#I'm hyping myself up way too much but for the last few days my brain's been craving thought fodder hnngg

[starpros-sunshine]

We deserve the next halloween event to be fine, yuzuru center. Thoughts?

YES YES YES WE HAD FINE-IFIED UNDEAD NOW GIVE US UNDEAD-IFIED FINE

[aaronstveit]

hi! ive been around for awhile now but never said hi to u off anon jdkdmdjd

how are you?

okay question, how do you read so many books? i used to be a bookworm in middle school but then high school and depression happened and i lost the ability to focus. im adhd so its not surprising but none of the tricks people recommend works for my brain. i sit down to read and after two words im like "okay nevermind."

i really like audio books but i miss actually Reading the words myself you know? there is a difference between them for sure and i also notice i remember the new words and phrases better when im actually reading them instead of just hearing them.

you read a lot so i thought maybe any advice you have might help me? its worth a shot to ask jfkdkdjd no pressure tho. <3

omg hi!!🫶🏻 i'm good, how are you? <33

i was exactly the same! couldn't stop reading in elementary & middle school, then high school completely destroyed my love of reading & learning. it's honestly taken me years to get back to being an avid read and to enjoying it </3

i'm lucky to have a lot of free time. i also have a lot of sleeping problems & end up unable to sleep around 2am most nights, so i get a lot of reading done from like 9pm-2am. it's not ideal to my sleeping schedule and i definitely don't recommend it, that's just one of the ways that i end up reading so much.

i think cossette @hollyfhumberstone has a phenomenal post here about tips for reading more that i definitely refer to when i find myself in a reading slump!

for me, it really helps to set a daily goal for reading. i use the finch app and every day i set goals to read at least one chapter of whatever it is that i'm reading. there is no punishment for missing a goal, but there are rewards for accomplishing them, and that helps me! like right now, i'm reading wuthering heights, which i've put off reading forever because it intimidates me. so i set a goal of just reading one chapter a day so i can get through it. sometimes i'll read two chapters a day, especially if they're short, but it's easier to get my brain to do it because i've taken the pressure off myself, if that makes sense! a lot of my reading is really about tricking my brain into letting me do it tbh.

i also let myself take breaks between chapters, even when i'm sitting down to read for a few hours! if i finish a chapter and i want to check social media or play solitaire on my phone for a second or get a snack or something, i just do it. i know some people really try not to look away from their book for certain amounts of time, but that doesn't work for me because then i'll be looking at the words but i'll just be thinking about doing something else the entire time.

one of my favorite things to do is talk about the books i'm reading, so that helps me, too! i talk to my dad and my friends about books, which always hypes me up to read more. if you ever wanna talk about books with me, my DMs and asks are always open! i literally just LOVE talking books, even if i haven't read them yet!

setting reading goals works for me too, but i tend to set running goals instead of definitive goals. like, i'll set my goodreads goal for x number of books each year, but the rest of my goals are not numerical. they're more like "read more diversely," "read more classics," "read more science fiction," "read more fantasy," "read more historical fiction," and "read more nonfiction." (those are my goals for 2024 btw). that way i'm not chasing a number, i'm just broadening my horizons!

what has really helped me the last couple of years was finding genres i enjoyed and getting really into them. i discovered i like mystery, thriller, and horror books a lot more than other genres, so that's most of what i've been reading! i still run into books i don't like, and i still branch out and find some incredible books in other genres, but i'm done forcing myself to read what's popular just for the sake of it.

oooh and another thing i do when i can't get myself interested in a new book is to reread an old favorite. i reread the hunger games pretty much every year when i find myself in a reading slump, because i know that series will keep me interested no matter how many times i've read it. annotating old favorites also works for me! i annotated thg this year, the raven cycle last year, and i think next year i will try annotating lord of the rings!

i hope this helps! i wish i could give you some better advice </3 if you have any other questions, please let me know!! 🫶🏻

[dreamlandcreations]

Burnout recovery (?)

It took me a while to figure out why I was so down all the time. But I didn't take the "good news" that well tbh. Because:

"It takes an average time of three months to a year to recover from burnout. "

And I was like. NOPE. FUCK. THAT!

Well, the first few days after that were even worse because I kept pressuring myself to do something, anything other than lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. But even something as so no energy "task" as listening to music was making me... idk how else to say it other than itchy...

Anyway, eventually I just gave up, let it consume me and slept away like 2 days... AND GUESS WHAT? I felt a tiny bit better.

So I'd say the first step is just LET IT ALL FUCKING GO! Turn the nagging in your head off and stop caring about anything else than getting a good rest!

My work drove me insane for the last 3 years or so and tbh it took over my life far, far sooner than that. It wasn't healthy. Letting that go took like 2-3 weeks ( I had "help" from other tortured colleagues 🫶 talking helps!) and a lots of Youtube shorts about "this is business not personal". Yay to scrolling paralysis.

Yeah, and about that. I realised that with the burnout I really burned all the bridges that kept my autistic/adhd traits in check. I mean, I used to have a good balance, now I'm off the scale with both in the worst way.

I think the second step is just trying to stay in that kind of relaxed, "don't care" space while figuring out the reasons why I felt so terrible. Again, Youtube shorts about autism/adhd and work mentality really helped. It was like talking to someone without actually getting myself together enough to open up about this to a "real person" (it never would have happened, you know).

And this is the part from where this might not help anyone who doesn't have adhd (and autism?) but realising that I've become a shell of adhd behaviour was actually a big step. Especially with the adhd/autism traits comparison vids bc I just understood how I was functioning when I was doing all that stuff at once.

The next step(s) I took was trying to take care of myself. Eat, sleep, wash, clean up to feel better in my skin and in my environment. I made it a challenge (chasing dopamine seems to be the only way adhd brain can do stuff). Like I'll put on this song ( I wasn't really listening to it still) and do .... until it's done. It did not help at first. Just getting into a task without thought doesn't work for me. I needed to take a minute and visualise that I'm going to do this and this and this and I'll be done in 3 minutes. I prepared for the task mentally, I hyped myself up then I did it. And it worked. Then I got too much into it and overworked myself 😅

However cliché it sounds, the key is finding balance.

Now I can listen to music, I've read 14 books this year so far and reading 5 others now, and I'm planning my year and thinking about what I want to do in life.

I still have bad moments/days and that's okay. I am still not okay but I'm getting there.

I figured, I need to occupy (not overwhelm!!!) my senses to stop my mind from wandering (and torturing me) so now when I have to do something like dishes, I just put on an audiobook and try to let everything else go.

I still can't watch movies/shows. Which sucks bc I feel like I need visual stimulation too sometimes so idk what's up with that but it's a no for now.

Writing is still a NO! (that's a screaming no in my head). But I started to write down ideas again (something I didn't really do for months)

What I know would improve my health and most likely my mental state is regular exercise, but I'm not there yet. I still regularly skip/forget to eat more than once a day so that's a priority.

It's also difficult to leave the house tbh. The outside world is overwhelming and I don't go out if I don't have to (which is like once a week now).

What I do know is that if you want to do something DO NOT SIT DOWN! You'll never get it done. There's no "in a minute" or tomorrow. If you want it done, do it now.

I'm working on building a structure/routine in my daily schedule that gives me a guide so I wouldn't waste my days but doesn't limit or outright strangle me with too many limitations by being to crowded.

[howdoyousleep3]

I look up to you so much and the way you share yourself, and the encouragement you give to everyone… it makes me feel warm and cozy. Something that’s been hurting me for a while is I haven’t been able to write. I used to write a few thousand words a week but I haven’t written even a paragraph the last three years. It’s been long enough that whenever I open my laptop to write I’m struck with this overwhelming anxiety that clouds any inspiration I’ve been able to grab.

Do you have any advice for how to get myself out of my head and write again? Or just words of encouragement? It feels like part of me has died.

🥺 Oh, my love! It makes me so happy to hear that I make you feel warm and cozy. That's such a lovely compliment, thank you. 💕

This is something that I've been struggling with too and have only started to come out of since October really. If writing means as much to you as it does to me, I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's such an awful feeling to not be able to do what you once did and loved. I couldn't write anything while I was pregnant and since the girls were born it's been such a challenge to come back to it, so I understand what you're going through.

Advice might be a struggle since it feels like I'm still going through it and almost out of the dry spell, but something that has been so helpful to me is having that support system surrounding you. For me it's this place and my fandom friends. I can't count the number of times @maddiewritesstucky, @slothspaghettiwrites, @christywantspizza, @shadowobsidian, @vilkasdaina, @babyyhoneyydarling, @baseballbatbucky, @ywecanthavenicethingsanymore, and countless others have reminded me that this is only temporary, that I am capable, and that even the smallest bits of writing count for something. I don't know where I would be without them.

Something else that helped me write and get excited again was all the little things that come with writing: playlists, moodboards, pinterest boards, asks, hype posts, headcannons. Those things can convey the same feelings that writing does even when it's hard for me to put words down on paper. It still makes me feel like I'm contributing to my own work.

Sometimes I actually write things down in a journal or just throw three sentences down into a doc. That can help too. Anything that makes me feel like I'm being creatively productive.

I also did some fandom exploring and tried out different types of writing styles to try new things and that was really beneficial.

