#I’m so happy that I started crying LMFAOOO I didn’t WANT to go in ANYWAY

[noicevibes]

It’s Sunday evening :)) and my one boss was supposed to message me by now if the main admin couldn’t come in for work tm morning :)) to let me know that I could come in like she asked me to do so I could cover her :)) and :)) she hasn’t messaged me :)) so now I get to stay home tomorrow :)) all day long :)) yaaaaaay :))

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Ok cue my memory loss moment part 5 I can’t tell if I sent this reply in or not before so if this is a dupe I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE hsvshshs but anyways

OMG EVERYONE CHEER!!! Guys the moment is finally upon us…another mira banger about to drop….

LMAOO fwtkac was the gateway…once you start you can’t stop its just how the Karasu rabbit hole works! Bro hollyhock is actually so good…I can’t even put it into words properly but just the whole setting giving a new depth to a diff side of otoyas characters ugh so good

True!!! I’m ngl I’m a little surprised that for marketing sake they didn’t try to throw in some like popular character bait…maybe it’s because most of the actually popular bllkers are already out and as opposed to merch I guess book sales would be a bit diff? Like fans would buy to read even if their absolute faves aren’t in but yeah…the stories were fire though LMAO new appreciation for Barou fr

And IM ON IT o7 very happy to serve the miraverse and honestly it’s good for me too because if I wanna reference something quickly I can just go command f it or if I wanna read something fast I can just read my tl LMAO I also just like having my own TL/interpretations written down just for my reference too…which is part of the reason why I also ended up TLing Hioris too even though there was a TL already out! I remember reading the TLd version that got posted and some wording kinda threw me off so I was like let me just look at this myself…LOL Also I’m kinda a lore nerd so I wanna make sure I get to see any intricacies or in between the line messages that can get lost in translation! So yeah TLDR I will most definitely be here for tabieita LNs!!!

IM CRYING they’re gonna have to scroll through our manifestations and convos just to get to the chapter like imagine the link gets passed around and the first thing people read is us screaming about mariokart in yuki’s novel or anri getting done dirty (I clicked on the links just to see what they’d have to go through and oh my god chapter 2 LMFAOOO there’s like a whole minute of scrolling worth of convo before you even reach the LN part it’s so funny)

We’re truly just built different sorry this is exclusive content gatekept by the insanely long convos we have

-Karasu anon

HAHAH this time you did in fact send this in already 😭 but it’s okay i will delete the copy!! but no worries 😋

FINISHED ROUND ONE OF PROOFREADING!! heading to monaco for my mother’s birthday dinner soon hehe but once i’m back tn i will get on round two and hopefully i’ll be able to post it by tmrw!! lowkey idk how i feel about it but at least it’ll be out in the world after i’ve been talking abt it sm 😭

you came to my inbox and showed me the ways of karasuism and i’ve never looked back since 🙏🏻 jkjk but fr though i love writing him sm now he’s so good at the one sided pining thing which i loveee in a male lead 🤩 like YESSS be absolutely sick over this girl who doesn’t even know she likes you yet YESSS 🤤💖

hollyhock otoya is so fun i love him and i cannot WAIT to write more of him and y/n…idk if you’ve heard that one tik tok sound that’s like “you belong with me” from taylor swift and then it transitions into “you belong to me” from house of balloons / glass table girls from the weeknd but that’s literally hollyhock y/n + karasu’s dynamic vs her dynamic with otoya 😭😭😭 like with karasu it’s all sweet innocent besties (they are platonic soulmates coded eventually like they end up loving each other SOO MUCH but not romantically??) vs with otoya she’s literally like “i want you to belong to me” (exact quote from chapter 2: “you wanted this ninja to belong to you”) FHDKSJSJ man atp free otoya 😰🙏🏻 but he matches y/n’s freak so well he probably doesn’t even WANT to be freed

i feel like the people who would buy light novels would buy them no matter what + they probably thought barou would be popular enough to carry it?? who knows…agreed though the stories were all rlly good (well aryu’s was a little goofy but wtvr)

LMAOOO THAT’S WHAT I WAS THINKING people will be like “why are they freaking out over mario kart??” FJSJDJS but ykw if you want to read you have to go through the trials and tribulations of our massive convos 🤩 we are elite though…carrying the bllk fandom with our translations + fics 😋

[justaz]

Thoughts while reading COTG

if you even care 😔

Percy’s new school being set in a former elementary school???? Sobbing.

“Down every hall, I could find cherry reminders of the school’s former childhood - smudges of finger paint on the walls, unicorn stickers peeling off the fire extinguishers, the occasional ghostly whiff of fruit juice and graham crackers.”

Literally a metaphor for the audience. We’ve grown with the books and the stories and characters are a reminder of our childhood even as we enter or figure out adulthood

God I’ve missed the silly goofy chapter titles

Jumpscare. I thought Rick upped the rating for this book.

“If you’ve concluded that Poseidon is a ‘hands-off’ type of parent, you win the chicken-dinner award. I didn’t even meet him until I was in middle school, when (purely by coincidence) he needed something from me.”

My eyes caught the word “purely” in parenthesis and I thought Percy was calling his dad a pussy.

DEBT FOR EXISTING?????? Broooooooooo…..I’d pull a Luke wtf are y’all talking about. I’d be PISSED

The fire escape being their happy place>>>

“It was hard to be sad when I’m with Annabeth.”

Whipped

THE WHOLE FIRE ESCAPE SCENE!!! I’m crying they’re so cute

Damn Percy, checking out Ganymede then asking him out then calling him pretty AND THEN checking out the barista’s muscles?? Gay ass

THE NOSTALGIA FOR CHILDHOOD??? Back to my first point, literally a reference to the readers, to us, I’m going to cry again

Grover being a third wheel LMFAOO

His history teacher being named Mr. Christ…………Literally Jesus Christ I will not be accepting any criticism. It makes a bit of sense for Jesus to work in a school, I guess. Anyways I know in my balls that was Rick making the Christian pantheon canon. Bye.

THE BOOMER BURN LMFAOOO GET THEIR ASSES PERCY

Grover headbutting Percy <3

Percabeth can’t sing. Soulmates

“Inside I still felt eight years old and ready to cry” Maybe it's because I’m turning twenty soon and aging and whatnot, but this whole theme of childhood and growing up is getting to me man

AC + PJ STOPPPPP

Why did she mention Luke?? That came out of left field honestly

Damn Annie, he falls off a cliff with you and you push him off one later. Harsh 😔✊

Oop, Percy’s getting maaaaddd, can’t wait to see how this goes down

LMFAO Annabeth making him skip, she’s so

Zeus striking Percy’s kite with lightning 😭 He’s such a hater

“‘Farewell, my friends,’ I told them, ‘Be good to one another.’ Then I ascended…‘Greetings, earthlings,’ I said…’I have a message for Annabeth Chase,’ I said, ‘I love you.’ I tried to give her a kiss, but it was difficult, because she started laughing…Grover cleared his throat, ‘I’m fine. Thanks.’” I’ve missed these nerds so much

Grover being scared and upset about his best friends leaving him,, don’t touch me

Annabeth only marrying Percy to have Sally as her mother in law. So real bestie so real

ESTELLE MY CHILD HELLO WELCOME

Awww, poor Ganymede. I love how badly Percy wants to help him.

Is it Chronos?

Ahh, I see

oh GOD

Embracing aging, embracing the fact that you’re growing old and looking forward to it. Stop I’m emotional

Okay, look, I love the new book and I love that Rick is feeding us, but, babes. Percy used Annabeth’s cap before, in The Titan’s Curse, he shouldn’t be surprised by the creepy crawlies or they shouldn’t exist at all 😭 but you know whatever pop off love the balance, you go invisible but you’re incredibly uncomfortable

Also the little bit about Percy getting grey hair before Sally. I swear to God I remember one of Sally’s first character descriptions was a woman with a lot of wrinkles a few stray grey hairs but Percy never thought of her as old. I wanna say it was in The Lightning Thief

OPEN MIC HOT POETRY WITH ERATO????? RICK????? HELLO???

Athena pulling thu,, i see u 👀 bonding with ur future son in law 😽

Awwww Groverrrr “‘Nothing is scarier than watching your friend struggle and not being able to help.’” ☹️☹️

PERCY AUTOMATICALLY ASSUMING IT WAS PAUL NOT POSEIDON WHEN THE SECRETARY SAID SHE WAS SPEAKING TO HIS FATHER!!!!!! DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME

Potential future Poseidon demigod? With Margaret the secretary? Pop off I guess

��Getting noticed for being anything like my mom, though…that’s a compliment.” MAMAS BOY

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO FOCUS ON BUT THEIR WHOLE IRIS MESSAGE AT THE END. BRO THEYRE SO KDBDIBDALSB

EDIT: wait i'm writing this fic and i was going to mention annabeth's dagger before i remembered that she lost it and got a drakon bone sword instead in tartarus. but i remembered that in chapter 12, page 91-92 of cotg, it says "She put her dagger across her textbook to mark her spot. I wasn't sure what her roomie thought about the knife, either." did she get a new one or is this another case of richard forgetting his own writing lmao

CHALICE OF THE GODS ACQUIRED !!!!

[feuqueerfire]

Badhaai Do Live Blogging

Queer brown people who get into a lavender marriage! A Bollywood movie about gay people, I'm so excited. Also I've been told it's a happy ending, so here we goooo

Aug 20

Genuine delight at the family gathering full of legit everyone + the marriage discussion and how the son gets so much more choice + although I don't speak Hindi, I understand tiny bits because of its similarity to Bengali

lmfaoooo my guy had really chosen a random girl he'd agree to marry, never expecting the family to agree to let him but whelp, now they have

lmfao and the girl avoids marriage by the 'my last fiance mysteriously passed away, you wanna take that chance?'

