#I'd just have to figure out how to keep it from being too long 😔 I have the bad habit of adding chapters and chapters to stories and then

[malaierba]

Hi Mal ^v^ Also I am currently thinking about fairy princess Nozomi, because that's literally so adorable ;v; and Karanozo.

Me tooooo I've been thinking about it 🥺 I... Probably need to stop seeking inspiration from fairy tales. But I think they could fit a story that's vaguely inspired by The Swan Lake? Mainly when it comes to the "princess only shows her true form at night" thing, but with more rules to make it more interesting.

Remember what I said about Karamatsu probably being better off as a prince that you marry off for political purposes, rather than an actual clog in the kingdom's statal systems? Since he'd be way more interested in the arts than the state, and while he probably gets some training as a knight (as seen by all the official art where he's exactly that), he has a tendency to be idealistic and stupidly heroic that really has his parents rushing to marry him off lol.

Imagine that they eventually find a prospect that's interested in him, the queen of the Unseelie Fae Court, which keeps causing problems for travelers and peasants of the kingdom. The queen, nicknamed The Ugly Flower Fairy, takes an interest in Karamatsu, and although his brothers somewhat oppose the union, Karamatsu's head is full of pointlessly unrealistic, romantic nonsense, where he's gone and deluded himself in thinking that marrying the Unseelie Queen is a valiant sacrifice, a masterful diplomatic endeavour that he needs to take on in order to protect and strengthen the Matsuno kingdom, and besides he can probably fix her with the power of love.

Anyway, on the night where he's to pay a visit to the Fae Realm (on a full moon night, why not) he gets lost and ends up in a lake where he finds a woman meandering by. Ever the gentleman, he approaches her, concerned about her being on her own in such a place at such a time.

The woman looks startled but reassures him that there's nothing to worry about, she lives nearby, she simply felt like taking a walk... In the middle of the night, apparently. Then, to Karamatsu's surprise, she correctly inquires if he's Prince Karamatsu, and if he wasn't meant to be on his way to the Fairy Realm.

Karamatsu neglects to question what she'd know of this, assuming that word had already spread... Somehow. And makes a show of saying that indeed, he's been tasked with the most noble quest of improving diplomatic relations between the Fae and human folk etc etc.

The woman, in a surprising display of intuition, asks him if he's afraid. Karamatsu's bravado falters (he's TERRIFIED, but also mostly in denial about it) and fumbles through a very unconvincing attempt at denying the accusation. This only makes the woman laugh. She gently touches his arm, and informs him that the place where they are can only be reached if one is avoiding something.

By this point Karamatsu already has... A feeling about this woman. Like she knows too much and is too mysterious. But even the idealist, he finds himself intrigued, and rather than being wary he finds himself being put at ease by her kind demeanor.

So when she offers a friendly ear willing to listen to his anxieties, he's quick to take a seat besides her and drop all pretenses of being A-OK with meeting the Unseelie. Unfortunately? For him? Most of his siblings haven't had the correct approach to allowing him to vent, nor have they tried very hard beyond poking fun at his luck.

(I think Choro probably tried the hardest, being trained to be a member of the council and all. But he also never lost sight of the kingdom's ultimate goal, so he wasn't very good at empathising with Kara's oddly hidden anxieties. Jyushi and Oso probably picked up on them with a smidge of more empathy, and tried to hint at the fact that Karamatsu doesn't actually want to marry the Ugly Fairy Queen, but for whatever reason their approach is met with Kara's self-gaslighting, self-hyping attempts because of course he's fine with this, power of love etc etc, and it's so painful they kind of give up)

Anyway, the thing is he opens up to her, maybe because she inspires a feeling of comfort in him, maybe because she's an outsider to this whole political theatre. They end up talking all night, about meeting the Queen, about what it'd mean to the kingdom, about Karamatsu being aware that this is the best shot he's got at becoming a king without necessarily having to be burdened by the responsibility of leading a kingdom, not to mention the easiest way for him to make himself useful, etc etc.

The conversation is cut short just before sunrise, when suddenly the mysterious woman stands up, panicked, saying that she's stayed too long and she has to go quickly. Karamatsu at least manages to grab her hand, begging her to meet again, or to say least be told her name.

The woman looks... Lost. And explains that due to some, er, family circumstances, she can only go out once a month. Taking in Karamatsu's disheartened expression though, she's eventually quick to add that they could exchange letters, if he'd like. She has a trained cat (👀) that would be able to take their letters back and forth, and then if he's okay with it they could meet before or after he's met with the Unseelie Queen. The wedding is one year away anyway, assuming that everything goes right, so it COULD work out.

Karamatsu eagerly agrees to these terms, and that's how the next night a black cat with green eyes paws at his bedroom's door, carrying a letter in it's mouth, signed by someone called Nozomi Takahashi.

(how did the cat know to find his bedroom? Ah, but who is he to question the power of friendship?)

(this is the only good thing to happen to him that day anyway lol, when the royal family learns that he failed to get to the Unseelie Court all hell breaks predictably lose)

From then on, a kind of pen pal friendship develops between them. He also notices the cat hanging around the palace premises more — In fact, according to Ichimatsu, it's one of his oldest friends, and Karamatsu actually played with it sometimes when they were younger. He just doesn't remember because he has, quote, "miso for brains, tch". The cat starts favouring Karamatsu more, too, which means that he gets into the habit of confiding in it.

The way I can see this story going 🤔 Is that at some point, probably as the marriage date draws close, a few things happen:

Feelings develop between Karamatsu and Nozomi, however because Karamatsu is already betrothed it lands them in a very tortuous situation.

It becomes increasingly obvious to everyone that the Unseelie Queen is a bit... Controlling, and impatient, and volatile, and essentially toxic when it comes to Karamatsu. But unfortunately for everyone, Karamatsu copes through denial and also avoidance, and honestly given the alliance at stake there's just no motivation to get him out of it.

Kara lets some of his truer feelings show through when he's with Nozomi, but once again, he's not positive he'd be able to be useful, or even land a political marriage as good as the one he'd got lined up if he were to call it off. He's also terrified of the Fairy Queen's wrath not that he'd tell you.

Eventually, it would somehow be revealed that Nozomi is the former Seelie Court princess, who was cursed by the Unseelie Queen during a war between the courts. Not really sure how they'd discover this though 🤔 I'm thinking of having Chibita + his flower fairy play a part in this, not that I know what Chibita's role in this AU would be but he'd absolutely still maintain the role of his no-nonsense, ride or die bff. Because honestly, I can't see anyone else siding with Karamatsu if he suddenly says that he doesn't want to marry the Unseelie Queen, but not only that! He needs to do everything in such a way that'd allow him to break Nozomi's curse and court her instead.

(I mean, I guess that according to the Samples, My Guy skit, Kara could eventually appeal to Choro's virginal love for fairytale romance? And obviously, for the sake of character development, all of his brothers would come around, starting with Jyushi, Oso, Totty and Ichi, in that order? But that's definitely a later development).

As a story it's probably a bit cliché ^^U But alas, that's what fairytales are for, aren't they. Subversions can come from execution rather than tropes anyway.

And that's the KaraNozo with Cursed Fairy Princess Nozomi AU 💞

[deerspherestudios]

Hi! I played your game and really, really like it, I am a huge fan of slow burn - combined with Yandere too? That's kinda rare nowadays, haha. Thanks for making it and creating Mychael, I love his design. Two questions: How many days are planned to be playable in the full release?

And

Since in just one day Mychael feels very friendly towards us (according to a post you made with where his feelings are based on a meter) does that mean he's very clingy??? Like, in just one day he feels like our friend. What little effort and words will it take for him to go from crush, to love, to whatever yandere thing he might be??? Like, is he okay??? Should I be worried???

This guy? Clingy? Nahhh. Nothing to worry about, anon :-) 🍄❤️

As for the game, long (!!!) answer below cut: might be spoiler-y might be not.

For context, here's the post mentioned above.

I'm still not sure how many days it will be, but it's definitely ranging between 4-5 days. Granted it'll be a while before the game is finished finished but I think progress will pick up as I complete assets that will be reused. I'm writing Days 2, 3 and 4 simultaneously (anyone who writes can probably relate to wanting a specific thing to happen in the story but dread writing up to it, so I skip around in order to keep my motivation and interest up)

As for relationship progression, slow burn usually means a long time passes before anything develops. But this is a VN and I'm a solo part-time dev so the scope still has to be small 😔 That said!

