#I'd beg her to be my friend after that ngl

[iloveacronix]

Blunck: "Thanks for leaving me to fight the kid all by myself!"

Raggmunk: "Someone had to watch over sleeping beauty here."

Gosh I love them they're so silly

I was just rewatching the last few episodes of hands of time but only made it to out of the fire and into the boiling sea, but while I was rewatching it I realized how silly machia blunch and raggmunk are plus how silly Vermilliontech is, like augh S7 is the funniest season in my opinion,, especially when blunch and raggmunk are in charge of wu, their so funny

[il-miele-che-scrive]

Go for his brother part 2

Part 1 here

Part 3 here

username1 DOUBLE BETRAYAL 😭

↳username2 wdym bro wtf Arthur is just getting his karma, he CHEATED on Y/n with her best friend

↳username2 and Y/n only got with his brother after the breakup

username3 It's so crazy to me how not long ago Y/n was with Arthur at Charles' race and we could see them all lovey dovey and now she's with Charles 💀

username4 I hope they actually like each other and it's not just something Y/n schemed to get back at Arthur

↳username5 And even if it is, so what? Both Leclercs deserve this if she's doing it for the sake of revenge

username4 What did Charles ever do to you 😭 he's a literal pookie

username6 I am BEGGING to find out Arthur's reaction

username7 I wanna see this on Drive To Survive lmao

↳username8 The most interesting thing in the whole season lol

username9 Exactly! Men driving in circles? Nah, fuck that, give me family drama

yourusername The Art & The Artist

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charles_leclerc I took way more than these 2 pictures, should post them all

↳yourusername some would get me banned🤭

username1 MY OH MY

username2 What did she say 😐

username3 I'm jealous but haven't decided if I want him or her

username4 Arthur better not read this comment section (I hope he will)

francisca.cgomes Thanks for blessing my eyes 🫶

↳yourusername You're welcome bestie🫶

username4 it's so nice to see Y/n found a friend who won't steal her bf

username5 You can't be sure, it's Charles Leclerc we're talking about. You think he wouldn't go for his best friends' girlfriend who is now his own girlfriends' best friend after pulling what he's just pulled?

username4 ngl girl I got lost in whatever you're saying

yoursister In your iconic girl era ❤️

↳yourusername I slayed didn't I 💅

username6 Honestly guys I believe it's not just a revenge scheme

↳username5 What makes you think that?

username6 Given these pictures and the pictures from the gossip page they look pretty much happy to me, too happy for it to be fake

username5 Whatever you say, we'll see. They have to get tired of pretending one day

exbestfriend Glowing ✨🩷

↳yourusername 😐

↳francisca.cgomes 😐

↳yoursister 😐

↳charles_leclerc 😐

↳pierregasly 😐

↳georgerussell63 😐

↳carmenmmundt 😐

↳alex_albon 😐

↳lilymhe 😐

username7 Y/N AND HER COMMENT SECTION ARE ICONIC 😭

↳username8 I can't stop imagining them having a gc and she sent a screenshot of her ex best friend's comment like "you know what to do, guys" 🤣

username9 I just know Arthur is screaming crying throwing up because LOOK AT WHAT HE LOST

username10 Lol who's next? Toto Wolff?

arthur_leclerc My favorite love story is ours ❤️

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exbestfriend So happy we found each other ❤️❤️

username1 💀

username2 Alright they both have the audacity

username3 your love story is cheating on Y/n lmao

username4 Imagine they have a kid one day who'll ask mom dad how did you meet lol

↳username3 I'd be EMBARRASSED

username5 They deserve each other tbh

username6 Hey but... What if this pic and Y/n's pics were taken on the same day...

↳username7 wdym

username6 Arthur wanted to keep and eye on his ex and his brother from afar 😭

username7 it's terrible but possibly true lmao

exbestfriend I'm so sick of people judging us

↳username2 That's what you deserve, the both of you

↳username4 when actions have consequences:😮

yourusername Back at the paddock ❤️

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username1 At least she didn't downgrade right?

yoursister You guys look so good together

↳yourusername Thank you 🫶 ily

↳charles_leclerc Yes we do 😊

↳username2 Y/s/n never commented anything like this when Y/n used to post with Arthur😭

lilymhe It was nice catching up with you when the boys were playing

↳yourusername maybe next time you and Alex could come over so the boys can play some video games together

username3 Pls they're just two single mothers bonding over their toddlers being besties😭

username4 I NEED TO KNOW IF ARTHUR WAS THERE

↳username5 You crazy? Ofc he wouldn't have come, he's too scared of confrontation

username4 Okay but then what if one day Y/n and Charles get married? Will Arthur just skip his brother's wedding?

username5 I think some time will pass before Charles decides to settle down. And not with Y/n, that's for sure

username6 Why not? Y/n makes a much better couple with Charles than she did with Arthur

username5 Charles would never take her seriously lol she dated his brother, Charles is just having fun with her while letting her have her moment

arthur_leclerc Are you wearing the dress you wore on our first date?

↳username2 SHE'S WHAT?????

↳username3 wtf are u doing here

↳yourusername Maybe...

username4 Mother keeps slaying 😭👏

username7 I aspire to be like Y/n fr

alex_albon Lily said we should have a double date

↳yourusername Let's do it then @/lilymhe @/charles_leclerc when and where

arthur_leclerc I just wonder when will you get bored of this

↳yourusername Bored of what exactly? Going to races? You know I've always enjoyed looking at cars go vroooom

arthur_leclerc You know what I mean

arthur_leclerc Of pretending to like Charles just to prove me some delusional point

yourusername You really think I'd waste my energy on that? It's a funny coincidence indeed, but I do like him actually

arthur_leclerc Mhm sure I give you maybe 6 months more, can't keep pretending forever

charles_leclerc A family gathering & the morning after

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username1 OH GREAT HEAVENS

pierregasly Now that's something none of us expected

↳username2 bro speaking facts

username3 They said fuck you Arthur you'll get a proof we're not pretending😭

username4 Well at least the family already knew her

↳username5 Pascale liked Y/n so much she said girl you have my blessing no matter which one u marry

username3 Guys do you think Arthur was there? You know, it's a family gathering, so he had to be there, right?

alex_albon Charles settling down wasn't on my bingo card this year

↳lilymhe Neither was it on mine but I love it

francisca.cgomes Girl you realize there's no going back now? 😂

↳yourusername I hope so😜🫶

arthur_leclerc I still can't believe how disrespectful you both are

↳charles_leclerc Look who's speaking of being disrespectful

↳yourusername stfu arthur maman literally had to kick you out of the party

username3 The way it used to be "Thurthur" and now it's "stfu arthur" 😶

username2 at least the "maman" is the same right

username5 I feel like Pascale likes Y/n more than she likes Arthur

username7 wtf guys PASCALE HAD TO KICK ARTHUR OUT OF THE PARTY 😭😭

↳username8 That's crazy, imagine how's the wedding gonna look like

carlossainz55 Getting engaged after a few weeks? Is she pregnant?😂

↳username9 Not funny

username10 Chill that's just millennial humour from back when pregnancy outside marriage was a disgrace

↳charles_leclerc We've known each other long enough to make this decision 🫢

carlossainz55 Valid point

arthur_leclerc But for majority of this time she was my girlfriend

charles_leclerc On which you cheated

arthur_leclerc @/yourusername did you use me just to get to Charles? Was it your plan from the beginning?

↳yourusername Sure because I have nothing else to do lmao

↳yourusername We've talked about it yesterday arthur, don't start again

arthur_leclerc I just still can't believe Charles would do something like that to me

yourusername And half a year ago I believed you wouldn't have ever cheated on me

charles_leclerc I said it yesterday and I'll say it again, Arthur I will always love you as a brother, but you messed up big time, you can't be mad at us

[my-castles-crumbling]

Cas babe, I'm royally fucked. The drama that is surrounding me rn is so fucking unreal.

So let me start from the very beginning, so I m a 16 yr old girl and i hv this really close guy friend let's call him J, so J and I have been friends since forever, like I don't even remember when I first met him. I have known him since I was born , like I have never known a life without J. And i love him like a brother.

Ok so fast forward a few years and now we're both 16, and we met this girl, Lottie she was a transfer student and we ( J , Lottie and I) had a few classes together. And slowly we develop a friendship.

Now the thing is that J has a crush on Lottie and he told me as soon as he realised it and me being the great friend that I am have subtly been wingwomaning him .

So, last week after English class (only Lottie and I have this class) , Lottie asked me out. Yeah, and I'm straight af but I'm an ally. So I was like what? But she was like i thought u were queer coz u give very strong queer vibes which is kinda true because I have a MAJOR crush on lily Rose depp and i hv always said that she could run me over with her car and I'd thank her and beg her to fuck me, (yeah I have issues.) And I also have bi friend who i jokingly call my wife bcoz when she came out ppl were being very homophobic and i thought that was the only way to support her. (i was 14 ok i don't judge me)

So back to Lottie I wa obviously s so very awkward I was like ohhh. And i told her in the politest way i could manage that I m straight af (bcoz i am) and I'm kinda flustered that she has a crush on me bcoz she is really pretty. And she got very embarassed and started apologising and I was like no no it's fine , it's totally fine. Yeah but she also kinda requested me not to tell anyone else that she's a lesbian bcoz she's not out to everyone, and I was like Of course .And now she has been trying to avoid me for the few days which anyone in her position would do tbh, so I don't blame her for that.

Ok so now bcoz Lottie is avoiding me she's also avoiding J by extension coz we both r usually hanging out together. So i already told u that J has a crush on Lottie so he was obviously not happy that she was avoiding us and i couldn't tell him why bcoz OBVIOUSLY.

And a little note abt my best friend he is extremely fucking extra , he is the biggest drama queen in the world like Sirius Black level of drama. So now his dumbass decided that he will ask Lottie out, and bcoz he is so fucking extra abt everything he is thinking of using the help of his teammates ( he's on the football team) to ask her out after the football match next Friday.

And in trying to convince him that he should not do it, but when he asks why i don't have any solid reason because it's not my place to tell him abt Lottie. So he's really planning everything to make the proposal perfect, and I'm stressing tf out.

I love J and i don't want to see him get hurt bcoz obviously Lottie is gonna say no, and on top of that it would be kinda humiliating bcoz the entire school and another school would be there. And I'm also worried that Lottie will think that I did this in purpose to embarrass her so now I'm stuck in a huge fucking dilemma.

And ngl I find this situation extremely fucking hilarious BCOZ WHAT IN THE WATTPAD LEVEL OF SHIT IS THIS? IS THIS SITUATION EVEN REAL? LIKE DOES THIS KINDA SHIT EVEN HAPPEN IRL???

pls help me bcoz I don't know what tf I'm going to do and i hv to do something before Friday or 😭😭😭.

omg I have to say- the way I was literally gasping throughout this story because...wow

So first, I want to say I think you were really sweet with Lottie. It sounds like you're a super kind person, and a wonderful ally <3

Honestly, I would probably talk to Lottie (if possible) and tell her that J is about to ask her out in front of the entire school, and ask her if it's okay for you to tell him that she's simply not interested. The reason I think this is the best option is because, either way Lottie will find out about J's feelings, so you can't really prevent that. This way, you're preventing embarrassment for both Lottie and J. Also, you're possibly protecting Lottie from attention by telling J you just "heard Lottie is not interested" because that doesn't out Lottie. AND even if J doesn't listen to you, you've helped by both preparing Lottie for what will happen and by sort of...introducing J to the idea that she's not interested.

So yeah. I think this is your best bet.

Keep me updated, I'm dying to know what happens!

(Also I am naming all the anons who write to me in case they want to write in the future, and I am using a random positive affirmation generator to do so. So I dub thee: caring anon. Enjoy your free tag!)

[tending-the-hearth]

why "the outsiders" is one of the best shows i've ever seen

i loved every second of this show, so here's all my favorite parts!!

ALSO Trevor Wayne (u/s Ponyboy) was on for my show, and it was his Broadway debut, so that mixed with this only being their fourth official show after debuting on Broadway this past Thursday (they've been in previews for a few weeks) made for SUCH a good show atmosphere, the vibes were immaculate, and Trevor was a phenomenal Ponyboy.

Also, I got to stagedoor, and the cast was SO incredibly kind!!! I love stagedoors when the cast is just made up of the nicest group of people ever

(i'd love to discuss specific things from the show, so if you're curious, send me an ask!!)

***spoilers for the broadway show if anyone cares***

Act 1

the COSTUMES OHHH MY GOD

and the set is so cool???

the fight choreo is something i could talk about forever and ever

in general, the music has a very folk/country vibe to it, which fits SO well since it takes place in oklahoma!!

"grease got a hold" was so fun, i loved the idea that you become an official greaser after getting through your first fight with the socs

the show in general is such a good balance of quotes directly from the book and original lines!

i love that they made Dally another big brother figure to Ponyboy, because it just adds so much to the tension between Darry and Ponyboy

additionally, making Dally the leader of the gang while Darry's trying to stay away from that world... such a good change

Johnny and Pony are the best friends ever omg

Ace my beloved 😭😭 i'm usually hesitant about new characters being added but i love her so much

i was afraid they'd make her like an Anybodys copy, but she was SUCH a good fit within the group, and her relationships and interactions with them all felt so natural

btw she and Steve are siblings that is my hc they're brother and sister your honor!!!

and Two-Bit!!! Beloved!!! Daryl Tofa you are THE Two-Bit ever!!!

Two-Bit and Ace are best friends btw

"Great Expectations" had the stage completely blacked out except for spotlights on each of the outsiders gang when i tell you i was emotional

MY THEORY IS CONFIRMED OF THE CURTIS PARENTS DYING WHILE GETTING STUFF FOR DARRY'S BIRTHDAY I'M HAPPY BUT IN PAIN

Having Johnny present for the scene when Darry slaps Ponyboy is such a smart decision, especially since he's the one who grabs Ponyboy and gets them out of the house

Johnny and Pony duet 😭😭 they're platonic soulmates fr

Having the silhouettes of Soda and Darry during Johnny and Pony's duet, and Darry just sitting so defeated on the floor hurt me ngl

There were effects when Ponyboy was being drowned where it was like we were underwater as well, and everyone else was just moving silently. SO well done

the scene where Johnny stabs Bob was insane- there were blackouts, and people were moving in slow motion, and it was so perfectly overwhelming

God, the entire ending sequence was incredibly with the set pieces!! and in general, the effects were so good

also Dally is such an overprotective brother to BOTH Johnny and Pony

Act 2

The harmonies in this show. This is such a strong ensemble cast, and they're so powerful during the group numbers

"Death's at my Door" made me fucking sob????? Johnny and Pony being each other's reason to live??? Them staying alive just to make sure the other is safe???

