#I'M GLAD YOU THOUGHT OF ME... i feel like she's snuck up on me again in a way i didn't expect

[cacw]

I RUSHED HERE TO ASK OPINIONS ON THE FROSTPAW TULPA (PLUSH)

frankly I'm at a point where if she was being sold seperately I might be tempted to expend the $30 and some change it would take to own her. not sure what this could mean for me

[livwritessometimes]

At Least One Of Us Got Our Happy Ending

: Part 15 (Lando's Version)

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As Y/n and Lando watched Oscar pull his girl in for a kiss, she couldn't help but join some of their friends in hooting for the new couple. It was nice to see Oscar finally be with the girl he'd madly been head-over-heels for—Y/n could recall countless conversations they'd had about this. Smiling at the scene, she felt Lando pull her close to him, his hand resting on her waist.

"Should we get back to the table?" Asked Lando

Looking away from the scene in front of her, Y/n nodded at him and started leading him to their table.

There sat Max, one of Lando's friends who he constantly played games with, and his date.

Taking a seat, Y/n said, "It's so nice to see Oscar finally be happy."

"It is! I'm glad he came today," Lando said, looking at Oscar.

Max laughed to himself, leaning back against the chair he said, "I guess it's nice when things work out the way they're supposed to, huh?" He said, looking at Lando.

Lando narrowed his eyes at Max, "Max..." He said in a warning tone.

Confused by the exchange Y/n asked, "Wait, what's that supposed to mean?"

Max shrugged casually, taking a sip from the flask he had snuck in, "Oh, it's just funny how it all started you know? I just didn't think you guys would actually make it," Max finished.

Lando could feel his heart beating faster, "Max," He said again this time with hint of anger.

Y/n couldn't help but tense up, looking between Lando and Max. "What does he mean by 'How it started' Lando?" She asked.

"Oh nothing, you know how I am, I love to talk nonsense," Max said realizing that he might have said a little too much.

"Lando...What does he mean by that?" Y/n asked, her voice barely above a whisper.

Lando sighed deeply, his mind racing as he tried to find the right words. He felt angry—angry at Max for opening his mouth when it was not needed, angry at himself for agreeing to do such a stupid thing.

"Y/n..." He started, his voice hesitant. Reaching out for her hand, he said, "It wasn't supposed to mean anything...I had no idea that I would actually fall in love..." He said. He could see the dread wash over Y/n's eyes.

*flashback*

*present*

Y/n felt her heart shatter into a million pieces. All hope and dreams for an amazing night disappeared in an instant. She sat there in silence as she let Lando's words sink in.

"So I was just a 'Dare'?" She asked, still in disbelief.

Lando avoided her gaze, his throat feeling dry. "I—I never imagined that it would turn into this," He said. "At first, it was just a stupid dare, I was just angry about the complaint, but I never thought that..." Lando's voice trailed off. He was not sure what he could say or do to make any of it sound better.

Y/n could feel her eyes sting with tears, "So does that mean all this time, every single conversation we've had, every single moment we've spent together...It was all just a game to you?" Y/n said as tears trickled down her face.

"No!," Lando said suddenly, a little too loud for his liking. He tried to reach out for her hand, but she pulled away, "I didn't mean for it to be like that. It was just a dare at the start, I admit, but the more time I spent with you, the more I realized that I just couldn't continue. I was going to tell you, I swear Y/n," Lando said. "I just didn't know how...." He trailed off again.

"So if you hadn't "fallen in love" with me, would you have still gone through with your plan?" Y/n asked, her voice a mixture of anger and hurt.

Lando opened his mouth but no words came out. He didn't have an answer. Deep down, he knew that no answer would make things right. The damage had already been done.

Y/n stood up abruptly, her chair scraping loudly against the floor. "Congrats!" She spat, her voice filled with bitterness. "You've won your stupid dare. I really hope it was worth it Lando," she said as she started walking towards the exit.

"Y/n please wait!" Lando pleaded.

"NO!" Y/n said, finally letting go of the emotions she had been holding onto till now. "Don't you dare follow me. You've lost the right to do that," she said, her voice cracking at the end.

And with that, she made her way out of the hall, taking Lando's heart with every step she took.

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[kangshxrtie]

ch. 24 ⤍ go to sleep

"yunjin!" you exclaimed quietly as you stepped out of the uber.

yunjin had come outside to greet you when you texted her that you were down the street, wanting to avoid waking everyone in the house by ringing the doorbell.

"y/n!" she rushed over, wrapping you in a warm hug.

"i'm gonna be honest, i didn't think you would actually come," yunjin said once you both broke apart.

you smiled, shrugging a little. "i almost didn't, but then i thought, why stay home and do nothing when i could hang out with you?"

"well, i'm glad you did!" yunjin beamed, linking her arm with yours as you both walked toward the house. "let's go inside!"

once inside, yunjin kicked off her shoes and padded over to the couch, motioning for you to join her. you slipped off your shoes and set your bag on the floor before flopping down next to her.

"so, what's the plan for tonight?" yunjin asked, grabbing a blanket and wrapping it around her shoulders.

"i don't know; this is your house," you shrugged playfully.

"movie?" yunjin suggested.

"yeah, i did that the last time i was here too," you chuckled.

yunjin looked confused for a second but then her face lit up with realization. "i forgot kazuha snuck you in here before!"

"and now you're sneaking me in. i really am working my way up le sserafim," you joked, leaning back against the couch.

"stop!" yunjin laughed, shaking her head at your comment.

as the laughter faded, yunjin's expression turned thoughtful. "honestly, though, it's nice to have you here. we've never really hung out alone before."

you nodded. "yeah, it's nice."

yunjin smiled, her eyes softening. "me too. but what do you want to watch?"

you thought about it for a second. "how about a classic rom-com? something light and funny?"

"i was hoping you would say that!" yunjin agreed, reaching over to grab the remote and scrolling through the streaming service.

she went into the kitchen to grab some snacks and drinks, returning with a spread that made your mouth water. after setting everything up on the coffee table, she flopped back onto the couch and started the movie.

as the opening credits rolled, you sank into the cushions, feeling completely at ease. you exchanged glances and playful comments throughout the film, laughter echoing through the cozy living room.

after watching a specific scene and with some drinks in both of your systems, yunjin turned to you, her expression bright. "we should recreate this scene! i feel like we would totally fuck up the dance."

you burst out laughing. "i'd be down!"

yunjin giggled, her eyes sparkling with mischief. "i think we can learn this tonight."

"can we post it?" you asked.

"fuck yeah!" yunjin agreed.

and that's how you two ended up recording a dance video that you'd definitely regret come morning—or when either one of you sobered up just a little bit.

you both cleared a little space in the living room, giggling and bumping into each other as you set up the phone to record. yunjin hit play, and as the music started, you both attempted to follow the choreography.

"wait, wait! i'm totally lost already!" you exclaimed, laughing so hard you could barely stand.

"just follow my lead!" yunjin called back. "i promise i'll make it look good!"

you both started again, determined to get at least one solid take. but every time the song hit a particularly catchy beat and you'd make eye contact with yunjin, you couldn't help but break into laughter, causing you to forget the steps entirely.

"okay, okay, focus this time!" yunjin said, trying to catch her breath. "let's do it on three. one... two... three!"

the music started, and this time, you actually managed to keep up for a few counts. but as the chorus hit, you both went wild, completely losing it again.

"why are we so bad at this?!" you said between laughs.

"i think we're doing great!" yunjin insisted, not able to stop hearslf from laughing. "just imagine how funny this is going to be later!"

after what felt like countless attempts, you finally managed to get a somewhat decent take, even if you both did look stupid as fuck in it. yunjin stopped the recording and flopped back onto the couch, breathless.

"i knew we would fuck that up," she said, collapsing dramatically onto the cushions.

"definitely the best dancers," you joked, downing the rest of your drink.

"seriously, though," yunjin said after a few moments of silence, her tone shifting a bit, "thanks for coming over. i really needed this."

you turned to her, appreciating the sincerity in her voice. "me too. i always have a good time with you."

she smiled softly, and you couldn't help but feel grateful for this unexpected evening together.

after the movie wrapped up, you both tackled the mess of empty drink containers and snack wrappers, laughing as you raced to clean up. but as the drinks faded off, you started to feel the weight of exhaustion tugging at you. you figured you'd just sleep on the couch, but yunjin wouldn't let you.

"no way you're sleeping on the couch," she insisted, giving you a pointed look. "you're coming to my bed."

you opened your mouth to protest, but she was already pulling you toward her room. once there, she placed a pillow between you two and declared it a "lesbian prevention pillow."

you burst out laughing at her ridiculousness. "seriously, yunjin"

"can't have kazuha getting jealous," she teased, winking.

you couldn't stop smiling as you settled into her bed, the pillow a silly barrier between you. the comfort of the sheets made it hard to resist the pull of sleep.

"goodnight, yunjin," you said, turning to face her.

"goodnight, y/n. sweet dreams!" she replied.

with the gentle sound of her breathing beside you, you closed your eyes, feeling safe and content. you drifted off to sleep with a smile on your face.

the next morning, you were sitting in the le sserafim living room, waiting for yunjin to wake up, chatting with your manager about brand deals and new projects you were working on. you had just sent your last message when kazuha crept up behind you.

"y/n?" she said, causing you to jump in your seat.

"hi, zuha," you greeted her, a smile spreading across your face.

"what are you doing here? are you here for me?" she asked, her expression full of confusion as she pointed to herself.

"i hung out with yunjin last night, so i spent the night here. just waiting for her to wake up now," you explained.

kazuha pouted, crossing her arms. "i told you to go to sleep last night! and not only did you ignore that, but you hung out with my roommate."

"jealous?" you teased.

"of course i am," she said.

"don't be. we just hung out as friends," you reassured her, chuckling softly. "but what are you doing up this early?"

"i told you, i wake up early," kazuha replied, plopping down next to you. "what are you doing, though?"

"just talking to my manager about new projects and stuff," you told her, turning to face her.

"oooh, any spoilers?" kazuha asked, her eyes lighting up with curiosity.

"for you?" you thought for a moment. "maybe... but only if they go through."

"okay, i hope it happens! you deserve it," kazuha said, her tone earnest.

"thank you," you replied, giving her an appreciative smile.

just then, you felt the tips of kazuha's fingertips slowly trail up your arm. your heart sped up as her fingers inched closer to your face. she reached the lower part of your cheek and cupped it, making your breath hitch.

the two of you were close enough that you could feel kazuha's breath, the space between you charged with a warmth that made your skin tingle.

"zuha..." you began to say, but before you could finish, kazuha closed the distance with a soft kiss. you wasted no time kissing her back, every sensation heightened.

kazuha backed you up until the back of your legs hit the bed. you slowly sat down, letting her climb into your lap, her arm snaking around your neck as she did. you instinctively moved your hand to her hips, pulling her closer as you both continued to kiss.

soon enough, you were tugging kazuha's sweater over her head, your hands exploring her bare sides. she let out a soft moan at your touch. you moved your lips down to her jawline, and you continued down to her collarbone, placing several gentle hickeys in that area. kazuha gasped softly, her head tilting back in delight, wanting to feel your lips on hers again. she pulled you back in for another kiss, your tongues dancing together in a very heated kiss.

but before you could go any further, you were rudely jolted awake by yunjin yelling at you to wake up.

"what do you want?" you mumbled, your voice still heavy with sleep as you barely opened your eyes.

"sakura is making breakfast for us, and you need to wake up so we can all eat together," yunjin replied.

you groaned, making no motion to get up. the only thing on your mind was that dream you just had—a particularly vivid one about kazuha. a smile crept onto your face as you replayed the scenes in your head.

you just wanted to make that dream a reality.

but that felt too far-fetched; you two had only met a couple of weeks ago. sure, there had been some playful flirting, and you'd even been on a date, but that was just for a bit... right?

of course, it had to. or that's what you tried to tell yourself. you couldn't help but fall for someone who was incredibly pretty, sweet, funny, and just all-around a good person. you could fall for her, but not kazuha. you doubted she could even see you that way.

"ma'am," yunjin snapped you out of your thoughts. "are you gonna get up?"

"sorry, i'm just trying to recover from this dream i had," you said, shaking your head to clear your mind.

it didn't matter; it was just a dream, and that's all it would ever be.

"oh, what kind of dream was it? was it a bad one or something?" yunjin asked, noticing the dazed look on your face.

"oh no! definitely not!" you exclaimed, shaking your head. "it was actually a really good dream."

you tried not to sound too excited, but that clearly didn't work.

"wait... was it—" yunjin paused, trying to stifle a laugh. "did i wake you up from a sex dream?"

"shut up!" you said, grabbing the pillow from under your neck and tossing it at her as she burst into laughter.

"who was it?" yunjin immediately asked once she calmed down.

"none of your business," you said, covering your face with your hands.

"come on, tell me, please," she pleaded, moving to sit on the edge of the bed.

"i can't tell you. you might tell them," you mumbled, avoiding eye contact with her.

"i promise i won't," yunjin said, her tone serious.

finally, you turned to look her in the eye. "it was kazuha."

"oh my god," yunjin said, genuinely shocked.

"i know! i'm shocked too! it was so random; it's never happened before!" you added quickly.

"so i was onto something that one day," yunjin said, unable to hide her grin.

"shut up. it was just one dream," you groaned.

"but you had to think about her for that dream to even happen," yunjin countered.

"true," you admitted, trying to avoid eye contact again. you really didn't want to discuss this.

"well, i would love to talk more about this, but breakfast is ready," yunjin said, checking her phone after reading a message from the group chat.

"thank god, 'cause i didn't want to talk about it anymore," you said, standing up and heading to the bathroom to freshen up before making your way to the kitchen.

as you entered, yunjin noticed how you tensed up whenever kazuha came near.

quickly, yunjin took the seat next to you before kazuha could. "sorry, zuha. she's my guest right now."

"you know i could just sit on the other side, right?" kazuha said with a confused expression on her face as she walked around to the left side of you.

"yeah, obviously," yunjin nodded.

you tried to focus on your plate, but kazuha's presence sent your heart racing again, thoughts of the dream creeping back in. once everyone was settled at the kitchen table, all your nerves went away from the comfortable vibe. 

"i saw the video you posted last night!" eunchae said, trying to contain her laughter as she pulled out her phone. the rest of the table leaned in to watch.

yunjin and you exchanged quick glances, suddenly remembering the dance session you'd filmed. "oh gosh, that!" yunjin laughed, "i totally forgot about it!"

"what were we thinking?" you chimed in, shaking your head to hide your embarrassment. "we looked so dumb!"

chaewon raised an eyebrow, clearly entertained. "i thought it was great! like, who knew you could both be so bad?"

"yeah, that was hilarious!" sakura added, chuckling. "when's the next yunjin-y/n dance collab happening?"

kazuha sat beside you, her smile teasing. "having regrets now?"

you shrugged, feeling the warmth of her gaze. "we really thought we were fucking it up. we were not."

as the conversation flowed, you got lost in the playful banter, especially when kazuha leaned in a little closer, making your heart race. at one point, as you both reached for the last piece of bacon at the same time, your hands brushed against each other. you both paused, and suddenly, a weird tension filled the space between you. 

kazuha smiled shyly, and before you knew it, you found yourself intertwining your fingers with hers under the table. the warmth of her hand made your heart flutter, and you tried to focus on what everyone else was saying.

"you should join us for breakfast more often," chaewon said, breaking the moment, "and stop sneaking in at night like we don't know!"

"it's not my fault these girls only invite me after hours!" you shot back jokingly.

"but definitely," you agreed, giving kazuha's hand a gentle squeeze, your heart racing a little more.

yunjin caught sight of the two of you, a knowing smirk on her face, but she held her tongue for now, letting you two have your moment.

you were planning to head home after breakfast since yunjin had something she needed to film. but then kazuha invited you to hang out in her room, and honestly, how could you say no? yunjin practically pushed you towards kazuha, eager for you to go with her.

now you were sitting on the edge of kazuha's bed, feeling a mix of nerves and excitement as she laid down at the foot of the bed right by you. if you laid down too, you'd be face to face.

"you know, i'm kinda jealous that you snuck in with yunjin last night," kazuha admitted, breaking the silence. that felt kinda familiar...

"she was the only one who wanted to hang out with me," you replied, trying to keep it light.

"i told you to go to sleep," kazuha said. that might've been the exact words she said during your dream.

"i tried, but i couldn't," you admitted.

"will you spend the night with me tonight then?" she asked, her eyes sparkling with hope.

"i'd have to see if i have anything scheduled," you told her, keeping it casual.

"look now then!" kazuha gestured, handing you your phone that was conveniently near her.

you took your phone, trying to ignore how your hand was shaking. unlocking it, you checked your schedule and, of course, it was completely clear. because why wouldn't it be on a random saturday?

