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chixibrown · 4 years ago

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Upon finishing the Stardew Valley comic

Since the Stardew Valley comic has been released by Fangamer, I am now able to write about what I had been doing in secret for one long year.

■ Gratitude

First of all, to the original creator Eric-san who entrusted the task in my hands, to Kari-san who helped me from early development all the way to printing, to Ryan-san, to Steven-san who did the translations, to Kari-san's mother who assisted in the creation of the envelope, to Erica-san for product photography -- And last but not least, everyone at Fangamer and FangamerJP.

It's thanks to the support of many people that I was able to finish the comic, and I wish to extend my sincerest gratitude towards everyone involved.

■ Chronology

"Chihiro! Big News! Let's create a new merch together!" was a request that I received around autumn of 2018. At first I was wondering if I was going to be asked to design a T-shirt, but turned out to be an invitation to draw a comic book!

At that time, I was posting comics on Twitter at random. Not even in my wildest dreams have I thought that my little comics would be appreciated so, and thus I immediately burst into tears.

I'm very honored and thankful for the opportunity to pen Fangamer's very first comic.

■ Contents

I'll try not to spoil anything about the story in this section.

The content requested by the original creator Eric-san for the comic was: "The story before the farmer comes to the farm" "With focus on the community center and Joja" "And the protagonist should have no set characteristics"

These were really the ONLY information that we received from Eric-san throughout the whole process (whyyy).

I was definitely worried. In reality, for around six months when I did my preliminary research, I played Stardew Valley every day, took countless pictures, and absorbed myself in collecting materials.

I I ended up taking a little over 20 thousand screenshots total (lol).

I wholeheartedly agree with Eric-san's guideline not to give the protagonist any set characteristics. I think one of the keypoints of this game is that "Anyone can be the protagonist".

The story is set from a few years before the prologue of game, so I was rather careful not to show my own personal interpretation. In principle, the actions of the characters were mostly taken from their in-game dialogue where they mention having done something in the past (For example, the reason Sam got in trouble lmao).

It took a lot of effort outlining the story, which involved things such as "Which characters would be in contact with each other?" and "Which characters may not be present at the valley at the time?". This is the reason why the preliminary research took around six months.

By the way, I was the one who proposed to include a "letter" with the comic, both as a bonus and major spoiler, in a way. But uh, many fellow Japanese may not be able to read it, so... I'll secretly tell you the what's actually written on the letter:

It's the handwritten version of THE letter you receive in the English version of the game's prologue. It's in your hands now. So in conclusion, it's probably exactly what you think it was.

I was quite adamant about how the letter needs to be handwritten. And as who wrote it... I shall keep it a secret here.

The reason why the comic had little to no dialogue is because it was the style I had back from the time I was drawing Stardew Valley fan art. Since Stardew Valley is a media not originally from Japan, that style serves to fulfill my two wishes: "I want people all over the world to be able to read my work" and "I want to cherish the feelings of each individual player" -- That sort of idea, really.

To summarize,

"I want people all over the world to be able to read my work"

"I want to preserve the unique interpretations each individual player might have"

"Anyone can become a Stardew Valley protagonist"

I drew the comic with these concepts in mind.

■ About me

I would like to talk about my experiences throughout the development of the comic.

My name is Chihiro Sakaida (a.k.a. Brown Junimo), I was already working for a game company, so I took advantage of that experience to work on game design and illustration.

Of course, while I was working on the Stardew Valley comic, I was a freelancer and had other jobs to worry about as well, so I ended up spending a lot of time working on the comic at night after work. I also studied digital art for a month for the sake of the comic, and I think it helped improved my work efficiency.

Those were truly, very fun days for me. The only thing that did bother me was the fact that even though I was working on my favorite Stardew Valley content day after day, I couldn't really share it with anyone.

I didn't want to take the risk of accidentally running my mouth on Twitter, and I no longer had the time to draw and post online like I used to -- So I had to resort to posting only low-risk tweets, so to speak, and to be honest, it was quite disheartening.

As such, I felt truly supported by the trusted individuals who knew about the comic. Tori-san, Aki-san, Kari-san, and Ryan-san, thank you so, so much.

■ Those who supported me

Tori-san is my partner, and also a person I respect as a novelist and screenwriter. She kindly and carefully reviewed and summarized my messy story.

Aki-san knew about the comic existed, but also knew next to nothing about it. Because of that, I think it was more than a handful to support me. It must've been really hard on Aki-san, who didn't know the contents of the book and thus had no way to accidentally spoiling the surprise, but whom also probably held even more feelings of shame than I did in regards to social media... I'm sorry that you've had to put up with so much. I was very proud to have you be the first reader of the finished book.

Kari-san is the illustrator of the Official Stardew Valley Guide Book, and I respect her a whole lot.

Both her work are her personality are very kind and easy-going. Together with her partner Ryan-san, she's managed to assist and encourage me many, many times.

No matter what I drew, I was sure to be greeted with her "Chihiro, you're so great!" or "Chihiro, you really did your best!" (Even my own mother have never praise me this much!) Overall, she feels just like an older sister I've always longed for, and it makes me very happy.

No matter what merch was in the process of being created, she would say "Let's make a brown one!!", solely because it's my signature color. It makes me very happy, although probably a tiny bit embarrassed as well to have her value my one schtick this much. She's even came to Japan many times, and listened to me talk all day long. After all, I wouldn't have been able to get this job to begin with if it wasn't for Kari-san, so she's a real lifesaver.

I didn't get to talk directly with Eric-san, the original creator and developer of Stardew Valley. Obviously I received some feedback via Fangamer, but I was refraining from being in contact with him as much as possible. I didn't think I could convey my full sincerity towards him before the comic was completed. I strived to be able to earnestly understand the feelings he wanted to convey via his own words -- Whether it was the game dialogues, his words on the developer blog and interviews, etc.

There was, by the way, no revision whatsoever to the comic. Eric-san did, however, carefully check all of my ideas and always provided words of appreciation; which made me happier than anything else. Those words became my motivation to live, in a sense, which in turn allowed me to freely and happily work on the comic.

■ Going Forward

While I've been talking about how proud I am to have finished the comic, I also would like to talk about what's coming next. While I certainly plan to continue working with Fangamer for the foreseeable future, at the same time, I have also decided to work for another game development company, and I plan to devote my time working on game development for at least the next year.

It has been my dream for the past 15 years to work for this particular company, and I'm elated to see it come true.

However, as a result I think I will have less exposure to social media. I don't think it's going to be easy to recreate that warm and wondrous time where I could interact with people regularly, but my memory of that time is something I will treasure for the rest of my life.

I'm really sorry that I have absolutely nothing to give back, but I sincerely hope the comic has brought a smile to everyone who's read or even merely noticed it.

■ Finally

I'm such a fortunate person -- I've come this far due to everyone's support, and for that, I would also like to extend my deepest gratitude. Thank you so much, for everything, always.

It would delight me if all of you could stay with me from this point on.

As I try to polish my skills and improve myself as a whole.

PS: Thanks to my best friend Ryou-chan for translating this!

#stardew valley

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writingsforfandoms-multi · 5 years ago

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break up and make up | jamie benn

a.n: this is my first nhl imagine so please be nice lol

warnings: insecure reader, smut

you knew getting into a relationship with an athlete would be hard, especially regarding the fans. the fans loved jamie and katie and were heartbroken when they broke up. jamie was single for about 2 years before he met you.

you knew you shouldn’t care what people were saying about you, but it was hard. you knew you shouldn’t have looked at the comments, but you did.

it was hard to ignore the fact that people were comparing you to katie, jamie’s ex girlfriend.

it was too much for you. it was hard when people were nitpicking all the ways katie was better than you, prettier than you. It was starting to affect your mental health.

the breakup was hard. Jamie didn’t understand why you didn’t want him anymore. you gave him a shitty excuse for wanting time apart which he definitely didn’t believe and definitely didn’t deserve

jamie was miserable. you were miserable. you were both a mess.

even though they reached out, you stopped talking with the girlfriends and wives of the other players. tyler was persistent though. it was just texting and calling until tyler actually came to your apartment.

“Listen I know you don’t wanna talk, but jam-“ he stops when he takes in your appearance. “you both look like shit”

you let out a little laugh, “gee thanks”

after a few moments you ask tentatively, “how is he?”

“terrible. y/n i’ve never seen him like this before, not even when he broke up with katie” he says

you felt a pang in your heart.

you and tyler talked for a few more minutes before he left, but not before saying you should talk to jamie.

you didn’t know it, but tyler had mentioned your poor appearance to jamie which motivated him to go to your apartment and talk to you.

you hear a knock on your door and peer through the peephole.

oh fuck

jamie waits a minute before he rests his head on the door, “i know you’re in there, i just want to talk”

“please” he says quietly

you take a deep breath and open the door. he looks like he’s lost so much weight in the last few weeks since the breakup and he has deep bags under his eyes which were red from crying

“hi” you mumble

“hey” he breathes

you look at each other for a few more minutes before you move off to the side, “come in”

he comes in and goes sit on the couch in front of the tv, you sit on the recliner off to the side.

“why did you break up with me? and don’t give that ‘i just wanted space’ excuse” he says, getting straight to the point

you stay quiet, “was it something I did?” he questions

“no it definitely wasn’t you” you shake your head

“then what was it? because honestly i’m at a lost here. i thought everything was going great” he says, confused.

“it was, for a while” you say quietly.

you fumble with your bracket, “I couldn’t handle being compared to katie anymore” you whisper

“who’s comparing you to katie?”

“seems like the whole internet is” you scoff. “it wasn’t good for me jamie, my self esteem hit rock bottom and It wasn’t good for me mentally either”

“why didn’t you talk to me about it?” he says.

“I was embarrassed” you mumble, “and at first i didn’t pay attention to all the comments so it didn’t affect me as much, but it eventually did” you also felt like he’d think you were weak

“be honest, are you happier now that we aren’t together?” if that was the case, he’d leave you alone

you shake your head, “no, the past few weeks have been hell without you”

he gets up from his seat and goes to crouch down in front of you, he takes your hand in his, “the last few weeks without you have been so hard for me, I miss you”

“i miss you too, i’m sorry for the way I handled it. breaking up with you wasn’t the answer to the problem” you sigh as you rest your head on his shoulder.

“where do we go from here?” he says

“do you forgive me?” you ask.

“of course I do, I understand how hard it can be being in the spotlight, but I wish you would have talked to me about it” he says as he plays with your fingers

“i know, i’m sorry” you stand up and jamie gets up with you.

you give him a big hug and nuzzle your head into his chest, damn you missed his hugs.

“do you still love me?” he says quietly

“i never stopped” you say and with that he leans down and crashes his lips onto yours

his hands go down to below your ass and he lifts you up so you wrap your legs around his waist.

he makes his way to the bedroom, his lips never leaving yours until he drops you on the bed, “is this okay?” he makes sure

“yes” you say as you lift his shirt off and work on bringing down his joggers.

after he gets you undressed and puts on a condom, he hovers over you and pushes in. he’s slow at first and all that can be heard is your light moans and his heavy breathing.

he holds one of your hands beside your head, takes you chin in the other and tilts you to the side so your neck is exposed. he leaves marks in his wake down your neck and breasts as he continues to thrust slowly into you.

“look at me” he says softly as he tilts your chin to face him, “promise you won’t leave me again” he says

“I promise” you breathe, “i’m yours”

this is the assurance he needs before he’s thrusting harder and faster into you. he squeezes your hand that’s still in his beside your head and the intimacy only makes you feel more connected to him. his other hand went from your chin to lightly grasp your throat, “I love you” he says with a look in eyes that show how much he really missed you.

“I love you” you say as your hand that’s not in his goes to his back

moans, groans, and kisses later, you clench around him while he comes. he stays inside you for a few minutes afterwards, his head in your neck leaving kisses.

after he pulls out, he goes throw the condom away and comes back to the bed and takes you in his arms.

you curl into his chest and bring one of your hands to cup his face, “i’m sorry I was such an idiot”

he takes your hand and kisses it, “stop apologizing, I understand, but next time just talk to me about it”

you nod in agreement.

he doesn’t let you leave his arms for the next few days, not wanting to be away from anymore than he already has.

#jamie benn #jamie benn x reader #jamie benn imagine #nhl imagine #dallas stars imagine #hockey imagines #nhl fic #nhl x reader #not requested

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benhardyisdaddy · 5 years ago

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forgive and forget

MASTERLIST

(omg this is so long im sorry lol but i hope yall enjoy the angst upon angst!!!! hope that everyone that requested this likes it!!)

Description: famous!y/n cheats on Rog and her life spirals from there

Word Count: 6k+

RogerxReader

WARNING: implied smut, cheating, drug use, addiction, angst upon angst

Being introduced to Roger Taylor had changed your life for the better - or so you thought at first. You were just becoming a name in the music industry when you met him at an award ceremony. It was your first big public appearance, seeing as not everyone quite knew your name yet. You had made sure to get all dolled up and to look your best as you flaunted around that red carpet. Cameras were flashing as you and your best friend, Jess, the guitar player for your band, gave your best smiles and giggled the whole time.

It was a dream come true to you as journalists kept walking up and asking for interviews. You had been in the middle of one when you felt a slight tap on your shoulder. Jess turned her head before you and her eyes went wide. You watched her expression as you turned around nervously. You were not expecting the Roger Taylor to be smiling at you with a drink in his hand and a cigarette in the other. His eyes were warm as he looked between you and Jess, almost admiringly.

“Sorry for interrupting,” he mumbled as he looks to the man who was interviewing you.

The guy looked almost as shocked and starstruck as the two of you. He shook his head fast and nervously laughed as he held his hands up in defense.

“Oh, not at all, Mr. Taylor.” he stumbles his words as he backs away, still in shock.

You bite your bottom lip in an attempt to not laugh at the flustered man, but that’s exactly how you were feeling as well - flustered. The most well known man in the biggest band ever was standing in front of you with the most genuine smile you had ever seen. You were beside yourself, as was Jess.

“I just wanted to say congratulations on your success. If I’m being honest,” he drops his voice and leans in closer to you. “I think you should be getting more recognition than you are. Your talents are way above all of the mediocre lip singers here.”

You weren’t sure what to say, but you knew you needed to say something. Anything. Stop staring at him like that. Close your mouth. Are you seriously about to drool? You’re staring into his eyes for too long. Those big, beautiful blue eyes… You shake your head and laugh slightly as you get your thoughts together.

“Wow,” you say fast, causing Jess to nod her head. “That means so much coming from you, Mr. Taylor. Jess and I are the biggest fans of Queen. We actually drew a lot of inspiration from you all. I love you,” you pause when you realize what you had just said as your eyes go wide. “Your drumming. I love your drumming. You’re amazing. All of you are. I’m talking too much, aren’t I?”

You nervously laugh as Jess continues to swoon over him. Roger laughs as his tongue slides between his teeth. You fight the urge to instantly groan at the sight of it.

“Well, thank you so much. It’s always nice to know that amazing talent enjoys your work.” he smiles with a wink. “Are you ladies staying for the after party? I’d be more than happy to introduce you to some people here. That is, if you want.”