Mychael, as a person, is quite solitary in nature; he likes being alone and you'll find out why. He does however desire company and he's only realized just how pleasant having someone around can be (hence his reaction for the Bad Endings in Day 1 if you wish to leave/run away)

Although I'm not a fan of the 'you do one (1) nice thing any decent person would do and yandere is already head-over-heels for you' trope, I do have to make use of it but, drip-feed style? You grow closer to Mychael as you hang out with him and do little things that he appreciates. (Honestly I just realized I'm describing the typical visual novel experience just without the yandere beginning-- go! figure!!! /lh)

Example: the first thing that boosts you to immediate friend status is your willingness to accept his physical looks, something that's never happened to him before. (I know my artstyle makes him a yassified pretty boy but imagine genuinely meeting a sentient creature in real life with patchy green skin, a dextrous tail and four blinking pitch black eyes, I think I'd freak too haha) Little things like that mean a lot to him and motivates him to prolong your stay.

In a way, the MC is written to be more kinder and open-minded (at least outside of Bad Ends) than the sweet/sour personalities that come in a VN, so (for narrative AND coding purposes) I can't really diversify it much. I hope that's okay ¯\_(; v ; )_/¯ If Mychael met a more grouchy/mean MC on Day 1 he'd probably not be as attached. He'd just save you, feed you and send you home when you ask hahaha. Of course this will change as he gets to know you better, at that stage he'll be willing to overlook your flaws like any upstanding yandere

Phew this was a lot to dump in an ask but I did wanna explain my vision for the game! I enjoy yandere VNs as an escape fantasy, but it's common they start out with the yan already being invested in you or fall for you too fast!!! if that makes sense. I'm interested in yanderes in the aspect of how love (romantic or otherwise) starts from innocent affection and spirals into dark obsession!!! It's also compelling as to why a character is so devoted to someone, in this situation the MC, and I wanna write the kind of person Mychael would fall for. And personally 'love-at-first-sight' as a reason just doesn't do it for me 💔

(Disclaimer!!! I'm not saying my game is any more original or better than the other wonderful yan VNs in the works, but hopefully with Mychael as a character I can deliver that 'slow-burn-and-yearn' storyline I'd like it to be. As my itchio profile says: I make games I thirst for in secret but are sadly lacking around the internet 💔 )

Thank you for the ask!! :-D

[markantonys]

My Mom Reacts To: wheel of time season 2 episodes 5-8 (episodes 1-4) (season 1)

the episode 1-4 post did not contain book spoilers, but this one does, so beware!

first, some dinnertable questions that arose in the past few days:

mom: 3000 years ago, when the first dragon was around, was ishamael--wait. was ishamael the dragon? me: no mom: but he was around back then? me: yes, he was the first dragon's best friend, but then he betrayed him mom: just like how liandrin is betraying everyone

(also, she keeps trying to call him "ishmael" like the moby dick character)

mom: at the end of 14 books, does good triumph over evil? me: i'm not gonna tell you that mom: well this show won't go for 14 seasons, or if it does, i'll be in a dementia ward by then

mom: how long is someone the amyrlin? me: for life, unless they get removed mom: is it an elected position or would they have like a coup? me: [sweating] it's an elected position

she wanted to know where everything was, so i pulled out the handy randland map mug she gave me for christmas to show her! haha

she also asked if we see more of the other colors (ajahs) in the books, and i said if anything we see less because liandrin and alanna have much less screentime in the books, and she was very surprised to hear that

dad: [setting up a dad joke voice] what's it called when lan dies? me: what? dad: lan's end

(okay that might be an americans-only joke lmao there's a big clothing chain called lands' end, not sure how widespread it is. but it cracked ME up, at least!)

mom: does lan die?!?!?!? me: you read his wikipedia article like 2 months ago mom: well i don't remember any of it, that was a long time ago!

she also assumed that no one who is together now (lanaeve + randgwene) will end up together. i'd straight up told her a while ago that rand and egwene don't end up together but she wasn't totally sure of that now, so i think it's actually okay if i tell her spoilers because she'll forget them immediately djkfjgh

episode 5

"she should be glad to get those ridiculous nails cut"

she was horrified by the horse slaughter!

my dad laughed at the guy getting his head exploded, maybe it's not just rand maybe he just likes to see Anyone have a bad time

elyas: your friends from the two rivers aren't your pack mom: ohhhh 😔😠 elyas: neither was your wife mom: [GASP]

she loves hopper so much and i'm not ready for her to see ep8!!

brown sister trio introduced, we pause as i am tasked with writing down every ajah and what they do lmao

my mom repeatedly asked if suroth was a forsaken. probably because she has The Audacity to talk to an actual forsaken Like That!

not much reaction to aviendha at all this episode! i think my mom was a bit overwhelmed by all the new info being learned in this episode, so she was more concerned with trying to figure out who the aiel and the seanchan are than with paying attention to aviendha specifically (partially my fault bc i first explained the aiel as "those warrior people" and she thought i meant the seanchan lmao). she mourned that we hadn't started our character/terminology list on a bigger piece of paper!

i had to fight to keep it together rather than shout with joy during the gawyn namedrop djkjfgh

mom: did the red one free nynaeve so they could try to escape?? me: yes mom: she is just too complicated for me

in this same vein, my dad later referred to liandrin as a "double double agent"

moiraine: [big sigh] dad: she's always a drama queen

he's not wrong jkdjfg

ishy tenderly stroking rand's face also got no reaction, much to my surprise haha i meanwhile was silently losing it

when the seanchan were bringing out egwene and saying how powerful she is, my dad was like "but she's the wrong one, it's the other one who's powerful" oh my god let poor egwene LIVE djkfg even he is pulling a "did you hear that nynaeve is the most powerful channeler we've seen in 1000 years" on her!

my mom cracked up at moiraine saying "it's your choice rand, i mean it this time" and was like "yeah i was gonna say, is she ACTUALLY going to let him choose here?"

episode 6

my mom literally THE SECOND renna's bracelet linked with the a'dam: "so she can channel too? i thought these people punished everyone who can channel" not her INSTANTLY clocking The Sul'dam Secret when in-world it apparently took hundreds of years for anyone to notice hahaha this certainly lends weight to the "this information Is Known but routinely suppressed, as fascist governments are wont to do" interpretation over the "literally not a single person had any idea until the wondergirls" interpretation

lanfear: why do you think you can't trust me? mom: because you have a silly hat

911 lanfear's just been murdered. i guess some people (straight women) ARE immune to her dominatrix outfit djkfg

my mom also voiced her displeasure with rand's haircut again in this scene. my mom 🤝 me 🤝 mat

BOTH my parents thought lanfear's condition was going to be that rand had to kill moiraine himself! the second he opened his eyes they both said it! they're already thinking so dark!

on that note, i'd predicted my mom would be annoyed at moiraine for refusing barthanes's sandwiches, but that was not the case: instead, she and my dad both went "oh i bet the sandwiches are poisoned" they're so suspicious of everything now! and rightfully so

"i can hear you bickering from the fruit market" got a good laugh

my mom also gave a hearty, appreciative chuckle at mat shitting on rand's hair. he spoke for all of us!

mat: i'll meet you in an hour mom: they don't have watches, how will they know when it's been an hour?

mom when moiraine apologizes to barthanes: why is she being nice? me: because she feels bad mom, as if it never occurred to her moiraine might have a conscience: oh..............

mom when siuan arrives in cairhien: now someone can tell her about liandrin! me: but no one here knows that mom: UGH!!!

haha welcome to wheel of time! the necessary information is always stuck in the wrong plotlines and unable to be passed along to the relevant people!

elayne to nynaeve: if we help ryma, we can't help egwene mom: oh this poor woman, now she's faced with another hard choice just like in the arches! me: [sits there stunned because i never made that connection]

episode 7

my mom loved lan telling rand to tuck in his shirt, naturally

lan: heron dips over the wing [or whatever the name was] mom: what? me: it's a sword form, they all have weird names mom: oh, that would explain why it didn't make any sense

lan: your duty is to protect everyone in the world, not just the ones you love mom: that's a big responsibility :(

she laughed and said "she doesn't like not being the boss!" at nynaeve's face when elayne told her to do what she said

she is SO PRESSED about other characters needing to find out about liandrin. she was so excited when anvaere eavesdropped and then so mad when moiraine left before anvaere could tell her the news (but i reassured her by saying that moiraine is about to go to the same place as nynaeve & co who will be able to tell her)

moiraine: [is Mean to lan] mom: TUH! dad: he should just slay her

mom: so what does this tea do? me: allegedly it will show mat his past lives mom: but it might be a trick me: ishamael DOES call himself "father of lies"

my dad was like "that was cool!" after mat's bad trip, which is among his biggest reactions to anything, other than "[chuckles] that was a good one!" when egwene said "renna i will kill you"

ishy: i just want to close my eyes and never have to open them again mom: so kill yourself then 🙄

911 ishamael's also been found murdered. i think she could put the forsaken in line honestly, "you have a silly hat" "kill yourself" she's just not having any of their shit. i hate to compare her to cadsuane, but it's kinda giving cadsuane.

lanfear's dominatrix outfit did get more appreciation this time though when the silly hat was not present ("they had fun with her costumes")

rand: i need your help lanfear mom: ??????? doesn't he know she's evil???????

