#I’m my own biggest fan absolutely sucking my own dick here and I fucking DESERVE IT-

[bastardcherub]

I spend way too much time laughing at my own fucking jokes. I’m hilarious and if u don’t see it then honestly I’m sorry for u </3

[bentnotbroken1fanfiction]

Sins of the Father (dark fic) TRIGGER WARNING (descriptions of non consensual sex acts, heavy angst)

Part I

Normally Billy doesn't concern himself with Max and what she's doing. He doesn't really notice if she's happy or sad once they're home, doesn’t particularly care. The minute they enter the house it's like they live on separate planes of existence. They stay out of each other's way. They have nothing in common. 

Or that's what he used to think. 

It's a Thursday night and Susan left three hours ago for work. His jaw aches and is probably on its way to bruising, and all he wants to do is sleep. But he can't. Because on his way back from the bathroom he heard Max crying, and now that he's noticed it, he can't tune it out. 

He decides to wait ten minutes. Surely she'll stop soon? What the fuck does she have to be crying about? Probably her dumb boyfriend. 

She doesn't stop. 

So he gets out of bed, annoyed and sore, and slips back out into the hall. He doesn't knock, doesn't want to be loud enough to wake his dad up because he'd rather not take another hit thank you very much, he just quietly opens the door and sneaks inside. 

It's as dark in here as it is in his room, but his eyes are adjusted enough to the darkness that he can see a lump in the bed. 

The crying immediately chokes off when the door clicks closed, and the tension in the air suddenly spikes up, almost suffocating him as he inches closer to her bed. 

What the hell? 

"Max?" He whispers, and he doesn't know what else to say because he's getting a really weird vibe as the sniffles resume. "Hey-"

"Not you too." She groans miserably, and Billy is really fucking confused. 

"What-" 

"Please don't." It sounds like she's on the verge of crying again. 

"Don't what?" Was she always this cryptic? 

He watches as she sits up and the blankets fall off of her. She looks as miserable as she sounds. "I don't want to be touched right now." She says.

Ok? That's a weird ass fucking thing to say? 

When he kind of just stares at her dumbly, because he's never felt more clueless in his life, she scoots closer to the edge of the bed and continues. "Look, I'll still suck your dick, ok? I just don't want to be touched."

His brain short circuits. 

"Excuse me?" His voice practically squeaks and he takes a couple steps back, because that is not something he'd ever expected to hear her say. Like ever. 

Now she sounds confused. "That's why you came in here, right? So I would blow you?"

He blinks a few times before he can properly process what she just said. "What the fuck? No! I heard you crying. Why the hell- You're my sister and like twelve years old." She's actually almost fourteen and he's more than a little gay so it would do absolutely nothing for him, but that's beside the point. "Why on earth would you think I would want you to fuckin-" He abruptly cuts himself off. 

Not you too? 

"Oh shit." He whispers. "My dad." He's suddenly feeling sick to his stomach. "Max, is my dad coming in here and making you do that?" 

She doesn't say anything, just grabs the blanket and pulls it back over her as she lays down. "Go away, Billy." 

"No. I'm not just going to go away." He replies and steps toward the bed again, because he might not like Max, and he thinks she's an annoying little shit and a total bitch sometimes, but if his dad is...she doesn't deserve that. "I need to know-" 

"Why? It's not like it would matter. You're scared of him too." 

His head swims. That's… "Yeah, fine. Maybe that's true, but...I still want some confirmation." He just needs to know what he's dealing with here. "Has he been touching you?" 

She flips the blanket back again but doesn't sit up this time. Just stares at the ceiling. "Yes, Billy. He's been touching me." She spits out, angry and hurt. "And he puts his mouth on me, and bites me and makes me touch him and suck him off. That good enough confirmation for you?" 

His hands are balled into fists, and he thinks he might be shaking. He hasn't wanted to hit his dad this bad in a long fucking time. And he's always known that Neil is a horrible person, but he never would have thought...what the fuck? and he'd accused fucking Harrington of having ill intentions towards her, when it was his own father who had been the one with them? 

He feels like throwing up. This is...this is so much worse than him hitting Billy. "Has he…is he making you have sex with him?" 

"No. At least, not yet." 

Fuck. Ok. That's good. He doesn't have to worry about dragging her to Indianapolis to find a fucking clinic. 

"Was he doing this back in California?" He asks, because if he was and Billy had no fucking idea, he's going to kick himself in the ass. 

"No. It didn't start until November. When mom got that job." 

"It's February." 

"And? " 

"Jesus Christ. Why didn't you say something?" 

"Really? You're not exactly my biggest fan, Billy. And not really the kind of person I thought would listen." 

Well, that's fair. He's an asshole. And apparently a big enough one that she thought he'd make her-  "Ok, I'm a dick, but what about your mom?" 

She sighs sadly. "I.. I tried to tell her once, but she wouldn't…she kept cutting me off. Repeated over and over how we are finally financially stable and how much he does for us and I just…I gave up." 

What the? Fuck you, Susan. 

He sits down on her bed and puts his head in his hands. "Fuck." He needs to figure out what to do about this. He can't just let Neil do this shit to her but he's kind of powerless. And he's a fucking idiot for not realizing…if he hadn't been annoyed with her crying then he would still be oblivious. He sucks. He sucks so much. 

He hears her sit up. "Billy?" 

"I'm sorry, Max." He says, "I'm sorry he's been hurting you, and I'm sorry I was too busy feeling sorry for myself that I didn't notice it happening." 

There's a hand on his shoulder. "It's not your fault. Ok? You didn't do anything and you should be worrying about yourself. He doesn't hit me. Or knock me unconscious. He leaves bruises and blood all over you. There's never a scratch on me." 