“Yes!” says Jess a little too loud.

You look to her with eyes that read ‘be cool’. Roger just smiles as you look back to him and giddily nod.

“That would be more than amazing. Thank you so much, Mr. Taylor.”

Roger takes a sip of his drink as he takes a step back, his eyes still on you.

“I’ll keep an eye out for you when the show’s over. Everyone will love you. And please, call me Roger.” he calls out as he gets lost in the busy crowd.

You and Jess slowly look to each other with the biggest grin on your faces. You both squeal as you take her hands and have a small moment to freak out. Did that really just happen? Did that really just happen? You were so excited for the award show, but now you’re even more excited for what’s to come after it. You want it to go by fast and thankfully, it did.

***

A tall glass of champagne was perched in your hand as you and Jess were stood near the back of the room. Familiar faces were all around you and you were sure that you might literally pass out. You sip your drink as your eyes scan the crowd, in search of Roger.

“Alright,” starts Jess, trying to calm herself down. “This is big for us. I’m not sure exactly what’s happening, but I feel like I’m dreaming. Am I dreaming? Pinch me.”

She holds out her arm for you and without second guessing, you quickly pinch her. She hisses for a moment and rubs the sore spot before a big smile forms on her face.

“Okay, not dreaming! Oh my god,” she whispers over and over again.

“Jess,” you say as you grab another glass of champagne from a waiter passing by. “You need to drink this. I’ve had like four now and I feel calm.”

The moment the words slip from your mouth, you see him. Roger’s walking through the crowd as women from all angles try to get his attention. He’s smiling sweetly to them as he attempts to walk through the crowd and towards you. He looks up just halfway through and instantly spots you. He smiles and holds up a finger, telling you to wait one moment. You look to Jess and your face falls.

“I need more drinks. I’m not calm. I’m not calm.”

“Ladies,” you hear someone say.

You turn around and there he is, once again in front of you with a smile to die for.

“Enjoying yourselves?”

You both nod as you hold the glass tightly in your hand.

“So much.” you say fast.

“I have someone I’d like for you to meet. He works for one of the largest recording studio in the states. Shall we?” he asks, holding his arm out for you.

Your heart lurches forward as you smile and wrap your arm around his. He leads the way as you both follow. For the rest of the night, Roger is by your side as he introduces you to the most well known people in the music industry. Jess was right, you think you’re dreaming. Roger couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. You all laughed and drank and drank some more. When the after party had finished, you had a signed contract with the biggest music producer in the nation. It was as if you were seeing stars and you had Roger to thank for it all.

Roger insisted that you two girls should be driven in style back to your hotel. He ordered a large limo and you couldn’t believe it. Paparazzi were everywhere as their cameras flashed like crazy. They were calling out Roger’s name as he opened the door for you two and you quickly slid in. You couldn’t help but smile the whole ride. When you arrived at your hotel, you found enough courage to speak up to him as Jess exited the limo.

“Would you like to come up?” you ask fast. “I have some more drinks if you’d like. Maybe possibly order room service? I’m starved.”

Roger stares at you with soft eyes as he smiles and nods.

“I’d love that.”

The two of you exit the limo and make your way upstairs, but not before Roger had signed a few autographs and took a few pictures. You said goodnight to Jess as she goes to her separate room. Once inside yours, you discard your coat and slip off your heels. You walk to the mini bar and pull out a tiny bottle of vodka and frown.

“This is all I have.” you sadly say, causing Roger to laugh.

He walks up to you and pauses when he’s just inches away. Your whole body freezes as you stare up at him, his eyes scanning every inch of your body. Breathing became difficult when his hand reached up and gently moved some hair behind your ear.

“There’s something different about you than all of those other girls tonight. Something… Genuine.”

You smile as you feel your cheeks flush red hot.

“I like genuine.” you whisper to him.

He stares at you for a second longer before whispering as well.

“Can I kiss you?”

Your smile slightly falls as you stare into his eyes. Your stomach was in tangles as he glances down at your glossed lips and licks his own. You slowly nod which causes him to smile more. He leans in and pauses just for a moment, his lips barely touching yours. You’re breathing fast as he leans in and kisses you. It starts out as a slow, soft kiss. His lips just lingering on yours, but before you know it, the kiss is sped up and hot.

His tongue is exploring your mouth as his hands do the same with your body. Your movement is rushed as your dress slips off and so does his shirt. One moment you're standing up with your your hands in his hair and the next moment you’re laying on the bed with his head between your legs. Pure ecstasy is the only thing you can think. The whole night consisted of you both in bed and making the most animalistic noises. This was the beginning of the end.

***

Two Months Later

***

You never could have envisioned your stardom shooting off this fast. You were now on the cover of every magazine and everyone officially knew your name. You had to hire bodyguards to escort you wherever you and Jess went. You couldn’t go to the grocery store without paparazzi and fans screaming at you and demanding autographs. It was everything you could have wanted and you had Roger to thank for that. The record deal he got for you was what did it. In the short amount of time you’ve been with the company, you already recorded and released a new album that’s number one on the charts. It was amazing to you. To make it even better, you and Roger had been spending almost every day together since that night at the party. You couldn’t be happier.

“You’re so beautiful.” mumbles Roger as the two of you lay in bed.

You have the sheets wrapped around your naked bodies as you face him, out of breath from your previous activities.

“Shush.” you tease him, your cheeks turning red.

“No, I’m serious. Even when you’re all fucked out,” he winks as he pulls you closer to him, making you giggle. “You’re still absolutely breathtaking. It should be illegal.”

You lean in and kiss him gently, your hand grazing over his neck.

“You sure know how to flatter a girl.” you whisper.

“I sure know how to do a lot of things to a girl.” he purrs as he quickly hovers over you and makes you squeal.

***

One Month Later

***

You found yourself at a party for the first time without Roger or Jess. You had been invited by a mutual friend and were nervous. You were practically alone as you walk through the huge and crowded house, looking for another drink. People keep staring at you with giddy expressions as you pass by them. Now it was them being starstruck over you. You were tipsy beyond belief when you find another drink and sit down on a couch with people all around. You aren’t sure what they’re doing, but you try to join in on the conversation. Someone sits next to you and it’s a good looking guy with a smile on his face.

“Hi.” he says loudly over the music.

“Hi.” you say back.

“I’m Sam.” he says holding his hand out for you to shake.

“I’m-”

“Oh, I know who you are, y/n y/l/n. I think everyone here does. It’s nice to meet you.”

You smile and look down at your drink.

“You as well.”

“You want some?” he asks, looking down at the coffee table.

You were too drunk to understand what he was talking about.

“Want what?”

“This.” he says as he drops to his knees in front of the table.

You look down and realize what he’s saying. A bunch of white powder is on the table and in perfect long lines. You raise a brow and watch as he presses the side of his nose closed and sniffs the powder up in a second. You know exactly what it is.

“Uh, I’m okay, but thanks. Never done that before.”

“Everyone in Hollywood does it ya know.” he tells you, his pupils getting larger and larger. “It’s good for a stress reliever and trust me, you look stressed. You should at least try it once. Make an opinion off of that.”

You’ve never been one to give in to peer pressure. You look around cautiously as you watch everyone in the room leaned down and do exactly what he had just did. They all looked fine, right? You shrug and awkwardly smile as you drop to your knees beside him and stare down at it.

“Here,” he says giving you a thin, tiny line. “You only need this much for your first time.”

You swallow hard as you mimic his actions and hold down your nose, lean forward and sniff hard. You squeeze your eyes closed as it burns for a moment, making you cough. The guy laughs and cheers as you lean back and instantly feel the effect of the drug. You felt weightless and different. You can’t help but laugh as he sits with you.

“You okay?” he asks.

You lean your head against the couch and smile.

“I’m okay.”

You look back over to him and suddenly he’s leaning forward in an attempt to kiss you. You reach your hand out and stop him fast.

“Sam,” you say, hoping that was his name. “I’m with somebody.”

Sam just sadly smiles and leans away.

“All the pretty ones are.”

***

One Month Later

***

Four months into your stardom and it’s not dying down yet. You’re the hot topic on every show and magazine still. People can’t get enough of you, especially Roger. Every night you find yourself in his bed and feeling like you’re on cloud nine. That is, until Jess brought something up.

“So, you and Roger,” she starts as she hands you a cup of coffee. “What are you two exactly? You’re always spending time together.”

You take a sip and smile at her question.

“I’m not sure actually. We haven’t really discussed anything yet. He likes me and I like him.”

Jess nods her head as she looks away, her face hard to read. Something was wrong and you can feel it.

“What is it?” you ask fast.

She looks back to you and her eyes are almost sad.

“There’s pictures.”

Your body freezes as your heart drops. You sit your cup down fast in fear that you might drop it.

“Pictures?” you ask, your voice whispered.

Jess pulls out a magazine and searches for a specific page. She hands it to you slowly.

“I wasn’t going to say anything, but what kind of best friend wouldn’t? I had to.”

You scan over photos of Roger and a beautiful blonde. They were seen leaving a fancy restaurant together, his hand on her back. They’re both laughing as they’re seen getting into a limo together. A limo. Just like that night you met him. You tense your jaw as you throw the magazine on the table and stand up fast. Rage filled you as you rush towards your keys and purse.

“Where are you going?” Jess asks worried.

“Here I am thinking we might actually be something, but clearly we’re not. I’m just a good shag when he needs it.”

You rush through Jess’s house and slam the door behind you. You were angry. Beyond angry. Why would he go out with a girl? Is it normal you’re this jealous? He led you on and that makes your blood boil.

“Alright, Roger Taylor,” you say to yourself as you get in your car. “Two can play at this game.”

You know exactly where and who to go to. You had to make a few calls to some friends, but you found it. You drive for what seems like forever, but you’re finally there. You rush up the steps and knock on the door. You hear footsteps and it opens.

“Y/n?”

“Hi, Sam.”

“What are you doing here?”

“Do you have any more?” you ask.

He instantly knows what you’re referring to. A smirk fills his face as he opens his door up all the way. You smile and walk inside with Roger on your mind, but soon, he won’t be.

***

One Day Later

***

You wake up and you’re in bed with the worst migraine you’ve ever had. Your mouth was completely dry as you move around and wince. Last night was insane. You know for a fact you ended up in bed with Sam and called a cab to take you home. You’d feel more guilty if it hadn’t of been for Roger with that blonde. You’re still laying in bed when suddenly there’s a loud banging at your front door. You sit up fast, half scared by the sudden noise. The banging continues as you get up and throw a robe on. You rush downstairs and towards it.

“I know you’re in there, y/n! Answer the door!”

It’s Roger. You freeze and your heart’s pounding. You remember how angry you were at him. You throw open the door and stare at a wild eyed Roger, his face red. He’s practically growling as he storms past you and inside. He turns around fast to face you, a magazine in his hand.

“What the bloody hell is this?” he asks, holding up the cover.

It was a compilation of pictures of you and Sam from the night before. One shows Sam with his tongue down your throat, another shows the two of you wrapped in each other’s arms at a club, and another shows you straddling him inside of his car. You held your head high as you cross your arms.

“Oh, does seeing me with someone else make you mad?” you ask sarcastically.

Roger’s face falls. He takes a step back, shocked by your attitude towards this.

“Of- Of course it does. Why would you think it wouldn’t?”

“Oh, I’m not sure, Roger. Maybe because I saw the pictures of you and that blonde the other day.”

He shakes his head and closes his eyes confused.

“What the hell are you talking about?”

“Fancy dinner. Limo. A blonde. Ringing a bell? Jess showed me the magazine that they were all plastered over!”

Roger places his hands over his face and sighs.

“Do you remember me telling you that my sister was coming to town?” he asks.

Your smirk falls.

“Yes… Next week you said.”

“No!” says Rog, taking a step towards you. “No! This week! She was here this week, y/n! You and Jess were at meetings all day, so I took her out to dinner! My sister!”

Your heart was completely shattered.

“Oh my god…” you whisper.

“Yeah, oh my god.”

“Roger, I-”

“You really thought I’d cheat on you?” he asks sadly.

“Is it cheating though? I don’t even know what we are!” you shout.

“Am I that bad at showing my love for you?” he asks, his voice a whisper.

“Love?” you ask, your voice tiny.

“Yes, love. I love you. In my head, we were already together. I didn’t think I needed to make a signed contract that told you that. I assumed you would’ve known and then you go and do this…”

He turns his head and sighs, his eyes glossy. Tears spill down your face and you don’t even know what to say.

“Did you sleep with him?” he asks, looking back to you.

“What?” you ask, not wanting to answer.

“Did you sleep with him?”

His voice is barely audible as you stare at him with sorry eyes. You saying nothing at all was you saying everything at once. He knew right away. He almost gasps as he turns around from you.

“Roger, I’m so sorry! I was so stupid! I jumped to a conclusion so fast and I’m so sorry, but don’t act like you’ve never done this before.”

He turns around fast with a hurt expression.

“I’ve never done this to someone I loved. There’s a big difference. Yeah, I’ve made mistakes that I’m not proud of, but you… You’ve actually destroyed my heart.” he says softly, destroying yours as well.

“I’m sorry.” you cry out.

He just stands there looking like a lost little boy. He nods his head and wipes his eyes.

“Yeah, me too.”

He walks around you and to your front door.

“Roger, please don’t go! Please! I can fix this. I didn’t realize everything! Please!”

“Remember when I told you that I thought you were different than any other girl?” he asks as a tear runs down his cheek. “You should quit music and become an actress. You’re good at it.”

And with that, he shuts the door behind him. You’re left there with your broken heart and tears. You fall to your knees as your legs give out. You sob loudly and harshly for what seems like hours. You were curled into a ball and calling out Roger’s name, hoping he would hear you and run back to you, but he didn’t. He was gone and it was all your fault. Stupid, stupid girl!

You were still on the floor when there’s another rushed knock at your door. It was now dark and you haven’t moved since this morning. You hear Jess call out as she knocks once more and then uses a key to get in. She spots you and is instantly by your side. She props your head up as you begin sobbing once more.

“It’s alright.” she whispers.

“He’s gone!” you cry. “It’s all my fault! He said he loved me! He loved me!”

Jess runs her hand through your hair soothingly as she tries to comfort you.

“Let’s get you in bed, okay?”

She helps you stand up and leads you upstairs. You fall into bed as she pulls the covers over you. She slides in next to you and just holds you as you sob and finally drift to sleep. She knows this is going to be hard for you, but she didn’t realize how you’d cope with it.

***

5 Months Later

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Five whole months since Roger left and you haven’t seen him since. Well, you’ve seen him on TV and in magazines, but not in real life. He was out of your life and it was actually killing you. The pain you feel in your heart hurts so bad, you thought it would stop. It ached and ached and you needed something to numb that ache. That’s when you decided to put a pause on your music and focus on trying to rid Roger from your thoughts. Jess tried to help you, but you were a lost cause. She couldn’t watch her best friend destroy herself. You stopped caring. About yourself, your friends, your career, everyone. You only cared about one thing and one thing only.

It was a typical night that you were used to now. You were at a nightclub and surrounded by people you barely know. You consider them friends, all because they supplied you with one thing. You were high the moment you stepped into the building and you loved it because, for just a while, you didn’t think of Roger.