For shows in Korean or Hindi, I'm forever reminded that the subs don't fully express what's being said because I can understand enough to pick up that something different/more is being said but it's sad that I can't tell what exactly is the meaning

Anyway, forever glad I don't have a brother because in both families, we just saw a sister/female cousin be resentful of how the sons get special treatment

omg father-daughter good relationship :0 hope it remains that way pleaseee

O.O she's got a creepy stalker mans ?!

lmfao not her complaining about the stalker to the cops but Mr cop guy basically now stalking her T.T it's only lmfao because i know he's the main gay lead, otherwise i wouldn't be a lot more

omggg a dance number!!!!! let's goooo

ngl drunk ppl scary as hell even though it seems to turn out fine and jokey

Aww Sumi tagging along with Shardul and Kabir is cute and them having like kind of a 3 person honeymoon is adorable but I don't like Kabir so hm

ngl the guys' happiness + Sumi's longing made me sad though like I didn't tear up but could've

naurrr I'm dead not her overhearing them arguing about sex I'd T.T cry fr

kasdjf ahhh Sumi's meet cute with her future gf is when she goes to give her dad's stool sample

lmfao she's like when people have crushes on baristas and so go to get coffee everyday but she's out here doing some health tests

aww the future gf's family don't talk to her anymore T.T

lol the problems of living together as roommates arising now

ahhhhhh a queer party :0000 bro I'm boutta cry fr

oh yeah gf's name is Rimjhim. Also are we to understand that she's not Hindu? because of her not understanding/complying with the title + namaste thing?

aww Sumi bonding with her ex-gf's child

the passport thing and inability to go abroad always hits like damn the weight of a specific country's passport...

dang a sumi and rimjhim fight :(

ummm Shardul straight up slapping his boyfriend?!?! ummm O.O the fuck this is different from the KinnPorsche which made me be like oh? 0.0 ;) because this is like oh?! O.O D: anxiety like I'm here for the comedy + some angst and heartbreak, not... hitting your partner

arghhhhh okay let's see how they handle it ig like he apologized and I'm guessing Kabir's gone for good now.

damn the pressure of having kids starts now ig

omgggg sleeping on floors altogether is making me miss being young and sleeping at my grandma's so much! sharing rooms with cousins when a few of us came or when all of us were sleeping on floors of every room during my uncle's wedding

lmfao "noo don't tell anyone that's Sumi can't have a child hehe" to Mr blabbermouth

the calling Naaznin is killing me fr lmfaoooo

bro I'm so nervous but also I'm laughing cuz it's hilarious

lmfaooo Mummy's written method of what to say as a mother-in-law (nightmare fuel for desi women)

yooo this lawyer mans. so cool i want to be you

ahhhh double dates ahhhhhh ^.^

yo Guru funny as hell and also loves playing with fire

fuckkkkk Mummy saw Sumi and Rimjhim in bed

bro I'm boutta come and beat Sumi's bro's ass

omg the "lower your eyes!" thing when getting yelled at by mom. childhood memories

Sumi's father stand up for her pleaseeeeeee

omg :0 Shardul finally standing up for Sumi (my guy has been perfect desi son so far, no protest while his family hounds his wife lmfao so at least he's standing up for her now)

Shardul coming out omg (me trying not to be resentful that he gets to come out to his family with his own mouth rather than get walked in on by his mother-in-law)

Mummy T.T

I was wonderingggg when the pride parade will come in

omg another under the pride flag moment line in Not Me

something about this scene...

omggggg CRYING SCREAMING PULLING MY HAIR OUT at shardul, sumi, rimjhim, guru all being present at this puja for the child along with shardul's family + sumi's father

I love watching East or South East Asian media because it has similarities to my South Asian culture and I enjoy seeing these similarities that I wouldn't see in Western shows. However, seeing an actual South Asian movie where the culture is so similar to mine (different religions, so not quite the same) is so good! Family everywhere and all of them nosy! Familial pressure from all sides! The CNGs that they rode! The hustle and bustle of the city and of life! Hindi's similar to Bengali! Unfamiliar with the ultimate acceptance from many family members though lol but I can live vicariously through them I guess.

Sumi and Rimjhim (love her name) are so freaking beautiful. They were so beautiful.

I didn't like Shardul (lmfao patriarchal cop mans) but I guess... this movie wasn't necessarily about liking him. He deserves rights and for his queerness to be accepted even if I don't like him. I wish we got some more of the lawyer mans and Shardul, he was the most interesting character for sure.

Happy ending, funny moments, tinged with some sadness and struggles. I enjoyed it.

Rating: 7.5/10 hmm

Tiktoks:

Pride March - freaking loved it when I watched it and is definitely a reason why this went up my list and was one of my Highest priority ones

Twitter edit of Sumi/Rimjhim (cr: jinsolgbt)

[ihatebnha]

Massage man Bakugo, but not like in the porns. You're his client and yea he's hot but you're there for massages only. He's tired of clients hitting on him and scowls while giving massages. Eventually you two start talking more and more until a sort of friendship but not friendship forms. Bakugo realizes he like likes you and he's kinda pissed because he hates the idea of falling for a client but he can't helpbut fall for you. And he starts getting boners while massaging you even though you aren't moaning or anything. But then you don't show up for a month and he's worried. But when you do show up again you explain that your boss gave you too much extra work and you couldn't handle it, which is why you couldn't show up and why you really need a massage asap. And it's while he's massaging you that he says something about you needing to take better care of your dumbass, and he may say that he'll take you out to a nice resturaunt....and you don't know if he's asking you out or just being nice, but you say yes regardless and by the time the date is done he's confirmed it was a date and he wants more.

(LMFAOOO not like in the porns.... katy perry WHO? anyway)... 

I wish I could write a lil prompt for this but 1. this is pretty much perfect already and 2. I don’t know how to write massages (too embarrassing for caitie tbh)... but this is literally so good that I kinda want to cry... 

Masseur!Chiropractor!whatever! Bakugo who is so used to people just coming to him for his good looks, that he’s instantly smitten with you for not being one of the skinny little, blonde bimbos who always uses his massages as a way to try and get in his pants... 

(I’m thinking about Bakugo in like... scrubs here... and tbh it’s making me want to DIE...)

But like YES, he starts popping boners from just seeing the straps of your bra or the top of your thong, and he’s a little bit worried about being into you since client protection laws or whatever... but after you don’t show up for a while he gets WORRIED... and he just can’t help himself from asking for your number (outside of your personal info) the next time he sees you since he missed you your back is in such bad condition and you’re always talking about being stressed and whatnot (and always seem so happy to see him genuinely)... that it would be wrong for him “not to do something about it” and “it’s his job...”

Like whether you agree to it being a “date” or not he still wants to take care of you >:( 

OMG, and so, when he asks about taking you out for a private session, you’re like, “Ahhhhh haha, Bakugo that’s so sweet but I’m sure you get a lot of offers from other girls, don’t worry about me if you don’t wanna!” 

AND HE GETS SOOOOO FUCKING MAD that basically he ends up having to take you on a date just to prove ???? to you. 

(He’s like, I’LL SHOW YOU THAT I DON’T WANT THEM😡, and you’re in the passenger seat just chilling like “Woohoo I guess? Go Bakugo!)

Like idk, I’m just loving this Bakugo who’s soooo sweet and wants to date you so bad that he’s already jumping to a date the moment you say you wouldn’t mind “just hanging out” or whatever (not that a date is bad you’re just trying to be reasonable in case that’s not what he means).

But nope... like what a SWEETIE lmfao... being all aggressively nice

You: idk if you’re being romantic or not but it’s nice either way! I don’t mind going on a date :) 

Baku: Our wedding is next month on the 5th, be there or be square. people who only like my body DNI

(And since you’re pretty comfortable with each other, you probably fuck on the first date, too)(You didn’t hear that from me tho)

Omg and when you do finally, OFFICIALLY, start dating, it’s kinda 😓 because all your friends are like, “OMG Bakugo, you should give me a massage!” and even though they mean it nicely you really have to stop him from barking their heads off about only giving you massages... like baby, THAT’S LITERALLY YOUR JOB...

Anyway he’s pouty... and still a lil insecure about how many people want to funk him at work since he wants you to know he’d NEVER even touch them if not for their moneys... He’s a simp.   

[edwardslostalchemy]

Y’all I just want to talk about one of my best friends because I really appreciate him and his friendship. 

Like I have mentioned him before. He and I constantly get shipped together. He is a year younger than I am. We’ve known each other since I was in first grade and he was in kinder, so we were TINY. We weren’t really close in elementary school because of the grade difference, but we knew each other and he basically lives across from my grandmother’s house. I remember his mom would see me and she’d send me to take things to him in class. In junior high we hung out because he was friends with my friends, too. And in high school, it was the same thing. We had a couple of conflicts that we resolved, which was good, but other than that, our friendship has been really fucking nice. In high school, I remember I went to pick him up from his class for an assembly and we got locked in the damn classroom and we were so close to screaming, we’re fucking useless. Anyway, I guess we made it out because here we are lmfaooo. All of our friends and us would sit together and from that big group, seven of us stayed in our main best friend group (the group chat is called Familia, but I asked him to take me out because messages give me anxiety rip). 

