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[viennakarma]

After you

Fernando Alonso x reader

Summary: There's a life before becoming Fernando's sugar baby and there's a life after becoming his sugar baby.

Word count: 2.7k

Tags: Smut, female reader, +18, sex (p in v), unprotected sex, established relationship, sugar baby x sugar daddy, Dom!Nando, little breath play (choking), spanking, face slap, a bit of dirty talking, degradation, overuse of pet names (bc it's spanish duh!), big age gap (reader is early 20s, in college), everything implicitly consensual, not beta read

Note: i'd like to start by saying you nando fuckers were right and these 3 fernando media (see above) changed my life forever, thank you. gentle reminder that english is not my first language (so please bear any mistake), I'm also considering taking requests for F1 drabbles and oneshots, would anyone be interested?

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As soon as you enter the flat, you take off your overcoat and leave it behind the door. You go to your room, but you stop when you see several gift boxes laying on the floor beside the bed, which you recognize the brands, Tiffany, La Perla, Chanel, among others. But you feel exhausted from college finals and you leave the boxes behind and head straight for the bathroom.

Eight months ago, when you lived in a tiny dorm on campus, working two shifts beyond university to pay for your studies, all these brands used to be a distant luxury you would never afford on your own.

But there was a life before becoming Fernando Alonso's sugar baby; and another one after all that.

Now you have a nice, comfortable, luxurious apartment close to campus, your university is fully paid for months in advance, and you don't have to use the dorm's communal bathroom. It sometimes feels like a dream and you think you're going to wake up back in that moment much earlier.

You fill the bathtub and take off your clothes, looking in the mirror, you see two hickey marks near your breasts. Fernando was mindful not to leave marks in visible places. You step into the tub and allow yourself to be enveloped by the scented salts and bubble soap. You rub yourself slowly, pushing away all the tiredness and stress of the entire day, using the shower gel that Fernando liked on you.

After scrubbing yourself down, you step out of the shower wrapped in a fluffy robe. You dry your hair with the dryer, and head back to the bedroom.

On top of the gifts there is a note that you missed before.

“To my girl, I know you worked really hard to do well on your finals. Enjoy your gifts. See you tonight, cariño. - Fernando"

You open Tiffany’s blue box first, it's the smallest one. Contains a pair of star-shaped diamond earrings, and a silver necklace with a matching pendant. You smile when you realize that it's been eight months and he already knows your taste for clothes and accessories. The second box you open is a Coco de Mer, a lingerie brand. With two pairs of lingerie inside, both in lace, one black, with stockings and garter belt and the other red, transparent with ribbons that cross the abdomen.

Getting out of bed, you pull on the black one, adjust the stocking on the garter belt and hang the robe in the bathroom again, staring at your reflection in the mirror, barely registering the messy young misfit you were just months ago.

The other boxes mostly contain clothes and accessories. Pants, skirts, dresses, handbags, wallets and backpacks. After taking a look at everything, you take the pieces to the closet and leave them on the chair to arrange later.

Then you hear the sound of the front door opening and you know it's Fernando. You lay down on the bed and wait for him. Lying on your stomach with your butt in the air, you look at Fernando when he enters. He's not wearing his team shirt, he's just wearing a white shirt and denim pants. He stares at your body, but your eyes settle on a box in his hand, he puts the box, his phone and wallet on the bedside table. He smiles, moving closer and bending over to leave a gentle bite on your ass. His masculine scent envelops you and you feel the urge to rip his clothes off and push him on the bed, and ride his cock until the sun comes up tomorrow.

“Hi, bebé,” he whispers, leaning down to kiss your temple, “How were the exams?” he asks as he sits on the king size bed, his back against the headboard. He pats his own thigh, and you quickly crawl up, onto his lap sitting facing him. You hope he feels your underwear wet with anticipation.

“Thermodynamics was easy, but Quantum Physics, not so much,” you say, as he opens the box that you know as one of Belgian chocolates, your favorite.

“You’ve studied so hard for both, so I think you'll do well,” he says, pulling out a chocolate with almonds from the box. With his other hand, he grips your hip.

He brings the chocolate up to your mouth and you take a bite, wiggling in his lap as the chocolate melts in your mouth.

“You did so well on your test last week,” he compliments, and his gentle tone turns you on even more. You feel his fingers making way inside the lace of your panties and you hold on to his shoulders, keeping your balance and granting more access to you.

He takes another chocolate from the box and takes a bite of it as his fingers find your pussy. Fernando rubs his index and middle fingers, spreading your wetness. You melt into his arms and place your hand on the back of his neck. He gives you the second piece of chocolate at the same time as his fingers penetrate you. You're so wet, his fingers slide easily inside, massaging your pussy calmly, oh so calmly that you roll your hips into his fingers, trying to make him go faster.

“Quiet, princesa,” he commands, and you stop the hip movement. He shoves the fingers that were holding the chocolate into your mouth, and you suck hard until his fingers are clean.

His other hand, the one inside your panties, you feel keeping the maddening slow pace, completely ignoring the need for relief in your clit. You slide a hand down your belly to bring it to your clit, but he takes your hand away and cups your chin, a possessive look in his brown-almost-green eyes.

“Did I say you could touch yourself?" he asks brusquely, and you just stare at him. “Eh? Did I?”

“No,” you reply huskily, knowing he can feel you getting even wetter at his firm tone. He slaps your cheek, and your pussy throbs around his fingers, you can see in his eyes that he feels it. And he absolutely loves it.

“No, what?” he says, a smug smirk on his face.

“No, sir.” you say and he strokes the cheek he slapped. Fernando takes your chin and pulls your lips to his. He kisses you obscenely, with lips and tongue and his face inching up against yours.

“I know your week has been pretty stressful, then behave yourself so you can get your reward, okay?” he says in a gentle tone, finally picking up the speed of his fingers and pushing the palm of his hand against your swollen clit. You whimper, holding a moan in your throat and the urge to move your hips to keep pace with him and come faster, but you hold back.

Then Fernando's phone rings, interrupting the two of you. He lets the phone ring, and you groan when his other hand grips your hip tightly, squeezing your ass. The phone stops ringing, but then it rings again.

“No, Nando, please… Don't answer it, Papi” you whimper, already feeling his fingers stop stimulating you. He grabs your hips and places you to the side, back on the bed.

“So needy, bebé,” he mutters, biting softly on your chin before getting up, “I need to pick this call, babygirl. Won’t be long, yeah?” He grumbles, taking the phone from the nightstand. you watch as Fernando answers, muttering “Alonso speaking,” as he leaves the room.

Frustrated, you lie back on the mattress and stare at the ceiling, knowing he's probably going to take longer than he said he would. He always took long calls about his team, or his car, or whatever. It's almost involuntary as your hands slide down your abdomen and you rub your thighs together to get some friction. With your hands, you gently pinch your nipples through the lace of your bra, feeling a hypersensitive moan escape your lips. You slide your hands and press your clit over the wet panties, just looking for some relief while he doesn’t come back.

The need for release is stronger than you are as you slide your hand inside your panties, circling your clit with pressure, gasping.

At that moment, Fernando re-enters the room, and you quickly remove your hand. But the furious look on his face tells you he already caught you red handed. Heart racing, you watch as he clicks his tongue in a reproving gesture. He walks into the closet and returns with a pair of leather cuffs.

“I thought I made myself clear…” he murmurs, yanking hard on your wrists to get you to your feet, “You only touch yourself with my permission.”

You swallow hard when he cups your face and then slaps you across the face. You bite your bottom lip, smiling. He takes your wrists and secures them with the restraints, behind your back. Fernando slaps you again, and you feel the wetness pool in your panties.

“You love it, don't you?” He smirked with another slap. “Being treated like the slut you are. My slut. Knees on the floor,” he commands, his tone doesn't leave space for anything other than obedience.

His firm touch on the back of your neck compels you down until your knees meet the floor. You feel your mouth water as he starts struggling with his own belt, undoing the buttons on his pants just enough to pull his cock out. You immediately wet your lips and open your mouth, expecting to feel him on your tongue.

He shoves his cock into your mouth all at once, almost reaching your throat, and you have to control your gagging, eyes immediately watering.

“Open wide, babygirl” he gasps, taking control of slowly sliding into your mouth. He massages your face, as if to relax your jaw further. “Yes, just like that” he moans softly as he touches your throat.

He holds your head, keeping you still as the only movement is in  his hips, his cock fucking your mouth. As you adjust to the volume of him moving in and out of your mouth, he picks up speed and you feel saliva wetting his entire length and running down the side of your mouth, dripping to your chin.

“Want me to fuck you, huh?” he asks but doesn't release you from his cock so you're able to answer. “Want to cum, bebé?”

He doesn’t let you go, nor does he take his cock out of your mouth. So you just hum around him, the vibration of your voice making him let out a groan.

“I don't know…” He pretends to think a little, his hips stuttering. “You disobeyed me, didn't you? I don't think you've earned your reward yet.”

He pulls his cock away from your mouth, and you watch a trail of saliva break from the distance. You close your mouth, taking the opportunity to relax your jaw.

“¿Cuál es tu color? (what's your color?)” he asks, his voice going immediately tender, looking down on you.

“Verde. (green)”

“Up you go” Fernando points to the bed as he removes the belt from the cases of his pants, and you quickly get to your feet and throw yourself face down on the mattress, your arms still pinned behind you. “On all fours” He commands and you obey, the top of your head pressed into the pillow and your ass in the air.

You feel his fingers gently rub up and down on your hips, and then he finally removes your panties. Not an instant later, you feel the belt snap on your ass, stinging.

“What did you do wrong, princesa?” he asks, then hits you with the belt once again, making you shiver.

“I touched myrself without-” you cut yourself off with a mewl when you feel the crackle of the burning leather belt again, “-Without your-” Two consecutive hits make you whimper against the pillow, but you keep going, because you know that if you stop, he will start your punishment again, “-Without your permission" you complete, panting loudly. He hits you three more times and you feel like you could come with just one touch on your clit.

“Without your permission, who?” And two more cracks of the leather against your asscheeks. The frustration of wanting to come is so great that you feel your abdomen trembling.

“Without your permission, sir!” you almost scream, desperate. So thirsty for his touch you know you’re dripping with desire and ruining the sheets.

“I don't know…” He says, as if he's thinking out loud as his hands caress your buttocks, “Do you think you deserve to come?"

“Yes please! Nando please! I want it so bad, papi…” you don't feel ashamed to beg, when your body so badly needs relief, something only he can give you.

You feel him move behind you, and a second later, his cock fills you in one movement, making you scream his name into the pillow.

“Oh, always perfect for me…” He groans, pulling out only to slam back in again. His hands secure the restraint on your wrists, your hands manage to touch his forearm and you sink your nails into his skin for balance.

Your eyes roll in your head, pleasure consuming you like flames as his hips keep pounding into you, and you feel grateful for his demanding exercises routine from motorsports, because it makes his stamina last so long. You feel hypersensitive, like you can feel the friction in every molecule in your body, the pleasure in your pussy and he just keeps going, Fernando’s groaning louder by the second.

You feel when the orgasm approaches, that tingling in your body and your pussy contracting desperately. But then he stops, withdrawing his cock. You whimper in desperation, the orgasm slipping away again.

“Fernando, please! Please, I need you…” you scream as he plunges into you, so deep he takes your breath away for an instant. One of his hands grips your hips and the other travels up your spine until it closes around the back of your neck.

Then he circles his hand around your neck and pulls you up until you're on your knees, your hips pressed against his as he thrusts harder, making your tits bounce with the movement. The only thing separating his chest from your back is the grip on your wrists between your bodies.

“Please, Nando! I’m so close- can- can I cum?”

“Go on, you can cum. I want to feel it,” he orders, squeezing your throat, obstructing your breathing slightly. It’s his accented voice that pushes you off the cliff, the orgasm finally seizing you so hard you see stars in your vision, shivering as he holds you firmly up.

