mcr archive" to them because that's who they represent when they message fans about archival business.

(I’ve recently had some discourse with them that i'm sharing. they are the owner of an archive within the mcr archive (oo lala) -- from which I took and credited 20 of their files)

below my defense to their claims. I don't like being misunderstood.

they say in the first sentence it was on my site uncredited. bull. the files that belonged to them were labelled. I had their contributors doc in every folder that even had their files.

but that's not enough for them to be civil? that's not enough to simply ask for your 20 files to be removed from a my chemical romance fan site.. huh

they then give themselves away as anon (which they denied) by using the same vocab. I "lifted" their files. who even says that. in their og anon ask, they say the same thing followed by a lot of hot air about how i'm apparently doing a shit job and only they understand hard work. i'm a lot but i'm not stupid.

then here we go with I "copied their whole archive into mine". that didn't happen. I had 20 files and she assumed I took her wayback screenshots. bc how could I possibly have the capacity to take my own. they described taking these screenshots as an obscene amount of work btw. so much COMPLAINING. you should be grateful to do it. they also say the screenshots they took might not be on wayback machine anymore. sure bud.

it was brought to my attention that them saying they want the convo private is telling as well. they should be salespeople for mcr of the utmost transparency i'm sorry. you are public figures that don't treat mcr fans with respect and to try to make them feel small.

then they call me unprofessional.

Interesting that they message me calling me “unprofessional” when I am just a regular mcr blog/site owner. I never claimed to be perfect, or the end all be all mcr curator. I’m not the one affiliated with the mcr archive. If the mcr archive has a problem with my site they can make their own and do it their way. I’m not burger king. next.

then they talk about feeling undermined. the irony.

then they say I lack “community awareness” when they want all the credit for everything. that's the message you send when you don’t credit the photographers or youtube accounts. (no link ever) Its like “idk doesn’t matter look I posted it” which is fine when you’re a regular mcr fan but when you claim to be the most official mcr archive account, you are held to a higher standard in this fanbase.

and this is all before I even responded. they don't know me and they're literally scolding me. ok hotshot.

then I got defensive and tried to express to them that i'm not as dumb as they seem to think I am. I didn't do the things I was being accused of. I was honest about how I felt. it was hard to respond to all that because it was these weird different attacks on my intelligence from a person i've never spoken to before.

then them and their mcr achive friend sending fucked up anon asks calling me a piece of shit among other things. those mcr archive accounts could not figure out how to get a life that night. some random mcr archive fan is so mad to call me a piece of shit bc I got mad at mcr archive is what i'm to believe. it was them. they try to gatekeep this fandom that way ig. what does it for me is the complaining and acting like they built the pyramids.

it's not my fault it was hard work for you to do your awesome job request to remove and be business about it. it was like .04% of my website I don't care.

I took their stuff off, I put their site at the top of my sources on ec. I wanted this to be over. so I was professional and did as they asked. I was not half as rude as they were in their initial message. and then they say "why are you continuing to undermine me?"

like i'm sorry are you beyonce??

so they say i'm "duplicating work" and I need to slow down my process to avoid future errors. I am so clear about errors and fixing them and having no problem listening to people that are right. I am reasonable but how they came at me was bonkers. duplicating? I steal everything on there I own 0. cept the dvds ig. if me posting old show pics on a flicker from 2011 is duplicating work. sure idgaf. this history needs exposure.

I’m just a blog like everyone else that posts things that mean something to them. My website isn’t worth much more than a reference. It is a place that points to other places. This blog is the same. I’ve never pretended to own anything. ever. 

then they say just because their whole archive is literally drag and drop easy to download doesn't mean my site is worth more than their archive.

why are you comparing my site to an official mcr archive period?

They don't want to be brief as indicated in their essay of a first message. they want to argue with me about a few things. because I didn't bend over backwards and kiss their ass seven different ways to sunday, after they came at me wrong, they think I am undermining their work.

according their messages, my archive is illegitimate because I don’t ask permission when my content is 2002-2012 old sites. I have never asked permission and never did anything to hide that. anyone of the 9287432 people who have their material on my site can ask to have it removed. I just link to the original source and credit. Just interesting because: how do they have permission to use the photos if they can’t even tell us who took them. 

I have tried to talk to them during the founding of my website. I sent them messages and asked questions and they don't speak to the public. community this community that. I did @ a member in march when I used and credited her whole of 20 files. I removed it because they didn't respond to it for 3 months and stopped thinking about it. I figured she would talk to me like a grown up one day request to remove sometime if she wanted it down. guess that was too much to ask.

what this message tells me is that I can’t possibly understand the work they do, it’s too specialized and complicated. Apparently lmao I misunderstand them and only they know the true meaning of putting together info and data entry.

