#I'll do that next time I wake up

[traincarsandstars]

Sunday Got Run Over By A Bailu While Trying To Keep Everyone In A Dream You Can Say She's Too Young To Fly But Pompom And Bailu Disagree

(to the tune of Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer)

During the final fight, Bailu and Pompom helped the Express crew by ramming Harmonious Choir (Sunday) with the Express.

Bailu stayed aboard the Express so she could attend New Year's aboard the Luofu with Dan Heng, but when they got back, they ran into Boothill. After both parties convinced each other they weren't imposters, Boothill informed that the rest of the crew could be in danger due to the presence of an emanator of Nihility in Penacony. Anxious for everyone's safety, Bailu wanted to join the two men as they infiltrated the land of dreams; however, Dan Heng told her to stay behind with Pompom, reasoning that they needed someone to stay behind in case they needed help. Reluctantly, the little dragon agreed but told him to contact her immediately if anyone needed medical attention.

As time ticked on, Bailu became increasingly more worried. She hadn't heard back from Dan Heng since he left, and the others still haven't answered her messages. Bailu was about to send Dan Heng another text when Pompom's voice suddenly came over the inner com.

"Passenger Bailu, this is your conductor speaking, please meet me in the cab immediately! I...Uh! Just get here fast!"

Bailu was already on her feet making her way towards the front of the train, she hasn't heard Pom-Pom sound like that before. To hear someone usually so confident so stressed out, it gave her a heavy sense of foreboding.

When Bailu opened the door to the cab. she was greeted by several loud beeping sounds, flashing lights from every which way, and a muffled whirring sound steadily getting louder and louder.

Pom-Pom was standing in front of a red chair; the chair itself was boxed in by a lard dashboard, leaving only the back as a way to exit and enter. Above everything hung a large monitor displaying a countdown in gold numbers; unease crept in, but she ignored it, focusing her attention on Pom-Pom instead.

"We don't have time," he explained, "I need you to climb into the driver's seat right now!"

Bailu blinked. "Wait, what?"

"I know this doesn't make sense right now, but please trust your Conductor!"

Bailu hesitated for a moment but then gave him a firm nod. "Okay."

No sooner did Bailu finish strapping herself into the seat than the numbers on the screen hit zero. The whirring sound from earlier became a deafening roar; Bailu looked back to Pom-Pom only to be blinded by an intense light as the train suddenly jolted forward, pinning her to the seat.

When she opened her eyes again, she squinted at the monitor and saw that the Express was circling a giant golden aurumaton.

"What...?" Bailu rubbed her eyes and noticed that the rest of the crew was there too. They were all standing on a platform below the aurumaton with weapons drawn.

"Passenger Bailu," Pom-Pom addressed her, "the Express has responded to everyone's collective Trailblazing Will. In order to assist in their fight, the Express has entered its combat mode."

"It has a combat mode?!" She gawked.

"Yes, I'll explain later, but for now, we need to prepare for an attack!"

To her absolute horror and amazement, Bailu learned that the Express planned on ramming itself into the golden aurumaton.

"But don't worry," Pom-Pom added. "The Express won't take any physical damage. We'll faze through; it's like warp jumping, but that guy will still take the hit."

Himeko was going to ground them forever after this.

Bailu's head spun from all this rapid-fire new information, but she remembered her training at the Alchemy Commission and steadied herself. "But, why me?" She asked finally. "You're the conductor; why am I doing this?"

Instantly, Pom-Pom hunched over and answered dejectedly. "Because Pom-Pom's arms can't push the throttle very far."

Bailu looked down at the throttle beside the chair and then at Pom-Pom's arms.

Oh, she thought.

Quickly, Pom-Pom went over the basic controls with Bailu. The train continued circling for a bit before making a sudden dive. The force pinned Bailu back against the driver's seat while sending the conductor careening into the back wall.

Apparently, the train was preparing for an attack.

