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as-sweet-as-a · 3 days ago
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Heyyyy I absolutely love love LOVE your work and I saw this thing that @mandarinmoons posted and it said “Spencer Reid is the type of person to bend down and tie your shoelaces and then give you a kiss on the knee once he’s done.” I was wondering if you’d be willing to write something like that
AHHH omg!! tysm!! i hope this meets expectations :]] (also stalked checked out the account you mentioned and fell in love)
strawberry laces - s.r.
summary; you're meeting diana for the first time and literally could not be more nervous contents; reader is a nervous wreck, spencer is the best boyfriend ever, fluff words; 549
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You had just finished fixing your hair, finally deciding how to style it after about 97 different options. Spencer drifted past. He paused behind you to put his hands on your shoulders.
“We’re going to be late.” He reminded softy. His hands gently rubbed your shoulders, trying to calm you down. You were meeting his mother for the first time today and Spencer couldn’t tell who was more nervous about it. But, he figured out a while ago that the best way to calm himself down was to help you calm down.
“I know, I’m sorry. Does my hair look alright?” You asked, fiddling with a few strands. Diana knew you existed. Spencer had told her nothing but good things about you. Yet, you were so worried you’d mess it up.
“It looks perfect.” He pressed a kiss to the top of your head, careful not to mess your hair up. When you first did your hair, Spencer made the mistake of saying it was ‘fine’. You’d been spiralling since.
You nodded and stood up. “And my outfit?” It was a casual meeting, Diana would be meeting them with her carer at a coffee shop. However, it was hard to judge ‘casual’ when your boyfriend wore cardigans, ties, and shirts everywhere he went.
“Mhm, really encapsulates the whole meeting my boyfriends diagnosed schizophrenic mom for the first time thing.” He grinned, trying to lighten the mood. It didn’t work.
“Spencer, I’m being serious.” You scolded.
He walked forward and wrapped his arms around you, holding you to him. Your arms came around his back, the sleeves of the cardigan you borrowed far too long. “I know, I’m sorry.” He rested his chin on your head. “You look beautiful.”
“Thanks… I don’t know why I’m so nervous,” You mumbled into his chest.
He nodded and took one of your hands, bringing it over his quick heart. “I am too. But it’s going to be fine, I promise.”
You took a deep breath. You let yourself linger in Spencer’s loose embrace a moment longer before nodding. “Okay… yeah, I’m ready.” With your newfound confidence, you headed to the bedroom door.
“Shoes.” Spencer reminded.
You turned around and walked back to him. “Shoes.”
He was holding the pair of Converse you had laid out and got down on one knee, tapping his leg. You chuckled and put your foot on his thigh as he helped you into your shoe. Your laugh brought a smile to Spencer’s face. He tied the laces in a neat bow and pressed a kiss to your knee. He patted the side of your leg.
“Next one.” As instructed, you swapped which foot you were balancing on Spencer’s thigh. He gave it the same treatment, an even bow and a kiss on your knee. When you were back standing on both feet, Spencer rubbed your legs with his palms soothingly. “It’s going to be fine.” He repeated. You smiled down at him and cupped his face.
He stood up and gave you a quick kiss. “Now, come on. Before she starts wondering where we are.” He smiled and took your hand. You grabbed your bag and headed to the door again.
You glanced down at Spencer’s mismatched socks and grinned. “Shoes, Spence.”
He nodded and turned around. “Shoes.”
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jarofstyles · 1 day ago
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Hi my ducklings! So this is part 2 of Pierced Through The Heart but it can be read as a standalone! I'm sorry it took me so long I've been hella depressed lol. I hope you lover her!
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Warnings- mention of needles, piercing is done/described, oral sex
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“Alright… So tell me honestly. No bullshit. How badly does this hurt?” Swinging her legs on the bench, she watched her boyfriend gather what he needed for the piercings.
After becoming his official girlfriend- which hadn’t taken very long- she was quick to cash in on her free piercing promise. The first had been a cartilage piercing, but this was definitely a bigger decision.
Her nipples.
Harry looked up from his preparations, a smirk playing on his lips as he saw the hidden nervousness in her eyes. She liked to play tough but he knew how she was. He didn’t tease her about it too much, but he knew. “It really depends. I’ve had a lot of people who say it doesn’t hurt nearly at all, some who say it does, but only a few who have passed out from it. But I’ll make it quick, promise. And afterwards, you’ll have something beautiful to show for it.”
“I mean, I think I’ve got a good pain tolerance.”
The shop was closed for the day, leaving only Harry and Y/N in the place. It was quieter than she would have imagined, only the noise of their chatting and the soft music on the radio in the back. It had been louder when she came to get her cartilage done when she had brought lunch for both of them a few weeks back. “Hey. wait.” Her brow raised. “Have you ever fucked a customer?”
“Well fuck, come right out with it then.” Harry chuckled at the sudden change in topic, looking at her with a raised eyebrow. Her lack of filter was something he did like about her though. “No, love, can’t say I have.” He walked over to where she was sitting on the bench, leaning against the wall next to her.
He reached out and brushes a strand of hair out of her face, his fingers gently tracing along her jawline. “But I have to say, the idea of fucking a customer who sits on this very bench, getting pierced by my hands, is a pretty tempting one.”
Y/N felt her face heat, his blatant flirtation still getting to her and making her feel giddy. Once the confession had been made, he had fallen completely into loverboy mode- with a libido that she heavily enjoyed the benefits of. “Hm.” It pleased her that he hadn’t had anyone here. She would have been jealous… but knowing he was flirting with the idea of doing it with her? That was a welcomed answer. “Maybe if you’re good and be nice to me when you pierce my tits, I’ll consider it.”
He was always oh, so nice to her. He worshipped her, really. It was insane, actually, sometimes making her wonder if her previous lovers actually liked her at all because the way Harry treated her seemed so genuine and second nature and yet so enamored that she was shocked. The smirk on his lips as he placed the sanitized packaging down on the table beside them made her tummy flip.  “Oh, love, I promise I’ll be extra gentle when I pierce those perky little nipples of yours. They’re my favorite too, y’know.”
“Mmm.” She pursed her lips to hold back a. grin. “You better. I’m delicate, you know.”
Harry chuckled lightly, moving away from her ear and looking into her eyes. He raised a hand to cup her chin, gazing at her like she was the only thing he wanted to look at in this whole world. She sorta was. “Alright, delicate flower. Take that top off and let me see those tits.”
Y/N couldn’t help her laugh, shaking her head as she undid the buttons of her shirt. Harry was the professional here, so he had given her the rundown on how it was going to work- including the fact that he couldn’t play with them for a while after to make sure they healed properly. He had mourned that but quickly got over it when he imagined her, audibly, having them pierced. Theh would suit her incredibly well.
“I’m still sad you’ll have to keep your mouth off of them for a while.” She pouted, opening her shirt to expose her breasts to him. “What a shame.”
Harry chuckled as he watched her, finding her cute when she pouted—he wanted to kiss that pout, but could stop himself from doing so. He stared at her bare breasts longingly, nodding at what she had said. "I know, it is a shame. I’ll get back to it soon enough, though."
Reaching out, he gently took one of her nipples between his fingers, giving it a soft pinch before letting go and reaching for the other. He did the same, his thumbs rolling over the sensitive buds as he admired them. "Fuck, they really are perfect. I'm going to love piercing these."
The touch had her squeezing her legs together. While it wasn’t the most pleasant thing to remember that her boyfriend had his hands on plenty other breasts when he had to pierce them, she assumed he wasn’t as liberal with the touching as he was now. “God, that feels nice.” She whispered, letting the shirt fall off her shoulders.
Harry's gaze darkened at the sight of her bare breasts, his eyes flicking up to meet hers. He realized he was getting a little ahead of himself, but he couldn't help it—she was just too captivating. "Yeah?" He smirked at her, letting go of her nipples before reaching up to play with her breasts in their entirety. He lifted them, feeling their weight in his hands, gently massaging with his fingers. He couldn't wait to do the same with the barbells in them.
“H….” Y/N’s voice was scolding but barely so, breathy as she leaned her head back and watched as he held them in his palms. His big fucking hands that felt so good whenever he touched her. “You’re being dirty… I hope you aren’t like this with your paying clients.” She teased.
Letting out a laugh, his thumbs brushing over her nipples as he teased them. "Oh, M’always the most professional with my clients. But with you...I can't help myself." He leaned in closer to whisper in her ear, his breath warm on her skin as he added "You're the only one I can be dirty with, Y/N. The only one I can touch however I want, say whatever I want. And right now, I want to bury my face between your tits and not come up for air."
“D’you think you should?” She whispered. “You know… Cause you’re not gonna be able to for a while while they’re healing… feel kinda bad that your favorite toys are gonna be for looking and no touching.”
 "I do think about it, believe me. I fucking hate that they'll be out of bounds for a while." He nuzzled into her neck, groaning softly as he pressed a kiss to the skin. "But at the same time, I'm fucking thrilled to get to see these beauties every day, even if it means no touching." 
“You are insane.” She widened her thighs for him to stand between her legs. “Luckily, I like it. So I give you permission to suck on them a little bit… one last taste for a bit.”
Harry's eyes lit up, and he didn't waste a moment in moving to comply with her request. He leaned forward, capturing one of the nipples between his lips and sucking gently. He could feel her arching into him, moaning softly as he teased the sensitive flesh.
Y/N let out a soft moan, the cool metal of his tongue piercing brushing against the pebbled nipple. his large hand held her breast in his hand, keeping it where he wanted as she leaned back on her hand, giving him access to her chest. “God, that piercing is the best thing you’ve done to yourself.” His tongue was the best one.
Harry chuckled softly against her skin, switching to the other nipple and giving it the same treatment. He was relishing in this moment, savoring the taste of her on his tongue. "I knew you'd like it." he murmured, his words vibrating through her breast.
Holding it still, giving his tongue free reign to tease the the sensitive skin. He could feel her heart beating faster under his touch, her breath hitching as he played with her. It was so lovely that his pleasure in giving was just as appreciated in receiving.
To Y/N, every movement of Harry's tongue sent sparks shooting directly to her cunt. It was as if every nerve ending in her body was concentrated on the tips of her tits, and the cool metal only heightened the sensation. With gentle yet firm sucks and teasing licks, he had her sensitive nipples hardened and tingling, the sensation making her arch into his face. One hand held the back of his neck, her own head falling back as he switched back to the other nipple.
“Jesus…” She laughed breathlessly as his teeth grazed the swollen skin. “Careful, baby. You’ve still got t’pierce it. Don’t make me too sensitive.”
Harry chuckled against her skin, pulling back slightly. "You think m’new at this? I know my girl’s tits, baby." He said, smirking as he pressed his forehead to hers. "I know just how far to push it." 
“Mhm.” She narrowed her eyes at him, reaching up to wipe some of his spit from the corner of his mouth. It was shocking how dirty he could get, considering how clean every other part of his life was. “Let’s go then. I gave you your time. I want my nipples pierced.”
Adjusting his position, albeit with a slight pout, he reached for the tray of sterilized needles and other equipment to get it all ready. He didn’t forget the main objective. "Yes ma'am, we’ll get right to it." He sighed, playfully saluting her.
It took little time before she had Harry carefully cleaning her nipples with a medicated wipe, making sure every inch of skin was prepped for the piercing. He then applied a small amount of numbing gel to minimize any discomfort, massaging it into her nipples with gentle fingers. He tried to innocently say it was to help it work better but she only had to give him a look before he let it be.
“Alright, darlin’. Gonna be just like how I told you, okay?” Giving her a reassuring smile, he settled in front of her. “S’gonna pinch, but it’ll be over quickly. When I start to do it, let out and breat through your nose.” Harry's hands were steady as he picked up the needle, focusing on her left nipple first. He pinched the skin lightly with a sterile clamp, ensuring that her piercing would be straight and perfect. He then aligned the needle, giving her the instruction to give her exhale before pushing it quickly through her skin.
She winced slightly as the needle pierced her skin, but Harry was right there to soothe her. He quickly attached the short piece of jewelry and moved to her other nipple, repeating the process. This time around, she knew what to expect and took it better than before.
Her agony lasted just a moment, but he didn't feel right about letting her endure pain alone. Once her nipples were pierced and the jewelry sturdily in place, he was thorough, making sure everything was clean and sanitary before removing his gloves and gripping her chin and placing a soft peck to her lips. “You, lovely, took that better than most people I’ve ever pierced.” His words were genuine. Y/N really had taken it better than grown men had.
“Really?” Her eyes had teared up a bit during the process and yeah- it had hurt.. But it was tolerable enough. She could feel it throbbing as the new piercings adjusted, Harry helping her pull her shirt back on. He had taken the liberty to button her top back, making her grin at how second nature it was for him. Harry liked to take care of her in any way, she was finding out more and more each day.
His thumb stroked over her cheek to wipe away a stray tear, letting out a little hum. "Yeah, honestly, you did amazing. I'm proud of you. Fuck, I bet you're a beautiful crier, aren't you?"
Y/N laughed, shaking her head as she caressed his jaw. The beard was growing in and she loved how it felt under her fingers as she ran them over his face. “You tell me everything I do is beautiful. I think you’re biased.”
Harry's heart warmed as she caressed his jaw. He fucking loved the feeling of her fingers against him. It had become second nature now for her to touch as she pleased and he couldn’t get enough of it. He leaned into her touch, nuzzling her hand with his cheek before pulling it down to kiss her knuckles.  "Yeah, m’totally fucking biased, but why the hell wouldn't I be?" He smirked down at her, stilling her hands and placing them both around the back of his neck before stealing another kiss. "I think you're beautiful, amazing, fuckin’ hilarious, smart as hell… sexy.” He smirked, making her scoff. “No, none of that. I mean every word.” Cradling her cheek, he took a moment to look at her before his eyes drifted down to his now covered work on her tits. “And M’more than honored that now a piece of my work is on your body.”
He watched as she looked down at her covered chest, he could tell she was admiring the work even while covered. "How do you feel?" He inquired lightly.
“I’m good.” It wasn’t really a pain now more than a soreness. But what she hadn’t expected was how it had… sort of turned her on. That pain and the reminder of it made her wake in a different way. Sure, they’d fucked around a bit and he had spanked her and stuff, but this sort of pain was different. Add in the fact that he had said in a fuck drunk lusty spiel against her ear the night before that he was horny over being the one to give her the piercing because it would feel like another claim to her, she couldn’t stop thinking about it.
So naturally, it was time to do something about it.
“I think you did a good job… so I think it’s time for your tip.” A mischievous smirk lit up her lips as she slowly slid to the floor from the bench, knees on the tile as she reached for his belt.
"Fuck, baby." Harry couldn't help but groan at her words, his hands finding her hair as she knelt on the floor in front of him. When she began to work on his belt, he felt his cock jerk to attention and he held his breath. “You don’t have t’do that, baby. I… I didn’t do it for you t’suck me.”
“I know.” Her warm hand ran over his cock, feeling it twitch up against her palm. “That’s partially why I wanna.” It was easy work getting his belt off, leaning in and kissing his cock over his jeans. “Is this an acceptable tip?”
Harry's eyes fluttered shut and he leaned back on the counter, his fingers slowly carding through her hair. "Y/N…" he groaned out, his hips moving forward when she mouthed at his erection over the denim. "…yeah, that's an… s’an acceptable tip. Only for you."
Harry's lips parted as he felt her teeth gently skim over the length of his cock through the fabric of his jeans. "Fuck, don’t…" Harry's hands tightened in her hair, his head falling back against the counter as she continued to mouth at his dick through his jeans. "Y/N, stop, please... I don't wanna cum like this. Want your mouth."
“Oh?” Her eyes lit up at how heavily it effected him. “What about this has you all worked up, baby? I’ve barely touched you…”
Harry's breath hitches in his throat as she speaks, his heart racing in his chest. He looks down at her, his eyes filled with a mix of desire and frustration. "It's because you're being so fucking gentle with me." His voice strained as she ran her finger over the waistline of uis jeans. Something about how she treated him, especially when she got that teasing look on her face, got him all riled up.
“Hm… you like me being all gentle, then?” Looking up at him through her lashes, she gently lifted her other hand under his shirt and lightly dragged her nails down his abdomen. “You like when m’nice and sweet to you?”
Harry shuddered at the feeling of her nails scraping against his skin, a low moan rising in his throat. "Fuck, yeah," he gasped out, fingers taking root in her hair. "I love when you're sweet to me… S’nice having such a sweet girl all for me."
“You’re so hot, H.” She grinned, fingers clasping on his button and slowly dragging down his zipper. “I love that you like that about me. Promise I’ll make this good.” his briefs had a wet patch from his cock leaking, her finger tracing over his twitching length. “Wanna be in my mouth?”
Harry's breath hitches as she speaks, his hips jerking forward as her finger traces over his leaking head. "Yes," he whispers, his voice strained. "I want to be in your mouth so fucking bad, m’baby..." He looks down at her, his eyes pleading. "Please, Y/N... just give me somethin’." His hands are tightened slightly in her hair, his body thrumming with need. 
Sharp jaw clenched, his body tensed as she slowly licked along the base of his shaft, lapping up the bead of moisture at the tip. He watches her, his eyes dark with desire, his voice ragged as he mumbled her name again, pulling her further in. Seeing him slightly desperate really did it for her- so she decided to give it to him. Slowly sucking the tip into her mouth, her tongue lapped over the leaking slit before she let herself sink down a little, pulling back with a soft ‘pop’ sound. “Like that?”
Harry groaned, his head falling back as she started to suck on the tip. "Yes, jus’ like that, baby. Suck me right into that perfect mouth.” Her tongue swirled around the head of his cock as she slowly took him in, her cheeks hollowing as she sucked. Seeing her lips stretched around his girth made him throb harder, his eyes nearly rolling back from the sensation. "That's it, sweetheart. Can I give you some more?"
Before she took him in deeper she nodded, letting Harry's hands find their place in her hair. Holding her in place as he started to thrust gently, his cock slid in and out of her mouth with a sinfully wet sound that had him reeling. His breath hitched as he looked down at her, his perfect vision as he watched his cock disappear between those perfect lips over and over.
Y/N looked like a fucking wet dream. Her lips were plump and stretched around his cock, her cheeks hollowing with every suck. Her eyes were half closed as she focused on him, her brows furrowed in concentration as she took him deeper. A string of spittle connected the tip of his cock to her lips for a moment as she pulled back before plunging back down, her nose nuzzling into the groomed thatch of hair on his groin. Her hands gripped his thighs for support, a blush rising on her cheeks as she continued to pleasure him, letting him lead.
When she took him all the way down, Harry threw his head back and let out a low moan. He felt her gag slightly, her lips brushing against his balls as she tried to take every inch of him. "Oh fuck, baby. That feels so fucking good. Knew you could do it. Tha’s my fucking girl." The guttural groan had her whimpering around him, teary eyes opening a little more to look up at him. It was one of her favorite parts about giving head- getting to see his pretty face contorted with pleasure that she was providing. 
Harry's thighs shook a little as she sucked him messily, her tongue working him over with each bob of her head. He felt himself getting closer to the edge, his breath coming in short, quick bursts. "Shit, sweetheart. M’gonna cum soon if you don't stop." Y/N was talented at giving head, better than anyone he had been with, and it was a blessing and a curse. A blessing because… obviously. A curse, because he didn’t last as long as he wanted to. He wanted to savor every bit of it.
Harry felt his balls tightening, signaling that he was about to come. He didn't want it to end so soon, but Y/N was just too good at what she did for him. He pulled her up and kissed her deeply, tasting himself on her lips. "Goddammit, angel."
She moaned as he kissed her, hand falling down to his spot soaked cock and stroking it in her palm. The wet click of her strokes meddled with their kissing, making her even more eager to finish him off. “It’s okay, baby.” She breathed against his mouth. “Don’t care if it’s quick. Just like making you feel good. I love how you feel in my mouth. Can’t get enough of you. Jus’ let me go back and suck you more, want you to finish in my mouth.”
Harry's breathing quickened at her words. "Shit. If you keep talking like that, I'm gonna fucking cum right now." He closed his eyes as she dropped back to her knees. It was only natural as she went back to sucking him, her hand firmly wrapped around the base of his cock as she gave tight strokes.
He really, really couldn't help the groan that escaped his lips as Y/N went back to sucking him. Her tongue worked its magic on his tip before she took him in as deep as she could, swallowing around him to make him hiss. He felt her hand moving in time with her mouth, creating a perfect rhythm.
Harry's eyes rolled back as he felt Y/N's warm lips delve down for a moment, licking over his sac before returning to his cock. He could already tell he wasn't going to last long, the feeling building in his balls. Grabbing onto her already messy hair, he pulled her closer. "Fuck, baby." He could feel his orgasm building, the feeling spreading from his balls and up his shaft. "Ah, fuck, Baby..” he whined, gritting his teeth. “M’gonna cum, keep fuckin’ doing that. My perfect girl, always make me feel so good. Filthy little thing getting on your knees for me after I pierce your tits. God, m’so obsessed with you." He was babbling a bit, but he couldn’t help it. It truly felt so good that he could pass out given the chance. 
Y/N could hear the desperation in Harry's voice, knew he was close. She loved giving him this kind of pleasure, the kind that made him lose it a little bit. Ever since their first time he had no qualms about showing her how much he adored her while she did this, and it only got better with time. As weird as it may seem, she really loved making him feel good, the weight of him in her mouth- but she wanted to finish him. She picked up her pace and used her free hand to fondle his balls.
"Fuuuck..." Harry hissed, his breath hitching as Y/N added that in, making him lose it. It was too much, too fucking much and he loved it. He couldn’t hold back anymore. With a loud moan, he came. It orgasm hit him hard and fast, his cock pulsing against her tongue as he released his load into her warm and waiting mouth. He tried his best to warn her, but he couldn't form words as he rode out his high. Y/N continued to suck him off as he came hard, milking the last of his orgasm out. She swallowed everything, looking up at him with a hum of satisfaction. Harry was utterly spent, and all that could leave his lips was a shaky grunt of her name.
That was the only thing she wanted to hear when he felt good.
Pulling off of him, a string of spit hung between her lips and the tip of his cock as she smiled up at him, utterly pleased with herself. Getting Harry to cum like that was a privilege, one that she was lucky enough to be the only one to do.
Letting out a laugh in disbelief, he grabbed a handful of Y/N's hair and pulled her up to meet his lips in a deep, messy kiss. He tasted himself on her lips and tongue, only adding to his post-orgasm haze. He held her there, kissing her sloppily as he tried to catch his breath. “Fuck me, that was incredible.” He mumbled into the kiss. “Can barely feel my fuckin’ feet.”
“Good.” Her smile was giddy as she pulled back to wipe her mouth, giving him her most innocent smile. “Hope you enjoyed your tip, baby. If I ever find out someone else did the same, I’ll kill them.” She said in an overly sweet tone.
He chuckled, pulling her close again, placing a sweet kiss on her lips. As if he’d ever need anyone else with the way she made him feel. "Only you do it for me, babe."
“Damn right.” She grumbled, pulling back and wiping her mouth. “Now that payment has been approved… I think I need you to feed me actual food, please.”
Still slightly reeling, he hummed, rubbing his hand over his messy hair as he watched her walk off to grab her coat. "Fine, fine. Let's get some food. Can’t let my number one client starve.”
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krirebr · 2 days ago
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Pairing: Ransom Drysdale x f!reader, Steve Rogers & f!reader
Word Count: ~9.5k
Summary: Arranged marriages have always been used to solidify business deals among the ultra-wealthy. Your stepfather wants to be in business with Harlan Thrombey, so now it's your turn.
Warnings: Angst, age difference, adult themes, institutional sexism, explicit language, fighting, my own rampant abuse of italics and en dashes, the slooowest burn, family drama - Warnings will be added as needed for subsequent parts. All of my work is 18+ - Minors DNI
Dividers by @saradika-graphics
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A/N: Ohhhhhhhh boy. Getting this update in right under the six month wire. I'm so sorry this one took so long, you guys. I had to drag this chapter out of me. But uh, it's horrifically long, so that's something?
And, I know I keep saying that we're about to start a happier part of this story and then deliver a bucketful of angst, and yeah, whoops, I've done that again. I should just stop making promises, huh?
Big thanks as always to @paperweight91 who has spent the last almost six months talking this one through with me. And to @bigtreefest who was so great with the encouragement and gut checks and did a quick beta of this chapter! But, of course, all mistakes are my own.
Any comment, reblog, or ask to let me know what you think will be greatly appreciated. And if you need to come scream at me, that's ok too! As always, thank you so much for reading! 💜
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The rest of the day was quiet. Calmer, more settled than you were used to. After having gotten everything out into the open, it was so much easier to acknowledge Ransom’s presence, to coexist with him. You hadn’t fully realized how much you’d been holding your breath until you could suddenly breathe freely. It was a wild feeling.
Once you were all cried out, Ransom turned on the TV, turning it to the classic movie channel. That was how you learned he loved old movies. “Grandad and I used to watch them together. When I was a kid,” he said quietly. He didn't volunteer any other information and you didn't ask. But you watched the old noir with him.
One movie turned into two and soon the whole afternoon was gone. It had been… comfortable, in a way you’d never expected to be with him. Neither of you had said much, but the silence hadn’t been stifling in the way it’d been even just the day before. For the first time since you’d gotten here, you felt something a lot like hope.
He made two arrangements while sitting with you on the couch. The first was for movers to come to collect his gym equipment the next day so that your new room would be empty when your things arrived in a couple of days. 
You were made aware of the second when you received a text from him. You looked up in confusion. You were sitting right next to each other. He chuckled lightly. “That’s the number to your new car service. Call it, let them know where you’re going, and a car should be here within half an hour.”
You stared at the number. Holy shit, you’d be able to go places. You felt silly for how emotional you suddenly felt, but it was like your entire world was expanding in real time. It felt like fresh oxygen in your lungs. “Thank you,” you said quietly.
He just nodded in response. “After you’ve used that for a while, we can talk about whether a private driver might be more appropriate. If that’s what you need.”
You looked at your phone again. This was proof in your hands that you could tell Ransom what you needed and he would do what he could to help you get it. That he wasn’t the enemy you’d assumed he was. You could feel the tears starting to gather in your eyes and you took a deep breath to try to quell them without calling attention to your state.
Ransom, of course, noticed anyway. “Is that not ok?” he asked quietly.
You shook your head. “No, it’s perfect. Seriously, thank you. I’m sorry, I just–” You had no idea what to say to him, how to explain yourself. As good and necessary as the last several hours had been, he was still a stranger. And as much as he’d demonstrated a willingness to help you, that didn’t mean he wanted you getting your messy emotions all over him. “Sorry,” you said again, “I’m just emotional today. Hormones probably. I’m afraid you’re going to be dealing with this for the next nine months.” You grimaced in what you hoped was a playful manner as you tried to wipe the tears from your eyes.
He remained serious, concerned. “I think I can handle it,” he said, his tone still so soft. But if you looked very carefully, you thought that you might be able to see a hint of panic in his eyes. You didn’t know if it was for the havoc that your pregnancy hormones might wreak or everything that would come after. You didn’t ask. You knew you wouldn’t be able to answer the question for yourself either. So you turned back to the movie.  
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At some point, you both started to get hungry, so Ransom ordered takeout. As you ate, you asked a few questions about the sorts of movies he liked, grateful for a safe topic to fill the silence. You certainly wouldn’t call him verbose, but you learned that he had a soft spot for Billy Wilder movies. You wouldn’t really say the conversation flowed, either, but your questions didn’t seem unwelcome. It was nice. He was starting to feel like a real person.
When you were done, you cleaned up the leftovers together, packing them up and putting them away in the fridge. It was while you were doing that that the doorbell suddenly rang. You both looked up, confused. “If that’s fucking Linda, I swear…” Ransom grumbled.
“She never rings the doorbell when it’s just me here,” you griped. You continued putting things away, sticking your head in the fridge as Ransom went to get the door. Then everything happened so fast.
First, you heard Lola yipping excitedly. As you started to turn around to see what was going on with her, Ransom asked “What are you doing here?!” And then–
And then Ransom was on the ground, clutching his jaw, and Steve was looming over him, his hand still in a fist.
“What the shit?!” Ransom ground out.
Steve’s eyes flitted around wildly until they landed on you. He sighed in relief, clearly doing a quick check as he looked at you. “Are you okay?” he asked, his tone so much gentler than his posture.
“Am I– What– What are you doing here? I don't–” You felt like you couldn’t process anything that was happening. How was he here?? Your gaze caught on your husband, still on the floor. “Oh my god, Ransom!” You dropped to your knees next to him. “Are you alright?” 
“Yeah, I–” he started, then carefully flexed his jaw, “Fucking shit. Yeah, I’m alright.”
Your hand hovered uselessly between you as he slowly stood up. You turned back to Steve, who had stepped fully into the house, closing the door behind him, and now had Lola in his arms, softly greeting her as she snuggled into him adoringly.
“Steve, what are you–” you started but then you saw the suitcase at his feet. “Are you staying here?!”
Steve finally turned his attention away from Lola. “Yup,” he said, popping the ‘p’ obnoxiously, with a challenging glare to Ransom. 
You sighed helplessly. “There’s no guest room…”
“Yeah,” Ransom grumbled as he rifled through the freezer until he pulled out an icepack, “as thrilled as we are to see you, we do have hotels here. You might be more comfortable in one.” The icy coldness that filled the room wasn’t just from the open freezer. 
Steve took an aggressive step forward. “And leave you alone with my sister for even one more day? I don’t think so. I’ll be just fine on the couch. I’m easy like that.”
“Steve–” you tried but you were quickly interrupted.
“Really? You’re here for your step-sister? That’s interesting because my understanding is that you haven’t had much time for her lately,” Ransom said snidely.
Steve started to puff up in a way that was much too familiar from the playground fights of your childhood. “Oh my god!” you yelled. “Stop! Both of you!” You briefly put your head in your hands and took a deep breath, then one more. You straightened yourself and tried to deal with one of the fifteen problems at hand. “Ok, I, uh, I guess I’ll see about making up the couch,” you said, then stomped your way upstairs to the linen closet.
Steve followed close behind you, still carrying around Lola. “You know,” he said, his tone teasing, “you haven’t actually said ‘hello’ to me yet.”
“No,” you growled, as you looked through the closet without turning around to look at him, “I guess I haven’t.”
He pulled your arm lightly. “Hey, come on,” he said. “I’ll help pull this stuff together if you tell me where to look. We both know Ransom’s just gonna let you do all the work.”
That earned you finally turning to face him. “Well, he did just get punched in the face, so I think he’s a little more concerned with that than making you feel comfortable right now.”
Steve’s face scrunched up. “Wait. Are you mad at me?”
“Am I mad at you? Well, let's see. You showed up unannounced and punched my husband in the face. Yeah! I'm a little mad at you!”
“He deserved it,” he growled. 
“How would you know?!”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” 
You sighed. You did not have the energy for this. And where were all the blankets? You remembered the pile currently in the corner of the gym. Right. You turned around and walked down the hall to your makeshift bedroom, Steve still on your heels. As soon as you walked in, he stopped, putting Lola down. “The fuck is this?” he asked, harshly, his hands on his hips. You realized your mistake immediately. His eyes scanned the cushions and blankets set up, the exercise equipment still there, your few possessions strewn about. “Is this where you sleep?”
“No! Just last night.”
“Why did you need to sleep here last night?” he asked, his voice dangerously low.
It felt like a trap. If you told him you’d panicked and needed some space, he would ask why. Steve never dropped anything. And you just could not tell him you were pregnant right now. It was the absolute worst time for that. But you didn’t know how else to answer his question. “I just needed a little space.”
He didn’t say anything, just stared at you. God, you hated being the focus of that look. It was the look he gave you when you scratched his car when you were 16, or when you were 18 and he had to pick you up from a party at 2 AM and wouldn’t tell him what had happened. It was the look you got when you were little and used to steal his paintbrushes so he couldn’t paint and he’d have to hang out with you. You’d hated that look since you were six years old. “Why are you here, Steve?”
He just shook his head for a moment. “You sounded so sad and tired this morning. And I’m just so sick of not being able to see you, not being able to tell what’s wrong.” He took a deep breath. “Not being able to protect you.”
“Steve,” was all you could say at first. Then you couldn’t help yourself anymore. You launched yourself at him and wrapped him in a big hug. He was a fucking idiot. You couldn’t believe he’d punched Ransom. You were so mad about that. But he was your fucking brother and you’d missed him so much.
He hugged you back tightly. “It’s so fucking good to see you, Chipmunk,” he murmured into your hair. 
You stood there, savoring the closeness for as long as you both were able, and then you pulled away and stared down at the mound of blankets and cushions. The big couch downstairs had been pulled apart the night before to give you a place to sleep. That severely limited the options for Steve. You sighed. “I guess it would make the most sense to put you in here.”
“And where would you sleep?” he asked, his tone taking on an aggressive edge, aimed at the man downstairs, you knew.
“I’d go back to the bedroom,” you said, with a put-on casualness like you weren’t aware of the fight that was about to happen.
“Absolutely not,” Steve said firmly.
“Oh my god, Steve! You can’t control where I sleep!” you said, throwing your hands in the air.
“The whole reason I’m here is to make sure you’re ok and that he can’t hurt you! I’m not gonna do something that puts you back in his space!”
“Steve, I don’t need that! He isn’t doing anything!”
“Then why did you text me? Why were you crying?!”
You did not have the energy for the conversation that would answer that question, so all you could do was glare at him, which he answered with a confrontational jut of his chin. The two of you just stood there locked in a staredown until Steve muttered, “What sort of grown man doesn’t have anywhere for guests, anyway?”
“The sort that likes an excuse to stop people from staying at his house,” Ransom said pointedly from the doorway, startling you both. “What exactly do you think I’d do, with you right across the hall? I’ve already gotten a taste of how you solve problems,” he said to Steve, gesturing with the ice pack still held to his face. Then, much softer, to you, he said, “I know you want your own space, but you’re more than welcome to share the bed until your stuff gets here. That’s all I wanted to say.” Then he turned around and walked into his bedroom, Lola scampering behind him, ready for bed.
You stared after him, unable to parse the feelings bubbling up inside you. He’d been so different lately. Or maybe you were just finally looking.
Your thoughts were interrupted by Steve asking “Your stuff?”
You turned your attention back to him. He was watching you too carefully. “Mhmm,” you hummed, trying to feign nonchalance. “I’m having my bedroom furniture shipped here. I’m turning this into my room.” He raised an eyebrow and opened his mouth to ask too many questions probably so you cut him off. “It’s been a really long couple of days, Steve. I’m tired. We’ll talk in the morning, okay?”
He set his jaw. You could tell he wanted to fight you. Force you to talk to him. But you held your ground, looked him in the eye with a hint of challenge, and eventually he deflated, just a bit. “Yeah, okay,” he relented before he pulled you into another crushing hug. You’d really missed his hugs.
“I am happy to see you,” you whispered.
“Me too, Chip,” he whispered right back. 
After making sure he had everything he needed, you left Steve alone with a quiet “goodnight,” and made your way back to Ransom’s bedroom. He and Lola were already snuggled in bed, snoring softly. You quickly went through your bedtime routine and then joined them, very careful not to wake either of them. After how eventful and emotionally wrought the last few days had been, it didn’t take you long at all to drift off into sleep.
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You woke up in the morning pressed up against Ransom, face to face, your feet tangled together, Lola on your legs. You carefully pushed yourself away, watching him warily to see if he roused at all. Thankfully he didn't. You were sure he wouldn't be thrilled with how close you'd both gotten in the night. 
You quietly got up and let yourself out of the bedroom, a now wide-awake Lola at your heels. The door to the gym was open and the room was empty, Steve’s suitcase wide open on the floor next to the nest of cushions and blankets. You didn’t hear anyone moving around downstairs, so he was out on a run, most likely.
You headed down to the kitchen and put on a pot of coffee, then started looking through the fridge for the leftovers from the previous morning. As you were doing that, a creak on the stairs let you know Ransom was joining you. 
“Morning,” he said, voice scratchy from disuse. He went to the coffee maker and just stood in front of it, waiting for the pot to finish.
“Morning,” you said from inside the fridge. You found the leftovers and closed the appliance, finally turning to him with a gasp. You put the food down on the counter and went to Ransom. “Oh my god, your face!” A large bruise in a deep shade of purple took up most of the left side of his face, centered on his jaw and cheekbone. You rushed to his side and without thinking, extended a hand to touch him before you realized what you were doing and pulled back at the last minute, embarrassed. 
“It’s not as bad as it looks,” he mumbled, his attention still fixed on the coffee slowly dripping into the carafe. 
You stared at him for another moment, before you just couldn’t keep your feelings inside anymore. “I’m so sorry,” you said softly.
He finally looked at you at that. “What do you have to be sorry for?” he asked.
So much, you thought to yourself, maybe, probably. But for right now, in this instance, you just shrugged. “He’s my brother,” you said, a little helplessly. 
“Did you tell him to punch me?” he asked as he decided he’d waited long enough and filled his mug.
“What? No!”
“Then there’s nothing to apologize for.” He leaned back against the counter as he sipped his coffee. ���Where is your brother?”
“On a run, probably,” you said, now helping yourself to a mug and fixing it up how you liked.
Ransom scoffed. “Of course, he is.” He looked at you carefully for a long moment and you struggled not to squirm under his gaze. “You happy he’s here?”
“Of course!” you said, too quickly. He kept looking at you. “I mean, I didn’t invite him here, so… It was just a surprise. I don’t know. He’s very protective, you know?” Ransom raised an eyebrow and you couldn’t help but let out a little chuckle. “Right, yeah. He just– Sometimes, he just– he decides what’s right. And then there’s no changing his mind.”
He made a little hum, then nodded and said, “Yeah, I know. I have met him before. But why are you worried about that?”
“Uh, he just, he isn’t always a good listener. And he’s gonna have a lot of questions for me today. I know he will. And I don’t know how I’ll answer any of them without telling him about the– that I’m pregnant.”
“And you don’t want to?” he asked, his voice unexpectedly soft.
“No, that’s not exactly– I just–” you sighed. “This isn’t what he ever wanted for me.”
Ransom made a small noise of understanding. “You think he’ll be disappointed in you.”
There was no judgment in his tone, but it still made you shrink in on yourself a little. You nodded.
“Listen, it’s no secret that I think he’s a sanctimonious asshole.” You opened your mouth to start defending Steve, but Ransom shook his head. “Let me finish. It’s clear that he loves you. I think you’ll be ok. And if he does give you shit, well, it’ll be just one of a few things he’s done to earn himself a punch.”
“Oh god, Ransom no, please don’t do that.”
He grinned at you. “Nah, I won’t. Some of us have self-control. I know him being here is important to you. I’ll try not to do anything to mess that up.”
You wondered if the warm feelings spreading through you would always be such a surprise. If he would always be such a surprise.
“But,” he continued before he paused to drain his mug. “I am going to try to get out of here before he gets back.”
“This is your house. You don’t need to do that.”
“It’s fine,” he said quietly, “you should have a nice day with your brother.” Then he put his mug in the dishwasher and went back upstairs to get dressed, with you staring after him.
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Ransom left and, sure enough, Steve got back a few minutes later. He went straight to the shower and you tried to busy yourself and calm your nerves while you waited for the inevitable conversation.
When he came down, his hair was still wet and he was dressed in jeans and a plain white tee. There was nothing casual about his demeanor though.
“So,” he said, sitting down next to you in the kitchen, “you ready to tell me what’s been going on here?”
You started to get up. “Do you want some breakfast first? We have some pastries left over from yesterday.”
He grabbed your arm and pulled you back down into your chair. “No, I want to know why you've sounded so upset every time I’ve talked to you since the wedding.”
You squirmed under his sharp gaze. You knew him. You knew that he wouldn’t give up until you told him everything. But you also knew how awful his reaction would be and you just weren’t ready to give everything up. “It’s just been a lot of change, you know? Of course, it’s been hard. I’m just… adjusting. It’s been an adjustment period.”
“Adjusting to what, exactly?”
“To marriage! To living in a new place! You know, the obvious.”
“The obvious is why you always sound like you’ve been crying?”
You resisted the urge to bury your face in your hands in frustration. “You know me,” you tried. “I’m emotional.”
“You’re emotional?! Is that what he says to you?” Shit, he was already getting angry and you hadn’t even told him anything yet.
“No! God, Steve. That’s not what I’m saying! I’m just trying to say that it’s been a difficult transition, but I’m starting to feel better about it.”
“And I’m asking you to tell me exactly what about it has been difficult.” 
You wanted to growl. Once he got an idea in his head, he was so fucking intractable. “What’s been difficult about moving across the country to a brand new city and living with a stranger??”
“Yes. Exactly. In detail please.” And then he just stared at you and you wanted to scream. 
“I’ve been a little lonely,” you conceded, hoping a partial truth might satisfy him. “Ransom has to work a lot and it’s been hard to know what to do with my time.” And then, without giving him time to react, you asked. “How about you? How are you? Now that I’m out of the way, is Joseph trying to set up matches for you?” It was a low blow, but you were grasping for any defense you could reach.
“I don't understand why you won't just tell me what's going on.”
“I'm trying! It's just a lot more complicated than you realize and I think that maybe once you're in an arrangement of your own–”
“My marriage won't be anything like this.”
At first, all you could do was gape at him. Then you just sighed. “I don’t think,” you started slowly, “that you can have any idea what a marriage like this is really like until you’re inside of it, Steve.”
He shook his head. “I know what sort of man I am,” he said confidently. “I know how I’ll treat my wife.” And you saw it then, the pity in his eyes, and everything in you bristled.
Sanctimonious. That was the word Ransom had used. You loved your step-brother so much. You’d defend him to the end of the world and back. But he really could be such an asshole sometimes. And seeing him now, like this, you could understand why someone like Ransom might hate him.
“Well,” you said, trying so hard to keep your voice even, “you’ll be lucky then. To have such an easy go of it. I hope you don’t find that it’s harder than it looks. That appearances can be deceiving.”
He narrowed his eyes at you. “That’s why I’m asking you to tell me. I don’t understand why you won’t.”
“Because I know you won’t listen! You’ve already decided what’s going on here!”
“Well, it seems pretty obvious! I know you, and I certainly know him. So yeah, when you’re crying every time I talk to you and you send me cryptic texts wishing I was here, yeah, I think I have a pretty good guess about what’s been going on.”
“You’re so frustrating,” you growled a little. Then you sighed. It was inevitable. You knew it. At this point, you just wanted to get it over with. “Ok. Fine. But you have to actually listen to me, ok? Like, to what I’m actually saying. You can’t just jump to conclusions. Okay? I’m serious.”
“Chip, yes, of course. I’ll always listen to you.”
You took a deep, fortifying breath. “It’s been– It’s been really hard here. I’ve been on my own almost the whole time and it’s just been really lonely. You just– you can’t know what it’s like to be married to a stranger. We haven’t known how to talk to each other and I just– It’s been really hard for both of us.” At that, Steve scoffed, but you couldn’t stop now, you had to get this out. “Anyway, um, a few days ago I learned some news, that was–” You paused to try to find the right word. You had no idea how to classify it. It wasn’t upsetting, per se, but what other word was there? “And then Ransom found out and that’s when I texted you. And slept in the gym.”
“What was the news?” Steve asked, gravely. He was looking at you so intently. You really didn’t want to do this, but you knew you had to.
You looked off into the corner of the room, unable to get this out and meet his eyes at the same time. “I’m pregnant,” you said quietly.
Steve stood up so abruptly that you couldn’t help but jump. “I’m gonna fucking kill him,” he actually snarled. You’d never heard his voice do that before.
“Steve, please,” you started, both hands out in a placating manner. “Please, can you calm down so we can talk about this?”
But, of course, he ignored you. “Where is he?” he demanded.
“I don’t know,” you shrugged, helplessly. “He’s out. I don’t, I don’t know where.”
Steve didn’t say anything, just clenched his jaw and stood rigidly, his hands on his hips. You could practically see the untapped adrenaline coursing through him.
“Can you please just sit down?” you pleaded. “Just take a deep breath and sit down and we can–”
“I’m going for a run,” he said, curtly, then turned on his heel and walked towards the door.
“But you just got back from one!” you called after him. He wasn’t even dressed for a run. But that apparently didn’t matter. He was gone.
You just sat there for a moment, completely lost, with no idea what to do. Then you got your phone out and texted Ransom.
He knows
Don’t come back for a few hours, I think. He needs time to calm down. I’m sorry.
The checkmark showing he’d seen your message appeared almost immediately, quickly followed by the three dots that showed he was typing, but then those disappeared. A few moments later they came back but quickly disappeared again. No response ever came.
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The men from the storage company came to take Ransom’s gym equipment away. You threw yourself into directing them, happy to have a distraction from worrying about where Steve was, what he was feeling. But then they were done, the room was empty, and Steve was still gone.
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Ransom got back first. He found you in the former gym, trying to rearrange the couch cushions in the center of the room into something more comfortable. He paused in the doorway, Lola dancing around at his feet. “Where’s Steve?” he asked, as he bent down to pet her.
“He, uh–” you said without looking up, “he went for another run. He wasn’t very happy.”
“Fucking asshole,” Ransom muttered.
You finally looked at him, shaking your head. “No, he just doesn’t handle it well when he doesn’t know how to fix something.”
Ransom looked at you very seriously. “And if he makes that your problem, he’s a fucking asshole.”
“That's not– That's not what happened. That's not what he's doing.”
He stared at you for a long moment, causing you to look away, uncomfortable with the attention. “Okay,” he finally said with the hint of a sigh. “Well, I’ll be downstairs if you want company or…” He trailed off and shrugged, then left the room.
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About an hour later, Steve burst back into the house, yelling into his phone. “Well, where the hell did that money go? There’s no reason for him to be that over-budget. I’ve seen the dailies. –No, you get down there and you get that set back under control. –I can’t, I’m not in LA. There was a family emergency. –Yeah, I know Joseph is still there. He isn’t my only family, is he? Listen, just go do your goddamn job.” With that, he hung up his phone forcefully then stomped upstairs without acknowledging you or Ransom where you were seated on the couch.  
You could feel the irritation coming off of Ransom but he didn’t say anything. You were grateful. You had no idea what to make of Steve right now, how to explain him. Or excuse him. The awkward silence was preferable to trying.
Several minutes later, Steve came back down, changed into fresh clothes again. He smiled at you in greeting and if not for the tense set of his shoulders, you would have thought everything was fine. “Hey,” he said, “I just ordered the two of us some food.”
“The two of us?” you asked, looking pointedly at Ransom.
“Oh!” Steve exclaimed and the fucking fake look of surprise on his face made you want to scream. “I didn’t realize he was back. Well, I’m sure it’s fine. It’s his house. He’ll be able to scrounge up something.”
“Steve,” you started. Of all the unbelievably rude– 
Your ramp-up to letting your brother have it was cut short by Ransom’s hand on your wrist. “It’s fine,” he said quietly. He looked tired and sad in a way you hated. He looked annoyed too, beyond belief, but underneath all that, you also saw something pleading in his expression. You remembered what he’d said this morning. He wanted you to have a nice day with your brother. So you swallowed down all of your anger and didn’t say anything. But you cataloged everything so you could have a private conversation with Steve later.