And reading has been a huge help to me. I've been reading like crazy. I read every day. Something that keeps my brain connected to writing, even when it isn't my own, has kept this part of me alive.

This part of you has not died, no no. This part of you continues to need to be shown grace and patience as it emerges again. I know some days it feels like "oh my gosh, there it is, there's that feeling", and then when you go to write, little to nothing happens, and that can be so frustrating. But finding other ways to help this side of you come out to play until it's ready will surely be beneficial.

You'll find something so worthy of throwing yourself into soon and you'll be so excited to be creative once again and I'm so excited for that to happen for you. Writing and creativity takes so much time and energy. You'll get there, babe. ❤️

[tvrningout-a]

Rules, tag 10 followers  you want to get to know better!

Tagged by: i stole it from the lovely @viciousbite! Tagging: @vonerde @fanaticist @ofpersistence @resolutepath @staggerbackwards @sozokami @sociieties @killedarlings @manneatcr @lunarscaled, @hedevil-ism/@malxshrine, and anyone who hasn't done it!

Name: bel ( can you guess where i got my alias :) )

Star Sign: virgo with cancer rising and scorpio moon and man does it show

Height: 4'9'' /  145 cm  

Middle name?: since i like y'all, i'll tell you uvu it's marie ( pronounced muh-ree )!

Put your itunes/spotify/youtube on shuffle. What are the first 6 songs that popped up?

piece of intent by kenichiro suehiro

like crazy by jimin

truth by ramin djawadi

wonderwall by j2 and miranda dianne

a new way ( acoustic ) by morgxn

baby good night by b1a4

Ever had a poem or song written about you: funnily enough, yes! in fifth grade, my crush wrote a poem about me called " blue eyes, " which was very sweet and also how i found out everyone thought i had blue eyes instead of green asdfg  

When was the last time you played air guitar: i did the other day bc i was messing around while getting too hyped over some songs :' ))

Who is your celebrity crush?: i have a lot of people i admire, but p.ark j.imin ( and b.t.s as a whole ) is about the only one who is on my mind regularly uvu

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?: i love the sound of thunderstorms and actually listen to them to go to sleep! i hate the sound of dogs barking or people chewing, but specifically when i'm tired bc i get overstimulated? irritated? very very fast. typically most sounds don't really upset me, though.

Do you believe in ghosts?: unfortunately asdf my sister keeps joking she's got a friendly spirit hanging around her and i believe it tbh 

How about aliens: i don't necessarily believe they're lil green guys, but i do believe there's gotta be life somewhere else. space is too vast for there not to be!

Do you drive?: i'm working on that, but not at the moment.

if so have you ever crashed: nope!

What was the last book you read?: i caught up on j.jk the other day, but i really should pick up something else. i just haven't had much motivation tbh. if we're talking novels, though, i read the time machine for class.

Do you like the smell of gasoline: ...maybe 

What was the last movie you saw?: i watched umma with my mom the other day, and it was pretty good! it's a supernatural horror movie. 

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?: i twisted my ankle pretty bad a few years ago. i had to stay off my feet, and if i moved, i had to use crutches. how'd i hurt myself?? took one step onto a trampoline asdfg

Do you have any obsessions right now?: i've had r.esident e.vil 4 on the brain bc of the remake, and i have been thinking about j.jk quite a bit, too. demon slayer is a long-standing hyperfixation ofc :' ) i've also!! been thinking about yubari and other supernatural/fantasy oc's a lot.

[coralhoneyrose]

The Princess and the Frog Chrobin AU... you don't know how hyped I was to read that.

I'm the exact opposite where I can't seem to write longfic. Do you have any suggestions for someone looking to try her hand at one?

Ohh I'm so glad that you're excited by the idea! 😊 Honestly there is such a tragic dearth of Birb!Robin content that I feel compelled to remedy it myself haha. And I think the fairytale-ish angle has a lot of fun / cute potential!

As for suggestions on getting into writing long fic, I certainly wouldn't consider myself an expert by any stretch, but I can tell you what has worked for me!

Find an idea that you *love* that just won't let you go

This, really, is the biggest tip I have. Obviously it's going to vary some based on the efficiency of the writer and just HOW long of a long fic we're talking about, but you're going to be thinking about and working on this fic for a long time. If that work isn't something you are extremely excited about, it's very quickly going to start to feel like a drag and become challenging to see through. Again, I can only speak to my own experience here, but I have thought about my long fics in some capacity for at least a few hours every day for the last two years (and often much much more than that LOL). Definitely I have days where I am not in the mood to write or I am not in a great head space with the fic and need to take a step back. But when all is said and done, it's still a story I am excited to tell and involves scenarios I *want* to have an excuse to think about all the time, day after day. If you're that excited about the ideas, I think that alone will carry you far!

2. Ask yourself why you want to write a long fic

To elaborate: what is it that a long fic allows you to do that you feel as though you can't accomplish in a shorter fic instead? Extensive world building? A more intricate plot? The answer to this question should drive a lot of your story conceptualization process. Honestly for me the biggest draws of long fic are how it lends itself to slow-burn, extensive opportunities for agonizing pining, and the ability to portray much more gradual character growth. Those are three of the things I love most in the fics and novels I read *and* three things that I love to write about. Because those things are such big priorities for me, the way I formed and built my story ideas around them was already very naturally geared towards long fic--I didn't have to try to fit it into that mold at all!

3. Find a good beta reader

Easier said than done, I know, but I genuinely think a fresh set of eyes / a brain to pick when you're stuck makes a world of difference. I cannot tell you how many times I have gotten myself into a deep rut with my long fics that I was convinced there was no way out of, or where I'd written a whole chapter draft that I thought was un-salvageable only for my beta reader to provide a very elegant solution / quickly pinpoint and direct me towards what wasn't working so that I wouldn't have to throw out the whole thing. One of the dangers with long fic is that you're working on it for so long that your sense of how things move and progress in the story and where they are going winds up being very divorced from the way readers experience it. Having someone else who can give you outside POV on what's working and what's not is invaluable during the drafting and revising process. Ideally that person would also have tastes that align well with your own and be someone who you can trust to be both honest and encouraging (even better if they know the characters of the world well and can give feedback from that angle too) but I do recognize perfect beta readers don't grow on trees. If not a full fledged beta reader, I think having a close friend or two who you can talk through the writers blocks or concerns with is helpful too!

4. Plan ahead but don't be afraid to change directions

Probably the most subjective piece of advice on here since I know different writers vary wildly with how much they like / need to plan ahead, but this is the combination that I've found has worked best for me. The reason being that if you don't do *some* more extensive idea generating and planning before hand I don't think it gives you anything to get hyped up about and look forward to. Having a big exciting moment in the story that you can't wait to write is a really good motivator, but unless you are very good at delayed gratification, brainstorming smaller moments along the way that are iddy and fun while still moving you closer to that big moment will be imperative for motivating yourself to stick it out long enough to get there. That being said, I don't think you have to feel locked into those early ideas either. Things are going to occur to you as you're writing that didn't during the planning stages. New ideas you like better, logistical bumps you didn't think to account for, the discovery that a character feels a different way about something than how you anticipated they would...there's a whole bunch of possibilities and all of them may wind up derailing your initial vision to varying degrees. And I think that's okay! Part of the writing process is re-discovering the world and characters from new angles...I honestly think it would be odd if that *didn't* impact the story's direction, at least a little! And generally I think those changes just tend to make the story even better in the end~

5. Let the fic be gratuitous and self-indulgent

Echoes of this are present in some of the previous pieces of advice, but I think it bears repeating as a separate (and final) point. Don't be afraid to pile on as many of your favorite tropes as you can!! Build your fic concept so that it includes lots of story beats and themes you're a sucker for every time. The more opportunities you find to load in things that you love, the more fun you'll have writing and thinking about the idea and the more likely it is that you'll both have an idea big enough to write a long fic for and that you'll be willing to stick it out and see it through to the end 💕

Okay...I think that's all I've got. This was so long and apologies if you were not looking for an answer anywhere near this detailed but, well, I did say I struggle to write anything short LOL Thank you for being interested enough in my perspective and experiences to ask in the first place! And I hope you'll find something I said here was helpful!

[ina-nis]

Some time ago, someone in much gentler words said I don't have much going on outside of my fear and rejection. All I could say was yeah, it takes a lot of spoons. But it's true... whenever they ask me what I'm doing or up to, I mention my mental health, because I don't have much else going on (no school, no job, total recluse). Even solitary hobbies and activities I would like to do, I just can't bring myself to start, let alone be consistent. I don't know how to handle these kinds of questions. Is AvPD supposed to be this all-consuming or is this something else?

(If this is too lengthy, skip to the last 3 paragraphs.)

You know, I'm driven to people exactly like this, shy and recluse people are the ones that usually will catch my eyes out there, but of course, it's very rare to find them "out there" at all. Maybe this is no comfort but there's people who will appreciate simplicity and plainness, I know I do, so these are qualities in my eyes.

I think dealing with mental health issues feels almost like a full time job, without the money or days off, of course... so I think it's very understandable that it's something that takes so much of your time and energy (even more because it's something you cannot escape from).

