#I’m tired grandpa

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“eLaIn CaN’t HaVe HiS bAbIeS tHeY wOn’T bE tOgEtHeR” they scream into the void as though this is something a woman, let alone a woman who was adopted, would ever write herself.

This would have also been an issue with Feysand and Nessian before Nesta changed their anatomy and it didn’t stop either of those relationships, hell, Azriel also never let it stop him from wanting Mor for years either.

But let’s see what Azriel has to say about having kids:

Cassian looked over at Az. “You think you’ll ever be ready for one?” Ever be ready to confess to Mor what’s in your heart?

“I don’t know,” Azriel said.

“Do you want a child?”

“It doesn’t matter what I want.” Distant words—ones that prevented Cassian from prying further. He was still happy to be Mor’s buffer with Azriel, but there’d been a change lately. In both of them. Mor no longer sat beside Cassian, draped herself over him, and Azriel … those longing glances toward her had become few and far between. As if he’d given up. After five hundred years, he’d somehow given up. Cassian couldn’t think why.

Azriel says “it doesn’t matter what he wants” in response to whether or not he wants to have a kid. Even if you were to think SJM wrote that Elain’s ability to have a child or not has any bearing on her endgame, it would not matter to Az if Elain couldn’t. Just like it did not matter to Rhys or Cassian.

What’s interesting about this moment is what Cassian observes. And we all know fashionista Cassian’s opinions and observations are always valid.

There had been a change in Azriel. Azriel no longer wanted Mor. Azriel seemed distant when answering though, weird that he’d be distant, it’s not like he wanted to be with Mor. Could his answer be referring to how he felt about someone else?

“She made ballrooms into battlefields and plotted like any general. Like you two,” she said, nodding to Cassian, and then, a bit more shyly, to Azriel.

Azriel offered her a small smile that Elain quickly looked away from. Cassian tucked away his puzzlement. Lucien was certainly not here to snarl at any male who looked at her for too long.

Cassian the observant notices a small moment between Elain and Azriel. One that, if Lucien were around, would cause him to snarl in Azriel’s direction.

I guess since Cassian didn’t put two and two together, it couldn’t have been Elain that Azriel has moved on to. Of course it was not Elain, Azriel can’t have babies with her and she doesn’t look good in black.

Must’ve been about his mate he doesn’t know about.

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ANGELA CRYING AGAAAAAIIINNNNNN

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BUT WAIT THERE IS MORE

I know the writers desperately want us to forget that ha.wk was a whole ass force and want us to think he isn’t as good as s.am, r.obby, m.iguel, and t.ory but they’re stupid and wrong so allow me to explain his train of losses.

His confidence got fully decimated after ck cut off his Mohawk. That was after he spent months feeling guilty about all the shit he had done at his worst when he was in ck. He had been trying to prove himself, to prove he wasn’t a bad person, to prove he was loyal and redeeming himself. That shit was trying enough but then they took away something that was so detrimental to him and his personality and his identity. When he showed up at the dojo in season one with a wild ass haircut and he was seen as something more than just the scar on his face, he became a new person. E.li was gone, H.awk was born. He didn’t want to be e.li anymore, he didn’t want anyone to think of him as the kid he was. He took this new life and he rolled with it and it was nice until it got out of control. At that point he was trying to figure out who h.awk was when he wasn’t in ck. Then they ripped his security blanket out right from under him and he was crane kicked back to reality.

He felt like utter garbage about himself again up until the a.ll v.alley and he struggled through it until mo.on bless her heart gave him a motivating push to remember that Mohawk or not he was capable and badass and could kick Ky.ler’s ass. And he did. And he held his own against rob.by, I don’t care that rob.by got distracted because that doesn’t mean ha.wk would have definitely lost. He is fully on par with rob.by. He CAN beat any of the core four, even mig.uel even if in character my ha.wk doesn’t think he can. Fact is he has the skills to be able to do so. He became champ, even at his lowest, and that was fucking great. But he still wasn’t whole.