Your crazy and reckless ways were getting noticed by the public. Articles about your health had spread like wildfire. Calls from your worried friends and family were ignored as you send them to voicemail. You didn’t care what anyone thought of you, not even yourself. You didn’t care that paparazzi followed you like never before. You didn’t care that they’d sneak into the clubs you went to and photograph you doing god-knows-what.

You’ve seen yourself in magazines with white powder all over your nose and a man’s tongue down your throat. You just didn’t care. You were spiraling out of control and were too scared to make it stop - that meant having to deal with what you did to Roger and you could never forgive yourself. You lost the one important thing in your life all because you were selfish and jealous. You were angry at yourself and this was your way to deal with it. A self destructive way.

Y/n Y/l/n Seen With Mystery Man

Friends and Family Worried About Y/n Y/l/n’s Drug Problem

Y/n Y/l/n Looking Too Thin and Sick After Breakup With Queen Drummer, Roger Taylor

Heartbreak Does Not Look Good on Y/n Y/l/n

So many headlines for what you’re going through. You just brush them off and could care less. You already lost Roger, what else could you lose? You had been at the nightclub for about an hour now. Your pupils were huge as you slurred and stumbled around. A guy had his hand on your lower back as he whispered in your ear about going to the bathroom with him. You giggled against him and nodded your head as you bite your lip. You didn’t even know his name, but did that matter to you? No. The only name you’d be moaning out is Roger, who, without knowing, had just entered the club.

He was unaware that you would be there. He’s seen the tabloids of you and it broke his heart. He had tried to get a hold of you multiple times to make sure you were okay, but you never answered. He went by to check on you at your house, but you had moved. You got rid of every single thing that reminded you of him. Your relationship might not have been long, but it meant more than anything. The boys had told Rog he needed a night out with them to clear his head. The breakup did a number on him as well. He didn’t focus on his music like he used to. His drumming had become sloppy and he couldn’t sleep anymore. He finally gave in to their pleading and came here.

When he walked into the building, several beautiful girls swarmed around him, but he politely turned them down. He didn’t want anyone else. He had went to get a drink and was waiting while he glanced around. Freddie was dancing with Jim while John and Brian were in a deep conversation that made them both laugh madly. Roger chuckled at their red faces when his eyes suddenly glued onto something - you. His whole body froze when he spotted you. He had just caught you walking out of the bathroom with your lips attached to another man. You backed away and fixed your hair and tugged down your dress, a clear sign that the two of you had just had a little ‘fun’ in there.

Roger’s fists clenched tightly as he watched the man practically drool over you. Your eyes were hooded as you attempted to walk over to a table in the far corner. Roger watched you intensely until people hid you away. He jumped from his seat and made his way towards you. He finally caught sight of you once more and his heart nearly stopped. You were sitting on a chair with people watching as your head leaned down and moved fast in one direction. You drop your hand from your nose as your head falls back, allowing the high to hit you. You had officially hit rock bottom and Roger just saw it. You were worse than what he had imagined. He walked around and stood to where he could see your face. Your eyes were closed as you smiled and wiped your nose. He knew what you were doing. Your head falls forward slightly when the man you had just been with grips your wrist hard.

“Let’s go, I’m bored.” he yells out to you.

You look to him and frown while shaking your head no.

“I don’t wanna!” you yell back over the music.

You try to remove your wrist from his hand, but he just squeezes even harder.

“When I say we’re leaving, we leave.” he hisses to you.

He squeezes your wrist even harder and yanks you up from the chair. You yell out in pain as you try to push him off of you.

“You’re hurting me!” you slur.

That was it. Watching this man put his hands on you had Roger seeing red. He didn’t even think twice before he ran up and punched the man square in his jaw. He let go of you in an instant as you stumbled back. You almost fell backwards, but Roger reached out and grabbed your arm in time. You tried to focus on him, but it took a second before you realized who it was. Your face drops and tears immediately fill your eyes, breaking his heart even more.

“Roger?” you whisper, thinking you were dreaming.

He just stares you up and down sadly, seeing the state you were in.

“Why?” is all he can ask.

You don’t have an answer for him. All you can do is allow tears to stream down your face as you bring your hand up and gently graze your fingers over his cheek.

“C’mon, love. Let’s get you out of here.” he says softly.

The man is still on the floor as he holds his face in pain. Roger holds you close to him as he leads you away from these people and towards the exit. Freddie, John and Brian are watching him with wide eyes as they catch a glimpse of you. It didn’t even look like you anymore. They were speechless. Roger gets you outside and takes off his coat as he places it around your shivering body.

“I’m fine. I don’t wanna leave. I gotta go do something.” you tell him as you go to walk back inside, but he stops you.

“Don’t. Please.” he begs you.

Your chin trembles as you stare at the face you’ve longed to see for so long. He was really here. This was real.

“Don’t try to help me, Roger.” you slur. “You’re just gonna leave again and… And I can’t go through that again. Just let me back inside and you can leave.”

Roger shakes his head as he blocks the entrance. You become angry as you try to push him away, but it’s no use. You begin sobbing as you hit his chest over and over again.

“Roger, move!” you cry out. “Move!”

He just stands there motionless as you tire yourself out. You finally give up as he wraps his arms around you and pulls you close to him. You lean your face against his chest as you cry hard.

“I’m so sorry!” you breathe out. “I’m so sorry! I’m so sorry!”

Roger is quiet as he allows you to get it all out. Your eyes flutter close as you lean against him and instantly, you’re passed out. Your body goes limp as Roger hurries to catch you. He picks you up in bridal style and hurries to the car. He gently lays you in the back seat and stands there for a moment admiring you. You still looked so beautiful to him. You always will. He gets inside and scoots you back a bit, before kissing your forehead for a moment.

“I know you’re sorry.” he whispers.

He shuts the door and slips into the front seat. He starts the car and begins driving back to his house and away from this poisonous place you’ve started calling home.

***

BOOMBOOMBOOMBOOM

Your head throbbed when you finally woke up. Your high had worn off and the god awful hangover was in full effect. The only thing to make you not feel like this is to do more of it, but you can’t bring yourself to get out of your bed. Your bed? Your eyes had fluttered opened when slight panic hits you. Where are you? This isn’t your bed or room. This isn’t your home. You sit up fast, but regret it when your head pounds. You tense up as your eyes squeeze closed. You bring your hand to your head and wait for it to pass. You open your eyes once more and look around. Your spot your clothes that you had worn last night. They were folded and sat on a dresser across the room. You look down fast and realize you’re in an over sized t-shirt.

You know this shirt. You’ve worn it to bed before. This was Roger’s shirt. You look up and around the room once more. This was definitely Roger’s room. How did you get into Roger’s house? How did you get into his bed and shirt? Suddenly, you remember last night. You remember being with that guy and him wanting to leave. You remember telling him no and then him being on the floor. You remember seeing Roger and thinking you were dreaming. That’s where you go blank.

You’re in the middle of your thoughts when there’s a slight knock at the door. Your head flies up as it creaks open and Roger sticks his head in. He spots that you’re awake and he sadly smiles. You look down at your hands as he walks inside with a cup of tea in his hand. He walks to the other side of the bed and sits down. He hands the tea to you and you take it. You can’t bring yourself to look at him. It’ll only make you miss him even more when you leave.

“I washed your clothes for you.” he says softly. “I changed you, but I promise I had a blanket covering. I mean, not that I haven’t seen you before like that.” he teases, hoping you’d smile, but you don’t.

You stare down at the cup in your hands with your eyebrows knitted together just a bit.

“How are you feeling?” he asks worried.

“I’ll call a cab. Sorry for last night.” you say as you quickly sit the cup on the bedside table.

You go to stand up, but he stops you. He reaches out and gently grabs your arm. The feel of his hands on you again made you more high than you have ever been. Your skin craved his touch as you close your eyes and sigh.

“Don’t leave. Please. I don’t want you to.”

You tense your jaw as you look back at him. You finally look into his eyes and they were sincere. Tears stung in yours as you speak.

“You hate me.” you barely whisper, your voice breaking.

Roger frowns hard as he gets on his knees and scoots towards you.

“No, no, no!” he whispers. “Don’t ever think that! I could never hate you.”

“No, I don’t blame that you do. I hate myself.” you tell him.

Roger sighs as he grabs your hand in his.

“From what I saw last night, I can believe that. Hey, I don’t hate you.” he says, lowering his head so he can look into your eyes.

“I’m sorry.” you whisper out.

Roger sadly smiles as he nods.

“I know you are. And me too.”

That makes you look up to him fast with a shocked and confused expression as you shake your head.

“But you didn’t do anything. All of this is on me, Roger.”

“I could have handled all of that a lot better. I could have not walked out and left you like that. We could’ve worked through that, but instead, I ran.”

“I would’ve done the same.” you admit.

“Last night wasn’t you. I don’t know who that girl was, but it wasn’t you, y/n. Where did y/n go?” he asks as he brings his hand up to cup your face.

Your chin trembles as you lean against it, tears streaming down.

“She left at the exact moment you did.” you whisper.

Roger’s heart broke even more. He can see how badly what you did is tearing you up inside. The fire in your eyes had been blown out. You were this tiny and lost little girl.

“I’ve missed you so much.” he tells you. “More than anything. I tried reaching out to you, but I didn’t know where you went. I need you.”

You sob silently as you shake your head and look away.

“I hurt you,” you go to say.

“The past is the past. I need you. Here and now. In the present. Forever and always. Please. You don’t need to be in those places, you need to be here with me. I realize that now.”

You smile and sob some more as you lean forward and wrap your arms around him.

“You promise you don’t hate me?” you mutter against him.

“I love you too much to hate you.”

You pull away and smile as he wipes some tears from your face. Roger leans in and kisses you softly. You melt against him as he holds you close. He leans away and suddenly, a spark in your eye had ignited that fire once more.

“I love you too.” you whisper.

Sometimes, forgive and forget is the best decision a person can make. Especially if it’s for someone you love.

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vacationcalendar · 3 years ago

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8/13/21

Today’s creative project, an private letter (it could have been an open letter, but who the hell is reading this besides myself and maybe the person receiving it) to Voyboy. He’s been in a rough place mentally/emotionally. He’s had some deaths in his family which is never easy, and his attempt to de-platform a twitch streamer with a known history of sexual abuse has earned him undue (and as is sadly routine, SEVERE) ire from fans of said streamer.

It’s so weird, there’s obviously people who are like, “I’m not getting involved. I don’t care enough to inform myself well enough to have an opinion.” And those people are also split into camps that either approve or disapprove of “rocking the boat” as it were. Some people think this level of calling-out is too incendiary for the offense. Some people find the subject uncomfortable and wish it would go away, with the unfortunate default to that view being an acquiescence of justice for the accused.

And some people are also hung up on the justice part in particular. This entire affair is being conducted in the infamous “Court of Public Opinion.” A forum that has been dragged out MUCH more frequently in this modern age than in history. That fact alone upsets people. Hell, it’s bothered me in the past. I see the Court of Public Opinion make a ruling, and I think, “I didn’t elect this Judge, I did not approve this jury, there is no precedent here!”

It does feel like things are moving fast. They are. Dan Harmon said in an interview earlier this month, “Progress isn’t a scalpel, it’s an avalanche.” And he welcomed it. We should be welcoming progress. Even if it’s messy. Some might say “especially if it’s messy!” I don’t know who is saying that, but I feel in my gut someone on twitter would say that and get 80.3k likes. I know my Twitter.

I digress. Some people are of the view that they can’t be the judge. Leave it up to the real judges and let me just do whatever it was that I was going to do, please. So when Voyboy does all this work to put a spotlight on this problem, people see him handing them a pitchfork and come help him kill The Beast. And some people balk at that. Some people shy away, and just stay inside (this is mostly me, I’ll admit. The inside people go, “I didn’t watch that guy anyway, this is all fine with me! Now please leave me alone”). And some say, “Hey man, I’m opposed to violence, and by the way, the Beast is a really chill guy if you ever got to know him. In fact, people like you who are so quick to hand out pitchforks to make yourself look like some noble saint are actually pieces of shit!” And then a bunch of that guy’s friend go “Yeah, he is a piece of shit!” because that’s how bullying works. And then the bullies spend all day trapped in their miserable bodies, stuck in their miserable lives. And they go on Twitch and watch their friend stream to them, and their friend makes them feel wanted for once in their shit existence. And then later they’re on twitter and see Voyboy say something about how your friend’s an abusive monster and needs to see justice, and you KNOW that it’s all bullshit, and Voyboy just trying to get points with his girlfriend or something, he doesn’t care at all. What an asshole. Fuck him. Fuck this loser. I should reply to him, since it’s the easiest thing in the world for anyone to do. And generally people don’t follow people they hate like this, so that would limit this extremely toxic interaction, but Voyboy is followed by all the LoL streamers, so people that follow league generally hear from all the content creator’s in the community. And maybe they’re streamer friend mentioned that Voyboy was a fake ass cuck or whatever on stream and told his followers to go check out the shit he was spewing.

So Voyboy says grooming is unacceptable and disgusting, sexting teens is deplorable. And we as a modern community don’t need to hear him beat a rap sheet like that in court to act, because we as a community have the power to shape it how we see fit. And under that tweet is 100 replies saying that he’s a piece of shit and should die.

And then the uninformed masses see that and go, “why is Voyboy a piece of shit?? What am I missing?” And then they see Voyboy tweet something like “this is really hard, these guys are out to get me but I won’t back down.” And if you’re like me you think, “Oh I’ve never supported this kind of drama in my life. This is boring at best and uncomfortable at worst. Let’s all stop (aka bail)!” And then Voyboy goes “I won’t!” And then everyone level-headed and sane goes “boo, I’m bored, knock this off!” And everyone that is now LIVING for this bullying. I mean, what a payout. You bully this dude every day and he feeds you attention every time? This rules! So the detractors get WORSE and the supporters settle down. And Voyboy has now learned the harsh truth of social justice. It just beats you down. Everyone’s in this game for themselves; the moment you set aside your own interest to help someone else out, you are instantly and forever outnumbered. And the whole time you’re just like, “what the fuck is so hard about this? I am proposing an objectively good idea that would make everyone happier! I only even started trying to say something because I knew I was right! This is like getting fired for hitting a home run!”

I’m learning, and I should say digesting maybe, more about power this year than I have in a long time. It’s the answer to a lot of equations that don’t add up under my current philosophies. Like if everything I think is true, then was does X Y and Z still happen? Why do I feel like ____? The answer is something to do with power. And I’m starting to figure out what that is. Ha, I think part of me is a little ashamed it’s taking this long, I guess. Like, I’M learning it, but it’s been learnt. I’m catching up. But that’s ok. That’s literally all I’m doing. Catching up. Keeping up. I’m not even trying to do something once I’m caught up. I just don’t think there’s any other place to be. Well, I mean, I would truly hate to write something that got read that was just plain not-caught-up. Something that would make a reader go, “hey, doesn’t he know better?” I SHOULD. That’s literally the goal.