I believe it's different for each person but trying things is definitely a way to see what will stick around. And starting can be the hardest part, once you get past that, it could get "easier"... when it's hard for me to start things, I try tricking my brain (by changing my routine, by wearing clothes to hype myself to go outside, by keeping my yoga mat free so I won't have excuses to not start exercising, etc), it sometimes work, sometimes doesn't.

At the moment, I'm not doing any of my hobbies but one because they're all triggering for me, they make me feel sadder instead of being fun, and that in itself makes me feel depressed because these are things I love and some of the few things that can cheer me up. But because they are things that I do alone, so I'm even more aware of being alone...

Maybe you can relate to these feelings, and maybe that's similar to what you're going through, and it's not easy at all. In the point of view of outsiders, it's like we're just stuck in this bad place inside our heads and there's no way out, and it feels more or less like that, doesn't it? I know it does for me.

Maybe AvPD is the main culprit here, but I wouldn't be able to say. There's a lot of depressive feelings too, and dissociative feelings too, let's not forget about anxiety. I'm not sure if seeing then all separately or together will help or not.

If you can, try to be patient with yourself and take tiny steps to avoid avoiding, really. This is really the kind of thing that you have to swim against, otherwise you'll be swept away.

Get out of the house. What for? Just for the sake of leaving the house. Disrupt the routine inside your brain. See the things you've been doing the same every day and write that out, and then try shuffling it around.

I know it's hard and I know it might suck so bad, and yet, it's going to be a good way for you to feel more in control of your own life. That can be a good feeling. Good luck!

[lastchancevillagegreen]

Thursday, 22 June 2023:

Arthur or The Decline And Fall Of The British Empire The Kinks (Pye/ BMG/Abkco) (reissue released in 2019; original released in 1969)

For the past few months (at least since 11 April when I last posted two consecutive Kinks albums) the reissue of Arthur has been mysteriously off the market and commanding big prices. Discogs had zero copies, eBay had one or two and those are stupid prices. Amazon had third party sellers asking enormous prices too and then Sunday, I discovered everyone had Arthur, the 2019 double album reissue for normal prices! Discogs has half a dozen, amazon has it and I didn't even bother with eBay because I don't care what eBay has. It did dawn on me that I told my brother I wouldn't buy any more albums until I received his final birthday present (he is worried I'll buy whatever it is he has for me before he gets to deliver it to me mid July). Hopefully, it isn't a copy of this album (which I doubt it is). Arthur was the Kinks seventh album and their follow up to the magnificent Village Green Preservation Society, an album I simply cannot stop playing. I remember when Arthur came out and I didn't buy it because, as I've said, the Kinks often baffled me and scared me. What did I know about English history? They were way too adult for my little kid brain.

Above you will find photos of the album cover, the gatefold and the back of the album. I took the photos outside because this day has gotten away from me and by the time I snapped the photos upstairs it was 7:00 p.m. and it was too dark upstairs. When it is too dark, the digital camera will not properly focus because, as I've endlessly nagged, digital photography is 100% the worst invention since the computer. So, I had to go outside and shoot the photos. That was secretly fine because it is like a sauna upstairs which I do not cool down with an air conditioner in the summer (nor do I heat it during the winter) despite the fact I practically live upstairs year around watching movies or listening to albums. As for the gatefold, I was in a terrible mood today and I thought as I took the albums out, who the devil designed this gatefold? The first album comes out the normal opening for a double album, but the second album comes out opposite. And then I realized: it comes out of the kangaroo's pouch. I know that's how it came out in 1969 when it was just a single album, but it never dawned on Boy Genius until he turned 82 that it came out the kangaroo's pouch! See how adult the Kinks are?

Below are the front and back inner sleeves for Record 1 followed by the labels for that first album.

The next photos you will see are the second inner sleeve (front and back) followed by both sides of that album's label.

This album, a reissue, comes with a big booklet that talks about Arthur and how it was made. (There is also an ad for the 50th Anniversary box set of Arthur which contains four CDs. One of the discs contains "new doo wop choir recordings" of Arthur and learning that about made my head expand. I have enjoyed the "Preservation Live Choir recordings" of songs from Village Green off the 50th Anniversary box set of that album so much that I absolutely must have doo wop versions of Arthur. I'm all set at this point to name The Kinks as the greatest British Band ever to exist in all the universe but I won't, I'll keep that to myself.) Below you will find the front and back of that giant album sized booklet. The back of the booklet is at an angle so you don't see my shadow and the iPhone iPhoto pose that adorns most of discogs' photos.

The final shot is a close up of the hype sticker on the front of the album.

[lunabonita]

My Webtoon Recommendations

These are webtoons that are all 10/10 for me. Of course it doesn’t have to be a 10/10 for you, so just a reminder, do not attack me for liking a webtoon that you do not. These are my opinions and we are not going to have the exact same taste. Please be respectful.

Your Throne

Genre: Fantasy

Chapters: 75

Status: Ongoing

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“Tensions are brewing under the seemingly calm surface of the Vasilios Empire, a kingdom ruled by the Imperial Family and the Temple. Lady Medea Solon has lost her place next to Crown Prince Eros, but resolves to win back whats rightfully hers. Will she reclaim her throne?”

You know whats amazing about this webtoon? The summary leads you to think that what shes winning back is the prince. Wrong. Shes trying to win back the throne. I love how this webtoon doesn’t try to make it a girl focusing her goals on a man, but on power. Medea is such a strong and well written character that you can’t help but love her.

The second protagonist Pschye, who of which is the person who took Medeas place as Crown Princess, is the complete opposite of Medea. At the beginning you hate her, but as the webtoon goes on and Medea and her get a better understanding of eachother due to them switching bodies as a wish from God, you begin to root for them as they team up to take over the throne from the Crown Prince.

The art is so beautiful and I constantly found myself at awe from the amount of detail put into it.

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The Makeup Remover

Genre: Romace

Chapters: 78

Status: Ongoing

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“After years of being told to focus on studying, Yeseul feels lost when she starts college and is suddenly expected to pay attention to makeup. When a chance encounter with brilliant makeup artist Yuseong leads to her taking part in a televised makeup competition, Yeseul begins to question the role that makeup and appearance play in society.”

This was created by one of my favorite webtoon creators Lee Yone. Their art is just so amazing and their stories always include such good topics.

For instance, The Makeup Remover’s theme is loving yourself for who you are. It shows how people treat you based on your looks and as someone whos struggled with that kind of thing for a while, this webtoon really touched me. The main character Yeseul is such a relatable character, even when trying to reject beauty standards, she still came subject to the pressures of living up to the people around her. She struggles with trying to love her own appearance and I really like that this webtoon didn’t try to be like, ‘fuck the beauty standard im better than that screw pretty people!!!’ it actually showed realistically how people struggle with self-image. I also love the main love interest because oh my god, we need more men like him please. He doesn’t care about Yeseul’s appearance and genuinely loves her for her personality.

Also, art is amazing. The author is so talented and you should support them by reading and liking the chapters.

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Surviving Romance

Genre: Horror

Chapters: 14

Status: Ongoing

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“When Chaerin Eun becomes the protagonist of the romance novel she is reading, she expects a fairytale ending with the novel’s love interest, Jeha. But when a bizarre twist makes her realize the story is not playing out as it does in the book, she’ll need the help of an unlikely character from her class to defy the new storyline and find her happy ending - if only she can figure out who this ‘Unknown Extra’ is first!”

Hands down one of my favorite webtoons by a long shot. You ever see a webtoon and think, ‘oh yeah, thats going to be a good webtoon’? Thats how this webtoon was for me. It was so good that I spent hours searching for other chapters that hadn’t been uploaded to webtoon yet on other manhua websites. I discovered it because it was also by the author of ‘The Makeup Remover’.

If there is one thing you need to know about me, its that I am a huge horror fan. So when I saw that my favorite author on webtoon had a horror themed webtoon out? You bet your behind that I binged it. Let me tell you, best choice ever.

Think of it as if ‘Ino’s Law’ and ‘Quarantine’ were combined with amazing art and a badass MC.

The Remarried Empress

I love how it is set up to the point where she cannot ‘quit’ until she completes the novel. Creating scenarios where she must survive while meeting the standards in the book. It is such an amazingly written webtoon and I cannot wait for more chapters to be released.

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Genre: Fantasy

Chapters: 82

Status: Ongoing

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“Navier Ellie Trovi was an empress perfect in every way - intelligent, courageous, and socially adept. She was kind to her subjects and devoted to her husband. Navier was perfectly content to live the rest of her days as the wise empress of the Eastern Empire. That is, until her husband brought hone a mistress and demanded a divorce. ‘I accept this divorce… And i request an approval of my remarriage.’ In a shoking twist Navier remaarries another emperor and retains her title and childhood dream as empress. But just how did everything unfold? “

Am I in love with Navier? Yes.

I absolutely adore how this story was set up. The first chapter begins with the big divorce scene, followed by Navier saying that she was going to be remarrying someone else since he wants to divorce her. This sets up a picture that gets completely shattered as you read the chapters. How everything falls into place with the reason behind the divorce and the remarriage is just so well written. The art is so good and and everything is just so insanely well done.

