#I’d failed them
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This is so messed up for me specifically to encounter
#I used to have a world in my head that I went to when I was really little#it was an echanted forest situation#even if I didn’t call it that (I don’t remember if the forest had a name)#and I was supposed to be the guardian of it or something. I don’t fully remember much beyond the feeling#there were tons of normal animals#but they were intermingled with a buncha fantasy ones too#one of them was a unicorn and they were the clocest thing to the level of “guardian” that I was held to#so we would talk sometimes and I could rely on them to help when I couldn’t#anyway at some point I started getting worried that I shouldn’t be going to this world so much#I kept getting in trouble for zoning out and not being present etc#and I left and didn’t come back#the guilt kept me away for much longer than I would have otherwise#I knew I abandoned them. I was supposed to protect them#I knew things were getting worse when I left too. cars. people. smoke. all in the distance but I could smell them. I could hear them.#I knew they were getting closer#when I tried to come back much later#to see if it was really still the same as I remembered#it wasn’t.#the unicorn was dead#she’d been hit by a car.#the forest had been left without a guardian#for far too long#and they knew now that I was no guardian anymore either#they didn’t speak to me again#the forest was lit by unnatural lights now#shelters that had once been abundant were now cramped and far too exposed#I’d failed them#I wasn’t welcome in the enchanted forest anymore#not after what I’d done
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That middle child feel when you’re the one who successfully gets you and your siblings out of trouble only to immediately get jumped by them afterwards
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#pouring one out for all my fellow middle children 😔#Donnie betraying his fellow middle child like this…even being the one to throw him under the bus first smh#no but like if I was Leo here I’d be like wtf guys#it does make me wonder if Leo constantly was the one who got them all out of messes#and in turn the main one who took the fall if his attempts failed rip#we kinda see this often in the series tbh? where Leo takes point when it comes to talking out a situation#maybe it started very very young as seen in this short#(actually there is no ‘if’ Leo was the one doing this he literally WAS at least twice as tots from what we’re shown)#side eyes Bug Busters where Leo gets his bros out of being turned into clowns and immediately gets blasted 😭#no thanks in sight#can’t even blame him for being a sore winner there I would be too lol#and then he gets thrown off a building like man all around an f tier day for Hamato Leonardo#side note but Leo’s face stripes look especially pink in this lighting and I really like when we can see that pinkness because it looks cute
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old tervo sketches i never posted sorry i was like feverishly pacing around all day
#solar opposites#tervo#meant to do another full drawing today but im too crazy to do anything#they make all my organs fail simultaneously#mr darcyyy#i dont think i will ever be the same after s4#tervo this season was so…like i said dont get me started or we’ll be here all night#theyve been my otp since 2020 and if you told me back then their relationship would come THIS far i’d burst into flame#they're fucking Canon canon like. fully solidified couple..#War Is Over#watching them this season made me so happy and insane i felt like i was being torn apart by wolves but in a good and full of love way#This Tervo Shit Gets Serious. Be Ready To Die Behind It
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I was rewatching mouthwashing, and I ended up thinking of the different reactions that Curly and Jimmy had in doing their tasks. How during the scene of Anya evaluating Jimmy and showing dread towards the idea of doing his evaluation, Curly was the one that offered to take it off her hands. He had no issue with adding more to his plate, because he knew - or well, thought, he knew that Jimmy wasn't going to "bullshit" with him since he's known him for a long time. When Anya hands Curly a note from Swansea, Curly goes to check out what the issue is and he takes care of it without a complaint, the only "complaint" he has is how this incident could have damaged the pods. Which is reasonable, those pods are their only way to be saved if anything tragic happens on the ship. However, in comparison to Jimmy being asked to do things, he's passive-aggressive about it. When Anya asks Jimmy if he could help her out with Curly's painkillers, he tells her that people should be worth their titles, specifically using