“See,” Steve said with a smug grin, “it’s fine. This will be nice. It’s been too long since we’ve gotten to pig out together. I got all your favorites.”
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Despite your protests, Ransom made himself scarce. The food arrived shortly after he disappeared and Steve dished it up like nothing was wrong. You sat and ate with him, even though you weren’t much up for conversation, despite his frequent efforts. He never said anything about the news you’d shared that morning. You tried not to be too hurt by that. 
As you were finishing up, Ransom quietly reappeared, grabbing something to drink from the fridge. Before he could run back upstairs, you stopped him, feeling awful that he must feel so unwelcome in his own home. “Do you want some food?” you asked, gesturing to the copious leftovers. “I could make you a plate.”
Not waiting for Ransom’s response, Steve cut in. “Is that how it works around here?” he asked, not of you but Ransom. “You’ve got her waiting on you on hand and foot?” his voice teeming with anger.
“Steve,” you hissed, trying to stop him, but he didn’t notice.
“I mean, I get it,” he continued, and there was a sharp edge to his voice that made you very nervous, “you must have thought you hit the jackpot, huh? Some sweet, naive little thing who's too young to really be plugged into the right part of the prep school rumor mill. Hasn't heard about the designer drugs, or the girls, or the parties. All the trouble your family's had to bail you out of. That's why they had to look clear on the other coast for an arrangement for you, huh? They had to go that far to find anyone who didn't already know what a piece of shit you are–”
“STEVEN GRANT ROGERS” you shouted, your stool loudly scraping against the hardwood floor as you stood up. It’d barely been there, you’d barely seen it, the flash of deep hurt on Ransom’s face before he’d covered it up, first with a blank mask, then a sneer that threatened to bring everything down. But you wouldn’t let that happen. You were fucking done. You couldn’t deal with this anymore. “Can you just stop, Steve?! I’m so tired of this shit!” you yelled at him.
“What?” they said in unison, both men facing you now, surprised.
“Lola!” you called out. “Come on! Steve and I are taking you for a walk!” She came racing down the stairs, and you quickly put on her harness and leash. Then you were out the door, trusting that Steve was behind you.
You walked in silence for a few blocks. You could feel him watching you warily, but you didn’t turn around to look at him. You didn’t think you’d ever been so mad at him in your life. It might’ve been the angriest you’d ever been with anyone. Your hands were shaking. “What the fuck is wrong with you?” you finally seethed, stopping so suddenly that he almost ran into you.
“What?” His obliviousness made you even angrier.
You finally turned on him, your face heating up with rage. “You’re such a fucking asshole! You’re fucking everything up!”
He cowed just a bit at your glare but quickly recovered. “What are you talking about?! I came here to help you!”
“Well, you aren’t! I keep telling you that you aren’t but you never fucking listen to me!”
He recoiled a little, and then his eyes went steely. “Really? I never listen to you? I’m the only one who ever listens to you!”
Even if that were true, there was something about the way he said it that really pissed you off. “Fuck you!” you said and charged forward with Lola running to catch up behind you.
A moment later, Steve was on your heels again. “What is going on with you? You’ve been acting off since I got here.”
You spun on your heels to face him. “I’ve been acting off?! I wonder why! You’ve just barged in here like a bull in a china shop, not caring at all about the damage you’re doing!”
“I’m here to help you. I’ve been defending you!”
“Yeah, now! You’re trying to help me, now!”
“What does that mean?”
“Where have you been, Steve? You’ve been MIA the last three months, and now when things might actually get better, now you’re here to ‘defend’ me.”
“Better? This,” he hissed, flinging an arm towards your stomach, “is better?!”
“We had to do it. There was a clause in the contract. You know that!”
He scoffed. “Yeah, and I'm sure he reminded you of that every chance he got, as he fully took advantage of it.”
If he hadn't already set you off, that would be the thing to do it. “Never! Ok? I was the one who pushed it. I was the one who rushed It. Me. Never him.”
That brought Steve up short. “What? Why would you do that?”
“Because of your aunt!”
For a frustratingly long moment, he just gave you a confused look. Then you finally saw the realization dawn on his face. “Oh. Laura.”
“Yes, Laura! That wasn't going to be me. Not ever.”
“I never would have let that happen!”
The laugh that burst out of you at that was cold, hard. “How?” you asked. “You're always saying shit like that, but what, exactly, would you have done?”
He started to answer, but you cut him off quickly, shaking your head.
“This is my life, Steve. Mine. I’m the one who has to actually live it. I don’t need you judging me for how I choose to survive it.”
“You shouldn't have to just survive it,” he said. His tone had suddenly turned sad. It made you even angrier. 
“I'll be lucky to survive it,” you growled. “You get to just waltz around, forgetting how this world works whenever it's convenient for you. Meanwhile, I have to claw and fight for just the possibility that I might not turn into my mom.” You took a deep breath. “Ransom, at least, can fucking see that. He's stuck in this mess with me, and I think he might actually want to try. You’re not going to ruin that for me just because he insulted you once at a cocktail party or whatever.” You turned on your heels. You were exhausted. You didn't have the energy for any more of this. “I'm going back. You can come if you want. But you better fucking apologize. He didn't deserve that. No matter what he’s done, he didn’t deserve to be treated that way by you.”
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Steve was a few minutes behind you getting back to the house, and he did apologize, although through gritted teeth. The whole time, Ransom’s eyes were on you. 
You declared you were going to bed shortly after. It was too early, but you didn't care. You were done with this day.
As you were changing into your sleep clothes, Ransom quietly let himself into his room. You both looked a little startled by your state of undress. Part of you wanted to cover up. It felt so intimate, changing in front of him. But you knew that was silly. He'd already seen so much more of you. 
He just stood there for a long moment before he finally spoke. “You yelled at him for me.”
“Yeah,” you said. “He deserved it.”
“But he's your brother.” He almost seemed confused. 
The absolutely absurd thought And you're my husband popped into your head unbidden, but thankfully you didn't vocalize it. “That doesn't change the fact that he was wrong.”
Ransom didn’t say anything. Just stood there with a furrowed brow. After too much silence you asked softly, “Did I do something wrong?”
He jolted a little, like he’d been somewhere else, then shook his head. “No, sorry, I just–” He took a breath. “Thank you. I’m not used to people doing things like that for me.” 
“Oh.” You didn’t know what to say. You suddenly felt so sad for him. But honestly, the only person who’d ever done anything like this for you had been Steve. And you’d seen Ransom’s family. You knew he’d never had a Steve.
Sparing you from having to figure out a response, Ransom took a deep breath, “Listen,” he started, “about the things he said, I–”
You cut him off with a shake of your head. “We don’t need to talk about that right now. Sometime, maybe, but not right now.” Nothing about his past would change things for you now. You’d still be married to him either way. It was better to just focus on the man he was showing himself to be now.
Ransom took a long moment and looked at you carefully. Finally, he asked, “Did you yell at him for yourself too?”
You nodded, then added a quiet, “I did.”
“Good,” he said, then started to turn around. “I’ll try not to wake you when I come to bed. Good night.”
“Good night,” you whispered.
Right before he left the room, he turned back to add one more thing. “I’ve never seen you as naive. Not for a moment in this whole thing.” Then he was gone, shutting the door behind him.
You just stood there, in the middle of the room, unable to move for a few minutes. Then you took a deep breath and moved into the bathroom. As you finished getting ready for bed, you couldn’t stop thinking about the possibility that maybe you had two people in your corner now.
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Your bedroom furniture and other belongings were delivered the next day. The movers set up the heavy furniture and then left everything else to you. As you started to begin unpacking, there was a hesitant knock on the door frame. 
Steve stood just outside your now bedroom, looking far less sure than you were used to. “Would you like some help?” he asked softly. 
“Sure,” you said, with a little shrug, pushing some boxes in his direction.
The two of you mostly worked in silence, only broken by Steve’s occasional questions of where you wanted your things to go. After a while he finally broke, “Dad’s been piling a ton of new stuff on my plate.” You stopped what you were doing and looked at him, listening. “Responsibilities and projects and– He wants me to take on more of being the face of the studio, too, so lots of parties and dinners and stuff. My schedule has been out of control. I’d think he was getting ready to retire if I didn’t actually know him.” He let out a weak chuckle. When you didn’t react, didn’t join him, he put his hands up in defense. “Not an excuse, just–” he shrugged his shoulders a little helplessly and sighed, “just an explanation, I guess.”
“You told me that I could call you any time of day for any reason. That’s what you said. And then I did, and you were nowhere to be found.”
“I know,” he started, “I–”
You shook your head. It was your turn to talk. “I spent months here feeling more alone than I ever have in my life. I’ve had nothing to do, no one to talk to. I was living with someone I thought I needed to be scared of.” You paused, wondering if that would set Steve off, but he just sat there, waiting for you to continue. Like he was really trying to listen this time. “His family’s been so awful to me, his mom especially. And you know my mom's been no help. She just kept telling me to keep him happy, even though I didn't know how. And I didn't know how to talk to him and he didn't know how to talk to me. But I knew the only way I could even start to feel secure here was if we fulfilled every part of the contract. So,” you put your hand on your stomach self-consciously and shook your head. “And the only person I actually wanted to talk to was you, and you wouldn't pick up your fucking phone. It felt like I was just stuck here while you went back to your life and forgot about me.” Tears spilled past your lashes and you hurried to wipe them away.
Steve’s face, which had grown sadder as you'd been talking, completely crumpled. He crawled from his sitting position across the room to you as fast as he could. “Hey, no,” he said emphatically as soon as he was sitting in front of you. “I think about you all the time. I've missed you so much. I've been so worried about you. I know I haven't done a good job showing it. I'm so sorry I ever made you feel like I didn't care. I–” He let out a deep breath and closed his eyes for just a moment. When he opened them, they had the distinct shine of unshed tears. “Talking to you was really hard. I felt like you weren’t actually telling me anything.” Before you even opened your mouth, Steve put up a hand to stop you from saying anything. “I'm not saying any of this was your fault. I know it's all mine. But I just didn’t know how to get you to talk to me. And if you wouldn't tell me what was wrong, then I couldn't fix it. I felt so useless. Every time we talked I felt so fucking useless. And so sometimes,” he paused like he was bracing himself, “sometimes it was kind of a relief to have the excuse of being busy. To have a reason to not call or text you back right away. I'm so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I was always thinking about you. I was always worried about you. But sometimes I just couldn't fucking talk to you.”
It took your breath away, the intense stab of hurt you felt. “I’ve never needed you to be useful,” you gasped out through your tears. “I just need you to be there for me. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, and I just need you to be there for me.”
“Shit,” he choked out, his voice so thick. “I know.” He moved forward, then paused, waiting for you to stop him. When you didn’t, he lunged for you, wrapping you in his arms. “I know. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.”
You just sat like that, holding each other for several minutes. When you finally pulled apart, Steve blinked his eyes clear and said, “I hope you know that I never meant to hurt you.”
“I know,” you said softly, and took a deep breath, “and I forgive you for doing it anyway.”
You watched some of the rigidness leave his shoulders. “Thank you,” he breathed out.
Neither of you said anything, and there was still this tension in the room. You were so tired of it. You just wanted your brother back. You just wanted any normalcy you could possibly get, so you wiped the tears from your eyes and said, “You're right. I wasn't telling you anything. I think because I was afraid that if I did, you wouldn't listen past the first two words and then do something completely wild, like fly all the way across the country to punch Ransom in the face. Ridiculous, right?”
He just stared at you in shock and then clocked the wry smile on your face. He laughed despite himself, then rolled his eyes and groaned. “You're sure he didn’t deserve it?”
You pulled a small pillow from the box beside you and threw it at him, annoyed as he dodged it easily. “Yes, I’m sure, you asshole!” You scowled at him, but you couldn’t quite keep the corners of your mouth from ticking up. The whole room felt lighter now, easier to breathe in. It was such a relief.
“I can’t believe you actually like him now,” Steve whined, his whole face scrunched up in disgust.
You shrugged. “I still don’t really know him. But I’m going to try to. We both are, I hope. I don’t know, I think maybe we could be friends, eventually.” You shook your head in disbelief. “That’s a best-case scenario I never really imagined.”
Steve looked at you thoughtfully, and with a hint of playfulness, said, “Well. I’m never going to like him.” His eyes got a little more serious. “But I’m really happy, and so relieved, that things are getting better for you.���
“Yeah, me too,” you said softly. Then you both went back to unpacking, conversation ebbing in and out much easier now.
Eventually, you heard him let out a long sigh. You turned to look at him as he carefully pulled something from a box. Oh. It was Mr. Bun Bun, your favorite stuffed animal as a kid. You remembered crying as you packed it away to put into storage, Steve sitting next to you, gently rubbing your back.
He slowly took a few steps to the head of your bed and then reverently placed it against your pillows. He just stared at it for a moment and then looked around at the rest of the room. “Wow,” he said, and he sounded so sad, “I guess you really live here now.”
“What do you mean?” you asked. “I've been here for months.”
“Yeah, I know. But I guess,” he shrugged, “I guess it still sort of felt like you'd be back any day. But all your stuff's here now. It just– It feels final.”
You looked around the room as well. It wasn't exactly like your old room in your old apartment but this was the closest thing you'd had to feeling home in months. “Yeah,” you said quietly, not quite sure what to do with these feelings. “I guess it does.”
Steve sat down on your bed and you immediately joined him. He knocked his knee against yours. “I know I keep saying this, but I really do miss you. It’s so weird to not have you in LA anymore. To go to all these parties and not be able to talk to you there. Or to be able to just drop by your apartment when I need to see you. Or when you need to see me.”
“Yeah,” you nodded. “That’s why it’s so important for us to actually keep in touch.”
“I know,” he said, seriously. “I’ll be better at it. I promise.”
You hummed in response and grabbed his hand. Now that everything was out in the open, it was such a relief to just be able to enjoy his closeness, without the tension hanging over both of you.
After a few minutes, he took a deep breath and spoke again. “I’m gonna go home tonight.”
“What? Why?”
“You were right. I’m just in the way here. It’s time for me to go.”
“Ok,” you replied, your voice small. You weren’t sure how to feel about that—the last few days had been so hard and so exhausting. But you’d finally gotten your brother back and now he was leaving again? “Are you sure?”
He jostled you with his shoulder. “Hey,” he said gently with a smile. “I’ll be back. And I’ll even let you invite me next time.”
You smiled back. “Advanced notice?” you asked. “How novel!”
Steve grabbed one of your pillows and hit you with it. You collapsed into giggles, feeling lighter than you had for a long time.
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You spent the rest of the day with your brother, which warmed your soul even more than you thought you needed. 
You took Lola out for a short walk in the evening, while Steve finished gathering his things before the car would come to pick him up. When you came back in, you found Steve and Ransom locked in a serious conversation. They spoke in hushed tones, leaning across the kitchen island to face each other. There was no yelling. No tensing muscles ready for a fight. All the same, it made you very nervous. 
They both quieted as they noticed your presence. That didn’t help to quell your worry at all. “What’s going on here?” 
Steve gave you his trademarked boyish grin. “Just getting to know my brother-in-law.”
You narrowed your eyes at him suspiciously then cast a concerned glance at Ransom, but he waved you off with a reassuring shake of his head. Steve was still grinning at you like everything was fine. He really could be such an asshole. “Sure. OK,” you said, resigned to whatever weird dynamic was happening in front of you. “Are you all ready?”
“Yup,” Steve nodded, gesturing to where his luggage was waiting by the door. “Car should be here any minute.”
You nodded back, trying to ignore the way your chest tightened. He pulled you into a hug quickly. He just held you for a moment before you heard Ransom clear his throat behind you. “I’ll give you two your privacy.”
You pulled away just enough to see Steve look over your shoulder so he could say, “Remember what we talked about.”
You looked over to Ransom who held Steve’s gaze and firmly said, “Yeah, you too,” then went upstairs.
“The fuck was that?” you asked Steve.
“Nothing, just a conversation we needed to have.”
“Steve,” you sighed in exasperation as you separated yourself from him.
He put up his hands in defense. “It’s fine. I’m playing nice. I promise.”
“Sure.”
He took a step back and awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck. “There’s one more thing I need to say to you. I should have done it yesterday when you first–” he shook his head. “My reaction when you told me about the baby was awful, I know that. And I don’t know if ‘congratulations’ is something you want to hear right now, so I just want to say that I’ll be here for you, whatever you need. And I’ll be here for the baby too. OK? I just really needed to say that.”
You searched his face, his eyes for anything that might warn you that his words were empty, but all you found was sincerity. You took a deep breath. “All I need is for you to pick up your phone.”
“I know,” he nodded quickly. “I will.”
You were so torn between the exhaustion and frustration of the last few days and just how much you'd missed your brother. You pulled him into another hug. “You’re such a jerk,” you said with a hint of fondness.
“I know,” he said, wrapping his arms around you.
“And I love you so much.”
You felt him exhale, any remaining uneasiness bleeding out of him. “I know. I love you too.”
His phone buzzed loudly in his pocket. “Your car is here,” you said sadly, pulling away.
“Hey, that’s ok. It’s not like they’ll leave without me.”
“No,” you shook your head, “you should go. You don’t want to get home too late.”
“Oh, chipmunk,” he sighed. “Ok, one more,” then hugged you again. “I’m so proud of you.”
You pulled back to look him in the eye. “What for?”
He took a moment to gather his words. Finally, he said, looking you right in the eye, “For being so much stronger than you should have to be.”
You had no idea what to say to that so you walked over to the door, Steve right behind you. 
At the door, he put one hand on his suitcase, and with the other, he grabbed your hand. “I’ll see you again soon. I promise.”
You nodded, searching for something to say. “Uh, thanks for coming.”
That elicited a big hearty laugh from him. “Yeah, sure.” He squeezed your hand. “Take good care of yourself.”
“You too,” you said, opening the door for him.
He gave you a big smile before he walked out the door. You watched the driver take Steve’s suitcase from him and open the back door for Steve to get in. You stayed in the doorway until the car slowly backed down the driveway and turned onto the road. After closing the door, you still stayed where you were, trying to breathe through the flood of emotions overtaking you. You already missed him so much, yet you were so relieved he was gone. What were you supposed to do with that?
You were finally jolted out of your reverie by the sound of Ransom coming down the stairs, the tinkling of Lola’s collar accompanying him. “Steve’s gone?” he asked as he came off the last step. 
When you nodded, you saw the way his shoulders slumped in relief. You held back the apology desperate to crawl out of your mouth. Steve’s actions weren’t your responsibility, you tried so hard to remember. But still, Ransom had lost the comfort of his own home for days. The guilt was there.
He got himself a water out of the fridge and then looked at you carefully. “How are you?”
The reflex to tell him you were fine was strong, but you did your best to resist it and answered honestly. “I don’t really know.”
He smiled a little ruefully. “I have no idea what’s normal for siblings.”
You chuckled lightly. “Neither do I.”
He took several steps towards you and you couldn’t help the way your body swayed in his direction, just a little. “But you’re alright?’
You nodded and said softly, “I will be.”
“Good.” Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed the way the fingers on one of his hands drummed against his thigh. “Well. I just wanted to check on you before I went to bed.”
“Thank you,” you whispered, strangely aware of the space between you. “I appreciate it. It was a weird few days, but I think I’m ok. Or I will be.”
“Yeah. Good,” he said again. 
You both just stood there for a moment, the air around you oddly charged, until Lola pawed at your leg. “Right. Well, she needs to go out. So. I’ll see you tomorrow. Goodnight.”
“Goodnight,” he said quietly, then turned toward the sink as you went outside with Lola.
When you got back in, there was no sign of Ransom, so you led Lola upstairs to your new bedroom. She immediately hopped onto your bed, wagging her tail wildly. As you looked around, all of your things almost as they’d been in your apartment in LA, those feelings you felt while unpacking your things with Steve grew in you even more. You smiled at your little dog. “Yeah, feels almost like home, doesn’t it, Lola?”
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Doll House: A Jude Bellingham + Orginal Character Erotic Series.
18+ Minors DNI
Chapter 2
Tori adored teaching dance almost as much as she loved performing, but a last-minute call from another of the instructors meant she’d been tasked with taking the class instead, completely throwing off her dinner plans with Jude. 
Rather than having him collect her from her apartment, they decided that Jude would swing by the dance studio to pick Tori up before they made their way to his place, where his chef was set to prepare dinner for the two of them.
“Beautiful girls! One more run-through and we are done for the day.” Tori exclaimed to her class of preteens as she pressed play starting the piece of music they were dancing to over. 
The energy in the studio was electric as the music filled the air, a vibrant mix of rhythm and melody. Tori clapped her hands together, energizing her students, their eager faces lighting up with excitement. She loved moments like this, watching the girls, full of enthusiasm, moving in sync with the beat, their innocence reminding her of her childhood passion for dance.
As the music started, Tori took a step back, her eyes roaming over the eager faces, filled with determination as they followed her instructions. She couldn’t help but smile, swept away by their spirit. Each pirouette, every leap they executed, ignited the love she had for her craft—teaching them not only the moves but also the joy and confidence that dance could bring into their lives.
“Let’s focus on those transitions, girls! Remember to keep your arms fluid and your movements sharp!” she encouraged, her words ringing above the music, infusing her students with motivation.
Despite her excitement, Tori felt a longing in her chest. She had been looking forward to dinner with Jude, the thought of their intimate evening together floating in her mind like a sweet dream. But all of that anticipation had now transformed into a fleeting thought as she poured herself into the class.
“Five, six, seven, eight! And one, two, three… spin!” Tori counted, her body moving lightly along with the girls, demonstrating the moves with a grace she had honed over countless performances. The music surged, and she felt her energy rising, moving through the routine seamlessly.
As the final notes of the song echoed through the studio, Tori turned down the music and clapped her hands together, signalling an end to class. “Great job today, everyone! You’ve all worked so hard! I’m so proud of you!”
The girls erupted in cheers, giddy and full of laughter as they chatted and gathered their belongings. Tori smiled and waved them off, feeling the familiar warmth of pride fill her chest. 
Just as she was packing her bag, her gaze flickered to the clock on the wall. She hoped Jude had arrived by now. There was a flutter of anticipation in her belly at the thought of seeing him.
As she gathered her belongings and cleared what little mess the girls had left behind, Tori’s phone began to ring in her bag. 
She fished it out, her heart racing as she saw Jude's name flash across the screen. A smile broke across her face, and she quickly answered, eager to hear his voice. 
“Hi!” she said, trying to keep her tone light despite the rush of excitement. 
“Hey, beautiful! I’m outside the studio. Are you almost done?” Jude’s voice was warm and inviting, sending a thrill through her.
“Just wrapping up! I’ll be right out,” Tori replied, her heart fluttering at the thought of seeing him. She quickly finished packing her bag, her mind racing with thoughts of the kiss they shared the evening prior. 
“I can’t wait to see you,” he said, and she could hear the smile in his voice. 
“Me too! I’m sorry about the change of plans,” she admitted, her cheeks flushing slightly. 
“Don’t worry about it,” Jude reassured her, his tone light. “I’m just happy I get to see you. Plus, I’m sure your students needed you.”
Tori felt a rush of warmth at his words. “Thanks! They were amazing today. I love teaching them,” she said, her voice filled with genuine enthusiasm. 
“Sounds like you had a good time. I’m looking forward to seeing you,” he replied, and she could sense the readiness in his voice. 
“Definitely! I’m leaving the studio now. I'll see you in a second.” Tori said before handing up the phone so she could pull her sweats over the leotard she wore, before putting on her coat and sneakers so she could head out to meet Jude. 
The street outside of the studio was rather empty, barring a sleek black Mercedes parked at the curb, the low smooth rumble of the engine humming from the car before the driver door pushed open and Jude stepped out of it dressed casually in a black sweatsuit. 
Tori’s heart skipped a beat as their eyes met, his attire so much more relaxed than the tuxedo he wore the day before, but just as handsome. 
“Hi,” Tori greeted, her voice softening as she took in the sight of him. The way he stood there, exuding confidence and warmth, made her feel a rush of affection.
“Hi,” Jude repeated, his smile wide and genuine. He closed the distance between them, wrapping his arms around her in a warm embrace and Tori couldn't help but inhale his musky scent. She melted into him, as his arms tightened before he released her from his hold. 
“Can I take this?” Jude asked, his voice calm and warm as he reached out, his fingers gently grazing Tori’s as he moved to lift her gym bag from her side. 
“Thank you!” Tori responded, a smile illuminating her face as she surrendered the bag to him. She observed with appreciation as Jude effortlessly hoisted the bag into the trunk of his car, his movements smooth and confident.
Gently closing the trunk with a soft thud, Jude walked around the car, he reached the passenger side and pulled the door open, a warm smile on his face as he gestured for Tori to climb inside. The late afternoon winter sun casting a golden glow over the city. 
Still dressed in her ballet clothes and feeling rather sweaty, she anticipated arriving at Jude's house so she could use his shower. The entire arrangement was slightly bizarre for the first time two people were hanging out.
Their conversation was light and flowing as Jude drove to his house, the traffic not as heavy as expected for a Saturday afternoon much to his delight. 
Tori was in slight awe as she watched the cityscape gradually give way to the suburbs, each house they passed seemingly bigger than the last as they neared Jude’s neighbourhood. 
After an Instagram search of Jude when she got in the night before, it became apparent to Tori that he was a big deal. He had millions of followers across social media and frequent endorsements with massive brands. The realization made her heart race with anxiety.
She hated to make assumptions, but it was seldom that men like Jude came without a flurry of women behind them, regardless of their relationship status. 
Victoria had learned that she was two years older than him, he hailed from the West Midlands and before moving to Madrid he had lived out in Germany where he also played soccer. 
Tori’s mind was racing with thoughts. What if Jude was just another entitled man who enjoyed the thrill of the chase? Dispelling the nagging doubt in her mind she focused on the moment. He had been nothing but genuine with her so far, and their connection felt real.
“So, what’s your chef cooking for us tonight?” Tori smirked, shifting the conversation into safer, more playful territory as the suburban landscape unfolded like a movie set outside the window.
Jude chuckled, glancing over at her with a playful grin. “Whatever you like, that's the beauty of it.” 
Tori raised an eyebrow, intrigued. “Oh really?” 
He nodded, a twinkle in his eyes. “Absolutely. But I have a few suggestions if you don’t know what you want.” 
“What's your favourite meal?” she asked, leaning back slightly in her seat, eager for his input.
“It’s pretty basic but I'm a sucker for a steak,” Jude admitted, a hint of mischief in his voice. “But I think homemade pasta is also a solid backup.”
“I’m not sure if you mean to, but you sound obnoxiously rich right now,” Tori said teasingly, making Jude laugh as he turned the steering wheel, rounding onto another street, showcasing homes that looked as though they could grace the covers of Architectural Digest.
Jude chuckled, shooting her a sidelong glance. “Well, I assure you, I’m really not. I just happen to enjoy good food and have a great chef who makes it all happen. It does make things a lot more enjoyable, though.” 
Tori smiled, feeling more at ease with the playful banter. “If that’s the case, I’m looking forward to dinner.” She paused for a moment, a flicker of curiosity crossing her mind. “What else does your chef cook? Besides the pasta and steak, of course.”
He thought for a moment, a grin spreading across his face, clearly enjoying the conversation. “I try to avoid sugary foods during the season, but he’s a fucking fantastic baker.” 
Tori couldn't help but laugh as she listened to Jude go on about his chef, it was evident that he didn't lead the normal life of a twenty-one-year-old man, but he still seemed extremely down to earth. 
“This is me,” Jude said as he tilted his head towards a tall black gate, before turning into its driveway. 
Reaching for a small fob in the middle compartment of his car, he pressed it and the gate slowly rolled open. 
As the car moved slowly up the gravel driveway, Tori gazed at Jude’s house, a stunning masterpiece of modern architecture. Its sleek lines and minimalist design exuded sophistication, with large glass windows reflecting the soft glow of the setting winter sun. The structure was both imposing and inviting, with a sense of warmth despite its grandness.
The entrance was decorated with two elegant sculptures, and the subtle outdoor lighting highlighted the clean lines of the building, creating an atmosphere of serene luxury.
“Wow, Jude, your house is beautiful,” Tori gushed, her eyes wide with admiration.
Jude parked the car smoothly and turned to her, a proud but modest smile on his face. “Thanks. I wanted it to feel open and welcoming. It’s a bit different from what I grew up in, but I love it.”
As they stepped out of the car, the crunch of gravel under their feet echoed softly in the quiet evening. Jude guided her towards the front door, using his key to open it before allowing her to enter first. 
“I can give you a tour later, but for now would you like anything to drink?” Jude asked as he kicked off his sneakers. 
“Water is fine,” Tori replied, feeling a little flustered but excited. She took in her surroundings, the spacious foyer adorned with modern art pieces and a stylish chandelier that cast a warm glow over everything. 
Following Jude into the kitchen she watched as he grabbed a bottle of water from the refrigerator before he turned and handed it to Tori. 
Gracefully accepting the water, Tori trailed behind Jude as he guided her into his living room. The space was warmly lit, and filled with inviting furniture that highlighted a blend of comfort and style. She settled into a soft armchair, the fabric plush against her skin, while Jude took a seat across from her, his demeanour relaxed yet attentive.
Despite the plush comfort of her cushioned seat, Tori couldn't shake the clammy sensation clinging to her skin after a long day of dancing. The remnants of perspiration lingered, making her feel uncomfortable. She turned to Jude, a hint of shyness in her voice, and asked, “Do you mind if I take a shower now?”
“Of course. The guest bathroom is just down the hall,” Jude replied, his smile warm and inviting.
Tori felt a wave of relief wash over her. “Thanks! I won’t be long,” she promised, standing up and making her way toward the hallway. She could feel Jude’s gaze on her as she walked away, a mix of excitement and nervousness bubbling in her chest at the thought of their evening together.
As she stepped into the bathroom, Tori quickly shed her dance clothes, grateful for the opportunity to wash away the day’s exertions. The warm water cascaded over her, soothing her muscles and letting her mind wander. She couldn’t help but think about Jude and how comfortable he made her feel, despite the initial anxiety she had about their relationship.
After a refreshing shower, Tori dried herself off and went to retrieve her clothes from her bag only to realize she’d left them in the living room with Jude. 
Opening the bathroom door, Victoria stepped into the bedroom feeling herself becoming slightly panicked.
Walking over to the bedroom door, she pulled it open and let out a sigh of distress. Tori stood looking out into the dimly lit hallway, feeling utterly exposed and at a loss for what to do. The soft fabric of the towel clung to her damp skin, offering little comfort as she weighed her options. She glanced nervously around Jude's house, its unfamiliar outlines and shadows amplifying her discomfort. Retrieving her bag and clothes from the living room seemed like an impossible task. The thought of wandering through the house, dressed only in a towel, sent a wave of embarrassment crashing over her. She knew she had to muster the courage to make the trek, but the vulnerability of the moment paralyzed her.
“Fuck,” she huffed as she crossed the threshold of Jude’s guest room into the long hallway, goosebumps covering the surface of her skin as she quickly made her way down it, attempting to keep quiet as she went. 
Making her way into Jude’s living room where she left her bag, Tori refused to lift her head as the murmur of the television and the soft glow of the screen filled the room. She could hear Jude’s voice, low and relaxed, as he chatted with someone on the phone. The sound made her heart race, a mix of excitement and anxiety swirling within her. 
Tori took a deep breath, trying to steady herself. She could see her bag just a few feet away, but the thought of Jude catching a glimpse of her in just a towel sent her pulse racing. She hesitated, her mind racing with thoughts of how ridiculous she must look, how vulnerable she felt. 
“Okay, just grab the bag and get out of here,” she whispered to herself, steeling her resolve. 
With a glance toward the sectional where Jude sat, she darted forward, her bare feet silent against the cool floor. She reached her bag and fumbled with the straps, her fingers trembling slightly as she pulled it into her grasp. Just as she was about to retrieve her clothes, she heard Jude’s voice grow louder, and her heart dropped.
“Yeah, I’ll call you back in a minute,” he said, and Tori froze, her breath caught in her throat. She could hear him moving around, and she knew she had to act fast. 
In a panic, she stood up and quickly turned to head back toward the hallway, but as she did, she bumped into the edge of the coffee table, sending a small decorative item clattering to the floor. 
“Shit!” she whispered, her heart racing as she turned to see Jude’s head snap in her direction. 
“Tori is everything okay?” Jude asked sitting up, reaching for the television remote so he could mute it as he gave her his undivided attention. 
Tori felt her cheeks flush as she stood there, clutching her bag to her chest like a shield. The towel felt even more inadequate under his gaze, and she could feel her heart pounding in her ears. 
“Everything’s fine!” she stammered, forcing a smile that felt more like a grimace. “I left my bag down here.”
Tori wanted the floor to open up and swallow her, it was only the second time of ever been in Jude's presence and she stood in front of him in nothing but a towel. The vulnerability of the moment was overwhelming, and she could feel the heat radiating from her cheeks. 
Jude’s expression softened a hint of amusement dancing in his eyes. “You know, you could have just called me,” he smirked unable to keep a straight face. 
“My phone is in here, too,” she explained clutching the bag a little tighter. 
“Then you could’ve shouted my name,” he teased, his tone light and playful. “I would have come running.”
Tori couldn’t help but laugh, the tension in her shoulders easing just a bit. “Yeah, right. I’d rather not have you see me like this,” she said, gesturing to the towel that felt like it was shrinking by the second.
“Honestly, you look fine,” Jude replied, his gaze steady and reassuring, although internally he willed himself not to make his gaze slip to her body. “But if you’re uncomfortable, I can cover my eyes until you leave the room.” 
Tori's laughter faded, replaced by a mix of embarrassment and relief. Jude's playful demeanour helped to ease the tension, but the heat in her cheeks remained. She could feel the weight of his gaze, and it sent a shiver down her spine, both thrilling and terrifying.
“Very funny,” she replied, rolling her eyes but unable to suppress a smile. “Although, I think it's a little late to cover your eyes.”
Jude chuckled, the sound warm and genuine. “Fair point. But I promise I’m not going to take a mental picture or anything,” he said, raising his hands in mock surrender. “I’m just trying to be polite.”
Tori felt a flutter of nerves in her stomach, but there was something about Jude’s easygoing nature that made her feel a little less exposed. “Thanks,” she said, her voice softening. “I guess I just didn’t expect to be naked in front of you the first time we’re hanging out.”
“What about the second?” Jude teased, a playful glint in his eyes.
Tori laughed, shaking her head. “Let’s not get ahead of ourselves. I think I’ll stick to clothes for the foreseeable future.”
“You’re beautiful in and out of them,” Jude replied, his tone sincere, and Tori felt her heart skip a beat at the compliment. 
“Wow, smooth talker, huh?” she said, trying to keep her tone light despite the warmth flooding her cheeks and stomach. “Flattery will get you everywhere.”
“Honestly, I’m just speaking the truth,” Jude said, his brow furrowed in sincerity as he looked directly at her. “But really, there’s no need to feel uncomfortable. It’s just a towel, after all. We’re all human, and these moments happen.” His tone was steady, aimed at easing the tension in the room.
Offering Jude a shy smile, Tori turned on her heels and left Jude’s living room so she could head back to the guest room to finally get dressed. 
When she returned she found that Jude was no longer lounging in his living room, making her way into the kitchen Tori couldn't help but smile as she walked into the room to find Jude enthusiastically talking to a greying olive-skinned man. 
“Tori, this is Chef Ruben,” he smiled as he turned to look at her before turning back to him. 
“Nice to meet you,” Tori said, her voice friendly as she extended her hand toward the chef. 
“Pleasure’s all mine, Tori,” Ruben replied, shaking her hand warmly. His eyes sparkled with kindness, and Tori felt instantly at ease. “Jude was telling me you were curious about what was on the menu tonight?”
“Yes, I’m curious! I’ve heard a lot about your cooking,” Tori replied, her enthusiasm genuine. She couldn’t help but feel a flutter of excitement at the thought of enjoying a meal prepared by someone who seemed to have such a passion for food.
Ruben chuckled, a warm, welcoming smile spreading across his face. “Well, you’re in for a treat! I’m making a herb-crusted rack of lamb with roasted vegetables and a side of creamy mashed potatoes. If you have room for dessert, I prepared a homemade salted caramel ice cream.” 
Tori’s eyes widened, and she felt her stomach rumble at the mention of the meal. “That sounds incredible! You’re making me hungry just talking about it,” she said, laughing lightly.
Jude leaned against the counter, crossing his arms with a smirk. “I told you,” he said, looking at Tori with a playful glint in his eyes. “Ruben’s cooking is legendary. You’ll never want to eat anywhere else after this.”
Tori chuckled, her excitement palpable. “I can believe it! You’re lucky to have such a talented chef at your disposal.”
Ruben waved a hand dismissively, his face lighting up with a grin as he turned back to the vegetables he'd been preparing. 
“Come with me,” Jude smirked as he held out his hand for Tori to take, leading her back into his living room to allow Ruben his space and give them more privacy. 
Although they had communicated a few times throughout the day, they had yet to bring up the kiss they'd shared the night before after meeting at Tori’s company's gala. 
As they stepped into the living room, Tori felt a mix of excitement and nervousness. The atmosphere was cozy, and the faint aroma of herbs and spices wafted in from the kitchen, making her stomach growl with anticipation. 
“So, what do you think of my humble abode?” Jude asked, gesturing around the room with a playful flourish. 
Tori looked around, taking in the elegant décor and modern furnishings. “It’s beautiful. Very… you,” she replied, smiling as she settled onto the plush couch. “I love how open and airy it feels.”
Jude chuckled softly as he sat down beside her, their knees nearly touching. “I wanted it to be a space where people feel comfortable. You know, a place where we can hang out, eat good food, and just enjoy each other’s company.”
The way he spoke sent a flutter through her chest. “I can definitely see that,” Tori said, her voice softening. “It feels welcoming.”
Jude leaned back against the couch, his gaze steady on her. “I’m really glad you could come tonight. I know our plans got a bit jumbled, but I’ve been looking forward to this.”
“Me too,” Tori replied, her heart racing slightly as she met his gaze. The air between them felt charged, and she could feel the warmth radiating from him. “I was a bit worried I’d messed things up.”
“Not at all,” Jude reassured her, reaching out to gently brush a strand of hair behind her ear. His touch sent shivers down her spine, and Tori felt herself lean into him instinctively. “I think it worked out perfectly. We get to enjoy a great meal and each other’s company.”
Tori felt her cheeks flush at the intimacy of the moment. “You’re right,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. “I’m really glad I get to spend time with you.”
“Me too,” Jude replied, his voice low and sincere. He hesitated for a moment, then added, “About last night… I just wanted to say that I enjoyed the kiss. I didn’t expect it, but it felt right.”
Tori’s heart raced at his words. “I felt the same way,” she admitted, her cheeks heating up as she remembered the warmth of his lips against hers. “It surprised me, but it was nice.”
Jude's expression softened, and he leaned slightly closer, closing the distance between them. “I’d like to explore that more if you’re open to it.”
Tori’s breath caught in her throat. She had been thinking about it since they parted ways the previous evening. “I’d like that,” she said, her voice steady despite her racing heart.
Leaning into her lips, Jude’s eyes met with Tori’s as they slowly moved closer, their breaths mingling in the space between them. The anticipation hung thick in the air, electrifying and intoxicating. When their lips finally connected, it was gentle at first, a soft brush that ignited a fire within both of them. 
Jude's hand travelled to the back of Tori's neck, pulling her in deeper as their kiss intensified. Tori instinctively leaned into him, feeling the warmth of his body envelop her. The kiss spoke volumes, conveying unspoken desires and promises that lingered just beneath the surface.
As they pulled away, both breathless, Tori couldn’t help but smile at Jude, her heart fluttering like a butterfly in her chest. She could see the hunger in his eyes mirroring her own, and it made her pulse quicken.
“So…” Tori started, her voice playful, trying to lighten the mood. “Is this part of your plan to keep me entertained while Chef Ruben conjures up magic in the kitchen?”
Jude chuckled, a twinkle in his eyes. “Maybe. But honestly, I just wanted a reason to kiss you again,” he admitted, his gaze piercing yet inviting. 
“I think I can get on board with that plan,” Tori replied, her playful demeanour having returned, strengthened by the immediate chemistry they had. 
Suddenly, the sound of footsteps approaching from the kitchen broke the moment. Chef Ruben emerged, wiping his hands on a towel. “Dinner is almost ready.” He peered at them with an amused smile, as if he knew exactly what moment he had interrupted.
Tori felt her cheeks flush as she and Jude quickly pulled apart, both of them trying to regain their composure. The playful atmosphere shifted slightly, but the warmth of the moment lingered in the air.
“Perfect timing, Chef,” Jude said, a hint of laughter in his voice as he leaned back against the couch, trying to appear casual as Ruben turned and left the room.
Victoria chuckled, her eyes twinkling with amusement, turning to look at Jude as he stood to his feet holding out his hand for her guiding her into the dining room where Ruben had set two places at the table for them. 
Pulling out Tori’s chair for her, Jude gestured for her to sit down before taking his seat. A knowing smile on his face as he awaited their dinner being served. 
“Is this an everyday thing for you?” Tori asked as she took in the dining room before his eyes landed back on Jude. “Candle-lit dinners and gourmet meals.”
“No, most of the time my mum will cook for me or Ruben will just leave my dinner in the microwave for whenever I get around to eating it,” Jude explained. 
He understood how glamorous his life may have appeared from the outside looking in, and despite all he had, he still maintained as humble a lifestyle as a man in his position would. 
Time flew by as Tori and Jude sat in his dining room, the evening passing as giving way to the nighttime as they spoke about any and everything. 
Ruben had left around two hours prior after cleaning up the mess he made while cooking, before leaving their dessert in the refrigerator for them. 
It wasn't until Jude's phone rang in his pocket that Tori remembered her own, and when she pulled it out she was surprised to see it was nearing the hour of midnight. 
“Wow, time flew by,” Tori said, glancing at the clock on the wall. “I didn’t realize it was so late!”
Jude chuckled, a hint of surprise in his voice as he checked his watch. “Yeah, it’s easy to lose track of time when you’re having fun. I guess we got a little carried away with our conversation.”
Tori smiled, feeling a warmth spread through her at the thought of their evening together. “I enjoyed it. You’re easy to talk to.”
“Same here,” Jude replied, leaning back in his chair, his expression thoughtful. “I enjoy your company.” 
Tori felt her heart flutter at his words. “Thank you, I've been told the very opposite before.”
Just then, Jude’s phone buzzed again, interrupting the moment. He glanced at the screen and frowned slightly. “It’s my manager. I should probably take this,” he said, standing up and moving a few steps away to answer the call.
Tori watched him, her heart racing slightly as she thought about how different their lives were. Jude was a rising star, and she was just a dancer trying to make a name for herself. She couldn’t help but wonder how or why their lives truly came to align.
As Jude spoke on the phone, Tori took a moment to gather her thoughts before standing to her feet so she could prepare to leave. The evening had been fun, but she didn't want to overstay her welcome. 
Grabbing the plates they ate from, Tori brought them to the kitchen so she could place them into the sink before going in search of her belongings. 
When Jude’s phone conversation came to an end, he returned to the kitchen, a slight frown still lingering on his face. “Sorry about that,” he said, running a hand through his hair. “Business never sleeps, I guess.”
Tori smiled, trying to ease the tension. “No worries, I was just cleaning up a bit. I didn’t want to leave a mess behind.”
Jude chuckled softly, leaning against the counter. “You didn’t have to do that. But I appreciate it.”
“I just figured it was the least I could do after such an amazing dinner,” Tori replied, feeling a sense of warmth at the compliment. “Seriously, the food was incredible. I‘m lucky to have experienced that. But it's super late and I should probably get going.”
“You don't have to,” Jude said, his tone shifting slightly as he stepped closer to her. “I mean, if you want to stay a bit longer, I’d love you to.”
Tori felt her heart flutter at his invitation. The thought of leaving felt premature, especially after such a lovely evening. “I’d like that,” she said, her voice softening. “But I don’t want to impose on you, I've known you twenty-four hours and you've already dropped me home and given me dinner.”
“You’re not imposing at all,” Jude reassured her, his eyes warm and sincere. “I genuinely want you to stay. Plus, it’s late, and I’d feel better knowing you’re safe here.”
Tori felt a rush of warmth at his words, her heart swelling with affection. “Okay, I’ll stay a little longer,” she said, a smile breaking across her face. 
“Great,” Jude replied, his expression brightening. “How about we watch a movie or something? I have a few good ones lined up.”
“Sounds good,” Tori agreed, feeling a sense of comfort wash over her. She loved the idea of curling up on the couch with him, enjoying the warmth of his presence.
Jude led her back to the living room, where he grabbed the remote and settled onto the couch, gesturing for her to join him. Tori nestled in beside him, feeling the heat radiating from his body as they sank into the cushions. 
As the opening credits rolled, Tori found herself stealing glances at Jude, who was focused on the screen. She couldn’t help but admire the way the soft light illuminated his features, the way his lips curved into a smile at the funny moments in the film. 
Halfway through the movie, Tori felt a wave of drowsiness wash over her. She leaned her head against Jude’s shoulder, feeling safe and content. Jude glanced down at her, a soft smile playing on his lips as he wrapped an arm around her, pulling her closer.
“Comfortable?” he asked, his voice low and soothing.
“Very,” Tori replied, her eyes fluttering closed for a moment. She felt a sense of peace envelope her, the stresses of the day fading away as she relaxed against him.
As the movie continued, Tori felt Jude’s fingers gently brushing through her hair, a tender gesture that sent shivers down her spine. She looked up at him, meeting his gaze, and in that moment, the air between them shifted. 
Jude’s eyes darkened with desire, and Tori felt her heart race as he leaned in closer. “Can I kiss you again?” he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
“Yes,” Tori breathed, her heart pounding in her chest.
Their lips met softly at first, a gentle exploration that quickly deepened as the kiss ignited a fire within them both. Tori melted against him, her hands finding their way to his hair as she pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. 
Jude responded eagerly, his hands roaming down her back, pulling her against him as the kiss grew more passionate. Tori felt a rush of heat flood her body, her senses heightened as they lost themselves in each other.
Pulling Tori into her lap so she straddled him, Jude wrapped his arms around her waist, holding her close as their kiss deepened. Tori could feel the warmth radiating from his body, and it sent a thrill through her. She couldn't recall the last time she felt so desired, so wanted, and it both exhilarated and terrified her.
As they kissed, Tori felt the world around them fade away. The flickering light from the television was just a backdrop to the intensity of the moment, and all that mattered was the connection they were sharing. Jude’s hands slid up her back, his fingers going beneath her top as he groaned into her mouth at the realization she wasn't wearing a bra. 
Tori gasped softly at the sensation, her body responding instinctively to his touch. The warmth of his hands against her skin sent shivers down her spine, igniting a spark of desire that coursed through her. She felt emboldened, the initial nerves washing away as the kiss deepened and grew more passionate.
Jude pulled her closer, his hands exploring the contours of her back with a tenderness that made her heart race. Tori’s fingers tangled in his hair, and she felt a rush of exhilaration as they lost themselves in the moment, completely consumed by the chemistry crackling between them.
