#I'm can't be lost cuz idk who I am

[biioniic-biiohazard]

gonna start biting people because one of my favourite skirts doesn't zip up my waist right anymore and is literally too tight to wear normally

[zeropro]

Hi, what are your thoughts on Megatron? Most Starscream fans don't have very positive ones about him lol, but everyone is different and I would like to know that you think

I like Megatron okay, he doesnt bother me but im not like jumping up and down for megatron content yknow? but I get not liking Megatron as a Starscream fan. It's just, you can't deny how intrinsically the two characters are tied together. Really can't have Starscream without Megatron, which is unfortunate for someone like me who does not like drawing Megatron lol!

Maybe the reason most Starscream fans dont like Megatron is because of their abusive relationship? And let's be clear, due to the power imbalance, I do interpret it as an abusive relationship. Despite how much we like to joke that Starscream deserves the punishment he gets (I'm not entirely sure how attempted murder/political assassination attempts factor into an abuse allegory) no one ACTUALLY deserves to be abused. The fact that Starscream is low key also evil and has done evil things is a separate issue from Megatron's abuse of him, we can hold him accountable for the one while also having sympathy because of the other. For me personally tho? Megatron abusing Starscream doesnt make me dislike the character at all, it's honestly the main draw of the dynamic for me. Maybe I just like to see my blorbos suffer…

The G1 Cartoon Megatron is probably the most fun, and I think this dynamic is the most on the level in terms of Starscream dishing back as much as Megatron gives him. They're all just bullies on the playground, their toxic back and forths feel a lot more slap stick and silly than actual abuse. What makes it work I think is that Megatron is not as crazy powerful as he is in later continuities, and Starscream responds to the abuse like a cartoon villain, immediately bouncing back and plotting his revenge, so it's funny rather than upsetting! I also find it hilarious how Megatron is weirdly nice to all the other Decepticons who aren't Starscream lmao? G1 Cartoon Megatron is a 10/10 for me.

If G1 cartoon's Megatron and Starscream are more on an even playing field, Prime Megatron is like the opposite of that. Prime Megatron is so impossibly powerful it almost feels like no one has a chance against him in a fight, and Prime Starscream is so scrunkly and small it's almost laughable. I think I feel the most pity for Prime Starscream when he gets beat up by Megatron, but he almost always makes up for it by being possibly the most evil of the Starscreams. I like how in the third season, he genuinely seems happy to finally dedicate himself fully to Megatron, but you just know how much he'd been beaten down and broken over and over again to even get to that point. Good for him for trying to get revenge in the sequel series. As for Megatron himself, I think more often than not when I am reading fics I see Prime Megatron in my head, and it's his voice I hear. What can I say, it was the first Transformers show I watched haha. Do I love how his redemption arc was handled? Not particularly, it sorta came out of nowhere, felt really rushed, and he just goes away anyway so we don't even get anything out of it. I like redemption arcs in general, but I don't necessarily think this particular Megatron needed one.

To be perfectly honest, I didn't think the 2005 IDW Megatron deserved one either, only because when it comes to over powered, unstoppable, irredeemably evil Megatrons, this one ranked right up there if we take into consideration everything he did before Dark Cybertron. His redemption does kinda come out of nowhere. But like, idk mang! It's also really fun? Like, Bumblebee carrying him around cuz his pants got blown off is hilarious! Him actually upset at Bumblebee's death and then taking Bumblebee's Autobot badge and putting it on over his own was sweet! Him dealing with the crazy crew of the Lost Light is a lot of fun! And him actually having to confronting and deal with what he's done (and other characters dealing with him dealing with it) is a lot more interesting than just him dying. idk. The comics have been around for years by that point, and passed through the hands of many writers, so if a little handwaving and a little contrivance and a little suspension of disbelief is what is required for us to have an honestly pretty fun take on Megatron, I think I'm okay with that.

I do have one complaint tho, mostly based on content I haven't read yet so take it with a grain of salt. I have been told that the adjacent series to the Lost Light Megatron stuff covers Starscream's side of the story and that it does actually address his abuse at the hands of Megatron. My problem is that apparently (and again I haven't read that far yet so this is just hearsay, but apparently) the writers on the Lost Light Megatron stuff didn't get the memo so while Megatron feels bad for and is working at redemption for all the evil war stuff he did to everyone, the one thing he doesnt regret is apparently his treatment of Starscream? Haha, like come on! on the one hand it's really disappointing to me because id like the catharsis of Megatron’s remorse, but...on the other hand, I guess it's kinda true to life actually. Your abusers are people, and they can change and grow and become better, but it doesnt mean they will ever become better for you. It doesnt mean they will ever apologize or even feel bad for what they did. Maybe theres something to be said about having to move on and heal without that. I guess whether this is a complaint I maintain will depend on how its handled.

I get that some people don't think Megatron should ever get a redemption arch, because he's an abuser, a monster, a tyrant, and an evil warlord, and it's completely fair for your stance to be that he should just be killed and that would be justice. I personally really like continuities that treat him more like just some guy. I think Starscream put it best in 2005 IDW during Megatron's trial when he said Megatron wasn't some political genius or the most gifted strategist. He wasn't even the most evil man. In IDW, Megatron started out as a social advocate from the lower class, and despite the problematic narrative of "the bad guy had a point and just did advocacy wrong/went too far," I think the idea that Megatron kinda got swept up by his own hype and was used by people and powers more devious than he is a compelling one.

Starscream is Starscream, so who knows how much of what he says is true and how much is him lying, but this idea just rings true to me. It humanizes him. If handled well, I'm honestly not opposed to stories redeeming Megatron. I'm also not opposed to stories treating him like the devil and just killing him lol. I love a character that can do both!

Uh uh, what else. Earthspark Megatron is nice, I like him. There's...a bit of cognitive dissonance in trying to reconcile the things he chastises Optimus Prime for and the idea that he still was a ruthless warlord at one point, both of which continue to be left unexplored. Transformers One Megatron is neat, I was worried going in how they would handle the switch from Orion Pax's brother to lets start a 4-6 million year war, but like, I like the way he actually was super okay with accepting his lot in life. Like obviously he didnt like it but he didnt see a point in fighting it, and that adamant complacency as a coping mechanism is what lead to his feelings of rage and betrayal by the end. Also I think its hilarious how much younger he is from all the other Decepticon high command, especially Starscream XD.

I don't think I've read or watched anything else with Megatron in it. Man, I wrote a lot. At the end of the day, Megatron is a good character, I like the role he plays in Transformers, I'm not like actually that interested in him on his own but more what he brings to the table when considering Starscream's character. You can't have one without the other! Do I ship them? No, not really, no more than any other ship. But I'll still read Megastar stuff cuz sometimes you just want to watch two people be toxic and make it hurt so good. I'll always prefer Trine stuff anyway ha! Have fun out there!

[wifeyoozi]

Ranking svt members kissability cuz I am really bored

Jihoon : see I'm being really biases about this ik but bffr this man has gotta be GREAATTTT at kissing. His lips are a little thing but still really soft looking and plump and i just know he is great with tongue too

Jeonghan : if I made completely unbiased list I'd put him first. He's gotta be damn good at kissing. The kind that makes you chase him when he pulls back the slightest. He's the perfect amount of filthy and romantic kiss

Seungcheol : with those lips? Hell yeah he's great! A little agressive maybe? But he's just so desperate to kiss you all the time he can't control himself.