I absolutely love Naviers character, from her regalness and devoted loyalty to her role as empress, all the way to her petty moments and times of sadness. She is truly a character that you want the best for, and I cannot image anyone not liking her. Also the story is just so capable of making you feel emotions. I’ve laughed, cried, and got angry during the course of reading this webtoon. I love how betrayed I felt when the emperor brought home his mistress. It felt like I was in Navier’s shoes!

This is such a well done webtoon and I'm so excited for Navier to get all of the good things she deserves in her new Kingdom and with her new husband.

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Witch Creek Road

Genre: Horror

Chapters: 74

Status: Ongoing

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“A survival horror about love, acceptance, death, and revenge. And sexy flesh-eating demons. Yeah, it has those, too.”

This series seriously mind fucked me. The way that this story is set up, you don’t see the full picture until the later chapters. Season two literally blew my mind. It is also very gorey so keep that in mind if you don’t like that kind of stuff, but for me that makes it all the better. It is just so wild and crass that you can feel your heart pumping in anticipation.

They even have their own website that goes further into the lore because it’s just so wild. Also the art style is just so amazing, because it complements the story and horror theme so much. You hate most of the characters because they suck, and it is so satisfying when they are killed. Also it has it’s sad moments but I think it is a nice break from the horror so it isn’t so overwhelmingly scary.

I binged this series and I recommend reading only a few chapters a day so you don’t overload your brain.

Other then that, an amazing webtoon. Seriously, go read it, support the author, so much work goes into the story and art that it’s insane.

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Dating With A Tail

Genre: Romance

Chapters: 36

Status: Ongoing

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“On the dawn of her 29th birthday, unlucky-in-love Yunha discovers a shocking family secret: she’s started growing a fox tail, the mark of an ancestral curse. She must find her fated love before her 30th birthday or she is destined to become a fox forever! Even with her new-found enchanting power to attract men using her scent, will one year be enough to break the curse before it’s too late?”

Oh my gosh this is just such a good webtoon. It has amazing art, story telling, and characters. The true love interest was there the whole time, the villain isn’t who you’d expect it to be, and the spirit who cursed her is just! Im not going to spoil it but go read this webtoon!! It is so good and deserves more love.

Also Yunha is just so relatable?? Like she put off finding the woodcutter (her fated love) for 29 years and waited last minute to find him. Homegirl is me trying to do a project for school. Also to get rid of the scent that makes men attracted to her, she just starts eating a ton of garlic and that is just so funny to me.

Also I would go to church for the priest anytime if you know what i mean ;)

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Omniscient Reader

Genre: Action

Chapters: 53

Status: Ongoing

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“Dokja was an average office worker whose sole interest was reading his favorite web novel ‘Three Ways to Survive the Apocalypse.’ But when the novel suddenly becomes reality, he is the only person who knows how the world will end. Armed with this realization, Dokja uses his understanding to change the course of the story, and the world, as he knows it.”

I cannot get over how high quality this story is. The world building is phenomenal, the art is fantastic, and the characters are very fleshed out. This deserved all the hype it has gotten so far and more.

I love the ‘mc thrown into a different reality’ trope so much. Just like with surviving romance, Dokja’s world became the story he was reading. Also a very cool aspect of the story is the level up and the fact that its like a game. Earth has turned into this show for god like creatures to watch and it follows Dokja trying to survive. I also really like that TWSA has a protagonist, but Omniscient Reader’s protagonist is not the protagonist that was in TWSA. There is just so much lore and I’ll say it again, the world building is just phenomenal.

The Ddokkaebi’s and Dokja’s interactions are also just some of my favorite moments from the story so far. And oh my goodness I would die for Lee Gilyoung. Thats it, thats the tweet. That little boy could probably kill me with his giant praying mantis and I would let him if it would make him happy.

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Not So Shoujo Love Story

Genre: Comedy

Chapters: 45

Status: Ongoing

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“Romance super-fan Rei Chan is ready for her first boyfriend and she knows just who it’ll be: the most handsome boy in school, Hansum Ochinchin. But her plans for the perfect story are derailed when the most popular girl in class declares herself a rival… for Rei’s heart?! This is the year her not so shoujo love story begins!”

This is just such a cute webtoon. The style is very appealing and while the humor can be childish and weird sometimes, it still has made me laugh a lot. I know the humors not for everyone but just keep in mind that it does get better as the story progresses and gets more serious.

Also its a gl! I’m really unable to find good gls these days that don’t fetishize wlw relationships. Rei being painted as a mean trouble maker whos just misunderstood and Hana being the ‘perfect girl’ who only wants Rei’s attention is such a cute dynamic. They balance each other out and better each other. Also stan Rei for constantly sticking up for Hana even if she doesn’t necessarily like her in the beginning, she has very good morals and sticks to them.

Also the defying stereotypes in this webtoon? Just god-tier. Really makes you think twice when you judge someone just on first impressions alone.

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Odd Girl Out

Genre: Drama

Chapters: 264

Status: Ongoing

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“After a successful winter break makeover, Nari is finally ready for her high school debut. But somehow, she ends up friends with the three prettiest girls in school! Follow Nari as she tries to navigate her brand new high school life surrounded by beauties.”

This story has made me cry multiple times. A lot, even. It is just such a beautiful tale of friendship and finding support in people who are unlike those around theme. It also tells a great story about how anybody can be the ‘odd girl out’. Be it the fat girl, the beautiful girl, the rich girl, or the laid back girl.

It goes so deep into its characters that you even feel bad for the minor antagonists. It really makes you feel for the characters and the reasons behind their actions. Also I know its long, believe me I binged all 260 chapters in the span of three days, but oh my god it is worth it. Also I know the art is kind of off-putting, in fact that’s kind of why I put off reading the story, but I’ve honestly grown to love it and the writing is so good that the art could be literal stick figures and it wouldn’t matter.

The story is amazing and also I just love Nari. She’s just the best.

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Gremoryland

Genre: Horror

Chapters: 67

Status: Completed

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“Six old school friends are invited to be the first visitors of GremoryLand, a new horror theme park that promises an experience as unique as it is spooky. But once this experience starts there is no turning back, and they find themselves tested beyond what they imagines, facing their most desperate fears in order to survive.”

This is definitely one of those stories were you kind of need to turn of your brain and choose to ignore ‘plot holes’ while reading the early chapters because this story definitely gets crazy if you don’t know the ending. Believe me if you stick with it it will all make sense and the satisfaction you get from finding the ending is just so worth it.

The story is so good, and who Gremory is you would literally never suspect. When it was revealed who Gremory was and how he was able to create Gremoryland is so fucking mind boggling that you would never guess. I had to do a double take. It wasn’t like one of those random characters with a vendetta type of twists, but like one you can pick out from clues throughout the story.

Its so good and twisted and just so worth at least giving it a chance.

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These were some of my favorite webtoons on the app! Of course it’s not all of them because unfortunately there is a 10 image limit. I also made this because I’ve run out of new webtoons to read and would love if you guys commented some of your own recs. I can also do a part two with other ones I liked if y’all want more recommendations. You guys can even request specific categories like Drama or Sci-Fi and I can tell you my favorite ones from that genre.

Also a reminder - if you disagree with any of my praise of these webtoons be respectful about it. At the end of the day it’s my opinion and you don’t need to be rude when disagreeing with that opinion.

[notmanagingmymischief]

Taking a break.

So...this really hurts to say. So I think I should give some backstory first.

Hi. I'm Bex. And I have really severe and clinically diagnosed ADHD, along with multiple other mental illnesses. Now I don't want this to be taken out of context; I know there is a huge stigma around the statement "mental illness", which we as a society really need to work on. I of course don't mean this in a negative connotation, it's simply the best way to describe it. I am mentally ill. There's nothing inherently bad about that, but it poses more than a few issues.

The biggest one for me, personally, is hyperfixation(s). A hyperfixation, by definition, is "being completely immersed in something — whether it be a video game, movie/TV fandom culture or a hobby like crocheting." And I suffer from these hyperfixations a lot. I find a TV show, movie, book, whatever it is, and attach myself to a certain character. I can't prevent this, I can't help it, as much as I wish I could just watch something and then forget about it, I just...can't.

Now why is this a problem? Everyone has interests and things that they get hyped about for a while, so why should this be any different? Well the thing is, with me, these fixations can last much longer than neurotypical people's do. They can last for months, years at a time. I get so attached to a character and I hold onto that attachment until it's borderline obsession. This can get so bad that I will get physically ill, have panic attacks, go into complete mental breakdowns and depressive spirals, because it will suddenly without warning hit me that these people aren't real. See, I don't get fixated on real people or things; it's almost always fictional characters.

My most recent infatuation has been Miss Alma Peregrine. It started off as "Oh, she's hot. I should write fanfiction for her." And that was it. I was attracted to her and wanted to imagine being with her. But within the past few weeks, this interest has turned extremely dangerous. Sure, I'm not in any bodily danger, but when you're throwing up, hyperventilating to the point of fainting, and crying yourself to sleep nearly every night over a fictional woman, that's when I have to put my foot down. This is affecting my personal life, and with school having just started, I need to back down.

And it hurts like hell to have to post this, to have to step back from one of the only things that makes me happy, but if I don't then I'm afraid this will become too much to handle. Every song I hear makes me think of her, every time I see something pretty I think "Oh, Alma would love this," and it's hard to separate yourself from a fandom when everything makes you think of another scenario that you'll never be able to experience, and that hurts. It hurts so, so very much. And I know this will upset some of you, since I know that (and I'm not trying to be narcissistic) a whole lot of people really enjoy my writing, especially my Miss Peregrine stories.

