#THANKS FOR THE TAG PHEN!!! ^_^

[queenofbaws]

as someone who is SO GOOD at forgetting i was tagged in stuff immediately after being tagged in stuff, i thought i'd go ahead and fill this puppy out while it was fresh in my mind ;)c hehehe thanks for the tag @phenanthreneblue!!!!!!!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

156 😎 and hopefully no sign of slowing, lol. i've been writing and posting fic since aboooooout 2007 though, so. do with that as you will.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

it's. um. it's. uh. a lot. ahem. it's a lot.

(1,923,174)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currrrrrrrrently the supermassive universe and dragon age, but i'm slowly adding the remedyverse in there, and silent hill pops up from time to time!!! and in ye olden days, i wrote a LOT for kingdom hearts. i've been CONSIDERING adding horizon to the list too, but...only time will tell, hehehe ;P

4. Top five fics by kudos

the (almost)s; who ya gonna call? not these creeps.; my fav part of summer camp [not clickbait!]; lipstick stains & coffee cups; yes, no, maybe so: circle one and let me know!

5. Do you respond to comments?

i do! i figure if you took the time to read AND let me know how you felt about my work, then by golly, i'm gonna tell you how much YOU made me smile :)c i've met some pretty cool people thanks to the comment section, hehe

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

aw man, probably alone time, right? probably alone time. i'm sure there was some extremely angsty stuff in my kingdom hearts days, but lord help me i am old and i have forgotten a lot of that

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

well, the durellion affair ends with everyone getting to eat as much cheese as they want, so i think that fits the bill!!! 🧀

8. Do you get hate on fics?

nah. i've been crazy lucky that, aside from the occasional (and likely unintentional) insensitive comment, people have always been super kind with my stuff <3 the deviantart days were a slightly different story, but why relive THAT time period, i ask you?????

9. Do you write smut?

nope. i'm not, like, opposed, i just don't think it would be good, and i've yet to write something where i felt it would add anything, so. nah. there are so many other things i can do to earn that m rating ;)

10. Craziest crossover?

for sure did an organization xiii/sweeney todd crossover once, in the long-long ago asldkjflsakdjf recently, though, i guess i'd have to say reading & other fun rituals was a VERY self-indulgent way for me to smash the remedyverse and supermassive universes together!!!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

eh, every time one of those "this site is scraping people's fics!" posts goes around, i end up finding my stuff, but in terms of bumping into an individual nabbing something i've written? not that i'm aware of! (i like to believe anyone reading would recognize the overabundance of adjectives and come tell me, ha!!!)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

i've had people ask, but i've never seen a finished product, so probably not! i tend to write pretty long stuff, though, and i wouldn't wish that kind of work on anyone alsdkjflaskdjfksljfd

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have! none that are posted currently, but i've for sure co-written in the past. i'm also slowly but surely co-writing a fun little thing over here with my buds where our (totally cool and DEFINITELY not overpowered) self-inserts have fun being npcs in the federal bureau of control, so...keep your eyes peeled for that, heheheheh

14. All time favourite ship?

right now? varric tethras and f!hawke 🥺 at this point in time, i only have eyes for them

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

sigh. soft reset 😔 it's a big ol' silent hill 2 timeloop fic that i started back in 2015 i think, and as much as i WANT to finish it...i haven't felt the silent hill muse strike in a hot minute. maybe once the remake comes out.

16. What are your writing strengths?

oh, i like to flatter myself that i'm pretty solid when it comes to character voices/interactions 😉 it's why i do so many character studies, honestly - i just *clenches fist* love studying characters!!! i also think my dialogue's fun

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

how much time do you HAVE??? hehehe i feel like i flounder when it comes to straight up-and-down fluffy/shippy stuff, like if the focus of a story is, for example, some sort of romantic gesture, i'm fairly lost. i'm also HORRENDOUS when it comes to keeping things concise, and god help me, every time i have to delete a passage and kill my darlings, i am miserable, so i tend to just...not do that

also? just putting it out there because i do consider it a weakness in regards to writing: sometimes my self-esteem with posting stuff is just. MISERABLE. so i have a tendency to get anxious before, during, and after hitting the post button, just really wallowing in those good, good I'M A FRAUD feelings, lmfao. i'm working on it, though!!! i love writing so much, sometimes the irrational part of my brain just worries i'm not Doing It Right, hahahaha

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

no one's done it better than the thing (1982) and no one ever will

19. First fandom you wrote in?

proooooobably kingdom hearts??? don't quote me on that, though, it very much could've been x-men: evolution asdlkfjsalkjf (those just never saw the light of day)

20. Favorite fic you've written?

c'moooooon. the (almost)s :)

i'm gonna go ahead and tag...hmm... @love-fireflysong @jadedsunshine @unicornaffair @big-ass-magnet @mrs-theirin @theartofdreaming1 @icequeen-07 @chris-hartley and anyone - yes, i mean ANYONE - who wants to talk about their stuff ;) especially YOU!!!

[cherrirui-official]

Quick and short art dump

I made most of these while I had covid lol, im ok now dw! Also most of them are ms paint doodles sowwie im an mspaint baby

!! Cw // body horror !!

[deerfests]

Tagged by @phenanthreneblue (thank you!)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently 68! Close to the funny number.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

It seems to be 222,676.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Primarily RCU, specifically AW.

4. Top five fics by kudos

In need

Try to sleep

Cupid's Misfire

Good Boy

Like Newlyweds Do

I'm not entirely convinced the numbers aren't skewed.