Seokmin : hot take but hes a hot hot kisser. Like I'm talking pornstar hot kisser. The sunshines are usually the filthiest kissers. Yeah he goes about pecking you with that loud mwah sound and then giggle to himself but when he's really kissing you? He's crazy about it you can't have enough of his kisses.

Mingyu : he's also a little aggressive like cheol but more like needy aggressive. Like he just can't get enough of your kisses and he needs to go in all deek in your mouth. He's a wet kisser, spit all around both your mouth but you love it like that too.

Wonwoo : kind of similar to mingyu but more dominant. Likes full on make out sesh and leaves you with swollen lips that look like they got a bee sting. Tho he has a thing for when you bite his lips

Hoshi : he's like a really sloppy kisser like just tongue and spit everywhere and he also loves giggling and whining into the kiss and murmur soft words of affirmation of how good you're doing and he sometimes can't stop till you're literally having to pull away to breathe hehe

Joshua : he's either a very gentle kisser or a every very wild one. No absolute in betweens. And he's great at both sides, just not the middle, which is mostly fine by you cuz he's mouth is delicious enough either way

The8 : he's got a great technique but he's just not a very nasty kisser. Like loves kissing you slow and steady, get in the mood. Just some times you might get impatient and he's smirking like nope you gotta sit still till I'm satisfied with kissing you rhe way I want.

Jun : he is a weird kisser but in a good way?? Like he loves doing crazy kisses like the Spiderman kiss where somehow either if you are hanging off (maybe just down a pull-up pole) and the other one is kissing or like passing drinks in each other's mouth while kissing. One may absolutely love his shenanigans or absolutely weird out by him

Seungkwan : he's not a bad kisser per se but he's kinda lost during the kiss sometimes like he's just preoccupied in his thoughts and stressed out about his schedules and other stuff idk and he's apologizing to you when you ask about it cuz he wants to focus on kissing you entirely so you just gotta kiss him again till he melts into your lips and forgets about everything that stole his attention earlier.

Vernon : it's not about the kiss but the lips like idk he looks like a man with dry lips who doesn't apply Vaseline/lip balm often and his thin lips don't help 🧍🏻

Dino : he is not a bad kisser either I think he's great actually and got that young energy but I also think he lacks experience compared to others. Like he started great but he definitely has more potential and just needs more practice/experience to get there

[ivysangel]

Okay but a threesome with Dick and Jason. what would that be like? Are they competing to see who makes you come harder? Does each try to out do the other because he’s secretly jealous? Are they gonna Eiffel Tower? Is one really sweet while the other is being aggressive and rough? I need opinions.

-🧸

honey i am so so so so so sorry. this has been sitting in my drafts for so long and i hope you're still around to see it! i already wrote a lil smth smth about this a while ago here but allow me to elaborate.

i think the dynamic can get pretty crazy because dick can get wayyy nasty; not to say jason doesn't either, but i don't think jason would get crazy nasty in front of dick. dick's there to overstimulate you, tease you, play around with you, and bring you to the edge and back and then over, and jason's there to comfort you through it. i think they both could be "he talks you through it," guys, but in this specific scenario, i think it would be jason who sweet talks you, whispers in your ear, tells you you're doing so good for them, and quiets you down when you get too loud. i don't really know how to explain it, but he'd be the comforting presence out of the two of them, not even taking a submissive role or anything, just not as actively winding you up as much as dick.

dick, a menace as always, treats it like a game. how many times can he make you cum before you're begging for a break, and how many different ways can he make it happen. i think he'd be like that on a normal day, too, but i feel like it's very amplified in this situation because however this threesome happens, it's a very tense and intimate affair, out of character for both of them and, therefore everything about it is just different (?) i can't even think of a good way to explain it other than the next morning you're all kinda like woah. lost all inhibition the night before and don't really know how to go back to the way things were. he's quick to get nasty; he's the one eating you out while jason is kissing your neck and lightly grazing your skin, touching and squeezing, etc. the combination of both of them is really just insane, and both of their actions, in tandem, are what makes it so much more intense.

i do think they could be eiffel tower guys, but idk, i think (and walk with me here)…double penetration might be the way they go. like, you can't say, "dick grayson is an ass man," without admitting that he'd probably be into anal, so boom. and if your pussy is open, then yeah, ofc jasons taking it; it just makes sense TO ME. it's definitely a lot and not for the faint of heart, and you have to hold onto one (or both) of them while you get used to the sensation and while they find a nice rhythm, so it feels good for all three of you. during this part, the talking might die down just because you're all so in the moment; it's definitely out of character for dick because he's a D1 yapper, but it's cool cuz he was dirty talking so much during the foreplay, like lifting his head from between your legs just to look you in the eye and say something nasty.

i'm also ngl i could see the roles reversed where jason is eating you out or fingering you, and dick is the one whispering crazy shit in your ear. i could see it working both ways, but the first more so.

when i tell you this would be probably the best orgasm you've ever had, i mean that. there's just so much that went into it that there's really no way you aren't gasping for air and clutching your chest when it's over. damn near passing out, and they gotta shake you a little to make sure you're still kicking. and it's not even really over because if you show any semblance of energy after, they might try to go another round i fear.

[kazbrekkerfast]

what instrument I think F1 drivers would play + reasons (from a cellist who is objectively correct)

(if you disagree that's fine please share your opinions I really want to know them)

Get ready cuz this is a LONG post. I also mostly stuck to the 2024 grid cuz I couldn't be bothered with much more

also please note that I wrote this whilst exhausted and avoiding practicing so if it has any spelling/grammar mistakes, you didn't see anything

1. Max Verstappen: percussion

ok so max is to me a percussionist through and through but also seems like the type of percussionist who learnt how to play the violin as a kid and hated it, so became a drummer instead. definitely plays the marimba like his life depends on it. also becuase I have a thing for them so ye 🥰 (I do however love a good fanfic where he's like a super competitive violin/piano player even if I can't really see him play them)

2. Charles Leclerc: piano

so he obviously already plays piano which suits him sm so I'm going to keep that because he has the correct vibes and everything for piano, but more on the late classical onwards stuff than the earlier music (I NEED to hear him play Debussy like omfg please)

3. Carlos Sainz: conductor

ok here me out but I can't see him playing in an orchestra BUT he would definitely conduct, and could probably play a string instrument/piano quite well but like it wouldn't be his passion if you get what I mean (I also feel like he'd be quite strict as a conductor but get super good performances out of the orchestra)

4. Daniel Riccardo: trombone (+bass trombone)

ok he's the reason I'm making this list because OMFG THIS MAN IS A BRASS PLAYER like defo lower brass too but I can't really see tuba player from him so trombone. he's also the kind of brass player to be stupidly good at percussion too so ye that too. also get this man in a big band. please.

5. Lando Norris: violin

ok so lando is always giving main character energy and like there's not much more main character than a violin, and also I can very much see him being a more romantic/lyrical player (he just has them vibes idk). HOWEVER broski has a MASSIVE hand span so he has to play piano cuz he can deffo reach them 10ths let's be real

6. Oscar Piastri: oboe (+french horn)

ok HEAR ME OUT!!!! tell me you can't see this guy play an oboe. I think he has the right sized face for it idk that sounds strange but I can see it please believe me 😭😭. Also french horn cuz it's my fave instrument except my own and I think he'd serve playing it idk

7. Lewis Hamilton: cello

I'm biased. he has the vibes. (not really but idc). also probably sings (he already does but shh). Definitely not a baroque player and probably plays more Dvorak era stuff (the things I'd do to see him play Brahms E minor) but this is all because I am spectacularly biased and want to see my fave drivers play my instrument. also producer vibes but that's unrelated.