"i have nothing," you said, setting your phone back down.

"perfect! you can stay here then," kazuha said, her smile widening.

"yeah," you mumbled.

"you can get comfortable, you know," kazuha teased. "i give you permission to lay on my bed."

"oh, yeah." you lay down on your side, feet dangling off the bed.

"yeah, i like this better," she said, settling into a more relaxed position.

you both stayed like that for a while, the tv playing some random show in the background. you tried to act like you were paying attention, but all you could focus on was how close kazuha was and how unreal it felt to be on her bed. she occasionally glanced over at you, and each time, your heart did a little flip.

and you don't know how the next part happened but eventually, you two were cuddling on her bed. it just happened so naturally at one point.

you heard kazuha shift, her hand grazing the side of your face. her fingers traced over your cheeks and jaw, stopping at your chin before she leaned in and kissed you.

you grabbed the front of her shirt, pulling her closer, craving more of her warmth.

kazuha moved over you, one knee slipping between your thighs. one hand held herself up while the other cradled your cheek, and every touch felt electric. her kisses were heated, and every little whine when you pulled apart just made you want more. but then everything paused, a moment of stillness when her hand left your neck and rested at the top of your shirt.

she pulled away, lips barely brushing against yours, and you could feel the heat radiating between you.

kazuha shifted to straddle you, fingers grazing over your skin, and suddenly, you had to pull away. "wait? is this real?"

"of course it is," kazuha giggled, clearly confused.

you pinched yourself just to make sure. it felt too good to be true like this was another dream. but nope, this was real, and it was happening.

you blinked at her, still trying to wrap your head around everything. "so it isn't a dream this time?"

kazuha raised an eyebrow. "this time?"

"don't worry about it," you waved it off, not wanting to get into it.

"okay..." she seemed curious but stopped herself. "so we're good?"

"yeah, i just needed to clarify that for myself," you said, feeling a bit more at ease.

"good." her fingers traced over your skin, sending shivers down your spine. "i was kinda worried you'd think i was joking or something."

"why would i think that?" you shook your head, your heart racing as her gaze locked onto yours.

kazuha giggled again, that sound making everything feel surreal. "i don't know. i wasn't sure if you were serious about our... whatever this is."

"whatever this is," you echoed, your pulse quickening. "i've been questioning your feelings for a while, and now i finally know."

she leaned in closer, and you could feel the warmth radiating off her. "so, what do you want to do now?" kazuha asked, her voice softening.

"i mean..." you hesitated, your mind racing. "i didn't expect to end up here, you know?"

kazuha smirked, clearly enjoying your flustered state. "yeah, me neither. but now that we are... i think we should just enjoy it."

"right, enjoy it," you repeated, feeling a mix of excitement and nervousness.

still straddling you, kazuha leaned down, brushing her lips against yours once more, slow and teasing. you kissed her back, letting the moment sink in. every touch felt electric, every breath a little more urgent.

as you pulled away, you couldn't help but grin. "so, this is how it is, huh?"

"yup," kazuha said, her cheeks flushed. "i'd like to do this more often and see where it could go—maybe even become something more?"

"maybe even something more," you confirmed, your heart racing at the thought.

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[jils-things]

I would never fall in love again until I found her

I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into"

I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her

I found you

[3.25.23]

ouueeehh we're back to my corny love letters like last time 💜 again absolutely NO pressure reading these, because it WILL get lengthy 💜 this also serves as a personal love letter that i can archive!

ahh, steven st.one. a wild card in my f/o list. i never thought i'd find myself to like him... i've always tried my best to avoid the pretty boy design after i've gotten older which is why i was oddly in denial during my early steven days hehe... the earliest memory i have of him is just me battling him in my ruby emulator back in the 4th grade - but i don't think i actually remembered him too well, i only thought he looked like a silly anime version of the classical composer be.ethoven and tbh, i still like to think he does look like him in the rse style lolll 💜

for the whole, actual story - it was just last year - i was reading the r/s arc, of course. it was one of those days in school where i had nothing much to do and snuck my phone to read manga to pass some time. at some point, my classmate joined to read with me - it was at this moment where steven debuts properly and it caught my classmate by Surprise. she thought he looked very handsome! to which i teased her... strangely enough, this exchange impacted me? maybe it's because someone acknowledged what i was doing and even bothered to briefly read along with me - so in a way steven kinda bookmarked that memory.

so after that exchange, i just kept on reading. everytime he had something to say, i couldn't help but just stare at his face? he looked nice, i guess? he's also very gentle and polite... i kept this thought of mine for quite sometime until i was discussing the manga arc with my p.okespe mutual and he mentioned him. i somewhat confessed he looked nice and that was the biggest mistake i've ever done because what my friend did after was absolutely blow me with art after art of the pretty rock collector and i was STRUGGLING. it ultimately came down to this one cute panel in the o.ras chapter where he was blushing and I wasn't the same person since then 🚶🚶🚶and funnily enough, i told myself I wasn't going to fall for anyone because of the manga and whoopedoo p.okespe!steven my beloved the greatest man ever. i mean i love the game counterpart as well, they're nearly identical - it's just the manga that totally swept me... sighhhh

steven is such a nice character to begin with, he's honestly a very humble and nice champion. he's not showy about his identity and would rather be alone by himself to indulge in what he wants. he is willing to give up a very respectable position in the po.kemon league just to pursue his interests and with that i see a man not after power and fame but a man who just wants to find joy in what he does even if it demotes him. on top of that, he's just a sweet gentleman. he was raised well of course, and you can see it clearly in his acts in the story. i love him very much for that and who wouldn't want those traits?

i was really absolutely embarrassed to be all over this guy at first - it took a whole month for me to actually share to my blog about how i liked steven and took awhile to adjust to that fact that i opened up about it 😭 but the community was very kind and supportive about the pairing and if i'm being honest, i think stevaide made a super lasting impact on my blog recently and it's really so comforting to picture them as a young loving married couple with ruby. it made me feel unashamed with what i can do with my silly ships. i'm still very glad for the endless support for steven and jaide.

soo, yes. happy memoryshipping 💜💚 thank you for making my times of struggle more bearable if not perfect and thank you to everyone who enjoys this ship even if it was just a little bit :]

credits to @/cafekitsune <3

[stone-stars]

Transcript:

Murph: You see a giant figure attempting to push open a door. Before anything else, you recognize the giant greatsword on his back. Howl. Your mother's sword. Calder: Need a little help? Murph: Gowan turns around. Gowan: What are you doing here, Calder? Calder: Looks like you're struggling with that door. Just wanna make sure you know you can always ask for help.

Calder: What can we do for you? Command us. Gowan: With all due respect, Calder. I always thought you would've made a great ranger, but… you are not a ranger. You left. So, the most I can ask of you is to please look out for mom and dad. But, I'll talk to my rangers and I'll figure out a way to take care of this. Thank you all for everything.

Murph: He… looks away from you. Gowan: I already have help. There's nothing you can do for me.

Calder: I-- no. No. I don't wanna be protected anymore. I wanna help.

Calder: Well. You're my brother. The least you can do is let me try.

Gowan: Calder. I'm proud of you. You've gone out on your own, and you've met people who seem like great friends. And you braved the tundra, you came out, you warned us, and we appreciate that. But again. You chose not to be a ranger.

Murph: Gowan starts to walk towards you. Gowan: Alright. Can you make a hard choice here? Calder: We can make a choice together, that's what we can do. You don't have to do it yourself. Gowan: I made a deal with Alexandrite, Calder.

Calder: What are you worried about? Gowan: I'm just-- I'm worried about everyone. I don't know how Mom did it. It feels like everyone who died, died on my watch.

Gowan: She told me that she'd already snuck replicants into the village, and that she'd take out everyone one by one until I gave her the Ice Knife. She can't get in here. Havoc won't let her. And to prove it she killed my best friend, and told me if I told anyone, Mom and Dad would be next. She replaced our neighbors. Have ya talked to any of our neighbors? Because they're watching the house. They absorbed Ingrid. And then you told me she's bringing in more from the lake. She knows everything, Calder. She's everywhere. Calder: Yeah. Yeah, we might be fucked. But we can be fucked together. We can-- we can go down fighting, or you can-- or you can sacrifice yourself like some martyr. But that's not gonna help us. Gowan: If it was just sacrificing myself, I would gladly do it, Calder. But what would you do in my situation?

Murph: Calder, as you are battling with Ultrus here, it feels like the world is being pulled apart as Glen is trying to remove this helm from your head. You see like, cracks. As you look up into the sky, you see the battlefield projected. You see that Callie is missing, you have no idea where she is, and you see that Sol is bleeding out on the ground.

Gowan: Knife to Mom's throat, what would you do? Murph: And he pushes you.

Calder: Ultrus! Make a deal with me! I will let you go. I’ll let you choose your side in this war. Just… don���t let Glen hurt my friends. Ultrus: You would give up yourself? Calder: If that’s the choice you ask me to make.

Calder: I might've done the same thing. I might've done the same thing. But you have to understand that somebody coming in this thing with fresh eyes, somebody who's seen her up close, you don't know the duplicity that she's capable of. You're acting on intel that you got from Alexandrite! Gowan: The intel that I got from you was that Gregor was compromised! And that just meant I stayed around until she killed Ingrid! Calder: So she wants us not to trust each other. She wants us not to work together. She wants us fractured and weak, like this. Gowan: We are fractured and weak, Calder! She's here already! Calder: So circle up with us!

Gowan: Well, if there's one good thing about being a leader in a time like this, it's-- it's that I'm really glad I got to make you a ranger. Calder: Yeah. And… and Gowan I think we're gonna have… we're gonna have a long time together, fighting side by side. Gowan: I hope that we could be so lucky.

Calder: You are my brother, aren't you? Murph: You see the bloodlust kind of leaves Gowan's eyes, and he looks down, and he goes Gowan: Yeah. Yeah I am. Okay.

[ts1m1kas]

Original Ask: hi sweetie, could you do something about erling not being able to get away from reader, like kissing her everywhere, hugging her, touching her non stop because he missed her presence? tysm 💕💕 (anonymous)

Word Count: 516 words

(author's note: this was such a sweet request !! i love erling and i'm glad i'm getting the chance to write for him 🫶)

As the international break was drawing to a close, many footballers were returning home to family. For many, the week away was unfortunate, hard losses, injuries, or just the general heartache of being away from their loved ones.

Erling dragged himself through the airport. The only thing keeping him going was the thought of his girlfriend, who he had missed immensely over the break. He pulled his suitcase along the tiled floor, willing his legs to go faster. His heart ached. He had missed Y/N so much and was desperate to get home.

Once his taxi had picked him up, he was well on his way home. Excitement bubbled in his chest at the knowing feeling his girlfriend would be back in his arms soon.

Meanwhile, Y/N was completing one of her university assignments. She was hunched over at her desk, the light from her computer screen filling the dimly lit room. She checked the time every now and again, knowing Erling was supposed to come home soon. Soldiering on, she carried on typing up her work.

Pulling his keys out of his pocket, Erling slotted them into the keyhole and opened the front door. Dropping his bags, he had only one thing on his mind.

“Kjære, where are you?” he questioned, moving through the corridors of their home.

“I’m upstairs”, she replied, “I’ll come down.”

Jumping out of her seat, Y/N flew down the staircase, eager to welcome Erling home. She ran up to him and he held his arms open for her to jump into. She nestled her head into his chest as he rubbed his hands up and down her back.

“I missed you”, she admitted quietly, “Alot.”

“I missed you more nydelig jente”, Erling whispered in her ear, bringing his hand up to caress her hair. “Lets go sit down.”

“I need to finish my essay before anything, I’m sorry baby.” She looked up at his face to be met with a frown. Erling looked like he was contemplating something, and before she knew it, she was swept off her feet and placed into Erling’s grasp.

 “Erling put me down!” she laughed, squirming in his hold. Erling said nothing and continued to walk towards their living room.

“Erling! I have my assignment to do!” 

Once they’d reached the living room, Erling sat down and placed Y/N on his lap. She wrapped her legs around his waist and leaned into his chest.

“I just want to be close to you min kjærlighet, I’ve not seen you in weeks,” Erling admitted, “I hate being away from you.”

“I know I just-” Erling cut her off with a kiss. He pressed his lips to hers and intertwined their hands. Once they broke apart, he snuck in a quick second kiss, then let her head fall back onto his chest.

Y/N ran her fingers gently through his long blonde hair and, after a moment, broke the peaceful silence, “I’m sure my essay can wait.”

Erling just smiled and pulled her closer, basking in the tranquillity of being back with his lover.

[zhivaoverdrive]

Used to be huge, pt8

So I let loose, just a little. Then a bit more. To imagine how giant I'd have to pump my tits to fix it... I can barely describe what it does to me. I started pushing myself, just a little bit more... - Hitomi ---

"It says it right here! It's on her chart!" said Ayu indignantly. The temptation to flip the folder open and wave it in the Boss' face was there, but losing her dream job wasn't really an option, in fact the punishment was probably along a slightly different path.

Ayu found her centre, never an easy task after being let loose on the pumps. "I'm sorry Boss, I followed it to the letter..." she said, carefully this time.

"And what precisely do my notes say, nurse?" the Boss said, taciturn as always.

A trap, obviously, but Ayu began to read.

"Hitomi, 24: Patient dissatisfied with volume of existing implants (note: not my work) after minor weight gain Unknown existing implants replaced with IEC Expander MK III. At Patient's request, performed initial fill to 5,000cc per side to balance breast size with her figure, apropos projection of breasts vs stomach. Will revisit volume/balance questions at follow up" she said.

Fixing her gaze now on Hitomi, the Boss warmed, be it only a drop in the Arctic Ocean. "Hitomi, firstly it is good to see you once again, and I'm glad to see you've found comfort with your new expanders" she said.

"Oh I love them Doc! I feel so free. It's just I gained a tiny bit more weight..." replied Hitomi.

She shifted the new weights on her chest slightly as she looked down, just barely seeing the still visible hemisphere of her bloated gut. Naturally, she'd given her belly the good stuff right before the appointment. She was currently HUGE. Like fucking huge.

It was the big day, had to fill the tank she thought, tracing the path of a fresh stretch mark, as it struggled its way over the horizon of her globular midsection and out of sight. Truth be told, she'd barely made the appointment, waddling in at the last moment. Barely on time, and barely on her feet.

"Which of course is not a problem, we did discuss this possibility. Typically I'd prefer to keep a first fill very limited, both for physical and psychological reasons But if you're happy, then I'm happy" said the Boss, inspecting Hitomi's newly inflated breasts and carefully testing their firmness.

"However we'd best keep you, at least overnight. Purely a precautionary measure, help you get used to your new dimensions" she continued.

Hitomi snuck a glance at Ayu, a part of her felt bad, she'd come in looking ridiculous and then asked for an even more ridiculous solution. She didn't want to get the poor nurse in trouble. But.

"Oh that would be great! My flights long off anyway and it's just..." Hitomi said.

"Please, anything Hitomi. We're here to help" said the Boss, still thawing.

Holding out her hand, Ayu quickly caught the signal and helped Hitomi to her feet. None of those assembled really knew how much new liquid was inside Hitomi at this exact moment, be it medical grade saline pumped into her now gigantic breasts, or the litres of cola bubbling away in her bloated belly. Though the strain on her face made it seem like a lot.

Hitomi steadied herself and stood up, though not quite straight. It was a herculean effort, but through the combination many tiny movements, a thrust of the hips, pulling back her shoulders... She pushed out her belly. It didn't have a square millimetre of space to spare, it weighed a ton, but it moved. She hoped desperately that the Doc couldn't see the process, though she was quite sure Ayu could. Her belly imperceptibly swelled out, protruding quite a way before coming to a halt. She'd been mistaken for pregnant earlier this week, but that was then and this is now. Now there was no ambiguity, her belly stuck out far beyond a standard pregnancy.

"Doc it's just.. well the food is really great here and.. I really would just prefer it if my tits were kind of..." Hitomi said, part working her master plan, part intimidated.

The Doc gazed in silence for a moment, her face a perfect mask of composure. "Yes, I see. The projection is still not what we'd discussed. Please, sit down" she said.

That had come not a moment too soon, but Hitomi hid it well.

"While we're here to accommodate you, but there are physical limitations" the Doc said.

Hitomi felt the urge to cry well-up again. This has been a confusing journey of self discovery, but it couldn't end like this.

"BUT. They can be overcome. Not today, perhaps not tomorrow. But if you're willing to stay here at the IEC with some .. flexibility, it's nothing we haven't done a hundred times before." said the Doc. "If you can move your flight, then move it. I'll just be a moment with Nurse Ayu here". —

Ice cold winds blew across the glaciers. She wasn't happy, most importantly for letting a patient witness that.