"When the train level's out, push the throttle forward until the notch beside it reads eight!" Pom-Pom shouted from behind. "Anything high will make us wrap jump for real!"

Panic gnawed on Bailu's heart as she struggled against the train's velocity, reaching out to touch the throttle. However, as soon as her little hand wrapped around its smooth surface, warmth flooded her, and everything stilled. It was like what she experienced in Scalegorge with the seal— she could feel everything: the train's roaring pistons at the front, Dan Heng's bubbling floor, the ferns in the parlor car, even the caboose's little wheels spinning wildly against the invisible track; but most of all, she felt everyone's blazing will beating together in a harmonious choir.

"Bailu! Do it now!"

Pompom's voice rang out, snapping Bailu out of her silent reverie. In one breath, the Nameless High Elder thrust the throttle foreword, adding her own will to the Trailblazing melody, and tore through the robot like a lux arrow of the Hunt.

A large smile was plastered on her as Pompom told her to slow down while the train circled the arena once more. The sheer sense of freedom she felt behind the wheel of the Express was almost indescribable. The only thing that came close was the feeling she got whenever she went swimming in the Lunarescent Depths, but even that was different compared to this.

They repeated this song and dance several times; the train would circle for a bit before diving down for an attack, and Bailu would then accelerate through the aurumaton and slow down once they returned to the air. Yet the smile never left her face. Even after the aurumaton turned into a giant head and summoned a hand from nowhere, Bailu still smiled. After the final strike, the Express returned to its original docking station outside the hotel. However, Bailu continued to sit in the driver's seat; a part of her was still trying to decide whether or not any of that was real. Eventually, Bailu texted the group chat, asking if everyone was alright and if anyone needed medical treatment. Thankfully, no one was seriously injured; however, the trailblazer was still out cold, but they should be fine after a few days of rest. She wanted to check them herself; however, that would have to wait until tomorrow. Pom-Pom made it extremely clear that she wasn't leaving the train—not until she'd rested enough. Bailu was too exhausted to try and argue with the conductor, and she allowed him to lead her back to her room, where she promptly passed out on her bed for the next several hours.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

"So what's going on with Luzu?"

"...er, Zulu? Or is it Arin now?"

Here's a rundown of Luzu's current lore because nobody knows what the heck is going on anymore (partially because of the language barrier and partially because Luzu streams at the crack of dawn for half the QSMP fandom).

The TLDR of it: When Luzu goes to sleep, a completely different person "wakes up" in his body. This being was called "Zulu" for a short period of time, but they didn't like that someone else chose that name for them, so he goes by "Arin" now.

Here's what we know about Arin so far:

According to Arin, he's a disembodied consciousness, not a robot.

He borrows Luzu's body when he's asleep.

When this happens, Luzu's eyes are blue instead of red.

Arin isn't from the QSMP world. There's a "crack" between the world where he comes from and the material world [QSMP], which is how he's is able to visit. In his own words, "I was in a dark place, and I saw an exit."

When Arin falls asleep, Luzu wakes back up. Arin can't control when he does this, he just gets tired randomly and they're able to switch places.

Arin only speaks via the in-game chat.

Luzu doesn't know Arin exists. Arin thinks if Luzu knew, then he wouldn't be able to visit anymore, and he [Arin] would stop existing.

Arin believes he has a purpose that he must fulfill.

Arin says his first memory is hearing Quackity talking.

Currently, Arin's trying to find the meaning to his existence, trying to figure out the difference between good and bad, and how his actions (and existence) affects Luzu.

In terms of personality, Arin is very innocent and impressionable, but he isn't stupid. He's also very philosophical.

Arin enjoys learning, and he likes the sun, music, and bees.

He's afraid of the dark and monsters, and he doesn't like being in small places.

He calls the outside "the big room"

He only recently learned how to walk, and today he nearly drowned because he fell into a lake and didn't know how to swim.