"she could at least say something nice to lan 🙄" when moiraine fails to say something nice to lan after getting unshielded thanks to him

lanfear: [broken amyrlin line] mom: is she broken??? me: i think she just meant metaphorically, not physically mom: oh. but their love is broken :(

episode 8

my dad actually put his laptop away to watch this episode with his full attention. this is high praise! he never does that!

mom: who's that? [dain] me: the whitecloak perrin spared when he escaped with aviendha mom: i don't remember that me: we watched that YESTERDAY mom: 🤷

she did remember after another moment though haha but that supports my impression that ep5 was A Bit Too Much New Info for her to take in all at once

lanfear: rand i'm the only one who truly cares about you mom: i don't think THAT'S true!

when perrin tells hopper to stay there: "he's just going to leave his dog out in the desert with no water???"

mom when lanfear calls ishy sweetheart and strokes his hair: wait was he the one she was in love with????? me: no it was rand's past life, that's why she's obsessed with rand mom: rand's past WIFE???? me: LIFE

babe wake up new polycule just dropped (lanfear/ishy/lews/ilyena)

she GASPED when renna cut off egwene's braid! as she should!

she said "too bad min isn't here" during the episode (she thought it would be helpful if min could tell mat what would happen if he were to touch the dagger; i was like "i think he knows it would be bad mom" lmao) and after the episode she anxiously asked if we would ever see min again, dammit mom don't you dare become a min stan on me jdkfgh (although, the fact that she thought we might not see her again indicates it's 0% on her radar that min might be anyone's love interest, which is interesting! a number of show-onlys were at least expecting her to be mat's i think)

nynaeve: i'll make you regret the first kiss your mother ever gave your father mom: [delighted] that's a creative one! dad: there are a lot of nasty women on this show and only one nasty man [ishy] me and mom: TUH!

although he is not wrong to say that s2 was the season of Female Villains and Women Being Mean (and i loved every moment of it!). don't you worry dad, rand's gonna be stepping up to fill the Nasty Man Quota soon enough. and i can't wait!

dad when rand is watching egwene from a distance: he's not doing a good job of hiding me: at least his cloak is the same color as the wall dad: well his dumb face isn't

why is he SUCH a hater when it comes to poor rand jkdjfg please, that's your future son-in-law!

they both were repeatedly pressed about everyone carrying the horn box (or rather "the briefcase" as my dad called it) out in the open

mom: they need to just put it in a sack! me: they don't have any sacks on hand! mom: there's plenty of sacks lying around!!!

she keeps thinking that rand got the heron-marked sword from his mom, and when she saw that turak had one she was like "but i thought those were the swords of the aiel?" and i cracked up imagining how offended aiel would be to hear her say that

she missed rand killing all the seanchan because she was too busy asking me the above question, but when she looked back at the screen she went 1) "oh, this is so gory" 2) "did RAND do all that????"

she was sad about ingtar, she was like "ohhhh, i liked him :(" imagine caring about ingtar, could not be me jdkfg

me: so lanfear is talking about the seals of the other forsaken, she wants this guy to throw them all in the ocean because she doesn't want them to be released mom: why doesn't she just do it herself? me: me: me: i don't know, actually..................

(maybe she just wanted them gone stat but didn't want to leave falme for even a moment while shit was going down with rand and ishy? or maybe she was like, I'm Too Hot And Iconic To Get My Hands Dirty Doing Things Myself)

mom as soon as renna's shown to be alive, after egwene's picked up the collar: she should go put the collar on her!

she been knew again!

mom at the mat-perrin reunion: put the spear down before you hug him, you'll stab someone by accident!!!!

she was glad to see egwene get her vengeance, but added "but now i bet she'll feel guilty for killing someone because she's a good person :("

ishy: [talking about what rand did in his past life] mom: rand doesn't even remember that! rand right on cue: i'm not lews therin!

i warned her "you might not want to look" just before hopper's death, but she did look, and she was very sad. as was i!

she thought that one of the heroes of the horn was stepin and i told her it wasn't (it was just some random guy with similar hair) but maybe i should've let her keep on believing it because it's a nice idea!

mom when the spear goes through ishy and hits rand: OH NO!!!! just like min said!!! me: [vibrating with glee over The Great Cauthor Stabbening]

when ishy said "i'm sorry old friend" to rand here my dad said "that sounds familiar" and i was like what's he talking about? but then realized that's what LTT said to ishy in the cold open!!! my heart!!! thank you dad for catching that parallel, i gotta go make a gifset now

"how is one guy holding off all these soldiers by himself?" mom i cannot believe you of all people would doubt lan!

she laughed at rand being like "[half-dead] who are you???" but made no comment on the subsequent romantic shot of elayne. however, after the episode she was like "'who are you?' rand said................is something going to happen with him and elayne??" and i was like 🤷😁😁😁😁 and then she said "but they both have red hair, are they from the same place?" and i told her that elayne is not aiel and not ALL redheads are aiel lmao and maybe i should've just said "you'll see" but. i don't think it's a spoiler to confirm that elayne is not aiel.

she does not believe that ishy is really dead, and she kept asking me if he was really dead and if he shows up again later in the books and i swear, the three oaths possessed me in that moment and made me incapable of saying "yes he's really dead, no we don't see him again in the books". so i just kept shrugging which probably made it obvious that indeed, this is not the last we see of him haha

mom when moiraine starts weaving fire in the direction of the tower: what's she doing?! everyone's up on that tower!!! me: she's not trying to BLOW UP RAND mom: oh

at some point during all the battles she was like "now what's lanfear up to during all this? 🤨" a good thought to have always!

at the end of the episode: "now we have to wait a whole year or two for the next season!!!!!" she's hooked!!

favorite character roundup: my mom said lan is #1 and egwene is #2, and she also loves loial, and she said that she didn't care for perrin last season but likes him a lot now. my dad said his favorites are "the tree guy" (loial) and "the new woman at the end who's more powerful than anyone we've seen so far" (moghedien! that one was a surprise to me. tumblr 🤝 my dad. i hope he'll enjoy The Season Of Moghedien next season! tho it could also be that he just said her because she was the last character we saw and he'd already forgotten all the other ones lmao)

[enden-agolor]

How do you think Stella meeting Binta for the first time would go?

(I can't remember if they interact or see each other in the game)

They actually don't interact in game at all 😔 Which is so darn unfortunate.

However ☝️

I like to think the way they meet up is that directly after the events of season 2, Jesse stays in BeaconTown obviously and is simultaneously working on getting the town back in order, providing care and resources to those affected while the Admin brought chaos to his town, and also trying to figure out what to do with the people of the Underneath. For a while, since Jesse and Binta are both leaders, they both work with their people to help liven up town again. Of course some people from the Underneath decide to leave Beacon to find themselves in the new world. Binta stays behind though and at some point in time, out of genuine curiosity, has a talk with Jesse in regards to Champion City, which is still a pile of rubble in BeaconTown's distance. Jesse explains Stella and her situation, and Binta can sympathize with her being a leader herself who too struggled to help her people. So once she's confident that the residents from the Underneath who decided to stay in Beacon are all situated, she decides to go to Champion and offer her help.

This is where she meets Stella and boy, is she something. Binta, unlike Jesse, immediately finds Stella's egotistical personality somewhat charming. It's not something she experienced often with her people who mostly expressed dread and sorrow for their living situation. I can't imagine true happiness was ever found while living in the Underneath. To see someone so into themselves the way Stella is, it compells Binta to put in the extra effort to get to know her. Like really get to know her.

I like to think at first Stella is kind of put off by the idea of needing help from an outsider, but after the Admin's reign of destruction, she's softened up to the idea and keeps a more open mind now rather than just pushing Binta away and boasting about how she doesn't need help.