Your orgasm soon makes him come too, his groan in your ear as his hips push against you, slowing down as he fills you up.

When Fernando lets go of your neck, you fall limp on the bed, face first against the pillows. You feel his fingers release you from the restraints, and your arms fall to your sides. Fernando holds your wrists, massaging lightly. He kisses your shoulder softly and you smile lazily, all worn out, the way he likes you the most.

“Are you ok, princesa?” you hear him as you close your eyes.

“Yes, cariño. Never been better.” You murmur.

You keep your eyes closed as he wipes between your legs, and you feel as he rubs the soothing ointment onto your buttocks, then he uses a makeup wiper to clean your face. Fernando considers aftercare as important as sex, and you can't deny that you love the part of being lovingly pampered by him right after being fucked senseless.

Finally, he turns off the lights, pulls back the covers and lies beside you, your naked body being fully embraced by him. You get goosebumps when he nuzzles your neck, his beard tickling and making you giggle.

“I missed you a lot, mi cielo” He mutters against your skin.

“I missed you too, Nando. I loved seeing you so happy with that podium,” you say, pulling his hand up and kissing his knuckles.

“Thank you, maybe next time you should go cheer for me,” he kisses your collarbone.

“I’ll think about it, yeah?” you whisper, running your fingers through his hair, “maybe after finals.”

“I'm sure you'll get high scores on your tests, bebé” he whispers, and you feel a rush of joy at making him proud.

[cutedisneygirl]

Love Online Chapter 33

Warnings: None.

November came and Chris and Merida spent Thanksgiving together. They spent it with her dad. The plan was to spend Christmas with his family after they got back from their honeymoon. Saying goodbye was hard for Merida. She knew she wouldn't see Chris again till their wedding. She walked with him out to his car the day after Thanksgiving.

"I'm going to miss you."

"I will miss you too babe. I will talk to you every night though like I always do."

"I know."

"Just think, the next time I see you it will be our wedding day."

"I know. I can't wait. Drive safely. Call me when your home?"

"You know I will."

"I love you."

"I love you too babe." Chris kisses her passionately, a long deep kiss. When he pulls away he has to grab Merida so she doesn't fall.

"You okay babe?" He laughs.

"Yeah wasn't expecting that."

Chris laughs. "I will talk to you tonight." He kisses her once again, just a peck this time then gets into his car and drives away. Merida watches him drive away then goes back into the house.

The next few weeks go by and then it is December the month of the wedding. Merida is getting nervous. One Friday night, it is Dec 3, she has just gotten home from work and as soon as she gets in the door her phone rings. She looks down and sees its Tiffany.

"Hey girl!"

"OMG Mer!"

"What? What's going on?"

"I think Matt is going to propose!"

"What? Why do you think that?"

"He's been acting weird lately and then today he told me he wants to take me out tomorrow, some where special and telling me I need to dress nicely."

"Wow, well I'm happy for you."

"Thanks, we will see tomorrow. But hey how are you? Your wedding is getting closer!"

"Oh my gosh Tiff, I am getting so nervous!"

"Aww it will be okay. Chris loves you, actually he adores you."

"I know he does."

"You won't see him again till the wedding will you?"

"Nope."

"But you talk to him right?"

"Yep. Every night."

"Hey I was thinking."

"Yeah?"

"How about we have a girls night before we leave for Florida? Then we can ride together."

"I love that idea! I need my best friend."

"Okay we can work out details later. I need to go. I have go into work for a bit and then get off and rest a little before I have to get ready for my date tomorrow."

"Okay girl. Talk to you later. Love ya."

"Love you too."

Merida hangs up and sets her phone on the island. Her dad walks into the kitchen.

"Hey princess. How was your day?"

"It was okay."

"Just okay?"

"Yeah I'm tired. Glad its Friday."

"Got any plans for the weekend?"

"No."

"Your not getting together with Tiffany?'

"No she has to go into work in a little bit and she will rest for a little bit then she said she has to get ready for a date tomorrow night with Matt."

"Oh. Well you and I can hang out. We can watch a movie."

"Sure, I'd love that. Let me just go get a quick shower."

"Of course. Would you like me to order a pizza?"

"Sounds good."

"I'll even get pineapple."

"Aww thanks daddy."

Merida leaves the room and heads towards the bathroom. She grabs her pjs from her drawer then heads towards the bathroom. She was just about to get in the shower when she gets a text.

Chris-hey babe! It might be a little late before I can call you. Hanging out with Scott tonight. I love you. 😘❤️

She sent back a quick reply

Merida-It's okay. I am going to hang out with my dad and watch a movie. Have fun with Scott, just call me when you can. Love you too.😘🥰

Merida got a quick shower and then headed back to the living room. Her dad was sitting on the couch.

"There you are! I was starting to wonder what happened to you."

"Sorry. Chris sent me a message just as I was just about to get in the shower."

"Is he okay?"

"Yes he was just telling me it might be later till he called me that he was hanging out with Scott."

"Oh, okay. Well the pizza should be here soon. We can pick out a movie to watch if you want."

"Okay."

Merida sat on the couch. "What are you in the mood to watch?"

"Doesn't matter. You pick."

Merida starts scrolling through the movies on Netflix. "Ooh, I've never seen this. Can we watch it?" She says stopping on Loss of a Teardrop Diamond.

"Sure. Who's in it?"

Merida looks over at her dad and smiles.

"Why are you smiling at me?"

"Chris."

"Chris? You mean Chris Evans?"

Merida nods.

"That doesn't look like him."

"It's an older one. I've never seen it. Can we watch it please?"

"Sure, why not?"

Just as Merida starts it there is a knock on the door. Her dad gets up and gets the door. He pays for the pizza then carries it into the living room. He has already gotten plates and drinks.

"Thanks daddy."

"Your welcome princess."

Merida grabs a slice and puts it on her plate. They watch the movie.

"Oh my gosh! His accent!" Merida laughs.

"I can't get over how young he looks. When was this made?"

"Uh..." Merida pulls out her phone and looks up the movie. "2009."

"Wow. He just looks so different."

"I know."

They were half way through the movie when Merida's phone rings. She looks down and sees Chris is facetiming her.

"Uh daddy can we pause this? It's Chris." "Sure princess."

Merida pauses the movie and answers.

"Hey Chris. I didn't think I would hear from you till later."

"Heeeey Babe! I missssss you."

"Chris?"

"Whaat?"

"Are you drunk?"

"Noo!"

"Bro you so are! I told you not to call her!" She hears Scott say in the back ground.

"Shhhh, I had to callll my girlll."

Merida smiles and tries to keep from laughing.

"Chris, I love you but lets hang up before you say something you might regret later. My dad is right next me and..." she looks over at her dad. He is giving her the look. "And he is giving me the look."

"The looook, uh oooooh!"

"Yeah, so I'm going to say goodnight. We can talk tomorrow."

"Babbbbe, waaaait!"

"What?"

"I loooove you sooooo much!"

"I know you do and I love you too. Goodnight Chris."

Merida ends the call.

"Princess, does he often call you like that?"

"No. He doesn't get drunk much, but daddy you don't have to worry. He's nothing like Bradly. He would never hurt me."

"I know he won't but..."

"Daddy I promise. He's funny when he gets drunk, he would never do anything to me. I promise."

"Okay. Let's get back to the movie."

Just as she started it back her phone goes off. She looks down and sees a text message.

Scott-Have you gotten anything in the mail?

Merida-uh... no what should I be getting?

Scott-I sent you something.

Merida-Where did you send it? Did you send it to my house or my dad's?

Scott-Uhhh....I don't remember

Merida-I will check tomorrow and see. I will let you know.

Scott-I just checked my email and it says it was delivered this morning. I think it was your house.

Merida-Okay I will go by tomorrow and get it. Thanks.

Scott-okay let me know when you get it.

Merida-👍

They finish the movie and Merida helps her dad clean up and put away the leftover pizza.

"Thanks for the movie daddy."

"Your welcome princess. Sleep well. I'll see you in the morning."

Her dad hugs her then she heads to her room. She brushes her teeth then climbs into bed. She plugs up her phone then lays down. Dixie jumps up on the bed and lays down next to her.

The next morning Merida wakes up and looks at her phone its 10 am. She is surprised she has not heard from Chris yet. He has normally messaged her by now. She thinks back to last night and smiles. She then remembers what Scott had told her. Her package! He said he had sent something. Merida quickly gets up, grabs her phone and throws some clothes on. She runs into the kitchen.

"Well good morning princess. Your in a hurry."

"Yeah, I have to run back to my house really quick. Scott said he said he sent me something."

"Oh. Would you like me to go with you?"

"No it's okay. I will be back soon."

Merida heads out and drives towards her house. She has just pulled into her driveway when her phone rings. She smiles when she sees the facetime call.

"Hey Chris."

"Babe, hey."

"I was starting to wonder when I would hear from you."

"Yeah, I slept in. Shit, I have a killing headache! I need to remember this is what a hangover feels like."

"I'm sorry. You did sound and look pretty drunk last night."

"Oh shit! That's right I called you."

"Chris language! And yes you did.'

"Was your dad mad? I remember you saying he was giving you a look."

"No, he was just worried."

"Worried? Why?"

"Because of Bradley. He knew what happened when Bradley drank and got drunk."

"Oh, I'm sorry babe."

"It's okay. I trust you Chris. You're nothing like him, at all. You don't scare me. Your funny when you're drunk."

"Oh is that so?" he smiles.

"Yes."

"I recall someone else being funny when they are drunk." He smiles and winks.

"Oh gosh! Well that is something you will never see again!"

"You never know."

"No, you won't. I will never let that happen again."

"If you say so babe. Where are you by the way? Looks like you are in your car."

"I am. I am at my house. Scott said he sent me something I came to get it."

"Oh. What did he send you?"

"I have no idea. I am fixing to look."

"Well go look I'm curious too."

Merida gets out of the car and goes to her mailbox and sees a small package. She goes back to her car and sits and opens it.

"Oh my gosh!"

"What is it babe?"

"He sent me the garter I told him I wanted but didn't think I would be able to find."

"Can I see?"

"Wow! Those beautiful."

"I know. I will have to thank him."

"He just left otherwise I would put him on."

"It's okay I will call him later."

"Alright babe. Well I need to go. I will talk to you later alright? I love you."

"I love you too."

Later that night Merida has just hung up with Chris and is fixing to head to bed when her phone rings. She sees its Tiffany.

"Hey girl!"

"Mer! Oh my gosh! I'm engaged! Matt proposed! I'm engaged!"

"Congraduatlations! I'm so happy for you! I can't wait to see the ring."

"I can show you when I come over. I would take a pic but my camara phone has been acting up lately."

"It's okay I'll see it when you come over. I'm so happy for you."

"Thanks. I'll talk to you tomorrow. I have to get some sleep. I work early in the morning."

"Night. Love ya."

"Night love ya too."

The next week goes by quickly, then it's the week of the wedding. Merida has taken off from work. Tiffany is coming over Monday and staying a few days. Merida, Tiffany and her dad are driving to Florida on Thursday morning early. Merida has been going through her things trying to decide what she wants to take with her. She is in her closet looking through clothes when her dad comes in.

"Princess?"

"Yes daddy?"

"When did you say Tiffany was coming?"

"Sometime today, not sure when."

"Okay. Do I need to make up the spare bed or will she stay in here with you?"

"She will probably stay in here with me. She usually does."

"Okay. How is the packing coming?"

"Its coming. I don't know what to take."

"Well don't take your whole closet. I know how you pack. You always want to take everything but the kitchen sink with you."

Merida laughs. "Oh daddy, I do not."

"You do. You always pack more bags than you need and so many books, and then you hardly touch one of them."