8. George Russell: flute

ok so personally most male flute players I know are complete dickheads BUT I think George is the exception like he just seems quite flutey (also he kinda gives classical era piano player but that may be me being silly) but bro definitely doesn't like syncopated rhythms like let's be real if it's off the beat my guy would be completely lost. he does seem like the type to be able to read ledger lines tho

9. Yuki Tsunoda: percussion

I think he's another percussionist tbh but more cymbals and timps than tuned percussion. I don't have much more to say about Yuki because he's just cymbals in my head lmao

10. Pierre Gasly: euphonium

right. he gives wind because he's french BUT he probably is euf cuz like I can very much picture him playing it and also I can very much see him giggling at the back of a brass band or some shit with Yuki (yukierre nation what's good) so I've put him as a euf cuz why not

11. Esteban Ocon: clarinet

another biased opinion but I can see it like he just is a clarient I think. I think it's probs just the fact he's tall but like the stereotype of people looking like their instruments is real so he (he does give cellist a bit too but that may also just be because he's tall)

12. Fernando Alonso: trumpet

right this was a very tough one BUT he holds all the chaos and menace of a trumpet player (especially when he was younger), and I think it suits him quite well. he does give lower brass a bit but I think he has more trumpet vibes than lower brass so ye

13. Lance Stroll: clarinet

ok rich boi obviously would have been taught the violin and I think he'd be pretty good at it tbh BUT he gives clarient vibes so fucking hard like especially bass clarinet, cuz he's different like that

14. Nico Hulkeberg and Kevin Magnussen: trumpet

right. these two are together for a reason. these two are the two trumpet players in an orchestra who sit there yapping for half the rehearsal, play the 4 bars they have in a piece and then are done for the day. don't say you can't see it. you can.

15. Alex Albon: guitar

this one is quite specific but he gives like classical and jazz guitar vibes in a very specific way. also woodwind. idk he contains multitudes and I think we should celebrate that. maybe flute? I can see that. (I'm losing the plot here wtf even is an instrument)

16. Logan Sargent: viola

PLEASE DONT COME FOR ME I SAY THIS IN A GOOD WAY!!! he really has strings vibes to me but definitely is not violinist at all, therefore I think he'd be a good viola player. I'm sorry we all need one somewhere 😭. HOWEVER as he is American I will say get this man on the cheer squad and like idk have him throw people in the air while the marching band does it's thing I can see him doing that

17. Sergio Perez: french horn

sorry he's so far down I had actually no clue what instrument he has the vibes for at all. BUT I made up my mind, and I think he gives french horn vibes. don't ask me why I don't know it just is there

18. Valterri Bottas: tuba

HE TUBAS MORE THAN ANYONE HAS EVER TUBAD BEFORE also probs plays percussion on the side but in the sense that they didn't have enough one day so he volunteered to play for fun. I almost put him as a double bass but he really doesn't have strings vibes at all so I moved him to tuba

19. Zhou Guanyu: piano

this is going to sound weird af but don't take it that way but holy shit this guy's fingers are LONG like I think he could probs do a 9th or 10th easily (I'm so jealous) and I feel like he has piano vibes. also a bit stringy but also not idk I feel like he'd own a harp but not play it often so ye

20. Franco Colapinto: violin (?)

idk him that well and he has very similar vibes to lando (this may be due to the edits I have CONSUMED over the last few months) so ye I think he could be violin, maybe like leader of the 2nds kinda thing for the fun of it

21. Liam Lawson: guitar and drum kit

ok. this is a copout cuz he already does and posts things of him playing but like he just is guitar like that is what he is in my mind. also he gives the vibe of that one guitarist who decided to learn drums but hasn't got the coordination quite right yet so isn't great at keeping time but thinks he's great anyways (I love him really)

ANYWAYS IM DONE THANKYOU IF YOUVE GOT THIS FAR I WISH YOU ALL THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD

[cryptids-of-the-world]

TW: Mental health, depression, SH

I hate for this to be my first post in a while on here especially since this blog is dedicated solely to cryptids and the paranormal but I haven't posted on here in a while cuz I took some time ( a few years) to really really focus in myself and try to find out who I genuinely am as a person and tbh I still really haven't figured that out tbh. When I was a sophomore in high school i received a diagnosis that I had and still have Major Depressive Disorder (which I'm medicated for) and ADHD (which I'm not medicated for.) From 2013-2021 I self harmed and wanted to just straight up every single day. I'm still on the same medication I started back in 2013 being fluoxetine. I was doing really really well for a while and now suddenly I feel so out of place in life and different from everyone else. I can't keep eye contact, I'm constantly stressed, I cry at least once almost every week now, thoughts of SH have been coming back, (I won't do anything) and I just have the constant feeling something is wrong with me and idk what. I feel like people treat me differently maybe cuz of how I act (I'm 27 now but still immature) I'm a very eccentric and hyper person. I have a hard time now looking at myself in the mirror cuz I genuinely hate the person looking back at me. I just feel so lost and worthless I just feel like I shouldn't exist; not unalive just cease to exist. (Again I won't do anything.) I just dk what's wrong with me, why all this stress is suddenly appearing, why I make other people's problems and issues my problems and issues, why I obsess over things and dwell on them to the point that I get myself sick due to stress. I just...I just need some advice or some resources cuz I've been feeling awful these past few months. My dreams have been incredibly vivid and weird and I've been losing so much motivation in so much and I'm scared. Any advice is welcome. Thank you all.

[cassoliravioli]

INTRO!!

Hello! I am Cassoli and I am crazy obsessed with POSTAL

(Yes TF2 kinda died out a bit for me I'm sorry 😞)

I have 2 other blogs, so when I follow you, don't be scared on 2 more additionally following you lmfao ☹️

DNI:

Just don't be weird and people who have some sort of prejudice against alt people and minorities, please, be a kind person, not everyone is the same and people have their way of expressing themselves 👍

Child likers, proshippers etc etc

Basic info :3

I go by Cassoli, Ravioli or Runner (my pfp is me irl fr), btw funfact cassoli is my very cool surname

I am cis girl but idgaf to pronouns honestly

I am 15, but I wanna warn you that i am not innocent, nor I am afected (generally) to +18 stuff (NORMAL STUFF BTW), so DONT get a jumpscare if I post something a bit horny 😭🙏 since COME ON sex is a normal thing yall

I am 🇧🇷, my first language is portuguese so my english sucks

I study in a military school and try my best to go very well at it (trust me I am very smart! -> 🤓☝️) and I am a track athlete so I don't post very often of how occupied I am... and sometimes im just lazy 🤑

But I want to be clear: something i've seen that is very common for teenagers my age to do is to interact and chat with people older than them, HOWEVER I am an exception, that means that I'm on tumblr strictly for posting my stuff, I have absolutely 0 interest in chatting with anyone besides my irl friends, so don't dm me unless is necessary 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

FANDOM INFO YEHAW

POSTAL: how the fuck did rws make postal dude so hot and for what 😭💯 current hyperfixation, since november 2024 I've been ONLY posting postal. Yeah call me obsessed baby cuz i am