Have I mentioned how much I love that Dally sees Pony and Johnny as his little brothers?? Because I love it so so much

Darry and Dally's arguments, and Dally making good points on why he's close with Ponyboy hurt SO much because Darry's trying his best

Ohhhh Darry is speaking to my soul he really is the parentified older sibling ever

But also "Throwing in the Towel" being similar to "Death's at my Door", with Sodapop begging Darry not to give up, because he loves him, and recognizes what he does for them??? And Ponyboy joining in at the end from the church??

Dally immediately hugging Ponyboy and Johnny when they reunite at the church 😭

"Soda's Letter" made me cry violently but that's nothing new

"Hoods turned Heroes" was actually so cute, the greasers were so excited and proud of Pony and Johnny

but the tonal shift at the end when Dally carried Johnny in all bandaged up??

a little miffed we didn't see the Curtis brothers reuniting ngl, but that's the only thing i wish they added in

THE FUCKING RUMBLE WAS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT

Darry asking Ponyboy if he can fight for him 😭😭😭 he loves his brother so much

THE CHOREO AND THE RAIN ON STAGE OH MY GOD

And Ponyboy fights until Johnny comes on stage and stands in front of him, and everything just freezes 😭

I do love how all the greasers were present for JOhnny's death, because it just solidifies how they're a family

Joshua Boone as Dally destroyed me. He perfectly showed how Johnny was Dally's entire world

and GOD them changing Dally's death to suicide by straight up stepping onto the train tracks and getting hit by a train was...

Just how empty and lost Ponyboy was after everyone died, and how desperate Soda and Darry were to get him to at least eat something, they portrayed that grief and trauma so well

"Stay Gold" 😭😭😭😭😭

Literally could not stop sobbing during that song, everyone around me was crying

There was such a perfect balance between Pony's narration and the show itself, and there were moments where he broke the fourth wall, mainly by looking at Soda and Johnny during their letters, and it just made for such an emotional impact

Darry asking to read Pony's story 😭😭 showing his support, and Pony being absolutely shocked but so happy 😭😭

also when Darry and Pony tell each other they love each other 😭😭 sobbing violently i love familial reconciliation

I was just an emotional wreck the entire finale, it was so beautiful

and the implication that instead of writing an essay, Ponyboy wrote "The Outsiders" in-universe 😭😭

[matan4il]

I'm so happy some of the hostages are being returned. I was honestly starting to worry that maybe none were left alive, were smuggled out, or couldn't even be found from Hamas themselves. So, small blessings.

What I loathe is people trying to pretend Hamas is virtuous for this or that 5 prisoners for everyone Israel is even morally equivalent. It doesn't erase every person coming home lost someone brutally before being taken and probably left another person behind as a hostage. It will never erase how they tortured innocent civilians. These people coming home have probably been brutalized for 50 days. The trauma they will carry around breaks my heart. So many families will never be whole again. Pile on the people being returned to Gaza were actual terrorists who tried to or killed Israel's.

Every family has been forever changed in violence they never asked for. But I am grateful for who comes home. Seeing the reunion videos makes me happy. It just doesn't change my opinion of the people who did it. It's actually worse when I see them cheering and jeering at the red cross recovering them.

However.. I can't leave you without some dark humor. My neighbor put up Ceasefire sign with a death toll count at 10,000. When I was walking by, I asked her where she got that number because it's clearly wrong. I'd be happy to explain. She walked in and slammed the door. At least I'm more popular in the neighborhood and have a Ring so she can't egg my house. Although I am considering putting up more Israel flags just to start a sign war. Petty, yes, but if it annoys them, priceless!!!!

As always, I hope you and your family are staying safe. Lots of love!!!! Hopefully, researching for the museum is a nice distraction. Sending prayers, you're feeling OK!!

Hi darling! <333

Oh, I was sure that Hamas would keep at least some alive. Living hostages are worth more than dead ones. At this point, Hamas NEEDS this break in the fighting, and for sure they knew their strongest leverage over Israel would be hostages, so... what worries me is that we don't know how many are live. Fifty hostages is less than a quarter from the people kidnapped, and Hamas has not yet produced a current proof of life for the rest. But yes, I don't think it's possible to see the family reunions and not be moved! (well... so long as you're not de-humanizing Israelis, that is)

The people who have to be told that Hamas isn't humane, a terrorist organization that has beheaded human beings, including babies, raped women of all ages to the point where their bones broke, amputated kids, kidnapped a 9 months old, murdered Holocaust survivors... those people are beyond hope. Still, if you look at a recent released Hamas vid, meant to depict its terrorists as "humane," you can actually hear them instructing the hostage to "keep waving." That says it all.

I'm also gonna mention that one of the hostages released by Hamas tonight had to be rushed into surgery, and her life is in danger even after that.

And that's on top of everything else you mentioned. Yes, every single one of the hostages has either lost a relative, or still has family or friends in captivity, or had their house physically destroyed, and they were all changed forever by 7 weeks of captivity underground, in terror tunnels. I was listening to the testimony of an Israeli kid who was freed by Israel in 1976 from Entebbe, after just one week as a hostage, without being separated from his family, without losing anyone, while they weren't held underground, and he still said he was never the same person again. I can't understand anyone who ignores that. Then again, I also can't comprehend how a human being can look at a poster begging for the release of a baby, but some did exactly that, and proudly.

LOL I love that, thank you for sharing! And NGL, I would love for more Israeli flags on display. Even just the fact that it humanizes Israelis means so much! Thank you for being such an incredible ally, from me, and I'm sure from others reason this, too! Sending you all the love and good wishes in the world, you absolute ray of light! xoxox

(for all of my updates and ask replies regarding Israel, click here)

[ednito]

pretty please talk about your crane.

Yes!!! I'd love to talk about him!!!

TW: gore and abuse- I'm sure there's more but I'm blanking on what it could be so be careful on reading!! Also sorry I'm on mobile and idk how to insert the keep reading thing LMAO

So in my verse my crane has been scarecrow for much longer then others, it started immediately after killing great granny- he grew up tortured by him and he hated her and his birth mother with all of his being. He never knew his father and his mom died in childbirth, while pregnant with Jonathan though she tried her best to kill him without getting an abortion which led him to have fetal alcohol syndrome disorder, he was also born with coloboma, scoliosis, and had a bad overbite when he was younger. Before going to college (I'd say around 17 to 18) he and his grandmother got into a tussle that lead to her death, he was so angry he skinned her face off and drenched her blood into her prized white scarf, he wears the face as his mask as scarecrow and also wears the scarf.

No one in Gotham knows he's scarecrow, most people if not all believe scarecrow is just a rumor, a boogeyman of sorts to warn people to not be so reckless but no he's real. He stalks at bars and strip clubs waiting for the right people to jump out and beg for him to swoop them away (in his mind at least), he's pretty well connected with people and holds a lot of black mail on specific bar/club owners so they let him do his business. Scarecrow has a lot of hideouts around Gotham that he dubs as "crows nests" where he keeps most his equipment, not a lot of them have victims but when they do they're organized but it's extremely disgusting. He keeps them in dog cages (sizes very) almost to completely naked, the cages are rusty and more then occasionally has someone in it still (dead or alive is 50/50), these specific crows nests is where he experiments his fear toxin on them, to see how strong it is and the affects- he does a lot of experiments from very simple ones like just injecting it into the vains to extreme or questionable like seeing if body excrement like urine or sweat can extract the fear toxin if injected in high enough doses. When people die though depending on their usefulness he uses in creative ways, some he creates as human chemical chambers as he'll insert a bunch of chemicals that when given energy (like from a defibrillator) would cause a chain reaction and produce fear toxin or a close equivalent to it (usually these are people who are still alive somewhat), others he'll dump them in the Gotham bay or dump, places he knows people don't care about.

As crane he pretends to he jolly, he's always smiling calmly and us very kind and gentle with his patients though realistically he doesn't care about them whatsoever. Nurses think he's got an ugly boy charm about him and are friendly to him and most psychiatrists there are pretty respectful of him, no one ever questions him and his actions as compared to everyone else he's the smartest member of the team, only one to question him is arkham but he's too intimidated by him to do anything.

He's extremely cunning and violent, he often plays games both as crane and scarecrow and is often in a goofy silly mood- a serious crane/scarecrow is an absolutely scary thought ngl! He doesn't really have any friends, closest I'd say is arkham (who when finds out he's scarecrow is forced to become his assistant) and riddler, I think I've mentioned it before in the post about Quandarism but riddler does a lot of exiling and he usually give those exiles to scarecrow as he knows he'll wipe them out of existence

Also here's a list of little tidbits about him that I'm only now remembering

He was born with bad joint and muscle problems and thus is always in discomfort or pain, because he's so used to it he can't tell the difference in pain when being punched compared to his joint and muscle problems, he's pretty resilient because of it

Also because of his joint problems he has a cane, the handle is in the shape if a crow

He uses Sickles instead of a scythe

He often has trouble finding companionship or even the heart to care, when he does he doesn't know how to handle it and usually leads to death or even worse

When not being scarecrow or pretending to be dr. Crane he's just dissociating.

He doesn't have DID, I can definitely see him having it but I just don't feel comfortable writing that for him (reasons)

He doesn't care or like most things, he doesn't like animals, he's not a fan of music or movies or art, he doesn't eat a lot of food so he doesn't care. When he does like something it's extremely specific and nothing is consistent

That's a gist I think, there's a lot more about him but that's all I can really think of for him atm. I have another anon asking about my riddler that I'll get to later- hope you weren't too grossed out! Lmao!

[adhd-merlin]

merlin S1 rewatch: episode 9

let’s move on to ep 1x09 because I need to get on. with my life. I already re-watched this ep months ago and I can’t be arsed to do it again so I’m going to use screencaps and perhaps the transcript to refresh my memory.

kilgharrah warning merlin that excalibur MUST NOT be wielded by anyone but arthur, and merlin handing the sword to uther literally the next morning is so funny to me. it's kind of the same thing that happens with the cup of life, when iseldir tells merlin “hey this is important so don’t lose it okay?” and five minutes later we see the cup rolling down a hill. I love consistent characterisation. please don’t give this boy anything important for safekeeping he has enough on his plate already!!

I think Arthur’s coronet looks a bit dumb but still it’s nothing compared to the horrendous Burger King crown he'll wear as king. why did uther get such a prettier crown. why couldn't arthur just wear his father's crown. so many questions

why did they name the undead knight tristan, was he supposed to be the tristan? I think he was. I think their take on tristan and isolde in S4 was so disappointing btw. anyway moving on

Merlin: Gaius have you seen that knight’s crest before? Gaius: No, I don’t think so. I didn’t see it clearly. Actually I’m not even sure I saw a knight. Perhaps it was a trick of the light or a collective hallucination

Sir Owain: I don’t need luck Arthur: oh fuck he’s going to die

Arthur’s face after Uther holds him back and someone else picks up the undead knight’s gauntlet. so much self-sacrificing acts of bravery and NONE of them done by him. wrong and upsetting

S1 Arthur I'm not sure how to tell you this so I'll just say it. your haircut looks dangerously close to a mullet

Merlin: maybe arson can fix this

Nimueh telling Uther she was his friend!!! fuck season 6 I want a Merlin prequel

he’s a precious baby. he’s shmol. only tiny

gwen doing her whole “you know I'd grant you anything merlin… I mean, not anything! haha” meanwhile merlin is too worried about keeping arthur alive to notice. GIRL HE'S BUSY

WHY. who stands like this

he holds this stupid pose the entire time morgana is talking to him. imagine begging someone not to commit suicide while they brood and look out of the window like a sullen byronic hero. I would have pushed him out of the window. drama ass bitch

this is the second nighttime encounter between uther and gaius in this episode. uther saying goodbye to gaius before going to fight in arthur’s place. toxic yaoi. is this anything

YOU KNOW NOTHING YOU STUPID CHILD. I love that Kilgharrah is a hater and a bitch. to be fair to him he spent 20 years in solitary confinement so he's earned it

gaius drugging arthur then gently helping him into his bed is hilarious. he’s so good at lying and drugging people. big fan of gaius using his evil talents for the greater good, or just to have a laugh sometimes which is equally valid

what a fine blade you have there… it would be a shame if something were to happen to it

he’s wearing silver bracelets!! plural!!

[Enter Arthur, visibly furious]

Gaius [gathering his things]: I've just remembered I've left something on the stove. I must go right now immediately

Arthur [while Gaius scurries away]: YOU HAD GAIUS DRUG ME??

arthur and uther little father and son moment was cute ngl

there are a few more scenes until the end but I don't have much to say about them except that I love gaius and merlin's relationship

Gaius: [stares loudly] Merlin: [pretends not to notice]

[twoidiotwriters1]

Daughter of Olympus (Leo Valdez xFem!Oc)

A/N: I want to physically fight Nico sometimes too ngl -Danny Words: 2,424 Series' Masterlist Previous Chapter / Next Chapter Listen to: 'Better Yet' -by James Spaite

XXXIV: I'm Sorry I'm This Way, I Was (Mostly) Raised by Other Children

Ara doesn't wake up at dawn for the first time in months. When she opens her eyes, loud noises are coming from outside, and the sun is fully out. She bolts upright in bafflement.

It took her four hours to fall asleep last night because she kept squirming and giggling every time she thought about Leo. Ara's about to fall back and squeal into her pillow, when Lily bursts into the room making her fall off the bed.

"Ara! Are you okay?" Her friend tosses the to-do list onto the nearest surface and circles the bed.

Ara tries to control the mild heart attack she got from Lily's arrival and untangles herself from the sheets. "What time is it?"

Lily looks at her with concern. "Chiron's been looking for you. I lied and said you were packing, but you need to get dressed and start the day now."

Ara gets up from the floor. "Lily, there's something I've—"

"Hey," her friend approaches the pinboard next to Ara's wardrobe. "Is that..." Lily looks back at her grinning. "A picture of Leo?"

Ara looks up at the image in horror. Jake and Nyssa took it during their first day working on the Argo II. Leo's giving the camera a thumbs up and a big smile. The girl tries to come up with an excuse but Lily's expression flusters her.

"It's not a picture of Leo!" She blushes all over. "It's a picture of the bunker!"

Lily laughs. "You can't even see what's behind the guy! Jake sucks at taking pictures—Did you steal it while they weren't looking?"

"It wasn't stealing, I just took it," Ara gets dressed quickly so she can take Lily out of her room. "To keep me motivated."

"What's the goal?" Her friend snorts. "Leo will give you a smooch if you finish his ship on time?"

Ara struggles to put on her socks. "You're laughing a little too much, don't ya think?"

"Duh! You've tortured all of us and now it's your turn!" Lily says delightedly. "And with Leo Valdez! Can't get funnier than that."

"Don't be mean," the girl pouts. 

