#I'm just a stupid asexual
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I'm not denying that Adam Driver is a fantastic actor. Nor am I gonna attempt to argue whether he was the perfect choice for Kylo Ren (’cause he was). The only thing that has me stumped--and keep in mind, this is just my asexual ass speaking--is why people find Kylo Ren attractive?
Because for me personally all I see when I think of or see a photo (or even fan art) of Mr. Ben Solo is that he's just a very angry wet rat.
I don't think it's his hair because I've watched multiple films that Adam Driver has been in, and that particular comparison never crossed my mind. And I could definitely understand why people would find Adam Driver, himself, appealing. But for some reason my brain just can't understand Kylo Ren in particular. A part of me wonders if it's the "energy" he carries while acting as Kylo Ren????
Like there's just something very upsetti spaghetti and hissing rodent about Kylo that I can't avoid seeing. Am I making any sense?
#star wars#sequel trilogy#kylo ren#ben solo#adam driver#god are the reylo fans gonna scalp me for this one?#please don't#I'm just a stupid asexual#i don't mean any harm to your blorbo#i just don't understand what you find#physically appealing about him#i need to stop talking
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"alastor isn't canonically aroace" errrrm actually he told me he was himself sorry
also yes I edited this myself so some details below if anyone's curious (did this to challenge myself a bit but it didn't take too much effort)
edited in premiere pro, this is how the frankensteined audio and visual look together, even reordered, slowed down and stitched the different mouth movements together to fit the words
specific dialogue taken are:
Alastor: I'm afraid you've lost your signal.
Alastor: Of course! Can't let my new project fall into disrepair already. What would the papers say?!
Alastor: When I'm done, your status quo will know its race is run!
all from episode 2, basically what was compiled was "I'm air al ace" but air al sounded enough like aro to me so I just rolled with it LMAOOO
#osrs.mp4#alastor after rosie fully explains everything:#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor#alastor hazbin#alastor hazbin hotel#this is a very stupid thing I made I know#aroace alastor#aromantic alastor#asexual alastor#CAPTION IS A JOKE BTW I'm not actually vaguing anyone I just needed an excuse to post#aromantic#aroace#asexual
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For someone who doesn't like coming out to people you'd think I'd be a whole lot better at pretending to be straight.
#I am an absolute disaster#usually I can get away with saying oh I'm not interested in dating#let them assume whatever they want#but when the conversation goes on and I get asked about my type or don't I think that guy is hot#that's when I say something so stupid you'd think I'd only just been born#asexual#asexuality#aromantic asexual#aromantic#aroace#ace#asexual problems#lgbtqia+#lgbtq
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okay okay okay I know we have the explicit ace and aro rep in Sif and Mira BUT have you considered
Sex neutral ace Isa (that's a very neutral reaction to "drawings of people doing fun things" you've got there. Very neutral. Surprising for someone who's very easily flustered)
and aromantic M'dame Odile! Bonding earring conversation where she says it's not really her thing, anyone? Sounds to me like everyone in this cast is aro and or ace.