But as the kiss intensified, a small voice in the back of Tori’s mind reminded her of the speed at which things were moving. She reluctantly pulled back, breathless, her heart pounding in her chest as she searched Jude’s eyes for reassurance. 
“I should go,” she breathed, feeling a mixture of apprehension and desire, unsure of where the night would head if she remained in his presence. 
“Stay,” Jude murmured, a frown on his browline as he looked into Tori’s eyes willing her to heed him. “Please,” he added softly, his voice laced with sincerity.
Leaning down Tori pressed her lips against his once more, her arms wrapping around his shoulders as he stood to his feet with her in his arms. 
He moved as of she was weightless as he moved from the living room and upstairs to the upper level of his house. 
Pushing open his bedroom door without parting lips with Tori, Jude used his foot to close it behind himself, locking them away from the rest of their world. 
All rationale had left Tori’s mind and she and Jude indulged in each other, giving in to impulse and desire as they stripped one another until they lay tangled between the sheets. 
Jude feasted on her until she was a trembling mess in the middle of his bed. He used his mouth and tongue to render her speechless—he lost himself in the act, tasting and torturing her with his skilled mouth.
“Jude,” Victoria moaned into his ear, her legs wrapping around his waist as he sank into her inch by delicious inch, his hands splayed either side of her head as their eyes met.
“You're so fucking tight,” Jude groaned in awe of the way she felt around him, the heat and sensation almost overwhelming. Victoria's body responded to him, clenching and releasing like she was designed to fit him perfectly. 
Her back arched as he filled her completely, sending waves of pleasure coursing through them both. “Yes, just like that,” she encouraged her voice a sultry whisper that sent a shiver down his spine.
He took a moment to drink her in— the way her hair fanned out on the pillow, the flush of her cheeks, and the way her lips parted slightly as she struggled to find words between gasps. Every detail contributed to fueling a fire in him, compelling him to go deeper, to claim her in a way that left no doubt of his desire.
“Fuck, you feel good,” he breathed, starting a slow, deliberate rhythm. Pulling almost all the way out of Tori before easing back in, moving his hand from beside her head to pin her right leg to the bed, his grip firm on the back of her thigh. 
The shift in position conjured a dull ache that felt sinfully good in tandem with the pleasure coursing through her body. His girth and length surpassing any expectation she may have had. 
As he pulled almost entirely out before sinking back in, Victoria let out an unrefined moan, her grip on Jude's shoulders tightening as if she might fall off the bed otherwise. "Oh, fuck, yes...just like that," she whined into his ear, her hips bucking slightly to meet his thrusts, the ache growing with every inch that slid back into her.
Her fingers dug into his hair, not pulling but coaxing him closer, her lips finding his neck in search of contact. "You feel so good," she gasped, her teeth drawing along his skin. "Don't stop, please don't stop!"
The pleasure was almost too much, her body trembling with the force of it, but she didn't want it to end, didn't want him to pull back just yet. Tori rolled her hips again, matching his rhythm with a desperate eagerness, urging him deeper, chasing that delicious friction that was fast turning into an inexorable need.
Jude snarled lustfully as he watched his length slip from her, her arousal coating his cock in a glistening sheen. 
Turning Tori over onto her stomach in one swift motion, he reached for a pillow at the head of his bed forcing it beneath her to create a deep, perfect arch in her spine that made her hips raise. 
Jude couldn't help himself, taking hold of his cock he used the tip to circle her slick entrance. 
“Shit,” Victoria cried out, her whole body tingling with suspense as Jude's thick cockhead circled her entrance, teasing her. She wiggled her hips instinctively, trying to urge him inside.
Jude wasted no more time, pressing the head of his cock against her pussy, pushing just enough to feel that gentle resistance, before easing in ballsdeep.
Victoria let out a throaty moan as Jude thrust into her with a force that made the bed tremor beneath the weight of bodies. She arched her back, pushing her hips against him as he began to move, his pace relentless and demanding.
Each deep, powerful stroke of his cock hit a spot inside her that made her eyelids roll shut. Tori's mind emptied of all thought, reduced to only sensations—the feeling of Jude's thick length thrusting into her, the sound of their harsh breaths and slick skin colliding, the way his hands gripped her hips and held her in place.
She wrapped her arms around the pillow, using it to steady herself as Jude fucked her with an intensity that left her breathless and overwhelmed. 
His thrusts picked up speed, becoming almost brutal in their execution, and Victoria met each one with an answering roll of her hips, lost to the pleasure that threatened to consume her.
When she felt Jude’s fingers come to grip the hair at the back of her head, all bets were off. Tori let out a cry of pleasure as her eyes rolled shut, the arch in her back deepening as her thighs began to tremble. 
Panting heavily, Jude gripped the back of Tori's head, tilting it to the side as he continued his merciless exploration of her depths. The new angle allowed him to go even deeper, the force of his thrusts hitting the spongy flesh of her cervix and sending shivers of pure bliss coursing through her. Her moans of ecstasy echoed through the room, fueling his own growing need.
As Jude's grip tightened, Tori's entire body went stiff, her cries becoming choked whimpers of pleasure. She'd never experienced anything like this before, Jude's size and strength pushing her to the very edge of what she could take.
“Cum for me, Tori,” Jude groaned, his pace slowing as he watched himself disappear inside of her, completely under her spell. 
"Tori," he groaned into her ear, his voice guttural and primal. The sound of his arousal hung heavily in the air as he pounded into her, her body moving in rhythmic time with his.
Victoria's mind shattered as Jude continued to take her, his relentless thrusts driving her to the brink. She felt so full, so completely filled and claimed by him.
"Yes, yes, y-yes..." she chanted brokenly, her words dissolving into helpless cries of ecstasy.
Jude's fingers dug into the flesh of her hips, gripping her as he laid into her, each stroke easing her closer to the edge. He could feel her walls spasming around him, her pleasure knotting tighter and tighter until it threatened to come undone.
She was going to come undone beneath him, and Jude was determined to be the one to send her over. He wanted to hold her in his arms as she committed herself to the pinnacle of pleasure. 
Despite the silent cry that fell from her mouth, Jude felt it as she came on him. Her arousal dripped down the innards of her thighs as she gripped the pillow beneath the sated body. 
Pulling out of Tori, Jude held his length in his hand as he eyed her sweaty body, between her legs flushed and slightly swollen. He watched as she turned over onto her back, a playful glint in her eyes. Victoria's lips curved into a sultry smile as she beckoned him closer with a gesture of her finger.
“Not yet,” Tori purred, her voice laced with mischief. She pushed herself up onto her knees, an inviting shine in her gaze as her tongue swiped across her lips. Jude's breath hitched in his throat, anticipation pooling in his stomach as he watched her.
With an intentional slowness to her movements, Tori leaned forward, her shiny raven hair cascading over her shoulders in a soft curtain that framed her face. She took her time, savouring the moment as she moved closer to his cock, barely an inch away. Her breath washed over him, warm and tantalizing, and she couldn't help but smirk at the way he tensed up.
“I want to taste you,” she whispered, her voice husky with desire. She opened her mouth wide, taking him in slowly, her tongue swirling around the tip before she sank deeper, relishing the sensation of him filling her mouth.
“Fuck, Tori,” he groaned, his hands instinctively tangling in her hair as she began to bob her head up and down, her mouth perfect seal as she showcased her talent. Her lips and chin glistened with drool, slicking his shaft as she pulled back, only to thrust forward again, taking him as deep as she could manage.
Tori could feel him throbbing against her tongue, the heat of him igniting a fire inside her. She revelled in the taste of him, the way he filled her mouth, an offering of pleasure she was more than happy to accept. Each thrust of her mouth was accompanied by soft, breathy moans that vibrated against his length, driving him wild.
Jude's fingers gripped her hair tightly, guiding her rhythm as he watched the bliss dance across her face. “Just like that, Tori,” he encouraged, his voice thick and deep with arousal. “You’re so fucking good at this.”
She picked up the pace, swirling her tongue around his shaft as she took him deeper, pressing down to the base. The sound of her wetness filled the air, a stimulating melody that only stoked the flames of his desire. Victoria loved watching Jude lose himself in the moment, the way his brow furrowed in pleasure and his jaw slackened, his breath coming in quick, erratic gasps.
She could feel his tension riding, his breaths growing more shallow as she wrapped her lips tighter around him, sucking hard while pumping the rest of him with her small, dexterous hands. His hand found her cheek, urging her to take him even deeper.
“Breathe through it, Tori,” he murmured, his voice throaty. “Give me your fucking throat.”
Just as he was about to lose his grip on control, she pulled back, her mouth popping off with a soft, erotic sound. Tori looked up at him with lust-filled eyes and licked her lips in a slow, deliberate motion.
Without a word, she parted her lips and tilted her head back offering herself to him. 
Jude's heart raced at the sight of her, so willingly surrendering to him, and he couldn't resist the urge to claim her once more. He moved closer, his length glistening as he approached her inviting mouth. The hunger in his gaze mirrored her desire, pooling in the air between them.
“God, Tori,” he growled, his voice low and rough. He took a step closer and positioned himself at her lips. “You’re so beautiful like this.”
With a firm yet gentle grip on her hair, he leaned forward, his cock pressing against her mouth. Without hesitating, she opened wider, welcoming him back inside. Feeling him slide into her mouth felt addictive, and she immediately went to work, sucking him in deep while her tongue expertly traced every ridge and vein.
“Fuck,” he breathed, the sensation exhilarating. “You drive me crazy.”
She made soft, sensual sounds, each one vibrating around him, sending jolts of pleasure coursing through his body. Jude began to rock his hips slowly, thrusting in rhythm with her perfect mouth, going deeper with each deliberate motion. The sight of her swallowing him, her eyes shining with intensity, only heightened his arousal.
“Just like that,” he groaned, losing himself in the rhythm of her mouth as she layered her movements with a tantalizing mix of speed and pressure. 
Victoria let him take control, relishing in the way he filled her mouth, the heat and weight of him overwhelming her senses. She could feel him reaching the precipice, his every breath quickening, the muscles in his thighs tightening.
As the tension mounted, she could sense his rising need. Just when he thought he would lose it, she pulled back again, teasingly bringing her tongue over the sensitive tip before letting him slip from her lips entirely. 
“Please, Jude,” she pleaded, her breath coming in bursts. “I want you to cum on my face.”
Jude's eyes darkened with desire, the raw urgency in her voice igniting something primal within him. “Come here,” he growled, his fingers curling into her hair, guiding her back down on him.
With a decisive thrust, Jude eased into her mouth once more, and Tori’s eyes widened in delight as he filled her instantly. She loved the way he took charge, how he lost himself in the pleasure. With each deep stroke, he seemed to pull her deeper into his world, a place where only he and she existed.
The heat of him was intoxicating, and her own desire soaring in response, each of his thrusts awakening a raw need inside her. She met him with soft, enthusiastic sounds, her moans sending vibrations through his hard cock, heightening the intoxicating pull between them. Jude looked down at her, his chest rising and falling with each heated breath, the way her face glistened with saliva driving him wild.
“Just like that, baby,” he growled, his control wavering. He moved faster now, a rhythm between domination and desire with every thrust. He watched as his cock disappeared past her luscious lips, the sight pure ecstasy. “You’re so fucking perfect like this.”
Victoria's desire erupted higher at his words. She pushed herself to take him even deeper, her throat working to accommodate him as she surrendered herself completely to the pleasure of the moment. Each time he hit the back of her throat, she felt herself flutter with excitement, her body yearning for more. 
Feeling a familiar tightness in his core, Jude knew he wouldn’t last long. Her compliance was like a drug, and the sight of her completely lost in the act—her eyes glazed over with pleasure—drove him wild. He groaned, his breaths rough and uneven, “I’m going to cum, Tori...”
“Please,” she urged with a sultry whisper around his pulsating length, her voice thick with desire. “I want it.”
That single command sent Jude spiralling over the edge. He gritted his teeth as he thrust one last time, burying himself deep within her warm mouth, his body quaking with release. “Tori!” he roared, surrendering to the pleasure that consumed him, his thick seed spilling as he held himself against the back of her throat. 
Victoria welcomed the warmth, her eyes shimmering with delight as she felt the salty essence hit her tongue, a warm splash of gratification that sent shivers through her body. She let out a soft, hungry moan as she savoured every drop, the taste of him only intensifying her desire. 
“God, you’re fucking perfect,” Jude panted, watching the way she licked her lips, ensuring she hadn’t wasted a single drop. The sight of her basking in his essence only fueled his need for her more, driving him wild. 
Tori leaned back, her lips still glistening, an alluring invitation in her eyes. “I’m not,” she smiled shyly. 
Taking her hand into his, Jude pulled her body against his once more, the warmth between them igniting again. "I think you are," he murmured, his voice a sultry growl that sent currents of anticipation racing through her.
He manoeuvred them both back onto the bed, their bodies colliding with a thud, as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder. 
“When are you heading back to the States for the holidays?” Jude asked, his fingers softly tracing the skin of her back. 
“I’m not,” Tori revealed, her heart dropping as she thought about her family back home, or rather the current chasm between her and them. 
“What?!” Jude asked as if he'd just been told she wasn't human. 
“I’m staying in Madrid, I’m contemplating a last-minute New Year's trip with a few of the girls I dance with,” Tori explained, ignoring the dull ache in her chest as she offered him a soft reassuring smile. 
“What about you?” she asked intent on shifting the attention away from her. 
“I have my last football match of the year and then I’m heading back home to England to be with my family.” Jude revealed feeling bad about his plans to enjoy some time off with his family. 
However, an intriguing notion, though slightly unconventional, suddenly blossomed in his mind.
“After Christmas, I'm heading to Dubai with a few of my teammates for an awards ceremony, but I plan on celebrating New Year's there too,” Jude explained. 
“If you’d like, I’d be happy for you to join me.” he continued, feeling rather nervous as he proposed the idea to her. 
Victoria's heart raced at his offer, the thought of joining him igniting a spark of excitement within her. “Are you being serious?” she asked cautiously. 
“Why wouldn't I be serious?” Jude asked with a pout. 
“I know we are just getting to know one another and I’m already in your bed, but why?” Tori asked, her brow furrowing slightly. She wanted to be sure about his intentions but couldn’t deny the rush of excitement that coursed through her at the prospect of spending more time with him.
“Because,” he began, searching her gaze for the right words, “I want to continue to get to know you, whether it be in Dubai or Madrid.”
Tori had already let it slip that she was thinking about travelling for the new year, but the thought of going to Dubai with Jude was incredibly enticing. The atmosphere of a new city, especially one known for its opulence and vibrant nightlife, combined with the thrill of exploring more of their connection sent a rush of adrenaline through her.
“I’m intrigued,” she said, her voice dropping to a whisper. “But what's the catch? This feels… too good to be true.”
Jude smiled, a mixture of confidence and assurity in his demeanour. “No catch. If at any point you want to leave you can, I don't expect anything from you, but I would like for you to join me.”
Tori hadn’t known Jude for any stretch of time, but from their first encounter, she’d found herself drawn to him. “If I say yes, you have to promise me I won't end up regretting it,” she said, her eyes searching his for sincerity. 
Jude leaned closer, brushing his lips softly against hers. “I promise to make it a trip you won’t forget,”
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butlervibesonly · 2 days ago
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Hi! I absolutely love your writing and I have this idea you could do! Since I love dad Austin fics as probably you do, can you do one where reader is pregnant with their first baby, and she already has a bump but Austin and her decided to keep it secret from medias as long as it's possible. But one day Austin's away at some meeting and reader goes out for some reason where she runs into paparazzi, freaks out cause they get photos of her and bump and she then calls Austin and they work it out together? Might be too demanding, write only if you like it 😅🫶🏻
𝑁𝑜𝑡 𝑠𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑡 | Austin Butler
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• NOTE: Hiiii and thank you! Love this idea and I hope it’s as you imagined! 💕
• PAIRING: Austin Butler x pregnant! reader
• WARNINGS: pregnancy, paparazzi, slight angst, panicking, …
Your hand rests on your growing belly, and you feel the baby kick. This baby is so far a secret you and Austin keep from medias and fans to enjoy these moments as a family. You both do everything to keep this little life growing inside of you hidden.
But that’s not always very easy, especially when you and Austin are constantly under a microscope of paparazzis and medias. And now, with a baby on the way, you both know the frenzy that awaits you once the news gets out.
Austin has interview and some meetings today, so you’re home alone. Not that alone if you count your baby in you, of course. You suddenly think of making some good dinner for Austin when he comes home. “What should we do for daddy’s dinner, huh?” you rub your belly, not expecting any answers.
After a while of brainstorming and thinking you think of doing some good lasagne. You get up from the couch and go to see if you have everything for the meal to be done. And well, your pantry, however, isn’t cooperating.
“I’ll just make a quick shopping,” you mumble to yourself, grabbing the coat and scarf. You tug it tightly around you, hoping it would be enough to hide the small, but now undeniable, bump.
The grocery shop isn’t so far from yours and Austin’s home, just a few blocks away actually. You hurry down the aisles, picking the needed ingredients. A small part of you feels a hint of unease — the kind you often feel while stepping outside without Austin. Luckily no one recognized you so far. You not a celebrity after all, you’re just a wife of your husband.
Or at least you thought. As you step out of the store, carrying your bag and keys, the flashes came like a sudden storm.
“Y/n over there!”
“Are you and Austin expecting?”
“You are pregnant, Y/n?”
Your heart is racing as the paparazzi surround you, their cameras clicking furiously. Panic flows through you as questions are bombarding you from every direction.
“Please, I—“ you stammer, before pushing your way through the paparazzi and walk away down the street.
As soon as you get back home, you start trembling and shaking, tears spilling from your eyes. Your phone starts buzzing in your pocket — texts from friends, notifications from news websites. You don’t even dare look. Instead, you text Austin immediately.
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As soon as Austin arrives home, he finds you crying on the couch. “They know,” you whisper, voice breaking. “The paparazzi... they saw me. They took pictures of me,”
Austin’s face is a mixture of worry and determination. He pulls you into his arms, holding you tightly as you let the tears fall. “I’m so sorry,” you choke out. “I didn’t think— I just wanted to cook for you but there wasn’t enough of stuff so I went shopping and—”
“Shhh, no,” he murmurs stroking your hair. “It’s not your fault, honey .” Austin’s free hand travels to touch your belly and rubs it in soothing circles. “We should expect this could happen, Y/n,” he says gently.
“What do we do now?” you ask, your voice voice shaking.
“We will handle this together, okay?” Austin looks into your watery eyes. “The most important thing is that you and the baby are alright. We can do a statement on Instagram if you’re comfortable with it. No media gets to ruin how we share this happiness.”
Austin’s words were gentle, reassuring, and exactly what you need to hear in this moment. You nod, squeezing his arm. As soon as you calm down Austin gets his phone and picks a picture that would be best to share.
He posts a simple picture — his hand resting on you growing belly — he took this photo no too long ago while the both of you were sharing some sweet time.
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austinbutler Our biggest roles yet: mom and dad. We love you so much already little bean. ❤️
ashleytisdale Best roles! Can’t wait! 🥹❤️
fan1 OMG!! PARENTS 🫶🏼🥹
fan2 I saw the paparazzi pictures and im disgusted, leave them alone they clearly weren’t ready to post this. Congrats anyway!
The response is immediate, and the support very much overwhelming. The media craziness was horrible, but for the first time that day you feel peaceful and happy.
“I love you and our baby so much and I wouldn’t let anyone to ruin this.” he kisses you gently, his hand never leaving your bump. And you feel so lucky that Austin is like this. Because with Austin nothing feels impossible.
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rosie-read-that · 1 day ago
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a nonsense christmas / tyler owens x reader
summary: an unexpected snowstorm traps tyler owens with his workplace nemesis over the holidays. bonus points: there was only one bed.
content warnings: f!reader, allusions to smut
word count: 9k
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author’s note: happy holidays! 🎄🎊🤶🏻🕎 i hope they were merry and bright and as stress-free as possible. thank you so much for supporting my three little fics. this is unedited, but i wanted to post it before i went out of town as a gift made specially for the glen girlies - i wrote it to bring you some december cheer. see you next year!
“You have got to be kidding me.”
Over the span of the last twelve hours you’d lost count of the number of times you’d muttered that sentence underneath your breath.
First, it was the office building in New York, where Tyler had the appointment right after yours at a ritzy funding agency. Then it was the airport, where you’d both flown standby and had a Wild West confrontation over the last seat on the plane, only for another passenger to volunteer their place in exchange for a travel voucher. (“It’s not like I’m in a rush to see my family, anyway.”) The woman manning the desk had given you both a look that said, “See, this is how an adult behaves,” which you thought was rich when the guy was clearly trying to cheat his way out of a Christmas dinner. Then, Tyler got assigned the seat behind you on the plane, and in keeping with his infuriating personality, spent the entire flight kicking your seat - or, I’m sorry, just trying to stretch his legs.
After landing, you’d raced to the same rental car company. The woman at this desk kept pointing out that the weather seemed dire and that a snowstorm might hit at any moment, to which you assured her that you weren't headed far—a lie—and glared at Tyler’s back before shuffling into the parking lot with your borrowed keys, hoping his heater would break or that an ex-girlfriend had broken into his house during his absence and left coal in his stocking.
It turned out that the woman at Enterprise was right. The weather was dire; your visibility was shot to hell after the first forty miles, leaving you to squint through the flurry-turned-blizzard, your knuckles white on the steering wheel as you inched forward in your seat, as though you could magically see through the storm if only you pressed your nose just so to the windshield.
After a while you gave up and started to admit that unless you wanted to turn into a human Popsicle, you might need a Plan B. You let out a weary sigh, listening to the weather report on the radio—“If you're safe and cozy at home, it's gonna be a white Christmas, folks, but if you're out on the road, I suggest taking cover and waiting it out for Santa Claus to slide down the chimney.”
You scanned the passing road signs for fast food restaurants, gas stations, and rest stops, even took a few exits just to be hit with NO VACANCY in bright neon reds, making mental calculations for the rest of your trip.
Home was still a long way off: three hours, after dark. Normally you’d power through with an extra-large coffee, but it was snowing, and your window to remain safely on the road was closing with every passing minute.
Dammit.
After the fourth failed attempt at finding lodgings, you sat in the driver’s seat with the heater on and called your sister.
She answered after a few rings. In the background you heard your nephew and nieces screaming their heads off in that kid way. God, you loved those little rugrats but they were undoubtedly a nightmare—you imagined Margo plugging up one of her ears and waving at them to be quiet. Of course, to no avail.
“Where are you?” she demanded, the accusation sharp in her voice. You knew to expect it, so instead of answering, “Well, hello to you too, I can’t control the weather, in case you haven’t noticed,” you went with a plain response, facts only.
“Somewhere in the middle of Benburg.”
“Where?”
“Exactly.”
You heard her sigh. “The snow’s getting pretty bad.”
“No shit.”
“Hey, don't ‘no shit’ me! I told you traveling right before Christmas Eve was going to be a nightmare.”
“And I told you I had no choice.”
She paused. There was whispering on the other end, an almost-silence that put your body on high alert until, finally, she said, “Mom wants to talk to you.”
“Margo, no!”
Your protests fell on deaf ears. The phone was jostled as your mother took it and began to speak.
“Honey, are you almost here?”
Covering your face with your hands, you kept your voice light, knowing she’d be able to detect even the smallest hint of frustration, and then you’d have to put up with another round of “why on earth did you take a meeting in New York right before the holidays?”
“No, mom, I’ve still got a-ways to go.”
You pictured her narrowing her eyes, maybe placing a hand on her cocked hip.
“How long a-ways?”
“Less than two hours,” you lied.
It was absolutely more than two hours.
A pause. “Well, I guess that's okay.”
“I’m glad you think so.” Through gritted teeth and the voice of a demented schoolteacher, you added, “Mom, can you put Margo back on the phone now, please?”
“She wants to talk to you,” you heard her saying from a distance.
After some more jostling, you felt the caller change as you merged back onto the highway and left the motel behind.
“Marg, can you tell her to cut me some slack, please? I’m doing my best.”
“Ha!”
You glared at the console, hoping she could feel it over the phone.
“Gee, thanks! So much for the Christmas spirit!”
“Listen, when you have three kids, two dogs, a husband, all of your in-laws, your parents, and your stepmom breathing down your neck, I’ll have a little more sympathy.”
“Fine… But I promise I’m not leaving you in the lurch on purpose. My flight from New York got delayed, I had some asshole kicking me in the kidneys the whole time, and I can barely see a yard in front of me because of this storm—it’s not exactly a walk in the park for me either.”
No cigar; it was you who felt her glare over the phone this time. Clearly, her issues outweighed all of yours on this occasion, and knowing her sister-in-law, you were inclined to agree.
You added: “I’ll make it up to you.”
“You’d better.”
The wipers on your rented car worked overtime to clear your windshield. You were about to end the call to focus on driving when, up ahead, you saw the red and blue lights of a highway patrol vehicle stopping traffic.
“Oh shit,” you muttered under your breath.
“What?”
“The road is closed.”
“The whole road?”
“Yeah, Marg, the whole road.” She would've argued with you over your tone, except you cut her off with “Hold on—I’m being flagged down.”
A middle-aged man with a mustache came over to your car. He was wearing a fuzzy hat and holding a flashlight now that the purpling sky was fading to black. Without being asked, you lowered your window and shivered at the stream of icy wind that cut through the artificial heat.
“Evening, officer.”
“Good evening. Where’re you headed?”
“Sayre or roundabouts.”
“Rough night to be doing so. This road is no good, you're gonna have to turn around, find a place to wait it out for the night.”
Your heart sank. You knew Margo was listening to everything. By the time you made it home, your ledger would have a massive list in the red which she’d make you pay off somehow—by doing the dishes, playing horse with the kids, or worse, entertaining Kayleen, who would say as she always did that you really ought think about having children soon unless you wanted to get used to “a self-absorbed lifestyle.”
God forbid.
“Do you know anywhere that might have a last-minute vacancy?” you asked the officer, whose shiny name tag read HARRIS.
He scratched behind his ear, twisting his mouth in thought.
“Try the Sunnyside Inn. Back this way to Fairmont, right after the exit, left on Vail.”
“Thank you.”
“Merry Christmas.”
“Right. Merry Christmas.”
You put your window back up.
“Did you catch that?”
“Sounds like you're grounded,” said Margo. Her eyebrow must be arched because the judgment could be heard loud and clear—if you hadn’t gone to New York…
Well, there was nothing you could do about it now.
“It’s meant to clear up by morning. I’ll still be there long before Christmas.”
“You’d better be.” She sighed.
Your niece Haley was screaming out the words to “The Twelve Days of Christmas” like a possessed banshee and giggling at what she knew must be an ear-splitting performance. You didn't know whether to be more horrified or amused; you remembered doing something similar when you were a child, back when you didn't have to worry about spreadsheets and grants and the trials and tribulations of flying Economy during the worst time of the year.
Margo must be thinking the same. Her tone sounded a little more sympathetic when she said, “Drive safe, and let me know when you find somewhere to spend the night.”
“I will. Love you.”
“Love you, too. Don’t get murdered.”
“I’ll try.”
“Don’t try—do. Someone’s got to help me defuse the tension during Christmas dinner.”
“Me? Defuse tension?”
“Good point.”
After hanging up, you followed Officer Harris’s directions to the Sunnyside Inn. Wherever it was in relation to the highway, there weren’t any signs you could see from the road and it reminded you of a famous, albeit fictional, location where people did go to end up murdered.
You only hoped whoever was on duty at the check-in desk had zero resemblance to Norman Bates or you’d have no choice but to sleep in your car.
Ten minutes later, you arrived at a quaint little building like something out of a Hallmark movie with six parking spaces and no neon out front. The facade was fake stone, the ornamental bushes lining the circular drive covered in a postcard layer of fresh snow. The wooden sign read VACANCY and had an empty slot where the NO might go, which gave you the tiniest sliver of hope, tempered by the thought that a place like this might not pay the utmost attention to a detail like that, especially in the middle of a storm. All in all, it was the sort of place you stayed at when you had no choice, being off the beaten track, but it looked as well maintained as it could be given its age, which you dated back to the 70s because of its slanted roof.
You parked and got your suitcase out of the trunk, the wheels clattering and then coming to an abrupt stop when you saw a figure across the way doing the same with his black carry-on.
“You have got to be kidding me,” you called out.
Tyler Owens grinned. Even from here you could see the dimple on his cheek.
“Road closed?” he asked, still walking towards the entrance. You did the same, glaring as you tried to keep pace with him—no, tried to beat him to the front door.
“You know it is,” you answered, eyes narrowed, dashing the rest of the way just for his hand to reach the metal pull bar first. Damn his longer limbs.
With a smile, he opened the door and waved you through like a Manhattan doorman.
“Ladies first.”
“Wow, I didn't think you were remotely a gentleman.”
“What gave you that impression?”
You brushed past him into the heated lobby, pausing long enough for him to close the door so you could send him a pointed look.
“Oh, I don’t know… maybe your knee on my back?” you enunciated.
“I told you—that was an honest mistake.”
“Right.”
The Sunnyside had a single check-in desk that looked more like the host’s stand at your favorite restaurant than the counter at the cheapest Marriott, but it was decked in cute bells and garlands and baubles that glittered in the light. Behind it stood a woman around your age with straight, shoulder-length hair partially covered by a Santa hat.
As soon as she saw you walking in, she pushed the red strands out of her face and cleared her throat visibly before launching into a practiced spiel.
“Welcome to the Sunnyside Inn, where every day is sunny!”
She was smiling from ear to ear. The effect was a little like that of the creepy twins in The Shining and bah, humbug, were you not in the mood.
“Can I have a room for the night, please?”
You were made to feel guilty by the sudden fall of her face. But clearly Carol—you had to do a double take. Was her name really Carol? At-Christmastime Carol?—had gone to one hell of a customer service training program. Instead of letting your frown turn her smile upside down, she tacked it on with impressively greater fervor. The bell at the end of her hat rattled as she cleared her throat again.
“You’re in luck! We have one vacant room left in the entire hotel—continental breakfast included!”
“I’m sorry,” Tyler butted in, “did you say only one room?”
“Yes, er…” She looked between you, biting her glossed lip. “Is that a problem?”
“We’re not together,” you said, refusing to look in Tyler’s direction. 
Carol blushed. She was so pale that you thought it might be her actual blood you were seeing rising to her face and turning a shade of Veruca Salt. Or was it Violet Beauregarde?
“Oh!” she exclaimed. “I thought—well… you arrived together.”
“We arrived separately.”
“That’s not what it looked like.”
She blinked owlishly. Your own face was heating up as you felt Tyler putting his hand on his hip and sending you a shit-eating grin. You wouldn’t hear the end of this. You could practically hear him bringing it up at a later date, saying, “You’d be so lucky.”
You felt your jaw lock and your dentist cry. Lips together, teeth apart! She’d obviously never met anyone like Tyler Owens before.
“I can assure you, that's what it is,” you said in a steel-laced voice.
Carol might be an A+ at the customer service thing, but you were an A+ at staring people down until they begged for mercy. The only person you knew who was better at it was Margo, and the only person immune to it—though it drove you crazy to no end—was standing next to you, all six feet of him, in a jacket with snow at the shoulders that had quickly melted and rolled off the fabric. Shoulders… his annoyingly broad shoulders, which you’d had occasion to see with more frequency than you would’ve liked, dressed in what Samantha, one of your colleagues, described as his “slutty little white tees.”
It wasn’t enough for him to be a perpetual thorn in your side, he had to be attractive too, thereby proving that there was no God or that, Whoever they were, they must have an evil sense of humor.
“I’m so sorry.” Carol hung her head. Her hat drooped, the glitter-paper trimming on her suit drooped—there was a high chance that she was actually an elf and you’d just worked your way onto Santa’s Naughty list. Come midnight, you’d be visited by the ghosts of all your ex-lovers and Sarah DeAngelo, your high school nemesis.
Meanwhile, Tyler swooped in like the big hero.
“No worries, I’ll just stay at the next place,” he said. “What is the next place?”
“That would be the Cozy Roadside! But they're all booked up, I’m afraid… It's the storm, you see. Everyone’s trying to hunker down for the night.”
“Right…”
Well, he was taking it better than you’d have done—though it was clear he wasn’t jumping for joy at the thought of turning around and trying his luck in the growing whiteout.
And that was if there weren't more road closures along the way.
“Are you sure you're not together? I’m just saying… it is the holidays.” Carol’s little damn bell jingled again. Could you be charged with assault if you snatched it off her head? you wondered.
You pinned her with a stare and she had the temerity to flinch like a little cartoon dormouse.
“Meaning…?”
“Meaning, it's a time to let bygones be bygones! You make such a lovely couple…” Her laugh was high-pitched, nervous.
You might have ruffled like an angry bird of prey. “We are not—”
“Absolutely not,” said Tyler.
“‘Absolutely’?”
It was the closest you’d ever come to seeing Tyler crack under the force of your EF5 stare. He looked sheepish, his hands in his pockets, giving a little hunkered down shrug that might have been read as boyish and kind of adorable to someone else.
“Listen”—turning to Carol before you could rip him to shreds—“do you know of anywhere I could stay until the roads open up again?”
“I’m sorry, no.”
“What about the lobby?”
“I would if it were up to me, but it's against hotel policy. I could get a write-up.”
This hotel has a policy? You stopped yourself from blurting out the words. There was still a chance this Strawberry Shortcake of a person was one of Santa’s little helpers and, if you kept up being a meanie, you’d end up going to the Bad Place—the Bad Place being the seat next to Margo’s sister-in-law at dinner.
You sighed. “Does my room have a couch?”
“It has a chair,” Carol offered.
You exhaled through your nostrils like an angry bull—would the creature metaphors ever cease? Turning to Tyler, you held up a finger and said, “You’re gonna owe me big time,” and fished your wallet out of your bag.
You slammed your card onto the stand and waited for Carol to check you in. She took out a book from a little cubby and took down your name and ID number, then fiddled with one of those old-school credit card imprinters, the ones you had to use actual elbow grease to use.
“I can have extra linens sent up! And I’ll give you our Friends and Family rate—in honor of the season!”
You have got to be kidding me…
Tyler put his hand on your elbow, stopping your words.
“Thank you, Carol, you've been a real gem.”
Carol flushed again, preening under Tyler’s cowboy charm. I’m gonna be sick, you thought, grabbing your suitcase by the handle and wheeling towards the stairs before you could say anything else.
Your case banged against each carpet-covered step. Tyler was behind you, carrying his without sounds of trouble. You supposed that was a benefit to having arms the size of tree trunks, but you’d rather drop dead on this commercial grade floor than ask him for help.
To drown out the sound of the obvious weakness in your upper half, you adopted a high-pitched baby voice that was nothing like Tyler’s and said, “‘You’ve been a gem, Carol,’” just to mock him.
From Tyler came a huffed-out laugh. “Why, ’re you jealous?”
“As if. I hope your chair has bedbugs,” you called over your shoulder, arriving at the landing and looking for room 227. You unlocked the door without waiting, tossing your bag and coat onto the bed to stake your claim.
In the open doorway, Tyler paused to stare at the promised bit of furniture.
“Oh,” came out of his throat. “When she said chair, I thought she meant…”
You followed his gaze. Like Tyler, you’d pictured a dusty old recliner when Carol guilted you into sharing a room with him. The relic actually taking up space across from the queen-sized bed was a chair that might have come out of your high school principal’s office. The seat was covered in a similar material to the carpet, deep purple, not falling apart at the seams, but still just a chair.
Not in your wildest dreams would you think of making an enemy sleep on a thing like that. And here you were, poking fun at sweet, freckle-faced Carol… sweet, sweet Carol who had done you a bigger solid than you could’ve ever imagined.
Tomorrow at check-out, you were going to leave her a $50 tip. You might name your firstborn after her.
You looked at Tyler. He looked at you. The poor man was aghast, and the more he glanced despondently at his abode for the next eight hours, the funnier it got until you were cackling, actually cackling like a Disney witch.
You unzipped your suitcase and took out your toiletries bag, still laughing as you stepped into the room’s bathroom and sent him a little wave.
“Sweet dreams, Owens!”
Hell, it was Christmas—you’d be leaving Carol an even $100.
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You made a point of taking your time in the shower, luxuriating both in the steam and the dejected look on Tyler’s face. A chair! An actual chair! After finishing, you took the robe hanging off the hook, figuring it was your prerogative as a lady, and opened the door just the tiniest crack to see what Tyler was up to. What you saw made you snatch your phone off the counter and leap from your hiding place like a fearless war photographer.
The shutter clicked, a series of lightning-quick flashes that caught Tyler’s attention. By the time he whipped his head to the side with a glare and a command to “delete that!” you’d snapped half-a-dozen photographs of his position on the makeshift “bed.”
Carol must have sent up linens while you were in the shower because he’d pushed the chair up against the coffee table in a futile attempt to be more comfortable; his legs stuck out to a truly comical degree and he was covered in a floral blanket that could only be described as grandmotherly. Your phone—bless it—had captured the exact moment of shock mixed with absolute indignity.
There was no way he’d be able to sleep without falling over. You only hoped that when he inevitably fell on his ass it happened with enough volume to wake you from the sound sleep you’d be having in bed by yourself.
You tucked your phone in your pocket, smiling like one of Hell’s angels.
“Absolutely not,” you said to his request. “Shower's yours.”
Tyler grabbed a bundle of things off the floor.
“Let me guess, you used up all the hot water.”
“You wound me,” you lied. “I’d never be so petty.”
He scoffed, gestured to his eyes in the universal symbol of I’m watching you and moved past, locking the bathroom door with a resolute click.
A few moments later, you heard the sound of the shower turning on and settled into bed—your lovely, only-yours bed—pleased that the sheets were clean, the mattress soft, the pillows comfortable, and debated whether or not to turn on the TV, but the shower taps squealed sooner than you expected.
Huh. Guess Tyler isn’t a fan of an ice-cold rinse.
You rushed to turn off the bedside lamp, adopting a deep-sleep pose. You barely managed in the time it took him to pad out into the main room, bringing with him a warm, clean, soapy smell.
You held your breath, imagined he could tell you were faking—especially when he paused his movements at the foot of your bed. But then his footsteps moved towards his sad little chair and he turned off his own light.
All you heard for a while was the rustling of sheets, the creaking of the chair beneath his weight. There was a moment of total silence when you almost fell asleep. Then he tossed and turned. The chair protested. You heard him groan.
“Y’alright over there?” you asked, hoping the answer was no.
Tyler’s words were laced with sarcasm.
“Who, me? Just peachy.”
“Nighty-night, then.”
You sighed contentedly and dozed, thinking about Tyler’s future back pain and the satisfaction of winning Carol over to your side with a generous tip. Take that, Tyler’s dimples! The problem was, you actually wanted to get a few hours’ sleep; there was still a fair bit of driving left for you to do, and Tyler just wouldn't shut up.
You heard every creak, shift, and sound of frustration.
Finally, you sat up and growled, “Could you try being more quietly uncomfortable?”
“Hey, I’m just trying to sleep.”
“I can hear your breathing all the way over here!”
“That's not my breathing,” he said, “that’s your guilty conscience.”
You glared into the dark. I will not let him get the better of me. You took a fortifying breath and kept your voice light—viciously light.
“You know, there’s still time for you to sleep in your car. You’ll be the first person ever to be cryogenically frozen.”
“That's not how cryogenics works, you muppet.”
You launched a pillow in his direction, pleased when it made contact. He sat up and protested, “Hey!”
“Did you just call me a muppet?! You know, if you disappeared I could always blame the storm.”
“Carol would remember me,” he rejoined.
“Maybe I’ll disappear Carol too.”
“Wow, two bodies? Sounds like you'll have your work cut out for you.”
“I’m very resourceful.”
“Oh, I bet you are…”
Argh! Slamming your fists down, you ground out the words you’d been holding back ever since you saw his grinning rodeo-ass face in New York:
“There is no way I’m letting you win that Heller Grant!”
Your nostrils flared, chest heaved, eyes all but emitted laser beams. Tyler, for his part, remained annoyingly composed.
“I don't think that's up to you. But,” he added, “I wouldn't hold my breath if I were you.”
“Really? And why’s that?”
“No reason, just a friendly head’s up.”
“Something tells me there’s nothing friendly about it.”
He paused. “Hey, what’s a little harmless competition between meteorologists, right?”
“…Did you really just ask that question?”
You both knew scientists were messy as fuck. Denying that they could be egotistical, overly dramatic, delicate with their egos, and especially prone to schadenfreude was a cheap attempt on Tyler’s part.
He chuckled, as if admitting it was true.
“Fine, touché. But it’s really not personal. It's a grant—everyone wants to win it. It’s not like we’re trying to run you out of business or anything.”
“Oh, believe me, we aren’t worried about that,” you shot back. “Everyone knows Kate Carter is the ace up your sleeve. But that’s it—one ace.”
“One ace is all you need.”
“Not in this economy it’s not.”
“It’s about the storms!” Tyler said. “You do get that, don't you? Saving lives, limiting damage…”
“Right, I forgot—you're Saint Tyler, the Tornado Wrangler for profit!” you mocked.
There was a silence in the room, accusatory. Deafening. After this, you were definitely going on Santa’s Naughty list, you thought, not only this year but for at least fifteen to life.
“Sorry, that was shitty,” you admitted, swallowing your pride.
“Yeah, it was. You have no idea why I do what I do. And obviously I have no idea why you’re such a—”
“Bitch?” you supplied.
“I wouldn't use that word. I wouldn't,” he reiterated seriously. “I was going to say ‘why you’re such a bee in my bonnet.’”
You let out a snort. “Shut up.”
“Has anyone ever told you you're unreasonably distrustful?”
“Only about three-point-five therapists.”
“Why the point-five?” he asked.
“One was a grad student.”
He laughed. “Guess weather research doesn’t pay—even if you do wear fancy suits.”
That made you smile. You and Tyler were as diametrically opposed as two could people get, even down to your clothes.
“Let’s just agree,” you said, remembering the spirit of the season, “that we rub each other the wrong way and leave it at that.”
“Hey, I’ve never had a problem with you. I mean, yeah, we’re always up against each other for funding. It’s a race to the top—winner takes all, whoever publishes first gets the bragging rights. But that’s the game—I know that. Now, if you have a problem with me, this seems like as good a time as any to clear the air because I really have no idea what I could've done to make you hate my guts like this.”
You rolled your eyes.
“Oh, sure, be the mature one, take the high road… Tell me, Owens, does it ever get exhausting being so fucking perfect all the time?”
Another pause.
“What the hell are you going on about?” The chair creaked. “‘Perfect’? I’ve never said I was—FUCK!”
You perked up, reached an arm to turn on the light. Tyler was sprawled on the floor. The coffee table and chair were no longer attached and he was nursing what looked to be his hip while kicking at the granny blanket tangled round legs.
“Did you just fall into the gap?” you said eagerly, trying to record the image in your brain.
He wrestled the blanket until he finally won, then stood resentfully, his hair mussed, a crazed look in his eyes.
“Yes, I fell into the gap! But there was no video evidence,” he said pointing. “You can’t prove it. At this rate, it might be smarter to sleep on the floor.”
“Looks like it.”
You watched him kick the chair away with his foot and lay the blanket on top of the coarse brown carpet. He tossed his pillow down and picked up the sheet, holding it in front of his body and looking like he might actually prefer to try his luck in the parking lot than on the inhospitable floor. You observed him with interest, biting your thumbnail and watching his throat move with a sigh, the dejected set of his shoulders, the strong jaw set until it looked like it would break glass.
“Oh, fine!” you said. “You look like my senior dog trying to decide where to lay down!”
“You have a dog?” he asked with enough skepticism to be insulting.
“She lives with my sister.”
“What’s her name?” His jaw relaxed, eyes softened.
“Doppler. Don’t laugh!” you exclaimed, though it fell on deaf ears.
“That’s kind of… really nerdy.”
“Do you want to sleep on the floor?”
“I’m sleeping on the floor anyway.”
You whipped the covers off the left side of the bed. Tyler’s eyes almost bugged out of his head.
“No.”
“Come on, Owens, I don't have cooties.”
“It’s not about the cooties, I’m trying not to get killed Basic Instinct-style!”
You knew the scene: Sharon Stone fucking her rock star boyfriend before stabbing him to death with an ice pick. Unbidden, your mind filled with images of Tyler underneath you, his throat bared to you as you rode him.
“You wish!”
Tyler looked at you sternly.
“That’s not what I meant.”
“We’ll make a divider out of pillows!” you suggested, starting the master feat of engineering by plopping all your extra ones vertically down the center of the bed.
You didn’t know where this sudden stroke of generosity had come from. Only ten minutes before you would’ve been perfectly fine—nay, ecstatic—to know that Tyler was about to spend six hours in pain and discomfort.
Maybe it was your guilty conscience. Maybe he’d convinced you that this vendetta you had against him was one-sided and kind of silly. Maybe you just wanted to get some damn sleep without feeling like you were racking up bad karma by not offering to share the bed.
He eyed your attempts like a skeptic, his hands on his hips.
Damn, they were slutty little white tees… you thought.
“This is ridiculous,” he pointed out. And yet he’d dropped the sheet and stopped all attempts at sleeping on the floor like an imprisoned martyr.
“Ridiculous” was a good way to describe what the start of this holiday was turning out to be. If you’d told your past self that come December 23rd you’d be sharing a hotel room, even a bed, with Tyler Owens, you’d have laughed in your own face. But here it was—courtesy of the weather, a possible redheaded Christmas elf, and a series of minor coincidences that had all resulted in this: you shrugging and saying, “Tell me something I don’t know. Tick-tock,” you added with a clap for emphasis, “my goodwill has a time limit!”
“Very festive of you. Are you sure this is okay?”
He approached you with a cautious air, turning down the covers like you might yell “psych!” and attack him at any moment. Even when he laid himself down, it was at the very edge of the bed, and you thought he might end up on the floor anyway given a hasty mid-sleep roll, but then, that would be his own doing and he’d have nothing else to blame but his own clumsiness.
“Just keep your hands to yourself,” you decreed.
“Obviously.”
You turned the light off.
This isn’t so bad, you thought. If you closed your eyes, you could almost forget he was there. You hummed to yourself, snuggling down, finally making headway on the quest for rest and relaxation. Twenty minutes passed, maybe an hour. Hell, it might have been two—all you knew was that Tyler was not keeping up his end of the bargain.
“You’re encroaching on my space!” you hissed, pushing back against pillows that had moved to your side of the bed.
Tyler turned, not remorseful in the least. “I’ve got, like, half-a-foot on you! What do you want me to do?”
“That’s sizeist,” you sniffed.
There was a sound from his direction.
“Are you laughing?” you accused.
“Yeah, I’m laughing… You’re funny. And that’s how I know I don’t have a problem with you.”
You were unexpectedly pleased, despite his bed theft and the rehashing of your previous conversation. No one had ever called you funny before, though you’d always thought you were.
Tyler Owens thinks I’m funny?
So sue me—you were only human and not above hoarding little compliments.
“What did you mean,” he started to ask, shifting so that he could lay on his back, “about me being ‘perfect’? Not that I don’t find it flattering, it's just not true at all and it didn't sound like a good thing, by the way that you said it.”
