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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.
#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it#asmr#audio roleplay#rp audio stuff#redacted audio#anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud#and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators#but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it#which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium#like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform#and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication#and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements#like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh#tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that#and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno#i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it#bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it#this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable#but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself#feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything#who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl#anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now#actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon#u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.
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#i feel so incredibly ungrateful for being sad on my birthday ugh#i just#i'd hoped like. a few irl friends would've like. remembered to wish me a happy birthday?#but i guess im just. not really that important to them#that's just a really painful realisation#nothing really. worked out the way i planned it today either so like#i should just be grateful i had a birthday at all i guess#ignore me#delete later maybe idk
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I had to ask since I saw it, but do you have an Amino account?? Just asking since I saw this and since it happens so commonly, wondered if it was an impersonation account
WHAT???!! That is NOT me, I don't have an Amino account!
Thank you for telling me about this
Please, do not trust the impersonators. My accounts are listed in my Linktree. Ask me if you're not sure.
#Asks#What the heck x'D#This shouldn't be as funny as it is#But what the hecc is written in the bio LOL#I tried to google this account to report it#Stumbled across another imposter account ASDFGHJKL#I didn't find the one you shared..#Either way i couldn't figure out how to report for impersonation :////#If anyone can report the account I'd be grateful#SOMEONE FOUND A 3RD impersonator account!#AMINO LMAO WHAT#Now if i ever make an acc they took all my handles LOL
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At this point, does Luz ever sleep alone? Or do Amity and Hunter kind of have an unspoken agreement that someone should always be with her??
it's Pretty Rare for luz to sleep alone, if it ever happens. this ask got me thinking about it and going.... waugh....
i'm Very soft for the thought that, like. amity starts checking hunter's schedule. and mysteriously showing up whenever he's doing a night shift. aka when he can't sleep with luz because he's guarding her door.
amity being a totally-not-emotionally-involved cat about it like "i got a bad feeling about my roomies so i'm sleeping here tonight," and it's only like the fourth or fifth time it happens that hunter realizes Oh. this is not a streak of random uncharacteristic paranoia. this is amity making sure someone is near luz while she sleeps.
i don't think luz would pick up on it for a while because she's so certain that amity and hunter's whole Thing is, like.... a self-isolated relationship completely unrelated to her. amity thinks she's being really obvious in her friendship overtures and luz cannot read any of her cues at All. autism4autism.
#hunter being unsure whether amity is doing this for his sake or luz's but being desperately grateful either way. and hating it#amity is like i don't want to be in her inner guard i don't want to be obligated to come here i don't want to be under your command#but this is what friends do when their friends are crazy. right?? we both know she's crazy.#and hunter being like. well i'd defend her honor if it was anybody else but yeah alright. you know the deal#waugh. kiddos.#replies#toh#princess luz au#shitty idiot repression gang#and who is that other witch#lumity
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I SLEPT (â ïŸâ ââ ăźâ ââ )â ïŸâ *â .â â§
#(without taking more pills)#I was so tempted to because I did need to be awake for something at a certain time today#but I knew that even if I'd sleep faster with more pills I'd sleep worse and be groggier in the morning#so I used my non-medicine coping strategies to fall asleep and they worked#I am so grateful that YouTube and podcasts exist#I think the tea I drink helps a little too even if it might be placebo but it tastes good either way so I don't care#and I also make up lists in my mind#my thoughts never really stop so might as well try to distract myself with something that isn't too 'heavy'#I really thought I wasn't going to be able to sleep and I'm still surprised that I did#but I have been trying to cope better and not use more meds than I need to#I am trying
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When you were too passionate in the tags (and hit tag limit) that Tumblr starts breaking around you