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to, but am not as successful in this as I wish I was.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I guess depends on perspective, but probably Finaity recently.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Terra Incognita and Terra Nova are tied on this.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that I'm directly aware of, but I do remember some nasty comments when I started out. Whether my word count was "not adequate" or my characterization "was wrong."

9. Do you write smut?

Occasionally, but I've gotten bored of it. So, now I try not to unless it really is needed.

10. Craziest crossover?

Not into them...sorry.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Luckily, no. Or I am unaware of it at least.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Apparently, yes.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Attempts were made.

14. All time favourite ship?

ScratchWake, seeing as the majority of my fics are of them... 17 that are up now.

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

So so many... I mainly wanna finish the flower shop AU but it's been a struggle.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think dialog, but I can't be sure.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I feel like I suck at plot. Working on trying to get better at it.

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I have a lot to say about this, so I'll keep it brief: As long as it doesn't disrupt the story, sure. Personally, I'm not that fond of it.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

Let's skip this one, okay?

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I'm fond of On The Edge Of currently, but I don't think it resonated with anyone besides me.

-Tagging nobody, because I don't have any ao3 friends aside from Phen. (And Carl, but Carl just started on ao3).

[the-feral-gremlin]

tagged twice. Anyways, Thanks for the tag!

Nicknames: none so far (y’all are more than welcome to come up with one, if you want.)

Zodiac: Pisces

Height: I have no clue, but around 4’11

Hogwarts House: Transgender

Last thing you googled: sleeping at last lyrics (I was analyzing a song to see if they fit a certain character)

Favorite music: whatever peaks my interest lol.

Song stuck in your head: Just A Man by Jorge Rivera-Herrans or You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid by The Offspring,

Followers: 164

Following: 582

Do you get asks: yes, but usually only when I do an ask game.

Amount of sleep: idk 4-5 hours, my sleep schedules off and I’m usually tired sooo

What are you wearing: mha shirt, leggings, and my usual jewelry.

Dream Job: author or 911 dispatcher.

Languages: English, tiniest bits of Spanish, and I’m learning ASL!

Random Fact: I’m sure some if not all of y’all know this but st*phen Amell actually HATES the popular grant gustin selfie meme while the other Arrowverse cast members (especially Grant) LOVE IT. It’s my favorite fact ever.

Aesthetic: uhhh I have no clue.

No pressure/nf tags: @blaze5681 and @stars-over-ice-cream

Thank you for tagging me, @s-nebul0sa!

Nicknames: Ingy/Ivy (I don’t have many friends so Ivy is one that I picked because I don’t like my name so I ask to be called Ivy instead or maybe another nickname if the person prefers that)

Zodiac: Pretty sure it’s Scorpio

Height: 152.5 cm (some trashcans in my city are taller than me…)

Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff

Last thing you googled: Stardew Valley Mods

Favorite music: Mostly Pop music

Song stuck in your head: Who We Are by Hozier

Following: 263

Followers: 312

Do you get asks: Maybe once a year, it’s really rare

Amount of sleep: 3/4 hours when I’m lucky, 6 hours sometimes when my body is truly exhausted and I pass out at 3 am and sleep throughout the morning

What you're wearing: Pajamas (it’s hot AF and this is the lightest option of clothes I have)

Dream job: Movie/TV show director but I don’t know if I’m actually capable of doing that

Languages: My birth language is Portuguese (Brazil) but I’m also fluent in English and Spanish (I'm better at English than any other tho, including Portuguese)

Random fact: A chicken’s heart rate is about 4 times higher than humans, for example, a healthy adult resting heart rate ranges from 60 to 100 bpm while a normal chicken has a resting heart rate of 200 – 300 bpm

Aesthetic: I’m honestly not sure how to properly describe it, it’s a colorful mess basically

 

I'm tagging (no pressure) @laurensxdeath, @seriously-poppins, @kai999 and anyone else who wants to do it!

[alcappacino]

Pacto + Unhinged Richard

[ranvwoop]

5, 19!

:DDD thank you for asking!

5 - share one of your strengths!

DEFINITELY NOT BREVITY AS YOU WILL SEE. this is a long post I'm sorry

I am rlly into internal monologues and character perspectives! I am not really the best at like, fully establishing setting and scenery and movement, so I've tried to make up for that with emphasizing the things that are important to be noted and why, by like. sliding it into a Relevant Internal Monologue. somehow it works okay, and hopefully isn't too noticable that I am compensating for something lol.

19 - Something about Stephen King, muses, and a man in the basement.

I HAVE A COUPLE ANSWERS BECAUSE I DID NOT UNDERSTAND THIS ONE AND HAD TO LOOK IT UP. Stephen King gives a fancy metaphor, but I originally understood it as Stephen King gets most of his inspiration when writing about men who live in their basements. This did not add up because I tried to think about Stephen King books and couldn't think of one man who lives in his basement, but maybe I don't read enough Stephen King.

I have no fancy metaphors. I do get most of my inspiration from strange little men who I can make a solid internal monologue for, though, "little" and "man" on vibes, like every cat I see is a little man. I haven't written too much for dsmp yet, but pre-dsmp I was very into Ace Attorney and Miles Edgeworth and Phoenix Wright were both the perfect candiates for this. c!ranboo is my current candidate. he Outwardly monologues but that's just because we can't see his thoughts. I think he internally monologues twice as hard.

I also have the very not metaphorical yet still cheesy inspiration giver of My Partner. They're often like, hey, we should work on Thing, and so we do and then I actually have something to show for myself. It's basically just this.