You kept silent, staring at the A/C unit attached to the wall.
“I know you’re not asleep!” he declared, poking you in the back.
“And how would you know what I sound like asleep?”
“Well, it wouldn't sound like speaking, now would it?”
Shit. He had a point.
You let out a sigh, regretting your magnanimity now that you were in a dark room side-by-side with the man and couldn't avoid his charm or the ease he inspired like magic.
You’d always found that the most unsettling thing about him.
“You’re gonna get the grant,” you admitted with more sincerity than you meant. In your voice you could hear the layers of frustration and insecurity and anger and disappointment that you couldn’t face in the day, when you had people counting on you and a reputation to uphold.
Tyler was quiet a moment.
“You don't know that.”
“Yeah, I do. I’m not good with the whole… schmoozing thing. Not like you are.”
“Schmoozing?” he asked.
“That’s what it is! You’re good with people.”
“So are you.”
“No, I’m not,” you laughed bitterly, craning your neck to say it over your shoulder. “I’m prickly.”
“That’s bullshit,” Tyler said. “And, anyway, this is research, not a personality contest.”
“Ha!”
“You do know there are plenty of prickly scientists out there getting people to throw money at them all the time? Sometimes, it’s the pricklier the better—people think that if you're really a genius, you should treat everyone around you like the bottom of the garbage pail.”
“It’s different for you,” you pointed out.
“How so?”
You sat up, eyeing his shadowed form.
“Well, sweetie, there’s this thing called discrimination—it’s what happens when having certain anatomy makes people more inclined to think you know what you're doing.”
“Very profound… That’s not what you meant.”
He was right. While sexism did come into funding, as it came into a lot of things where it had no place, your main gripe about Tyler had nothing to do with him being a man and everything to do with him being, well, him.
You raked a hand through your hair.
“All you have to do is walk into a room and get pally with the panel,” you confessed. “I can’t compete with that.”
Somehow, through the dark, his eyes found yours. His expression was unreadable, but you could feel his attention on you, his scrutiny—thoughtful, patient, wanting to understand.
“I don’t know what to say,” he said at last.
“Seriously? You’re gonna make me be honest with you and then leave me holding the hot potato of awkwardness?”
“I’m not doing it on purpose,” he laughed. “I just… It’s not like I get up in the morning thinking, ‘Hm, what grant can I possibly steal from you today?’”
“Right,” you drawled, “you just can’t help being you.”
“I can’t!” he insisted, rising up on his elbows. “I like people. I like meeting them… talking to them—even the buttoned-up ones that look like they haven't been outside of an office building in months. I can't apologize for that. But it is a little unfair of you if your sole reason for being mean to me all the time amounts to two cents and a bit of pocket lint.”
“I am not mean!” you protested.
Tyler cocked his head.
“Okay, maybe I’m a bit brusque,” you allowed. “But I let you sleep in my bed!”
“For which I’ll be forever grateful…”
You opened your mouth.
“…but not enough to turn down the grant.”
You shrugged, not expecting him to hand you the award on a silver platter.
“It was worth a shot,” you said. Another joke.
Tyler gestured with his hands; you could see them fluttering around expressively in the near dark.
“You’ve just gotta stop approaching people and automatically assuming that they’re not on your side,” he said gently, and because you were a contrarian, you chose to take at least one-sixteenth of offense.
“Are you mansplaining relationships to me?”
“Not mansplaining, just a friendly bit of advice. Take it or leave it,” he tacked on, shrugging his shoulders—damn his shoulders…
“Thanks.”
You were trying to wrestle your brain away from the thought of his bare chest again.
His bare chest… the expanse of his chiseled abs, the dip of his hips…
You looked away, your face as hot as your shame. You would not have sex thoughts about a man you were sharing a bed platonically with. You would not admit to yourself that your traitorous gaze had wandered down to the outline of certain parts while he was standing there in gray sweats and a white T-shirt that left little or nothing to your debauched imagination.
You would not.
You would not.
Santa, come get me before I forfeit all brownie points for life.
“Now this is awkward.” The words slipped out of your mouth. You pulled the sheet up to your chin as if it were a straitjacket and Tyler chuckled to himself, probably thinking that you meant awkwardness at having a moment of vulnerability rather than red-hot lust.
“Go to sleep,” he said kindly, turning back on his left side.
“Alright. Night.”
“Night.”
-
Later, you would swear it didn't happen on purpose. At some point in the night, after Christmas Eve had settled well and truly over this random Oklahoma town, the pillow fort was forgotten as you and Tyler fell asleep, succumbing to the fatigue of the day’s travel and your late-night conversations.
The first inkling you had was that your pillow was far too warm against your cheek—and it moved, up and down, like the gentle swaying of a boat upon a calm sea. When you regained enough consciousness, you realized that the “pillow” kept a beat, and that's when you realized your pillow wasn't a pillow at all but the cradle of Tyler’s chest.
He’s quite comfortable, you thought, still half-asleep. He had his arm thrown around you and the tips of his fingers rested against a patch of naked back where your shirt had ridden up.
So far, so good; you couldn’t complain about the weighted blanket treatment—at least not in your hazy, sleep-softened state. You sighed happily, snuggling further into his shirt.
You felt his arms tighten.
His breathing shift.
You were straddling the line between dream and wakefulness when you noticed his legs tangled up in yours…
…and the hard protrusion pressing right against your stomach.
You opened your eyes. Tyler was awake and springing out of bed like he had a whole swarm of bees in his bonnet.
“Oh god,” he exclaimed, “I am so sorry! That is not… I did not—”
“It’s fine,” you tried to say.
“No! No, it’s not.”
“Tyler, would you stop acting like a virgin with the vapors? It’s cold, I’m not the stillest of sleepers, nothing was meant by it.”
He ran a hand through his hair, then put it on his hip, then pointed—you didn’t know at whom, he was simply unable to be still, and the more he panicked the more you thought it was silly how he was making such a big deal out of nothing.
(Okay, so maybe it wasn't nothing, but one of you had to be the adult about it.)
“I was not trying to put the moves on you,” he emphatically declared.
“That was made abundantly clear by what you said to Carol. Also by the drool on your pillow.”
“The—”
His gaze darted. His face took on an added hue of pallid as he bent over his pillow and straightened, eyebrows battened, finding nothing there.
“See, that was mean.”
“No, that was funny,” you laughed.
The whole time, you did your best to keep your eyes trained above his shoulders, though you had a bone-deep curiosity now that you’d felt the impression of his dick against your skin.
If your periphery was to be trusted—which, your doctor said you had excellent vision in that regard—he was as well-endowed as he was rumored to be, sometimes with envy, sometimes pejoratively and in relation to his ego. Now that you’d spent an entire day crossing paths, you weren't so sure about that last bit. But you were sure that in the privacy of your own thoughts, you’d have a bitch of a time unknowing that Tyler Owens was, in every regard, unfairly blessed.
“Back to neutral corners?” you asked, patting the bed.
Tyler stared at the mattress with something like horror.
“You are not being normal about this!” you exclaimed.
“Maybe I oughta sleep on the floor.”
“Seriously?”
“Yeah, it’s just for a few hours more.”
You sighed.
“Tyler James Owens, now you are the one being a muppet.”
“Take that back! And how do you even know my middle name?”
“It’s called Google. Now stop acting like a muppet and I’ll stop calling you one!”
Drat… You were so close, but your eyes snagged on the bulge in his pants at the exact moment Tyler was looking at you. There was no way to deny it.
You wiped your face of all expression.
Tyler pleaded, “Do not make this worse for me than it already is.”
“I didn’t say anything!”
“You don’t have to, it's written all over your face.”
Me? My face? You pointed at yourself.
Tyler huffed, “You aren't letting me forget this for as long as I live, are you?”
“Not in your dreams…” you fessed up. “Need me to pace around the hall for ten minutes, let you take care of business? I have a spare sock you can hang on the door.”
“You’re evil.”
“Nooooo, where are you going?” you needled, watching him head to the bathroom with a scowl on his face. “I was having so much fun!”
“Mind your own business!” he yelled back.
“But Tyler, it’s perfectly natural!”
He locked the door.
Only then did you cover your mouth and really let yourself have a laugh.
-
He took exactly 23 minutes. You knew because you timed him, a childish impulse you indulged in trade for not probing the question of what he might be thinking about as he got off. Obviously, you knew enough biology to not flatter yourself into believing that his morning wood was down to you; still, you allowed yourself to believe it just the tiniest bit. It made you feel better—to think he was affected by you. To believe you weren’t alone in being provoked to unexpected places.
He came up to the bed with a wary glance. On purpose, you pretended to be uncommonly interested in your nails.
“I thought you’d be asleep.”
“Didn’t feel like it,” you said, buffing a nonexistent spot on your shirt. “All good?”
“Don’t start.” He took his pillow and made for the chair.
You clicked your tongue. “You really don't have to sleep on the floor, you know…”
Which was kind.
“...I thought that was the whole point of Tyler’s Special Solo Time.”
Which wasn’t.
He rounded on you with his finger outstretched.
“Do not call it that!”
“Okay!”
“Never again!”
“Fine!”
“And for your information—that isn’t what I was doing in there.”
“Oh!” you said, genuinely surprised, “I just assumed…”
“Well, you know what they say about assuming.”
You make an ASS out of U and ME.
Color me surprised—you genuinely thought Tyler had been in the bathroom rubbing one out.
Could it be that he was too much of a gentleman to do it with you the next room over? That seemed like the likeliest explanation.
You were touched. Weirdly, inappropriately.
Also let down by the fact that you weren’t sexually irresistible enough to make him lose all sense of propriety—granted, you hadn’t been trying to be sexually irresistible at the time, more like drooling into his shirt.
“God, what?” he asked, eyes boring into yours like he was trying to crack open your mind and read it like a book, pushed to the brink when he couldn’t figure out what you were thinking or if you believed him about not masturbating in the bathroom.
“Nothing! Why are you chewing me out just because you got an erection?”
“Don’t say ‘erection’!”
You rolled your eyes.
“I’m not gonna call it a boner—I’m not in middle school anymore!”
“You have gotta be kidding me…”
He face-planted onto the bed, not consciously, you didn’t think, more like the natural result of a situation that’d understandably fried his brain.
You could relate… and it was supremely satisfying to hear him say the words you’d been thinking for over a day: you have got to be kidding me, indeed.
“This is the weirdest fucking Christmas I have ever had,” he mumbled into the mattress.
You laughed, feeling not an ounce of animosity as you watched his prone form. He was funny, and he’d been nicer than you deserved. You no longer believed that he had kicked you in the back during your flight on purpose.
“What are your plans for the holidays?” you asked him, letting him off the hook about his penis.
He turned his head and searched you for any trace of nefarious intent. He answered when he was sure you weren’t going to keep messing with him.
“The team and I are going to Kate’s. Then I’m spending the start of the New Year at home, hopefully, if there isn’t another fire to put out.”
“You’re from Arkansas,” you said.
“Mm.”
“‘Regnat populus.’”
He quirked his brow.
“‘The People Rule,’” you explained. “You don't know your own state’s motto?”
“Nobody knows their state’s motto.”
“I had to learn them all for school.”
“High school?”
“Elementary.”
“Oh,” he laughed, “so you grew up rich.”
“Shut up.”
He sat against the headboard next to you, crossing his ankles.
“What made you want to become a meteorologist?”
“Seriously?” you asked.
“What?”
“It’s a cliched question.”
“It’s a getting-to-know-you question!”
You frowned.
“Why would you ever want to get to know me? I’ve done nothing but fight you since the day we met.”
“Why wouldn't I?”
Plain, simple.
The lamplight made it impossible to hide a thing. There was a line between his brows, as if he couldn’t for the life of him understand why you couldn’t understand. “I like people.” You’d thought it trite at the time, you didn’t trust it, but you were thinking maybe it was true. Instead of judging you by the way you challenged, harangued, goaded, mocked, judging him, he’d kept trying to figure you out. It was one of the reasons he was good at his job—the merging of both science- and people-smarts.
If you had a brain in your head, you might learn from him. But to do that you’d have to get your head out of your ass and stop seeing him as the enemy.
Except you didn’t.
Sometime between the Heller offices and this moment in the Sunnyside Inn, your feelings towards him had changed. The animosity? Gone. All that was left in its place was a newfound respect, fresh like the layer of snow sitting over the world outside the walls of your hotel room, and, if you were being brutally honest, an attraction that was hard to ignore.
You held your breath.
His hair, glinting bronze, was sleep-mussed—the detail intimate, arousing, just like the stubble on his cheeks and the rugged line of his throat leading to the curves of those shoulders you couldn’t stop thinking about. What was that one corny-as-fuck phrase some fuckboy musician had once said?
Sexual napalm.
Tyler Owens was sexual napalm and you weren’t immune.
“Stop looking at me like that,” you said.
It was Projection 101, but in this case you weren’t entirely wrong.
Tyler’s eyes wandered down to your mouth, seductive without even trying. He was breathing as fast as you, his lips parted, tongue peeking out to wet them when he said, “Can’t.”
And that was all it took. One second you were staring at each other with twin fuck-me expressions and the next you were in his lap, your hands buried in his hair. The kiss was eager—messy—uncaring of finesse, indifferent to perfection. It was the exact opposite of the way you’d been living your life and it was mostly down to him. Even when he’d been driving you absolutely insane, there was no denying that Tyler brought out in you something hard to control. He made you ambitious, competitive, unfiltered—sometimes to an unflattering degree—but God, did it feel good.
He tilted his head and delved his tongue into your mouth. You groaned, pulled him back by the hair until you felt a rumbling sound in his throat which you decided to chase on instinct, latching your mouth onto that part of him you’d been obsessing over for the last few hours, sucking, biting, laving your way down to his clavicle.
“This is not how you get to know someone,” you joked, feeling him get hard again underneath you.
“Yeah, it is…”
“Don’t say 'biblically.’”
He laughed—it was a giggle that made you smile and peer into his face.
“You said it, not me. Are you gonna kick me out of bed later?” he asked, stroking a hand up your thigh.
“No. Are you gonna run for the hills like I soiled your virtue?”
He balked. “That is not what I did.”
“Yeah, it is!”
“Well”—he nipped your jaw, hand slyly making its own path up to your breast, which he stroked open-palmed so that you rocked your hips against his—”I promise not to be virtuous at all for the next…” He glanced at his watch. “Three hours.”
“Three hours?”
“What can I say,” he shrugged. “I’m a people pleaser. It’s my curse.”
-
Suffice to say, by the time 10:00 o’clock rolled around and you and Tyler made your way down so you could settle up the room with Carol, you were feeling like a million bucks. Not even a full spa day could have infused you with this much energy.
There was a pep in your step, a smile plastered to your face, and when Carol said, “Happy holidays! It was nice having you with us!” you were so smug that you slipped the tip in her hand and said, “Thank you, Carol, you sure made it sunny!”
Tyler cackled, but tried to do it subtly. (And failed.)
Right on the money, the snow had stopped falling during the night. It’d be a white Christmas, all right, but you should be able to drive home safely and arrive in time for lunch.
Tyler loaded your suitcase into your car, gallant as ever.
“So,” he said.
“So.”
You exchanged shy glances, which was new for you. You’d never had reason to feel shy around Tyler before, but then, you’d had him inside you not too long ago and the memory of the things you’d done, the things you’d said, which you wouldn’t admit even under threat of perjury, were enough to make you almost blush.
“We should hit the road,” you said dumbly, schooling your features into an unbothered mask.
“Yeah. I’m sure the others have already made it to Ms. Carter’s farm.”
“Well… merry Christmas.”
“Yeah, merry Christmas.”
You opened your door, settled into your seat. You were about to pull the door closed when Tyler stopped it, hand closed around the top.
“Can I call you, after the holidays?”
“Sure.”
“Okay.”
“Cool.”
“Cool.”
He laughed. “Who’s holding the hot potato now, you or me?”
“I think we’re sharing this one,” you replied.
“I don’t mind that.”
“Yeah,” you said, “neither do I.”
He smiled at you for a while, then closed your door and watched you drive off. You followed his movements in the rearview until your paths diverged, then turned up the radio.
“Merry Christmas Eve, one and all! It’s a gorgeous one out there—we couldn’t have asked for better weather. Here’s one just for you. I’m sure you know it, so sing along: it’s Dean Martin and it’s our ‘Winter Wonderland,’ right here, in the heart of good ol’ Oklahoma…”
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(Un)dress To Impress. || Choi Jongho.
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Summary: what do you do when the dress you wore to your work's annual christmas party turns out to be way too short? simple: you hide in the bathroom, get saved by choi jongho from a creep lurking outside, and then... fuck him?
Pairing: choi jongho x reader
Genre: coworkers to lovers (?), smut (mdni)
Wordcount: 4.3k
Warnings: bathroom sex, big dick!jongho, dom!jongho, brat!reader, spanking, breath play, fingering, name calling (slut), manhandling, marking, getting caught
A/N: hello @rems-writing, I was your secret santa for @mirohs-aurora-society! i really hope you like this, it's pretty rushed and not that good unfortunately🥲 but I hope you had a great christmas and happy new year in a few hours my jongho biased twin <33 divider credits go to @firefly-graphics!
Taglist: @ghstzzn, @kyukyustar, @hwapetals, @foxinnie8, @preciouswoozi, @aussiekpopginger, @kitten4sannie, @hanjisungs-bigtittyg0thgf
Available here on AO3.
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You tugged at the hem of the so-called “dress” for the hundredth time, as though it’s going to magically grow three more inches and stop threatening to expose your dignity to the entire office. Spoiler: it won’t. It clinged to you like it’s been painted on, and you’re convinced the tiniest movement was enough to break it entirely.
There were the sleeves - oh, wait, there weren’t any. Just two pathetic spaghetti straps holding up a neckline so low that you’re genuinely worried about a “wardrobe malfunction” the next time you sneeze. And the skirt? Calling it a skirt is generous. It’s more like a festive belt that someone decided to stitch some cheap white fur onto for extra humiliation.
And don’t even get started on the heels. Stilettos, of course, because apparently nothing screams “Santa's Little Helper” like shoes that double as torture devices. Every step is a wobble, every wobble is a threat to your ankles, and every glance down makes you wonder if this is how you’ll die - face-planting into the snack table and exposing your private parts while everyone laughs and records it for TikTok.
You groaned as you let go of the dress’s hem, resigned to the fact that it wasn’t going to cover anything no matter how much you pulled. With a deep breath, you adjusted the straps for what felt like the millionth time, hoping they wouldn’t snap under the strain. Maybe if you stayed in the bathroom long enough, people would just forget you were even here.
But, alas, the universe wasn’t so kind.
Just as you cracked the bathroom door open, ready to make a break for the nearest corner where you could hide for the rest of the party, you nearly collided with Hongjoong.
“Oh, thank God, I found you!” he blurted out. His eyes widened as they took in the unfortunate excuse for an outfit you’d been saddled with, and his face flushed red. “Oh my God. I uh, wow, okay - this is bad. Really bad. I am so sorry. This is entirely my fault.”
You crossed your arms over your chest, attempting to shield at least a fraction of your dignity. “Yeah, Hongjoong, it is bad,” you deadpanned, your voice dripping with sarcasm. “My ass - Hongjoong, my entire ass is practically out!”
“I know, I know!” he said, flapping his hands like he was trying to wave away his guilt. “I swear, it was a mix-up with the sizes. They sent the wrong one, and I didn’t double-check before handing them out. I’m so sorry. I’ll fix this right now!”
“Yeah?” you asked, raising an eyebrow. “How exactly do you plan to fix it? Unless you’ve got a sewing machine hidden somewhere?”
Hongjoong looked like a deer caught in headlights for a split second before a light bulb seemed to go off in his head. “Wait here!” he said, spinning on his heel and darting away. “I’ll be right back! I'll bring you my jacket!”
You sighed heavily, leaning against the bathroom door frame as you watched him vanish into the crowd. You could hear faint laughter and music coming from the party, a cruel reminder that you were supposed to be out there, mingling and enjoying yourself, not hiding in the bathroom like a contestant on a humiliating reality show.
Deciding you’d had enough of standing around in your ridiculous getup, you slipped back into the bathroom and locked the door. “Great,” you muttered to yourself, pacing the small space.
The knock on the door that came after a few minutes startled you. Sighing, you unlocked it and swung it open, expecting Hongjoong and his promised jacket.
Instead, you found Jongho, his broad shoulders taking up most of the doorway. He stepped inside without even waiting for an invitation, shutting the door behind him with a quiet click.
“Jongho?” you hissed, your confusion turning quickly to irritation.
What the hell was the man you had a one-sided work rivalry with doing here?!
“What are you doing in here? This is the woman's bathroom!”
“Be quiet,” he said, his voice low and firm. He turned to glance back at the door. “There’s a guy outside. He’s been hanging around, watching the bathroom like a creep ever since you’ve been in here.”
You blinked slowly. “A creep?”
He nodded, his dark eyes meeting yours. “I saw looking at many women weirdly before. He doesn’t look like he’s here for the party, and I’m pretty sure now that he saw you he’s waiting for you and won't leave until you'll get out of here.”
Your stomach twisted uncomfortably, but you refused to let the fear show. “And what, you’re here to save me?” you said, crossing your arms over your chest.
Jongho’s jaw clenched, his gaze flicking down to the barely-there dress you were wearing. “Someone has to. Do you even realize what you look like in that thing?”
You glared at him angrily. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means,” he said, gesturing vaguely at you, “that you’re practically naked. Of course someone like that would think you’re an easy target.”
“Wow,” you snapped, a sarcastic laugh escaping you. “Thanks for the victim-blaming. Super helpful.”
“That’s not what I meant, and you know it,” Jongho shot back, stepping closer. “I’m saying you shouldn’t have to deal with that kind of attention. And you shouldn’t be out there alone, looking like...” He hesitated, his cheeks flushing faintly.
“Looking like what?” you demanded, stepping into his space.
His lips pressed into a thin line as his eyes roamed over you, taking in every inch of the ridiculous outfit. “Like you’re in the wrong kind of holiday party.”
You gasped, outraged. “Excuse me?”
He smirked, the teasing edge you were so familiar with creeping into his expression. “I mean, I’ve seen gift wrap that covers more than that dress.”
“Ugh, why are you even here?” you snapped, shoving at his chest. It was like trying to move a wall.
“To make sure you’re safe,” he said simply, not budging an inch. “You can’t exactly fend off a creep while teetering around in those death traps you’re calling shoes.”
You let out an incredulous laugh. “I don’t need you to protect me, Jongho. I can handle myself.”
“Right,” he said, folding his arms across his chest. “Because staying hidden in the bathroom was a great strategy.”
Your cheeks burned, and you were about to fire back when his expression softened, his teasing giving way to something more genuine.
“Look,” he said, his voice quieter now. “I’m not trying to piss you off. I just... I don’t like the idea of someone like that hanging around, thinking they can get away with something.”
His words hit you harder than you wanted to admit. You sighed, some of the tension draining from your shoulders. “Fine. But if you’re staying, keep your mouth shut. I don’t need a lecture.”
“Deal,” Jongho said, his lips twitching into a small smirk. “But only if you stop glaring at me like you’re planning my murder.”
You rolled your eyes but couldn’t stop the corner of your mouth from quirking up. “No promises.”
Jongho leaned against the counter, arms crossed, his eyes fixed on the floor as if deep in thought. You, on the other hand, busied yourself by fidgeting with the hem of your dress, tugging and adjusting as though you could somehow make it more modest through sheer willpower.
But the universe had other plans.
As you adjusted the neckline of the ridiculous dress for what felt like the millionth time, you heard it before you felt it - a tiny, ominous snap.
Your heart dropped.
You looked down in horror, realizing that one of the buttons holding the strained top together had given up on life entirely. The fabric gaped open, and before you could even process what was happening, your entire chest was on full display.
“Shit!” you exclaimed, scrambling to cover yourself with your hands.
Jongho’s head shot up at your outburst, his eyes locking onto you. For a brief second, he froze, his gaze flickering down before he snapped his head away so fast you were surprised he didn’t get whiplash.
“Jesus Christ,” he muttered, his ears turning a deep shade of red.
“Don’t look!” you shrieked, twisting away from him and pressing yourself against the wall, your hands clutching the ruined fabric.
“I’m not looking!” Jongho barked, holding up his hands as if to prove his innocence, though his voice was noticeably strained. “What the hell just happened?”
“The stupid dress!” you hissed, trying desperately to pull the fabric back together. “The button popped off!”
“Of course it did,” he said under his breath, running a hand through his hair. “That thing’s been holding on by a thread since the moment I saw you.”
“Not helping!” you snapped, glaring at him over your shoulder.
“Okay, okay, calm down,” he said, still facing the door like it was the most fascinating thing in the world. “Do you have a safety pin or something?”
“Oh, sure,” you said, your voice dripping with sarcasm. “I just keep an emergency sewing kit in my cleavage for situations like this!”
Jongho let out a frustrated sigh. “Alright, then. Let me think.”
“Just- just give me your jacket or something!” you demanded.
“I don’t have one!” he said, finally glancing back at you before immediately averting his gaze again. “I wasn’t exactly planning on needing it tonight!”
You groaned, your humiliation reaching an all-time high. “This is a nightmare.”
“Hey,” Jongho said, his voice surprisingly gentle. “It’s not that bad.”
You shot him a withering look. “Not that bad? My tits are practically out, Jongho!”
He smirked despite himself. “Well, if it makes you feel any better, they’re nice.”
Your jaw dropped, your face heating to what had to be a record-breaking temperature. “What?! Y-you,” you stumbled upon your words. “Just…turn around or something,” you mumbled, your fingers fumbling helplessly with the dress.
But instead of moving, Jongho stepped closer. Too close. His towering presence filled the cramped bathroom, ahd his broad shoulders were blocking out everything else. You felt the warmth radiating off him as his hand shot out to still yours.
“Stop,” he said firmly, and his tone left no room for protest.
You froze, your heart hammering in your chest as his dark eyes bore into yours. He reached out, fingers brushing your hand as he took hold of the torn fabric.
“Let me,” he murmured, voice dropping an octave.
His hands moved with deliberate care, but his touch lingered longer than it needed to. The darkness in his expression made your breath hitch, and suddenly, the ridiculous dress was the last thing on your mind.
When he finished, he didn’t step back. His hands didn’t leave your waist. If anything, his grip tightened slightly as his gaze flickered from your eyes to your lips.
“Jongho…” You barely managed to get his name out before he moved.
There was no hesitation, no words to fill the space or any other sign. His lips crashed into yours with a force that sent you stumbling back against the wall. His body followed, caging you in as one hand slid up to cradle the back of your head, tilting it just enough to deepen the kiss.
It was rough, messy, and so fucking hot. All the tension that had been building between you exploded in an instant, and it consumed you both entirely. His other hand gripped your hip, pulling you flush against him, and the heat of his body made you dizzy.
You didn’t think; you couldn’t. Your hands were in his hair, tugging him closer, your body arching into his like it was instinct. His teeth scraped against your bottom lip, and you gasped, granting him access he didn’t hesitate to take. His tongue slid against yours, and the soft groan he let out was enough to make your knees buckle.
“Fuck,” he muttered against your lips, the word more growl than anything else.
“Shut up,” you shot back, dragging him back down into another bruising kiss.
Whatever awkwardness had existed between you before was gone now, burned away in the heat of the moment. His hands were everywhere - your waist, your thighs, your hair - like he couldn’t touch enough of you all at once.
He gripped your hips, dragging you against him so firmly that you gasped. The sound seemed to snap what little control he had left. His mouth left yours, trailing down your neck and to your shoulder. One of the thin straps of your dress slid off, exposing more of your skin to his searing kisses.
“J-jongho,” you whispered, but it wasn’t a protest. Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging him closer as he bit down lightly on your collarbone, his hands slipping lower to cup your thighs.
“Tell me to stop,” he rasped, though his actions made it clear he didn’t want to. His fingers toyed with the hem of your dress, the material riding higher and higher.
“I don’t want you to,” you confessed, your voice trembling. The words came out before you could think, but you didn’t regret them. Not when his dark eyes met yours, not when his kips curled into the prettiest smile you've ever seen.
“Good,” he muttered, his lips crashing against yours again.
His hands lifted you effortlessly, and your legs wrapped around his waist instinctively. The cold tile of the wall contrasted sharply with the heat of his body as he pinned you there, and it made you gasp. One hand gripped your thigh, while the other slid under the fabric of your dress, skimming over your bare skin with deliberate slowness. The contact sent a shiver down your spine, and you arched into him, needing more.
“Fuck,” he growled, his teeth grazing your jaw as his fingers teased along the edge of your underwear. “You’re driving me insane.”
“You’re one to talk, Choi,” you shot back, your breath hitching when his hand slipped lower.
His lips curled into a smirk against your neck. “Oh, really?”
Before you could answer, his fingers pressed against you through the thin fabric, and any witty remark you had died on your lips. Your head fell back against the wall, a moan escaping as he applied just enough pressure to make your hips buck against his hand.
“Look at you,” he murmured, clearly satisfied with himself. “So needy already.”
“Jongho,” you breathed, your nails digging into his shoulders.
He hummed in response, his fingers slipping under the waistband of your underwear to touch your pussy directly. You couldn’t stop the way your body reacted to him. His movements were slow, deliberate, like he was savoring every second of your unraveling.
“You’re soaking,” he said. “All for me?”
You nodded helplessly, your words failing you as he continued to work you with expert precision. His lips found yours again, swallowing your moans as his fingers pushed deeper, coaxing you closer to the edge with every movement.
The sound of your ragged breathing and the faint bass of the music outside were the only things filling the room. Every nerve in your body was on fire, and you clung to him like he was the only thing grounding you.
“Cum for me,” he whispered against your lips. “Right here. Right now.”
It was too much. The heat pooling in your core finally spilled over, and your body trembled as the wave of pleasure crashed over you. His name fell from your lips in a broken cry, and he held you through it, never once faltering.
You collapsed against him, your forehead resting against his shoulder. His hands smoothed over your thighs, grounding you as your breathing slowly returned to normal.
“That,” he said, his voice low and smug, “was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”
You pulled back just enough to glare at him, though the effect was ruined by the satisfied smile tugging at your lips. “You’re so… insufferable.”
“And you’re irresistible,” he countered, his grin widening as he leaned in to kiss you again, softer this time but no less passionate.
You smiled softly. Slowly, you tried to stabilize yourself, thinking the two of you were finished and this was just a one time thing with your very hot coworker.
Boy were you wrong.
“Oh, you think you’re done?” he murmured, his voice dripping with challenge.
You blinked, still catching your breath, and gave him a rather confused look. “Yeah? What else do you think you’re gonna do to me?”
That was all the provocation he needed. His eyes darkened instantly, and the atmosphere in the tiny bathroom shifted. Without warning, he grabbed your chin, his grip firm but not painful, forcing you to look directly into his intense gaze.
“You think you’re in charge here?” he growled. His fingers pressed just enough to make your lips part in surprise. “That’s cute. But you’ve been a little brat all night, teasing me in this-" he gestured at your barely-there dress, "-and now you’re going to pay for it.”
Before you could fire back some snarky remark, Jongho spun you around, pinning you against the cold wall with his body. One of his hands held your wrists firmly above your head, while the other trailed down your side, deliberately slow, as if savoring every curve of your body.
“Jongho!” you gasped, struggling slightly, but his hold was unyielding.
“No,” he said firmly, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. “You don’t get to fight me on this. You’ve been pushing my buttons all night. Now I’m going to show you what happens when you misbehave.”
Your heart pounded in a mix of arousal and anticipation. “I wasn’t misbehaving,” you muttered, though your voice lacked conviction.
“Lying now? That’s strike two,” he said with a smirk, his hand sliding down to hike up your dress completely, exposing your bare ass to his eyes. The cool air hit your skin, making you shiver. “You really are begging to be punished.”
Your cheeks burned, but a part of you - the part that craved this for so long - couldn’t stop the words from spilling out. “And if I was?”
He chuckled, and it vibrated against your back as his lips brushed your neck. “Then I’d have no choice but to teach you some manners.”
His free hand came down sharply on your ass, the sound echoing in the small bathroom. You gasped, both from the sting and the wave of pleasure that followed. “See?” he taunted, his hand rubbing the spot where he’d spanked you. “You like it when I put you in your place.”
“I don’t-” you began, but his hand struck again, cutting off your protest.
“What was that?” he asked mockingly. “I couldn’t hear you because you're so damn loud. Enjoying this I see, hm?”
You bit your lip, refusing to give him the satisfaction of a response, but he wasn’t about to let you off the hook. His hand moved between your thighs, his fingers sliding against your still-sensitive core. “You’re dripping,” he murmured, his voice thick with desire. “And you’re trying to tell me you don’t want this?”
“Shut up,” you hissed, though your body betrayed you by pressing back against him.
He let out a low laugh, his teeth grazing the curve of your shoulder. “You’re such a brat,” he said, his hand slipping under your panties. “But don’t worry. I know exactly how to deal with you.”
Before you could react, he spun you around again, lifting you effortlessly onto the counter. His hands gripped your thighs, spreading them wide as he positioned himself between them. The sight of him - his flushed face, the way his shirt stretched across his broad shoulders - was enough to make your breath hitch.
“You’re going to be good for me now, aren’t you?” he asked.
“And if I’m not?”
His grin was almost feral. “Then I’ll make sure you regret it.”
He didn’t wait for a reply. His lips crashed against yours again, stealing your breath and any thoughts of resistance. His hands roamed your body, gripping, squeezing, leaving no inch untouched. When his fingers slid inside you again, you couldn’t stop the moan that escaped your lips.
“Such a good little slut for me,” he murmured against your lips, his pace relentless. “You talk back, but look at you now - falling apart under my hands.”
You whimpered, your head falling back as he worked you open relentlessly, bringing you closer to the edge again. His other hand wrapped around your throat, applying just enough pressure to make your breath hitch. The lack of oxygen made your head spin.
“You like that, don’t you?” he asked, his voice a low rumble. “Being under my control. Knowing I’m the only one who can make you feel like this.”
“Yes,” you admitted, your voice barely more than a whisper.
His lips curled into a smirk. “That’s more like it.”
But Jongho wasn’t done with you yet. His hands gripped your hips, pulling you to the edge of the counter. His strength left you no room to argue, and the anticipation of what was to come made your body tremble.
“You’re going to take everything I give you,” he said, his voice dripping with authority. “And you’re going to thank me for it.”
“Yes, Sir,” you moaned obediently. And then, finally, Jongho slid off his pants, palming himself through his boxers.
Your mouth went dry. Choi Jongho was fucking massive.
Jongho didn’t rush. He took his time freeing himself, almost as if he enjoyed watching your reaction. The moment his boxers slid down, revealing the full length of him, your eyes widened.
“Fuck,” you whispered, your voice trembling. He was thick, his cock standing proud and heavy, the tip already glistening with precum. You swallowed hard, the sheer size of him making your walls clench in anticipation.
Jongho noticed. Of course he did. His lips twisted into a smug grin as he stroked himself slowly, the veins along his length standing out as his hand worked his shaft. “See something you like?” he teased.
You nodded, barely able to speak. “You’re so big,” you managed.
He stepped closer, positioning himself between your legs. “And you’re going to take every inch of me, aren’t you?” he asked, his tone daring you to say otherwise.
You nodded again, your body trembling with need. “Yes, Sir,” you whispered.
“Good girl,” he said. He gripped his cock, the head pressing against your entrance. The stretch was immediate as he pushed inside, and your nails dug into his shoulders, a moan escaping your lips.
“Fuck,” he growled, his hands gripping your hips tightly as he sank deeper, inch by inch. “You’re so fucking tight. Feel like you were made for me.”
You whimpered, your body adjusting to his size as he filled you completely. The fullness was overwhelming, but the burn of the stretch quickly turned into pleasure, and your moans only grew louder.
“Look at you,” Jongho said, his voice already hoarse as he began to move. His thrusts were slow at first, almost teasing, but he didn’t hold back for long. His pace quickly turned brutal, each snap of his hips sending a shockwave of pleasure through your whole body.
“You’re taking me so well,” he growled, his hands gripping your waist as he fucked into you mercilessly. “Such a good little slut, letting me ruin you like this.”
Your head fell back, and the sound of your moans filled the entire room. Jongho leaned in, his teeth grazing your neck before biting down, marking you as his.
“Mine,” he growled possessively. “You’re fucking mine.”
"Y-yes," you cried, your hands clawing at his back as he drove you closer to the edge. “I’m yours, Jongho.”
He groaned, his pace never faltering as he reached between your bodies, his fingers finding your clit. The added stimulation sent you spiraling, your body tightening around him as your orgasm tore through you.
“That’s it,” he growled. “Cum for me, baby.”
And then, because the universe loved you so much, it happened; the door swung open. You froze, your body stiffening in sudden shock.
Hongjoong had just walked in.
“I-” Hongjoong started, his eyes locking onto the scene before him. He’d seen everything.
Jongho, with his grip firmly on your hips, didn’t even flinch at the intrusion. He was still deep inside you, and the moment he saw Hongjoong’s surprised face, he groaned lowly as his cock twitched inside you.
“Fuck,” Jongho growled, his body tensing as he gave a final, sharp thrust into you. His cock pulsed, and before either of you could react further, he came hard inside you, a low, guttural sound escaping him.
Hongjoong stood frozen in the doorway, his face flushed as he quickly averted his eyes, his hands still gripping the jacket he’d come in to deliver. “I-I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to…” He couldn't even finish his sentence, and he quickly placed the jacket on the counter, not daring to look at either of you again.
“Here,” he mumbled, his back turned to you as he moved to leave the room. “Jacket. I'll... leave you two to it.”
And just as fast as he arrived, he was gone again. You blinked a few times, trying to process what had just happened, and then you glanced up at Jongho.
“Did you just… cum while he saw us?” you asked.
Jongho blinked at you, his face still flushed from the intensity of the moment, and he paused, looking completely unbothered. “...No?” he said with a slight frown, as if he genuinely had no idea what you were talking about.
You stared at him for a moment, then burst into laughter, your entire body shaking. Jongho just stared at you, looking confused for a moment before he joined in, the sound of his laugh filling the room.
“Next time,” you said with a smirk while pulling him down to you again, “maybe let’s lock the door.”
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Let It Happen (LH43) 2/3
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Pairing: Luke Hughes x Fem!Reader
WC: 17k
>PART ONE<
Turn me into something tragic, just for you I let it happen.
General Warnings: after the first part you're probably thinking how could there possibly be more snark? you're about to find out. same with idiotic shenanigans, they're not quite finished with those!! fluff, cursing, sexual references, and fade to black type smut!!
A/N: DON'T HATE ME FOR MAKING IT 3 PARTS I'M JUST AN ADHD GIRLY WHO CAN'T READ 30K IN ONE GO BUT APPARENTLY CAN WRITE IT??? part three will be tomorrow I pinky promise!! I was nervous about splitting this whole thing up bc I really did write a whole romcom lmao!! I know long fics aren't to everyone's taste but I know no way of life other than the art of yapping!! Sorry that this took a little longer than expected there were a couple of scenes I couldn't get right but I hope you guys like this half as much as you did the first part!! and again I'd love to hear any thoughts!! reading your messages and your reblogs and your tags made my month and ily a lot!! like I said, I promise part 3 will be tomorrow, I didn't want to force so much at you in comparison to the first part!!
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“I’m bored.”
Luke hadn’t thought he would regret staying at home when he had told Jack he wasn’t feeling well enough to drive out to Detroit for the Zach Bryan concert - if anything, it was an effort to push him and Ellie a little closer. She took Luke’s place, roomed with Jack in their hotel and everything, and they seemed to be having the time of their lives in all the videos dispersed into the group chat. But that was all before he came downstairs, eyes on the pictures of the all-you-can-eat breakfast the group were partaking in before coming back, and opening the kitchen cupboards to see them bare, with a few protein bars and boxes of granola tossed in like they’d been ransacked for the apocalypse. 
He’d had fun last night, though.
Even after the movie had ended, when the two of you had stayed up on the couch, talking about life - about hockey, about school, about his brothers, about your mom - if he’s honest, it had been the closest he had felt to another person that wasn’t one of his brothers in a really long time.
He really felt like you were connecting.
So much so that he’d retired to his bed for the first time all summer with a big, dopey grin on his face. Had laid awake scrolling through astrological compatibility after the two of you had drifted onto that topic after the movie finished, talking for maybe two hours before you had yawned so big he thought you might swallow him whole.
He had thought he knew you, before.
Had thought that those brief observations made from back in college, about your coffee preferences, your perfume collection, your taste in music, had painted a somewhat blurry picture of who you were - of all the things that blended together to formulate you - but he had been so wrong. 
And he had laid in bed last night thinking much deeper about the girl who was laying only a couple rooms down the hall - a few walls away. 
The girl who had come downstairs, bare feet padding softly into the kitchen, and had poured out two glasses of juice and handed one over to him without even asking. 
“Hi Bored, I’m Luke,” he smiles as he accepts the drink from your hand, the expression deepening as you roll your eyes back at him, this time with a glimmer of fondness slipping through the surface of your facade. 
You reach past him into the cupboard for the box of granola, and he grabs one of the protein bars before closing it, your bodies moving around each other in tandem like a well choreographed routine - easy and effortless in a way that calms whatever nerves he might have had around this new development in your relationship being one-sided.
You had never seemed uncomfortable in the house, or around the rest of the guys, but you had never been like this. 
“I was thinking,” you drag out, voice sweet and alluring, like you even have to put it on to convince Luke of anything, “we could go out on the boat,” you glance back at him as you pour out your cereal, lashes fluttering to complete the act, “You have your license right?”
“Yeah,” he replies, settling himself down to lean at the kitchen island as you cross to the other side, taking one of the stools, “But I’m not really supposed to take it out on my own.”
You hum as if you’re thinking, crunching your food before asking, “Is that brotherly advice or is that the law?”
“Advice, I guess,” he shrugs, pushing forward ever so slightly onto his forearms, where he can feel the tense of his muscles, and can see the diversion of your attention. 
“And you always do what your brothers tell you?”
When you tilt your head, the sun shining through the kitchen window reflects on your irises, making them sparkle, and he can see all the different hues in there, as if you’re using the elements to try hypnotise him into compliance.
You’re so pretty, you don’t even need the special effects.
“I’m a good boy,” he smiles teasingly, with a tilt of his own head, driven by infatuation and admiration, keeping your gaze and trying not to shudder visibly when your eyes drop to his lips. 
“You wouldn’t be on your own, though,” you pout, “I’d be there. I was a lifeguard for the past three summers, you know.” Of course he knows. “I promise I’ll save you if you get thrown overboard.”
You don’t have to say the following sentiment that the two of you share - that if he were to be thrown overboard, it would undoubtedly be by your own hand. 
“Yeah, you’d give me mouth to mouth?”
You scoff, leaning down onto your forearms and mirroring his position, careful not to knock your bowl. “Unfortunately for you, Hughes, they don’t advise the use of that method, anymore.”
“And you always do what people tell you?”
It’s one of his favourite things to do with you, he’s noticed - turn the tables, use your own wit against you. It gets him a reaction, every time. A rush of something real that washes over you, has you fixing your shoulders and biting back a smile. 
Although you don’t bite this one back. Luke doesn’t think that you could, even if you tried. Your eyes even crinkle a little in the corners, and Luke doesn’t see the danger in it - too lost in the way they reflect the glorious sunshine back at him in dazzling sparkles - until one drops in a wink as you retort, “I’m a good girl.”
Touché.
He thinks his heart might have skipped a beat. He can all of a sudden feel every last crumb of the previous bite he took from his protein bar lodged in his throat, and he needs a drink, so he pushes himself up from the counter to try at least gain a height advantage over you, and forces down some gulps of his juice.
The look you’re giving him isn’t doing him any favours - the height difference working against him as your eyes look up to meet his, round and pleading despite the cunning genius he knows is buried within them. 
“Fine,” he huffs, rolling his eyes as your smile grows wider, “But we need to be back before my brothers so I don’t get a lecture.”
“Yes!” You squeal, pushing up from the stool, “I knew you weren’t as boring as you seem!”
He frowns, despite knowing you’re just teasing him for this exact reaction, and watches as you clean up your bowl, discarding of the mushy granola and rinsing it out. 
“I just need ten minutes to get ready and then we can go!”
“You have five.” He grumbles, watching as you rush out the room and listening for the stomp of your feet up the stairs. 
He’s probably going to regret this. 
The bikini had been your first strike - baby blue, the type that ties with strings around your neck and back - when you had come down the stairs, the slap of your slides echoing against the wood and diverting his attention from his phone to your emerging figure. Your t-shirt was clutched in your hand, your tote bag in the other, and he had just stood there, mouth agape, until you rolled your eyes and stormed straight past him, calling, “Thought we were on a time crunch, come on,” behind you.
Your second strike had been the way you had waited until you were on the boat to apply your sunscreen, sat next to Luke, who was trying to keep a steady hand on the wheel as he drove his way down to a clear spot further out on the lake. Luke who was biting his tongue from offering to help you, and could smell the sweet melon scent of the lotion as it sank into your skin. 
And the third had been the way you had been smiling down at your phone, distracting him with the pretty curve of your lips as he steered over the water. 
Three such minor infractions already had him regretting the decision to bring you out here alone.
“Who’s got you smiling like that?” He asks, trying not to sound as jealous as he feels at the thought of it being another guy.
“It’s Cole,” you tell him, eyes still on your phone.
“You and Cole text?” The boat jolts slightly as his hands tremble, and he diverts his attention to you.
“No, he’s got Ellie’s phone.” You type something back before turning the device to show him a selfie Cole had taken in the hotel lobby, Jack asleep on one of the benches in the background and Ellie posing in front of his sleeping figure.
“Why’s Cole texting from Ellie’s phone?” Luke asks, eyes back on the water as he steers the boat, long fingers curled around the wheel and muscles flexing. 
“They’ve been hanging out,” you tell him, “They were together when we got back from the club the other night, he was in our room.”
“And you’re only just telling me this now, because?”
“Oh, my bad, control freak, didn’t realise you needed the whereabouts of everybody in the house,”
“Jack’s been off all week,” Luke mutters, remembering his brother’s reaction when he had told him he was staying at home instead of going to the concert. He had called him out on staying home just to be around you, saying he’d regret missing out on such a huge experience, like there won’t be a hundred other concerts in his lifetime, and that you wouldn’t even appreciate him doing it. “Making all these passive aggressive comments,”
“No way! Jack Hughes? Passive aggressive?” You gasp, shuffling in your seat to give him more of your attention, “What next, is he gonna start acting like the world revolves around him too?”
“Don’t get cute,” Luke rolls his eyes. It’s starting to make sense, him chewing his ear off like that - even though the two of you had literally caught him out on a date, if he feels like Ellie is moving on with his best friend, he’s bound to feel some sort of way about it. “If they were together when he came home from that date, maybe he saw them,”
“They were hardly getting it on with the door wide open, Luke, they were playing cards.” You scoff, “Plus, he has no right to be upset, he was literally on a date he told nobody about.”
