#I'd @ ppl but i don't want anyone to feel pressured

[starlingskulls]

also one of the cats i work with really fucked my shit up last shift and i feel very upset about it One because uhmm. rude. but also because ohhh that's deeper than i've ever gone and it didn't hurt that bad .. very interesting information

[leifyposting]

*appears as if summoned* did someone say fic recs?

first off, op: really really great points on diluc and the diluc&kaeya relationship. i'll do some rambling about diluc characterization in the tags but for now, here are four fics i think might fit what you're looking for!

this work, from @chidorinnnnn, is THE diluc&kaeya fic in my mind. like, no fic has ever topped this one as a study of their dynamic (and probably no fic ever will). the strange muted understanding. carefully finding your footing. the way things could have been and maybe should have been but aren't, and maybe that's okay too. bonus points for the parallel between their fathers, which you mentioned too

moving on to a more diluc-centric piece, from @dandelion-wings. it is so so hard to find good diluc fic because he is such a strange and contradictory character, but this diluc makes the most sense in my head. featuring genuinely gut-wrenching interactions between the boys (one line in particular tears me up every time) and a build-up to tragedy that rivals macbeth

bit of a different piece here: a modern au in which diluc and kaeya reconcile at the end of the world (tw major character death). i cry every time i read this one. their dynamic in this fic is similar to the first one but more messy - you know, finding your footing with the person who used to be your everything now that you are different people than you used to be, and also the world is ending

i read this more than a year ago and have not stopped thinking about it since. it's a longer read but so worth it. the worldbuilding is so intricate and every character and relationship in here is so beautifully fleshed out - not just diluc and kaeya but also the people of mondstadt and how they relate to one another. this author also has an amazing (and shorter) crepus&kaeya fic that i think you might enjoy

anyway! hope that was helpful. these are my four favourite diluc&kaeya fics ever so i hope you enjoy them! thank you for sharing your thoughts with us as well!

The Genshin Impact fandom is fascinating to me when it comes to fanfics, because I feel like I struggle to find any fics that really *get* the characterization of certain characters and I'm loathed to write my own because dammit I just want to read the specific itch I crave without resorting to creating it. Give me three more months and I'll cave in.

For example, Diluc is one of my favorites and I find his backstory fascinating in terms of his father Crepus possibly being more morally ambiguous than most fans are willing to admit and how little we know of Diluc's murder spree in Snezhnaya.

For example which Harbinger(s) did he have a run-in with? Will we find out more about the secret intelligence network that took him in, that he apparently had a high position in? Did he ever find the answers he was searching for? The list goes on.

It's hard for me to find the specific characterization of him I crave for in fics because I think his platonic relationship with Kaeya is incredibly nuanced and complex but I feel like his character often gets assassinated for Kaeya angst but like, the man had the worst birthday ever?

Imagine being Diluc, living through a literal worst nightmare. Your dad is dead after you failed to protect him yourself. Not only is your dad dead but he died after wielding a delusion--you dont even know what a delusion is but its clearly bad news. Why the fuck did your father have it and how?

On top of this, the Favonius Knights--the organization you proudly served and the very organization that your father heavily encouraged you to serve--insists on covering up the truth because it makes them look bad. The Favonius Knights, who are supposed to be honorable and uphold integrity, are anything but that.

Then your adoptive brother, who you've known for years and trust with your life, shows up and tells you he's been spying for a foreign nation since you were kids with the intent of harming Mondstadt and everything about your relationship is possibly all one big lie and well--how do you not snap??

Now, I'm also incredibly fond of Kaeya and he was just as traumatized by Crepus's death. He was wracked with guilt for *feeling* relieved that he didn't have to worry about betraying his birth father for his adoptive father since Crepus was dead. He anticipated Diluc's anger and felt like their duel was a punishment for his lies.

To me, it hints that Kaeya probably didn't reveal the truth expecting Diluc's understanding, but rather he knew how he would react and perhaps he wanted Diluc to strike him down in that duel. Or at the very least, he wanted to distance himself from Diluc and cut off ties in order to avoid emotional attachment stopping him from his mission.

I personally head-canon that Diluc withdrew upon seeing Kaeya's vision because well--why would the gods bless Kaeya with a vision if he truly had the intent to harm Mondstadt? So in spite of what Kaeya revealed, he isn't a threat. But there's still a lot of hurt there to navigate through.

I think it's fascinating seeing where they stand in present game because Kaeya obviously has the ideology of working the system from within. He stayed in the knights (even taking over his brother's position) and with Jean rooted out the Inspector and his cronies.

Meanwhile Diluc just isn't that type of person. He doesn't settle, he refuses to work in a system he views corrupt, he rather accomplish what he can outside of it. Curiously, he doesn't challenge the status quo beyond being vocal of his distaste of the Knights.

This is head-canon fantasyland, but I like to envision Kaeya and Diluc do use a lot of the same informants and collaborate on intel relating to the safety of Mondstadt (especially since Diluc can move in ways against the Fatui that the Knights can't due to political reasons) but they struggle to have the same connection as before.

For example, Diluc's story quest--Kaeya was essentially giving Diluc an alibi with the Knights. Even if Jean damn well knows who it is, they still have to have official documentation stating otherwise.

Kaeya is good at reading people, he has to be given how he was raised to be a child spy. But I like to think he struggles to read Diluc like before. Diluc is much more jaded, pessimistic, quieter than before. He prefers to work on his own as much as possible. From Kaeya's pov, the only person he's seen Diluc willing to fully trust enough to work alongside with is the Traveler, and he states as much.

The opposite is true of Diluc. Kaeya was his shadow, a quiet but inquisitive, witty observer. Cavalry Captain Kaeya is much more outgoing and friendly, his charm on full display. Did he ever really truly know Kaeya or did he only show Diluc what he wanted him to see? Is Kaeya happier this way?

Fanon often depicts Kaeya as essentially being barred from the dawn winery from the duel by Diluc himself, but I don't think that's quite the case. Much rather, given the reason he told Diluc that night, I think he views himself as undeserving due to unresolved guilt.