"5k for MINOR weight gain, Ayu" hissed the Boss, furious but quiet. "Did you ask what the hell happened to her since?"

"She.. said it was just a bit of a belly, but she's happy if we could..." replied a fearful Ayu.

"More than a bit, hm? We'll get back to that. So you pumped, what 10, 15 litres in the girl? Are you not aware of basic geometry? A sphere expands in all directions Ayu, do you have any idea how much volume will be required to push her out another foot? Of course you don't. You were going to just find out" the Boss said.

"Well. Not your finest work. This was a first fillof a new patient, not one of our whales out back. Check her in, find out how she's getting this fat, and more importantly, don't touch a pump without me in that room! Understand? Now smile and go do it" the Boss said.

As the Boss seethed her way out of the room, Ayu couldn't help but smile. Could be worse. Got away with it. And I get to keep her.

As she skipped back to the stationary Hitomi, Ayu didn't have to force the smile, if anything she toned it down. "Dear, you'll be the death of me. I'll find you a room and-"

"Flights been pushed and my luggage is on the way here" beamed Hitomi.

The two women locked eyes, each seeing the other's mischief.

"I pumped you. A lot. You begged and begged and you loved it, so did I. You're lucky I was rostered aren't you?" smiled Ayu, taking the first step of the dance.

"I'm ever so grateful, I hope you didn't get in too much trouble..." said Hitomi sweetly.

"Stop pushing that thing out, I'm not blind, we overshot it. For a first fill, you know, only I would be so-"

"Oh shoosh, come closer, I owe you and I'll tell you," said Hitomi.

"Why? I thought if gaining a little weight was inevitable, it might as well be now. Then the Doc would even me out. So I let loose, just a little. Then a bit more. To imagine how giant I'd have to pump my tits to fix it... I can barely describe what it does to me. I started pushing myself, just a little bit more..." said Hitomi, her hands absentmindedly massaging her gargantuan stomach.

Ayu knelt down and placed a hand on it too, marvelling at this new fetish she'd just unlocked.

"Pushed pretty hard girl. But put a whole lake of saline in you" giggled Ayu.

"It's addictive. It's all addictive. Orgasmic. Pushing myself as big as I can, which means they'll have to get pumped bigger, then I'll push harder..." purred Hitomi.

Ayu began to wheel Hitomi down the hall towards the long stay rooms. "How? Our foods OK but.." she whispered.

"Anything, everything. I had a gallon of soda in the cafe outside, then there's a little secret in my handbag" Hitomi replied.

Closing the door to her new room behind them, Ayu gently hoisted Hitomi's freshly inflated tit from its resting space on her gut. Hearing the soft moan, Ayu smiled wider and more wickedly than ever before.

"So, are we doing this? Push on?" said Ayu.

Hitomi gave a sultry nod, pure lust, no real consideration of what this meant for her future.

"I’ll keep you full, you won't need a trick pose. So a gallon huh... We can work on that".

[doe-eyed-fool]

Fallen {Chapter Thirty Two}

Alastor x (fem)Reader

Alastor groaned lightly as he awoke in his bed, exhaling shakily as he brought himself to a sit. He looked down at himself, and saw that he was topless. To his right, was a bucket of now cold water, that was slightly bloody, and inside were a few blood stained rags. He narrowed his eyes before gasping as he remembered what happened.

Then his heart sank. "Y/n...Oh, Y/n..." His voice broke. He brought a hand to his face, his usual grin no where to be scene, as tears began to fall down his cheeks. He could only assume Mimzy had found him like that and helped clean his wounds. Who else would have brought him up here after...

Alastor moved his hand away and just stared at it for a while. "She was right there...Why couldn't I have just..."

He looked to the empty spot in bed next to him, it would be empty from now on. Once again, he would be sleeping alone. His eyes trailed up onto the balcony outside of the room, a light gasp left him as he saw a figure outside.

A low growl left him. It was not Mimzy out there...Could it have been Lucifer? If it was, Alastor would gladly die trying to rip his head from his body...

He slowly got up and snuck towards the balcony, once close enough he swung the doors open and raised his hand to summon his shadow to drag whoever it to him. But paused, as the figure turned to face him.

"Alastor?"

Alastor's mouth fell agape. 'It can't be...' He thought. 'But it sounds so much like...'

"Y/n?"

"Alastor!" I cry as I ran to him, wrapping my arms around him and hugging him tight. Alastor slowly wrapped his arms around me as well. "Y/n...Y/n is it really you?" He asked. I nod my head and hug him tighter, if possible.

"It is!" I sniffle as I pulled back to look at him. "I sure look different, huh?" I say with a small laugh. Alastor cupped my face gently. "It is you...Yes...Yes darling, you...You do look a tad different." I place my hand on his own, leaning into his touch.

"Y/n, what happened? I...I thought you were dead..." Said Alastor weakly. "I was." I tell him. "I even spoke with God."

"You did?" Asked Alastor. "I finally know why I was thrown out of Heaven." I say before beginning to explain.

"So you refused to go back, for me?" Alastor asks by the end of it. I nod. "I wouldn't have been happy in Heaven, if you weren't there with me." I tell him. "Besides, I gave that up a while ago, remember? I want to be here with you, Alastor. And with our friends."

Alastor takes a good look at me. My skin was now red, my hair a deep black, I had horns on top of my head, the whites of my eyes were a dark maroon, and my pupils a bright shade of red. My wings were still missing however. But, I would grow use to it in time.

His smile slowly return to his face. "I'm glad you're here with me, my darling." He said softly before pulling me into an embrace once again. "I'll never let you go again." I smile warmly, looking up at him. "I'll never let you go either, Alastor."

"I'll hold you to it." Alastor chuckles as he leaned down to meet my lips with his own.

"So, what do we do now?" I ask, after we pull away. "Let's just stay here for a while." Alastor starts. "I've never been more exhausted, and I just...I just want to hold you." He says softly, tightening our embrace. chuckle and kiss his cheek. "Alright. We can do that."

We both make our way to the bed, and snuggled up close to each other. Alastor his his face in my neck, I could feel his soft breath on my skin, and his arms wrapping securely around me. 

I smile and move my hand up to his head, and run my fingers through his hair. "Can I touch your ears?" I ask. Alastor hums. "Alright." I gently touch Alastor's ears, carefully petting them. I swore, I heard the faintest of rumbles from him.

I chuckle and pet his his head some more, savoring the quiet moment before day came.

Me and Alastor weren't sure how to explain this to the others. Surely, they would wonder where I had gone off to eventually. And it's not like we could tell them the truth. Not without reviving hundreds of questions.

But it's not like I could waltz back into the hotel looking entirely different.

It was a tricky situation. But one that would be resolved soon enough.

"I think we should tell them." I say to Alastor. We were both getting ready to go to the hotel, and still trying to figure out what to do and say. "I don't know, dear." Alastor starts. "I don't think that will go over well. Especially with Charlie and her father."

He had a point. Charlie was protective of her friends. If she knew her dad had killed me, she would be more than a little upset.

"We should still tell Charlie, if just her alone." I suggest. "Then maybe we can slowly ease into telling the others. I just...don't want to lie anymore."

Alastor walked over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me close. "I know darling. I'm just a bit hesitant is all." I nod. "We can't hide this forever. As much as we might want to." I say. "Come on, let's get this over with." 

Alastor went into the hotel first, while I stayed outside. He thought it'd be best if not everyone crowd a "new" hotel resident and start asking too many questions. He would bring me in when he was sure it was just him and Charlie. 

"Charlie? May I have a word?" Alastor knocks on her office door. After a second, the door opened, Charlie looking up at him with a smile. "Hey Al, sure, come on in." She says, allowing him to step further into the office. Thankfully, her girlfriend was no where in sight. 

"So, what did you want to talk about?" Charlie asks, shutting the door. "It's about Y/n." From the tone of Alastor's voice, Charlie began to grow a little worried. "Is something wrong?" 

"Not anymore." Alastor sighed. "Charlie, this isn't easy to talk about. So I'll need you to just try to listen and understand." Charlie nods. "Yeah, ok." She hadn't seen Alastor so serious before. Alastor raised his hand and snapped his fingers. And just like that, I had been brought to the office. 

Charlie stared, surprised and confused. "Who's this?" She asks. "This, is Y/n." Said Alastor. Charlie blinked. "Y/n? But..." 

"This is where a very long explanation comes in." Alastor starts. "Y/n was once a guardian angel from heaven, but she was casted out." 

Charlie's eyes went wide, but she stayed silent and listened. 

"When I found her, we made a deal. I would help Y/n find some way into heaven and in the meantime, she would remain hidden in plain sight here in hell. That's why she looked like any other demon around here." He continues. "However...Y/n's true identity would be found out soon enough."

"Lucifer had found out about Y/n." 

There was no stopping the gasp that left Charlie, she looked to me, concerned. 

"I tried to fight him off, though, I was unable. Vox had found out as well after he kidnapped her. I had wasted all my energy fighting him. I was useless to protect Y/n from Lucifer and ultimately..." I placed a held Alastor's hand, after noticing the slight shake in his shoulders. He sighed and went on.

"Lucifer killed her. And I was sure she would never come back." Alastor squeezed my hand. "But as you can see, she did come back, and with a new form. No longer an angel, but a demon. Y/n refused the chance to return to heaven. I assure you, it's still her, even though she looks different."

Charlie waited a moment, wanting to make sure Alastor was finished before speaking. "Wow...That's so much to take in." She smooths her hair back. "So, you were an angel this whole time?" She asks me. I nod my head. "I hope you understand why we couldn't say anything." 

"Yeah, definitely." Charlie laughs weakly. "Um...So, you decided to stay here in hell. Why?" 

I look up at Alastor. "I couldn't leave him behind." Then I look back to her. "Or any of you. I couldn't last an eternity without you all." 

Charlie looks between me and Alastor before a wide smile formed on her face. "Are you two...?"

I chuckle. "Yes."

"Ahhhh!" Charlie squeals. 

"But you can't tell anyone!" I quickly say. "Not yet, at least."

Charlie, still visibly excited, nods her head and takes a few breaths. "Ok, ok. I won't say a word. Oh, I'm just so happy for you both!" 

Alastor's smile soften. "So am I. But that's not the only thing we need you to stay quiet about for the moment. No one, must know about Y/n. We plan on telling everyone but we just can't risk it right now." 

"Al, you can trust us. Me and everyone else wouldn't say anything. I mean, they're going to wonder where Y/n is, you know?" Charlie tells us. 

"We know, that's the hard part." I say with a sigh. "I don't want to lie to them, but, if people found out...It wouldn't end well for anyone involved. Especially if Lucifer hears about it again." As I mentioned Lucifer's name, Charlie's expression fell to one of anger.

"I can't believe he did that!" She growled slightly, her eyes flashed a shade of red. She then took a breath and calmed herself. "I'm so sorry Y/n..."

"Eh, it's not like you did it. You have nothing to be sorry for Charlie." I tell her. "Still, that must have been so scary." Charlie approached me and placed her hand on my shoulder. "If there is a way I can keep him away from you, I'll-"

"Charlie." I gently interrupt her. "Me and Alastor actually discussed this already."

"What use would Lucifer have for a sinner? Their everywhere after all." Said Alastor. "Y/n is no longer an angel, so there should be no reason for lucifer to try anything."

"Alright...But I'll still keep an eye on you Y/n. I don't want anything like that to happen ever again. You're my friend, and I look out for my friends." Charlie tells me. I smile. "Thank you, Charlie. That means a lot."

Charlie smiles as well. "So, about everyone else. I feel like we can trust them. We've all come a long way, not everyone dislikes each other like they use to. It's like, we've all grown use to each other and there's some trust to that."

I look to Alastor, he seemed to be giving it some thought. 

"Alright." He starts. "But, if any of them utter a word about Y/n and what happened, to anyone else, I'll tear each and every one of their souls apart and broadcast their screams for all of Hell to hear."

"I don't know about that last part, but ok!" Charlie gives a thumbs up. 

And so, the news was shared with everyone in the hotel. And with a little extra "persuasion" from Alastor-

Everyone collectively agreed to keep it on the low. However, there were many questions.

What did I look like as an angel? What was Heaven like? What did God look like? What even was god? How did I kill that one guy?

And much more.

But I took the time to answer every single one. While everyone knew of my past, no one but Charlie knew of mine and Alastor's relationship. For now at least. However, I couldn't keep that secret from Angel much longer.

"I knew it!" Angel laughed as he sat down on his bed. "I knew you two had a thing for each other!" I roll your eyes with a smile. "Yes Angel, you were right. But please remember, keep this a secret." 

I take another look at myself in Angel's full length mirror on the wall. I smoothed out my dress and checked my face over for any smudges of makeup. Tonight me and Alastor had a date, and I wanted to look perfect for him.

"Besides, we all know what happened the last time someone knew about me and him." I mutter. Angel nods. "Yeah, fucking TV douchebag." He spat. "Don't worry, you're secret's safe with me." 

I give Angel a smile before doing a little spin. "How do I look?" I ask. "Bangin'!" He answers. "Smiles is gonna blow a load when he sees you." I chose to ignore that part before making my way to the door. "I'll see you around Angel, night!" 

"Night toots!"

I walk through the halls to Alastor's office, and rose my hand to knock. Before I could, the door opened. "Evening, my darling! You look absolutely stunning!" Alastor wraps his arm around my waist. I giggle and lean up to kiss his cheek. "Thank you, you look handsome. Just like always." 

"You flatter me, love." Alastor grins. "Now, let's get a move on, shall we?" With a snap of his fingers, we were teleported to his room. I was going to question why, then I saw the setup. In the part of his room that broke off into a peaceful bayou, was a gazebo. 

A black and maroon colored gazebo, and a freshly prepared meal sitting on a small table inside. There was soft music playing from somewhere, accompanied by the soft chirp of crickets. The soft darkness of night lit up with the glow of fireflies like stars. It was beautiful. 

"Oh, Al." I cooed. "Did you do all this?" 

"All for you, my love." He says softly, leading me towards the gazebo. We both took a seat across from one another. 

"It's wonderful. Thank you." I say to him, placing my hand on his. "I'm glad you like it." Alastor says, squeezing my hand gently. 

After dinner, Alastor and I were once again in each others arms, swaying softly to the music. It couldn't get much better than this. Finally, I've found someone who truly loved me with no strings attached. I never felt more loved than in this moment.

And now, I wouldn't have to hide anymore. Sure, I was in Hell now for the rest of forever, but I was in Hell with Alastor. 

"Y/n?" I lift my head from Alastor's chest, and smiled up at him. "Yes, love?" I ask. "There is something I would like to ask of you." Alastor says, his tone growing soft. "I only hope you'll hear me out." I nod my head. "Of course. What is it?" 

Alastor exhaled a bit shakily before clearing his throat. "It's been...quite the endeavor, getting to this point. But, I say it's all been well worth it. In our time getting to know each other, I've learned many things about you and myself. For example, I had no idea I had the capability to love someone. Love wasn't something I felt the need for, it was trivial to me. But, after given the chance to know you, truly know you, I found myself slipping deeper into that warm fuzzy feeling."

Alastor pulled away from me slightly, to look me in the eyes. "You make me feel human again. Like my heart never stopped beating, like it never turned cold and hard. And I can't thank you enough, for opening my eyes to something so wonderful."

"I know we will spend eternity together. But...I'd like to spend that eternity, knowing that you will truly be mine. So, what I'm asking is..." Alastor trails off before getting down on one knee. I felt my heart skip a beat, a light gasp left me. Was he really about to...

Out of thin air, a small box appeared in the palm of his hand. He opened it, revealing a beautiful ring.

"Y/n, will you marry me?" 

A wide smile crossed my face, tears pooled in my eyes as I nod. "Yes! Yes I will!" I never saw Alastor look more happy when I said that. Before he could rise, I threw myself at him in a tight hug, nearly knocking him over. 

I felt him wrap his arms around me, and pulled me closer, if possible. And I swore, I felt a bit of tears on my collarbone. 

It really was all worth it, getting to this point. 

"I love you so much, Alastor." I say softly, nuzzling further into his neck. I felt his smile widen against my skin before he spoke.

"I love you too, Y/n."

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The Bear S3 Capri Live React

WARNING! Spoilers for each episode below the cut!

EP 1 - “Tomorrow”

ASSHFBEJNSNDNEJWNENE AND WHEN IM BACK IN CHICAGO I FEEL ITTT!!!!!! WOOOOOO

CARMY HRJEJWJW YOU'RE OUT OF FREEZER JAIL MY LOVE!!

Oh your poor hand I wanna kiss it, my sweet baby :((

Omg it’s filmed so differenttttt AAAAAA!!!!