“He gets in his head about stuff like this,” Luke reasons as he slows the boat, bringing it to a stop in the middle of the water so he can focus, “Talks himself in circles until it makes him so dizzy he does something stupid.”
“You think that’s what he’s doing?”
“I don’t know, I don’t like assuming the worst of my brother, though.”
“Alright, let’s say Jack is only being a dick because he thinks Ellie and Cole are hitting it off,” you stand up now that the boat is steady, kicking your slides off and ambling over to the benches at the back, out from under the cover of the roof. “What are we supposed to do about it, we can hardly keep them apart, keeping track of Jack and Ellie is hard enough without throwing Caufield into the mix. He's sneaky.”
“We’d only technically have to follow Ellie, still,” Luke says as he follows you to the back of the boat, thankful your back is to him when you start to push your skirt down your legs, and you can’t see the way his eyes go three times their usual size, he’s almost anticipating a swat to his chest for when you turn and notice. “They can still hang out, just not one-on-one, one of us could keep an eye on them, take it in turns.”
“That sounds an awful lot like hard work, Hughes,” you huff, taking a seat on the leather bench and stretching your legs out before lounging back, “Can’t your brother just grow a backbone and ask her out? It would save us both a lot of hassle.”
“I’m working on it,” he throws himself onto the bench opposite yours, thinking of all the times he’s tried to cut the conversation with his brother short by just telling him to grow a pair. “I guess you’re right, we can’t stop them being friends, it would be hypocritical.”
“Hypocritical?”
“Yeah, ‘cause we’re friends.”
“You think we’re friends?”
“You don’t?”
“We watch one movie together and now all of a sudden you think we’re besties?”
“I think we’re friends ‘cause you like my company, you wouldn’t have asked me to bring you out here if you didn’t like being around me.”
“That’s ‘cause you’re deluded.” You smile, pushing your sunglasses down from the top of your head to the bridge of your nose and relaxing back. “I like tanning and being on the water. You’re a glorified chauffeur at this point. Not a good one, either.”
“I got us out here no problems, didn’t I?”
“I had to hold on the whole way, you were throwing me around like a loose can in the trunk of your car.”
“Yeah, well the water was choppy,”
“A good workman never blames his tools, Hughes.” You smile over at him, and the innuendo makes his cheeks go hot. Definitely regretting bringing you out on the water with no escape about now.
“Did you really ask me to bring you out here just to lay out in the sun?” He leans forward with his elbows on his knees, watching as you angle your neck to face him. 
“Is that a problem?”
“It is if you’re gonna be a grouch about me being here.”
“I thought you’d be all quiet and brooding like you usually are.”
“Me?” He laughs, “Quiet and brooding?” He doesn’t think anyone has ever used the word quiet to describe him in his life. He knows you can’t be serious - all you’ve done for weeks is blast him for getting on your nerves.
“I’ve literally seen you talk once before this summer.”
What the hell do you mean by that? You barely knew who he was that day he approached you in the club. 
“That’s ‘cause you’d have to notice me to see me talk.”
“You’ve never talked to me.”
He did talk to you. Several times, in fact. That day outside your dorm with Ellie’s gift basket, a couple times in class - but they’re all insignificant, minor exchanges of words he would quite like to forget, if he’s honest. Mumbling and stuttering and, quite frankly, embarrassing, to say the least. A far cry from the confident man he’d like to think he has become. “Why would I talk to you?”
“That’s rude,” you pout, and he straightens up immediately.
“No, I just mean, like,” he waves his arms out in between the two of you, gesturing over and shaking his head. “You’re you. We were never really on the same level for me to be talking to you.”
You bring your glasses back onto the top of your head, pushing your hair out of your face and squinting against the sun to level him with a glare. “Aren’t you a big time athlete?”
“I am now. You wouldn’t have given me the time of day back then.”
“You never gave me a chance to.”
“You could have approached me.” He thinks you’re just biting back for argument’s sake, if he’s honest - there isn’t a chance in hell you ever spared a thought for talking to him or giving him the time of day. You barely even looked his way - and he definitely would have noticed. 
“So could you.” You frown. 
“I tried once.” He distinctly remembers the one time he did approach you, away from class and apart from the first time he met you, dialled up with liquid courage and driven by the way you were dressed as a sexy Patrick Bateman, and he finally felt like having the right conversation starter around his love for American Psycho might have helped him kick something off with you, or at least got you to acknowledge his existence. He would have even taken you calling him Lu again. “At a Halloween party in Freshman year. You blew me off. I barely got a word out before you were storming off.”
“When you were dressed as Scooby Doo?”
His lips part and close repeatedly like a fish bobbing it’s mouth, blinking slowly at you as he realised just what you even having that memory meant. “That’s a weird thing to remember for someone not interested.”
“A giant dork in a dog costume is a pretty hard thing to forget.” You grin satirically, “I never said I wasn’t interested, you just caught me at a bad time and never tried again,”
“You wanted me to try again?”
“I want you to be quiet. Aren’t you due a nap or something?”
“You can’t seriously tell me you asked me to bring you all the way out here just to lie out in the sun and do nothing,” he groans, watching you return back to your previous position, body bathing in the sunlight and sunglasses pushed back down onto your nose. 
“What, did you think we were gonna play mermaids?” He can’t see the roll of your eyes anymore, but he knows when it happens by now, just from your tone of voice. 
“You can do that back at the house, we have loungers out by the pool,”
“It’s not as peaceful as this.” You sigh, “Plus, the trees around the back block the sun this time of day. I’m getting pale cooped up in the club all week, I have catching up to do.”
“What am I supposed to do?”
“Lay back and relax,” you advise, nodding toward the bench he’s perched on the edge of, reaching your hand down into your tote and blindly tossing the bottle of sunscreen in his general direction, “You could use some sun, too. And if you’re a good boy, I’ll let you do my back later.”
Luke, surprisingly, folds - doing as he’s told and lounging back into the leather, and he begrudgingly thinks a little too much about how right you are. This is peaceful. The soft whoosh of water against the boat, clear blue skies, no yelling or arguing or people competing around him. Just you, and the sunshine, and the smell of melon-scented sun lotion seeping into his skin.
It isn’t long before he drifts off, his head resting on his folded arm, the heat of the sun warming him like a blanket, and the last thing he sees before his eyes close is your head turned his way, lips parted slightly as you sleep, yourself, skin glistening and your chest rising and falling in deep, steady breaths. 
When his eyes open again, you’re sat up, holding your hair up with one hand and fanning yourself with the other.
“What’s wrong?” He asks, voice thick with sleep as he sits up, his skin peeling uncomfortably off the leather. 
“I’m hot.” You whine, turning to him with a pout.
He scoffs, resisting the urge to say something corny like, I know you are, before he points out over the side of the boat. “If you look to your right, there’s a large body of water you can cool down in.”
“I’m not getting in there!”
“Why not?”
“Lake monsters, for one,” you scoff, releasing your hair and he watches it fan out over your shoulders in soft waves.
“They’re only native to Scotland, I heard.” Luke stands, looking over the side and into the steady waters to gauge how safe it would be to go in without a vest. The water is still, he’s never had any problems in this part of the lake, and he’s confident the two of you could at least take a dip without there being any concerns - you were a lifeguard, after all, and he’s always been a strong swimmer. 
“Aren’t there fish in here?” You ask, beside him now as you peer over the edge yourself. 
“There’s actually a cool hack to check, do you want me to show you?”
You eye him sceptically but nod, anyway, and he holds his hand out to help you walk to the back of the boat, stepping down onto the stern where it’s easier to reach into the water. 
You’re careful not to let him fall behind you, clearly cautious of the fact that he could push you in. Instead, he stands beside you, squats to reach down over the edge and run his fingers through the ripples that form. He stands back to full height and you squint to look up at him, the sun blaring from over his shoulder and reflecting off his sweat-slicked skin. 
It makes your eyes sparkle again, and it’s almost enough to make him change his mind from what he’s about to do - only, before your powers of hypnosis can work on him for the second time in a matter of hours, he quickly grasps onto your hips and launches the two of you into the water. 
He has the same misguided confidence he had when he squirted you with that hose - a burst of energy that he immediately succumbed to before he could think rationally about it, and it’s the same energy that forces deep and hearty laughter to rumble from his chest as you squeal on your way into the lake. 
The two of you land with a big splash, and emerge simultaneously, you running your hands through your wet hair to push it back out of your face.
“What the hell did you do that for?”
“You said you were hot, I was trying to help!”
“You are so dead!” You exclaim, splashing him with a swat of your hand against the water.
“Oh, look, a fish!”
“Ew, no!” You yell, squirming forward to try and dodge it, unintentionally leaping right into Luke, the heat of his firm chest under your flattened palm, an arm curling over his shoulder to steady yourself. 
His arms curl around your body by instinct, wrapping around your waist and holding you against him until you realise his trick, and your hands press on the top of his head until you’re pushing him under the surface with a yell of, “So dead!”
Laughter ripples out of him, from the pits of his stomach to the parting of his lips, and comes out in bubbles against your skin as you hold him down, your body thrashing to get away from his until you break free from his hold, and he rises back from under the water.
“Get back here, you’re not getting away with that!” He calls after you, launching himself forward to catch you.
“No,” you squeal, trying to gain momentum as you leap away, only for his arm to curl around your waist, pulling your squirming body back against him with a splash. “Let me go, you brute!”
“Tell me you’re having fun or you’re getting dunked,” he commands, lips beside your ear as your back is held flush to his chest, your skin still warm from the sun and smooth against his. 
“You dunk me and I’ll leave your ass to the lake monsters,” you warn him, still squirming in his hold.
“Like you could drive the boat, you need me,” your body seems to still the lower his tone gets, succumbing to his hypnotising powers, and he can feel you square your shoulders against him. 
“Yeah right,” even Luke can tell how much your denial is forced from the shiver down your spine, “Jack can do it, how hard could it be?”
“You’d really hijack the boat just to avoid admitting you like my company?” He asks as he lets you go, and you turn immediately in the water to face him. He tilts his head when your gazes meet across the water, and your eyes flicker between his as if trying to read him like a book.
“Today’s been nice,” you admit, with a dramatic roll of your eyes, “Last night, too. Not specific to your company. Just being away from everybody else."
“So that’s the key?” He dares to swim a little closer, just enough that you won’t notice him reducing the proximity between the two of you. “You wanna get me on my own?”
“You-,”
“Wish,” he finishes, your eyes meeting in a steady gaze despite the bobbing of your heads to stay afloat. He’d like to think it’s more than the water that has brought you back this close to him, legs kicking beneath the surface, his hands itching to hold back on your waist to help, “Yeah, I do.”
If he has managed to stay more or less in place while treading water, then it can’t be the current drifting you toward him, and you’re so close now that he could hold you, if his brain could just link to his hands to give them the courage to do so. 
You like being alone with him - you’ve pretty much just admitted so - feel comfortable enough that you change your plans to fit him into them - just like you had last night - you wanted him to talk to you in college, you noticed him, even, enough to remember the fact that he never did. 
There has to be some base level of interest there for you to be this close, in the first place. To move into his house, to agree to spend your summer in his company, to spending more time with him than he’s noticed you spending with your supposed best friend. 
And just as he convinces himself of it, and his thoughts link to the movement of his hands underwater, inching closer to grip at your hips and pull you all the way toward him, a shrill ringing carries all the way from the boat to Luke’s ears, turning both of your attention back to the vehicle.
“Shit, that’s Jack’s ringtone.” He groans, “They’re probably back by now.”
The two of you swim back toward the boat, and he pulls himself up onto the stern before lending you a hand to get up, yourself. 
There are a bunch of texts from his brother.
Where are you at?
Did the demon get you in your sleep?
Where’s the boat?
Please tell me you’re dumping her body and she’s not dumping yours.
You’re dead either way when you get back!
“Shit, we better get back,” he grumbles, rushing to the front of the boat to get it started again. Before you sit beside him, he feels the draping of a towel across his shoulders, and his heart thuds at the small smile you give him when his eyes meet yours.
“Sorry if I got you in trouble.”
“It’s fine,” he shrugs, nonchalant despite the rampant beating in his chest, and the thought of his brother chewing his ear off when the two of you get back. “You’re worth the headache.”
He winks, teasingly, and his eyes go back to the water before he gets the chance to see your cheeks flush. You’d probably just blame it on sunburn, anyway.
You don’t speak much on the drive back, but Luke can feel your eyes on him, can practically hear your mind whirring with a million thoughts - only because his is doing the same. 
Why does he has to have a brother with the world’s worst timing?
He would have kissed you.
At least, he thinks he would have.
His hands were reaching out. He would have pulled you in by the hips, held you against him, raised so that your faces were finally level, and he would have made a move. He can feel it in his bones, still thrumming with almost-arrogance. A knowing, sure feeling that he can’t shake - one that tells him you would have kissed him back.
But he’ll never know, now.
When the two of you get back, Jack is waiting on the dock, and you gather your things before Luke helps you off the boat. He ushers you past his brother, knowing you’d be down to argue all afternoon, if necessary, but he can take this one on his own. He doesn’t want you hearing the sort of venom he knows his brother can spew out when he’s mad like this.
You brush past Jack on the edge of the dock, who thankfully waits until you’re back at the gate and out of earshot to start on Luke.
“What the hell are you doing? Have you lost your mind?”
“What, I’m not allowed to have fun when you’re not here?” Luke scoffs, rolling his eyes at his brother’s theatrics.
So he took the boat out, it’s really not that deep, he thinks. He’s an adult, he has his license, there really shouldn’t be a problem.
“I know you’ve seen Jennifer’s Body, you shouldn’t be out on the lake on your own with her,”
“Implying she’s a demonic serial killer might be a little over-dramatic, even for you,” Luke huffs as he starts to make his own way back.
 “Trust me, it’s not.” Jack stops him with a hand gripping at his elbow. “Whatever trick she’s pulling on you, Luke, you need to wise up,”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“She isn’t interested,” Jack tells him, “She’s using you to pass the time until someone better falls into her lap, and you’re falling straight for it. Letting her convince you to stay behind and miss hanging with the rest of us, taking the boat out on your own, don’t you think it’s weird how she never had any interest in talking to you before it started benefitting her? Before you made it to the big leagues?”
Luke narrows his eyes at his brother, shoulders slumping as the words seem to weigh on them, like a heavy towel draped across to dry him and rub away all the affections you had blessed him with over the past 24 hours.
But it isn’t Jack’s words that are ringing around his head, this time. It’s yours. 
You never talked to me.
You never gave me a chance.
You never tried again.
Maybe you did have some level of interest before. Maybe his intuitions earlier had been right. Maybe it’s still there. 
“It’s none of your business, Jack,” he grumbles, not allowing him a second to rain on this parade. “You don’t even know her.”
“Don’t come crying to me when she breaks your heart, then.”
“Trust me, I won’t.”
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If you’re thankful for any rule at the house, it’s the rule for knocking before you come into any bedroom. Quinn knocks most mornings to let you know breakfast is being prepared, or before he goes on a store run to ask if there’s anything you or Ellie need. Jack knocks for Ellie, and now Cole does too.
You can always tell when it’s Luke though.
Repeated and incessant, a constant rapping of knuckles against the wood until you answer, instead of any sort of pattern or rhythm.
“Can I come in?” He asks as soon as you open.
“No.” You tell him every time, but to no avail. 
“Thanks,” He swerves into the space beside you, careful not to shove past as he makes his way into the bedroom. “We have a problem.”
“Yeah, they’re called boundaries, Hughes.” You scoff, slamming the door and following him. “You can’t just waltz in here like you own the place.”
“I do.” He frowns, “Own the place. This is my house."
“Your brothers own it, actually.”
“What are you, Michigan Census Bureau?” You mimic the words back to him, your face scrunched tight and your voice as whiney and annoying as it can go, and he pushes his hand in your face, just light enough to cover it and not actually smack you because he doesn’t have a death wish. “The problem. You have to focus,” he clicks his fingers in front of you, and you swat his hand away with a frown.
“Click at me like a dog again and I’ll bite your fingers off.” The look on your face is one he should probably fear, but there’s a nagging instinct he can’t fight to keep pushing your buttons. He doesn’t know where it comes from, but it feels wrong to ignore.
“Is that supposed to turn me on?”
“The problem, Luke, get on with it.”
“Right.” He sighs, throwing himself down on the bed, “I can’t find Cole and Ellie anywhere. I think he took her out.”
“What?” You reach forward and push at his shoulder, “You had one job, Hughes!”
It had been his turn to take watch, as the two of you had agreed the other day out on the water, but it was really starting to get tiring, having to play third wheel to a situation he really didn’t understand, and he needed a recess. Five minutes just to recuperate, he didn’t expect them to make a break for it so quick. 
“I left to make a sandwich! I’m allowed to eat, you can’t expect me to starve it goes against my rights!”
“You’re such an idiot,” You scoff as you rush toward the closet to find something to wear, your plans of a self-care day now flushed down the toilet thanks to Luke’s insatiable appetite. “You couldn’t watch them for an hour without succumbing to malnutrition?”
“Why can’t you be on watch for once?”
“I was doing my nails,” You retort, wiggling your freshly painted fingernails in his face, crimson red to match your toes, and the colour Luke feels his cheeks turning at the sight of them. “Because thanks to someone the gel started lifting after spending my entire afternoon the other day with my hands in a soapy bucket.”
“You’re the one who took the detour to beat Jack home and got my car all dirty.”
“Whatever, turn around.” You’re already lifting your tank over your head before Luke gets the chance to comply, his mouth falling agape before he can control it at the sight of you stood in just your bra and pyjama shorts in front of him. The instruction only registers when your tank top hits him in the face, dropping into his lap so he can look up at your scowl and swivel in his place on the bed. “They’re probably at the mall, she was saying she wanted to go to the art supply store there.”
“So what, we’re gonna just bump into them? Won’t they think it’s weird we’re showing up there after we both said we were staying in today?” He tries not to look into the corner of the room, where he knows the mirror placed there will show him the reflection of you changing - although what’s the use in hiding anything, now? He’s already seen it.
He’s also seen you in your many different bikinis over the past few of weeks. Has been up close and personal, even, holding your body against his out in the lake. 
But your bathing suits aren’t slightly sheer and frilly around the edges, and don’t push up on anything - not that they really need to.
But thinking about that isn’t gonna do him any favours. 
Old men playing chess, animals in the shelter, getting slammed into the boards at high speeds - thinking of those should get his mind back on track.
“Nope, we’re gonna follow them.”
“I thought you said that spying on people is childish.”
“It is when you’re talking about lurking in bushes and hiding behind menus, Luke.”
When he sees you come around the front of the bed to grab your sneakers, he decides on his own terms he can turn back around, careful not to let his eyes linger too long on the expanse of your legs beneath the skirt you’ve now changed into. 
If it wasn’t for the other afternoon spent working together to wash his car, or the evening spent watching movies, sharing a bottle of wine and indulging in those sticky face masks or the way you had quite literally drifted into his arms in the lake the other day, he would probably feel like a creeper for the way his one track mind has persisted. But, despite your efforts to convince him otherwise, he isn’t deluded. 
There’s something brewing between the two of you. 
It’s in the twitch of your lips that now follows every time you roll your eyes, and the magnetised force in which your eyes track him whenever he enters the room, where you had been entirely indifferent before - you’re warming up to him, he can sense it.
“So what’s the plan?”
“I wanna see what it is they keep running off together for,” you shrug as you braid your hair into pigtails in the mirror, your gaze flickering back to him, “Every time we interrupt them, they just keep sneaking back off again. Maybe if we find out what it is they’re doing, we’ll be better at keeping them away from doing it.”
“And how are we supposed to stay hidden?”
“Easy, we have to wear something we usually wouldn’t be caught dead in.”
“I’ve seen you in that exact outfit like twelve times.” He gestures with a lazy hand to the outfit you have on - white t-shirt, navy skirt, socks that go just above your ankles and the same pair of sneakers he must have seen you in every day the last year you were both in college together. 
Not that he was paying that close attention.
“I know. Can I borrow that quarter zip you wore the other day? You know, the one that’s the colour of baby poop? Super hideous, really gross-,”
“Har har, real funny,” he whips the tank top he’s still, for whatever reason, clutching in his hands at you before throwing it onto the bed, and storming toward the door, calling out a, “Let’s go,” over his shoulder and not bothering to check if you’re coming when he starts to make his way downstairs - the echo of your giggling laughter following him down the hallway tells him as much.
“Are you sure she said the art supply store?”
Luke’s neck is starting to hurt from craning it above the shelves in search of Ellie’s curls, this being the second art store the two of you have checked. Somehow he’s the one looking out while you peruse the shop, now cooing at a section of crotchet animal kits and pointing them out until he mutters out some half-hearted cute, or nice.
“There aren’t many things I could have confused it for, Luke, unless you know of anything that rhymes with art supplies?” You pick up one of the kits, turning it to assess the difficulty by the pictures on the back before putting it back on the shelf.
“Maybe she said she had parts to buy?”
“Alright, smartass,” You scoff, shouldering past him to make your way toward the exit, clearly having no luck in finding them here. She definitely wouldn’t have parts to buy for anything, she’s hardly Fix-It Felix. “You can buy me lunch and we’ll see if she’s put anything on her story yet.”
“I’m starting to think they’re not even at the mall and you’ve lured me out of the house under false pretences for free food.” The diffidence he’s giving is entirely forced as he drags his feet behind you, following you out of the store. “If you wanted me to take you on a date, you could have just asked. It was probably the stop for a smoothie that had us missing them in the first place.”
You gasp, and before he has the opportunity to retort with something just as annoying, you grab his hand and tug him with you behind one of the giant plants that are beside the coffee stand, keeping a hold of him as you poke your head around the corner.
“There they are,” you whisper back, your fingers still clutching at his as he crowds into the same space to make sure he too is hidden behind the sprawling leaves.
“Oh so hiding behind bushes is alright if it’s your idea?”
“Shh,” you frown, your hand releasing his and pressing over his mouth, “They’ll hear you, Loud Mouth,” and his eyes follow the pointed finger on your other hand to where Ellie and Cole are walking together toward the store you and Luke just left - side by side, sodas in hand, smiling and laughing and nudging at each other. 
In better circumstances, he’d be thinking about how he’s pressed to your back, bending to accommodate for the height difference, your head tilted to make room for his to lean in for a better look, and your hand still resting on his face, not really covering his mouth but more caressing his jaw in an absentminded fashion as you watch the two of them. 
But all he can think about, disturbingly enough, is his brother - and how hurt he’d be to see what’s happening between his supposed best friends. 
“We’re following them, right?” He asks lowly, his face not too far from yours, and when you turn your head to the side to look at him, he feels like your gaze is softer than usual when it takes in how hardened and dark his is.
“Definitely,” you agree, stepping away from him and turning to face him properly. “If you saw me out of the corner of your eye, you wouldn’t know it was me, right?”
Wrong, Luke thinks, but that’s only because he’d be able to pick you out of a line up in a pitch black room by now - blind folded, spun around a few times for good measure and facing the wrong way.
When he had found a Mets jersey on the rack in the Goodwill you had dragged him to in search of a disguise, and your words from earlier about not being caught dead in something had rang in his head, he had thought it was perfect. And then you had waltzed over with the same jersey, and your eyes had lit up.
“We can’t wear the same thing,” he frowned, unable to hold the weight of the expression for too long when he saw just how excited you were getting. “That’s hardly blending in."
“No, it’s perfect!” You exclaimed, “Ellie would never expect me to match anyone!”
He had thought the shirts were too much before you threw in the identical orange baseball caps you had found, and at that point he was cursing whatever scorned woman it was that dumped all her ex’s shit into the thrift store.
The two of you look cute in your matching gear, he can’t deny that, he just wishes you could have found something that made him feel a little less dirty, maybe Wolverine blue and yellow, if you were gonna dress up as a couple.
Luke doesn’t like how you still make his throat dry in Mets gear.
He reaches out to adjust the cap on your head, pulling the bill down to cast more of a shadow over your face, and combining that with the way your braids, the ones you said you’d never usually wear but seem to suit you anyway, come out the bottom of either side of the cap, he figures anyone else would have a hard time immediately placing you. “Probably not,” he shrugs, making sure to keep an eye on the apparent lovebirds still hovering in the entrance of the art store. 
“Great.” You smile victoriously, “Put your arm around me.”
“You’re kidding, right?”
“Do I look like I’m kidding?” You scoff, “I’m hardly asking you to ravage me outside the Pretzel Peddler, Hughes, make haste,” you shoo him forward, taking control of the situation and forcing yourself under his arm as the two of you stumble back toward the art store. 
Remaining incognito isn’t entirely hard when the two of you are moving as one, you stuffed under his arm and him able to hide his face in the top of your head if he thinks either Cole or Ellie are likely to see you.
Following them is easy, able to maintain a short enough distance that you can both eavesdrop on their minimal conversation, and there isn’t really a problem until they break apart. 
Ellie goes toward the back of the store, Cole towards the front, and you whisper to Luke that it might be best for you to break apart, too - if you both follow one of them, the other is more likely to catch you - and so you drift after Cole, and he drifts after Ellie, and while the two of you can still see each other, there are a lot of unidentifiable hand gestures in place of where you can no longer talk. That is, until Cole heads further down the other end of the store, and you slip completely out of view.
It’s less fun, spying this way, watching as Ellie browses the shelves, looking over all the sketchbooks until she finds the right one - as if he hasn’t seen a stack of around 5 of them in their room back at the house - swerving so fast on her feet that Luke stumbles on his own to get away, rushing around the bend before she can see him. 
When he rounds the corner of the aisle and sees you heading straight for him, eyes wide and step rushed, he rushes, too, tripping forward until the two of you collide, your stance thankfully much sturdier than his. You grab him by his shirt to make sure he’s steady on his feet before you pull him with you as you fall against the shelf behind you, standing on your tip toes and tugging him down to meet your lips with a surprised grunt.
What the fuck?
Your hands move up to cup at either side of his face, holding him in place as you angle to slot the bill of your cap to the side of his so they don’t bump and fall off, and he loses himself in the warmth of your kiss before he even realises that he’s halfway gone. Your hands cover both of your profiles, and Luke thinks that if you are caught, there’s no way for them to identify the two of you unless Ellie has the orange-red colour and long, supposedly almond - or so you had told him - shape of your nails memorised. Because who would pay such close attention to something like that?
A hand falls to your hip, another to your waist, and he’s teasing your back into an arch with his touch, only distantly hearing surprised exclamations of oh fuck, and sorry, from either side of the aisle.
He pays no mind to the sound of rushed, retreating footsteps, trying to press his tongue between your lips for a further taste of very berry smoothie and sugary balm that he can feel the stickiness of, that he wants his lips to be coated in forever.
He savours the seconds after, where you drag out the show just to make sure Ellie and Cole have actually disappeared, and he pushes his luck one more time, deepening the kiss until you pull away, your hands on his chest shoving purposefully. 
“What was that for?” He asks, breathless and dazed as he takes in your appearance, lips swollen and wet by his doing, pupils dilated.
“PDA makes people uncomfortable, right?” you shrug, like it’s the most obvious explanation for the way you just kissed the life out of him. Like there was nothing else you possibly could have done to get out of that predicament. And his heart thumps as he remembers that those are his words, uttered in a tease way back in the restaurant at the club. “They were hardly gonna stick around and watch, I don’t have Caufield down as a voyeur.”
Luke watches as your eyes drop briefly to his lips, and he swears he sees the flicker of a smile twitch at the corners of your mouth. His fingers come up by instinct, pressing tentatively at the sticky residue that coats the outline of them.
“You tell anyone I did that and I’ll gut you like a fish, Hughes.”
He nods, still in a daze, if he’s honest, and stays in place while you nudge past him to follow in the direction where Ellie and Cole disappeared. 
When he does finally come to, shaking his head to pull himself out of the way his brain is trying to relive the last few minutes, he follows, too - maybe less discreet in his movements, this time, in the hopes that another close call might just gain him another kiss, too.
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You’d like to think you have good intuition when it comes to others and their actions. You can see straight through people, a shift in their expression, a twitch in their smile, a glint in their eye - it makes you protective of the people you surround yourself with, keeping only a close-knit group of friends, and keeping everyone else at arms length. 
Friends who you know when they’re upset, or down, need someone around, or need space. It’s how you know Luke has been avoiding you all week, and how you know even more just to leave him to it. 
Not that you’re friends.
It started with long days at the rink - not that you lament his training, but you know he hadn’t been that deep into his regimen so far this summer. Quinn had been the one to drop you off at the club that last couple of days, and Luke hadn’t joined the group when they had played a round of golf and stopped by the bar for some refreshments after.
You’ve seen him around the house still, usually shooting off to God-knows-where, eyes locking in the hall as he passes you like a ship in the night, until he shifts his gaze with an awkward smile.
If he wants to be childish about one stupid, meaningless kiss, you have no choice but to let him.
You’d hardly forced yourself on him. He could have pushed you off if he didn’t want it. Instead, he’d pulled you even closer, even tried to slip you some tongue! And it had kind of been his suggestion in the first place.
You wouldn’t be so bothered about it if you had something to do with Ellie gone for the next week - her little sister’s birthday taking precedent over your summer plans, and the family taking a trip out of state. You can’t even go out, trapped inside due to the unforeseen storm - and you hate thunder, it reminds you too much of all those tumultuous nights locked in your room, listening to your parents fighting, the wind and rain doing little to drown it all out.
But all you have is the house, and with the house comes the movies - the ones he had promised to watch with you.
You had both written down your top ten, yours in his notes, and his in yours, and the damn page has been haunting you every time you unlock your phone. And that’s how you’ve given in so easily. It has nothing to do with the fact you miss him - it’s just pure boredom and curiosity that has you watching Happy Gilmore on your own on a Friday night.
You don’t miss him.
That would be ridiculous.
Luke Hughes is annoying. 
His taste of movies is annoying.
The fact that won’t talk to you is annoying.
“Hey, I thought we were gonna watch this together.”
Or not.
Luke leans against the doorway, possessing the kind of casual indifference that only a man could, frowning and pouting as if he’s not the sole reason you’re cooped up on your own watching a damn movie about golf of all things.
“Thought you were avoiding me,” you bite back, arms crossed over your chest and brows furrowed in frustration. 
“Why would I be avoiding you?” He asks as he steps into the room and closes the door behind him, your eyes darting straight to long, slender fingers wrapped around the handle. 
“Because you kissed me, and then all of a sudden started acting like I don’t exist to you.” You accuse with a pointed glare, figuring one of you has to have the guts to talk about it. 
“Actually, you kissed me,” he smirks, perching himself on the edge of your bed, “And then told me in graphic detail you’d pretty much murder me if I ever spoke about it again, so I,” he frowns, “Didn’t.”
You can’t help but scowl at how stupid that sounds. He can’t seriously think you would murder him. If you were the murdering type in the first place, you’d have done it long ago. You even tell him as much.
“I don’t know, you had this scary look in your eye, kind of didn��t want to test that theory,” he shrugs, reaching in the pocket of his hoodie and throwing a bag over to you. 
M&Ms. Your favourite.
“You gonna scoot over?” He asks, raising a brow and widening his eyes as if he’s pleading, as if you’ve been the one giving him the cold shoulder.
You roll your eyes and shuffle across the bed, making room for him beside you that he occupies way too quick, legs stretching out in front of him, all the way down the bed, as he gets comfortable.
You try to focus on the movie, as if you have any clue what’s been happening so far, anyway, but you can see him out of the corner of your eye, an arm tucked behind his head, his chest stretched out, and his jaw tensing as he chews on the candy he’s already stealing from you.
He’s had a haircut. Shorter on the sides, and it makes his face look a little more defined. Still curly - maybe even curlier - and softer than before, in a way that you’d want to run your hands through it, if you were a crazy person, of course.
And he smells good, too.
You’re starting to think this has been his plan all along - for distance to make your wretched heart grow fonder, or whatever - and you find yourself tensing your own jaw as you grind your teeth and try to tune back into whatever Adam Sandler is yapping about. 
“I sort of was avoiding you,” he admits, and you can still see him out of the corner of your eye, looking down at you, now, although you don’t look back.
“I know.”
“I’m sorry,” he apologises, shifting a little to face you more, “I thought you might have felt weird about kissing me.”
“I didn’t.” 
“Okay then.”
“Alright.”
“We can talk about it, if you want?” He suggests, and that’s finally when you look at him, with his lips twisted nervously and his brow raised, anticipating your response. 
What’s there to even talk about? You kissed him as a distraction. He knows that. You know that. 
“I’m good.” You tell him, a short, forced smile to ease the tension before he smiles back.
“I know something we can talk about,” he leans in, “Considering how little you care about this movie.”
“Yeah, what’s that?”
“How you had a big fat crush on me in college,” he smirks, eyes darting between yours, the flash from the tv screen highlighting all the different hues of blues and greens in his irises.
He’s not gonna catch you out, though.
“You’re delusional.” You tell him, your own eyes narrowing, almost like a defence mechanism. He seems to be quite good at reading you, and you’re not letting him in that easy.
“So you keep saying,” he pouts, pensively, “But then it’s you never talked to me, Luke, and I remember small random details about you, Luke!”
“I don’t sound like that,” you frown, taking slight offence to the squeaky voice he puts on, more than likely to distract you from the closing distance. He speaks again before you can realise you really should be putting more effort into denying such ridiculous accusations, before he completely slanders your good name. 
“You’ve been avoiding me all week and I missed you, Luke-,”
You don’t know why your mouth is all of a sudden on his, but if you take a second to think about it, you’ll spiral out. His lips are soft, and your noses slot perfectly beside each other - no painful bumps or clumsy collisions. Just a plain, normal kiss between two people who tolerate each other. That’s all.
When you part, his eyes drift open softly, his lashes - infuriatingly long as they are - flutter open, and his irises glaze over as if he’s under a spell. 
“That was-,”
“To shut you up,” you mutter, rolling your own eyes and forcing a scowl. “You were starting to give me a headache.”
He nods, that dumb look still in his eyes, and you feel your jaw clenching almost achingly at how it makes you feel.
“And I care very deeply about Gilmore’s happiness, so if you could cut it out with your yapping, I’d really appreciate it.”
“His name is Happy-,”
“I didn’t ask.”
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When Luke is on the ice, most of the noise around him usually tunes itself out. Aside from the scrape of his skates, and the thudding of his heart, he can usually dial out the crowd, the chanting, the booing, the chirping, whatever it may be - all distractions to the end goal.
The one noise he never can ignore, though, is that of the goal horn, blearing throughout the arena, bouncing off of every corner until it hits him like a freight train, and he thinks they ring a little louder when it’s him that scores.
And with that horn, he can fine tune himself back into his surroundings. To shouts and cheers and applause, a sea of red and white jerseys jumping up, the Devils logo brandished across their chests, and his work being praised by the masses.
He somehow has the power to zero in on you, too. Arms raised, up a little in the stands, not too far that you’re just a speck, but not too close that you’d be a distraction.
A wide smile on your face, adoration in your eyes, and 43 on your arm. 
“Luke!” Your lips read, drowned out by the crowd, but he can still make it out, calling out to him like you’re the only other person in the room. “C’mon, Luke!” 
He smiles, as big as he ever has before, and points straight at you, dropping a wink like you could possibly catch it from out in the stands, and taking a bow.
“Hughes, you big lump, wake up!”
He groans as he’s shaken from his sleep, soft hands gripping at his arms and jolting him awake.
“What?” He doesn’t open his eyes, not yet, but he thinks it’s the weight of his furrowed eyebrows keeping them closed. 
“I need a favour,” you whisper.
“No.”
“You don’t even know what it is.”
“It’s 2am. I don’t do favours before 9.”
“C’mon, please?” He opens one eye to your pleading face, and then another, when he catches the teary reflection of the moonlight in your eyes.
“What is it?” He straightens up, rubbing the sleep from his eyelids and straining to make the rest of you out in the dark. 
“I need you to look at the window in my room, it’s whistling.”
“It’s just the storm, it gets like that when it’s windy,” he sighs, sinking back down a little into his pillows. He had thought you were in danger, or something.
“Can’t you fix it?” You plead, soft fingers still squeezing a little at his bicep, and his chest starts to feel heavy just from the tone of your voice - but it’s 2am. You had him up until midnight watching Wall-E, and he has a morning skate with his dad at 6am. 
“Do I look like a handyman?” He huffs, also a little aggrieved at the fact you had disrupted his rather nice dream. “Just go to sleep and ignore it.”
“I can’t.” You whine, “I can’t sleep if there’s a storm, they freak me out. And I can’t ignore it when it’s literally screaming at me through a broken window. And I’m on my own in there, it’s scary.”
Luke presses his palm firm into the socket of his closed eyes, trying to rub away the exhaustion that is urging every fibre of his being to fall straight back asleep. 
He can’t fix the window. It’s been like that for as long as him and his brothers have lived here - always the dud room left to whoever rocks up last to the house - and even if he could, he’s comfortable, and warm, and if his bare feet touch the cold, hardwood floor, he won’t be able to get himself to drift back off. 
He sighs, shuffling beneath the sheets before grasping them and flipping them over, making room beside him and muttering a grumpy, demanding, “Get in.”
“Luke,” you whine, and he can see your pout even through his closed eyes - lips plump and plush and if he gets even a glimpse he’s going to start thinking about kissing them, again. “You’re really not gonna help me?”
“I don’t offer my super comfy bed up to just anybody,” he reasons, making a little more room, “C’mon, you can barely hear the rain in here, it’s this or the couch downstairs.”
“Can’t you take the couch and I take your comfy bed?”
Luke opens one eye to look at you, eyes glimmering nervously in the crack of moonlight that sneaks through the curtains, lip tugged between your teeth, and relents, immediately. “Do you want me to take the couch?”
He could probably go sleep in your bed, if you’re really that bothered. He doesn’t do too well with noises while he sleeps, but he will if he has to - if that’s what makes you feel better. But you had just said it was scary being alone, and he’s counting on that to make a case for himself to keep his super comfy bed in his whistle-less bedroom.
“No,” you grumble, shoving at his arm, “Move over a little more.”
He relents, making as much room as he can for you to crawl into his bed before he flips the sheets back over on top of you, waiting for you to get comfortable before he melts back into place.
His legs extending into yours is purely accidental, but he doesn’t move them when you don’t flinch away, taking a second to adjust his positioning until he realises something. 
“You’re not wearing pants.”
“Neither are you.” You mumble back straight away, turning to face him, the bare skin of your calves brushing his as you move.
“It’s my bed,” he shrugs, his body on its side and his arm beneath his pillow, the space cramped now that you’re both squeezed in, and he’s trying to give you room, but he swears you have space on the other side. “I don’t wear pants to bed.”
“I don’t either.” 
“What if there’s a fire?”
“I think I’d rather succumb to the flames than let your brothers see me in my panties.”
He just hums, sleepily, trying not to overthink how you wouldn’t mind him seeing you in them. He closes his eyes and tries to ignore the press of your skin to his. 
“Do you want me to go put pants on, Luke, would that make you happy?”
“Don’t ask such a ridiculous question.” He huffs, sinking into his pillows and getting himself back into the right position to drop back off into a deep slumber. “Go to sleep.”
The soft patter of rain against the window lulls him, and he slowly feels you relax beside him, a few minutes of silence settling between the two of you - comforting and still - before you break it. 
“Luke?” You whisper, this time barely audible, like you don’t even want to be heard - and it’s that thought that has him ignoring you, sleep clutching his eyes closed anyway, so close to drifting back off. 
He feels your body shuffle against the mattress, still not enough to lure him back into full consciousness, but he’s aware enough to know your every move.
And he’d like to think he can predict them, imagining you shuffling to get comfy and hoping he’s too deep in his sleep to care if you nudge him while doing so.
But he could never predict the soft press of your lips to the corner of his mouth, and the gentle, almost non-existent muttering of a thank you against his skin. 
He only lets himself smile when he can feel you settle back into the bed, body laid beside him, bare legs brushing against his under the sheets.
You are so welcome, he thinks, that soft smile curving into something much deeper as he succumbs to sleep, body melting into an oozy, gooey, consuming mess beside your own. 
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Luke should have known you’d get your own back on him for the whole avoiding thing.
The two of you had been sweet for a solid week, movie nights every other night, especially after you had shared his bed, you’d even made him lunch to come back to the day after. And he had started driving you to and from work, again.
And it’s the drive home from work one day that he sees something in you switch.
“It’s just gonna be a couple people, you’ll probably even know some of the girls from college.”
“It’s your house, Luke, you don’t have to explain your parties to me.” You shift your knees back to face the dash, where they had just been angled toward him, and you cross your arms against your chest. 
“We can pick back up on movie night tomorrow, I don’t have any training all day so we can do a marathon, if you want.”
“Ellie’s back today, so I don’t know.”
He frowns, tightening his fingers around the wheel as he watches you retreat all of a sudden, like you’re annoyed with him, or something.
And then as soon as he pulls up outside the house, you’re climbing out of the car before he even has a chance to come around and open the door for you, storming up the driveway and disappearing inside.
He tries not to let it get to him. Tries to lose himself in the festivities of the night - a house party thrown on whim at the discovery that most of the brothers’ mutual friends were in town. He was excited to see his boys from Michigan, Ethan, Dylan, Luca and Jacob, who all climb out of Ethan’s truck with a 6-pack in hand, and crowd around Luke, embracing him with brotherly pats on his back and ushering him into the kitchen to partake in their pre game ritual - a round of shots to line their stomachs. 
He still keeps a close eye on you once the party is underway. Watches you and Ellie, watches when Cole joins the two of you, and you laugh at whatever dumb jokes he’s trying to tell you. Watches your gaze flicker his way throughout the night, and leave just as quickly, and he has to shrug off the chirps of his friends when they notice, too.
He later watches you catch up with a couple of the girls coming from your sorority, and that’s around the time he loses you, lost in a round of beer pong that fills his bladder quicker than he could have anticipated.
He excuses himself up to his room, the music dying down the further upstairs he gets, and relieves himself with an inebriated bop of his head to whatever melody he can still hear blasting through the floorboards. 
He zips his jeans back up, and ambles over to the sink, washing his hands under the faucet until the sound of his door opening has his heart falling into the pit of his stomach. 
“Jesus,” he gasps, shutting off the water and turning to face where you’re stepping into the room and closing the door behind yourself. “You ever heard of knocking? What are you doing upstairs?”
“Was just checking you weren’t like jerking off in here or something,”
“What if I was, were you planning on watching?”
“Yeah, right,” you scoff, pulling a face to feign some sort of offence, but Luke watches as you fidget, tucking your hair behind your ears and shuffling on your feet. 
“Like you’ve been watching me all night,” he smirks, tossing the towel he had used to dry his hands back onto the hook and taking a step into your space, backing you against the counter, your shoes no longer shuffling along the floor. It feels like it’s been days now that you’ve been off with him, even though it’s been a mere few hours, but in those hours, he’s had a lot of time to think about your relationship, or lack thereof.  “Think I haven’t seen you? Can’t take those pretty eyes off of me, can you?”
He’d first noticed when you came downstairs with Ellie, earlier, pinned to her side and gossiping about something, no doubt catching up on her week away. You kept glancing his way, subtly at first, eyes darting over and shifting back just as quick to your best friend, faking interest and nodding along until you looked back over. Your efforts were more noticeable as the two of you moved around different corners of the room, interacting with different groups and still meeting eyes across the expanse of space between you and him. 
His heart jumped every time.
And then Victoria had arrived, just before he had been recruited to play beer pong - an old hookup from his college days. She had always been more of a friend than anything else, and Luke had no interest in reigniting whatever dampened spark they once had, she has a boyfriend now, anyway, but when her hand grazed his arm, and he looked over to see your glare zeroed in on the exact spot she was touching him, he thought he’d have a little fun with it.
Nothing too extreme, a few loud laughs, a little longer spent with her than initially anticipated, but she had been more than happy to regale him with stories about her new relationship, so pretending to pay attention didn’t seem like such a bad idea if it was going to make you do something.
He had a sneaking suspicion as to what had turned your mood, earlier, and he was about to have fun testing his theory - that you had been jealous at the mere mention of other girls being at the house.
He didn’t think it would culminate in you following him all the way up to his room, confronting him in his bathroom with nobody else around, but he’s hardly mad about it, now.
“Shut up,” you scowl, but your tone is weak, and Luke knows he’s got you. Chin tilted up to meet his eyes in defiance, gaze locked on his as he moves closer, and he’s thankful, for the first time tonight, that the boys had forced him to take those shots when the party started.
He wouldn’t have the courage to challenge you like this, otherwise - an inebriated cockiness taking over, puffing out his chest and filling him with the same sort of misplaced bravado he’s been convincing himself to muster all week.
“You already know how to make me.” He mutters, lowly, the proximity of your face to his giving his tone a breathiness that he hopes comes across more seductive than slurred. His mind is stuck on that kiss from the other night, when he had apparently irritated you so much that you felt that was your only option. 
You blink slow, eyes dropping to his lips, and before he can blink, himself, you close the distance.
This is different to before - incomparable to a kiss given just to hide your faces, one just to stop him from talking and another when you had thought he wasn’t conscious. 
This is heated, and intentional, and intense. 
Dainty fingers clutch at the front of his shirt, pinching slightly at his skin before taking a hold of the fabric, and there’s no possible way for you to play this off as something less.
Your lips are firm, slotted against his, and moving before he knows it - his tongue licking at the seams until they part, and you grant him access to the sweet taste of fruity liquor inside your mouth. 
Large hands take residence on your hips, sliding daringly backward until he’s gripping at your ass, long fingers stretching down to trace the hem of your skirt, denim thick but not immune to his absentminded efforts to chase the feeling of more. 
He’s expecting you to come to your senses, anticipating the grip of your hands to turn into a shove, and the sweetness of your taste to turn sour when you start to yell at him, fire in your eyes and venom on your tongue - but all he hears is you moaning into his mouth, all he feels is the press of your torso against his as your back arches into his touch, his fingertips grazing the top of your thigh as your skirt moves in his hold.
He’s greedy with the way he touches you after that, hands cupping, fingers kneading, nails scratching even just to leave his mark, and he barely notices yours slipping down, down, down until the cold press of your fingertips grazes his abdomen, stomach tensing at your touch. 
He groans a little, his movements halting as you manage to distract him from his ministrations, using the leverage you have on his body to press and push until your lips part - swollen and wet with his spit.
His heart thuds in his chest, thump thump thump echoing in his head as he watches you - holds his breath and stares at you with his own lips parted, the taste of you lingering in a way he doesn’t want to swallow too soon. 
He waits for your face to turn, for that hypnotised look in your eyes to turn into a glare, the distance between you bringing some much needed clarity - but the shift never comes.
Instead, you push yourself away from the counter, and he finds himself looking straight down as your hands make their way back to the hard ridges of his stomach.
“What are you doing?” He stutters as your fingers start to tickle lower.
“I wanna give you a hand.”
“Give me-,” he splutters, his own hand stopping yours in its tracks. “Am I dreaming right now? Is this a trick?”
“No,” you persist, pushing your hands despite his weak, half-hearted efforts to stop them. “You did me a favour, why can’t I do one back?” 