Canon seems to hint at all of this through his hangout and Hidden Strife, the latter of which is unfortunately a time-limited event that occurred before I even played (hoyo please stop having heavy lore drops occur in time limited events).

I think the two want to trust each other again, but both are afraid of destroying the tentative truce they have so they leave all of it unaddressed. Kaeya refuses to be completely truthful ever again and Diluc acknowledges the past but refuses to discuss it. The tragedy in their relationship that neither is at fault for what happened--it's a twisted emotional mess of grief and heartbreak.

The last point I'd like to touch on is the parallels between Kaeya and Diluc both being essentially child soldiers for their fathers' causes.

For Kaeya, being abandoned in Mondstadt to be a child spy is the most overt. For Diluc? Despite Crepus's strong ambition to be a Favonius Knight and to have a vision--neither happened for him. In Diluc's vision story, it states that he views his vision being a result of their "shared" ambition, hinting that his vision was granted after Diluc's strong resolve to achieve his father's dreams for him.

We know Crepus heavily encouraged Diluc down this path at very young age, given Diluc received his vision at age 10 and became the youngest Captain at age 14. In some ways, I'm sure Kaeya was a bit jealous of Diluc for having a loving father present in his life that was overtly proud of him.

I am not saying Crepus wasn't a good father, I think he cared immensely for Kaeya and Diluc both, but I do think he did some morally grey shit.

Diluc abandoning his vision is fascinating and it's almost never explored in fics. He is the only vision holder we know of (aside from the Inazumauns whose visions were taken by force) that had their ambition for their vision shaken in such a way that they voluntarily discarded their vision for a time and only took it back after reigniting a new ambition to have it (and as far we know the only allogene that faced no negative setbacks from using a delusion long-term without their vision present).

I don't know where to end all of this, except if you have ragbros fic recommendations that you believe cover it in a more nuanced way, let me know!

[soupevil]

⚠️Warning to the Sonic community ⚠️

The artist @/ Quark19601 is extremely trans phobic.

(They also use the name Krack932 )

Every other day I see em being absolutely horrible on Twitter despite blocking them, and I realize they don't show signs of this on other sites so I'd like to share it here to those affected & those just against this generally, who don't know.

There are more details below; this is mostly to document of the stuff they've done on Twitter, but here on on Tumblr.

.. I previously tried to spread this via anonymous asks bc im a coward; but i feel like this should be known to ppl. A lot of LGBT ppl reblog their stuff & probably follow em.

I tried to post theese individually earlier however the format of the post became messed up? So I've had to compile them into 2 images, incase that happens again

I think theese can be easily verified if you look for them on Twitter.

[Don't harrass this person, just block em, -I'm not pressuring anyone to reblog; if you know someone who follows em you can send this privately if you want. ]

[thehusbandoden]

LOV x Gn!Reader With an Eating Disorder *platonic*!

Important message: I'm not very familiar with any type of eating disorder, so I apologize if I get something wrong or even trigger, insult, or upset anyone! I promise I wouldn't be trying to, and please reach out to me if so; so I can fix my mistake! <33

*Trigger Warnings!*: eating disorders, mentions of food and ppl trying to pressure you into eating, bullying, and a mention of murder. If I miss anything, please tell me! <3

General info:

Genre: fluff/comfort \\ wc: 694 \\ friendly reminder! For personal reasons, I do not write for Toga or Twice in any way, thank you for being so understanding and patient! <33 \\ Gender neutral reader + platonic relationships.

Requested! Couldn't find the exact wording, but they wanted a lov x reader platonically, where Shigaraki is like a father figure; and them reacting to you having an ed.

Dabi was the first one to notice it.

He viewed you as his little sister, and though he denied it; he cared about you. Which is what led him to discover your eating habits- well lack of eating.

It started off small. Missing a brunch here, and turning down a snack there. Nothing to cause concern.

But when you started making excuses for almost every meal- that's when he started to get worried.

When the rest of the leauge was eating breakfast you'd simply grab an apple, telling everyone that you "had stuff to do".

Okay, no big deal.

But when you skipped lunch, and hardly touched dinner? Dabi was now keeping his eyes on you.

And then it happened four times after that.

Dabi was quite upset.

He started having you sit next to him, staring at you to pressure you to eat something. He knew that it was kind of mean, but he just wanted you to stop losing weight. You were starting to look thinner every day- which scared him.

After a while of this and realizing it wasn't working, Dabi knew what he had to do.

After making sure you were out of the hide out, Dabi brought Shigaraki in a semi private place to discuss your poor health.

Shigaraki was furious and hurt.

Furious at Dabi for not tellin ghim for two weeks, and hurt that you wouldn't care for yourself properly.

Though you two weren't very far apart, he still saw you as a daughter; and needed you to be taken care of.

After devising a plan Shigarki and Dabi started to work to increasing your self esteem.

They would subtly compliment you every day, telling you how beautiful you were, and how much they love tolerated you.

((I'd just like to say that they would indeed love you, and that you are dearly loved in the real world. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, and if you need, or even just want to, I'm always here to chat about anything and everything (unless I say I'm uncomfortable with a certain subject, but you can always ask!) <33))

Your self esteem started to grow again, and they hoped that that was the end of the problem.

But you still weren't eating well, and that concerned them further.

Mr. Compress started to notice, and Spinner soon after.

Getting frustrated, Shigarki started having you eat with him, making sure that you ate at least a little bit.

After a while of you continuing to grow skinnier and skinnier, Shigarki lost it.

Pulling you into a comforting, warm hug he stroked your head before asking;

"Y/n/n, please tell me what's wrong with you. Gorgeous, you know you can tell me anything."

Sighing, you finally tell him how some pro heroines commented on your "weight" and how you grew self conscious. After a while of this agonizing feeling you decided to eat less and less to lose weight.

Honestly, Shigarki was angry. Really angry. Already planning on finding and murdering the scum that dared make you feel this way, Shigarki simply smiled down at you before pecking your forehead; much like a parent would.