And i’m sorry I said taking a picture or scanning something isn’t hard work. I just got tired of all their hot air. I’m sorry but It’s all about them and their precious stuff and taking pictures/scans of it. it’s like mcr influencers that post paid for pictures and they dress really cool but I can't help but think about how I would be in their shoes, how lucky so many people would feel to be a part of the mcr archive. and their lack of gratitude stinks to high hell.

And for the record, It’s the attitude for me

All they had to do was request to remove like any other human would.

I really needed to say my piece and now i’m letting this go. :) reactions be damned.

[alisonwritesimagines]

Sleepy with Cuddles on the Side ~Marc Spector Imagine~

Requested by anonymous:

marc spector x f!reader who is sleepy and wants to always cuddle/snuggle bc she gets cold easily 😅

Summary: Just another day in the life with you and Marc.

Author’s Note: This is literally me lol. I always get cold and my boyfriend is a heater and loves the cold so it's perfect. Also this is very short but very fluffy!

Reader’s Pronouns: She/Her

Warnings: fluff, lots of fluff

Side Note: This is a secondary blog. If you comment a question down below, I will not answer since this is not the main blog. Please send the question to my inbox if you want a response back!

Do not repost this anywhere!

Both you and Marc were opposites. But you know what they say; opposites attract.

When Marc met you, he thought you were too good to be true and that you deserved someone better than him. Strangely to him, you wanted to be with him. So he hadn't let you go since and vice versa.

What Marc always knew when it came to you was that you somehow managed to get tired easily. It felt like it was a trick or something because no one could be as sleepy as you. But he never saw it as a problem. Because he knew that you would want him to cuddle you.

"Marc, I'm sleepy again," you pouted as you leaned onto his back.

Marc was sitting on a chair as he was doing some paperwork.

"Then go to bed, sweetie," Marc told you.

You let out a groan. "You know I can't go to bed without you."

"I'll be done in a minute. Why don't you get comfortable and I'll come to bed," Marc said.

"Okay fine. But I'm timing you!" You tell him.

"Fine by me."

You got into some comfy pajamas before getting into your bed. You waited for your boyfriend to come to bed but passed the time by watching some TikToks.

"See. Didn't take too long now did I?" Marc asked as he came to your shared bedroom.

"I'm cold," you pouted.

"As always," Marc chuckled as he changed into his pajama pants. He took off his shirt before getting into bed with you.

At this point, Marc was used to your cold body. At first, the cold temperature shocked him a little. But as time went on, he got used to it.

You got close to Marc, wrapping your arm and leg around his body. Marc held onto you as you snuggled closer to him.

"I'm not going anywhere sweetie," Marc joked.

"I know. But you're so warm," you yawned.

"I know."

"I love you," you tell him.

"I love you too."

You closed your eyes, listening closely to Marc's heartbeat as you fell asleep.

[samwiselastname]

So, the thing is, the bill specifically outlaws "transactions" wherein foreign adversaries have material interest. Here is how the bill describes "transactions."

(4) COVERED TRANSACTION.—

(A) IN GENERAL.—The term “covered transaction” means a transaction in which an entity described in subparagraph (B) has any interest (including through an interest in a contract for the provision of the technology or service), or any class of such transactions.

My understanding, that I've come away with is that this would disallow say, app stores from hosting a relevant app, or payments being made for software, etc. I do not understand how or why we would conclude that simply viewing an app or webpage would fall under this definition. The act does not ban accessing the software. The bill does not mention access or downloads at all.

Moreover, say the government discovers you're using a VPN! Okay! How do they prove what sites you accessed with that virtual network? They can't, that's the point of a VPN. Perhaps if your VPN provider keeps logs and is US-based, they would turn those over to law enforcement. This is a known, present risk with VPNs and it's why it's best to choose a service with good security that won't snitch on you to the police if you're abetting an abortion or organizing politically.

It is possible the US could ban the use of VPN services entirely in the future, sure. That would be massive state censorship! But this is not a present risk, it is not part of this bill, and the only places where I am seeing it asserted are unsourced social media posts by people without legal expertise, & crypto and web3 blogs. We need to understand what is actually at stake with this bill and not get hung up on fud misinfo here.

By your reckoning here, the heaps of respected news and tech sites all pre-emptively posting "here's how to access TikTok via VPN" articles right now will also face massive fines and imprisonment. If that's how any of this worked, why would they be doing that? And wouldn't the VPN company be the party abetting the violation of the act, & subject to the fines? There's a not of assumption and implied precedent here. The act is scary, the vague establishment of new national security structures is scary. It makes sense to worry. But "the government will fine me $1M for geo-evasion" is a bit of an extreme conclusion.