“Because that’s not-,” He can’t believe he’s trying to turn this down, the lump in his throat protesting the words that try to come up. You just kissed him. You just let him hike your skirt up and push you against the bathroom counter, let his fingers go so far beyond the realm of reality that he thinks he’s still lost in a dream - and he can’t figure out why he’s even questioning it, anymore. “There’s a pretty big difference between me letting you sleep in my bed and you jerking me off,”
“It’s only a big deal if you make it one, Luke.” You shrug, pausing at the waistband of his pants. Every nerve from his ribs to his toes tingles, the teasing touch of the tips of your fingers sparking something unshakable within him. “Do you want me to help you out or not?”
“Are you high or something?”
“No,” you chuckle, meeting his eyes again - sparkling and beautiful, a hidden vulnerability flashing across them at the insistence of his hesitant rejection. “Are you? You’re really gonna turn me down to just jack yourself off in here on your own?”
“Please don’t call it that.” He pleads, the last thing he needs right now is any sort of reminder of his brother. Not when you have your hands on him. Not when you could conceivably get on your knees right before him. Not when his deepest darkest fantasies could play out after so many years of pining after you. “No.”
“No?”
“No.” He lets out a panicked stammer. “Not no. I meant no, like no to your question, not no period.” 
“What?” You step back with a frustrated huff, taking your hands away, close enough still that he can reach out and grab them, holding them between the both of you.
“I want-,” Good lord, he wants a lot. He can still taste you on his tongue, still feel the press of your kiss on his own swollen lips, and his head is spinning so far out of control he doesn’t think he’ll be able to knock any sense back into it any time soon. “Are you sure?”
“Oh my God, Hughes, just pull your pants down and let’s get on with it.”
Luke pulls you in for one more kiss before he relinquishes all control, and hums and whines as you work his zipper down, the sound bouncing off the tiles and reverberating around his skull.
He doesn’t know how you can so easily go back to normal after. 
He can’t understand how you could just lift yourself back onto your feet when the two of you were finished, adjust your skirt around your hips, and leave him alone in the bathroom, panting, flushed and barely coherent, all evidence of your tryst swallowed down like the moans you had forced him to suppress - all except the faint bruises on the lowest part of his stomach that you had sucked into his skin, the ones he hopes grow darker as the days go on, the ones he feels pulsing as he rejoins his friends in the kitchen. 
He had once again promised not to utter a word to anyone - but it doesn’t stop the thousands of them that swirl around his brain after, the ones that linger there all through the night, resurface through the week, and etch themselves into the very core of his being. 
Thousands of words in hundreds of languages, mixing to form romanticised poems he might never understand.
All he does understand, is that he’s so far gone for you now, it isn’t even funny. 
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Far gone is starting to seem like the understatement of the century.
Luke can’t get enough of being around you, and it’s so detached now from the two of you only ever hanging out to scheme about Jack and Ellie that he can’t even remember the last efforts you made to do anything about their relationship.
He’s now just focused on whatever relationship the two of you are building between yourselves.
Watching movies in his bed, comparing commentary on your favourites, asking for his opinion, and him asking for yours. And he likes how gentle you are with the things he loves. Movies are kind of his thing, and sharing them with someone else - sitting and watching them and waiting for some kind of reaction, good or bad - could be intimidating with anyone else. 
But you’re so attentive. You ask questions, you remember things, and you try to understand why he might love a film, and try to see things from his perspective, rather than stamping your own opinion over his and ruling anything out.
You’re open-minded, even though you pretend not to be. You’d given Happy Gilmore a second chance, even, and Luke never had you pegged as the second chance type.
You talk a lot more to him on your drives to and from work - not that you didn’t talk before, but this is different, entirely. You have actual discussions, around more than just what’s happening at the house, or what’s happening at work. 
The two of you talk about college, about your major, your plans for after school. You talk about hockey, about Jersey, about his friends and teammates back there, and the life he’s built away from the one you pretend you never knew. 
And the way he feels about you starts to consume him in ways he never thought possible. In ways that make him sort of understand where Jack had been coming from all those years, when he’d never shut up about his feelings for Ellie, and how he thought about her all the time, and wanted to be with her 24/7.
It’s what has him hovering around at the club after he and Quinn had played a round of golf, waiting outside for Quinn to give the keys back for their caddy, and spotting you chatting to Cara at the side door to the restaurant.
He waves as soon as you see him, and his heart jumps when you immediately excuse yourself to skip over, a bright smile on your face that he never thought could be directed his way.
“Hey!” You greet him, cheerily, ponytail swaying behind you as you come to a stop in front of him. 
“What time are you getting off?” He asks, foregoing any small talk and cutting straight to the chase. 
“I’m on the lunch shift today, so 3,” you pout, checking the watch on your wrist that he knows reads just past 1. “You don’t have to wait around though, I can catch a ride from somebody else,”
“No, I’ll take you home.” He assures you, “I need to go to the mall, I’ve got to get a present for a baby shower, I was hoping you’d help me.”
“I don’t know how much help I’d be, babies give me the heebie-jeebies.”
“Yeah, same,” he chuckles, “Maybe we could grab dinner or something, instead?”
“I was gonna pick up a dress for the party next week, so maybe we could do that first?”
“And then dinner?” He asks, a hopeful raise of his eyebrows that is spurred on by the way you’re biting back a smile.
“Yes, Luke, then dinner.” You chuckle, beaming up at him when his face breaks out into a full-blown grin.
“Sick,” he replies, “Yeah, cool,” he nods as he watches you step away, amusement gleaming in your eyes, “I’ll be out here at 3.”
“I’ll see you then.”
Luke watches as you make your way back to the side door of the restaurant, meeting your eye when you look back at him and relishing in the way he can catch the flush of your cheeks all the way from the fountain. 
He smiles to himself as he turns on one foot, light in his step and light in his head, nodding to the guy who is painting the railings leading up to the club foyer and swinging on his feet as he waits for his brother.
If he had a little less self-awareness, he thinks he could start leaping and swinging from the nearest lamp post like a scene straight out of Singing In The Rain.
He hasn’t felt elation like this in a long time.
He hadn’t uttered the word, exactly, but this is as close to a date as he might get, and his entire body is buzzing at the thought of it. 
“Are you coming?” Quinn calls out as he descends the steps at the front of the club, keys in one hand and a water bottle in the other.
“Uhh,” Luke drags out as he not-so-subtly looks back to where you and Cara are talking by the side door. “I think I’m gonna check out the gym.”
“You know it’s just a bunch of old guys on machines in there, right? Plus, I thought we were going in the morning with the rest of the guys?”
“Right,” he mutters absentmindedly, “I meant the pool.”
“You hate indoor pools.”
“The sauna?”
“Your little crush is getting out of hand, huh?” Quinn chuckles, elbowing at Luke’s side to get his attention back.
“It’s not a crush.” Luke huffs, lips pouted as he tears his eyes away from you with great effort. 
“I think we’re past the point of you denying it, Luke,” his older brother gestures to the wall Luke had been staring at when he came outside, “You’re literally watching paint dry to pass the time until she finishes work-,”
“No, I mean like I had a crush on her,” Luke sighs, “Before this summer, when I just thought she was pretty and hot and I could never pluck up the courage to do anything about it. It doesn’t feel like a crush anymore. Or maybe it does, I don’t know, I kinda feel like she’s crushing me, to be honest.”
He gives a nervous laugh when he says it, but it’s not enough to cover up the way he really feels - not when it comes to his big brother, who puts his keys back in his pocket just so he can spare a hand to reach out and pinch at Luke’s cheeks, teasing, “Lukey’s in love,” before he swats him away.
“Hardly,” he scoffs in denial, although he doesn’t really understand why he’s fighting the thought of it so hard.
It’s not exactly a preposterous idea. Love might be an overestimation - you haven’t exactly let him all the way in - but like seems like an understatement. Obsessed seems dramatic. Infatuated?
“I don’t know, I like spending time with her, like talking to her, is all,” he shrugs. He likes a lot more than that, but confiding in Quinn after how his last encounter with Jack about the whole thing had gone has his back up, a little. “I feel like she might like me too.”
It’s the first time he’s said it aloud to anyone else. He’s chirped you about it enough - taken note of the various shades of pink he can flush your cheeks when he does, darker and darker as the days go on - but he’s been abiding by your request of staying quiet about any of the specifics.
And it’s been hard. Oversharing is kind of his thing, usually, and keeping information from his brothers isn’t exactly something he loves doing, not when he’s been cursing Jack all summer for doing the same.
“Jack thinks she’s using me. He doesn’t like her.”
“Jack doesn’t like that he can’t beat her. Like he can fire a thousand shots at her and nothing goes in, he isn’t used to that.”
“Oh, but I am?” Luke scoffs, although he isn’t entirely sure if he is offended. “Are you calling me a loser?”
“No, Luke, I’m not calling you a loser.” He chuckles. “It’s like hockey, right, you and me, we chase people down. Don’t give in until we’re caught up and we can disarm someone. That isn’t Jack’s game. He’s usually the one being chased, you know? Usually the one ahead.”
“He’s not that bad on the other side of the blue line,” Luke scoffs, although he gets where his eldest brother is coming from. He hasn’t really thought about it in that context - that you and Jack don’t get along because you’re alike - but it makes sense now that he thinks about it.
“He’s not like you, though. You get some weird thrill out of going after people you have no business going after, you have since you were younger, taking down kids 4 or 5 years older than you and twice the size for fun. Makes sense you’d want someone so far out of your league.”
Luke looks back over to where you’re still stood with Cara, and just manages to catch your eye before you look away, pretending he hadn’t caught you. The smile erupts slowly onto his features, close-lipped and soft, but he feels the joy of it all throughout his body. 
“I think I’m wearing her down.”
Stolen glances across whatever room the two of you happen to be in, smiles that you’ve only ever sent his way, feather-light but purposeful kisses on the corner of his mouth when you think he’s asleep, seeking him out in his bathroom after seeing him with someone else - yeah, he’s getting there.
“Good for you, Luke,” Quinn chuckles, patting his brother on the back, “As long as you know what you’re getting yourself into.”
He does. At least he thinks so. 
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You feel weird.
It’s the only word you can think to describe the mood you’ve been in for the past week.
Well, weird and off.
You can’t quite put your finger on it, either, but it’s throwing you off your game. 
There had been a second the other day where you had thought you might have gotten to the bottom of things - when you’d come inside from sunbathing with Ellie and had found Luke in his room, packing a bag for his trip to Vegas for some award ceremony he and Quinn were nominated for. 
Clarity had hit you like a brick to the head, panic swirling in your chest at the thought of him being gone for a whole week, but then he’d looked up from where he was perched on the ground, had given you a lopsided grin, and had ushered you over to help - and the speed in which you had started to feel normal again quickly diminished any thoughts of Luke being the cause of your weirdness.
But it has been hard to shake, even as unidentifiable as it may be, and the longer you feel this way, the worse it gets, bubbling up like anxiety that keeps your jaw tight, and your lips pressed together.
It culminates the night of the boys’ party - a celebration of Quinn and Luke’s nominations, and a good luck send-off of sorts that Jack had wanted to throw before they left. 
You had started the night off fine - kind of attached at Luke’s hip, him muttering teasing remarks into your ear about you clinging to him ‘cause you’re gonna miss him when he’s gone, and catching up with a couple of the guys from Michigan. You might have even been having fun at one point, smiling into the red cup Luke had placed in your hand at the beginning of the night that you still hadn’t drained, as you watched him shoot pool and he kept smirking up at you as he leant over the table.
You shouldn’t be feeling anxious when he looks at you like that, but God, do you feel something.
And then your phone starts to buzz in your pocket, and assuming it’s Ellie, who, once again, is away with her family - this time in Europe for a couple of weeks - you pull it out.
But it isn’t Ellie.
It’s your dad.
And the heart that had been thudding in your chest at the mere capture of Luke’s attention just moments ago, is now dropping out of your ass.
It isn’t a call, thank God - you don’t think you could handle that, feeling the way you currently feel - but an email.
Your dad hasn’t called in a while. He rarely texts, either.
This is how it is, now. Emails and Facebook posts you happen to come across, like you’re some distant co-worker or an old family friend.
Not his only daughter. Not the kid he abandoned in search of a better life.
When you open it up, there’s no subject, no body either to the email, just an attachment. 
A family photo, him, his new wife, and their two boys, stood in front of the Eiffel Tower, edited into a postcard that reads, Wish You Were Here!
And resentment bubbles within you.
I could have been, if you’d have invited me.
You shove your phone back into your pocket and do a quick glance around the room to check if anyone might have noticed the tears welling in your eyes, but you’re safe. 
Luke’s attention is on the table, the rest of the boys’ attention is on him, and you slip away before he has the chance to meet your eye - to see straight through you in the way only he knows how, and make your way to the kitchen in the search of something stronger.
When you push your way through the door, whatever weird feeling that has been consuming you for the past week culminates into something bigger.
Something darker, and heavier, and angrier, like a tornado of emotions tearing through your very core, picking up every last bit of restraint on it’s way as your eyes narrow onto it’s next target.
“You have got to be fucking kidding me.”
Jack pulls back in a daze from the blonde who’s face he was just suctioned to, brows furrowed as his intoxicated gaze zeroes in on you.
He slurs out your name, glaring like he’s trying to get his eyes to focus before they roll dramatically, and he runs a hand through his messy hair.
“Jesus, what do you want?”
“Maybe for you to have some respect, or is that a little too much to ask?”
“Could you give us a minute?” He asks the girl in front of him, who scowls at you before walking off, shouldering past you to exit the kitchen as you stare Jack down. “Why are you being such a psycho?”
“I’m sick of you messing Ellie around, Hughes, I’m not gonna just stand around and let you play with her heart like she means nothing to you anymore.”
“She’s not even here,” he scoffs, “She won’t find out unless you tell her.”
“And you think I won’t? She’s my friend, Jack, we tell each other everything.”
“Yeah? She tell you how she’s into Cole?”
“No. Because she isn’t.” You’d cleared that up with her a while ago, asking her straight up if something was going on - and she had said no. She wouldn’t lie to you.
“Then why do I keep getting told that she is? Why is everyone seeing them out together all the time? Why is she texting him tonight and not me?”
“Maybe ‘cause you’re making it your mission to stick your tongue down other girls throats all the time. This entire summer, you’ve done nothing but avoid your feelings so much that maybe she thinks you’re not into her. Maybe you need to pull your head out of your ass and talk to her like a grown fucking adult and stop playing stupid games with her heart.”
“You’re one to talk.”
“And you should be fucking listening. If you keep messing her around, you’ll lose her for good,” you threaten, with a jab of a pointed finger into his chest.
Jack looks flushed, cheeks pink, lips puffy, eyes red-rimmed and hair a mess as he looks back at you - and it’s like he’s functioning in slow motion, you can practically see the cogs turning in his inebriated brain as he comes up with some way to jab back, some way to make you hurt the way the thought of Ellie leaving does to him, just to avoid admitting you’re right.
“What, like how you keep messing my brother around?” 
“Excuse me?” You scoff, stepping back when he jabs a finger at you.
“You heard me,” he snarls, “Leading him on like some lovesick puppy while you couldn’t care less about him.”
“Is that what he said?”
“No, funnily enough he won’t even talk to me about you,” Jack’s glare sends a shiver down your spine, one that overrides the buzz of pride at him following your instruction - you know this level of animosity comes from the swirling of intoxication and frustration, he doesn’t actually hate you, the two of you have gotten on somewhat in the past couple of weeks, despite him making out otherwise, but this is different. This makes you feel small, like a speck of something fragile, ready to be stomped and crushed under his irate foot. And it’s not the kind of small you usually like. The kind of small where you compare yourself to the bigger picture. No, this hurts. Aches. Itches in a way that you need to relieve, immediately. “But I bet that’s your doing, because that’s how toxic you are, making it so he can’t even confide in his brother about his feelings. Feelings that you just want to stampede all over like they’re nothing. Break his heart like it’s some kind of sport.”
That isn’t true. 
That’s not who you are.
That’s not what you’re doing, not what you want.
You know how it feels to have someone break your heart like that, you’d never do that to Luke.
“Go fuck yourself, Jack.” Is all you can mutter out in defence of yourself before you’re shouldering past him, barging through the uninterested crowd and stomping out of the kitchen.
You think it’s the need to feel bigger that has you poking your head into every room in search of him - the person who had ingrained the notion of needing to feel bigger to feel better to your memory - only able to find comfort in a mop of messy curls that sits on top of a head higher than the rest. It’s what has you grasping at his hand when you do find him outside on the deck, dragging him wordlessly - and thankfully enough, without protest - back through the rest of his house, and to his room before you push him down onto the bed, instructing him to move up and sit against the headboard before you straddle his lap.
You kiss away his questions, fingers clumsily working at the buttons of his shirt until you can tear it off, swallowing down his confusion into your own mouth as he shrinks into your advances.
When you start to grind down into him is when he gains back some level of consciousness, large hands grasping at your waist and pushing until your lips part with a loud smack. And you’re both breathless, panting against each others mouths as he tries to figure you out, looking up at you with a furrowed brow and swollen lips.
“What’s going on?” He asks, eyes darting around you in concern.
Concern that makes you feel larger than life - makes your chest expand and your heart swell and your lungs fill with so much air that you feel like you might float away. To have someone look at you like that, care about you like that, want you for more than what bare bones you’re offering to him, what everyone else wants you for, it makes you feel gigantic.
Like a hot air balloon, carried to far away lands by the flames of his affections.
And if they shut off, you’ll drop into oblivion. Breaking suddenly from the airy mechanics that keep you afloat, plunging at great speeds until you inevitably hit the earth with an almighty, painful splat.
You never did like falling.
“I want you.”
His face scrunches a little as he thinks - thinks a little too hard for someone who’s been pursuing you all summer - and before he can question it, you reach for the hem of your top, pulling it off until you’re left in just your lacy bra, your skirt riding up as your legs fall to either side of his hips.
It’s the most you’ve ever given him aside from being around him in your bikini and the one time you had changed and he hadn’t turned around quick enough, and before you can feel self conscious about it, you feel his eyes rake down the long expanse of your bare skin.
And the way he looks at you now makes you feel even bigger - a hunger in his eyes that tells you he could spend the rest of his time on earth working his way through every inch of you, savouring whatever parts of you that you’ll let him get a taste of, and he’ll never let you go.
“Please?” You’re already technically on your knees, what harm can begging do if it just makes him do something?
You don’t want to talk about it like you know he’s about to ask, don’t want to have to explain why you sought him out, why, for once, you didn’t care that people might see the two of you holding hands, you marching him to his bedroom and him following like exactly what Jack had said - a lovesick puppy.
You just want him. Want to feel bigger. Want to feel wanted. 
Want to give in to the part of you that has been dying to fold to him all summer, to let him close that gap, to break down the barriers you’ve been desperately guarding.
He cranes his neck to press a sweet kiss to your lips - one lacking the intensity from before, but not the adoration he always manages to pack in there - the kind that twists at your gut until you can’t take it anymore.
“Please,” you whisper against his lips, kissing him again. “Give me something to hold onto when you’re gone.”
You figure if you use his own words against him - words uttered teasingly, but truthfully, earlier - he’ll give in.
The thought of losing this, of him leaving and finding something better, of distance being wedged between you for the first time all summer and finally giving him clarity, making him see you for what everyone else thinks you are.
Maybe if you give him what he really wants he’ll hold on a little longer.
It’s not like you don’t want it, too.
“You only had the one drink?” He asks, responding with fervour, the pressure of his kiss starting to build. “The one I got you?”
“Didn’t even finish it,” you kiss him again, “Stone cold sober,” and again, fingers trailing between you to work at the button on his jeans, “Want you now.”
“Yeah,” he lifts his hips and helps you pull his pants down, a clumsy shuffle to temporarily part while he wriggles them off, “Want you, too.” He mutters before leaning in to kiss at the corner of your mouth, “Wanted you for so long.”
There’s a voice inside that itches to tell him, I know, but it’s quickly shut up by another - a voice that’s louder, a voice you can’t ignore anymore when it comes to Luke.
A voice that tells you, you know nothing.
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fireworks and forgiveness//G.W x Reader
a/n: AHHH thank you so much for my very first request. i know you said you liked longer fics so i hope this is long enough
word count: 4.8k
request: @feelinglikeineedlotsofnaps
Could I request a george weasley x reader.
Where reader is working at their shop and george is stressed and is a bit horrible towards reader. But could we end with some extra fluff???
I love longer fics, so that would be great 💚
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The bell above the shop door jingled for what felt like the hundredth time that morning, signaling yet another wave of customers. The once neatly organized shelves of Weasleys’ Wizard Wheezes now looked like a hurricane had swept through, with items scattered and empty spaces glaring where products should’ve been. Children zipped around, testing Extendable Ears and Whizzing Worms, while parents tried, and mostly failed, to rein them in.
Standing behind the counter, you rang up purchases as quickly as possible, occasionally pausing to flash a polite smile at the more patient customers. Out of the corner of your eye, you spotted George darting between shelves, trying to keep things running smoothly. His usual easygoing grin had been replaced with a furrowed brow, his freckled face tight with concentration.
You’d been working at the shop since its grand opening, mostly because you couldn’t say no when George had asked. The two of you had been close since Hogwarts,partners in crime during countless pranks and late-night study sessions. He’d always had a knack for making you laugh, even on your worst days, and you liked to think you brought out his softer side.
But today, the George you knew seemed buried under layers of stress.
“Oi! Don’t open that until you’ve paid for it!” George’s voice boomed across the chaos, though it didn’t do much to stop a freckled boy from unwrapping a Canary Cream. You watched as George rubbed the back of his neck, muttering something under his breath before diving back into the madness.
“Need more Nosebleed Nougat at the front!” Fred shouted from somewhere near the Skiving Snackbox display, his arms full of brightly colored boxes.
“I’m on it!” you called back, already halfway to the storeroom. The path was like an obstacle course, with a kid swinging a Decoy Detonator narrowly missing your head and a pile of Puking Pastilles scattered across the floor nearly sending you flying.
As you reached the storeroom, you grabbed a tray of Nosebleed Nougats and took a moment to catch your breath. It had been non-stop since the shop opened, and your muscles were beginning to protest. You couldn’t help but think of George again, he was probably even more stressed than you, juggling the responsibilities of the shop while trying to please every customer.
By the time you made it back to the counter, George caught your arm. “What took you so long?” he asked, his tone sharper than usual. His hand lingered on your sleeve for a moment before he let go, stepping back.
You blinked, startled. “Sorry, I was restocking the Peruvian Powder from earlier.”
“Well, don’t take all day next time,” he said, already turning to a customer waving a handful of coins. His voice had an edge to it, one that you weren’t used to hearing from him.
You bit your lip, holding back a retort. George didn’t usually snap at you, and the sting of his words caught you off guard. But he was clearly overwhelmed, so you let it slid for now. With a deep breath, you pushed the thought aside and returned to ringing up customers, plastering on a smile as you handed over change.
“Thanks for your help,” you muttered under your breath, knowing he wouldn’t hear over the noise. It was easier to vent quietly than risk adding to his stress.
The hours blurred together as the crowd surged and ebbed, only to swell again. You found yourself weaving through aisles, fixing displays, and helping kids choose the “coolest” prank items, all while keeping one ear on the counter in case Fred or George shouted for help.
At one point, George brushed past you while carrying a stack of boxes. His shoulder bumped yours, and he muttered, “Watch it,” without even looking up. Normally, he’d apologise, or make a joke, but today, there was no sign of the George who used to playfully nudge you when you worked side by side.
By the time the shop doors finally closed, you felt like you’d run a marathon. The bell’s last jingle echoed faintly as the lock clicked into place, marking the end of what had to be the busiest day since Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes opened. The chaos left behind was staggering: colorful wrappers and bits of packaging littered the floor, displays leaned precariously, and the air still smelled faintly of smoke from a prank product that had gone awry.
You leaned against the counter for a moment, rolling your aching shoulders and letting out a breath you hadn’t realized you were holding. “That was... something,” you said, glancing over at George.
He stood a few feet away, sorting through a pile of stock sheets, his brows drawn tight with concentration. 
“Something,” he repeated dryly, not looking up. His voice had lost its usual playful warmth, replaced by the edge of someone teetering on the brink of exhaustion.
“I’ll start with the Peruvian Powder display,” you offered, pushing yourself off the counter. “It looks like a war zone over there.”
“Fine,” George replied shortly, still rifling through papers. He didn’t even glance in your direction, and something about his tone sent a prickle of unease down your spine.
You shook it off and grabbed out your want, making your way to the disaster zone near the Peruvian Instant Darkness Powder. With a flourish the broom began sweeping up the fine black powder. After the floor was visable once more you scooped up the dustpan, careful not to spill more. Your hands were smudged within seconds, and you wrinkled your nose as a cloud of powder puffed up around you.
Behind you, George’s voice carried through the quiet shop. “Where’s the inventory sheet for the WonderWitch line?” he called out, frustration creeping into his tone.
You paused, thinking. “I think Fred grabbed it earlier to check the stock in the storeroom. It’s probably still back there.”
A loud sigh escaped him, and he tossed the parchment he was holding onto the counter. “Of course it’s not where it’s supposed to be,” he muttered, more to himself than to you. “Why would anything be where I need it today?”
“I can grab it,” you offered, standing up and brushing the dust off your knees. “It’s not a big deal—”
“It is a big deal, Y/N,” George snapped, cutting you off mid-sentence. His tone was sharp, sharper than you’d ever heard it. “We’ve been behind all day, the shelves are a mess, and now I can’t even find the one bloody thing I need to sort this disaster.”
You froze, blinking at him. George was usually the calm one, the one who could find humor even in the worst situations. But now, his frustration was spilling over, and it was aimed directly at you. “I’m just trying to help,” you said quietly, your voice barely above a whisper.
“Well, maybe you could help by making sure things actually get done for once,” he shot back, his hand running through his already messy hair as he turned away. His words hit like a slap, the sting leaving you momentarily stunned.
The shop fell silent except for the faint rustle of parchment as George busied himself with the stock sheets. He didn’t look at you, too caught up in his frustration to notice the hurt flashing across your face.
Swallowing the lump rising in your throat, you forced yourself to keep your voice steady. “I’ll get the inventory list,” you said flatly, not waiting for his response before walking briskly toward the storeroom.
The moment you stepped into the quiet, dimly lit room, you let out a shaky breath. Your hands shook slightly as you rifled through the stack of papers on the desk, finally finding the missing list. You clutched it tightly, replaying George’s words over and over in your mind.
“He’s just stressed,” you muttered to yourself, trying to push down the knot of hurt forming in your chest. “It’s not about me.” But no matter how much you rationalised it, the crack in George’s usual warmth lingered, leaving you feeling more shaken than you wanted to admit.
When you returned to the front, George was still at the counter, hunched over the parchment. His shoulders were tense, his head bowed. You placed the inventory sheet beside him without a word, your hand brushing the edge of the counter as you stepped back.
“Thanks,” he mumbled, his tone softer now but still distracted.
You nodded curtly and turned away, biting your lip to keep from saying something you might regret. The rest of the cleanup passed in strained silence, the once-easy rhythm between you and George replaced with an uncomfortable distance. 
The next morning, the shop was eerily quiet, the calm before the storm. The faint scent of leftover fireworks hung in the air as you moved around the store, straightening shelves and mentally preparing for another chaotic day. Your hands worked mechanically, placing products just so, but your thoughts were still on the way George had snapped at you the night before.
You hadn’t slept well, tossing and turning as his words replayed in your mind. George didn’t usually act like that with you, his frustration had always been directed at malfunctioning products or customers with questionable attitudes, never at you. You told yourself it was just stress, but the sting hadn’t faded.
Behind the counter, George was scribbling furiously on a parchment, muttering under his breath. His hair was even messier than usual, sticking up in tufts that he hadn’t bothered to tame. Normally, the sight of him so disheveled would’ve made you smile, but today, the tension between you weighed too heavily.
“You ready to open?” His voice broke the silence, clipped and business-like. He didn’t look up from the parchment.
“Yeah,” you replied simply, grabbing a tray of products to restock near the front. Your voice was quieter than usual, and you didn’t bother trying to fill the silence the way you normally would.
If George noticed your shift in mood, he didn’t show it. He leaned down to check something under the counter, his focus entirely on the task in front of him. You glanced at him briefly, hoping for a flicker of the George you knew, a teasing grin or even just a soft look, but there was nothing. Just the same furrowed brow and tight jaw that had defined him yesterday.
As you worked near the window, the morning sunlight streaming through, you felt his eyes on you for the briefest moment. When you turned to look, he quickly glanced away, pretending to adjust a stack of Skiving Snackboxes.
You let out a soft sigh, turning back to your work. “If you’ve got something to say, just say it,” you muttered, more to yourself than to him.
“What was that?” George’s voice carried over, laced with irritation.
“Nothing,” you said quickly, your cheeks flushing. The last thing you wanted was another argument, especially not before the shop even opened.
He straightened up, crossing his arms. “No, seriously, what was that?” There was a sharpness to his tone again, though it wasn’t as biting as yesterday.
You hesitated, fiddling with the edge of the tray in your hands. “I just... I don’t know,” you said finally, your words faltering. “You’ve been on edge lately, and I feel like no matter what I do, it’s wrong.”
George blinked, clearly caught off guard. “I’ve just been busy, Y/N,” he said defensively. “You know how much there is to do around here.”
“I do know,” you said, your voice firmer now. “I’ve been trying to help, but it feels like nothing I do is good enough for you lately.”
He ran a hand through his hair, his frustration evident. “It’s not that. look, I just... I don’t have time to deal with this right now.”
The words hit harder than you expected, and you looked away quickly, blinking back the prick of tears. “Right. Of course. Why would you?”
Before he could respond, the bell above the door jingled as Fred strode in, whistling cheerfully. He stopped short, looking between you and George with a raised eyebrow. “Did I interrupt something?”
“Nope,” you said quickly, forcing a smile and grabbing the empty tray. “Just getting ready to open.” You brushed past Fred, making your way to the storeroom without looking back.
Fred turned to his brother, arms crossed. “What’s her deal?”
George exhaled sharply, rubbing his temples. “She’s just... I don’t know. She’s been weird since yesterday.”
Fred gave him a pointed look. “And what did you do?”
“Nothing!” George said quickly, though the slight waver in his voice betrayed him. “I might’ve snapped at her. Once.”
Fred rolled his eyes. “Yeah, because that always works. Fix it before she quits and leaves us to deal with this shit ourselves.”
George mumbled something under his breath, but Fred was already heading toward the back to check on you. George stayed at the counter, staring at the now-empty space where you’d been moments before, a flicker of guilt creeping in.
The shop was a whirlwind of activity again, bustling with customers eager to grab whatever tricks and treats they could get their hands on. It was as if the chaos from yesterday had never ended.
You were stationed near the Skiving Snackboxes, reorganizing the shelves after a group of kids had knocked half the display onto the floor. You worked your wand quickly, but your mind wandered, replaying George’s curt words from earlier in the morning. The sting was still fresh, and every time you caught a glimpse of him behind the counter, it sent another wave of frustration through you.
“Excuse me,” a stern voice interrupted your thoughts. You turned to see a well-dressed woman holding a box of U-No-Poo, her face set in a scowl. “This product doesn’t work as advertised. My son tried it, and it was completely ineffective.”
“Oh, um—” you started, fumbling for a response. “I can help you exchange it or—”
“What’s going on here?” George’s voice cut in, sharp and commanding. He appeared beside you, his eyes narrowing at the customer.
“This product is faulty,” the woman said, holding the box out as if it were toxic.
George crossed his arms, his jaw tightening. “I can assure you, there’s nothing wrong with that product. It’s one of our best sellers.”
“Well, it didn’t work for us,” she snapped. “I’d like a refund.”
George’s expression hardened, but before he could respond, you stepped in, your voice calm and measured. “I can take care of this. I’ll replace the box and make sure it’s working properly this time.”
The woman hesitated, then huffed and handed the box over. “Fine.”
You quickly swapped the item for a new one, apologizing politely as she walked away. When she was finally gone, you turned to George, ready to explain, but his scowl deepened.
“Why’d you give her a replacement?” he snapped, his voice low but dripping with frustration. “There was nothing wrong with the product. You should’ve just told her no.”
“I was trying to de-escalate the situation,” you replied, keeping your tone even despite the anger bubbling under your skin. “It’s better to lose one item than have a shouting match in the middle of the shop.”
“That’s not the point, Y/N,” George said, throwing his hands in the air. “We can’t just hand out free products every time someone complains. Do you even think?”
The words hit like a punch to the gut, and this time, you couldn’t hold back. “Excuse me?” you said, your voice rising slightly. “I’ve been running around this shop all day trying to help, and all you’ve done is criticise me. Do you even realise how hard I’m working here?”
“Hard? Really?” George shot back, his voice louder now. “If you were working that hard, maybe things wouldn’t be such a mess.”
A few customers turned to look at the two of you, their curiosity clear. Heat rushed to your face, and you clenched your fists, fighting to keep your composure. “You know what? I’m done,” you said, your voice trembling with restrained emotion. “I’m going to the back before I say something I’ll regret.”
Without waiting for a response, you spun on your heel and walked briskly toward the storeroom. Your chest felt tight, and your eyes stung, but you refused to let George, or anyone else, see you break.
In the quiet of the storeroom, you sank onto a nearby stool, letting out a shaky breath. Tears pricked at your eyes, but you wiped them away angrily. “Why does he have to be such a prick?” you muttered to yourself, the tension of the past two days finally boiling over.
As you sat there, trying to collect yourself, you couldn’t help but think about how different George had been lately. The playful, kindhearted boy you’d grown close to felt like a stranger now, replaced by someone snappish and impossible to please. It wasn’t fair, and you weren’t sure how much more you could take.
Back in the shop, George stood frozen for a moment, watching the customers go back to their browsing as if nothing had happened. Fred appeared at his side, raising an eyebrow. “What did you do this time?”
George sighed heavily, rubbing his temples. “I might’ve gone too far.”
Fred smirked knowingly. “Might’ve? George, you’re lucky she hasn’t hexed you yet.”
George didn’t respond, but guilt twisted in his stomach as he glanced toward the door you’d disappeared through. He knew he’d crossed a line, he just wasn’t sure how to fix it.
The shop had finally quieted down, the last customer leaving with a cheerful jingle of the bell. The floor was still littered with stray wrappers, and the shelves were half-empty, but at least the day was over. George leaned heavily against the counter, rubbing the back of his neck. The tension in his shoulders hadn’t eased all day, and the argument with you earlier kept replaying in his mind like a bad joke he couldn’t laugh at.
Fred tossed a broom at him, pulling him out of his thoughts. “Start sweeping, mate. The mess isn’t going to clean itself.”
George caught the broom without looking up. “Yeah, yeah,” he muttered, his voice flat. He moved sluggishly, his mind clearly elsewhere.
Fred paused, watching him. “All right, what’s going on with you?”
“Nothing,” George replied quickly, though the tightness in his voice betrayed him. “Just tired.”
Fred didn’t buy it. “Right. Tired. That’s why you’ve been moping around since Y/N stormed off.” He leaned against the counter, crossing his arms. “What did you say this time?”
George sighed, leaning the broom against the wall. “I might’ve... lost my temper.”
Fred raised an eyebrow. “Might’ve?”
“I told her she doesn’t think,” George admitted reluctantly. “And that she’s part of the reason the shop’s a mess.”
Fred let out a low whistle. “Blimey, George. Why don’t you just hand her a resignation letter while you’re at it?”
George groaned, resting his forehead against the counter. “I know, all right? I screwed up. I was stressed, and I took it out on her.”
“Yeah, you did.” Fred’s tone softened, and he gave George a light slap on the shoulder. “You’re not mad at her, you’re mad at yourself. Don’t make her pay for it.”
George didn’t respond, but the guilt gnawed at him. Fred wasn’t wrong, he wasn’t angry at you. He was angry at himself for letting the pressure get to him, for losing the lightness that used to make the shop feel like more fun than work. And now, he’d driven you away in the process.
As Fred busied himself with tidying up, George’s eyes drifted to the counter where you usually worked. Sitting there was something small and familiar: the bracelet you always wore, a simple piece of braided string you’d once told him was a good luck charm. You must’ve taken it off during one of your breaks and forgotten to put it back on.
George picked it up, turning it over in his fingers. The sight of it hit him harder than he expected. It was such a small thing, but it was yours, and it made the space feel emptier without you in it.
Fred noticed the shift in his expression and smirked. “Go on, then,” he said, waving him toward the storeroom. “Fix it before she hexes your broomstick.”
George didn’t need more convincing. He slipped the bracelet into his pocket and made his way toward the back, his footsteps slower than usual. When he reached the storeroom door, he hesitated, hand hovering over the handle. He wasn’t sure what he was going to say, but he knew he couldn’t leave things as they were.
The storeroom door creaked open, and you glanced up to see George hesitating in the doorway. His hands were stuffed into his pockets, and his hair was even messier than usual, as if he’d been running his hands through it non-stop. His usual confidence was absent, replaced by an almost sheepish expression.
“Hey,” he said, his voice softer than usual. “Can we talk?”
You set the rag down and crossed your arms, leaning against the counter. “Go ahead,” you said, your tone distant.
George stepped closer, his gaze flicking to the floor before meeting yours. He rubbed the back of his neck, clearly struggling to find the right words. “Look, I’ve been a complete prat the past couple of days,” he started. “And I owe you a proper apology.”
You didn’t respond right away, letting him stew in the silence. His shoulders sagged slightly, but he pushed on. “I’ve been stressed, yeah, but that doesn’t excuse how I’ve treated you. Snapping at you, blaming you for things that aren’t your fault... it wasn’t fair. You’ve been working your arse off, and I didn’t appreciate it the way I should’ve.”
Your eyes softened slightly, but you didn’t drop your guard just yet. “You really hurt my feelings, George,” you admitted, your voice quiet but firm. “I’ve been doing everything I can to help, and it felt like no matter what I did, it wasn’t enough for you.”
“I know,” he said quickly, his voice thick with regret. “I know I made you feel that way, and I hate that I did. You’re—” He paused, his eyes searching yours. “You’re the best thing about this shop, Y/N. I mean it. Without you, I’d be drowning, and... I don’t know. I think I got so caught up in trying to keep everything perfect that I forgot the most important part.”
Your heart softened at his words, though you weren’t ready to let him off the hook completely. “And what’s the most important part?”
“You,” he said simply, his voice steady now. “You keep me sane. You make this place better—hell, you make me better. I was a git, and I don’t deserve it, but I’m hoping you’ll forgive me anyway.”
The sincerity in his voice caught you off guard, and you felt your defenses crumble. You studied him for a moment, the tension in his posture, the way his eyes held yours, desperate for some sign that you weren’t still angry.
Finally, you let out a small sigh. “You’re lucky I’m terrible at holding grudges,” you said, the corners of your mouth twitching into a reluctant smile.
George’s face lit up, the weight lifting from his shoulders. “Does that mean I’m forgiven?” he asked, hope shining in his eyes.
You pretended to consider it. “Depends. Are you planning to yell at me again anytime soon?”
“Not a chance,” he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender. “From now on, I’ll be a perfect gentleman. Promise.”
You rolled your eyes, but your smile widened. “You’d better be.”
George stepped closer, his expression softening as he reached into his pocket. “Oh, and I thought this might help smooth things over.” He pulled out a small box and set it on the counter in front of you.
You raised an eyebrow, opening the box to reveal one of the shop’s newest products: a miniature fireworks set, charmed to spell out the word Sorry in glowing letters. You couldn’t help but laugh, shaking your head. “Really? An apology firework?”
“Thought it was fitting,” he said with a grin, his usual humor creeping back into his voice. “Plus, it’s limited edition.”
You snorted, but the warmth in your chest outweighed the sarcasm on your lips. “You’re impossible.”
“Yeah,” George said, his grin softening into a smile. “But you like me anyway.”
Your cheeks flushed slightly, but you didn’t deny it. Instead, you stepped around the counter, surprising him with a quick hug. He froze for a moment before wrapping his arms around you, his hold warm and steady.
“Don’t make me regret this,” you murmured into his shoulder.
“Never,” he promised, his voice low and earnest.
And for the first time in days, the knot of tension between you finally unraveled.
The quiet of the shop was a welcome change, the hum of activity replaced by the soft creaks of the floorboards and the faint rustle of parchment. After your conversation with George, the two of you had worked side by side to finish cleaning up. The tension that had hung in the air for days was finally gone, replaced by a sense of relief and something softer, something closer to what you’d always felt working with him.
You were sitting on one of the stools behind the counter, fiddling with the tiny fireworks set George had given you. He was nearby, organizing the shelves for what must’ve been the third time that evening. Every so often, you caught him glancing at you, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
“So,” George said, breaking the silence, “any plans for dinner? Or are you planning to eat all the leftover Canary Creams?”
You laughed, setting the fireworks box aside. “Not unless I want to spend the night squawking like a bird.”
“Well, you’d be a very charming bird,” he quipped, leaning against the counter with an exaggerated grin.
You rolled your eyes but couldn’t help smiling. “You’re ridiculous.”
“And you like me anyway,” he said, his tone teasing but his eyes soft. It wasn’t the first time he’d said those words today, but now, they felt more deliberate, more... certain.
“I guess I do,” you admitted, your cheeks warming slightly. “Though I wouldn’t mind liking you a little more if you treated me to dinner. You know, as a thank-you for not quitting on you this week.”
George’s grin widened. “Deal. I’ll even throw in dessert, but only if you promise not to let Fred eat all the pudding before we get there.”
“Pudding and fireworks? You’re really pulling out all the stops, Weasley.”
“Anything for you,” he said, the playfulness in his tone softening into something genuine.
You felt your heart skip a beat, and for a moment, you were both quiet, the weight of his words settling between you. It wasn’t the first time George had been sweet to you, but tonight, it felt different—less like a joke and more like a promise.
“Come on,” he said suddenly, holding out his hand. “Let’s get out of here before Fred decides to start another experiment.”
You hesitated for only a second before slipping your hand into his. His grip was warm and steady, and when he gave you a small tug to pull you to your feet, you didn’t resist.
As you walked toward the door, George reached into his pocket and pulled out his wand. With a quick flick, the tiny fireworks set you’d left on the counter sprang to life, bursting into glowing letters that spelled out Thank You in shimmering gold. You turned to look at him, your eyes wide with surprise.
“I know you already forgave me,” he said, his voice soft, “but I wanted to make sure you knew how much I mean it. I don’t know what I’d do without you, Y/N.”
Your heart swelled, and for a moment, you were too overwhelmed to respond. Instead, you stepped closer, standing on your toes to press a light kiss to his cheek. When you pulled back, George was grinning, his freckles standing out against the faint flush on his face.
“You’re lucky I love you,” you said, your voice teasing but warm.
“I’m the luckiest bloke in the world,” he replied, his grin widening as he held the door open for you. “Now, let’s get that dinner before I embarrass myself further.”
As you stepped out into the cool evening air, the shop behind you glowing faintly with the remnants of the firework, you felt lighter than you had in days. George’s hand brushed yours as you walked, and when his fingers finally laced through yours, you didn’t pull away.
Whatever the next day brought, you knew you’d be ready—as long as you had George by your side.
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starkeynation · 1 day ago
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Hi, pookie !!🎀 could you maybeee write something like mean!rafe being rough rough when doing it, taking all his anger out on us but it becomes too much and it hurts way too bad that we have to say the safeword (doesn't matter what word) so he immediately switches from mean!rafe to soft!rafe (lmao idk how to explain this very well sorryy) pls pls? Btw I luh ya lovey dovey pooks୨ৎ
english isn't my first language lol so I'm sorry if there's any grammatical mistakes in what I said😭🙈
HIII IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG. I wasn’t planning on to accept request since I’m only confident to write by my own ideas and just like this one, i’m scared I will procrastinate so much that it will take me too long to start writing. But since this is my first request and we’re mutuals so why not🤩 So THANKYOU SM for sending one and I appreciate you sm! Hope this meets your expectations and im sorry if it dont🥺
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Safe word : Red
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It is 3AM on a Friday night. You had fallen asleep on your couch while waiting for Rafe to finish his work. He promised to come to you straight after taking care of his business but he didn’t say he was gonna be late. Suddenly, you’re jolt awake by the loud slam of the door.
“Rafe..?” You murmur, blinking in confusion as you stare at the silhouette that just enters your dim lit living room.
“Shit…sorry, go back to sleep” Rafe says, as he walks down to your kitchen.
You take a glance at the clock hanging on your wall and follows Rafe to the kitchen. He is rummaging through your fridge, looking for god knows what. “Rafe, what are you doing?” you ask, looking at him as he continues making a mess.
“Im just trying to make a sandwich,” he replies. The way his voice blurs and the way he’s struggling to stand straight, you know he’s drunk. “It’s past 3, Rafe,” you say, your tone sounds a bit annoyed and confused as why your boyfriend is back home late and wasted.
“What? Can’t i make damn a sandwich at night?” He says, his eyebrows frown and his voice irritated. That’s not what you meant, you thought. But, you know you can’t have this talk right now cause he’s really out of it.
You sigh, “just…go sit okay, I’ll make the sandwich,” you murmur, grabbing the bread from his hand.
“Aww you will? You’re so kind baby, thank you,” he says, and proceeds to place multiple kisses on the back of your head, your temple, your cheek and now down to your jaw and your neck. “Mmmph…i need you baby,” he whispers, still dropping sloppy kisses all over you.
“You’re drunk.”
“Please baby,” he murmurs, grabbing your chin and pulls you in for a kiss. The kiss slowly starts to deepen and become intimate. You know you should tell him to sleep, get some rest, but the way he’s biting your lip, and how he taste so damn good even with the mixture of alcohol, you just couldn’t resist.
You wrap your hands around his neck, he grabs your waist and lifts you up. Your legs wrapped around his torso as he carries you upstairs to your room without breaking the kiss.
He drops you on the bed, helps you take off your nightgown and harshly push you to lay back. You gasp at his eagerness. He starts undressing himself and his lips crash onto yours again. The kiss is now rough and fill with desperation. He breaks the kiss and latches his lips onto the sensitive skin of your neck, the gentle pressure quickly turning into a heated suction, leaving a faint blush on your neck that slowly turns into a dark purple mark.
“Baby can you suck me?” He asks, as he pulls away from your neck. He gives you that slight pouty and doe eyes look. Again, how could you resist. So you nod to him as a yes and sits on the side of your bed as he stands up.
You start stroking his hard dick and place some kisses on his tip. After a few licks and teasing, you take his bulge into your mouth.
Rafe rolls his eyes in ecstasy, “fuck…yeah princess just like that,” he growls. He grabs your head and forces you take in all his length. “Good girl, who knows your pretty little mouth could take daddy’s huge cock so well huh,” he smirks. Your eyes start to become teary as you try your best not to gag while he deepens his cock in your mouth. At this point, he’s practically fucking your throat.
But he isn’t done. He takes out his dick and pushes you back on the bed. As he gets on top of you, he flips you around making you lie on your stomach. He then reaches his palm to your mouth, “spit,” he commands. You do.
He wipes your saliva on your entrance and takes you from behind. He thrust you without a warning making you moan out loud.
