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Louis De Pointe Du Lac: A Study on Memory
Okay this started off as me berating myself for watching "I Could Not Prevent It" before work. And devolved into revelations. So enjoy my sleep deprived ramblings. Spoilers ahead for S2.
Okay why the fuck did I watch this episode knowing I have a week of hell at work ahead of me? Because now I'm spiraling going through the tag on Twitter. There is SO much nuance added to Loustat. And after hours upon hours of the manipulation that is Loumand, to finally have Loustat again is driving me mad. Because we got them back but at what cost? This isn't them and because so much of Paris is laced with Armand, it's hard to tell what's real from what we think is real. Hell Armand said the very same. But I don't mean the obviously not real elements like the trial. I mean the times Lestat breaks character, but instead of adding to what Louis told us, it's almost a complete rewrite. Which brings into question how unstable Louis' mind actually is. Louis who is attentive and consistently praises Daniel for his memory. Daniel who is not a spring chicken and had a very serious drug addiction for almost a decade. The man whose memory shouldn't be as intact as it is. Why does he recall more than the vampire who's supposed to be better than humans. Yes time warps things but complete rewrites? Is Louis' brain and memory that fragile or is this more manipulation from Armand? Which also begs the question, how much is Armand doctoring Louis' memory? After the San Francisco episode they want us to believe if he can rewrite a week, he can do more. But what if he HASN'T done that much. What's Louis' actual mental decline and what's Armand? We also still have no explanation for Lestat outside of Louis potentially being schizophrenic...........holy shit I think I just answered my own question.
Schizophrenia is a genetic trait. I've been saying it's the trauma because I wrote off Paul as an anomaly in their family. But what if he's not? What if Louis' own schizophrenia was simply delayed BECAUSE of the vampirism. But time is catching up to him and the immortal blood can only do so much. "Law number 2: The Dark Gifts must never be given to the crippled." The law goes on to say it's because the gift should be bestowed on beauteous people as a laugh in the face of god. But time and time again we've heard it can't be given to children who are also considered crippled, because their brains can not handle it. It has nothing to do with beauty and everything to do with vampirism exacerbating issues. When Lestat made Louis he seemed of sound mind and body, and he was...because it hadn't started yet. And a vampire surviving brutal injuries in turn makes them stronger. Louis burns himself his first day. The fall was his first big recovery. Then the burning in SF. He's gotten stronger which keeps the decline at bay. But he's growing weaker living in that tomb of an apartment. Armand goes out but Louis stays home. Isolated.
He tried to break free with Daniel once. Here we are again and would you look at that...his memory is suddenly coming back clearer. Okay I need to sleep before I dig even deeper into whether or not I'm way off base or I've cracked the code.
#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#amc iwtv spoilers#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#the vampire armand#this is what happens when i've been up for 24 hrs#i'm going to pass out now#hopefully this made some sense#but i also understand i'm sleep deprived#i just have a lot of thoughts about louis as a person#jacob does such a wonderful job with him#original post#contact khy
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The Rules of Strategy, Chapter 5 - Race 4: Russia
(listed as Chapter 6 on ao3 because of the prologue)
2.5k, no warnings apply, read on ao3
“I really am happy for Valtteri though.” Lewis added, knowing he meant it with every syllable. “You don’t need to convince any of us of that mate.” Bono said with a reassuring smile. The words ‘this isn’t last year anymore’ seemed to hang in the air between them as Bono reached out to clap Lewis on the shoulder again. “I think, today is just one of those days where it’s damage limitations. We still managed to outscore Ferrari with you finishing in fourth. If we hadn’t been able to manage the overheating issues it could have gone much worse, and at least you finished where you qualified.” Once again Lewis was transported back to Malaysia where he’d sat and watched white smoke pour out of the back of his car and he hadn’t been able to do a damn thing about it. Yeah, fourth place was definitely better than that.
#was posting at 2am wise? probably not#BUT IT'S DONE!!!#I'm going to pass out now#my writing#sewis merc au
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I should be working on my Punk!Steve thingy and I will but first I am running on enough caffeine to stop an elephant's heart and 3 hours of sleep and I had a ✨thought✨.
Son of Hades Steve but more Bianca di Angelo than Nico. He's charming and charismatic but even if people like him there's still that sense of Other and people fear what he's capable of (King Steve) and the stereotype that he's bad luck and not like other demigods and almost less human than them (relationship with Nancy and the bullshit scene). His parents know and his stepdad refuses to acknowledge him more than he needs to and his mom resents him for ruining her marriage even though she's the one who revenge cheated in retaliation for her husband sleeping with another secretary. So they send him to Camp Half Blood as soon as possible and he is there the majority of the year.