"Y/n, my dear. You should have told me. I promise you, that you are the most beautiful person I've seen in my entire life. So please belive me when I say that you don't need to worry about loosing weight. I liked how you looked before, and though you do still look gorgeous- you look better healthy."

Tearing up, you clung to Shigarki as you sobbed, finally letting out all the pain and anger you've been holding back for the longest time.

After comforting you and making sure you ate, and got to bed, Shigarki went to tell Dabi about your conversation.

You were not prohibited from looking at the news for the next two and a half weeks.

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You can tip me here <3

Reblogs and feedback are greatly appreciated!! <33

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Do not copy, repost, nor plagiarize my work. Ask before you translate or use my work in any way -minus reblogging.

[coffeebanana]

How would you recommend interacting with a writer. If a story wasn't to your taste, or left you unsatisfied. But you still want to encourage, the writer. And show gratitude for the free entertainment?

Hi anon!

The short answer is, a simple "thanks for the fic!" or "thanks for sharing!" or even a few emojis will often suffice. You really don't have to let the writer know what you didn't like. At the end of the day, they're not writing the fic for you, and obiously not every story is going to satisfy everyone the same way--otherwise we'd all be the same and that would be a horrendously boring world to live in.

The long answer is probably unecessary, but I like to procrastinate on my WIPs talk 😂

There's a format of commenting that goes a little like this: "i don't normally like [X ship, X trope, the way X acts in canon, etc...], but i love the way you do it!!" And honestly I myself have used that before--mostly for tropes, though possibly for some ships as well. And on the surface, that's reads as a compliment. Personally, when ppl leave me that sort of comment, I'll usually interpret it as a compliment too--unless they're full on bashing the thing I love (which sometimes happens with people criticizing canon). And I do think it's INTENDED as a compliment. (That's how I've meant it, when I used it, so I do try my best to also interpret others in good faith.)

But it can also read as "I don't like this thing that you really like and I felt the need to tell you that." Honestly, I didn't even realize it would come across that way until I saw someone else point it out. And then...yeah, I started to notice the fics I get it on more (A lot lot lot of my ladrien fics, lmao.)

So I'm at a weird cross roads where I try not to use that anymore--unless it's with someone I'm fairly sure will understand how I mean it?because sometimes you do have more of a rapport with certain ppl and they'll understand what you mean--but I also don't want to say it's 100% a bad thing to say. I really do understand the intent.

Anyways, my point in bringing that up is that you never don't know what seemingly innocent "this wasn't quite to my taste" comment is going to read as an insult. And so if you really DO want to encourage said writer, I'd recommend sticking to the positives.

Another big thing that's important to me personally is: don't lie.

People have a tendancy to...I don't want to say be disingenuous, but certainly to exaggerate at times on the internet. You see that in the SCREAMING CRYING EATING GLASS types comments. And those are USUALLY sincere in the way that the emotions they convey are sincere. We as a society understand they're not literally eating glass but that they're in agony because the angst in the fic was so good and they want more. But then--something I've noticed--that sort of lingo has a way of slipping into a default response of sorts. And sometimes that makes me question if people really mean it?

This second thing is probably more of a personal thing than a response to your question, but since it's something I've been thinking about lately I hope you don't mind that I brought it up too. I really don't want people to lie to me about my writing.

Not even if it's "to be nice".

Maybe this is in part because I myself find it...difficult to be insincere with ppl, but I don't want false compliments--that's something I tell my friends too. If I write a trope or pairing you don't like? There's never any pressure to read it. I don't expect comments or kudos from anyone. And I'm not someone who in general believes people are insincere--that's not really fair to other people. But everyone has doubts at some point, and I feel like adding to that by straight up lying to make someone feel better just isn't the way to go? If you can't pick out a detail from the fic that you genuinely enjoyed, then maybe keep it to the simple "thanks for sharing!"

So, I guess the TLDR is: keep it short and sweet. keep it encouraging if that's really your goal. (and, if this ever happens to be in reference to something that I specifically have written? please don't feel like you HAVE to say anything at all)

Thanks for the ask!! Sorry I went on for so long LOL💜

[toburnup]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 45!!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 531,440 👁️

3. What fandoms do you write for? straaanger things unfortunately

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? thirty days, subtext, ink you up, smoke signal, and throw me one

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? yes! it can take me a couple weeks if work is busy, but i try to respond to everything. i enjoy it, and i like talking to people!! i'm a bit confused when ppl don't, tbh.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? hmmm i like happy endings, so the only one with a bittersweet/open ending is to cherish. also my least kudos'd fic so take from that what you will <3

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? i feel like throw me one is pretty all-wrapped-up-in-a-bow happy.

8. Do you get hate on fics? i wouldn't call it hate but i sometimes have people being intentionally obtuse or uncharitable in comments. or backhanded compliments.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? .....occasionally 🙃 yes!! i'm big into smut. i like dubcon, dry humping, friends-to-lovers type shit.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? i haven't but i'd like to. something fun.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? yes lmao a couple times.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? not consensually (see #11)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? no. i want to, but i think i'd be a bad co-writer tbh.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? honestly, my ride-or-die, can't-imagine-them-with-anyone-else is kyo and tohru from fruits basket 😭 i'm really not all that precious about my ships otherwise. i

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? my low stamina steve fic. it's fun, i LIKE it, it's almost done! but yeah i'm stuck on it.

16. What are your writing strengths? i feel like it's gotta be smut. sexual tension? horny times.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? anything technical. opening/ending lines. i hate them.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? if it serves a purpose, it's fine. the google translate style can be awkward to read in a fic, tho, so i'd personally only do it if i could guarantee it sounded casual.

19. First fandom you wrote for? fruits basket. kingdom hearts soon after. i was a weeb.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? is your light on? because it's close to my heart. but i'm also really proud of make some room because it's not my usual kind of fic and i'm happy with how it turned out.

the MOST high pressure of high pressure tags (jk): @cuips-not-cute @theamazingbard @beetlesandstarss

[365-days-of-taylor-swift]

❣️IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT❣️

To all my fellow swifties and lyric lovers 🫶 I have something special planned for this december that I hope y'all enjoy! It's called the:

❄️ Back to December - Challenge ❄️

What's the idea?