Metalocalypse: this thing looks like it was exactly crafted for me, it's literally made for me what the fuck 😭 also, skwisgaar and toki my beloveds 🙏

Team Fortress 2: i LOVE this game to an insane degree, I may be more mentally unwell about this game than any of the mercs to be honest 😭🙏

Murder Drones: cool asf show, highly recommend if u like horror 🥸

FNAF: hurhurhurhur (my favorite character is bonnie)

OFF: batter is charismatic. AND THE LORE OHMYGODDD 🗣🗣

Chainsaw man: the only anime I like 😔

Sonic: first fandom, I still love it dearly

Happy Tree Friends: I love it SOMUCH goddamit I cannot even put into words 😔 I know its gorey and stuff but ITS THE CHARACTERS FOR ME SORRY ☹️

POSTAL INFO🔪

My favorite postal game is postal 2

My favorite dude is postal 1 dude, but I love all dudes 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

I have currently finished postal 2 (+ apocalypse weekend and paradise lost) and postal redux

I am in the process of finishing postal brain damaged and postal 1

My notebook can't run postal 4 🔥

I'm afraid postal 3 will explode my notebook so I wont be playing it 😞😞

I have a fandude! His name is postal soldier!

TF2 INFO HELL YEAH 💥

I am

Unhealthly obsessed

with scoutcest. Its my favorite OTP from all time

btw when I draw them I often feature my BLU scout oc (they are presented as different people then), but any interpretation of scoutcest is VERY welcome (MINUS THE INCEST ONE.)

Medic main, I SUCK at TF2 so the only class I can play really well is medic 🤑 and my mvm main is Heavy!

My favorite character is the scout, idk if I want to be him or be with him ☹️ (I am his n1 fan btw!!!)

I LOVE THE BLU TEAM!! (I have an army of BLU team ocs)

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[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Ahh it's the last day of 2023 already?

I am expecting a call from a friend although the possibility of this happening is very slim it always felt nice to hear the voice of an old friend ( I'm not a text person I've realised this over time but I am stuck to be a text person) .

I can't wait for spring to come in 2024 , spring provides an intense amount of healing to my soul.

The next four months are very crucial in my life if they go well I can survive the rest of the year, I have died a couple of times this year and I am amazed that I am alive i didn't honestly thought i would make it to the end of this year ( especially in the last 3 months , I badly needed help but i didn't wanted others to pity me so i spoke to none about it ) anyways I don't want to talk about it , i don't want to make it sound blue than it already is,a i am really sorry about the fact all my posts are blue I sincerely wish it wasn't that way( altho i haven't posted anything here with as much as devotion I use to do , partly cuz i created an Instagram acc but that's not all reason I ve been sad nonetheless) and sorry for all the "anon/asks" that i haven't answered

I have made no achievements this year and there is little to no progress towards my self love or self growth, but I think that's okay I can do it in the upcoming year, time flies so quick i can't believe Its been so many years since I was 16 I miss being 16 honestly I had more in me back then than i have now , i have lost of confidence my vision and my smile over the years it's as if I am very different person now , i certainly wish I wasn't this way i really thought i would be so much more and better in my early 20s but it is what it is , acceptance is haredest of all emotions in my opinion , you know things are harder to accept when you know you could have done better .

Just like in the last 2 years even this year I didn't make any real life friends with whom I can hang out with i think it's partly due to the fact some people are destined to be alone and I am afraid to admit I am one of them , I did make 2 online friends this year .

I don't want to share any life lessons i learnt this year but if there is something i would love to share is choose yourself one more time each time you feel it's the last time you are doing it , choose one more time to live,one more time to hope, one more time to have faith , one more time to start again [ the fact I am the one telling you this is rediciculosly funny ] .

Unlike most people i don't have a lot of goals for the new year I just got things i want to avoid ( idk if that's the same thing?) Avoid my leftover heart's heartbreak, avoiding what takes away my peace, avoiding what can cause me discomfort, avoiding things that make me question myself ( in any negative way) ,i think that's a little too much but that's it .

As I was writing this Google photos sent me a notification saying " 3 years back today with a photo of mine " and it broke my heart a little, now I am questioning myself how did i let so much happen to me , I wish I treated certain things as the last time instead of always stupidly believing in future ( my worse trait yes).

There is a lot to say as always, i wonder if I open my mouth i would never stop sharing things that go inside my mind , but i also know there is no use of it if i can't find people who can understand it , maybe that's how I end up ranting here .

Not to mention I love people who are patient, i believe in the near future i would only like to talk with people who could be patient with me and with my silence . I believe everyone deserves people who can be patient with them .

Nothing really matters in the end but at the same time everything you do matters ❤️‍🩹

[urautismdiagnosis]

So I am writing a story involving Ranger Marsh berating a bunch of tourists about not feeding the animals and respecting them, and since I don't think I have enough dumb tourist stories, I gotta ask- do you have any stories like that?

You don't have to answer this if you don't want to.

I'm pretty sure I've shared this before but...

Well alot of people get way too comfortable around gators just because they're ambush and not active predators. Like gators can sprint and climb over fencers they really just choose not to. Even hide under cars too.

Anyways, because its not uncommon to see gators crossing roads to travel to other ponds or rivers, and because they kindakinda sit there people get... too comfortable. And thats how lost toddlers have literally gotten eaten. Thats just some context tho

Anyways one time when I was younger, my dad and I were walking on the boardwalk of a park alongside the river bed. This park has large rivers, birds, gators, turtles, and little islands with mangrove trees and everything. You walk to the end and walk back to return.

We see a tall man. Business suit and expensive watch- with his probably 10 year old child. In his hand he has a box of frozen chicken nuggets. And they're talking about trying to feed a gator on the shoreline.

We inform that *hey* please don't feed the gators, even if thats a small one, please don't or else the gators will associate HUMANS with FOOD :) and will make them lose their fear of humans and give everyone involved a bad time :)

It seems they understand! We continue our walk, enjoy the birds and fauna, and walk back...

There is a small crown of at least 15 people,little kids leaning with their arms outreach between the wood railings, adults noncaring because they're too busy leaning over the edge, a child is trying to squeeze through to the other side-

And at the center of this tint crowd is another man, flanked by the guy in a business suit,With a child's Go,Deigo,Diego,! Plastic fishing rod, with a chicken nuggets on the end, dangling over the small gators head.

Needless to say I never forgot that sight.

I've also seen tons of young kids try to get close to gators and going to ponds unsupervised as well. Gators do snap at people, but they ESPECIALLY snap at child

Also idk if this is just where I live but I have seen tons of peacocks just??? Doing their thing??? Invasive species thing, I've even seen one of those white ones routinely in amusement parks. As in they just LIVE THERE randomly???

Also I WAS GONNA SAVE THIS FOR MY RANGER MARSH DESIGN POST BUT GUYSTHE TWO NATIVE RABBIT SPECIES OF FLORIDA ARE EASTERN COTTONTAILS BUT ALSO MARSH RABBITS

Marsh rabbits are EVERYWHERE HERE cuz theyre always near water and I 😭😭😭🙏 his name is double from the nature aspect and the species aspect and I cantttt i only realized yesterday 😭 even tho I've seen them like my entire lifeeee

Also alot of people WILL throw shells and sticks at gators just to??? See if they respond???? Cuz usually they Do Not Give A Sht about you unless you come into the water

Also alot of people don't realize but really decent amount of the forests here (that haven't been fcking mowed down thanks capatilism) aren't walkable. Genuinely, there are Normal Trees but there are TROPICAL BUSHES AND VINES everywhere too so u can't just walk thru the woods yk?