"That doesn't fucking matter. What he's doing to you is worse. It's...horrible and wrong. Maybe he doesn't beat you, but that shit? It'll still fuck you up."

"Well, I guess we'll just be fucked up together."

"I'll find a way to get him to leave you alone. I promise." 

She sighs sadly. “Don’t make promises you can’t keep.”

And he knows she has no reason to believe that he can follow through, but this time, this time he has to, because it’s not just him he needs to worry about anymore.

Part III

[gingersnapwolves]

A collection of thoughts on the last arc of The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty

First off, there was a lot, a LOT, that I loved

Obviously, Noble Consort Wan and her band of Badass Ladies was the Best Thing Ever. We love to see it. Also I really liked the way they showed her relationship with the Emperor over the course of the show, and how it was clear that she really loved him. Bonus points for her and the Dowager Empress supporting each other when it came down to it because at the end of the day, the Emperor is their priority so they’re on the same side.

The return of the Yu siblings! Nice to see them living their best lives at the monastery, away from political bullshit.

Any time Wang Zhi’s gang of street urchins shows up, I get super happy

The archers! Especially the young hot one who shot Wan An’s hat. Personification of ‘zero fucks given’. Needs his own spin off immediately.

Literally every time Wuyunbulage was on screen was gold.

Speaking of gold, the brief interlude where Tang Fan thinks Wang Zhi is dead and then Wang Zhi turns up and is like “even when I’m dead, you’re still lecturing me” lmaoooooo A++ sir

I went back and forth on this in my head for a while, but in the end I decided that I liked that Tang Fan didn’t outsmart Li Zilong. That’s what we would expect, right? And at the beginning it felt strange that he really . . . got played, in the long run. Like. Tang Fan fucked up a lot in this last arc. But in the end he and Sui Zhou won not because they were smarter, but because they were inherently good, decent people who believed in justice and had so much heart. That’s how Tang Fan was able to win over Qing Ge and how Sui Zhou was able to convince Marquis Wuan (now there was a character I didn’t expect to see return) to send his troops in for a rescue.

And last but certainly not least, the ~romance~ of it all. I got distracted during the last arc and didn’t burst out a post weeping over Sui Zhou fighting until he couldn’t stand anymore to defend Tang Fan, but let’s definitely not overlook Tang Fan running into Sui Zhou’s arms during a montage of their significant moments together. As one does. XD

Now on to a few complaints because hey, it’s my blog and I can complain if I want to

Minor complaint: I feel like the conspirators got off way too light, especially Shang Ming. At least Wan An and Wan Tong got banished. Shang Ming gets demoted to being a servant, and yeah, I get that it sucks for him and it’s gotta sting. But, uh, I feel like maybe the guy who plotted the Emperor’s murder shouldn’t still be working in the palace.

Middling complaint: I really don’t like the fact that Wang Zhi left at the end. I mean, part of that is just because I don’t want to see them split up. How can I write cute post-series OT3 fiction if Wang Zhi isn’t in the capital anymore? But like. I know the Emperor was like “this is what you’ve always wanted, right?” and maybe I could buy that more if it had ever, you know, been mentioned before. But it wasn’t. And then Tang Fan came in and was like “isn’t he just getting you out of here because you’ve become so powerful?” and I felt that. I felt it and I didn’t like it. I know there might be cultural aspects I’m missing because I really know very little about Imperial China, but it just didn’t sit right with me. It felt like he was getting punished, not rewarded.

Major complaint: DING RONG. MY BOY. MY POOR PUT UPON SON. THEY DID YOU SO DIRTY.

*ahem*

Listen. LISTEN. I get that Ding Rong had valid reasons to resent Wang Zhi (my kingdom for their backstory btw) because Wang Zhi could be a dick to him sometimes but like. He already had a chance to betray Wang Zhi! Literally the exact same thing had already happened once in the show and he basically gave Shang Ming the biggest middle finger he could! Why would he suddenly change his mind about that at the end?

And okay. There are some possible factors. He thought Wang Zhi was dead for a brief period of time (although, did he? He knew about Yang Fu. He was there when Yang Fu was imprisoned). So he really thought he was going to be in charge of the Western Depot. And I get that it would have sucked to find out ‘oh, just kidding, you’re actually not’. Maybe he felt like Wang Zhi hadn’t trusted him with the plan (although it was clearly a last second improvisation).

I’m not going to say it was wildly out of character, but it did not sit right with me at all. I literally thought it was part of their plan for way longer than I probably should have. I hate that they did it. I hate that the show ended with Ding Rong not on Wang Zhi’s side.

Tl;dr Ding Rong spent 50 episodes putting up with so much bullshit, being just as smart and talented if not more so than any of the main three, possessing the brain cell and herding cats twenty-four/seven. He absolutely deserved a great happy ending, and got completely fucking shafted. I’m not saying it was badly writing, but I am, in fact, saying that I hated it.

Minorest complaint: not enough Pei Huai. XD

[bigskydreaming]

This thread twitter. com /snarkybatbrat /status /129796110968136499 isn't new but this is what we deserve. I hope dc sees the hate they're getting and does at least something to change their plans for him. The did for Tim. But of course, Tim is white and has fans on high places.

Hmm, I’m getting a this thread doesn’t exist notification even when I take out the spaces, but I’m guessing its to do with the Flamebird talk elsewhere on that person’s feed? Cool, cool. Honestly, anything and everything other than what they’re actually doing with Damian is what we deserve, lol. Like, the bar is too low. There is no bar in Ba-Sing-Se.