She dreads the moment everyone finds out. Does she even want that? In the middle of a war? Silena and Beckendorf started dating during one, but Ara's not like that. She's never been an Aphrodite who stops caring about the world the moment she likes someone.

"Anyway, we got a meeting with Annabeth and your boyfriend's gonna show us his process on the Argo II," Lily continues. "Capture the Flag at seven... Oh! Tyson's coming, something about him manufacturing parts of your ship?"

"Oh, gods!" Ara ties her shoes. "Imagine that, Lily! Our ship, equipped with weaponry straight out of Cyclops' forges!"

"Well, I'd be able to imagine if I knew how to read Leo's blueprints. They're a hot mess, look like he did them during a manic episode."

"I won't lie to you, he probably did."

The girls walk out of the room and the more they talk about work, the more Ara thinks about Leo and how fun it was to spend time with him doing nothing. She's been given a taste of what life could be like if she acted her age, and Lily could benefit from it too.

"What if we take a break after our meeting? Maybe watch one of your musicals?"

It's been months since the last time Ara suggested a break. Lily eyes her with worry. "Are you sure you're okay?"

The brunette laughs, which only disturbs Lily further. "I'm exhausted. My parents basically begged me to rest, and I don't want them to worry."

Lily stares at her intently with her gray eyes, so sharp they make Ara feel like the girl can see right through her, and it's almost always true. 

"I guess it won't hurt... and I do want a break." Lily glances down at her clipboard and nods.

"Good!"

Lily watches Ara walk ahead with a hesitant smile. She doesn't know what happened to her friend during the quest, but something feels different. Like she's enjoying herself again.

I thought I'd get a least an extra day to get my plan in motion, but Percy calls us the very next morning telling us that he's in New York and he needs us. I can only hope I have enough to start.

When we go to Olympus we run into Hestia and Hermes. Everyone leaves to allow Percy and Annabeth to hold a private conversation with the gods, but I hide near the entrance. I hear Hermes say Percy has the Achilles curse, and that catches my attention.

"Hello again, Arae." 

I jump and hit my shoulder on the statue that's concealing me. Hestia is right next to me.

"Lady Hestia," I bow. "Forgive me, I was..."

"Worried about your brother," the goddess sighs. "Do you know what he did? Before coming to the city, he was with Nico Di Angelo..." She looks at me with pity. "I hope your brother's made the right call, but I'm not here to talk about him."

Judging by the way she's looking at me, she knows my brother isn't the only idiot in the family. 

"You know about my plans," I whisper.

"I know you're noble," she clasps her hands together. "But is this the best way to secure peace? A warrior finds ways to stay on their feet even when there's nothing to do."

I don't understand what she's trying to tell me. "I have no problem with that."

Hestia regards me as if weighing whether it's a good idea to burst my bubble or to let it go. "Plans can only be made when you know what outcome you want, dear girl."

"I know what I want," I pause, then correct my sentence. "I know what I have to do if I want my friend to live."

She hums, a knowing look in her eyes. "Michael Yew is just like you. There is only one way you can learn from him..."

Percy's calling my name somewhere in a distant hallway. I lost sight of him for a second, and now he and Annabeth are gone. "I have to go," I bow briefly. "I appreciate your advice, Lady Hestia, I'll keep it in mind."

"Stop looking at me like that," Ara rolls her eyes.

"Your parents are making you go back to school and you're acting like it's not a big deal. This was exactly what you wanted to avoid—"

"That was before Percy went missing," Ara shrugs. "I changed my mind."

"Why?"

Now she understands why Percy took every opportunity to hang out with Rachel during the weeks approaching his sixteenth birthday. Holding so many lives in your hands wears you out, being in camp makes her lose sleep, so she needs her mortal life back.

"Everything is under control, I should get my life on track again."

"This camp is your life, Ara. We just got a clear goal—"

"Lily," Ara rephrases her reply. "I want to be with my family before I have to head out to war."

Her friend's cheeks tint with a pinkish tone. "That makes sense."

"Don't worry," Ara pats the girl's shoulder. "I'll be here during the weekends, pestering you as usual. I know you can't bear the thought of being parted for long."

Lily traps her in a loose chokehold. "You wish!"

Ara elbows her and laughs. "Let go!"

"Strategus!" Nico Di Angelo salutes her teasingly from a distance. Ara groans as soon as she sees him. "I apologize in advance, but I won't attend the meeting, I've got places to be."

"Daddy grounded you again?"

"His birthday's approaching," Lily blurts out.

Ara and Nico look at her with a scowl, though both for different reasons.

"His birthday is weeks away!"

"What's that got to do with anything?" Nico scoffs.

"I just wanted to remind Ara 'cause she'll be moving back to New York."

"I wouldn't forget!"

"I don't want her to buy me anything!"

They stop and scowl at each other. "Shut up!"

Lily rolls her eyes, and then a playful little smirk forms on her face. "Hey, Neeks, have you gone to her room lately?"

Ara looks at her with wide eyes. "Don't you dare."

"Why, what's in it?" Nico asks.

"She's got a picture of—"

Ara covers the girl's mouth with both hands. "I'll force-feed you the clipboard if you don't shut up!"

"Let her finish!" Nico demands with an evil smirk.

Ara points at him warningly. "Stay out of my room!"

"Got it," he nods. "I'm taking a look right now."

Before she can stop him, Nico shadow travels away. 

Lily bites her hand and Ara punches her shoulder. "Ouch! You two die tonight!"

"Have fun!" Lily chortles as she watches Ara run back into the Big House screaming at Nico.

"He took Percy," I whisper. "Helped him get the Achilles curse."

Lily's eyes widen. "You don't think..."

"That Nico found Achilles and hid it from us?" I frown. "That jerk."

"Perhaps he thought he was helping," Lily offers. "Maybe he thought we wanted to help Percy that way."

"Then why's Nico not here?" I press. "Why is Hades not helping if his son is helping us?"

Lily can't deny things aren't adding up, but she tries to distract me anyway. "We have other things to worry about, Ara. Morpheus is in the city."

"Meaning?"

"Kronos is on his way," she glares at the streets ahead of us. "This is it." 

Ara's decided to stop wearing her Tyrian cloak for meetings, everyone in the room knows she's in charge anyway. This is a bad idea today though, cause now everyone can see her clothes are covered in dirt.

"Sorry I'm late, I—" 

"What the heck happened to you!?"

The moment she sees Leo, the room gets ten times brighter. Or maybe it's just that she's glowing like a Christmas light. Either way, it's amazing, and she loves it. 

Leo approaches and tilts her head up to examine her bruised eye, everyone is staring at him with confusion and surprise, so she steps away.

"Valdez!" She says sternly. "It's just a scrape, don't be dramatic."

"A scrape? You're—"

"Seriously," she gives him a look. "Stop it."

Leo's annoyed. "Alright! But why are you cosplaying as a fight club member?"

"Rookie, if Ara didn't have a black eye when you met her, that's only 'cause she was too sad to fight people," Clarisse turns to her with a smirk. "Di Angelo again?"

"Again? I thought that was over!" Annabeth crosses her arms.

"It's never over with these two," Lily enters the room scowling. "Nico's not going to attend the meeting."

Will frowns. "Did Ara kill him and hid his body?"

"Hey! He started it—"

"And he got a bloody nose as a result," Lily rolls her eyes. "Let's start the meeting."

"Hang on, so you're saying it's normal for Ara to get beat up?" Leo presses with concern.

"First of all, I didn't get beat up, that sounds like I lost and I didn't lose. Nico pushes my buttons, I push his, and sometimes it ends up in a fight. End of story." Ara explains. "Let's move on, Lily."

"Percy's whereabouts and the search groups," Lily reads from her clipboard. "Annabeth?"

The older demigod starts to update everyone on what she's been doing, Leo leans closer to Ara and whispers. "Should I be worried about this Nico guy?"

Ara hushes him, which Leo doesn't like at all. He really knows nothing about Ara's daily life, and the more he finds out, the more she seems to be a different person than the one he met during the quest.

Ara listens to Annabeth, and then Jason suggests a few things though he doesn't remember much of his old life still. Eventually, they move on to the Argo II, which means Ara is finally paying attention to Leo. 

"Alright, gather 'round, kids!" He spreads the blueprints on the ping-pong table. "I've got the engine running, so we can start designing the interior. General Jackson, you can build your cabin if you want—And your brother's too."

"That's generous," Ara clears her throat. "But Annabeth's better at that, and so is Lily. I know nothing about interior design."

"I can design Percy's," Annabeth agrees.

"And I'm fine designing Ara's," Lily nods.

Leo frowns. "Okay... well, I'll still need your help. With..."

"The weaponry," Jason reminds him. "We heard Percy's brother would be here to talk about it?"

"Tyson!" Ara remembers. "Where is he?"

Annabeth shrugs, looking worried. "We haven't heard from him."

"Well... anyway, Tyson works in the forges with other Cyclops, I can ask him to build gear for the Argo II, so that's one thing you don't have to worry about, Leo."

"You kidding? I was looking forward to that part!" He exclaims. "But I could take a look at which designs could slow us down, he can take those. What are you going to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"You're redirecting all the assignments, I thought you wanted to stay busy—"

"Ara's not staying, that's why she's distributing the work," Lily raises a brow. "She told us, remember?"

Leo's face is so easy to read, Ara kind of wishes Gaea would swallow her whole right now. "I... I think he misunderstood what I said then, Lily. I didn't specify I'd come back just for a few days."

"You should've," he replies. 

"For those who don't know," she moves her gaze from one counselor to another. "I'll move back in with my parents for the rest of the school year. There's not much I can do about that, they're my legal guardians."

"We get it, Ara," Will eases her. "We don't love it, but we get it."

"I'll be here every weekend," she adds, looking at Jason. "It's not like I'll vanish."

"You don't have to explain anything." It sounds like Jason's understanding, but she can almost hear the words he left unsaid: "To me."

Leo's eyes are fixed on the blueprints and he's fidgeting with a pencil. She sighs. "I hate to leave, but Percy would want me to be with our parents before I head out to war... again."

Lily pats her shoulder. "You have a week to get your stuff in order, there's no need to feel guilty."

"Yeah, we've all seen what you can do in less time," Connor adds, getting a few chuckles from the veterans.

Ara tries to smile, but she's not successful. "If we're done here, let's end the meeting. You guys got a game to win, and I've got to start packing."

Leo picks up his blueprints and places the pencil behind his ear, quickly exiting the room next to Jason and Piper. He's angry, and his thoughts spiral easily when he's not careful, especially when he cares too much.

Lily nudges Ara's arm and talks to her in a whisper. "Someone's not cool with you leaving..."

"Should I talk to him?"

"To put him in his place, maybe," the girl wrinkles her nose. "You shouldn't be so nice to boys, they start thinking they've got a right over you after a while. Imagine if you were dating!"

"Yeah..." Ara wants to throw up again. "Sounds terrible."

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[talkingbl]

Top 6 Most Anticipated [Confirmed] BLs of 2023 (so far)!

If I can speculate...I'd add something something Semantic Error 2, something something Bump Up Business, but I'm tired of looking stupid. DMD had me placing Bed Friend as a most anticipated BL for damn near two years now and stayed coming up short. This time, I'm sticking to what I know. So, here we are--my top 6 most anticipated BLs of 2023 (thus far)! -

6) HIStory5: Love in the Future | LinusSean & JasonAnson

lbr, this is a 2023 bl trapped in a 2022 bl's body. Either way, I love a good time travel theme (gives fish out of water--my favorite trope!!) and the HIStory series usually gives us a good main couple.

5) Love Upon a Time | NetJames

Either DMD really believes in NetJames or they feel bad for cucking them in favor of ZeeNunew this past year. Either way, I am somewhat seated for this. Wild, I never expected this from NetJames or DMD more generally, but the historical portion of the story is giving everything I've been begging for from Thailand since I started watching BL. While it's not giving MileApo's period piece trailer in terms of care and attention to detail, it seems very interesting to say the least.

4) Bed Friend | NetJames

After 2 years of blue balling viewers, DMD is FINALLY giving the girls Bed Friend. I am so excited to see an office romance with actual tension between the leads and that forbidden love vibe I love so much. The story is so classic and seems entertaining from beginning-to-end. Hopefully the writing is good and the acting takes a step forward from what DMD has given so far. That said, the trailer looks promising, so fingers crossed!

3) The Next Prince (....what? It gave budget....) | ZeeNunew

Listen, I am not a zonzon or bonbon or ztormborn or whatever they call ZeeNunew stans, but I am SEATED for this. In my last list, I included Cutie Pie in my most anticipated list. Unfortunately, it didn't hit like I thought it would. But I'm willing to give them another chance as this trailer is intriguing. They're hitting budget, royalty AU, enemies (??) to lovers, direction, cinematography, etc. with this one. And the fact that the trailer was mostly silent gives me hope that maybe, just maybe, they will take the show-don't-tell subtext-led approach to acting and writing. Just hope it's not wasted on a terrible plot that goes nowhere and grating acting. S/n: Zee doing stuff w/feet again??

2) Cherry Magic (Thailand) (stfu GMMTV antis and jbl elitists, I'm tryna see sth...) | TayNew

She has no trailer and I'm already here for her.

Per MDL -

Adapted from Japan's 30-sai made Dotei Da to Mahotsukai ni Nareru rashii. Adachi Kiyoshi [Achi in the Thai version] is a regular salaryman who, at the age of 29, was still a virgin. On his 30th birthday, he suddenly finds himself acquiring a new power - the ability to read other people's minds whenever he touches them. Shocked and unnerved by this new ability, he struggles to cope. That is, until one day he accidentally touches the handsome and popular fellow office-worker, Kurosawa Yuichi [Karan in the Thai version], only to find out that [Karan] actually has secret romantic feelings for him. How will [Achi] cope with this new revelation?

Look, I tried the original Cherry Magic and while the concept was appealing, the execution wasn't for me. Ngl chefs, I was bored a bit. But I still love the concept and am interested to see if and how GMMTV and Taynew can handle this. It better give budget at the very least (probably won't lol). Perhaps we'll also see Newwie grow into a more serious BL role. But honestly, even if they turn it into a rom-com, I think this can really work. Either way, they have a lot of eyes on them and a lot of folks predicting their downfall. They must deliver.

1) Only Friends | NeoMark, ForceBook, FirstKhao, ForceNeo, to say the least

Where do I even start with this? Who in the fresh hell could have predicted GMMTV to come through with this? ALL the pairings are intriguing, MANY of the actors can ACT (or at least try to), THE PLOT is something straight out of my romance dreams!!! We love hotties being messy!!!! I am incoherent at this. How did GMMTV manage to outplay the player (ME)?