"I like to be prepared."

Her dad laughs. "Right. Well if you need anything holler."

"I will. Oh daddy?"

"Yes princess?"

"Who did you say was looking after Dixie while we are gone?"

"My neighbor."

"Okay."

Merida continues to pack. She is still packing when Tiffany arrives later that evening. Her dad lets her in.

"She's in the bedroom packing. She's been packing all day, well actually the last few days."

"Uh oh. I better go help."

"Yeah, other wise she will have packed her whole closet."

Tiffany laughs. She walks into the bedroom and finds Merida on the floor of her closet going through clothes.

"Mer!"

Merida jumps. "Tiff you scared me."

"Sorry. Need some help?"

"Yes! I have no idea what to take or how much to take."

Tiffany begins to help Merida sort through her clothes. Tiffany makes sure to pack the things that Merida got at her bachelorette/lingerie party. She knows Merida never would have packed them. When she sees the pjs Merida has packed she takes them out so she has no choice but to wear them. She only leaves one pair in. The thumper pair Miranda gave her.

"Finally all done! Except for the last minute things I will pack Thursday morning."

"How many books did you pack?"

"Just one."

"One? Really?"

"Well actually two. I am almost done with one of them."

"I bet you won't even open the book once! You will be too busy doing other things." Tiffany winks.

"Tiffany!" Merida says smacking her arm.

"You will."

"Let's go see if my dad needs help with dinner."

Merida heads towards the kitchen. Tiffany follows her. The next few days the girls spend hanging out. They do stay up late and talk and laugh. Then its Wednesday night. The girls don't stay up too late knowing they will be getting up early the next day and driving to Florida.

The next morning Merida's alarm goes off she climbs out of bed and gets a quick shower. She has just gotten out of the shower and is getting ready to get dressed when her phone goes off.

Chris-good morning babe. I know you are leaving soon for Florida. Safe travels. I am leaving soon myself. I can't wait to see you! I love you 😘🥰❤️

Merida smiles.

Merida-Good morning Chris. Yes I am getting ready and we will be heading out soon. Safe travels to you. I can't wait to see you. I love you too. 😘🥰

Merida finishes getting ready and has just finished putting her last few things in her toiletries bag when Tiffany walks in. Tiffany gets ready and then the girls head into the kitchen, where Merida's dad is eating some cereal and drinking coffee. The girls get a bowl of cereal and some coffee then after brushing their teeth they load the car and Merida's dad takes Dixie to the neighbors along with her bag and they are on their way.

They made a few stops along the way including stopping for lunch. They arrived in Orlando 7 hours later. It was around 2 pm.

Shawn pulls into the grand Floridian and finds a parking place.

"Wow! This is place is huge!" Tiffany says

"I know. Wait till you see the inside."

"You've been here?"

"Yes. It is where I stayed when Chris brought me."

"Oh right. I forgot. Do you think he is here yet? Didn't you say he was heading here today as well."

"Yeah and I don't know. I can find out."

"Come girls out lets go. Lets get to our room. I'm tired and want to rest."

Merida steps out of the car and pulls out her phone and is about to text Chris when she feels hands cover her eyes. She removes the hands and turns her head to see Chris.

"Chris!"

"Hey babe. God I've missed you." He says kissing her cheek and wrapping his arms around her.

She turns and faces him and wraps her arms around his waist.

"I've missed you too. When did you get here?"

"Just a few minutes ago. I was just about to take my stuff in when I saw you."

"Oh."

"I can help you with your stuff."

"Thanks."

Chris heads to the trunk where her dad his.

"Hey Shawn."

"Chris! How are you?"

"I'm good. Let me help."

He grabs Merida's bag and pulls up the handle. Tiffany walks up and grabs her duffle and throws it over her shoulder.

"I got mine. It's not heavy. I pack light." She smiles.

Chris rolls Merida's bag over to his car and grabs his bag then they all walk in together. Shawn checks in and then Chris checks in. They head to the elevator.

"So what room are you in?" Chris asks.

"34." Shawn says.

"Oh? I'm 36."

"Really? That means your not far away!" Merida exclaims.

"Nope." Chris smiles.

"Merida! Don't get any bright ideas! After tomorrow you can't see him till your wedding and your walking down the ailse." Tiffany says

"Aww but..."

"No buts! You heard me!"

Merida frowns. Chris leans towards her and whispers. "You might could sneek into my room when shes asleep."

Merida smiles but shakes her head. "We are all in the same room. There is no way I could leave and come back without them knowing." She whispers. The evlevator reaches their floor. Chris rolls Merida's suit case to her room.

"Here you are."

"Thanks."

"What are you doing for dinner?"

"Uh..." Merida looks at her dad and Tiffany. Her dad has unlocked the door and is about to head in.

"I have no idea. Daddy what are we doing for dinner?"

"I have no idea princess. Right now I just want to get some rest."

"I can message you later."

"Sure. I'll see you later. I love you."

"Okay. Love you too."

Chris leans down and kisses Merida then heads two doors down to his room. He smiles as he unlocks his door and then disappears into the room.

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[thefrontofmymind]

all the things "She" says in songs by The 1975

(and some of their old stuff pre-signing too)

1. "It's your birthday, you feeling alright?" (The City)

2. "How can I relate to somebody who doesn't speak?" (Antichrist)

3. "My name is Eileen, boy that's all you need. And this one's on the house, I don't mind" (Woman)

4. "I could hear you giving her head" (Undo)

5. "Use your hands and my spare time. We've got one thing in common, it's this tounge of mine" (Sex)

6. "Now you're never gonna quit it if you don't stop smoking it" (Chocolate)

7. "We're dressed in black from head to toe, we've got guns hidden under our petticoats" (Chocolate)

8. "We're coming to the end of 23, [she said] is that alright? It's coming to the end of you and me, [she said] is that alright?" (So Far (It's Alright))

9. "It's nice to have your friends round, we're watching the television with no sound" (Heart Out)

10. "It's not about your body it's just social implications are brought upon by this party that we're sitting in" (She Way Out)

11. "I've been so worried 'bout you lately, you look shit and you smell a bit. You're mad thinking you could ever save me, not looking like that." (A Change Of Heart)

12. "I've been so worried 'bout you lately, you were fit but you're losing it" (A Change Of Heart)

13. "[You've] got a lot to learn" (She's American)

14. "I've got a problem with your shoes and your tunes but I night move in" (The Sound)

15. "I thought that you were straight, now I'm wondering" (The Sound)

16. "Hello" (Paris)

17. "[You've] been romanticising heroin" (Paris)

18. "[You] should have liked it" (TOOTIMETOOTIMETOOTIME)

19. "I gave you four years of my life" (I Couldn't Be More In Love)

20. "[You're] references were spot on" (Me & You Together Song)

21. "Oh God, I'll have to think because we're mates it doesn't feel right" (Me & You Together Song)

23. "They should take this pain and give it a name" (Tonight (I Wish I Was Your Boy))

24. "I guess I'll take this pain instead of your name" (Tonight (I Wish I Was Your Boy))

25. "Maybe I would like you better if you took off your clothes" (If You're Too Shy (Let Me Know))

26. "Well I take care of my kids" (Part Of The Band)

27. "I should take you with me when I leave" (When We Are Together)