Anyways, I’ve lost my train of thought, and need a bathroom break. Here’s the letter I sent to Voyboy, to try and help him through all this. Talk to you tomorrow love ;) : Hey Voy I hope you are doing better, and I hope you get a chance to read this. I started League of Legends back in Season 1 when I was in college. I remember the first time I heard of you, you were one the few people ahead of HotshotGG in the rankings, and I remember thinking, "what the hell, how did this kid get so lucky?!" lol. Then I got to see you play with RS, and mostly thought you were lucky again to be getting carried by Scarra 🤣 I'm sorry! By the time you joined CLG I finally caught wise. You became one of my all-time favorite players on the scene. Your Olaf looked like a cheat code, I swear to god. I love League of Legends so much, and back in college I spent almost every waking minute thinking about it. It was one of my great passions. And at that time I was struggling to find anything else I was truly passionate about. I got depressed in college, and by that point I had realized my goal of being an engineer wasn't something I actually cared about. So I dropped out. I was in a truly dark place. I felt like life had left me behind and that I was worthless. I still had League, but League couldn't give me what I needed. I have this distinct memory from one of my last games in Season 4 where some Ranked Soloqueue bs was making my blood boil out of my body. I literally had to stand up and walk around outside after the game. I was pissed, but I knew the real reason was because I just wasn't good enough. That was the moment I realized I was never going to get to walk the path of Voyboy or Doublelift, I was not going to be one of the great ones that League would pick up and give them an opportunity to do something great. I would need to find something of my own.

After that League stopped being as fun for me. I knew I had to do something else with my life and League was only holding me back. All my friends I knew through League started to feel less like my friends. So I quit. After almost 4 years nonstop. And the years after that only looked worse. I was still depressed, still struggling desperately to find my way, and now the thing that brought me the most joy in the world was long gone from my life.

Five years went by and over that time I moved, got a real job, and somehow became a real adult. Life was still hard work, but I was now ready for it. I bought myself a real gaming computer after using crummy laptops my entire life. And once I realized I could finally see LoL at something other than the lowest graphics setting, I decided to download it again. I don't need to tell you that coming back 5 years away made League feel like a completely new game. I might as well have been playing Dota for all I knew. And I felt terrible. I felt like the person that used to play this game was dead; I had no memory left in my fingers. "Well, it was worth a shot," I said.

And then I found your videos on youtube. "Hey I know him!" After just two games, it all came rushing back to me. Your games, your stream reignited my love for League of Legends. And now I'm healthier. Now I can play for a bit and return to a life I that I care equally about. I learned how to love League AND love myself; and the entire time, you were there. The Kid, with his million-watt smile, raising the bar.

I can't say I see the exact same circumstances with what you've been going through lately. I just know what that cloud can feel like. And maybe it's similar, feeling like League and the other parts of your life are at odds with each other right now. And the further away the game gets, the more you see the cracks appear. Hateful kids and useless trolls come to this game not for the experience, but to talk crap and feed their ego. It's so sad that our society still needs to work so hard to treat sexual abuse with the weight that it deserves. But I think because of that, it only highlights that you're doing work that's worth doing.

I don't know what you're planning on doing next, but no matter what it is, I'll support you. I don't know what it's worth, but you're genuinely one of my favorite people. You're worthy of love, you're worthy of happiness. You've worked hard, you've put your heart into making League of Legends a community something to be proud of. I've seen it time and time again. And it won't be for nothing, I swear.

Cya nerd, be well. Thanks

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madcapmoon · 7 years ago

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bikini kill + fugazi appreciation thread March 27, 2005

by bodhisattvagrrl

because of a strange series of circumstances i had the amazing good fortune, honor and privilege of taking my younger daughter who is 15 to meet Kathi Wilcox, bass player for the early '90s riot grrrl band Bikini Kill, and currently one of two lead guitarists for the Casual Dots, for a one-time guitar lesson which became an opportunity for my daughter to ask her what it was like being in one of the most important grrrl bands ever. sad to say i was woefully ignorant of Bikini Kill so i did some research the night before and was blown away to realize how important they are in rock history. i don't know what Kathi told my daughter because i was in another room, but when we were leaving Kathi said they never had any idea that one day their band would be in *books*, they just hoped they might be able to play in dc or nyc. (Bikini Kill was from olympia, washington) she said when they were in nyc to play cbgb's, a friend who had a friend who worked for spin as a favor to the band asked her friend to write about Bikini Kill, not realizing that Bikini Kill didn't like spin, lol. the spin woman approached them as they were about to look for some pizza and asked if she could interview them. Kathi said they were excited about being in nyc and eating pizza there so they told her that they couldn't, though not in a bad way, and went off to look for pizza. she said the spin person couldn't believe Bikini Kill didn't want to talk to her and she wrote about them anyway, like who did Bikini Kill think they were, they didn't even have an album out yet. Kathi said for some reason that article made the media want to find out who they were more. she said maybe if they'd talked to the spin person they'd have gotten a little blurb and that would have been it, but it was strange how things worked out. while Kathi was talking with my daughter, i waited in the dining room of her apartment and her boyfriend, Guy Picciotto, made me a cup of tea. =o also very sad to say, even tho i have lived in the dc area most of my life and naturally have heard of these guys, i missed out on the whole Fugazi experience. while researching Bikini Kill, i also read about why Fugazi was such an amazing band, like they never charged more than $5 for their shows or $8 for their cds. they had values and ethics and a community. i'd say more about that but i'm typing in the dark (aforementioned daughter is asleep nearby) so i can't refer to the books i was reading from. i couldn't believe he actually sat down with me. =o but since he did, i asked him what he's doing now. he said Fugazi didn't disband, they're in a break phase. they still meet regularly to talk. meanwhile he and his longtime friend Eddie and a couple younger guys who play bass and drums have been working on music (he thinks they might have a cd to release later this year). this band doesn't have a name yet. i asked him if Fugazi ever looked at other bands making lots of money and think, damn, we should charge more? he said, no, he is comfortable with their values and their decisions. he said they don't judge what other bands do, and he said he's enjoyed seeing big arena bands himself. but he said he didn't think people in bands that made more money were necessarily any happier than he is. he said something about a trade-off - bands that charge higher prices for tickets might not be able to get as many people to come to their shows, whereas Fugazi charging $5 enabled lots of people to come, even sometimes kids who didn't really like them but it was something they could afford, lol. he says he's been doing a lot of production work for other bands (other bands hiring him to produce them). he said he loved touring. he mentioned playing australia and the band camping out and he made the mistake of feeding a kangaroo some bread - when he ran out of bread the kangaroo got mad and attacked him! kangaroo kicked him in the chest and they all took off running, lol. he says it's exhausting sometimes but Fugazi is committed to trying to answer all the fans that write them. he said they have about 700 live sets recorded, i think he said 10 have been released. he said they were recorded by their sound guy so the quality of the recordings is very good, though some performances are better than others. he said looking back on the seventeen years that Fugazi was playing and touring, he remembers how incredible it was when everyone in the band was in sync, like they could read each other's minds, and the synergy with the crowds - he said their shows were the *events* themselves - not the band but the band with the crowd - that they never had a set list (they had about 100 songs ready to play) (they used to practice five days a week) - they made up their sets as they went along, according to the energy of the crowds. he also said when they were off, like if someone was having a bad day or something, it was horrible. i could tell that he and the band are proud of their legacy. Guy was so really, really down-to-earth, intelligent, thoughtful (well read - he has a degree in english from georgetown university), courteous, self-effacing, modest, humble, sincere, supportive .... Kathi and Guy have *tons* of all kinds of books. he said he has an older brother by about a year and a younger sister by four or five years. he said even though his brother and he are closer in age he doesn't think he ever got what he was doing. he thinks his sister is the only one in his family who got it, that she came out to see the band when they played in san franciso. he said his parents had the normal parental concern about what he was doing, but he thinks that when the band finally started getting critical acclaim, they finally stopped worrying. i asked him what he thought of dance music and he said he didn't really know much about it. then he laughed and asked if i'd ever heard of dj spooky. i said yes, and he said he and dj spooky used to wash dishes at a restaurant called food for thought a long time ago way before they became musicians. i told him that my daughter initiates jam sessions but she's too shy to play along, she ends up watching her friends (boys) play. he suggested that it might be better for her to play with kids she feels comfortable playing with, maybe even kids who aren't as good as she is, not kids she feels intimidated by. he said it's not about proficiency, at least in his case, and that sometimes people who can play proficiently are boring. he later said these things to my daughter himself, and i was so touched by his genuine, respectful thoughtfulness toward her. he offered to show her his guitars and she accepted. :) that's when Kathi told me the story about pizza in nyc and the spin lady. :) my daughter doesn't say much but i've got to believe she was as impressed as i was by how *nice* these two punk rock legends were. anyway, i know some of you dogs are *quite* well-versed in Fugazi and Bikini Kill - so i thought some of you might appreciate hearing what *cool* human beings Kathi Wilcox and Guy Picciotto are.

i know my daughter will never forget this day the rest of her life.i won't! respectfully, mary

#guy picciotto #fugazi #kathi wilcox #bikini kill

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Like, what do you think of them generally?

alright alright alright alright alright thank u for the opportunity to talk about diaboys!!! I appreciate it ! under a read more bc I ranted forever

LAITO:

My first exposure to dialovers was the anime so my first impression towards Laito was like “oh, he’s the flirty one - oh shit he’s banging her in a church, you cant do that, thats nuts lol” but as I got more into the games, Laito became SO IMPORTANT TO ME??? especially like his relationships, w/ ALL the characters like his brothers and yui and the other families and everything! I especially love learning more about his relationship with Ayato and Kanato because it’s so dang complex. His feelings towards his triplet bros is really complicated because he loves them and you know he loves them but his trauma w/ his mom sort of fucks it all up so he’s got like this genuinely nice and kind and loving personality fighting against this trauma and warped view of the concepts of love and family that Cordelia gave him, and what you get is, “I love my family and I hope they die” and throughout the games u learn more about the reasons why he has those world views and it’s SO GOOD Laito is such a well thought-out character!?! As a writer Laito delights me but as a fan, his whole deal makes me so dang sad djhfghjdkdfd

That’s why I was so fucking satisfied w/ Laito in the Laito vs Shin cd because you got a bunch of the darker stuff surrounding him (his tendency to push people off of buildings, that FUCKING VOICE DROP he does when he’s genuinely mad) and Laito was like...he was SCARY. And he was scaring YUI and he was scaring HIMSELF, too, which made me so sad!! Laito was like crying and punching walls and being like “why am I acting like this??” and it fuckin broke my heart dude. He’s a genuinely good person, he’s so wonderful, but he’s recovering from some really really nasty stuff. So that cd really gave me a sense of like, “Man, Laito hates this just as much as I do.” It makes me want to...idk...it makes me want to give him more opportunities to be good. He really is good!!!

KANATO:

As for my first impression, I think Kanato turned me off right away because I could instantly recognize all the tropes they were gonna use when they were designing him. You can look at him and tell that he’s gonna be the ~yandere~ character (I hate using that word but u know what tropes I’m talking about). As soon as they showed him eating a bunch of sweets I was like “yep.” When they showed us his room full of wax dolls, I was like “uh huh, that seems about right.” And then he yelled a lot and tried to stab Yui for making him french toast or whatever and I was like “ok.........I’ll go start ayato’s route” u know??? just super not my type, and the Kanato vs Azusa cd was torture because Azusa’s so soft-spoken but Kanato’s always yelling at the top of his lungs. I had to keep messing with the volume and it bugged me.

I think I would like Kanato a lot more if he...had a...friend. I think rejet kinda realized that he needed one and they had that in mind when they were introducing Azusa, but that ended up being a pretty bad failure I think. Kanato doesn’t really get along with anyone and he’s pretty open about admitting that he doesn’t like anyone particularly well. I’m glad to see him starting to love Yui genuinely but...idk I feel like every other diaboy has another diaboy(s) that he gets along with really well and it’s always nice to see them acting friendly and even encouraging each other sometimes! Kanato doesn’t really have that kind of relationship with anyone. When Ayato tried to reach out and apologize in LE, Kanato was like “lol kill yourself” and I was actually so fuckin mad at him, I was like “boy if you don’t fix that attitude of yours-”..........I guess I just wish that he had more character development by this point. That scene really hurt.

RUKI:

Basically the WORST first impression ever...my first Ruki scene that I ever saw was when he broke the cat’s neck and I was so pissed. I was like “immediately fuck this guy” and he became my least favorite character right away. And on top of that he was really elitist and one of those jerk intellectuals “ohhh solve this puzzle or STAY OUT THERE IN THE COLD you big dumb idiot. im smart and you’re not” and I was like FUCK this guy, how does yuma put up with him with HIS backstory?

But I hella warmed up to him during MB, like especially during Reiji’s route where Ruki was like “...uh...okay” the whole time jhdghdj that shit was hilarious. Ruki started feeling really real. And I think that like...hm...like if Laito is a genuinely good person surrounded by bad influence, Ruki is the opposite - he’s a bad personality surrounded by good influence. Ruki’s a jerk and he’s been a jerk his whole life but he has these wonderful brothers who love him so much and this lovely angel Yui and he’s just got all these good people who look up to him and he has to be good. This little asshole kid who treated all his servants like shit is now cooking dinner for his three adoptive brothers every day and they love him so much and they love him so much. It’s so fucking satisfying. I love seeing him supporting his brothers even though it conflicts with his personality and his main drive, like letting Kou run away with Yui even though Kou couldn’t become Adam. Ruki’s most important thing in MB was making one of the Mukamis become Adam but he gave that up to let Kou be happy. That shit is so important. Ruki was such a fuckin turnaround for me, I hated him at first but now I love the hell out of him and what he represents for the Mukamis.