#ernest talks#continuing where i was#i have so little time recreationally and everyone around me is busier and I've gotten more anxious and nervous over the years#and that goes for everyone else i talk to or want to talk to#and i try creating these community events like hangouts or celebrations or anything to get people coming in#or try to host stuff and we're mostly busy#I'm super super grateful when we have those hangouts work!!! I'm always so happy when people can join or make time for them#i kinda just... mourn that this too will go away and people will dissipate and the fandom goes inactive again#so i really cherish the time we make to ask each other about our day when it comes to mind#<- pointing to me saying this because I've gotten more edged in recent years and stop talking to others so i can reflect#feel like I've been too salty on fandom lately (lately like the last two years)#i also have tons of posts about like the LL fandom not being dead and I'd like that to be true#but ahhhh busy busy busyyyyyyy#I'm also generally favorable to communicating on discord instead of tumblr#which not everyone uses casually#so that's also a huge factor#asks are fun but tbh i don't get a lot of conversations continued that way#it ends up a one and done thing#either there's significant pressure in the reply to make it good that isn't usual in other text form convos#or some other reason i don't know of#conversations end quicker on tumblr so i end up relying on discord convos more
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A controversial thought just occurred to me that I've tried to put into words many times now about my hero (Janis Joplin) and other musicians and people who died "tragically" (especially in a "self-inflicted" way), and that is: every time I see someone online, on Youtube or Facebook or wherever, say something (always unprompted/unrelated to what the video/photo/article/etc. is about) along the lines of, "What a waste of their talent/skill their death was," I think, What a waste their death was? What have you said of their life? Why do you only choose to comment on, and apparently highlight, their death? Did their life, and their accomplishments, and what they brought to the world while they were alive mean nothing to you? Have you not a SHRED of gratitude that they were alive at all?
I am quite sure that there is some sort of psychological explanation (and I say that with the confidence of only having a basic understanding of psychology) for why people focus particularly on people's (in this case, celebrities') "tragic" deaths, but is it not a tragedy in itself to reduce those people's lives to their deaths and the fact that they're dead? Why not appreciate what they were able to share with us while they were here? You know?
#crystal visions of lilies in the valley#like I really don't...get why people would say that so randomly.#did you run out of ways to express your gratitude? here let me get you a thesaurus. I can help with that. I MEAN...:'(#maybe it's just me and having lived most of my life with mental illness I recognize that I NEED to look at the things - and people -#that bring me the most joy with positivity and gratitude. in order to cope I need more of what I cannot generate inside myself.#so I look outward to what other people have done and it makes ME grateful to be alive to be a witness of that...even in retrospect.#like yes I will easily admit that my thoughts on this are seen through my lens of mental illness but...oh. well. maybe that's what else#people are lacking (NOT mental illness. LOL): EMPATHY. because that's often what I feel toward (people like Janis) too...#well hrm. now I don't know if THAT complicates my thoughts any either. because...MUST EVERYONE have empathy? it is certainly#valuable and a benefit but...yeah. hm. other mental health stuff to consider uh-huh. well. yes this is rather a complex issue I guess.#that doesn't cancel out the rest of this post but it does complicate it. anyone have any ideas????? please. I'd love to hear other thoughts
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(wip) fuck it friday (on saturday)
Rules: Post up to five (5) filenames of your WIPs; not titles, file names.
Post a snippet from one of them. Snippet must be words you wrote in the last 7 days. Weâre posting progress here. If you havenât made any, go make some and come back to post!
After youâve posted, people can send you an ask with one of your file names. You must then write 3 sentences in that file.
totally meant to do this yesterday but then I got distracted, and you know how that goes... tagged by the amazing @the-likesofus @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy and @shortsighted-owl thank y'all so much!! ily <3
every time a tag game like this comes around, I always wish I named my docs in a more interesting way, and then I never change the names of any of my docs. anywaaaay, the names of my current wips are:
fisting wip
nancy/marjan get caught?
fake dating au
wax play wip
smutfic for minja (psst @lilbuddie)
technically i don't even have a doc for minja's fic yet, since everything i've written for it is in my notebook, but i figured since that's the fic i'm sharing a snippet of, i should list it? lol
please don't judge this, i wrote it yesterday and haven't looked at it since:
It's something he would usually be eagerly listening to and asking so many questions about, but Eddie's hand is on his thigh, hot to the touch even through Buck's jeans, and he can't focus on anything but his boyfriend. He rubs circles into Buck's inseam with his thumb, and it takes all of Buck's willpower not to glare at him for the torturous touch. But they can't afford too much attention on them, so Buck refrains, pretending he's engrossed in the conversation instead of barely listening. Chim and Maddie return a few minutes later, and Buck uses the distraction to shoot a pointed look at Eddie, grabbing the hand on his thigh to halt its movements. Wordlessly, he tries to beg Eddie to stop teasing him, but the older man just smirks before adopting a faux innocent expression and asking Maddie what song they signed up to sing.