[dreamly]

yknow when you’ve spent your whole life drifting from group to group without ever keeping any friendships long term so you grow to believe that there is something bad and evil and ugly about you that you have to hide so you hide it behind jokes and humor and every social situation becomes a performance and you’re the funny friend until you eventually realize that you’ve spent so long performing to hide your badness and evilness and ugliness that you’re not even sure what you are when you have to turn it off and you’re always On so that when you’re alone you don’t know how to just be a person, and you don’t know how to be in silence because you’re scared that if you don’t fill it someone will look at you and finally realize how bad and evil and ugly you really are and decide that in silence, without a mask, you are unloveable? anyway how are you guys i’m just sitting here. thinking

[ineloquent-creature]

minors, do not interact.

ᜊ( ᜊ ´ ˘)੭ ABOUT ME !!

you can call me creature! i’m a white autistic physically disabled adult, who uses they/them pronouns. i live in the US with my boyfriend! my favorite color is pink and i love kitty cats, plushies, and going on walks. i've had an interest in literature, psychology, and history my whole life! i write poetry as a way to cope with personal feelings about anxiety and childhood trauma.

my last account was a traumacore account, and while i’d like to post my vent poetry/edits on this account too, i want to be more thoughtful with how i present myself this time: as a poet in-recovery and not as a traumacore account. i want to make use of a better tag system (this is below the “read more” button and below my DNI) so that it’s easier to blacklist my triggering tags or find my work. i’m a mobile user and i don’t queue posts, i just go on my phone whenever to post & reblog as much as i want, in any order. sometimes i won’t post at all, as this is a personal blog and not a content machine.

you can message or send me asks whenever! please read my DNI (it’s below the “read more” button) before you interact and don’t take it personally if i block you because i block liberally. while tone indicators are appreciated they are not needed, so you don’t need to worry about color coding your text or using tone indicators when talking to me! i chose to use colored text, bold text, & symbols throughout my “about me” to create a visually pleasing experience for those with difficulty reading long paragraphs.

BYF: i am very vocal with my opinions and i am NOT anti-harassment. if that makes you uncomfortable, block me. i will not be harassing anyone in any online spaces, but if a pedophile finds its way into my inbox i will tell it to die. i do not agree with physical abuse or doxxing, but i will publicly shame adults who are openly abusing online spaces. (more about this is in my DNI.)

.˚₊┈┈┈┈୨(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[:🌸:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅)୧┈┈┈┈₊˚.

ᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ່࡚ࠢ࠘⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏˖ ࣪⊹𓏲⋆ DNI !!

📌 NOTE: there are two parts to my DNI. the first part is a growing list of all the terrible people who are NOT allowed to interact and will be blocked and reported on sight and the second part explains why i have no tolerance for the people in my DNI.

🛑 HEY! if you think you are missing from my DNI please shoot me a message. i’d love to hear your feedback on what i can do to make my DNI even better! (you will be blocked afterward. thank you!)

❗️PART 1 ::

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE A(N): (minor), racist, antisemetic, islamophobic, xenophobic, transphobic, pro-transandrophobic, interphobic, homophobic, lgbtqa+phobic, nonbinary skeptic, acephobic, arophobic, biphobic, lesbophobic, anti-queer, ableist, able-bodied, neurotypical, sexist, misogynist, incel, middle-aged white man, pro-patriarchy, femcel, anti-religion, pro-military, pro-authoritarian, fascist, pro-life, anti-abortion, anti-choice, right-wing, pro-police, pro-government, conservative, democrat, republican, trump supporter, anti-BLM, anti-ACAB, anti-ukraine, pro-russia, nazi, neo-nazi, pro-nazi, pro-eugenics, “proud boy”, elitist, white supremacist, elon musk supporter, anti-eat the rich, scientologist, pro-war on drugs, radical inclusionist, terf, swerf, radfem, anti-sex work, anti-anti, anti-fanpol, anti-fancops, anti-censorship, problematic shipper, pro-shipper, complicated shipper, faia, self-shipper, pro-fiction, pro-dead dove: do not eat, pro-paraphilia, paraphiliac, pedophile, chronophile, zoophile, somnophile, necrophile, rapist, xenomeliac, pro-incest, pro-cosanguity, pro-MAP, pro-NOMAP, pro-PHEN, pro-PEAR, pro-MOGII, pro-LIOM, pro-GRSM, pro-AAM, adult attracted minor, pro-good faith identities, pro-kink, pro-kink at pride, pro-child porn, pro-fetish, pro-DD/LG, pro-C/LG, pro-little space, lolicon, pro-agere, pro-age play, shotacon, fujoshi, kifujin, fudanshi, pro-yaoi, pro-yuri, whumpee, devotee, pro-all trans(insert) identities, transabled, pro-TAB, pro-currently abled, transautistic, transadhd, transage, altage, chronosian, chronopeculiar, transrace/transethnic (non-adoptees), pro-endogenics, pro-tulpas, endogenic system, tulpa system, non-disordered system, anti-sysmedicalist, pro-saneism, neuropunk, neurogender, pro-neurogender, pro-alter human identities, alt-human, objectum, alt-abled, dsmp fan, callmecarson fan, mcyt fan, harry potter fan, marvel fan, dc fan, disney fan, star wars fan, hannibal fan, ao3 supporter, pro-gore, pro-guro, anti-healthy coping skills, pro-obsessive love, pro-vore, cannibal, pro-cannibalism, pro-self harm, pro-eating disorders, pro-ana, pro-mia, pro-thinspo, pro-fatspo, pro-*insert*spo, anti-recovery, pro-unhealthy coping mechanisms, yandere, stalker, scammer, pro-child abuse/neglect, ex-child abuser, pro-child abuse, pro-child neglect, “autism mom”, pro-autism speaks, pro-“tough love”, anti-vaxxer… (this list is in the process of expanding & as these communities continue to grow i can only know so much, so if you know of an identity or term that i may want to add to this list please send me a(n) message or ask!)