Zaddy walked in meaning business lets gOOO

Like I said in TB&HH and many of my one shots this is a STUNNING restaurant - like FUCK!!! Carmy is BRILLIANT !!

Carmen RELAX!! Jesus! With punting the chair!

Omg his notebook from The French Laundry!!! Cute

BRBEBSHSBSNSBSBSBSBSEBVELHCAA LUCAAAAAAA

COPENHAGEN OH MY GO FJEJWBDBD WERE BACK

OHRBE WE ARE SO BACK

New Yorks got everything :( OH this seeaaason is gonna rip my heart to shreeeeeds New York destroyed him.

Oh I think we are getting loads of baby chef Carmy FUCK 

Oh god oh god 'subtract'??? Fuuuuck

I would hate how perfect he always is HAHAHAHA I would haaaate working with him!!!!

Cousin Steve took care of him, I'm glad someone did 🥺

Oh fucking for Carmy to kiss me like that 

The kiss on the nose is everything I want to do in life 

SORRY. THE WORDS OMG GOOD BOY GOOD BOY

OMG SYDCARMY KISS KISSKISSKISSIIISSS

“It’s never gonna happen again” he will die before it happens 

Good apologize to Richie you FUCKING IDIOT and good for saying I’m sorry good for saying I love you. Good boy. Good boy. 

He is about to make everyone miserable.  

“I know you are, honey” that is his real mother figure. 

While Mikey was dying Richie was destroying his marriage trying to save him and Carmy was getting verbally abused in New York. I am…gutted! 

I have thought about Carmy finding out about Mike. I never. Fucking. Thought. They. Would. Show it.

ARE WE SEEING MIKES 

WE ARE OH NY FJEBE WE ARE SEEING MICHAELS FUCKING OH HIS FUNERAL HE SAT. OUTSIDE. OH I AM COOKED THIS SEASON I AM C O O K E D !!!!!

“LET IT RIP BEAR” OH FHEJWBDBDB 

Like a mother Nat snuck the money in his pocket. I’m fuckin CRYYYING BRO THIS SEASON IS GONNA GUT ME 

The best meal Syd has ever had 🥹

The fennel makes him think of Syd because she has an allergy I’m gonna stroke out. 

EP1 ; Final Thoughts - SydCarmy is SO happening if it doesn’t what the fuck are they doing. Baby Carmy is gutting me. I hope Luca doesn’t go away after this episode. Mikey. Oh, Mikey :(((. Natalie? The cinematography - oh I’m about to EAT w these fics. Oh my god.I am fucking GUUTTTEEDDD THIS SEASON IS GOING TO DESTROY ME

EP2 - “Next”

SYD! MY GORL THERE YOU ARE BBY!!!

the AirPod falling out is so real

Lmaoooo her dad !! She is absolutely moving out as soon as she can 

Awww the ‘love you chef’ <3

See this music like shut up SydCarmy or bust!!! lmaooooo

Why is the fourth wall being broken???

His anxiety is so insane he is acting cracked out LMAO

CICERO OH NO - this is gonna be INSANE

Carmy needs to step off Syds dick and give her some control lmfaooo - like ? you don’t even own this place little man.

“Technique is spelt wrong but OK” BYE THIS IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT 

“You know buddy, I tried to call in and get you an order but they says you was back in the fridge yelling at yourself” LMFOAAOAOAO VJKFDNVLAKNLKVN I AM CRYING HE IS I LOVE UNC SO MUCH

everyone is asking him why the fuck he’s doing this and he cant say “because i cant stick my dick in syd” so he doesn’t know what to say.

He’s quitting smoking not for his health but to save … time. Alright then.

“The computer drafted the agreement so make sure you have a lawyer look at it” CAAAACKLING 

DAAAAADDDYYYY RICHIEEEE

Carmen shut the fuck up you are in no position for fuck yous.

“I commend your bravery from inside a locked vault” IM DRFNDJSNENN HAHAHAHA GET HIM RICH

“Oh my god am I finally having a stroke?” “Am I having a stroke?” These POOR WOMEN SOMEONE PUT CARMEN ON A FUCKING LEASH

“I insist that you get fucked my good man” BYEEEEE HAHAHAHAHAHA RICHIE IS TOO FUNNY 

They are bickering like BITCHES 

his ego needs to be stroked lmaoooo he’s asking Syd to stroke his ego 

“I know sweetheart, don’t be scared” NATALIEEEE HAHAHAH It's ok Fak I'M scared of Carmy rn lmao.

holy fucking shit Carmen you are driving me CRRAAAAZYY SHUT UP 

“This is scary” FAK, HONEY I KNOW CARMY IS CRACKED OUT

“Every day Jeffery-Ballet?” TINA HAHAHAHA I LOVE THAT 

This IS banana town sweetheart Fak

“Sup PIMP” PLEEEASE HAHAHA

“He was gonna tell us what he said to Claire”- Richie: “classic behavior dysregulation” PLLLEEASE

“Then I actually take it back, fuck you” i love Richie down

“What’s nunya” “nunya fuckin business” THE WAY IM CRRRY LAUGHINGGGGG LMFAAAAOOOOO THIS IS A GLIMPSE OF HIS CHILDHOOD

The gum chewing is sexy 

“Is that what you did” “no i’m just here if you need anything” oh, Carmy :(

Oh, Marcus :((((((. “Take us there bear” “yes chef” oh my god I’m crying again 

EP2 ; Final Thoughts - Carmen needs to fucking relax and I’m gonna say this probably a lot. Omg the fighting with Richie in this episode was pissing me off they are fighting like catty brothers!!! The moment with Marcus at the end really got to me. This was overall though a hilarious episode

EP3 - “Doors”

Marcus mom funeral!! Awww I’m glad they all are there for him. Thiiis is the moms funeral, ok, so they did it all in one day the shooting for both funerals so we wouldn’t know!!!

I wonder how Carm feels he’s there for Marcus’ mom but wasn’t for his brother 

Wow this speech must be so impactful for Carmy to get a glimpse into someone else’s life like this 

Look alive lizards we are OPENN

Richie is so goooodddd at his job 🥹🫶

For the bear and his honey fans princess cake is 100% going in there hahahah

Hmm things are going a bit too well 

Carmy throwing so much good decent edible food away makes me twitch. 

Carmy and his little edible flowers hahaha I love it

“The rare Transylvanian 5 titted goat?!” CICEROOO HAHAHAH

“Joy” “this is a waste of time, give it to sugar” HAHAHAHA

LMAOOO SINGING HAPPY BDAY IN SPANISH HAHAHA LOVE IT

Fak not putting it ON THE TABLE and Richie being like “keep my mans name out of your mouth “ PLLLELEEEASEE

Something abt Carmy cleaning is so hot

GRAAAHHH THAT PIECE OF BACK SKIN POKING OUT OF HIS SHIRT WHEN HE BENDS OVER

They’re being so too hard on tina :((

Richie is bringing patrons to the kitchen and Carmy is just violently bitching Syd out I am dead also, someone get the belt i’m gonna beat him.

This goes out to everyone who said there’s no chance the bear could fail and that it was a stupid idea it could? (cough- ex moots, cough) ; please tell me why they don’t even have a star and they’re already doing poorly with funds

I can’t- Carmen and Richie are fully going at each others throats and physically fighting.

Please Fak just grilling customers for info.

Carmy is SO little brother and I wanna choke him “we’ll figure it out” “ME?” “I’m trying to use less shiiittt >:(“ like a winey bitch - YOU ARE AN ADULT SHE IS THERE TO HELP YOU YOU LITTLE COCKSUCKER DO YOUR GOD DAMN JOB EFFICIENTLY

Carmy is losing it he needs to be medicated ASAP

Thank GOD Syd is putting her foot down and telling him to shut up

Syd looks fed the fuck up, rightfully

EP3 ; Final Thoughts - Holy shit Carmen is going nuts. Sydcarmy is going so hard rn he needs to finish shit with Claire so he can admit his feelings to himself about Syd. He needs to stop being so mean to her, he is going to cause her to panic. Whats so funny is I drafted Carmy bitching Syd out in my OC fic in the most recent chapter before this even came out (but in my world (in girl world) winnie is behind him chewing his ass out and literally told him he’s acting like his old boss) But it’s funny because hes literally telling her abusive ass shit his boss told him.

EP4 - “Violet”

Ohhhhh to kiss Carmy that way. A dream

The nose kiss oh my god oh my god 

He’s such a good listener 

He is so fucking - oh my god this man. This man. I need him astronomically 

Marcus :(((

I love Syd’s scarf but also lmao the stress of that docu - I get you girl hahah

Yaaaay she’s moving! 

This apartment is stunning!!!

DAD RICHIEEEE AHSHDJSHSHJ EVA OMG CUTIE PATTOOOTIEEE

Him laying with her is so cute. 

“He’s not my uncle like Carmy” 🥹PLS SO CUTE

This is so good such kid convo omgggg kids are just like thissss!! He’s such a good dad omfg playing her handdddd fuckFUCKCJCKCJC expect more Richie content soon

DONNAS GOING TO TIFFS WEDDING OMG!!!!!

Yes daddy TAKE THAT RING OFF YOURE A NEW MAN PAPA 

LMFAOAOAOA THEM SCREAMING HELP

“Maybe you’ve reached as far as your talent can go” makes MY stomach hurt, dawg 

“I feel like Bear is starting to respect me” please the way they look up to him I cantttt lmao

YAY MORE DAD RICHIE 

TAYLOR SWIFT!!!!!!!!!!

This Frank guy is weird- they made a great job at making this feel awkward as fuck.

HE DID INVITE HIM TO THE WEDDING OH GOD

that’s my girl! 

Oh is she about to get poached

Oooo like not Carmy??? Oooooo hes trying to poach her

Marcus has such nicely manicured hands

The way they just stuff snacks in faks mouth to make him go away hahaha love it

Mmhmm this season will make me fall more in love with Richie then ever before

Richie. Richie. Richie. Richie. Richie. Oh my god. My heart is being ripped out 

Wait they’re being reviewed for a star?! Already? They JUST opened! 

EP4 ; Final Thoughts - This was SUCH a Richie episode! I loved it alot :))) <3!!! So many Dad!Richie moments that made me smile. He also almost made me cry with his whole being alone thing. I will remedy my sadness with writing Richie fics literally probably tomorrow because holy holy holy this man I need to give him kissesssssss

EP5 - “Children”

So do the Bears all have the same alarm clocks?

Marcus speech really touched Natalie :((

Carmen doing the boxes by himself HAHAHA its what he deserves!! BAD BOY! 

Syd the ultimate good friend helping Marcus with his moms stuff 

Syd looks so cute her outfit is adorable 

Lmaooo Syd with her dead mom club jokes she’s too funny I see why Carmy is so whipped 

The Bear and His Honey is going to fucking SLAP with this new Carmy content WOW

Him throwing away more food that is perfect literally perfect. *sarcasm*

I wanna leave hickeys on Richie’s neck so bad - it’s so pretty 

Omg Carmys mentor closing the restaurant- he’s spiraling and looking at the every second counts she instilled in him- oh god.. Oh god-

Richie has grown so much im so so proud of him! 

He is crushing on this girl from Ever so hard

IS THAT JOHN CENA?!

JOHN CENA IS A FAK I AM DBHSJABDBEBE HAHAHAHAH

Carmy is gonna get his legs broken if he doesn’t cut it out hahahaha

Fak drinking a Capri-sun LOL

Omgggg him saying to fire Marcus you are CRAZY 

Lmaooo Jimmy venting to syd and saying that carmy has a tree up his ass

Carmy finding baby pics I’m SICK

EP5 ; Final Thoughts - WOWOWOWOW This is the last ep. I am watching tonight I need to digest. This was such a cute Richie ep. I am so in love with Dad!Richie. He is such a good, good dad. I also am dead- John Cena as a Fak? And having a mikey esc. Haircut???? And smoking in the restaurant- and then them saying it smells like smoke I am dead as fuck. Richie really really wants this review to go well, I hope it does:((

EP6 - “Napkins”

Good morning! time for e6 It is Directed by Ayo so i fear it is gonna kill me :) !

Well at least Tina has a normal clock 

Oooo get down on it!!!! Let’s go Tina!!! Get in that groove mama! 

Tina is so Puerto Rican mom I love it so so much 

Tina’s married?! I love it!! how sweet 

If Mikey’s in here- I’m gonna fucking die 

Baker tina!! Oh- customer service Tina? No! Books Tina!!! Smart girl!! that’s my lady :))

NOOOO - WHAT ?! THEY’RE LETTING HER GO?!

THIS IS WHAT LANDED HER AT THE BEEF??? THIS???

Oh Tina I’ve been there mama you’ll land on your feet :((( That’s right baby everything will be ok 

One thing about this show is all of the characters need routine 

The degree thing pisses me off to no end because of how real it is. Like shes been doing this 15 years and knows it better then someone right out of school with a stupid degree.

Awww Tina and hubs been together so long!! So sweet I love it her husband is good to her. 

I sooo love Tina is getting her moment the actress is so kind and amazing 

Woah I thought the big interview would be at the beef LOLLLL like not that it’s big but that they really need her lolll 

Oh my god. They hired someone ??? What the fuck and didnt tell her?!! RUDEEEE 

This little fucking prick oh my god yes Tina fuck him

Aw baby I wanna hug her it’ll be fine mama I know it doesn’t feel like it

Bus is delayed SO SHE COULD APPLY AT THE BEEF HAHAHAHAHA

THERES MY MANNNN RICHIEEE!! HES SO HOT AAAA

“Maam you can’t smoke in here anymore” I can’t hahaha

Everyone calling him handsome I can’t hahah he is! But still hahaha

Omggg richieeee I love him he’s always been so sociallll!! Get ready to eat with the beef Richie oh. Wow. This whole scene is so chef kiss i cant wait to write more the beef!richie

FAKS FAKS FAKS ok where’s Mikey HDBDHAHSHEBDNEBSBD. THERE HE IS IN SHFJENSNSJEJEJENDNEJWKA

MIKEY OH MY GOD JEJSNANQ

RICHIE LMAO STOP THEY ACT HOW IN KNOW THEY WOULDDD

“She can’t be crying in here” I am done LMAO

I fear I’m seeing the Mikey crush AAA “sandwich really that bad??” Stop being funny !! I also see how he got Carmy out of his panic attacks what a brother stop Mikey!! Why would you do that Mikey everyone loved you so muchhh 🥺💔

Gosh Mikey IS so handsome

THE HAUNTED EXPLODING TOILET THAT CARM IS STILL DEALING WITH HAHAHAHA

oh my god Carmy takes after him SO SO SO MUCH oh my god Carmy takes after him so much 

Oh my gosh I didn’t realize she was older then Richie!! 46 means something in this show- did Mikey…at 46? If he did I will fucking sue 

OMG SHOWING HER THE PIC OH ANS TELLING ABOUT CARMY SHUT UP HE “hes the shit” he wasn’t allowed to work at the beef because mikey knew that he’s better then the beef. He sees so much in him I knew that was the case!!! I’m sick 

My god !! Carmy!! Takes!!! After Mikey so fucking MUCH!!! 

Oh Mikey- oh. Mikey. Oh Mikey. Oh Mikey. Oh Michael Berzatto. Hit me while I’m down PAL kick me why don’t you?! “I knew I was gonna get skipped because I had people to take care of” I knew this episode would make me sick. 

oh my god when Tina said she loved Mikey she loved Mikey like a good friend and I am so gutted when Carmy says everyone loved Mikey and he just lit a room up and could make anyone comfortable oh my god I’m so gutted!!!!!!!!!!! 

EP6 ; Final Thoughts - This episode let us truly meet Michael & oh my god it’s almost painful to watch these back to back like- this is a lot to digest holy fuck. When Carmen talked about a temp in a room and how Mikey could feel it then lean into it and manipulate it however he wanted. He did such a good job portraying that. I’d give anything for him to have just called Carmy when he was on that bridge and for him to have answered and for Carmy to change his mind. Oh my god I’m so- like oh my god? This show. I can’t.

EP7 - “Legacy”

Carmy so pretty :)

Oh Richie. Thinking about :((( everything. 

Syd thinking of Carmy 

SHE IS GETTING POACHED BY EVER MAN OH NO

good Carmy is back at AI-ANON 

so much fucking family hahahah god I love Italians hey uncle Gary! 

*sighs* good morning, Syd. 

Oh. Ok he’s opening his own place ok…and he’s asking her I KNEW IT POACHER!! POACHER!!!!!

oh my god he’s offering her a real CDC job - with a real good salary,  it would be healthier for her sadly!!!!!!