no pressure tagging @mooshkat @lilbuddie @swiftiediaz @alyxmastershipper
#the way that most of my wips are smutty and that's why i havent finished them yet#why must I overthink smut and become insecure about it :(#eternally grateful to minja for being so excited about the fic i posted the snippet of because otherwise idk when i'd write that one either#but its such a fun idea and i'm glad for the practice writing smut and minja's excitement meaning i will actually finish it <3#mine#tag game#fuck it friday
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-->It was back to the Moonwood Mill library to check out a few books! The gang even brought the pets along -- though I think there was a brief moment of regret about that when Alice went inside and found Coty the librarian in full wolf mode with Fury coming off him in waves. Fortunately, he never actually started rampaging (hell, as you can see, he actually introduced himself politely to Shadow), so the gang was able to do what they liked --
-->Namely, read books and work out! Smiler was the first one in the gym, taking a nice long run on the treadmill before coming out for a little browsing and a chat with Coty, while Victor read a couple of books, played with Shadow, and then headed for the weight machine. Alice, for her part, remained pretty laser-focused on her werewolf reading, devouring (pun intended) the book on stereotypes and the romance novel about fated mates. (Which she is not particularly interested in -- sheâs FOUND her mate, thank you very much.) That completed her book goal, and thus the Werewolf Initiate aspiration! I had her choose the Emissary of the Collective aspiration afterward when the game prompted me, though I donât think Iâll have her complete it -- sheâs not really a âpackâ werewolf in that sense. But the one âlone wolfâ aspiration requires you to be mean, so thatâs not a fit either...really, I think Alice is just more interested in leveling up her XP so she can finally get a few more powers. :p
-->As for the pets, they kept themselves amused by wandering around and greeting the other patrons -- though when Kelly began complaining of a need to go to the toilet, I realized that, oh, yeah, there wasnât actually any pet stuff on the lot. So I threw a couple of food bowls and a covered litterbox into the âspare roomâ that looks like its falling apart by the entrance. Canât do anything else with it!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#the smiler#yeah my first thought upon seeing Coty like that was 'uh-oh'#but fortunately he never tipped over the edge#perhaps it was the fact that he was designated as the librarian that did it?#since he had a special role the game wouldn't LET him go rampaging?#hmmm#either way I am grateful he kept it together#and I just thought it would be funny for Alice to read the romance novel XD#it's so not her XD#as for being a werewolf none of the aspirations really fit her#she's just doing her own thing#if there was a nicer version of the lone wolf one maybe I'd have her do that#but as it stands#she's happy just chilling in her occult vee with Victor and Smiler#queued
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#thinking about Sandy again...#I wish we had taken a little more time to be with him before putting him down#I'm sure I'd feel like this either way#I just keep thinking about how scared he must have been#I feel like I rushed it because of my mom's stupid job#she left work for is and then had to go back#I'm so so grateful that my friend was with me before and after#we spent time with his body#just petting him and crying#I hope we were comforting enough for him#not a day goes by that I don't miss him or think about him#tw animal death#I wish I had a video of him meowing#maybe somewhere I hope#he was such a talker#TJ (his brother) is comforting me rn#god my friend was really there for me I love them so much#I would be in such a worser place without them#it's been hard living rn#el speaks
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if you watched yowapeda can you make one on Kuroda x Teshima? thanks. make it at most a T rate and do it in alpha-omega setting i guess.. oh yeah and make teshima female
Thank you!!
so my first instinct is that this is some kinda meme or troll or smthn but I've also heard horror stories of fic readers acting this entitled so it could be real but I don't understand social interaction at the best of times so I'm just gonna respond to this as if it was a serious request ig
hi! thank you for taking an interest in my work, but I do not take requests. I especially don't take requests for characters I'm only peripherally interested in and au's I'm not at all interested in. also no matter how politely you word it, it's kinda rude to approach someone you don't know and ask them to do a very specific thing for you unprompted (and on anon), and you're unlikely to get what you want this way.
and if this is a troll,,,,,,,, dude. you have better things to do with your time than bother some smalltime fic writer on tumblr dot com with your weird drama bs. I am only barely peripherally in any fandom. I don't talk to people, I barely interact even with the things I like, I literally just look, like, sometimes reblog, and rarely throw a fic or a fanart into the fray & then disappear back into the void. I am like The worst target for this nonsense lol
anyway, I hope you have a pleasant day!
