#I’m not tagging the op who made the post bc I’d rather not get into an argument over cookie run ages

[cosmicheartz]

Felt like going on a small rantyish tangent abt a post I saw when looking through a cookie run characters tag relating to the ice juggler age debacle so here goes ig:

While yes i agree to an extent a character not being a kid doesn’t always mean they’re an adult the whole “ oh kids stop believing in Santa and shit after a certain point “ argument doesn’t work in the cookie run lore since “ Santa “ is an actual character that multiple people know

[just-antithings]

i’m a harry potter fan and i get **antsy** about it bc i’m transgender and the only reason i still, **i guess**, interact with the fandom is because I Do Not Control The Special Interest.

that being said, i keep seeing posts from people that are like “i don’t care why you like harry potter! i don’t care if you’re also trans or if you’re neurodivergent or whatever! if you like harry potter, you support jkr because she says that she’s any support of her works as support of her opinions!”

and i feel like i can’t be uncomfortable because i get why they’re saying something like that. i mean, her transphobia has very much affected the trans community, the community in the i’m in particular. it fucking sucks.

that being said, i don’t think its necessarily *that* black and white? idk, like:

1. even if she takes people being in fandom as agreeing with her, jkr doesn’t get a say in what opinions i do or don’t support. i am not a terf because i read fanfic sometimes. she and i don’t know each other. she does not get to say what i do and don’t believe based off of what i read or watch (and i personally feel like her saying that was kind of egotistical and presumptuous).

2. my “support” of harry potter isn’t even really support. i don’t buy anything related to harry potter and i don’t feel the need to. i don’t consume any new thing she makes, harry potter related or otherwise (to be honest, i don’t think of her as a good writer, anyways). the only time i even interact with content relating to harry potter is either on ao3 or tumblr or i rewatch the movies that were gifted to me years ago. she receives zero money and attention from me beyond that.

3. one of my favorite things to do, as a *~fan~* is talk about how much i don’t like jkr and why, how much i don’t like her writing and why, how fucked up some of the stuff she’s made is and why, and what i think could be improved about the series. i think some of these are important to, at the very least, *discuss*—like, i think it’s important to address her racism, antisemeticism, transphobia, homophobia, mysogyny, etc. because just *leaving it* isn’t helpful. the only people i’ve seen do that (though, it might just be bc of the content i interact with) are either former or present fans.

4. i feel like it’s a bad idea to just up and stop being a fan because she’s a terf? i mean. if you don’t *want* to be in fandom anymore because of it, that’s totally fine and i get that. but if every trans person and every person who support trans people just up and leave the fandom, the only people left will be people who don’t have a “side” and terfs, who love to spread misinformation and convert people to terfdom. maybe i’m wrong, but to me that feels like….giving them a space to spread their ideology. i’d rather just continue to be part of fandom and make trans related content (i actively head canon most of the characters as trans and i do incorporate it into the things i make).

5. i’ve seen some people use this as an excuse to be rude towards specifically trans mascs, for some reason? like, i saw a post (one of the “fuck off if you like harry potter” ones) where, in the tags, op wrote something like “idc if you’re transgender and tme shut up” and that’s….certainly a choice.

idk. it’s not really an anti thing but i’ve been having all these thoughts about it and i’ve seen them reflected next to nowhere so i’m having anxiety about still being a fan lol.

maybe i’m just missing something or “the point” is flying over my head but i just. i dont think i’m hurting anyone by enjoying hp and i think that taking out your (general you) aggression towards jkr on fans, especially trans fans, is a bit of an odd decision.

also, sorry if any of this post was weirdly worded or mistyped, i was a bit all over the place as i wrote this. i hope you guys have a good day.

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[crisis-aversion]

Nav post

Bc I’ve needed to make something like this for a while

Will update as new things come up or I remember stuff I’ve forgotten

Nicknames: Lex, Crisis, V, Sounds

Aro/Ace

Please note: I am extremely trypanophobic and just seeing (or thinking about) a needle in use makes me uncomfortable, please please please never ever show me a picture with a hypodermic needle in it (not in use might be ok but definitely never in use I will get scared). Other kinds of needles are fine, I just had a bad experience with an IV when I was little and it (literally) scarred me for life.

Tumblr side blogs:

Writing alt (I’ve decided to password protect this alt so I can post my original works there. At some point if I make enough for it to be worth it I’ll sell permission to access it for art or something. (Based on an idea I had for my Toyhouse acc except you won’t need a TH for it))

Incorrect quotes alt

Prompts alt (for writing/role play/art inspiration)

Ask blog (for my OC continuity the Cabalverse)

Role play alt (DC)

Flight Rising sideblog

Other important stuffs:

Commissions (virtual currency)

Commissions (real currency)

Adopts

Requests

Current event

Other accounts

Toyhouse

AO3

FanFiction.Net (outdated profile and fics; I rarely use this account to post anymore)

Deviant Art (rarely used anymore)

Art Fight

YouTube

Discord server

Tags:

And they shall be made examples of: Art example tag

Art of Crisis: art tag

Sounds off: dumb text posts, feel free to ignore or block them

V thoughtful of you: Art people have done for me/of my OCs or AUs

Shipment received: Ship art tag

And they stole a golf cart: writing tag

Retribution!verse/Avengers Retribution: main Marvel AU

Retcanon: random essay-ish bits for the Retribution!verse

Worldbuilding: any essay-ish post about my AUs or other stories

Queue do you think you are?: anything I queue will be marked as this. It may happen twice a year, I rarely use that function

Lex lurks: any posts I’m the op of

Talking to the void: anything I added onto outside of tags/reblog games that I’m not the op of

TBAU/that Batman AU: the Batman section of my DC AU

Breakthrough!verse: any other section of my DC AU

Double jeopardy: asks

Will add more as I make them

Current fandoms:

Main

Transformers (kinda taking a break from it rn)

Current hyperfixation

Green Hornet

DC (Smallville, Batman, and Constantine)

Pokémon

Marvel

Rather active

Doctor Who

Star Wars

Semi active (may occasionally bring them up randomly and confuse y’all)

M*A*S*H

Studio Ghibli

GI Joe

Sherlock

Hunger Games

My Little Pony

Beyblade

Inazuma Eleven

Star Trek (my dad is a Trekkie so)

Monster High

Harry Potter

Lord Of The Rings

Honestly a bunch of random 80s shows and stuff

Will add more as I think of them

DNI:

Racists

Pedophiles

Apologists thereof

Politicians/reporters

If you hero worship one or more members of the above category (if you say a politician will save us I will defenestrate you (from the ground floor))

Anyone anti Christian

Terrorists

Satanists/occult apologists

Someone that’s gonna use insults instead of valid arguments (ad hominem attack), especially if they generalize a group of people

If you use terms overused by politicians/the media (find your own words it’s not that hard)

Like Twitter/think it’s not a completely toxic cess pool of idiots that just wanna scream and send death threats

Are the type of person who screams for no reason/sends death threats

Will listen to something someone said just because they’re famous

Have unmarked pictures of hypodermic needles in use (screw you local news Facebook you freaked me out this morning from that picture PUT WARNINGS)

I’d say “are a spambot” but they can’t read so it’s pointless

Whatever I had on my TH list I can’t remember what they all were

[literaetures]

i was tagged by the always lovely @keiraknightlcygf and i'm tagging: @startingthecase, @jammeke, @brontes, @faslaidir, and anyone who wants to do this tag! 💌

1. Why did you choose your url?

it was years ago when i just switched my major to english in undergrad and i was really excited about it and wanted to get hyped and fall in love with the subject that i cared about on here too and it just stuck ever since! but i'm always thinking about changing it and never taking the plunge....... maybe one day...... one day

2. Any side blogs?

yeah! i have a multifandom blog, a reference blog, and a gradblr and i barely use any of them but they're still there!