How’d I headcanon Carmy knew French PUUUURRIODD 😌

“You look nice” ha. Ha. Ha.  Shoot me in the FUCKING FACE

The gum chewing HNNNNG IM CHEWING ON MY CAGE

“That sounds legendary pal” I WANT TO KISS HIM ON HIS STUPID MOUTH 

ARE THEY PART TIME THE BEEF NOW?!! OH MY GOD- THEY ARE!!! EBRA IS LIVINGGGG HAHAH OMG THIS IS SO COOL???

“Matter of fak supply” LOL

Richie is taking this so seriously which makes me more mad how Carmy treats him like he really is so good at the job and loves it.

Aw he really misses Tiff. :( he’s so different now and wishes he could go back so bad but he’s gonna find someone that I’ll be very jealous of bc I need this man SO BAD

Oh him crying abt Mikey- no stop I can’t 

SYDS TURN IN THE BOXESS HAHAHAH

“Hey grandpa” “hey grandma” I love Ebra and Tina sm lol and her mimicking his accent they’re adorable 

“Maybe you can go fuck, Ted” hahahaha I love telling people to go fuck now 

Eva’s drawing in Richie’s host book 🥹🫶

Carmen I wanna choke you out so bad!  Can you take a single suggestion ???

THE BABY IS COMING :D!!!!

EP7 ; Final Thoughts - Another good episode!! Very balanced which I like, the character centered episodes feel very heavy but I still love them. I'm just happy that we got a little bit of a second to breathe!! I think it’s cool how they’re doing the beef on the side, like so cool! I never thought of that as an option. Because it’s true the neighborhood would probably miss their local sandwich spot! I liked this episode a lot :) Carmy can go fuck this episode, though he’s in the dog house and I hope Syd leaves to teach him a lesson! (& it makes him realize he loves her!!!)

EP8 - “Ice Chips”

I’m guessing before we start Nat is gonna find comfort not in her brother, but in Syd! 

Oh poor Nat all alone :( PETE ANSWER THE PHONE- SYD ANSWER -CARMY ANSWER !!! SOMEONE ANSWERRRRR

CLAIRE SHES FINDING COMFORT IN CLAIRE. NO HER MOM!!! OH MY GOD OH DONNAAAAAA WHAT 

oh my god Donna SUGAR oh my god sugar snapping on Donna I can’t 

COACHING. SHES BEING A MOM HAHAHAH PLEASEE 

someone get someone here other then Donna 

My Scorpio sissy Natalie !!! 11/10/88 (this confirms to me carmy is still in his 20s theres no way hes 33 when nat is 34)

Donna needs to leave this is the worst she’s the worst birth partner ever 

At least Donna is being nice 

She never told her mom she was pregnant??? Wow!

Donna’s labor with Carmy being so incredibly hard is honestly canon! That is so funny actually. Yeah that kid makes everything hard for himself! 

lol you get that epidural queen!!!

I’m glad Donna is hearing that she scared them as children. 

Donna is an alcoholic because her mother had problems

Ok I’m feeling Donna sympathy 

Oh a mothers love. Please STOP THIS I DONT WANN A FEEL BAD FOR DONNA 

EP8 ; Final Thoughts - wow. Wowowowowowowowow 0 Carmy and 0 Richie basically but this was nats episode and Donna’s! I am happy we were able to see the sweet side of Donna, I think (and hope !!) she is on the right path to sobriety!!! This episode was very tender , I loved hearing about their childhoods more <3 Nat is gonna be a good mommy!!!

EP9 - “Apologies”

Magic? Ok sick, ok Marcus!! That’s who was watching this ok then wonder what thats about?

“Claire is peace” please- the thought of her gives you a panic attack. 

He’s gonna apologize this episode Jesus we wasted a whole season still no sydcarmykiss. It’s ok guys stay strong we’ll be there next season 

Yes Syd leave him 

Carmen you are nuts!!! 

Richie and Carmy staring at eachother through the window like bears about to kill eachother is freaking me out.

Syd say it -

Oh wait it’s the funeral for ever lol! I forgot that’s the funeral. Ok not worried 

He goes to the walk in to try to make it in his mind like he hasn’t waited all this time to apologize hahahaha 

AND RIGHT TO SYD AND THE AGREEMENNT I DJSJEBDJSJEHSHWHSBD SYDCARMY TILL I dIEEEE

“Missing one, that wouldn’t the the thing happened to be wedged up your ass the last few weeks is it?” JIMMYYYYY HAHAHAHAHAHA

Jesus this man’s eyes literally glow blue 

He owes him sooo much money wow 

Tina and Marcus are so cute

Carmy and his drawings are adorable 

Ten minutes left and Carmy hasn’t said sorry lol 

His little smile at the farm AAAA

Syd ls bringing them food before Carmy 

No she’s right Carmy I’m sorry why wouldn’t it be immediate insurance what is … wrong with you?

Oh my god fak going to see Claire Fak leave now no no no no no no no no oh my god this is so bad 

Mommy Nat 🥹💖

Aw Carmy looking at mikes funeral card 😭💔

EP9 ; Final Thoughts - Why does this season not feel done?! Well prob because they’re gonna do a season 4. But still there’s no way they can finish all of this in one episode. Holy moly the Faks need to stop interfering this is so bad!!!! Too many Faks!! Ok I can’t last episode time AAA

E10 - “Forever” !!!!!!

This mentor I like very much 

He took the popes nose thing from this mentor hahaha

This man who mentored Carmy it’s understandable why he was so driven or like, inspired to keep going

LUCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LUCAAA LUCA LUCA LUCA LUCA

LUCA LUCA HES SO CUTE HRJJEJSJEJDNDJSNSNS “is that injected? Or is it…oh..ok” CUTE SHY EMBARASSED LUCAAAAAA

OMG CARMY MINGLING GOOD BOY!!!

Richie is crushing on Jess hard 

Luca oh baby I wanna kiss himmm oh him 

SYDYFBDNANA. SYD SYD SYD SYD CARMY IS GONNA EXPLODE 

oh my fid oh my god oh my god oh my god his boss his his oh my god 

Oh my god oh m y god “working for a bad boss is the worst because the culture you’re a part of is the culture you create” Carmen is spiraling rn (the next chapter of my oc fic is gonna go crazy)

Syd being more sociable then Carmy bc Carmy is panicking 

This smug bastard loves that he makes Carmen squirm I wanna punch him

“This is why you’re alone you can’t handle this” I’m going to fucking stab something

Carmy finds 0 joy in cooking anymore. 

Richie is so lovable the boss loves him and knew him for less then a week hahahahah

Carmy OH CARMY CARMY CARMY OH CARMY  “generally being you” my jaw is my jaw my jaw my jaw my jaw my jaw on THE FLOOOOORRRRRRRRRR. Oh my god. He’s such this asshole boss I hope he dies holy fuck HOW DARE HE HOW DARE HE HOW DARE HE HOW DARE HE. I WANT TO PEEL OFF HIS SKIN

Luca and Syd??? Ok- I say go for it queen

My mind is blown so far this is so amazing but also how the fuck hasn’t he sorted with Claire and S3 is closing???

Omg after party at SYDS?! Where is Carmy??? literally Marcus and Tina are there and the Faks?? He has to be seeing Claire there’s no way why would he miss out on this!!!!

If only Carmy got to be apart of something fun. Of course he’d deprive himself. OF COURSE

He is… giving Syd ptsd like his boss did to him. She is having done to her what was done to him.

Oh Syd. Oh Syd. Oh you need to get out of there baby it’s killing you. I hate seeing her upset its hurting me.

Their review was bad…. :((((((((((((

YES I KNEW ITTTTTT!! TO BE CONTINUED !!!!! ASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKL

EP10/S3 ; Overall Final Thoughts -

IM CRYING omggggg omg omg omg omg omg omg the whole thing with the boss had me in actual tears. TB&HH is about to eat so hard so so hard oh I have so many ideas AAAA and I’m so in love w Richie even more then last season he is totally crushing on Jess. Oh my god syd needs to get out of the bear Carmy is actually killing her. He is doing to her what his boss did to him and that’s evil!!! Evil evil. Oh my god so many thoughts I have but wow just wow. I can’t most of all wait to read the rest of the fandoms thoughts WOW my fics are about to eat I’m so inspired ALSO SydCarmy fics are about to be so angsty and eeeeeaaaatttttt!! He is slowly killing his girl, also - him being able to say sorry to syd but not claire??? I’m mad that the Faks had so much screentime like they were funny sometimes sure, but waywaaay too much faks. Not enough Nat, not enough MARCUS!! The most powerful touching scene or at least most inspiring of the season for me was the one with carmy & his old boss the sack of shit, that scene is gonna propel tb&hh so farrrr also this whole season is going to! Im so excited to keep writing that. I see people are not liking this season in my peeks on my home page (i didnt want to taint my thoughts) but im kinda surprised - like yes we didn’t wrap everything up & there were too many faks and not enough syd BUT the cinematography was stunning, and we got to see in carmys head which is what i predicted - this season was to get in his head to see 2 main things 1) how he does what he does 2) why he is how he is - and we got both of those answers, I think everyone was expecting this to be the last season and it was never going to be! In order to wrap this up we had to fully understand why carmen is how he is, are you all catching my drift here? I cant wait for S4!!! I feel it that SydCarmy will happen, I know that chefkids will put it in to words because their brain is much bigger then mine - but wow wow and wow. I’m gonna have to watch each episode 10 more times to digest it but wow. Loved it! MOST OF ALL I CANT WAIT FOR S4!!!!!! AAAAA

[marchsfreakshow]

Sculpting Something More {Jimmy Darling x Reader}

You're a sculptor. Recently you've lost all inspiration, but you hear that Jupiter Florida has a Freakshow. Perfect inspiration.

No A/Ns this time

Your Perspective

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I pulled my car up by the entrance to the Freakshow. It was a chilly evening, and the sun was setting behind the clown-like door. If it was a door. It loomed over everyone, and I felt slightly intimidated as I held my sketchpad and pencil. Silently, I hoped the freaks would be an inspiration for my creations.

Excited murmurs surrounded me as I walked amongst the crowd. Creaky chairs were sat on, and I found my place at the back. If I stayed at the back, it would look less creepy as I drew. Soon enough, the lights turned off, and a spotlight turned onto a lady with a beard. Wonderful and pretty, but not enough. The show started.

Pinheads. I sketched them in the dark, taking in their facial expressions. Innocence and pure happiness in their smiles. I was sure they would make beautiful sculptures. But my thought-riddled kind didn't think it was enough, I needed something more. Whether it was a dwarf or not.

A voice started singing after a legless lady and a dwarf did an act. I looked up from my doodles to see Elsa Mars. Her voice was shaky tonight, and it was noticed in the crowd. People whispered things to each other. Boos were thrown, as well as the food people bought. It hurt to see honestly. Miss Mars was an extraordinary talent, and I was worried something might have happened backstage.

So as I drew, I sneaked out of the tent. No one noticed thankfully. It seemed they were all too busy hating Elsa. I snuck around to the back of the big tent and saw about 10 tents and caravans. Each one had a unique design and the name of the person who lived there. Perfect. "Hey pretty lady, what are you doing back here?" A voice asked. I looked up as I quickly slammed my notebook shut. It was dark, I couldn't see his face.

"I...um..it was a bit overwhelming in there, and I didn't want to be part of a crowd that hates Miss Elsa Mars. She's a wonderful singer." I chuckled awkwardly. I did feel bad for Elsa. The man took my hand and led me to a small light. His hands felt odd, two...oh, it was Jimmy. The lobster boy. "I can't see you in the dark, but, are you Jimmy?"

"Obvious by my hands." He grinned. "I'm glad you're not scared."

"I come here all the time," I smirked at Jimmy, before opening up a spot in the big tent and watching the Tattler Twins perform. People looked more entranced with them than they did with Elsa. So I opened up my book and sketched their faces quick. "Everyone who performs here is my new inspiration."

"Inspiration?"

"Yeah." I turned back around and pulled out a Polaroid from my pocket. It was small, but it had a picture of a sculpture. The sculpture was of a clown. Dully painted and it looked like it had a mask on. The Polaroid made it look tiny, whereas, in reality, it was just as tall as a bottle. A water bottle maybe.

Jimmy took it and stared at it eagerly. "Did you make that?" I just nodded, still a bit shy of my work.

"I'm hoping to make a bigger one, maybe sell it somewhere. I was going to use one of my sketches of your acts as a way to get people interested. No one seems to like clowns anymore. Not the one I made anyway." I just shrugged, nonchalantly flipping through my notebook and the sketches. But soon enough Jimmy gave me back the picture, and I stuffed it in my pocket once again. Nearly everything had been done, so I was wondering why Jimmy hadn't performed yet. "Are you not doing it tonight?"

"Huh? Oh, na. Ma said to take a break, so I'm watching today. But it seems I got distracted by a pretty face." He winked my way, and I just smiled at him with confidence. Such a smooth talker. I decided to head back, however, I wanted to go back home since I had grabbed all the inspiration I had.

"Well thank you for the conversation, Jimmy. I didn't plan to stay long, so I should be getting home now." We reached my car quite swiftly. In the short silence, he handed me a little slip of paper. A number, like I could make so many calls to this man, and the address of the place. The freakshow had an address? No matter what I thought, I gracefully took it and smiled at him still. Whoops and claps surrounded the area, the show must have ended. "Uh, bye..!" I quickly said to the man as I got in my car and just as swiftly drove off.

"Um...Okay then." I heard him say as I drove off. It felt embarrassing, but I knew I was going to start asking him stupid questions otherwise. To distract myself from my own thoughts, I turned on the radio. Simple songs played, but it was nice as I got myself back home in almost record time.

Once I got home, I rushed myself inside and ran straight up to the studio. It was a small loft, and plenty of shelves engulfed the walls. The light was dim and only made a small difference to the light that the window brought in. In the middle of the room, a table, with a bowl of water on top of it, and a chair scooted next to it. There were plenty of additions to the table and the shelves. A place for my food, and drink. One table opposite my work table, in which I always placed my notebook. The notebook not only held my inspirations but also my final sketched-out piece of work that I would slowly craft.

Once I got everything ready, I settled the Notebook down. It was a finished drawing of Jimmy and Ma Petite. He was sitting down and smiling towards the lovely woman. And she stood on a wood stump, with a doll's crown on her head. Both are beautiful people. Both are hard work. As I sat down in front of the clay, I just stared at the drawing.

I started for what felt like hours and hours, focusing on the details of Jimmy's face that I drew. Almost like a distraction from my work, and what I was meant to be doing. His face, and his build. The way he talked, the way he walked. Everything I thought about took me further into a fantasy. The only way I left the sweet fantasy was by feeling the clay sinking into my elbow. "Shit.." I muttered, getting up quickly and cleaning off the damp clay. Probably a sign I should have started the sculpture already.

Either way, I got started and got myself into my work faster than ever.

--

The box slightly clattered around the trunk as I drove. Every time I heard the noise, I cringed, hoping the bumpy road wouldn't break the sculpture. But since the road was getting more bumpy, and less careful, I knew I was close. The other reason I knew was because I saw the Seal Boy with Amazon Eve, taking down a poster. Confused, I stopped my car and walked up to the seal boy. "Um, hello. I was wondering why you were taking Ethel's poster down. Is she retiring?" I asked innocently. He just shook his head, almost seeming guilty.

"Ethel passed away recently. Elsa told us to take it down as soon as possible. And poor Jimmy's heartbroken..."

"Oh. Oh, that's dreadful. I was going up to the freakshow to give Jimmy something actually. Maybe it will help him?" I shrugged my shoulders as Eve came down from the footstool.

"What is it?" She asked, crossing her arms. As soon as she said that, I opened the car's trunk, and pulled the box out, opening it as I walked back towards them.

"It's him and Ma Petie. They were good inspiration, and, Jimmy is handsome."

Eve and Seal Boy looked at it endearingly. I put the box down and took out the sculpture. It was the size of both of my palms, so it fit perfectly. "I do hope he and Ma Petite like it. This is one of my bigger projects."

"It looks wonderful! Jimmy'll love it." Eve said. Happy with the response, I put it back in the box and in the trunk.

"Indeed. Will you guys be okay getting back or would you like me to ride you the rest of the way?" They looked at each other, before nodding. I led them to the car, and we all got in. Silence filled the car's journey, but soon enough we got to the back of the freakshow. "Where should I park?"

"Anywhere will be okay." Seal Boy smiled, so I parked by the Ferris wheel, and let the two of them get out. After that, I went to the trunk and took the box out. "Let's take you to Jimmy." He smiled, putting a hand on my shoulder. I nodded, and we walked to Jimmy's trailer. He was sat outside, staring at the ground.

"Jimmy. You have a guest." He said, before walking off. Jimmy looked up at me, and a smile enlightened his face.

"It's you."