Just the other day, I cried for most of the day over the fact that I'll never be able to meet her, never have her hold me and wipe my tears and tell me it'll all be okay. Because she isn't real. And sure, maybe shifting is real. Or maybe it isn't. I'm starting to think I imagined the whole thing, and that's affecting my mental health even more. It feels like I'm going crazy.

Like I said, this isn't something I can just stop, flip some switch in my brain and just forget about her. I wish like hell that I could, because that would make all of this so much easier. But that's not how ADHD and fixations work, no matter how much I and everyone else around me wants it to.

In conclusion, I'm going to be stopping my writing for Miss Peregrine, indefinitely. At least until I can get over her and stop my entire life from revolving around her and that universe. This doesn't mean I'm stopping writing for anyone, not at all. Unless, of course, this happens again with someone else. I'll be posting much less frequently, of course, what with school starting and all that, but I promise that you'll still get at least short imagines for other characters.

I'm sorry. I am truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart.

Please forgive me. I'm sorry.

[www-artforoddballs]

Alright, so notice. Most of you probably know this, since you're following me for the Autistic Levi stuff (thank you, we're closing in on 100 followers!!!!), but people with autism can have "tantrums". I've kinda touched on this in a previous post (it's a full meltdown, but you can see that post here https://www-artforoddballs.tumblr.com/post/644803780958879744/autistic-levi-angstkinda-i-guess-this-is-him). For those of you who DON'T know, an autistic tantrum is not the same thing as what you'd think of in regards to a toddler or kid, it's just the word used for it. This is a mistake my mother and I made when getting the paperwork done while I was going through testing that later got cleared up lol

I had a tantrum yesterday, and so I figured that I could post about Leviathan having a tantrum, since it's still ready on my mind. I don't care if anyone else is proud of me for coping with it as well as I did, since it's a major improvement from last time I had one, but I am proud of myself!...with that in mind, here we go!!

There will be some angst in this post, like the last post in relation to this one, but like the last post, it turns out fine.

However.

Trigger warning for things such as self harm, both physical and verbal. If you or a loved one is self harming, either reach out to someone for help or reach out to that person to help, yeah?

OK on with the post.

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First of all, Levi's autism is part of why his brothers always agree to help when there's a raffle for tickets or something like that on the DDD messages, because he can get overwhelmed if they don't at least help, even if he doesn't win in the end.

They figured out that his autism was the culprit for this shortly after his diagnosis.

Now when I'm writing for Levi, I like to think that his diagnosis was around the early 1990s since, while autism was a separate diagnosis in 1980, it didn't really start becoming fairly accepted and expanded upon until 1987. Hence why everyone is mostly used to it by now, but are still sometimes off put by his odd behavior; for them, as beings that have been around since...the beginning of the universe, pretty much as far as we know, but for at LEAST since humans were around (so at VERY least 2.5 million years now, but potentially up to around 7 million years (if they haven't been around since the beginning of creation)), this would be like...I dunno, give me a second.

Waiting

Waiting...

Okay, so from 1990(earliest year I have in mind) to 2019 (the year it was released) is 29 years. That's a minimum of 1/86,206.89th of their lifespan, and a maximum of 1/475,862,068.96th of their total lifetime.

So this is a VERY recent development for them on the grand scheme of things, but I digress.

So they're still figuring everything out, especially as the human race continues to learn about the condition itself.

So the first time Levi threw a tantrum and they recognized it for what it was...it was certainly interesting.

What had happened was exactly the situation described; Levi had wanted to go to a concert in the human world and they were raffling off free tickets. Except, unlike now, his brothers hadn't offered their support. They hadn't in the past, why would this time be any different?

Except now they viewed it through a different light. Leviathan had an image in his head that he desired so badly and had asked his brothers to support him, hopeful, only to be rejected at every turn. That he was used to, but it was still upsetting.

He put that to the side, though. He really wanted to see this band, and these were VIP tickets where you got to hang out with the band for a few hours after the concert! They'd cost a LOT of human money, and while they COULD afford it, he knew Lucifer would be bringing hell down upon him if he used that amount of family funds on a concert. And his anxiety was already somewhat raised, so he decided to enter the raffle on his own.

He sat there for hours, waiting for the results to come in. He'd hyped this up in his brain the entire time; He'd win, go to an amazing concert, have dinner with the band, maybe even make some friends....!...and then the results came back. He hadn't won.

As per usual, our snek boi went into one of his rants about how unfair it was, but instead of going on a rampage or something like that, locked himself up in his room and cried, hating himself for getting so excited over nothing.

As I mentioned before, I've made another post about a tantrum/getting too overwhelmed slipping into something even more dire, as that's almost always what happens to me. This would be in the 90s, so this would be their first real incident with one of these moments where they had the proper diagnosis, so bear with me, there will be some angst here, but like the other post, it'll be fine.

So Mammon ends up feeling bad for rejecting his little brother, and, not knowing it was too late, decided to go to his room and offer his support. It was almost Leviathan's birthday anyways, and Mammon knew how rejection felt and how much it sucked. So, he knocked on Leviathan's door.

No response. He knocked again...still no response, but a quiet sob.

Right away, Mammon switched from semi-carefree to worried. "Levi...?"

Again, no response. He decided to just go in and check on his brother...

The door was locked. And he smelled blood.

"Leviathan, I need you to open the door," Mammon said with a half hearted chuckle, his voice now becoming slightly strained. "Because if ya don't, I'm gonna have t' break the door down."

"Just go away!" Leviathan cried from inside his room. "Just leave me alone, you jerk!"

"I ain't goin' anywhere. Either open the door or I'm gonna break it down. Those are your two choices."

A moment of silence, before Mammon sighs, stretching, as he transforms into his demon form.

"Alright, option two it is."

He rammed into the door repeatedly, before the wood finally splintered and fell to the ground with a loud thud. Mammon quickly looked around, eyes widening as he saw Leviathan digging his own sharpened nails into his arms, multiple raked wounds, made by the same culprit, carved into his skin.

"Levi...look at ya..." Mammon said, voice faltering, tears welling up in his eyes. "I...how long has..."

"Just shut up! Don't act like you care about me, I'm the freak of our family, remember?! I'm the one whose brain isn't right, I'm just a shut-in, good for nothing, re-!"

He was quickly cut off by Mammon going to him and hugging him.

"I don't care who you are. You talk about my brother like that again and I'll kill you. Alright? You're a little off, but you ain't a freak, and your brain works just fine as is. You're perfect just the way you are, and if anybody else says any different, I'm gonna beat them the fuck up. Including you. Got that? So what if you've got that fancy lable on ya now...? Labels like that matter, but it didn't change ya. You're still my cringe, annoying as hell little weirdo of a brother...and I wouldn't have ya any other way."

Leviathan fully listened to Mammon talk, before clinging to him, breaking down sobbing again, and trying to explain what happened through his tears, the older demon gently rubbing his back and allowing him to cry it out, making sure no more harm was done.

A while later, once Levi had calmed down, Mammon ruffled his hair.

"Let's get you cleaned up, yeah? Lucifer is already gonna kill me for breaking your door, but he'd be even more pissed if I just left you here with those wounds."

So they did. And Mammon, after telling a VERY angry Lucifer what had happened hours later, had surprisingly NOT gotten chewed out by the eldest brother. Instead, that day, the entire family had a long discussion, and they all agreed that if it was something as small as entering a raffle, or even if it was bigger but not an inconvenience to anyone in the slightest, they'd all help out from then on. It's not like it was hard, and it would save Levi from hours of stress and negativity toward himself and others around him.

They also made a plan for if a tantrum were to happen while someone was around, or if he became too overwhelmed and started to spiral...because, as annoying as he could be, Leviathan was still family. And they loved him, oddities and all.

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Alright, so...that was the post! I hope it was okay. I know I've written about this type of thing before a little, but different situations can end up with the same negative outcome, like being in an overwhelming situation, or not being able to change your thinking and not easily being able to get over your expectations. I've personally suffered with both, and it's a regular thing for me, so I like writing about it, because maybe, just maybe, it'll help someone out, or help someone that isn't autistic understand a friend or relative or classmate or employee better. And I love these characters, I really do. The only ironic thing is that I see so much of myself in Leviathan, but I adore him and despise myself. Go figure 😂

Regardless, I hope you enjoyed, and if there's anything you guys have questions about (in regards to me and my experience), or any specific writing requests, asks are fully open!

Thanks so much for being here to support me, you have no idea how much it means to a little oddball such as myself.

[torikawa]

Sakusa Kiyoomi x Reader Part #1

Happy Ending

Fluff

Sakusa being Sakusa

Very cute scenarios

NSFW Scenes

Explicit Words

Comedy

Reader has pink colored orbs

Strangers to Lovers

Friends to Lovers

Reader is a Second Year

[F/N] = First Name

[F/C] = Favourite Color

[O/F/C] = Other Favourite Color

Your Last Name in this FanFic is... 'Sakura'

[F/N] Sakura was a pretty well known Student in Aobajohsai. Her stunning beauty, amazing personality, and above all, the brains. Especially her unusual Pink eyes, it made her stand out like a soar thumb. She was known none other than the Princess of the School. Aside from Oikawa Tōru being the King, they weren't particularly together. Infact, they were cousins. And because of that, no Male Student has ever thought of laying a finger on the Great King's cousin.