Cuz there physically isn't room and there's tons of water that literally looks like ground because of the plants BUTNO u will go down 😩

There's like so many people who think they could take a gator because of TV shows istg

Also a weird kids rumor that I heard alot growing up was that moss grew because of sloth spit, idk if thats just where I grew up or what but like ? Thats somethin

Also the deal with invasive species here is ACTUALLY SO BAD, like way more than slot of other places because of how many other foreign species can adapt so easily it seeps into your own daily life.

ALSO if u really want an idea include the aftermath of a big storm! After tropical storms and hurricanes alot of nature is SEVERELY thrown off, like gators where they shouldn't be and ALL sorts of stuff, so alot of people (esp since no one has power) will literally just walk around and fck with things and animals they shouldn't

Alot of people think that their false information of tiktok makes them certified to fck with wild animals

the opposite side of the spectrum are people who are COBSTANTLY AFRAID OF EVERYTHING and then do something stupid (but not as stupid) because of that.

But srsly tho kids will dare eachother to throw sht at animals that ignore human presence whether its a large falcon or a gator and I've witnessed both

Anyways thats all I can really think of right now tbh, but there are alot of animals that have gotten used to human presence and cause problems cuz of it but I think thats just true for anywhere. Alot of people don't recognize Florida's beauty cuz theyre just not from here and aren't connected with nature to appreciate any of the millions of small details or what they mean. There are SO MANY PEOPLE always coming to Florida whether its tourists or people who moved here. And alot of families will go out and break rules for fishing or swimming in waters THEY SJOULDNT right in front of the sign.

And usually its not even JUST for conservation, but because HEY there are loose rocks and you will step on a barnacle (sh) or u will be pulled away by a rip current or-

😑 yeah u get the point

Don't even get me started on the ways that people r dumb with fishing 🙄

Some people will just tell u"no I can do what I want" and continue even tho. IM. OT TELLING U CUZ I THINK IM BETTER I JUST DONT WANT YOU TO GET BIT BY A WILD ANIMAL FFS

But there are people who do listen and try their best, and there are alot of people who do grow up to genuinely care ,just... no enough people imo

Idk if this was that useful but yeah!

[obitobi-simp]

Jonin obito Au but obito is still a freak

Imagen obito manages to free himself from madara by going inbetween that chidori and being there earlyer he get's coma but he lives

Memory ussus and a lot of CPTSD he's fine anyone woud think he's normal now but he isn't

He's legaly still dead cuz no one ABSOLUTLY NO ONE wants to deal with the absurd amount if paiper work so he legaly is still dead and he abuses the heck out of it and will bring it up every opertunaty he gets

Ppl don't notice he's a freak untill he starts open his mouth and say some wierd fucked up shit like as if he's talking about the waether

Obito: Yaeh the uchiha massacer was wild i got there in time to watch that shit go dowen i was so glad to always have popcorn in kamui

Sasuke : so you didn't nothing while this happned

Obito: sasuke pls i'd never and I didn't do nothing i sat there and watched it while eating popcorn and thinking ' damm didn't know bodys coud move like that'

Sasuke: WHY AREN'T YOU DEAD INSTAD

Obito : many reson ig ? I mean legaly speaking i actuly am dead alrady Oh also i can phase through things and can't realy kill what can't be hit yk

He has nughtmares about " an ugly stinky old witch very ugly and stinky"

Whoever thought giving him 3 genin kids to look after is just as mentaly deranged as obito but dw kakashi us there too cuz legaly it's his team and oh damage controll cuz obito get's urges to be an unhinged problem if he doesn't take his meds and therapy( his therapists need therapists and or are scared of this sweetie with 42 underling mental issus cuz ge's tottaly normal most of the time exept when he isn't)

He's very sweet happy and still a stalker but he has a heart of gold an wierd 10 tailed mini dog thing with 1 eye and a spiral thingy that showes up from time to time obito doesn't know what these things are or where they are from but since they pass the vibe cheack they can stay

Wierd shit happnes to him atlest once a week

Imagen this obito meets the other obitos somehow the convo they have in my head

They all magicly aper on the battlefiel of the 4th shinobi war

Jonin obito on the 4GNWW with other obito variation : WHAT THE HECK WHY DIES THIS WIERD SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME I PROB STARTED A WAR IN MY PREV LIFE OR SOMTHING

White haired (unhinged completly lost it and gave up on sainaty) obito : uhh abt that So who wants to tell him ? 🙂

Tobi: ughh-

All obitos : SHUT THE FUCK UP TOBI NO ONE CARES

(Any obito): not only that (casuly lists all massacers and acts of terrorisem he comitted and or was involved in) 😐

Jonin obito : yaeh sounds like somthing i woud do in theses situations🤔 what why are you all I all ? staring

War arc obito : i fucking hate you go kill yourself or somthing 😠

Jonin obito : Hey what the heck did i do ? ALSO I'M YOU LIKE WTF ?!

White haired obito that got more sane after the war: well we coud just blame everything on trauma but thanx to you fucking asshole we now gotta face the realaty with the fact we are just inhersntly insane with or without being manipulated into it thank

Tobi : wow they hate you more then me

Silance...

Madara finaly : WHAT IN THE EORLD IS GOING ON ?! I HAVE A FEW QUESTIONS?!

Jonin obito jumping on his AU kakashi shoulders : AGAAAAAA THE UGLY WITCH FROM MY NIGHTMEARS

The obito thst actuly was in the muddelvifxthe war he started (maby canon obito idk) : yaeh i have a question. My wuestion no 1 is why is other mes hair white ?

Anyone tbh but in my head it's either naruto or kakashi: THAT'S THE QUESTION YOU CHOSE TO ASK IN THIS SITUATION ? There are a lot of things that need answers and you chose to ask /focus on about your fucking haircolour ?! And not like why there are multiple diffret versions of you (and maby kakashi idk kamui shenanigans ig?)

Obito : hey that's a resonoble question cuz last time i cheacked my hair is black

Kakashi: AND LAST TIME I CHAECKED YOU WHERE DEAD

Jonin obito : if it helps i'm legaly speaking still dead

Any obito : that's on you honestly i'm suprised at the shit i got away with

kakashi : TFYM?

Any obito: wait so you actuly never noticed me sitting 3 meters behind you in a bush?

Another obito: or in your Apartment?

Anther obito : oh funny story i'm pretty shure he tottaly saw me that 1 time baised on eye contact but he prob thought i was a hallucination idk (was feeling bored and daering that day/night)

another kakashi apering and smaking one of the white haired obitos in the head with porn: WHAT THE HELL OBITO I LEFT YOU ALONE FOR 5 MIN ?!

That obito : i got bored okay

Kk eye twitching: realy ? You did ? WHEN I SAY DON'T COMMIT TERRORISEM ON THIS PLANET IT WASN'T AN INVITATION FOR YOU TO BECOME A SPACE PIRATE AND BULLY SOME ALIAN GODS (otsosuki) AND EHEN U SAY STOP BULLING ALIAN GODS IT ISN'T AN INVITATION FOR YOU TO DO THIS WHOLE TIMLINE MESSY THINGY LIKE HOW TF DID YOU EVEN DO THIS ? I WAS JUST ON THE TOILETTE FOR 5 MIN ?