KOU:

Kou is great!! I think he’s affected lots of characters in really positive ways, and he’s been affected in positive ways by different characters and it’s really nice to see. For sure he’s still got that trauma from his past but I really appreciate that Kou is in an environment that doesn’t have a lot of reminders of the bad stuff from his childhood. Like, how Kou was sought after for being such a beautiful child, and how he was trapped in a dark place for such a long time. There’s none of that shit when he lives with the Mukamis. Rejet could’ve easily put in tons of haunting reminders about Kou’s whole “too beautiful for his own good” thing but whenever he gets complimented, it’s usually for something different. Azusa will talk about how talented and amazing he is, and Kino’ll be like “idol clothes are pretty nuts huh? lol” and Ruki will be like “you’re working properly after all” and I fuckin love that shit...They could’ve made it so dang hard for Kou, but no, he’s in a much happier place now. He’s nice and comfortable being with these people. That makes me feel relieved lol

I already talked about how he helped Ruki but I think the most important relationship with a diaboy that he has is SUBARUUUUU cuz like, when you look at Subaru’s route you’re like “oh he definitely needs a friend, I’m glad he has a gf but he was so dang lonely and self-deprecating that he DEFINITELY just needs a genuine good friend” and then Kou showed up and he was like “guess what subaru? we’re gonna be friends, I’ve decided” and subaru was like “???” and MB happened and by the end of it Subaru was like “I took everything you said really seriously and I do want to be friends with you..............im not gonna say it out loud tho. let’s just shake hands ok” and I was like AW HECK YEAH!!!!! And then you keep seeing nice little reminders that they’re friends in other games, like in either LP or VC (Im sorry I literally cannot tell these two games apart) they were picking out hair accessories together for Yui, and in the Subaru vs Kou cd, Kou asks Subaru at the end if he had fun, and in LE Kou gave Subaru that pep talk and made Subaru laugh, and Subaru was like “Kou if I’m gonna die then I want you to kill me” and Kou was like “But I don’t want you to die!” and Subaru was like “you dont??? you actually care? about ME???” ITS SO FUCKING GOOD DUDE Subaru needed Kou so badly. Thank god for Kou honestly

KINO:

It was weird like...I was so mad at him during certain routes but I could never actually dislike him. It’s because he’s so dang funny tbh. He literally killed some of my favorite characters but then he would say a funny line and I’d be like “haha, I’m glad kino is here!” like it’s almost scary how charismatic he is towards both the other characters and to me, the player. He asked nicely if he could kill Shu and Shu was like “ok, sure.” Kino is hands down my fav villain because of this. Especially because you can really tell that deep down he wants to be a real member of the Sakamaki family and like he genuinely wants to be friends with people like Yuma and Kou, and he’s got the whole villain-turned-awkward-family-member trope which I LOVE. Like especially in that drama cd where he was like “I never get to go to school so I want to do home ec with you guys! Let’s make donuts!” and Kou was like “ok!!!” and kou tries to be super positive and encouraging the whole time even though Kino was actually secretly plotting to blow the place up. Kino looks like an idiot but he’s a genius tbh

and and and and and and I want him to kiss yuri. I think yuri is super in love w/ kino too, despite the fact that he’s. annoying. thats all I got dhgfdjskj...I love the childhood-friends-to-lovers trope so fuckin much

CARLA:

hey carla fuck you

I was really mad at him for his actions in DF mostly ^^; And tbh it’s really hypocritical because it was a group effort between both of the Tsukinamis, but I ended up loving Shin and hating Carla. Kino also did similar bad stuff to Carla, but I ended up loving him while hating Carla. So, why?

Well here’s fuckin why. Shin and Kino are cute & funny. They have their nice little payoff moments - maybe Shin hurt one of my favorite characters, but then you get to see how bubbly and energetic he gets around his big brother. He was walking one of his wolves around christmas time while wearing a red jacket and a random kid approached him thinking he was santa claus. That’s adorable! For a long time, Carla didn’t have anything like that. And he was a jerk to absolutely everyone, including Shin, who was so dang devoted to him!! Like remember in the DF cds where he was like “hey shin, the plan is we suck her blood until she’s purified from the vampires” and shins like “ok nii-san got it” and he started sucking her blood, exactly like he was ordered to, and then carla came in and STABBED HIM and was like “hey dont touch my property” like SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK CARLA U TOLD HIM TO DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! IT WAS THE PLAN

And he fucked Ayato up real bad in DF so I was so mad...;; I only recently started forgiving him once diatwitter and LE started up. Diatwitter let us see his cute old grandpa side where he fuckin wanders around amusement parks by himself like some kind of cryptid and kou keeps being like “wait was that carla? what the heck??” and LE gave us some pretty nice stuff like carla being like “ur definitely my brother, shin” so...carla is ok I guess...but then again LE also gave us some bad carla moments like “if ur not actually a founder then u lied to me and im gonna kill u” so basically uh?? carla’s just a jerk I think. I’m warming up to him at a snail’s pace but he’s still a jerk. sucks about the endzeit tho, I hope he’s like permanently ok now

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guns-n-zeppelin · 7 years ago

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Never say die - Chapter 20

Pairing: Axl Rose x reader Words: 1813 Summary:��Reader accidentally time travels back to 1985 where Axl, Duff, Slash, Steven and Izzy find her. Warnings: Smut again lol

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A/N: Idk what i think about this but hereee, i’m sorry i haven’t updated this earlier. Welll i hope you enjoy again.

We were sitting at a bar again, there was only Erin, Axl, Duff, Izzy and Scarlet with me there, we had lost Slash and Steven somewhere. We were going to still travel to Georgia tonight in couple of hours. We chatted and drank and smoked together at the table, but soon after a while some random man approached us. Scarlet's face brightened immediately when she saw him. ”Oh, Dave! What are you doing here?” Scarlet exclaimed and got up to hug the man. The man gave Scarlet a warm smile before the both of them turned back to us. ”This is my brother. His name is Dave,” she said and all of us greeted him with a short 'hi'. She introduced us as well to Dave and when she had mentioned my name, Dave stayed looking at me for a while and made an intensive eye contact with me, which made me blush, but then turned back to the others. ”Nice to meet you all,” Dave greeted as well, smiling. ”What brings you here?” Scarlet asked eagerly. ”I came here to interview a few people for the newspaper. And saw a couple of friends here as well,” he answered to her. ”You remember Nick, right? From high school, he moved back to North Carolina about two weeks ago after being a few years in Europe.” ”Ohh Nick, right. Damn, i haven't heard anything about him in ages,” Scarlet said, thinking. ”Oh yeah and also, Dave works as a journalist for a quite popular newspaper,” Scarlet told us eagerly. ”Hey, maybe you could give an interview for Dave as well?” she offered. Duff, Axl and Izzy looked quickly at each other and then shrugged. ”Yeah why not,” Izzy answered. ”But later,” Duff continued. ”I want to finish my vodka without any extra questions.” ”Damn, thanks a lot, guys. My boss is going to be satisfied if i really get one from you. Big fan,” he said laughing. Then he turned back to me again and looked straight into my eyes. ”But damn, Scarlet, you haven't told me how gorgeous your friend here is,” he said smiling and winked. ”Hey! Hands off her, go to flirt with other chicks, she's not interested!” Axl said to the man, raising his voice. I looked at Axl, raising my eyebrows and giving him a murderous look to shut the fuck up. The others looked at Axl too quite surprised and confused. ”What do you mean Amy's not interested?” Izzy asked raising his eyebrows, laughing a bit. Axl just opened his mouth, closing it again, not knowing what to answer to this. I furrowed my eyebrows as well, pretending to not know what got into him. ”Yeah, Axl, why? I think i can handle things myself without you taking part of this,” i scoffed and shook my head. I looked at Axl and saw him clenching his fists. These were again the times when i was scared that our cover would fail because of Axl's temperament. ”I just,” he started. ”I just saw you earlier flirting there with couple of other chicks as well so, uhm, i-i just don't want any player trying to hit on her,” Axl tried to stutter some excuse and then cleared his throat and scratched his neck. Erin looked at him a bit confused and worried. Dave just chuckled. ”Man, i just arrived here, maybe there's some guy who just looks like me,” he said to Axl and patted his shoulder. ”An honest mistake, it's alright,” Dave said smiling and winked. ”I already started thinking that you two were dating.” ”What? That's ridiculous,” Axl said laughing nervously and grabbed Erin by her waist, pulling her closer to him. ”I'm dating this beautiful woman, i'm just friends with Amy,” he said and turned to look at Erin, kissing him on her lips and they both shared a smile with each other. And just by watching them smiling and looking happier than ever, it hurt like hell although i know he was just pretending. But he made it look so real. ”Oh damn, you really look like the perfect couple,” Dave said and then turned back to me. ”So, could i by any chance buy you a drink now when this matter is solved?” he asked. I shared a short look with Axl, but soon moved my gaze back to Dave. ”Sure, why not,” i answered smiling and he went to chat with the bartender until came back and handed me a glass of beer. He came to sit next to me, casually put his arm around my shoulder. Axl was sitting in front of me with Erin, only the table separating us from each other. I saw how his blood was basically boiling inside him. The next hour i let Dave flirt with me and tell all stories about him and his work and everything, and some of them were quite interesting as well. Axl watched us the whole time, still hand on Erin's waist, her head resting on Axl's shoulder. And a few times they shared a kiss with each other, Erin starting it though but Axl had to play along. ”Hey, i was just wondering,” Dave started. ”Would you go out with me sometimes?” he asked me carefully. I thought about it for a moment and saw Axl's head turned to us, but then Erin turned his attention back to her again. ”I mean, it's okay if you don't want to,” Dave corrected when i didn't answer immediately. ”Hmm, i don't know, i have to think about it. But we're leaving to Georgia soon anyway, tonight already, so,” i told him and shrugged. ”No way, really? I'm going there too. Could i come there the same way with you guys?” he asked others and they nodded. Before i could say anything more to Dave, Axl got my full attention. ”Amy, can i talk with you for a moment?” Axl asked me, but wasn't patient enough to wait for an answer and grabbed me by my arm, starting to walk away from others. ”We'll come right back, okay,” he told others. They just nodded and we started heading to the hotel, it was right in front of the bar actually, across the road. And soon we were already upstairs in Axl's hotel room, Axl closing the door after us. ”What did you wa–” i started but couldn't finish my sentence since Axl already lifted me and threw me over his shoulder, carrying me towards the bed. ”Hey, what the fuck are you doing, let me down!” i tried to yell, but i still had to admire how much strength he had. He threw me on the bed and started ripping my clothes off. ”You shut the fuck up now,” he commanded me between his teeth. ”Do you think you can flirt with that Dave bitch like that, huh?” he asked angrily and took now my pants off and threw them to floor and soon i was laying there only my underwear on. I just smiled amused. ”Is someone jealous?” i asked smirking and Axl raised his eyebrows. ”Jealous?” he scoffed. ”I'm not fuckin jealous.” ”Yes you are,” i stated, still grinning, and i could see even more fire in his eyes. ”Just admit it, you're fuckin jealous when you saw Dave keeping his arm around me and even talking with me, saying cheeky flirting stuff to me, asking me for a date aaand –” ”Yeah, fine! I was fuckin jealous when i saw how he looked at you, i've never been more jealous, are you happy now, huh?” he said with a loud voice. I pondered it for a moment and didn't even notice when he took his underwear off. ”Hmm, i don't really know, could you say it again?” i asked. He looked at me in the eyes, brought his face closer to mine so our noses almost touched each other. ”I'll fuckin show you how much i hate that guy now, i'll make sure that you know who you actually belong to,” he murmured with a low voice and before i could even think about an answer, he slammed into me hard, with no warning and gave me no time to adjust. I screamed a bit because of the pain and sinked my nails on Axl's back. When it wasn't so painful anymore, i dared to say something again. ”Do you know why i did it?” i asked, panting, and he turned to look at me, raising his eyebrows. ”Because it hurt so fuckin much seeing you w-with Erin,” i tried to say desperately between my moans. ”Oh, so now you're the jealous one,” he said smirking and started moving even faster, hitting exactly the right spot. ”O-of course i am fuckin jealous, i don't want to see you with her,” i said angrily, cupped his face and took him in a deep, passionate kiss. ”One time you're kissing Erin and looking happier than ever, and then soon you're fucking me in a hotel room like it was our last day alive,” i said whimpering and had to keep a break from speaking. ”I'm sorry, okay, it's just that we can't reveal this yet to them. I hate to pretend but –” he started. ”I don't care, we're not doing this anymore until you've told Erin, you understand?” i stated, raising my eyebrows. ”I'm not gonna lie them anymore. You have to choose, me or Erin.” Axl just sighed and slowered his movements a bit. ”Fine, i guess that's fair enough,” Axl groaned. ”I'll tell her in some point, okay.” And suddenly, just a bit before i reached my climax, the door opened and we heard a familiar voice. ”Hey, Axl, have you –” Steven started and Axl immediately stopped moving and the horror spread on my and Axl's faces, my heart starting to beat faster. ”Oh shit, i'm so sorry, i thought –” Steven was standing about ten metres away from us and Axl tried to hide me with his body the best he could. ”What the fuck are you doing here?! Don't you see we're in the middle of action here,” Axl interrupted him and looked at Steven over his shoulder. ”With, uhm, Erin,” Axl added which didn't help the situation much though. ”I'm really sorry, i was just going to come to ask if you had seen Amy anywhere? The others told me that she left with you,” Steven asked awkwardly, but before Axl could answer anything, he continued. ”Wait. I just saw Erin a moment ago downstairs with Scarlet,” Steven said confused, furrowing his eyebrows. Axl looked at me quickly, not knowing what to do. I turned to look at Steven over Axl's shoulder and saw his eyes widening, accidentally dropping his glass he was holding which broke into pieces on the floor. ”Look, we can explain.”

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purplesurveys · 7 years ago

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What's the most relaxing thing you did today? Motherfucking SLEEP. I slept from 10-11 AM and 2-3 PM today and it was the most glorious feeling. Those have been the only naps I’ve been able to sneak in all week. Do you shop at the grocery store closest to your house? Yes, we do. We have two stores that are in different locations but are the same distance from the house anyway, so my mom switches between the two of them. Which one of your guy friends is the best looking? Uh I guess Jez. I never answer questions like this since my circle knows me to be pretty gay, but I’d pick him. What does your car smell like? Still smells quite new. Who could make you feel better right now? Miraculously I don’t need to be feeling better at the moment. Maybe because I’m answering this on a new laptop and this is the only thing I need? Hahaha idk.