Also "the Bolivarian Republic of Venezuela under the regime of Nicolás Maduro Moros" is explicitly listed as a foreign adversary, fwiw.

can I ask what text in the RESTRICT act you are reading as criminalizing the use of VPNs? I am seeing this repeatedly and on reading the bill, I don't understand the logic of how VPNs would be effected, or any software not developed in a country outside of the list mentioned in the bill, or how these penalties would apply to most civilians. for example, proton is Swiss-based. wouldn't the US need to name Switzerland as a hostile foreign power to outlaw their VPN? how would an individual user utilizing a VPN to access software developed in say, Venezuela, be in violation of the act, based on its wording and likely legal interpretation? I only see information relevant to financial transactions, and any fine would be based on the value of said transaction?

obviously broad expansions of national security legislation with the intent to choke out foreign competitors are bad! and also, I just do not understand where this claim is coming from. this interpretation seems to state that "transaction" means viewing a site, and using a VPN is "abetting a transaction" and this seems... unlikely.

You're right about the foreign country part, where it wouldn't be considered if it were from a country not listed as hostile. I'll admit that I missed that one in my readings until someone else pointed it out.

I do want to be clear and say that I'm not a professional at this, this was all from my readings of the bill as well as some more research and seeing viewpoints of others, many of which ARE professionals, so I'm actually glad you're doing your own research on it. And I want to encourage you to continue doing so.

But as for the VPN issue, it comes down to section 11, subsection 2-F.

No person may engage in any transaction or take any other action with intent to evade the provisions of this Act, or any regulation, order, direction, mitigation measure, prohibition, or other authorization or directive issued thereunder.

Keywords "any other action". Basically VPNs would fall under that as it could be used to circumvent any bans of foreign services of companies based in the mentioned hostile countries. From my understanding, it would be less likely - to use your example - if you used it to access an online service based in Venezuela that wasn't available in the US as Venezuela isn't listed as hostile.

But then that's where the whole accessing your personal data comes into play. If the Secretary of Commerce and their team were to conduct an audit, you could be chosen at random. And if you use a VPN, they may decide to look closer at you to ensure you're not using it to access a banned service.

The reason VPNs are being discussed is because most people that bring it up are speaking in terms of using it to access tiktok if it were banned, or to access anything else that could be banned under this bill. THAT is where the problem with VPNs lie and why many people are warning others not to use them for this reason, due to the hefty penalties attached. VPNs themselves aren't targeted to be banned, just their use to access services that are.

A big part of it also comes down to discretion as well. If they so wished, if this bill were to pass, they could even push further to create another bill or expand this one to find a way to ban VPNs themselves, though that is less likely.

As of writing all this, the bill has only been introduced. It hasn't even passed the senate, so it's only in it's first stages. It could easily change as time goes on, or it could even fail to pass with or without American's intervention. It's all still very early, which is why we're all pushing so hard to stop it while we still can so that it doesn't escalate even further beyond what this bill proposes.

[harventheblorbo]

Hi,I really like your work.So can I get a fanfic about optimus prime with a human reader,where the reader is struggling with the fact that optimus chose jack over them to guard the key to vector sigma.(optimus is the guardian of the reader and the reader blames mostly themselves for being too weak and regretting every past traumatic experience they shared with optimus.They dont blame jack or optimus.)The reader tries to hide it bcs they dont want to embarrass themselves(as they see it) any further in front of optimus,but the thoughts that everyone dislikes them creep up again and so they become distant and try to make themselves very quiet/serious(they think of everyone as an enemy who finds them annoying again).

Also optimus reaction to that,what would he do?But in general angst with comfort(maybe an explanation as to why optimus didnt chose them).

Sorry if its too long or something doesnt fit the rules of the blog(couldnt find them😂)

One shot of TFP Optimus with a reader that can't understand why Optimus choose jack to guard the key of vector Sigma and not them!

Containing; Optimus Prime

___ is gender neutral and human

Warning; Angst, and swearing.

One shot Summary; ___ can't wrap their head around that Optimus picked Jack to protect the key to vecter sigma but some special bot notices.

When Optimus gave Jack the Key, my heart shattered. Why? Why was I so upset that Optimus gave Jack the key? Was it because maybe I thought that Optimus thought as me as too weak? I couldn't blame him if he did.

I didn't wanna ask Optimus because I was just too embarrassed. What if he got too nervous to tell me and told a lie? I mean I don't think he would but still it kinda hurts. I mean there has to be a reasonable explanation. I put my pencil down and closed my notebook. My therapist had been recommending that I should do journaling so I can have my head clear.

I mean it worked a little bit. But to be honest I think it just made me seem more awkward. The Video game buzzed and I heard Jack and Raf exclaim how the other cheated. It was a 2006 game that Ratchet bought so I doubt that Raf would know how to hack it anyway. Miko tapped me on the shoulder.

"Hey ___, do you by chance have the answer for number 3 on our homework?" Miko asked as she sat down next to me with her homework. "Yeah, it's 8" I replied. To be honest, I haven't been feeling the best recently and felt tired.

"Thank you!" She yipped and ran off after writing the answer down. I did anything to help them as I thought I was responsible to do it since Jack had to do it all the time. But to be honest, I think my whole life is going to shit

But I don't wanna really bring it up to someone. What if I burden them? And who would be the right person to talk to it about it? Ratchet is always so grumpy and would brush me off. Arcee would just ask me to go away or something like that. Bulk head is too nice and I think I would overwhelm him. Ultra Magnus wouldn't be the best to go to for anything. So for now, I just keep quiet. Like I always have.