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

oof since 2011 and now it's 2021 and i remember making it in like? august? so 10 year anniversary is coming up! and i never thought i'd be in grad school.... still on this site.... but wow the passage of time!

4. Do you have a queue tag?

nope! i tried using my queue a few times but i really just prefer reblogging one or two or a million things at once and then disappearing

5. Why did you start this blog in the first place?

i moved blogs bc a bunch of irl people were following me on my original one and i just didn't feel comfortable reblogging what i wanted to so i moved and i'm always glad i did that!

6. Why did you choose your icon?

it's lizzie bennet from 2005 p&p with the cutest background and i love her your honor i don't think i'll ever change it!

7. Why did you choose your header?

i just reblogged a pretty art piece and i thought "i could make a mobile theme around this color scheme" and then i did which is how my normal thought process for mobile themes goes

8. How many mutuals do you have?

oh no clue— is that something you can track? i know loving mutuals is the Thing now but i just like everyone i follow tbh otherwise i wouldn't follow them

9. How many followers do you have?

more than i'd ever thought would follow me! and i'm eternally grateful and totally shocked every time i look at it! i'm actually about to hit a milestone soon so i'm even more shocked that anyone would want to follow me! thank you all for being here and always being so kind! 💛

10. How many do you follow?

622! i went through and unfollowed a few inactive blogs but i know it's quite a lot lmao i like having a fast dash and i watch a variety of media so i like having new recommendations of things to watch

11. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yeah and none of them are funny but they make me laugh in the moment!

12. How often do you use tumblr a day?

pretty often since it's the only social media i actively go on— any time want to scroll through something i go on here

13. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

i don't think so? i hope not! i really don't like hurting others or being mean or confrontation so i can't think of anything

14. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i really dislike them bc usually those comments are from other people and i feel like they either derail or detract from the op's point or just encourage a passive activism that remains in a performative realm rather than actively researching or wanting find out more about a certain topic or issue

15. Do you like tag games?

i do! i like the thought that someone would tag me and i think they're fun but i'm always bad at doing them bc they tend to disappear from my notes or i just get swamped with work and forget fjsnkfdsjnf

17. Which mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

ooo no clue there might be some but i genuinely don't care bc if i follow you it's bc i like the things you reblog or post and that's what matters not how popular or "tumblr famous" you are which is why i like that you can't see how many followers someone has it takes a lot of the pressure off of you and you can just enjoy the things you reblog instead!

18. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

all of them i adore you all and wish nothing but good things to happen to you!

[gryphsdeadbones]

hey from one nd person to another the comic where fm gordon says a slur seems kind of in poor taste. ik ur not intentionally making light of it and tht occurring in fm should be criticized but while you dont make it out to be a good thing making jokes about it and calling him a "slurboy" is kind of questionable? it makes it seem more like a plotpoint and angst rather than the creator of fm genuinely fucking up in the past (and having moved on from it)! i think exploring fm coming to terms with being nd is a good idea but this isnt the best way to do it. if you want me to explain my point more lmk if/when u post this and i will! someone already made a post abt it but it was kinda strongly worded and i wanted to approach you more calmly because i genuinely dont want to call you out or start drama or anything ;-;

first off thank you for being civil and patient with me i appreciate this ask a lot- also this got long- im not in a flying rage or anything when i bold or emphasis text, i just needed it also for my own readability and since im not the best at wording- hopefully this hellsite works and my response is under the cut

i would like to know how is it in poor taste when freemind explicitly gets clocked at the very end for saying it. the entire point of the comic was to show that saying the r slur has existed in his source and is bad

im not sure how much more direct i can get, with the disclaimer/warning list growing longer and longer and out there for a huge sign that says “this au can get dark as fuck and these subject matters are treated seriously/not something to mess around with.” Like yes, there are some jokes in the asks and other comics, but that specific comic is not supposed to be “haha thats funny”. it has a serious tone using a rough sketch style bc i was super tired and wanted to vent

was it just the direct reference to it that just made people uncomfortable? because thats 100% understandable, and i made sure i tagged it appropriately (although admittedly, a little bit late since i thought the filter would catch at least the main thing)

i think what some people somehow got from it is “exploring sensitive content = endorsing said content” which! that is not the intent! i absolutely do not want people saying that word! I don’t want people thinking that is any way okay for this character to say

its more of a damned if i do address it, damned if i dont.

if it never comes up, people are gonna assume that ‘oh this character says slurs and is shit, surely the creator or fan-creator MUST be okay with it and woobifies freemind and absolves him of any mistakes’ or something like that. no. this asshole has an arc and i want to do it right. its serious and i think it shouldn’t be shoved under the rug

and people just. dont want to read for context for whatever reason. theyll start watching it and get taken aback by the slur and start blaming me ‘hey you never warned for this’ when very early on i keep mentioning over and over ‘you dont have to watch it if you dont want to! This has slurs and 2000s internet brand humor/style’ You really dont, I’m not forcing you to watch it- Literally all you need to know is either canon half life or hl/vrai. thats it. fm mostly follows hl1 with very slight changes.

so i had to make something that:

1. warns people who arent aware and dont want to go through my asks or about/warning pages (for whatever reason) and just want to see the art

2. also NOT downplay freemind’s canon assholery. listen, i kinda despise writing mean and cruel characters, theyre hard to do, and a lot of people get shit for doing it wrong or people going “character = author”

i’ve also considered leaving the bubbles blank, but then people could fill it with whatever they want, then blame me for being vague. or they’d fill it in with a different kind of slur that freemind has never used, even if he MIGHT be the type to do that. I needed to explicitly mention that it is ableist slur. There are shitty racist and other problematic jokes, but never those kinds of extreme racial slurs to my knowledge.

Although I do see your point that maybe joking about it outside of the serious stuff might not be the best route. The slurboy jokes are getting stale, and I will try a better way to remind people.

The thing that gets to me is that it feels people are more than ready to defend either Ross Scott or Gordon Freeman the fictonal character himself. I don’t??? really care for Ross Scott, so I don’t know if he’s ever brought it up specifically. I’m not really calling him out or cancelling him. Idc for some white man’s feelings, im only bringing the timeframe of That era and reworking it to fit in This current era.