Binta is like, really great at keeping Stella in line too. Teaching her proper and more respectful ways to talk to people. People have obviously tried before, but Stella would just push them away or act condescending towards them. Binta though has incredible patience. I mean look how she lived for god knows how long? Stella could be snappy at her, and Binta would just stand there, hands on her hips unfazed kind of just waiting for Stella to give her a proper response, and honestly? It works. Stella's attitude changes towards her once she realizes its not working, and it eventually happens towards her own people. Never Jesse though she is still the same towards Jesse forever and always 💀.

It's not exaclty a "first interaction" kind of response, but more how I'd think they'd act around each other in the beginning. For first interaction, I'll have to really think about it. I'd love to write a fic about them some day.

Anyways I like to think Binta falls first and Stella falls harder 🫶 Once they get married it's GayTown vs LesbianCity.

[queenofbaws]

as someone who is SO GOOD at forgetting i was tagged in stuff immediately after being tagged in stuff, i thought i'd go ahead and fill this puppy out while it was fresh in my mind ;)c hehehe thanks for the tag @phenanthreneblue!!!!!!!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

156 😎 and hopefully no sign of slowing, lol. i've been writing and posting fic since aboooooout 2007 though, so. do with that as you will.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

it's. um. it's. uh. a lot. ahem. it's a lot.

(1,923,174)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currrrrrrrrently the supermassive universe and dragon age, but i'm slowly adding the remedyverse in there, and silent hill pops up from time to time!!! and in ye olden days, i wrote a LOT for kingdom hearts. i've been CONSIDERING adding horizon to the list too, but...only time will tell, hehehe ;P

4. Top five fics by kudos

the (almost)s; who ya gonna call? not these creeps.; my fav part of summer camp [not clickbait!]; lipstick stains & coffee cups; yes, no, maybe so: circle one and let me know!

5. Do you respond to comments?

i do! i figure if you took the time to read AND let me know how you felt about my work, then by golly, i'm gonna tell you how much YOU made me smile :)c i've met some pretty cool people thanks to the comment section, hehe

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

aw man, probably alone time, right? probably alone time. i'm sure there was some extremely angsty stuff in my kingdom hearts days, but lord help me i am old and i have forgotten a lot of that

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

well, the durellion affair ends with everyone getting to eat as much cheese as they want, so i think that fits the bill!!! 🧀

8. Do you get hate on fics?

nah. i've been crazy lucky that, aside from the occasional (and likely unintentional) insensitive comment, people have always been super kind with my stuff <3 the deviantart days were a slightly different story, but why relive THAT time period, i ask you?????

9. Do you write smut?

nope. i'm not, like, opposed, i just don't think it would be good, and i've yet to write something where i felt it would add anything, so. nah. there are so many other things i can do to earn that m rating ;)

10. Craziest crossover?

for sure did an organization xiii/sweeney todd crossover once, in the long-long ago asldkjflsakdjf recently, though, i guess i'd have to say reading & other fun rituals was a VERY self-indulgent way for me to smash the remedyverse and supermassive universes together!!!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

eh, every time one of those "this site is scraping people's fics!" posts goes around, i end up finding my stuff, but in terms of bumping into an individual nabbing something i've written? not that i'm aware of! (i like to believe anyone reading would recognize the overabundance of adjectives and come tell me, ha!!!)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

i've had people ask, but i've never seen a finished product, so probably not! i tend to write pretty long stuff, though, and i wouldn't wish that kind of work on anyone alsdkjflaskdjfksljfd

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have! none that are posted currently, but i've for sure co-written in the past. i'm also slowly but surely co-writing a fun little thing over here with my buds where our (totally cool and DEFINITELY not overpowered) self-inserts have fun being npcs in the federal bureau of control, so...keep your eyes peeled for that, heheheheh

14. All time favourite ship?

right now? varric tethras and f!hawke 🥺 at this point in time, i only have eyes for them

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

sigh. soft reset 😔 it's a big ol' silent hill 2 timeloop fic that i started back in 2015 i think, and as much as i WANT to finish it...i haven't felt the silent hill muse strike in a hot minute. maybe once the remake comes out.

16. What are your writing strengths?

oh, i like to flatter myself that i'm pretty solid when it comes to character voices/interactions 😉 it's why i do so many character studies, honestly - i just *clenches fist* love studying characters!!! i also think my dialogue's fun

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

how much time do you HAVE??? hehehe i feel like i flounder when it comes to straight up-and-down fluffy/shippy stuff, like if the focus of a story is, for example, some sort of romantic gesture, i'm fairly lost. i'm also HORRENDOUS when it comes to keeping things concise, and god help me, every time i have to delete a passage and kill my darlings, i am miserable, so i tend to just...not do that

also? just putting it out there because i do consider it a weakness in regards to writing: sometimes my self-esteem with posting stuff is just. MISERABLE. so i have a tendency to get anxious before, during, and after hitting the post button, just really wallowing in those good, good I'M A FRAUD feelings, lmfao. i'm working on it, though!!! i love writing so much, sometimes the irrational part of my brain just worries i'm not Doing It Right, hahahaha

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

no one's done it better than the thing (1982) and no one ever will

19. First fandom you wrote in?

proooooobably kingdom hearts??? don't quote me on that, though, it very much could've been x-men: evolution asdlkfjsalkjf (those just never saw the light of day)

20. Favorite fic you've written?

c'moooooon. the (almost)s :)

i'm gonna go ahead and tag...hmm... @love-fireflysong @jadedsunshine @unicornaffair @big-ass-magnet @mrs-theirin @theartofdreaming1 @icequeen-07 @chris-hartley and anyone - yes, i mean ANYONE - who wants to talk about their stuff ;) especially YOU!!!

[shytastemakerthing]

Hello! May I have a matchup for Enstars/Twst/FNAF/Poppy Playtime please? (One of the four, of your choice because I can't decide 😅) I'd like it to be romantic.

I'm an INTJ and I kin Shu+Kanata

I really like mint-flavored things and have a high spice tolerance.

I really like Lolita style and dollcore. I sew but I keep losing motivation to finish my projects 😔

I also draw, but only bjds. I am crap at drawing anything else.

I listen to Vocaloid (mostly Kikuo), Vivaldi, and Enstars songs most often.

I find it hard to communicate with people so I make squeaking/chirping noises instead, which have been described by my mother as catlike.

I daydream a lot and I'm not too good at listening to people talk since I zone out a lot.

I can speak English, Mandarin, and Cantonese fluently. I can also read Japanese, but not speak or write it. I translate Enstars stories and fanfics for a friend sometimes.

I like singing and used to play piano and violin. Most of my time is spent on playing video games and reading fanfiction.

I don't understand internet vocabulary very well and get confused when people reference memes. I've been told that my writing style makes me seem like an old lady.

Also I live with four cats: Tohru, who belongs to my brother, Fräulein, Boo, and Billie. I am kind of a cat magnet? Fräulein and Boo do not cuddle up to anyone but me. In fact, Fräulein runs when people other than me go near her.

Regardless of whether you take this request or not, thank you for reading this, Shy. Have a wonderful day.

A/N: Hello and thank you so much for your request and for your patience as well, it has been very much appreciated! I chose to do an Enstars match-up for this request so I hope that you like it! Have a wonderful day/night!

Request: Romantic Match-up, Enstars chosen

I match you with.........

Shu Itsuki

As someone whose favorite characters happen to be both Shu and Kanata, this was very hard for me to choose between the both of them, but Shu ended up being our winner!

(Also, can we take a moment to appreciate just how beautiful Shu looks in the Acanthe outfit??? Like, darling please)

First things first, be prepared to be a model for anything that he happens to be making at the time, everything about you is just perfect for it

Especially after seeing your usual type of style

.....it is only merely coincidence that some of the clothes he is now making are more catered to your style

.....Yes.... coincidence indeed

Listen, you just look so wonderful in them and seeing each creation adorning your figure only adds to the drive to make even more of them

Meaning he will also help in any way to get your creative drive going once again should you find yourself in a slump

How about a nice trip to Paris?

You are sure to find wonderful inspiration there, he certainly has

Will absolutely spoil you

Look, he never thought that he would have a partner one day. Between his work and duties with his unit, it never really crossed his mind

He might be a little overwhelming at first but he's learning, just help him out a little here and he'll have it down pretty quick

He could (and has) listen to your voice for hours on end

It is just so soothing to him, especially after a rather long day

Sing him a lullaby and he'll fall right asleep, man works himself way too hard

Perhaps you'd like to appear in Valkyrie from time to time?