her title as a nurse when she asked him for help and then when she says forget it, since he made her feel insecure, he still goes "Oh no, I'LL take care of it" as if he was doing a chore, a favor for her. Then, there's that part where he blows up at her for things that she didn't even ask him to do - more so the others asked him about it, like the code scanner, him deciding he needed to find the axe for the foam, and then, there's the medicine part (which when she does ask, and she reconsiders - going to do it herself, he takes that away from her). Jimmy complains about the tasks he has to do and he treats it like a big issue, a "woes me" that he has to do this and that - wanting the praise of the capital without actually doing any work. While Curly doesn't complain about it, in fact, he even mentions that he's aware of how well he is doing at his job as a Captain during that cockpit scene with him and Jimmy. If Jimmy only had to do a small amount of tasks to get irritated and annoyed at being captain, while Curly didn't which I feel like encapsulates their personalities. Curly understands what he's doing is a job, it's a responsibility, why would he complain at any point for doing what he's suppose too? Why would he be upset at people asking him to do tasks? While Jimmy on the other hand, isn't used to it at all and it's different to what he's had before and he's realizing that he doesn't actually like doing the work he has too. I just wanted to ramble about it even if it seemed kind of obvious xd
It’s obvious but it is a thing people miss or understate when trying to find parallels in Curly’s and Jimmy’s relationship/personalities.
Like the way people portray it as neither taking responsibility when it is almost split down the middle of Curly taking responsibilities and faults that shouldn’t be his and making himself unequipped to handle the ones that are while Jimmy refuses to handle the responsibilities he has because he wasn’t expecting the work that comes with them.
Not a lot to say but people forget that another thing the game comments on is prioritization of issues and responsibilities and how the guys fail at it in one way or another in the situation.
#this talk of responsibility is more so about me be very annoyed with people acting like Swansea was the most responsible man on that ship#when he immediately takes a break after his intern in stuck in the foam starts drinking the moment he find out the mouthwash is alcoholic#doesn’t tell anyone about the cryopod or explain himself and did nothing about Jimmy either until it was too late#like I’m sorry but he is also the last guy I’d like to hear about responsibility from cause he did just as bad as Curly post crash like he#wasn’t even nice to Anya outside the one conversation we see he was actually just as rude to her as he was Daisuke when they cracked open#the crates and dismissive before hand like I’m getting more mad at the glorification of one guy vs the woman whose doing the most 4 herself#like I get his speech and the recognition of his faults but he still had them and they still were his downfall in the end and part of the#reason Daisuke listened to Jimmy and it’s not his fault that happened but it’s the same way it’s not Curly’s fault Jimmy is like that#but I digress cause people don’t exactly like when we actually discuss the responsibilities the crew mates should’ve and shouldn’t have had#or what they actually did to help cause idk Anya likely would not feel supported by any of them after the fact if they survived like girl#only ever got attention for her problems when they were literally at the worst that’s not helping or taking responsibility like she had to#kill herself to feel some sort of relief also the irony about Curly’s concern about killing herself only#for it to get to the point she actually did because there was no safety for her they all failed her#Swansea would’ve just told her to tell the captain and he’d watch Jimmy and ultimately it would play out the same cause he’s tries to not#get to involved cause he’s old and been through enough already and she’d feel just as unheard like he was closer to Daisuke#and not once after the crash did he really try to steer him away from liking Jimmy which again he points out himself#like I love Swansea and Daisuke but they were just as complacent in Anya’s suffering and Jimmy’s behavior even if they knew less that should#not make them more viable options or it more excusable like crazy conclusions to comes to ig on my part but yall hate#the idea that maybe a major point is that Anya was alone as a woman and overlooked#mouthwashing#ask#mouthwashing game#anon#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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You are without doubt the worst rogue cultivator I’ve ever heard of. Ah. But you have heard of me.