Anyway, he is very attentive to what my friends and I say and he has a good memory for things. He looks out for me when I don’t because I have dumb bitch energy and I’m an anxious bisexual fuck, so he knows that SOMEONE has to look out for me because if he doesn’t, our other friends will, but not as like...well as him, I guess. But YEAH. I have had to go on a gluten-free diet in the past because bread and other flour/baked foods would make my stomach cry. I’m also lactose intolerant. I don’t drink coffee and I love tea. I’m a lightweight so I can only have one drink per hangout because I get tipsy out of nothing tbh ridic. And there’s other details that he just remembers like he has it written on an index card or some shit. Which is NICE. So whenever we are going to eat something that has bread/cookies/cake/baked goods, he looks at it first and then reminds me “This is a cookie. Do you still want it?” And I’m like “Yeah give it to me fuck it.” Or he tells me “this frosting has milk, so bring your pill to eat dairy.” He is the only friend that’s done this and I honestly appreciate everything he has done for me and my life’s preservation because I, for one, do not give a fuck about my health sometimes and just go “fuck give it to me”, but then he pulls a stop sign on me like “you dumbass this is gonna fuck up your stomach.” He has also been there for me during very dark times like my past 5 years of depression and anxiety, me distancing myself, my suicidal ideations, my grandfather’s death, and me going through a lot of shit because of my sexuality. Like when I need to talk, he’s there. I will never forget that. And I told him this last night, that I’m really glad we’re friends and that he’s the only one out of our group that keeps in touch with me because I struggle with communication. Like if anyone has ever messaged me, you know I can go days or weeks without answering. He knows and understands, though sometimes jokes to not ghost him (I don’t do it on purpose!), and he sends me messages and doesn’t pressure me to answer him. 

What strained our friendship the most was how everyone would ship us (still ship us???). We are very close. We hug. We’ve called each other dumb nicknames to fuck around like “My love” and “My life”, but we know we’re joking. We sit together, or side by side all the time. That is our place. And he is the only one whom I feel comfortable sitting on my left side. I am blind from my left eye so I always always feel uncomfortable when someone sits/walks on my left side because I can’t see them. He is the exception because I can hear him and he also draws my attention before anything so he doesn’t surprise me. Anyway, yeah we also tend to share food/drinks. We also hold eye contact with one another like we are very attentive to each other. I guess we give off that ‘couple’ vibe?? But we are just really good, close friends and it honestly killed me whenever someone would bring up the ‘dating’ topic. Like we went with it for a while. When we would get asked if we were together, we would say yes. We would pretend and we didn’t need to do much to pull it off because people already thought we were together. Until he asked me to tone it down and I just went ahead and stopped because it was getting to me as well. It sucked. I really hate how society just thinks that if a guy and a girl are close, they are a couple. Even my aunts thought we were together. My aunt asked me all the time if we were a thing and I was like “No.” Even my own mother wanted me to date him. It was too much. I had to spend time away from him. I actually needed space. I was not comfortable and I had to just spend time away so that I could like feel like myself. I think about that and I honestly feel my stomach churning. I never liked him in a romantic way. I thought I did because everyone would tell us this and that and God, I wish people would just shut up. I doubt he ever liked me like that, either, which is a GOOD thing. If I remember correctly, he told me he didn’t like me like that (???) because I was with my boss when I mentioned it and I had to talk to someone about it and my boss was like ‘well it’s good you know now’ and I was really happy about it! (I think this was the first time I went ‘I’m ace/aro’, but never acknowledged it until later). So yeah. So don’t ship people please. It feels like hell tbh. 

Our friendship is still Gucci and we still go out, though I noticed that since I left for uni I’ve been distant because of my poor communication skills. But he knows I’d never forget him. It’s kinda hard to do so when he lives two blocks away from my house lmfao. And right in front of my grandmother’s. I really hope we can remain good friends in the future. It’s just really nice to have someone like that in my life. I just started thinking about this because I gave him a Christmas present last night and he got me something, too. And even though we were going out with friends, I only got him and another friend a gift. I don’t have money right now, I’m flat broke and I’m waiting for student loans to save me because that pays rent and groceries. But I got him and our other friend something because they’re just real MVPs in my life, but moreso him. Idk I just wanted to talk about him because he’s a great human being and a wonderful friend and I hope good things happen to him. 

[swearronchanel]

8.08

how did the series fly by this quickly? anyways, let’s see how it ends

Aww poor Val

Now Shelagh and May, I can’t with all the sadness already

Vanessa Redgrave isn’t helping either ugh

But I’ve missed the nuns being nuns and singing I’m glad they squeezed some in

It’s so hard to be stuck in the middle like that, sorry Valerie

Now a teenage girl with cancer wow they REALLY wanna make me cry tonight

Shelagh always keeping herself busy lol omg like that to do list is serious

How many kids does this lady have damn

did he say Schroeder like the Baroness in sound of music? my subtitles skipped that and my hearing is shit apparently 

Val didn’t even put makeup on, you know she can’t even

“I’ve rather missed the cinched in waist” there’s my Trix

Also love her plaid pants

Cutting the photograph right in half ugh this is terrible

Lucille is so sweet

Ugh I feel that I hate hospitals so much

ANGELA SPOKE!! I’m shook

MAY SPOKE WHATTTTT!?

this is sad but I’m too shook that both of these silent little girls just spoke it’s a Christmas in March miracle

this is so rough bc we know Val’s gran really didn’t mean to cause harm. It’s all the system’s fault man for making women’s lives so difficult

What’s wrong with Reggie?😭

Phyllis!! Ugh I’ve missed her. The lack of her has been unappreciated

Also I still love Ms Higgins LMAO I want Phyllis and her to go out somewhere

Omg I’m in tears I can’t like this is heartbreaking, my grandma is my number 1 I can’t imagine being in Val’s situation

Someone tell me what’s wrong with Reggie and who must I fight to solve the issue !!!

Aww and now May’s gone 😭 

LMFAOOO SHELAGH AND FRED

the swat of the hand is a mood 😂

RIP to the disco ball, symbolizing my energy crashing and burning

LUCILLE DEFENDING VALERIE YESS

but i would’ve thrown hands like 1) do not talk to me like that & B) mind your business bc it’s between my gran and me

“Gentle sir” I still believe Sister MJ has a platonic crush on Cyril and I love it

LMAOO oops they’re all in their slips omg too funny

Remember when the girls had funnier lines like Trixie asking Jenny Lee if she was naked and indecent when knocking on her door? 😹

Aww now Vi everyone is succumbing to tears can we stop PLS

Why is this conversation so pure? Cyril is a gem

Poppet😭 Sister Hilda sounding like Mrs Potts

“I’ll teach you” ok I really like Sister Hilda

Pub money omg

“How nice..” LMAO Sgt Woolfe really has trouble with the curve 😭 is he naive or just too persistent

But Phyllis is smart af to set them up so she’s free from him😂

“You fixed that tap” LMAO I love Reggie

GIRLFRIEND! 😭 “no, beautiful” PUREEE

YAy Phyllis is coming home *starts singing in the key of one last time from Hamilton, Phyllis Crane is coming homeeeee*

“If only the laws were different” preach Val. We know the real villain. 

“No one can go through life without experiencing any pain at all” ain’t that the damn ugly truth 😞

Lucille giving her a gown ugh my heart

Reggie writing a letter to his lady again my heart

Ugh now the dad has a sob story this is all too much

Now Sister MJ will say something that’ll hit the feels as well

“None of that defeatist talk” remember when the Dowager Countess Violet Crawley said “don’t be a defeatist my dear, it’s very middle class” LMAO I miss Downton but let’s continue

Another baby girl

Ugh more feels why is this finale so damn sad

Sgt Woolfe sent Ms Higgins flowers, get ittt girl

Omg this is too much sadness I can’t

The tears in sister Mj’s eyes 😭

Dr Turner and Fred having a little moment is honestly sweet. They’re such dads

“I am the elder” OK SISTER MJ WE HEAR U SIS !! Sister J can take a seat! you know if she were around this series..

poor Fred was so worried

Not gonna lie I lowkey didn’t see this coming. I thought May was really leaving. But you know love gotta conquer all or this isn’t a ctm finale Lmaoo 😂

And now the Turner’s officially collect kids ((it’s a It Takes Two (1995) reference  LMAOO pls don’t come for me ill stop))

May is adorable & I love her

MS CRANE IS BACK IN ACTION YES HELLO OUR SOVEREIGN LONG MAY SHE REIGN IN NONATUS HOUSE SHALL WE POP OUR ROLODEX’S IN HONOR

“Where would I be if not along side you?” GOSH SISTER J MORE TEARS FOR ME

SISTER MJ PULLED UP TOO, UGH I CANT MY HEART

I can’t take the wigs serious like why do they wear them LMAO

England really can’t let go of a lot of dated traditions can they? like the 18th century looking wigs and well, monarchs 😂😂

“They never said that to Cinderella” it just gets more sad by the minute

EXCUSE ME SIR DONT SNAP AT BEATRIX FRANKLIN LIKE THAT

Cath came omg

Can there be one smidge of happiness pls ? I need some hope here

She’s changing her plead to guilty omgg

6 years oh shit

“Until you girls with all your training and all your learning sort something out with the men who make the law..” PREACH GRAN

ABORTION BEING ILLEGAL ONLY STOPS SAFE ABORTIONS FROM HAPPENING!!! yelling at brick walls at this point

I’m so glad Val and her Gran are made peace😭

the nurses serving princess looks😍😍

FATHERS AND DAUGHTERS WALTZ I CAN NOTTTT

PATRICK, MAY, AND ANGELA

IM IN TEARS GOOD FREAKING BYE

ScHRODER DRESSED IN CINDERELLA BLUE SOMEONE HELP

Phyllis holding a random girl and Sister J holding Angela 😭😭

“Gathered together we find our light, and each spark shifts and multiplies scattering its radiance on our ordinary lives. Like everything precious, more valuable when shared. Like every common miracle, made of the stuff of stars.”