But to be serious, this is the most interesting BL plot in awhile... And it gets at a real part of the 20/30-something hookup culture that we have (and that people are afraid to show in the context of LGBTQ+ relationships). It's also breaking the mold and allowing actors to explore characters outside of their established ships. It's not adapted from anything (that I know of), which is, like, a first for a GMMTV BL. It includes pairings that are either on the rise (FirstKhao) or that no one could have ever seen coming but somehow feel just right (NeoMark, ForceNeo) (btw, NeoMark are up next in this industry ;)). Plus, it's directed by Jojo Tichakorn who directed and wrote for 3WBF (one of my favorite Thai dramas with a strong BL theme), and has his hands in Never Let Me Go and The Warp Effect (both with strong showings thus far). I trust him but it's gonna really come down to the budget, post-production, and, most importantly, the acting.

Thing is, Neo and First are going to show up and I trust Khao to give a strong effort. Force, I'm not too sure about but the trailer doesn't give me high hopes to be honest. Still, I'm willing to forgive if he can fuck Neo like he means it if the rest of the cast can pull their own weight. And for Mark, I'm willing to bet he'll improve from My School President (which he already is showing promise in). I'm mainly weary because the story looks to be told from Mew's perspective, who is played by Book. IMO Book is not the best....so I'm hoping he shows up. I just need it to really come together and Book holds the key to it in his hands. GMMTV already is a sketchy company for other reasons, don't waste my fucking time with yet another good concept gone by the wayside b/c y'all wanted face over talent.

Also NeoMark please don't be problematic. I want to love Badminton shawty and the best actor at GMMTV not named Gun ATP 😢

[anothergoddamistery]

so, i dont really know how tumblr works so I kinda hope this doesn't show up on anyone's feed, but I've decided that I'm using this like kind of a way to keep track of whatever is happening to my silly little paranormal crew. For the record, I'm currently on ep 94, so a lot has happened already but there's still a long way ahead.

Please, if someone somehow reads this, don't tell me anything about being right or wrong, I want to keep listening and see it by myself <3

Right now I know that there are this entities, gods or whatever involved and as far as know the monsters/entities/avatars belong to one of them?

The Eye (Elias, John, The Magnus Institute?)

The Beholding (my friend told me that the Eye and the Beholding aren't quite the same but they go together somehow?)

The Desolation (The Lighless Flame, Jude Perry, Agnes)

The Vast (Michael Crew, the Fairchilds?)

The End (Georgie's statement)

The Corruption (Jane Prentiss)

The Distortion (Michael)

The Stranger (The Unknowing ritual?)

Don't really know where to fit the Leitner books in here...

More stuff:

As Georgie pointed out in ep 93 (i think?): why did Elias (or the Eye) choose John as the Archivist? Why was he special? And why did they need to replace Gertrude? As far as I know she was doing quite well, right? She was getting closer to stopping the ritual John is supposed to stop, then why kill her? What was she doing "wrong"?

And besides, the creatures such as Jude Perry seemed quite happy to see her gone, but they don't have such reservations with John (yet). What was Gertrude doing? Let's not forget about that statement of the ritual that was most likely pulled up by the Lightless flame (ep 37)

Another question I'd like to answer:

What the fuck is inside the Do Not Open coffin? Is one of my fav episodes and it's still so unclear what the heck was that

I maybe tend to get caught on stupid details but after Jude Perry's statement I can't stop thinking about Tom (NotSasha's bf) who worked on a wax museum... like???? that's so specific

The Circus.... i know it's going to be so fucking bad but I need, crave, beg for answers. Does the Calliope turn people into muppets or smth?

The moving company or whatever that is (Breekon and Hope)... what is wrong with them, who are they. Btw there being more than one character with the same name is something that has happened before (I spent like a good amount of episodes thinking that there was only one Michael) but... one of the guys carrying the coffin was named Tom (ep 60)..................... [probably doesn't mean anything but still... weird]

Where is Gerard Keay I miss him

Daisy is giving not human ngl but idk

Elias is also giving not human. Like who is that man?? Who put him in charge???

Why does the recorder keep starting on by itself, that creepy old thing. I can't help but imagine the Eye or Elias or whatever it is listening to the recordings in real life and giggling, like dude give these people a little of privacy I don't think it's too much to ask.

Out of the people who disappeared in the fish market (ep 1) two have been already mentioned (if I didn't miss anyone). I'm pretty sure there were 6 people missing?

Im looking at the episode list and trying to remember things at this point

Ep 13: I think the Lukas family was also one of the families mentioned more than once.

Ep 18: what the fuck was that why did this man need so much meat

Are ep 27 and ep 85 related?

Ep 29 Cheating Death, so many questions in general

Ep 30 (Killing Floor) and ep 72 (Takeaway) are related, but I can't really fit them with any entity?

Ep 33 about the ship called the Tundra... feels like... unfinished

Ep 36 I know the guy from the Care Home was mentioned on another ep, can't remember on which one, tho

Ep 52 why did Maxwell Rayner visit Montauk on prison

Ep 58 how did the institute get this statement I'm so confused

Ep 59 why was Anges on that house, why did she help Ronald Sinclair. The table seems to be tied to the creature that replaces people (cause somehow notSasha was tied to it). Does that mean that the owner of the teenage home was a NotSomeone?

Ep 68 not really about the statement but I found it interesting that the institute statements were leaked in 1999.

Ep 74 weird, i don't understand why Michael is there

Ep 87 i was so confused about this one but the man giving the statement is such a legend, i think he deserves the best

Ep 90 just... what

Ep 92 why does Elias have a bunch of bones that are like 200 years old on his office, that's fucking weird, what a weirdo i don't like him. Also /Mordechai Lukas/

Im forgetting so many things i just know

There's also another thing that i don't really know where to fit: The cult of the divine host. They are gone since the section or division 31 idk how it is called (a c a b) interrupted the weird ritual. I have thoughts about them, but my thoughts are too complicated to write since Im stupid and i keep on writing on english instead of one of my first languages. Maxwell Rayner, Im keeping an eye on you.

[beneathashadytree]

Hi! I hope you had a good day! All I can think about is Reiner ngl 😭. Hopefully I can request a Reiner x reader. Where Reiner begged Peick and Zeke to take you with them to Marley if shit went south (like you wrote in the Bertholdt x reader one) and the reader is prego with Reiner child. How would Reiners mom and his family react bringing her home? (I’ve been honestly thinking that his family would hate the reader because she’s a devil in there eyes especially his mom 😀.) but slowly learn to like the reader after the years being in Marley (I BEG let Bertholdt be alive in this ) And love break my heart make the hate so Angsty (Only if your comfortable !!!!!)

And keep up the amazing work!!!!!! I love them all !!!!

MIRACLE - REINER BRAUN X READER

Warnings : canon-divergent AU, Bertholdt is alive and well in this, implications of sex, teenage pregnancy, vulgar language curse words, Reiner and reader are both 17 and then 18, reader is female!

Genre : mixture of angst and fluff

Word count : 5.8K words (I got carried away again afshdkdk)

Synopsis : Reiner never thought he'd make it out alive, let alone have a blessing added into his life.

Additional notes : As you can see, I wrote so much and took a while to post this oops. It was so much fun writing this (I'm a sucker for domestic Reiner and angst; sue me), so I hope you enjoy this! I'd love to hear your feedback of course. PS: I apologize for the very bulky format, but Tumblr has a paragraph limit, so I had to lump some paragraphs together when it came to posting.

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Pieck didn't have it in her heart to voice any complaints---not when Reiner's last ounce of strength had been used up to yell a single name, a plea in his raspy voice for his comrade to pick her up. The cart titan wanted nothing more than to selflessly help him out, but it really wasn't as easy as he'd made it out to seem, considering the fact that she'd already had to snatch both Bertholdt and Reiner himself away, after having dragged Zeke's mangled body out of Levi's shackles. Still, honoring her now-unconscious friend's request, she swiped at the girl's small body, picking her up as quickly as she could in that huge body of hers, trying her best to be gentle in the process (she often forgot her own strength in this form). It wouldn't have done if she'd accidentally hurt her; the blonde would've given her an earful, going off on a tangent about how much the girl Pieck had rescued meant to him, and how precious she was, in a way that had him wanting to treasure her.

Sure, Pieck could mildly understand the sentiments behind his request; the affectionate yet somehow sorrowful look in his eyes held a thousand stories of adoration and trials, and she could tell that this girl was someone who'd entered his world to turn it upside down. After all, she wasn't blind, and she could easily tell that he was madly in love with her just from the desperation that had bled through his shouts for her to rescue the girl the moment things went south for them in Shiganshina. But still, wasn't that a bit too extreme? At least, in her opinion, that is. Sure, she could excuse his hurry by believing that he was enamored by her, but what had him dealing with the situation as though it were a matter of life or death, when he himself was slipping away? Despite her compliance, Pieck still didn't get it; she didn't get it all, and she didn't think she really wanted to know.

***

"How are you feeling?" Reiner's voice was soft, as calm and collected as he could muster, despite the thick steam that his body emitted as it tried to heal itself, pulling himself to sit upright as he checked his girlfriend's body over a million times, "Anything hurting?" his question laced with worry, and the furrow in his eyebrows showing how concerned he was.

She gave him a weak nod, hand reaching up to rub at her temples, clearly sporting some sort of headache, "Nothing much, just a migraine," squinting at the bright sunlight, she felt around and realized she was sitting on planks of sturdy wood, "Where are we?"

A momentary feeling of shame washed over him, after having nearly failed to protect her in the mission he couldn't finish, "On the ship Zeke took to Paradis. We're going back home."

"To Marley?" she couldn't do much in protest but to frown, and Reiner was suddenly reminded of the fact that the mainland was far from home to her; in fact, she probably would've never believed it even existed months ago.

His lack of reply to her question and his faraway gaze towards Bertholdt's unconscious body to the far north of the deck counted as confirmation, and the girl sighed beside him, the sound a mix of sadness, melancholy, and helplessness. It didn't take a genius for him to understand that she'd simply given up the fight, knowing better than to argue with him about taking her back to Liberio. Even if he himself didn't know if the technicalities would all work out immediately, at the very least he knew that she'd be under his watchful eye---and she knew perfectly well (after having several arguments concerning this topic) that he had every right to be as protective as he was of her.

He had to admit, her presence in his life had been a factor he hadn't taken account of when he'd planned on retrieving the founder as had been instructed of him and his two remaining comrades. Bertholdt in particular had been especially weary of the girl's presence, his anxious nature leading him to overthink that maybe she'd caught onto their secret, and that that was the reason why she'd expressed the desire to get closer to his blonde friend. But his worry had been entirely in vain, because the truth was that she simply found Reiner so enticing in every possible way that she couldn't stay away from him. And that character he'd adopted after what happened with Marcel only drew her in further. He seemed so dependable, so wise, and so charming, in an unconventional almost-brutish way. Every thing about him, she'd said, from the way he'd laugh boisterously with Connie over dinner to the way he'd cooed as a lost kitten licked at his cheek, had dragged her into a never-ending loop of fond stares and a want to get closer to him. Reiner (having grown up so lonesome and starved of proper affection) couldn't find it in himself to push away her more-than-obvious advances, often indulging in them more than he should have (much to Annie's chagrin, as she would sit, staring at them talking quietly with something akin to disgust in her eyes, believing that he was getting far too ahead of himself).

The attraction was far from one-sided, after all, so it really was no surprise to the cadets when they saw how their strong big brother Reiner wound up dating the girl who'd weaseled her way into his heart, filling every nook and cranny with the warmth he so craved. Perhaps he was a coward who ran away from his duties and shut off his subconscious to adopt a personality he never should have tried to delude himself into thinking was real, but he was at least a young man who couldn't deny how he felt; not when his head was swimming with thoughts of her in the same way she'd confessed she couldn't get him out of her mind, even after they'd joined the scouting regiment and knew they'd be even busier than ever before.

And with the recklessness that came with youth, came bouts of times when Reiner really, really couldn't stop himself from begging to see her whenever he could find the barracks devoid of any other cadets, and with the unbridled passion they both shared as most teenagers often did, they often found themselves lost in each other's moans, bodies entwined and writhing in pleasure on the sheets, just barely making themselves look presentable before the others would come back. Their disheveled appearance wasn't turned a blind eye to, and everyone had their fair share of teasing to dish out to the flustered and yet entirely shameless couple. Bearing it with red cheeks and blinding grins that held some sort of secret, the two 17 year-olds maintained their nightly escapades, even sometimes having Eren or Ymir help them sneak out and ensuring they wouldn't get caught (not that there weren't a few close calls when Levi's sudden appearance hadn't been put into consideration and they'd been forced to hide in a nearby storage room where they still wound up muffling their sighs of pleasure on the spotless floor as they came as one).

As caught up as he was with bedding his girlfriend at every possible chance, Reiner was every bit attentive as he was all over her. He'd always kept a close eye on her, in tune with how she felt and reacted to everything, so he'd know the correct course of action to take. Hell-bent on being the perfect boyfriend as he was the perfect comrade, he'd noticed how she grew more fatigued, irritable, and even sick at times. Undoubtedly concerned for her well-being, especially after witnessing firsthand how tender---sometimes sore, even---her body had gotten over the past while whenever they'd get the chance to fall into each other's arms at night, he found her breaking down in his arms, whimpering how she'd missed her period and how absolutely terrified she'd felt. The implications of her words had sent him spiraling into shock and worry, unable to voice his thoughts of how he hadn't intended to forcibly tie her down like this, especially with his impending betrayal. Knowing that the revelation of the truth would be inevitable, Reiner had sat her down on his lap, petite hands clasped in his huge palms, offering some sort of grounding and stability as he prepared her for the huge news that he knew would either make or break them.

His whispered confession of his secret had let to a horrified gasp, with her almost scrambling to get off of him as though being within a five mile radius of his presence disgusted her. Unsurprised but still every bit as heartbroken, the blonde had left her to her devices, allowing her to process the information over days and weeks. But when his lingering glances became too much to ignore when she herself was itching to find her way back to him, she found herself gulping and reaching out for him with shaking hands, knowing that he was still every bit of the young man she'd fallen for. They were both foolish and senseless, and they found consolation in loving each other---that much she couldn't deny, no matter how many times she discovered that he was a traitor. And with a quivering voice, she'd told him of her visit to the infirmary; of her confirmed pregnancy that frightened her to no end, and of how she still wanted him to be by her side, and her by his, even should the world come crashing down on their shoulders. Back then, Reiner didn't know whether to break down in tears or hold her like he'd never let her go ever again, so he'd opted to doing a bit of both.

And right now, with the ocean breeze licking at their hair and the seagulls crying overhead, Reiner felt a sense of dread inside him, but oddly enough, he also felt he was looking forward to the upcoming period of their lives, come what may.