"[F/N]-san, you should come to our Practice again." Iwaizumi mumbled in between bites. "And maybe even become the Manager of our Volleyball Team."

"Iwa-Chan, are you just trying to get with my Cuzzy Wuzzy?" Oikawa squinted his eyes, glaring daggers straight onto Hajime's skin.

"No, you Idiot. I want her to see how Shitty you are as a Captain"

"MEAN!"

"Pfft, there's no need to be rude about it Hajime! I'll make sure to stop by when I get the chance alright?" [F/N] pinched Iwaizumi's cheeks, causing him to swat her hand away in embarrassment.

"Hrmph, come here [F/N]-Chan and give me a hug before you go!" Tōru opened his arms, ready for her to get tangled in them.

But she didn't, instead she sticked her tongue out playfully and walked away with her hands behind her back. Leaving a Painfully Annoying Whiney Oikawa in Iwa's hands.

Today was Saturday, and it was the Day when Aobajohsai competes against Itachiyama on a Practice match for the First Time. She was nervous about it ofcourse. After all, Itachiyama was known to be a strong Power House of a School.

[F/N] wasn't often seen playing Volleyball, but when she does she plays skillfully. Being Oikawa's Cousin didn't go to waste after all. It led to him coming over and constantly teaching her whatever he knew, and her only. It was a bond they shared, a teacher-student bond. Along with a sister-brother one.

"Hey, are you ready to go yet? Oikawa's waiting outside for us and he's getting pretty impatient by the looks of it" Iwa said, his eyes still glued on the setter who kept tapping his foot on the ground impatiently.

"Coming! Just give me a second!" After a few seconds, [F/N] emerged from the front door. Her hair in a messy bun, pink bright eyes reflecting the sun's rays, and her usual [F/C] shirt with [O/F/C] shorts.

Hajime wasn't all too surprised with your outfit, Infact he wasn't bothered at all. But Oikawa was, he's known to be quite protective of you.

"I-- [F/N]-CHAN WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?!? THAT'S SO SMALL-"

"Just shut up Shittykawa and keep on walkin' the other School's probably waiting for our asses to come and we're late mostly because you would keep sending [F/N] back inside to change." Iwa glared at Tōru, making him fidget awkwardly as he tried to look anywhere but into Iwaizumi's eyes.

It didn't take long for the three of them to Arrive at Aobajohsai's Gym, and it certainly didn't take long for the rest of the team to notice their arrival.

"Good After noon Sakura-Chan." Kunimi muttered, his head bowing slightly to give you a sign of respect. The rest did the same as well but in a little more hyped up tone.

"I'm still surprised on how you're still not the Manager of the Team" Matsukawa mentioned after serving one of the given balls.

"In all honesty, I would love to butttt, I'd honestly rather stick with just being invited to watch your Practice's than do more work"

It almost seemed as if the whole Team sighed in unison, in either disappointment or tiredness. Either way, she wasn't about to change her mind about it.

"The other School is going to arrive in any second, everyone gather around and get ready. Meanwhile, Sakura-san, is it alright if you refill the Water bottles?" One of Aobajohsai's Coach asked kindly.

"Yeah, sure thing!" [F/N] replied with a smile on her face.

"I'll come with you if you want, I can also help" Tōru butted in, his genuine smile flashing only for you to see.

"It's alright Tōru, I can handle them all by myself. Plus, you need to warm up okay? Good luck by the way" She walked towards the tall setter, giving him a light Pat on the cheek before exiting the Gym with a bag full of Empty Water Bottles.

On her way to the Fountains, a group of Aobajohsai's Girl Students ran past her. She ended up stumbling a bit but was able to catch herself before hitting the ground. 'What the Hell?' she thought in her head.

Curious, she peeked through the crowd of girls, spotting an uncomfortable tall man with a mask scrunched up to his nose, his brows were furrowed in disgust.

"Hey! You Girl's Aren't supposed to be on School Property right now. How many times do I have to tell you that you'll get into deep trouble if the Coach's find out you're here?!" [F/N] screamed in between their shouts, her arms crossed over her chest.

The Group of girls turned to face her, bowing in guilt. "We're sorry Sakura-senpai! Please don't tell them we were here, we'll leave right away"

With a 'Huff' [F/N] let them off, a soft yet satisfied smile spread across her face. She slowly turned her attention to the black haired Figure who already found his way around her.

"Are you alright?" She asked softly, causing the man to stiffen.

"Yeah, thanks."

Then, that's when she realized. He was from Itachiyama, the jersey he wore gave it away due to its unusual bright colors.

"What's your Name?" [F/N] asked with a smile on her face, deciding to join his walk towards the Gym and completely forgetting to refill the bottles.

The Player stayed silent, distancing himself away from her as much as possible. But she still ends up stepping closer, causing the man to Grunt.

"Sakusa."

"Hm?"

"Sakusa Kyo-" He was cut off by someone rather loud.

"AHHH, there you are! Why did you go off like that, you scared us." A boy with Brown hair said between pants, his hands resting on his knees.

She couldn't stay for long, she knew that she couldn't. So she ended up facing her body to the direction of the fountains and quickly made her way over there. Refilling the Bottles as quickly as possible then heading back into the Gym with a bag filled with Full Water Bottles. Ignoring how 2 of the Players eyes followed her every move.

"Is that their Manager?" Komori asked with a curious expression on his face.

Sakusa shrugged, not really caring whether or not she was the Manager of Aobajohsai's team. He honestly just thought of how to thank her for saying his ass earlier but has no idea how to.

As soon as the whole Itachiyama Boys Volleyball Team entered the Gym, the other Team fell silent.

It didn't take long for Kiyoomi's and [F/N]'s eyes to meet. That was when he took notice of how her eye color was an unusual shade of pink. His eyes widening as he felt captivated by her bright, innocent, pink orbs. 'What's going on, what's happening.' was rushing through his head. He couldn't move, he felt frozen in place.

'Her eyes are beautiful' was all he could think of as their eyes locked. But was instantly disturbed by Oikawa fanning his hand infront of her face.

[x-exo]

Hehe but why would I not do such nice things and reblog your amazing creations like ??? I must share, I must show love

Dhkadnsk I felt that xD and then shortly after we got wonho's comeback and I screamed because oh my gosh yesss!! This song is just flippen amazing, I really love that 80's vibe we are getting (it reminds me of songs my parents listen too from that time) and the dancing. I LOVE how just smooth he is dancing, apparently he wanted to appear like water for the dance and he pulled it off. I'm proud for both boys, they put out amazing works of art that has me both dancing and crying in the club

Exo wise, kyungsoo is amazing like you said, the way he is casual about his solo album talk is making me laugh but be excited like I'm curious what style he will go for? Sehun has a movie coming out soon I think (catboy for the win lol) and lastly chanyeol. Welp it seems to be an exo trend where the boys surprise us with something good and then they say "peace out" lol. This makes me laugh a bit, idk I'm weird cx but while I do wish we could have a bit something more from chanyeol (or him address the chaos from a while back) i hope he will do well at the military! It was going to happen soon for him and soon baekhyun so now nor never right?

Yeah I couldn't send an anon :c asks are on but not anon, not sure if it was a glitch on my end. But for mingyu, its getting a bit more chaotic if you have been catching up (I know you said you are taking a break which i support! I will miss seeing you active but take a break for sure! Your happiness and health is important and this news with mingyu is alot. Come back when ready of course! I'll be here and others as well!) But one thing for sure is pledis DID their job and put out an announcement! They confirmed one of the accusations to be false, they are working on getting things more cleared up and in the meantime mingyu is on a hiatus. Its a good step and I'm guessing for the more series stuff they are getting evidence and talking with everyone they can and put it out like starship did for kihyun. As a mingyu stan I'm happy one part is cleared up BUT this isn't far from being fixed which is what I'm seeing many fans say "oh we should have believed him in the first place" and I am sitting her confused because like no, it isn't? We don't know any of these idols, they are meant to just entertain us with music really as you said. They still need to clear up the first set of comments so I'm happy things are being done, its far from being finished so I'm staying in the middle still. All I know is there's the issue with mistranslations that also are causing problems

Ok i wrote alot I'm so sorry dnakdba but I hope you're doing good!! I may hope off on anon sometime in the future! Dont wanna bother you with shoving myself into your dms lol. Ps fudge kakao m as well

sorry again for taking ages to answer 😔😔 i’ve been away from here for a while but omg thank you again for being so nice :’) 

I’ve been OBSESSED but like OBSESSED with Wonho’s Devil OMG it’s literally one of the best songs that have been released in the last few years HIS MIND ??????? i love it so much wow also CHANGKYUN all his songs are so good and mysterious and sexc and so him i love them so much (all the content i’ve been getting from him these past months... chef’s kiss!!)