And I hate to break it to people: Gordon Freeman is a blank slate character, you can project whatever the hell you want on him as long as it’s not freakshit illegal garbage. The machinimas (fm, hl/vrai) do have SOME characterization that I want to nail down. It fucking sucks when characters are ooc, and I’m trying not to do that, even if it means sacrificing some comfort. But still mostly staying in my comfort zone if that makes sense

Now about the callout that I do not want to engage with the op directly:

Honestly im very surprised the comic was called out when i just. thought my stuff is relatively tame on exploring the bad shit canon freemind does. ive seen him in fancontent where they really dont hold back and its still played off as ‘kinda funny’ tone.

I really don’t know if people just want any reason to hate me for whatever reason. That’s fine I guess, I can’t please everyone and they dont have to like me.

But like. isn’t it so much easier for the op of that to block me and the post and move on. Why kick up such a fuss. I can see that thinly veiled death threat of a vague. That’s pretty fucked up- Like holy fucking god, you do not have to like my stuff. I’m not holding you at knifepoint to like my stuff. I’ve specifically made two different tags (one general au, one specific au) if anyone wants to blacklist it for their own reasons I do not need to know. I don’t want to know.

You’re allowed to be uncomfortable. You’re allowed to unfollow/blacklist/block.

However you just don’t go ranting about it for something you horribly misinterpreted. If it bothers you so badly, literally just. drop me a message to clarify. thats it. or save yourself the time and block me.

I’ve blocked the op for both our sakes, but if anyone wants to send this post to them, then thats fine. I don’t want anything to do with them.

I don’t want to link the post and blow it up. I just want shit clarified, dropped and we can move the fuck on with our lives. 

If you’re reading this and don’t know what the post is, please don’t bother. I do not want people going after the op with threats, please keep it civil, I’d prefer if you don’t engage with the post at all on my behalf.

Despite this huge wall of text, I do not want this to be a big deal, so please don’t ask me about the details.

_

As for anon, feel free to dm me either on here or. Maybe on discord if you’d still like to suggest or have something more cleared up. I’m still willing to hear any kind of feedback, and i want to thank you again for being reasonable about this

[delusion1ncarnate]

the 100 ask game

i was tagged by @viviansternwood and @buttered-rice1 thank you guys❤️

1. What station on the Ark would you be from?

i think i'd be from alpha station. idk why, just a radom pick.

2. What would you get arrested for on the Ark?

i'd either get arrested for talking back to someone important (i am NOT great with authority figures) or i'd get caught stealing or trading on the black market.

3. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground?

no, i'd want the ark to come down, so taking it off wouldn't really serve me well.

4. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..)

he definitely wouldn't make me one cause we would probably instantly dislike each other

5. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be?

does anya count as a minor character? i want anya back!

6. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they?

clarke, luna, octavia, niylah and harper

7. What Grounder Clan would you belong to you?

i think Trikru.

8. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? (example: Octavia=Okteivia…just make it up!)

El would just be El so everything stays as it is.

9. Thoughts on Finn? Some people hate him, and others love him, so I’m curious

i really, really do not like finn.

10. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does?

without knowing the consequences? if i hadn't seen too many people with the chip and how changed the were i'd totally take the chip. but if i was around enough of them i think i'd realize something strange is going on...

11. What character do you relate to most?

octavia, definitely

12. What character do you like the least?

ehh... it's a mix between echo, titus and pike probably

13. Describe your delinquent outfit. (Would you wear something like Murphy’s jacket with the spikey red shoulder patch or have a trademark like Jasper’s goggles? Be creative, yet practical)

i'd probably wear normal jeans, some high boots and a (hopefully) water resistant jacket. probably in a dark color like blue or black.

14. Favorite type of mutant animal?

i love the butterlies

15. What would your job be on the Ark?

do they have something like a librarian up there? if so, that'd be me

16. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked?

if my life depended on it? hopefully

17. If Lexa wasn’t Heda, but she was still alive then who would have made the best commander?

luna. she would be though and strong enough to force the clans together and to follow her while still prioritizing peace

18. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty?

i'd probably have a really bad trip and freak out completely

19. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? A more John Murphy approach or Bellamy Blake approach?

honestly? i think i absolutely wouldn't know what to do

20. Who should have been the Chancellor, if anyone?

on the ground? season 3 kane definitely

21. Would you have been on Pike’s side like Bellamy or on Kane’s side? Or Clarke in Polis?

i think i would be in polis with clarke trying to make skaikru an accepted member of the coalition

22. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s Ipod) What is the one thing you would snatch while there?

ALL the books

23. What would your Grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint?

i love the aesthetic of tattooed fingers and if i lived in a post apocalyptic warrior clan i'd definitely have some really cool designs on my fingers, my hands and up my arms to my shoulders. i'd also like some tattos on my back and my stomach. my hair would probably be in braids similar to octavias s3 style. my war paint would be around my eyes and down my cheeks and maybe a line on my lips or something?

24. Favorite quote?

ai giv ai op gon nemiyon kom lanik-de

i know you're still trying to save me but you cant' save someone who is already dead

you are wonkru or you are the enemy of wonkru. choose!

the one lexa said about having to look your soldiers in the eyes and tell them to "go die for me"

ai laik heda. non na throu daun gon ai

25. If all of the characters were in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning?

clarke or lexa probably.

26. Least favorite ship? Favorite canon ship? Favorite non canon ship? NOT INCLUDING CL OR BC OR BE

i hated finn/clarke

favourite canon ship is linctavia

non canon is either sea mechanic or ice mechanic

27. A song that should be included in the next season? If there had to be another guest star like Shawn Mendes on the show, who would you want to make a cameo?

maybe something by hozier? and i don't really like camoes so i'm fine without one

28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time?

annoy each other to DEATH

29. You’re an extra that gets killed off. How do you die?

can i please get killed in the conclave? either by luna or octavia?

30. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of?

kane maybe? octavia and bellamy, clarke and raven. DIYOZA

31. A character you’d bang?

luna, anya, lexa, clarke, octavia, niylah

32. Would you stay in the Bunker? Go up to Space? Or live on your own in Eden?

probably go into the bunker (and regret that pretty quickly)

33. In the Bunker, would you follow Octavia? What would you do to pass the time underground?

i'd definitely follow octavia. i'd probably train how to fight, maybe i'd read if they had books?

34. What crime would you commit in the Bunker that lands you in the fighting pits?

talking back to octavia (again, the whole authority thing)

35. Up in Space, who would you bond with first? Who would be the most difficult for you to get along with?

i'd bond easily with harper, raven and emori. i'd have my difficulties with murphy and echo probably

36. How long do you think you would last on Earth by yourself?

provided i know how to get food and water? a good while i guess

37. When the Eligius ship lands what do you do?

hide and hope i can avoid them

38. Favorite Eligius character? Least favorite?

i love diyoza. and i mean... mccreary was easy and fun to hate

39. Would you Spacewalk?

thank you but no thank you

40. Would you prefer to eat Windshield Bugs, Space Algae, or Bunker Meat?

space algae all the way

41. Would you start a war for the last spot of green on earth? What would your solution be to avoid it?

i wouldn't start the war, but if i had to fight one i would. i would probably try to negotiate and if that didn't work maybe do some shady sh*t to get rid of eligius

42. Would you rather dig out flesh-eating worms or stick thumb drives into bullet holes?

thumb drives into bullet holes. i HATE HATE HATE flesh eating bugs.