#like rn I'm leaning toward someone wanting to make me mad at alpha/omega writers/readers or kuroda/teshima shippers#or maybe genderbenders or yowapeda fandom in general?? idk either way it ain't gonna work lol#also possible: general shit-stirrer#but again#this is literally like the worst blog they could've come to if they wanted that lmao#I am a frog sitting beside the pond#sometimes hopping onto a lily pad#but never jumping in for a swim#anyway I'm not even attempting to give this proper tags cuz this is Nonsense#tho if someone could explain if this is some kinda copypasta or widespread troll thing or smthn I'd be grateful !
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nooooo :(
#i'm so SAD my savefile for hellblade got fuckeeeed#i died during the fight with garmr and it respawned me at the the very beginning of the level instead of back in the fight#and i was like Hm Odd but i just. made my way back to the boss through the whole thing#EXCEPT there's a bit before i actually reach the area where you fight him where senua just. acts as if the fight is on#the camera locks onto Nothing and i can't maneuver myself around the level to actually reach the boss because i can't fucking SEE#tried exiting back to menu and coming back Same tried relaunching the game Same#:(#i DID manage to get my hands on my old steam cloud save file from before i got stuck#so if anyone knows how i can use that to replace my current save file i'd be VERY grateful#because afaik there's no other fix. it's either that or i have to play the whole game again#which is. v upsetting because that's near the ending of the game GKFJDJDK#aw#i was really enjoying this nooo#edit YAAAAAY i managed to replace my fucked savefile with my old Fine one !!!#i only lost like. an hour of gameplay instead of having to redo the whole game so PHEW#hopefully it doesn't happen again gkfjd
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has anyone here read hawk mountain by conner habib? i really didnt like it but i cant figure out if its just due to the narration
#its narrated by the author who apparently is a podcast host which is wild to me#because theres a lot of like. stops in the middle of sentences.#im usually a bit against letting authors narrate their own books anyway just because even neil gaiman is a good speaker#but narration is a craft (to give him his due neil gaiman does tend to do alright)#then again what i do enjoy about author narrated audiobooks is that they know exactly how to bring the text#but that wasnt the case in this one i feel like there was this one part where he was speaking a sentence that continued on a following page#and like. thought it was going one way and then flipped the page and had to tack on that last word that didnt fit the rhythm of his speech#either way that shouldve been a retake but no i didnt like it i also frankly thought this book said nothing and did nothing and was overly#repetitive and flowery in a way that grated in a way that didnt match the tone#like i like larocca's books because they are SO saccharine and grating but it fits with the obsessive quality of his characters#this was like... idk. i also didnt get a read on todd at all#i say this cause i was gonna say 'this was like the most dry dad-character in the world but then his musings are so flowery'#but like i dont even know if thats true#idk. let me know if you read this i'd love to hear some other thoughts !!! goodreads is goodreads so yk#recently read
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Heart song (OP81)
summary: in the middle of dating rumors, current music industry hit, y/n l/n releases a love song which leaves no space to deny her relationship. -> based on this request
fc: olivia rodrigo
cw: bad language,
a/n: the only bands I listen to are a bunch of old men or a bunch of dead man, safe to say I don't know much about bands so I made her a solo artist.
liked by: oscar piastri, sabrinacarpenter, and 1,556,895 more
yourusername: something coming soon, or whatever
comments:
ynsleftshoe: oscar in the likes before me again
hooklinesinker: girl same! and I got notifications on cococroissant: the struggle of making it here before pee ass tree vrom vrom is real
ynupdates: mother is cooking and eating for real
sabrinacarpenter: so excited for it!