#jury's still out out on bonnie honestly#not in the ''i don't think they can be aro or ace'' way bc that's stupid and you can know pretty early#but like. i don't really have any strong opinions on whether they'd be interested in that sort of thing#like yeah they could be aro to me#but also they could just. like people? i guess?#they're a kid so i don't really care and i'm not sure i would care anyways but like guys#they could go either way to me#they could grow up and get a partner#or not#and i don't think i would mind either way#screaming out of the abyss#siffrin#isat#in stars and time#aromantic headcanons#asexual headcanon#isat isabeau#in stars and time isabeau#alloromantic isa to me though#isat odile#odile#in stars and time odile#madame odile#headcanons#i'm right#well you don't have to assume i am but still#anyways stay tuned for a fic abt asexual isabea *gets murdered*
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#my relationships always end because of my own stupid feelings#if i just didn't igve a fuck that my first ex sa'd me we wouldn't have broke nup#if i didn't give a fuck that my second ex was abusve we wouldn't have broken up#if i didn't wat to be more feminine and just wasn't asexual my third ex wouldn't have left me#and now this#i try so fucking hard to be accommodating for everyone#but the moment i try to be upfront about my issues or my wants or try to say something isn't right - i'm always abandoned#how much more do i have to fucking try#how little self worth do i need so people i love *stop* leaving me#⋆。˚ it is what it is 🚬#why am i always too much for everyone#i try. fuck i try you have no idea how much i try#i want to be good i want to be worthy i want to be loved#what do i need to do please how do i need to change#google how to stab myself in the throat without dying in the process
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the world of make believe musical number is so horny but i don't think chris likes sex so in my mind it's a result of either A) robert's interference (i mean look at his solo dance there) or B) chris overcompensating for the fact that he doesn't like sex (because he's a Man and men aren't allowed to not like sex, not with his conservative upbringing #heteronormativitystrikesagain)
#the goes wrong show#peter pan goes wrong#chris bean#marshy speaks#suggestive#i'm tipsy enough to maintag this stupid ass post lmao#'doesn't like sex' is just a funny way of saying he's sex repulsed/asexual just to be clear#i'm being silly don't take me that seriously#.........but also i do believe in this 100%
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Omg imagine a bdsm au or an a/b/o au where everyone has to have a registered alpha/dominant/whatever once they turn sixteen. And Reggie's family sucks so Luke or Alex volunteer to be it for him. Cue the moments at school of them signing his permission slips, calming down a panic attack, and defending him to the principal 😍
Okay but like I have so many feels about this. Like, the boys know Reggie is super scared about this, because if you don't HAVE someone to register to, you get ASSIGNED and even though there are probably like 50 million books and teen movies about meet cutes that way in reality it is a HORROR SHOW. Like in some states at least you get paired with someone your age but you know there's creepy ones out there being like 'of course pairing this sixteen year old to a thirty year old will work out totally fine'.
So of course they reassure him that they got him, don't even worry about it. But Reggie doesn't really want to see them either rock-paper-scissorsing over who has to be his Register, or seeing them half-heartedly thumb wrestling over who 'gets' to be it but both not really wanting to win.
But on the day of, Luke challenges Alex to a goddamn sword fight for Reggie's hand, and Alex is just like, doing Alpha Posturing like: you think you can take me?
And they're causing a ruckus, duelling with Alex' drum sticks, and Reggie is nearly falling over laughing because his friends are idiots who would make a fool of themselves in public to cheer him up. But also they're both really trying to win which makes him feel a lot better.
And Bobby just sidles up like: you seriously want to be registered to either of those idiots? I can sign, too.
And Reggie nearly falls over like: wtf Bobby, we all thought you were a Beta. But shrugs and is like: yeah actually that makes sense, let's go sign up.
The shouts of betrayal when Bobby waves the little paper at the other two is eventually what gets them all detention.
So he ends up signed under Bobby until a few years later when he happily starts dating Luke and Alex. And they're able to start a relationship without the pressure of being someone's Register, and Bobby happily signs over the paperwork when Reggie feels like he's ready AND THEY ALL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.
#julie and the phantoms#a/b/o dynamics#fanfic#I wrote a thing#kind of#not!fic#asexual bobby is my beloved headcanon so he's just like: I have zero interest in any of this heat stuff but at least I'm not an idiot#also he knows both Alex and Luke have been kind of pining for Reggie#and he thinks that one of them being his Register over the other would fuck things up between them#in the meantime he 100% rubs it in the other two's faces#THEY'RE A PACK THEY'RE FAMILY#BOBBY'S NOT GONNA GET SOME STUPID LAWS GET IN THE WAY OF THAT#yes luke and alex planned the sword fighting duel specifically to make Reggie laugh#but then got weirdly competitive#you know at least one other omega was like: >=( nobody is duelling over me#I am not writing a thing
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If I had to create a gem species like in Steven Universe and Houseki No Kuni (I know, I know. But as a MADD, a mineralogy nerd and a huge fan of both series, I want for once to pacify this little whimp of mine), I'd probably make them live in a cave/underground enviroment. Their cities would be build underground an their houses/room, inside cave corners.