His girlfriend pushed herself up slowly, trudging across the deck to stand near to the metal rail, gripping it tight as she fluttered her eyes shut, inhaling sharply, "So this is what the sea is like," she mused, voice carried by the wind and reaching Reiner, his heart pounding as he saw her mingle with what she'd always been deprived of; the nature she'd never seen.

Glancing down, he lamneted the fact that his limbs hadn't all grown back, wanting nothing more than to stand up and join her. Instead, he settled for smiling at her figure as her hand subconsciously fell to her still-quite-flat belly, thinking of the future that awaited them once they'd reach the pier.

"C'mere sweetheart," he rasped out, fondness in his eyes, calloused palms waiting until she was within arm's reach to pull her down beside him, "Lay down beside me, you might get sea-sick." Settling her tiny palm against his tattered shirt, she rested her head against his broad chest, and he was sure that if she strained her ear, amdist the sounds of the waves she could hear his heart pounding in his chest as his mind wandered to what might lie ahead of them.

***

Standing in front of his house, limping a little and clasping his girlfriend's hand tight, Reiner came to the realization that he really hadn't thought this through. With a quick glance to her left arm, he realized her lack of armband said one of two things, one of which was an impossibility, the other punishable by crime---an unfavorable position eitherways, and one he knew his mother would be quick to notice. Picking up on his sudden discomfort and hesitance to knock on the door, his lover turned to frown at him, "What's wrong, Reiner?"

Shaking it off because he didn't want to concern her when she had more than enough to worry about, he shook his head, giving her a small smile and a peck on the lips to momentarily satiate her, "'s nothing. Don't sweat it."

The words directed towards himself too and not just her, he gathered all his nerves and rapped his knuckles against the wood, waiting to greet his mother with the happiest expression he could muster. The woman in front of him looked as though she'd been worn down by the years, to the extent that he almost couldn't recognize her. But they were still the same kind eyes that had tried to comfort him when he was a young child who was confused as to why he was the only one among his peers without a father, and her lavender shawl was the same tattered one he'd clutched years ago when he couldn't sleep at night.

"Reiner?" she breathed, tearing up at the sight of her son who now towered over her, "You're back?"

With a small hum, he gave her his warmest smile. As she flung her arms around his neck and pulled him down to her chest, she let loose a few sobs in his shoulder, missing the warmth of the child that had been taken from her years ago. As much as a part of him loathed her for bribing him with a dream that would never come true, Reiner couldn't help but blink his tears away. Before he could even register the hug, she'd pulled away, eyeing the girl standing awkwardly but politely behind them.

"Is that one of your warrior friends?" she enthused, tugging her inside with a curious twinkle in her glossy eyes, "Or... someone special to you?"

"Let's not rush things," he patted her back gently, a weak smile on his face as he stood between them, "But yeah, she's my girlfriend. She's not a warrior though."

With a frown, she glanced at her arm, "You should be careful. We might be in the internment zone, but the laws are strict and you still have to wear your armband at all times," her tone wasn't unkind though, and she ushered them to the living room while she began to peel some oranges for them by the sink, "You don't know where the guards are lurking." Nervously, the young couple glanced at each other, remaining silent, and as she turned to see them fidgeting like that, his mother's eyes widened while she balanced the plate of fruit between her hands, "Don't tell me... Reiner?! Have you forgotten what happened because your father was Marleyan?!"

Curling his fists against his pants, he shook his head, "No, I haven't, I---mother, that's not it, she's not from..."

Drifting off, his mother's scowl only grew, and her feet remained rooted to the spot, her grip on the plate steely, "How long have you been together?" she asked through gritted teeth.

If he could curl into a ball out of shame, he would've, but all he could do was stare at his lap, "A year. Give or take."

Crash!

"Mother!" Reiner cried out, stumbling over the carpet as he tried to hurry and clean the remains of the glass dish on the floor, but the old woman made no move, shaking out of fury and pure, unadulterated rage as she gave the girl on the couch a glare that could've shredded her to pieces.

Her silence was eery enough as it is, and the clinking as Reiner carefully picked up the largest glass pieces only made it more unnerving. No one dared breathe loudly, his girlfriend almost statuesque as she still remained silent, knowing that she'd only probably make things worse if she spoke.

"You've... you've brought a devil into my house."

Eyes softening, he dropped everything, trying to cross the damage to make his way over to the woman who'd brought him into this life, "No, she's not... listen, it's a long story---"

"Reiner!" she yelled his name, face growing red as horror struck her, "Her people are the reason why we live in fear, why your father left," gnashing her teeth, she stomped her foot down, flames flickering in the eyes he'd grown up beside, "She's the spawn of Satan himself, the reason why humans were at risk of extinction, and she's filthied our house with her bloody hands!"

"Mother, she's never hurt anyone," he tried to reach out for her, only to have her jerk away from him, a pang resonating in his heart, "Please, I know it's difficult to believe, but I love her, and she loves me."

Snarling at him, she touched her chest, "What would you know about love, Reiner? When was the last time you've witnessed that emotion, when all you've ever had was me?"

"I know enough, I'm not a child anymore," he began to raise his voice, though it didn't seem like he noticed it, "You don't get a choice eitherways, she's here to stay with me."

"What good could ever come from someone like... like that?" she groaned, disgust lacing her voice, "It's like you're trying to ruin what you've built by associating yourself with that wretched devil."

"She's carrying my child."

The middle-aged woman froze in place, unblinking at his deadpan expression. It didn't seem like she fully processed his words, and it took her a couple of seconds to speak, "Pardon?"

Locking his jaw, Reiner backpedalled to rest a firm hand against his girlfriend's shoulder, partially to affirm his statement, partially to steady her shivering form, and partially to ground his own self, "She's pregnant now."

When his mother spoke again, the bitterness wasn't held back from her words, "So you've knocked up a whore."

"Excuse me?" in an offended tone, the girl finally spoke up, a scowl set deeply on her face, "I'm not some common hussy you speak of like that."

"I'll call you whatever I want, scum," his mother spat out, looking down on her as she sneered, "Spreading your legs for any man that comes near you, I bet that's what lowlifes like you do."

Livid, she tried her best to maintain her voice leveled, "Ma'am, I've never even been near another man aside from your son---"

"And that was enough for you to get pregnant with that demon child as soon as you saw him, like the animal you are," Karina scoffed, venom in her eyes as she slammed her hand down the small table to her left, "Terminate it."

"What?" the girl hissed, eyes narrowed, about to get up, had Reiner's grip on her shoulder not tightened to get her to remain seated, "You don't get a say in that---"

"That's my child, mother," Reiner's voice was colder than she'd ever heard, and it was honestly rather surprising to both parties that they shut up for a moment, "Are you aware of what you're saying?"

"See some sense, child, she's just using you as a ticket to leave the island," she sounded exasperated as she pointed at the girl protectively touching her belly, "That wretched slut only ever wanted to be tied down to you."

"I'm the one who dragged her into this, and frankly, while I don't want to discuss my intimate matters with you, trust me, she's far from being the one who was the reason behind the pregnancy," crossing his arms, Reiner gave her a challenging glare that he never dreamt he'd give his mother.

As she gaped at him, she tried to reason, "That's my grandchild, who'll carry the family name! If their mother is that bitch, then I don't want them."

Pinching the bridge of his nose, Reiner grumbled, "When are you going to realize that you can't live your life through me? I'm capable of making my own goddamn choices."

"She's even turning you against your own mother, you never would've cursed at me---"

"Because I was a cowardly 12 year-old when I left!" the blonde raised his voice, frustration evident in his voice as he tried his best not to go overboard and end up yelling at the woman who, at the end of the day, had raised him, "I hope you'll come to your senses someday, but until then, we're going somewhere where we could take care of our child," turning to gently pull up his girlfriend, he mumbled under his breath on their way out, completely ignoring his livid mother, "I should've known better than to come here."

Doing his best not to slam the door behind them, he let out a heavy breath of air, slumping his shoulders and instantly wrapping his arm around the girl's waist, pulling her back into his chest as he squeezed her tight. Breathing softly into her neck, she held him back just as firmly, as though leaning back on him for strength just as he stabilized himself. The comforting embrace lasted a couple of minutes, before he unwrapped his arms from around her, rubbing her stomach comfortingly.

Before they could take any steps forward, a small body plowed into Reiner's side with a yell of his name, with more force than he'd anticipated, causing him to nearly lose his footing in surprise.

"Gabi?" he grinned, picking her up, earning an excited nod and equally enthusiastic laugh, and he couldn't help but hug her close, "You've grown so much, holy crap. How old are you now?"

"Eight!" she proudly said, puffing her chest and pointing one thumb towards her self while the other arm clung to his neck, "And just so you know, it's only a matter of time before I'm the second Braun to inherit the armored titan," she sounded so smug, before turning her head and finally noticing the girl, "Hey, who's she?"

"Gabi, it's rude to point," he sighed exasperatedly, already feeling how heavy she'd grown in his arms, "Anyways, she's my girlfriend."

Hopping off, the brunette leaned in close so she could inspect the young woman, "Woah, you're beautiful! How did Reiner ever date you?"

With a laugh, she replied, "He did get quite lucky, yeah."

"You haven't seen your cousin in five years and here you are ganging up against him," he shook his head, "Where are your parents?"

Gabi waved behind them, and he turned with a look of surprise to find his uncle and his wife standing together with kind smiles. Greeting them with quick hugs that didn't express half of how he felt and how much he'd missed being home, he wondered how long it would be before his happiness would be shattered.

"Say, who's the lovely young lady beside you?" his uncle asked, "She looks rather taken by you, if I'm not mistaken."

Awkwardly laughing, Reiner rubbed the back of his neck, "Yeah, we're together."

"How long have you guys been---"

Before he could begin to anxiously sweat profusely, a hand clapped down on his shoulder, startling him and cutting the conversation off (much to his relief).

"I've been looking for you two all over," the soft voice he'd been fretting about not hearing ever again was comforting to finally hear.

"Bertholdt, you're alright," he breathed, wrapping an arm around the shoulder of his best friend, "When were you released?"

"I left the hospital this morning," he jerked his thumb in the direction outside the gates, "I got word from HQ that they want all warriors gathered at 4 PM, said it was important," he turned to the pregnant girl, lowering his voice and his eyes growing softer, "Think you can blend in?"

After a moment of thinking, she nodded, "Yeah, no big deal. I'll stay in the yard."

"Good, c'mon," with a wave towards his friend's extended family, Bertholdt practically dragged the couple away from any more prying questions.

***

The meeting had proven to be quite useful, considering that without it they wouldn't have been able to stay in Liberio. Once at HQ, the top brass had discussed their funding and salaries, granting the returned warriors the choice to receive hard cash or lodging instead. After much consideration and discussion with his beloved, it was only logical to pick a standard two-bedroom house to live in, instead of splurging on a mansion that was neither practical nor necessary---especially considering that since there were no urgent missions for the next while, he'd have no regular income of money---so that he could stash away the remaining cash portion for use in their daily lives, until they could find a better alternative. As of now, his girlfriend was heavily pregnant and found it difficult to go anywhere without waddling like a penguin. Her walk had earned them several stares as they made their way to visit his old house---or at the very least, attempt to. So far they'd tried knocking on the door once a month, and every time a venomous reply had been thrown their way after the door had been cracked open.

"Mother, how long do you intend to keep this up," Reiner sighed exasperatedly, "All we want is to talk to you."

"The baby is healthy," his lover spoke quietly as she touched her stomach, the baby kicking as though knowing they were talking about them, "In case you were wondering."

A moment of silence, before---

"To hell with it."

Another sigh of defeat, and then they were on their way back home again, bumping into Zeke who'd only just made it out of his grandparents' house.

"Difficulty getting through again?" he gave them a sympathetic smile, "C'mon, why the long faces? It's not the last chance you'll get to try and make amends."

Frustrated, the teenager ran his fingers through his hair, "Thing is, we shouldn't have been discussing things in the first place. It's my child, and I'm the one who knocked her up."

Rolling her eyes, the girl punched his arm, "You could've phrased it differently."

With a quick apology, he bent down to kiss her lips chastely, blushing at the way the wonder boy smirked at them knowingly.

"See, this is how she ended up pregnant in the first place."

"Zeke!"

As they strolled back home, Reiner found himself lost in thought, feet kicking up the gravel absent-mindedly. He must've spaced out completely, because his lover was soon nudging him.

"You okay, love?"

A little startled, his eyes went wide, before he nodded, settling into a more comfortable walking pace. They lapsed into silence for a couple of minutes as they trekked the path to their home, until he found the courage to speak up again and spill what was on his mind and had been taking up his thoughts for the past God-knows-how-long.

"Have you... thought about us taking our relationship further?" his voice was quiet when he asked the question tentatively.

Chuckling, she took his large hands in hers, "Honestly, how much further can we go when we're already having a child together that might pop out any day now?"

Cracking a smile, he patted her head, "Finally, we'll get to see them," his hand lingered on her hair, "But no, that's not I meant. I meant us, as a couple, without a third party."

"You mean... marriage?" she softly questioned, and he could only nod with burning red cheeks, "Well, I'd be lying if I said I haven't. You're too charming sometimes."

"Flatterer," he coughed, "You just want a foot massage at home."

"That too," cheerily admitting it, she gave him a breathtaking smile that instantly disarmed him and had his heart fluttering in his ribcage, "No, but seriously, I know we're young and all, but it's not like we've got the luxury of time either."

Reiner had tried multiple times to forget that he didn't have that many years ahead of him, not wanting to put them through the hurt of thinking of something tragic like that, but she handled the topic surprising well, even broaching it herself. She never failed to surprise him. She went on to say, "Being with you forever... isn't that the thing I've wanted from the start? And if I can't have forever, then all the time I can borrow works for me too," staring at the sky that held the airships she'd never seen before, she looked so peaceful; so beautiful to him, "Carrying your last name is only one final confirmation."

His voice was low and thick with emotion when he spoke again, hazel eyes a few shades darker as his gaze intensified, "Have I ever told you how absolutely head over heels I am for you?"

With a flirty wink, she grinned, "Might wanna remind me when we're inside, then, future husband."

***

"He's fussing again," she groaned, the baby swaddled in the blanket crying as he kicked about, pulling him closer to her chest in a vain attempt to pacify him with her familiar scent. Chuckling, Reiner leaned down to look at his son's red face, "What did you expect, he's only two months old and this is his first proper outing," tenderly, he stroked his tear-stained cheeks with two of his knuckles, "Mother used to tell me that I was a restless baby too."

"He's a carbon copy of you already, imagine being as annoying as you are too," she grumbled, causing him to playfully glare at her, before his son distracted him again.

"Look at him," he mused, a happy sigh escaping him without even noticing it had, brushing his little blond locks with his fingertips, "He's so small." With a snort, she playfully elbowed him, "You're the one who's too big. He's the perfect size for holding."