Sigh, to be perfectly honest, this and the other Big Two of my Big Three Schrodinger’s Plot Twists, like.....just have me more impatient than anything else. The three things I’m most antsy about seeing the resolution to - 

- not because I intend to like, give a fuck about their resolution and will almost certainly view it as unworthy of the trees they are printed on, may the ghosts of those trees haunt DC forever, like, I’m talking poltergeist dryads and Phantom Ents lumbering through the halls of DC while middle management flees shrieking before them - 

But like, there are three specific things I want to see hurry up and get resolved already, so I can know precisely what SPECIFIC resolution it is I’m ignoring as I proceed to headcanon “Okay but what if instead of [crap] it was this [actual quality] and if over here with [just the worst idea ever] it was actually [idea unsullied by proximity to King, Lobdell, Tynion, and the rest of the Legion of Ick] and also if only [DC NOOOOO] had instead been [DC YESSSSS] like, whew, what a world [where DC comics are things I want to read instead of just set on fire with my mind] instead of, y’know [a world where DC comics are things I want to just set on fire with my mind instead of read].

Anyway, my big three of the ‘mo are:

1) Literally Everything To Do With Damian Just Stop, Leave the Poor Kid Alone, Puberty Is Hard Enough Already

2) Bea. I don’t trust them with Bea, solicits do not make me any more keen to trust them with Bea, just. What are you going to do to Bea. I know you’re going to do something, DC, because you’re DC, you can’t just let a perfectly good character who has a perfectly good and even healthy relationship with the character who might FINALLY be getting back to a state where he’s in a perfectly good place to actually BENEFIT from such a relationship, like. Exist. Let alone reciprocate ‘lol like what would that even be like wow weird who even said that, quick, somebody fire them, I don’t like their vibe.’ I know you have some insidious plot in mind, SOME brainiac over there had to have said somewhere along the way “hey wouldn’t it be cool if now we like had BEA get amnesia and forget about Ric because SYMBOLISM” and because you don’t hire editors competent enough to yell THAT’S NOT WHAT SYMBOLISM IS, YOU COLOSSAL TWIT, NOW GO STAND IN THE CORNER AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU’VE DONE.....oh god, that’s it, isn’t it? That’s what’s going to happen to Bea, I bet. I said ‘quick imagine you’re DC, think like them, what would they do’ and I reached down to my asshole and pulled out the worst thing I could think of and I just fucking prophesied, didn’t I? Well fucking fantastic. Thanks a lot. Now I feel complicit.

But yeah, basically. Like. Bea is LITERALLY (one of the rare times I’m actually using that word right) the ONLY consistently good thing about this entire story arc, so of course someone was probably like mmmm, how can we ruin that though. So its not a matter of IF I’m gonna wanna smite them, its more I’m kinda just waiting til I know what specifically it is I wanna smite them FOR. Will it be they kill Bea, so brb, gotta smite them? Will it be they reveal Bea’s actually an agent of the Court all along, so brb, gotta smite them? Will it be that Bea pulls off her energy mask and reveals she’s actually, idk, Lady Shiva because why the fuck not at this point, as she cackles FOOL, IT WAS ME, THE WHOLE TIME and Dick’s like oh nooooo gross, you’re my sister’s mom, and then she pulls off another energy mask and goes HAHAHA, IMBECILE, ITS ME, PERPETUA, ITS A DOUBLE PLOT TWIST, and Dick’s like wait, who? And she’s like dude. Its me. Perpetua. Dark creator goddess of the whole multiverse? The entire past two years of the entire DC comics line has basically all been about me, me, me? Where have you been, living under a rock? And Dick’s like no, just with amnesia, and she’s like aww, nuts. I did not think this all the way through.

And then I smite them.

I mean, ultimately it makes very little difference I suppose, but I like to be specific about what it is I’m ignoring. It just feels more pointed, and pointed means stabby, and I’m all about stabbing DC at the moment, so. Pointed it is!

3) And finally, the resolution of the Ric Grayson arc all in all, or rather, just specifically in terms of “Will at least ONE person apologize to Dick and center HIM in his own storyline that he was the biggest victim of?” or will it be more like “Welcooooooooooome, to the start of our latest annual Dick Grayson Apology Tour, first stop, the siblings he just beat up while brainwashed and already feels absolutely terrible about having been used as a tool to inflict pain on while having absolutely no ability to do anything about it, what a dick that guy is, am I right?”

Again, not that it’ll make a ton of difference in the whole Ignoring On Account of All The Suck thing, but it does help inform what flavor of pettiness and peeves I sprinkle atop all my Hahaha You Guys Are Just The Worst posts from that point on.

*Shrugs* What can I say? I just hate going store bought if I can help it. Its that little individualized touch of spite that really gives a grudge some zest, y’know?

[radramblog]

Linkin Park Retrospective Part 6: The EPs

I can’t listen to One More Light yet. Don’t have it in me to tackle that. So instead, we’re going to cover the two EPs released by the band, Collision Course and Songs from the Underground.

Collision Course

…who’s idea was this?

Apparently MTVs, as part of an “Ultimate Mashups” series, though their involvement seemed mostly hands off. A 6-track Jay-Z/Linkin Park crossover album isn’t an idea I would have tried to sell, but Mike and Jay seem pretty into it based on the snippets of studio chatter you get in between tracks. The album opens with that, in fact- Chester (?) going “I ordered a Frappucino where’s my fuckin Frappucino?” is certainly one way to start things off.