As the days pass, I realize how distant they have been with me. But then again Ive been distant with them and I think it's for the better. No one has really been talking to me. And whenever they do, its awkward and uncomfortable and small.

I don't really care anymore. I don't care about anything anymore. I can't tell if I'm pissed off or just pissed at my self for being a fuckin fool. I guess I was too late to realize when Optimus was more or less observing me throughout the week until I saw him walk up to the risen area for the humans.

"___? Is it alright if I have a word with you?" I heard Optimus's voice and looked up at him. His optics whirred a little bit and saw how focused he was. "Sure... What's up?" I replied. There was no one around so It was a perfect timing. "I'm sure I can speak on behalf of everyone and say that we are worried for you ___" There was brief science. I nodded to let him continue talking. "You've been distant to everyone. Even the children and it's worrying us. Tell me what's wrong. Please" Optimus leaned a little bit forward as I walked up to where he was.

"Well to be honest, I've been upset about the fact that you chose to give Jack the key..." I explained with a upset tone. Im honestly embarrassed to even be saying these words. I can feel my hands sweat as I fidget with my fingers.

Optimus blinked and pondered on what he was going to say. "I see now." He remarked. "Your wondering why I gave Jack the key and not you, I'm I correct?" Optimus asked. I couldn't do anything but nod my head. "___, the only reason I chose Jack to protect it was because Arcee asked me to." He explained. "Oh..." I quietly stated.

I kinda chuckled. "Well thanks for clearing it up" I thanked him as I looked at him fully while I scratched the back of my head a little. He simply nodded with a slight smile.

[objectlovingobject]

Haii Tim, I recently discovered your blogs when exploring the wonderful world of objectum/posic people and culture, so I apologize if i get anything wrong when typing up this ask. I'm still a newbie so I beg for your patience.

Anyway, I wanted to ask if you could share your thoughts on if you think I have any sort of object related attraction based on thus conundrum I'm currently in.

To make a long story short, I really like this Xbox 360 game controller I bought a few years ago off Mercari. She's a part of Performance Designed Products' (PDP for short) Afterglow line of controllers, and she's equipped with a pretty long wire that allows me to enjoy my games at a comfortable distance. The problem starts when her wire stopped working reliably, and in order to give her a replacement I have to open her up and do some soldering work.

I could do all that, but her screws are stuck and I'm afraid of messing something up in soldering process even if I do open her up. I have other controllers, but nothing fills the void left in my heart like she does, and most repair places I call to get her fixed just reccomend me to buy a new controller.

I feel like I'm being asked to throw out a friend/family member just because it's more "convenient" and it'll make more "sense".

What is a lonely, controller obsessed lady supposed to do in this situation? And am I overthinking my emotions for some random old tech? Or am I really attracted to gaming peripherals?!?

Sorry for the late response! I needed to ruminate uwu

Tbh, i dont know the best decision to make here u.u if it were me tho, id keep my beloved controller in a safe spot(i would prob display them with whatever game console) and use a dif one for gaming(which would be hard, bc obvi i dont wanna feel like im abandoning my friend) that way they are still with me while i game, just not being used. Ofc you can snuggle them and hold them and stuff and maybe someday you can find someone willing to fix them! But for the time being, if them not working is too much of a hinderence to gaming, it may be best to let them retire umu but ofc its not my decision! Its really up to you to decide! But my personal belief is that objects feel a strong sense of purpose, and they want to help you as much as they can! But they are understanding too, like if they break or malfunction they understand that they need to be put away(i cant throw things away...) for a bit uwu

As for labeling your feelings, i would suggest pondering the objectum identity for an extended period of time! Really just let it soak in and see if its for you! Same with posic! Tho i can def see u being posic based on this ask hehehe >3<

Aa i rambled a bit there oops, i hope this makes sense ><

[l-tora-l-archived]

HELLO CUTIE WHATS UR MAIN BLOG, SHARE PLS XOXO

HIIII sorry for taking like ten centuries to respond to this but like tbh ;; Im quitting tumblr I think. (ALSO UNI PLS IGNORE THIS LOL ITS MAINLY FOR EVERYONE ELSE CAUSE I ALR TOLD YOU ID POST THIS HAHA😭🙏)

Mega explanation under the cut talking abt some of the trashy behaviour I've had to experience on this forsaken app over the years, but mostly how I feel about it so yeah if you don't care that's alr hope everyone has a good life, cause as I said I quit.

I deleted the new blog I ended up making bc this environment has never really been welcoming to me and I can 100% say that tumblr has actively made my experiences with practically everything irl AND online worse than any fruitful goodness it has or could ever bring. From putting my everything into relationships including comfort, support and psychological + therapeutic sessions for people even over ten yrs older than me (at times older) without even getting a single kind thought back, to the genuine rudeness of some people, to the (excuse my language) but half assed and crude responses I receive ... honestly the list is endless.