28. "Central Park is SeaWorld for trees" (When We Are Together)

~~~

29. "All the drinks are all on me" (Au Bord de la Mer)

30. "You're living in a cellophane house you're never leaving" (Lost Boys)

31. "Use your fangs and my spare time, come on in the car you'll have a great time" (Lost Boys)

32. "You don't look frightened at all" (Scary Monsters)

[chrisevanslovesposts]

A hard day's night

Charlie woke up to her alarm and got up, took a shower, and got dressed. As she walked down the stairs she was met with a naked Meredith with a blanket wrapped around her and she was racing up the stairs.

"Okay?" Charlie said.

She walked down the stairs and turned to into the living room and a guy stood there fixing his shirt then putting his socks and shoes.

"Hello." Charlie said as a smile crept onto her lips as she realized why her sister was naked.

"Uh, oh hi.... Who are you?" The guy asked as he tied his left shoe.

"Charlie, Meredith's sister, and you?"Charlie said as she walked towards the door that led to the kitchen.

"Derek." He smiled tying his other shoe.

Charlie walked into the kitchen and made coffee, filled two cups, and walked back into the living just as Derek finished tying his shoes and she handed him a the cup of coffee.

"Thanks." He said taking a big sip.

"Yep." Charlie chuckled looking down at her watch and walked to the bottom of stairs.

"Mer, hurry up we're gonna be late." She yelled up the stairs.

"What time is it?" Derek asked taking another sip of coffee.

"Uh. 7:45." She said taking a sip.

"Oh, I gotta go." Derek said taking one big sip then setting his cup on the little table and running out.

Charlie finished her coffee as Meredith came running down the stairs.

"Who's coffee?"she asked pointing at the half empty cup

"Oh that-" she was cut off by her sister.

"I don't care, come on." Meredith said taking a huge sip of coffee then running out with Charlie behind her.

They got to the hospital and walked in and Richard Webber, the chief of surgery, had already started.

"A month ago, you were in med school, being taught by doctors. Today, you are the doctors. The 7 years you spend here as a surgical resident will be the best and worst of your life. You will be pushed to the breaking point. Look around you. Say hello to your competition. Eight of you will switch to an easier specialty. Five of you will crack under the pressure. Two of you will be asked to leave. This is your starting line. This is your arena. How well you play... That's up to you." Richard told them as Charlie looked around the operating room at all the people.

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"Okay, Martin, Robinson, Bond, Hawkins." A guy said before a few people yep and yeahs and walked out as Charlie put her 3 pens in her scrub pockets.

"Only 6 women out of 20." Meredith said

"Yeah. I hear one of them's a model. Seriously, that's gonna help with the respect thing?" A girl with black hair said

"You Cristina, right?" Charlie asked her

"Patton, Monroe.."They heard the guy yell.

"Which Resident you two assigned to? I got Bailey." Cristina said putting her lab coat on.

"The Nazi? We do too." Charlie said as she fixed her watch on her wrist.

"You got the Nazi? So did I. At least we'll be tortured together right? I'm George O'Malley. Uh, we met at the mixer. You had on a black dress with a slit up the side, strappy sandals, and....." A guy with brown hair and blue eyes said walking over as all three girls looked at him and smiled at each other.

"Now you think I'm gay. No, I'm not gay. It's-- It's just that you were-- You were very unforgettable." George told Meredith as Charlie chuckled.

"O'Malley, Yang, Grey, Grey, Stevens." The guy called out and Charlie and Meredith walked off.

"Looks someones got a little crush on you, Mer." Charlie chuckled as her sister rolled her eyes and shook her head in a playful manner.

They followed Cristina and saw at the end of the hall a short, black women stood at the counter,

"That's the Nazi?" Cristina asked

"Thought the Nazi would be a guy." George said from behind them.

"I thought the Nazi would be a Nazi." Meredith said

"Maybe it's professional jealousy. Maybe she's brilliant, and they call her a Nazi because they're jealous. Maybe she's nice." A blond girl sped past them.

"Let me guess-- You're the model." Cristina said and the girl turned and gave her a look and rolled her eyes just as she walked up to the Bailey.

"Hi I'm Isobel Stevens, But everyone calls me Izzie." The blonde told Bailey who looked at her then her hand and ignored both.

"I have five rules. Memorize them. Rule number one-- Don't bother sucking up. I already hate you. That's not gonna change. Trauma protocol, phone list, pagers-- Nurses will page you. You will answer every page at a run-- a run. That's rule number two." Bailey said and started walking away so everyone grabbed their stuff off the counter and followed her.

"Your first shift starts now and last 48 hours. You're interns, grunts, nobodies, bottom of the surgical food chain. You run labs, write orders, work every second night until you drop, and don't complain." Bailey told them as they walked through a bunch of different hallways.

"On-call rooms-- attending's hog them. Sleep when you can where you can, which brings me to rule number three. If I'm sleeping, don't wake me. Unless your patient is actually dying. Rule number four-- the dying patient better not be dead when I get there. Not only will you have killed someone, you would have woke me for no good reason. We clear?" Bailey asked and Meredith raised her hand.

"Yes?" Bailey asked

"You said five rules. That was only four." Meredith said as Bailey pager started to go off.

"Rule number five-- when I move, you move. Get out of my way!" Bailey yelled after running down the hall and everyone ran after her.

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Everyone held onto the gurney and looked down at the ground as the helicopter blew strong winds at them. Then they all went up to the helicopter once it landed.

"What do we got?" Bailey asked as they got a white hair girl out.

"Katie Bryce, 15-year-old female, new onset seizures, intermittent for the past week. I.V. lost en route, started grand mal seizing as we descended." The guy told her as they got her on the gurney.

"All right, get her on her side." Bailey told everyone.

They got her inside and in a run when started giving her the medicine.

"Izzie, 10 milligrams diazepam I.M. No, no. The white lead is on the right. Righty, whity-- smoke over fire. A large-bore I.V. don't let the blood hemolyze. Let's go!" Bailey told everyone and slowly Katie stop seizing.

"What do we have? A wet fish on dry land." A tall black guy with glasses asked walking in.

"Absolutely, Dr. Burke." Bailey said.

"Dr. Bailey, Let's shotgun her." Burke said after handing the file over to Bailey.

"That means every test in the book-- C.T., CBC, Chem-7, Tox screen. Cristina, You're on labs. George, patient work-ups. Meredith, Charlie, you two stay together for the time being and get Katie for a C.T. She's your guys responsibility now." Bailey said walking out.

"Wait. What about me?" Izzie asked

"Honey, you get to do rectal exams." Bailey said then walked out.

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The elevators opened up as Katie spoke from her bed.

"You guys are lost." She said

"We're not lost. How are you feeling?" Meredith asked her and her and Charlie pushed her out of the elevator.

"How do you think I'm feeling? I'm missing my pageant." Katie told her.

"You're missing your pageant?" Charlie asked

"The Spokane Teen Miss. I was in the top 10 after the first 2 rounds. This is my year. I could have won. " Katie told them as they turned around a corner.

By the time they change directions and went the other way Katie was sat up.

"Hello. You're so lost. What are you, like, new?" Katie asked

Sooner or later they found the way as Katie continued to talk.

"I twisted my ankle in talent rehearsal. I do rhythmic gymnastics, which is, like, really cool. Nobody else does it. And I tripped over my ribbon. And I didn't get stuck with someone this clueless, and that was, like, a nurse." Katie whispered the last part.

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Charlie and Meredith sat down at the lunch table where the other interns sat.

"Katie Bryce is a pain in the ass. If I hadn't taken the Hippocratic oath, i'd Kevorkian her with my bare hands." Meredith said as Charlie shoved her sandwich into her mouth as the other interns looked between the two sisters.

"What?" Meredith asked

"Good afternoon, interns. It's posted, but I thought I'd share the good news personally. As you know, the honor of performing the first surgery is reserved for the intern that shows the most promise. As I'm running the O.R. today, I get to make that choice. George O'Malley." Burke said putting his hand on Georges shoulder.

"Me?" George asked looking up at him.

"You'll scrub in for an appendectomy this afternoon. Congratulations." Burke said then walked away.

"Did he say me?" George asked after a moment of silence.

Charlie smiled at George before looking down at her notes that she took on Katie Bryce. She been trying to figure out whats wrong with Katie all day, but couldn't come up anything on why she had been seizing. As she read over the same notes she read over at least 50 other times she felt something brush against her shoulder as she chewed her pickle. She looked up to see a handsome guy and another guy walking by as the guy closes to her elbow brushed against her shoulders. She watched the guy laugh at what the other guy said before turning to her showing her his bright teeth.

"Sorry." He said before turning back to the other guy to continue their conversation.

Charlie continued to stare until Meredith got her attention saying they had to go check on Katie.

As Charlie and Meredith finished checking on Katie her parents came walking in.

"Katie, honey, mom and dad are here." Her mom said kissing her head.

"They have her a sedative for the C.T. scan, so she's a little groggy." Meredith told them.

"Will she be alright?" Her mom asked

"Our doctor at home said that she might need an operation. Is that true?" Her dad asked as Meredith and Charlie looked at each other and backed out slowly.

"What kind of operation?" Her mom asked

"She's, um-- Well, you know? I'm not the doctor. I'm a doctor, But I'm not Katie's doctor, So I'll got get him for you." Charlie told them and they nodded their heads as Charlie and Meredith rushed out.

They went to the cafeteria where Bailey was. They opened the door and Bailey was just walking out.

"What?" She asked harshly.

"Katie's parents have questions. Do you talk to them, or do I ask Burke?" Meredith asked

"No, Burke's off the case. Katie belongs to the new attending now, Dr Shepherd. He's over there." Bailey pointed off and walked out quickly.

Charlie and Meredith walked farther in and looked around before spotting Derek. The guy Meredith slept with. He was talking to other doctors and he looked down at the files in his hands before looking up at the sister then looking back down at the papers before looking right at the sisters again and stared at them. Charlie started to laugh as Meredith grabbed her arm dragging her out of the cafeteria and speeding off.

"Meredith, can I talk to you for a second?" Derek asked grabbing her arm as Meredith grabbed Charlie's.

"Actually, I was-" She tried to say before the three people were in the stairwell.

" Dr. Shepard." Meredith said as she held her death grip on Charlie's arm and check over the stairwell for anyone.

"Dr. Shepard? This morning, it was Derek. Now it's Dr. Shepard." Derek said as he looked at Charlie for a moment who had sat down on the stairs.

"Dr. Shepard, we should pretend it never happened." Meredith told him.

"What never happened-- You sleeping with me last night, or you throwing me out this morning? Because both are fond memories I'd like to hold onto." Derek said

"No, there will be no memories. I'm not the girl in the bar anymore, and you're not the guy. This can't exist. You get that, right?" Meredith asked as Derek nodded his head.

"You took advantage of me, and now you want to forget about it." Derek said

"I did not take advantage of you." Meredith told him shaking her head.

"I was, drunk, vulnerable, and good-looking, and you took advantage." Derek said

"You aren't that good looking, you wanna know who's good looking, one of the attending's, he's got brown hair, blue eyes, beard, he's hot."Charlie said as both parties looked down at her.

"Oh, uh, Theodore Grant." Derek chuckled as Meredith looked between them.

"Yeah, he's hot." Charlie smiled

"Okay, I was the one who was drunk, and you are not the good-looking." Meredith

"Maybe not today.Last night, I was very good-looking. I had my red shirt on. You took advantage." Derek said walking around her and stood in front of the steps

"I did not take advantage." Meredith sighed.

"Want to take advantage again-- say, Friday night?" Derek asked and Meredith stared at him for a second.

"No. You're an attending, and I'm your intern. Stop looking at me like that." Meredith told him.

"Like what?" He asked making a confused face.

"Like you've seen me naked. " Meredith said and he smiled then went to lean in and kiss her.

"Dr. Shepard, this is inappropriate. Has that ever occurred to you?" Meredith as she started to drag Charlie out of the stairwell with her as Derek sighed.

"Thanks for he coffee this morning." He said just before the door shut and Meredith turned to Charlie.

"You gave him coffee this morning?" She asked tighting her grip on her sisters wrist.

"He looked like he needed it." Charlie shrugged as Meredith gave her a look.

"Don't befriend the enemy." Meredith told her before walking off.

Charlie rolled her eyes and walked the other direction of her sister. Instead of going to see George do his surgery she went and got some food.

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Charlie was laying on a stretcher beside the one that Meredith and Izzie sat on.

"Double 07. They're calling me Double 07, aren't they?" George asked

"No ones calling you double 07." Charlie, Meredith, and Izzie all said together.

"On the elevator Murphy whispered, double 07." George said as he moved around in the wheel chair.

