#I’ll probably delete this later I’m just. :[

[gd-dollopole]

I should find another hobby

Anyway, if Merlin was set in modern times, Arthur would have called Merlin his “gay awakening”.

[firexima]

Technoblade grief is hitting again and I just wanna talk about it a bit somewhere so if you don’t wanna read about it, please scroll away. I’m not really writing this with the intention of anyone to read it anyways but I want it to be out there somewhere and just get it out.

I guess I just came to the realization that all this time I only mostly became ok with it because subconsciously it’s like I’m waiting for him and I am fine with waiting but it really just hit me to know that no matter what, he’s never coming back.

There are so many possibilities and so many variables and there’s so many chances for all the little things�� like there’s a certain probability that my towel will fall to the floor when I close the door or there’s a certain probability that I’ll get a Rubik’s cube right if I keep twisting it around eventually or even a probability that I’ll get hit by lightning. The world is full of so many probabilities even if they are minuscule but never once in all of those probabilities is there a chance for him to be back even just once.

I always thought about how large infinity is but I thought about it in the sense of immortality or how big something would be— now I am thinking about it in the sense that I could wait and live for eternity and he still would never exist again. I could freeze myself and be thawed out in hundreds or thousands of years in the future and still he will be gone.

In my head things that were everlasting were always fictional. I associated it with things like vampires or hypotheticals like a hotel with infinite rooms that could never exist because infinity like that could never be real. It’s just hard to comprehend that death is the one thing that is everlasting and Technoblade is and will forever be dead. It still just doesn’t feel real.

It doesn’t matter what I do or how much I accomplish or change or what happens in the world, nothing will ever bring him back. I’m used to nothing really being permanent and it’s just taking a lot of time to swallow and come to terms with just how permanent death is.

I don’t know if I’ll ever fully process it.

[ryomaandgundhamkin]

Okay. I have a lot to explain. First:

Listen- I am REALLY sorry for not drawing a lot. For the last month (by this point it’s probably been a month), I’ve been really, really behind on drawing and TSAMS lore. I don’t really feel that I’m apart of the fandom anymore. I just lost all my energy to actually dedicate myself to the lore of the show. I feel exhausted. Plus, school isn’t helping. For the last two weeks it’s been kind of hard for me, I mean aside from my trip, but then I had to catch up on work then do 1 project. I had two tests today.

Art block is hitting hard and I hope you understand. I just feel like I want to draw, I have a lot of ideas, I just can never get a result I actually like. It’s a process of drawing and deleting all my progress. I feel like it’s either 1., I make too much art, which in turn exhausts me further, or 2., I don’t make art at all. I’ve just been lurking around Tumblr and going around, like “oh I’m so going to draw this”, but I’m realizing that I definitely do not have enough energy to draw anything TSBS right now.

My main focus at the moment is school and school only. I hope you understand this because I had a shit ton of late work I had to do from the days I missed while I was away (7 fucking pages), and I had to zoom through that, THEN I had the science test. I had my math test today and I did well and now I’m tired af. I just don’t feel like drawing in general, period. Coloring maybe, but I just have too many things to do OUTSIDE of drawing online on here. Basically this is just me taking a small break. I’m sorry that content may be slower on my account, but I feel like I need this or else I will eventually just actually pass out from the stress. No one did nothing wrong aside from me. I’m just torturing myself. My brain hurts and my sleep schedule is damaged. Planning events is NOT fun and every weekend, I seriously just want a break, but OH someone’s coming over or we’re doing something or we’re going somewhere. I seriously cannot take a break unless I have NOTHING TO DO, which is kind of impossible considering my mother’s plans.

I just don’t feel like drawing. I feel like I’m starting to sleep more early everyday. My mind is a mess. It hurts. It hurts.

I’m just so sorry about this. I hope you guys understand I may not be in the best mental state (even if I act like I’m not, and same at with school, @kiwikay3 …), and I don’t feel like drawing for a bit. Just expect me to give you updates once in a while and maybe that’s it. Just don’t expect a ton of content or doodles from me.

This problem has nothing to do with you guys, I just want you to know this and know what to expect from me from now on. I’ll catch up with all my art requests and things like that eventually, I just feel like school has taken a toll on me. On my health. But, just myself overall. I don’t want anyone to worry. I’ll probably be active less and less so it’s fine if you unfollow me or something because I feel like I’ve already failed you all, and I’ve already reached the peak of my art journey (mid-October or so). I’m so sorry but I feel like when I write these I just get so emotional and I can’t really describe any of it in words. I’m probably going to sleep after this before I actually start crying. I’m actually so annoyed and sad and I just feel so many emotions. My brother is not helping, because HE does not care about his physical health so me and my parents do instead.

Sorry. Thank you all.

I feel like I’m going to have a mental breakdown fuck i hate this

[skyward-floored]

You guys actually want to see the rest of these whumptober fics right?

[peteytheparrot]

Woke up with hatered in my heart for Meet The Robinsons, always fucking hated that movie as a child as the time travel stressed me out sm due to how the future was handled, I hated futuristic stuff that looks like that. I still do tbh ☠️ and time travel movies have always stressed me out because I don’t like people changing the past!! Stop! Leave it aloneeeee! Also this probably explains my love for old timey shit. It’s just better okay. Futuristic shit looks like ASS!!!!