I’m just going to make it clear now that I’ve never heard most of the Jay-Z tracks being mashed up here, so I can’t really comment on that end. As these tracks are mashups with songs I am quite familiar with, though, I can at least give some degree of assessment. And unfortunately, I’d argue Collision Course compares unfavourably to Reanimation as far as crossover albums go. Largely speaking the remixes done to the Linkin Park instrumentals are uninteresting, though they do match the new vocals done over the top of them, and Jay-Z is basically fine but not overwhelming.

I think my biggest issue with this album is that a bunch of the songs just drop just about everything new about them and are just the Linkin Park track for the last like minute or so- Dirt off your Shoulder/Lying from You, Jigga What/Faint, and Points of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer are all pretty guilty of this. That isn’t to say that the rest of these tracks aren’t good, but this in particular is a sticking point I couldn’t ignore.

Track-by-track, then. Dirt off your Shoulder/Lying from You is the most straightforward track on the whole project, and probably the biggest sufferer from eventually just being Lying from You (seeing as that’s kinda the worst of those three LP tracks). I have no idea whats going on in the instrumental from Big Pimpin’/Papercut, but the Papercut verse on top of that sounds just sort of weird- Jay-Z’s verse fits better, but also, that’s probably the one written for that instumental isn’t it. Jigga What/Faint is interesting, with the first half’s backing being a heavily remixed version of the verse instrumental from Faint, but a minute in it’s just Faint oops. With that said, Jays bars over that instrumental actually does fit pretty well.

I don’t know rap that well, I can’t really comment on the flow or anything, but while the vocals are new recordings, they are the same verses from the songs being mashed up, so some originality is lost there.

Numb/Encore is the one single from this album, and it’s definitely one of the better ones, yeah. You’ve got Mike and Jay both working together in bits, the remixed Numb instrumental feels like exactly the extrapolation you’d want for a track like this, and that “what the hell are you waiting foooooor” is super satisfying. Unlike some of the other tracks, the final bit (with Chester, yknow, doing Numb) maintains that remixed instrumental, making it stand out a bit better from the original versions, which is nice. However, Jay-Z basically just isn’t on the latter half of the track, making it extremely awkward when he did a live performance of it after Chester’s passing.

For a song called Encore, however, it’s a bit weird that it’s not the last track on the album.

Izzo/In The End opens with this really bright instrumental and Mike, thanking a live audience like it’s a concert, sure. It’s just super odd that this is the same song with the In the End vocals, the emotions not really fitting the fun of the instrumental and previous verse. It is performed significantly more light-heartedly, but it still feels like an odd fit. To be fair, though, I’m not sure what Hybrid Theory/Meteora era track would have worked better there, so fair play. The album ends with Points of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer, ther first half of which I actually think is better than Numb/Encore. It’s got an actual fresh verse from Mike over Points of Authority, and him doing the cop bit from 99 Problems’ pull over bit actually works super well. Unfortunately, when the instrumental switches over to One Step Closer, the song gets a bit worse- the mix on Jay-Z’s vocals is way too low for a lot of it, being drowned out by the instrumental most of the time, and the last minute is just One Step Closer again but also Jay-Z is occaisionally repeating the 99 Problems line. It’s a weak finish to an otherwise solid song and album.

 Songs from the Underground

Released in 2008, Songs from the Underground is a collection of tracks from Linkin Park Underground collated into an EP along with a couple of unreleased live recordings. Linkin Park Underground, or LPU, is the official fan club, which gets a yearly CD as part of membership that has assorted demos and live versions on it, which is where this EP pulls its tracks from- its also a set of CDs I desperately want to get my hands on but their limited nature makes their price obscene. I have managed to get LPU 9, which is the one I wanted most, but the remainder have eluded my grasp.

My precioussssssssssss

Side note, this album isn’t on spotify, and the only Youtube upload I could find was a shit recording, so you’re best off looking for each individually.

This compilation opens with Announcement Service Public (from LPU6), a pretty decent instrumental with Chester screaming unintelligibly in the background. This is more of a joke than anything- as the name suggests, it’s a PSA reversed, and reversing Chester’s vocals reveals he’s yelling a reminder to brush your teeth and wash your hands. I mean, I’ve been in an LP mosh once, and I can confirm that this was an announcement that needed making.

The second track QWERTY (LPU6), sounds like it wasn’t even written by Linkin Park, rather, one of their contemporaries. Allegedly, they wrote it on a long, long plane flight, which I could see- a non-studio environment leading to a more different track. Honestly, this could fit right on to Meteora, as much like Faint or Nobody’s Listening it’s a different take on the sound they’re known for. This one’s a lot of fun- the riffs are sick, and the chorus, if simple, is solid to sing along to. This deserves main album status.

And One is one of the tracks on this album that’s actually a rerecording off of the EP made by the band when Hybrid Theory was their name and not just their first album (though the EP was self-titled, so it’s pretty confusing). This album would later be rereleased as the first LPU, and then again (with an official video) along with the 20th anniversary edition of Hybrid Theory. And One is interesting, as it’s the first track recorded after Chester joined the band back in the day, and it’s so fucking edgy holy shit. I think it’s pretty decent, but unlike with QWERTY I’m kinda ok with this being a little by the wayside. With that said, I really like the little breakdown at the end, and the verse Mike is doing over it.

Sold My Soul to yo Mama (LP4) is a real track, huh. It’s a short, heavily electronic piece, ganking lyrics from Points of Authority and Papercut, but like, it’s mostly just Joe Hanh fucking around for 2 minutes. Not a huge fan of this one.