“Shit you’re always so tight,” he groans. He starts picking up the pace and each thrust are so deep in. As his hip clasps against your butt, he spanks it twice, harshly, leaving an immediate red mark on your ass. “You like this you dirty whore?” He murmurs, his voice deep and low.
Then, one of his hand wraps around the back of your neck and the other firmly grips your wrist. He’s harshly pressing down your neck while maintaining the pace making a tear escapes your eye and stings as it settles on your cheek.
The way he bury his cock in your throat, calling you a whore and fucks you so roughly, you know he’s angry and had a bad night. As a good girlfriend, you thought you could just let him take out his anger on you and help him take the edge off. But, it’s starting to hurt really bad now.
“Rafe…stop,” you whine.
“Stop…” he still doesn’t listen.
“Rafe! Red! Red!” You shout, your voice strained as you beg him to stop. Red is the safe word you and Rafe agreed to use way before this if the sex ever get too much, though, you never had to use it until now.
Rafe finally comes to his senses and realises that you’re in pain so he stops immediately. “Shit, baby are you ok? Fuck I’m sorry,” he says as he gets you off and looks at you full with concern.
You turn around, revealing your teary eyes and you push away his chest, “What the fuck Rafe? That hurts,” you sobs, your voice cracks.
“Im sorry, I’m so sorry,” he says as he wipes off your tears and cups your face. “Shit I don’t know what i was thinking..I shouldn’t have done that while i was drunk,” he continues. He pulls you in for a hug next. You try to break loose but he wouldn’t let you go.
“Please sweetheart, I’m so sorry. It’s just- i had a bad night, but i know i shouldn’t take it on you,” he apologises again, “God, I’m such an asshole..please forgive me.”
“Yeah, good that you’re aware,” you scoff. He grabs your shoulder and break the hug. “Please baby, I swear it won’t happen again..i love you, you know that…I’m really really sorry,” he says, his tone sincere, you know he’s telling the truth. “Look at me please,” he says, placing both of his hands on your cheek.
Eventually, you look at him in the eyes, in your dim dark room you still manage to see his crystal blue eyes. Of course, you could never stay mad at him. “I forgive you Rafe. But promise me you won’t crash out like this again,” you say, your voice slightly trembles from the cry you had.
“Yes! Yes, i promise,” he replies, pulling you back in into his arms. He kisses your forehead then to your temple, “I love you baby,” he whispers. “I love you too Rafe,” you say as you melt into his arms.
“So…you wanna talk what happened today?” You ask, breaking the silence. He lets out a soft sigh, “it’s just my dad again…but, I don’t want to talk to about it tonight. Let’s just go to sleep hmm?” He murmurs.
You whisper okay for a response and cuddle him to sleep for a comfort. Maybe tomorrow you’ll know the reason why he’s so stressed out.
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Dividers from @rafeyscurtainbangs
Another A/N: honestly guys idk if im good at smut..i prefer to stick with angst but my sex tape is almost at 1000 notes so who knows🤓
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magicaldestinyharmony · 2 days ago
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In Life and Death Pt. 4
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male!knight x female!count's daughter!reader part 4
CW: mentions of fire, burning bodies, fighting, beating, abuse, hunting of humans, death, killing, fatal wounds, blood, torture and whipping.
WC: 5.5k words
A/N: I don't know what happened guys I'm sorry (ToT) I blinked and it became this long. Enjoy I guess?
[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]
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“What’s your name?”
“What?” Lucca turns to the female voice beside him, perplexed at the question.
She should already know his name.
“I asked you what your name is,” the fifth daughter of Count Balcom repeats.
Lucca blinks again. Completely and utterly confused. “Why does it matter?” he asks.
“Well, since you’re in my care now, I think I should call you something other than ‘boy’ or ‘you’,” she says.
“You can call me ‘slave’ like everyone else does,” Lucca helpfully supplies.
Her face takes on an Are you crazy? look.
She doesn’t say anything else, clearly waiting for an answer to her earlier question. An answer she isn’t going to get. Lucca keeps his mouth shut, hoping the silence will get her to stop asking and leave. The quiet stretches out.
Finally, she jumps up from her perch on the stool beside his bed. “Fine! It’s obvious you aren’t going to tell me so I’m going to leave and you can keep your stupid name to yourself!”
Instead of feeling satisfied with getting what he wanted, he feels bothered that she’s leaving upset. 
“Wait!” his hand grabs her wrist before she can completely leave.
She cocks an eyebrow, silently demanding he let her go.
“Lucca,” he whispers.
“What?” she asks.
“Lucca,” he repeats, a little louder.
She smiles and sits back down. “Thank you for telling me.”
Lucca inclines his head.
“Can I call you ‘Lucca’?”
He blinks at the question, then nods.
She grins. “Thank you, Lucca.”
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“Mommy?” a much smaller Lucca peaked around the door of his parent’s bedroom.
A graceful woman brought her fingers to her lips, a silent indication to be quiet as she left the bed and approached her youngest son.
“Come, sweetheart, let’s go downstairs before we wake up your father.” The mother picked her son up in her arms and headed to the kitchen on the first floor.
She sat him on a chair, knelt in front of him and grabbed his hands. “Is everything okay, love?”
Lucca sniffled. “I had a nightmare.”
“Oh, Lucca, honey.” She pulled him into her arms again in a comforting hug.
“I woke up alone in the dark and that scared me,” Lucca admitted quietly.
His mom pulled him in even closer and patted his back.
They stayed like that for a while. Nothing like a mother's love to chase away the demons of the night.
“Lucca, love.” She pulled away enough just to wipe away the little boy's tears. “Do you know why I picked ‘Lucca’ as your name?”
Lucca shook his head.
His mom smiled and caressed his cheeks. “‘Lucca’ means ‘bringer of light’. I picked this name at the time you were born because the first time I held you in my arms, the sun's rays burst through clouds, bathing you in its golden light.
“The name sounded fitting. But as you grew up from a tiny infant to a strong, healthy child, I realized that this is the perfect name for you. Everything you do, you do with the biggest smile on your face. Your smile is radiant, my love. Just like the light.”
Lucca watched his mom speak, hanging on to her every word. And when sleep gripped his young form again, he fell to its clutches with a happy smile on his face.
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“Hurry up, Beck, Lucca!” A young girl waved at Lucca and their older brother, beckoning them closer.
“We're coming!” Both boys looked at each other and grinned.
Beck smirked and started sprinting. “Last one to Hazel is a rotten egg!”
“Hey! Not fair!” Lucca took after his brother, trying to reach his older sister first.
Beck, with his head start, reached Hazel. Lucca shuffled in a little later, bending over. “That’s not fair! You should have counted down first!”
“Too bad.” Beck smugly shrugged.
Lucca squinted his eyes at the older boy. Beck is the oldest of three children. Then it's Hazel and Lucca.
Lucca grinned mischievously. “Uh-oh, I don’t like that lo–” Beck started but Lucca lunged at him.
“Whoa!” Beck managed to evade the lunge but Lucca started chasing him around the meadow.
“Boys! That's enough! The picnic is all set up!” their mother called for them.
She sighed, a smile playing on her lips as her boys overlooked her call.
Her husband, the boys' father, laughed. “I'll go get them. Why don't you get Hazel started?”
Hazel reached the sheet and plopped down. Their mother smiled at her family’s antics and settled down beside Hazel.
“Dad! Let us down!” The boys struggled in their father's hold playfully as he neared the picnic. He set them on the sheet and sat next to them.
The family had fun out together all day.
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“Are you sure, Hazel?” Lucca asked.
“Yes, Dad gave me my allowance to use didn't he?” Hazel nodded.
“True. But we aren't supposed to go to the market alone,” Lucca hesitated.
“It'll be fine. We’re old enough aren’t we?” Hazel assured him. “And”–she wiggled her eyebrows–“Mom, Dad and Beck are gonna get home late. If we beat them, how are they gonna know?”
She grabbed his hand and pulled him with her.
“Do you think Beck would like this?” Hazel held up a wooden horse figurine.
“Maybe, he always wanted to ride a horse.” Lucca shrugged.
“Ugh.” Hazel set the figurine back down and sighed. “Why is he so hard to shop for? And you aren't any help at all!”
“You just find it hard,” he teased her. “I’m uninterested because I already got him his gift.” Lucca stuck his hands in his pocket.
Hazel sighed dramatically.
“Let's just go home now, Hazel.” Lucca looked up at the sky. “The sun is gonna set soon. If we don't start going home, we'll get there at night and Mom and Dad will know that we went out without permission..”
Hazel sighed dramatically again. “Fine, you're right. Let's go home.”
The two rented a carriage. Their home was located in the forest. To reach it, you had to go through a bend in the road that led straight to their house.
As the carriage reached the bend, Lucca perked up. He stared out the window intently.
“Stop!” He yelled out to the carriage driver.
The carriage screeched to a halt. “What's wrong, boy?”
Lucca caught Hazel's startled gaze. “Lucca? What's going on?”
Lucca smiled hesitantly. “It’s alright, Hazel. I just remembered that I never bought Beck a gift.”
“That’s not true! You told me you had a gift for him already!” Hazel stared at him with wide panicked eyes.
“I lied. I lied, okay?” Lucca stepped out from the carriage.
He turned around and held Hazel's hands. “Promise me you won't leave the carriage until you reach town.”
“But–”
“Promise me!”
Hazel took a deep breath. “Okay. Okay. Will… Will I see you again?”
Lucca smiled sadly. “I love you, Hazel. Forever and ever.”
Tears slid down her cheeks. “Lucca? What do you mean? Lucca?! Why are you say–?!”
Lucca slammed the door shut. Her fists pounded on the wood. “Lucca! Open the do–!”
He moved away, gave the carriage driver money and instructions to drive back to town and ran the rest of the way home.
Lucca stared at the hot, orange, gaping inferno swallowing his home.
Where was his family? His mom, dad and older brother?
Lucca gaped at the sight. He blinked, disbelieving what he was seeing.
He suddenly felt the need to do something. He raced towards the flames destroying his childhood memories.
“A kid! There's a kid running to the fire!”
“What?! Where did he come from!?”
“Is he in his right mind?!”
It was only when Lucca heard the voices, did he see the hooded figures in black. There were multiple of them, moving away from the glowing blaze. Their beady eyes peered at him.
Lucca ignored them and continued into the burning building.
“Mom?! Dad?!” he yelled around, looking for them. “Bec–!”
He gasped. There on the floor are the burnt bodies of his family. Lucca gagged at the smell of burning flesh and dropped to his knees.
“Beck? Beck?!” Lucca nudged the hand of his older brother.
The older brother who comforted him when injured.
The older brother who played with him.
The older brother who would sneak him food at night.
The older brother who had a smile that lit up the room.
The older brother who had an infectious laugh.
The older brother who's lifeless now.
The older brother who he can't see, hear, smell or touch anymore.
The scream that burst out of Lucca is gut-wrenching.
His face hardened.
He will never forgive the people who took his happiness from him.
Never.
He got up.
Ever.
Wiped his tears.
Ever.
Once Lucca stepped into the warm, dark air, it was with the determination to get revenge.
He glared at the men in black. He took one menacing step forward, then another. They snickered at him. What can a child do against many, grown mercenaries?
Lucca growled and picked up the nearest and heaviest branch. His roar had adult men hesitating.
“Capture him. Alive,” an authoritative voice called out from the darkness.
“Yes, my lord!” The mercenaries surrounded Lucca, holding swords.
A small fight ensues. Lucca managed to knock down five mercenaries before he was captured.
A hooded figure in red stepped out from the blackness. Lucca was made to kneel in front of him.
“You are one bold kid.” The man took off his hood, revealing his face.
“Do you know who I am, kid?” he demanded.
When Lucca refused to respond, the man gestured at one of the mercenaries.
The next thing he felt was the hot, searing pain of being kicked.
“Well?” the man urged him.
Lucca still didn't say anything.
Another gesture, another kick, more pain.
Lucca grunted.
The man raised an eyebrow.
“No,” Lucca spitted out.
“There you go. Was that so hard?” the mysterious man asked.
Lucca shrugged and went silent again.
“Well,” the man started. “I’m Count Balcom, the closest advisor to the emperor, one of the wealthiest nobles in the empire and have one of the best lineages.”
Lucca just stared blankly at the count. As a commoner, he wasn’t the most knowledgeable about nobles and their complicated ways.
Count Balcom walked around Lucca, giving him an appraising look.
“You would make for interesting prey.” He crouched and held Lucca’s chin up. “There’s fire in your eyes. I’m sure quenching it would feel fantastic.”
“I will never break. Never,” Lucca growled.
The count backed away and laughed. “It would be better if you cooperated.” He tapped his chin. “I believe a carriage was here. It was carrying your sister wasn’t it?”
Lucca’s eyes widened. “You leave her alone!”
Count Balcom laughed again and grinned wickedly. “If you cooperate, I’ll leave her alone.”
Lucca didn’t even hesitate. “If she stays safe I’ll come with you.”
The count gave an eerie smile. “I give you my word.” He turned to a nearby mercenary. “Take him to the wagon.”
The mercenary nodded and Count Balcom left in a flourish of red robes.
Lucca might have walked into the Balcom Manor willingly but it was hell on earth. He was abused daily and deprived of meals and water. He gave up figuring out time, in that damp, dark, dingy cell.
He hated it. What did he do to deserve this? What did his family do to deserve death?
These thoughts never left him. They circled and screamed. Wanting attention.
Yet he held on.
He must survive. He must survive. He must survive for Hazel. If he dies before he lets him he’ll kill her.
He ate whatever he was given and held on.
Then one day, Lucca was taken out of that gloomy cell. He was put on a wagon and taken to a forest.
When he saw the arrows and horses, he realized what the count meant by ‘prey’. He was going to be hunted.
He was instructed to stay in a small, open field in the woods. The field was beautiful with big trees and colourful flowers. It wasn’t a bad place to die.
He survived for Hazel. Keep on living, okay, Hazel?
When the arrow hit his heart, he had one last thought, he would finally be able to see his loving family again.
However, when Lucca opened his eyes, it wasn’t to the sight of his late family. It was to the sight of a mass of people yelling.
“The Divine Warrior woke up!”
“It’s the Divine Warrior!”
“Save us, Divine Warrior!”
Lucca was confused. What was going on?!
The High Priest explained it all.
Apparently every 1000 years, the evil dragon, Tanan, manages to break the seal placed on him. And every 100 years a Divine Warrior is born.
The Divine Warrior has a stronger physique, superior senses, a good intuition, heals faster, uses aura and has three lives. That means that the Divine Warrior has two other chances at life if death gets to them. 
The Divine Warrior awakens when they turn 18. If they die before that, their soul is preserved at the Grand Temple. Once their soul turns 18, they awaken in their older body. Once awakened, two marks appear on the Divine Warrior’s hand. It is only visible to them and counts how many lives they have left.
The job of the Divine Warrior is to reseal Tanan. If Tanan hasn’t broken free yet, their job is to save the people from evil beasts who are his underlings.
As of right now, Lucca has already lost one life, courtesy of Count Balcom.
“I see,” Lucca said, staring out the window. “So now what?”
“Now,” the High Priest began. “Now, you start your training. It is soon time for the evil dragon to break free.”
“Very well.” Lucca turned to face the older man. “But first, I want you to find someone for me.”
The High Priest nodded. “Sure. Who are they?”
“Hazel. Her name is Hazel Puhlavan.”
“What?! She's what?!” Lucca slammed his fist on his mahogany desk.
“I apologize, Your Eminence. Hazel Puhlavan is dead,” the High Priest repeated.
Lucca shoved away from his desk. She was dead?!
“But how?! I did exactly as he said,” he murmured.
Lucca whirled around to face the man. “How? No, when?”
The High Priest bowed slightly, fearing the Divine Warrior’s wrath. “She was killed on a carriage three years ago. It seemed like murder but the case was closed because of insufficient evidence.”
“Damn it!” The desk received another punch.
He shouldn't have trusted that bastard's words. 
Hazel was dead but he was here and alive.
Lucca dropped back into his seat. “You're dismissed.”
The High Priest immediately scurried off.
Lucca sighed. He survived this long for what? To find out that the fate of the world rests in his hands? To find out that his sister is dead?
What did he do to deserve this?
“Hahaha! A mere mortal tries to defeat me? Me, the great Tanan?!”
Lucca wondered if all the Divine Warriors before him had to go through this. The evil dragon is very full of himself.
“Come at me, mortal. You'll never be able to defeat me!”
Lucca gripped the Divine Sword. It's the Divine Warrior’s ultimate weapon. It's crafted from lodyed, a precious stone given to Divine Warriors. It allows them to imbue the Divine Sword with aura.
Red light glinted on the silver, polished blade, giving it a crimson look. With Tanan came, what the temple calls, the Haur Moon. It's the source of his power and hangs in the sky. Shadows cast the field of the face-off in black. The combination of red and black gave the place an ominous feeling.
Tanan stood tall, taunting Lucca with his prowess.
“If you're so great, how come you keep getting resealed?” Lucca raised an eyebrow.
“How dare you! You're a mere human!” Tanan lunged at Lucca in anger. 
A deadly fight starts.
The evil dragon shot a fireball. Lucca jumped away to avoid it.
The bloody dance continued. Lucca swung his sword. It grazed the dragon’s arm. Tanan roared. His massive tail came crashing down beside Lucca, creating a big dust cloud causing him to cough. 
The dust blocked his vision. His head snapped up just in time to see the mighty tail strike again. Lucca raised his sword to injure and ran backwards, keeping the sword up. He left a gaping, bloody wound in his wake. Tanan howled, no doubt in pain.
“Where are you, human?! I will destroy you!”
While Tanan frantically looked around for him, Lucca used the shadows to his advantage. He crept up on Tanan. Using his aura to propel him upwards, Lucca jumped to land the final strike on Tanan's head.
“There you are!” the dragon suddenly turned around, his eyes gleaming wickedly. 
Lucca's own eyes widened in surprise.
Tanan struck Lucca with his claw. He barely eluded the fatal point but it still pierced his arm.
“Ugh.” Lucca got the wind knocked out of him when his back hit the ground.
With his arm bleeding, Lucca stood again. He grabbed his sword.
It was time to end this. It was Lucca or the dragon.
Lucca jumped again and growled. He imbued the Divine Sword with aura. When he penetrated the hard layer of scales and the soft tissue under, so did Tanan's sharp claw into his torso.
Lucca heaved as blood rushed up his throat. He fell with a thud and coughed some more.
Tanan thundered and collapsed in a heap on the field. The evil dragon has finally been defeated.
I have to perform the sealing spell.
Lucca blinked against the blackness filling his vision. He coughed up more blood.
I have to–
The blackness consumed him.
Lucca convulsed and opened his eyes. The once red field was now bathed in a reddish-orange glow. Lucca spied the sun sinking below the horizon. The Haur Moon was gone.
He sighed. Everything was finally over. Two gruelling years of training have finally paid off.
Lucca spotted Tanan’s black form.
Well, everything was mostly over.
He sat up and propped his arm on his knee. The gash Tanan left him has healed completely. No matter how many times it happened, Lucca’s ability to quickly heal never ceased to amaze him.
A glance at his right hand told him what he feared. He lost another life. Only one gold mark remained. It sparkled in the glow of the sunset. Lucca had one more chance at life.
Lucca sighed again and raised his tired form. He trudged over to the source of much grief and horror.
With the evil dragon defeated, Lucca can finally breathe easy.
It would also be time for his vengeance.
After finishing the sealing spell, Lucca headed out to perform the necessary steps to complete his revenge.
He would amass great power and wealth. And once he did, he would destroy Count Balcom.
Screams filled the dim halls of Balcom Manor.
“No! Please! Please have mercy!” A maid cried at his feet.
Lucca silenced her sobs. He didn't even twitch at the smell and sight of red oozing out of the corpse on the heart pine wood floors.
The staff that weren't on the floor cowered. Lucca brandished his sword and restained the wood red.
Yells echoed in his ears but he kept moving.
Lucca would get his revenge.
“Stop right there, you monster!”
He looked up to see a flock of knights blocking his advance.
“You won’t make it past us!” The knights all pointed their blades at him.
Lucca laughed. His face hardened and he charged. The sound of piercing flesh reverberated in the hallway.
“Wa-wait! Please spare me!” The last knight recoiled.
“Where is Count Balcom?” Lucca prompted.
“H-he’s in the ballroom. The re-rest of the ar-army is with him,” the cowering man gulped.
“Thanks.” Lucca stabbed the knight.
He stepped over the body and continued in the direction of the ballroom.
When Lucca reached the immense mahogany doors, his sword was dripping and his dark blue clothes were splattered with the same liquid.
When the doors swung open, shouts rang out.
“Stop! Drop your weapon!”
“Surrender and you might be spared!”
But one voice stood out. “You’re one brave young man. Your rampage ends here!” Lucca recognized the condescending tone.
He scoffed. All of his staff lay dead and all he did was barricade himself here.
Lucca swung his sword, cutting knights down left and right.
Count Balcom stared in horror at the man who was slaughtering his knights. A wary smile played on the count’s face. He was arrogant enough to think he was invincible. However, when Lucca towered over him, the smile fell off his face.
“Wait! Tell me what you want! Money? Power? Women?” Count Balcom reeled and Lucca stepped forward.
“If you want women, I have plenty of daugh–”
“Why did you burn that house in the forest five years ago?” Lucca cut him off.
Confusion marked the man’s face. “What?”
“And the girl. Why did you kill the girl in the carriage?” Lucca asked again.
After a long silence, it became apparent that the count didn’t know what Lucca was asking.
Lucca laughed. It was a sad, bitter and angry sound.
All that fury and resentment and anticipation for revenge. The five years he spent bending to powerful figures to get honour and wealth. They all amount to nothing if he couldn’t inflict pain and fear upon Count Balcom’s haughty face.
In his daze, Lucca didn’t notice when Count Balcom picked up a sword from a fallen knight.
“Die, you filthy peasant!” The count sloppily swung the sword in a feeble attempt at killing.
Lucca easily avoided the blade and retorted with a swing of his own. His sword plunged swiftly into Count Balcom's chest.
“I hope you rot in hell,” Lucca whispered in the count’s ear.
Lucca left the man in a bloody heap on the once beautiful heartwood floors and took off to find the rest of the Balcom family.
Now there was one left. The fifth daughter.
Lucca approached the fifth daughter’s chambers. She was the last piece to complete his revenge.
He opened the doors and an eerie creak sounded out. He found her standing in the room with her back to him. The moonlight barely illuminated her form.
Lucca’s sword grazed the wooden floors. He stopped right behind the woman. He knew she was the fifth daughter, yet he asked anyway, “Are you the fifth daughter of Count Balcom?”
She turned around and said, “No. I think you have the wrong person.”
Lucca scowled. He wasn’t expecting the sarcasm. The woman gave him a once-over.
Silence rang out. Big and heavy.
“Spare me!” cut the sinister quiet.
She boldly stared into his eyes.
“No.” He didn’t hesitate. No one associated with the Balcom name will live. He would make sure of it.
The woman frowned. “If-if I saved you and prevented that ‘incident’, would you spare me?”
He snickered. Nothing anyone did would erase the pain, guilt and sorrow. It won’t bring his family back to life, would it?
“No. The only way I would spare you is if you drain all of the Balcom blood from your body. Only then would you be spared.” As long as the Balcom blood ran through her veins he would kill her.
She flinched at the gleam of his ruby-coloured sword. With a sudden movement, the woman swallowed something and doubled over in pain. Lucca hesitated, confused. But just as quickly, she fell to the floor and clutched her chest.
A weird feeling washed over him. He blinked. However, when he opened his eyes again, it wasn't to the moonlit room.
◇◇◇
“Is he still in the wagon?” a masculine voice asked.
“Yeah, I made sure of it. The last thing we need is Count Balcom’s anger,” another answered.
Lucca looked around him, very bewildered. What he saw was an oak wood wagon. Crates and barrels filled it, crowding the small space. The contents were jostled around with the caravan’s movements.
He remembered this wagon. Lucca was brought to Balcom Manor on this wagon. Was this an illusion? Did that woman cast some spell on him?
The caravan abruptly halted to a stop. Lucca heard gravel crunching under leather boots before the back covering was removed.
“Come on, kid. Get out. Don’t pull any tricks or the girl gets it.” The same grotesque mercenary and the same words.
This wasn’t making any sense.
Lucca was roughly pulled out of the wagon and brought before Count Balcom.
“Let’s go, son. I’ll show you your new home.” The count stood at the front doors with a conceited grin on his lips.
He motioned for Lucca to go in first. Stepping inside, Lucca saw the foyer. The front hall was beautifully decorated. A grand and alluring glass chandelier graced the cream-coloured plaster ceiling. An immense wooden staircase stood at the back of the space. Lots of vases with colourful flowers filled the chestnut-coloured corners. In the heart of it, the staff and the occupants of the manor bowed in greeting of its owner.
A girl eased out of her curtsy and focused on him. She looked like a younger version of the fifth daughter. She frowned in confusion at the sight of him.
Did she place a curse on him? Was he now fated to relive the grief, regret and misery? Did she think that having him relive all of that would spare her?
Well, she was mistaken. He would never spare a living Balcom. Just like he lost everything and everyone he held dear and fell into misery he would make sure that they felt despair too.
“Hey, you!” Count Balcom rudely bellowed from behind him. “Take the boy to the dungeons.”
A maid nodded and hurried him down. Down to darkness and torture.
Lucca blinked and saw feminine features. The fifth daughter peered down at him.
“Are you okay?” she asked. “I tried to be as gentle as possible. I’m sorry if it hurts.” 
Only then did Lucca notice the salve and gauze sitting beside the girl. The throb on his back was evidence of her treatment.
Was this some kind of new game? A new form of torture?
She pulled out bread from her bag. “Here, I got you some food.”
Lucca stared at her. Was she going to show him kindness and then brutally stab him in the back? Was she going to give him light in this blackness and then take it away?
She took out a pastel pink handkerchief and placed it with the bread in front of him.
He blinked three times.
“Don’t worry! I didn’t do anything to the bread. It’s not poisoned or anything,” she affirmed.
When he didn’t say anything, she sighed. “Alright. I’ll leave you alone.” She stood and dusted herself off. “I’ll come back tomorrow to heal your wounds and get you some food!”
Her absence didn’t quiet his raging thoughts.
The same events over the next 10 years repeated themselves. Getting killed at Count Balcom’s hand, waking up as the Divine Warrior, resealing Tanan and currying favour with the kings of the continent.
The only change was the death of Count Balcom’s fifth daughter. He found her in the same room but he managed to cut her down and she didn’t swallow anything.
Yet the same strange feeling engulfed him again.
◇◇◇
“He-her Ladyship isn't at th-the manor,” the attendant stammered.
“Explain,” Lucca urged.
“Sh-she left as so-soon as she turned 18. No one has he-heard anything from her ever since.”
Lucca laughed. So she was the one who sent him back in time. Did she think leaving would stop him?
With a slash of his sword, Lucca stopped the sputtering man in his tracks. “Thanks.”
The fluttering of Lucca's cape echoed in the soundless manor as he left in pursuit of the runaway lady.
“There you are. I finally found you,” Lucca spoke to her turned form.
She froze. “I admit that leaving the empire was a smart move on your part. It was quite hard to track you down,” Lucca continued.
She didn’t say anything.
“Well, I guess the chase ends here.” Lucca raised his sword and struck her.
For some reason, the sight of her blood on his sword and the sand made him frown. And the same weird feeling from before made him frown harder.
◇◇◇
At the sight of the same oak wood wagon for the fourth time, Lucca sighed deeply.
These time loops need to stop. And the fifth daughter of Count Balcom has the answer.
This time, Count Balcom’s fifth daughter got married to a baron in the countryside.
“Stupid wench! You dare talk back to me? If I tell you to do something, you do it! Why do you never learn?! Do I always have to beat you for you to understand?!”
Lucca shook as he saw the man strike her.
How dare he hurt her?
Lucca kicked down the door and pulled out his sword.
“Who dares to interrupt me?! I specifi–” Lucca didn't let him finish. He landed a blow on his jaw.
“Ho-how dare you!” the man spluttered on the floor.
Lucca scoffed. This man has some guts.
With a slash, the man’s head rolled. A low shriek made him turn around. The sight of the fifth daughter hunched over on the ground reminded him of his purpose.
The haze of anger cleared and the red faded away. He loomed over her.
What was he doing? She was the daughter of his enemy. He couldn’t be feeling bad for her. She was the reason he was reliving his life for the fourth time.
With another slash, Lucca killed her. And on cue, the strange feeling came again.
◇◇◇
“Th-the lady has gone crazy!”
“She was de-demanding ways to drain her bl-blood!”
“Count Balcom or-ordered her to re-re-recuperate at the southern villa!”
“She hurts herself all the time!”
“She has truly gone insane!”
Lucca’s steps reverberated in the hall of the Balcom Southern Villa. It wasn’t hard to locate. A quick interrogation of the servants also told him where the room of its occupant was.
He stopped at the door. Through hell or high water, I will find you and kill you.
Lucca opened the oak wood door. The room was nicely done in shades of light blue and white. But the appearance of the fifth daughter made him frown.
She was tucked into bed. But the iron chains holding her hands up were a morose contrast to the elegant room. Her head was down, her hair a curtain to her face.
He trod into the room and she looked up. The sight of her face was worse. Scratches lined her cheeks and there were bags under her eyes. Her body was skinny and marred by scars and wounds. Her eyes remained blank as she took him in.
For some reason, Lucca’s heart hurt. With a jolt, he realized that he hated seeing her like this. Helpless and wounded.
But Lucca wasn’t one for emotions. So he struck her anyway. His eyes closed in anticipation of the same feeling.
◇◇◇
She approached him. “Hello. Are you alright?”
“For injuring my precious daughter, you will receive 15 whips.” The count grinned creepily.
With a grip on her head, the girl responded, “N-no. Wh-when wronged, we sh-should give back tenfold what we received. I-it’s the Balcom way, right?”
“Take him to the dungeons and make sure to give him his punishment.” With that, Count Balcom departed.
At the intense throbbing from the whip marks, Lucca opened his eyes. He saw Count Balcom’s fifth daughter and scowled. She glared at him, shook her head and continued working.
She patched up his last wound, left some bread and got up. He watched her in silence. Why did she keep helping him, a murderer? No matter how many times he killed her, she treated him without fail.
“Why do you care?” His voice was a little hoarse.
“You got hurt because of me. Of course, I care,” she said firmly.
He scoffed and she shrugged.
She started leaving and Lucca crushed the urge to stop her. To tell her to stay. To tell her that she was the only kindness he experienced through all the time loops. To tell her that he–no he shouldn’t be having these thoughts. She was the daughter of his enemy and, therefore, his enemy as well.
Lucca turned to his side, giving her his back. He heard her footsteps fade away as he told himself to not be emotional. He couldn’t afford it. Survival wasn’t for the weak and emotional. And he certainly wasn’t weak and emotional.
◇◇◇
“Lucca! Are you listening to me?” Count Balcom’s fifth daughter exclaims.
“Ah.” Lucca nods.
She smiles. “So, as I was saying–” she continues telling her tale.
Truth is, Lucca didn't hear most of her story. He was too busy watching her animatedly talking.
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A Song of Ice & Shadow
Part 16
You can read previous chapters here.
Summary: An unexpected visit from Elain triggers Y/n, leading her to push everyone away again, but Azriel sees through her defenses. She begins to gain partial control over her powers after an emotional outburst and testing a new theory.
Warnings: angst, mention of death, and despair.
WC: 4.2K
The next time Y/n trained with Cassian, her demeanor was colder than usual. She didn’t even greet him, didn’t acknowledge him, she simply resumed her position without a word.
“You’re mad at me?” Cassian asked, his brows drawing together.
“I don’t care about you enough to be mad,” she snapped, glaring at him before returning to her exercise.
Cassian sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry about the other day. I didn’t mean to upset you.”
“Let’s just train,” she replied curtly, shutting him down. And back to the beginning they went.
Y/n was already in a foul mood that morning, but when Elain came uninvited, it tipped her over the edge. First, she had spoken to Nesta, and that had gone as poorly as expected. Hoping for a better outcome, Elain turned to Y/n. But she was wrong. 
When Y/n entered her room and found Elain seated in her armchair, her mood soured further.
“What are you doing here?” she demanded, her voice sharp. There were no greetings, no pleasantries, no trace of affection for her younger sister. Y/n saw Elain’s actions when she packed her belongings as a betrayal.
“I came to see you,” Elain said softly.
“Bold of you to assume I want anything to do with you,” Y/n shot back, her tone cutting.
“Y/n, don’t be like that.”
“You’re a traitorous bitch,” Y/n spat. “Nesta and I sat by your side for weeks while you refused to eat or drink. We didn’t interfere. We let you grieve. Gave you all the time you needed. No one seemed to have a problem with that.”
“You and Nesta were indulging in dangerous activities,” Elain argued, her tone hesitant but firm.
“Not eating and drinking are dangerous too,” Y/n retorted. “I just can’t believe you of all people would turn out to be a treacherous snake. All for what? So you can join Feyre’s little circle of clowns who think themselves better than everyone else?”
“You know that’s not true,” Elain protested, tears welling in her eyes.
“Isn’t it? Because the way I see it, the minute you got the opportunity to switch sides, you took it.”
“There are no sides, Y/n. You’re my sister, and I love you.”
“My sister died a long time ago,” Y/n said coldly, her voice barely above a whisper. “She was killed by the King of Hybern when he threw her into that damned Cauldron.” Angry words, full of hurt. Whether she meant them or not, it didn't matter, they already struck their target. 
“I-” Elain’s sucked in a sharp breath, tears slipping down her cheeks. “If you thought so, why did you stay by my side after?”
“Because I thought there was a part of my sister left in you. But I was wrong,” Y/n said, her voice trembling with restrained fury. “You’re just like the rest of them now. A High Fae, the very kind I despise.” More poisoned arrows, her tone dripping with hatred. If Elain didn’t leave soon, she didn’t know if she could stop herself.
“You don’t mean that,” Elain whispered, her voice breaking.
“I.mean.every.word,” Y/n enunciated harshly.
“You and Nesta are the same.”
“I’m worse,” Y/n said darkly. “Now leave, I don’t want to see you again.”
Cassian had barely managed to calm Rhys down after Elain stormed out, tears streaming down her face, telling him her sisters weren’t improving, weren’t even trying. She’d spent less than five minutes with either of them and had concluded that. After Rhys and Elain left, Cassian didn’t know where to start and who to talk to first.
From her room, Y/n heard the heated argument between Cassian and Nesta. Her fists clenched at her sides, nails digging into her palms until they broke the skin. Tiny beads of blood welled up, leaving faint red streaks on her hands.
Unable to stand the confines of her room any longer, she headed to the roof for fresh air. Minutes later, Cassian followed her, his steps heavy with frustration. 
“What the fuck happened with Elain?” he demanded, his voice harsh as he crossed his arms.
Y/n didn’t even turn to look at him. “You couldn’t get an answer from Nesta, so now you’re coming after me?”
“They think neither of you are improving.”
“Ah,” Y/n said bitterly, her tone dripping with mockery. “So this was an evaluation of our progress?”
“That’s not what I meant-“
“It’s true, though, isn’t it? And the best part? I don't care. I don’t care what Elain thinks of me, what Feyre, your High Lord, or anyone else does.”
Cassian frowned, his hands dropping to his sides. “You used to go head-to-head with anyone who dared look at your sisters the wrong way. And now this?”
“Things change,” she said coolly. “People change. And it’s not always for the better.”
“Not you,” he insisted, his voice softening. “Not this. There was nothing that could make you turn your back on your sisters.”
“They made their choice. And I made mine.”
“So, what?” he asked, his voice rising slightly. “Now you’re just going to push everyone away like Nesta? Pretend you don’t care?”
“I SAID STOP COMPARING ME TO HER!” Y/n’s voice thundered, and with it, the sky answered. Lightning rippled through the clouds, illuminating the roof as rain began to fall. 
Cassian’s eyes widened a bit, his shoulders stiffening. “So you still have your powers?”
“Get out of here, General,” she muttered, her voice eerily calm. “Before I hurt you.”
“I’m not afraid of you.”
“You should be,” she warned, her eyes glowing faintly as the storm above intensified. “I’m barely containing myself. I need you to leave before I lose control.”
Cassian studied her for a moment longer, his expression torn between concern and reluctant understanding. He realized she wasn’t threatening him but trying to contain the rest of her powers so she wouldn’t hurt him. She was holding back, but the effort wouldn’t last. If she continued suppressing it, she would explode, and he’d be caught in the aftermath. With a heavy sigh, he stepped back and left, casting one last glance over his shoulder before disappearing into the house.
Once he was gone, Y/n exhaled shakily, her fists still clenched at her sides. The storm above rumbled, the rain coming down harder now. She tilted her head back, letting the cold drops hit her face. And then, she let go.
The sky erupted. Lightning flashed across the dark clouds in jagged streaks, illuminating the heavens as thunder cracked violently around her. Y/n stood still, unflinching, as the tempest mirrored the chaos within. For the first time, she didn’t fight it, didn’t try to rein it in. She let her powers surge outward, merging with the storm above.
The release was almost euphoric. The rage, the pain, the frustration, it all poured out of her, feeding the storm. For once, she didn’t fear her power. She embraced it- owned it. She felt untouchable, invincible, as the rain drenched her to the bone, her heart pounding in her chest and her breaths coming fast and shallow. 
This power- it was something she had never viewed this way before. No longer something to be restrained or feared, it was a force to wield, to command. It was freeing, exhilarating. Now she finally understood- it was something to die for, and it was all hers.
When the tempest began to wane, her breaths steadied, and the rain slowed, turning into delicate snowflakes. 
This time, she did not faint. She had braced herself. She exhaled deeply, the last of her energy ebbing away, leaving her drained but at peace.
That night, as she prepared to sleep, a knock sounded at her door. She groaned softly, tugging her robe tighter around her as she moved to answer. To her surprise, Azriel stood on the other side, his wings tucked neatly behind him.
“Can I help you?” she asked, her tone neutral. Her long braid was half undone, and her transparent robe revealed the nightgown beneath it.
Azriel’s eyes flicked downward for the briefest moment before meeting hers again. “May I come in?”
She hesitated, her hand tightening on the door. After a moment, she sighed and stepped aside, allowing him in. Once he was inside, she closed the door and turned to face him, only to find him standing closer than she expected. She took an instinctive step back as his breath brushed her skin, her pulse quickening despite herself.
“What do you want?” she asked, her voice quieter now, unsure.
“I heard about what happened today,” he said, his tone soft.
Her eyes narrowed slightly. “I’m not in the mood to argue.”
“I haven’t come to argue with you.”
“Then why are you here?”
“I came to check on you,” he said simply, his gaze unwavering. “See how you were feeling.”
Her lips twisted into a faint, mocking smile. “Magnificent.”
“I’m serious,” Azriel said, his voice dropping a notch.
“So am I,” she countered. “I no longer fear my powers. I fully embraced them today, and it felt amazing. Freeing.”
A faint line appeared on his forehead as his eyebrows pinched. “So the thunderstorm was all you?”
She raised a brow. “Do you have them here often?”
He shook his head.
“Then you have your answer.”
“Do you know what triggered it?” he asked, his tone careful, measured.
Y/n’s expression shifted, “Rage, I think. This time it was rage. The other time- times, it was a mix of different emotions. The first time, it was fear. The second, pain. And now, rage.” She paused, meeting his gaze. “But every time, it happened when my emotions were…amplified.” 
She hesitated before continuing. “Today, after I let go, I felt in control. At first, I couldn’t stop it, but as it poured out of me, I realized I didn’t want it to stop. The power, it was alluring.”
Azriel studied her carefully, his shadows swirling faintly at his shoulders. “You weren’t scared?”
“Not one bit.”
“Can you summon it now?” he asked after a pause.
She blinked, taken aback by the question. “I…I don’t know.”
“Could you try?” he pressed.
“Why?”
“Don’t you want to know if you can harness it any time you want?” he countered.
Y/n’s expression darkened, a flicker of suspicion crossing her features. “Is that all? Or do you want to see if I am a danger to the people around me?”
“If you were, I wouldn’t ask you to try,” he replied calmly.
“Easy for you to say,” she muttered almost bitterly. “You have your shields and shadows.”
His gaze softened. “I know you wouldn’t hurt the people you care about.”
“That’s not true,” she mumbled sourly.
“Physically, I mean,” he clarified. “Now, could you please show me?”
“But I’m not feeling anything right now,” she admitted, her voice softer.
“Does it matter which emotion it is?”
“I don’t know. So far, it’s been different each time.”
“May I try something?” he asked, stepping closer.
“Like what?” she asked warily, eyeing him.
“Close your eyes,” Azriel instructed and she raised a skeptical brow.
“Just trust me on this,” he said, his gaze fixed on her.
Y/n sighed but complied, closing her eyes reluctantly. 
He moved closer, his hand brushing hers before taking it gently in his grasp. She flinched at the contact, but he tightened his hold just enough to stop her from pulling away. 
“What are you doing?” she asked, opening her eyes. 
“Just trust me,” he repeated, his voice a murmur. “Close your eyes.”
She huffed, her skepticism plain. “I don’t think I can do that while you're holding my hand hostage.”
He snorted at her choice of words, a faint smile tugging at his lips. “I won’t bite, I promise.”
She rolled her eyes but closed them again, letting out a resigned sigh. “Alright, you have one chance.” Why she agreed and listened to his instructions, she couldn’t quite explain.
His thumb traced slow, soothing circles over the back of her hand as he stepped behind her. His other hand gently lifted the braid that rested over her neck, letting it fall to one side. The soft brush of his fingers against her skin sent a shiver down her spine.
“What exactly are you trying to achieve here?” she asked, her voice tinged with suspicion. She tried to glance over her shoulder, but he stilled her with a quiet word.
“Now,” he said gently, “picture the most beautiful place you can think of.”
She frowned mildly but followed his instruction. “Alright. Now what?”
“Think of someone you love,” he said quietly.
Her brows knitted together, her expression tightening. “You’re aiming for the wrong emotion,” she said bluntly. “My feelings are… very complicated right now. I don’t even know if I’m capable of love anymore.” 
“You are,” he replied firmly, his grip on her hand steady. “I’ve seen it– in the way you love your sisters, even if it doesn’t seem that way right now.”
Y/n said nothing, her lips pressing into a thin line.
Azriel’s tone softened as he added, “But that’s not what I was aiming for. I meant something- someone… more intimate.”
“Like a lover?” she asked dryly.
“Exactly.”
“That doesn’t make sense.”
“What doesn’t?”
“You’re asking me to think about someone I love,” she began, frowning again, “but if I presumably loved someone in the past and we’re not together anymore, it means I don’t love them anymore. So this doesn’t make sense.” 
She opened her eyes and turned to face him, her brows furrowing as she questioned his logic. The motion brought their faces closer than she’d realized, the tip of her nose brushing against his. The unintended closeness startled her, her breath hitching as a rush of heat surged through her. Her heart skipped a beat, the scent of cedar and night-chilled mist filling the small space between them. Her pulse quickened, and she struggled to ignore the pull she felt, the way her body seemed to react on its own.
In that fleeting moment, a jolt of energy sparked between them, crackling at her fingertips and sending a faint shiver up her spine.
Azriel’s gaze didn’t waver, his expression unreadable as the faint crackle of electricity escaped from her fingertips. A flicker of lightning danced across the sky outside, its glow briefly illuminating the room.
“There,” he murmured as he gestured toward the window behind her.
Y/n blinked, the weight of what just happened slowly sinking in. Her heart raced as she turned her face away from him to check. He hadn’t let go of her hand, not that either of them seemed to notice in the moment. 
“What did you think of just now?” he asked, his tone careful, though his gaze remained fixed on her.
Y/n swallowed hard, her throat dry. A simple question, yet it felt impossible to answer. What could she say? That it had been him? That the proximity, his presence, had been enough to shatter her defenses and ignite her power? Her pulse roared in her ears, she couldn’t lie to him, but she also couldn’t tell him the truth. So she settled on deflection. 
She closed her eyes again, forcing her focus on that feeling, that ripple of power coursing through her. No storm this time, but lightning struck and struck, sharp and controlled. Azriel watched intently as she concentrated, her face set with determination. The temperature in the room dropped noticeably, an eerie calm settling over them.
“Congratulations,” he said quietly. “You seem to be able to summon it at will.” He let out a condensed breath, his shadows flickering subtly around him.
She finally opened her eyes, and the lightning ceased. “I might be able to control it once it’s started,” she admitted, her voice edged with a trace of frustration, “but I didn’t summon it. It just… happened and that’s the part I need to master.”
“Well I am no expert, but I know someone who could help you,” he offered carefully.
“No.” Her reply was immediate and sharp. She stepped back from him, her hand slipping out of his grasp as she put distance between them. “I don’t want anything to do with her.”
“How do you even know who I was going to suggest?” Azriel asked, his tone even but curious.
“You were going to say your High Lord’s second-in-command,” she replied, folding her arms across her chest. “I won’t see her or anyone from your little circle of friends. It’s enough that I’m training with your brother. Don’t push my limits.”
Azriel sighed, the corners of his mouth tightening. “I wasn’t going to. It was just a suggestion.”
“One you knew I’d never agree to,” she countered, her voice thick with irritation. “Yet you still brought it up… you should leave.”
His expression tightened, a faint furrow appearing between his brows. “Are you always so easily irritable?”
She let out a bitter laugh. “I am trying my best to be civil, but you lot don’t make it easy.”
“Is that why you surrounded yourself with all those drug addicts?” Azriel blurted. “Because they couldn’t form two sentences? Couldn’t get to know you?”
Her eyes flashed with anger as she met his gaze. “I surrounded myself with them because they’re as miserable as I am,” she snapped. “We understood each other. And we didn’t need to talk about our feelings. There’s a bliss in forgetting, and all you lot want to do is shove me into a world where everyone is happy and perfect, I despise it- despise them.”
Azriel didn’t interrupt, his face still unreadable as she continued.
“At least with them,” she went on, her voice taut with frustration, ”being around those people you so disapprove of did not make me feel like shit. They didn’t judge me or force me to do anything I didn’t want to. I cannot say the same about your friends.” Her gaze narrowed, anger and vulnerability flashing in equal measure. “And don’t tell me what you’re doing is because you care about me, and that I’m going down the wrong path, and that it’s for my best, blah, blah, blah. I’m not stupid, Shadowsinger. I know what I’m doing.” Her voice broke a bit as she finished, barely above a whisper. “I just don’t have the will to live anymore.” 
The room fell into an oppressive silence. Y/n’s chest heaved with the weight of her confession, her gaze fixed firmly on the ground. She refused to meet his gaze, hating how her voice had betrayed her, as her carefully constructed walls crumbled under his quiet presence. She hated it all, every part of it- the way he seemed to see through her, the way he refused to leave, the way he always managed to slip past the barriers she worked so hard to maintain. The way he made her heart soften at times, despite her best efforts. The way, even after she’d pushed him away, he always found a way back it
This day had been long and horrible. She’d just shown Azriel a side of herself that she’d never shown anyone, confessed something she hadn’t even dared to voice aloud before. 