"It's me, Jimmy! Also, Y/N. That's my name. I'm sorry I didn't throw it the other night. I was so caught up in my thoughts, and what I could do, I completely forgot."

"It's.. It's fine. I'm glad I get to see you again. Where did you meet Paul?"

I smiled at Jimmy, completely ignoring his question, and focusing on his eyes again. The images from the fantasy came back to me. But I internally shook them off and just placed the box in his lap. "I came across him and Eve while driving here. I decided to drive them back here. I'm sorry about Ethel."

"It's okay. What's in this box by the way?" Jimmy asked, staring at it in confusion.

"Open it and you will find out." I grinned, taking a chair and sitting beside him. He glanced at me before opening the box and taking out the figure. In shock, he dropped the box, thank god. But he kept a grip on the figure. The painted shadows, Ma Petite in her wonderful pink sari. Jimmy in his leather jacket, sitting by the wood stump. "I hope you like it, and that Ma Petite-" I got cut off as he hugged me closely. I quickly returned the hug, seeming that he liked it.

"It's wonderful Y/N. Thank you." He whispered, still not letting me go, but was happily accepted.

"I'm so glad you like it, Jimmy."

"I love it. I really do." He let the hug go and held onto my hands. "Let's show it to Ma Petite, and then maybe get some lunch? I'd like to return the favour." He winked again at me, and I felt like I was going to faint. But I nodded and squeezed his wrist.

"I'd love that Jimmy."

⊹˚.⋆ ₊꒷ᘏᘏ︶ଓ︶꒷꒦⊹˚ᗢ₊꒷︶ଓ︶꒷

[fallenclan]

The trees were bleeding their leaves again, the vibrant reds and oranges blurring together in a colorful cascade. With leafbare fast approaching, Silverpaw knew the medicine den would need to be fully stocked. She was so engrossed in her task that she hardly noticed the crunch of leaf litter behind her until a familiar scent hit her nose.

"Applepaw?" Silverpaw hissed in shock. "What are you doing here?"

"I sneaked away from Toro," Applepaw giggled. "What are you doing? Boring medicine cat stuff?"

"I'm collecting herbs," Silverpaw replied. She felt the need to chastise Applepaw but couldn't bring herself to do it, the silly grin on Applepaw's face making Silverpaw's chest feel warm.

"Is Sunwish around?"

"She's nearby." Silverpaw gently placed the burdock she had been collecting on the ground. "Was there a reason you snuck off to find me?"

"I like hanging out with you, and Toro keeps lecturing me about proper hunting etiquette or whatever. Who knew hunting had so many rules!" Applepaw groaned, dramatically collapsing to the ground for emphasis. Silverpaw couldn't help but laugh, whiskers twitching in delight.

"She'll only lecture you twice as much for sneaking off, you know."

"Worth it." Silverpaw felt herself grow warm again. Applepaw thought she was worth getting a stern lecture for.

"Actually, there was something I wanted to tell you," Silverpaw admitted, feeling her heart begin to race. She didn't know what she'd do if Applepaw reacted poorly. "I, uh. I've been talking to Sunwish and I think. . ." Silverpaw trailed off.

"Think what?" Applepaw's nonchalant demeanor had vanished, the beginning of concern in her gaze.

"I'm a she-cat," Silverpaw blurted. "I think I've always been one, I just didn't know. It's why I was so happy to change my name to Silverkit instead of being. . ." Sylvester.

"Oh." Applepaw shifted to her paws. "Okay."

"Okay?"

"I guess I'm not the only she-cat in the friend group anymore," Applepaw purred. Silverpaw practically felt herself melt with relief. "Thank you for telling me. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel uncomfortable by calling you a tom-"

"No, no! You didn't. . . I didn't know either," Silverpaw spoke hurriedly.

"Okay, I'm glad, because-"

"Applepaw?" Sunwish's stern voice sliced right through whatever Applepaw had been about to say. "What are you doing bothering my apprentice? Where's Toro?"

"Uh." Applepaw smiled sheepishly. Sunwish was unimpressed, her tail twitching irritably.

"We're done collecting herbs anyway. Make yourself useful and help us carry them back. We can discuss the punishment for your misbehavior with Goldenflare and Toro later."

"Sorry," Silverpaw mouthed behind her mentor's back. Applepaw only shrugged. Her gaze said it all. Worth it.

...

"This is daisy, it's highly toxic to cats so don't grab any of those. . . ah, here's what I was looking for! This is yarrow, it can be super useful for treating wounds that have poison or venom in them." Silverbelly waded through a patch of fronds to reach the aforementioned yarrow, scooping up a pawful. "I'll carry these if you can get the borage." A pause. "Applebranch, are you listening to me?"

"What?" Applebranch blinked, coming to the sudden realization that she had been staring at Silverbelly. "Oh, yes. I've been listening, I promise. Your fur just looks so beautiful in the sunlight. Not that it doesn't always look beautiful, but you know what I mean."

Silverbelly ducked her head behind a particularly tall frond to hide her face. "Thanks." That warm feeling in her chest was returning. It seemed to happen more and more lately, everytime she was around Applebranch.

"You don't need to thank me." Applebranch padded forward, crushing a few ferns as she went. She swiped the borage from Silverbelly, pelt brushing against Silverbelly's own.

"Well, I've been meaning to thank you, not just for the compliment. It's nice having someone to talk to while I collect herbs. Sunwish's never really been one for conversation; she can be a bit grumpy, but she means well."

"I don't know how many times I need to say it. I like spending time with you. No, not like. I love spending time with you," Applebranch insisted, brows furrowed. "You're compassionate, intelligent, understanding. . . you're my best friend."

Silverbelly couldn't help the purr rising in her throat. She could even feel her eyes watering slightly. "I love spending time with you too, Applebranch."

"Then let's keep spending time together."

"Always."

...

"I like you."

"I think that's already been established."

"No, I like you."

"Well, I like you too."

"Really?"

"Obviously."

"So are we. . . ?"

"If you want to be."

"I do."

"I do too."

...

It's only been a moon since they've become mates when Applebranch told Silverbelly that she was expecting kits.

"I won't let anything happen to you, or our kits," Silverbelly promised. She had been told what happened with Morningbloom.

"I know." Applebranch rested her chin on Silverbelly's shoulder, wrapping her tail around the medicine cat's flank. "I trust you."

"Are you nervous? I'm nervous."

"About the kitting? A bit. About being a parent? No. I think we'll do great."

"How can you be so sure?"

"I know us. I know our kits will grow up loved and well cared for."

"I can't wait to meet them," Silverbelly purred. She didn't bother to hide the tears in her eyes.

...

Flykit was running like a whirlwind around the medicine den. Mudkit couldn't stop giggling, watching her brother race about with glee. Silverbelly was laughing too, even as some of the herb stores were scrambled. Sunwish was decidedly less amused.

"Flykit, what in StarClan's name are you doing?"

"I'm showing Mama my warrior skills! Look how fast I am!" The tom came to an abrupt halt in front of Sunwish. "Wanna see my battle skills? I'm gonna be a great warrior!"

"Sunwish is a medicine cat, silly," Mudkit chirped. "She isn't interested in warrior stuff."

"Mama likes to watch and she's a medicine cat," Flykit argued.

"I would like to see your. . . 'battle skills,' Flykit, but I would like to see them out of the medicine den, okay?" Sunwish interceded before the kits could get into an arguement.

Silverbelly blinked gratefully at Sunwish. Silverbelly wasn't certain the senior medicine actually wanted to watch kits attempt fighting stances, but she was glad that Sunwish had at least feigned interest.

"Come on, kits, let's go find Applebranch and then you can show her and Sunwish your battle moves."

"Not me. I just wanna watch," Mudkit mewed.

"That's okay, sweetheart. You don't have to join in."

For not the first time, Silverbelly wondered if Mudkit would follow the path of a warrior or chose something else entirely.

...

"I just can't believe it." Silverbelly's voice was trembling slightly. "I know a lot of cats didn't like her, but she wasn't--she wasn't cruel. Sunwish was a great cat. She. . . I look up to her so much. Why would someone do this?"

Applebranch pressed herself against Silverbelly's side, licking her mate's ear. Applebranch had never been the best at comforting cats, but she was ready to support Silverbelly in whatever way she needed.

"I feel so lost, Applebranch."

"You'll make it through this, Silverbelly. I'm here for you. So are Dawnshine and Maplethorn. Even Honeygleam, though he can be a bit of a mousebrain sometimes. We'll all support you, no matter what happens."

"I love you, Applebranch."

"I love you too."

...

"So Lichenstripe came from ShallowClan?"

"Yeah, isn't it crazy? Floodstar exiled him over some vision he had."

"Floodstar must be a real mousebrain to exile a medicine cat and ignore a vision from StarClan."

"I guess it's nice to have extra paws in the medicine den. Stormpaw has been such a blessing, honestly. He's so sweet with patients and so funny, too. He makes me laugh."

"He can't possibly be more funny than me, right?"

"How badly would you be hurt if I didn't respond?"

"Terribly."

"You're such a goose, Applebranch."

"I know."

...

"I'm a tom," Crowflame stated firmly. "Also, I might be in love with Blizzardfang."

Applebranch let out a delighted sound similar to a squawking bird, nearly knocking Crowflame over in an embrace. "Blizzardfang? Oh, honey, she'll be great for you!"

"What's that supposed to mean?" Crowflame wrinkled his nose, detangling himself from his mother's embrace.

"We're just proud of you, sweetheart. Always be true to yourself, no matter what," Silverbelly purred. "My wonderful son."

Crowflame couldn't help the purr that rose in his chest.

He would later deny it.

...

Applebranch could barely process what was happening through the haze of fever. Her leg was mangled beyond repair, twisted at such an unnatural angle that Applebranch knew she'd never be able to walk on it again.

The medicine den was filled with the scent of death, with a gentle blanket of rosemary and lilac overtop. Was it her own death that Applebranch could smell? It couldn't be. And whose tears were those? "Silverbelly?" Applebranch croaked.

The sniffling abruptly stopped. "A-Applebranch? Are you awake?" A silver muzzle came into view. "Applebranch, we're going to have to remove your leg. It's-it's going to be okay."

"Why. . ." Applebranch trailed off, having trouble focusing. Everything was so colorful and swirly. "Why are you crying?"

"Oh, Applebranch, something terrible has happened."

It was only a few days after Applebranch's leg was amputated that she learned Molesong had died.

...

"How do you know if you like a cat? I mean, wanting them to be your mate and all?" Eaglestripe was padding alongside Silverbelly, both she-cats weaving through a tangle of ivy to reach a hollowed out alcove. The best moss could be found within, so soft even the grumpiest elder couldn't complain.

"Oh. May I ask where this is coming from?" Silverbelly glanced at her granddaughter curiously. The she-cat had been spending a lot of time with Daisypetal lately.

"It's just that you and Applebranch have such a strong relationship. You both really love each other, you know? I want that kind of relationship. How do I know if she--I mean, if a cat, hypothetically, is right for me?"

Silverbelly chuckled fondly, eyes crinkling with affection. "I knew Applebranch was right for me because she made my heart feel warm."

"What?"

"Whenever I'm around her, I feel so warm and fuzzy. I feel like I could do anything. I'll never feel lost as long as she's by my side."

"Wow." Eaglestripe had stopped walking. "You've always felt that way about her?"

"For a long time, yes. I think I knew for sure when I first became a full medicine cat. You're young, Eaglestripe. If there's someone who makes your heart warm, you should tell them and see if they feel the same. It's worth a shot, at least."

"Thanks, Grandma." Eaglestripe purred softly. "I had one more question."

"Yes, sweetheart?"

"How did you know you were a she-cat?"

...

"A mediator?" Silverbelly had been sorting herbs when Mudsplash padded into the den, exitedly rambling about an idea she'd had.

"Yes. I'll help cats solve their problems, with each other or with themselves. I could even solve problems with the other clans!" Mudsplash grinned, her one visible fang peeking out. With such enthusiam in her gaze, Silverbelly was struck by how much Mudsplash took after Applebranch, not in temperament, but in expression.

"Then FallenClan would be lucky to have you as its first mediator."

"You're just saying that 'cause you're my mom. That's okay though, I know I'll be a great mediator," Mudsplash declared. "I'm going to go talk to Goldenstar about my idea. Would you come with?"

"Wait."

"What?"

"Your fur," Silverbelly chided, padding closer to inspect the unruly and often matted fur of her daughter. "Let me clean you first. You'll want to look presentable."

"Mama. . ." Mudsplash let out an annoyed exhale. "Grandpa doesn't care about how my pelt looks."

"He may be your grandfather, but he's still your clan leader."

"I'm not a kit. You don't need to fuss over me," Mudsplash sighed, but her tone relayed affection rather than annoyance.

"I'm your mother. I'll always fuss over you."

"As long as your fussing is quick! I really want to talk to Goldenstar, before he's busy with some other thing."

"I'll try not to take too long, sweetheart."

"Thanks, Mama."

...

Every shadow, every flicker of light. They were all out to get her. Silverbelly hadn't stopped shaking since Otterslip had been exiled. Her wound was bound tightly with a poultice and cobwebs, but she could feel the way his claws had torn through her flesh.

He killed Stormsight. He tried to kill me. He's going to kill me. What if he comes back? What if he attacks me while I'm out on the territory? What if-

Uneven pawsteps approaching the medicine den caused Silverbelly to flinch, but she quickly forced her fur to lie flat. She recognized those pawsteps, and her suspicions were confirmed when Applebranch poked her head into the den.

Her gaze was haunted. "Silverbelly, I'm so sorry. I should have been there."

Silverbelly opened her mouth to respond but no words came out. Instead, a strangled sort of cry escaped her. Applebranch was beside her in an instant, curling into Silverbelly's nest alongside her. "Eaglestripe saw to your wound? . . . good. You aren't bleeding anymore? Have you eaten? Do you want me to go get-"

"No." Silverbelly bristled and Applebranch's eyes widened in alarm. "No, don't leave me. Please."

"Oh, Silverbelly." Applebranch pressed her nose against Silverbelly's cheek. "I won't leave you, I promise. If he ever dares show his face around here again, I'll-"

"Let's not talk about Otterslip, please."

"Okay. Do you. . . want to talk about anything?"

"Not really."

"Why don't you rest, and I'll keep watch, okay?"

"Okay. . . okay, thanks Applebranch."

"I'll keep you safe."

...

"How's Moosepaw doing?" Applebranch yawned, a wash of contentment spreading over her. A half eaten squirrel lay at her side, which Hawkwish had now begun to finish off.

"He's doing really well. I had a talk with him and he's been feeling a lot better lately." Hawkwish mumbled around a mouthful of squirrel, "He's going to do great things, I know it."

"You're doing great things too, honey." Applebranch blinked warmly at Hawkwish. "I'm really proud of you."

"Thanks, Grandma. That. . . means a lot."

"I mean it."

"I know."

...

"Salmonpaw and I caught that foxheart at the border yesterday."

"Did you?" Silverbelly's eyes widened in surprise. Nobody had told her.

"We chased him off, of course. I even gave him a good scratch, but the rat scrambled off before I could do much else," Applebranch grumbled. "I'd like to tear his flea-ridden pelt off."

"Just be careful." Silverbelly pressed herself against her mate's side. "You're old, Applebranch. You could always-"

"I'm not retiring," Applebranch sniffed, growing irritable. "You can't make me, Silverbelly."

"I wouldn't try to," Silverbelly chuckled lightly. The thought of Otterslip disturbed her, but the tom didn't frighten her as much as he used to. Now thinking about him just made her. . . sad.

"I know. Sorry for snapping at you. I think I'm just, I don't know, feeling insecure about getting old or something." Applebranch let out a frustrated grunt.

"If it helps, I'm getting old too," Silverbelly replied gently. "And so is Maplestar. Have you talked to him about any of this?"

"No, Maplestar is stressed enough without his sister complaining about her aching joints."

"Have you been in pain lately?" Silverbelly frowned, briefly scanning Applebranch's pelt for signs of tension.

"My leg has been aching again, that's all."

"Well, tell me if it gets worse, okay?"

"Will do." Applebranch paused. "Do you want to go swim in the star-pool? It might make my leg feel better. . ."

"You just want an excuse to show off your fishing skills."

"Guilty."

"I can afford to take a break," Silverbelly replied. "Let's go, before it gets dark out."

...

"I'm not a she-cat or a tom."

"That's all right, sweetheart. Should I start referring to you as 'they' or is there something else you'd prefer?"

"They works just fine for me," Eaglestripe grinned. Silverbelly gave their shoulder a supportive lick for good measure.

...

Silverbelly let out a delighted yowl. "I can still touch the bottom with my paws!"