Mika will 100% come to you when Shu is too into his work and hasn't eaten or taken a break

You're the only one he listens to with that

Just show up at the doorway and he already knows

Time to tuck the overworked and exhausted boy into bed.... chances are you're there too, he clings in his sleep (as much as he refuses to admit to it)

Thank you so much for your request!

[silvertsundere]

Silver Talks AniManga (16/06/24)

new serialization round baby let's gooooo there's nothing too fancy on it but I'm curious about the series that will start in 3 weeks since I read the author's previous manga years ago when it came out, until it got axed, so I wanna see how much they improved since then

green - new series/new to me blue - finale/completed

Anime

Dungeon Meshi Ep24 (Finale)

there really isn't anything else I could've given it. trigger absolutely killed it the whole way through and thank GOD someone convinced the shitflix execs to make this a weekly release instead of the shitty binge model which would've killed the show dead instantly.

but yeah, I haven't read the manga (yet) but I'd seen tons of spoilers before and even more during the show airing ( 😔 ) and it's an incredible adaptation. a lot of people complain about certain scenes not hitting as hard as in the manga for this reason or another but I feel like most (not all) of those complaints are just nitpicking and trying to give off a sense of superiority cause they read the manga beforehand

anyway, great animation the whole way through, like always above average and with a lot of sakuga sprinkled all throughout. we even got unorthodox animation like that one with the siblings or all the scenes made in the classic trigger style instead of this more "mainstream" look they used for the show everything else is stellar too, I loved the whole seiyuu cast and their performances and the music was great as well

also ryoko kui is an incredible author so it was just a treat to see all the thought that went into the world, dungeon and otherwise, tho I already knew that before the anime was even announced

anyway, TL;DR: incredible adaptation and what everyone should dream of getting for their series. can't WAIT for S2 coming TBA, surprised they announced it already cause they have a panel at AX next month so I figured they'd do it there

Manga

Youkai Buster Murakami Ch1

I went into this not expecting much since I read the author's previous work, shugomaru, which while not terrible was also nothing to write home about. I was pleasantly surprised by this tho, I actually liked it a lot more than shugomaru. I was doubtful at first cause "oh boy here comes another exorcist series" until I was told who the author was. as expected it's a comedy series like their previous work. the gimmick is that the main girl is an exorcist and it's her job to seal all these youkais that are being ressurected but she's a huge coward so she brings her, completely normal, friend along to help her and he defeats the youkai by poking holes into it's story like you can see in the pic below I can totally see this being a fun series that I wouldn't mind having stick around for a while if every chap is at least this good. even being a shorter debut of 30 pages it felt like it dragged a bit too long but it should be fine with normal lenght chaps. we'll see how it goes in the coming weeks

Dear Anemone Ch17 (Finale)

man where do I even start with this. first of, I'd thought about giving it a 2 instead of a 1 cause the art is really good but this final chap was so bad it made me change my mind. that spread I picked below is a compilation of stuff that never actually happened in the manga. I guess it was stuff the author had planned but it got axed so yeah. from chap 1 I said the art was good but way too gory for wsj and that stayed true the whole way, it was just way too much for the magazine it was in. impressive that the author managed to keep up the quality in a weekly serialization tho. that's all this manga had tho, the art. everything else was terrible. the story was confused and moving all over the place and the bad ratings made it even worse with the author trying to rush and give reveals and twists constantly which never felt satisfying cause there was no build up to it. the characters didn't felt like characters either and they were just getting pulled along the plot. I went into this not expecting much and still came out disappointed. author is gonna have to put a LOT of effort into their writting if they want do to another serialization or at least they should team up with someone else since again the art was actually really good

[ev-n-learning]

2023 year stats!!! Wow its been a year since ive shown u one of these... amazing

anyways not too much to say here i don't think! Although can you believe its been almost a year since i stopped learning ukrainian.... weird

something thats interesting to me is that i've spent more time on czech this past year than ukrainian the year previous... and just on duolingo, somehow?! There's no way I'm 2 months away from finishing the czech tree!!!

I suppose the courses could have been different lengths to start out with, but I do blame the redesign they did... I still don't like it, lol. (Other factors could be: czech has No Cyrillic so i cant read it as well)

As far as the other languages go — I really can't believe it was only this year I finished 50languages?! Year so long... but anyways, after that i will be honest with you: most of my active belarusian studying has been solely anki and (mostly) daily search of the wordle. The other most is People I Follow On Tumblr and tiktok (theres belarusians on there)

Russian is about the same as I've been doing. Slogging through 5,000 words of top 10,000 on memrise still. Probably about 2,500 of the way through. Probably at LEAST 2 more years of slog...

Maybe it doesn't serve much of a purpose, but i'd feel weird having the extra time. Like, no, i'm supposed to be Doing Something at 14:45,,, and, yknow, sometimes i encounter these words in the wild. (Not so much anymore though)

Doing my best to keep up with polygloss for russian, too! It's fun but I never know how to describe the images so a lot of matches get sent into the ether... oops 😅

As for marathi, well................................. nanowrimo happened. Is putting it shortly - actually, I started doing something else in november, and with that, languages, and nano... it was a lot! So I did not do much marathi in november specifically because of that. The rest of the year, well... hmmm. The less said the better?

Well, anyways, it's because of having to spend the same amount of energy almost on czech at the same time, *and* because of the Something Else i've been doing. So - I do want to learn it! Spending time on marathi would be great, actually! I am just Busy. And thus it has been relegated to anki only for the better part of the year if i remember right 😔 someday...

Sidenote, at the rate I'm typing this will be posted after midnight..... well, i wanted to put it out there yesterday night, but i couldn't decide what to say, lol. January 2nd is still New of new years, right??

To be honest, I haven't really thought about any language plans for this year... i know russian and belarusian well enough to read posts & such, and I have the mental fortitude to read books i understand maybe 25% of, but listening and talking I'd say are probably where I need the most improvement. (Writing, well... I'll get back to you once i can learn grammar effectively). With everything as it is now, I'm not sure there's much to be done about that, but maybe I'll figure something out here sooner or later... maybe.

I know I want to finish the czech tree on duolingo, and then I'll pick another language from my duo list and the cycle shall begin anew... and then in 12 years either duo will be dead or i will not wish to learn languages any more (a scary thought). OR i will speedrun every language on my list to the best of my ability and then never touch duo again (no streak, no badges... i think monthly badges are like the Only duo thing that actually works on me because i Need To Collect. ah, fomo...)

As for marathi, if I can manage to pull it out of hibernation alongside all that duolingo nonsense, then by god i'll do it 🫡 if i learned* one language by being exceedingly slow at it I can do it again!!

*referring to russian so perhaps its not accurate to say "learned" still but my point stands

...

Anyways yeah!!! Idk how to end this so з новым годам (late) to u all and good luck & wishes for the new year <3 things may never be perfect but at least i can hope they will be better 👍 🎉🎉🎉

[taegularities]

Hello lovely Rid 💕💕

I saw you posting about being in a boring class right as I was scrolling through tumblr out of boredom during my lecture lmaooo. And now I'm enduring a 40 minute bus ride in a packed bus, so I decided to come and ramble to you a little (I know, shocker, I never do that).

It's literally nothing big or anything but remember that pretty guy with the long hair from my class that I told you about once? Well just as I was trying to figure out whether I only like the way he looks because of his pretty hair, he cut it lmaoooo. And like his hair is still to his shoulders which is pretty long but it used to be to his waist so it's a considerable change still. But here's the problem - he looks just as good and even more babygirl like that 😔😔😔.

And I haven't talked to him in a while because I'm not so sure what to say since our interests don't exactly align too much and he's also always with his friends (the way he loves anime and gaming and I've only watched death note and played the sims lmaooo).