"How many times do we have to go through this, George? 5,10? Give me a number, or else I'm gonna hit you." Cristina said getting of the stretcher she sat on and went over to the vending machine.

"Murphy whispered, double 07, and everyone laughed." George said

"He wasn't talking about you." Meredith told him.

"Are you sure?" George asked

Do you think we'd lie to you?" Cristina asked

"Yes." George said as Charlie chuckled.

"Double 07 is a state of mind." Cristina said as she pressed the buttons on the vending machine.

"says the girl who finished first in her class at Stanford." George said as someones pagers started to beep and every checked.

"Oh, man. It's 911 for Katie Bryce." Meredith making Charlie sit up quickly.

"Come on." Charlie said grabbing Meredith's hands and dragging her with her to Katie's room.

They ran into Katie room to see her fine with a magazine in her hand.

"Took you long enough." Katie said

"You're okay? The nurse paged us 911." Meredith asked as her and Charlie walked to the foot of her bed.

"I had to go all exorcist to get her to even pick up the phone." Katie said

"Wait. There's nothing wrong with you?" Charlie asked her as she took deep breaths.

"I'm bored." Katie shrugged.

"You little.. I'm not a cruise director." Meredith said getting her stethoscope out

"You don't have to wig out. The pageant's supposed to be on cable, but this crappy hospital doesn't get the channel. If that cow Kylie Wood is gonna walk off with my crown, I have to see it. Can you call someone?" Katie asked while Meredith checked her breathing.

"Okay, this is an actual hospital. There are sick people here. God to sleep, and stop wasting our time." Meredith told her sternly.

"But I can't sleep. My head's all full." Katie said as Charlie and Meredith walked out.

"That's called thinking, go with it." Charlie told hr right before stepping out of the room.

Charlie and Meredith went down to the nurses station where they heard one of the interns talking to the nurse.

"4-B's got post-op pneumonia. Let's starts antibiotics." He told her looking down at the chart in his hands.

"Are you sure that's the right diagnosis?" The nurse asked him

"Well, I don't know. I'm only an intern. Why don't you go spend 4 years in med school and then let me know if it's the right diagnosis? She's short of breath. She's got a fever. She post-op. Start the antibiotics. God, I hate nurses." He said walking up to the counter that Charlie and Meredith stood at.

"I'm Alex. I'm with Jeremy. You guys are with the Nazi, right. The sisters." The guy said.

"She may not have pneumonia, you know? She could be splinting, or have a P.E." Meredith said

"Like I said, I hate nurses." He said walking away.

"What do you just say?" Charlie asked him.

"Did you just call her a nurse." Charlie asked

"Well, if the white cap fits." Alex said and Charlie was about to say something back when her and Meredith's pagers beep.

"Damn it, Katie." Charlie said as they walked off towards Katie's room.

When Charlie and Meredith got up the stairs they saw a bunch of nurses running in and out of Katie's room, making them run into her room to see her having a seizure.

"What took you so long." A nurse walking out asked.

"She's having multiple grant mal seizures. Now, how do you want to proceed? Dr. Grey, are you listening to me?! She got diazepam-- 2 milligrams lorazepam-- I just gave the second dose. Dr. Grey, you need to tell us what you want to do. Dr. Grey!" The nurse Christian asked

Meredith and Charlie stood there for a moment before finally snapping out of it and Meredith grabbed her chart.

"She's had 4 milligrams." Meredith said

"You paged Dr.Bailey and Dr. Shepard?" Charlie asked

"Lorazepam's not working." Christian said

"Phenobarbital-- load her with phenobarbital." Meredith said.

"Pheno's in." Christian said

"No change." Said another nurse.

"You paged Dr. Shepard?" Charlie asked

"I just told you." The nurse said

"Well, paged him again, stat." Charlie said

"What do you want to do? Dr. Grey, you need to tell us what you want to do." Christian said before Katie started flatlinning.

"Heart stopped." Christian said.

"Code blue! Code Blue! Code Blue!" The nurse yelled at the crash cart got rolled in and Meredith went over and grabbed the pads and got gel on them.

"Charge the pads to 200." Meredith said

"Clear. Charge." The nurse said.

"Still v-fib nothing." Christian said.

"Charging. 19 seconds." the nurse said

"Charge them to 300." Meredith said

"300. anything?" The nurse asked

"27 seconds." The nurse told Meredith

"Charge to 360. Come on, Katie." Meredith said

"49 seconds." The nurse said

"At 60 seconds, You're supposed to admin her another drug." Christian told Meredith.

"Charge again! Charge again!" Meredith said and the nurse charged it and they started to sinus rhythm.

"Anything?" The nurse asked

"I see sinus rhythm." She smiled.

"Blood pressure's coming up. all right." Christian said.

"What the hell happened?" Derek asked running in.

"She had a seizure, and her heart stopped." Meredith told him moving out of the way.

"You two were supposed to be monitoring her." Derek said get his stethoscope out

"I checked on her and-." Meredith tried to say.

"I got her. Just-- just go." Derek said putting his hand.

"Excuse me, she was doing your job you have no room to yell at her!" Charlie yelled pointing at him as Meredith dragged her out and Derek looked up at her.

"You get a 911, you page me immediately, not in the 5 minutes it takes you to get to the emergency, immediately. You're on my team, and if somebody dies, it's my ass. Grey!" Bailey said after they walked out the room.

Meredith let go of Charlie's arm and Charlie stopped walking with her and sat down on the ground against the wall. She wiped the sweat on her forehead and rest her head against her knees. She watched Meredith continue to walk through the door way.

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"What are you doing?" Meredith asked as Charlie sat down on the counter beside her.

"I'm suturing a Banana with the vain hope that it wakes up my brain." Cristina said and George laughed.

"What are you smiling at, double 07? I'm sorry. I get mean when I'm tired." Cristina told him.

"You know what? I don't care. I comforted a family, and I got to hang out in the O.R. today. All is well." George said

"Does anybody know why we're here?" Cristina asked as Charlie leaned against the wall and started to doze off.

"Well, good morning." Derek's voice made her open her eyes.

"I'm gonna do something pretty rare for a surgeon. I'm gonna ask interns for help. I've got this kid, Katie Bryce. Right now, she's a mystery. She doesn't respond to our meds. The labs are clean, the scans are pure, But she;s having seizures-- grand mal seizures with no visible cause. She's a ticking clock. She's gonna die if I don't make a diagnosis, which is were you come in. I can't do it alone. I need your extra minds, extra eyes. I need you to play detective. I need you to find out why Katie is having seizures. I know you're tired, you're busy. You got more work than you can possibly handle. I understand, so I'm gonna give you an incentive. Whoever finds the answer rides with me. Katie needs surgery. You get to do what no interns get to do-- Scrub in to assist on an advanced procedure. Dr. Bailey's gonna hand you Katie's chart. The clock is ticking fast, people. if we're gonna save Katie's life, we have to do it soon." Derek said then walked out as all the interns grabbed the one file from the stack of them in the middle of the table.

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Charlie and Meredith were in the nurses station when they heard Alex talking to that nurse again.

"Did you just page me?" Alex asked her.

"4-b's still short of breath." The nurse told him making him sigh.

"Look, give the antibiotics time to work." Alex told her looking at the girls chart.

"The antibiotics should have worked by now." The nurses said

"She's old. She's freaking ancient. She's lucky she's still breathing. I got a shot to scrub in downstairs on a patient that wasn't alive during the civil war. Don't page me again." They heard him say before they put away the charts they were filling out and walk out.

"Hey, I want in on Shepard's surgery. You've been the intern on Katie since the start. You want to work together? If we find the answer, one of us three have a chance of scrubbing in." Cristina said walking up to them.

"I'll work with you, but I don't want in on the surgery. You can have it." Meredith said

"Me either." Charlie said

"It's the biggest opportunity any intern will ever get." Cristina said

"I don't want to spend anymore time with Shepard than I have to." Meredith said

"He's a dick." Charlie commented.

"What do you guys have against Shepard?" Cristina asked

"If we find the answer, the surgery's yours. Do you want to work together or not?" Meredith asked

"Deal." Cristina smiled and they went to the library where they all pulled out books and started to look for the solution.

"So she doesn't have anoxia, chronic renal failure, or acidosis. It's not a tumor, because her C.T.'s clean. Are you seriously not gonna tell me why you won't work with Shepard?" Cristina asked

"No, what about infection?" Meredith told her looking through a book.

"No, there's no white count, and she has no C.T. lesons, no fevers, nothing in her spinal tap." Charlie told her going through her chart.

"Just tell me." Cristina said

"You can't comment, make a face, or react in any way. We had sex." Meredith said looking at Cristina who was trying very hard not to make a face or comment,

"What about an aneurysm?" Cristina asked

"No blood on the C.T. and no head aches." Charlie said

"Okay, there's no drug use, no pregnancy, no trauma. Was he good? I mean, he looks like he'd be good. Was it any good?" Cristina asked and Meredith just looked at her standing up to put a book away.

"We're out of answers. What if no one comes up with anything?" Meredith asked sitting down

"You mean what if she dies?" Charlie asked

"Yeah." Meredith nodded her head.

"This is gonna sound really bad, but I really wanted that surgery." Cristina said shaking her head.

"She's just never gonna get the chance to turn into a person. The sum total of her existence will be almost winning miss teen whatever." Meredith said

"You know what her pageant talent is?" Charlie asked

"They have talent?" Cristina asked putting her head against the bookcase behind her.

"Rhythmic gymnastics." Charlie said as they all chuckled a little bit.

"Oh, come on." Cristina said

"What is rhythmic gymnastics? I can't even say it. I don't know what it is." Meredith said as Charlie laughed.

"I think it's something with a ball and a--" Cristina stopped talking when she watched the sisters look at each other.

"What? Guys, what?" Cristina said

"Get up. Come on." Meredith said and all three of them ran out of the library.

"The only thing that she would possibly need is an angiogram. Oh. Oh, Dr. Shepard, just one moment. Katie competes in beauty pageants." Cristina said as Derek go in the elevator.

"I know that, but we have to save her life, anyway." He said as another person got in the elevator.

"She has no headaches, no neck pain, her C.T. is clean. There's no medical proof of an aneurysm." Cristina said putting her hand in front of the elevator doors to stop it from closing.

"Right?' He asked

"But what if she has an aneurysm, anyway?" Cristina said

"There are no indicators." Derek said as Cristina put her hand in front of the elevators doors again.

"She twisted her ankle practicing for the pageant." Cristina said

"I appreciate you trying to help, but--" Derek said

"She fell, when she twisted her ankle, she fell." Meredith said as Derek looked at the people in the elevator with him.

"It was no big deal, not even a bump on the head. She got up, iced her ankle, and everything was fine. It was a fall so minor, her doctor didn't even think to mention it when I was taking her history, but she did fall." Cristina said

"You know what the chance is that a minor fall could burst an aneurysm? One in a million-- literally." Derek said before the elevator doors closed.

The three girls looked at each other and turn around walking away before the bell of the elevator dinged.

"Let's go." Derek said looking at the three girls.

"Where?" Charlie asked

"To find out of Katie's one in a million." Derek said as Cristina smiled a little bit.

They went and got her scanned, they stood there staring at the screen when finally something finally came up.

"I'll be damned." Derek said

"There it is." The nurse said sitting at the table.

"It's minute, but its there. It's a subarachoid hemorrhage. She's bleeding into her brain." Derek said as everyone leaned closer to the screen.

They walked through the hospital hallways towards the desk full of charts.

"She could have gone through her entire life without it ever being a problem. One tap in the right spot... " Derek said as he walked by the three girls.

"and explode." Cristina said

"Exactly. Now I can fix it. You three did great work. Love to stay and kiss your asses but I got to tell Katie's parents she's having surgery. Katie Bryce's chart, please." Derek said walking up to the desk as the three girls stood there staring at him.

"Here you go." The nurse handed him the chart.

"Dr. Shepard, you'd said that you'd pick someone to scrub in of we helped?" Cristina said

"Oh, yes, right. I'm sorry I can't take all three of you. It's gonna be a full house. Meredith, I'll see you in the O.R." Derek said before looking back down at his chart as the three girls stared at him waiting for Meredith to say something.

"Good. Thank you." Derek said and walked off.

Cristina looked at Derek then Meredith before walking off as Charlie rolled her eyes as Meredith continued to stare in shock.

"Cristina..." She called after her but she continued to walk off.

5 hours later

Charlie and Meredith walked down to the basement where Izzie and Cristina were sitting on one of the bed.

"I'll tell him I changed my mind." Meredith said

"Don't do me any favors. It's fine." Cristina said going back to picking at the paper on her bottle.

"Cristina--" Charlie said

"You did a cutthroat thing. Deal with it. Don't come to me for absolution. You want to be a shark, be a shark." Cristina told Meredith who made a face.

"I'm not--" Meredith tried to protest.