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Son of Artemis Eddie. BECAUSE in many ancient civilizations the words/phrases we translate to virgin would be closer to unwed young woman rather than never slept with someone. Because Artemis has a lover, Orion but upon his death vows to never wed and declares herself a maiden/virgin goddess. So either like copying Athena in PJO or via the occasional ONS she has a handful of kids. We'll say for easiness sake she 99.9999% of the time has girls that she keeps as part of her hunters. The occasional .0001% that's a boy she sends to the father or the camp. Eddie was left on his father's doorstep in a soft grey woven bassinet and swaddled in silver cloth that seemed to glow with the light of the full moon. His dad isn't the best but once he was delivered Artemis didn't really check in with him and only finds out he'd been sent to his Uncle Wayne (who can see through the Mist) when one of her hunters who was working with CHB sees and recognizes him as a child of her Lady and reports back to Artemis. She claims him at the campfire the next full moon and he immediately starts calling only the Apollo kids cousins and they sort of adopt him as one of their own right back when he proves to be terrible at anything related to either his mother or uncle except taking care of kids (he is great at helping with little ones who are new to the camp or have to visit the infirmary) and/or animals, being the type to take little lost campers under his wing and a talent for music that would rival the most gifted of Apollo's cabin.
A la PJO style we meet our heroes around the ages 11-12, Steve had been in and out of the camp routinely since he was literally a toddler. He was found at daycare by a kind nymph who went by Claudia and her satyr toddler (Dustin 😏) and told the Harringtons about the camp. She did not expect them to basically send their 3 year old to boarding school most of the summer.
Dustin later found Eddie on his own since he was now technically 9 to Eddie's 12 but still physically pretty toddler looking it took some effort and Claudia had to intervene when she finally found her son and explain to the nice mortal man and his demigod nephew about Eddie being of Greek god descent and that with the rise of monsters trying to get at him already he should go to the camp for a bit to train. Dustin would stay at the camp with Eddie partially as punishment for running off and partially to help him acclimate and make sure Eddie was on time for when Claudia helped Wayne Iris message Eddie. Eddie is maybe 13 and been at camp for about a year when he gets claimed.
That's all I've got really besides Steve and Eddie try being friends cause they're both odd kids out w/who their parents are but it's a little out of nowhere after a year knowing of each other rather than knowing each other but also Steve has powers and charisma and that makes him worth hanging out with to majority of campers where Eddie can get kids to stop crying and is a Disney princess with how much animals like him. There's some animosity cause Steve is jealous Dustin is spending so much time with Eddie, especially when they and some of the other campers and younger satyrs discover DND and Eddie feels rejected cause they didn't click at all and his emotionally traumatized little ass made that Steve's fault. Till they're 16 and 17 and assigned a quest with Dustin as their satyr and third and they have to learn to get along and realize how much they have in common like the fear of what comes next when they age out of being campers and yeah Steddie happens and Dustin is smug.
Also Eddie learns completely by accident he can basically use music as a weapon DND bard style and he is way too happy about it and so pissed he didn't think of that sooner.
#yeah the ramblings of a madperson#a thing#this was longer than I meant it to be but oh well this is my fate#might do more later Idfk#steddie au#steddie brainrot#I'm going to pass out now#rambler writes
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Nearly 600 pages and over 200k words!
Falls over dead
#No where near doooooone#But I'm havin fuuuuun#Wooooooo#I'm going to pass out now#KB Rambles#tes#The Elder Scrolls Skyrim: DragonBard Edition
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The amount of anime screenshots I stared at for this one a;dslkfsa;lk
Obligatory click for better quality.
Many thanks to @ashoss for helping me keep my sanity while I was working on this one. Couldn't have done it without them!
Meme reference and clean versions under cut
If you haven't seen The Good Place yet, you definitely should.