‼️ PART 2 ::

📌 NOTE: in case i have not made it clear, i am ANTI pro-shipping and ANTI radical inclusivity. i created my DNI with the intent to exclude everyone who i think is “bad” & everyone i don’t agree with. i do not want to listen to what anyone listed in my DNI has to say and i do not care about their feelings, thoughts, and opinions. yes, this makes me an asshole. that’s okay, i do not mind.

🛑 i am only going to talk about pro-shippers & radical inclusivity (including anti-recovery) in this part. it should be obvious why everyone else is listed in my DNI… & more posts with views against those people will be posted throughout this blog. i’m only talking about this select group of people because they don’t think they’re a problem & think they can ignore people’s DNI.

the reason why my voice is important and valid in pro-shipping and radically inclusive spaces is because i am autistic, and as a minor i was negatively affected by ignorant, neglectful people from those communities, who were (and still are) spreading & perpetuating false information. when these communities were harming me they weren’t known as pro-shippers and radical inclusionists. i only recently learned what pro-shipping was in the past months (although i’d been interacting with pro-shipping content in fandom spaces for years.) & i learned about radical inclusion just four days before i learned about pro-shipping (although i’d been in anti-recovery, pro-endogenics, & MOGAI spaces months or years prior.) & while these communities didn’t have names at the time, they still existed as abusive individuals, mutuals, & friends who all shared the same harmful views. & i shared those views at one point because i believed they weren’t harming anyone & were inclusive views. but the truth is, at their core, pro-shipping & radical inclusivity are ableist, racist, sexist, and abusive movements. to say otherwise is to agree that you want to ignore the problem and refuse to take accountability for your neglect. & this is why:

pro-shipping was the first community i was affected by. i was born in 2003 and the first time i saw the word lesbian was on porn hub in 2010, on my iPhone 3G. before that, i didn’t realize that women could kiss other women let alone fuck them. my first time seeing gay fiction was on wattpad through poorly written scripts or smut (yes, this is my parent’s failure.) & at the time elementary & middle schools had not yet put gay media on their shelves so i learned everything i knew about sex through fan fiction, social media, & google. mental illness & neurodivergency was also a “taboo” topic growing up, and as an undiagnosed autistic (also my parents failure) i found a home in communities on archive of our own that wrote alpha/beta/omega (omegaverse) fiction. i didn’t like ABO for the sexual reason (i was 10), i liked the concept because i liked the idea of pack dynamics (or having a group of friends who are naturally comfortable with physical contact and affection), nesting (or creating a familiar safe space filled with soft things, scents, & toys that no one is allowed to enter until they have my consent), and depending on someone fully capable of supporting me. these 3 things are all vital to my personal happiness as an autist, and i was neglecting that part of my life at the time so i read fiction to cope. while this part of ABO isn’t a “bad thing,” i was still exposed to the sexual & abusive themes of the trope in every fic, like being unable to control raping anyone, as a natural part of biology, or not being treated the same as others because of your birth gender/sex/orientation. so of course i’ve seen pro-fiction from the dead dove: do not eat category, like, “rape/non-con/non-consensual touching/dub-con/dubious consent, somnophilia, necrophilia, sexual violence, yandere/obsessive behavior, erotophonophilia, violence/pain/murder/blood kink, gun play/knife play, cannibalism/self-cannibalism/vore, gang-bang/gang-rape, incest/twincest/selfcest, pedophilia, consensual underage sex, DDLG/CLG/agere/age play, watersports/piss/cum/pregnancy/breeding/inflation/lactation kinks, forced pregnancy/forced loss of pregnancy, slut shaming, public sex/voyeurism, tentacle porn/monster fucking/monster breeding/sex pollen/sex potion, gore/self harm/mutilation/torture, “wound fucking,” suicide, psychological horror, emotional abuse/psychological abuse/manipulation/gaslighting, abusive/manipulative/unhealthy relationships, “whump,” child abuse, forced infantilism, forced feeding, stockholm syndrome, alcohol abuse/drug abuse/underage drink/underage smoking, zoophilia/beastiality…” & i think you get the gist of it by now. some of these terms can be found with “attempted,” “implied/referenced,” or “accidental” in front of them. for example, “attempted rape,” “implied self harm/suicide,” or “accidental voyeurism.” they can also be found with “extremely,” “minor,” & other descriptive terms like, “extremely dubious consent,” “minor non-con themes,” or “slight voyeurism.” if you go to Ao3 and search “dead dove: do not eat,” you’ll find all of this. but basically, this is pro-fiction & all of it is bad. all of it is harmful. fandoms have always been full of people writing abusive fiction & those^ are the terms they use. (it’s foul, isn’t it?) i’ll be honest, i don’t know the origin(s) of ABO (it can’t be anything good) and although people have written properly tagged fics without abusive themes in them there’s still that underlying purpose in every fic of “it’s written to cope with (or the absence of) patriarchal abuse & segregation.” it’s all written by abusers & people who condone & romanticize abuse (also abusers), so you’re often exposed to dead dove: do not eat media wherever you go.