justonechange: the bond between two girls scorned by a man is unbreakable breakmyback: sabrina is so me right now
likealovesong: my hears are about to be blessed again! thank you god for answering my prayers
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f1wagupdates: seems like a new wag may be entering the paddock, showcasing papaya!
mclaren driver, oscar piastri, has been spotted being touchy and affectionate with pop star, y/n l/n. this is not the first time the two have been spotted together.
comments:
vroomyroom: what the hell is lando doing in the likes of a wag updates page
norrizzz: he's so messy fr
user454: seriously what's wrong with you people, leave them alone!
justanichident: oscar's lucky he's good that polite cat smile because those hands do be wondering
breakmyback: I too am no better than a man (I'd be touching y/n's ass all the time if I could)
user334: ow! they're so cute together!
user331: power couple vibes
user564: ew, he can do so much better
user887: SHE can do much better
liked by hattiepiastri, nicolepiastri, yourusername and 1.345.221 more
oscarpiastri: great vacation, lots of sun
comments:
macmylarens: if bwoah was an instagram caption it would be tht
rockabye: who does bro think he's fooling with that soft launch
dropstoproll: like sir, we all know that's y/n l/n, now give us some good content
landonorris: you really poured your heart out with that caption mate
ynupdates: I spy with my little eye, y/n in the likes
justonechange: so ... he's not that bad
user423: I get y/n, he's hot
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yourusername: Summer When Everybody Ever Thought, Love In Knowledge Existed, Yellow Orchids Unidentified
see you on august 19th ;)
comments:
ynupdates: NEW ALBUM ALERT!!!
breakmyback: I don't care if a man driving in circles for living inspired it, new music is coming!
sabrinacarpenter: that caption triggered my dyslexia
justonechange: no because same user332: I thought I was the only one!
dotsaredotting: hear me out, the aesthethic of this album is orange (so far), and there's a car, mclaren F1 team is orange ("papaya" or wtv), oscar piastri drives for mclaren, oscar is soft launching, they wore spotted together = they're dating
crazyonce: this is so delulu it may be trululu
ynupdates: in case you thought you were crazy for not getting the caption, every words starts with a capital latters and all the letters together spell SWEET LIKE YOU which is either a song on the album or the name of the album
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yourusername: the way sun shines over beaches, the first taste of summer peaches, yellowed pages of a favorite book it may all be sweet but not sweet like you.
my new album, sweet like you, is now available to stream. this is such a special album for me which is why it's dedicated to such a special person. I love you, Osc, keep on being sweet.
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oscarpiastri: every day I'm grateful I get to have you. you're the sun of my morning, the stars of my evening, the breath of my lungs and the song of my heart. I love you, y/n.
comments:
landonorris: wow, you actually poured your heart out with this one
sabrinacarpenter: she was mine first car boy, remember that
hattiepiastri: I hope you know how much cooler than you your girlfriend is
yourusername: love you too, my sweet boy <3
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#f1 x reader#f1 fic#f1 x you#f1 x female reader#f1 fanfic#formula 1 x reader#formula one imagine#formula 1 x you#formula 1#f1 smau#oscar piastri x y/n#oscar piastri x reader#oscar piastri#oscar piastri x you#oscar piastri fanfic#op81#op81 x reader#oscar piastri imagine#oscar piastri smau#op81 x you#op81 x y/n#op81 social media au#op81 smau
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55 / 1.2k / first time meeting Ghost for medic reader
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"Don't expect to be treated special," the skull-faced man tells you. " if someone needs patching, which is unlikely, donât expect them to be a grateful patient." Ghost leads you through the halls, your medical bag slung over his shoulder. "And we don't care for small talk. Nor do we care how you do your job. Just do it. We don't care if you like us or not. Actually, I prefer you don't get any funny ideas about befriending me."
Is that all. Twenty minutes ago you arrived and already the Simon Riley so graciously rolls out the welcome wagon. You take it by the way he hefts your bag down that he's finished with his talk and you can get to work.
"That's perfectly fine," you tell him. Mildly, as if he didn't just tell you to mind your own fucking business in so many words. "Thank you. If you'll excuse me."
"I won't," he says. "The Captain tasked me with keeping an eye on you. Can't really do that if you walk away."
You halt and turn to peer at him. "I'm sorry?"