Dedicated (LP2) is another of this album’s better songs. It’s very Lose Yourself, that sort of emotional rap track about doing a rap track, and while obviously it’s not at the same level as that one it’s still excellent on its own. This is just such an excellent demo, one of Mike’s best performances- and considering he’s carrying it on his own (I’m not sure Chester’s even on this, unless those background aaaahs are him) that means a lot.

The next track is Hunger Strike, actually a live recording by Chris Cornell (of Soundgarden and Audioslave fame) with Chester as a feature. They were good friends, which is going to come up tragically when we get to One More Light. To be honest, though, this track kinda sucks dick. It is far from Chris’s best performance, nor Chester’s, and the instrumental is fucking boring. It picks up around the two minute mark, but at that point it just sounds like a bad Audioslave song, and I’m not really down for that, yknow. Just go listen to Like a Stone or Black Hole Sun again.

Another live recording is next, My December (a B-Side from One Step Closer, also on LPU2). My December is far from my favourite track- I think it’s kinda overdone, and this live version is so much worse. Look, it’s just Chester singing over someone (maybe him?) playing the song on piano? It doesn’t work, man. Not a fan.

The album’s final track is called Part of Me (HTEP/LPU1), and feels a lot like a better version of And One, if I’m honest. Mike’s actually going hard here in the verses, especially in the pre-chorus, and said chorus is actually pretty solid, even though the instrumental there is a little weak. It’s a slow, chugging song, heavily affected through Hahn’s DJing, that does do a nice little build to the track’s ending.

Except it doesn’t end, because there’s a hidden track in it. I don’t think this one has an official name anywhere, but it’s an electronic instrumental. It’s basically ok. Tangent, but I remember thinking when I was younger that if I was ever in a band, I’d want to write an electronic instrumental named Oxymoron- because of course, it wouldn’t have any real instruments in it.

That closes out Songs from the Underground, and I’ve never really broken it down in my head before, but it’s a lot more mediocre than I thought. The live songs are not good, and several demos or rarities that should have been on it absolutely weren’t- Across the Line, Drawing, A6, and where the fuck was High Voltage? Honestly, more of a miss than I remember. If I’m low on ideas, I might break down LPU9 individually, but I probably won’t spend any other time on LP demo stuff- I’m sure you’re sick to death of me talking about Linkin Park by now.

[nightglider124]

You know what...

Something I keep noticing with all this hype around Titans is bothering the shit outta me. 

All people have seriously got to learn to back the fuck off. 

And I’m not siding here in the slightest. 

But...

Titans fans, leave people who are not hyped about and aren’t really caring about it alone. I’m seeing so many people who are really excited about Titans being proper arrogant and rude and hateful towards those showing displeasure or dislike for the show.

People are entitled to their own opinion. If someone doesn’t like the look of the show, it doesn’t automatically make them a racist or a negative person or someone just wanting to start shit. Some people might just see the flaws that have been exhibited in the show via trailers and promo pics and not like it. 

They’re allowed to voice how they dislike it or what they don’t particularly like about it and shouldn’t be demonized for how they feel.

These people shouldn’t be getting hate sent through just because they don’t like something you do. Like, that’s basic shit. 

I’ve seen quite a number of people being so bloody rude and disrespectful to those who are not fans of the upcoming show, the minute they say a bad word against it. There is room for improvement in the show, there are things that don’t look good about it and no, some of the promo material has not helped the show’s case. The recent trailer done by Netflix actually looks pretty decent and it definitely made me turn my head whereas the first one definitely did not. 

You can’t jump down someone’s throat because they simply weren’t impressed with the marketing material released via DC’s streaming service or whatever. It’s not perfect and it’s also not a final product so it doesn’t need to be perfect but don’t start giving people grief if they’re pointing these things out. 

Things like trailers are supposed to be the thing to get people hyped for a show or film; the first trailer didn’t deliver to a big range of people because it wasn’t the best. They could have pieced it together better. Like, c’mon? That second trailer blew the first one away. Right? I’m not alone in this thought, am I??

It’s okay to admit that it doesn’t all look amazeballs, even if you are excited for it. Most shows suck in promotion until they’ve actually got the ball rolling on them.

But, a lot of people are going on about how the non-fans are being oh-so negative but it runs in circles. Of course people are going to be negative when the second they say something about it that the fans don’t agree with, they’re getting bombarded with anger. 

You can’t treat every critique of the show as “being negative” when in fact, some are just pointing out opinions and/or facts. I get that you’re excited about it but don’t shut someone down and label them like that when they’re just sharing their thoughts. Like, that’s not cool.

Same if someone is like, “Oh, idk, I’m not the biggest fan of the cast.” You can’t just jump straight to anyone being “racist” etc. That’s one of the worst things I have seen. Someone is allowed to dislike one of the cast members without it automatically leading back to being a personal reason. People may just not like their acting skills or might have had a different actor/actress in mind. 

Unless people are actually hating on the cast members for specific reasons like with Anna Diop and all the awful racist messages and hate she was receiving, then let them be. If they aren’t a fan of who was cast as a specific character, then they aren’t a fan. Again, shouldn’t get hate just for not being super duper excited over the cast choices.

Personally, I never had expectations on who was cast as the team so the actual acting lineup doesn’t really phase me that much. I’m sure they’ll all do a dandy job because why wouldn’t they? Like, it’s honestly fine to me but I know others possibly had people in mind and are just disappointed which again, doesn’t mean they’re hating on the actors themselves. It’s just a personal preference of who they would have liked to see?

But, the fact I have seen some really nasty and arrogant fans is actually what is putting me off of the show. I mean, it doesn’t look the greatest, again, just my opinion so don’t go blasting me for it but I don’t think it looks the best but it’s not the worst either? No one will know for sure until it’s released anyway but, there are fans I’ve seen that are being negative towards non fans and I’m not being funny but that’s not the way to get people to see the good in the show. 