no amount of “comfort” and “fluff” fics will change that, you’re only adding to the problem, convoluting it & making the internet more unsafe. taking abusive fiction/media off of the internet would be a start in making this world safer to raise children. it needs to happen. & if you’re against “problematic fiction” & recognize the problem you need to stop being a pro-shipper, keep your head down & get the fuck out of everyone’s way. stop telling us that pedos aren’t as big of a deal as they are in your communities & that “you’ve got it handled,” because even you recognize them as a problem. and you don’t have it handled. so stop convoluting your messages with false pretenses of “helping us get pedos off of the internet” because really, you’re just making it easier for them to hide. pro-shipping was created by pro-contact paraphiliacs and they are using the term “pro-shipping” or “com-shipping” to generalize and publicize their abuse & maltreatment. (do you not remember MOGII, & pedos trying to join the lgbtq community?) the public, being ignorant, only sees what pro-paraphiliacs are doing on a surface level or doesn’t see them at all.

i should not have to explain why this media is bad. & why i want people to keep their rape fantasies to themselves is self-explanatory. what apparently isn’t “self-explanatory” is that adults are willingly neglectful and that there is a moral issue with ableism affecting us all. & pro-shipping is part of that issue. so i am not going to censor myself for you (but not in the way you think.) if you are against censoring media that openly shows fictional sex, horror, gore, abuse, incest, rape, etc., to children then we are not on the same page. if you think it is not your job as an individual to help censor media that has a negative impact on children, we are not on the same page. as adults it is your job to protect children from harm. no, this doesn’t mean laying a firm hand on them (physical abuse) or telling them what they can and cannot do (mental abuse.) i mean that you must control yourselves and censor yourselves for (your) children. children do not owe you anything. children are a privilege, not a curse, but too many of you are too sex obsessed to care. (& what i mean by the first sentence is that i am not going to censor my hate for your communities. i really think you are stupid, wrong, and need to stop existing.) children are not able to create their own media because they are children. (this means that their brains and bodies aren’t developed enough to make books, movies, & merchandise for themselves.) so, it is the adults job to create safe media and enrichments for children to enjoy. if you create media for children with any intent to add your adult interests to the content, you are a pedophile & you are pushing your adult interests onto children who cannot protect themselves. their parents do not protect them because they are the same as you: a pedophile who only cares about themselves. there is a difference between mentally scarring children and educating them. letting a child view (abusive) porn early is scientifically proven to be damaging to children. sex education must be better taught in school’s and it is up to the adults to make that happen as children are, as i said, incapable of doing that for themselves. if you think you have “the right” to harm children (minors) because they’ve harmed you in the past we are, again, not on the same page. if you weren’t able to grow up and realize that adults are the reason children hurt other children, you are now part of that reason and continue to perpetuate the existence of kids who bully. if you openly show your hatred for children by telling them that they are the reason for all of your pain because they are children, you are not helping the problem, you are helping to create bullying kids. if you think children can be “entitled” you’re the problem, children grow up to be entitled adults, & children are in no way responsible for how they were raised. you do not understand anything about growing up, children, or society and how it works. you are stupid and pathetic. i won’t use the term ignorant to refer to you adults anymore because you are NOT children and therefore should have learned your lesson. you should have came to the realization that adults are the cause of all of your problems, you were never the problem when you were a kid. but you were not able to, so now you are traumatized, abusive, and terminally online. you’re the problem now & i hope you all receive the help you so desperately need. & i hope you stop perpetuating this cycle of harming children and not caring about harming children. but you won’t, so i’ll just have to sit and wait for your age group to die off. that’s the best i can hope for at this point.

the issue with pro-shipping and pro-fiction is that it enables (child) neglect and abuse. & it doesn’t help that the abused were taught it’s okay to keep perpetuating that abuse as a coping mechanism. & it doesn’t help that technology has advanced so far as to give everyone a space to learn about and talk to each other. because ignorant neglectful people created that technology & have access to that technology, and those neglectful people had kids who have access to that technology & more knowledge, who have kids who have access to that technology & even more knowledge. older generations did not have as much access to knowledge as we do now. they did not know much about safety and did not care. they were racist, xenophobic, queerphobic child abusers. they lived through wars & never got over living through wars. they are stuck in conservative, minimalistic ways because that is how they forced themselves to live their whole lives. not only that, the first legal rape case was in the 1970s. people didn’t “know” about rape and if they did they kept quiet about it. people still choose to keep quiet about rape, both the assaulted & the enablers. (i didn’t know that COCSA (child on child sexual assault) was a real thing until i saw it in someone’s traumacore blog bio less than a year ago, and i am a COCSA victim.) the things that people refuse to act on in real life are the things that they refuse act on online. sure, they may notice the problem, but ultimately adults refuse to create safe, non-adult, spaces for kids. they state the problem and expect “god know’s what” to do something about it. nothing is ever done about the neglect & safety issue. & among those neglectful adults are the real pedophiles, rapists, zoophiles, etc., & they’ve all found a home online and will never be able to create safe spaces for children because they are pedophiles. (do you see the problem? people are expecting the abusers to do the work for them, enabling further abuse. it’s all ableism.) these adults are neglectful because they do not care about other lives, how their actions affect life, and will not agree that their actions affect those lives. i’ll break it down for you, it’s as simple as this: writing is an action, thinking is an action, typing words is an action, & consuming media is an action. that is reality. what you are doing is real and cemented in what is real. you can’t be cemented in anything but reality because that’s all there is. if you think anything otherwise, it’s a delusion. fiction affects reality because fiction subconsciously influences who we are & always has. we have no control over that, our brains are very complex and we’re able to learn more than we’ll probably ever be aware of. you are not as in control as you think you are. have you forgotten about book burning or the holocaust or anything regarding the destruction of literature? if you’re anti-censorship you should remember. fiction has always affected reality.