This lil end of year challenge will include the tradtion of a good ol prompt list for each day of the month ! Every prompt is focused on a reoccuring word in Taylor's music and our fave lyrics including it!

Who can particpate?

Literally anyone who wants to create for this challenge or has in the past created smth that fits the prompt list!

I would of course love and be immensly honored, if any of you get inspired to create smth new for this! However! The whole idea behind this "back to december" challenge, is also that you get to revisit your past work that might not have gotten the recognition it deserved, or that you would simply love to show ppl again! ❄️

I'd love for anyone who likes this idea or is even considering joining the challenge, to rb this and spread the word! 🫶❣️

Promptlist and more details under the cut

❄️ Back to December - Challenge - Daily December Promptlist❄️

One/once 💚

Two/twice 💛

Three 💜

Four ❤️

Five 💙

Six 🖤

Seven 💘

Eight 🤍

Nine 🧡

Ten/hundred/thousand/ 💯

Week 📅

Rose 🌹

Birthday/party 🥳

Drink/Alcohol 🥂

Light 🕯️

Fire 🔥

Water 🌊

Stone 🪨

Air 🌬️

Twenty 2️⃣0️⃣

Gold 🪙

Sun ☀️

Family 👩‍👧‍👦

Star 💫

Christmas 🎄

Moon 🌕

Animal 🕊️

Card ♠️♥️♦️♣️

Month 📆

Year 🗓️

Midnight 🕛

What are the rules?

So as I've mentioned you don't need to create new stuff for this challenge! If you've ever done smth featuring lyrics that involve a word on this list then you can join just as easily as someone who wants to create smth new!

What types of media are allowed?

Any you can think of! Whether you have drawn/painted smth, made a lyric edit, did an lyric analysis, wrote a piece of (fan)fiction, made a video or if you crafted anything irl (like embroidery or collages for example); anything is allowed as long as it fits a taylor lyric featuring a word on the list!

How do I participate?

Well there are multiple options that will all lead you to a similar result!

1. You want to create smth for this challenge or have simply never posted about the work you're considering for this? then you can either

a) You can make your own post, tag this blog in it and schedule it to post on the day of the prompt

b) You can submit it to this blog and I will post it on the corresponding day

2. You've already created and posted about smth that would fit within this challenge?

-> then you can just tag me in it anytime until the day of the prompt and I will schedule my reblog of it for that day!

-> work you did on other challenges like inktober etc is ofc welcome as well! (as long as it's alright with the og creators of the respective challenges)

❣️IMPORTANT NOTE❣️

No matter which way you choose to participate in this challenge, I will post/reblog your art to this blog and add commentary on everything I loved about it!

Everyone deserves to get recognition for their beautiful work and I'd love to be able to spread some joy to y'all during 'tis damn season!

I'd love to participate!, but I can't think/choose a lyric for a day I like...

No worries, I got you! If anyone wants some inspo, just dm me. I have a huge google doc with all the lyric examples for this challenge and I'd be happy to share it 🫶

Or if you don't feel comfortable dming, you can send an anon asking for about inspo for a specific day and I will post the lyric examples there ♥️

I might want to participate but I'm not sure (if I'll remember) yet...

First of all no worries or pressure with this lil challenge! If you're unsure about whether you'll have the time/want to participate, you can:

send me a dm asking me to remind you about this challenge again before november ends

ask me to tag you when I rb this post once a week etc

-> asking me to do this is in no way binding to you! I simply want to offer a little help to those who (like me 🙈) struggle with forgetfulness even with stuff they might like to do! ❣️

If anyone has additional questions about this challenge, feel free to comment or sent me an ask/dm I'll be happy to answer them!

Additional Q&A

What if my creation features lyrics that fit multiple days?

That's totally okay and you can submit one piece of work/art for multiple days at once! More info here

What happens to this blog during december?

Besides hopefully <;3 rbing and posting your wonderful submissions, I will be posting polls featuring the lyrics I found for these prompts as polls on each day!

Bonus (aka some explanations why I chose those specific prompts for that day):

12 = Roses bc I couldn't just leave them out, since they feature in btc and "a red rose grew up out of ice frozen ground"

13 = ofc the birthday of our lord and savior

15 = Lights bc it's the last day of Hannukah this year

22 = Sun bc of the winter solstice

26 = full moon that day!

27 = apparently it's national zoo day and I lowkey love that

28 = same as above but with card games lmao

[loveislandthegame]

Is anywhere else doing a sapphic route. I'm so bored that I feel like crying. All het players are exploring their options. Not only are the writers making it seem like my MC is playing the game but I have to watch my LI with someone else for months. Why is it that seasons that treat sapphic players poorly always happen to be fan favourites? I really wish the fandom could have our backs at least once mate. Literally nobody seems to care that LGBT players are getting forked over again. Can't we have a female LI appreciation month or something?

i've seen a few people who are doing claudia/bea routes! i love claud but i do hate how the game treats MC like a hoe for pursuing her when i have been loyal...to her . not to mention all the dialogue about theo & OG LI/casa guy getting pissed off every single time i flirt with her during challenges . it's getting old

there's only 9 episodes left, today's recoupling should've been a chance to actually get with the LI we want . instead we're forced to be with OG LI (or casa guy) all while he's being like "i know you have a thing with claudia...🥺" (i miss season 3 more than ever, being able to couple up with a girl in the second recoupling was amazing, should've been the standard going forward. idk why FB decided to regress)

heavy on the boredom. over half of the drama is centered around OG LI & MC . i think the only way i could make it possibly clearer i don't want him is to dive into the code & rewrite the damn game myself. and don't even get me started on sienna

with the amount of times the game prompts you to choose your "main LI," she could've easily been a bi rival that grafts on whoever you chose (like how valentina can take najuma on a date, not just the guys) of course that wouldn't fix her being annoying and one-dimensional, but at least i'd actually have a reason to care.