One thing I'm trying to get better at is to notice when my presence is clearly not wanted and act accordingly. It's just saddening that the one place where it's encouraged to be your true "nerdy" self, as the catchphrase of this site is, I am not allowed to be just that. I really do wonder what part of me is so incredibly intolerable or forgettable, that I am expected to practically grovel for even ten minutes of people's time - and that's with the closest people I know, forget abt ten minutes for regular conversation I can't even get ten minutes from the people I stood with through thick and thin with, even though I myself struggle really hard to be there and yet always am.

From now on I'll just say that no I will definitely not come back, I will also not use this account and if I ever DO come back it would probably just be a call out thread on SOME people who deserve jail time more than silly time on tumblr dot come /hj (but not rlly hj hahejdsj this is so srs and continues to impact my life after almost 2 years ... but ugh what.ever.😀👍). But I'm also a coward ngl so like that would never happen !

I would say "oh btw I have this account you can keep in touch on ! :>" but truthfully, I am so let down by how uninteractive, uncaring and exclusionary everyone is no matter how hard I try to do the best I can to treat others how I'd love to be treated, and how I basically am sweating to keep convos going, bc in truth I don't think anyone rlly likes me enough here or anywhere really to even want to talk to me in general, so I'll spare you all that. The proof is literally in the fact that I've amassed a sizeable following which I am shocked with, yet despite it all I feel so lonely bc nobody even bothers with me at all whilst ppl who just start out get 50 best friends in such a short time frame. I see I am not everyone's cup of tea.

I once thought maybe just maybe I could have a good time online just how everyone suggests that online is better than irl and it is a reprieve for some. Looks like I am eternally unlucky bc how is online on par or perhaps even worse than irl for me ? And make no mistake irl is atrocious to me too.

I do not mean this to be passive aggressive but I just want to communicate my thoughts. If I was being passive aggressive that'd imply that I knew that everyone here was capable of treating me as I wanted, as I have consistently treated my "friends" on here, as a reciprocated effort. But as this thread suggests, that was and can never be a reality for me.

TLDR // not coming back bc :

People genuinely don't care or don't put in any effort at all

Bullies (mean ppl way at the beginning of my account) + I am let down how everyone let TWO whole adults get away with being weird to a then minor (me) right in front of your faces

Very traumatised and uncomfortable being on this app to the point I can barely even socialise at all from the precipitating impacts.

Hope everyone has a good life.

[asexual-society]

Hello! Idk what else to say other than thank you for everything! A few years ago, back in April of 2022, I started to question whether I was ace and aro, so I stumbled upon your blog and asked for advice. This was before I even knew how to use Tumblr. When I got a response I was happy to see someone who related so much to me. I thought about what mod key had said for so many months! And I don't think I would have had the courage to find my identity if not for this blog because I didn't have anyone else to talk to about it. I was afraid of telling other LGBT members because of the mixed reception our identity had back then, and I thought my friends probably wouldn't get it. So thank you again, because I never got a chance to say it before, and I hope many more anons stumble across this blog and find comfort in themselves the way I did when I was questioning.

You don't need to respond to this ask, or post it, unless you want to! Up to you! I just want to share my appreciation!

~ another anon

Hey anon, good to hear from you again! I don't know what to say, this really means a lot, it made my day bc I'm honestly kind of amazed something I said so long ago had such a big impact that you came back (and amazed I've been doing this for so long, it doesn't feel like it at all!), but I'm really glad it did. I'm glad you figured things out for yourself, and I'm glad to hear you're doing okay, and that this blog could give you the courage you needed to get there.

~ mod key

[rollercoasterwords]

hi rae how are uu!!!

i was reading about mulvey and the female gaze and i remembered you saying something about how it pushes bioessentialist agendas but i don't remember what u said exactly so do you mind sharing a piece of ur mind about this again

also!!!!! i've read captive prince with ur influence and then read ur laurent's pov rewrite and god!!!!! it was so so good it brought me to tears and made me laugh out loud and scream into my pillow at times... the first book didn't stick out to me that well but afterwards?? their dynamic is everything i was missing in life. also reading the first book in laurent's pov was an otherworldly experience, him getting surprised to see damien isn't the definition of all things evil like he thought ahhhh u captured him perfectly i think

also read all for the game series (saw a fanart of neil in ur blog and it kickstarted me getting into yet another fandom) and i was like wtf is this and then later i was like wtf is this but in a positive way. now the characters are all my babies (except kevin like yes i understand his struggles and all but i still see that guy as a little bitch which is a bit ironic when andreil are the biggest bitches to exist but still)

also binge-watched iwtv and goddddd gays with communication problems who happen to be vampires i love them all sm <333 do u have a fav character i wonder AND any thoughts on the last episode?