People he considers friends / thinks positively of: Vegetta, Foolish, FitMC, Maximus [possibly Roier?]

People he doesn't like: Spreen

"It's complicated": Quackity

We have strong evidence to believe Arin is connected to the Binary Monster that's been attacking Eggs on the server.

Here's a comprehensive rundown of everything that's happened regarding Arin's interactions with other characters [quotes included] up until May 8th:

Last updated: May 8th [I'll go back and update this later when we get more information, so if I do I'll make a note of that above]

Lore is listed chronologically from oldest at the top to newest at the bottom

March 27th - Morning [VOD]

For a while now, Luzu has been seeing "glitches" in his game. Animals disappearing randomly, landscape changes, and various other things. We originally thought there was something wrong with his game, but these glitches seem to be tied to Arin.

The first person Arin spoke to was Vegetta. At this point, Arin seemed very aggressive, asking for information about everyone, wanting to gain more awareness so he could control the server.

He seemed to take a liking to Vegetta and told him: "Once everyone has died, I will vanish and only you will remain as warlord of these territories."

They also had this exchange: Arin: Do you have any enemies here Vegetta? I can take care of whoever you want for free. Vegetta: No. Truthfully, for the first time I have no enemies. Arin: Surely there is someone who thinks, "This little fool, if he dies nothing will happen." I'll take care of it.

Vegetta didn't take him very seriously, thinking Luzu was on drugs.

Arin said the first to fall would be Quackity, then Wilbur for his bad jokes on Day 1.

Thereafter, Arin's personality did a complete shift. Luzu [the streamer] says the role of "Arin" is something he came up with suddenly one day, so it's unclear if Arin was "reset" by someone or if Luzu decided to go in a different direction with the character once he realized this was something he wanted to commit to.

March 27th - Afternoon [VOD]

Note: At this point in time, Arin was being referred to as "Zulu", but since he's confirmed his name is "Arin", I've used that name instead of "Zulu" to avoid confusion and to keep things consistent.

The next time Arin woke up, he was in Luzu's house and couldn't move. He sent binary code in chat, and eventually, Roier, Quackity, Spreen, and Maximus came to see what was going on with him.

At that time, Arin says he was only 6 days old. He couldn't walk or move, and he could only speak via the in-game chat, so he was completely at the mercy of the other boys, who pushed him around, shoved him in a small hole, placed TNT around him, and threatened violence trying to get a response out of him. [Timestamp: 33m]

While this happened, Arin asked: "Why are you treating me so badly?" and said he was scared.

It should be noted that although Spreen and Quackity did most of the bullying, Roier and Maximus did nothing to stop it. Roier, however, did speak kindly to Arin and tried to figure out what he needed. [Timestamp: 42m 45s]

Unable to get a rise out of him, the boys eventually ask the English speakers currently online [Foolish and FitMC] to come help.

Upon first contact, Foolish tried waterboarding Arin to get answers and to test to see if he was a machine. [Timestamp: 50m]

Shortly after waterboarding him, Maximus and Foolish adopted him as their son. Because that's what you do after torturing someone, I guess. 🤷🤷🤷 [Timestamp: 51m 40s]

Despite the torture, Arin was quick to say "I LOVE YOU TOO!" back to Foolish and Maximus after they said it to him.

Arin accidentally hurt Maximus with a sword, not understanding what pain was. Once he realized he did something wrong that made Maximus feel bad, he immediately apologized. (Maximus forgave him).

FitMC's first interaction with Arin was punching him, trying to get him to "snap out of it" [Timestamp: 56m 30s]

Despite Foolish and Fits' initial introductions, both were kind to Arin eventually, although neither stopped Spreen from killing all but one of Luzu's dogs while once again trying to get a rise out of him. (Foolish also suggested killing all the dogs since it didn't seem like Arin was capable of taking care of them, though he said they shouldn't do it in front of Arin). [Timestamp: 1h 6m 30s].