43. Are you willing to poison your sister for the Traitor Who You Love? What would you do to stop Octavia?

yeah. i'd do it. i'd maybe try to emphasize with her and make her see reason. or i'd take her out (sorry, o)

44. Would you go to sleep in cryo or stay awake like Marper?

i'd go to sleep

45. Who are you waking up first to explore the new planet?

diyoza, cause she's a bad b*tch, octavia, clarke, bellamy, miller, raven, emori, murphy and niylah

tagging: @clarkgriffon @nvermindiseeyou @jordanjaspergreen @easilydistractedbyfanfic @hostagetakerandhistraitor @mycaptainbellarke @princessarya @bellamybb @cllarkegriffin @rainbowlexa @lameblake @el-corazon-y-la-cabeza @pawprinterfanfic @blvke-bellamy @katersann @diyozas @platonichug @failing-at-being-an-angel @@ladysanss

you probably all know the drill by now: if you have already done this or don't wanna do this, feel free to just ignore this💙

[rhiannon-nichole]

I think it’s time for me to hit the reset button! This pic popped up on my timehop and reminded me what a healthier Rhiannon looks like. One that doesn’t have pain in her eyes. One who’s spine isn’t full of titanium at the top and bottom. A Rhiannon who worked so hard at everything she put her mind to, and succeeded. Not for recognition, but for a purpose. Yes I was in pain, but did it stop me... NO! Nothing did. If I set my mind to something, I achieved it.

Today, I see myself so differently. Imagine four surgeries in 20mo period, with another one pending. In 2017 I spent 8mo in a cervical collar, unable to hold my own head up for more than four hours at a time, resulting in a spinal fusion, and another 2mo in the collar post op. Imagine 20/52 weeks in 2018 on crutches, with 45/52 with strict physical limitations, as a result of two gnarly bilateral labrum repairs. 2019 arrived and I’m and embarrassed to admit, but my weight gain puts me heavier than I’ve even been in my life. Knowing another surgery was approaching from an accident where I fell and damaged the repair done to my left hip, I was then assessed by my neurosurgeon for clearance, only to find out my lumbar spine was far worse. Full of disease, herniated disc, and nerve compression, a fusion was needed right away, delaying my hip surgery.

So here I am... 6 weeks post op reflecting on the last two years in recovery. I feel defeated. Who wouldn’t? I am stuck in a body surrounded by unwanted weight gain brought on by pity for myself and physical limitations I have no control over. I am guilty. Guilty of making the wrong choices for my health. I have let myself go. Everything I worked for has been robbed from me. I want so badly to dig deep for the strength I know I have and take control, but I feel like I take one step forward and six steps back. I’ve done it before, and I’ll do it again.

It’s time I stop feeling sorry for myself and get my shit together. Stop hiding. Grin and bare the pain whether it be physical, mental, or emotional. I have added new professionals to my team of specialists. I made a choice for me. To accept help. To accept my faults. To own everything.

I will officially be seeing a pain management doctor. My goal is to regain some of my freedom and find a healthy balance between my horizontal and vertical life. What does that mean??? It means instead of medicating under a professionals guidance, I stay in bed. My bed is my safe zone. It’s where my disabilities don’t control me. It’s where I choose to sleep than medicate. I don’t need to be embarrassed that I need help. That the pain I endure everyday, isn’t my fault, and can be improved one step at a time.

The second choice I have made is my most exciting, yet terrifying choice of all. Being in the mental health field, you’d think I’d be more open to accepting mental health support. That’s not the case. My coping skill set consists of one major flaw, avoidance. I have always found joy and purpose in serving and helping others, not only for them, but selfishly for myself. If I am giving all of myself to someone else, there is no time left to focus on me. It’s time to face it all. My grievance towards my disability. Letting go of toxic people in my life without guilt. Setting healthy boundaries with my narcissistic sociopathic father. I want to be a better wife, mother, and friend. I want to find joy in every day, rather than focusing on what part of the day knocked me down.

I believe with these two additions I will find the strength to bring back the sparkle in my eyes. My self worth is in the palm of my hands, and I am the only one able to live up to its potential despite whatever barriers come my way. I am ready.

PS: Shoutout to my friend Chelsea in this pic. I’m not tagging her bc it’s a very vulnerable post, but I just wanted to recognize how beautiful you are.

[sailorswelcome]

WOWZA

tagged by @hi-im-eilidh thanks mom ur the loml and i would Absolutely die for you. also in writing this i just discovered grammarly has a tumblr extension. hmmmm.

what’s the smell of your shampoo?

I wash my hair..... like once every two weeks? bc i have so little of it and it doesn't need to be washed ever. the shampoo i keep at school is rosemary and the stuff i have at home is lemon, but it took so much effort to remember this bc i just never wash my hair bc im disgusting.

what’s your aesthetic?

luckily for me i have a pinterest board called aesthetic with 2.6k pins so i have a VERY clear idea for this. lumberjack shit, “the north” in general; ice and woods and glaciers and mountains and stuff. museums and classical things; art history and rome and greece bc thats just my shit. coffee shops, pretentious looking people smoking cigarettes, warm socks, log cabins, standing in the snow, words written in paintbrush over photos of landscapes, the moon, the sea, the desert. 

what’s your favorite time of the day and why?

between 2 and 3 am bc i am horrible at sleeping. the light is always very beautiful then no matter where you are idk why. it is nice to look out the window then or take a walk or sit in the hall when everyone else on your floor is asleep. its just always very quiet and beautiful. 

what do you most like about the beach?

GOOOOOOOD I LOVE THE BEACH uhhhhhh hgngngngngn i like it at night and in the winter and i like to look at it from on top of a cliff bc i love the way you can see every dip and sandbar because the color of the water changes... i love when its really clear in the early spring and you can see the seals after they dive underwater. I love the beach at night and swimming at night and the moon's reflection on the water and i love when it gets REALLY cold some winters and parts of the harbor will actually freeze and you get these huge chunks of ice washing up. I love when big chunks of driftwood wash up and you can use them as benches. I love the beach a lot can u tell. 

what do you worry about constantly?

dark question op! i worry about Everything but mostly that I’ll never be happy, and that i’m annoying and a bad friend. everything else is just stemming from that.  

what is a song you’ve cried to before?

i’ve cried to almost every single song i know but the number one hard hitters are I Need My Girl by The National, Lakeside View Apartments Suite by The Mountain Goats, and I’d Rather Be With Them by Marika Hackman. Those last two are both hit me with their lines about being really sad and throwing up which is just a trope that gets me I guess. oofa. 

what are some relaxing tips for your followers?

i have never once in my life been relaxed but i would say mixing up the ways that you relax? having a really consistent routine to relax has never worked for me bc it stops working after a while and i just autopilot through it. talk to a friend, play some music, draw, go for a walk, take a nap on the floor instead of your bed, take a bath. journal, drink some water, eat something. try something new every time depending on what is stressing you out. go with the flow dudes.