A town of Minerals (the species' actual name) is called a Colony and it's not lead by the ones whos "gem-core" (the irl gem who matches their biology/appearences) has the strongest hardness on Moth's scale. They are chosen on reliability and empathy/simpathy and other factors.
A baby mineral is called a geode and a group of minerals is called a cluster
While I still like this species to look a bit more humanoid, they wouldn't look just like colorful people! I want to give them some features that distances them a bit from our fav gems: what about something like horns (perhaps made out of crystals??) And crystal grows over their bodies? Maybe a tail??
These mineral-people aren't actually made out of pure gemstone. They are called "rock elementals" for their biological structure: their blood, flesh and other bodly parts share the same chemical composition of IRL gems (a citrine quartz have both silicius and steel in their body).
This determines a few factors: the blood/flesh/skin/irises and other features' colors who are very close to match the irl gem, and also some health-related things (Mineral whose "gem-core" is colorless such as phantom quartz or goshenite would be very sensitive to the sun-light, like albino creatures, because there are not impurities that colors their skin. For example, a "Sapphire-person" would get bluer if they get a sunburn).
Also, there can be metal-cores too but they are rare. Metals can be born from two minerals who have a gem-core (and this usually happens because the metallic impurities in their body are commoner than the other rock impurities), or can be born from a metal and gem couple
Also Minerals are not immortals!!
Their life lenght depends on many factors, but they get old and die like any other living being (I'd like to think that the type of gem-core is a factor on the duration of the mineral)
Speaking about gem-core, Minerals are not named after that ofc (it can works as a nickname such as Dora for a Labradorite, but most of the time the name is not linked to the irl gem)
And that's it prettu much...
What do you think about it? Feel free to let your questions in the ask box
And any suggestion is more than welcome!
#one last thing:#in both SU and HNK gems are also asexuated and genderless#which is something very valid and I do respect a lot#but to not make my species too close from those series I decided the minerals here are not asexuated and can have any gender#the biological sex part isn't relevant actually#There are also two words to describe the different sexes: gems are for females and crystals are for males#I just wanted to specify#I hope this isn't an issue#it's just that I have this stupid obsession to make everything as furthest as possible#also they do eat and sleep like any other living being#Tama's thought#original species#original character#oc#minerals#mineralogy#fictional biology#steven universe#houseki no kuni#also this should be obvious but I'm not gonna publicise any of this outside the internet#unlike my other projects this is very clearly inspired by those two medias and I don't want to get any money#this is just for purely fun!#maladaptive daydreaming#paracosm#fan paracosm#madd#actually madd
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Certified Asexual (tm) moment yesterday. Was making a meme and needed a picture of naked ass for funny purposes. Looked up 'butts' on image search and was absolutely gobsmacked by the reminder that 'oh yeah, people are into those sexually'. Didn't feel like looking at porn to get a screencap, so I used a very suggestive image of a peach instead.
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goddamnit. am i actually having a sexuality epiphany because i'm recognizing myself in a fictional cringefail vampire man. you gotta be kidding me
#in my defense being both on the ace spectrum AND hypersexual is a bit of a confusing thing to experience#maybe i'll feel different abt it later but for rn i think that explains a LOT#for real this explains why i don't care about sex 90% of the time but when i do it's like going 0 to 100 in .2 seconds#oh my god. oh my fucking god i used to think gray asexuality was silly bc 'everyone feels that way' oh my GOD i'm a fucking idiot#head in hands bro. cannot believe i was that fucking stupid as a teenager. i was THAT CLOSE to getting it 😮��💨#i should talk to my therapist abt this... i haven't talked to anyone abt my hypersexuality ever bc its such a stigmatized symptom but damn#i'm not gonna blame my bipolar for this or anything but damn did it make this possible answer SO much more obscured in my mind#like... damn. i feel so flabbergasted by this#i keep saying damn in the tags. dude this revelation has rendered me without the proper words to convey my emotions.........#i'm gonna be fine but rn i feel all kinds of off kilter from this realization. and i'm still doubting it even so! but it would make SO much#sense!!!!!! ugh i haven't questioned any aspect of my sexuality in earnest in years i genuinely forgot how much it sucks#like yeah there's relief maybe? but also just confusion and annoyance abt my past blindness#god. this is a huge tag ramble i think i'm gonna stop talking now#len speaks
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Rambling about some explicit NSFW stuff. I'll make a short disclaimer about it, since I normally don't do this.