Some Mobei-jun/rogue cultivator!Shen Yuan brainrot—thanks to @neonghostcat I can no longer separate SY from the guandao 😭 (thank you from the bottom of my heart)
#svsss#mobei jun#shen yuan#moshen#svsss art#my art#I mostly just threw these together for the ✨aesthetics✨#stupid!pretty+deadly!pretty#but I’m kinda liking this alternate possibility?#some cultivator going around making friends with/taming demonic beasts he has no jurisdiction over#and the demon realm being all ?????#if anything this dweeb should be killing/exorcising these creatures?? but he’s just making them his pets???#MBJ is the one stuck investigating him and#*flailing and vague noises*#idk#fic ideas#that will prob fail to ever appear#if any brave soul wishes to try their hand let me know!!#I’d love to see other ppl’s takes on this weird ship
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The disappointment in getting motivation to write a fic then halfway through realize you’re better off just reading fics instead of writing them.
#the things i’d do to be good at writing#the ideas i have are so good (to me) but i can’t write them#after five failed attempts at writing a fic you’d think i’d give up and understand it’s never going to happen#i still have fics to read at least#in my opinion it’s more fun to read then write#the only books i ever read#ao3#ao3 fanfic#i love ao3#byler#zosan#wesper#byler is endgame#vinsmoke sanji#roronoa zoro#wylan van eck#jesper fahey
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Ey chat I’m working on making a Sprunki oc/sona rn :3
It isn’t a finished product but I haven’t posted art in a while so I thought I might as well show ya what they look like so far lol
(Horror version is also down there so watch out)
Their colour is turquoise-ish, their animal is some kind of bug and they have a baseball cap because I said so!
They make their sound by buzzing their wings really fast like a bumble bee. It would probably sound similar to Grey’s noise but higher pitched? Not sure lol
anyways, in their horror version, they’ve been consumed by a fungus (happens to the best of us), and yeah the design and idea is heavily inspired by cordyceps of course hehe
#I tried and failed to replicate the sprunki style lmao#Augh it’s so hard to draw like that 😭#also if y’all have any ideas for this silly goober lmk lol I’d love to hear them#Sprunki#Sprunki oc
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Seeing some Mouthwashing critiques that mention that Anya is the only woman in the story being like “that’s bad.” Head in hands. Yeah. That’s. That’s the point?
#mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#tbc I love critiques I don’t think anything is above them#everything has flaws after all#but like the fact she has no support on the ship is. the point#she is being failed on a systemic level#you can dislike that her character is the ‘token woman in horror who’s plight revolves around sa/motherhood’#but im pretty sure the game is aware of this and is actively commentating on it#I’d go so far as to say the character herself is aware of this position she’s been boxed into#and her death that reclaims a bit of her autonomy is a direct response to that etc#not to mention the unreliable narrator for most of the game (Jimmy) does not care about Anya outside of her pregnancy#and this is reflected in what he focuses on/the imagery he sees. which by extension reflects what WE see#and the game is explicitly aware of this. the whole conversation with Polly proves as much
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Mars, you have a lot more patience than I would at this point gdhfkjgdsfg. If you'll allow me to choose violence for a second:
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Hi anon! Did you know you can engage with other people without interpreting every word they use in the worst way possible, making a million assumptions about their background and prescribing opinions to them they've explicitly told you they don't have?
I don't even disagree with all of those rebuttals, but if you want people to engage in discussions with you you have to treat them like human beings, not your opposition in a court case. What are you expecting to get back when you act like this? About nonexistent fingers in his ass guy?
You should at least have got off anon and owned what you said- unless you're using anon to block evade, in which case you should consider respecting people's boundaries.