He went right back to trying to bring that mohawk back. I will not forgive the writers for sweeping this shit to the side when they’re the idiots who brought it up. He’s bringing back the mohawk, back to being the tough guy who can stand up to ck when they’re being assholes, wanting to be a good influence especially when the younger boy at the water park clearly is looking up to him. And the fact of the matter is, reinventing himself and becoming this violent anger fueled version of himself and then jumping ship to the more docile dojo and losing what made him reinvent himself just to go back to that mindset while also not having karate which was a motivator for him all throughout the series would give anyone whiplash. He’s stressed. He’s tired. He’s trying to just enjoy himself, enjoy his relationship now that he has it back, trying to figure out who he is if not a karate student. AND, the summer before senior year, he’s 100% thinking about college and beginning to slowly figure out plans and what he wants to do once it’s time to start applying. The ck writers can fight me on that. Of course he was thinking about it. Extensively. Obsessively. On top of all that he has to deal with ck being dick beetles, sil.ver being sil.ver while they’re not being trained anymore. Then his one sensei gets his ass kicked, and they’re back in the game of bringing down ck and now they’re looking at qualifying for an international karate tournament. He is the stressed out Mr krabbs meme.

My ha.wk especially strives to be the best, is always working towards perfection, and beats himself up if he’s anything less than that. He trains his ass off. He wants to beat ck more than most. His grudge with them is stronger than most because he fully lost himself within all of it, nearly killed a boy, broke his best friend’s arm. He doesn’t want ck to exist anymore. To him he can’t be the strong one, the best if he’s not channeling how he got there in the first place. So he dyes his mohawk green for something fresh, maybe the push he needs to win. He worked so hard and he trained all night once the boys decided he would be the one to fight for the dojo. He went in determined and resolute and ready to win, but he still had all those underlying concerns and stressors and Ken.ny played dirty. He got the wind knocked out of him and got made to look weak and nearly cost them the chance of a lifetime while letting ck win. Thankfully s.am got the win and they got into the st.

The party following this - and this is why I really have mad beef with the writers - his mohawk is scrapped of color again and rob.by asks him what happened to the green and he says “it didn’t really work out for me so I’m still trying to figure it out”. Who says that over hair? If it was just hair to him it wouldn’t matter. It’s not. It’s so much more. He’s struggling. And now he’s lost to a not even high school freshman and he’s doubting himself. But he’s trying not to show it. He goes with the group to interrogate stin.gray because he cares about his dojo no matter what and he’ll do what it takes to help them, to help his senseis, to stop ck. Before they go to try and bring sil.ver down he has a fresh mohawk color - back to blue, where he started in s1, and I find that very intentional. Things were good when he first became ha.wk. He felt good, and strong, and capable and he wanted those feelings back. So he went back to the blue. And he and dem did what they do best with the tech, and they kicked Ky.lers ass, and they took sil.ver down and it felt good but he still doesn’t feel quite himself. Who even is himself at this point.

Now we’re at season 6. He’s still dealing with the fact that he lost to ke.nny, he’s still trying to figure out who he is and who he wants to be, and now senior year is starting and college is getting closer and d.em is yapping in his ear about MIT and he doesn’t know how to tell his bin.ary bro that he has schools he’s thought about and he doesn’t think MIT is it for him. And they’re training hard for the sek.ai tai.kai which will be no joke and he himself is putting in double time bc that’s who he is.

The stress is catching up to him. He’s not performing the level he knows he’s capable of performing at. He’s getting his ass handed to him by the core four and frankly deep down it’s hard not to feel resentful about it. D.em is talking even more about MIT and finally it culminates and the truth comes out and his friend is pissed and hurt. In the woods, they encounter one another, and ha.wk is pissed too because this is his life and his choice and he should have told d.em sooner he knows that but it doesn’t change the fact that he is allowed to do what is best for him. So they’re fighting for the flag. And he kicks d.em harder than he wanted to and he feels bad. He doesn’t want to be that guy ever again who hurts people he cares about with a skill that was important to him and he didn’t want to taint. And this especially is important given d.em’s “how do you like it” comment. He’s right back to that moment and how he felt after and how he has felt since. So when d.em kicks him, he doesn’t chase him even if he REALLY wants to fight for MD at the st. He lets him have the flag. He lets him have the win.