I just wanna show this panel off. I put WAY too much effort in it, but I don't regret it :3c
#dreamer doodles#batman#batfam#batfamily#dick grayson#nightwing#jason todd#red hood#bruce wayne#i'm gonna go pass out now#so fucking happy i'm DONE with this one#i can finally know peace#i know this looks messy#but I literally cant work on this anymore#pfffttt
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buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#(the origin of halloween huh) (oooh)#why yes i did wake up way too early to watch the stream and will have no memory of drawing this later#anyway THE MAGIC BOOK IS BACK TO EAT US ONCE AGAIN!!!!#this does make things make a lot more sense if it doesn't have to. y'know. actually take place in the established world#like how jack and sally are apparently just gonna be THERE as themselves WHY NOT#i'm certainly not complaining mind you#scully looks like he's gonna be super adorable and i love him already#spooky scary skeleman who just goes :O a lot and is excited for halloween#he seems like he might actually be more of a fusion of jack and sally? or maybe i'm just reading too much into it#still getting jazzy vibes off of him though. is not scully j graves an incredible jazz musician name.#does this open up the possibility that the last time we went into the book there was a sexy anime boy stitch just offscreen the whole time#...maybe some things are best left uncontemplated#god everyone in this event looks fantastic i'm so glad i saved up some keys after all#a little sad that there's no lilia but you know what the fact that a halloweentown malleus exists is still pretty dang good#and sebek's hat is SO tall#the biggest hat for the loudest boy#i hope oogie is here too i need him and jamil to meet#i need jamil to be faced with a guy who's just a bunch of bugs standing on each other's shoulders in a trenchcoat#i am not coherent right now i just needed to get this out before i go pass out again
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they can get one (1) golf
#my art#cotl#cult of the lamb#the goat#wolf narinder#shitten#idk how to call her#finally wolf is going to be a girl dad!!!#i'm so sleepy i'll pass out now#pupigoat
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OLIVER STARK as EVAN “BUCK” BUCKLEY in every episode of 9-1-1
#911gif#911#911 abc#evan buckley#*#*gif#*911#*everyep#buck#ok yes i'm going to go pass out for a week now#never fucking doing this again#(who am i kidding)#(i know i'll put myself through this again)
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I do enjoy dressing her entirely in canon outfits/cuts and the occasional top she's borrowed from nami and being like ye canon!sanji sure does own a pair of 3/4 pants with ballerina loafers he sure did wear that before with his whole cishet man ass and we didn't bat a single eye at it
#one piece#trans!sanji#sanji#sanami#zosan#nami#zoro#the two wolves that live in my head are in constant conflict between#'trans!sanji should be butch to live the gnc trans lesbian dream and to maintain the previous wardrobe sensibilities'#and 'canon!sanji is visibly straining against the limitations of male fashion she'd be way more femme than u think once freed from them'#like I feel like I'm not doing sanji as a character justice if I only ever dress her in the butchest possible stuff#but also god it'd be boring to just dress her straight-passing#I think we're going with 'dresses comfy at home and for practicality and goes all out femme when an occasion presents itself'#edit: it's not fucking showing this on my feed why tumblr it's fully sfw why are you like this I can't cut this one up to solve it aaahh#I tried different file format and resizing it and neither one worked smh#update: I cropped like 5 FUCKING PIXELS off the edges and it solved it WHY IS IT LIKE THIS TUMBLR WHY#is nami's hair now tangenting with the border oh boy it sure is but alas tumblr won't let me show you this post otherwise apparently smh
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haunting the narrative -> haunted by the narrative -> haunting the narrative -> haunted by
#adventure time#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#fan art#fanart#art#digital art#my art#just a lil something something i did for fun#adventure time has always been the show that makes me want to draw (i have SO many AT drawings from 2015 it's ridiculous)#but now I'm coming back to that ye olde passion with new digital art skills and many more evil tragic thoughts (thank you fionna and cake🙏)#i couldn't get the thought about them haunting and be haunted by the narrative out of my head so I had to make some art for it#the caption for this was almost: so who wears the haunted by the narrative in the relationship?#they take turns of course because damn these guys really do be having that tragic romance huh. hot potato cursed existence#never quite on the same wavelength. always out of reach. their love the very thing that dooms them to be apart. a love defined by absences#like two ships in the night passing each other by. except they keep trying to seek the other out. and so end up going in circles#the tragic dance of madness and sadness. lead on and i shall follow. ....so anyway...these two amiright?#/might/ have to write something at some point...maybe...#because like... ghosts are my thing. and these two...well. even when they aren't haunting the narrative they are still ghosts#never let themselves live in the present and okay I'm going to stop now. enjoy the art byeeeee#...AND they'll never be at peace because they'll always be reaching for a version of each other that no longer exists and—#(i am dragged kicking and screaming from the room before i can devolve into a full blown meta)
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🚨BREAKING NEWS🚨
tnt has officially put the void within on pause between chapters 7 and 8. according to their statement on the official twitter account, it's to "make exciting improvements based on your feedback".
all plot activities (void essence collection, battledome fights, volunteer shifts, and story updates) will be on hold, and voidworks specifically will be getting an update.
the void within is slated to return in early 2025, but the team's assured us that there will be plenty of holiday activities in the meantime.
i have absolutely no clue what this means for the future of the plot.
but i'm going to trust that tnt made this decision because they felt that the feedback they received required such a long hiatus to make changes around.