there are mainly three groups of people who exist in pro-shipping & radically inclusive spaces. the first is people who believe the past definition of words or are the past definition of words. this first group includes psychiatrists and old psychiatric definitions of terms and paraphiles, pedophiles, zoophiles, necrophiles, rapists, etc. the second is people who believe the past definition of terms but know that technology and intelligence are advancing, so they’re more open to those definitions changing but not if it’s not on their terms & beliefs, so they create their own definitions under the pretense of advancing technology & societal inclusion. this second group includes radical inclusionists, transableists, chronophiles, pro-shippers, endogenic systems, alter-humans, yanderes & everyone who supports them. the third group is “impressionable young minds,” minors who want to be included so much that they are willing to make-believe anything. adults refuse to create spaces for them, invade their spaces, and then complain about doing it, so these kids are coping as best as they know how, and they’re coping badly. the second and third group always have one thing in common: they are traumatized, abused, & neglected and they use their identity as a coping mechanism, using that reason to negatively cope in online spaces. the first group is often those who abuse, neglect, and traumatize, so even the first two groups stay away from them. there are subsets and offsets of the main 3 groups, & i’m now a subset of the 3rd group, an “ex-pro-shipper” who was abused by pro-fiction adults as a minor & finds pro-shipping so disgusting, they wrote a whole essay about it. call me an anti, fanpol, fancop… idc. i am all of those things. (although i don’t really like being associated with cops. one of my abusers was a cop. i feel like the use of “police” is insensitive.) say whatever you want, i’ve heard it all before. yes i sound whiney and childish but i’m an 18 year-old victim of fandom culture who’s a little pissy after learning that kids are still being openly abused online! so as your “fandom mom’s” say, read & make sure the issue hasn’t already been addressed by the op before you confront them for it, because anti’s have been doing this for years (& have been abused by pro-shippers for years) and we still aren’t going to listen to you because you. are. wrong. & you won’t listen to us because you are brainwashed, traumatized, abusers. pro-shipping will never be an inclusive movement, it preys on those most vulnerable. so much for your “inclusion.” you all need help and therapy! NOT an online space to condone abusive and unhealthy lifestyles.

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[lightsonparkave]

Welcome to the first round of the Lights on Park Ave Steve/Tony prompt challenge! Every month, there will be several prompts following a general theme. Each round will last the entire month, and everyone is welcome to make fanworks inspired by one or more of those prompts during the round. 

The guidelines are as follows:

ACCEPTABLE WORKS

Art, crafts, fics, graphics/edits, gifs, manips, mood boards, and videos

All works must be new works created solely for this challenge. You cannot use works that are already finished although you are welcome to expand on an existing work you made. Please do not make a work inspired by someone else’s work/remix someone else’s work unless they have given you permission

All subjects, ratings, and universes are accepted

There is no minimum work requirement! If you want to write two lines or draw a rough sketch, that’s fine. If you want to make works for every single prompt, go for it

THE STEVE/TONY PART OF THE CHALLENGE

Works must focus on Steve and Tony’s relationship whether it’s gen or slash

Works featuring or focusing on only Steve or only Tony are okay

Other relationships (e.g., Bucky/Natasha) can be featured as long as Steve and Tony are the predominant focus of the work

All relationship permutations are accepted. Pre-slash, unrequited love, requited love, mutual or one-sided pining, established relationship, breakup…go wild! However, if Steve and/or Tony are in a relationship at the end of the work, Steve/Tony must be endgame

CHALLENGE ROUNDS 

Tag #lightsonparkave and/or mention @lightsonparkave to be reblogged

Add your work to the Lights on Park Ave collection if you post it on AO3

A master list of all the works for the current round will go up on the last day of each month, and a new round starts the first day of every month (NOTE: ROUND 1 IS THE EXCEPTION TO THIS RULE DUE TO THE LATE LAUNCH DATE. IT WILL CLOSE ON SEPTEMBER 21 TO GIVE EVERYONE A MONTH TO SUBMIT WORKS)

Anyone can jump in at any time during the round

You are welcome to fill old rounds/prompts! If you do, please note which prompt it is for. Your work will be reblogged/shared, and old master lists will be edited to include your fill although they won’t be reblogged

Any questions? Send an ask or DM. 

Last but not least, I’d like to give a shoutout to @phenominablesnowman​, who ran @890fifth​ several years ago, a biweekly Steve/Tony fanworks challenge that served as the inspiration for this challenge. Thank you for the wonderful prompts, phen; 890fifth was a lot of fun, and I hope that this will be just as fun for people.

[kimunkur]

rules: answer some questions and tag some bloggers you want to know better

tagged by @n-eela ( thanks for tagging me uwu )

under the cut because there’s a lot of questions !

name: my pseudonym used to be charlotte it still kinda is ? i just use aliases / nicknames more now so i don't really introduce myself as charlotte anymore

nicknames: rin / phen

gender: female

sexuality: bi af babie

height: i hate it when people ask me about this because i don't know my exact numbers. it's somewhere between 152-156 cm which is 4'9″-5'1″ for all you non-metric heathens

languages: english and vietnamese

nationality: australian

current time: 10:59 PM (at time of writing)

favourite season: spring, i guess ? like, it's warm; not too hot or too cold. and i always take some meds for hayfever, so it doesn't bother me too much

favourite scent: vanilla

favourite colour: purple

favourite animals: penguins, crows & owls

favourite fictional characters: i made an actual list and it got too long so i’m just going to do one per fandom or else i’ll be here forever

roronoa zoro ( one piece )

eijirou kirishima ( my hero academia )

gokudera hayato ( katekyo hitman reborn )

weiss schnee ( rwby )

james rhodes ( marvel )

scar ( fullmetal alchemist )

gaara ( naruto )

normal amount of sleep: 7 hours is generally when i naturally wake up

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: hot chocolate because i'm babie !!