"Never thought we'd be parents at the age of 18, honestly," he hummed, holding his arms out as a silent invitation to pass his wriggling son to him, "But I'm glad it happened." As Reiner began to hush him and rock him gently, she looked on in awe as he began to settle down in his arms, as though his father's presence alone was enough to ease his nerves.

"I carry him for nine months, and he still ends up being a daddy's boy?" she huffed in pretend-annoyance.

With a smirk, he quipped back, "Guess he likes your husband more. Can't blame him, really, neither of you can resist me."

At the mention of it, she subconsciously touched her ring finger, "Still can't believe we're married now," she spoke, wonder in her voice, a blissful sigh escaping her, "It's so nice, though, living in our own little world."

"Wouldn't have happened without Porco, though," Reiner said, voice lowered so as not to disturb his resting baby boy, "Who knew his father was an officiator?"

"It's not just that," she shook her head as she leaned her head against Reiner's sturdy shoulder, watching the rhythmic breathing of the child in his arms, "Porco must've gone through a hell lot of crap trying to cover up the fact that I'm not from here. He must've fabricated lots documents and government papers, and that can't have had no risks."

His tone dark, Reiner added, "Especially since he isn't too fond of me, and especially since it's important to have a clean record as a warrior."

Wrapping her arm around his shoulder, she pressed a gentle kiss to his neck, and Reiner felt something stirring inside him at the sweet intimacy, "He's a good kid."

"My memories of him aren't the best, but I'm willing to look past that after the huge favor he did us," Reiner admitted, before turning his head with a hopeful look in his eyes, "So? Wanna give it a try?" Nodding, she exhaled sharply, "How many times have we gotten kicked off your mother's doorstep, now?"

"15 times, this'll be the 16th," he rolled his eyes, "How stubborn can one woman get, really." Arching her eyebrow, his wife gave him a pointed look, "The pot calling the kettle black?"

"You sure pick up idioms fast," he grumbled, looking away to knock on the door for what felt like the hundredth time since his arrival to Marley. Before she could quip back a smart reply, the door swung open, revealing his scowling mother, giving them a mild look of offense for having them step in front of her.

"What do you want?" she barked, impatient as always.

"We just thought you might want to see him," the young mother stiffly said, clearly not wanting to interact much with the woman who'd called her every insult under the sun. Skeptical, Karina eyed the child from afar, and Reiner could swear her eyes almost instantly shifted to something akin to longing. "He looks... a lot like you did back then," she croaked out, voice thick, before she blinked twice, as though trying to stop herself from drifting away from the plan she'd originally had.

Reiner had the sudden epiphany that she probably had an innate desire to see her only grandchild, but her deeply ingrained morals denied her of the pleasure. Knowing that she'd never voice her wishes out loud, he decided he'd be the one extending the olive branch---if not for his sake, then for his son's sake, so as not to deprive him of the happiness a grandparent's presence brought. "Want to hold him?" he offered, waiting for the nod that only came a minute later.

Still on the doorstep of the house he'd grown up in, he carefully began to lift his arms, cooing his name and ready to snuggle his son into the arms of the only person who'd made him feel safe and loved as a child. The baby only whimpered twice at the change of surroundings, before he surprised them all by clutching at his grandmother's shirt with his tiny fists as soon as he settled down against her chest. Breath hitching, Karina didn't move a muscle as the boy's chest rose and fell rhythmically with every rock of her arms.

She breathed his name out, and it was like a magic spell had been cast and blanketed the entryway, her eyes glimmering with what could easily be taken for tears. In that very moment, every single person in the room knew that everything had changed; that nothing would ever be the same again.

Even if it took them a million baby steps to maintain a sense of normalcy in this dysfunctional family, the new parents both knew---with absolute certainty---that they would wait however long was needed to ensure that their boy grew up, loved and beloved by every person that had a string of fate tied to his pudgy index finger---they had more than enough love to share between them, and they were sure that he'd ensnare the hearts of every person he crossed, given time. After all, he was a miracle child, born of abnormal circumstances; they'd be damned if they didn't give him the entire world and more.

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[vander-affectionate]

HIIII-- how about Vander with fem!reader at the pool or beach or just somewhere bathing suits are worn and reader has a nip slip <3

babe lemme tell you. i want a mini series based off of this ngl, but just enjoy this. summer vibes, annoying neighbor, hot guy and thank you for requesting!! i had fun with this surprisingly???

warnings: minors/ageless blogs do not interact or you will be blocked, fem!reader, reader is mid-twenties and vander is thirties ig? i'd like to think he's prematurely grey but he is a dilf in this so that begs the question, shitty neighbor, sorry if you like bubblegum pop or anything pink, it girl (hope you guys know what that is), but umm idek if you count this as flirting its mostly reader butting heads with the neighbor, pool setting, brief nudity idk man, landlord!grayson, might change the shitty neighbor's name (gimme ideas if you have diff name for our shitty neighbor)

What is summer supposed to feel like? The image in your head was at one point to live healthy like all those health nuts with schedules wired into their day and being out with that tight circle of friends you loved being around so much. But it didn’t feel like that. At all.

It felt like being dragged out into sticky air at the pool of your apartment complex because your next door neighbor had convinced herself (the loud music past ten o’clock girl who swears up and down at the landlord) that she’s the best thing since glittery pink bubblegum lip gloss came out. And just in case the concept of blaring preppy music, miserable humidity in the height of summer, and glitter doesn’t make you turn your nose up then the fact that she’s convinced that she’s your best friend just makes it that much worse.

You thought you could get away with going out in the swim suit you really liked to enjoy the afternoon, even the sun relaxed behind the clouds. You were optimistic about the guy you’d never seen before who flashed you a smile from the other side of the pool area and you thought this would be a good day for you.

You thought.

Then that song you hear three or four times a day begins to fill your ears and the sun practically fazes the clouds away and you sigh audibly, peeking over your shades at the sun overhead. It’s blaring more intensely and you wonder if it’s a sign for you to go in.

You make the mistake of seeing what direction the music is coming from and thar’ she blows. Preppy girl from 503. Her name’s… well you don’t make the effort to remember. It starts with something, but she makes eye contact with you from underneath her tinted red seashell sunglasses and waves at you with this sickly smile that makes you want to throw yourself in the pool.

One look at the sun and it seems to burn hotter.

Run.

You tip your shades off and don’t bother to listen for a greeting from the bane of your existence when you jump into the pool. It’s not that you don’t like her- you don’t. Nothing personal against her really, but another sing-song sentence in your ear would make you want to pop your eardrums especially after the week you’ve had. Hair be damned, you’d just go get it done because another excuse to get away from home would be nothing but bliss if it meant a couple hours of avoiding what’s her name?

“Hey.”

You startle, almost letting go of the concrete and slipping beneath the water line. A glance reveals-

“It’s Chel.” she smiles down at you from where she’s crouched on the pool edge.

You move to the side, grabbing a better grip on the concrete and avoid making eye contact with her. What does she want? And what in all of creation provoked her to follow you clear across the pool?

“I put my stuff beside yours.” she smiles and you don’t bother glancing back, instead you bite back a groan because you don’t want to know if she meant beside yours as in on the same chair or in the chair on the other side of the best shade in the pool. “You know since we haven’t caught up in a while. Let’s go get a drink- I heard about this party…”

You don’t bother saying anything. Maybe you’re dehydrated or it’s from being in the sun too long, but your temples are starting to throb. So, looking her dead in the eye, you sink right back into the water and it burns to open your eye check, but it looks like she’s stripping to follow you in.

You come right back up when you realize there’s no avoiding her and she’s still talking.

You’re still talking? That’s exactly what you want to say and you look behind her, she’s got this confidence to her that makes your skin itch and you lean your head back, wiping your hands over your face to get the excess water off and rub your eyes, partially hoping she’d just take a fucking hint. But a hand is touching you and you tense, head whipping over to the hand on your shoulder and pushing it off.

“Please don’t touch me.” you grumble, pulling yourself up and out the pool.

She doesn’t stop speaking and you’re not sure if you heard an apology in there because you’re not really listening, but you’re kneeling on hot concrete and stopping her before she gets out with you.

“I’ll be back. I need to make a call.” you tell her.

She starts to get out anyway, “I’ll come with you. We might see some cute guys.”

“Please just- stay.” I need to compose myself before I even think about talking to you again.

She doesn’t get that you don’t want to be around her right now and frankly explaining why would be an added headache to the one you feel forming in your head. But she takes some kind of hint and gives another one of those smiles where her nose crinkles and her eyes squint in a way one might at a baby and it’s getting on your nerves. It always does.

And ignoring how her things are overlapping yours in the chair you were seated in a few minutes ago is easier said than done.

Your towel is wrapped around your waist and you’ve chosen to go indoors in the comfort of A/C to find a vending machine, but you’re plagued by a tap on your arm. The back of your hand pushes at the hand on your shoulder, “I don’t like being touched.” you murmur exasperated, but stop halfway through your blank trance to find a completely different figure beside you in the vending machine reflection.

It knocked your breath away when you turned and found that guy from the other side of the pool behind you. For a minute, you’re looking up and up until you finally find his eyes shaded by sunglasses and his smile is sheepish as he tucks it in his pocket.

“Sorry,” he offers gently.

Focus on his face, you remind yourself. Not the lump in his swim trunks, but if he asked, you’d tell him it was his hand you were looking at.

Your attention drifted a bit. Thankfully not downward, but it’s your credit card in hand that he’s picked up. “You dropped this and I thought it’d be a good opportunity to talk to the pretty sight across the pool.”

The way his words bring a smile out of you. He smiles wide as your attention shifts off his face and you rub down your face. Wow. What a smile.

“If that’s alright?” he asks, shifting his weight and it gives you the perfect view of-

Don’t look down.

His chest is wide. And his arms are thick and you can’t help, but smirk. “Are you sure you’re not showing out for Miss Bubblegum Pop?”

His smile widens a fraction and hell, you didn’t think it could get bigger. Your mind drifts, but you don’t let it for long when he shrugs and lets out a breath that deflates his chest a smidge. “If I’m being honest, I was relieved when you came in here because I don’t think I’d have been able to think straight out there.”

Your eyes drift over to Chel who’s flirting with that freshman who just moved into the apartment beside yours and that much closer to her, “Me either. Especially with her taste in music.” 

“Actually,” your heart jolts in your chest when the plastic of your credit card is directing your chin back up to his face. “I was referring to you. I’m not sure how flattering it is to get a number from someone at a pool, but,” he shrugs, scratching the light scruff on his face with a sheepish smile. “I wasn’t going to miss a chance to talk to you.”

Damn it, you’re not outside, but it feels hotter in here with him than it would out by the pool.

“I’m flattered,” you smile. “That’s a high compliment coming from you.”

His brows steeple and it’s comical really because you’re wondering if he knows how easily his smile draws you in.

“I’m assuming you know what kind of effect you have on people.”

“I’m told I have a convivial presence.” he smirks and it makes your chest warm. You’re sure that your heart is melting. “Are you going to take your card now?”

You smile sheepishly, completely enamoured talking to the man with a few grey locks combing backwards and behind his ears. He laughs when your smile falters when you’re both in the hot sun again.

“If it’s too hot out here then do you want to go somewhere else? Usually the pool is nice, but…” His eyes drift over the rowdy state the pool’s sunken into and one glance at a fraternity towel is enough of a sign for you to take your leave.

“Please.” your smile is pleading as your hand shelters your eyes and the man generously blessed with height and a godsend smile escorts you to the shade of your umbrella.

“Oh my.” That voice. You groan quietly, covering your face as a hand pushes you to the side and you find Chel standing before you with a hand outstretched. “Thank you for bringing my friend back, handsome.”

She winks at him. Vander’s hand that was once lingering near your arm had found a home at your lower back, smoothly avoiding touching your skin. He offers her a gentle smile and it looks more reserved than when you’d first witnessed it from across the pool and your eyes fall on Chel who’s eating it up.

“I take it you must be-” 

“A roommate.” She cuts him off and shakes his hand, rubbing her thumbs over it, but he doesn’t allow the touch to last long before his hand disappears into his pocket.

“A neighbor.” you correct with haste. “I’m leaving so you can have the chair.”

“What?” she frowns, pouting heavily as Vander nods at you, silently gesturing to his chair.

“I’ll be back.” he tells you and you’re left staring blankly at Chel who looks more betrayed than anything.

“We were supposed to go together. I knew you were trying to pick up guys alone- that’s not cool, you know.” She nudges you and you narrowly avoid it.

“Don’t go around telling people we’re roommates. That’s weird for me and I wasn’t picking up guys, not that it’s any of your business.” You make a point of avoiding touching her as she takes any contact as an invitation. “Excuse me.” you mutter.

She sighs heavily behind you and you’re grateful to be leaving because you cannot take another moment of her. “You’re lucky to have me as a friend, but you go and leave me like this sometimes.”

You snort a laugh under your breath, saying, “I don’t know where you got the notion that we were friends.”

“We’re not?” You glance up and see Vander pushing his glasses into his hair as you tuck the last of your belongings into a bag.

“No.” you say, zipping it up.

“Well since we’re not friends, I’m obligated to tell you that your top is a little too small for you, hun.”

The bikini straps, once tied around your neck, fall in front of you and your hands barely fly up in time to keep anything more than your aerola from showing.

You sink to your knees in hopes of hiding behind the lounge chair and you can’t yell at her because then all of the frat guys will look this way. She’s walking over to the college guys and the one who lives across the hall from you makes it a point to amp up the music and distract the small crowd.

Vander sits on the lounge chair, pulling the loose button up off his shoulders and holding it out for you, “Are you alright?” he asks as you take the shirt.

You don’t answer. How the fuck should you? She’s fucking psychotic? I mean, what the hell does one do at a time like this?

“Oi, sweetheart.” The thick drawl in his voice momentarily drowns out the blaring music and you look up to see his eyes no longer blocker by shades. “No one else saw anything. I think that lifeguard over there has some words for her and I’ll even talk with the landlord, okay?”

It takes you a moment to gather your words.

“Can I tie the back of this for you?” he offers and watches you nod in response. “I thought my friends were batshit crazy.”

“No one’s that crazy.” you say as you feel the straps of your bikini go taut.

“That’s true.” he smiles at you before checking around him a final time before you check over your top. “It’s more flattering.”

His cheeky smile is contangeous and you have to laugh because it’s a stupid joke. As you put on the hibiscus shirt, you ask, “How is it you know my landlord?”

“Went to college with Grayson.” he shrugs. “She thinks if I hang around here enough it’ll attract tenants.”

“After that fiasco, I might consider staying here for a month or two longer.”

Vander grins, “Only a month? I thought I’d be worth three at best.”