"No way!" Applebranch guffawed, splashing water at Silverbelly. "I keep trying to swim down there but I always run out of breath before I can make it."

"Remember when you used to swim to the bottom and grab little pebbles for me?"

"I can't believe you remember that," Applebranch chuckled.

"You taught me how to fish, too."

"Yeah, you were actually really good at it, too."

"What! You told me I was bad at fishing!" Silverbelly scoffed in disbelief.

"I might have lied," Applebranch purred, a mischevious glint in her gaze. "I wanted to keep 'teaching' you how to fish," Applebranch admitted sheepishly.

"So all those times you were 'correcting' my technique, you were really just making stuff up?"

Applebranch opted to duck beneath the pool's surface instead of answering, once again trying to reach the pool's bottom. Silverbelly shook her head, fondness flooding her.

Later that day, Silverbelly added a new pebble to her collection.

...

"I feel numb."

"I feel ancient."

"Do you think we've lived good lives?"

"Mostly, yes. I'm glad we lived them together."

"I miss my brothers. I miss my father. I miss our daughter. I miss all of the friends we've lost. I don't know if I can live with this grief anymore."

"There's a lot of cats I miss, too."

"How do you get by?"

"It's simple. I know that they're waiting for me. Soon, they won't have to wait any longer."

"Does it scare you?"

"Not anymore. Are you afraid?"

"I don't think so. As long as we're together."

"Always."

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

-🐉

(cat romance, cats in love... here is the promised silverapple fic! a collection of moments from their lives, including some moments with their children and grandchildren as well.

please go read lollipop anon's silverbelly fic and beetle's maplestar & silverbelly fic! they're both so good and gave me lots of inspo

hope you enjoy❤️)

SCREAMING AND CRYING.... DRAGON ANON THIS IS SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! i am in LOVE with your characterizations of everybody, especially Sunwish--you captured her perfectly. prickly but wanting to do better.

THE LAST BIT..... i will live out the rest of my days in a grain silo. absolutely DEVESTATING. you dont know the kind of agony you are causing me

[dragonmasterhiccup]

(‘Tell my muse something they need to hear’)

Danny had, once again, snuck into Hiccups hut through the window; the one on the ground floor near the door, meaning that she didn’t really need to use the window, but still, it was fun.

Sneaking up behind Hiccup, she silently tapped him on the shoulder.

“Uh… hi? Hold on…” She pulled out a crumpled up piece of paper from her belt bag, unfolding it and reading it. “Something that you need to hear…hm… Oh! One, you need to take like, a twelve hour nap, before Astrid starts going after you. And two…” She scratched the side of her head in thought.

“You’re a really good Chief, for starters— And I think you’re a good person too, just in general. Um…” Did she really want to say the next part? She wasn’t a gross sap like Hiccup, but… it was good to tell people that you appreciated them every once in a while, right? “I think you should know that you’re a really good brother and… I don’t know where I’d be if you hadn’t let me stay on Berk…” Yeah, okay, too much. “And you need to know that your village appreciates you too, and even for the people that don’t-“ She coughed, muttering Spitelouts name. “They’re just being stupid and you shouldn’t listen to them. Okay, good talk, bye!”

(Omg this was a little longer than I thought lol, but it was such a good opportunity for Danny to tell him that he needs to know that he’s appreciated 😝😝 she’s so embarrassed though lol)

Tell my muse something they need to hear.

Hiccup was sitting at his desk, pouring over some blueprints for a new project.

Feeling a tap on his shoulder, he turned around, confused as to who it could be, and his wide eyes softened, a smile spreading across his face as he saw Danny.

"Danny! You know, you could have just used the door..."

He rolled his eyes playfully at the mention of the twelve hour nap. "I'm getting seven hours of sleep now, you know...that's more than enough, isn't it?"

His whole expression softened, his shoulders dropping in surprise. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Wow, uh...thank you, I...I don't know what to say...." Looking down, he fought to find the right words.

"That was definitely some things I needed to hear." Standing up, he pulled Danny into a big hug before she could run off. "I wouldn't be a good brother if I didn't have a great sister, and I for one am really glad you stayed on Berk, too."

Pulling away, he chuckled. "as for Spitelout, I'm not too worried about him any more!"

"Danny? What you said...it meant a lot. I know that couldn't have been easy for you, so, thank you, really."

[catgirlsisbreeding2]

"Okay, so, like--I'm gonna help as much as I can. Because of your… your everything, some things will be a little different, but some things I still think I can help you out a bit."

"Okay…" She stood awkwardly in the doorway of her older brother's room. She almost regretted asking him about masturbating, but she couldn't back out now.

He turned to look at his laptop. "So, it's mostly easiest if you have uh. If you have some porn. of some kind. Are you… do you like guys?"

"Yeah. I mean. Girls are okay? but I get like, flutters and shit whenever i look at or think about this g-- when i think about guys."

"Heh, I'm uh. I'm gonna leave you alone about your crush for now. Best of luck, though! That's a little harder for porn though, uh. The scene for good straight porn starring trans woman is… kinda dire." He clicked through some thumbnail pages on some incredibly sketchy-looking websites before sighing. "So rather than wading through that, do you think it'd be okay to just throw something on with a cis woman?"

"Um. Sure? I haven't--i haven't watched a lot of porn, so whatever's fine. Oh, god, this is so weird."

"Hey, it's okay! But, like. yeah. it is kinda weird, but it's fine! It's fine. So uh… I was thinking something hands-on for a demonstration, right? So…" He opened up a video, pausing it at the start. "You can sit between my legs, and I can show you what I think will work the best. Sound good?"

"Sounds good."

He shuffled onto the bed and spread his legs, patting the spot in front of him. She slid onto the bed and giggled as he grabbed her waist and pulled her against him. "Wait, waitwaitwait, i need to hit play!" She leaned forward and clicked 'play' on her brother's laptop and the cheesy 'plot' section of the porn video started playing quietly through the tinny speakers.

"Okay, so, um. You probably don't really get hard, right?"

"Uhm. Sometimes? not really like i think guys do, though, so… sorry."

"No! no, it's fine i just need to think a bit. I guess--do you want to keep your skirt on, or lose it or…"

"Oh! Oh. I guess…" She frowned. "I should probably take it off." She started to wiggle toward the edge of the bed before her brother wrapped an arm around her waist.

"Get back here. You don't need to take it off--it's loose, we could probably just pull it up? You look so pretty in it. But… could i take your panties off underneath it?"

"Um! Sure!"

The two wiggled a bit, working her underwear past her butt so he could slide them off her legs. "Gonna keep these with all the other girls' panties I've 'liberated,'" he said, winking as he set them aside. "Now. Can we touch your clit?"

She nodded, holding her hand out. He took her hand and she gasped as he snuck their hands inside the waistband of her skirt, tickling through her pubic hair before gently pressing against her clit.

"Okay, so--even if yours is shaped kind of like mine, we can't treat her quite the same. So we'll rub her a little bit to wake her up." She bit her lip as he gently ran their joined fingers up and down the side of her clit. "I'm glad our parents didn't do the circumcision thing--I'm whatever about mine, but i think you'll appreciate having a hood."

"Mmmm it uh. It's nice having a bit of coverage on HER?" Her voice hitched into a yelp as her brother reached up her top and tweaked a nipple. She turned, looking at him over her shoulder, and he winked again.

"Mine aren't all that sensitive, but I thought yours might be. And that feels good, right? Having your tits played with while you touch yourself?"

"Y--yeah. Yeah, it feels good."

"Good. Yeah, lean back against me like that. Keep touching your clit, I'll show you something else." He pulled his hand back, grabbing a bottle of lube next to the bed. "Oh, my sister looks so beautiful touching herself like that."

He hiked his sister's skirt up, coated his fingers in lube, then reached down past where her hand was rubbing the bottom of her clit. "The angle on this can be just a little tricky, but~" He pressed against her asshole, covering it in lube, gently pressing until it yielded, and his finger slipped in.

She moaned, then whipped her hand up to cover her mouth. "I'm sorry, I didn't--"

"No that's good. I mean, sometimes it's good to learn how to be quiet, but you don't need to right now. Just make all those happy noises for your brother." He wiggled his finger, staying shallow and pressing around her rim to help her loosen. "I'm gonna be looking for something, and I think you're gonna let me know when I've found it."

He bent his wrist and pressed slightly deeper before hooking his finger and brushing something in her that made her breath catch before-- "Oh, Fuck! Oh jesus oh my god, shit ugh, oh, shit, i thi-MMF. fuck, think you found it fuuuuck." Her voice trailed off in a groan as her brother ground his finger on her prostate.

"Yeah, there she is. There's my slutty sister. You know how happy I was when you asked me to help with this? You feel how hard I am against your ass right now? I can't wait to fuck you with my dick, but for now…" He pinched her nipple and pressed hard on her prostate. "I can just press against you and feel you cum for me. Can you do that, sis? Can you cum for your brother?"

She was drowning. Pressing on her clit, feeling her brother grind on her butt and finger her prostate and pull on her nipple, she was rushing headlong until--her vision went white, fire pulsing from her core out through every limb as the came, twitching all over her body as cum dribbled over her hand onto her skirt and the sheets. Her brother's hands gentled, gently holding her as she came down from her high. She finally sighed deeply, flopping her head back to rub against her brother's cheek. "Fuck. That was. Fuck? Holy shit."

He laughed, snagging a tissue from his nightstand to wipe his finger. "So, can I take that as a mark of approval?"

"Fucking… fuck. Yeah. Yeah I approve, fuck. Lemme. Gimme a second to reboot. Fuck that was amazing, I've never felt like that." She tried to sit up, but could only manage a squirm before falling back against her brother.

"Although--fuck, sis, you really got that skirt." She looked down to see a big dark spot staining the front of her skirt.

"Oh. Uh. I didn't bring an extra…"

"I mean. I have a washer, although I guess I'll just have to have a hot girl lounge around in her panties while we wait for the load to finish. What a hardship."

She twisted, trying to reach back and smack her brother's head before giving up, huffing. "Fine. I guess I can hang around in my panties with the guy who just--apparently--made me cum my brains out for a while. What a hardship."

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okay so this was inspired by this post:

big brother who teaches his little sister how to touch herself >.< setting up his laptop in front of them, playing some stupid porn he doesn’t even care about.

[liar-liarpantsonfire]

Roses in pretty, pretty red

Summary:Grell invited you out on a date but it's a little different to what you expected.

"Hello darling." Grell greeted you, kissing your cheek softly. "Come in! Come in! I need to get my coat and purse." She moved to the side to let you in, closing the door behind you. Her fireplace was lit and crackling gently, candles lighting her living room beautifully. You watched as she grabbed her coat and purse; she was wearing a beautiful red dress with black heels and had her long hair up in a bun ontop of her head with a braid around on the bottom. She had a very small amount of makeup on with a red lipstick and stud earrings. She looked back to you causing you to making eye contact. "Ready to go?" She nodded, grabbing her keys.

"Mhm! If you'd like we can come back here after for something to eat?" You nodded with a soft smile.

"Sounds good!" You gently held Grell's hand and walked out, shutting the door behind you.

The two of you walked for a while in a comfortable silence, the streetlamps and moonlight illuminating your walk. London was really beautiful at night, you'd never noticed it before but it really was. The buildings along the edge of each street was a little different from the next, some has flowers in the windows, some had their curtains drawn ans a few only had a slight difference in the structure but every single one was a little different and it was nice. You kept walking for a while until you were on the edges of London, the gaps between each streetlamp growing.

"So where abouts are we headed?"

"You'll see darling!" She chirped, holding your hand a little tighter and walking with you still.

Eventually you reached two gates and you sighed, she looked to you giving that certain look and you realised what was happening. "Alright, give me a boost." You sighed and she nodded, doing just that before getting over the gates herself. She'd brought you to a beautiful garden full of all different types of flowers but there was lots of roses, her favourite. You smiled softly, you could see why she'd chosen here, it was the perfect spot for a date. You walked for a short while and sat down on a white, metal bench with her.

"I really love it here... the beautiful flowers, especially the roses, the gentle chirping of the birds in the daytime. Its really peaceful." She said gently, she definitely snuck in here a lot. That was one of the great things about this reaper. She didn't care. She did what she liked when it suited her because well... why wouldn't she?

"So you come here alot?"

"Maybe a little more than I should, yes." She laughed softly. "I like the atmosphere and how beautiful it is, besides nobodies ever caught me so... oh well."

You laughed and nodded in agreement, definitely no arguing with that logic. You could agree with zero questions that it was beautiful and the atmosphere was wonderful. The peaceful and quiet nature of it was lovely, it didn't seem like something Grell would enjoy at first glance but when you thought about it you could see why. Sometimes it was nice to take a break from the chaos and just find peace. A gentle breeze blew by, the scent of the flowers being carried along it, a few leaves on the floor blowing around.

Grell's hand slipped back into yours and she gave you a gentle smile. "So why did you ask me on a date?" She shook her head gently.

"Its simple really, I just wanted to." Wow that was simple. "I was thinking about it for a little while and decided instead of thinking about it to just do it. The feeling seemed mutual so I didn't have much to lose and if you said no then it wouldn't have mattered too much." The feeling definitely had been mutual, maybe for longer than she'd realised. You nodded gently, smiling to her.

"Thank you for asking me, this is really nice."

"No need to thank me! I'm glad you agreed."

Silence grew over the two of you again after a while, seemed you didn't have much to say and neither did she. After a moment, her hand pulled away from yours and she stood up. "Would you like to walk through for a little while and then we can go back to mine?" You nodded and stood as well, walking with her for a short while, taking your time to stop and litterally smell the flowers. You made a few jokes, Grell laughing and a smile growing to your face. The two of you got each other. It was lovely.

The walk back to Grell's house seemed quick, the two of you talking and laughing together. Time flies when you're having fun, right? You soon got back ro her small house, surrounded by beautiful flowers and trees. Her keys jingled are she pulled them out of her purse, unlocking the door and walking in, you following as she shut the door behind you. "Make yourself comfortable, I'm going to make sure I have all the ingredients for dinner." She smiled as you sat down, going into the kitchen and double checking everything. "Can you do me a favour?" She asked, walking back in.

"Depends..." You raised an eyebrow before feeling a box of matched being placed into your hand.

"Light some candles will you?" She walked back into the kitchen before you could reply. You chuckled softly and stood up, lighting a few of the candles around the room before going into the kitchen and watching her cook.

"Would you like to help me? Or are you gonna stand there looking pretty?" She turned around and you nodded with a small laugh, walking to the sink and washing your hands before looking to her.

"So what do I need to do?"

"Wash those vegetables then hand them to me." You nodded, walking over to the sink and starting to wash the vegetables.

The two of you spent an hour or so cooking together, smiling and laughing, making jokes and polite conversation before eventually dinner was done. Grell set the table, taking a candelabra and placing it in the center and sitting down across from you. A soft sigh left her lips as she gave you a gentle smile, placing a hand on yours. It was rare the two of you got time together like this, she was always rushing around and busy with with gathering souls or some sort of little job will had asked her to do.

You ate in quiet for a while as Grell spoke to you, ranting a little. You didn't mind when she ranted, in fact it was quite nice, it was lovely to hear her talk regardless of wether you were interested in what she was saying or not. When she wasn't as loud, her voice was gentle and fairly comforting.

"You're so pretty when you rant like that." You said softly causing her to stop in her tracks and look up to you with a small blush. "I love you're voice..."

"Oh! Uhm, thank you, dear." She definitely hadn't expected that, "That means a lot..." She said gently, placing a hand on yours with a soft expression. It was rare anyone got to see this side of Grell she really trusted you.

The two of you finished up with your meal, talking and laughing, drinking wine. It'd been a really nice night, fairly quiet too.

You wouldn't change it in anyway, even if you could.

[arivsxq]

Meddle About Chapter 1

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Theme: strangers to lovers, angsty shit

Warnings: smut, hookup, fwb, mdni, maybe slow updates

Word count: 2,5k+

Songs: Meddle about-Chase Atlantic

Heartbeat-Childish Gambino

A/N: read the teaser first for some context

I'm not a big fan of one-night stands, but it happens when it happens. That's why I love waking up before the other person. I can snuck out without them noticing and I succeed this time too. The man, I don't even know the name of, was sleeping like a baby when I left his apartment. He was cute and the sex was better than I had expected from a one-night stand but that's it. When I got home, I first got under the shower. The memories of last night were blurry and I couldn't even make out what we talked about.

When I looked down my body I noticed the marks he had left on me. Purple tiny spots covered my breasts and stomach, and probably my neck too but I didn't even dare to look into the mirror because, from the start of the day, I knew that I looked as horrible as I felt.