Which three people (who don't have a Myspace) would be in your top friends? LOL. Don’t care for this question but funny/sad story: I was having dinner with Gabie’s family last night and we started talking about the old internet. Apparently her 12 year old sister doesn’t recognize Myspace, Multiply, Yahoo Messenger, and Friendster anymore. Times are a-changing, people. Gab and I were horrified. Have you had an epiphany lately? Nah. What color shoes are you wearing? I’m barefoot when inside the house. Which one of your friends is the most brutally honest? I think Kaira beats me when it comes to being blunt. Miracle Whip or Mayo? Whipped cream is expensive where I live and unnecessary, so I never have it. I put mayonnaise on everything. Who/What influences your taste in music the most? My friends mostly. I let them have control over my car’s bluetooth and then I always find myself listening to what they played after the ride. Do you have anything to say to your ex bf/gf? No ex. What's your favorite kind of foreign food? I like anything Indian, anything street food, anything sushi. I’m not a picky eater and WILL try everything once. Except for fruit. In what year will/did you turn 21? 2019. Who was the last person you gave a birthday present to? Gabie I think. I’m not a big gift person though, and instead I drove her out and treated her to lunch. What do you think of the person who took this survey last? I took this survey from the original poster so heh. Which one of your friends do you look most like? ??? I have no idea, we’ve never compared each other physically. Puedes hablar español bueno? No I can’t, actually. I understand very basic Spanish, and a lot of random words are recognized because we also use them in Filipino. That knowledge isn’t enough for me to be able to carry conversations, but I can sometimes understand phrases. Which day of the week do you watch the most TV? I literally only watch TV when we happen to be at a hotel, which happens like every four months. What's your favorite vegetable? Broccoli. Which one of your senses would you not mind losing? Losing any of them would be terrible. Which band do you have the most of on your iPod/music player? I don’t iPod anymore, but I listen to Paramore on Spotify a lot. Which song describes your mood at the moment? Meh, none. There are songs I feel like listening to but no song can match my mood right now. Which movie(s) do you quote the most? None. What's the closest pink object to you? My top. Do you really weigh the weight on your driver's license? I don’t. Do people??? What's your favorite non-carbonated, non-alcoholic beverage? Water. What's the most epic thing you've done so far this month? I MET GABIE’S DAD LAST NIGHT. It went REALLY well and I cannot be any happier now. Obviously it happened much sooner than we expected, coming out and all, but being accepted and immediately given a thumbs up by the only man my girlfriend has ever really loved is my biggest reward. Which one of your best friend's friends would you most likely date? Gabie. Which word do you have the hardest time spelling? I can’t think of any, but I used to struggle with rhythm. Big Mac or Whopper? Baconator. Have you ever been to an 'Adult Gift' store? Nope. What's your favorite vacation spot? I love Baguio as an ideal vacation spot, but my parents have never seen the big deal with it and I’ve only been there thrice :( What color underwear are you wearing? Green. Have you ever slapped anybody? My siblings when we were little kids, but never as like a full grown person. What's your second favorite sport? Table tennis. Wrestling comes first. What are you listening to right now? Just my electric fan on level 3, no music. Where will you be in six hours? Asleep in bed probably. What do you wish you had more time to do? I do have enough time to do all the things I need for myself, but my anxiety comes in and makes sure I hesitate from starting them. Like going out with friends - I could very well do it whenever I want, but I never want to be the one asking them out first. Going out after school and giving myself alone time - I would do it since I get out of school at 11 AM - but I can’t handle being alone. So there is that. Who was the last person to ride in your passenger's seat? Gabie, when I drove her home last night. Would you ever let anybody else drive your car? No. Gabie only if it’s really necessary, but she’s hit her car several times and my trust in her driving isn’t as through the roof these days lol. Which one of your friends will be the most successful? All of them. How old will you be on your next birthday? I’ll be 20 and I am so excited to finally get out of this decade. What store did you last shop at? Filbar’s. It’s a local store that has Funkos, limited edition comic book/TV show merch, novelty items, just about all the graphic novels and comic books you need, action figures, swords, replicas, etc. What is your absolute favorite band? It will always be an absolute tie between Paramore and Against Me!

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our-lovely-universe · 7 years ago

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All the numbers, punk!!!

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? lol I'm not really?2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? my girlfriend sends me good morning snapchats everyday 💞💞3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? No, as long as it's not all the time.4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Oh yeah for sure! My uncle always says I'm super naive and need to stop trusting everyone I meet lol5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?sleeping 😴😴😴6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? Hopefully someone that isn't drunk and knows where we are going haha7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Dump that person.8: Are you close with your dad? No not at all, I haven't seen my bio dad since I was 3 and then the man who basically raised me (who I call my real father) left me when I was 9 or 10, we only just now reconnected last year and we are still not close.9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Umm no unless you count kissing my little cousins goodnight 😂😂10: What are you listening to? New rules by dua lipa11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Tea! I'm addicted to it lol12: Do you like hickeys? Heck yeah! Lol which is really weird for an asexual but I think they are more intimate than sexual.13: What time do you go to bed? If I have work I like to be in bed by like 10:30 cause I have to be up at 5:30 am but if I have nothing to do I usually don't fall asleep until 3am.14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? My mother. I don't know how many chances I give her and she still disappoints me..15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Yeah I think I can, though my texts are more sloppy lol (I did this one with one hand)16: Do you always answer your texts?I do but it may take forever. Sometimes days!!!! I forget about texts all the time hahaha17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Well I choose not to hate people, but I don't have respect for that person. They lied to me and always found a way to make me be the bad guy in a fight.18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Well I Snapchat my best friend everyday (even tho she is terrible at keeping a streak!) but it's been awhile since we have seen each other 😭😭19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? My littles cousins. They are the light of my life 💞💞20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Well I like to go over everything in my life that is stressful at night because why the fuck not?!?! So I was probably thinking about all the shit that happened yesterday 😒😒21: Is anyone else in the room with you? Nope, I'm alone, or at least I hope so!!22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? I mean I guess?? I never really thought about it. I mean I always say be kind and kindness will come back so I guess that's the same lol23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? Honestly no. Probably the same maybe a little worse.24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? My dad. Even after him leaving me for another family, I really want us to be able to work things out.25: In the past week, have you cried? Oh yeah, I've cried in the last hour lol26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Blue27: Do people ever call you by your last name? Yeah but they usually call me flawless lawless.28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Not that I know of?29: Do you have a best friend? Yeah grace, we've been friends since we were little. And then also my girlfriend!30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? No not at all.31: Who was your last call/text message from? My aunt just texted me a picture of my cousin, today was her first day of kindergarten.32: Are you mad at anyone? Does myself count?33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes.34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? I don't know.... barely knew the person.35: How many more days until your birthday? Tomorrow it will be exactly a month!!!! So excited!!36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Summers over yo! Start school next week!37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Sure I have one or two, use to have more but most my friends and I have grown apart due to distance.38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Yeah.39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Yes.40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes.....41: Do you think age matters in relationships? No, as long as you love the person and have a healthy relationship.42: Are you available? No I am very much unavailable.43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? Um no one?44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? I had my nose pierced a couple times but I don't think I would get anything else pierced.45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Sure as long as you guys are both respectful of eachother.46: Do you regret anything? I choose not to regrets my choices in life.47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Nothing really, my thoughts are pretty muddled today.48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Yeah kind of, it's complicated.49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Wait wasn't this asked earlier? Idk but yes my last kiss was def a mistake50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Well I mean I already got her lol51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? No.52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Jesus Christ it's hard answering these last person you kissed, since the last person I kissed forced me. But no I do not!!53: What was the last thing you ate? Idk, I haven't eaten since yesterday.54: Did you get any compliments today? Yeah I got one from someone on Tumblr lol55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Idk but I would like to go to Canada to meet my gf or meet halfway somewhere with her.56: Do you own anything from other countries? Well most the stuff in America is made from china so yeah 😂😂57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Idk I would say it's 50/5058: Where have you lived most of your life? Kansas59: When was the last time you took a long drive? 2 weeks ago to see my sister.60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? No61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? No that's mean!62: Who do you text the most? My girlfriend.63: What was the last movie you saw? I'm watching a lifetime movie right now about a teenage murderer.64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Idk, I mean I know nothing about their exes, but I have faith in my partner.65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? Um none probably. I didn't date a lot.66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? No.67: Do you curse around your parents? Oh yeah.68: Are you happy with where you live? I mean I'm content but it's not where I want to be for the rest of my life.69: Picture of yourself? Idk how to add pics to a answer thing? Lol70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? Def monogamous!!71: Have you ever been dumped? No I'm usually the dumpee.72: What do you most like about making out? Well I'm not a huge fan of it, I mean it's nice but Idk lol73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Yeah like one girl but I was trashed 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually the other person 😬 I don't normally initiate the kissing.75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? Their minds 😅😏76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Holly77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? No.78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? No.79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? My significant annoyance 😂😂 no but for real they make my life so much better. 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Yeah definitely.81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah.82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? No I tend to keep to myself.83: Do you miss your last sweetie? No84: Last time you slow danced with someone? Prom.85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? Well I've never met my current gf.86: How can I win your heart? It's pretty easy, I have a big heart that loves everyone I meet. Buy me some Starbucks and we good 👌🏻👌🏻87: What is your astrological sign? Virgo88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping!89: Do you cook? Oh yes! I love it!90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Yeah my first girlfriend, we are kind of friends now, but only on social media, we don't talk much.91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? I am in a relationship.92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I swear this has already been asked hahaha93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? I don't really have a type. Though I think tattoos are really attractive.94: Name four things that you wish you had? 1. A dog2. My own place3. Some coffee4. A blanket (it's always across the room)95: Are you a player? No.96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? No.97: Are you a tease? No.98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? No99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yeah. Once before and right now.100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? My gf101: Hugs or Kisses? Hugs!!! 102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? No.103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Um idk.104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? Idk I think it's my least favorite just because my step sister and her fiancée always call each other babe and nothing else and it's the most annoying thing ever! Me and my sis make fun of them all the time for it! 105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? Nooo!!!106: Do you flirt a lot? Yeah I guess!107: Your last kiss? Don't want to talk about it 👌🏻👌🏻108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? No.109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? No.110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? My gf111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? My gf112: Does someone like you currently? Hopefully a lot of people like me, I try to be a like-able person.113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? My gf114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious relationship.115: Ever made out with just a friend? No.116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? Relationship obviously, she makes like so much happier!!

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yahoo-puck-daddy-blog · 7 years ago

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What if … the Bruins never lost Marc Savard? (NHL Alternate History)

(Ed. Note: It’s the NHL Alternate History project! We’ve asked fans and bloggers from 31 teams to pick one turning point in their franchise’s history and ask ‘what if things had gone differently?’ Trades, hirings, firings, wins, losses, injuries … all of it. How would one different outcome change the course of history for an NHL team? Today: Pete Blackburn, writing free agent and podcaster for ListenToBrunch and Section10Pod, on the Boston Bruins. Enjoy!)

By Pete Blackburn

Despite what you may have heard, I am not God.

I don’t have divine powers. As much as I’d like to, I can’t lasso the moon for Jennifer Aniston. Life isn’t fair.

But Greg has given me the power to play God for a day. Not only that, I’m a time-traveling God – one tasked with changing a specific moment in Boston Bruins history to create an alternate timeline for the franchise.

As one of the NHL’s Original Six teams, the Bruins have a long, rich history. But, as a ‘90s womb-evacuator, I’ve got about a decade and a half worth of material I feel comfortable enough to toy with.

The Bruins have certainly had more than a few regrettable moments in that timeframe, so my choice may come as a bit of a surprise, so first let me explain my thinking.

THE OBVIOUS

Give Bruins fan a shot at a do-over and there’s a good chance the majority are going to nullify a trade.

You can take your pick, but I imagine most would revisit the decisions to part ways with Joe Thornton (sent to San Jose in 2005 for Brad Stuart, Marco Sturm and Wayne Primeau) or Tyler Seguin (shipped to Dallas in 2013 for Loui Eriksson, Reilly Smith, Matt Fraser and Joe Morrow).

Waxing either of those deals makes a lot of sense, obviously. Both of those guys were proven offensive stars traded in (or before) their prime. Thornton’s a future Hall of Famer, Seguin’s one of the game’s current elite.

If you look up “bad idea” in the dictionary, one definition is “trading a superstar for two or three good players.” (Find it right next to “pivoting to video.”) Proof of idiocy: Bruins now have exactly zero players in the organization that arrived as a result of those two deals, either directly or indirectly.

I thought about devising an alternate history in which those two trades didn’t happen. Pushing ‘reset’ on Seguin is especially tempting because that wound is fresher and the aftermath is still haunting.

It was the first in a series of moves that caused them to slip from Eastern Conference powerhouse to squatters in league purgatory. After two Cup Final appearances during Seguin’s three seasons in Boston, they have a single playoff series win since.

Yes, Bruins fans might be a happier bunch these days if that trade never happened.

But most Bruins fans have probably already spent way too much time thinking about what life would be like if either No. 19 stuck around in Boston. That fantasyland ticket has been punched over and over and over again.

Instead, I wanted to explore a road less traveled. I thought about other instances – most of them centered around 2013 and everything in its wake — including but not limited to:

What if Jarome Iginla chose Boston instead of Pittsburgh in 2013?

What if Chris Kelly didn’t miss a wide open net and cost the Bruins a big goal in Game 4 of the 2013 SCF?

What if the Blackhawks didn’t score two in 17 seconds?

What if Dennis Seidenberg hadn’t torn his ACL and MCL in ‘13-14?

Toying with any of those outcomes may push the Bruins closer to a second Stanley Cup in three years and lead to a very different series of events in the years following.

But, ultimately, the most thought-provoking reversal I could think of may not result with the Bruins lifting multiple Cups. In fact, it might actually take away the only one they’ve got since the turn of the century.

That brings us to…

WHAT IF MARC SAVARD NEVER GOT HURT?

You likely already know the story, but Bruins center Marc Savard had his playing career cut short thanks to a number of concussions and the scary, lingering effects that terrorized him for years.

Savard’s final concussion came in January of 2011, during a game in Colorado. He was hit clean by Matt Hunwick, his head bounced off the glass, and his career was over at the age of 33.

But, for the purposes of this exercise, that’s not the incident we’ll focus on. Instead, let’s key in on the most notable (and brutal) concussion Savard suffered, the one he says was “the start of some really dark days” — the one handed to him by Matt Cooke 10 months prior.

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Though it technically wasn’t a career-ending hit, that incident was the beginning of the end for Savard. He was cleared to play in the second round of the 2010 playoffs (when he famously scored the overtime-winner in his first game back) but he kept battling symptoms of post-concussion syndrome and missed the start of the following season. The follow-up in Colorado sealed the deal.

Here’s how Savard described the aftermath of the Cooke hit in piece he penned for The Players’ Tribune earlier this year:

I had these terrible headaches, and any loud noise or bright light was … I mean, it’s almost indescribable. If you’ve never had a concussion, I don’t know if words can do the feeling justice. Every little noise is like nails on a chalkboard, and you feel this dread so deep down inside your body.

So I pretty much lived a reverse lifestyle. I was in bed all day with the blinds closed, in total darkness, in total silence. Then I would get up at 11 p.m. and watch TV on mute, with the brightness turned way down. If somebody called to check on me, I didn’t want to talk. I can’t really explain it, but everything seemed so….

What’s the word?

I guess the word is daunting. Just the thought of talking to a friend on the phone seemed like a huge mental and almost physical effort. I was so irritable because of my symptoms that it was hard to be around people — even the people I loved. All I wanted to do was rest. And that’s when it becomes a vicious cycle. Because when you can’t get out of bed and do the stuff that makes you happy, you get depressed. And then it’s like you get depressed that you’re depressed. It’s a suffocating feeling.

Savard was never the same player following that incident. With the unfortunate way his career ended, it’s somewhat easy to forget just exactly how great Savard was at his peak, as well as how important he was to the Bruins.

After the Bruins finished last in the Northeast in ’05-’06, Savard came over in free agency (along with Zdeno Chara) and brought promise to a team that hadn’t won a playoff series since 1999.

Savard came to Boston fresh off a career-high 97-point season with Atlanta (RIP) and was regarded as one of the league’s premier playmakers at the time. He didn’t disappoint upon arrival, posting point totals of 96, 78 and 88 in his first three (and only full) seasons with the Bruins. Even with the health issues (he suffered a few lower body injuries in 2009-2010 as well) he finished as a point-per-game player in Boston.

So, what happens if he stays healthy?

Well, consider this: Savard entered 2009-2010 (his age 32 season) with 663 points. That season, he signed a seven-year extension with the Bruins worth $28.05 million (a shade under $4.2 million annually) so let’s assume that contract sticks in the alternate timeline.

In this revised history, Savard doesn’t suffer a concussion in the Pittsburgh game and plays out the remaining 18 games at a point-per-game clip. That puts him at 51 points on the season and 714 for his career.