If you’re being an asshole to someone simply because of how they feel about what they’ve seen so far in regards to Titans, then of course they are going to be horrible back because it’s coming across as “my way or no way” which isn’t exactly welcoming. 

And, I’d like to point out, this isn’t directed at the entirety of Titans fans. There are some who are lovely and who, like me, just want everyone to chill and get along bc you know, this isn’t preschool?

Like every corner of fandom, there will always be some dickheads who just can’t help themselves and feel the need to lash out at those who don’t agree with their opinions. 

I know it’s just the way it goes.

Also, it’s worth noting that no, a good portion of people who didn’t like the first trailer but did like the second didn’t go and give the actors shit. Like I just said, there are a very small slither of non-fans that did/are doing that so don’t generalize either because it’s not all non-fans and the ones who were off spreading hate to the actors themselves are toxic and trust me, the nicer non-fans don’t want them affiliated either. We’re with you there.

No one likes a prick.

All I’m saying here is, let non-fans dislike the show or at least the things they have seen of it so far. They’re entitled to be disappointed by what has been given so far, just as the fans are entitled to like it all they want.

Adding to that as well...

On the flip side, just so this post doesn’t come across as hate for Titans fans (because that isn’t what this is at all), I will point out the other side of this argument.

Non-Titans fans. 

This is a two way street. If there are people who are excited and really pumped for Titans to air, let them be.

It’s not up to you to dictate what they are allowed to express joy and excitement for and vice versa for them and us. They are allowed to post gifs and pictures and videos etc for this show. 

They’re entitled to their opinion as well and they can like the show as much as they want and they shouldn’t be mocked or get hate for that either. It’s not fair and it’s not cool.

You might see a post on your dash about someone being ultra buzzed about Titans coming out but instead of seeing it, leaving a nasty message and making the person feel crappy about liking something, here’s a thought; just scroll past it.

It’s really not that difficult?

Don’t get me wrong, I have seen a number of non-fans being complete and utter dickheads to Titans fans and it just asdfghjkl winds me up because it is just such basic behaviour to keep scrolling and nod your head like, “I don’t agree but that’s okay.”

You don’t need to comment or spread any kind of hate or negativity. You accomplish nothing other than making those of us who aren’t particularly interested in Titans all look like massive douchebags. Those of you non-fans spreading shit and being dicks just give us all a bad name, really. 

Keep your spiteful comments to yourself.

There is a big difference to being hateful and expressing dislike.

Hateful: “Wow, this show is so shit and any fans who like it are dumbasses. The actors deserve hate for this so ima go do that.”

Dislike: “Mm, not too interested in this but it’s cool that others like it.” 

The first is a big fat no no. Just... ugh I can’t express how much I hate people who just can’t let things rest? It’s the same with shipping wars. Like, you see your notp. It doesn’t mean you need to automatically go and shit on the op and their post. Just shrug and keep scrolling??

It’s that simple, jheez. 

The second is just expressing an opinion which there is nothing wrong with. Be an adult and assess the comment and the difference before labeling something as “hate”.

And that goes for both Titans fans and non-fans. 

Non-fans... whilst you might not like trailers and promo pics, others will be shaking from excitement and it’s just cruel to crush their happiness for doing something as minuscule as liking and supporting a TV show. There is absolutely no need to throw shade at people for liking the show.

I get it; it’s a little in your face at times and it fills the tags etc so when you aren’t a fan, it can get annoying. But, if you’re having that much trouble blocking it out, just blacklist the tag or block people. Others might see that route as childish but I see it as the better option. That way, you won’t be tempted nor will you go ahead and give someone loads of shit for a simple post and turn something small into a huge thing that it doesn’t need to be. 

It’s just really shameful that non-fans actually feel the need to tear those who are fans down to make themselves feel better. Differences in opinion involves being an actual grown up and respecting that other people might feel differently to you about a subject such as Titans. 

Non-fans and the cast choices? Where to begin... if you don’t like who has been chosen to play specific roles in the show, that’s fine. You don’t have to and feel free to voice it.

However, don’t be doing what some of the minority of shitheads in the non-fans department are doing and going after said actors and giving them abuse.

The shit I saw people commenting about Anna Diop and to her no less was absolutely atrocious and anyone who joined in on that should be fucking ashamed of themselves. I saw a bunch of nasty racial slurs, simply because they don’t like the fact she is black. 

If you don’t like her playing Starfire, fine. That’s fine. You don’t have to and you’re not racist for not liking the cast choice. What does make you a damn racist is chatting shit about disliking her because she is black and then proceeding to send her personal threats and hateful messages and abuse about how she looks and the skin colour she was born with.

Like, damn... I actually couldn’t believe some of the stuff out there and those “non-fans” are the ones I want nothing to do with. Whether you like her as Starfire or not, don’t be a dick and do that.

None of the actors deserve hate. 

If you don’t like how they’re dressed or the dialogue, the actors are not to blame. They’re doing their damn job at the end of the day and they certainly do not deserve bullshit comments from some of the assholes. If you dislike it, take it up with the show’s writers or whatever. 

The fact some people can’t fathom that is beyond me. Like what the actual fuck. Again, b a s i c.

Also, if you had specific actors in mind and you didn’t have that fulfilled, don’t be going round spreading hate about it. Like, keep your toys in your pram and move on??

I could rant about that forever but moving on.

Non-fans aren’t perfect, much like a good load of the Titans fans aren’t perfect either. I’ve seen plenty of non-fans just being grade A asses and it’s not cool.