(it sucks that wlw players already have so few options to begin with, only to be further limited by having to choose one, way before you have to lock in a male LI . in one of my volume recaps i mentioned how the game was already forcing us to choose between claudia and bea)

i think this season is great if you're on a loyal OG LI route (or just burning the villa lol) and at this point it's just unpleasant for literally anyone else. i wish the same, & i try to call out anything "problematic," idk a better word for it, basically FB's piss poor representation of LGBT and islanders of colour. but i'm only one person, and unfortunately a lot of the fandom has more smoke for sienna than anything

and i think that lack of pressure put on FB to do better is why they're perfectly content with screwing over wlw players (not to mention i've seen some people who shrug it off as "well the show is based on straight couples!🤷🏽" ... even though the game barely follows the show anymore, but i digress)

i just hope that theo romancers (& ppl that wanted their casa LI but got stuck with their OG) who are rightfully mad as well are enough for FB to realise how stupid of a decision this was. being extremely generous and assuming the final recoupling is gonna be right at the beginning in the next episode...we'll have, at most, 9 episodes to be in an official couple with our LI. almost 1/5th of the entire season 🙄🙄🙄

an appreciation month for the ladies would be lovely though . i don't have any experience with organising stuff like that but june/pride month is in 2 months ! 👀

[anxious-witch]

Hey, so, your 'positivity train' idea made me think. Disclaimer, this might be a completely stupid idea and I almost chickened out of sending this like, 5 times so really feel free to turn it down, but here goes nothing: what if we collected all the positive confessions and made them into a mini-fan project? All with the permission of people who post them/send them in, ofc, and if someone wanted to change theirs a bit or sth that would be included too.

I saw some people say that they hope they get to share what the band means to them with JO at some point, but they don't know if they will ever get a chance. It made me think about how so many ppl who don't get first few rows at shows maybe never get the chance to give the guys letters and would maybe love to share what the band means to them, but doing it from their own IG profiles is too exposing. On the other hand, the band spoke so often about how much this kind of stuff means to them.

What I was thinking was maybe like, a series of 'virtual letters', where each confessions gets transformed into a virtual letter (I can do that in Canva), with a nice design (ppl can even say what they want to include into the design and how they want to be signed). And then we could email all the letters to the band?

Once again, this is just an idea, really no pressure!

Okay, wow.

Um, I am absolutely all for the idea! That said, I believe there was a similar project on Instagram a bit ago? So I'd need to check we aren't like, copying anyone.

And obviously I'd need permission from everyone who has sent a confession/made a post if they'd be okay with the confession being used that way.

The idea is wonderful though. I'll be busy for about next two weeks bc of uni stuff but if you are willing to wait, I also can help with canva designs as well.

Obviously, people can join in and we can discuss this more through dms, but I am curious to see what other people think and if/how many would be interested in joining

[johaerys-writes]

15 questions for 15 friends

I was tagged by my dear @elveny, thank you so much!! 💙

ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: No! Well, yes, after a character in Greek mythology, but not after a parent or grandparent or anything like that.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Yesterday. I was reading the Iliad again for an anon ask and was going through the part where Achilles kills Hector and oooh that scene got hands 🥲 I cry a lot though, I'm a crier, and a lot of the time it's about patrochilles so it's par for the course really lol

DO YOU HAVE KIDS?: Nope.

WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?: I'm fairly active generally but I don't play sports at all because I don't like them. I tried several sports while in school before accepting that I simply don't like team sports and I'm not good at them, but I had much more fun with solo sports. I swam for several years somewhat competitively, and I also did track for a while. 

DO YOU USE SARCASM?: I think so? But usually only with people I'm very comfortable with, because I can never know what would go down well or not with a person I don’t know. 

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?: That’s hard to answer because I feel like it depends on the situation. Most of the time, it's body language and their general vibe. Meeting new people can be nerve wracking so I try to "read" them and act accordingly, if that makes sense? I don't want to step on any toes or say the wrong thing so figuring out what the other person's mood or interests might be usually helps. But that often means I miss out on other things on first encounter, like... their eyes or smile or something?? Lol idk man, socialising while on the spectrum is hard 🥲

WHAT'S YOUR EYE COLOUR?: Brown.

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?: I think I'll pick scary movies because I do like horror and dark stuff and I don't care if the ending is happy or not as long the story is interesting. 

ANY TALENTS?: it took me so long to think of something for this and I honestly don't know? I'm assuming by 'talents' we mean something you're born with, not something you've worked hard at like some kind of craft, right? In that case, I think I have pretty good visual memory, especially when it comes to books and articles and such, or the written word in general. Oh and I'm weirdly good at orientation, I can usually find my way no matter where I am. Which isn't such a huge deal now in the era of google maps, but back when there was no gps it was a pretty useful skill to have haha. 

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Greece.

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?: Writing, reading, gaming, crocheting, drawing, going to museums! I'm constantly on the look out for new exhibitions and stuff, it's my favourite thing in the world to do. 

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: A darling and dastardly cat, aka my extension when I'm at home. 

HOW TALL ARE YOU?: 1,68m

FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?: Oh god I freaking hated school, absolutely hated it LOL I can't think of one thing I liked in it. I guess I only enjoyed the very last year of high school when I was preparing for the Panhellenic exams because like... it felt like there was finally some kind of purpose or reason to be there at all, even though there was a lot of pressure. I loved Ancient Greek, Latin, History and Philosophy. 

DREAM JOB?: I don't have one, I don’t dream of labour 🙃 I don't think there's any sort of job anyone could do in this capitalist hellscape we're all currently living in that would be enjoyable enough to make up for, well... living in a capitalist hellscape lol. If I could, I'd just go back to uni, probably. That was my happy place and I miss it. And I'd also write a bunch and read a bunch and take up all sorts of creative hobbies, and probably travel more. 