Savard goes on to play out the remainder of that seven-year contract with the Bruins, retiring after the 2017 season (hey, that’s right now!) at age 39. During that run, he had a couple more 80+ point seasons and All-Star selections and – after being slowed down by a few injuries and good ol’ Father Time – averaged around 60 points per year.

He wraps up his career with 1,124 career points, walking away with a legitimate chance at being inducted into the Hockey Hall of Fame. At the very least, he’s considered one of the greatest playmakers in Bruins history and is beloved by the city for his contributions and passion both on and off the ice.

(That last part still rings true in reality. Boston loved Savard during his time here, and he seemed to love the city and organization as well. If you go to his Twitter page today, his avatar and cover photo are from his time with the Bruins, and the Bruins are the only team he claims in his bio.)

Most importantly, though, Savard hangs up his skates and walks away with his health.

But how does this alternate history affect the Bruins as a whole?

Well, keeping Savard on the roster (and his salary against the cap) likely means that Boston doesn’t trade for Tomas Kaberle at the trade deadline in 2011. It also means that they don’t deal Blake Wheeler and Mark Stuart to Atlanta for Rich Peverley (and Boris Valabik…lol) to clear money for Kaberle. It means they may not trade for Chris Kelly, either (though I wouldn’t put it past Peter Chiarelli to go get his mans regardless).

Do the Bruins still win the Cup in ‘11 despite those changes?

That’s the question that tortures me in this alternate reality thought exercise. The Bruins’ top line of Lucic-Krejci-Horton was their most productive that year, so if Savard slots in instead of Krejci, do they find the same success? When Horton goes down in the Cup Final, does a rookie Tyler Seguin slot into that top line and find the same success that Peverley did?

It’s not impossible, especially if Chiarelli still correctly assesses needs at the deadline and Tim Thomas still enters God Mode in the spring. But considering how many close calls the Bruins maneuvered that postseason – and how things seemed to fall perfectly into place — even slightly messing with the composition and chemistry of that team leads way to some doubt.

Still, for the sake of having some fun, let’s say the Bruins trade Wheeler for some defensive help at the deadline, then go into the playoffs with the following top nine forward group:

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That…that is intriguing.

Okay, I’m going to gather up the chutzpah to say that they still win it all in 2011. Hell, I’ll even say they go on to successfully win another in the next few years.

Not only does Savard get his name on the Cup, he plays a central role in making it happen. He continues to be a clutch postseason performer and is a key offensive contributor on those Cup-winning teams, claiming a piece of hockey immortality in the process.

The guy most affected by Savard’s extended career in this alternate timeline is David Krejci. The Czech center still posts commendable numbers and contributes significantly but he doesn’t play as large of a role in the 2011 postseason. Then, with Savard and Bergeron ahead of him on the depth chart, Krejci grows hungrier for a bigger role and leaves Boston after his contract expires in 2012.

And, as the icing on the cake to Savard finishing out his career happy and healthy, the Bruins don’t have to dump his contract in a Reilly Smith-for-Jimmy Hayes trade conducted to free up money for… Matt Beleskey.

Sigh.

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Losin Control- Michael Clifford Part 3

Here’s part 3 as requested!! Enjoy!!

"A concert? Seriously? Who are we seeing?"

You were currently standing outside the amphitheater. You entered though some back way, so you had no idea who was playing tonight. All you knew was the place was packed based on all the cars parked outside.

"You'll see. I think you'll like them."

"Who? Are they friends of yours?"

"Well, we are going backstage…"

"Is that a yes?"

He simply shrugged.

"Michael…"

You were suddenly interrupted when someone suddenly jumped out a pulled Michael in a huge hug.

"MIKEY!!!" The man with dark black hair with a red streak yelled. You couldn’t see who it was, but knew there was only one person with hair like that…

Sure enough when the man finally let go of Michael, you could see it was Jack Barakat. Soon you were also joined by Alex Gaskarth, who also pulled Michael into a hug.

"Hey guys, so this is Y/n. I told you I'd be bringing her. Y/n, this is-"

"I know who they are. I'm a HUGE fan" You said, cutting him off.

"Glad to hear that. Come here!" Alex said, pulling you into a hug.

"I wanna hug her too!" Jack said, pulling you and Alex into a hug, smushing you between them both.

"Hey guys come on! It's my girlfriend!"

"FINE!" Jack whined, letting go of you.

"We gotta go finish setting up anyway. We better see you backstage after the show Y/n! Bye loverboy!" Alex said, pulling Jack away from you guys.

"Of course we better be seeing you both on the side of the stage as we play!" Jack yelled as he was dragged away.

"You get used to them" Michael laughed. "Wait until you meet Rian and Zach"

"Um Michael…"

"Hm?"

"Girlfriend?" You asked, biting your lip.

"Oh I did say that huh? Wasn't really thinking straight. Guess in my head, you're already my girlfriend. I mean it's totally cool if you don't want to label us or anything, I mean this is the first date and-"

"Michael, I like the sound of girlfriend"

"Me too" Michael said, pulling you close to him.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, as he wrapped his around your waist. As you gazed into his hazel eyes you couldn't help but feel incredibly happy. He rested his forehead against yours, moving his gaze from your eyes to your lips. You knew he was going to kiss you. That made you even happier, but you also felt a sharp pain in your heart. You knew it was Michael, you knew you could trust Michael. But suddenly your ex Jack was there standing in front of you. Jack with that smug grin on his face, lip stick on his collar, eyes full of hate and lust, the smell of alcohol on his breath…

Your thoughts were interrupted when you heard someone talking. It was some guy, telling you both something about how he's supposed to take you both to the stage now. Guess the show was about to start.

You took a deep breath, then looked up at the guy who still held you in his arms. Michael. It was Michael, not Jack. Michael was there, looking at you with pure happiness on his face. Nevertheless you couldn't help but feel grateful for the interruption, even though this realization killed you inside.

"Ready for an amazing concert?" He asked. He had an odd look on his face, as if he knew exactly what you were thinking. That looked soon disappeared though, so you decided to just forget what had just happened.

"Definitely!" You said, grabbing his hand. There was no way you were not going to enjoy this night.

Luckily for you, all thoughts of Jack were gone for the rest of the night. Was kind of hard to think of him anyway, with Michael right next to you and All Time Low playing live a few feet away from you.

If there was anyone to go to a concert with, it was Michael. He was lost in stereo as much as you were, dancing and singing to every song with you. You were pleased to know he loved ATL as much as you did…

As much as you loved All Time Low, the best part of the night was during Dear Maria Count Me In, when Alex invited Michael on the stage.

Michael shook his head at first, but soon gave in. He walked on the stage, it seemed as though every person there was screaming his name. Maybe his band was pretty popular after all. Someone handed him a guitar, and he stood right next to Alex, who let Michael start off.

"I've got your picture, I'm coming with you, dear Maria count me in!..." Michael sang. His voice was good, very good. As the song went on, you learned he was an amazing singer, harmonizing perfectly with Alex. That was the only the half of it though…when he got his hands on that guitar….you'd never been more fascinated and attracted to someone. The guitar seemed to transform in his hands, becoming part of his being. The way he played, it would make any girl fall in love with him instantly. He was that amazing of a player.

By the time he rejoined your side, you still couldn't form words.

"Michael…you…I mean…I…uh…WOW!" You stuttered

"Thanks" He laughed

"You sing and play guitar?"

"Among other things. I'm the total package I know" He winked.

You laughed and shook your head, but didn't deny his statement either.

You watched the band thank the crowd and say goodnight.

"Come on, we better go backstage and meet them at their dressing room" Michael said, grabbing your hand and leading the way.

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Who loves All Time Low as much as I do??!! Lol thanks for reading!!

#5sos #5 seconds of summer #5sos imagines #5sos imagine #5sos au #michael clifford #michael clifford imagine #michael clifford imagines #michael 5sos #luke hemmings #ashton irwin #calum hood #all time low #losin control

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carey-pricemas · 8 years ago

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Baseball Game Jealousy- Andre Burakovsky

Ok I'm not going to lie, this is one of my favorite Andre ones that I've written so far! Like I'm SO stoked for you guys to read it! I hope you enjoy it as much as I liked writing it!

Warning: cussing, jealous Andre

Anon Request (I'm merging two of them to fit both): omg I'm so in love with all your imagines lol if it's not a bother could ya do another burkie one? Doesn't really matter what of to me just a burkie one Hahah

And: One where reader is a big baseball fan and they go to a game and meet her fave player and Andre gets jealous.

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You wiggled in your seat unable to sit still. You were so excited!

Tom and Andre wanted to hit up the Nationals game and when you found out you begged and pleaded your boyfriend to take you with. They finally broke down and here you were, sitting right behind the mound, in the only jersey you owned that didn't announce you were sleeping with the Capitals' Swedish bean.

"Are you this excited at our games?" Andre asked as you smacked his knee excitedly.

"No babe, because I get to see you every day, or almost every day!" You giggled. "I get to see Bryce Harper's butt today!" Tom burst into laughter and Andre gave you a strange look.

"You'd rather see his butt than mine?"

"Babe" you said dramatically. "This is like... seeing Sidney Crosby's butt in tight pants!"

"I don't even know what to say to you right now" Andre responded.

"Hey, at least I didn't make a sign!" you said. Andre rolled his eyes. You kept threatening to make an embarrassing sign that would be caught on camera and he would have to explain to the guys. "Besides, babe" you got close, "I get to see your butt without pants" you whispered with a wink. Tom heard and made a fake vomiting sound.

"On that note, I'm going to go get a hot dog. Do you guys want anything?"

"No thanks" Andre replied.

"Bryce Harper on a platter" you said with a wink. "Other than that? Nope!" Tom laughed and slapped Andre's shoulders as he walked off. "You can't be too mad babe! It's not like I'll get to meet him or anything" you said with an eye roll.

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Ok in your defense you didn't know Tom would be spotted and the team would invite the three of you down to the locker room after the game.

And you didn't anticipate Bryce Harper to notice your Harper jersey.

So it really wasn't your fault that Bryce offered to sign said jersey and you took it off to make it easier for him and were now standing in a room full of hot, sweaty testosterone driven men in only a tank top and jean shorts.

"Thank you so much" you gushed. "I'm a huge fan of yours!"

"Your butt at least" Tom added, laughing.

"I have to admit" Bryce said, grinning, "I've never been to a Caps game before."

"Never?" you gasped. "But... hockey?"

"I'm an All-American Vegas boy. We didn't grow up too much with hockey. So I've never been a big fan."

"You need to come to a game!" you said excitedly. "Andre! Tell him he needs to come to a game!"

"Yeah I guess" he muttered. You rolled your eyes before turning back to Bryce.

"Sometimes" you leaned in a whispered. "There's even fights!"

"I'd love to come sometime" he grinned.

"We can definitely work something out" Tom said. Both you and Tom were ignoring Andre's foul mood. "I think we should head out though, we've got an early flight tomorrow."

"No worries. Thanks for the support, man." Tom and Bryce fist bumped. He handed you your jersey back. "And thank you for YOUR support" he said with a wink. You blushed and took the fabric, holding it close to your chest.

"No problem" you breathed out. Andre grabbed your elbow and guided you out of the locker room and down the hallway, Tom trailing behind. "What is your problem?" you asked.

"My problem? Maybe my girlfriend should put on a shirt" he mumbled. You looked down.

"Oh for God's sake!" You pulled the jersey on. "Happy?"

"Would be happier if you hadn't taken it off in front of your boyfriend." You stopped and looked at Andre.

"I'm sorry?" you whispered harshly.

"I'm gonna go wait in the car" Tom said.

"No we're done with this asinine conversation" you said. The three of you walked out to the car in silence. What had started as a good, fun afternoon was no longer fun.

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"Oh my god" you sighed as you sat next to Lauren Oshie. "I was going to KILL Andre this weekend!"

"What happened?" Liza asked.

"So we went to the baseball game right?" All the girls nodded. "And he lost his crap because I was fangirling over Bryce Harper!"

"Harper is hot" Mandy said.

"Thank you!"

"But" she said, laughing. "Karl still wouldn't be happy if I was squealing over some other guy."

"Ugh... but I go home with him. Isn't that the point?"

"Not to territorial men" Gina said. "And Andre is the sweet puppy, but he's still all man." The other girls nodded.

"That's a different jersey" a deep voice said from behind you. You turned and saw Bryce Harper and a few of the other Nationals standing there.

"Hey" you said smiling. "Guess you got to a game after all!"

"Yeah, Andre invited us" he said. The girls shared a look before laughing. You felt your face turn red.

"I'll just move" Lauren said giggling. Bryce came and sat beside you, the other players finding empty seats near the other WAGs.

"Andre Burakovsky invited you?"

"Yeah! Offered us the use of this suite."

"Well that was nice of him" you said. The lights dimmed and both of your attention was directed to the ice as the Capitals skated on.

"It's not as cold as I thought" Bryce commented.

"It's colder the closer to the ice you get." You both watched the game, cheering when the Caps did something good and booing when the other team was up. About a third of the way through the second period is when it happened.

You were going to kill your boyfriend.

As the puck dropped in the Islanders' zone, Andre and one of the Islanders dropped their gloves. You were on your feet instantly.

"What is he doing? What is he doing?" you yelled. The crowd cheered as they skated closer, grabbing the collars of each other's jerseys. "What in the hell is that boy doing?" you demanded. Liza came forward and wrapped you up in a hug. You watched him take and exchange punches over her shoulder. Suddenly the Islanders player hit the ice and the crowd cheered. You took a deep breath and let it out, burying your face in Liza's shoulder. "I'm going to kill him."

"Deep breaths. He's ok."

"He's dead. I hope the Caps have a good replacement for him." You looked up as they showed Andre in the penalty box, grinning like a lunatic.

"You know" Bryce commented. "I don't think Andre has anything to worry about."

"What?" you asked.

"I mean, you're pretty torn up about a good, clean fight. I don't think you're going to leave him for me any time soon." He winked at you, making you laugh.

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As soon as he left the locker room, you attacked. He had to take a step back as he caught you in his arms.

"I'm going to kill you."

"Babe..."

"No!" You stepped back and help up a finger. "No! No 'babe', no 'listen' or 'let me explain'! You totally did that to prove you were better than Harper and I'm going to KILL you! You don't fight I don't care who's watching! I love you, you stupid jealous man!" You kissed him passionately.

"So we can get rid of the Harper jersey?"

"Not in your dreams!"

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Ok so this one got kind of long (sorry?)! But I hope you liked it! Let me know what you thought! Up next: Morgan Rielly!

#andre burakovsky #burkie #washington capitals #nhl imagines #nhl imagine

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sleepymarmot · 8 years ago

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I still have about 200 queued posts (bear with me... and sorry followers on mobile), but I want to quickly publish some of my post-binging thoughts before the new episode comes out. (Because I get overwhelmed by other people’s opinions and can’t remember what my own were unless I write them down. It’s easy to recall which parts I simply loved for what they are because other people did too and I can reblog their posts; it’s harder to not forget my own perspective outside of that.)