He doesn't even look at you. Instead, he begins casually cleaning an already shining knife. "Price told me to make sure you get nice and settled in. So I'm keeping watch."
Your jaw flexes. "Tell Captain Price I don't need a babysitter. You're dismissed."
He pauses The stare he gives you from behind that mask is halting. "You should really learn to be a bit more polite to your superiors. I don't take orders from you. If Price says you need supervision, I'm supervising."
"You're not my superior," you tell him. "And I'm not your recruit. I'm a contractor."
"Let me make one thing clear, medic," he growls. "Everyone on this base follows a chain of command, and that includes you. You might have a contract, you might not be a recruit, but on this team, you answer to the boss. And right now, he said I'm keeping an eye on you. So if you want to have words with me..."
He takes a step closer, leaning down to your eye level.
"I'd suggest you swallow them."
Even without the height difference, his gaze is like a physical weight. You stare back for a long moment. There's a challenge in those dark eyes, daring you to push him. He's looking for an excuse to put you in your place, and you know it.
You refuse to take the bait. Without saying a word, You turn your back and walk away, making your way toward the medical offices. He follows you, humming a tune and flipping the knife tip-first between his fingers.
If he wants to babysit, fine. It won't stop you from doing your goddamn job.
Days later, you're hard at work. It's near midnight. You've been on your feet for around 30 hours.
The door to the medical office slides open and Ghost walks in. It's clear from one look at him that he hadn't gotten any sleep either. He's been on a series of missions back to back for two days straight. With a deep sigh, he leans against the counter, arms folded over his chest.
"You're still awake?" he asks.
You glance at him. "You look like hell."
"Flattery will get you everywhere." His eyes sweep over you. He takes note of the dark circles under your eyes, the exhaustion clear on your face. It's obvious that you're just as tired as he is. "You've been at this too long. How long since you took a break?"
You look back down at your work. "Doesn't matter. There's still work to do."
He pushes himself off the counter and walks over to you. His footsteps are heavy on the floor. "This how you take care of yourself? Work until you pass out?"
"What's it to you? I do my job."
"You work yourself to exhaustion, you won't be able to do jack shit." He's now standing directly behind you. He looks down to see you're doing inventory of the medical supplies. He glances at how fast your fingers move, how you never stop. It's obvious that you're pushing yourself.
"I know what I'm doing."
"You're going to goddamn kill someone."
As you scan the list, you notice the tremors in your hands. Damn it.
"You have no room to talk." You turn around to stare him down so you don't have to keep seeing your own hands shake. Up close, he looks even worse. Christ, is that blood?
"Sit down," you command. "You're bleeding. You need a checkover."
He gives a deep sigh, tired. "S'not necessary."
He's downplaying the situation. Typical. But he does as he's told, sitting down on the exam table in front of you. There's no use trying to hide injuries from a medic.
You lift up the underside of his t-shirt to find the long cut stretching across his chest underneath. It was bandaged--though not well, and it's bleeding through. It isn't a life-threatening situation, but it'll need stitches, and it's definitely not the nothing he made it out to be.
"Hold this," you tell him, putting his shirt hem in his hand. "Keep still."
He winces. Despite his best efforts to hide the pain and discomfort, it's clear that it's more than a minor injury. He takes the shirt as instructed, holding it out of the way. He watches you in silence as you work, studying your focused expression and the methodical way you tend to his wound. You're not gentle by any means. But you're efficient. Even if it is annoying to have you fussing over him.
Though your work is hampered by your shaking hands and you're obviously frustrated about it. Your movements aren't as deft as they should be--not as quick as your eyes.
"Stay still," you snap.
"I'm not moving," he responds through gritted teeth.
Despite his best efforts to stay stoic, he frowns under his mask. Being patched up, sitting still and letting himself be tended to isn't something he's used to. Still, you're clearly in worse shape than he is. Somehow. His eyes dart from the sutures in his chest to your face.
You finish as quickly as you can. You know you've caused him unnecessary pain with this repair. But he shouldn't have gotten himself hurt in the first place. The cure should be more bitter than the cut, as far as you're concerned.
When you've snipped away the excess thread, you take a deep, slow breath, and it feels like whatever energy you had left escapes with it. You touch the stitches stretching across his pectoral muscle lightly. It jumps with the sudden tenderness. Then you apply a new bandage.