"Oh, yes, you are. Only it makes you feel all bad in your warm, gooey places. No, screw you. I don't picked for surgeries 'cause I slept with my boss. And I didn't get into med school 'cause I have a famous mother. Some of us have to earn what we get." Cristina said

"Crist--" Charlie went to start to yell but Meredith grabbed her arm pulling her out with her.

Hour 40

Charlie and Meredith walked down the hall towards the room where Derek was shaving Katie's hair.

"I promised I'd make her look cool. Apparently, being a bald beauty queen is the worst thing that happened in the history of the world." Derek said before turning the shaver off.

"Did you just me for the surgery because I slept with you?" Meredith asked

"Yes." Derek answered as Charlie walked out of the room.

As she turned to sit down in the chairs by the room she ran into to someone, falling to the floor.

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry." She heard a male voice say before looking up to see the most gorgeous man she had ever seen.

"I-It's fine." She stuttered grabbing his hand to stand up then dusted her self off.

"I'm Theodore Grant." He said as Charlie registered this was the guy from the cafeteria

"Uh, Charlie, Charlie Grey." She smiled shaking his outstretched hand.

He was about to say something before Meredith came out of the room.

"Charlie." She said making her turn away from Theodore.

"Oh, uh, see ya around... I guess." Charlie gave him a small wave before following her sister.

Not much longer later they were sat outside in front of the window with George who was staring off into space.

"I wish I wanted to be a chef or a ski instructor or a kindergarten teacher." Meredith said

"You know, I would have been a really good postal worker. I'm dependable." George said making both the girls chuckle.

"You know, my parents tell everyone they meet that their son's a surgeon, as if it's a big accomplishment-- superhero or something. If they could see me now." George said

"When we told our mom we wanted to go to medical school, she tried to talk us out of it-- said we didn't have what it takes to be a surgeon, that we'd never make it. So the way I see it, superhero sounds pretty damn good." Charlie said as the wind blew in her face.

"We're gonna survive this, right?" George asked

%

Charlie and Meredith walked up the desk where they both grabbed a chart while they listen to Richard talk to Karev.

"She's still short of breath. Did you get an ABG of a chest film?" Richard asked him.

"Oh, yes, sir, I did." Karev siad with a smile

"And what did you see?' Richard asked

"Oh, well, I had a lot of patients last night." Karev said rubbing his eye

"Name the common causes of post-op fever." Richard told him as Alex reached for his notebook.

"Uh, yes."

"From your head, not from a book. Don't look it up. Learn it. It should be in your head. Name the common causes of post-op fever."

"Uh... the common causes of post--"

"Can anybody name the common causes of post-op fever?" Richard asked loudly so everyone could hear him.

"Wind water, wound, walking, wonder drugs--" Charlie and Meredith said together.

"The five W's--" Meredith said

"Most of the time, it's wind-- splinting or pneumonia. Pneumonia's easy to assume, especially if you're to busy to do the tests." Charlie said looking at Alex as Richard did too and looked down at the ground.

"What do you two think's wrong with 4-b?" Richard asked

"The fourth W, walking. I think she's a prime candidate for a pulmonary embolus." Meredith said

"How would you diagnose?"

"Spiral C.T., V/Q scan, provide O2, dose with heparin, and consult for an IVC filter." Charlie sighed as Richard smirked a little before turning to Alex.

"Do exactly what these to say, then tell your resident that I want you off this case." Richard walked towards them.

"I'd know you two anywhere. You're the spitting image of your mother. Welcome to the game." Richard said walking past them.

Charlie and Meredith smiled. Meredith left to get ready for surgery with Derek as Charlie went to the call room to sleep. By the time morning rolled around Meredith had just finished her surgery and fixed everything with Cristina. Charlie woke up and they all left the hospital, all knowing they made through there first shift.

[leftoverspagehhti]

Favourite character thing

1. full name: Javert (No, he does not have a first name)

2. appearance: Tall af, pretty much how he looks in the book. No, I do not base his appearance off of a certain actor because I prefer the actual author's depiction.

3. romantic/sexual orientation: Probably women. No specific one.

4. family: parents (probably dead) of which he doesn't like to think abt

5. job/what they're studying: Police spy/officer/detective

6. every single town/city they've ever lived in: Toulon, Montreuil-sur-Mer, Paris

7. extrovert or introvert? I don't really know. I'm gonna say introvert I guess.

8. hobbies: Not very canon but one of my head canons is that he draws every once in a while but not often at all. (No, nothing about stargazing because honestly I don't think brickvert or whatever you guys call him gives a shit about stars)

9. languages spoken: French

10. how they dress on a daily basis: Shirtsleeves and drawers, then gloves, then waiscoat, trousers and belt, then collar and cravat, then jacket, then greatcoat, then hat.

11. favorite color: Purple. Don't ask why. It just makes sense.

12. favorite musical: He was born in 1780. How do you expect him to know any musicals???

13. favorite book genre: Idk Law??? He don't read often because he's dyslexic af

14. favorite animal: Probably cat.

15. favorite sport: Probably running. Idk I guess he chases after criminals.

16. strange obsession: He loves edging himself by playing cat and mouse with every criminal. Also (at least in the book) gets turned on by the idea of eating people.

17. biggest secret: He is not white. But he doesn't tell anyone. (Not a headcanon. Actually canon. He is Romani and if you didn't know that, well, now you do)

18. pets they have/would like to have: If he HAD to get a pet. I think he would get a cat.

Ok that's all bye

[mmmmulbery]

mer au alkaloid + kohaku maybe? if you can?

thank you for asking !! because this might be a lot of text ill leave it under a read more (it iS a lot of text.)

Alkaloid is currently split up but theyll find their way back together soon!! currently Tatsumi and Aira work at Ocean Ensemble Square's Mer rescue HQ

Tatsumi used to be an executive but after sustaining major injury and limb loss he now works as a sanctuary guide

- for context: OES is divided into a few layers, one of which is a huge main floor sanctuary level that stretches a few floors deep to allow for giant tanks containing involatile mer (think of it like PKMN sun moon's Aether Paradise but larger and slightly more horrifying)

- eichi's got 2 offices (one above water and another underwater), & some areas of OES are walled off unless you have a permit and are armed; the underwater sanctuary tanks are located to be visible from eichis office

Tatsumi also carries a weapon + a mer disabling device on him! He's abt 34.. (?) ish and used to be friends w Jun (and mer!hiyori) as kids -> tatsumi was the one who inspired jun to become a sea captain! i don't trust myself to write these guys as much as I do fine but i'm trying --- Aira is everyone's favourite unpaid intern -> child who idolized this whole operation, working out at sea, everything about it -> dropped out of uni (he's what. 22?) to come work here for lodging expenses. He's not winning but at least he's friend's with yuzuru (im citing the singular line in keito lecture where yz was asked 2 go get food w the rest of them and then stayed back to help keito clean up (?) this was in yuzuru's feature scout) Aira and eichi enjoy a very similar interaction basis as they have in Branco's chapters involving them -- "i was like that, i love someone who used to be like that, but i dont know if you'll be as fortunate as the two of us" [extremely paraphrased] (this was eichi about him and tori IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY)

Aira is also friends w branco! (they help him through a lot of stuff)

He's in HR with Anzu (HR MANAGER shes been here for 4 years and has another 3 on the contract let her OUT) which means shredding complaints from business Executive Ibara Saegusa and Security Head Keito Hasumi on a daily basis (complaints about a certain dark blue haired mer and a light blue haired mer respectively)

Aira also has walked in on a few too many situations he never wants to see again + OES halloween party -> ibara carries a water gun, chiaki starts handing out inflatable amongus suits.

---

Mayoi lives in the OES tank connection system and eichi simply lets it happen because mayoi isnt a) seemingly a threat and b) eichi lets izumi "mer aren't real" sena stay as a paid employee i think eichi's more than willing to see what'll happen as long as it's not a huge downprofit to the company -> sena is not half bad at his job and when tourists catch a glimpse of mayoi they get very excited! (mayoi is the one of the non sedated mer in the area, and he moves faster than most of them + very pretty tail) Tatsumi is one of the sanctuary feeders so he makes sure mayoi gets a fair share too!

side note: mer get more fish-like as you go farther down the sea level + size attribution! mayoi is in a situation where he looks mostly human because of his size and shape (ex. tori's look are modeled after those fish with huge eyes, while wataru's is SUPPOSED to be modeled more after one of those sharks with the giant mouths)

--- Hiiro and Kohaku are pirates on Jun's ship!! Jun's crew are more or less illegal sailors so we're just gonna call them pirates so I can dress them up in frilly clothing; hiiro is of mer blood -> small little scales that he doesn't know how to properly treat and therefore fall off as he just. wraps it in fabric -> Jun is a good captain also hes jun he forces hiiro to actually take care of himself better (im going off the whole thing where hiiro dances extremely well but doesn't really mind harming himself (?) through extremely rough movement (believe4leaves hiiro part) and hiiro's mentality of following what he's learned throughout his life until something else comes along and tells him otherwise -> as a kid having to cover up scales -> still doing it until jun convinces him that it's ok and he's not going to get hunted here for that Kohaku is an ex-mer hunter ^-^ maybe he has something to do with HiMERU ^-^ He also pens to Aira via pigeon mail every so often, and aira mails back using the pigeon coop at OES' top level! At one point (after hiiro no longer sheds off broken scales) kohaku ends up securing one of hiiro's naturally fallen off scales in the pigeon mail to aira! Aira wears it as a necklace

And to answer how kohaku and hiiro are doing -> badly! They are currently shipwrecked because some (very large) green mer has decided their captain is hot /hj

Bonus about the whole pirate shipwreck situation: Jun has been living around mer for the past 7 years & tatsumi was the one who gave him a love of the sea bc tatsumi knew so much about it!! Everytime jun would visit OES (he lived in the closest to seaside village) he'd talk for hours with tatsumi (volunteer at the time) at the dock -> and mer!hiyori, who was part of the beauty, who was always in the distance +

hiyori who didn't talk to jun but swam little circles around under their feet and then after that day slinked away and did not return to see them again -> tatsumi goes to check for hiyori every day for half a year at the edge of the OES docks & jun comes with when he can

hiyori is staring at them out of sight; they are little children, missing eachother already (i'd estimate tatsumi is around 17 here, and jun is 14?)

Jun doesn't exactly recognize Hiyori at first either but she recognizes him! kohaku once again metaphorically gets kicked out of his own room

[genderfluid-faerie-bf]

MY TURN okay. i am just gonna hop on a call with mi dulce before i start this bc long. and ik he was worried abt the character limit but i will just do two posts if i have to idc 1. good lord my memory is so shit, you expect me to remember that? idk dude i remember doing laser tag a lot which was good, movies, lots of time w my cousins and brothers, the five of us were always a group 2. ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY 3. hm. a living person? if it can be anyone, Cicero. Looked up to him since I was like 13-14 ish 4. my favourite will always be the red scrolls of magic by cassandra clare, the sequel is incredible as well and IM SO EXCITED FOR THE THIRD 5. physically? emotionally?? i think. most probably. that he's not afraid to visibly care 6. i do love my new dress, so i will go with that. but i do love a lot of things so it's a tricky choice. dress for now. 7. happy. i like the idea of people being in love. i know like 'it's chemical' or 'it's biological' and 'happens to everyone' and a) no it doesnt bc aro ppl exist and b) who cares?? i don't care if it's chemical it still makes people happy! isn't that what you want? isn't that the whole aim of life?? 8. i wish i did but he's at the wrong house and i'm surviving w out him 9. one of those 'greatest hits' cds i can't remember much except it had beauty and a beat which i now hate <333 10. im gonna be soooo real. hiking and driving both suck so im gonna take the travel part out of the equation and just go stargaze vs sunrise and stargaze wins, just. 11. dance with my demons, by blame my youth. hits just as hard as ever four years after i first listened to it 12. iced 13. bright colours!! i want to be Seen and Perceived 14. breakfast for dinner bc cereal 15. black thumb, sadly. wish i didn't but i do 16. my collarbone and hip bones, i just like the. idk i like my hips and my collarbone 17. lawyer 18. tall, blond and with an american accent. (i know.) 19. i actually dont rlly want either, like i wouldnt say no, but theres no pull towards either of em 20. makeup 21. idk, there's been many. 22. who knows, really. i dont pay attention to the weird stuff. i like weird people 23. oh this is. hard. i think my dream date would be a long trip together. train ride, maybe? not about the destination. just the trip. 24. intuition. i have never been a logical person, emotion is just better 25. yes. 26. no 27. me, no explanation 28. spotify wrapped day!!!! 29. no <3 30. insta 31. soooo many shows dude. i did not vibe with like. the home reno shows in general, and antique roadshow and just. many of the ones where things are for sale and money is involved. 32. Land: Horses / Land of a thousand dances / La Mer(de) by Patti Smith 33. yes 34. also yes. 35. oh fuck whats his name. the gay guy that does the antique recipes. then tom holland. after that idk 36. latin 37. no 38. roses, especially yellow roses. 39. having someone touch my shoulders, tracing things on my shoulders, laying a hand on my shoulders, etc. 40. yes 41. i like the idea, never had someone to celebrate it with yet tho 42. no and no 43. my writing, i would hope, or hopefully as 'spouse of (important position)' for when my nick takes over the world 44. "Unasked for advice is criticism, my dear" - Magnus Bane from TSC 45. yeah 46. no and not really? maybe but its not big on my list of wants 47. h a t e it when people refuse to do something fun bc it's 'cringe' or embarrassing or whatever. be authentic!! care about things!! i know im gonna be bad at ice skating and dancing and karaoke and i DONT CARE JUST LET ME BE THE FIRST TO DANCE. WHEN I GET UP, FOLLOW ME. I DONT CARE 48. empathy