Tagging forth to a bit more than 15 friends lol sorry (and I know I'm forgetting ppl): @baejax-the-great @thiefylilelf @vimlos @mogwaei @gloriesunsung @aymayzing @cordelia---rose @knicknocknick @aristi-achaion @peachandfig @heypax @darlingpoppet @tevivinter @mary-aries @tragediegh @pikapeppa @figsandphiltatos always with love and without any pressure 💕

[librarycards]

hi Sarah! asking this here as opposed to over DMs just in case someone needs it (and so it feels less urgent hopefully). anyway the job I'm trying to get is in peer support, which would make me a mandated reporter. obviously I'm tossing that rule right out the window til I move on or get fired, but while I have suicide hotlines and resources and such that don't involve the authorities, I'm almost certain I don't have any for abuse intervention. do you have any idea what to do in that situation, like with non-institutional resources? or should I just leave it? that option leaves a bad taste in my mouth, but like... the closest I've been to this hypothetical situation is gently urging friends to leave their abusive partners, so I'm a little bit out of my league here. tysm if you have any ideas/resources and no worries if not! (I'd have done my own research but like... idk I trust you more than random websites lol. might send this to some other ppl though if that helps take the pressure off)

Thank you so much for reaching out!! I am an adjunct instructor at two universities, at both of which I am also a mandated reporter. I add a disclaimer to my syllabi that students should *only* come to me disclosing sexual abuse, as well as the whole “thoughts of harming yourself/others”, if they actively want me to contact title IX or health services. I put in resources for Podmapping (Mia Mingus), Project LETS, and the Fireweed Collective, and offer in-class opportunities to draft a podmap / make connections with other students so that they have other options.

Project LETS is 1000% anti-cop, and has a resource for identifying abuse on their site. On the bottom of their site, they have a number that can be called or texted by anyone who needs support. Survived & Punished also has a superb guide to survivor support/defense that you might be able to learn from!

There’s also the short-term option of going to a peer respite center, if the person you’re working with wants to move away from their abuser but needs a place to regroup and rest first.

I can also offer you a bit of personal advice — I’ve helped friends leave abusive relationships and recognize / resist abuse from parents. The most helpful things I did were 1) to take a large amount of time out of my day just to listen & ask questions (e.g. if they describe an abusive behavior as if they deserved it, I’d ask “do you think it’s okay to treat another person that way?” And other phrases to start to deprogram them from the abuser’s logic) 2) include them in larger group activities with other friends, to help them build relationships and reverse isolation, and 3) be consistent - show up when you say you will, keep your promises, stay even keeled, even when they do something that infuriates or frustrates you (this is the hardest one).

There’s a delicate balance you have to strike, between treating them like a normal person / not with kid gloves, AND remembering that they need support that others may not. I think that, as a peer support worker, the most important thing you can do is to show and tell your client that you are on their side — not the side of their abuser OR the cops. Taking the time to listen, ask questions, and show up with kindness (even when they frustrate you) is a way of modeling that there are different, better ways of building relationships with others, relationships that your client more than deserves to have.

Hope this helps!

[justajsworkshop]

honest share with you all (i dunno. low-key vent?).

look, i know i'm not talking about all this from the place of "my ideal," but idk. i want to write this for me and for you because it feels nice to get it off my chest, and also i just want you to know that finding certain things more challenging than others doesn't mean you suck at manifesting.

there is zero point to all of this. it's just a long ass stream of consciousness. you do not have to read it or read it all the way to the end. like, spare yourself. lmaooooo.

the two areas i've found the most challenging in my journey are my cat's health and money. i am a very powerful manifestor. sometimes, manifesting felt easier before discovering the law, ngl. because i wasn't trying to intellectualize it; it was just happening.

but since discovering the law, my health has been freakishly easy to improve since i've been able to curb how i talk to myself about my body. interactions with desired people also come pretty naturally to me, too. tho, i don't really want that much from other people. so, i think that's part of it. i rarely dwell in desire with my personal relationships.

before the law, i manifested a new standing desk just by obsessing over what kind i wanted... browsing amazon for waaaay too long every day until one day, i walked outside and saw one on the sidewalk that fit all my desires. (ppl leave furniture for others to take around here all the time.)

^ and this is why i say you don't need to feel it real or anything. if you keep putting something within your awareness, it will materialize. i didn't even consider a certain desk "mine." i just keep obsessing over what kind to get.

other times, i'd just think "huh, this would be nice." and it would come into fruition without any further effort on my part. like i got a new shower head literally delivered and installed without needing to pay for anything or ask anyone just because i wanted a detachable one. a short bit later, the gas company knocked on my door, and i had a new shower head. plus, the water pressure/heat dramatically improved. it was all something i'd thought would be nice but put no conscious effort into "making happen."

i can and have manifested massive windfalls of money, amazing job opportunities, and great financial outcomes; i've done it before many times. but tbh, consistency with this? being able to trust in it? it hasn't always been easy for me, and this is one gap the law has helped me fill. i used to give a lot of power to the method or my feeling state or whether to think about it or not think about it, etc.

recently, i've been feeling immense relief being able to experience my finances as i desire them to be in imagination. it's been nice. i am SO abundant! so, when appearances show me something different, i just go back to my imaginal experience and be who i want to be. or maybe i'll just remind myself that it's all ok, that i'm ok, that it'll all be ok. or i'll ask myself "what if the money has always been there?" and i chuckle and smile because i know it has been.

i gently remind my anxiety we're no longer in egypt: we've been freed. my linear mind wants to sound off that the house in on fire rn, ngl. but i find so much peace in remembering that i'm not what i experience with my physical body. reality isn't what these physical eyes see or what these physical ear hear. i'm the awareness through which all experiences i can ever desire to experience pass through, so i feed my awareness with wonderful experiences.

i worry about my cat a lot because, yknow, he's my lil guy. he's my whole world. and i've been able to manifest good health for him in certain areas; it's just this one that's been more challenging for me.