"There," you mutter. "Don't let it happen again."
"I don't plan on it." He scrutinizes your face again. Exhaustion and fatigue are etched into every feature. You're running on fumes. "You'd better go rest."
"Whatever happened to not caring about how I do my job?"
"Medic," he warns.
"I'm going," you mutter. "Don't you report this to Price again. I'm going."
"That's what I thought." He smooths his shirt down. He hides a smirk and rubs the aching stitches. "Don't let it happen again."
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Heyyyyy!!!
If you are up for it, I'd love to see you write a Silco x Reader Storyđđ»
Reader was like an older Sibling to Powder, Vi, Mylo and Clagger, making sure the kids were always okay. So that day, when almost everyone died and Silco took in Powder/Jinx, Reader went with them to keep an eye on Jinx. They turn more into a Parental Figure over time for her. Reader and Silco hated each other at first but tried to remain civil for Jinx. Over time feelings developed and both are in denial. So basically Enemies to Lovers.
Also Reader takes care of like the Bar, since they have already worked there when Vander was still alive. [Either behind the counter as a Bartender or as like Security]
Idc if its Fluffy or Angsty or smutty or smth!
I just need more Silco x Readerđđ»đ
at home (silco x reader)
words: 1517
genre(s): fluff, angst (i think..)
warnings: none
n/a: im sooo happy!!! thank u so much for requesting me!! this is my first request and i'm kinda nervous about it! i hope you like it and enjoy it a little!! i did my best!! want to remember that english isn't my first language, so im sorry if there are spelling or grammar mistakes, but this also helps me to improve :]
You were twenty years old when it all happened. When Mylo and Claggor died and Vi ran away after all the tragedy trying to rescue Vander from Silco's hands. You were the oldest of the three sisters, always under your care, even though you allowed them some freedom for their âmissionsâ you always kept an eye on your sisters, in case it was necessary to get them out of some trouble.Â
That day, you went to help your brothers get Vander back, making Powder promise not to move from the basement. When the whole mess happened, you were barely aware of whatever was going on. One of your arms had been trapped under the rubble and you heard Powder's distant cries for Vi to come back for her. As best you could, you pulled yourself together, pushed away the debris over your arm and made your way to find the youngest of your sisters, the one that sounded closest. The crying seemed to be weaker, and when you looked up Silco had his arms around her as she hugged him, right next to Vander's lifeless body. You approached cautiously, brow furrowed at the whole unfamiliar situation.Â
âStay away from herâ you addressed Silco with a firm voice and furrowed brows. He did so without complaint, looking at you, keeping his composure and probably waiting for a move on your part that never came. Powder turned to look at you, her blue eyes brimming with tears. She hugged your legs, and before you knew it, you were both leaving with Silco and his people.Â
Seven years later you decided to take Vander's place in âThe Last Dropâ. Silco âsigned it overâ to you while he took one of the rooms to be his office. You were a little grateful that he would let you carry on the legacy of the one he once considered his brother.Â
You poured one last drink before Jinx sat down on one of the stools and rolled your eyes as you watched her turn in on herself. âGet your feet off the stool if you're going to be sitting hereâ you scolded her as you cleaned one of the glasses and poured her the juice she always asked for. âThank you~â she thanked taking a sip from the straw. âI've been working on one of those grenades I showed you, and even though it explodes poorly, it's getting more and more powerful!â she explained somewhat excitedly as she looked at you with a slight smile. During all these years your sister had grown more than you would have liked. Sometimes nostalgia hit you, and all you could think about was how much older she had gotten and how rebellious and uncontrollable she had become.