70. driving 71. whatever nick listens to??? indie rock i think???? 72. chill. i wish i didnt know.

73. late night or early morning. midday is just bad. 74. both

75. wyoming, michigan; venice; rome 76. that they are really in tune with that other people think different things. and will try to get your thoughts rather than assume 77. no.

78. hair

79. yes but also no. tell me, then i forget, and then i get the surprise later! both!

80. my pfp on insta

81. the shadow hunter chronicles, by cassandra clare

82. yes

83. my red rose earring, matching w nicky

84. my family is just me actually. i have no family, i don't claim them as my relatives

85. no but i want to be, one day

86. boxers

87. apartment with library room, this has not changed

88. KITTY. TSC. KITTY. 89. michigan

90. the thursday murder club by richard osman, and the sequels

91. never has been one!

92. THE SHADOWHUNTER CHRONICLES HANDS DOWN 93. oh boy. too long to bother with but. later.

94. one i'm at rn

95. we bumped into my brother. while kissing. he didn't know i was gay.

96. nicky <3

97. spontaneity babyyy

98. in general, no, but i think i have a closer view of what i am than most people do, if that makes sense. i know i'll never get it exactly right but i think im pretty self aware

99. house md

100. dancing queen by abba

Get to know me asks✨

So introverts who never talk to their mutuals can get to know each other lol

1. What were your summers like as a kid?

2. Do you enjoy thrilling rides like rollercoasters?

3. Who was your childhood hero?

4. What is your favorite book?

5. What do you find most attractive about your crush?

6. What’s your favorite outfit?

7. Does seeing people in love make you happy? Sad? Annoyed?

8. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

9. What CD did you play to death as a kid?

10. Hike to a mountain top to watch the sunrise or drive out of town to stargaze?

11. What song has the most relatable song lyrics to you?

12. Iced drinks or hot drinks?

13. Bright colors or neutral tones?

14. Breakfast for dinner or pizza for breakfast?

15. Do you have a green thumb or a black thumb?

16. What’s your favorite feature of yours?

17. Would you rather be a lawyer or a doctor?

18. What type do you tend to go for physically?

19. Power of invisibility or flight?

20. Would you rather wake up with your makeup magically done or your hair?

21. What’s the stupidest fight you’ve ever gotten into?

22. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve seen someone do in public?

23. What’s your dream date?

24. Do you tend to gravitate more toward using logic or intuition to make decisions?

25. Do you like parties?

26. Did you enjoy high school?

27. Who is the craziest person in your family and why?

28. What’s your favorite holiday tradition?

29. Can you describe your laugh?

30. Instagram or Twitter?

31. What’s a show that everyone loves that you didn’t?

32. What song is stuck in your head?

33. Do you like exercising?

34. Do you scare easily?

35. Who are your top 5 celebrity crushes?

36. If you could learn one language fluently what would it be?

37. Would you fly to the moon if given the opportunity?

38. What’s your favorite flower?

39. What non-sexual touch affects you the most?

40. Do you enjoy cuddling?

41. Do you like valentine’s day?

42. Do you enjoy driving and are you a good driver?

43. What would you be most likely to become famous for?

44. Do you have a favorite quote?

45. Are you a romantic?

46. Do you have any tattoos or want to get one?

47. Biggest pet peeve?

48. Favorite personality trait about yourself?

49. Sum up your type in three words.

50. Do you listen to Kpop and if so who is your bias and why?

51. What’s the longest you’ve ever stayed awake?

52. Hot or cold weather?

53. Bouquet of flowers or box of chocolates?

54. Can you do any good impressions?

55. What’s the best prank you’ve been witness to?

56. Favorite dessert?

57. Is there a vine or tik tok you quote often?

58. What tumblr post always makes you laugh?

59. What country that you haven’t been to do you want to visit most?

60. Can you cook and do you enjoy it?

61. What’s your guilty pleasure movie?

62. What’s your comfort movie?

63. Is there a genre of music you don’t like?

64. What’s an album that you think has no skips on it?

65. What’s your favorite thing to watch on youtube?

66. Would you make the first move to ask someone out?

67. Do you often dream or have nightmares that you remember when you wake up?

68. What are you craving right now?

69. What turns you on?

70. What’s something you haven’t done that you think most people have?

71. What genre is your favorite playlist right now and what’s it called?

72. Are you a sad or happy drunk? Chill or energetic drunk?

73. What time of day do you like best?

74. Do you tend to enjoy being babied or do you prefer to be the one taking care of someone else?

75. What top three cities do you want to travel to?

76. What’s your favorite feature about your best friend?

77. Do you have any pets? What are their names?

78. Back scratches or having your hair played with?

79. Do you like surprises?

80. What’s your favorite picture of yourself?

81. What books influenced you most as a child?

82. Do you like kids?

83. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? (or other accessory if you don’t wear any)

84. Any wild stories passed around in your family?

85. Do you consider yourself an independent person?

86. What are you most comfortable sleeping in?

87. What was your childhood dream?

88. What’s your fictional OTP?

89. What’s one thing you want to achieve this year?

90. What has been your favorite book you’ve read in the last 5 years?

91. What was the first movie to make you cry?

92. What book world would you live in if given the opportunity?

93. What’s your craziest work related story?

94. What’s the best job you’ve had so far?

95. Worst tinder or date experience?

96. What’s the first thing you think of when you wake up most mornings?

97. Are you more of a planner or a spontaneous adventurer?

98. Do you think you see yourself the way other people see you?

99. What’s the last show you binged?

100. What’s one of your fondest memories?

[doc-pickles]

hoping, dreaming, dying to keep

And all at once, you are all I want, I'll never let you go

King of my heart, body and soul

“You know, I found your husband.”

The voice in the doorway of the lounge made Jo look up in shock, brows furrowing as she comprehended what Alex had just said. “What?” 

“I hired a guy. I found his name. I looked him up,” Alex paused, gauging Jo’s reaction as he relayed his actions. “And then I went and found him.”

“Oh, my God, Alex.” 

“Look. You didn't ask me to do that, and you didn't give me permission to do that, and it was wrong, and I'm sorry. But Jo, I swear to God, I could never, ever hurt you,” Alex wore a pitiful expression as he looked at Jo, obviously hoping she would hear him out. “My dad, he was like your ex. I'm not like that, all right? I'm not like my dad. I mean, I do things that are wrong. I do things that are stupid. But I swear to you I would never hurt you.”

Jo let Alex’s words sink in, heart pounding as she realized that Alex had gone behind her back, “You saw Paul?” 

“Yeah.”

“Are you serious? After I told you what I went through you just went behind my back and found Paul,” Jo ran a hand through her hair as she fought back tears. “I’ve spent so many years hiding from him and you just what? Found him on the internet? What if he figures out where I am? What then?” “Jo I-”

“No this… This is unforgivable. I’m sorry Alex but I don’t think I can trust you again after this,” Jo turned away from Alex, attempting to stem her tears long enough for her to get herself alone. “Can you just leave? Please?”

There’s a long pause and she almost thinks that he’s left her there before his voice pipes up, “I’m sorry Jo. Really I am.” Once she hears him leave the lounge and shut the door behind himself, Jo let’s a few quiet tears escape. She contemplates running, leaving everything behind once again and starting over. But she’s built a life here in Seattle, Alex be damned. She wasn’t going to let Paul or her fear keep her from living her life. If Paul became an issue again then she’d face the problem when it was standing in front of her. She wasn’t the same scared girl she used to be, she was a fighter and she could handle this.

+

“The Heparin should have helped by now. I think I made the wrong call.”

Jo’s heart drops as she approaches Alex and Amelia. She had run herself ragged around the hospital trying to find an answer only for her search to be useless. 

“Wait. Heparin? No. I texted,” Alex turns at the sound of her voice, eyeing her warily. “They didn't reverse him.”

“Damn it. We can't access the reversal agent,” Alex looks at Amelia, who nods at him as she moves into the room. “Prep him to move.”

“What is it? What's wrong,” Frankie’s mom is frantic as Helm and Amelia begin to prep Frankie. 

“Frankie's AVM might be bleeding. We've got to get him to the O.R. now.”

“But the medicine you gave him. It was supposed to help.”

“I'm sorry. We need to go.”

Amelia and Helm push Frankie out of the room, his mom hot on their heels. Jo watches them, her teeth gnawing on her bottom lip in worry. Finally she looks up to Alex who hasn’t moved from his spot next to her. 

“Hey. I'm so sorry. I texted. It didn't go through.  And then…”

“And then what,” Jo is expecting anger from Alex but instead his voice is laced with concern as he places a hand on her shoulder. “Jo, what’s wrong?”

She doesn’t know why the words slip out so easily for her but as Jo looks at Alex she can’t help herself, “Paul is here. I… I saw him downstairs.”

She doesn’t need to say anything else as Alex steps forward and wraps his arms around her, pulling her close as she takes a few shuddering breaths, “Why don’t you come sit in the gallery while Amelia and I operate? That way you aren’t totally alone.”

Jo nods, silently agreeing to Alex’s plan as they walked down the hall towards the OR. Jo stops a few feet away from the scrub room, gripping Alex’s arm tightly. In front of them sits Paul Stadler, fixing his shoe covers without a care in the world. Alex quickly turns to Jo, blocking her from Paul’s view. 

“I’m in OR 3, go up to the gallery and don’t move until I come up later,” Alex watched as Jo let out a shaky breath and nodded, eyes still trained on Paul. “It’s gonna be alright Jo.”

Alex wants nothing more than to reach down and kiss Jo, to hold her tight as a comfort to both of them that things would be okay. Instead he watches her walk down the hallway, turning a corner and disappearing from his line of view, unknowingly carrying a large piece of his heart with her. 

-

It’s late the next day when Alex walks Jo up to the door of the loft. After signing the divorce papers only for Paul to die a few hours later Jo had been through a lot. Alex had driven her home, making sure she got into the loft safely, “I’m gonna head out, do you need anything before I go?”

“Can you maybe just camp out on the couch tonight,” Jo sat on her bed, a ratty Princeton sweatshirt engulfing her a s she stared helplessly at Alex. “I just… I really don’t want to be alone tonight.”

“Are you sure? I don’t want to intrude or anything,” Alex rubs the back of his neck nervously, glancing up at Jo who has tears welling in her eyes. “Hey, don’t cry. I’ll stay okay?”

Jo sucks in a deep breath before a sob breaks from her, “I’m just really shaken up. I don’t want to be alone again. I know… I know that Paul is dead but I can’t stop my mind from playing worst case scenarios on an endless loop.

Alex closes the gap between them and pulls Jo into his arms as she continues to cry. He wanted nothing more than to hold her all night, comfort her the way she wanted. But he knew that wasn’t his place anymore so he started on the couch, the same one Jo had bought him. He leapt up when Jo was startled awake by a nightmare, comforting her until she drifted back to sleep. He feels selfish for loving the way her body so easily curls against his, but if this is the only way he can have Jo then so be it.

+

“You get ditched already too?” Jo jumps at the voice that sounds behind her, louder than the crowded room around her. She turns with a small grin as she meets Alex’s eyes, “Yeah I came down with Meredith but as soon as we got here she went off with Hayes. I’m pretty sure they already left.”

“Well if I was having the amount of sex they were having I wouldn’t want to stick around at some stuffy party either,” Alex takes a long gulp of his beer, Jo eyeing him for just a moment too long. His eyes glance over her and she can almost hear the gears in his brain turning. “What’s that look for?”

Jo gulps her own red wine, feeling a blush creep up from her neck to her cheeks, “Nothing, I just haven’t gotten laid in a pathetically long time. I don’t have time for casual sex.”

A deep laugh escapes Alex and the sound vibrates through Jo’s body, lighting her up with an electricity she hadn’t felt in far too long. Her eyes meet his, a grin forming on his cheeks, and before Alex could say anything else she was speaking, one hand pressing a finger into his chest, “Don’t say it!”