Omg Violet brought Jane I cant

“Let the line shine...See the hope, see the promise.. Tell your truth. Tell your story. Tell your love.” WOW feels

THIS WASNT ENOUGH HAPPINESS LIKE I KNOW THATS LIFE BUT STILL I NEED MORE POSITIVITY TO GET ME TO CHRISTMAS

can’t believe I watched the entire series in real time, from London like wow life is crazy

But my time is halfway done already, catch me watching the Christmas special back on my couch in the states. ok bye see ya maybe in december

[arianagrandre]

sweetener thoughts

this is gonna be long so everything’s under the cut :))

current favourites: breathin, giaw, everytime, ntltc, R.E.M., better off, goodnight n go

1. Raindrops - I remember the first time i heard it. I immediately fell in love and I was so glad that she left it as an acapella - raw and untouched. I think it’s such a beautiful intro and (like all her intros and interludes) I wish it was longer.

2. Blazed - I like this track, it’s fun and I can imagine playing this at the beach or something?? I don’t really mind pharrell’s part on it but it’s an okay track, nothing really special.

3. the light is coming - Do yall hear sumn?

4. R.E.M. - oh my god this song.... it’s so so so pretty and I love that it’s so chill.... just a very dreamy song overall. It makes me want to fall in love. Her vocals on this are super pretty and I like that I can hear hints of Beyonce in it lmao. I love her lower register!!! It’s gorgeous and I’m glad this song managed to showcase that. Her rapping here is also very fitting I feel - it doesn’t feel out of place, the transitions from her rap verses to her singing verses flow really well and the whole song just seems tied together. Also I love her little speaking moments it’s so cute.

5. God is a Woman - Legendary. I didn’t like the lyrics initially (I thought she could do better since the title was so bold and commanding) but I fell in love with how it sounded from the start. The choir at the end gets me everytime.... btw Dangerous Woman walked so God is a Woman could run

6. Sweetener - The first 15 seconds? Godly. After that? I died laughing kfjjhgjfgh I really didn’t expect that AT ALL..... I’m glad that she finds it funny with the whole bop-it joke thing but I’m kinda disappointed. She actually sounded incredible on the singing parts and I loved the tune it’s just that I couldn’t take the repetitive noises seriously :( (I actually laughed on the bus on the way to class because I was in disbelief).... I half like that song I guess? lmfaoooo

7. Successful - I actually thought this track was really cute... I can’t help but sing along to the “im so successful” part. Although it’s kinda odd that I feel like this sound would’ve been something she would’ve done pre-yours truly. It’s very whimsical and reminds me of Voodoo Love. I think the lyrics are a letdown though, I was hoping for an inspiring song about working hard to be successful but we only got a bit of that in the chorus (which honestly felt forced because the song’s mainly about a guy anyway lmfaooo) :// disappointed but not surprised

8. Everytime - LOVE. This one definitely stood out to me, I love the chorus so much. I felt like this is the sound I’ve wanted her to make for the longest time. I don’t really know how else to describe this track but I’m just so happy. It’s gorgeous.

9. Breathin - On my first listen... I wanted to cry. Only 2 other songs on her discography has made me cry before - Thinking Bout You and Honeymoon Avenue. The first few lines on this track resonated with me so much :( and when the chorus came in... holy shit... hearing that chorus was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever experienced.... definitely my favourite on the album right now. It’s perfect (lyrics-wise and sound-wise).

10. No Tears Left To Cry - I don’t think I’ll ever get over this song and the whole upside-down concept. It’s such a beautiful track and the perfect choice as a first single. I like the balance - I think the simple and repetitive “picking it up” parts made for an even more powerful and surprising chorus. Also the background harmonies make me emotional.

11. Borderline - I liked that this sounded like early 2000s music lmao I think it’s a great track overall but it didn’t really stick with me :/ I do like her vocals on this track, it just feels like her voice was naturally made for this sound. Wish missy had more lines!!!

12. Better Off - The first thing that came to my mind was that she sounded like Jhene Aiko (can that collab please happen)??? I loved this one a lot, it’s pretty short but it’s got a really soft and vulnerable touch to it. The lyrics are honest and I love that it’s on a relatively slower track, I think it makes the whole song much more meaningful. The strings at the end are so pretty and it makes for a really bittersweet ending.

13. Goodnight n Go - I was really excited for this one and I have to say I really like what she’s done with this song and the transitions are so smooth. LOVE THE BRIDGE. It honestly made me emotional on the first listen because I’ve always loved her Imogen covers and to have this cover/remix on her most personal album makes it a lot more special.

14. Pete Davidson - Cute lyrics, nice beat.

15. Get Well Soon - Ooh I really really like the lyrics on this one but I’m not too sure if it’s a song I’d listen to if I’m feeling down lmao... it’s a great track though, I love the layers and harmonies and all its different parts. It’s the sound she’s always strived for (compare to her looping station videos) and I’m so glad you can really hear it here. I think it’s a perfect conclusion to the album too.

overall thoughts: I actually feel like this album is more cohesive than the others were - there’s an overarching theme and the sound wasn’t too different throughout the tracks. I love the overall quality - the mix of pop & R&B is perfect for her, her vocals feel so natural and soothing and you can really hear the harmonies and layers on this album which I appreciate. It’s also refreshing to hear something different. It’s sad to see bops go but i love that this album has more depth. Of course it has its disappointments but I’m glad that she took a risk with this album regardless!!

[princeofyorkshire]

hola effie🌻 cry baby, black nail polish y flower crown

hola candeeeee <3

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

i actually don’t… i never really know what i want so i never made one lolll. i think my priority rn is graduating uni and that’s it, maybe after that i’ll want to do something else but that’s all i can think of right now

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

i sing to myself all the time i’m surprised the answer is not I Am Singing Right Now! but to be fair i just woke up an hour ago and still haven’t gotten up nor brushed my teeth soooo imma say it was probably last night!

i’m adding a read more thing now cause the next answer was unnecessarily long lol

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

ooo god ok i’ve been to a few by the same artists so i’ll put them all together!! my first concert was one direction in 2014. i don’t really have a lot of memories from it, i just remember that it started raining when i got into the stadium so i looked up to the sky with open arms and the silliest smile on my face, i was so happy and excited to see them!!! i had only been a fan of them for a year and a half so i didn’t have to wait long but it felt like i had been in the fandom forever

that same year i saw r5 which was. very random lol. my friend wanted to go but didn’t have anyone to go with, the tickets weren’t too expensive so i went with her. i saw them twice again after that show. they were always fun! the music was kinda disneyish but i liked it anyway, ross was always an absolute sweetheart so i had a great time everytime!

i saw the vamps twice and those were the most random concerts actually. the first time i saw them was in 2016 and i bought a ticket the day of the show. i didn’t even like them, but my friend’s cousin got sick and gave her her ticket, so my friend told me they were very cheap so i should buy one and go with her so i did. and i really enjoyed it! the second time i saw them tho… i don’t know what changed, but i remember feeling a bit bored? and kinda ignored lol. we had the same seats as the year prior but it was the opposite side. so like, the dude who was closest to us didn’t really. look at us. and i mean we weren’t close at all, it was a good view anyway but he just. didn’t even wave so that was kinda eh. i saw tini tho so that was something!!!

saw fifth harmony twice lmfaooo the first time was. probs the worst show i’ve been to? there was like… no interacting w the crowd at all it all felt v robotic. maybe i’m not used to shows w ppl dancing but idk. camila was the most fun at the show. also i was annoyed cause they changed the venue and i ended up w shit seats lol so maybe that influenced it. also it only lasted an hour and it was v far from my house so that sucked too lol. the second time i had pit and got very close so i liked it more but i think that’s literally the only reason, i don’t think i would have enjoyed it if i had nosebleed seats or something like that rip

i saw niall in 2018! it was a very chill concert and i really liked it!!!! i don’t remember a lot i’ll be honest i just know that i liked it. pit wasn’t that bad cause his music was very chill so i didn’t fight for my life that time!

ok finally 2022. imma start w harry. i saw him in 2018 as well but i’m putting those two together: i had an AMAZING time both times, i really love harry as a performer! my least favorite thing about his shows tho are … the fans … they are just rude and mean for no reason. last week was only bad while we were queuing outside but in 2018 they were SO aggressive while waiting for him to come out AND during the show and that annoyed me but i can’t say anything negative about harry. i had a blast both times and i still can’t believe how lucky i got this year being so close to him lol

trueno <3 my fucking beloved <3 that man has ENERGYYYY. i was so impressed by him and the other dudes performing w him. i loved the atmosphere at the show. i love how political he has become. hating on cops, loving the argies. it was everything i needed and more!

coldplay was also great. you know, i never really paid attention to them and i only went to see them cause my dad likes them and we surprised him w tickets but god, what a show. chris martin? an insane charming motherfucker. i was so happy during that show. love those silly little bracelets. love chris’ love for argentina. loved singing de musica ligera w 70k argies. it was so good. bless him and the band <3

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!!! LOUIS!!!! i still can’t believe i got to see my boy twice. i was so nervous the whole time, i wanted everything to go right (aka didn’t want to pass out lol) so thinking about it all the time made me very very anxious and i def think i could have had a better time. i still had a fucking blast tho, i couldn’t believe LOUIS was in front of me like i was actually in shock during the first show. to this day i watch my videos and go . i can’t believe i took this. lol. i can’t wait to see him again sometime next year/2024 <3

aesthetic themed ask list

[anxiety-trademark]

The week in review:

Raw 08/31 NXT 09/01 Smackdown 09/04

Raw:

Still like ShaNia.

Unclear on why being merely pushed sent Shayna out of the camera’s field of view for 8 seconds, but alright.

Me: *likes Nattie and Lana together* ; wwe: “How about a feud with them vs Asuka?”; Me: “...you know what, nvm.”

The absolute state of Becky’s title, yikes.

This segment needed more hairdryer crowd noise.