#neopets#neotag#neolodge#the void within#tvw#what the fuck? what the fuck???#just out of the clear blue sky they're announcing that the plot's going on hold?#like yes i'm very glad that they're apparently taking feedback into account to make the plot better#my complaints were very minor and mostly boiled down to QOL changes but that's probably because i'm autistic and love routines#but jesus until 2025?#what kind of changes are they going to make? and why are they just doing this with no warning?#what's that going to mean for the story? will there be significant rewrites to account for time passing in and out of universe?#i've been very excited for this plot since it was announced and now they're slamming the brakes on it#right as the stakes were starting to get higher too what the hell#i'm going to try not to be a negative nancy about it i'm really really going to#:) < this is my “trying not to be negative” face
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i just posted my first piece of cc over at gos! :-)
{ 69 recolors of memento-sims's ear plugs -- here }
#s2cc#ts2cc#sims 2 download#sims 2 cc#ts2 download#mine#it's finally posted lol#i have some outtake pics to share but i can do that.... later..... i'm gonna pass out now peace#please go look at the post tho i worked really hard on these;;#taossimscc#acc#ts2
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Countdown to October 19th (10/19)
So Long London Apartment
#yeah the london apartment gets another mention#it means a lot to me okay#plus in my mind this video is just one of those videos that I remember#in my mind this was a moment#also just the oh you must be so sad and it just nope :D#over joyed in fact#this is posted a bit later because a couple days ago I realised I had an assignment due that I did not realise was due#so I worked on that#priorities#did I make the caption say so long london on purpose#of course I did#that's my song#so this was a real late minute pull together#thankfully I had the concept#but god#i'm gonna go pass the fuck out now#before I can over think this and spiral#dan and phil#dnp#danandphil#phan#amazingphil#my gifs#dnp gifs#danandphilgames#dan and phil games#daniel howell#phan countdown
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The Figure goes to Phrygian for some rest and relaxation and what do they get? Chine and Duvall and the Baby, (mostly) tragedy free!
[available as a PDF for easy viewing]
EDIT (01/30/24): updated to correct some missing dialogue!
This year's secret samol for @thelostlarrikin! I chose to combine two of his prompts (queerplatonic Figure&Phrygian + "Chine, It, and Duvall being a cute weird family"), and hopefully delivered (I, like Phrygian, don't always know what counts as "cute".. but i think i've got a handle on weird!)
content warnings for: body horror (not treated as horror), reference to past trauma and shitty (read: homo/transphobic) family member(s)
#secret samol#friends at the table#fatt#sangfielle#chine/duvall#figure/phrygian#BLESS tumblr for a 30 page image limit <3#finished this at 0803#juuuust in time! now i'm going to pass out! and awaken to a beautiful bouquet of secret samol entries to browse <3<3<3#my art#i just think that “branched man” phrygian would have feelings about the fall of aldomina..the ringed city?#down with the oppressive circles! power to the beautiful chaos of reality!!
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#just testing something out because i read richard siken -> had a breakdown -> bon appetit#bucktommy edit#tevan edit#911 edit#trying not to be embarrassed of my attempts at... things lol#it is 4.30 am i'm going to pass out in bed now#nell post#nell edits#anyway if i have to suffer the projecting of richard siken onto the blorbos so do you ♡
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finally doodled all my dragon age protags!! now awaiting veilguard to add number four :)
#my art#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age 2#dragon age inquisition#rune mahariel#mellora hawke#faene lavellan#i have some ideas for rook but i need to see the character creator before i really decide on his appearance#but i do have a name already picked out thank the gods#and yes.... i' will be making another elf... sigh hopefully dalish again but since i'm going antivan crow i doubt it :(#rune and faene are already tormented by the horrors of being dalish elves and you'd think i'd had enough of it by now. but i don't <3#especially with rook being the one to unleash the elven gods? come on. it's too good not to pass up#as you can see i love tragedy and torment. now fingers crossed they give us a decent looking elgar'nan vallaslin (:
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