Chanyeol is finally in war and Baekhyun is leaving next month! I’m happy they can take a break and focus on other things other than being idols tbh and they’ve prepared things for when they’re away! I’m really looking forward to every 27th of every month omg pcy and his big ass brain! i wonder what’s he prepared! also he’s got a station coming out tomorrow which i’m v excited about (even though sm for some reason won’t give him his well deserved solo but that’s to discuss another day smh...) ALSO DID YOU SEE OBSESSION XIÜMIN???? MY GOD the concept was tailored for him omg i’m so glad he knew we wanted him in there and he delivered!!!! 

As for the mingyu thing...things have been kind of “cleared” out now but i feel weird still idk i’m still waiting for him to say something on the matter tbh idk if it’s ever gonna happen but..yeah but at the same time i miss seventeen and gose so much i hope they come back soon

BUT...

HOSHI

HOSHI!!!!!! omg hoshi ???????? i’m in love with spider and the mv and the concept it suits him so well AND THE CHOREO???? i can’t wait for studio choom and to see him perform it live on music shows (i think he’s going to attend a couple???) he looks so good and seems so happy to be releasing his music! nd also the seventeens hyping him up at any given chance??? we love to see it! 

but anyways i hope you’re doing well too! and hope out of anon whenever you want to ☺️ also we got the songs back!!! yessss but still fuk kakao m for being petty

[staytiny-angel]

War of Hearts

Chapter One

Rating: Mature

Main Pairing: Seth Rollins/Becky Lynch

Co-written with @riottbliss

Summary: Seth Rollins was once known as the Bad Boy Prince of MMA, now years after a career ending knee injury he's stepping into.the Octagon again not as a competitor but as his little sister's coach. Unfortunately for him the redhead across the cage from he and Paige is not only woman he'd just had a one night stand with but the younger sister and protege of the Finn Balor...the man that ended Seth's career.

Warnings: MMA style violence, Alcoholism, Implied Self-Harm (DM for details), Depression, Angst with a Happy Ending

Hunter Hearst Helmsley, or professionally known by Triple-H sighed with embarrassment, reading tweet after tweet from his youngest son Seth Rollins.

"What happened to him?" His best friend and practically brother Shawn Michaels asked, looking over his shoulder.

"Cody took him out of the press conference, Seth's hungover, blaming everyone but himself"

Shawn shook his head, "Kid is letting the hype go to his brain. He's all over TMZ, The Bad Boy Prince of MMA is what they call him"

"Seth is the best fighter in the world in his division. He's earned the cockiness but his lifestyle…." Hunter shook his head

Shawn made a disgusted sound. "Kid reminds me of me before I got my act together"

"Fatherhood is what made you get your act together. That won't work for Seth" Hunter clicked on a video of his drunken son yelling into a camera about Finn Balor that had gone viral last week.

"He talks so much shit about Balor being a low rent MacGregor, hell Seth acts more like Conor then Finn does."

Hunter sighed "He's turned this into a complete mess, I wouldn't be surprised if his team drops him."

"Hey, Dusty loved that kid, Dustin and Cody wouldn't release him until he stopped making them money"

Hunter nodded but looked nonetheless unthrilled.

"He keeps making excuses about everything. I'm this close to calling Steph"

Shawn nodded with agreement as the two entered Seth's penthouse, greeting a tired looking Cody Rhodes. "I can't do this anymore Hunter" he said in place of a normal greeting.

"You are not dropping him" Hunter said matter of factly.

"AEF is supposed to be for fighters that respect the sport, he fucks around and doesn't even show up to the gym" Cody said.

Hunter ignored him and went upstairs to where he could hear his youngest groaning in misery.

Hunter sighed as Seth looked up from the toilet he was practically hugging. "I'm twenty five, perfectly legal" he muttered, Hunter's gaze looking at the black and gold championship that laid discarded.

"While ago you would have treated that with respect" He said, Seth rolling his eyes. "Would you rather me puke on it? It's just a fucking belt' "

"Don't let anyone hear you say that" Hunter said lowly. "You're going to the weigh in today even if I have to drag you by your hair there myself"

"No the fuck I'm not, don't you see me dyin' here?" Seth whined "I'm going to fucking sleep"

"What the fuck happened to you?!" Hunter yells "Every since your Uncle Shane became your manager this is what you've turned into."

Seth looked unfazed. "Don't get angry because I'm better than you ever were" and shoved his father out of his way, flipping off Cody, and ignoring Shawn.

"What am I going to do with him?" Hunter sighed, exhausted.

"Knock his ass out?" Shawn suggested. "I'll take care of him" Cody rolled his eyes. "Britt and I will make sure he gets to the weigh in. I just need painkillers and food"

"I'm gonna go talk to Shane, I want to know what kind of garbage he's been filling my kid's head with" Hunter mutters

"I told you listening to Vince was a mistake." Shawn replies shaking his head "All of you let Vince snow you into thinking it was embarrassing that his mother managed him"

Hunter sighed. "I don't know what to do. I don't want to drag Steph back, Shane has a tight grip on him"

"Worry about that fuckface later" Shawn said. "Seth needs you, not him" Hunter nodded firmly, making his way downstairs to see Seth passed out on his couch, his dog Kevin and cat Daryl laying on him.

"This was our compromise" Cody explained. "I let him take a nap, he goes to the weigh in later"

"He isn't going to beat Balor in this condition. He doesn't spar anymore and his knee has been inflamed for weeks" Britt says quietly

"He shouldn't even be fighting. We told Shane but he says there's too much money at stake for Seth to pull out"

"Money money money"' Shawn mocked. "All he cares about is fucking printed paper"

Hunter ignored them and instead chose to brush back some of Seth's hair, his son unconsiously responding to it. "What did I do wrong raising him?" he asked. Hunter rolls his eyes at the look his older brother gave him "The truth" he says quietly

"No offense bro, but this family is a whole fucking lot to live up to and you weren't exactly shy about your expectations once Seth showed an aptitude for the sport. None of us were. I have to even ask myself, when was the last time any of us actually had a conversation with the kid that wasn't about fighting?"

"He's cracking underneath the pressure" Cody chimes in

"Yeah, he is and now Shane is filling his head with all these ideas about the image he should project" Shawn continues "Quiet guys who, play with their dogs and write poetry when their not in the Octagon don't sell tickets, but Bad Boys sure the fuck do."

*Later*

Seth scowled at his phone as Britt ushered him into the arena the weigh was taking place in. "I'm assuming you told the press he was gonna bail?" Cody growled at Shane who held his hands up. "They were gonna find out sooner or later" "Yeah yeah, no press is bad press" Seth said.

"Except the press says you're an asshole" Cody deadpanned. "Don't do anything stupid up there, or Mark is going to have a stroke" Seth didn't respond, instead heading up the stairs to the stage, where Balor had clearly made weight, despite being skinny. Seth took off his shirt per usual, standing on the scale.

"197 pounds" The announcer said, Seth smirking at Balor. The Irish man looked unfazed and rolled his eyes. Seth, in a act of annoyance, promptly flipped him off, hearing everyone in the crowd either laugh or groan

-Backstage -

"Gonna be fun beating your ass Balor, I promise not to hurt you too badly," Seth says cockily, slouching in a chair and putting his sunglasses back on.

"Oh, Rolly its almost time to give up your precious" Finn responds, "Clock is ticking boyo and your time is almost up"

"Mon roi, nous devons-oh shit" a pake woman walked up, speaking rapid French and stopping in her place when she saw Seth.

"Hey Seth" she said coldly.

"Vi" Seth responded, his attitude gone.

"He your king now?" "Surprised you even remember any French, from what I read, you've drank yourself through everything"

"It's what happens when you give your heart to someone and get it ripped in half, I wasn't enough for you, that's what you said right? I wasn't straight enough for you?! So you threw my ring in my face and left" Seth yelled "Cause Bisexual people, we're all cheaters didn't you know?"

At least according to Violet Gillath, wait I'm sorry Violet Balor now isn't it?."

"Stop it" Finn growled. "Before I knock your ass out now"

"Try it bitch" Seth snarled back.

Violet got between them and shoved Seth back. "Chaton, stop" she hissed.

Seth stumbled upon hearing his old nickname. "Why?" he choked out. "What did I do?"

Seth shook his head as if to shake his thoughts into place "Why Violet? Why did you leave me? You...you fucking broke me" he said in a small voice "I have the right to know why, just tell me. Why would you do that after everything. I was going to quit fighting for you because you didn't like seeing what it was turning me into. You get up on stage and you still sing my songs, but you said you hated me. I just wanna know."

Violet crossed her arms and closed her eyes. "I didn't want to be with you. You never signed anything so legally those songs are mine. I said what I meant, you weren't enough"

Seth looked like she had rebroken his heart.

Thankfully Britt walked in. "Hey, we gotta go"

Seth grabbed his title and held it to Finn. "This is mine. You can keep that bitch but you will never get this"

-Backstage-

"I've never known you to be biphobic, wanna explain to me why Rollins is convinced you are?" Finn said sitting down in his locker room with his wife a few minutes later.