My day wasn't fascinating.  The only thing I did was study for my upcoming exam and have mental breakdowns because I didn't understand shit. That's why I impatiently said yes when Carla asked me to go out with her and some university friends. She sent me the location of the restaurant they were meeting up and it was only 15 minutes from my apartment. I didn't put on anything too fancy. A pair of jeans combined with a strapless top. After getting my purse and jacket I made my way to the restaurant, hoping to loosen up a bit and stop thinking about my studies.

It's 9 pm when I reach the restaurant. For something in Gangnam, it looks a bit cheap but I don't mind it. As soon as I enter the building a familiar voice calls me. "y/n!" Carla's voice echoes through the whole restaurant while she waves at me. My feet start making their way to the huge table where a lot of people are sitting. Probably 16 I would say. Some faces are familiar and some are not but my mouth falls almost open when I see a particular face. It's him. The guy I spent the night with. Our gazes meet and he looks as confused as I do. I didn't know he goes to the same university as we do.

"omg, I'm so glad you made it. Hey guys" Carla shouts into the round "This is my friend Y/n" I cringe at the feeling of everyone staring at me even though I love to be the center of attention, but something makes it different this time. I mean who wouldn't be embarrassed when the guy you slept with and sneaked out of his house was staring? He was pissed. I could see it in his eyes, Who would have thought an action like this would hurt his ego? Okay, I get it, it was a bitchy move from me just to leave but isn't that what everyone does? Who the fuck wants to talk to their one-night stand on the next day after sobering up? Not me.

"you can sit here" Sungwoo and his little friend group interrupt my thoughts. I mentally roll my eyes but make my way to them because the other option doesn't sound so great either. Sitting beside the bunny guy isn't something I want to do. I don't have problems with meeting people I had sex with but this is too fresh. Literally. 24 hours ago I didn't even know about his existence and now I'm seeing him again after thinking that I won't ever see him again. Fuck my life, why does this always happen to me? I feel his eyes on my back as I walk to the guys.

"wow you look so different today, did you do something to your skin or get a new haircut?"

"Sungwoo I don't wanna fuck you so please shut your mouth if you want to continue talking shit," I say annoyed without even looking at him. Maybe Bunny Guy would have been a better option. Sungwoo didn't say a thing when his friends started to laugh about my comment. Idiots. I didn't pay attention to them. My eyes were fixed on him. He was talking to Namjoon, the son of my father's business partner. Why the fuck did everyone know him except me? Was I so focused on me and myself that I didn't notice someone like him?

"Hey, do you know that guy?" my words come almost out like a whisper. Cole looks at me confused "him?". He points at the Bunny Guy. "Yeah"

"Oh that's Jungkook"

"Jungkook?"

"Eh yes"

"Who is he?"

"He is the photography major guy" I look at him confused. "He takes photos?" Cole explains as if I was a bigger idiot than Sungwoo. "I know what photography is. But how does everybody know him except me?"

"I don't know"

"Wow you are a big help" I roll my eyes and continue staring at him. "Don't stare too much. He has a girlfriend" When Cole's voice reaches me my eyes widen and I turn to face him with a loud "What?". Maybe too loud, because some of the people turn their heads in our direction. I give myself an mental punch in the face because holy shit this is embarrassing.

I turn back toward Jungkook, now feeling a strange mix of irritation and confusion. A girlfriend? If he has a girlfriend, what the hell was he doing with me last night? I could feel my heart racing, anger bubbling up inside. For a moment, I debated storming over and confronting him right there in front of everyone. But then I remembered the last thing I wanted was more drama, especially in public. Instead, I forced myself to take a deep breath and let it go. Or at least, pretend to. I plaster a fake smile on my face, trying to shake off the weirdness of the situation.

Everyone, oblivious to the tension, were still talking to each other about something I couldn't care less about. I knew I wasn't going to enjoy this night. Not with Jungkook sitting there, looking like the world's biggest hypocrite. And yet, I couldn't help but glance at him every few minutes. His eyes met mine a few times, and I could see a mixture of emotions on his face anger, sadness, maybe even a little regret.

My mind kept racing. Maybe Cole was wrong. Maybe Jungkook didn't have a girlfriend. Or maybe they had broken up, and it wasn't as big of a deal as I was making it out to be. But I knew better than to get my hopes up. Guys like Jungkook good-looking, and confident usually had a line of girls waiting for their attention.

As I sipped my drink, trying to calm my nerves, Carla leaned over and whispered, "You okay? You seem a bit off." I forced another smile. "Yeah, just tired. Been studying all day." She nods, buying my excuse, and goes back to chatting with her friends. I tried to focus on the conversation at the table, but it was pointless. My mind keeps drifting back to last night, trying to piece together the blurry memories. The way he looked at me, the way he touched me, it didn't seem like something a guy with a girlfriend would do.

But who was I kidding? I wasn't some innocent victim here. I was the one who chose to sneak out without a word, who didn't even care enough to remember his name until tonight. Maybe this was just karma catching up with me.

As the evening dragged on, I found myself slipping further into my thoughts, barely engaging with anyone around me. I just wanted to get out of there, to go home and forget this ever happened. But I knew I couldn't run away this time. Not with Jungkook sitting there, a constant reminder of the mess I had gotten myself into.

I needed to get out of here, away from him, away from the confusion swirling in my mind. I get up and walk to Carla. "Gonna catch some fresh air" I whisper to her. She shows me a thumbs-up and continues talking to the others. I make my way out of the restaurant and start walking in some direction I didn't know where it would lead me.

"Hey!" I hear a male voice calling after me. Fuck. It's him. I turn around and my guess is confirmed. Jungkook stands there a few meters away from me. I give him a confused look, asking what he wants. He starts walking towards me but stops when there is a good distance between us. "Sneaking out like today morning?" Asshole. "I'm not sneaking out, just trynna get some fresh air".

"Did that in the morning too?" I try to not roll my eyes at his comment "Look I'm sorry, I didn't know you would act so fucking sensitive about it." Jungkook's eyes narrow slightly like he's trying to figure out whether or not I'm sorry. Spoiler alert: I'm not. But I guess he's not buying it. He steps closer, and I can feel the tension building between us.

"Sensitive?" He scoffs, crossing his arms. "You think I'm being sensitive because you bailed without saying anything?"

"Look, it wasn't personal," I say, trying to keep my voice even. "It was just... I don't know, easier that way."

"Easier for you," he counters, his tone sharp. "You don't think I might've wanted to talk? Maybe actually know the person I slept with?"

His words hit me harder than I expected. Maybe because, deep down, I know he's right. But I'm not about to admit that to him, or myself. So I shrug, trying to play it cool. "Honestly? No. I didn't think about it. I didn't think about you."

He flinches, just slightly, but I catch it. And for some reason, it stings. I was hoping he'd be pissed, maybe throw some snarky remark my way, but this... this is worse. He looks genuinely hurt. And that's when I start to feel like the asshole I've been trying to pretend I'm not.

"I don't regret walking out this morning. If  I knew you had a girlfriend I would have never slept with you." The words slip out before I can stop them, and his eyes widen.

"What?" His voice is low, almost a whisper. He looks around like he's making sure no one's overhearing our conversation. "Who told you that?"

"Does it matter?" I shoot back, crossing my arms. "You're the one who hooked up with me last night even though you already have someone. I hope she finds a guy that won't bullshit her like that"

Jungkook's face hardens, and for a second, I think he's going to walk away. But then he shakes his head. "I don't have a girlfriend"

My eyebrows shoot up in surprise. "You don't?"

"Yeah," he mutters, running a hand through his hair. "I hook up with this one chick but that's it. She's not my girlfriend or friend"

Complicated. Of course, it is. Isn't it always? I want to ask more, to figure out what the hell is going on, but something stops me. Maybe it's the look in his eyes, a mix of confusion and frustration, or maybe it's just the realization that I'm not sure I want to know.

"Okay," I say finally, my voice softer. "I get it."

He looks at me, searching my face for something maybe understanding, maybe just a sign that I'm not a total jerk. I don't know if he finds it, but after a moment, he sighs.

"Why did you leave like that?" he asks, his voice quieter now. "Was it really that bad?"

I hesitate the truth on the tip of my tongue. But instead, I offer him a small, rueful smile. "No, it wasn't bad. I just... I don't do the morning-after thing, okay? It's easier for me to leave before it gets awkward."

"Yeah," he says, and there's that look again like he's not sure if he should be angry or just let it go. "Well, next time, maybe just say goodbye." His last words linger in the air like a challenge, and I can't help but feel the sting. "Next time, maybe just say goodbye." Next time? Did he really think there'd be a next time? Or was he just messing with me?

"Sure," I mumble, more to myself than to him. I'm already regretting stepping outside, already feeling the walls closing in. I wasn't built for these lingering, unspoken feelings. My MO has always been simple: in and out, no strings, no attachments. But now, standing here with Jungkook, it's like the rules I live by are starting to crack. Jungkook's still watching me, his eyes softening just a bit, like he's trying to see through the layers I've carefully built up. It's unnerving like he's trying to figure me out, and I hate that. I hate how vulnerable it makes me feel.

"So...we're good?" He asks carefully with a sight smile. "Yeah," I nod and return the smile. "How about we start all over again, without this...thing?" Jungkook suggests making me a bit skeptical. "Sure" I respond unsure and he notices that. "I'm Jungkook" he reaches out his hand while my arms are still crossed.

"Really?"

"Yeah"

"Ugh I can't believe I'm really doing this" I give him my hand for a shake and say with a fake smile "I'm y/n". "nice to meet you y/n" a laugh escapes my mouth and not much long after he starts laughing too. "Okay, I think that's enough," I say still laughing and Jungkook responds with a "Fine".

***

We walk in silence til Jungkook starts talking again. "So I suppose that we are at the same university". I nod awkwardly. "Ehm which major are you?" "Art" my response is short and quick, not wanting to expose too much about myself. Jungkook makes an "o" form with his mouth and continues with "So we are in the same building". I don't say anything. There is a long silence between us. An awkward one before, again, Jungkook starts talking.

"Can I have your number?"

"my number?"

"yes"

"Uhm-" my phone interrupts the moment with it's vibrating. Carla's name is on the display and after giving Jungkook an apologetic look I bring the phone to my ear. "Hey, where are you?" she says clearly a bit drunk. "I'm still taking some fresh air. You okay?" "It's been already half an hour and yes I'm okay. By the way, did you see the tattooed guy by chance? Jungkook?" Carla talks a bit faster than usual, making me start to worry because usually, that means she is already at the point where she won't stop drinking.

"Yeah, he is standing next to me. We will be back in a few minutes, and Carls? Please don't drink so much" When the phone call ends Jungkook and I make our way back to the restaurant where our friends are. It only takes about 10 minutes til we're sitting in there again, getting bored by the things the people around us are saying. I catch Jungkooks eyes lingering on me, making me give him a soft smile. If I only knew what a mess this man would make in my life.

[punsmaster69]

NOV/6/20XX

6/NOV/20XX

ignore that.

just a bit tired, today.

it stopped raining sometime late yesterday, but i'm....

stuck inside. again.

guess collapsing sometime around eight and waking up at six doesn't exactly meet papyrus' expectations of a healthy brother.

couldn't imagine why.

——

.........

never thought i'd miss going outside so much.

though, i am allowed on the balcony, which is good enough for me.

gonna hang out there for a while.

——

extra cold outside after the rain. feels like it could snow soon.

i can almost hear the jingle bells already...

——

ok.

so.

...

it's sort of...childish.

stupid, even.

....

but, uh.

i snuck out.

papyrus doesn't know yet,

but he probably will in maybe.. twenty minutes.

that's about the frequency with which he was checking on me.

——

"Oh! Hello Sans! Are you feeling better today?"

"yep."

"I am glad to hear that."

"Please, come inside!"

"ok."

"...uh. heya, undyne."

"Hi...?"

"Me and her are having a chat over some pie. I'd be happy if you could join us."

——

"Would you like another slice, Undyne?"

"No thanks, Tori."

"Sans?"

"i'm ok."

"He's barely touched THAT slice!"

"Is it not to your liking, Sans?"

"the pie's good, but i.. had a lot, before i got here. not hungry, y'know?"

undyne stared at me like she could tell that wasn't right.

"Alright. I'll wrap it for you to take home."

"thanks, tori."

the silence was tense as undyne kept staring me down.

"Um... Would you two like to watch a movie?"

i looked away from undyne.

"sure."

"..Yeah. Let's."

——

"can we turn off the lights?"

"How come?"

"...better for ambience."

still, glaring from undyne.

"Well, alright."

——

we didn't get far into the movie.

"Sans."

"undyne."

"Aren't you sick again or something? Why are you here?!"

"He says he is feeling better."

"BULLSHIT."

undyne slammed her fist against the couch arm.

"He's always saying that!"

"Tori, you saw how he was just the other day!!"

"He's LYING!!!"

the look on tori's face said she wanted to take my side, but knew undyne was probably right.

can't blame her, at this point.

"...Sans, you are not lying again, are you?"

"........"

"What did I say?!"

"Sans, WHY?"

"..Even I am uncertain of your reasons, now."

"We already know you are sick."

"Why would you do this...?"

"To yourself especially, dude."

"I know what it's like to push yourself to the limit."

"But, I'm gonna be honest, Sans."

"You aren't as strong as me. You can't take as much of that pushing."

of course.

the best possible timing for this to get worse, is now, obviously.

can't even hide it.

"Sans?! Are you alright? Come on, let's get you off the floor."

"i just need a minute. i'll be-"

"STOP WITH THAT ALREADY!!"

"ok, ok."

"st-stop yelling, at least."

"hurts."

suddenly, both of their phones were blowing up.

the sinking feeling i got from it was quickly justified.

"........."

"Sans."

"..yeah?"

undyne picked me up by my hood.

"You're going home. RIGHT NOW."

"It is for the best if you do."

——

"...."

"can't change your mind, can i?"

"No."

"Why would you do this, anyway?!"

"You're a dumbass, Sans."

"i know."

"You're gonna REALLY hurt yourself, at this rate!"

"....."

"I'm still not even sure WHY you do this."

"......."

"...Sans?"

"God, how can you even begin to insist you're okay when THIS is a common occurrence??"

she picked up the pace.

——

"..REALLY, SANS?"

"SNEAKING OUT... I REALLY THOUGHT YOU HAD STOPPED DOING THAT FOR GOOD."

"WHY IS IT ALWAYS WHEN YOU'RE AT YOUR WORST, YOU HIDE SO MUCH MORE?"

i'm sorry.

"I JUST DON'T GET IT."

"ARE YOU STILL TRYING NOT TO WORRY US?"

"BECAUSE IT'S... DEFINITELY TOO LATE FOR THAT."

please don't.

"......"

"ONE DAY... I HOPE YOU'LL TRUST ME ENOUGH TO TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG IMMEDIATELY."

"...I HOPE I... CAN BECOME A BETTER BROTHER."

"A YOUNGER BROTHER YOU REALLY RELY ON."

"i do."

"Y-YOU'RE AWAKE?"

"....."

"BUT YOU DON'T."

"i trust you more than anyone."

"THEN WHY DO YOU STILL COVER AND HIDE THINGS FROM ME?"

"...i want to rely on you for this."

"i really do."

"WHY WON'T YOU?!"

"if i... break our promise."

"you can't-"

"YOU AREN'T GOING TO."

"paps.."

"I'M NOT LETTING YOU!"

"i know you can be okay without me."

"DON'T TALK LIKE THIS!"

"it's-"

"PLEASE."

"....."

"i'm sorry. let's talk about something else, alright?"

"......."

"WHY DO YOU SEEM SO SURE THAT YOU'LL.. DIE?"

really can't tell you.

"...just paranoid."

"it's scary, you know?"

"THEN LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU!"

"you do."

"NOT JUST WHEN YOU'RE ALREADY COLLAPSED SOMEWHERE, SANS!"

"ALL THE TIME. I WANT YOU TO SAY SOMETHING AS SOON AS YOU'RE HURTING."

"....."

just for the night.

"everything hurts right now."

"especially my head."

"and i'm so... so tired."

papyrus promptly stood up. he grabbed and shook the pill bottle that holds the migraine meds.

"...HAVE TO GET MORE SOON."

"TAKE TWO. I'LL GET YOU SOME WATER."

"ALRIGHT, HERE. I'LL GET THE LIGHTS."

"THERE."

in the dark, i could see him sit on the end of the couch.

"not goin' to bed?"

"I'D RATHER BE WHERE YOU ARE."

"EASIER TO KEEP AN EYE ON YOU THIS WAY."

"AND...AFTER WHAT YOU PULLED TODAY, I'M ESPECIALLY GOING TO."

"sorry."

"IT'S FINE. JUST, NO MORE DANGEROUS THINGS LIKE CLIMBING OFF THE BALCONY! GOT IT?"

"got it."