#I'm concentrating on other things

[amerasdreams]

LOL youtube keeps showing me ads of Elon Musk-- in russian.

For some reason they think my viewing lines up with that... perhaps he just has ads everywhere. But why are they showing them to me in russian lol

[plushie-lovey]

FINALLY!! At long last, I've gotten my hands on a Pumpkin Kitty, after a whole year of wanting and waiting.

Her name is Latte! (Short for Miss Pumpkin Spice Latte) You can also call her Miss Spice!

[jascurka]

*Is an art student* man I wish I could draw....

[corvid-language-library]

I really wish I could draw. I don't want to have to learn; I don't have time with all the other shit I want/have to do in my life and I'm too damned impatient to sit through hour after gruelling hour of only being able to produce absolute garbage that looks nothing like how I was hoping. I just want to be able to draw the characters I have in my head.

Alas, it is a skill that has to be learned, like everything else. Goddammit.

[araraito]

Is it normal for a therapist to be like "Aww but you are so young and pretty, things can't be that bad :)"

[kkglinka]

At my drs and when the rn asks my pain level I say, "Only five!' :D:D like that's a good thing.

[rosesocietyy]

the way every single coherent thought about the ep flew out of my head when I heard "you sure about that Arun?" "Yes maitre"

[shinesurge]

attendees please stop going up to people at artist alley tables and pretending to be interested in their work as an In to try and sell shit to them out of your backpack lmao. i promise promise PROMISE it does not work and in fact will get them to avoid you forever regardless of how cool your thing is. you're literally doing the thing mall kiosks do where they compliment you as you walk by then drag you over to sell you shit, except the reverse is worse because we are trapped behind a booth and the social contract lmao this is doing your career a NEGATIVE AMOUNT of favors

[bywandandsword]

I'm listening to the Red Dragon audiobook, and the one thing I take issue with is that the narrator gives every other southerner an accent, but not Will Graham. None of the adaptations give him an accent. The man grew up poor in rural Louisiana and spent the first part of his career in New Orleans! He's gonna have some sort of accent!

He can be brilliant profiler that Hannibal is interested in or in love with and be a southerner with a southern accent, I promise!

[kaerinio]

soooo . . . turns out i'm what the kids call neurospicy.

[varjopeura]

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[watermelinoe]

i think totk improved on botw in a lot of ways but i also still had the same issues w it that i did w botw and it had new issues as well (the inventory was a nightmare, armor upgrade reqs were ridiculous, too many collectible-based quests esp the fucking hudson signs)

but my biggest complaint was that even with a storyline that i personally found more interesting, there is just zero connection to it at all. botw and totk feel like revenge for skyward sword being so emotional, linear, and story-driven (iirc miyamoto was not happy with its direction and he and aonuma (?) were just undoing each other's work which is partly why the game suffers from repetition)

so now we get zero emotional attachment to anything that's going on except in cutscenes that aren't even required and have no visible impact on link in any way. hardly any of the sidequests feel meaningful, and the ones that could have been always seemed to fall short. the npcs seem weirdly chipper about the gloom spreading, the ground splitting open, and the earth levitating into the sky. many of them that should remember you just... don't, for some reason, like there's so little development in any of link's relationships with any of these people, zelda included, as if he hasn't even existed for the past eight years between games, like what was with the hateno village retconning

my personal favorite quests were awakening the fairy fountains (felt like classic zelda and i liked that it made a permanent impact on the world, even rewarding you with a permanent new rendition of epona's song at every stable), giving all the bubbul gems to koltin (you have to go out of your way to talk to his brother kilton to get the full kinda bittersweet ending and it's a rare touching moment imo), and the balloon thing with rhondson and hudson's daughter (i liked that it actually expanded on a questline from botw and it was also bittersweet), also i liked penn and the newspaper questline

the biggest improvement imo was the shrines, the puzzles were so much more interesting with so many possible solutions, and the temples/bosses were so much better than the divine beasts and stupid scourges

but idk i just... feel like i wanted more from it. to me the story is just as important as the gameplay and tbh in both games link feels so detached from the plot, like it's just happening around him, not to him. and you can argue that in the older games they didn't explore his emotional state or w/e but the narratives were tight enough that you felt immersed anyway, and could project your own feelings onto him. these games actively thwart your attempts to humanize the silent protagonist bc he's more emotional about fucking cooking than about being manipulated by a creepy puppet of the woman he's been with for 8+ years at this point (should've made puppet zelda a boss again smh) or seeing memories of people dying horribly

all of which is too far spaced out between, idk, grinding for lionel parts

with the world as big as it is, nothing in it is allowed to be too big and i'm concerned that this is just what zelda games are going to be like from now on. i hope the next project announced will be something completely different.

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

I got a packet from the social security people I have to fill out and have sent back in--by mail--by the 26th. I got it on Friday. And I haven't looked at it til now, bc I was so stressed out about my dog being sick and i feel so overwhelmed. They want all my medical records from the last year, which I don't have, because I've only started keeping that stuff since I had my complete mental breakdown and she took me out of work. And there's so many pages and so much information they want. They have to nitpick my whole fucking life, before they can decide I deserve health. Being disabled in this country is a fucking nightmare. Instead of trying to hep, the just look for reasons to disqualify you. Because they don't want to help us; they just want us to go away

[xxlelaxx]

I don't think my husband understands that there is a big difference between the kind of sleep I've been getting and the kind of sleep he's been getting. It's starting to make me very angry

[tarraxahum]

Sometimes I remember that my parents were explicitly told not to give me more than one task at a time 'cause otherwise I'll get confused and upset. And then they forgot about it as I grew older 'cause surely I grew out of it right.

Sometimes I remember that I had to be put on strong prescription tranquilizers as a newborn infant because my nervous system was going haywire at a simple touch. And then everyone has the audacity to be surprised at me being an unreasonably anxious and twitchy adult.

Sometimes I remember that with the state my brain was at birth, I wasn't supposed to talk, sit, walk, function "properly". But since I turned out "normal" my parents breathed a sigh of relief and stopped believing there could ever be anything "wrong" with me.

Sometimes I fucking wonder what my diagnosis actually is, but my medical paper trail is a fucking mess. I don't even have anything to show to a professional.

Sometimes I get angry that they decided I should forever be fine and able now because the "worst" didn't come to be.

[sachermorte]

Regarding the "am i hot?" poll: I unironically think you're hot. The combination of dress plus the general "i am better than you" aristocracy vibes are just 😘👌

Anon don't flatter me, my nearest and dearest will resent you for inflating my ego even further 😩

I should be getting some sort of acting honor, though, for still managing to larp as a member of the gentry despite current economic circumstances. But then, it is very romantic to be a fallen noble, right? Maybe I've just been reading too many novels