#I’m the definition of a mess

[skinreflectsthesun]

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[lavender-rroses]

team bonding

extra i forgot to add lol

[everytimewetouch-dot-mp3]

when i was a teenager i used to get so angry at the insinuation that i might be responsible for improving my mental health. i didn’t make myself mentally ill; i didn’t traumatize myself. it wasn’t my fault, so why should i have to clean up the mess? it wasn’t fair.

and now in my old age…it still isn’t fair. but whether it’s fair or not is a lot less important to me. whether it’s fair doesn’t change the fact that i don’t want to be a vampire to the people i love. i don’t want every interaction to be ‘i’m miserable and it’s everyone’s fault but my own.’

it wasn’t my fault. no one taught me how to be a person; i didn’t get to mature emotionally at the same pace as others around me because i didn’t have examples to follow. people did unforgivable things to me when i was too young to even understand that they were wrong. i didn’t make the mess. but at the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter who made the mess.

sometimes people come over and they trash your place and then they leave. and the options we’re left with are (1) leave the mess, since we didn’t make it. live in the mess. it’s not our fault so we shouldn’t have to clean it up; or (2) clean it up anyway. it’s still not our fault. and we shouldn’t have to clean it up, but the mess is there, and we can choose to clean it up anyway. not for the sake of the people who made that mess, but because we really, really don’t need to live in someone else’s mess.

it is never ever too late to pick up a broom and start cleaning it up.

[housecow]

at this point wouldn't it be better to just never wear a bra?

if i didn’t wear a bra they’d bounce while i walk, and that’s SO annoying

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

While Edwin’s more than a bit stand-offish and definitely not the most tactful, I never did get the sense that he doesn’t like people - in fact, I think his insistence that he’s “not good with people” and his general emotional detachment/disinterest has a lot more to do with his assumption that they don’t or won’t like him.

And while that’s very sad to think about… it’s not as if his belief here is hard to understand, considering his past experiences. But it’s left him quite guarded and lonely, and of course, the more he isolates himself from people other than Charles (and even here, he allows himself little vulnerability), the more he reinforces this fear that people won’t like him, and the less he allows himself to properly sympathize or empathize with others, which is why his friendships with Crystal and Niko and Monty (short-lived as that was) are so important. Once he started to let some of those walls down, to not be so scared of vulnerability and to be around people who allow themselves to feel and want so readily (to live! who allow themselves to live without fear of loving!), he’s really not nearly as bad with people as he seems to think he is - and, in fact, he’s actually quite good at saying or doing the right thing for them when it really counts.

[baneonono]

Athena went to Telemachus because he needed her help, not because he had already bested a challenge and shown his worth. Odysseus is the equivalent of a “gifted kid” being pushed too far and cracking but Telemachus is getting Athena’s help because he needs the help.

[smilesrobotlover]

Part 2 :0 ||part 3

Oh my gosh I am so impatient 😭 anyways another little traditional comic test using my copics and stuff. This is where the dads meet a certain musician. Can you guess which one?

It’s funny cuz I wanted to buy a spiral sketchbook for this type of stuff and I got two for $10, plus they were 40% off. And then I got new liners cuz mine were dying for $7 and THOSE were also 40%. I spent a total of $12 which is a HUGE deal. Unfortunately the quality isn’t as good with the sketchbooks 😅 as you can see, the copics reeeeally bled into the lineart so that is gonna be a challenge, but it’s not biggie! It’s not meant to look perfect anyway! Maybe I need a thicker line but for now I must suffer

Anyways the dads are so silly to me. I love them. Leon is kind of a pain to deal with here, but you’ll understand why soon enough. He has a reason he’s acting this way 🤌

Edit: here’s a transcript so y’all can read my handwriting

Page 1:

Rusl: Oy Leon!

Page 2:

Rusl: you mind slowing down for the rest of us?

Leon: *sigh* fine.

Rusl: hey now, not everyone is as fit to travel through the woods! Give them a break!

Leon: *grumble*

Page 3:

Rusl: alright y’all. Break time.

Talon: oh thank goodness

Ammon: hey, you mind boosting me up that tree? I’ll have a good view.

Linebeck: sure thing, shortie.