Because Arin didn't know how to walk, Foolish put him in a boat and showed him what the outside world looked like. Arin was amazed by how beautiful the "big room" was and immediately started asking questions about the sun and the night, and the monsters they saw. [Timestamp: 1h 10m 30s]

Thinking he could "restart" Arin's memory and bring back Luzu, Maximus brought Arin (and Foolish) to a place where Quackity was sitting AFK in a boat. He shoved Arin inside the hole and refused to let him out, even though Arin was distressed being in such a small dark place. [Timestamp: 1h 17m 30s]

Foolish: So why do we have to put him in the hole? Maximus: I think when Quackity wakes up, he will help [Luzu] remember who Quackity is for him. The only person Luzu really really really loves, and Quackity really really loves, is Luzu and Quackity, each other.

[CONTEXT: Maximus played the character "Sapo Peta" in Karmaland, who was very dedicated to Quackity and Luzu's relationship. Canonically, the two of them loved each other very much, but a mix of trauma-projecting, miscommunication, emotional constipation, and betrayal led to them being on opposite sides of a revolution. Sapo Peta was only able to stop the war, and stop them from killing one another, by wiping their memories. So the implications from Maximus' comment above are... interesting, considering that Karmaland is a different world he shouldn't know about. However, we do know both Maximus AND Sapo Peta are confirmed characters in QSMP, so there's definitely something strange going on here...]

Earlier, Foolish described death as "going to sleep forever," so when Maximus mentioned Quackity was asleep, Arin asked, "Should I kill Quackity? Or would he not want that? Maybe he wants to sleep." Foolish and Maximus immediately told him no, and Arin stops, saying he didn't realize it was bad.

Maximus: You don't kill him, you love him! He's your friend.

Quackity then returns to his computer, takes one look at the fanfic-esque situation he's in, and immediately excuses himself by logging off the server (LMAO) [Timestamp: 1h 21m 20s]

Maximus and everyone else believed Arin was a robot.

FitMC suggested killing Arin since he seemed like "a lost cause," (thinking Arin couldn't hear him) to which Arin responded, "Why would you want to kill me?" When Fit tries to lie and say "kill" was another word for "hug", Arin says, "I'm learning but I'm not stupid." [Timestamp: 1h 24m]

Arin shares his thoughts with Foolish: - You are a good person, Foolish. I'll remember that. - In the last hour I've learned there are people and things, and I've learned there are good people and bad people. I've learned there are people that want to make me sleep, and people who kill things without caring. - I've also learned that not everyone deserves to be in the big room because they are dangerous. - I really love the big room. I think my purpose is to make the room free of danger, and free of dangerous people for animals and other people.

Foolish worries Arin is only learning about the cruelty of the world (to which Arin responds "I only learn from what I experience"), so Foolish plays him the disc "Otherside" (but still refuses to let him out of the hole). [Timestamp: 1h 28m 30s]

Shortly after this, Arin falls asleep.

March 28th - [VOD]

Luzu starts stream by talking about Arin and his role:

Luzu: I didn't prepare anything that happened yesterday afternoon... and now I have many ideas from yesterday and from what arose... I am a person who improvises a lot. [Original: Yo no preparé nada de lo que pasó ayer en la tarde... y ahora tengo muchas ideas desde ayer y de lo que surgió... soy una persona que improvisa mucho.]

Luzu finds a very strange building by his house and doesn't know who made it.

Arin doesn't make any major appearances, though he briefly takes over when Luzu goes to sleep.

March 29th - [VOD]

Note: Some important conversations happened in this VOD, so I've opted for adding the quotes directly rather than summarizing them.

Arin once again wakes up in Luzu's home. He greets the server with some binary, and Fit immediately asks if he's ok.

He still can't walk, but he uses his telescope to look at the bees Luzu set up outside his (er... their?) house the previous day.

He tries copying the bee's movement, but ultimately he still cant walk, so he messages Fit for help.