 Mylo and Claggor's death and Vi's abandonment left some aftereffects on your sister. Jinx was the name she had decided to adopt after Vi called her that name before abandoning her to her fate without even knowing if you were alive. Together with Silco you had raised her, and although you always tried to take her on a healthy and untroubled path, she ended up paying more attention to Silco than to you.Â
During all these years your vision of Silco was changing, and all the resentment and anger you had towards him, had been loosening when you saw the love and effort he put in wanting to take care of your sister. Your attitude towards him became more passive, and his attitude towards you became sweeter and more protective. You both had your sister, Jinx, as your priority.Â
âBe careful with those gadgets or someday your finger will explode.â you joked with your sister as you leaned your elbows on the bar to look at her. âI do know how to build inventions, sis, not like youâ she joked with you before getting a tap on her shoulder from you. You rolled your eyes letting out a light chuckle. âBy the way, Silco wants to see youâ he spoke as he rubbed his shoulder with a pout. You frowned and sighed. âYou take care of the drinks for a while thenâ you stepped out from behind the bar, you watched out of the corner of your eye as Jinx hopped over the bar to tend to the customers and scolded her for it before walking up to Silco's office.
You felt your heart beating stronger and stronger as you got closer to Silco's office. Since a few days ago your vision of the man who had given (somehow) shelter to you and your sister, apart from starting to respect him, perhaps your feelings towards him had taken a different direction, a more romantic one. Every night you told yourself that it was wrong, if you thought about it, it was against your morals and principles to like Silco, so you tried to hold back that feeling as much as you could.Â
You knocked on the door, and after hearing a low âCome inâ, you entered the room, allowing you to see Silco in his chair as usual and Sevika next to him. They both looked at you, and with a slight gesture, Silco had Sevika leave the room, closing the door behind her. You sat down in the chair in front of the table, sighing and making yourself comfortable as you noticed how her gaze was fixed on you.Â
âWhat is it this time, what has Jinx done to what-â you couldn't finish formulating the sentence Silco cut you off. âYour sister is out of jailâ your back and your whole body started to bristle. âWith the help of a Piltover enforcer.â You discovered that Vi had been arrested and sent to Stillwater. Seven years later she seemed to have gotten out. A confused feeling invaded your body. You were happy, your sister had been released. And at the same time you were filled with rage, she had abandoned you and your sister. Then came the feeling of guilt, you were the oldest, much older than them, and you had let your sister be arrested, you had not fought for her. You swallowed and immediately got up from the couch. âDon't let Jinx know. Not yet, at least.â you left the room without even looking or listening to what Silco would have to tell you.
. . . . . .Â
Later that night, having just closed the bar and with only the music to keep you company, you finished putting the last chairs back on the tables and mopping the floor. Before you even went to sleep you decided to pour yourself a shot of whiskey. You sat on the freshly cleaned bar and, with your mother's favorite song playing in the background, you thought about everything. Your parents, your sisters, brothers, Vander, Silco, everything. The alcohol scratched your throat as you thought about how you were going to confront Vi at some point, what you would say to her, how she would be, how she would react to seeing who you were with. Maybe she would understand you if she realized you were doing it all for Jinx. Maybe she would martyr you if she knew about your feelings for Silco.Â
âMay I have some?â a voice from behind you shuddered. Turning slightly to grab a glass, you saw Silco planted behind you. You nodded wordlessly, pouring for him as well and watching as he took a long sip. He looked back at you. âWhy the long face?â he asked. You laughed wryly. âAs if you didn't knowâ you replied clicking your tongue. You didn't want to talk down to him, but your feelings at that moment were what they were. He seemed to understand, he didn't add a word.
 He set the glass down on the bar and one of your hands rested on your shoulder, lightly trailing down your arm. âShe's going to understand.â he simply said. You shook your head, also dropping the glass and looking sideways at him. âShe's not going to understand. She can't. I don't blame her. I'm a horrible sister.â you sighed. You felt like your eyes were going to release tears at any moment. You noticed Silco's rough hand touch yours, embrace yours with his fingers and with his thumb caress the back of your hand. You let yourself be touched. âWe should have left, Silco. We don't belong here. It's not our place. I should have taken Pow-â you couldn't finish your sentence Silco had crashed his lips to yours. You couldn't even react when he broke away. You looked at him still dumbfounded.Â
âIf she doesn't understand, we're going to make her understand. But don't you ever, ever, ever say again that you don't belong here. You do. You belong by my side,â and when he finished speaking you couldn't help but kiss his lips back. Your heart had just exploded like a bomb, and Silco had detonated it. There were probably going to be repercussions, surely none of this was going to go well, but for the first time, when you were dancing in his arms, you felt at home again.
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