That obito : in my defense your instructions weren't very clear and i was bored and i don't like boering why'the heck you think i started a war ? I was bored and wanted shit to finnaly happen

kakashi: DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW TO SPELL consequences?

Obito: . In all honesty you want to know a secret ?most of the shit i do is for keeping me intertained of cuz being " normal " is boering and i don't like boreing i only do the shit i know i get away with anyways it's no big deal but to answer you question it's C O N S E N T

Kks: WRONG that's how you spell consent but i'll let it slid cuz that's importaint too

Ob: realy ? I was messing up on purpose iym a genius

Kk: ...yaeh for that and not like idk inventing time travle but who cares clean that shit up and bring everyone of you back where you shoud be

Ob: i coud do that or Or hear me out i do it completly random and we are gonna watch what happened next ?

Kks: is this gonna affect or timeline in any way shape or form ?

Ob: no not all why ?

Kk okay fine 2 days then you have to make everything normal agin

Ob : only if you buy me dango

Kk: fine let's go get this done with

Litterly everyone completly baffled exepf obito

War arc obito : what ? I've seen wierder shit happen

N: LIKE WHAT COUD PSSABLY BE WIERDER THEN THIS SHIT THAT JUST HAPPEEN ?

obito ignores everything related to that trying to gaslight everyone that was just a filler episide

[shadale-s-safe-space]

I don't know much about you as a person, but from what I can gather you've had a long journey with art, but still have the motivation to continue even when its rough. I'm sure you didn't start out making masterpieces, so if its not too much trouble, do you have any advice for a 16 year old artist losing motivation? i feel like im stagnating right now and its awful

Idk man, all I can say is, draw watchu want without the care who's gonna see it or what they gonna say , commit to new ideas and care less about pleasing everyone, because I know that way too well, I started learning by drawing animals, flowers and nature, "you should draw something else", switches to furries " No you must do human portraits", draws humans *no one fuckin cares*, and I felt miserable drawing what I didn't want all the damn time just trying to please everyone and be liked, hell, I still do that sometimes cuz I'm a dumbass. When in reality, when you do your own thing is when you're the happiest, this internet bullshit? Yeah don't trust the likes and favs, people like what they find relatable, no one really knows how much time you've spent on your drawing or how much you love it, when a 5 min doodle you did could do more than a painting that took 2 whole days to complete just to be scrapped in a new speedy record, paint what you love for yourself and you only.

Don't be shy to learn new things, I have tons of stuff I don't post here cuz I know people wouldn't care about it, but here for this post, have this that I practiced when I felt too depressed to think of anything good and wanted to step back from the MD artstyle

You'll see, you'll thrive when you draw what you want, and get yourself a drawing buddy! That way you'll stop focusing on the internet and more on each other, and each other's improvement. Tbh I struggled with that one. Since everyone I had were not into art irl, I somehow managed to find someone after 10 years of drawing alone. I honestly wanted more people to join in and make an improvement circle, but unfortunately that never happened.

I found myself twice as productive now than ever, even though I'm not active here as much I am still drawing and making things, ofc giving you more comics! And other fun things in the future I hope.

If you're struggling to draw something just do it, man commit, i was uncomfortable drawing men and male characters for years, I've wasted so many years being "too uncomfortable" and draw a naked person like yeesh who fucking cares, it's for studying.

And ofc if you feel like you're not improving at all please, please experiment with your artstyle and try something new, please refresh your mind, I was stuck for years doing the same thing over and over, same colors, same 2px brush, drawing like a machine same shit over and over, I felt so stuck and lost, but also afraid to do something new, idk why, I guess I never felt good enough or deserving of it. I also didn't go to art school, I am NOT a professional, nor will i ever be in my opinion. Hell, me feeling like I'll never be good enough left me afraid to try and apply for art school, they were asking for sculptures, different mediums all that scary stuff and I was like, I don't.. know.. how to do those things... I can't build a portfolio in less than 3 months?!?! I don't even know how to use half of what they're asking for!!

In reality at the end of the day, art is what you make of it and no one can stop you, search for inspirations and don't be afraid to try, yes you'll fail fist 2 or 10 or hell even 100 times, but you'll come back with more knowledge than ever.

For ending I give you the most confusing drawing to ever exist [dw he's just sleeping on top of her and she's just ghasping for air but awe romance or sum lol] is it weird? Yeah but I had a fun time making it hahaha

Idk I'm bad at putting my thoughts together, but hopefully some of this helps.

[ihearthantae3]

Who From The Start

#2 [He's a yapper]

PARING - non-idol!boynextdoor x mute fem! reader

CHARACTERS - BOYNEXTDOOR, Minji (NEWJEANS), Riku (NCT WISH) [i only used them as faceclaims for the story!]

GENRE - school au, rom-com, non-idol au, (some) texting au, and (some) social media au

WARNING - none she's just really awkward..

SYNOPSIS - Mercy's trying to get to class but bumps into a random guy. Oh but he has such a pretty smile. 'Just let me go to class' 😓 -Mercy

word count: 1.1k

not proofread!

Mercy's POV

I push the first set of heavy double doors. 'Why are they so heavy.' I groan. 'Whatever I'm on my own now. I have to fine my first class.' I put on my airpods then pull out my phone from my pocket. I click on my favorite song, 'Perfect!' (a/n: idk what song to put so just pick for yourself) I continue my search. '129' I repeat to myself hoping I wouldn't forget. I grip onto my schedule paper glancing at it occasionally. 'Mr. Gruff. What kind of name is that.' I giggle to myself. As I'm looking at my paper I bump into someone. 'Ouch.' I say surprised to find myself on the floor. "Oh my bad" A deep voice says. I shake my head hoping that know that I'm fine. I slightly look up and am greeted to an helping hand. I take it hopping back up on my feet. Just then the voice says "Are you hurt?" with concerned tone. I shake my head. I look up and see a handsome face. 'Wow' I'm left speechless. Not like I wasn't before. The handsome man speaks up "Uh are you sure you're okay?" He asked one more time. I nod. "Whew. I'm glad." He says in relief and gives my the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. I melt. 'I better get going.' I start to turn around, hoping that was the end of that interaction. "W-wait !" I completely stop in my tracks surprised, still facing forward. Feels like a minute has pasted with him just staring at my back. 'Omg why did he tell me to stop I was hoping to leave on a good page now I can't' I complain. 'Do I turn around? Or is he going to go in front? WHAT DO I DO??' I freak out. FINALLY he walks in front of me. 'OH THANK U GOD!' He starts "You dropped your paper." He slowly hands it to me. 'oh my i would've been lost.' I grab it softly. (a/n: idk how to put it js know it wasn't hard) I give him a thanking smile. 'hopefully he gets the hint.' I take a step forward still trying to go to class. Then he talks "I saw you're a freshman." 'OH MY LORD MAN JUST LET ME GO TO CLASS' I crash out in my head. I nod. "I can show you to your first class if you want." He says. 'is he nice or is he a weirdo?' I nod with a slight shrug. "Okay lets go." He gives me another beautiful smile. 'well if he is a weirdo, god sure did bless him with the most perfect smile.' We walk side by side. He makes small talk, I listen with the occasional nod. 'wow bro is quite the yapper.' I nod to myself. "Oh right I forgot to introduce myself." I says slowing down his pace and eventually stopping looking at me. "My name is Jaehyun. Jaehyun Myung." I puts his hand forward. I shake his hand with MY hand shaking. I panic inside. 'WHAT? NO! WHAT DO I DO CUZ I AM NOT BREAKING MY MEW STREAK FOR THIS FINE MAN.' I take out my schedule paper and point to the top of the paper. Confused he bends down a little so he can read the paper. "Mercy Luni?" He asks tilting his head a bit. I nod. "What a very pretty name." He looks up smiling. I feel the blood rushing to my cheeks and turn my head away. "Wait." He looks like he figured out something. "Your last name is Luni?" 'oh no please don't tell me-' Unable to finish my thought Jaehyun shouts "YOU'RE ASTER'S SISTER?" I groan. 'noo i thought no one would know.' I nod with a defeat expression. "Oh sorry I didn't mean to embarrass you." He says rubbing the back his neck. "It's just he's a really cool guy and so far you seem cool too." 'aw sweet guy' I give him an understanding and let out a small giggle. He gives me a shocked looked and gives me another smile with a giggle. "Let's continue." He says starting to walk forward. He continues to talk on the way and I continue to listen. We reach my classroom and I check my phone for the time. '8:50 am. 9 minutes till class starts. Oh will he make it to class on time?' We both stand to the side of the door and I go to my notes app typing something. He looks confused but doesn't question what I am doing. Once I finish I show him my screen which reads.