I didn’t actually expect to post these opinions because I don’t feel comfortable criticizing TAZ the way I tear apart big franchises like ME. But I did write it down, so what the hell. Let’s start with the biggest piece of negativity then. I can't name a favourite arc but I think the last place is Petals to the Metal. The racing sequence was spectacular enough that I didn't mind the pacing that much, but the final episode was really disappointing. A combination of not actually explicitly confirming the pairing in canon (I seriously expected that would be the culmination of the arc) AND Bury Your Gays (yes, I know Griffin dealt with the feedback gracefully, that doesn't fix the actual story though) AND some extreme railroading AND deus ex machina/Power of Love (at least the latter was retconnet as in not retroactive continuity but retroactive context). That actually put me off the show for some time. I think this moment encapsulates my problems with Hurley's writing pretty well. She really comes off as a Mary Sue written by a self-aware male writer who feels the need to put female characters on a pedestal -- certainly not the most objectionable phenomenon, but still makes my eyes roll. I feel the same about Carey and Killian in The Crystal Kingdom and the recurring remarks about "competent women". (I mean, I understand the gameplay reason for that, it's not that I'm asking for super detailed fights between NPCs, but I didn't like the way it sounded in the story.) Thankfully Carey got some development with Magnus, Killian had a good introduction before that glorification thing started cropping up, and their relationship's good obviously; plus, thankfully, Lucretia is completely free from this (she actually might be my fave NPC in terms of writing).

I think my least favourite part of The Suffering Game is the final past bosses battle? It's not just repetitive -- this repetition, needless in this case, devalues the other instances of our heroes facing the past. The first big one was Noelle (great: surprising, touching, important for the overall plot as we now know), then we had the three robots (I was pretty delighted to see Jenkins and Magic Brian again) even it was more about combat than meaningful facing of past mistakes, then the destruction of Phandolin was seen again in The Eleventh Hour, and only a bit later the setting of the first arc will be revisited once more. So even not counting this scene, it was starting to get a bit navel-gazey, and the complete lack of story relevance of that battle diluted things even more. It kind of sounded like running out of ideas -- I'd prefer any other challenge or just a repeat of the random monster generation. (Btw I totally expected to see the crab from Rockport Limited in that lineup. It's kind of special to me because back I went "Ah a floating crab, yeah feel you boys, I hate fighting Praetorians too, at least this thing doesn't shoot lase--" and then it started shooting fire, lol.)

Back to what I wanted to talk about: I have lots of thoughts/feelings about consequences re: the last episodes. The spoilers I've seen gave me so much anxiety! Like I've read that Magnus loses memory so I completely expected him to lose everything. So I spent a lot of time in complete dread, and when I read "Magnus forgets" in the summary my heart dropped, and then it wasn't that bad at all so I thought "that's it?" and felt relieved until the fucking clone tank. At which point I thought "No, this is it" especially because all of the players interpreted it that way. So I was very surprised and relieved that he kept everything, and that Griffin was so kind to him. But that kinda brought me to another problem -- that the new body undid Magnus's sacrifices. He didn't lose a finger or 10 years of life; the only loss was the identity of his nemesis which a) is a sad thing and he might be happier without it -- I would; and b) the boys promised to take care of that. Meanwhile, Taako and especially Merle have to live with their sacrifices. That's unfair. I was pretty thrilled when I realized the sacrifices were For Real, and was feeling real dread and anxiety about them (can't say if in a wholly good way) and I don't like devaluing that. Though of course I'm pretty jazzed that the character who is at the moment my favourite got treated so well. That scene was cathartic as hell! But back to the sacrifices: I'm intrigued by the problem of balance of hurting the character in a way that's good for narrative and/or game balance (yeah the intent of "let's nerf them a bit" was easy to see) but not compromising them as a piece of writing. I didn't give a shit about max health or dexterity penalties, but the story significant things about losing body parts and especially memories sounded brutal and cruel to me. I actually laughed when during one of the commercial breaks Griffin said something like "I hope this isn't causing you too much anxiety" because I was rushing through this arc because of that anxiety! But in the end, as it often happens, the half-misinterpreted spoilers made everything sound worse than it actually was. And I was very glad and relieved to hear Griffin specifically clarify that he's not going to take away important parts of a character.

But despite what I just said, when I started The Suffering Game arc I was actually amazed because it was second arc in a row built around my personal favorite tropes! I really appreciate Doctor Who-ish journey through genres (that doesn't take itself seriously but also has an epic underlying plot. All my fandoms are the same...) Murder on the Rockport Limited also counts in that category. So if I had to pick a favorite, they'd probably be among the candidates? Well I don't know how to count Reunion Tour for that. I really liked The Eleventh Hour, time travel/time loop stories are like my #1 fave. And it's a closed room mystery too (like Rockport Limited). That was the point where I started listening much faster because I needed to learn the truth. (Also, the Lunar Interlude before that arc, with the three separate stories, was freaking revolutionary and started a new level of character development for the show in general.) But I was kind of disappointed by the lack of a Holmes speech-type explanation of everything in the end. Because a big part of enjoyment was the expectation that it'll all click together beautifully in the end -- and some pieces still didn't fit. I'm still not sure if I missed something or that wasn't explained. Why was Isaak, like our heroes and unlike everyone else in the town, aware of the temporal loops and free to act? What was the interaction between Taako's spell and the code word -- did the spell have any effect other than almost drowning everyone, would "Junebug" have worked by itself? I had some more questions I thing, but right when I was going to pause/think/rest, everything was swept away by the freaking Red Robe Magnus cliffhanger, so I continued to run forward internally screaming "Explain! Explain!" like a Dalek, and then that was joined by the aforementioned Suffering Game anxiety. And that's the story how I marathoned the last part of the show three or more times faster than I planned to.

I really loved listening to TTAZZ, both of them, it was really good meta! I think I started to appreciate the show more after the first one. I can see where the fan criticism re: representation is coming from, but I myself also belong to the category of people who can never visualise their own (or anyone's, really) characters and therefore really love the freedom of interpretation. I'm also a bit sad about the commentary on racism in the new one, which, in addition to the comments about the Taco Quest in the first one, made me pretty sure that storyline/running joke is not coming back. I found it really funny back then in the beginning of the show -- more so because I, myself, have no freaking idea what tacos are actually like. I mean, we might have some mexican food places over here, but I've never been to one. And I intentionally didn't look it up after starting the show because it was funnier and kind of immersive this way lol. But they sound pretty committed to non-committance about the enthnicities, and raising the topic in canon again would force the issue, so I think they're just quietly abandoning it. Story-wise, I'd love to hear something like "Taako had invented a dish and named it after himself, but the voidfish baby ate the recipe so he couldn't recreate it until now" because I'm a sucker for justifying jokes and tying them into the main plot/emotional storyline. But in general I'd prefer any option that offends people the least. I was kind of surprised when Justin talked about abandoning Taako's early "dumb" characterisation, because I hadn't actually thought it was "officially" thrown away. I assumed Taako was just really bad at paying attention, and got better at managing that as a part of organic character development. I actually found that kind of relatable, plus "absent-minded professor/wizard" is a classic trope. Also TTAZZ made me wish even harder for the lost awesome adventure of Magnus and Kravitz in the astral plane. And it was already slightly souring my excitement about the totally awesome & touching scene we got instead.

I didn't really get the exposition about the planes in The Crystal Kingdom, and the long explanation in the latest two episodes require more attention than I gave them. Hope today's episode will make things clearer. Some things I hope to hear explained soon:

Why has Merle died more times than Magnus or Taako?

Also, looking forward to the promised explanation of how Gundren can be Merle's blood relative lol

Why was the Chalice so much more self-aware and civil than the other Relics? Is it related to the fact that its creator has some special connection to the (a?) voidfish?

Was Magnus a wizard before? Being a lich, creating a Grand Relic... If so, why doesn't he have magic now?

If Magnus is a lich, can he one day die and stay in the astral plane with Julia like an ordinary human, like he wanted? If not, that's a pretty big and tragic turn of events for him. (Granted, this might be more of a D&D mechanics question...)

(I actually just found a Reddit thread starting with the same question, discussing whether all 7 are really liches or not, so these two points might not be even valid haha)

(I also saw someone theorize that Lup invented the taco recipe -- and damn I really do want to see that now. Imagine trying to figure out something and later realize that it was created by your dead sister who named that thing after you.)

(I was confused about LichBarry’s reveal because I thought at the end of PTTM he was mind-controlling Captain Captain Bane to poison THB. Someone had the same question and another person answered that Barry’s spell was only to make Captain drink the poison, and the murder attempt was on him. I totally didn’t get that. Between this and my question about “Junebug”, either mind-control spells are not very clearly explained in this show, I suck at understanding them, or both.)

(Shit, this list has transformed from future episodes wishlist into reactions to Reddit lol)

Since I was talking about Taako and Lup, here’s another passing thought: remember how Taako immediately wanted to be Like Them when he saw the lich duo? You know, the elven brother and sister?!

Not related to anything, but I just realized I can wear jeans as a stealth fandom reference and it's delightful :D

#the adventure zone #blah blah blah

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vertigocrime · 8 years ago

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1 to 117. I dare you.

I’m going to fight who ever did this lmao

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? Idk if he likes me back as much as I like him back

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?Hah no, kind of wished I did

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?Yes I would care. It’s not like i’m against it as the thing itself, I just cannot stand the smell at all.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?Sometimes. I wouldn’t say I trust anyone. I’ve never really trusted anyone, so I guess that’s why i’m so mysterious at school lmao

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?Talking to the guy I like and emailing a college to talk about my application.

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?Probably @stink-burritos

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?Dump the loser, and if he tries to comeback I’ll make him hurt really bad. Mentally and physically. Nobody hurts me like that without hurting themselves.

8: Are you close with your dad? Eh kind of. He’s an asshole.

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?Hah you wish, nah I didn’t.

10: What are you listening to?My parents watching Bleach downstairs

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?Thai tea

12: Do you like hickeys?Maybe, haven’t gotten one yet, just not in a visible area I guess.

13: What time do you go to bed? It differs. Sometimes it’s 12:00am, 1:00am, or 3:00am

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? I don’t really depend on anyone so no

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Nah, I’m fast with one hand but two hands is faster when texting

16: Do you always answer your texts?Yes unless it’s a conversation ending text

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?No I don’t, it was hard to forgive him, but he’s a good guy

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? like 6 hours ago

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?My crush~~~ I like seeing his name when he texts me back

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?I might see my crush on Wednesday

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? My cat, does he count? lol

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yeah

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?Debatable. Loads of shit is happening right now and i’m not sure if i’m happy or if i’m sad.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Not right now

25: In the past week, have you cried?

Yes

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?Not wearing a shirt rn, just in my sports bra

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?No, wouldn’t mind though

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?Probably my crush, but tbh he’s super busy doing homework so that I can go over to his place tomorrow

29: Do you have a best friend? Kind of?

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?Yes, but we aren’t dating so it’s fine.

31: Who was your last call/text message from? My friend Jack

32: Are you mad at anyone?I’m mad at P

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?Pfft yes. My crush is almost 3 years older than me

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 21

35: How many more days until your birthday?201 days

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?Road trip with @stink-burritos to the beach~

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Almost all of my friends are guys

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? No not really

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?Nothing comes to mind lol

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? No

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? tbh, no. When I was 15 I was fooling around with a 20 year old, and when I was 17 I was fooling around with a 25 year old. I genuinely liked these two guys, nobody made me like them and they didn’t manipulate me.

42: Are you available?Single? Yes, but my mind is taken over by my crush;;

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? high school hasn’t ended for me yet

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?Probably my lip

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?Yeah, i’m good friends with some of my exes. See now, it’s the could-have-been’s that you can’t be friends with

46: Do you regret anything? Playing in P’s confession and saying that I liked him even though I actually didn’t

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Nothing

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?Yes, twice. Still friends with both of them, but we don’t share everything with each other anymore

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?Nope!

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?I am pursuing them

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?No not yet

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?Yep!

53: What was the last thing you ate?Something like Chicken Alfredo

54: Did you get any compliments today?Maybe??? Idk I don’t remember lol

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?Disney World in April-May

56: Do you own anything from other countries?I have a few Italian souvenirs I picked up when I went there, a Vietnam shirt my parents bought me, some Chinese money, a paper bead necklace from orphans in Africa. But if I take the question literally then I own something from almost every country since stuff gets traded and imported c:

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?Almost all guys

58: Where have you lived most of your life?Texas

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?Last semester when driving to class lol

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?Yes

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?Nope

62: Who do you text the most?This past 2 weeks have been my crush~~~

63: What was the last movie you saw?Madoka Magika movie the beginning

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?I don’t have a boyfriend.girlfriend

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? Two

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? Yes, but he was only younger by a month

67: Do you curse around your parents? I did once (Nothing happened btw lol)

68: Are you happy with where you live?Yes kind of. Wouldn’t mind getting away

69: Picture of yourself?

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70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?Monogamous

71: Have you ever been dumped?Once

72: What do you most like about making out?Taking a peak at the other person’s face in between kisses when your breath is combined

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

Hmm no

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually the other, i’m too shy

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?Their face is first

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?My crush~~

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?I’ve never had sex

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?I’ve never had sex

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?My crush, I can’t stop thinking about him staring at me while I watched Pokémon and the dumb face he made when I gave him a side glance, such a cute smile ebewkjberwkgk

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?Maybe, most likely if i’m older though, can’t handle children right now

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?Yes

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? No not really, I’ve only recently grown some balls when confessing my feelings lol

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?Uh, nah?? I don’t miss my last boyfriend.

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?Forever ago so idk

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?No I haven’t

86: How can I win your heart?Idk lol, just be you

87: What is your astrological sign?Virgo

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?Being asleep lol

89: Do you cook?Yep!

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Yes, but I usually fight for a friendship

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?Yes, with my crush~

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? monogamous relationships

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?If their eyes are beautiful, that’s the first thing. If I can stare into your eyes then hell yes. Then it’s the smile. If the smile is genuinely cute or true, then hell yes. Body type is next. I usually go for thinner guys, fit or not.

94: Name four things that you wish you had!- My crush (oooooooo)- Choi Seungcheol- tickets to a BTS fan meet- tickets to a Seventeen fan meet

95: Are you a player?I am without even knowing, why tf do so many people like me???

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?No

97: Are you a tease?Yes, 100%

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Nope!

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yes

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?Hmm, none that I can think of

101: Hugs or Kisses?Kisses

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? Pfft yes

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?Their face

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? nrivdjkbvwbkb yes

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

No, i’d tell them to break it off if they want to do anything. If they’re willing to cheat then fuck no. In my opinion it’s better to leave someone for someone else than to cheat on that someone with someone else.

106: Do you flirt a lot?Unconsciously yes

107: Your last kiss?Last Wednesday 2/22/2017

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? LOL, nah.

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? Yes my crush~~

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?My crush~~

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?My crush

112: Does someone like you currently?Too many people

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? My crusshshhhhh

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?I want a serious relationship, but i’m so terrible at maintaining them

115: Ever made out with just a friend?Nope

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?A bit of both. I’m lonely when single, but I kind of feeling caged when in a relationship

117: Who are you to challenge me to answer all 117 of these???

#Verti talks #anon #answered #this took awhile lmao #bet you thought I couldn't do it lol

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