They’re not wrong, that ring gear is insanely outdated.

Lana “elevating this entire women’s division” pppfffftttttt

“If you wanna get to her you gotta go through me,” with all due respect to Nattie - cuz I DO respect her - who is trying to get to her? Who in this segment has mentioned her name??

The way Lana never lets herself get properly thrown out of the ring. Ugh.

Coach Nattie “harder Lana” Neidhart, everyone.

Watching Asuka on commentary just adds to the positives of pairing her with Charlotte. Sorry I’m not into the random yelling Japanese, with nothing being accomplished and zero questions being answered. I’m jumping ahead of myself here though.

No seriously what happened to the pants Mickie used to wear on SD back in 2017?

That was a match. If I had positives to give, I’d give them. Anyway.

I haven’t said how much I like the backstage interviews taking place in a mock ring, but I’m a fan. I love wwe for its impressive amount of over-the-top production, and small things like this just adds to the product imo.

This is cute, sad, and a little too on the nose. I’m a fan of how they’ve built up Riott Squad’s bond, but it’s too obvious who’s losing. They deserve the time, though.

iiconics had a niche; neither will shine as singles stars.

Also don’t like that the shades of their blue gear don’t match. Nitpicking again, I know.

Really liked iiconics’ theme. rip.

Somehow, after all these years, I’m still shocked at how bad Billie Kay is at selling. You’re being punched in the face. Just PRETEND like she’s making contact, please. You’re staring right fucking at her.

Good positioning of the ref and good camera work, did not see Liv coming to intercept Peyton on behalf of Ruby. Points to everyone.

Wow couldn’t finish it with a finisher? Is there a reason we need to protect Billie Kay of all people??

“Over a decade of friendship is gone,” what a bad line, Tom.

*Jassamyn & Marina dominate Raw Underground* No.

Highlight: ShaNia interview prior to Asuka joining in

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NXT:

*Tegan looks back at her time with Candice* No.

Why isn’t nxt in the Thunderdome? Why are all these people crowded together? Hello, covid anyone??

Candice gets 1/4 a point for the annoyed look she gave Kacy and Kayden, cuz I actually nearly laughed.

Kacy willing to take bumps. Beautiful neckbreaker, beautiful bump onto the floor.

...Did Candice just do a poor woman’s version of Charlotte’s Natural Selection? EXCUSE ME??!? Negative 20 points.

All that setup just to push her face into the mat. Okay. Oh that was her finisher. Wow, once again I sat through a Candice match that I immediately regretted.

*Candice wants to reconcile with Tegan* No.

This is why losing to Charlotte was a good thing for Rhea, she has honed her craft in every single category since wm. Great promo.

That is not at all how I expected Mercedes to sound. And a 12 word promo... Kay, anyway.

Highlight: the neckbreaker Kacy took

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Smackdown:

“Bayley, Shayna’s tapped you out the last 3 times you were in the ring with her,” LMFAOOO I’m crying omg. That sentence and its reactions get mad points, whew.

I’m questioning the stupid smile on Bayley’s face the entire time Sasha straight went off, and I’m realizing that as much as she’s improved, there’s a reason I still rate Sasha as a better actress.

Every time I hear Sasha’s entrance, I just want to jump to an old match to hear the good version.

The way they transitioned from Nia’s music into Shayna’s should be a staple. Beautiful.

Not an ounce of me needs this pre match commentary.

Lol mirrored ragdolling. Didn’t even realize Shayna was that strong.

I like that struggle by Bayley while being forced into her opponents’ corner.

Fantastic attempt to separate Bayley’s shoulder, points.

Sasha is my all-time favorite opponent of Nia’s. Usually I favor Bayley’s speed, but I love Sasha’s “flurry of offense,” as they call it.

OOF a rope hangup into a power bomb on the floor. Well done. Points for the combo move, points for the bump.

Sasha in her desperate pin attempts is always great.

“rare miscommunication between Banks and Bayley,” it wasn’t terrible, but very noticeable... and very rare indeed. Still the best tag team in the entire division - or at least they were lmao.

This match is way better than Payback. I feel like it’s longer as well.

Ohp Sasha’s knee is dead.

“What we didn’t see is Nia Jax rip Bayley off the apron,” and why the hell did no camera catch that, especially on the network? Billion dollar company btw.

It’s a good finish though. These 2 were exhausted and on their last leg (lol literally) it’s buyable for a crossbody by Nia to finish them off.

One thing I like about this was Bayley’s premeditation. It wasn’t a random act of violence.

This is the first time I think I’ve ever seen Sasha’s infamous knee pads that protect her from doing an INSANE amount of damage to her knees like 15 times per match lmao. Wonder if she wears anything protective on her poor shins, or if they’re just indented and bruised to all hell.

MAN I wish this had a crowd just to gauge the reaction.

“Don’t look at me like that” whew it’s misty in here. Sasha does vulnerable, heart broken, kicked puppy REALLY fucking well, wbk.

That moment when Sasha “I’ll sell ANYTHING” Banks stops selling moves because her body is fucking rekt. Sad. My god her body shook on impact of that kick to the back. BAYLEY CALM DOWN.

“YOU HAPPY MICHAEL COLE? HUH?? IS IT BOSS TIME NOW?!?” lmaooo

I like the imagery of Bayley standing over Sasha, holding her face up and screaming at her, but the dialogue was weak.

Long segment to not be broken up by security/officials.

Curious to know why Bayley decided to fuck up Sasha’s neck.

Love how Sasha shakes her arm after the stomp. She’s so good.

Sasha with a neck brace on a stretcher... getting ptsd flashbacks from hiac 2016.

Fine segment, glad it happened. Some kinks I would’ve ironed out, starting with the length, but that’s nitpicking. Not the greatest betrayal I’ve ever seen, but I give them points for having it be by Bayley’s hand rather than the typical Sasha’s.

Omg one of Bray’s puppets is in the back.

Love that there are more dreads in Lexi’s hair.

Lexi gets cute points. She’s cute. Sue me.

The madness continues. We’re in this for the long haul, huh.

I realize Nikki is totally secondary, but she’s selling all of this really well. Alexa needed someone who cares about her to help make this stick, so points to Nikki.

Highlight: ShaNia vs Baysha

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*Smackdown easily shined the brightest this week. Following a great match, Bayley and Sasha finally split up after teasing this shit for over a year. Enough said.

[the-madame21]

Kanato Vandead Carnival Summary

Kanato's vandead route was a fucking trip ok why did no one tell me it was basically King Kong with a big ass teddy lmfaooo. Lots of kissing, as expected which was great and the sub scenarios were fucking hilarious oh my god why does no one ever talk about how fucking funny diabolik lovers is??? Ok so I’m gonna summarize the route under the cut and his sub scenarios will be on a different post. Mind you I’ve got basic bitch Japanese skills so it’s just a basic idea. 

Scene 1: Kanato takes her into a sweets shop and introduces her as his luggage. It’s pretty great cuz everyone refers to Kanato as Kanato-sama since they’re princes and shit. Kanato is being his usual condescending self and all, but he’s super excited and happy cuz he gets to eat all these cakes and stuff. If I’m not mistaken he’s a regular there. He tells Yui to go get him more or something, I can’t really remember but she has to leave the table they’re sitting at. Anyway she overhears these vampire bitches talking mad shit like “ohmagawd who is that with Kanato-sama?? Is it really a human?? ohmagawd why is Kanato-sama with a human? She’s probably his like servant or something fufufufuffufufufu.” And Yui is all in her head like “mm that’s rude...” so she’s about to say something like all kindly the way she does and she’s like “Um, excuse me” but then Kanato goes DIDN’T I TELL YOU TO HURRY UP? HURRY UP AND GET YOUR FACE OVER HERE!! And Yui apologizes (that’s literally like the only thing she ever says is just gomenasai, Kanato-kun) So anyway he grabs her and BAM he’s all up in her face and it’s like a mad makeout session in the middle of the sweets shop and the vampire bitches are like g-g-gasp. And Yui is all like “what are you doing in this sort of place??” And he’s like “Isn’t it obvious? I’m letting you have a taste?” CUZ YEAH HE HAD FUCKING CAKE IN HIS MOUTH SO ITS A DOUBLE TREAT. And basically he’s just licking sweets off her mouth for like the longest. Then after that he yells at the bitches like this human is MINE wahawahwah the way Kanato does. 

Scene 2: They’re off to a dress shop. And I swear Yui is so dumb sometimes she’s like “why does Kanato have to go to a dress shop for?” Like it’s for you, stupid. So anyway they go to the dress shop and it’s all fun and shit and the dress shop owner lady is a fun person and you’re supposed to pick the princess dress option. So she makes Yui a big princess dress that she can’t get into without help. GUESS WHO HELPS HER. Yui really tries to be like “oh Kanato call the seamstress” and he’s like WHY WOULD I DO THAT WHEN I’M RIGHT HERE. So then that smexy smexy bowchikabowwow music pops up and you already know what’s going to happen lmao. So he zips her up or whatever but then starts biting and kissing and Yui again is like “In such a place??” But Kanato gives no fucks so he keeps going, and he comments on how pretty her skin looks against the black dress and then sucks some more and lewd comments and all that smexy good stuff. When they’re finally done and come out the shop lady comments on how long that took and Yui gets red af lmaoo. Kanato doesn’t give two shits and tells the shop lady to send the dress to his room. 

Scene 3: Basically Teddy gets lost. It’s a fucking mess. The whole time it’s just Kanato crying TEDDY?? WHERE ARE...WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE??? TEDDY?? And they end up in some weird ass doll house with a bunny and they find Teddy. But then Teddy wants to dance or some shit so Yui dances with Teddy which is actually like a game similar to dance dance revolution or tap tap revenge or whatever the fuck lol. So then after that then Kanato says they should dance some more but with him instead so Yui dances with him and he insists they get closer and it’s like dawww. Much sexual tension~ But then Teddy gets jealous or some shit and there’s more drama and Kanato screaming and Teddy runs away again.