anyways i hope life is treating you kindly much kisses and good wishes <3

hi i'm good hope ur doing good as well!! such a fun message hang on let me take this piece by piece...

mulvey's male gaze the bane of my existence lmao...yeah the entire theory is rooted in bioessentialism. basically mulvey is basing her theory in freud who assumes that the categories 'father' 'mother' 'son' and 'daughter' are stable + static & therefore assumes that the categories 'male' and 'female' are stable + static biological categories which engender inherently different psychic/interior qualities. mulvey's entire argument hinges on the idea that men will be categorically unable to relate to/empathize with/see themselves as women onscreen--this argument begins to break down when you start asking questions like 'how is mulvey defining 'men' and 'women'? is she defining them, or is she assuming that they're static biological categories? are they static biological categories?' also i disagree with the idea that people are categorically unable to identify with characters across sex and/or gender & think it's kinda dumb tbh. to be fair, mulvey's theory was meant to apply to a pretty specific context and has largely been taken out of that context in ways that are very annoying but not necessarily her fault; still, when the original theory is so rooted in bioessentialism i don't really find any of it useful.

anyway. moving on to the fun stuff captive prince omg!! so glad u enjoyed the series & my own take on laurent...it was SO fun trying to get inside his head & imagine what would have been going on in there i love him so much <3 <3 tricky to write tho bc i was definitely trying 2 walk the line of like. not diminishing/excusing laurent's cruelty while simultaneously showing why he acts the way he does in the first book...abuse as cyclical etc...

and aftg lol such a trip...wtf is honestly an accurate response it's a wild ride but so much fun <3 & not liking kevin...valid honestly i like him but i also don't care abt him that much compared 2 the other characters...u should read 'the sunshine court' at some point it's abt jean & it will probably make u like kevin even less lmao

& finally. iwtv!!!!!!!! i've been obsessed w that show the past few weeks i just binge watched season 1 & have now been watching season 2...SO fucking good omg. personally my favorite character is. armand <3 idc what he does they could never make me hate him...last episode was soooo good claudia is my second-fave character just a smidge after armand i truly think her story is probably the most interesting + tragic out of all of them like. makes me feel a bit crazyinsane thinking abt it BUT her & madeleine. oh my goddddd that scene broke me. don't have many more coherent thoughts currently other than wailing + tearing my hair out etc but i am having a great time nonetheless...

anyway thank u 4 the message love catching up life has been busy but mostly treating me kindly hope it's doing the same for u!! <3

[idoodlestuffsometimes]

Hi! I love your AU so damn much. I check up on it everyday. Would you mind if I made a fanfic where MY Wittebros AU goes to YOUR AU and meets your Belos and Metanoy? I’m just wondering if you think that’s disrespectful to use my AU as well. Also, my Wittebros cuss like sailors and use HEAVY British slang. Just a warning if you say yes.

My dude, I'm totally down with ppl playing in this sandbox however they want! I love to see it :D A lot of people have asked whether I'm ok with this or that, so let me explain a little my thoughts in the hopes that it'll make you guys a little more comfortable:

Because TOH is marketed to kids and I want anyone who enjoys my own drawings and ramblings for this AU to be relatively comfortable sharing them with any younger fans in their lives, I try to keep things I put here on my blog with the Brother's Keeper AU tag fairly tame. If it has anything potentially inappropriate I add a "tw" tag.

I also admit I tend not to be very interested in shippy stuff, just because I have different interests in fandom.

For those reasons, if you do your own stuff with the Brother's Keeper AU, especially if it's explicit, I MIGHT NOT ALWAYS SHARE IT, or I might share it with a "tw" tag.

HOWEVER, that DOESN'T mean that I'm against you making it! As long as anything explicit is appropriately tagged/warned for/kept in adult spaces, go wild! Make up your own endings! Play around with crack ships! Mash it with your own AU's! Insert your OC's!

I have my own story that I want to tell but I enjoy seeing where other people go with it, what aspects you enjoy playing with, where you theorize it might be going, and where you wish it had gone. As long as everyone remains civil and responsible, the variety of takes by different people stemming from the same story is one of the things I love most about storytelling.

You are always welcome to share what you make with me (in fact I often prefer it, because it makes me happy to see other people having fun with it!), but if you're not comfortable with it, you can choose not to, too.

To anyone who may be interested in sharing this AU with young fans: Please note that going through the tag on my blog while blocking "tw" is the surest way to do so. Please keep in mind that there may be less appropriate takes elsewhere on Tumblr or on AO3, and that the AU does tend to attract some morbid exploration. However, I take steps to make it accessible here on my own blog, and if there's anything I miss (I'm most likely to forget to warn for swearing bc I have a bit of a potty mouth myself irl), please feel free to let me know!