what are some things that make you tear up?

like. all music as i said i have cried at Every song. also a lot of movies make me tear up. idk this is a bad question bc i just start crying sometimes for no reason i think my eyes just do that. i was hanging out with a friend one time and my eyes just started leaking and he was like hey whats wrong? and i was like no idea! its a mystery to us both

what is your favorite from each sense?

sight - sunlight falling on the floor through windows  

smell - hey this is going to sound so weird but im OBSESSED with the smell of the chemicals they put in air conditioners and freezers. its my favorite smell in the world. i dont know why i just smell a refrigerator and nut

taste - this is honestly the first thing i could think of but on christmas eve i was at @hi-im-eilidh ‘s house and her mom made biscuits and like holy shit

sound - catholic boys choir hitting a high note in a big cathedral 

touch -  holding hands im gay 

what is an alternative reality you’ll like to live in?

noir detective novel where i am very cool and i have 20/20 vision and a gun and i can monologue

what are some troubles you face on a daily basis?

i am always stressed and lonely and i have no money for gas as i drive a pickup truck. also my friends who i love dearly always SPILL FOOD IN MY CAR, AND DONT PICK IT UP, IS THIS YOUR FUCKING BEDROOM I DONT THINK SO CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF GGOD

what is one scene from a book that makes you really sad?

there is this post-apocalyptic book called After The Snow and i don't remember much of it but i know the protagonist was this boy and he had a cave full of animal skulls that he like worshipped and talked to and i just remember that made me really sad bc everyone thought he was weird for having any sort of remaining spirituality after the world had ended but like god he was doing so well it made me big sad 

say something to your followers:

sorry this post was so fuckign long and depressing! i promise i am usually not this sad! these are just cursed questions. also hey... i love u all.. thanks for putting up with me 

im tagging @brushite bc i love her and want her to suffer thru answering these 

[angelic-guardienne]

I just realized that I, a lifetime resident of Ignis Hell, never made a post on my thoughts on Episode Ignis!! So I’ll do that now I guess while everyone is asleep and not tag anyone because... yeah.

Spoilers galore bc I don’t know if I can write a coherent review w/o spoiling some things. Just a head’s up, this isn’t really the most comprehensive review, it’s more just me rambling a bit, maybe I’ll do a deeper one later but for now it’s just a bit of a ramble. (this got progressively less comprehensive as the post goes on so just... process with caution)

Cut!!

Um where to start... okay, the gameplay. 

I’d actually played with Ignis a bit in the main game before heading to his DLC, meaning I had a brief familiarity with his controls (so I wasn’t panicking like “hoLY SHIT bells and wHISTLes”), I just hadn’t known what the specializations were for, so that was nice. I like the way he controls. He’s very smooth, sometimes he moves a bit too fast for my eyes (looking at that lightning magic) but other than that loved it. Loved him. Wonderful controls. Heard the blizzard power was OP and I concur. I used it a lot, mostly switched between blizzard and fire, was rarely seen hitting that lightning unless it was for a Total Clarity attack, and even then... the fire. the blizzard.

Ignis’ battle cries! Lovely. I don’t understand the “you’re mine!” trend that seems to appear in every game I play, but it sounded great coming from his lips, so yeah, seal of approval. 

I thank the lord every day for Adam Croasdell.

Ignis taking down those huge MT armors with the lance in two blows! (i’m talking before that segment with Ravus... which I’ll address later i’m sure) I’m a big fan of that. If I saw him do that irl i’d literally collapse. I almost collapsed just watching him do it in the game, but i was already sitting so i didn’t. 

(There were many moments during the dlc where i literally collapsed, but let’s get into that later)

But going back to the voice acting. I heard that some people thought it was rather poor but I found it really great? Ignis sounded a little bit whiny at times and completely done with everyone and everything at others and I loved it. He always conveyed the right emotions. 

There were those moments of course (you guys know the one. where he pushes off the MTs in the “resist” timeline. and just. keeps screaming. you know the one) but they just made me laugh a bit instead of driving me away. I look fondly on them.

There were actually a lot of moments that made me laugh in this dlc, serious as it was, i just. must have a very lowkey sadistic part of me. I always laughed at the sad parts of movies as a child. anyways. before i talk about those let’s get into these

these being ravus

ravus ravus ravus. my boy. i loved him before and i love him even more now. i’ve had a ravus/oc in the works for a while now and... and now i have a soulmate au in the works as well. help. this just came to mind. i’m sinking further and further into ravus hell on a daily

won’t even get into ardyn hell

back to ravus

love my boy. wanna hug my boy. i knew he was gonna take luna’s death very poorly but i thought we were gonna get a grief scene and be done with it but we got a grief boss battle (which... was hard. he’s so op like... help. the whole time he was on my team i was so happy i didn’t have to fight him and then...) and not one, but TWO grief heavy scenes so i was beyond satisfied. it was great. 

uhhhh ravy’s beard. 3/10 lol. it’s starting to grow on me though (in a metaphorical sense. i can’t grow a beard.) someone give him a candy cane and put him in red and call him kris

uhhh

(this is getting less and less coherent as we go and i’m sorry)

i’m sorry ravus’ beard is so hilarious. did he grow it because there wasn’t anyone around anymore to tell him not to? whoops made myself sad haha 

Oh! let’s talk about ardyn!

loved all the ardyn content. ardyn made me laugh and curse a lot, mostly laugh because... so theatric. the hat (you know the lil pat pat he gives that MT soldier he puts his hat on) and his little scandalized noises (the gasp he makes when ignis presents the ring in the alt ending) and that fucking scene where he’s revealed to be a grave robber and summons the armiger like it’s snowing outside

which it probably was

beside the point

Ardyn was good in this dlc. thank you Darin de Paul. lovely. his evil laughs... chills down my spine. but he evil laughs in a way that makes me both want to punch him and laugh with him. ardyn ignites emotions in me that i cannot name. not good ones, but ones all the same.

seriously though even if i wasn’t a fan of ardyn, ardyn was great in this. he’s slimy as hell and honestly... wow. he seemed like he was losing him mind a bit in this dlc and i love it. i’m 99% sure it was because of the ring. ardyn’s always a little bit crazier when it comes to the ring and this was allllll about the ring. so kudos for making it a trend

i... have a lot of thoughts about ardyn here. i just can’t express them correctly right now. ask me about them later and maybe i’ll be able to articulate. i’m sick and barely awake and all my brain is giving me is an “ardyn? cool bro” help.

there was more i said i’d come back around and talk about. um.

that mini stealth segment with ravus! wild. literally collapsed and almost missed the quicktime event in the second one. now i wanna replay the episode just to see what happens when i miss the quicktime events. i wanna do that with all of them actually. catch me doing that after i pick up my controller again. missing literally every. quicktime. event.

WAIT CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT PART WHERE IGNIS FUCKING FLINGS HIS DAGGER INTO THE FACE OF AN MT

BECAUSE THAT WAS HOT AS ALL HELL

HE JUST CASUALLY THREW IT

ALSO IGNIS HOLDING HIS DAGGERS BACKHAND IS MY WEAKNESS

WILL NEVER GET OVER EITHER OF THOSE THINGS

ohhh let’s talk about the parts where i literally collapsed.