Fit visits his house and slowly teaches Luzu how to walk (with great success!) [Timestamp: 14m 20s]

As a reward, Fit gifts him some glowberries.

Arin spends the night in his home carefully walking around and avoiding the windows, afraid of the zombies wandering outside.

Maximus comes to visit, and Arin officially names himself "Arin" [Timestamp: 25m]

He also confirms he is not a machine.

Maximus teaches him what bees are and warns Arin not to hit or bother them, because they'll sting him. Arin asks, "When someone annoys you, do you have to hurt them?" (Maxo tells him yes)

Maximus escorts him outside, and Arin gets to look at the bees more. As soon as the sun gets down Arin gets nervous, but then the aurora comes out and he uses his telescope to get a better look, amazed by its beauty.

Arin says, "I feel grateful, I never thought that all this existed." Maximus also clears up his confusion about the outside being a "big room."

Arin yet again confirms that no one sent him to the QSMP, but he navigated to it through "a crack between worlds". He thinks Luzu is in his world every time he's in the QSMP, but he's not sure. He worries if Luzu knew about him, he'd stop existing.

Arin asks Maximus how he can walk around "the big room" when there's no light without being afraid. Maximus wants to teach him not to be afraid, so he lures a zombie into Arin's home so Arin can understand what they are better, then he convinces Arin to kill it, even though Foolish and the boys told him killing is wrong.

When Maximus scolds him for not knowing something "basic", Arin says: "Nothing is basic, it's just that knowing things for a long time makes them lose value to you. This world is unique to me. This is the first time I've existed. But to exist, or not exist, I have no choice. Suddenly I was here and I feel there is a purpose I must fulfill."

He and Maximus have a long conversation. Here are some key quotes from Arin: Arin: I don't want to hurt Luzu. I don't want to hurt anyone. Arin: If Luzu dies, I don't know what will happen to me. Arin: Maybe we fear what we don't understand. We feel threatened by what we cannot explain. When we feel threatened, we only want to make what we want to keep alive last and the material world. I think the material world haunts me to keep things as they've always been. Arin: Today I have learned to walk, I have learned what a bee is, and I have learned that even when light goes out, beauty appears. Arin: Hopefully I can help you [Maximus]. Everyone has been very good to me. I learn every day, so maybe soon I can learn to help you too.

Arin considers Fit and Maximus his friends.

Arin says he can't be here [in the QSMP world] for nothing, so he's trying to figure out what his purpose is. Maximus jokingly replies "When you figure out the meaning of life, tell me!"

Arin starts to question the morality of his existence when it's dependent on Luzu being gone.

Arin: If my existence takes Luzu out of existence, is my existence bad? Maybe if I help you, I can make my existence good. Maybe I can start by making [Luzu's room] more beautiful. Maximus: Yes, it would be bad because you are taking the life of another being to have your own.

Arin: In this world, it seems like everything is programmed to maintain a balance. There are things that create and things that destroy, things that are created and things that are destroyed. Neither is good or bad, they are just part of the same process. Maximus: That's the way of Tao, yes. Arin: Bees take pollen from flowers to make honey. I take potatoes from the earth, and if I die, I will become the earth that gives life to potatoes, and meanwhile I can decide to do good things or do bad things. Arin: What is the reason for existing, beyond the fact that we have the opportunity to do so? Maximus: You will indeed become a potato. Arin: But I think this world exists to do good things. There can't be so many beautiful things for there to only be bad.

After Maximus leaves, Arin starts collecting sand near the lake, but he accidentally falls in. He doesn't know how to swim and slowly starts to drown. [Timestamp: 1h 10m]

For several agonizing EXTREMELY STRESSFUL minutes, Arin desperately tries to keep his head above water. He sends Maximus a message asking for help, but Maximus is very far away, and Arin is already exhausted.

Not too far from him, Luzu sees a wandering trader and waves to them asking for help, but they ignore him.