“That’s a lie,” Azriel said softly. His tone wasn’t mocking, but firm, yet gentle. “If that were true, you would’ve ended your life.”
Y/n’s shoulders sagged, a long, broken sigh escaping her lips. “That’s where you’re wrong. If I did, everything would stop. I don’t deserve a quick and painless ending.” Her voice cracked once again, and she hated herself for it.
What was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she stop? Why couldn’t she push him away this time? Why was she confessing all of this? Stop- she needed to stop.
Azriel’s hazel eyes darkened, his shadows tightening around him. “So you’re punishing yourself?”
She drew in a shuddering breath, then exhaled slowly. “I said enough,” she whispered, a faint tremor in her tone.
Azriel didn’t push further, sensing the thin thread of control she clung to. Instead, he shifted the subject suddenly. “Your theory was right.” 
“What?” She blinked in confusion.
“Your powers,” he explained, gesturing toward the window where another crack of lightning lit up the sky. “They’re connected to how you feel. When your emotions are heightened, they manifest.” Her eyes followed his gesture for a moment, her expression hardening slightly as the realization sank in. She hadn’t even noticed this time as the storm raged outside.
She turned her glare on him, her frustration mounting once more. “You did all of this just to test a theory?”
“Not intentionally,” he admitted. “But when I mentioned Amren and saw how irritable you became, I noticed how your powers responded almost immediately. How your body reacted. How your powers slipped past you so easily.”
Her glare sharpened. “So you let me ramble just to see what might happen?”
“No,” he replied immediately, his voice resolute. “You needed to let all of that out. I hope you feel better now.”
“Well, I don’t,” she snapped.
“I’m not your enemy, Y/n,” he spoke softly, his tone unshaken, almost gentle, as he let out a faint exhale.
“You’re not my friend either,” She shot back, the words biting.
“You’re upset,” Azriel acknowledged calmly. “I’ll take my leave, then.” With his hands buried in his pockets and his head dipping slightly, he took a couple of tentative steps backward before turning toward the door. 
“So you’re just going to run away?” she demanded, her voice rising.
Azriel stilled mid-step, then turned back to face her. “I’m not... Do- do you want me to stay? If you need someone to yell at, to vent to, I’ll stay.”
“Ugh, you’re insufferable,” she muttered, running her hands through her hair as she began pacing the room. Her frustration was growing with every passing second.
He watched her carefully, his sharp gaze noticing every subtle shift- the way her body tensed, the reluctance to let him in, the struggle within between pushing him away and letting him in, the confusion, and the exhaustion. 
“Take a deep breath, Y/n,” he instructed calmly.
He considered reaching out to her but held back, knowing that in her current state, she likely wouldn’t want him anywhere near her. Even though what she probably needed most at that moment was a hug.
She spun on her heel to glare at him again. “Don’t tell me what to do,” she barked.
“Alright,” he said, lifting his hands in surrender. “I’ll just sit here till you’ve calmed down.”
“You’re going to be sitting there a long time,” she hissed, each answer like a snake spitting venom on its prey, her eyes burning with barely contained fury as he nails dug into her palms. 
But Azriel did not flinch. He did not move, did not budge. His calm presence was infuriating, steady against the storm she tried to unleash on him, as if daring her to throw everything she had his way. 
“That’s fine,” he replied evenly, settling himself in a chair.
Y/n stared at him, her breathing uneven. She wanted to scream at him, shove him out, anything to make him leave. But the fight drained out of her with every breath. “No it’s not. I need you to leave.”
“Why?” he pressed.
“Because I don’t want you here.” She tried to keep herself composed, but the crack in her voice deepened.
“I know what you’re trying to do.”
“I don’t care,” she replied, though her voice betrayed her as it broke entirely.
“You do.”
“Stop- please just leave.” Her words were softer now, her pacing slowing, her body sagging under the weight of her emotions. She was tired. Too tired to fight, to talk, to pretend. Too tired to do anything.
“I will, once I make sure you’re alright.”
“I’m fine,” she insisted, though even she didn’t believe the words.
“You’re far from it, but that’s alright,” Azriel said gently.
Y/n let out a long, shuddering breath, her hands trembling slightly as she finally stilled. “I don’t have the energy to fight you anymore,” she admitted, her tone weary, defeated.
“Then don’t,” Azriel said simply. “Just get some rest.” 
How could he be so composed, so calm? She did not let herself think about anything- she could not.  Too drained to argue, too exhausted to pretend any longer, Y/n climbed into her bed. Her body felt heavy as she closed her eyes, hoping all of this was just a bad dream. 
Azriel stayed, his shadows curling protectively around her as he watched her, almost as if they’re trying to soothe or comfort her. He waited until her breathing evened out and the tension in her features melted away as she slipped into sleep.
The temperature in the room had dropped drastically, the cold biting at his skin. Moving quietly, he crossed to the windows and closed them. Luckily, the house responded, lighting a fire in her room.
“Sweet dreams, Stormbringer,” he murmured, pulling her blanket up to tuck her in with gentle care.
For a moment, he lingered, his gaze fixed on her now-peaceful form. A hint of a smile crossed his face. Then, with a quiet exhale, he turned and slipped out of the room, his shadows following in his wake.
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a cameron family vacation: the surprise
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As soon as they made it back to the hotel room, Rafe took a quick shower before ushering y/n to take an “exceptionally long and especially relaxing shower”.
“It’s kinda hard to relax when you won’t tell me what is going on.” Y/n said as Rafe practically shoved her into the bathroom.
“Trust me, take a nice, long shower and things will reveal themselves when you get out, I promise.” Rafe said, patting y/n’s cheek lightly before closing the bathroom door between them. Y/n furrowed her brows before reluctantly climbing into the elegantly tiled shower. She took her time (as she was so emphatically asked to do), lighting a candle and allowing herself to relax, even if it felt nearly impossible to do so.
Once she was out, she soothed her hair until it was manageable, taking her time to dry it and style it before throwing on the minimal amount of makeup she had brought in her travel bag. After wrapping herself in one of the hotel’s robes, y/n emerged from the bathroom, expecting to see Rafe sprawled out on the bed, but was instead greeted with a large garment bag. As she got closer, she noticed the small, pink scrap of paper stuck to the hanger:
Put this on and meet me downstairs. - R.C. Y/n read, a small smile creeping on her lips. P.S. - Sarah helped me pick this out, hope you like it :)
Y/n shook her head, tossing the note down on the bed and moving to unzip the garment bag. Inside, laid a satin, navy dress. The brilliant blue fabric fell elegantly as y/n lifted it from the bag, admiring the strappy open back as she smoothed her fingers along the silky fabric. Dropping her robe, y/n stepped slowly into the dress. As she tugged it on, the fabric clung to her curves, the satin falling perfectly against her skin in a way that brought a bashful smile to y/n’s face. Y/n looked in the mirror, admiring the dress, and finding herself pleasantly surprised with Rafe’s choice. Finally shaking herself out of her focus on the dress, she slipped on her strappy sandals and stepped from the bedroom.
“Wow.” Y/n heard from the couch, turning to see Wheezie perched in a chair, yarn in her lap. Her eyes were wide, gazing over y/n’s styled hair and makeup paired with her elegant dress. Y/n smiled, giving the youngest Cameron a bit of a twirl and flip of her hair with a giggle.
“This is part of Rafe’s surprise?” Wheezie asked with a quirk of her brow.
“Uh, yeah… I’m not sure if I should be worried.” Y/n said with a chuckle, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
“Hmm.” Wheezie nodded, turning back to her crocheting with a mischievous smirk on her face.
“Don’t tell me you’re in on this?” Y/n scoffed, putting her hands on her hips. Wheezie ignored her, her smirk only growing as she continued working with her yarn. Y/n rolled her eyes with a groan, heading towards the front door and bidding Wheezie farewell. She found herself fiddling with the fabric of her dress as the elevator slowly descended, opening into the lobby. She scanned the guests until she finally recognized a familiar scruff of blonde hair. Rafe turned around, chewing on lip until his eyes finally met hers.
Y/n felt her breath catch as Rafe’s eyes slowly swept over her, soaking in every perfectly styled strand of her hair and curve of fabric, trying to commit it all to memory. It was almost as if the rest of the bustling lobby had disappeared, the only people the two of them.
“Rafe?” Y/n said, giggling as Rafe shook himself back into focus. He blinked quickly, smoothing a hand down the front of his white button down. Y/n felt her cheeks warm at the way his tanned skin peeked through the light, linen fabric and the way the light reflected off his gold chain. He looked good (hell, he always did), but the flush of his cheeks mixed with the way he seemingly couldn’t stop staring at her made her feel weak in the knees. 
“Sorry…” Rafe nodded, his lips quirking slightly. “You, um… look really good.”
“Thanks. You look good, too.” Y/n smiled. Rafe’s cheeks reddened as he cleared his throat, offering his hand out to y/n. She took it, following him as he guided her out of the hotel and into the cobbled Italian streets. Parked just off the road sat a bright red Vespa, adorned with a bouquet of vibrant flowers and two helmets, a sight that seemed so stereotypically American vacation in Italy that y/n found herself laughing. Her laughs only picked up further as Rafe led her over to it, grabbing the bouquet and offering it out to her.
“You did not.” Y/n giggled, taking the flowers from Rafe, who simply smiled widely at her as he grabbed one of the helmets. His fingers softly brushed her hair back, lingering on her warm skin before placing the helmet snuggly on her head.
“You’re gonna mess up my hair!” Y/n groaned as Rafe buckled the helmet, patting the top with a grin before fastening his own on. Rounding the Vespa, Rafe sat down on the seat before turning to offer his hand out. Y/n took it, sitting on the seat behind him. Rafe kicked the kickstand up, the engine sputtering to life.
“Better hold on.” Rafe said as he revved the engine. Y/n placed her hands lightly on Rafe’s waist, the bouquet resting on his lap. He gripped her wrist, pulling her closer, her arms snaking around his waist. Her chest rested snugly against his back, her heart hammering so harshly she was sure he could feel it. With a flick of his wrist, the Vespa sprung forward, causing y/n to squeal and hold tighter onto Rafe, who smirked under the visor of his helmet.
The scooter wove through the streets of Italy, the crisp air blowing through her air and the evening sun warming their skin. The bustling streets quickly gave way to winding, cliffside roads that overlooked the ocean. Y/n gazed out at the brilliant blue water, resting her cheek on Rafe’s back as they continued to their surprise destination.
Finally, the whir of the engine lessened as Rafe pulled off onto a small, sandy patch on the side of the road. The sun had just begun to set over the horizon, bathing the sky in a smear of orange and purple. Rafe took his helmet off, shaking his hair out before climbing off the Vespa. Y/n followed, taking Rafe’s hand as he helped her off. Not dropping her hand, Rafe led y/n down a path, weaving through rocks and trees until they finally broke through towards a small stretch of beach.
In the sand, a blanket sat adorned with food and wine. Stretching across the trees above them, strands of lights brought a faint glow to the beach underneath the setting sun. Y/n found herself looking at the beach, mouth agape as she took in the details of the decorated sand. If she thought the Vespa was straight out of a cheesy rom-com, this was full on Hollywood.
“So… what do you think?” Rafe said, scratching the back of his neck as y/n continued to stare at the beach in awe. When she finally met his gaze, he noticed the slight glassiness in the familiar hue of her eyes. She blinked quickly, wiping her eyes before smiling widely.
“It’s… how did you do all this?” Y/n said with a laugh as the two of them sat down on the blanket. Rafe laughed nervously, grabbing the bottle of wine that sat between them. Y/n noticed as his fingers trembled, prying with the bottle opener until the cork finally popped.
“Well, Wheezy put the dress in the room while I got the Vespa and set this up in about—” Rafe checked his watch dramatically— “20 minutes?”
Y/n rolled her eyes playfully, picking up her wine glass as Rafe filled both of theirs generously.
“Ahh, that’s why you were so insistent about me taking my time in the shower.” Y/n giggled, taking a sip of wine as Rafe bit his lip with a grin. He sat the bottle down, reaching into the basket sitting between them.
“You didn’t!” Y/n squealed as Rafe produced two tightly wrapped sandwiches from the deli she had been talking his ear off about since they walked past it earlier in the week.
“I didn’t think you’d let us leave without having one of these.” Rafe grinned, watching as y/n excitedly unwrapped the sandwich before biting into it. She closed her eyes, savoring the flavor with a moan that caused Rafe to laugh before taking a bite of his own. The two of them sat in a quiet silence, y/n soaking in the beautiful scenery and magical night, Rafe’s mind racing at what he was about to do.
“This is… wow, Rafe. Thank you.” Y/n sighed, shaking her head with amazement. Rafe blinked back at her, his lips lightly parting as he scanned over her happily flushed and sun kissed face.
“Y/n, there is something I need to, um, tell you.” Rafe swallowed harshly, fidgeting with the Cameron ring that adorned his forefinger. Y/n felt her heart pound, the elation and fascination she had felt coming to a terrifying halt with the nervous look on Rafe’s face.
“I— you’ve been there with me through so much,” Rafe said, “and you’ve put up with me through so much…”
Y/n smiled lightly, hoping Rafe couldn’t sense the thoughts racing through her mind at a mile a minute. Did he do something? Was he starting to rethink their whole friendship? … or had he found out about her feelings for him?
“My mom told me before she died that she wanted me to be happy and to find the person that makes me happy,” Rafe continued, his voice breathy as he reached into his back pocket. “Y/n… you make me happier than anyone else and I’m so, so lucky to call you mine— my best friend.”
Y/n felt her lip tremble at the sincerity that laced Rafe’s voice, the vulnerability he so rarely allowed himself to express. Slowly, he produced a small black box, his fingers shaking as he handed it to her. She took it, her eyes examining it as she opened it. Inside sat a glittering, gold bracelet. 
Y/n’s heart skipped a beat as she immediately recognized it. She’d seen it so many times, mostly in photos, but she knew it belonged to Rafe’s mother. She knew how close Rafe was with his mother, and knew how deeply her death affected him. How he retreated so far into sex and drugs and alcohol and partying, y/n worried she’d never see the Rafe she’d known ever again…
“S– She told me to give this to someone who made me happy… who made me as happy as I made her.” Rafe whispered. Y/n’s eyes lifted from the bracelet to meet his gaze, tears brimming and threatening to spill onto her cheeks. 
“Rafe, I… I don’t know what to say.” Y/n whispered. Rafe’s eyes looked glassy as he chewed his bottom lip.
“I don’t— you don’t need to say anything.” Rafe sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I just… I want you to have it. I know I want you to have it.”
Y/n’s lip trembled, her heart pounding as the weight of the moment sunk in. Her fingers traced along the bracelet, the diamonds interwoven with years of memories and a love lost too early. There was no way Rafe’s mother would want her to have this. Sure, his mother was a wonderful, kind woman who was nothing but pleasant to y/n during the brief time she knew her, but she couldn’t possibly intend for this.
“Rafe, I– I can’t take this.” Y/n sighed, her eyes darting back to meet Rafe’s gaze. His face dropped, his lips slightly parting as his eyes filled with worry.
“What? Why?” Rafe said exasperatedly. Y/n felt her heart clench at the sudden change in Rafe’s mood.
“What about, I don’t know, like your future wife? Don’t you think she—” Y/n stammered.
“Y/n…” Rafe groaned, taking one of y/n’s free hands in his own. His touch was feather light as he laced his fingers in hers.
“Rafe, I’m serious.” Y/n said, her voice betraying her and coming out with a tremble.
“Y/n, she told me she wanted me to find someone I love and… that’s you, y/n.” Rafe whispered, his fingers tracing her hand lightly.
“I love you too, Rafe, but—” y/n sighed.
“No, y/n, I love you.” Rafe said lowly. Y/n felt her breath catch, the world around her swirling into nothing as his words— the words she’d wanted to hear for so long— echoed in her mind. It felt as if she was dreaming, the beautiful beach, colorful sky, and the boy she was so deeply in love with telling her he felt the same? It had to be a dream.
“Y/n? Please— please say something.” Rafe stammered, his bottom lip trembling and eyes glassy as y/n finally met his gaze.
“How long have you… felt that way?” Y/n whispered.
“I don’t know, y/n, but…” Rafe sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I’ve just been pretending they weren’t there, and hoping they’d go away for too long, I just… it’s killing me. I can’t keep doing it”
“I can’t keep doing it either, Rafe.” Y/n said breathily, her voice catching. Rafe’s eyes widened slightly.
“You’re serious?” Rafe asked. Y/n nodded, slowly, a tear falling down her cheek at the final relinquishment of perhaps the biggest secret she’d kept for as long as she could remember. A smile spread across Rafe’s face, his hand dropping her hand and moving to cup her cheek. They looked into eachothers eyes, the two of them giddily laughing as they inched closer before their lips finally met.
His lips were gentle, yet commanding, the faint taste of wine spreading on her tongue as their lips moved in sync. Her hand found its way to his cheek, brushing against his cheekbone and feeling the slight moisture of tears against his cheek. After an eternity, they finally pulled away, both of them smiling, their heads touched together. Rafe pressed another kiss to the corner of her lip before pulling back further, gently lifting the bracelet from the box. With a giggle, y/n lifted her wrist, allowing for him to fasten it on, his fingers brushing her skin. Once it was fastened, he laced his fingers in hers before moving his gaze back to meeting hers.
“I love you.” Rafe whispered, a blushed smile on his face. She’d heard him say it before, but now things were different… how she’d always wished they’d be.
Y/n matched Rafe’s grin as he peppered kisses on her beaming face, his hands gently resting on the hollow of her throat. It felt like he couldn’t get enough, practically breathing her in as he mumbled into her skin and brushed his lips along every feature of her face.
“I love you.” Rafe said again, pressing one last kiss to her lips before gazing lovingly at her flushed and kiss covered face.
“I love you.” Y/n whispered, running a hand through Rafe’s ruffled hair before trailing down to hold their hands between them, the golden bracelet glittering in the faint glow of the moon.
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illuminatedferret · 24 hours ago
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If your still taking prompts, I'm always down for Hualian kisses. Maybe a kiss on the cheek?
Hello!! Yes, thank you for the prompt! I had a lot of fun thinking up something to write for this. I hope you like it <3 It got a bit long for a ficlet!
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Xie Lian’s lips planted solidly upon Hua Cheng’s cheek.
Great! Except that he hadn’t meant to do that. When he’d moved in, he’d had every intention of planting a kiss on his husband’s lips, not his perfect cheek. Blinking dumbly, he fell back onto his heels and met Hua Cheng’s equally surprised expression.
There was just something a little surreal about seeing two eyes blink back at him after all this time. It had been weeks since Hua Cheng returned to him on Mount Taicang, but it was only now upon their return to Puqi Village that the ghost wore something other than his true form, adopting the youthful visage that had once greeted Xie Lian on an oxcart not far from here a year and a half ago.
“Ah... Sorry,” Xie Lian finally said, uncertain in his words but needing to say something. “I didn’t... I’m sorry!”
Hua Cheng blinked at him, but he didn’t seem upset, only nonplussed. “Is gege feeling shy?” Back in Puqi Village after so long, went unspoken. They had been received exultantly, but at the moment they were alone, allowed the time to explore the new shrine the villagers had erected in the place of Xie Lian’s poor little shack.
Xie Lian shook his head rapidly, little fly-aways of hair following his movements like a lazy eye. “No! No, of course not! It’s just, in this skin, we’ve never-”
He bit on his tongue, too embarrassed to finish. 
We’ve never kissed in this skin before.
And for some reason, as he popped up onto his toes to give his husband a kiss, that thought had likewise popped into his head, and his body had instinctively switched targets to something tamer than Hua Cheng’s lips.
Hua Cheng stared at him for a moment before he shook his head and started to laugh.
“Please don’t laugh at me,” Xie Lian said mournfully. Hua Cheng’s shoulders shook under the force of his laughter. It went on for another few moments before he took a deep breath, pulling his composure back on- or trying to, at least.
“So last night was fine, but a kiss isn’t?” he asked, clearly tickled. Well, it was better than feeling insulted, but...
“A kiss is fine!” Xie Lian insisted. “A kiss is really fine! I promise!” He was never going to live this down. He knew it. The mere thought made him feel defensive. Maybe if he was particularly effusive right now, he could do some damage control...
Maybe.
“Are you sure?” Hua Cheng teased. “Gege, what don’t you like about this form? Let me fix it for you.”
“I like it, I like it! There’s nothing you need to change!!” Please don’t take it the wrong way, I really didn’t mean it!!
“Really?”
“Of course! San Lang is handsome in any form. And this one is- it’s very good! Very, very good!”
Hua Cheng hummed consideringly. “Is that so?”
“Yes! I-”
Xie Lian’s tongue fell thick in his mouth as Hua Cheng swiftly stepped forward. Something about the confidence he exuded had Xie Lian stepping back in tandem, until the wood paneling of the wall beside the shrine’s door was at his back, trapping him in place. Like a rabbit before a fox, he could do nothing but stare with wide eyes as the ghost king leaned in close, a familiar light shining in his dark eyes.
“So the problem is gege?” Hua Cheng asked softly.
“...” Xie Lian nodded slowly. His husband wasn’t even touching him, but when he spoke like that, this old cultivator’s body yearned to feel him. The phantom impression of Hua Cheng’s fingers on his chin blossomed, so strong he could almost believe it was real.
“If that’s so... If gege finds it hard to be with me in this skin, perhaps we should work on that,” Hua Cheng whispered huskily. Heat immediately pooled in Xie Lian’s stomach at the tone. It was a slightly different pitch than he was used to, but it was still deep enough to drag against his bones, an unmistakable promise clear in every syllable.
Xie Lian swallowed dryly. His fingers reached out and curled tight into the loose red sleeves Hua Cheng favored in this form. “M-mn. Good call.” Hua Cheng’s true form might have been his favorite, but that didn’t mean he didn’t love all the man’s other forms. Each of them was special to him. Even the impulse to shy away from giving his husband the affection he deserved was quite a serious problem indeed! So... Obviously... Obviously they needed to work on this. As soon as possible.
Hua Cheng smirked. Yes, in any form that was a dangerous look. Xie Lian felt his heart speed up as his husband stepped even closer. Hua Cheng was a bit shorter in this form, turning their height difference from something nearly insurmountable into something nearly manageable. It certainly shortened the trip between their faces. Xie Lian watched his husband descend with bated breath before letting his eyes fall closed, waiting, waiting, waiting-!
“Xie-daozhang!”
Huh?
Xie Lian opened his eyes. Hua Cheng hovered a mere hair’s breadth away. For a moment, the world was still, and Xie Lian thought he might be able to pretend there was nothing stopping them from simply-
“Xie-daozhang!” The call came again from somewhere outside, coming closer. They probably had only moments until the speaker was upon them.
Xie Lian closed his eyes and poorly stifled a groan. Hua Cheng laughed lightly and closed the distance, letting their foreheads press together lightly. Not the part of their faces Xie Lian had wanted to touch... but better than nothing.
“Later?” his husband asked.
Xie Lian sighed. 
“Later.”
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adifferentsortofstrength · 2 days ago
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Part Three
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I’m sorry this took so long to post! I had to go back through the first two parts and edit some timeline goofs. AO3 finally sent my invitation for my writing account so I’ll be posting this story on there soon as well! The username is the same, but I’ll start linking it once I get the parts posted!
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Azriel landed quietly in the back garden of the townhouse. His shadows whispered that Elain was alone inside, and he took this rare moment to observe her. He lingered outside the kitchen door, watching as she worked a large batch of dough on the center island.
She seemed lost in thought, her gaze unfocused and hands going through the motions of rolling and stretching the dough automatically. Once more, she picked up the wooden rolling pin, her arms trembling slightly, and he decided that now would be as good a time as any to interrupt.
Knocking lightly on the back door, he watched Elain straighten and turn her face to look at him. Even covered in flour and flecks of dough, her hair coming loose from her braid and wearing a simple blue linen dress beneath her apron, he was enraptured by her beauty. Azriel couldn’t stop the small smile that bloomed on his face at the sight of her.
She seemed to be considering whether to ignore him or not, and though he had called the townhouse home longer than she, or even her parents, had been alive, he was content to wait patiently for her to decide whether to welcome him in or not. If she chose to ignore him, he would go of course… after sitting in the garden for a while, hoping she reconsidered.
Seconds passed and still she did not look away, or make any move towards the door. He had just begun to doubt his plan when finally, she made her choice.
Brushing the flour and dough off her hands, leaving streaks of white on her apron, Elain walked slowly over to the door. Her eyes flicked back to his once more as she paused with her hand on the doorknob, but ultimately he heard the click of the lock disengaging and the door swung open.
Azriel stepped across the threshold, mere inches separating them now, and said, “Hello, Elain.”
She held his gaze, not balking at his proximity, as she quietly replied, “Hello.”
They stood there like that, the cool wind of the winter afternoon swirling in behind him through the open door, for one heartbeat. Two. Unspoken emotions flitted in her eyes, and the rapid fluttering of her pulse did not escape him.
Somewhere within the house, a clock chimed the four o’clock hour, and as if the spell was broken, Elain retreated to the sink. Her back was turned as she ran the water over her hands, the steam rising and fogging the windows. After closing the door, Azriel leaned one hip against the center island, his wings pulled in tight behind him.
When she finished washing, she turned back towards him, drying her hands on a kitchen towel. She did not meet his gaze, and he took just one more moment to appreciate the ethereal presence of the female before him. His head tilted slightly as he noticed the dark circles beneath her eyes, the drawn expression on her face, as she was illuminated by the sunlight reflecting off the snow-covered garden that streamed in through the windows.
Elain’s hands were wringing the towel, clasped at her waist, and he registered that she was still trembling slightly. With a frown, needing to break the heavy silence and hear her voice again, he asked, “What are you making?”
The question seemed to catch her off guard, and when she again locked eyes with him, the hollowness of her expression shattered something within him.
“Rolls,” she murmured absently, “Dinner rolls. Feyre and I- she said- well, it’s supposed to be just the two of us, me and Feyre I mean-” she paused and steadied herself, “I’m making rolls for dinner, for Feyre and I.”
She cast her gaze down to the counter now, next to where he leaned. It might have been his imagination, but her eyes appeared to linger briefly as they moved over his chest and arms, before settling on where the utterly ridiculous amount of dough sat.
“I suppose that we’ll have extras,” she said wryly, and a corner of her mouth quirked down.
Azriel could barely contain himself at the fact that, even with everything hanging between them, she still got flustered when they spoke. That had to be a sign that all was not lost, right? If she had stopped caring for him completely, surely she would be much more withdrawn, colder to him?
He leaned his head down slightly to catch her gaze, and as their eyes met he said, “I would be more than happy to assist with that. We wouldn’t want any of your hard work to go to waste.”
Elain blushed and looked away again, “I need to get these in the oven,” she hesitated for a moment before asking, “Would it be too much to ask of you, I mean if you don’t have somewhere else to be, would you help me?”
“There is nowhere else I would rather be, Elain,” he said, maybe too honestly, “What can I do?”
She instructed him to wash his hands and then showed him how to form the dough into rolls. They worked in semi-comfortable silence as she cut the dough into small sections for him to shape. She really had over done it, the final count being upwards of two dozen, but he wasn’t complaining for this excuse to be of use to her, to spend any stolen amount of time he could with her.
Once Elain had placed the rolls onto a baking tray and slid them into the oven, Azriel gathered the dishes and set to washing them. He felt her moving around the kitchen behind him, wiping the counters down. Suddenly she appeared next to him, less than a foot away.
He kept his focus on the dish in his hands and relished in the weight of her eyes on him. In his periphery, he noticed her brow was furrowed, and she was worrying her bottom lip with her teeth. Suppressing the heat that rose in him at the expression on her face, he watched as she cast her gaze down to where his hands had been washing the same bowl for far too long.
Deciding that he couldn’t delay the inevitable any longer, he rinsed the bowl, and set it next to the sink to dry with the other dishes. As he turned to face her finally, she extended a clean towel towards him. When he took it to dry his hands, his fingers brushed hers briefly, and it felt like a bolt of lightning in his veins.
Elain must have felt it too judging by the speed of which she withdrew her hand, her eyes widening incrementally, and the sharp intake of breath that caused her lips to part.
“Elain, I-”, he started to say, just as she spoke.
“Can I ask you-”, he heard her begin, pausing as they spoke over each other.
When her eyes once more met his, Azriel thought he caught a glimpse of something resembling desire flickering there before she blinked, replacing it with a neutral expression. With her warm brown eyes on his, he managed to reply, “Ladies first.”
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Elain felt as though she hadn’t taken a proper breath since she had opened the garden door to find Azriel standing there.
She had barely regained her composure when their fingers had brushed, renewing that static within her, sending her thoughts spiraling into a thousand different directions. If that is how the brush of his fingers felt, what would it be like to have the full expanse of his hands on her bare skin? The weight of his touch across the planes of her stomach, her thighs?
Nearly combusting at just the thought, she stammered out, “Can I ask you-”
Right as he started, “Elain, I-”
Her eyes met his and she had to tamper down the heat she felt evident in her own. Drawing in another breath, she forced that neutral mask down, one she had seen so often on Azriel’s own face.
“Ladies first,” he said raggedly, and her toes curled in her house shoes.
Struggling to regain her train of thought, she looked away from him, her gaze catching on the sunlight that fell across his wings over his shoulder. The crest of that red-black membrane glowed, revealing lines and scars across the taut skin. Every inch of this male was beautiful to her, but there was just something exquisite about the way each scar lined his skin. She wondered what they might feel like beneath her fingers, how the texture might disrupt the path of her tongue as she tasted him, and-
Elain had to shake herself out of her reverie before the desire pooling in her core became evident in her scent.
Shakily, she continued, “I was just wondering, do you remember the day you told me that I was a Seer?”
He exhaled, sounding as though he had been holding his breath as he waited for her to speak, “Of course.”
“How did you know? When no one else could get through to me, when even Madja didn’t know what to do with me, how did you figure me out?”
She chanced a look at his face, finding his gaze still fixed on her, eyes softening as he said, “I spent a long time in the library, after we returned from Hybern, as I healed. Reading, researching, felt like a way to help, when I felt so useless to do anything else. For you, for everyone,” a light blush spread across his cheeks, “I couldn’t begin to tell you how many books I read, mostly archives detailing all known abilities and powers through the history of Prythian.”
He rubbed the back of his neck with one hand, the other supporting his weight when he leaned his hip casually against the counter, his wings shifting with the movement.
Azriel continued, “I came across an account from a High Priestess. She had been travelling through the courts, between temples, fostering relationships across different factions of priestesses. She was near the wall in the Spring Court when she discovered a female who had collapsed in some of the underbrush along the path.
“The priestess, I think her name was Thalia, sat with the unconscious stranger until she awoke some time later. In her writing, she noted that the female said ‘The rains will not fall upon our scourged fields, birds leave never to return, those who failed to prepare wither into dust.’ Thalia helped her to the next town, where she left her with the local priestess to recover. A few dozen pages later, probably months between the two entries, she noted that a famine had taken some towns across the wall, and left them barren.
“The priestess didn’t seem to relate the two occurrences, but the way the stranger's words had been written, like a prophecy, had stuck with me. The day the Ravens attacked your sisters in the library, that’s when I finally put it together. I had read about Seers in passing a few times, but there hadn’t been any records specifically about them to be found. So when I heard you speak about the queen with feathers of flame… I knew.”
Elain had been so enraptured in his story, she had forgotten why he told it. It was not like Azriel to speak for so long, usually they were lucky to get a few sentences out of him. She felt as though she could stand there listening to his voice forever, it soothed something within her, quieted that voice in her head that had berated her constantly since Solstice.
She realized that at least an entire minute had passed since he finished speaking, and she had just been staring at him, lost in thought, the whole time.
“I had no idea you had gone through so much trouble on my account,” her eyes fixating on the floor between them, “I don’t think I ever thanked you. For seeing me, and finding the answer to a question I didn’t even know to ask.”
When she looked back up at him, he smiled and said, “It was no trouble at all, Elain. I would have read a thousand more books if it meant finding answers for you.”
Before she could reply, the timer for the forgotten dinner rolls went off, causing her to jump. He moved before she could, using a thick cotton oven pad to remove the tray and set it on the counter. She took the butter that she had set aside earlier and went about spreading it on top of each roll, conscious of his eyes on her.
When that was finished, she turned back to him.
“Would you like to try one?” she gestured to the rolls, some now piled in a basket to be brought to the dinner table later.
He paused before answering, his eyes flicking back and forth from the basket to her face. Elain was no fool, she knew why he hesitated. An offer of food was nearly sacred in Prythian, being the physical acknowledgment of accepting a mating bond. She was careful to never directly offer food to anyone except for her family… and now Azriel.
He spoke then, his voice sounding lower than before, “I would love one, thank you.”
She plated one for him, and another for herself.
“I don’t know if they’ll be any good,” she said sheepishly, stepping over to a small table on the far side of the kitchen, “I might have worked the dough a bit too much.”
Azriel followed silently behind her, and when she sat, he took the other chair. She pushed the plate across the table towards him, “Let me know what you think.”
Elain watched discreetly as he held the roll to his mouth, and took a bite. His eyes closed for a moment, as if he too was hoping for something to spark between them. When nothing stirred within her, she held back a sigh of disappointment and bit into her own roll.
“Excellent as always, Nuala and Cerridwen must have been great teachers,” he said, finishing his and looking at her fully. She was only halfway through the large dinner roll, and now mindful of the fact that there was excess butter dripping off of it, and onto her fingers.
Without thinking, she caught the drip with her tongue before it could get onto the clean white table cloth, only realizing how she must look after hearing a sharp intake of breath from the other side of the table. Elain could feel the dark red blush spreading across her face and chest, and averted her eyes down to her plate.
The air grew heavy as the silence stretched on. She could feel her pulse quickening as heat once again pooled within her. Every moment that she spent with Azriel always seemed to end up this way. With her making some mindless mistake, and causing this tension between them.
Before the tears that she felt welling could line her eyes, Azriel stood with a scrape of his chair. Surely he had grown tired of wasting his time here, and was about to depart. Her shoulders sagged as she imagined having to watch him leave yet again.
But all he said was, “Want some tea? I’ll put the kettle on.”
Elain looked up to him in surprise and nodded, her brows furrowing. She watched as he took her favorite green kettle down from a shelf and filled it before lighting the stove. He leaned over the sink as he waited, his hands braced on the edge and head lowered. His back to her, she could see him taking long, slow breaths. Azriel’s wings flared slightly with each inhale.
Allowing herself a moment to simply admire him, she couldn’t help wondering what it might be like to be there between him and the sink, bracketed by his arms. Elain could see herself reaching up to brush the hair off his forehead, staring into those warm hazel eyes as her fingers traced the lines of his face.
She pictured the smile that would blossom on his lips, sinful and secret and just for her. Azriel would lean in to brush a gentle kiss against her mouth, pressing against her, the hard length of his-
The kettle whistling tore her from the fantasy.
Elain averted her eyes, studying his hands as Azriel went about fixing their tea, spooning some lavender chamomile leaves into the filter of the tea pot and placing it on a tray alongside two cups, a small carafe of milk, and bowl of sugar cubes.
He gathered up the tray and finally looked over at her.
“Would you like to stay here? Or we could move to the sitting room?” He asked, not quite meeting her gaze.
“The sitting room please,” Elain breathed.
She went to smooth her skirt as she stood and realized she was still wearing her stained apron. Quickly undoing the ties at her neck and waist, she slung it over the back of her chair before hurrying out of the room. He followed close behind, his footsteps nearly silent, though she could sense his presence trailing after her.
Elain was glad that the fire had burned low even though it left the room feeling chilled. She sat on the sofa that faced the large bay window, giving a clear view of the street beyond. To her absolute surprise and delight, Azriel placed the tray on the ottoman that sat between the two couches and claimed the spot next to her.
Without giving her a chance to move, he placed three sugar cubes into a cup before filling it with the steaming tea. After adding just a splash of milk, he held it out to her.
When she didn’t reach out for it, her eyes wide and focused on him once again, Azriel turned his head to look at her fully.
“Sorry, was that wrong? I thought you took it with three sugars and a splash of milk,” something like uncertainty flashed in his eyes as he spoke.
“No, that’s exactly right,” she said quietly, “I just didn’t think you would remember. It’s been quite some time since we last had tea together.”
Azriel winced, actually winced, “Of course I remember. And I’m very sorry about that.”
She tried to rile up some of the anger she had felt this morning but found only a sour ache in its place.
Elain took the cup from him, this time taking care to not brush his hand with hers. Though her heart felt like it would jump from her chest, she forced herself to sip slowly, with a measure of control only possible thanks to the training she had endured at the hands of her mother in her previous life.
Azriel followed suit, adding his usual single sugar cube and no milk to the tea. The clock on the mantle ticked loudly as the silence stretched on.
His shadows seemed to swarm him, brushing over his neck and shoulders. Elain wondered if they were conveying a report or comforting their master, noticing his unease as she felt the air grow taut between them.
“I was so afraid when I found you in the garden last night,” Azriel almost whispered, breaking the silence like a pebble tossed into a still pond, “I know I have no right to ask, but… are you alright, Elain?”
She paused before answering, her mind going in a dozen directions at once. Battling the rising emotions within, frustration and despair and confusion, she settled for the diplomatic response.
“I’m perfectly fine, thank you,” Elain set her empty cup down on the tray and clasped her hands in her lap.
“Don’t - don’t lie,” he challenged, “Not to me.”
Her eyebrows shot up as she slid her eyes up to meet his, “It is really none of your concern. It’s not as if there’s anything you could do about it anyway.”
Azriel stared at her for a moment. His eyes were assessing, some heated emotion flashing there before he blinked and hid it away.
“Let me try,” there was something desperate in his voice, “Please.”
Elain wanted to fight him, wanted to push back and deny him this glimpse of the fracture that threatened to split her open. Because what right did he have to know her now? How could he sit here and act as if he cared when he had torn the rug from beneath her unsteady feet barely more than a week ago?
Her resolve disappeared the moment he reached across the space between them and grasped one large, scarred, beautiful hand over hers. The contact chipped away at the ice she had slowly built around herself since Solstice, her skin instantly alight with that familiar hazy static.
She drew in a stuttering breath, “I’ve been struggling,” she paused, tamping down the urge to bare her soul and plead his forgiveness for overstepping his boundaries that night, “With my Sight. I can’t… I just can’t make sense of it. Any of it.
“The things I See, they’re all… it’s like catching a glimpse of a familiar face in a crowded marketplace. When I try to move closer, try to See clearly, it disappears,” Elain struggled to maintain any semblance of her composure, her voice quivering.
Azriel’s hand remained on hers though, and she drew strength from it. Difficult things were always easier to handle when he was near. His quiet companionship had been her touchstone in those dark days after emerging from the Cauldron. It was he who drew her from those murky depths, he who led her back to reality when she was lost within herself.
Elain decided then that she would rather have Azriel as a friend than not at all. Though her feelings grew each moment she spent near him, it would be her burden to bear.
“Has anyone ever spoken with you about training your Sight?” His voice drew her back to the matter at hand.
She shook her head lightly, “No.”
Azriel shifted closer to her, one knee brushing against hers, “Is that something you would like to try?”
Elain wondered if it was even worth the trouble. To inconvenience someone with the task, one which she was sure would result in nothing other than more frustration and failure. But the look on his face, the assurance of his hand on hers made her say, “Yes, please.”
A true smile was her reward for that choice. It crinkled the corners of his eyes, revealed the sharp points of his canine teeth, and stole the breath from her.
“You’ll have to talk to Feyre about it. And get clearance from Rhys. He might not be amenable to having me as your teacher, but I think if Feyre suggests it he might come around,” he mused, his words tumbling out, like he had been restraining them for too long and could no longer resist.
Her eyes widened, pulse now at a full gallop. Azriel would be her teacher? He would willingly take his time to work with her on a power she might never master?
In her shock Elain asked, “Is there no one else? I mean, I’m sure you are quite busy as it is. Are you certain that you would want to spend your time on this?”
She was the one who could no longer withhold her words, her inner thoughts now out in the open.
His brows drew down at her first question, “If you would rather, I’m sure we could arrange for Amren or Rhys to work with you,” his voice was laced with an emotion she couldn’t quite name, “They both have significant internal power, I suppose.”
“No! No, I would be glad to train with you!” Elain reassured him, “I just- you have been away so much lately, I assumed you would be too busy. I don’t want to be a burden to you too.”
Azriel looked down at their hands, “You are never a burden to me Elain.”
Three heartbeats.
That’s how long she allowed herself to study the angles of his face. Resisting the urge to refute his statement, Elain bit down on her lower lip. Even if he was lying, she decided to accept his offer of training. Any time she could steal away to spend with him was a precious gift she was not willing to waste.
“I will speak with Feyre tonight,” her voice was low as she replied, her gaze now focused on where the marked skin of his fingers grazed the top of her thigh.
Azriel’s hand still covered hers, but his thumb now swiped across the back of one, brushing over the prominent bone at her wrist with every stroke. Elain had to suppress a shudder at the intimate contact but could not stop the goosebumps that rose on her arms.
As if only just realizing what he was doing, Azriel pulled his hand away and stood, all at once breaking the tension that had gathered in the air. It felt as if the temperature in the room had dropped by at least twenty degrees with the absence of him, and Elain wrapped her arms around herself in an attempt to retain some of that warmth.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have-“ Azriel held the hand that had been on hers clenched at his chest, the other raked through his hair, “Feyre will be home shortly, her class is just finishing.”
He wouldn’t meet her eyes, but that was probably for the best. She felt the chill of the room seeping into her, the heat that had roiled at her center since he arrived now guttering out. That sense of hope and excitement at the prospect of training with Azriel, spending more time with him, clawed at her heart. She tried to shove it down. It would do her no good to allow it back in, to replace the hollowness that now ached there.
Elain was dizzy from the speed at which she had been drawn in and engulfed by him again, like nothing had changed between them that cursed Solstice night. It was only after he withdrew from her so quickly, in a way so painfully familiar, that she regained her senses.
“I should start the rest of supper then,” she rose from her spot on the sofa and approached him, “Thank you for your help on the rolls. I will speak to Feyre about training my Sight.”
Azriel looked down at her, finally meeting her eyes. The neutral mask that always seemed to slip around her was back in place.
Elain stepped around him, intentionally allowing her arm to brush against his as she passed. She expected him to vanish into his shadows but, to her surprise, heard him gathering the tea tray and following her back to the kitchen. That sense of hope still scratched at the wall she had erected around her heart, and she felt her defenses crumbling with each additional moment she spent in his presence.
He made quick work of cleaning their cups and the teapot, discarding the used leaves in her compost bucket without even needing to be asked.
Elain pulled out the ingredients she needed to construct dinner; a whole chicken to roast, carrots, potatoes, and plenty of fresh herbs. Azriel lingered by the center counter and she felt his eyes tracking her across the kitchen. The weight of his gaze had her glancing over to him once she had everything set out.
He shifted slightly, his wings rustling, and asked, “Would it be alright if I took another roll or two? I haven’t really eaten since leaving Illyria yesterday.” He scratched the back of his neck, a nervous tic she had noticed long ago.
“Of course you can, take as many as you’d like!” her resolve to shut him out crumbled, “I’m sure Feyre wouldn’t mind if you stayed for dinner either, if you wanted to.”
Azriel’s mouth tilted up at one corner, the hint of a smile there not reaching his eyes, “Thank you for the invitation. I would love to stay, but I need to get back to the paperwork that piled up while I was gone.”
Elain nodded as she gathered together half a dozen rolls for him, wrapping them in butcher paper so they would be easier to carry. She knew it was a stretch to expect him to stay and eat with them. That didn’t stop the disappointment from settling on her shoulders.
He took the carefully wrapped package from her, smiling in earnest now, “Enjoy your dinner, Elain.”
“Good night Azriel,” she managed to reply, before he stepped into his shadows and disappeared. She stared at the place he had stood for a moment, and didn’t notice the hope as it found its way back into her heart.
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Authors note: Yay! They talked! They touched! They’re going to train! I wasn’t joking when I said this was going to be a sloooooowwwww burn…
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Thanks for reading!! ♡
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scott smajor with number 7 for your spotify asks?
omg anon sorry it took me so long to get to this, but here: Scott smajor with number 7, Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance!
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I hope this is alright! If nothing else, I’m so so proud of drawing hair braiding, that took. So. Long. lol, anyway yeah I also really like how Scott’s hair came out, and I’ve never made a third life Jimmy design before so I came up with this on the fly and I really like how it looks. But yeah, I saw which song it was and thought of them immediately, Scott was so distraught at Jimmy’s death in third life, (prepare for ramble that is mildly unintelligible if you are not really geeky about MCR lore lol. The main stuff you need to understand is that mcr has four albums, I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge, The Black Parade, and Danger Days: The True Lives of The Fabulous Killjoys, and all of them have a lot of lore) like they are so demolition lovers coded, especially because of the whole back from the dead thing where Jimmy is alive and well in later seasons but Scott is still grieving him and the memory thing with winners remembering which means Scott remembers third life and Jimmy doesn’t, reminds me of like (from my understanding of the story, which is different from other peoples because MCR lore is very vague) the inner turmoil of the lover from the three cheers lore who went to hell, and his lover is in heaven and on one hand he wants to reunite but on the other he knows his lover doesn’t even know he’s alive (-ish. Not sure how much his situation qualifies as “living”) and feels guilty, thinking that she probably won’t even want to see him again, because he’s killed so many people and he doesn’t want to ruin her paradise (I mean she misses him too and wants to see him again but he doesn’t know that, and also he rightly recognizes that he is an actual sociopath. I’m not saying c!Scott is crazy (well, as not-crazy as you can be in life series death games. Everyone is at least a little bit off their rocker. Woah, parentheses within parentheses, what is this!?), but I am saying the guy demolition lover absolutely is. I am also saying that c!Scott has self worth issues. At least in my headcannons. I also have a similar headcannon for Joel. Maybe that’s why they hate each other, their mad that they can’t sacrifice themselves for each other and then decided a murderous rivalry was the only option/j ) but yeah so the torturing themselves over a lover who is both dead for them and also at the same time alive and well but unreachable and in a better place than them and wanting to be with them but holding back for fear of hurting them which ends up hurting them anyway (which is also a theme in the black parade, so ig you could also kinda compare Scott to The Patient, but patient always felt more Joel or Pearl coded to me. Also yes I know I already made a post about smalletho demo lovers au, but idk I can have both smalletho and flower husbands demo lovers I just like projecting my interests onto,,,,also my interests ig lol) is something Scott and the sinner demolition lover have in common. Also this song makes me cry. So much. Could barely even draw this through the tears lol/silly, and I’m exaggerating but less than you’d think. Unfortunately I am a crier. I also cry at Summertime from danger days, pretty much all of three cheers but especially I never told you what I do for a living, demolition lovers from bullets (btw for non MCR fans these are album and song names. Also the demo lover’s story starts in bullets with the song titled for them, and then is continued in three cheers for sweet revenge) as well as I don’t love you, wttbp, the end, mama, and famous last words from black parade. And those are just the MCR songs, not counting all the other sad songs from other bands. I am a CRIER lol. But yeah, thank you sm for the ask anon I really enjoyed drawing this!
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