“Need to earn that, handsome.” He smiles at the way it rolls off your tongue.

“Yes ma’am.”

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Devilish nights || A fantastic 3 one-shot!

I love this idea ngl, I love the dynamic between the three of them! And I tried to do them justice here but... there's definitely a Whole ass ranch for improvement... :C

also Diavolo is Mexa xd

Summary: the fantastic three go to a concert but things don't go as planned.

Additional notes: I was going to make this a comic but decided against it since it was gonna take me much more time to finish it, but perhaps I'll do it as a small follow up to this one-shot.

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There's a reason why the Demon elite are very protective of their private life...you see: everyone has a side of their personality only the ones closest to us are allowed to see and for the demon prince, the avatar of pride and the loyal butler this is no exception.

—Uhhh?!?! You're going out?!!—all 6 brothers questioned in surprise.

—Yes, and I hope that when I arrive, the house is not a mess!— Replied the avatar of pride as he placed a distinctive blue coat over his shoulders.

—Ehhh? Are you going on vacation to the human realm, Lucifer ?! And without me ?! How cruel!—Asmodeus inquired dramatically, hugging his older brother's arm like a child begging his mother to go out and play.

The black-haired demon was unfazed by the avatar of lust childish demeanor, released himself from his grasp with ease and continued with his speech.

—Diavolo has important matters to resolve in the human realm and he needs me and Barbatos to support him, it is not a vacation.—

—I hope all of you behave in my absence; Satan, you're in charge, ”Lucifer declared.

-What?!?! Satan in charge ?! - the rest complained.

—As much as it bothers me to admit it… Satan is the most responsible among you — Lucifer looked at the blonde demon in the eyes — I'm counting on you — and the avatar of pride came out hurriedly before he could even hear the answer of the fourth brother.

—Don't— whispered the avatar of wrath as his lips settled into a sinister smile at the plan that was being formulated in his head.

[…]

—Ahhh ~ finally it's THE day! I can't wait any longer !!!— upon hearing the title "prince of hell" we could normally assume that the person bearing it is someone intimidating, ruthless and rude; but there he was ... the heir to the throne of the Devildom jumping all over the place with immeasurable enthusiasm, glow sticks in each hand and a white shirt with the image of a sun with the face of Luis Miguel on the chest.

—Diavolo, I'd appreciate it if you could calm down a bit.

—Calm down?! Lucifer! I have been waiting for this for years! I will finally be able to be at a concert of my favorite singer from the human realm! Do you have any idea how much I struggled to get these tickets?!?! I had to do it the human way! line and everything!—The redhead claimed at the lack of enthusiasm from his best friend.

—His majesty stopped time and he moved a couple of old ladies to be able to acquire the tickets in the front row; it would be appreciated if you showed a bit of enthusiasm, Lucifer.—Barbatos finally spoke, the same formal and cold smile always etched on his face to which Lucifer could only replay in the same way.

—Oh! I won't let you two ruin my night with your formalities! At least pretend you're as excited as I am!—Diavolo begged but his stoic companions could only mutter a mocking “yeeei”as they waved their respective glow sticks reluctantly and the prince of hell could only roll his eyes.

[…]

Mistakes happen, they happen when we least expect them and even worse; at too inconvenient moments.

—Quick, Lucifer, we're next!— The tallest of the 3 hurried, still jumping up and down.

—Give me a second — The black-haired demon searched in his pockets for the tickets that Diavolo had asked him to keep until the day of the concert because he was afraid of losing them among all the paperwork that week and knowing the responsible nature of his friend he entrusted them to him .

The thing is ... Lucifer could not find the tickets ... and when he realized this, with all the tranquility of the world: he cleared his throat, clasped his hands and positioned himself firmly like a teacher about to explain something to a child .

—Diavolo, in terms of tickets… I forgot the ttickets— At first the prince of hell gave his friend an incredulous look and even proceeded to laugh.

—Sure, stop playing games, Lucifer— the redhead expected a laugh from his friend followed by him handing over the tickets, but that gesture never came.

—Your Majesty I think Lucifer is not joking— Barbatos corrected

And oh my god, have you ever seen a child's face when you take a toy that he just can’t have out of his hands? And then the endless crying begins? Yes, at that moment the heir to the throne of hell simply bursted in tears.

—It’s Okay, your majesty, everything is going to be fine— The butler tried to calm him down by patting him on the back.

—Diavolo, I can buy others, don't worry— But the redhead only limited himself to pointing at the sign above the theater entrance "Sold out" was written in large letters.

—Well… I guess I owe you the next concert, how about we go to your favorite restaurant, hmm? My treat — Despite his offer, his friend only let out a sigh of despair and helplessness.

—You have no idea where you left them?

—Ummm… I guess in my office…

—Tell your brothers to bring them to you! Please!!— Lucifer was quick to dial Satan's number, because by the way things were he would not be surprised if Diavolo's despair at this moment led him to pray.

By pure chance, Lucifer noticed that he had several unanswered messages and calls from one of the angels: Simeon

—You can't reach them?—the prince questioned

Lucifer just stood there, glaring at his phone with a mixture of regret and anger.

"Damm you Simeon" was all that came to mind.

—Oh? Aren't those Solomon, Simeon and Luke?—Barbatos voice interrupted his thoughts.

And sure enough, there at the entrance of the theatre were the inhabitants of purgatory hall, dressed in human world clothing, waiting in line, the youngest of the group with tickets in hand.

—Oh!? I didn't knew they had bought tickets for this!

—They didn't

—How do you know?

—Because those are YOUR tickets!

—What?!?!—Diavolo's confused expression was quickly met with Lucifer's phone right in front of his face, showing him the text messages.

—I'll go get them—but before the avatar of pride could take another step towards the purgatory hall group, Barbatos hand stopped him in his tracks.

—Your Majesty, I believe Luke's birthday is just in a few days and he seems to be enjoying himself, why don't we let them keep the tickets?—the butler suggested politely.

It took a couple of seconds for the prince of hell tho make his desicion, but the smile on the small angel face made all trace of doubt dissipate, and with a heavy sigh he finally spoke.

— leat it be, Lucifer...

—...are you sure of it, Diavolo?

—yes, perhaps next year we'll go together...all of us, right?

Lucifer was surprised but with a small smile forming on his face he said yes.

—Now... who's hungry?! We should go to the fanciest place in town, after all, It's Lucifer's treat!—the prince joked

—Perhaps the restaurant we attended last year would be fine, your Majesty?

—Ah yes! That would do!

And while Lucifer's wallet had started regretting his desicions, he was happy he could spend this evening with his dearest friends.

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I was going to put a drawing of the fantastic three hanging out but I only did Diavolo bc while I was finishing Barbatos and Lucifer my computer crashed and didn't save anything :c

So here's a Diavolo in front of bellas artes to compensate:

If you find any grammatical errors let me know! I'm trying to improve my english and that would help me so so much!

I will forever thank you if you go check out my other profile: @aileysmirnov  where I post things about my OC: edits, one-shots, imagines, art, etc. If you like Greek mythology and the bat family maybe you would get to be as fond of her as much as I am!

Anyway, thank you for reading!

[angry-kid-with-no-money]

thank u for tagging meeeeee!!!! this is exiting for me ngl!! answers below the cut, id on't know whats happened to my bullet point/numbers and i cbb to fix it so

What is your favourite character in the Foxes?

I gotta say Aaron, he’s just a guy and most of his lines are so fucking funny

And favourite in the series aside from this one?

I think Kevin or Jean

Drop your beloved head-canons about both!

I will always hc that aaron isn’t homophobic he just hates his families partners/hearing about their sex lives. I have many hcs about Kevin and Jean but my favourite is that when Jean gets out the next and lives with the Trojans, the first healthy way they start communicating again is sending really short simple postcards to each other

Fic(s) you are always happy to recommend or fic tropes you will always read.

My favourite two tropes are the ones where one of the foxes is a child or the ones where neil is a raven and the fic I like the most combines them both its called Little Birds (https://archiveofourown.org/works/46731118)

And my other favourite troup is kevin angst but theres so many good ones of that, I just couldn’t pick but this one is really god for it: Dead of Night by NikNak22 (https://archiveofourown.org/works/45261544)

Which of the books is your favourite

I actually could not pick if you held a gun to my head

Opinions on AFTG audiobook release?

So my only experience with the audiobook is a short clip that was on tiktok of the beginning of the “you know I get it” speech and I actually kind of hate it sooo

If you write/draw/create aftg stuff, what is your favourite work of yours?

None of mine are published, I think my fav of my own is the docto who crossover or the newsies crossover

Favourite event/plot point in the books

The “you know, I get it” speech or when Neil punches riko. They’re both so iconic

was reading through replies and remembered i absolutely love the bit where kevin switches his raquet to his left hand and crowd goes fucking wild. if i ever got to see it on tv i'd loose my mind. like edits of that moment???? can you imagine. anyway

Least favourite part of canon (can include Extra content)

The fact that Riko dies at the end, like I kind of understand why she did it and it’s justifiable, espec cause she no longer liked him as a character but I wish he hadn’t died and something else happened

If you could sent Nora an ask and get answer, what would you ask about?

Literally any information about Katelyn, her last name?? what does she look like?? Anything, I beg

If you could make an idea of your choice canon to aftg, what would it be?

The foxes never split up or whatever, they’re all friends for the rest of their lives and nothing bad happens to them after that

Feel free to share some random hot takes if you like

Nora’s writing isn’t as horrific as people make it out to be. The fandom acts like it’s the worst, incomprehensible writing ever and it’s really really not

Thea was also a victim of a the nest.

AFTG Fandom ask game !

by Cavan bc I need to interrogate my friends feel free to reply in replies or reblog! feel free to reply even if I haven't tagged you probably unsure if I can call you a friend but I'll be happy to read your replies!

What is your favourite character in the Foxes?

And favourite in the series aside form this one?

Drop your beloved head-canons about both!

Fic(s) you are always happy to recommend or fic tropes you will always read.

Which of the books is your favourite

Opinions on AFTG audiobook release?

If you write/draw/create aftg stuff, what is your favourite work of yours?

Favourite event/plot point in the books

Least favourite part of canon (can include Extra content)

If you could sent Nora an ask and get answer, what would you ask about?

If you could make an idea of your choice canon to aftg, what would it be?

Feel free to share some random hot takes if you like @noomyart @jtl-fics @dogintheboiler @thefoxesraven @poze-laceen @leedee013 @dianblch @yes-i-exist-shutup also shout out to ppl who have different names on all their socials so in consequence I think you are 3 different people!

[nyxx-nth]

how are you always such a genius???? share it with the rest of us i beg...

that is seriously absolutely PERFECT for how it should play out oml... i am in shambles.... you are from now on my new idea person, you have no choice *points gun* *it is very clearly a toy gun but shhh*

also, more thoughts on aspects of the au:

first of all, im thinking that before the aimee stuff maybe the band *wasnt* really well known. like, they were more of an underground sensation with a small diehard fanbase. but aimee knowing them (and LOVING them) sent them into the spotlight a bit- not like *super* famous or anything, but SIGNIFICANTLY more fame than before. enough to give them some ground in the music world. they also gain a bit of a french following from it and after ghost and aimee kinda become friends, he'll slip in some french influence or lyrics into songs from then on <3 maybe even when he learns french (cuz fuck it hes one of the girls in my heart and i want him to have female besties OKAY and i think if aimee knew he was gay she would instead want him to be her gay bestie (she's a little ignorant but her heart is in the right place)) they even have some songs entirely in french (always love a chance to put my terrible french skills to use somehow). also aimee is unfortunately straight in this au 😔 (/hj).

ALSO im thinking maybe toast and mary had something going on before the whole discourse blow up. like they started officially dating but both agreed it would be better to keep it private, at least for a while. eventually though, mary catches on before toast does that his feelings for her arent the same as hers for him, and she sits him down to talk about it. they end up agreeing to stay close friends instead. maybe she's even the one who makes toast realize how he really feels for ghost?? idk if im certain on any of this part though tbh,,, do i even want them to date in this au??? should it be before the discourse??? after??? should it be public??? private?? does toast already know how he feels for ghost??? should toast and ghost be ex lovers to boot instead of just ex friends??? mannnn i dont even know 😔😔😔

also oooo ALBUM COVERSSS you are so right. fuck, i feel like i dont have a good grasp on that at all tbh.... any ideas from you? lol. i might have to do actual research into them or smth LMAOOO i feel so out of my depth with it aur naurrr

also, about jimmy.... honestly i should write something for him lol. my specialty is sorta kinda gore and murder stuffs in writing heh,,, i like to get a bit grotesque. yet, i havent really written much of anything with him,,, probably because ghost occupies my brainspace 99.9999% of the time. but it's definitely exciting to me to add that plot into the story. i think at first it would be a background-ish thing, but as the story progresses and the toast and ghost rivalry starts to resolve itself, the jimmy and gavin plotline stuff becomes more prevalent and the focus starts to shift to the murders and them as potential victims or smth. (if you cant tell by now, i plan this to be a long story lolol. idk if i'd want it to be one long story or split into different stories tho 🤔)

i say its my specialty of sorts, but i still feel like its cringe and bad ngl LMAO. i have a fic on ao3 for a different fandom i fell out of (fortunately, an impossible feat when it comes to vt because it is always somewhere in my brain at all times always) that was a stalker and a nightshift convenience store worker and i cannot physically reread it because i feel like its all so cringeeee. i also fell out of the fandom for it RIGHT as it was getting into the murdery parts too lmao.

also adding on: Ethan Fields - Cooler Than Me. It's so Ghost fr.

Ashamed to admit that just now when Cannibal by Kesha came on my brain immediately created a celebrity au where Jimmy is a controversial music artist and a string of high profile celebrity murders been happening lately….

Oh no wait, now I’m thinking of an entire au with other chars too—

Ghost is also a musical artist, being the lead singer in a band with Spooker, Colon, and Katrina (it used to be Ghost, Toast, and Katrina but a big fallout happened before any of them rose to fame that led to Toast leaving back to England and eventually becoming a model). I imagine Katrina as bassist, Spooker on drums, and Colon on guitar. Ghost used to be drummer, and Toast guitarist and lead vocalist, but Ghost took over vocals after his departure and Colon took over for Toast, with Spooker being a very last minute addition by chance when they heard how good he was and Katrina convinced Ghost having someone else on drums would leave him more time to focus on vocals and writing. Also, I feel like all of them would sing but Ghost is the one who sings most of the songs (also he can scream crazy good and I stand by that (also it’s hot af lmao)). Colon probably had mild experience in singing but has improved a lot since then, and Spooker had NO natural or learned singing skills going into the band and is still not quite up to par with his bandmates, but he’s improved /so/ much.