[se7ens-oc-heaven]

Ok so I had a pokemon worldbuilding thought for my oc stuff, but I'm gonna drop it here for anyone to consider bc tbqh I feel like it just makes sense:

What if, as legendary incidents see a sharp spike in occurrence, the title of "champion" becomes synonymous with being a sort of keeper or tender of Legendaries?

See, in a lot of games, npcs who speak of the local legendaries tend to talk of them more in the sense of folklore or cryptid or myth - creatures people haven't laid eyes on in ages, who aren't even positive existed. It's not until respective "evil teams" or whatever per each game plot actively stir up trouble and wake these mythological wonders up. And then in a lot of cases, they're Up for the foreseeable future.

Regions who only had champions for essentially sportsmanship purposes, now have to task their proven strongest trainer - who perhaps already faced and took down their local rampaging legendary, if you're following game structure - with the job of making sure the legendary is left unbothered and also not running rampant.

What does this mean? Well, it's different for every region, every legendary, and each champion is going to have a different approach on it. Some of them capture the Legendary and train it as their own, some of them keep it in boxes (pastures), some of them simply keep an eye on its home to make sure no one trespasses and stirs up a fuss. Some regions, like Alola and Johto, seem good about having protocols in place for how to interact with and respect the legendaries. Others, not so much, which means that while the title of Champion comes with this added task, the actual job descriptors get kind of vague after that.

I think too, this sort of added responsibility would explain any need for a champion changeover, too. A lot of champion npcs seem implied to have been the champs for a while - and, depending on how you interpret the game mechanics that allow you to re-challenge them, they often maintain their status even once you've defeated them. While it's simple to argue that it's not that common for trainers to reach the level of skill required to dethrone a champion, I do think it'd be interesting if the champions step down and trade off for someone who has already quelled the legendaries themselves, because the 'current' champions were not qualified to handle them.

Tl;dr - the games don't offer a lot of insight on what would happen with legendaries in-game if the player didn't choose to catch Every One and tame it, and the occupation of champion always seemed to me like it'd have a limited set of active responsibilities with a lot of gaps, so I decided to take care of two zapdos with one stone and brainstorm a solution for both! This isn't heavily canon-compliant, and isn't meant to be, but hopefully it feels plausible enough to work with!

Also - If enough people are interested, I may share my flexible breakdown of how arduous a task being a legends keeper is in each region! I cited Alola and Johto as being a bit easier with existing protocols built in, but I've put some thought into just how challenging each region could be to oversee, and how this could influence champion approach!

As mentioned, feel free to run off with this concept for your own ocs! And if you want, tag me in lore posts for it! This is my oc blog, but I also like to showcase other peoples' stuff, and I'd love to see how people approach this concept!

[altschmerzes]

Second and last answer (then I am off tumblr again, short visit) : Oh I just read your long answer to the message. Oh my good I seriously had no Idea. I am quite new on tumblr I just got here yesterday because of your fanfic were was mentioned your name and tumblr, I did not know that this is such a intimate safe space I thought it was more of a promoting fanfic and light and fun website with "hey there" and "whats up" kind of site and just reda your last comments. I had absolutely no idea, you seem to have think that I Know this site and the type of intimacy shared and your story- it must have been so horrible to red my message! I am so so so very sorry! Thank you for letting me know. I swear I will not write you again, I hope it brings you some peace of mind that i was just stupid and dumm and not knowing anything about this and will leave tublr ! it is you life and your feelings and i want don't to tell you how to feel and have no right too and now see what a huge mistake it was to treat this as a happy rambling website. I will leave tumblr now, so you can feel a bit safer if i made you feel unsafe. I am sorry I am writing this anonounoumosly still, but I was shocked by your (rightfully strong! You are absolutely right) reaction and feel not safe enough, which I am sure is ironic to you because you were made felt so unsafe by me- it is just how it is. Have a much better day. I have the feeling everything i write would sound stupid or be taken the wrong way (not because of you understanding it wrong, but because of me not being able to express it because i neither have the language not also the insight into the topic not it seems the sensibilty needed) so i will stop now with a final and the only thing that matters and I hope you can take away: I am so sorry you were hurt because of what i said. It will never happen again.

the only reason i'm answering this at all, bc i've been sitting here staring at it kind of speechless for about 15 minutes, is just to make some things clear for anyone ELSE who might be reading my responses and getting the wrong idea from them.

i love when people connect with me here from reading my fics

i promise i am not usually an overly angry or aggressive or scary person. i don't jump down people's throats for simple mistakes or attack people or whatever. i like to think, at least from my own limited internal perspective, obviously having no idea how i come across to other people, that i'm pretty friendly and approachable and kind as a general rule. i like to think, and i hope this is true, that i am not a scary person.