I'm also the kind of person who can't properly have a crush on someone until they actually know them well, so I'm just in the stage of finding him very attractive and yet not actually having a crush on him. Long story short, I know I should just make an effort to talk to him more but it takes a lot of energy for me to talk to people I don't know well :/

Thank you for listening once again, Rid. I think this time I've thoroughly proven that I can ramble about the smallest thing. How are you doing, love, how are the classes other than this boring one? 💞💞💞

hi lovely. i know i never usually let you wait so long, so i'm sorry 😭

first of all, the irony of us being bored at the same time during class 🤣 and secondly, wait.. it's an amazing sign that he's still just as good looking, right? that means it wasn't just the hair !! though, if you decide to talk to him, i'd definitely dive into your interests at some point, bc ofc, that's how you'll find out how compatible you are.

tbh, take your time. it's fine to be shy about these things, it's rlly fkn hard to gather the courage to talk to someone. think it through, maybe make a mental list as to what you'd say to him if you spoke (and you like to ramble, i'm sure you'd find something!! i talked a guy's ears off just today 😭). but don't rush it. i bet you'll find a way and time to approach him... it'll be fun. remember he's just a human being, too!

death note? AMAZING CHOICE BTW. if you want more recs (not for the guy, but for yourself)... definitely watch the movies 'your name' or 'i want to eat your pancreas'. angsty af but so so so good.

and honestly, ivi, ramble whenever, you know the drill. i'm just happy you feel so safe and comfortable here to do so 😭 i've been pretty damn tired these days, but i'll always read and reread your messages and love them, so keep them coming 🥺

i've been okay, love! tired, as mentioned, and i'm so so worried about not being able to indulge in hobbies or be here much anymore once work starts, too. idk, i love being here, but today i couldn't put down much in my google doc, and i'm just scared of getting to a point where i can't do anything at all anymore lol but we'll see! thank you for stopping by and asking, sweetheart <333

[sparklingchim]

long way home 20 | jjk

pairing: jungkook x reader

word count: 1.5k

genre: dilf!jungkook, friends to lovers, angst

rating: pg 15

warnings: jimin's is very determined to make oc squirt one day💪🏼, jungoo being a sad dilf and questioning his life choices 😔, brief glimpse of jelly jaykay but more sad than angy

summary: the one where you realise that talking to jimin helps you to mend the broken pieces of your heart.

a/n: enjoy some jimin x oc time <3

chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08|09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 |

masterlist | long way home masterlist

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"Y/n."

Jimin's gentle timbre engulfs your whole body in comfort.

"Hmm?"

You pull the duvet closer to your bare figure and snuggle up to Jimin.

"Have you ever squirted before?"

You halt mid-motion, sending his curious gaze a questioning look. "No?" you answer dubiously. The grin that sets across his face makes you knit your eyebrows. A short, confused laughter bubbles from your lips. "What are you on?"

"Just -" Jimin's tongue sweeps across his puffy bottom lip. He already has beautiful plump lips and you adore how they look like after you make out with him. "I'd really like to see you squirt. On my face."

Heat rushes into your cheeks. You sink your teeth into your lip to stop you from smiling at his vulgarity.

"What?" Though you can clearly hear the offended undertone that resonates the word, there's only a fond gleam in his eyes when you stare at them. "You don't think I'd be able to do it?"

"No, I'm just wondering how you're still getting indecent thoughts after what we just did. This," - You flick his forehead - "should be all empty."

Jimin grabs your wrist and presses a light kiss on it. "Oh, no no," he says. "That could never happen. The more you give me of yourself, the more my mind is filled with you."

You scrunch your nose. "Stop it."

Jimin laughs at your reaction, trailing a finger along your collar bone.

You both fall into a comfortable silence. When Jimin invited you over you didn't come here with the intention to hook up with him. But it was inevitable. You were watching a movie in his living room and you both couldn't keep your hands off each other. Jimin carried you into his bedroom, and from there, well...You didn't have sex, just...third base.

"I think I should go before it gets too late," you say.

"Or," - Jimin pushes himself up on his elbow, his intense gaze prickling your skin.  - "you could stay." His offer hovers in the air like an unspoken question.

"Jimin."

"Yeah?" He pushes a loose strand of hair behind your ear.

"We agreed not to do anything that might make this,"  - you point a finger at him and you - "look more than just friends."

"That rule is stupid," Jimin utters under his breath. "We are clearly doing things that make us look more than friends."

"Well, then..." You think for a second. "Fuck buddies? Does that sound better?" You grimace at the crude word and Jimin chuckles, his thumb brushing over your cheek.

"I guess it's better than just friends," he answers. "But we also agreed to just do whatever makes us happy, remember?"

You nod. "I know." You lie on your side, looking into his shiny brown orbs as you say, "Don't wanna lead you on."

You don't want this thing - whatever the weird relationship dynamic in your friendship is called - between Jimin and you to develop into something you're not ready for.

Especially because he's your work colleague. You don't want the working climate to get weird because of the two of you.

Jimin frowns when he notices the doubt in your eyes. "I'm not expecting anything from you, princess."

"Just...wanna make sure."

Jimin's voice is a tiny whisper when he asks, "What are you scared of?"

"I'm not ready for a relationship," you confess.

"And why's that?" he asks, careful not to go too far with his questions.

Because my heart belongs to someone who doesn't want me.

You sigh, gaze drifting over Jimin's barely lit bedroom. How are you gonna tell him without mentioning Jungkook?

"It's because of Jungkook, isn't it?"

Your head turns to him. Your eyes are wide at the mention of Jungkook.

"Oh, come on," Jimin chides you. "I'm not a fool, y/n. I've noticed the way you look at him."

You get shy. "I didn't know you knew."

"How could I not? You guys flirted in front of me every morning in the café."

"We didn't flirt," you correct him.

"If there's one things you and Jungkook are, it's definitely acting like you two are more than friends."

"That's not true," you deny, a pout forming on your lips as you think of how Jungkook and you used to be like. You didn't act like a couple. You were just close. Best friends. Nothing more.

"I mean, with the shit he's done, his love for you is kinda questionable, but I think he loves you. A lot."

You shake your hand. "He doesn't love me. Not like that." Not the way you want him to love you.

"Did you ever ask him?"

"Uh, no. Not really."

Jimin sighs dramatically. "You two are beyond hope."

"Don't wanna be with him now anyway," you mumble, nuzzling into the crook of Jimin's neck.

"You should talk to him though." He gently strokes your shoulder. "You can't avoid him forever."

"Just need a little distance from him now." Even though your heart aches every day because you can't see Nabi.

Jimin nods. You can't fathom how utterly warm-hearted he is. Here you are, lying in his bed with him and yet he listens to you talking about Jungkook and your feelings and problems and he's so patient with you. Just listens and gives advice. And it kills you because you don't deserve him. Jimin is selfless and only wants you to he happy and you love him for that. You love him for so many other things.

"Thank you for being so understanding, Jimin. I really don't deserve you." You plant a soft peck on his neck.

"As long as you're happy and comfortable with our arrangement, I am too."

"You're amazing." Placing your hand on his chest you draw little figures on his skin with the pad of your fingertip.

"Oh stop it, or I'll fall in love with you."

You spend the next hour joking and giggling and kissing and cuddling with Jimin.

You end up taking a cute selfie with you lying on his chest, the duvet covering your naked bodies and Jimin's arm around you. And because you love the photo so much you upload it to your Instagram story.

"Y/n?" Jimin whispers into you hair.

"Yes?" you answer absent-mindedly, scrolling through Instagram.

"Do you think you'd allow me to take a picture of your boobs? Y'know, since I'm all amazing and all."

"God, you seriously need to get these horny thoughts out of your head."

~

Jungkook's receives the notification when he's standing in the kitchen.

He had been watching Sora feeding Nabi while he's cleaning the kitchen. Observing attentively as Nabi tries mushroom rice porridge for the first time. The apples of her cheeks high on her face as a smile tugs her little mouth upwards must be proof enough that she likes the taste.

Jungkook clicks on the notification on his phone.

You had added something to your Instagram story. Jungkook doesn't remember when he turned on your notification, but it's been years. He loves seeing your little updates on social media.

His fingers are quick to press on it immediately. You hadn't posted something in a week and Jungkook is desperate to see what you're up to.

Oh wow.

Jungkook blinks several times, not trusting his eyes. Are you ... naked?

He closes the app, still in disbelieve. But then he opens it again and stares at his phone.

Jungkook scoffs.

He feels Sora's eyes on him. "What's wrong?" she asks.

"Nothing," he says, shoving his phone into the pocket of his sweatpants.

Of course you're with Jimin.

He doesn't know why he's so surprised.

Doesn't know why his hands want to punch something and his heart aching for something he never had.

"Jungkook." Sora stands in front of him, Nabi in her arms.

Right. She wanted to take a shower after feeding Nabi. Jungkook hugs Nabi to his chest, her eyes falling shut every few seconds telling him that she's close to doze off.

His anger is momentary forgotten as he takes Nabi to her nursery. He cradles her in his arms, humming a soft melody to sing Nabi into dreamland.

When Jungkook's sure Nabi has fallen asleep he bends down to gently put her in the crib. But then he sees one of your t-shirts lying there and he has to think about the selfie again.