Scene 4: Continuations of TEDDY WHERE ARE YOU GWAAAHHH. But then *plot twist* Teddy is actually a ginormous monster now known as “Big Teddy” and honestly I was fucking dying of laughter oh my god it was such a mess. He fucking kidnaps Yui and Kanato is fucking losing his shit ok like oh man it was fucking great I couldn’t stop laughing. So Teddy finally drops Yui off in the ballroom and it’s like *surprise* she’s the queen of the carnival!! And people congratulate her or whatever the fuck and Kanato catches up and is yelling at Teddy and shit but finally says even still he can’t hate Teddy cuz blah blah so Teddy shrinks again and returns to being Kanato’s doll or whatever.

Finale: Lots of touchy touchy feely-ness. It’s actually pretty fantastic. Kanato becomes super sweet and stove while still being his scary possessive self. So he says he has a surprise for her and they go up to the roof to see some fireworks and I think Kanato mentions something about the dress again and how he’d like to see her in it so Yui says she’ll go change and to please wait for her. Which is stupid since he goes with her anyway since she can’t fucking put it on by herself anyway. But whatever. So they go to his room and he helps her put on the dress and this happens: 

“Please let me see you from the front. Mm...as expected, you’re beautiful.” 

SOBS OMG KANATO YOU’RE SO SWEET. So yeah so then whatever he’s like all lovey dovey the way he was in HDB with his possessive kisses and it’s the freaking best.

“That’s fine. I don’t need the dress. What I want...is Yui.”

“I will always be by Kanato-kun’s side.” 

Overall it was fucking awesome. A++++++ for giant ass Teddy. I fucking died. And his sub scenarios were great too which I’ll post in a bit. 

[edanzgarden]

170428 [FANACCOUNT] GREETING EXO @ LAX/ MEETING HAHA BY ACCIDENT AND THEN EVENTUALLY ENDING UP ON HIS INSTAGRAM POST/EXORDIUM IN L.A. EXPERIENCE

Hey guys, I'm back again for another fan account and boy was it like the best day of my life. OMG...if you don’t feel like reading all of this, I’m just going to leave some highlights for you and of course I’ll bold the most relevant parts.

ME @ LAX TO GREET EXO BECAUSE OF FANGIRL SHENANIGANS 

CHANYEOL ACTUALLY SPOKE BACK TO ME (fancam link)

CHEN AND XIUMIN POLITELY GREETED ME (fancam link)

KAI ACKNOWLEDGED MY EXISTENCE AGAIN PT 2. (fancam link) 

WE MET HAHA RANDOMLY...A WTF HOW MOMENT SERIOUSLY LOL 

WE MADE IT ON HAHA’S INSTAGRAM POST LOL (INSTA POST

EXO CONCERT WAS HYPE AS FUKK/ I STAN THE RIGHT GROUP

KAI IS STILL EFFIN BEAUTIFUL EVEN FROM THE 3RD TIER OF A STADIUM

 So I went to Los Angeles again for the 2nd solo Exo concert The EXOr’dium in America and as expected the show was hyped, exciting and unforgettable. I came into L.A. the day before to buy the 2.0 Exo light stick and some other kpop merch from Music Plaza in Koreatown and finally got my hands on an In and Out burger lol. Anyway the next day I woke up really early around 5am (I was stuck on east coast time) and I looked on my phone to see that Exo had left Mexico in the early morning and were en route on a flight to L.A. So me and my girl Jay (my exo fangirl bestie) decided on a whim that we were going to go to the airport to greet them in. We found out that they would arrive in about 3 hours because we saw in the previews of exo in mexico that they had just left. We went to LAX, we were less than 5 minutes away because our hotel is right next to the airport, and got some breakfast and started searching for the hotspot where Exo would be. So we found it with a couple of other fangirls who had been there all early morning lol So we waited for a couple hours as more fans started to show up and waited anxiously for exo. As we were waiting, A woman and a guy came up to us to interview us lol. They asked if we were exo fans, where we were from and why did we like exo. They asked for me to dance and I told them that I couldn't but i did sing for them lol. (Its so embarrasing when i think about it. Anyway, they asked me who my fave member was, I told them Kai and they told me to say something to Kai because he would be watching it lmfao. I was like Wtf at first because it felt random lol.   So I gave him a short message and then we continued to wait for EXO.

Fast forward to a good 20-30 minutes later, Exo comes out, everyone grew really excited so I whipped out my phone to take a video. They were moving real fast so I had to make sure that I caught up to speed because it turned a bit chaotic. So i recorded as they were walking in and then quickly ran side of the start of the line where security was  guarding them, trying to keep a safe distance and so I stood there and then D.O shows up first. I say "Hi Do!" He looks at me and doesn't say anything. I was totally fine with that because he looked tired as hell and I know all too well that feeling when you're tired and don't want to talk at all so it's ok. So behind him was Chanyeol so I greet him "HI Chanyeol! Good morning!" He looked right at me and at first I thought he didn't say anything either because he also looked super tired and it was also loud. But when i looked back at my fancam hours later, Chanyeol actually said Hi back to me! Lmfaooo! You can hear his deep voice in the fancam lol. So after Chanyeol was Chen and once again, he looked so tired, like he had just woken up but my bright cheery ass was like "Good Morning Chen Hi!" And he looked at me and bowed. Right behind him was Xiumin and I said the same thing. Xiumin was chill, he was looking down and then when I greeted him, he looked at me and bowed as well. I was going crazy like..omg...these guys are really responding to me. Then behind Xiumin came Kai and Sehun. I saw sehun first (I mean he’s taller than Kai) and called out for him and they were moving quickly. As soon as I realized that Kai had passed me a little I called out for him  and greeted him. Kai actually turned around and bowed his head politely. By that time I lost my shit lmfao. I think you can hear that in the fancam. 

So they went out the door and I quickly followed  however one of the Security guy had a good grip on my arm and was carefully preventing me from doing the unexpected, which I would never.... (Shame me if you must but I was really living in the moment.) I missed Baekhyun because he was hidden between D.O and Chanyeol and Suho was behind everyone that I missed him because he blended in with the other staff passing by -dead-. Anyway. I caught up to them and was able to greet Sehun in which he smiled slightly looking down at the ground. By that time, exo went into their van and left and had all the fangirls abuzz. Some of them were crying and a lot were just so excited.

 So after a couple of minutes of exchanging pics and contacts from other fans we walked away to catch the shuttle to our hotel. As soon as we walked away, my friend Jay looked to the right and ....said so casually, "Isn't that Haha?" I looked when she said that and saw that he had heard her and I gasped like a fangirl seeing the unexpected and I go "HAHA!" The guys he was with started to laugh and Haha got up and looked away like he didn't think he was going to be recognized after all the chaos that ensued when EXO had just came through. In my shock I had asked one of Haha's friends of I could take a pic with him and he said yeah. Him and his friends conversed in a joking matter,  of course i couldn't understood what was said but I'm guessing that they didn't expect anyone to notice them because Haha looked surprised lol. Anyway, he came over to take a photo and so he grabbed my phone, (my phone was blessed by Haha's hands)  and we took 2 pics together after gathering with my friends. After doing that we thanked him and then went back to the hotel. Later on we found out that he posted a pic of us on his instagram and I just couldn’t fathom how crazy my day had turned out lol. 

The concert was so hype. Exo started off well but you could tell the tour had taken its toll on them. However through the show, exo gained so much energy once again through the crowd. Everyone was singing loud, drowning out the members live singing at one point, and dancing. Baekhyun complimented us saying that we sang well and asked if it wasn't too hard to follow lol. Anyway Exo sung loud and the vocals were on point. Holy hell the members served some true visuals. Kai once again confirmed that seeing him in person is like 1000 times better than seeing a pic. He is the real deal. Visuals were A1, his stylist did right by him. He gave so much energy with his dance...it was so cool to see him once again just kill it. He is a force. They seemed to have had a good time because at one point Suho was having fun with the crowd that he forgot one part of his line and started singing after realizing his missed his timing lmfao! Near the end, we all sang Happy Birthday to Baekhyun and then he sung happy birthday to himself lmfao. The members played with some of the masks, headbands masks and toys on the stage. I think the highlight was the small toy hands. CHANYEOL and D.o couldn't get enough of them so they were playing around making the crowd and the members laugh and Suho called Chanyeol crazy lmfao. Suho had to make sure they were focused because they kept laughing and playing but it was such a good time that it felt like they could go on and on. They also shouted out Tony Testa who was in the crowd. He was getting ready to leave and then he did a small dance that had EXO hyped up lol. It was fun and cool. Overall the concert was awesome. The whole day was awesome and I have officially deemed that day the best day in my life. Suho announced that they were working on a new album and that they would be back next year with a new album plus a new concert so  I can not wait to do it all over again next year!

[chityca]

Drunken Night - November 28, 2018

I am going to write about the night that I finally got drunk because I feel like I would forget it over time, and I keep remembering small things that happened haha.

So this was a Wednesday when I just got back from America. Well my multiple plane rides. I hardly had any sleep on the plane because I had an aisle seat. I hardly had any food in my system because I did not like the plane food in the morning.

I was on the way back to Gwangju from incheon, and I messaged Hyunwook, because I told him we should hang out when I get back. We haven’t seen each other for so long because of our conflicting schedules. But he didn’t reply to me for a while so I thought, maybe I shouldn’t even message him that I am back. But I wanted to try one last time.