'Are you going to make it to class on time?'

He smiles and gives me a nod. "Yea, I'm good I know my way around here."He pats my head. 'what the filp. Shocked. Speechless. S-scared. I look up at him with a confused expression. He gives me his final breathtaking smile and says "Well I should get going now that you're here." While pointing at my first period class door. I nod with a smile and waving him bye. He begins to walk backwards and faces himself forward. Watching his talk figure descend into the hallway I turn to face my class when I hear a sudden squeak. I turn my head to where the noise came from and see Jaehyun's figure standing still. 'what the?' I was about to ignore it until Jaehyun had turned around and was heading towards me once again. I look behind me trying to see if he was going to someone else around me but see no one. 'wait please don't tell me he is-' Once again unable to finish my thought when Jaehyun says "If it's okay with you can I have your number?" He says fidgeting with his phone. I tilt my head in confusion and furrow my eyebrows together. "N-no not for anything weird-" He stops and takes a deep breath. "I just think you're really cool and ihopewecanbefriends" (i hope we can be friends) He blurts out fast. Stunned. I look at him and nod. He lets out a sigh of relief and hands me his phone. I proceed to type my information in and hand back his phone. He smiles and thanks me. Now he leaves while waving me goodbye. 'i guess he really is a sweet guy' I turn to face my class once more before stepping in. 'and i guess this is really happening' I take a deep breath in and step forward into my class while taking a deep breath out. 'now or never'

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a/n - First bnd member introduced!! sorry for the late post but I hope you all enjoy this story so far. I enjoyed writing this hopefully in a later episode they will text :) xoxo, ray

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[us3rnam3-r3dact3d]

we're only like a third of the way there you say? 22 more chapters you say? babe wake up Baz just posted and im shaking. a third seems so big yet so small omg we're not even there yet and I'm already sad about this story ending,, such an amazing story im honored to witness it live

there's something so intense and intimate about 2 people being in the front seats of a car, it's like the energy of a living room, literally anything could happen. it was the perfect setting for this conversation. I felt like I was there

the contrasts in the 3rd paragraph are incredible. going from quinn's violence to his "love", to sam's "violence" to his care. it's like darlin's brain can only jump from one extreme to the next - they can't even begin to comprehend sam's gentleness for them,,,, a little too relatable 🫠 being so lost in this cycle that you, first of all, can't imagine a way out, and second, can't imagine that you even deserve it.........my heart is aching,, and david's defeat, knowing someone you care about is hurting and them being juuust out of reach HEY!!! OUCH!!

YOU WERE 16!!!! YOU WERE 16 IT WAS NEVER YOUR FAULT DAVID KNOWS IT WASNT YOUR FAULT PLEASE DARLIN NOOOOO

and when he got out of the car my stomach was TWISTINGG I thought he was going to THROW UP. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO THROW UP. I am so so so glad that they told him and that it came from them, cuz like idk, hot take (it's really not) david was lowkey mean during that confrontation video, u just learned that your pack mate experience something incredibly traumatic and ur first instinct was to show up to their home and sass them? hey get out of my apartment by the way im never talking to you again. I'm glad it was a david & darlin vs quinn and not david vs darlin vs quinn.

he knows what it's like to go through something devastating and not being able to speak out or get help and he's not going to hold it against them, guys we're making huge strides right now

AND OF COURSE QUINN IS HERE BECAUSE WHY WOULDNT HE BE. FUCK OFF 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

david has picked up angel and darlin under his arms like 2 footballs and he's getting the FUCK outta there. what a man.

I felt like I couldn't read fast enough

I can't wait for what happens next, it's been a rough couple weeks for me but your stories always make me feel better (no matter how angsty), help me forget about life for a while and make me remember what really matters,,,,,hot men,,, god bless

take care of yourself!!!! 🫶

-🦀

I knooowwwww!!! I honestly thought this story would be MUCH shorter tbh?? I had no idea it would even be ten chapters, let alone 30 something. When I was first conceptualizing this story, I had like… six or seven critical scenes in mind and that was IT! I’m glad that the story has become what it is now. I’m truly so excited and happy with how it’s turning out.

Bro some of my best and most heartfelt conversations with my siblings have been in the front seat of a car. I base a lot of David and Darlin’s moments on my relationship with them, so I wanted to incorporate that intimacy and friendship. I’m so glad that the setting translated well!!

Bro the contrast between Quinn and Sam continues to be a mind fuck for Darlin’. They said it themself a few chapters ago, love has always been intimately tied with violence for them. They can’t imagine a world in which the man who loves them doesn’t hurt them. They keep trying to merge the person they understand Sam to be with the way they understand love. Sam won’t hurt them. So Sam can’t love them. For Sam to love them, he has to hurt them.

They’ll get there.

David can see how they’re torturing themself. He wants to just shake them and tell them to STOP but he knows it won’t help. It didn’t help him.

THEY WERE JUST A KID!!!! I was struggling to create the power imbalance of quite old vampire and mortal person, until I was like “Oh. He was for sure a 25 year old who hit on teenagers.” And poor Darlin’ had no support at home. Perfect target for an asshole like Quinn.

David very nearly did throw up. His internal monologue was “I’m gonna kill him im gonna kill him I’m gonna hurl oh my god oh my god I have to sell the house I’m never letting them (both Angel and Darlin’) out of my sight I’m gonna kill him with my bare hands.” He stopped the car because he knew he was going to crash it if he didn’t.

And YEAH!!! I felt like Darlin got very little agency in canon so. They get a lot in this. To mimic canon, they’re going to FEEL like David’s taking this out of their hands, but he’s actually about to give them more tools and community.

Of COURSE QUINN RUINS THIS!!! HE RUINS EVERYTHING!!!

David is about to carry every person he loves out of Dahlia and hide them in a hole somewhere. He needs to PROTECT THEM!!!! EVERYONE!!!