So, this post is dealing with me, my asexuality, my views on sex and some more explicit stuff.
So this is a bit weird. I am definitely aroace, no questions there. I'm not sure if I'm maybe demisexual, but at least right now, I'm at most indifferent, if not slightly repulsed.
And yet, sometimes I see posts about writing prompts or some queer space post about someone getting their literal brains fucked out of them and I'm just like:
Damn. I'd like someone to fuck my brains out. But not in a sexual way. I'd like to be ravaged and reduced to an inarticulate mess. But without someone being sexually intimate with me.
I don't want to have sex, but I want to be a stuttering, mumbling mess out of appreciation.
And yet, the idea of sex makes me physically react. I get in a bad mood, my brain is initiating disgust and I can't stand someone touching me then.
I crave the intimacy of sex without the sex.
And sometimes it drives me crazy. Those are the days I can't really deal with my asexuality. The days I see it as something wrong in my life, something missing. Where I want to be sexual with someone, even though I know it's going to make me hate myself and will be detrimental to my mental health.
And I know I'm not missing anything. 99.9% I'm fine, happy even.
But then I read about someone being loved senseless and just feel like I'm missing out.
Yeah, that's mostly it. But I needed to get it out and what better way than screaming it to (mostly only) strangers on this platform.
#asexuality#asexual#rambling#I'm confused about sex#sometimes i just feel broken#and i want someone to make me feel that way without having to have sex with them#and i have a wonderful boyfriend that makes me feel appreciated and im really happy#but some days I'm sad for this stupid reason#sorry for that weird post#btw#my boyfriend is awesome#literally the best guy out there#love him in my own weird non romantic way#it you read this boyfriend#you're cool
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DUDE I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE I'M GOING TO BE SICK
#// vent#(unspecified family member) is pro-cheeto i'm so close to losing it#just as i got over a minor freak-out#fuck my stupid asexual baka life#JUST as i was regaining hope for her. no just god and a literal fucking demon of a human being wow okay
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Love that they take Bella with the gym with them all the time
#*p#What does she even do while she's there#Do they make her work out too#doing little dog squats. idk how a dog would do that how about a dog plank that is possible my dogs love doing that#i've made this exact post before haven't i#i think i probably even said that exact same thing. well without those tags#they take bella to the gym a lot so not my fault#wait. how do they even get her in the gym#why is that allowed#i 've never been to one but i would assume most don't let your dog come with you. did they have to go ask for special permission like#hey i'm famous therefore let me take my dog in the gym with me. said dog is known for peeing on things but ignore that#i need to go write my homework and stop talking about wayv's dog going to a gym. my midterm is next week and i feel like i am stupid#well at least i am confident i won't be the most stupid person in my class#do you think that's enough words yet#it's like i'm writing an essay and am trying to say one thing but repeat it in three different ways and in as many words possible and#wondering why i exist just to write an essay. but that is also just my stream of consciousness#now on to the real reason of this post: i opened this and tell me why i was MOMENTARILY VERY BRIEFLY light headed at the sight of his chest#i'm so confused did the asexualism just leave my body#hmm#no i think i'm good i still don't want to fuck him#crisis over#...i think
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Having a "questioning my asexuality moment for no reason" while drinking tea out of my new ace cup is definitely ironic.
#asexual#ace#I hate those moments when you just have to question everything because of one stupid thought#and then have to work back to no you're being stupid I'm definitely ace#my ace tea cup is awesome though
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Reblog if your blog is a safe place for aromantics, too.
Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.
I'm trying to prove something.
#leechandoki reblogs#asexual and aromantic#I'm not about to go to war fighting for these two again they been rejected long enough#not everything in the LGBT+ community needs to be sexually oriented. That's just messed up and gross tbh.#it's like when bisexuals were getting attacked... gosh that was a stupid time and it's still happening like GOD DAMN IT GROW UP#if you don't agree BLOCK ME NOW BECAUSE YOU'LL BE DOING US BOTH A FAVOR
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