1) when the eastern bridge collapsed just as ignis was about to cross it and he looked so done

2) when ravus and ignis did their stealth takedowns

3) when ignis was all “i presume you weren’t born with a prosthetic” like igNIS

4) when ardyn summoned his entire armiger to fire at ignis in the alt end

5) every time ignis screamed in general

6) when ardyn’s sword hit igs in the face and knocked him out

7) “This world means nothing to me. Do with it as you wish.”

8) AND THE LAUGH THAT IGNIS LETS OUT AFTER THAT LINE

9) when i got the bad fucking end because time limits

10) when ravus found lunafreya’s dead body and immediately went into rage mode

11) when ragey ravus attacked ignis

12) when ardyn showed up as gladio

13) obvi. ignis taking down the huge mts

14) while screeching in frustration, whenever ignis fell off of the fucking rooftops

15) oh, when ignis ripped off his earpiece

now let’s talk about the moments that made me laugh bc there were... admittedly quite a few

1) “Don’t be asinine.”

2) the way ardyn fuckin gasped when he saw that ignis had the ring in the alt ending

3) ignis pushing those MTs off of him in the “resist” timeline

4) ignis sprinting?

5) caligo immediately (and... ineffectively) trying to drag Ravy’s edges as soon as the man was out of earshot

6) ignis talking in his little earpiece 

7) “Have you lost your marbles?”

8) “I wouldn’t do that if I were you” Ardyn says a solid number of seconds after Ignis puts on the ring

9) actually all of ardyn’s quote regarding ignis wearing the ring? the man was just like... “wow who is this kid”

10) ravus calling ignis “boy”

11) ardyn just fucking tossing noctis

12) and then tossing ravus as well

13) ignis going full halt next to pryna even though noct is right there, seems even he can’t escape the power of dogs

14) “Let your hair down!”

15) ardyn summoning his entire armiger to attack Ignis with

16) gladiolus “if you’re alive then pick up the damn phone” amicitia

17) the fact that the empire just carries around coeurls for no other reason than to drop down on ignis as cannon fodder

18) ignis sounding (cordially) ticked off with literally every altissian aside from weskham

19) fuckin. watching caligo control his mech in the boat chase

and moments that produced emotions i cannot explain

1) ignis always getting close to the altar/noctis and then getting knocked away by a freak accident

2) iggy getting healed by the crystal’s light (you know the scene. his hair is all down and that’s... the most beautiful i’ve seen him)

3) ardyn going to stab noctis and the dramatic irony bc we know he wouldn’t actually kill him and is just getting a reaction from ignis

4) ravus throwing the dagger at ardyn!!

5) quick recipeh

6) getting fucking. knocked off the edges of buildings. and taking fall damage

7) “I don’t want to die without him”

8) ignis seeing the claw of the fallen mt and immediately thinking “hookshot”

9) one-man army ignis

10) ignis being so very realistically tired after every single battle

11) ignis with his hair all the way down

12) fire eyes

13) fire body

14) generally ignis living up to his name

15) fuckin. father christmas over there

16) ignis asking noctis not to complete the journey and noctis turning it around so quickly jk that actually really really hurt

17) having to watch ignis feel around for everything

18) also i don’t know if anyone else caught this, maybe it’s just my game but i noticed in the ardyn v ignis fight in the alt ending, a lot of the recorded sounds of noct warping/fighting are mixed in the jumble of ardyn and ignis’ fighting sounds. i can’t tell who is making said sounds but i hear them all the time

so yeah

my general view of episode ignis? heartwrenching, 10/10, would recommend, would play again, will play again, all the best things, love it very much, will hold it near and dear to my hear. lovely lovely dlc.

[delirium-drk]

TAG!

RULES: Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked, then write 11 new ones. Tag 11 people to answer your questions, as well as the person who tagged you.

Tagged by @daxiia thank you so much ;o;!!!

warning, fma spoilers!!!!

1. Who do you think has the best character development in the series?

not sure but off the top of my head gREED SOBS i cried SO HARD when Ling had him realize thAT HE JUST WANTS FRIENDS also now that i’ve rewatched beasts of dublith and he was like they’re my possessions!!! I was like cryign GREEED YOU’RE WROOOONNGGGG AND HE DOES REALIZE IT WITH LING’S HELP!!! AND HE ACCEPTS IT AND DOESN’T SEE THEM AS POSSESSIONS ANYMORE!! and then he dies and thanks them SOBS god i watched that last scene SO MANY TIMES so many tears

2. Tell me about your FAVORITE character and your LEAST favorite character? Why do you love/hate them?

my favorite character is LING!! He is so adorable, smart, and amazing!!! Realized how deep his character is after reading people’s analyses. That and i’m just rewatching from the beginning and actually noticing things that i forgot lol he’s not constantly portrayed as dumb, it’s made pretty clear its a facade at the start. at least i think so. he’s also fricking badass. if i could be him, that would be awesome lol.

hmm my least favorite character...first ones that come to mind are kimblee and father, but most likely father/dwarf in the flask. i guess it’s kind of obvious but he’s like the only character that doesn’t have any profound epiphany or remorse. which is a given i guess lol

3. If you could change one thing in the entire series what would it be?

I’d have Greed stay alive and with Ling SOBS 

4. QUICK! Give me a really cute headcanon about your OTP/fave?

oh god this one is going to take me the longest and i’m saving it for last bc i have literally no idea i just feed off other people’s content and don’t really think of things myself I’m not very creative lmao maybe when greedling lies to sleep at night ling won’t shut up and greed complains and calls him a pissant and tells him to shut it but he secretly likes the company lol idk

5. What is your favorite arc and why?

oh god my memory is awful so this will be hard lol i’ve only just started rewatching and im only on ep 16-17 and when i finished the series i started at 36 so... i guess, for now, the arc in the north? it was really interesting seeing the dynamics with the chimeras joining the protags after kimblee left them for dead and of course olivier is badass also miles is super cool a lot of interesting stuff happened in the north and it’s probably what i remember the most right now lol

6. What character do you think is under appreciated?

hmm i really like jean havoc but i guess i don’t see much for him in the general tag? it was a LONG time ago i saw that part of the anime but i remember being really sad when he went out of commission but i think i really got excited at the end when he helped a lot with ammunition or something

7. What is your sin?

probably greed bc i can be selfish and i have so many material desires and i am so spoiled by tyler lmao

8. If you (and someone close to you) were in Ed and Al’s place, would you be okay with using the stone? Why or why not?

 i definitely would not be okay with using it, because it would be turning those human lives into just a number and a tool for one’s own gain i’m not one to use others like that without anything in return

9. Is there any villain you feel sympathy for and can fully understand their motives? Do you think what they did was justified?

Hmm...not really. I’d say the closest would be Scar but I really don’t condone his murders. I can kinda understand him murdering alchemists that took part in the Ishvalan Civil War, but still don’t think it’s right. What kills it is how he tried to kill Ed, who had NO part in the war at all. Like I can understand going after Mustang bc he killed many people, but Ed didn’t do anything. Also why am I suddenly typing with good grammar and stuff. This is the second to last thing I answered lol.