In fact, it’s tiring because then you’re saddled with, “oh great, this is how we all look to the fans of this show.”

Sure, as Titans fans keep pointing out, it isn’t the final look. But, you are allowed to comment on your dislike of what you have seen so far. Trailers and promo pictures are supposed to be top notch to get you buzzing for an upcoming show. It not being a “final look” isn’t an excuse for you to be shut down on your thoughts. Again, be respectful and don’t outright blast the show because that’s rude to the fans who are looking forward to it. But, you don’t have to love everything and Titans fans also need to respect that, just as we need to respect that they may like everything they have been seeing. 

And, like I’ve said in the first half of this essay... Titans fans, or some of them, sorry, can come across very high and mighty and do not come across as very welcoming so it can be easy to be defensive and get your back up.

But, try to be equally inviting. You get an asshole Titans fan? Be civil and just brush it off bc unnecessary. 

Same for Titans fans. You have a non-fan that’s a right douche? Ignore them and keep going. 

You have every right to blog and post about how excited you are. Whilst some may have differing opinions, you shouldn’t be silenced but also understand that it works both ways. Be respectful of those who don’t like the show without immediately calling them this and that. 

Sigh...

Bottom line I’m trying to make clear with this huge ass post is...

Just be nice to everyone. 

It doesn’t matter if you like the look of Titans or if you hate the look of it; be respectful to others and understand that others can and will feel differently to you on certain topics.

I’m just so sick of seeing all the bullshit with Titans getting closer to release. Fans and non-fans just getting at each other for literally no reason??

Like I said, unless they’re being outrightly unreasonable and have no reason for acting a certain dickish way, keep scrolling and don’t get into anything.

It’s so not worth the time and energy??

Stay in your own lane if you are unable to communicate and respectfully converse with people who share differing opinions about the show than you.

It doesn’t hurt to be fucking nice to one another.

In the end, we’re all human beings and should be treated as such; especially over something which is supposed to be a good thing. TV shows and movies are supposed to bring joy etc.

Fans and non-fans shouldn’t ruin that for others.

Got something nice to say? Then say it. If you don’t? Then keep your mouth shut and move on.

If you’re unable to comprehend that basic principle of minding ya damn business, then you’re probably too young to even be on here. Just a thought.

But yeah, just.... sigh... just be nicer to each other, okay? 

People are allowed to like/dislike things that you do not like/dislike.

They shouldn’t get shit for their innocent opinions and thoughts.

Hope this doesn’t offend anyone. I’ve stayed fairly quiet about Titans because I’m kinda just “eh” about it but I’m not over here, trolling people who like it because I’m not an asshole :)

Anyway, I’m sure I’ll get disagreement but I wanted to just vent.

Ironic, the thing I have seen most about this whole Titans thing is just fans and non-fans having it out with each other in the comments sections. Not the content or anything, just the spite and arguments.

Sad, but there you go.

[squishyharold]

could you maybe possibly write a drabble of niall cuddling harry in the morning ? i love your writing ! 💛

oh gooddddd I know this took ages and I’M SORRY but… at least it’s longer than a drabble! (and cheesy as fuck) I hope you like it

Niall wakes up with a massive hangover. He doesn’t even remember how much he had to drink last night, all that he knows is that it was way too much. There’s only so much alcohol his irish blood can take without passing out and that absolutely happened last night.

The other thing is that he’s not in his own bed. It’s too warm and too soft and too cuddly and - Oh. There’s a body wrapped around his and for a second Niall worries that he did something stupid last night. Until he recognises the familiar shape and scent that makes him relax instantly. It’s Harry, just Harry. His best friend since he can remember, the best friend he’s been in love with ever since he figured out what love is. It’s a bit pathetic really. He can’t even remember a time when he didn’t trail after Harry or hadn’t had mental breakdowns whenever he dated a new girl or boy. But at the same time he never had to worry about Harry leaving him behind. Even after a good date he’d climb through Niall’s window and spend the night with him talking about shit.

Sharing a bed is nothing new either, but this is new. Harry usually doesn’t wrap himself around Niall like this. Sure, they sometimes cuddle because Harry is a big old sap but this… this hits home almost too hard because it’s exactly what Niall always wanted.

Harry fits into his arms perfectly, with his head tucked underneath Niall’s chin and his fingers clutching at Niall’s back. Their legs are entangled in a comfortable way and Niall did not expect it to be so nice. From experience with other girls he knows how stiff his limbs get after a while. It usually doesn’t take long for his knee to act up too. But here, with Harry, he’s completely relaxed and it’s pure bliss. Fuck, he still might be a little drunk. Which is why he doesn’t panic as much as he usually would. He tightens his grip around Harry instead, with one hand in his brown curls, and almost faints when he hears Harry let out something between a sigh and a purr. He pushes his nose up under Niall’s jaw and takes a deep breath before he stills again.

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. Niall’s heart is hammering and the heat underneath the blanket only seems to increase. For over twenty years he has daydreamed about this, has jerked off to the mere idea to be this close to Harry. He remembers his mum telling him how he was only four years old when he declared he would pack his bags and move with Harry into the tree house. Playing house with other kids ended up with Harry and Niall as the parents suspiciously often. Everything led to this, he’s sure of it.

Only Harry doesn’t want him. Harry has dated girls that looked like super models and boys that came straight out of the movies. He’s not interested in dyed hair and crooked teeth and bad knees or legs that look like toothpicks. Harry always wanted a knight in shining armour, a warrior princess. He wanted a fairytale and that’s why his relationships usually never last longer than a few months. So Niall would be an idiot to make a move on Harry, for so many reasons that he already listed. But his biggest fear would be to lose Harry, to make things awkward between them.