Honestly, I really like this guy. But I don’t know what he wants from me :(

He messaged me back though. And suggested we drink tonight (If I wanted to). That’s what I like about him as well haha. He always says, “if you would like to ... we can hang out or we can drink etc.” so he said I could go to his home. Surprisingly, I haven’t been there because we always went to motels hahah. In which, i don’t know why we always did if he has a place??? His parents live beside him though, so he said we must not make a lot of noise ... lol ..

I took a taxi to his place and he told me he didn’t have a lot of money. But I was okay with it because I could pay for him honestly haha. I don’t think he likes me paying for him but I would rather pay since he let me stay at his place. He came outside of his place and met me. By the way, it was kind of scary hahah. Probably because I did not know where I was. And it had been so long since I last saw him that I didn’t remember what he looked like. I never hug him when I first see him lmao. I wish that I would, but I’m shy. Like, what if he doesn’t want me to hug him??? I wish we would hug when we first see each other :(

So, we decided to go to a convience store. I had to get out cash as well. Then we decided to go to a restaurant to drink. We walked there. It was kind of awkward haha. We didn’t hold hands or anything either.

When we got to the restaurant, we ordered drinks and chicken feet. I think we ordered 3 bottles of soju. I drank a lot ... haha. By the end of the time we were there, I was pretty tipsy and happy. I used the bathroom a lot and was kind of stumbling lmao.

Anyways, we caught up and he told me he had sex with another girl and gave her his number. Ah, red signs man?? I didn’t care though?? I told him the last person I had sex with was him. Maybe this is a one way feeling yikes.

I paid for the food and drinks, which was 42,000 won. Double yikes. The lady was nice though. When we left the place, I was pretty drunk actually haaha. He probably was too?? I’m not sure. We decided to get more drinks at the convience store for some odd reason, so we got 4 beers. Honestly, I don’t remember agreeing to that lmao. I sure as hell don’t remember picking the beer I wanted.

He held my hand this time though, and put it in his pocket. Somehow I could not walk and squated on the ground for a while to laugh a lot. I remember him telling me that his place was very close so I should hurry and get up.

Then we are at his place, and he had to message his friend about Thailand so he sat at his desk. I told him that it was okay. And I took off my jacket and put his own and laid on the bed. I was very dizzy at that point lmao. But somehow, I fell asleep.

He woke up me and said he was shocked I fell asleep because I was snoring haha. I don’t remember much after that.

Somehow he was at his desk and I went to sit on his lap and look at stuff on his desk. Then I put his glasses on him and I don’t even remember if it looked cute or not lmao. I also wrote in one of his notebooks but misspelled his name lmfaooo. I put 안녕하세요 현운 바보 ❤️” lmfaoo i was like shit i spelled your name wrong and scratched it out and rewrote his name. Wow it was probably very sloppy. I was drunk man.

We sat on the floor one time during the night? He had drank 3 of the beer cans I think hahaha. They were empty and I only remember drinking a sip of one Asahi. We talked during that time. I asked him if he wanted me to be his girlfriend. He said yeah because of that time on kakao when he asked me what I wanted. He said he really wants to go to the ACC with me and have a picnic and he was sooo enthusiastic about it. I told him I really wanted to go as well and I made him promise that we go. But he was drunk so he didn’t remember :( And does he really keep his promises :/ He told me we should see each other 5 times a week if we are girlfriend and boyfriend haha. I told him of course. I want to see him all of the time. He also said that he won’t meet any girls in Thailand and will send me photos through Kakao. (But he hasn’t so ... I really shouldn’t trust his words :/ I am a fool for this guy)

We somehow made it to the bed. And I kept asking him how to ask “will you be my girlfriend” in korean haha i told him to ask me it. We also talked about our grandmas and started crying together lol ... so drunk we were. He also said I should practice more Korean hahahaha yeah I should.

We had sex a lot because he loves fucking when he is drunk omg. Anyways I really like having sex with him. He is so good at it omg.

Somehow, I sucked his dick too?? We had a conversation about if he liked getting his dick sucked or not. Because I wanted to suck his dick at the movies the first time hahahah. And I told him that. Also I kind of remember getting on top of him???? Fuck I really don’t remember if it was a dream or reality lmfao.

Oh yeah and I tried anal shittttttt. Felt weird bc we need fucking lube man. He is fucking crazy sex addict.

The next morning I had a huge hangover and kept throwing up. He also had a hangover. We laid in bed together for a long time. I was hungry though. And wanted to go out to eat but he ordered food for delivery. We didn’t really talk much and just laid on our phones.

He was messaging a girl a lot so idk? Also he watched YouTube videos most of the time. There was one he was watching, faker haha i told him I used to watch my ex bf watch it.

And then I started watching meteor garden and there was this one romantic scene where the guy kissed the girl. And I was like WOW sO roManTic. And i was hinting for him to be romantic. And he took his hand away from me, shly, and apologized hhaha. It was cute. I liked laying in bed with him and cuddling. It felt nice.

So I decided to leave at like 7pm. He walked me to the bus stop and I asked him if he remembered. But of course he didn’t. I asked if he wanted to be boyfriend and girlfriend when he comes back, and he agreed but idk man. Something about me asking is odd .. :/

He got a phone call so when my bus came we didn’t hug or kiss he just waved at me. So it felt odd.

This whole thing feels odd. I like him though. And i want to see him again. If he messages me when he comes back to Thailand then I will see him. But will he? :/ Maybe, he has someone else for him.

[misadventuresofmila]

Not that anyone cares but I’m finally at a place where I can discuss the tragedy that was my 20th birthday and not spiral into a depressive episode/ cry lmaooooo. 

K so I was getting ready to go abroad and my family was moving houses so I was spending time with my grandma and aunt in NYC. Shit was HIGHKEY misery from the jump. My aunt got 2 badass likkle kids DEM RUDE. And she was always arguing with my grandma or her husband and I hate that yelling shit my anxiety can’t handle the stress. I just be wanting to chill in some silence but nah. So anyways my (immediate) family was gassing my shit talking about having a birthday dinner in Brooklyn at this hipster black owned place that I been wanting to try. So my ass is getting HYPED tf up to be out the house doing shit with people I semi-like. 

Flash forward to the day of. It’s a Sunday my aunt is bitching and morning per usual, but I’m ignoring her ass cuz I know my night about to be lit. Bitch can’t kill my vibe not at all my twists were baking, my makeup came in the mail, I had a cute ass outfit picked out a bitch was ready to slayyyyy. So it’s getting to be like 4 and I’m starting to get ready i’m like half ready when my sister says we have to reschedule something came up. IM SICK AF BRUH. Like you don't understand being in the antagonistic household had taken a major toll on me. I already don’t like people raising their voice around me because my anxiety gets triggered like a motherfucker you know just trauma tings. So living here made me so anxious and I would never want to talk or do anything because I didn't wanna get yelled at cuz I knew my sensitive ass would burst into tears and not stop. Anyways so I tell my aunt that I’m gonna be staying for dinner cuz my family is busy and she starts going off talking about “You should have told me sooner I didn’t plan to make you dinner. Blah blah blah” I’m like.... bitch I just found out myself calm down it’s not that deep I can order out if need be and then she's like “oh you think you're too good for my food?? Then don’t eat anything here then since you're better than my cooking” and I'm legit like ??? So I go to my room and listen to “Awaken! My love” and cry into a pillow then my mom calls and I have to fake like I'm happy cuz I don’t want her to feel bad but she knew a bitch was miserable and kept apologizing. The upside was my aunt got me a store bought red velvet cake and I literally ate that for 9 days straight until I went to Australia LMAOOOO. 

My sis ended up taking me to dinner at the place but it wasn’t the same and my aunt’s bitter ass was like “why didnt you invite us”. I ignored her ass lmfaooo. I lowket hate her and would like to personally thank her for giving me anxiety attacks for 2 month straight :)))))

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6/25/17, 5:30am - idk

Another long two weeks on the books. I really like this update schedule, it’s like just long enough that I don’t forget everything that happened lol.

 I had a really weird dream sometime this week. It was kind of amazing, so I feel like writing about it for a sec. I was on some like cobblestoney/brickey kind of streets. A little bit Doctor Who London meets Chapel Hill I suppose, and all around me people were starting to riot. I think it was a feminist riot like I had encouraged Cullen to do months ago, and people were starting to shoot at each other. I was like duck this and took off running, but as I made my way down these outdoor escalators by a target I got scooped up by a group of five girls. Each of them grabbed a hold of one of my limbs and held me down and the last had a bat and was ready to smash my junk to pieces. I was like crying or something screaming not to hit my balls because they were still fragile lmao. When all seemed lost and I was about to take a beating one of the girls got bit by a fucking zombie on the neck and started gushing blood. All the girls freaked and I knew it was my time to get the fuck out of there so I bolted like hell. I ended up finding a laundromat tucked into a corner of this outdoor mall and so I decided to build myself a barricade there. I let in a little girl and her family, and they helped me move the washers and dryers, stacking them up (I guess I was superhuman or they weighed like nothing) to build a giant barricade at the entrance. We were safe from the zombies for a while, but some government agency started taking them down outside. What looked like an enormous leech made its way inside, and I held it up to see that it had a big mouth and teeth in the center of its belly. One of the zombies tried to make a big enough crack in the washers to get in, and I held up the leech who ate the zombie whole. But the government or somebody was trying to get us to come out of our hiding spot, saying they only needed one of us. When the family decided they were going to get rid of me because they didn’t know me I decided that this was bullshit because it was MY hiding spot, and furiously threw the leech out of the place. It landed in the middle of a small platoon of guys and exploded, turning them all into zombies. Then I was like holy shit this got even weirder and I woke up lol.