10. Which would you rather eat, Winry’s apple pie or Gracia’s quiche?

oh GOD can’t i just eat everything lmao jk i guuuessss apple pie bc i love pie lol

11. And finally, what is your FAVORITE moment in the entire series? oh god let’s see

also hard bc i don’t remember everything but..i guess when Ling helps Greed realize thAT HE JUST WANTS FRIENDS creys

------SPOILERS END HERE------

oh boy time to think of 11 questions lmao im sorry if these are lame your questions were so good, daxiia lol idk what to put

1. would you ever want to live in the fma universe?? (why? o:) (if not into fma pick your favorite thing rn!)

2. do you want to marry anyone from fma/fave show/book/etc.?? who??? (if you want them to murder you that’s fine too LOL)

3. do you play any video games? if so, what’s your fave rn?!!

4. is there a character who’s died that you wish didn’t die, but their death added so much to the story and other character(s)’s development(s) that them staying alive would detract from the story?? (cough cough im trying not to spoil anything)

5. do you ever stop watching something halfway through, even as it’s getting good, for no goddam good reason???

6. what’s your favorite animal and why?? o: genuinely curious and totally not struggling with questions lmao

7. do you tend to like male or female anime characters more?

8. what do you think is the best and most meaningful anime op or ed, including the animation itself?

9. what scene made you cry the MOST in fma (or other fave interest)??? (i’m sure you can tell what made ME cry the most...)

10. if you could make your faaaaaavorite fictional character real, WHAT WOULD YOU TRADE??? ( i am proud of this question. )

11. what would your style of alchemy be???? (ALSO PROUD OF THIS QUESTION!!!!)

i def do not have 11 people to tag so i tried lol. also if you don’t wanna do this feel free to not!

@swimforfish, @raggle-fraggle , @kagerou-daze, @lilygigg, @daxiia

[lennoxfraser-blog]

ooc week: day three

RAPID FIRE:

Tea or coffee? tbh lately it’s been coffee bc i’m getting old and need a kick in the ass to get through the day, so. coffee.

Stars or planets? planets.

Sun or moon? moon.

Black or white? black.

The zoo or the aquarium? the zoo!!!!!!!!!

Drama or comedy? kdrama :}

Thriller or adventure? adventure. i can’t watch scary movies bc even though i’m not scared at the time, it tends to stick in my brain and i get zero sleep bc of bad dreams.

Short walks to the fridge or long walks on the beach? short walks to the fridge. [anakin skywalker voice] i hate sand.

Indoors or outdoors? indoors. outdoor has too many variables.

Animals or plants? animals. i used to want to be a veterinarian!!

Time alone or time with others? time alone 100%%%%%

Introvert or extrovert? introvert.

Silence or music? i’m very fine with silence but i love singing badly to music too. i also need music if i’m writing or being creative, so i def couldn’t live without music.

Darkness or light? darkness.

Cats or dogs? i can never decide. i love my cat, and i prefer their independence.

Dancing or being the wallflower? wallflower. i don’t think my self-esteem would allow me to dance in public lol

Right or left? i’m right handed and always take right-optioned choices but i always make my characters lefties.

Werewolves or vampires? ;) honestly.......... vampires. (says me who made a whole rp about werewolves)

Dressing stylishly or dressing comfortably? comfortably omg i don’t change out of pyjamas all day if i don’t have to.

Sunrise or sunset? sunrise. 

Lead or follow? leadership is something i can and will do if i don’t feel satisfied with someone else’s leadership, but i can follow just fine. this is why i admin a roleplay i crave control goodbye

Optimist or pessimist? pessimism is my default.

Staying up late or waking up early? literally both. catch four hours of sleep and do it all over again.

Speaking up or staying silent? i speak up in my head, plan what i would say, and then open my mouth and almost burst into tears lmao i can’t argue to save my life, but i feel like my ideas are good so i’d much rather speak up through text.

White lies or brutal honesty? tbh white lies.

Ask for permission before doing the stupid thing or ask for forgiveness after doing the stupid thing? permission tbh i need peer reviews, ratings, signed permission slips, the WORKS before i do anything ever. catch me texting my friends “do you think i should do this?” or “can we talk about what would happen if i did this” just bc i’d rather be logical and rational than jumping into something too quickly. quintessential ravenclaw trait.

LONG FORM:

Pet peeves: FEET. IN ALL FORMS. LITERALLY DO NOT SHOW ME YOUR FEET. also something that pisses me off is when i’m told information i already know.... like if someone repeats a story to me, i have zero patience.... or if they rehash information prior to adding new information, i will cut them off, fill it in with a brief explanation to show i understand, before letting them continue. idk why i think just hearing things for the second, third, fourth time always feels like wasting time? i can’t do it. people who cough and sneeze and don’t make an effort to cover their mouth/nose with something other than their damn hands. slow internet. NO INTERNET.

Bad habits: like above, a bad habit is cutting people who off who are rehashing a story or information. i don’t cut them off in general, only in that situation, but i could def work on that lol. chewing my nails. buying shit that i don’t need, especially books. 

Favourite scents (your amortentia!): coconut, vanilla, the smell of clothes when they come out of the dryer. 

Favourite animal: tbh either lions or owls. at a zoo, i’d ideally spend the whole day at the lion enclosure, watching them sleep.

Favourite colour: green!!!!

Favourite place to go (local or otherwise) (photos get bonus points): about five minutes from my house is the beach and a cliff that overlooks the beach. there’s a watch tower there, and beneath the hill is actually these tunnels that they used during WW2 bc they thought Japan was going to invade so they stored weapons and ammo there. anyway, sitting up on the hill and looking out across the water is my favourite place to go to think, and i usually always go there with my mum to talk. i’ll include some pictures at the end!!

Favourite meme: honestly, i love the “tag yourself, i’m ____” meme. whether that’s when people make the photos and poorly spelt options, or even just when someone posts a photo/text post and drags the OP by saying “tag yourself, i’m the ___” 

Do you have any creative or artistic abilities? so i write, and i’m hopefully alright at that. i used to do art, and i’m mediocre at drawing but i don’t do it to create, i usually draw to express story ideas or a character’s look/feel. i can crochet, idk if that’s necessarily creative or artistic. i can play the harmonica parts for “piano man” by billy joel!!! 

Talk about something that made you happy today, yesterday, this week: a few things did!! i went to a bookstore and bought some books, so that made me feel materialistically happy. right after that i got sick at my friend’s house with a cold that came on within a few hours and that wasn’t great but it made me happy that i had a friend who would take care of me lol. also i’ve been very productive this week despite illness, so that made me happy upon reflection!! 