It's okay he tells himself.

You should be happy. And you looked really happy. Incredibly happy. It stings the most, but it's also what matters the most.

Jungkook pulls your t-shirt over Nabi's tiny body. Drops a kiss to her temple and leaves the room.

He runs his hands over his face when he stands in the dark hallway. The muffled noises of the shower make him crave for a long, hot shower.

Getting you to distance yourself from him because of his lies ultimately meant driving you into the arms of another man.

It was inevitable.

He shouldn't feel too miserable about this.

Because Jungkook had never believed he could have you that way anyway.

[larkingame]

larkin q&a part v

as one of the winners of my milestone giveaway, @sadlucero got to ask me six questions pertaining to larkin. As all of my answers are a little long 😔😔😔 I figured it would be best to split this up! Without further ado, here's question five!

"🎃for spooky month:🎃 mc takes the ros to a haunted house, how well do they survive the experience, if you don't mind i would also very much like to hear wyatt's reaction as well as yours, dear author"

Rose is walking fast through the haunted house with her head down. She knows none of it's real, sure, but this whole place stresses her out. Her fight or flight response is definitely fight, so her fists are clenched the whole time--ready to attack if anything gets too close to her. She also has the strong urge to protect, at least those she cares about, so depending on her relationship with the MC, if they're romantically involved or good friends, she's more than likely gripping their arm dragging them through the damn place as fast as she can.

Dominic loves spooky stuff, he absolutely devoured Frankenstein and Dracula, and also less specifically scary but still gothic he really loved Jane Eyre. In modern times I can totally see him as a horror movie fanatic, and he'd definitely have his house decked completely out for halloween--I'm talking he would have that 12-foot skeleton that I've seen everywhere on his lawn. So I think he'd really love the experience of heading through a haunted house, and he'd love it even more if the MC was someone who's into horror stuff just like him. Though, if they were a little scared, he'd do his best to make light of the situation and keep them laughing throughout their time in the haunted house.

This is one case where Cyrus would use his size to his advantage. After all, it's hard to be all that scared when most of the people jumping out at you are half a foot shorter than you are . Though, he'd more than likely be clutching the MC's hand throughout, making sure that they're still with him as they make their way through the place.

Celina doesn't get scared. She simply marches through the haunted house, head held high, not even waiting for the MC.

Nash is excited, and while he's not as big as a fan of horror as Dominic is, I think he'd still enjoy himself throughout. He'd probably stick close to the MC though, going through with his arm linked through theirs.

Hollis is unimpressed. Like hello? They're a warrior? A hero? A soldier for godsake? They've seen much scarier things than some cheap haunted house. Like Celina, they'd more than likely just march through the place (not without an eyeroll or two though.)

Ace thinks it's funny. Like Hollis, they've seen way scarier stuff than what's in the haunted house in their time as a vampire-hunter, but rather than being unimpressed they tend to laugh at how fake everything looks.

For once in his life, this is something that Wyatt would agree with Ace on. It takes a hell of a lot more than a few decorations or some people dressed up in halloween costumes to scare the old man. He'd probably think it's funny--funnier even to antagonize the people running the haunted house--"you think that's scary??"

As for me?? Look, I like to talk a big game. I'm super into horror movies, scary stories and all that, if it's anything of merit--I grew up going with my grandparents to work in our family's funeral home--by all of that logic, I should not be scared of like, anything right? But unfortunately--I'm a huge baby when it comes to haunted houses. I'd either down-right refuse to go in--or take from Rose's strategy and run through the whole thing as fast as I could, clutching onto whoever went in with me.

[inmortalshapeshifter]

ok, they're collecting evidence from his hotel room. from what i see, it seems real won the elections by default, what with the dead opponent. it was pretty obvious that they didnt want him as a mayor. if he hadnt died would he have done voter fraud to keep his post?

martinez vaguely trying to stop batman more out of habit than anything else lol.

so he's a forensic accountant, who saw the fund malversion and as an abused orphan who grew up in squalor, he promply went apoplectic with rage. he has a cage full of rats plus a single bat. he left another card to bats saying only "my confession". considering this, i think he's in love with batman! i already knew that, but thanks for confirming it in the text 🤣

if you're gonna queercode your villains, make them Actually queer, it will make them better :)

"500 followers. real fringe types" i dont really have context for this, because i dont use twitter, but that seems like so many? i have like, barely 200 followers here.

"i know the real you" wow. was his attempt at bruce wayne just a test? is he just riddled (ha) with parasocial brainworms? who can say :)

aaaww, edward wants to see the batman :) im sure this will go well for him :) his emotional wellbeing wont be worsened by this encounter :) he's just gonna talk with his forever idol for the first time. it's gonna be fiiiine

"you're a good cop" no such thing, but whatever whatever. if i couldnt shake off my distaste for copaganda id be incapable of watching anything lmao

riddler: MEETING MY CRUSH IRL <3

edwards Face, oh my god. he's so in love, it makes him very pretty 🤣 "i told you i'd see you in hell" oh, so this bitch just did a season 3 hannibal. he got himself caught on purpose so batman could come visit him! that's cute.. and very forward. harlot behaviour

"if only you knew how long i've been wating for this day" oh, you got it Bad <3 "they'll remember me now. they'll remember both of us"

with how weirdly he elongates bruce's name, i suspect it's a favorite for when echolalia strikes him. also, he's Looking at him very intently, like he's testing his reaction. bruce stopped making eye contact, his face twitched with nerves, he swallowed, he's subtly trying to keep his breath from speeding up, he looked at the camera filming everything. riddler definitely noticed

he goes from a rant against the rich boy orphan, seemingly directed at batman for some reason (could he..?) and then neatly goes for commiserating With batman, about not being able to kill bruce. about BOTH OF THEM not being able to get bruce.

"god. look at you" i Understand you. i too become fascinated by battinson's everything at random times. "your mask is amazing. i wish you could have seen me in mine" translation: i wish you could have seen me kill and got horny about it. the movie's making this too easy 🤣

"we've been doing this together. you're part of this" oh honey.. you got a big storm coming 😔 "i couldnt have done this without you. you inspired me"

oooooh, here it comes 😬 "you're out of your mind. this is all in your head. you're a pathetic psycho begging for attention. you're gonna die in this mental institution. alone" projecting your own fears much bruce? recognition of the self through the other (derogatory) and all that

aaaand he is headed towards meltdown. god i hate when this happens during a charged conversation or a fight. all i want is for the words to just Stop so i start screaming to drown everything else out. sucks ass

"it was all there. you mean you didnt figure it out? ooooooh, you're really not as smart as i thought you were" you are just realizing this?? his crush erased a multitude of sins, including brucie's dumbassery ig

[ragnvdnir]

Yes this is Detective 🍰 at your service, Your Highness. 🕵️✨

"I enjoy you seeing try tho, maybe i shouldn't have given you hints so you can try guessing longer," too late ;D well unless you have other stuff that you want me to try guessing- try playing hard to get by being more cryptic with symbolisms and/or recognizable but subtle references. 🤔🧐 Idk how to give an example but i'm used to doing that 😰 maybe... Look back on our crazy ass drama when you haven't known who the secret mystery anon was yet 😍 oh how i missed those times when you're going through a crisis bc of me 😎 i feel like trying that again 😎 but if u really want examples id try to think of some by later or tomorrow after our first day of exams 😋 as your loyal advisor why shouldn't i give you some when Your Highness asks for it? 🥰

I can relate with not liking your actual irl name tbh, my in-game name too is basically a name i'd rather like to be called or the name i put when games needed it 😌 and fyi since you have shared smth abt you, i have like 3 names. You and your siblings are really being 💅💅💅 with that royalty references 🤨🤨 if you're curious if im laughing when reading your messages: DEFINITELY. Im like cackling everytime bc it's so fun to talk to you 🤬😍 like most of the time, i dont like how passive-aggressive ppl are on the internet (typical GenZ behavior tbh 🙄 i mean i am GenZ too but i'm much more like a polite person bc im sexy 😎) but when it comes to you, Ein, it feels so funny and actually not offensive 😍😍😍 (this is coming from a person who gets offended easily by ppl who display rude attitude)