"His uncle...manager, that bastard Shane got me my record deal in exchange for breaking Seth's heart" Violet told her husband "Seth hates fighting, he was going to quit and go on the road with me. He can't sing a note but he writes and plays guitar. We were going to be a duo. Shane was watching his cash cow walk out the door. So he threatened me and made an offer. Seth was the sweetest thing and he loved me and I broke his heart and let Shane turn him into that"

"If I could go back in time and slap him across the face I would but I can't" Violet said brokenly. "Shane has made it perfectly clear that if I ever tell him that he would ruin both our careers"

Finn hugged her to him. "I'm still gonna kick his ass" Violet slapped his arm. "Please try not to" Finn shrugged. "I'm undefeated"

"You know Seth is too. And the thing with being undefeated is that there's only one way down, being kicked off the mountain"

-Next Day-

Seth was throwing up again having had drank himself to sleep following his encounter with his ex.

Cody looked extremely tired and Britt concerned. "You have to fight in an hour!" Cody yelled out

"I don't fucking care." Seth yelled back "I don't even want to fucking fight." He muttered to himself, as he rubbed at his knee. "Come on fucking give already." He whispered to the inflamed appendage.

He knew what he was doing was dangerous but it was his only way out. If his knee would just give up the fucking ghost, he could quit this bullshit once and for all.

"Your sisters are out there tonight" Britt said, walking in, holding a brace.

"I really don't care" Seth growled, letting Britt put his knee in it.

"And your mom' Britt added. Seth took a breath when Britt touched his knee.

"Holy shit, it feels like its burning"

We're letting you go after tonight" Cody said angrily. "I don't care if you win or not, you've ruined All Elite Fighting's reputation"

"I don't care, I never wanted to be in your shitty gym anyway" Seth shrugged. "I'm going to get changed"

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

Maybe one day we will find out the reason behind this strange timing, if there even is one. Until then, I still kinda have to laugh at the irony that we were all expecting a world tour while they announced an indefinite hiatus. This is my personal super villain story haha. Well, it’s whatever now but I just wish they would have at least mentioned that they’re considering solo careers a couple of times before instead of bringing that down on us just like that. Then it would have been easier to handle for some people, I’m sure. Would have been way easier for me that’s for sure. Now it just feels like my dad went to buy cigarettes again.

So there hasn’t been an announcement regarding the length of the break yet that’s good to know. I personally blocked everything that has to do with bts on reddit and twitter as soon as I became a fan, for these exact reasons. My brain is already doing an excellent job in making me anxious all by itself lmao. Let's just hope they all start their military service as soon as possible because I don't think it would be strategically wise not to. After all, just like the members, the fans are getting older too. In 5 years, I will be 30 and even if the outlook is not perfect, I still hope that by then I will have more meaning in life than I have now. Shoutout to the last anon: I also am a part of the “no life” club.

The problem you have with the vlives, I have with run bts. There are still so many of the newer episodes I've never seen because I missed them and then somehow never caught up. Now there are so many that it gives me anxiety when I think about it haha. By the way, I'm really glad you understood me correctly when I talked about how I feel about solo projects and the members in particular. Many people on here seem to take every little criticism as hate, and that's really the last thing I want. I wish each of them only the best even if I may not be as interested in their projects.

And I agree with what you said earlier, bts will undoubtedly not be the same after the break and that’s actually the main reason all of this makes me so sad. I just hate change and it's very hard for me to get used to new things. I have been trying to overcome this for a long long time but maybe this is just me and I have to learn to live with it.

So… I think I’ve talked enough now. I feel like I‘m just repeating myself anyway and I’m so sorry but you know what? Sending you way too long messages does help me adapt to these news haha. Big hug for you too!🤍

Hi! I definitely agree with your first paragraph! I said that too. I also agree that, if they want to build up on the momentum they have now, it's best to get their mandatory service out of the way... I think they can take the group to another level in terms of popularity if they successfully establish themselves individually as artists now (by collabing with famous artists, performing at big festivals, going on variety shows, etc.). If they're seven solo artists, the GP can find out about BTS through any of the members and that can attract fans too. Also, there will be so much hype when they return as a group. If they wait too long, they will find it harder to become mainstream, I guess. Plus, they're a boy group, and dancing is a part of it, but in a few years it'll be harder on them to dance. If they want to enjoy their remaining dancing years they shouldn't drag on the enlistment situation too much. Of course, they don't have to dance and can have their big comeback as a whole new group in their 30s.

It's funny you mentioned Run BTS. I was the exact same way. It was only last week that I got caught up on all the episodes I missed. Once I started watching them I remembered I enjoyed them so there was less reason to be anxious. But I couldn't commit to watching them for a long time. Same with their vlives. Tbh, I couldn't decide on a show to watch but needed to watch something. I used to watch music shows while I ate but now they're not entertaining enough for me.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me! You can DM me any time (really). I know how you feel :)

[tgifthisgirlisfree]

TGIF (This Girl Is Free) First Friday. Ep 1

Hey there!

Peace and love to you. I hope this entry finds you well. *Deep inhales followed by a slow exhale before clearing my throat and tapping the metaphoric microphone before me.*

Is this thing on?

So, I've decided to start completely over with this blogging thingy. Besides, It's been years since I've blogged consistently, and soooo much has changed in my life, and I'm sure much has changed for you too, at least I hope so. 😉

For those of you who have absolutely no clue who I am and know nothing about my journey…ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF.

Before we get started, If you didn't hear Jay-Z's voice reading that line, you might need an urban dictionary to really savor and appreciate this experience with me.

My name is Rahkal Shelton Roberson. I've gone by a few pen names, including Rahkal C. D. Shelton, SistaMom, Rahky, Rahk, Rah-Rah, and Carla D, but you can call me Coach Rahk for our time together.

So, I've thought of a few ways to make my first entry of this new blog engaging but figured I'd simply use it to lay some foundation on who I am. You know, to keep it light. The title of this blog series is TGIF (This Girl Is Free), and that's right, you've guessed it, I'll be releasing new content every Friday.

Since I'll be turning 38 this year, I decided to drop 38 semi-interesting facts about myself to help break the ice and for us to get better acquainted. Yeah, 38 seems like a lot, but you may actually enjoy them. Heck, let's see if I can really come up with 38 things (I'm smirking as I type).

How about this, if you can't stomach or sit through all 38, make sure you at least read the last few lines, so you'll know what's in it for you. Trust. I understand. My attention span is super short, too.

Newlywed 💍

Team Taurus♉️

Jesus Lover🕊

Certified Professional Life Coach📝

Published author📚(click here)

I once jumped out of a moving plane at 14k feet in the air😨

I was engaged to someone else 7 months before meeting my husband🥴

I met my husband on FB in a pandemic and married him 11 weeks later🤯

I was born in Chicago 💨

I am an Irish Twin, and my sister and I are the same age for 6 days👯🏾‍♂️

Lived in 7 different states🗺🧳

Proud HBCU alum (Miss Senior, sports reporter, multi-scholarship recipient) Go Tigers 🐯

Proud mentor to GenZers🤝🏾

Clinical depression and anxiety conquer💪🏾

I've been through some deep 💩 and use my 💩 to empower others

I was a mom of 2 for 2 years 👶🏾

Currently, a grandma of 5 (all 3yrs old and under)👵🏿

Raised Jewish🕎

Terrified of mice and rats 🐀

My highest education is a master's degree 🎓

Love to read (self-help, inspo, memoir, and lots of faith base)📖

Avocado is bird poop🤮

Secret desire to play the drums like Quest Love 🥁

Transparent to transform the lives of others👊🏾

My biggest fear is living life too small😶‍🌫️

The thing I hear the most: I'm extremely wise🤓

Most insecure about my spelling and grammar; although I am a published author🤷🏾‍♀️

I was born a crack baby in the 80s💯

Love serving and being a cheerleader/hype woman for others📣

I'm the friend who can figure ANYthing out or knows someone who knows someone 😎

Didn't learn to drive until I was 22🧐

I am a gifted solutionist and strategist👋🏾

I have lucid dreams as if watching in IMAX and my senses are activated while dreaming 💭

Sade is my favorite singer 🎤

I used to want to be a choreographer growing up💃🏾

Inspiring and empowering others is my superpower🦸🏿‍♀️

I once had a colleague arrested by a cop friend as a bad April Fool's joke😫

My brother and I stumbled upon some hooded Klansmen having a meeting while riding our bikes as kids in Mississippi😵‍💫

-

Okay, I lost count, but I believe I was close to 38 fun facts. Let's get to the good part, what is this blog about and what's in it for you?

This Girl Is Free (TGIF) is a hybrid of relatable conversations, brain dumping, personal development, empowerment, and inspo from the lens of a true millennial sophistiratchet, blood-washed, believing black woman. I'm talking about pretty much everything and breaking all self-imposed, insecure, and people-pleasing restrictions that I'm allowed to keep me fearful, silent and inauthentic for far too long. TGIF!!!!!! I'm talking faith, fearlessness, friendships, fun, favor, forgiveness, freedom, and other stuff.

ALL 👏🏾 of 👏🏾 it.

What I can guarantee is that my transparency will transform you. I'm here to validate your crazy, offer support, sound strategies, and let you know you're not alone. Lastly, I'm here to coach, encourage and inspire you. So, do me a favor and drop a comment/share with your girls if you're RAHKing with me and if you enjoyed episode one.

Follow me on Tiktok & IG @tgifthisgirlisfree

See you soon.

XoXo,

Coach Rahk