“I didn’t say anything!” “Yes but you have that cocky grin that you always used to wear when you thought you were going to get laid,” Jo narrows her eyes in Alex’s direction as his smirk widens. “Don’t even think about it, I am not going home with you.”

The moment isn’t as tense or awkward as Jo would’ve assumed, instead the same electricity fluttering around her chest was now buzzing around her and Alex. Even though they’d been broken up for over a year and a half now, their chemistry was still there burning just as strong as ever.

“You said it yourself, you haven’t gotten laid in awhile. We could help each other out,” Jo hates how her body reacts to him, melting at the mere suggestion of having sex. “It could be a no strings attached kind of thing, you know just scratching an itch.”

“And you think that you and I could be no strings attached? After all, we do have a history.”

The way their eyes meet then confirms for Jo that no matter what she says next her body is going to betray her and give into the primal urge building up rapidly within her. Alex’s eyes are dark and filled with a sense of longing as he stares at her, fingers reaching out to grab her hand, “There’s only one way to find out.”

They barely make it to Alex’s car before their hands are all over each other, clothing being ripped away as they fall into the backseat in a whirlwind of moans and gasps. It feels as if no time has passed between them as she and Alex fall over the edge together, heavy breaths echoing around them as Jo rests her cheek against his chest. 

His heartbeat sounding in her ear comforts her in a way she’d forgotten about, never lingering like this with any of her one night stands or casual flings. She almost lets herself get caught up in the feeling before Alex’s voice rings in her ear.

“So… no strings attached?”

+

She knows she’s had a drink too many when she let’s Alex’s arms wrap around her waist, her body melting at his touch despite the fact that they were surrounded by their friends and coworkers. Meredith and Hayes had said their vows hours earlier, the couple happily dancing with all five of their combined children as everyone around them celebrated. 

“Let’s get out of here,” Alex’s breath is burning hot against her neck, his presence overwhelming all of her senses. “I’ve got a room upstairs.” “Aren’t you supposed to stick around since you’re the man of honor,” Jo turns in his embrace and settles her hands on Alex’s chest as she fixes him with a stern look. “I don’t think Mer will be too happy to look around and find you missing.”

Alex rolls his eyes as his hands snake down to her waist, pulling her closer to him, “She’ll live. Now c'mon, I've been staring at you in that dress all night and all I’ve wanted is to take it off of you.”

The rest of the night is a blur, Jo and Alex falling into bed with each other multiple times before they finally succumb to sleep. It’s not until late the next afternoon when she wakes up in his embrace that Jo realizes that they hadn’t used any protection. Staring at Alex’s sleeping form she decides to keep that revelation to herself, dressing quietly and slipping out the hotel room before he can wake up.

+ The next few weeks are excruciating, Jo avoiding Alex at any and all costs. They’d usually meet up at least once a week, but she’d been ignoring his texts and avoiding the peds floor whenever possible. She knew Alex could tell something was wrong, even before they’d started their ‘no strings attached’ relationship they’d see each other around the hospital or at Joe’s. But since Meredith and Hayes’ wedding she’d given him the cold shoulder, her anxious mind spinning out as she played over what their future might look like.

It’s a month after the wedding when she finally gets hit with a bout of nausea in the middle of rounds. She barely makes it out of the patient room and to the trashcan in the hallway before her breakfast is reappearing in front of her, a sinking feeling settling in her stomach as she shoos her group of residents away. Once she’s confident that she won’t throw up again, Jo finds herself darting to the nearest supply closet and grabbing a pregnancy test.

She’s known in the back of her head for almost a week but she hadn’t dared to confirm the growing suspicion lingering there. Now however there would be no more denying as what she assumed was morning sickness and the accompanying nausea had plagued her since rolling out of bed that morning.

“C’mon, just tell me already,” Jo mumbles the words to herself as she stares down at the two tests resting on the bathroom counter in the attendings lounge.

“Jo? You okay?” The question is met with a knock on the bathroom door but before Jo can answer the person on the other side the timer on her phone is blaring, startling her into knocking both tests and her still sounding phone onto the floor. She scrambles to pick everything up just as the door swings open, Alex standing before her with a worried expression on his face. 

Great, just what I needed.

She’s about to speak when she follows his line of sight to the two plastic tests sitting right in front of his feet, both brandishing a bright pink plus sign. Jo picks the tests up quickly but she knows the damage has already been done. When she stands up and faces Alex her mind immediately flashes back to the night he proposed to her in the loft. His face has the same mix of heartache and hurt that it had that day two years ago and Jo’s own heart twists as she meets his eyes. 

“Oh.” The word slips from Alex’s mouth easily and his eyes dart to Jo’s abdomen. Before he can say anything else Jo is speaking in a nervous tangent, “I was throwing up this morning and I’ve already suspected for a few weeks, well I assumed something might have happened since we weren’t exactly careful at the wedding and I was just waiting for this stupid stick to turn pink and then-”

“You knew?,” Alex’s voice stops her nervous tangent, blinking up at him in confusion. “You knew, or you thought you might know, and you didn’t say anything to me?”

“Well I wasn’t for sure about it-” “But you knew we didn’t use protection? And that you might be pregnant for weeks and you didn’t say anything. Instead you just avoided me the whole time,” Jo could feel Alex’s anger rising as his brain worked through the situation at hand. “Were you even going to tell me you were pregnant if I hadn’t shown up just now?”

“Of course I was! But I didn’t think I needed to keep you in the loop on every little thing in my life seeing as you’re not my boyfriend,” Jo crosses her arms as she stares down Alex, her own anger boiling under her skin. “You were the one that insisted on this being no strings attached, well that’s exactly what you’ve got! I’ll let you know when I book an appointment, other than that don’t expect to hear from me.” Jo brushes past Alex, ignoring his calls to her as she walks briskly out of the attendings lounge. She would deal with the repercussions later, for now all she wanted was to be left alone and to be as far away from Alex as possible. 

+

Weeks pass by and true to her word Jo doesn't contact Alex except to tell him about her first ultrasound. He misses the appointment, an emergency surgery calling him away half an hour beforehand, and Jo feels a small twinge of sadness as she tucks the ultrasound into his wallet. While part of her is still upset with him, another part is sad that he wasn’t able to experience the appointment with her. 

“Wilson I’ve got a patient in room 4 that needs a consult,” Hunt’s voice booms from behind her and Jo turns to meet his eye. “Car crash victim with minor injuries. Do you mind grabbing it? We’re filling up fast here.”

Jo nods, grabbing an iPad and bringing up the electronic chart. She feels like crap, even though she’s approaching the 12 week mark she’s still plagued with nausea and heartburn most days. Her stomach now has the slightest curve to it and Jo can’t help but run her hand over the small bump throughout the day. 

“Hi Mr. Greene, my name is Doctor Wilson and I’m-“

“I don’t really care who you are, I’m not staying in this damn hospital,” the older man seems disgruntled, sitting on the edge of the gurney and fixing Jo with a glare. “I’m perfectly fine anyways.”

Despite what he says, the man has a large gash across his forehead and his right arm is clearly bothering him. Jo takes his reluctance in stride, taking another step towards the bed, “I just want to check out that cut on your forehead and make sure it doesn’t get infected. It looks like you might need stitches.” “I told you I’m fine! I don’t trust any of you doctors.”

“Well we’re going to have to keep you for obser-“

Before she can move out of the way, the man is springing up from the gurney and lunging towards her. His hands grab her arms roughly and slam her into the wall of the trauma room. Jo can feel her head smack against the plaster as she lets a scream out, eyes screwing shut as she tries not to let her racing mind overwhelm her. 

Paul. Running away. Jason. Fighting back. DeLuca. Mistakes. Alex. Heartbreak. Her baby… Her baby. Her baby. 

Suddenly the pressure against her arms releases and Jo opens her eyes in time to see Alex pulling the now screaming patient away from her. Instead of the angry and visceral reaction she’s expecting from him, Jo watches as Alex pulls the patient away just long enough to let Owen sedate him. As soon as he hands him off, Alex is in front of her, his hands now resting on her shoulders as he looks her over. She’s frozen in place, her body shaking involuntarily as she tries to stop the panic attack she can feel coming on. 

“Are you okay? Jo?”

“Um yeah, I think so. I hit my head pretty hard but I’m okay,” she can hear the way her voice is trembling as she meets Alex’s eyes. “I’m fine, I’m okay. I’m fine, really I’m fine.” She keeps repeating the words as Alex pulls her into him, tears floating down her cheeks as her chest constricts tightly. Jo has been through her share of scary situations before, she’s been beaten within an inch of her life but she’s never been this scared. She’s never had to worry about someone else before but right now all she could think about was if her baby had somehow been hurt. 

“Do you want me to page Carina to check you out?”

Any other day she would have brushed off concerns from anyone about her well-being but Jo’s anxiety is already peaking and she doesn’t want to leave anything to chance. She nods slowly, listening as Alex asks Owen to page Carina and then leads her out of the room. 

+

Hours later Jo is crawling into bed, ready for the day to be over. Her head is pounding but she’d been instructed to stay awake for a few hours following her injury to make sure she truly was okay. After having both Amelia and Carina poke and prod her, she was more than ready to lay in bed until late tomorrow.

“Your meds are on the counter and I filled up a water bottle for you to keep on your side table,” Jo gazes up at Alex who's standing in front of her, a concerned yet genuine smile on his face as he looks at her. “You need anything else before I head out?” “Stay.” Alex pauses only for a second, his expression showing his shock and hope for only a second before he schools his emotions once again, “I don’t wanna intrude. But you can call me if you need anything.” “No I want you to stay Alex,” Jo sits up in bed, despite how tired her body is and fixes Alex with a sincere gaze. An alarming sense of deja vu comes over her as she remembers a similar conversation happening after Paul’s death. Jo had wanted Alex to stay with her and crawl into bed beside her, seeking his comfort after the traumatic events. But always the gentlemen Alex had stayed true to his word and stuck to the couch, except to comfort her in the middle of the night. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about my suspicions, but I swear as soon as I knew I was going to tell you.” “You didn’t need to tell me anything Jo, I was overreacting. I panicked and I’m sorry.”

Jo shakes her head, eyes watering as she reaches for Alex’s hand, “I don’t care about any of that. You… When you pulled that patient off of me I was convinced that you were going to lunge at him or.... It doesn’t matter what I thought, what matters is that you kept your cool and you made sure I was okay. You showed me that you’ve changed.”

“Of course I did Jo, you mean a lot to me,” Alex moves his free hand up to cup Jo’s cheek and swipe at the few tears that had collected there. 

“And you mean so much to me Alex, more than you know. I know we’ve been through alot but I still care about you. And I don’t want to continue this stupid ‘no strings attached’ thing we have going.” “Oh… Okay.” A grin spreads across Jo’s face as she leans up, pressing her forehead against Alex’s, “I mean I want more with you. I don’t want random hookups or meaningless sex, I want the whole thing. I want you here with me every night. And I want to raise our baby together. I love you Alex, so much. It might’ve taken me a while to realize it but I want it all with you.”

Alex doesn’t bother responding, instead he leans forward and kisses her sweetly. Relief floods Jo as she tangles her fingers in his hair, the stress and pain of the day melting away as she leans into Alex. 

“I love you too. And I’m really glad you’re both okay,” Alex’s hand slides down to the small bump that had grown in just days beforehand, a smile taking over his face as he did so. “You have a bump!”

“Pretty sure it’s all bloat but there’s definitely a baby in there,” Jo let’s a small laugh out as she covers his hand with her own. “We’re sure doing everything out of order aren't we?” 

“Have we ever done anything the easy way?”

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Hey Mer! What are your top 3 favourite Taylor swift songs? (This wasn't prompted by an ask meme, I'm just curious)

Ok ok let’s see if I can actually narrow it down. I know my top two for sure,

1 - Long Live, hands down. Underrated anthem.

2 - Call It What You Want, definitely.

3 - uhhhhh ok this is where it gets difficult I’m gonna go with Ready For It? Because that song never fails to get my hyped

Honourable mentions going to Mine, Endgame, Love Story, Dress, You Belong With Me, Sparks Fly, Long Story Short, Exile, Peace, You Need To Calm Down, Happiness, Sweeter Than Fiction, and I’m Only Me When I’m With You !!

What are yours!!??

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