this is not a particularly...... intimate platform any more than any other social media is. i often promote my fic here and have lighthearted jokes and chat about media! i link my tumblr in my fic notes for a reason, and it's not because i need or want everyone to Intimately Understand The Intricacies Of My Life. it's a blog. i also make some personal posts sometimes, about my experiences with abuse and trauma and mental health issues among other things, but that doesn't mean it's like..... some kind of holy ground safe space. this wouldn't be okay to say to anyone anywhere based on the information available to you when you did it. it is just as inappropriate to make assumptions about strangers' lives and then lecture them based on those assumptions, especially regarding something as potentially fraught as family, on a 'happy rambling website' whatever that means.

just to be clear, none of this is a communication issue. it's not about what you've said being taken the wrong way. i give people the benefit of the doubt as best i can. i extend whatever grace i can because communication is always going to be imperfect especially via text. the problem is not one with wording or with expressing yourself. the problem is that you decided to shame me, a complete stranger, for how i spoke about my parent, when you had no information about my parent, me, our relationship, or our history. full stop. that was wrong. it was wrong, it was inappropriate, it was invasive, it was presumptuous, and it was cruel. you made that choice. own it and live with it and do better.

[acti-veg]

Hello Acti-veg! Im a big fan of ur blog. Ik ur no Vegan prophet/guru or anything, but i could really use another vegan to talk to. I'm vegan and also I have been trying to live as low waste a lifestyle as possible. Growing my own food included. My mom, despite my best efforts, refuses to go vegan. In fact she is a staunch Anti-vegan. Her doctor told her to go plant-based, her health is failing bc of her diet, and refused to change. But she's a stubborn until proven wrong type.

She made a huge fuss about how useless growing our own food was, but through ignoring her and making an effort, and successfully harvesting, I convinced her that growing food was a good idea, and have slowIy started including more vegetables and water into her diet. She expressed interest in backyard hen keeping. I always wanted to adopt rescue chickens, I could give them a good life, spay them so they dont have to be egg machines, and the manure/ free roaming habits for eating bugs could help around the garden and give them enrichment, and I briefly considered the option. But I know that Veganism is about harm reduction, condemning, and reducing the reliance on animal exploitation as far as possible of Human and Non-human animals.

I thought that by eating yard eggs as opposed to grocery store eggs I could explain the conditions of factory farm animals, and then teach her about the impact it causes on animals even locally, and then spay the hens properly. But it still feels shitty on the end of the hens..

I feel like by trying to get my mom to slowly transition to veganism full stop, I would be making non-vegan decisions along the way, but if I do nothing, I would have wasted the opportunity to make another activist and save more animals in the longterm, i was wondering what ur thoughts on it may be? Or anyone in the comments

I can totally appreciate the dilemma here, but honestly I think you may be taking on the responsibility of her choices a little too much. I could be wrong, but it sounds like you're taking her failure to reduce her harm as a personal failure, and therefore determining that it's up to you to directly change her behaviour.

I think that is probably how you have arrived at this dilemma - you are wanting to reduce her harm to the extent that you're willing to put yourself through something you'd not only find uncomfortable, but would actively go against your own ethics. You can advocate, you can provide opportunities for her to do better, but it's really not up to you to provide her with less harmful animal products.

Besides, I think it's an assumption that her having backyard hens would be more likely to lead her to veganism - in my experience, welfarism is not on the same continuum as abolitionism, one doesn't lead to the other. She will still think of animals as essentially there to provide things for her benefit, she will just also think they should be treated well while doing so, which she probably already believes.

I share that impulse to try to help those around you see the truth you have arrived at, and to some extent that is our duty as vegans and activists. However, you can't take on the burden of their choices as your own, and you shouldn't compromise your own principles to lessen someone else's harm.

Personally I'd take a third option - tell her you'd like backyard hens too, you think it'd be great to save some battery hens, but you'll be looking after their health by preventing them from laying, because that is the responsible thing to do given the health impact. You coul still educate her if she chooses to go down this route. See where she lands on that, but either way, I really don't think it's on you to try to make the animal products she consumes more ethical - that way you really would be making her choices your own.

If you'd like to chat this through more with another vegan then please feel free to message me - my inbox is always open.

[only-aroha-would-know]

I just wanna say, thank you for actively posting about our boys. I've been an astro fan since 2016 and since april 2023, I thought to take a break from them because I really treasured them and seeing two members go was too much for me. I finally allowed myself to let go today and experience astro songs and content because I knew that they were too precious to me, I can never let them go. I will support Astro as 4 and Rocky at the side. And your blog was the only updates I get in tumblr bc you're the only one relatively active. Your content let me slowly heal the grief I've held for a while ; w ;

Thank you for reading even if this post kinda read a little sad. And apologies for the abrupt side note, do you know any other active astro blogs?

Hello. Thank you for sharing your experience. I know it's really hard to deal with grief and I'm happy to be some sort of comfort for you🫂

I may not be as active here as I used to be but I'll keep this account active as long as I can for people like you. Thank you for loving Astro💜

Unfortunately, most of my mutuals had already abandoned their accounts and some just appears once in a while. The ones I still see active are @eeunwoo @jinwoowoohoo

Also sorry for the late response. I'm swamped with work😭