Toast would probably do modeling cuz, duh. But also he writes books and a lot of people won’t give them a chance because they think he’s just a pretty face but he’s actually a talented writer of supernatural mysteries. Also, more recently he got into acting and blew up on the big screen and prefers the acting gigs because he feels like he gets to showcase more of his skills and get more appreciation for them than he got in modeling.

Gavin probably is a stunt double for Toast. Besides that, I see him probably being Jimmy’s dealer (Jimmy does copious amounts of drugs he is never not on cocaine idk what to tell u /hj). He prefers to keep out of the actual spotlight of celebrity lifestyle, and instead reap his own benefits from it in the background.

Mary. Hmmm….. I feel like she needs something that’s not like, typical spotlight celebrity. I remember a certain someone (wink wink) talking about ballerina Mary… I think that’s actually perfect. She’s a skilled and renowned ballerina, but also, I think she figure skates. And does some modeling on the side—maybe how she met Toast? I’ll have to think more on it.

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30. “I’ve been in love with you since we were kids”

+

8. “I want it to hurt”.

pairing | soobin x reader

genre | fluffy smut!

w/c | 3.1k

a/n ; kinda cried while writing this, ngl I hope you like it though! @lovesickchoi-reads @lovesickchoi

"soobin can you stop it? please?".

"why? you look so cute". he laughs at one of your baby photos on your top shelf. you had to be about three years old when the picture was taken and you were butt naked, sitting in your kitchen cabinet covered in peanut butter. it was an embarrassing photo for you but soobin couldn't keep his eyes off of it.

you snicker, folding a shirt and placing it in your suitcase, peering over at him as he decided to look through your family photo album instead.

"you're supposed to be helping me. not laughing at my crazy looking baby pictures".

"hey I am helping", he says as he continues flipping through the photos. "are you taking this with you?".

"no. I mean you're enjoying it more than me I think maybe you should keep it. plus what do I look like taking a family photo album to college?".

soobin shrugs sarcastically. "I don't know...maybe you'll look like a girl who loves her family?".

you laugh. "shut up. you know I love them. I'd rather not take an album with me though".

he smiles a bit before closing the photo book and placing it back on your shelf that was near vacant might he add. you've been packing and cleaning your room for weeks, anticipating moving into your dorm tomorrow morning. you were fortunate enough to have your parents, soobin's parents and soobin, helping you along the way. the choi's were like your second set of parents for almost 14 years. you were grateful for them.

"pft. what are you going to do at a college all the way out in california anyway?". soobin asks, watching you pack your things with care. he dreaded this day for as long as he could remember. but he didn't want to be the sappy one here, admitting that he'd be nothing without his best friend.

"you know it's been my lifelong goal bin. to go to college in california, to learn and grow in an environment like that. san diego is so beautiful".

soobin thought for a moment. "yeah, I guess it is beautiful out there".

"what? you don't think so?".

"of course I think so. who doesn't think california is beautiful?".

you smile to yourself, stuffing your toiletries into the front of your suitcase. "are you going to miss me soob?".

soobin scoffs and folds his arms. he was trying to act as cool as can be but he couldn't stop thinking about how much fun he's had with you his whole life. the both of you did everything together. he didn't know what he was going to do for the next four years without you.

"of course not. I can manage this neighborhood while you're gone".

you chuckle with a childhood memory coming to mind. "and go into mr. franklin's backyard and make mud pies?".

"yeah, and i'll send you pictures of the earth worms just so I could scare you one more time". he laughs.

"oh i was not scared of the earth worms!".

"yes you were don't even lie".

"i was not. you were always the mean one always teasing me and shoving them in my face every chance you got".

"because it was funny".

you squat down to zip your suitcase closed. "yeah and you were a meanie".

"but after I scared you I used to always beg my mother to give me extra money to get you ice cream from the ice cream truck. I wasn't as mean as you think".

you laugh a little. ''that's true. those snow cones used to always melt in my hand though".

"and your lips and mouth would be all blue".

"and then you used to clean my face for me didn't you?".

"yeah...". soobin smiles a little at the memory. "yeah I did". he repeats. he thought a little longer and sighs. he figured he should dispose his pride. I mean look at your room. it looked nothing like the room the both of you used to have sleepovers in anymore. or the one he used to sleep in for his after school naps. or the one that he would sneak into just to come talk to you late at night in. the room was bland now. almost as if the fondest of memories the both of you shared wasn't there anymore.

"I'm going to miss you". he finally blurts out. it kind of shocked you though, soobin never really said sappy things to you before. you laugh a little to keep the moment from becoming too heartfelt.

"I'm going to miss you too soobin".

"I'm serious. I've spent almost my entire life with you. I don't know what I'm going to do with you being so far from me".

"you know I'm just a phone call away".

"yeah but that isn't enough for me".

"what do you mean?".

"I've been in love with you since we were kids. a phone call won’t replace the days I can just come talk to you or be with you whenever I want”.

your heart sank. you wasn’t expecting soobin to admit that. Not now anyway. especially when both of your feelings were fresh and just now surfacing. you were hoping you could’ve dealt with being in love with soobin while you were away. hoping that you could’ve shoved it to the back of your mind somewhere. but now you knew since the feelings were mutual, you could never get past this.

he blinks and you could see the small droplets of tears rolling down his cheeks. you immediately stand up and approach him trying your best to dry his tears with the sleeve of your shirt.

“don’t cry soobin”.

“I’m sorry for crying I know it isn’t your fault. I know this is your dream and I’m happy for you. I really am. I just really love you”.

“I love you too. I’m not doing this to spite you or anything I don’t want to leave you. you know how much fun we’ve had these past 14 years? if I wasn’t so sick of the damned town I would’ve stayed here for school”.

soobin nods and chuckles a little through his tears. “I guess this town is pretty shitty isn’t it? I don’t blame you for leaving”.

you bite your lips while thinking for a moment. your idea was risky but you no longer cared.

“you remember that night we were playing hide and seek with all the other neighborhood kids? and we hid behind the shrubs at the end of the block?”.

“yeah. they couldn’t find us for hours”.

you fold your arms and smirk. “yeah. and then what else happened?”.

soobin rolls his eyes becoming embarrassed. “I may or may not have kissed you”.

“do you want to may or may not kiss me again?”.

soobin laughs a bit. “yeah I do”.

you wrap your arms around his neck and he guides you into his warmth, pressing his lips against yours softly yet careful. he didn’t want to surpass his limits but the longer your body was pressed into his like this the more he couldn’t help himself. once the both of you depart for air you were right back at it again, hungrily kissing each other like you’ve always wanted to these past years.

you hadn’t realized you wanted him just as much as he wanted you. you found yourself slipping your tongue in his mouth, allowing him to do whatever he wanted with it. he didn’t react how you thought he would, being flustered and refusing to go further. but he lazily tongue kisses you back with his hand falling into the curve of your hips. the both of your hearts beat in the perfect synchronization of nervousness and need. unsure of what to do next but wanting it all to unravel at the same time.

you pull him, walking backwards to your bed until you both fell on it, bumped heads and laughed at one another’s stupidity. he laughs into another kiss with you breathing in your breaths and trying to cope with the butterflies that swarmed in his stomach. he knew he’d be losing his virginity as some point in his life but he didn’t think it would be with you. all the while you were in the same boat as him, thinking he was probably experienced enough to handle you. but truly you were both just clueless teenagers, absolutely in love and kissing like you never had before.

his lips soon left yours and instead traveled to random places on your neck. you exhaled heavily with his heart shaped lips kissing each spot gently before sucking it a little. he didn’t know the recipe for good purple hickies but from what he saw in the movies he was sure this was how it’s done. your fingers fiddled with the small hairs at the nape of his neck and his fingers were fiddling with the hem of your shirt, lifting it ever so slowly. he detaches his lips looking pretty proud of himself for creating real life hickies. he then kisses you prior to looking you lovingly down into your eyes.

“is it okay if I see you?”.

his voice was in a hushed whisper and he was serious. when you both were little and had to change clothes in front of each other you both would cover your eyes. perhaps soobin asking this question was the most adorable moment you’ve ever encountered in your life.

“of course you can see me soobin”.

you sit up a bit gliding your shirt over your head and tossing it to the floor beside you both. it was weird seeing you in just a bra but he thought your body was beautiful nonetheless.

“can I see you too?”. you ask. he removes his shirt and tosses it to the opposite side. you had no idea soobin’s body looked this good. he smirks to himself reading the shock on your face.

“guess we’ve both been missing out huh?”.

you caress his cheek with your hand. “yeah we have”.

he smiles into another kiss with you, his hands now roaming your chest and yours now gliding across the span of his back. you thought soobin couldn’t possibly be a virgin with the way he was touching you. his hands were so careful and soothing. he wasn’t handling you roughly and he wasn’t in some sort of rush to get your clothes off either. in fact, you were the one that had to guide him into unclasping your bra. he felt like covering his eyes once it was fully off but he had to remember the both of you were much older now and he now had your consent. he cups the both of your boobs and kisses them delicately. at first he was nervous about sucking your nipples but he figured since today would be your last day with him for a while, he’ll try his best to make you feel good.

he did so and you were pleased, sucking in a breath at the pleasurable feeling. he was so pretty and he looked so soft like this. his eyes closed and his pink lips coddling your nipples obediently. it was relieving to hear your small mewls at his actions, it gave him the confirmation he needed to continue. he hoped it seemed as though he knew what he was doing. he snakes his hands down between your thighs with his heart pounding in the process. he flutters his eyes open and flares up at you though, waiting for your consent to go further.

you breathe out a moan. “it’s okay. you can touch me”.

and with that he rubs you as best as he knew how, massaging your lower set of lips through your sweats. you just didn’t know how needy you were though, steadily grinding your hips into his hands. soobin had never saw you like this before and it turned him on more than he’d ever known. the broken hushed moans that left your lips made him grow in his pants. He wanted more of you. And badly. he just didn’t know how to initiate it.

“fuck me soobin”.

he raises up and kisses the spot just beneath your ear while tugging your sweats down. you decide to help him, unbuckling his jeans and tugging those down also. you remove each other’s undergarments like so, tossing those to the side as well. once you peered at soobin’s length and girth you swallowed. you only demanded he starts fucking you to make it seem like you weren’t as much of a virgin as you were. but he was about to, and now you were nervous.

“are you a virgin?”. he whispers into the distance between the both of your faces.

“yeah”, you breathe. finally admitting it. “yeah I am. are you?”.

he nods. “me too”.

“you are? what happened with naomi? jelenna?”.

soobin shrugs. “we’ve never had sex. or never went further than making out. what happen with josh? or chris?”.

“you’re crazy if you thought I let those bastards have sex with me”.

soobin laughs a little. “well with the way you used to talk about them you were making it seem like you were experiencing everything you’ve never experienced before. like you had the perfect relationship finally”.

you toyed with a strand of his bangs. “yeah. maybe I was doing that so you wouldn’t know how miserable I was with them”. you thought a bit more. “and how much I really wanted to be with you”.

he leans down and layers another kiss on your lips, rubbing your thighs smoothly. he pulls away. “I love you”, he whispers. “now let’s have sex”.

you laugh and pull him in for another heated kiss. the one that made you forget about your past lovers or the things you haven’t experienced. the one that made your world stop and revolve around just you and soobin. when he felt as though the timing was right he positions himself at your entrance, inching himself in slowly. your back arches off the bed and you gasp into the cavern of his mouth.

“I’m sorry I can stop”.

“no no please, just keep going”.

he went strictly by your word and kept pushing himself in until he filled you completely. and by that time even he was gasping at how tight, wet and warm you felt. it hurt of course but you decided to deal with the pain. you wouldn’t want to feel it with anyone else anyway. he steadily rocks his hips into you gently sucking in breaths between his teeth. he knew sex felt good but he wasn’t expecting it to feel this good. And after the pain faded neither did you.

you coil your legs around his waist to make things easier. he grips your thighs and peppers kisses along your cheeks. he uses another hand to sneak it into the roots of your hair. it was his first time and he was shy. maybe he was gripping your hair too tight or gripping your thighs too hard. he could see you wincing beneath him and immediately began to apologize.

“I’m sorry I’ll stop doing that”.

“no keep doing it. I want it to hurt”.

he grips a bundle of your hair tightly once again, grinding into you trying to keep his groans at a minimum. all the while shaky breaths and soft whines escaped yours every time he moved into you. your hands entangle in his hair. you couldn’t believe yourself. you thought it was going to take you years to finally lose your virginity to someone. you didn’t think it would be to your best friend.

soobin’s eyes fall into yours in a swarm of emotions. love burned in them, hypnotizing enough to make you refuse looking elsewhere. he loved you for everything that you were. beautiful, smart, ambitious and caring. he had you to himself for most of his life he knew there was going to be someone out there in California seeing exactly what he saw in you. the realization hurt him a little. he didn’t want you to forget about him. he leans down and kisses your nose and reaches his hand over to intertwine your fingers with his. with hazy eyes you glared up at him, missing him already.

“I love you so much”. you whisper between moans. he pushes your hair out of your flushed face. “I love you more”. he pecks your lips shortly after. his hips snap up into you in such a way that made your back arch again. you stuttered curse words beneath your breath. instead of groaning aloud and embarrassing himself he trapped his noises in the vibration of a kiss. you failed to kiss back as prompt but it was only due to the bliss you were feeling. you felt your body shudder.

he stretches his hands at his sides to hold your legs up, he masturbated enough to know that his orgasm was coming soon. he hoped yours was too. being the first one to cum would be a little embarrassing. overhearing his breathing becoming heavier you speak up. “make sure you pull out soobin”.

“I will don’t worry......unless”. he jokes while smirking.

“don’t play around like that. I’ll make sure we never fuck again”.

“yeah because you’ll be pregnant right?”. he jokes again. you playfully hit his chest. he tongue kisses you again fucking into you a bit harder trying his best to chase his awaiting orgasm. the headboard rocks against the wall loudly. you grab his wrist and guide his hand down to your clit and his circles it with his fingers. sinful noises belch from your throat as you were close, too close to even warn him. your hips buck up into his hand as your fluids left you and he pulls out once his fluids left him.

immediately after you were finished soobin lays his head on your chest completely out of breath and needing your warmth one last time. you finger curl his hair admiring how unusually clingy he was being. he intertwines his fingers with yours and kisses the back of your hand.

“don’t forget about me. alright?”.

“I’ll never forget about you soobin”.

“I mean it. who knows who you’ll meet out there. just make sure you come back home to see me every once in a while”.

“I love you too much to stay away from you forever. don’t get into too much trouble while I’m gone though okay?”.

his nods his head on your chest, hugging your body tighter.

hi bugssss! could i please request fluff 30 and smut 8 with soobin?? ilysm❤️

ofc! !! Ily2 babe!!