I’m so sorry your past few weeks have been rough buddy!!! I’m glad that my silly little stories can help! I love writing them and I love hearing your thoughts. Your asks are one of my fav parts of posting.

Can’t wait to post more for y’all!!

[iamtired10]

HEADCANONS IDEAS i have sum of them but fuck it do be hard to come up with ideas 💀✨

BUT HERE:

:: when they realize they are falling in love with you/feelings realization 💖 [fluff] - ikyk but sometimes our brain doesn't function much the way we want so... i know you can do it. 화이팅‼️

:: when they or the reader says something hurtful...? 💔 [angst] - anak ng- idk man, i just kinda lost it here now 💀 but it is what it is

:: their love languages 💋 [pure fluff] - yes.. i am very desperate for this bc im painfully single but anyways. love language would be a game changer once again and it's PURE FLUFF SO WHO WOULD REJECT IT⁉️

:: them getting so much butterflies from the reader's love gestures 🦋 🦋 [fluff] - i can't explain much about this cuz my brain just accidentally shut down like bruh 😑 but hey! it's fluff 🐰

:: when they protected/shielded you from a stalker when hanging out together in the daylight 🙅🏻‍♀️ [fluff] - yeaaa.. men ☕ LOL 🙈 but yes fluff once again, up to you tho 🥹🍞

:: what food/something would they give you when you're in your period.. or something, mood swing moments IG??? 🥨 [fluff] - maybe i'm just hungry but meh... FLUFF. ☁️

idk anymore so i guess this is it 😩💫 anyways excited to get an update soon, if not.. don't care.

JOKE. I LOVE UR WORKS,, itz why me is excited 🙈🦋

ok bye 👋🏻💖

MIANA BRO!?!!?? 🤯🤯

BRO JUST DROPPED ALL NEWJEANS HEADCANONS ON TUMBLR LIKE WTF IM LITERALLY CRYING 😭😭😭

THANK YOUUUU SO MUCH

I CAN’T EVEN PROCESS THIS—LIKE WHY AM I LAUGHING AND CRYING AT THE SAME TIME 💀😭 A WHOLE LIST?!?

😭😭😭 BRO IM ACTUALLY TEARING UP RN, YOU GOT ME SHOOK FR 💔

[jennrypan]

ML London Special live reaction pt.4

...Maybe..if you can't touch her..MAKE NOISE??? MOVE THE DHDHA FUCKING. GOD- Marinette.

Anyways.. Marinette you are soo..why not..idk..go a little further back so you can..move the fucking rings-- I'm so..OK.

There's a reason you lost them to begin with 😶 I'm being mean--

The ghost is an akumatized villain..REALLY?? Gosh wow! Anyways..

WHY IS NO ONE CALLING MARINETTE OUT FOR THIS HERO GABRIEL THING?? Like..yeah sure it's difficult for her but..ya know who deserves the truth? ADRIEN!! But whatever poor Marinette struggles with the issue she caused again. Moving on..

It looked like he was about to punch her and that's so funny to me like-- he's grown why 😭

Also..God that Akuma design goes hard tbh.

Also..Gabriel did not care about Adrien being happy..be so fucking fr. Also..why did she??- why WHY DID SHE JUST. REVEAL HERSELF?? Marinette..use your brain. THE THING IN YOUR HEAD!!! God. It's fascinating to me that she'd give Gabriel (a grown adult) a million chances for terrorizing Paris but God forbid girls her own age are rude to her to an annoying level..mkay..

"Marinette don't trust him!" Right then..Plagg should've immediately been against her ass, cuz why would she..trust Gabriel..he's done nothing trustworthy at all??? They haven't even had any good interactions ?? God.

...Wait does Lila or whatever had Adriens amok or-- did she live it?

"The times I've tried to be a good father" still gets me..CUZ WHEN????

Also..I think it'd be less work..to kill himself-- like if I'm being so honest that's all he had to do lol 💀 what a bitch. Also "I'm not like him" ..hm..sure..sure totally not..

GIRL ADRIEN NEVER HAD A FATHER!! ADRIEN WAS ALONE WAY BEFORE YOU HAPPENED. God- also..Adrien has .his friends but ig he has YOUR friends since are they really adriens friend?? Hm..

"He has you" ..thats not a good thing lmaoo..omg save Adrien PLEASE--

Also ohhh I wanna see Lilas hawkmoth form ahhhh- and hm, that's not that hard of a thing to do. And uh..can she just..give herself whatever power?? God. That's so op and dumb.

Oh her names Bugnoir..damn I'm dumb lol--

She's got little claws! Cute anyways..

Why is Lila so..op..its irking me. Fucking Alix can't just..open a portal to yank the book?? Open two?? Am I missing something..

Why the fuck does she..have that ability..like she has..3 time watches?? Why?? Ok

"Adrien will have no one left" THEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU, NINO AND ALYA AND THE CLASS FOR??? God..omg..shut up.

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I just read chapter 14 and I'm in love with your writing😭💞

I really didn't know I needed to read a fic like that until I read it, and honestly it's one of my favorites in the CoD fandom. I love especially the way you write Keegan, it's fucking hard to find a good fanfiction of him💔 and I also love the way you wite mama. Usually I don't like reader x canon(I usually get mad at reader's actions cuz they're usualy the complete opposite of what I'd do) but this time it's probably one of the first that I actually can see myself in her place.

Btw I really hope Keegan's endgame, I genuinely get mad whenever Ghost's in scene. Like, rude you're engaging with another woman and suddenly asked for divorce, you can't be mad at mama for not wanting to be near you or for interacting with Keegan😞 I want to slap him so bad. I'm also eager to see Ghost's reaction when he finally realizes he lost mama.

Like idk, maybe she gets kidnaped by that guy who's hiding in UK(I forgot his name💔 but it's the guy that TF141 and the Ghosts are looking for) thinking that she's still married with Ghost(like to threat him??? IDK I JUST WANT GHOST TO BE MISARABLE😭). And when they finally find her, instead of reaching for him like he'd have expected, she reações for Keegan. I'm just itching to see reality finally sinking into his mind, I want so bad for him to see that she no longer needs him, that she doesn't want him anymore and that another person(Keegan my beloved💞) took his place. I need to see this man regreating every single choice he made in the last 4 months.

Anyways, I really love your fic and I hope you have a wonderful week❤ and sorry for any typo I made, English isn't my first language and recently I've been mixing Spanish with Portuguese with English AND with another language that I started learning recently👎

The asks took me awhile to answer because I just noticed I have reached 300 kudos and THIS LOVELY ANON RIGHT HERE BOTH MADE ME UGLY CRY (happy tears of course 🥹)

I'm so glad I could grab your interest with my fic!!! When I don't find something I specifically want to read, I cook my own shit (hence the Simon x Goth!reader because I never see goth in fics) ((AND SOME X READERS SO IRK ME TOO I FEEL YOU THERE))

I am trying to not lean towards the predictable cliche things that tend to happen in fics (even though they are absolutely amazing and I eat it up no matter what) I HAVE THINGS PLANNED, AND WHILE THEY ARENT FULLY PLANNED THERE ARE THINGS HAPPENING IN MY BRAIN!!

(Also, I hope you have a steady learning of English! Your ask was very legible and so sweet and kind 🥹🫶🏻)

THANK YOU FOR THIS EEEKK 🫶🏻💛