Thank u too for the goodluck wishes!! I gave up studying lmao it took me like 2 hours to finish one SIMPLE lesson bc i keep spacing out 💀💀💀 so yeah continuing is futile, i'd just speedrun it in the morning 😍💗 Gonna do my best and not die bc my Queen actually cheered me on 😳😋💨 i def wont leave u bc as your royal advisor, you might do more impulsive shit than ever before so u better consult me first if you have some tempting thoughts to actually act on 🤬🤬🤬 this is for your safety and so you won't regret anything 😩 your kingdom would def be in shambles at anytime with one dumb mistake 🤬💨 so dont decide stuff with your goofy ass impulsively and without your royal advisor's approval 😌😌😌 Gotta get you married off to either Prince Vyn of the Richter Clan or Emperor Diluc of the Ragnvindr Kingdom 😍 so behave your self young lady ✌️😌

I'm happy you're enjoying the playlist i sent you 😍😍😍 tbh im sorry to break it to you but like clair de lune and merry go round of life is too repetitive for me already so im so done with those popular pieces😌 there's so much more classical music out there SO ALSO tell me if i should send more playlist links bc for sure i do have a bunch to send you 💪💪💪

BONUS: *classical music playing in the mansion* "These music is my favorite" (what you said). "Actually you're my favorite music." (what diluc said). idk figure it out maybe 😋 i have your "voice" in mind but if you have other interpretations then that's cool. Yes it's cringe or whatever but anything for this man 💪💪💪

Also i think ur now experiencing my long-ass asks 😍 how do you feel about it 🎤🎤🎤

— 🍰.

you're not only a criminal (refers to the mystery game) but also a detective now? i see🤨🤨

yeah ik, its too late now 😔😔 bae idk how to be cryptic when im a blabbermouth and a honest person😇😇☝️naurr bc i was just said the "come out and show yourself" as a joke but somehow you really did gave me hint and that's how it all started🧐🧐 ngl i miss those times too (i sound like a grandmother reminiscing her youth days😟) examples would be very much appreciated, gl on your exams again, show the teacher who's the girlboss😼😼

us dissapointed on our parents now 🤝🤝🤝 but ig i got used to being called like that(my irl name) oooh three names? cant relate i only have one word name😶😶😶

we are girlbosses😼😼😼 mom said we may not be rich but we are rich in terms of name. mom is the real mastermind here💅💅

uhm as u should? im putting on my make up clown everytime i answer your ask and u won't laugh? thats offending maam🤨🤨 (oh no what i have done to you to say things like this😟😟 but slayy😼😼) im afraid that one day i might offend ppl for acting like this so im glad you're finding it punny👉😻👈

tbh i dont study even though i have a big exams coming up, i just give my all to my stock knowledge (self reliance at its finest😼☝️) and somehow i still manage to pass when most of the time i just listen to my instincts (if the answer sheet is multiple choices)

i will dear advisor🙄 (affectionate) but maybe i wont bc ik you will clean the mess i always do😽😽 im sorry but im not dainty like those other young ladies so lemme do what i want😾😾 and why marry one when i can just marry two and create a harem😏😏

ik merry go round of life is repetitive already but i still love it bc that masterpiece got me feeling like a royalty 😔👉👈 claire de lune isn't exactly my fav bc i prefer the ones with violin😗😗 go and send them to me anytime, i wont mind😉😉

i see your back into your fairy godmother agenda🧙🧙 nah but that actually made me stifle a smile

*grabs the mic* okay so ehem ehem! it feels nostalgic actually *mic drop 😼😼*

[one-abuse-survivor]

Emma here. My birthday recently passed (December baby here lol) and I went home for the first time in awhile since my birthday is near the holidays I figured I’d go home and stay there until the new year. I still have been sleeping on the floor but when I went home, I slept on the floor in my childhood bedroom and my dad came in to put covers over me and tuck me in and I woke up screaming and had another panic attack. It’s my second one. He felt so bad. I was scared and I felt even worse for scaring him and making him feel sad for scaring me but the night of the attack, i was sleeping when that guy came in and attacked me. I thought I was back there again especially when my dad tucked me in because his hands were near my neck. I apologized to my dad in the morning and he told me I have nothing to apologize for and he apologized instead for not thinking first which to me means if he thought first he wouldn’t have done that. Before the attack, when I was a kid or now as an adult, anytime me or my brothers visit home, my dad ALWAYS pops his head in on us in our rooms before going to bed; it gives him a peace of mind to know his kids are good. He’s a neurosurgeon and his hours are crazy at the hospital so he gets home late sometimes and he likes his kids being the last thing he sees when he goes to bed. He makes his rounds, down the hall, each room he peeks in. And when he does that, if we leave a tv on, a light on, covers falling off our bodies, etc. he’d come in and fix it. It’s such a small thing but I love it, it’s so sweet and it’s just so him. And I feel absolutely horrible that he feels guilty for doing something that eases his mind, something that is just so wholesome. I don’t want any of my family walking on eggshells around me but at the same time it’s obvious I’m not who I was before the attack. I don’t know what to do about this. I adore my therapist but I think because you and your blog has been supporting me through everything in real time, that I’m more comfortable reaching out to you than her especially because you know the story, and my therapist doesn’t. I have to start from the beginning with her, some stuff I don’t remember and some stay I hate remembering or saying out loud. I ended up using the money. I went to Walmart and bought a bunch of coats, socks, hats and gloves and donated it to a shelter. I figured it was a better use of the money than collecting dust in that card. I tossed the card out. Since my last message to you (about two months ago) they do continue sending gifts. I’ve gotten money, flowers, balloons, chocolate, gift cards, edible arrangements, etc. honestly you wouldn’t believe half of the other stuff they sent me, like wow, I wish I had taken a picture of it all to show you before throwing it out. I just keep wondering what are they up to? Is it really a symbol of their regret and an apology? Or are they scared that I might press charges against them, etc.

(previous ask)

Hi again, Emma! Happy belated birthday from a January baby hahaha ❤️ I'm glad you're spending some time with your family :)

I'm really sorry that happened 😔 what your dad does is really lovely, and you're allowed to be scared and frustrated and feel all kinds of emotions because of how triggering it is for you right now. I want you to know it's okay to not know how to deal with it—it doesn't mean you'll never overcome it. It is possible to overcome this. It is possible that one day he'll tuck you in and you'll feel safe and loved again.

I think I've already told you in a different ask, but I've dealt with something similar too. For a long time, I wasn't able to sleep on the same bed as my girlfriend because every time she moved or made any sound I would have the worst panic attacks and I'd just stay up all night, shaking and gasping for air, but feeling too guilty to wake her up and ask her to go to the sofa even though she'd told me to wake her up if I couldn't sleep. Then, in March-May 2020, during lockdown, I had to share a room with her, and it was that exposure therapy that helped me temporarily overcome this trigger. We had two beds, and, funnily enough, knowing there was another bed I could sleep in if needed was what allowed me to fall asleep in her bed some nights. Now that we no longer live together again, the trigger has sort of resurfaced, but I know now that I'll overcome it again when we move it together, and that gives me a lot of peace of mind.

Your trauma is still very recent, and you've only been in therapy for a few months, but I hope hearing my experience gives you a bit of hope, because I'm sure with time your therapist will help you navigate your own triggers and slowly overcome them through safe exposure therapy. Give yourself time and patience, okay? It's a long process, but I promise things really do get so much better.

As for having trouble telling your therapist the whole story, have you considered letting her read the asks you sent to my blog? I know how hard it can be to recall traumatic events and how we felt at every stage of the process, and especially during therapy when your mind can start fighting against you because it doesn't want to remember, and I really think it could take a lot of pressure out of you to hand her the asks and let her read them, if that's something you feel comfortable with (now or in the future). That way she can see not only what they did to you, but how you processed and experienced it all at every stage.

If you do decide to go that route, all you have to do is follow the "previous ask" link at the top of this ask—they go all the way back to the beginning, I went back to your first asks a while ago to add links iirc :) I don't mind if you link her to my blog, but you could also copy and paste all hour asks on a doc and potentially remove any parts you don't want her reading, or maybe not give her access to all the asks straight away.

That's a really good way to spend the money, I'm glad you made that decision! But yeah, I definitely don't think any of those gifts are attempts at sincere apologies. I think they're either trying to get you not to press charges, trying to love-bomb you so you question your own perception of what they did to you and they can gain power over you/victimise you again, or both. It's really messed up, and honestly, I think sending you all this stuff is also harassment in itself.

I really hope you don't have to be around them in person, because you should not have to deal with them trying to contact you or talk to you in any way. You do not have to put up with this. And I'm sure you know this, but you do not owe them forgiveness or any kind of reply or acknowledgement. Anyone who tells you you should forgive them does not have your best interests at heart and does not deserve your time or trust.

Sending hugs ❤️