idk, it's like this chew toy my anxiety will not let go of, and i'm like, bruh, why are you holding onto this? we don't enjoy it!! (using "we" language here because i tend to take an internal family systems approach to how i experience myself, observing different parts of me while knowing it's all me.)

but anyway—i know i'm entirely the source of my suffering here, jfc. it almost... makes me laugh rn as i write it tho?? the sheer absurdity of the mind to insist, insist, insist on this one experience that it KNOWS it doesn't like. like, my dude, there's an infinite feast available. why do you keep eating this terrible food??? pls, i beg of you. it's so silly? i finally just booked a vet appointment for him, the one i probably should have done months ago, and now it's a game of being like "alright, money. do your thing. jump in my bank account."

it's so fucking dumb because i'm literally masterful at manifesting money, and yet i pretend i can't for some stupid psyche/ego reason. doesn't matter either way because i still imagine myself as i'd like to be even if the physical mind is being a right wanker. lmfao. but when i immerse myself in imagination, i don't see how i couldn't be my desired self because there i am!

thank god thoughts alone don't manifest because i've thought some HORRIBLE SHIT in the past few days, but guess who's still here, kicking around, and doing just fine? me (and my cat).

i no longer desire to shift. i experience my DR all the time imaginally. you can't tell me i haven't shifted because i've done it dozens of times now, and i love it. i started affirming i'm not tapping into the void state/point consciousness during meditation, and it's allowed me to enjoy evening meditation again. i can just be instead of trying for anything. thank goodness.

so, i dunno. i'm sorry you read this, but i did warn you it was pointless lololol. this is just a random update on stuff i've been up to but in a less polished version than you usually get.

i hope you're doing well. i imagine you well. may life surprise you with many wonderful gifts today. <3

[undead-discourse]

I feel like the only way this blog can ethically exist is if there's a basic requirement of civility. If you allow and post "confessions" like "proshippers should be neutered" this blog just becomes a way for ppl to anonymously bully folks.

I'm just gonna post these both together and respond to it all at once. I had to chew on it for a while and I had a meeting, so I'm sorry I didn't respond to your first ask right away.

Under a cut since this got a little long.

I honestly thought that person was being sarcastic. To me, it read very similarly to a lot of the things people were saying about the whole paraphilia thing from a few days ago, the whole "Right, because we should seriously kill people for kids they MIGHT hurt in the FUTURE" sentiment I saw a few people toss around.

But whether they meant it or not, whether they're seriously someone who holds this belief or someone mocking said belief, it's clearly ambiguous enough to hurt people regardless.

Posting that in the profic/proship tags (especially with no trigger warnings) was irresponsible of me and I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry to anyone I hurt, especially since I didn't give you any way to effectively prevent seeing stuff like that.

Honestly, I've been kind of skimming my asks for a few days, ever since the paraphilia shit I mentioned. All of that made me kind of want to vomit and I hated reading anything about it. Everything involved in that was kind of disgusting and there were several asks I genuinely couldn't finish. But...

I really don't like censoring or deleting the things people have to say in my ask box. When I created this blog, it was to post anything and everything I received, with no filter and no censorship (except for personally identifiable/directly targeted asks). Screaming into the void about silly fandom discourse and shipping two characters together. It isn't about which side has good or valid points or makes any sense at all, it's supposed to be cathartic.

I wanted to see what people would say when they knew there was no pressure or expectations to say one thing or the other, that no matter what they said, I'd still post it. Even if the content made me feel sick. Even if it were something I find genuinely immoral.

I completely understand why people wouldn't want these asks up, and especially why they wouldn't want it in the profic tags, which is why I've purged them all from the profic/proship tags. I'm also in the process of adding trigger tags to each post that might be triggering (formatted as "tw: *trigger*" if you want to block them). However, I've been posting things I don't personally agree with and things I genuinely cannot read all the way through, because I specifically don't want to delete anything anyone has sent.

I can delete the more aggressive asks completely and never answer anything like that again, but If I do that, I'll be deleting asks about my personal triggers as well. This means that asks involving discussion of incest, pedophilia, or necrophilia in any depth, real or in media, goes too. If I'm filtering out what people can send me, I'm not going to intentionally trigger myself anymore for this blog.

Or I can keep those posts "up," but with heavy trigger warnings. If I go with this, I'll put them under a cut as well so people have to read the trigger warnings and then click a button to see it.

Again, I'm very sorry for posting that ask in the profic/proship tag where anyone could see it completely unprompted. I need to be more responsible with this going forward, that much is certain. I'm going to leave the route this blog goes up to you all. Please give me your thoughts.

[count-doodoo]

some of many people i'd like to get to know better

tagged by @charmwasjess (an absolute ICON)

favorite color: blue! but specifically, like, light-supersaturated-yellow-undertones-blue. blue himalayan poppy kind of blue (see below). tumblr "post now" kind of blue. clear summer skies kind of blue. not navy/baby/cadet/royal (yes i'm unreasonable levels of intense about this. i don't hate navy/baby/cadet/royal blues but i prefer a lot of other colors over them and feel very maligned when i say my favorite color is blue and ppl assume it's that. anyways.)

last movie/show: the ballad of songbirds and snakes. catch me ranting about it @things-stronger-than-fear where i am LOSING MY GODDAMN MIND.

last song: "making the bed" by olivia rodrigo, i think? idk i have the ability to play four (4) chords on the guitar and sing very out of tune, the consequence of which is me doing much Jamming, and i cannot recall what i last played because me, having brain cells? pfft.