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So anyway, Sunday I managed to get a nap in before heading out to pick up frankie. we talked for a while while fonzi was getting ready and all headed out to this food truck rodeo. We had some of the most delicious shit. Not gonna elaborate too much, but there were these pork belly bun sandwiches that exploded with a crackling of meat flavor and rounded with the savoryness of the fat in every bite. Holy shit I could eat them like every day of my life lol. We spent a good couple hours there, started doing this meme where Fonzi decided that Frankie looked like a celebrity from new york because her hair is all blonde too now. Since Sean and Angel didn’t come to meet us, we decided to hang out at angel’s for a bit. Just chilled and talked for a while while we deliberated whether or not to go swimming. When we finally decided to it was sunset, so his pool was closed, and then we tried to go to my pool but it was padlocked. Pretty damn disappointing, but we walked around catching fireflies and listening to music, which was nice. I took frankie home, but missed a turn and then a road was closed so we ended up detouring through chapel hill, and I decided we needed to stop and take a walk through the arboretum. Ended up going to one of the little grassy openings and in this big oak(?) tree up above us the fireflies must have been mating. In that particular tree they lit up every couple of seconds, making it sparkle in the night. There were so many fireflies that it was like a constant twinkling, like moving christmas light strung up between the leaves. It was beautiful. But not romantic in any sense unfortunately. lmfaooo she called me out asking if I was going to try to make out with her while we walked into the garden and I tried to play it off coyly like “who me? You were the one who kissed me last I remember.” and she had forgotten about this time that I may have actually imagined in my head so who fucking knows. The long and short of it is it seems like there isn’t an ounce of me that she’s attracted to. So that might work really well if I randomly decide to take her up on her aloof offer to move in with her in Boston one day. Who knows. I stll don’t know what I want to do.

Mon - work. Tony told me at the last minute I wouldn’t have patients that weekend, so I had to work mon and weds and take a hit on tuesday to follow through on my date with Katy

Tuesday I kicked some fucking assssss in doubles. Carried my buddy Will hard to get some experience for BMR. And Katy came after she got off work! I got to introduce her to ashleigh, it was sick. I was so fucking happy to have her there and so excited to get laid and so tired from burning out from doubles that I got demolished in singles and took off. Butttt unfortunately katy wasn’t feeling well so she fell asleep on me like Immediately when we got home. Was nice cuddling up with her though. Was torn for a while because I felt like I should be trying to hang out with Ashleigh and Aaron instead. Decided not to because she wasn’t feeling well and I should try to make her feel better because I’m a sappy fuck.

weds - work

thurs - had another really low key day with Katy. kinda just hung out until she got off work and then we just slept again. Bleh.

Luckily since I got the weekend off, it left me free to see Tony and Morgan for their birthday!! It was a fucking awesome weekend, showed up just in time friday night to smoke and go to dinner with everybody. Everybody fucking cheered when I came in the door, it’s like nothing ever changes with us I love all of em so much. Finally got to meet Tony and Morgan’s S.O.’s, and I like them both a lot. Once we were all a little stoned and being a little awk Laura made this hilarious offhand remark “ok, welcome to the conference. These are your friends.” that both became a great in-joke and also made me feel less terrible for being socially inept when I got high as balls for the first time in forever lmfao. Dinner was insanely good, we got like a whole bunch of small dishes at this place Pasteur or something, ate family style and got to try so many different dishes. I remember steak tar tar and this rib that was like eating caveman bacon on a stick being incredible. Also fried pickles and all sorts of stuff. Had a couple beers there, went to a bar and bought tony a tequila shot, got home, pulled the liquor out of my car and everybody got toootally fucking wasted. I don’t remember all that much, a little bit of a nostalgia fest with Alex for a while. Tony made the clutchest move ever ordering us a pizza super late in the night. But not too much later after gorging myself I puked my guts out and crashed on an air mattress with Erica lol. Was probably drunk enough that I might have tried to make moves otherwise, even though she has a bf now apparently you know me -_- . She’s lookin suppper fit nowadays. I think she’s still uniquely the only girl I’ve rejected in my life. Back when I was just a pure little kid and didn’t want to do anything sexual without it being special yet. Fuckin weird typing that now lol it doesn’t sound like me at all.

Saturday was river day, bought some beer and hiked with it about a mile to this river and spent most of the day there smoking drinking and chatting. It was fucking gorgeous out there, and everyone looked great together laying around on this rock. Got to know Dana and her gf much better, and tony’s gf. I think I drank like 5 or 6 beers floating around in the river, it was a lot of fun trying to ford across (it had poured that morning so the water was flowing pretty fast) without spilling any beers lol. Towards the end of us hanging out in the lake me and Laura floated around in this raft morgan had brought, and alex was reeling us in and casting us back out again like he was our dad. Such an excellent day. Until then I hadn’t told anyone about my vasectomy because I didn’t want to take attention away from everyone else, seeing how it had become such a talking piece on our family vacation and how much of my conversation with frankie had revolved around it. But I mentioned it in the river and said that it was because once I found out it was reversible I felt like the onus of birth control shouldn’t be put on the woman. Everyone was just like “huh wow that’s fucking awesome I totally agree,” and I like swam away for a bit instead of discussing it further. But when we were hiking back up to our cars Mike told me “yknow you might’ve started like a revolution back there with the vasectomy thing.” I was pretty fucking drunk and a little high so I honestly wondered if he was just fucking with me for a second, but I really appreciate that he said that after all the shit I got from my family. So that was a long ass afternoon of being out in the sun, and everyone got exhausted and fought to stay up but seemed like after we got back at some point everyone took a turn of getting too high and getting zonked out on the couch. I took a nap in Tony’s bed until his dad got there and got to see him for a bit. More great food was cooked, but I felt bad that I was so tired because I kinda wanted to rage again, especially since some new people came to hang that night, but not people that I knew. As a present Tony got the fire pit from their old house, and it was really neat to have another fire and sit around it with everyone. Sunday Tony and Morgan and some people cooked an enormous breakfast for everyone. Hung out with Mike and Erica and all talked about how good we look now lol. Eventually we said our goodbyes, I stuck around after everyone had left to chill with Mike and Tony for a while because I had nothing to do back at home. Katy decided she didn’t want to chill. I had waited on my dad for a long time to see him for lunch and so I didn’t smoke too much but got a little inebriated and watched nearly a whole season of Silicon Valley with Mike and Tony and his gf and Mary.  Sun - came back at 4, got home at 7, idr that night. Mon - Stayed up until like 6am watching Doctor Who, had to go to chapel hill for a JKCF function at 9, barely slept at all but met some new cooke friends so that was cool. Went to raleigh w/ will to play melee, got suuuper fucked. Went 0-2 in singles AND doubles, the worst placing I’ve had in... well ever, but it’s been months since I’ve had one that bad. Tues - Had a redemption tournament at Geeksboro. Got second place, actually won a little money. Disappointed that I threw away a few games that might’ve given me first but had a lot of fun. Katy told me she was sick that morning, and since she had been no fun to hang out with the last week and she bailed on our plans for Sunday and that day I decided to break things off with her. She was confused and hurt, of course, but I was just like “this is bullshit you’re treating me like I’m not a friend” and we hashed things out about her worrying about me having too strong feelings and that we’d just be friends who have sex and watch cartoons and stuff. So we’ve still been snapping every day but I still haven’t seen her in a while. I’m glad we’re still friends though, I was feeling helllla fucking self conscious for a hot minute.

Weds - I hung out watching Doctor Who most of the day, but went out to the bar Ashleigh was working to hang out for a while. She introduced me to her friend who was kinda plastered and seemed like she was leaning for a kiss on our introductory hug. So I was like woooooooh baby I love gboro people I can’t believe I have to play catchup at fucking 11pm lmao. Chugged a few free beers for this Shocktop promotion, and since I hadn’t eaten anything I got just tipsy enough that I could flirt with her without feeling like a Total asshole. We were chatting about some music and stuff, went inside and danced for the tiniest bit, and then she basically kissed me three times. Nothing egregious or any tongue or anything because I was still wary of her being a little off her ass, but I realized I got a text from ashleigh saying “come talk to me.” I was like “oh what’s up?” and she said “well it doesn’t matter now, it’s just that she’s married, they’re in a rough spot but I didn’t realize it was That rough.” ha haaaaaaaaaaa goddamn just my luck lol. She ended up puking on the side of the bar, I made better friends of a few of the regulars and played pool with them, I hung out with Aaron when he showed up at the end of the night and got to hear about the drama between him and his old roommate, and I sang a bunch of karaoke. Another fucking wonderful night, fshoooo. Got a philly cheesesteak and passed out, was super hungover the next morning lmao.

Thurs - got off work early story of that girl that I posted Fri - work, getting ready for bmr, finally got my spare setup in the office at work I’m so fucking happy it doesn’t make enough noise that it disturbs the patients. I’m gonna be a god one day lolol.

Also just as a benchmark I’m 4 episodes into season 8 of doctor who now. Comin along nicely. Def the hardest I’ve binged on a show in a longggggggg time.

OH and last I learned how to solder on weds. Finally did the work on that controller mod and it fucking brokkkkeee kinda tragic, I had to throw out the guts of the controller that I learned to play the game on. I thought I was going to be fucked for a while, but luckily Will had my back and lent me one of his spares that works even better than the one I had before. Might have actually been lucky as fuck despite being out $50 on the microchips and soldering kit lmao.

Anyway my life is amazing, I’ve been doing personal finance numbers in my head a lot but I think that’s because I’m just reassuring myself that I don’t have to worry about money much anymore. Eating well, still not doing much french fries, trying to quit soda. Started doing pushups+situps+pullups before my showers, so maybe I’ll be a little fitter, even. Life’s pretty great. So fucking excited for BMR2 next weekend, hopefully I’m gonna kick some ass. Gonna be a muchhh nerdier update next time I get on here lol.