Months pass of who even fucking knows what because the writers are lazy. I imagine of d.em being pissed at him. Giving him the cold shoulder at school and during training but them slowly starting to talk again even if just to bicker and fight. Now we’re at part 2. And ha.wk is completely off his game and he doesn’t even have a clear reason why like ro.bby does. Again, he’s doubting his skill and if he’s as good as his friends. Plus d.em is still pissed at him. Oh and he has less than a month to figure out where he’s going to school. He’s sitting on acceptance letters, and he only has until May first to decide. He’s stressed, he’s mad, it’s showing in his karate. He and d.em making up gives him a boost. And it’s a step in the right direction.

I think going forward, him finally making a college decision (Berkeley for my canon), trying to accept that he doesn’t have to be perfect 24/7, and ultimately letting go of the mohawk is going to bring him the most peace. They’ll never show that of course but that’s what I’m here for.

[skinnyazn]

Bruh fuck this electionnnnnn

Like how is it so close in the year 2024??!!

[cosmiccdivinityy]

There’s nothing worst than not liking the most popular fandom/fanon headcanons cause then you’re left with like no fanfic to read unless you spend hours shifting through shit 😭😭

Like I hate Vigilante!Deku and dadzwa and almost every MHA fanfic involves some sort of the two. Or shinsou is a major character with a poor baby backstory like idgaf about that child. Or Deku is straight up a villain with the LOV like cool let’s gloss over all the murder they tried to commit and did.

Or Danny Phantom and everyone’s instance to cross it over with DC specifically Batman if I ever meet the person who started that 😤😤

Sigh.

This is why I stick with HP there’s so much more variety, and those people don’t go crazy with the tagging system so it’s easier to shift through shit

[bilboyagathechickenfootedhobbit]

Some feminists really just cannot fathom the thought that not every single woman shares all the exact same opinions as them and they cannot deal with it in any way other than disparaging and shitting all over the woman with a different opinion.

Because that’s apparently how feminism on Tumblr works.

Good job, ladies. Good job. You keep on tearing one another down, shitting on any woman who does not fall into IMMEDIATE lockstep with your rigid beliefs, ignore the lived experiences and advice of older women and mothers, call any woman who dates a man a dick-sick handmaiden, close your ears to any criticisms or dissent, and argue endlessly over minutiae all the time.

I’m SURE the men oppressing us will put our oppression on pause while we bitch at one another endlessly. I’m sure they’ll patiently wait for every last feminist ever in the world to fully agree 100% on every last minute little detail before they start up their campaign of oppression against us! Gosh, I bet they’re even sitting around doing the same thing! Policing each other over language and opinions, saying, gee guys, we can’t possibly strip women of their right to abortions until we can ALL UNANIMOUSLY AGREE on the whether or not we call ourselves oppressors or persons of an oppressive nature.

Clown ass feminism. Get off the internet and go volunteer to help women in the real world. Stop thinking that being a self-righteous keyboard warrior makes you some kind of new and improved tech-savvy Dworkin.

[thissweetenamor]

[sarahscribbles]

Rating this evening 2/10 because @the-lady-amphitrite called me stinky, I can’t find my Loki shirt for our trip, and I’m not even halfway packed 😭

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[bigbrotherismyreligion]

Now they seem like they’re leaning towards Leah again ????

[fulokis]

Bruh why do all the spaggots wanna hit Florida

[lemontartyellow]

So glad that Kristen has finally became one of my Gotham Blorbos properly. It’s so fun to have another character where no one else can really talk about them without my brain going “Erm, ackshully 🤓☝️” even if I agree with what they’re saying.

[defst0ned]

i’d like to not be here anymore. where is the exit?

[taichea]

the prince

[sarecleoflove]

I have work for 6 days straight 😭.

[morning-star-joy]

getting so extremely tired of all these “fanfic ick” videos and people talking about what makes a fic “terrible” like shut up. Literally shut up. It’s a work of love, it’s a hobby, it’s offered to you for FREE shut UP