Sadly his hungover brain forgets 80 % of his worries and doesn’t have the usual resolve with finally having Harry in his arms. So instead of pushing him away and silently making his way home to cry about his lonely love life, he stays. He stays and lets his hand trail down Harry’s spine to the hem of his shirt. It’s just a bit of skin he touches but it’s enough to get hooked and with a deep breath he angles his head to kiss Harry’s forehead. It’s nice, so nice in fact that he places another kiss on Harry’s temple. Unlike Niall he doesn’t smell of alcohol but of the shower gel and shampoo he usually uses and it completely fucks with Niall’s heart and dick.

His lips wander down to Harry’s cheek bone, his jawline and then he has to gently put Harry on his back so he can reach his smooth neck. Harry’s hair is fanned out on the pillow and it takes Niall’s breath away how beautiful he looks, how lucky he is to– wait. Waitwaitwait.

He isn’t lucky at all. Because Harry isn’t his.

Panic climbs up his throat and he feels like he’s going to vomit, but not from the alcohol. What is he doing? Harry probably had a bad night and didn’t want to be alone, maybe he was looking for comfort and Niall has nothing better to do then touch him inappropriately? He feels sick of himself and carefully removes himself from Harry’s body so he can pick up his shoes and leave. But he doesn’t even get his feet out of the bed before he feels a hand wrap around his biceps to hold him back.

“You leaving?” He hears Harry’s lazy drawl that sounds even worse in the morning.

Niall turns his head and realises with horror that Harry knows exactly what just happened. Shit.

“I’m sorry,” he blurts out.

Harry frowns. “What for?”

“I shouldn’t have… I mean. I was so drunk yesterday and this morning just… I’m sorry. Why didn’t you stop me?”

“Well… then you would have stopped. Didn’t want that.”

“You… what?”

“Niall. Do you remember anything that happened last night?”

“Uh…” He knows there was a lot of alcohol involved. And then Louis was passing around a blunt. Niall had never tried that before. There was also Harry and this big guy who was probably five years older than him but ‘so experienced Niall, I bet he has a massive dick’. Niall remembers being furious and… “Oh.”

“You were so adorable,” Harry mutters and pushes the blanket away to stretch out his half-naked body. Oh god, Harry is just wearing a thin shirt and his tiny shorts, how didn’t he notice?

“Shit, I completely ruined your date, didn’t I?” Niall rubs a hand over the back of his neck. “You wanted to get laid and I ruined it.”

“I wouldn’t call it ruined. Do you really not remember?”

“I tried to punch him, didn’t I?”

“Emphasis on ‘tried’. He punched you first.”

“So my head isn’t hurting from the beer?” Niall asks and stares down at Harry. He has his legs slightly parted and both arms behind his head, wearing one of his stupid grins.

“You told him he didn’t even deserve to look at me. And then you told me you’d save me and tried to carry me out of the house bridal style but you couldn’t even lift me up. So I convinced you to come to my place and sleep it all off. But you wouldn’t let go of me and asked me out on a date every few minutes until you fell asleep.”

“Oh my god,” Niall groans as the humiliation starts to seep through. It all sounds very familiar. When he tries to get up again to flee to the bathroom, Harry stops him again but this time he pulls Niall back onto the bed completely and rolls over to straddle his hips. His hair is a mess and the way he smiles down at Niall makes him look divine.

“I said yes every time you asked me, Niall.”

“What?”

“I said yes.”

Niall tries to find his breath. “Why?”

“Because I’m in love with you, obviously.”

“Oh…” Niall lets that ridiculous and wonderful statement sink in. “Oh!”

Harry hums and lets his hands rest on Niall’s chest. “I admit I didn’t know that I’m in love with you until yesterday. Until you tried to carry me because you said that I deserve a fairytale.”

“Oh,” Niall repeats and wishes he could come up with something better.

“It’s not that I haven’t thought about it before, but I didn’t think we could be best friends and in love, you know? And I didn’t want to lose you as my friend. But then you said–”

“ ‘There’s no one better for you than me…’ ”

Harry smiles softly now. “Yeah. And you’re right.”

“Shit, did I try to suck your dick?”

Harry throws his head back and laughs and Niall wishes he wouldn’t because it makes him move on Niall’s crotch. “You did. I guess you meant that no one can suck my dick ‘better than you’ but I figured it applied to everything else as well.”

“I’m really sorry.”

“You said that already. What are you sorry for?”

“Well, I… I would’ve liked to do it differently. Sober, most of all.”

“Yeah, that wasn’t quite the fairytale I imagined. We definitely can’t tell that as the story of how we got together.”

Niall swallows hard and carefully places his hands on Harry’s thighs. “Then how would you like to tell it?”

“Hmmm… I’d say that you were the most romantic idiot ever and kissed me awake like I was sleeping beauty… and then I opened my eyes and realised that I’ve been in love with you all along.”

“All along? Then why did it take so long?”

“Because we’re idiots.”

“Sounds just like us,” Niall laughs and carefully sits up with Harry still in his lap. He circles both arms around him and tips his head back. “So, as a little thank you for waking you up… could you kiss my headache away?”

Harry hums. “I can try.”

The kiss is anything but wonderful, it’s dry and in an awkward angle, his own mouth tastes like death and Harry’s hair gets stuck between their lips. Still, they smile into the kiss and Niall carefully drags them both back into the sheets.

It’s definitely not a fairytale and very much the hangover he’s been feeling all morning. But it’s the best hangover he ever had.