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet! it's an actual facts problem tbh. (and i have absolutely no spice tolerance, it's honestly embarrassing. tears in my eyes sucking on ice levels of disaster ensue whenever i try to eat spicy food.)

relationship status: single and not looking to mingle. god help me i don't have time for REAL relationships when i'm busy with yelling about fictional problematic assholes

last thing googled: red bean ice cream recipe (if you've never had read bean desserts before... they are so fucking good...)

current obsession: i'm kind of getting into flower identification, because i was recently pretty embarrassed to realize that i don't even know what species that stereotypical 5-petal flower is meant to be. (my more unhinged roman empire is fictional evil old white men with constant deranged smiles and weird levels of admiration for grandchild-coded protagonists. i'm very delulu about fix-it aus where dumbass white man doesn't become evil and instead becomes unhinged grandpa who's maybe a touch too murderous to be normal but at least he didn't take over the government and become a dictator? i could brush it off with doo but now with coryo as well... i fear i have a type)

no pressure tags: @prahacat @rochenn @bluedaddysgirl @hws-mathieu @quarra (my app has been being Like That recently so sorry if you already did it! also if anyone sees this and wants to join in feel free)

[ultrvmonogamy]

can't say i'm feeling social at this point, but i want to reiterate that i invite anyone who's got any misgivings or confusion towards anything i've said or done or allegedly said or done (or has any other meaningful reason) to come talk to me in good faith, particularly if u've been on the receiving end of surreptitiously delivered rumors.

since the inception of this blog around a year ago, i have always maintained that i am here striving to be as authentic as reasonably possible. i have repeatedly asserted that this journey (blogging here this way) is for me abt learning to integrate potentially problematic aspects of my self (born of both trauma imposed upon me AND my own past poor decisions/self-destructive tendencies) into a more positive whole.

if ur unfollowing me or judging me bc ppl r covertly talking shit, but u r not willing to bring ur concerns to me--the guy in question who is actually inviting dialogue without any of the skeezy subterfuge--i have to wonder what side u think ur on and what it is that u think ur serving in that.

i'd imagine some of u (probably not reading this) simply want to distance ur brand from any of that kinda noise, which aligns w the fact that by far most who have unfollowed (or simply not re-followed) have not blocked me n many continue to like or even reblog my posts. i get that. i still think it sucks, n i miss some of u nonetheless. if that's ur need for ur livelihood tho, i can't blame u for that. even so, i'm here if u'd care to talk.

maybe u think u know smth that's all u need to know. i highly doubt that, but if u'd prefer to wear blinders on that front i just hope u'll remember i was here offering to set the record straight n address any questions u might have one on one.

maybe ur influenced by a quite popular blogger who is now well into her 7th month of stalking, harassing, n slandering me. 7 fucking months(!) of publicly urging ppl not to reblog me, mischaracterizing me in direct opposition to my behavior, making claims that r the literal opposite of the facts, and even announcing n mocking my personal sexual business. oh, and celebrating any time one of my blogs gets termed or seems to be getting less activity.

r u wondering what i must've done to this poor girl to incite such retaliation? well, i did not fall in love w a parasocially obsessed anon and instead, once it was clear that we were not compatible (which was soon after we talked w her off anon), i told her directly that i do not want or expect anything from her n that she'd already given me too much. i even dissuaded her from sending me nudes. and, yes, i have receipts for all of that. in fact, one of the reasons i'm writing this message now is to sidestep my urge to publish that evidence (10-15 screenshots, audio, conversation exports etc) n demolish the reputation of a sentient being who is already clearly unhinged n has shown herself to be ill-equipped to handle reality.

anyway, fuck all that noise.

i'm here (and if i'm not here i'll be elsewhere) and continuing to strive to be a more authentic, worthwhile, understanding, reliable, compassionate, n generally together human being w each day. striving, i said. i fuck up a lot (maybe u don't, in which case i'm envious), but i'm pretty fucking pleased w the overall trend. doesn't mean u should be, n that's fine, but this is the best i have to offer. can't be good enough for everyone, n maybe if u were me u'd do it all differently. good thing u've got a u to do that w then n don't actually have to focus on me.

i have never claimed to be anything close to perfect, and i have personally n without external pressure volunteered plenty of my own shortcomings. i have routinely exposed no dearth of my own problematic characteristics in post after post. if u r someone who feels the need to invent more or to spin half truths bc u find some kind of satisfaction in vilifying n isolating me, that says a hell of a lot more abt u than it does abt me. and for whatever my opinion is worth to u behind ur facade, i think it makes u exactly the kind of person that many or most of us in this community r here trying to heal from.

thank u for reading, and i hope everyone's week is going better than mine 🫶

(replies may be delayed. got a life to lead n mouths to feed n shelter to provide etc)

[femmehepbvrn]

Tagged like a month ago by @gilliandersons for 15 questions 15 mutuals game

1. Were you named after anyone?

No lol and I'm annoyed by that.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Literally 5 minutes ago in the shower

3. Do you have kids?

No but I want them in the future

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

I feel like I don't use it as much as I used to. Idk why. I think i found a lot of ppl using it maliciously especially with covid pressure and that annoyed me

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Their vibe. Which seems dumb as hell but if someone isn't on a neutral to nice ish sliding scale for me then there's some nugget in there i don't like and I won't warm up to them.

6. What's your eye colour?

Blue (derogatory)

7. Scary movies or happy endings

Happy endings

8. Any special talents?

I don't know? I'm still pretty good at remembering lyrics on first pass of a song. I'm also really really good at navigation, like if i haven't been to a place in years I'll still remember which routes to take without a map

9. Where were you born?

Canada

10. What are your hobbies?

I embroider, I play video games, I walk a lot, I'm trying to read 100 books this year

11. Have any pets?

No but I want to get one in November

12. What sports do you/have you played?

I played soccer, I used to figure skate. I want to sign up for soccer at the rec center again

13. How tall are you?

4'11"

14. Favourite subject in school?

History and visual arts

15. Dream job?

travel blogger. I would kill to be able to travel for a living and get paid to do so. Nice camera, following the wildest routes or like, here are the worst tourist attractions per state, lets hit up every catholic church in rome, heres a map of every footpath that cuts through this one provincial park like fuck.

But if we're being somewhat realistic and also not a hack, I'd want to be a professor.

tagging @lets-go-to-lauderdale @sarcasmisalifechoice @myrnaloysnose @oxfordsonnets @billiehollidaze @yeeuurhnghghh and anyone else who wants to do it i am so awkward at tagging other ppl