number of blankets you sleep with: one

dogs or cats: both is good

dream trip: to hell. but fr, i would say to austin, texas so that i’d be able to work with this company i really want to get into

dream job: graphic designer or maybe animator

followers: 63 on this blog

blog established: ngl, i have no idea how to check that. i'm pretty sure i made this blog before i started posting, but first post date is 2nd of july 2017

reason for my url: there's this character called senri in the +anima manga. he's from a tribe called kim-un-kur

random fact: i bite in my sleep and it wakes me up and i get so annoyed at myself. i think it's my body trying to sleep talk, but for some reason, i only open and close my mouth so much that i just bite and the clicking of my teeth wakes me (and my sister) up

tagging the people i wish to know more about: @kilannad @generaldevi @dec16th and anyone who sees this and wants to do it !

[shroudkeeper]

@house-vexile

[house-vexile]

The box was wrapped in brown parchment with a sprig of holly held by ribbons of gold and white. A tag elegantly displayed her name and it's sender: Rivienne Marcellus. Within, cushioned in red velvet, a beautifully polished hairpin of mahogany rests. Jadeite was the glittering stone with five facets crowned upon it, etched with Nophica's symbol. But, if one looked closely at the stone, there was a power there, benevolent, warm. A blessing of protection.

For the longest time, the healer merely held the precious gift in her lap, her fingers barely touching the polished wood or the glistening gemstones. At a glance, Phenalyn believed the item to be a relic of a mystical origin, teeming with a gentle, soothing ebb and flow of energy. It was a silly thought and she knew it, but a small part of her believed her overactive imagination.

This -was- Rivienne, after all. 

The fair redhead cared very little that she had just spent a bell or so braiding her hair. The effort was inconsequential compared to her need to use the new fancy hair pin. Another collection of moments was spent unraveling neat and tidy rows of woven crimson hair, freeing the freshly oiled waves from their confines. With the locks released, she gathered her hair together and formed a much larger, singular loose braid that flowed over her shoulder like a great length of silken rope.

Much better to sport the pin, no?

Phen debated how to settle the beautiful ornament in her hair, eventually weaving the wooden decoration into the base of her newly crafted braid. She found herself evasive of a mirror to inspect the unique accessory, instead simply running her long fingers from her crown to the end of her braid, feeling the carved edge of the rich wood and the glossy curves of the gems beneath the pads of her fingers. Each time the hair pin was graced by her tough, the healer smiled and her heart skipped a beat.

She would have to pen the maiden a thank-you note for certain. Such a kindness could not go unnoticed, let alone uncherished. Rivienne would simply have to tolerate a page filled with gracious words.

[tishinada]

OCs Cuddle Tag

Rules: For each of your OCs, rate how cuddleable they are on a scale of 1-10.

Tagged by: @curiousartemis, thanks!

Tagging: @celith-wraine, @the-sith-in-the-sky-with-diamond, @cinlat, and @shecamefromwildspace

Hmm, let’s see...

Ucevi (Juggernaut): 5 of 10. Grew up in a fairly regimented environment where most of the adults were not demonstrative (there were one or two exceptions.) While she’s very physical (sexually), she’s pretty much going to limit cuddling to people she’s very close to. Currently, that would be Joran (and eventually Quinn.)

‘Noka: (Scoundrel) 11 of 10. She’s very physical and touch-oriented. She’s just as ready to be there for a friend as for someone she’s involved with. She would only exclude people she doesn’t trust to respect limits (i.e. Corso, etc.) Kind of an anomaly compared to the others whose comfort with touch usually has a lot to do with their childhoods since the only real affection she had as a child was from Aunt Dvora. But touch is almost another language for her.

Misheen (Assassin): 2 of 10. She’s generally pretty touch averse. With Niko, she does become comfortable with a limited amount of hugging and affectionate touching.

Tramini (Shadow): 7 of 10. She’s very comfortable with affectionate touch, especially for a jedi (she was a pre-teen when they found her and grew up with a close extended family) but she also has to trust the person. A lot like Ucevi, but more comfortable with affection generally.

Shari (Guardian): 4 of 10. Raised by Jedi from a young age which means touch-starved, at least as far as affectionate touching goes. She does, eventually, become comfortable with cuddling a little with a very few people.

Po’teryal (aka Tery, vanguard): 3 of 10. Pretty much an outcast as a chiss living in the Republic as a child, and mom was never physically affectionate.

Caluka (a twi’lek powertech I’m currently running): 9 of 10. Mom was also a bounty hunter. Grew up with a lot of affection, and is still comfortable with it.

Phen’ixee (Phen, a Chiss scoundrel): 7 of 10. Fairly affectionate, far more with friends more than lovers, actually. She’s been pretty unlucky with lovers: Darmas - yeah that ended well lol; Lana breaks up on Yavin; and she broke up with Koth after the end of KotFE because of his reaction to her letting Senya go. And now Arcann, because falling in love with someone who spent months trying to kill you is perfectly logical, right?

Joran (chiss OC in Dance in the Shadow of Honor): 10 of 10. Very affectionate, comfortable with touch. So far, only with friends (he’s never actually been in love...)