Talk about an experience that made you feel proud or confident: tbh when i feel very bad about my confidence, i remember this one time when i was in high school (so i was 17) and we had mentor groups, which is when the ~smart kids~ are assigned to a teacher and mentored for the year. (the teacher basically just asks how you’re doing lol) ANYWAY we had a mentor day at a camp-like place, where there’s archery and games and shit. being a bigger girl in these kind of places = anxiety in the first place, and there was a zipline thing where you climb a telegraph pole (with no ropes? wtf?), strap into the zipline, and then they push you off and you fly down a rope for a few hundred metres. anyway, all my friends had gone, and time was running out, and i WANTED to do it, but my anxiety was like..... ur literally too big... also if you do, everyone will laugh.... and then i was just like ? fuck it???????? so i climbed the shit out of that terrifying pole, i strapped myself in, and i went down that zipline like Tris from Divergent and like. no one laughed? they were cheering? it was one of the most liberating moments of my life, just bc i realised that a lot of my fears are only in my head and not actually reality, and that if you want something, even if its small, you should go for it. i’m proud of myself for doing it.

Talk about something/someone that makes you feel relaxed: my bed makes me feel relaxed, but also probably talking to my mum - if i have a problem, i know that she’ll listen and help if she can.

Talk about something you’re yet to try for the first time but want to: everything i want to do is simply just so i can write about it better? lmao???? so i’d want to kiss someone so i could write about it more accurately, i’d want to get high so i could write about it better. i can’t drink bc of health reasons, but if i could, i’d like to get drunk to write about it better. mostly everything is just so i can be a better, more rounded writer. 

Who are your role models and why: tbh idk if i have role models. i used to, but the older i get, the more i feel as though i rely less on looking up to people?? i really admire a lot of writers though, like Neil Gaiman and Leigh Bardugo and even J.K Rowling. also even though she’s a youtuber, i admire Zoe Sugg bc she just seems like a good person with a good heart? she’s been very open about mental illness and she’s written books and released a make up line and she’s... just normal? that’s a great role model, esp for younger people, so i’m glad she’s got a huge audience. 

Talk about something you want to do this year: this year!!! this year is going to be organisation central, hopefully. i want to start/restart my book review blog where i write about books because that’s what makes me happy. i also have some RP goals, and they’ll hopefully be fulfilled very soon. i want to write more original fiction this year, and i want to read a lot more widely than i did last year. 

[betty-fandom-blog]

hello, ladies, gentlemen and all other configurations of being.

here is a basic tag list i meant to make eons ago (under the cut bc jeebus it got waaayyy long)

#og - post made by me 

(be it rb’d from another one of my blogs or one i posted here originally)

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#friend art - rb-ing art my friend(s) drew

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#markiplier - Markiplier-related posts, 

be it a mention of his name or characters’ names or otherwise. 

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#who killed markiplier? - i feel like that one is kinda self-explanitory about what it is

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#a heist with markiplier - self-explanitory what it’s about

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#wilford motherlovin post - the tag for the posts that kinda got me into The Know in the Markiplier fandom, i guess, 

starting with “wilford motherlovin laundry” as the first instance the term was used. 

it’s for the meme I created call the “Wilford Motherlovin [Word] meme”, 

where I take the first two parts of Wilford Motherlovin Warfstache and put them in front of another word/phrase. 

for example, one of my post popular original posts: 

“wilford motherlovin worcestershire sauce”. 

the posts are blursed imo, 

and I love the chaos that has ensued because of my 

chaotic bastard babey tendencies

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#food mention - when a post talks about food, shows pics of food, 

or just in general has food-related things 

(i know some people like that being tagged, so i do my best to remember to! 

(i also prefer to tag it for myself too, both for navigation and other stuff)

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#spoiler - can also be tagged as “#spoilers”, “#spoilers??” or other similar ways. 

for stuff i think might be spoilers. 

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#my art - typically paired with “#betty art”. 

for the art i make myself and post. 

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#my edit - when I personally edit an audio file, a video, or a photo. 

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#eyestrain - when a picture has red/blue lines or very bright colors. 

i may also tag things as 

“#bright” or “#bright colors”, 

but i don’t know how often i’ve done that. 

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#music - for posts that include music, 

such as audios or videos with music in ‘em.

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#audio - audio posts, 

or sometimes posts that mention an audio i’ve done/heard

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#video - video posts

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#long post - when a post looks long to me or just is long in general

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#eye contact - for when a character/person/thing is staring into the eyes of the viewer, 

or directly at the “camera”. 

i know it makes some people uncomfortable, 

and it does so for me as well 

(i mostly do it for disturbing effect and/or practice of perspective), 

so i tag it when it’s very prevalent in an image

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#pride - when a post is talking about the LGBTQ+ community 

(mostly when it’s talked about in a positive way!!).

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#neurodiversity - when a post is talking about mental illnesses and neurodivergence in general, 

rather than specifically about a specific one. 

sometimes i forget to tag this, and i apologize for that. 

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#[insert specific mental illness or neurodivergence] - (sorry if i didn’t word that or any of this right!! i’m not trying to offend nor hurt anyone.) 

for posts talking about specific neurodiverse and/or mental illness topics, 

for example 

“#adhd”, “#autism”, and/or “#depression”. 

usually, the posts that i used these types of tags on either are “relatable”, helpful, memes, or just talking about them

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#[insert compliment/comment/excited face for the artist/writer/etc i rb-from] - i believe artists/writers/etc deserve to hear positive feedback and compliments for the work they do, 

so i try to put nice things in the tags! 

sometimes it’ll just be an excited face

(“#O: !!”/“#:O !!”) 

or another positive reaction!

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#betty blog universe - for a thing i’m working on that’s still in the “work in progress” stage. 

more info can be found @betty-blog-universe and in that tag. 

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#i was tagged - for when i get tagged in a post.

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#[insert reaction to post] - that one’s self-explanitory, i’d say. 

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#clothing - for posts talkin’ about clothes. 

i probably missed tagging a few, and i’m sorry about that.

it’s a more recent tag i’ve started using. 

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#signal boost - can also be “#signal boost!” or “#signal boost!!”. 

most signal boost stuff i tend to post on/rb to @b-f-b-important-rb​

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#important - for posts that are important/i deem are important, 

such as positive affirmations, legitimate important info

(like a change in policies or instructions). 

can be paired with “#helpful”

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#thank you - can also be “#thank you op” “#thank you!!” “#thank you op!!” or some other incarnation of those. 

usually used on posts where a poster is being kind, 

helpful, and/or i just want to thank them for what they posted. 

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#meme - for memes

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#[insert very specific thing included in a post] - used in posts such as my Yancy post recently tagged with “#loss meme”

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i try to tag triggers as well as i can, usually in the form of “#[insert triggering/upset thing] tw”, 

but i probably don’t always get all of them. 

please let me know if you want me to tag something. 

(examples: “#blood tw”, “#suicide talk tw”/“#suicide tw”, “#gun tw”)

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i try to tag specific fandom stuff, for example: 

“#undertale” and “#pokemon”.

however, i don’t tend to tag character names bc i 

A) don’t always know their names, 

B) don’t think about it, and 

C) feel like the other tags i use sort-of cover it??

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i tag whatever i feel is necessary, but obviously there can be more that needs tagging! 

don’t be afraid to ask me to tag stuff. 

i’ll be sure to go back through my posts to find what you need tagged and i’ll get on it asap! love you all mWAH