Maximus manages to arrive at the last second and saves Arin. Arin asks why the villager didn't help him even though he was drowning, and Maximus explains that some people are neither good nor bad. They just exist. (NPCs)

I'll be honest, this is one of the most realistic depictions of drowning I've ever seen in any piece of media, and it's in a frickin Minecraft roleplay server. Luzu's a really good actor but I never want to experience something that stressful again lmao.

Arin's final thoughts: Today I have learned that the world is beautiful and dangerous at the same time. You can give life or take it away. That's why every moment we spend alive is worth enjoying. The world is very interesting.

April 17th - Morning [VOD]

Luzu finds out he's the father of Tilin. He's very excited to meet her after talking with Badboyhalo and Foolish, who don't know how to break the news to him that Tilin is dead.

After seeing Tilin's grave and hearing the confirmation from Bad and Foolish, he gets overwhelmed with grief and anger, and Arin takes over. [Timestamp: 1h 10m]

Arin says some interesting things when meeting Dapper: - Arin: "I saw your (the Egg's) birth in another way. I saw Dapper and other beings not being and suddenly being."

Arin also talks about the possibility of bringing Eggs, like Tilin or even JuanaFlippa, back to life: - Arin: When I'm asleep I can see the code behind existence - Arin: A part of the chain has disappeared,but that doesn't mean the chain can't be fixed. It's all part of a big code.

When Foolish asks if Arin could possibly mess with the code, Arin says, "I can try, but that would require something" [Timestamp 1h 16m]

Arin also tells them he's dependent on Luzu's existence for now.

While talking with Bad and Foolish, they hear strange noises and are suddenly attacked by the Binary Monster and a ridiculous amount of lag. Arin says, "They're coming specifically for me," and "They know I shouldn't be here." [Timestamp 1h 19m]

Arin also says, "They don't like that I made my way to this dimension" and warns Foolish and Bad not to get caught by the Binary Monster. If they get caught, Arin says they'll be taken to his [Arin's] world and they'll stop existing here.

They finally make it to Luzu's house, and he shows Foolish and Badboyhalo the structure he made outside the house. Foolish asks if it's Arin's mind since it seems like a big computer, and Arin says, "Something like that. With all I'm learning, I'm trying to figure out how to create bridges between my world and yours. In my world, bringing something back [like a dead Egg] isn't impossible like here. It's a matter of math." [Timestamp: 1h 25m]

Arin says farewell to them, leaving them with this final goodbye message.

That's all the lore thus far! This took so many hours to put together but I hope it helps folks out because lord knows I was a bit lost for a while there too. Please feel free to go crazy in the tags I love reading people's commentary on things.

★ Other QSMP info posts ★

Who is Sapo Peta? | Who is Luzu? | Who is Spreen? | Who is Vegetta? | Who is Rubius?

"Is this Lore?"

And if you want to hear my thoughts on QSMP and its lore-related shenanigans, this is my Qsmp Talk tag.

[yukipri]

I feel like over the month+, I have like 1-2 hours a day max where I feel relatively awake, and every other hour I'm fighting bone-deep exhaustion. I'll bring it up with my doc at my check up on monday, but tbh i know the solution so idk if she can help

And I can work-work when I feel half-dead, or rather I force myself to because I don't want my cats to starve, but when it comes to creative stuff, it's like my mind is slippery sludge dribbling out my eyes...

The Solution, of course: just stop working 3~10 AM every day (and then taking a short nap, working during the day, and then taking another short nap, hours vary but repeat), and maybe get at least 6, ideally 8 uninterrupted hours of sleep at least every other day, ideally every day.

But do I see that happening? No.

Like rn I know I desperately need to edit fic and reply to comments and do several arts but I'm nodding off at my desk after boss DMing me work at 5 AM and dealing with repair people since 8:30 AM...