[gaylittlethree]

hi! can you tel me where those quotes are from? i recognise a few but i’m curious about some of them and need some more things to read... thank you so much!

yeah for sure! i’ll edit this with links super soon but i tried to tag everything on the post in order, it got a bit mucked up in the middle so:

laughing til our ribs get tough is a lyric from ribs by lorde (shoutout to nz artists)

the french clocks struck two-thirty is from a poem by marilyn hacker called under the arc de triomphe: october 17. she’s a jewish lesbian and i love the poems of hers i’ve seen. 

not for me. not if it’s you is a quote from orestes by euripides, translated by anne carson, it’s gone around tumblr a bunch

easily as the right key turns the lock tumblers is from the short story brokeback mountain which the movie is adapted from, i was looking at quotes from it and that phrase really stood out to me

you’re in a car with a beautiful boy is from a richard siken poem, again super popular on here

heartbreak opens onto the sunrise for even breaking is opening is a quote from the main character of the 2011 film pariah, which is about a young black lesbian coming to terms with her expression of sexuality, highly recommend 

but he knew well enough is from it by st*phen king, bev’s like “why’d you do that for” and richie’s like “i dont know” but he knew well enough

go west, young man is some old time phrase but it’s a lyric from go west by liz phair and the title of this great fic by ssstrychnine (which has this incredible fanart)

i’ll be a mannequin you can dismember is a lyric from scrawny by wallows, it’s gay because i like it

bed is just a swamp to roll in is from the poem [didn’t sappho say her guts clenched up like this?] by marilyn hacker again

these, our bodies, possessed by light is from richard siren again, in the poem scheherazade. here’s an analysis of mostly just that, made me feel smart reading it

up with your turret, aren’t we just terrified? is a lyric of roslyn by bon ever and st vincent. i heard just before writing the post and it nearly made me cry and so i made a baby playlist about love as tenderness

(side note – the cover of that playlist is an artwork by barton lidicé beneš, who was affected by the aids crisis and made political art throughout his life. the dust in the hourglass is the mixed ashes of two lovers, noel mcbean and james barden. yes that made me cry)

this, and this, and this! is from the song of apollo. i’ve been wanting to read it for a long time but i’ve heard great opinions/reviews

feeling animalistic. feeling hyena. feeling wolf. feeling dog. i am tongue and heart is the full quote, by david wojnarowicz who was another political artist & aids activist, im kinda entranced by some of his art, also i think he wrote a biography if that’s something you’d want to check out, it’s called close to the knives

i would know it in dark or disguise, told myself. i would know in even in madness is either achilles or patroclus about the other’s face in the song of apollo, which is a little bit gay

let me walk to the top of the big night sky is a mitski lyric

sweetheart, this is how it is: is from love poem to a butch woman by deborah a. miranda, a mixed heritage wlw (native american and french)

and salt the earth beneath you is a quote from euphoria season 1 and one of the episode titles

trusting things beyond mistake. hallelu- is a lyric from the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! by sufjan stevens, i just adore that song

hopefully this was informative or w/e, i tried to gather quotes which just filled me with this inexplicable sense of wholeness that comes with the sensation of intimacy, specifically gay intimacy and love. if anyone has related quotes, songs, books, etc. that also make u feel this way i’d love to hear them! 

[decembercamiecherries]

wuts ur tag hands tied? :o a fic?

lol no it’s just a personal tag....

The only fic I’m working on right now is some daemon au stuff! And I got a request to write something small regarding soulmate phen so I’m gonna try to work on that today/tomorrow :3 thank you for being so interested though anon!

[bigfatscience]

(TW for disordered eating, BMI) Hi, I’m a nonbinary trans person who went for a top surgery consultation yesterday. The surgeon told me that I had to drop to a BMI of 40 in order to have surgery because of board certifications(?), which for me is about 40 pounds. She was also pushing a phentermine prescription for me to use for multiple months to lose weight. I told her I had a history of disordered eating and she told me I should get therapist support for the weight loss. She was [1/2]

[2/2 trans anon] sympathetic but minimized the concerns I had. I’m still in early self-recovery from disordered eating (there’s no one close to me that does therapy for it) and this has completely thrown me in a tailspin. She said she doesn’t see weight regain in her post-op patients. I would really, really appreciate any sources about phentermine, surgery on fat patients, and weight regain to stabilize myself. Thank you for your time and your labor; the work you do here has changed my life.

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Eating disorders are life threatening illnesses.  As a trans person, you are already part of a “high risk” population for developing an ED, and as you know, accessing treatment is also more difficult for LGBT folks. Your surgeon’s ignorance of these realities is terrible and dangerous. If you have such a history, it means that you can never again restrict what you eat or intentionally attempt to lose weight without putting your health, and perhaps your life, at risk. Your surgeon’s advice to pursue weight loss under the supervision of a therapist is wrong and flat-out dangerous.

Phentermine is a dangerous stimulant drug. Remember “Fen-Phen”? The so-called weight loss drug that killed thousands of people because it permanently damaged their heart? This is the “phen” in that drug. I honestly cannot believe doctors are still pushing these drugs – which do not work anyway; people lose about 6lbs on these stimulants.

You can learn more about weight regain in my “dieting” and “weight loss” tags. But the consensus of 50 years of resarch with hundreds of thousands of participants is clear: less than 3-5% of people maintain weight loss for five years (example study), and 70% of people who lose weight regain more weight than they lost within 3-5 years.

Also, check out my “trans health” tag for more information on top surgery and weight loss.

I hope this helps.