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

Breaking News: Local Conservative Lawmaker Forced to Give Up on Trans Genocide Bill After Being Owned by Tumblr Post

“I was really hoping I would be able to push my ‘Kill All Trannies’ bill into becoming a law, but once that tumblr user pointed out it would also kill some cis women of color and gender nonconforming cis women, both groups of people I care deeply about, I had to throw the bill in the trash” -Governor Christian Whiteman, small town American conservative lawmaker

“I was feeling down about being rejected from every job I’ve applied for and being terrified of existing in public due to the ongoing hate campaign against us, but then I saw that clever post and got to have a good hard laugh at how stupid those dumb conservatives are. Now I feel so much better about my place in society 😊” -tumblr blogger with the url “doggirl-“ hold on i don’t think im allowed to write that in this article

“I was really worried about my future in America as a trans woman, but then I saw a post pointing out that the laws targeting me might end up affecting some cis women too, so now I don’t have to worry because cis people might actually care!” -anonymous blogger from the Catgirl-Bodypart bloggers union

[chickenndogg]

I can’t believe in the year 2024 we got a ‘Snap out of it!’ conclusion from Chee, I thought we were over this bad cliche guys… 😭

[crismakesstuff]

would y’all jump me if I said I genuinely see nolan as autistic??

bc he checks a lot of the boxes for a diagnosis also mark is so nd coded to me too

Also ok list of reasons why nolan is autistic TO ME this is just a HEADCANON

i dont hc as him as autistic just because he struggles to display emotions also in the comic the other viltrumites adapt to earth ALOT better than nolan did bc nolan is always struggling with his emotions and displaying them even in the endgame of the comic

-He’s incredibly socially inept and does not understand social cues, yes this is an alien thing but Idc it’s an autistic thing too people have always used fantasy and scifi species in place of real life groups of people for either sexuality or mental illness reasons

-struggles to keep / maintain friendships

- always tends to prefer wearing very tight fitting clothes over loose ones

-He struggles immensely with change, he literally would rather die

-He feels things very deeply but struggles to verbalize those emotions

-is capable of talking at length for long periods of time about things he is knowledgeable about (infodumping)

-Struggles with displaying empathy, it was always there he didn’t just learn it on thraxa that’s just the first time he found himself able to begin expressing it more at the lowest point of his life (shoutout to my friend fio for pointing this out so eloquently u get me fr)

-I can’t say ab his canon eating habits bc we don’t get much of a look at them sadly :b

[the-scarlet-witch-22]

little rant, came to the realization today that when I eventually get married my mom definitely will not go. I don’t know why that hurts as much as it does. I’ve always known, like I’ve known for years and thought that I internalized it, but it’s just becoming more of a reality. I’m not even close to her but wow it sucks :)

[ddeongies]

baby’s first cone….

[peaches2217]

WOOOOOOOOOO

I GOT A HATEFUL MESSAGE ON ANON AND I IMMEDIATELY DELETED IT WITHOUT GIVING THEM THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT

I am FLOURISHING!

[the-bitter-ocean]

CW talking about anti blackness/ racism in fandom under the cut and also just isat spoilers)

You know sometimes I feel so much rage in my fucking heart actually.

You know you have to be extremely tone deaf and ignorant to outright make fun of and ignore the multiple people telling you to not whitewash the canonical non white characters in the game. You have to be so incredibly entitled to think that you deserve a fucking gold star for less than the bare minimum. Black people/ other racial minorities should not have to repeatedly beg you to not be racist and complaining in the main tags about how it’s not worth the effort to learn how to draw other people other than skinny white anime characters. That kind of sucks actually. It sucks a lot and I’m really disappointed in how so many people are seemingly just chill with that kind of behavior.

Just I don’t know there’s something so deeply ironic in the act of whitewashing mirabelle chevalier, a girl whose whole arc was learning and accepting that it’s okay not to change and that she likes being herself and changing her design to be unrecognizable from canon by making her hair straight (on purpose) because you didn’t want to look at a tutorial (that the dev of the game straight up made for free and easy access to everyone on the internet) and think she looks better with straight / wavy or spiky hair instead. Very fun and epic and cool (not).

[artificialbreezy]

[keirosims]

It’s still insane how people will double down with how them putting free cc behind a paywall is okay.

You’re not WCIF friendly if when people do ask, you tell them to go to your patreon and download (pay) for the sim. You can always link the cc in the post like any respectable person who does sim dumps, but you don’t.

You are making money off of other peoples hard work, how can people not see how disgusting that is? Especially people who claim to be artists themselves. You should know what it’s like when art is stolen.

Stop acting naive or innocent, you know what you’re doing.

[chaosinstigator]

when we say we want daniel to return to his redbull seat we don’t mean the 2018 seat 😭

[trophybutchpics]

i keep getting my pics reblogged by ppl who have my kinks in their dni 🙃 lots of cool ppl that i cant follow back bc my main falls under their dni .. feels kinda weird ngl