Ammon: I’ll kill you

Linebeck: hehe

Page 4;

Leon: hey! I never said we were taking a break!

Linebeck: uh-huh, and who put YOU in charge?

Leon: my son is out there somewhere! I just find him! I don’t have time to wait around!

Linebeck: then do us all a favor and leave!

Rusl: woah woah woah! We need to stick together, ok? No one is leaving!

Page 5:

Rusl: and Leon, we all wanna find our sons as much as you… but we can’t wander around the woods without a plan!

Rusl: we’ve been walking for hours now, we can’t push ourselves past our limits!

Leon: hmph… fine… I’ll scout ahead.

Rusl: wait, I JUST said we need to stick together!

Leon: I won’t be too far. Holler if you need me.

Rusl: ugh, that man is gonna be a pain.

Linebeck: AAUGH!

[mykelneedssleep]

We’ve been talking about it the fact that Jacobi definitely wears glasses recently but as a person with absolutely terrible depth perception I feel like we don’t talk about that part of his canon enough

Like give me fics of him just straight up walking into shit because it seems father away than it is, or going to pick something up and just completely missing. Give me fics of him struggling to drive and getting headaches when trying to look at stuff at a distance for too long. Bad depth perception Jacobi stans rise for this cause with me

[flowers-and-dndoc]

Something something the doctor has settled down multiple times (11 on trenzalore, 12 on darilium, 12 on earth guarding missy, 14) but it ends. It always ends and he moves on and the people he loved are still just as dead and gone as when he doesn’t stay only now it hurts more because he *tried*, he knew them and loved them and tried to stay with them and it still didn’t work, it’s still just a blip to him in his thousands of years life, and he’s still lonely in the end. So he doesn’t let himself think about the fact that this is a repeat experiment, doesn’t let himself get remember all the times he’s stayed before. He idealizes the normal, mundane, human life but tells himself he doesn’t deserve it and that’s why he can’t have it. When circumstances force him to slow down and force him to stay he treats it as a new chance because he has to - because the alternative is accepting he knows how this will end and it will not end well.

[locustime]

Friendships where one of them is tall and one of them is short :)

I need to practice my human anatomy and character design, so what better than some messy fanart?

(To all the people following me for the bug art, feel free to! I will continue drawing bugs. But know I plan on drawing lots of humans + reptiles too, so if that isn’t your jam you can unfollow)

[theradicalace]

to this day, this easily remains my absolute favorite baby picture of mine. i love it to pieces and show it to literally anyone who is even slightly interested in looking at it. so of course, i had to redraw it with my sona!

[willyoubemydarling]

I’m on the verge of giving in somebody needs to convince me to read tcoptp 😭🙏

[hildergard]

We waited years for this writing? This finale? They butchered the book and the solidarity of the Greens. Yeah… I am team Aemond from now on. Why is he the only one acting like there is a war?

[ap-menz]

rewatching Doctor Who rn 🥴💀

[sciderman]

What does Loki even do in your universe?

his lokiest

[extasiswings]

You're right about the will and I honestly don't know if both Eddie and Buck are prepared in their own ways. Buck knows that he's the legal guardian but they haven't talked about how he should deal with the Diaz family. Especially since Eddie has been making some progress with Ramon. Things aren't what they were when the well collapsed for Eddie either. Maybe it's gonna be messy before it gets resolved?

Oh I fully expect Mess and Drama and I can’t wait. Because Eddie hasn’t told his parents about the will yet? Or at least that’s what can be assumed based on how he talked about it in Survivors.

Buck asked him outright if his family would contest the will/his guardianship of Christopher and Eddie’s response was basically to shrug and go “yeah probably but I won’t have to deal with any of that because I’ll be dead” like…this man was really just sitting out here knowing that if anything happened to him a bomb would drop that would make certain members of his family blow a gasket and was seemingly fully prepared to let that all be someone else’s problem. I genuinely don’t think he ever considered the potential of a situation arising that would necessitate him having to talk about/defend/explain his choices to the people most likely to demand an explanation, he just assumed that it wouldn’t come up unless he died.

But the Ramon of it all is very interesting because yes, he and Eddie have been trying hard to heal and rebuild their relationship. Which is why I think this is ultimately going to be about Helena.

Mess though…Mess.