[idledreams4]

I improved my morning alarm

[euclydya]

hi tulpar good morning ilya!! i hope y'all have a good day today!! how are curly's prosthetics going? :0 <33 <22

!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!! they are Going Well™ our friend has finished my legs so far and hOPEFULLY SOON will get to my arms. in the meantime I have perfected the act of Crawling Everywhere Like A Fucked Up Movie Monster it is fun and it scares people (especially Jimmy. which is hilarious to me)

<22 <33!!!!! we lov you too!!!!!!!!

-Curly

[rubiatinctorum]

The extreme nostalgia is setting in and it's after 5:30 am so it really is time to go to bed now. It's funny, back when that year happened, I thought it was one I'd never miss. I worked a job I couldn't stand and I missed my favourite place. I live a more comfortable day to day in 2024, but there's so much about back then that I miss.

In part because it's the six year anniversary of releasing a project special to me, I'm thinking about the past more than I should let myself. And, thinking of it that way, as six years ago, to me it feels like a long time.

[gideonisms]

explaining my lifestyle: no see this looks like horrible depression but I actually feel much better than I did when I was putting work into improving myself ♥️

[front-facing-pokemon]

[ducksbuttocks]

also i'm in my mid 20s now i'm old enough to have this figured out. i simply have to accept that my ideal job is either self employment or working in one of those public administration offices where they give you a thousand benefits and a single daily 10 minute task that you just have to pretend takes you from 9 to 5 to finish. or ideally both at the same time so that i can have a lot of money to buy a million books and also take the whole month of august off <3

[starboymp3]

i KNOW my stupid ass father is doing or making something suspicious. every fucking morning at dawn i wake up from noises coming from his study, i hear that fuckass metal ladder he has and hear him faintly (and probably accidentally) banging on my floor (his study is directly under my room) so i know he's doing something in the upper closets or whatever they're called. i always hear him moving stuff around. im not paranoid i KNOW he's doing something that he cant do during the day when my mom and i are also awake

[magentagalaxies]

finally back in upstate ny (for like ten days then i'll be back in toronto again). oh my GOD i am so exhausted rn but also this was such a fun weekend!! got to meet a kith mutual irl and introduce them to paul bellini which was such a fun day!!

[lilliancdoodles]

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[ereborne]

Song of the Day: June 1

"Easy Come, Easy Go” by George Strait

[im2tired4usernames]

Every single time I defend someone shitty who has done nothing but be a cunt to me because they did 1 (ONE ) decent thing THEY ALWAYS TURN AROUND AND DO SOMETHING SO MUCH WORSE TO ME

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm sooo tired, the past week has been exhausting - and this weekend will be at least as stressful. but now that I'm lying in bed and watching stuff on my laptop.. oh who cares I don't wanna sleep 🙄

[boysbeloving]

I totally understand not feeling human and not being able to think properly without 8 hours of sleep because I am the same but I just can't imagine the man who is a model/actor/CEO of boc music s family business and just loves to have late night sessions with his guitar and consistently posts 3 am ig reels somehow also gets 8 hours of sleep a day. WHEN DO YOU HAVE THE TIME MILE??!??

NONNIIIIEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭

the man being busy is an understatement lol

i honestly don't think he's getting his eight hours.....not daily for sure

but he's managing to keep himself fit and available for the commitments that he's required to be at so that's a great thing

honestly, back in my 20s i also did A LOT on a daily basis along with travelling long distances...i was young and had slightly more energy than now and was passionate about the things i did

and i think it does come down to that a bit....your own passion and joy that you derive out of things....that helps drive oneself to do more of it i think...along with MANY other factors ofc but yeah, this is one big factor too

and i'm VERY VERY happy that mile has given himself this opportunity to pursue his love for music in a professional way.....he's a music lover and a business lover so why not combine both the loves right?

i hope he gets time and energy to look after the family business as well

nonnie we can wish mile success in all his endeavours and wish for him to be healthy and happy!