:D waow…. feeling very cared for in this chili’s tonight
#ask#lyre#as for my patience: yeah i am a bit more patient than i’d like to be#but anons like that are enrichment to me lmao#i try not to feed the trolls but there’s smth very satisfying in showing someone that they have failed to get under your skin#it was how i dealt with troublemakers/bullying in school as a kid ^_^#in one of my art classes (8th grade i think? so like 12-13yo) there was a kid who just refused to follow any directions#and would also try to distract and annoy everyone else#it pissed me off. so i decided i would literally just pretend he didn’t exist#he would get my attention and i wouldn’t respond. he’d try to startle me#wouldn’t even flinch. i got to the point where i could look Through him#it pissed him off so bad. i think i lowkey crave returning to the level of power i felt in that moment#anyways i employ a similar strategy with these types of anons. i’m trying to have Less patience with people but i’m not an angry person?#i don’t experience anger at individuals very often#i DO however have a strong competitive spirit and a trickster’s sense of humor#(yes i was raised on looney tunes can you tell)#so i laugh whenever ppl try to get under my skin like that because. heheheheee they’re madddddd they’re soooo angry#and it must piss them off sooooo bad that their words don’t make me feel bad :(( poor thang#this is probably a character flaw of mine in excess. but right now it’s funny#and hey if someone is gonna refuse to treat me with respect i think i’ve earned a few potshots right
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i’ll never get over them idc
#benovak#casey x olivia#olivia x casey#law and order svu#law and order: svu#they mean everything to me#i’d die for them#the homoerotic implications of this relationship will never fail to amaze me#let them come back to me#pls
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Was going to rb a rook ask meme until I realized I started accidentally shipping her with Ashur at some point. I can’t be so loudly cringe for this npc
#I wouldn’t know how to answer the LI questions#masked man with so much wasted potential unfortunately calls to me and he sounds like Matt Mercer#he literally looks like my fav dnd npc I was set up to fail#someone could hold up a picture of either of them and I’d be like ‘this is the same man’#prawn posts
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qantoine’s coping mechanism to feeling left behind being both self-isolating and becoming possesive of those he cares for is so juicy as a concept . like yeah you go you funky creachure, manifest those complicated and sometimes contradictory emotions
#anyone remember that one fanart of qantoine like . grabbing onto qetoiles and covering his mouth antoine reposted to his insta story .#anyone wonder what was up with that . like he reposted fanarts every now and again but like . that one specifically was such a Choice on hi#part . fantastic fanart btw it occupies space in my brain still#but yeah god . i think qantoine’s self-isolation (+ his secrecy the way he struggled generally to connect with others etc)#was the more obvious Thing he did as a coping mechanism . but damn were those smaller moments of possessiveness interesting#bc you could often just read it as protectiveness instead and well it Was that . but i think it becomes even more interesting if u read it#through a possesive lens . theyre two sides of the same coin anw it just depends on where the limit between the two lies for u#anw i think it manifested itself most obviously with pomme bc a parent-child relationship lends itself to that dynamic more . ough some goo#moments there i’d need to revist their relationship more . ‘je te connais comme si je t’avais créé’ which just has layers of potential#meaning . if you subscribe to the theory that qantoine had a hand in creating the eggs then that adds even More to the potential#possessiveness there . love it#and it manifested with qfrench too i think just in more subtle ways . like idk when there were implications he’d done a Thing to help them#out in some way . like the implication that he had a hand in getting ayp out of prison that one time . or when he was protective of etoiles#during prison . or even moments where he failed to achieve some sort of level of power over them like when bagz and ayp broke into his#secret room and he kept giving bagz the cold shoulder when she was trying to apologise to him 😭 . idk stuff like that . semi petty bitch#energy . but i LOVE the idea of this eldritch dude who’s still figuring out how mortal relationships work kinda just . being too possessive#too controlling . all in the effort to try and keep them in One Piece . and maybe in the end it won’t matter How he keeps them safe as long#as he manages to . he’s old as hell and he’s probably gonna outlive them and theyre all so fragile and small . they won’t see the bigger#picture so he’ll have to make sure he’s manoeuvring them around inside it correctly . <- absolute hc territory in the end there but it’s#very fun to think about :P#jay rambles#antoine daniel#qfrench.posting
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So this is controversial: for the record, I’m anti outdoor cat. That’s a hill I will die on. And I know I will regret posting this, but. I stand by it.
And that’s where things get tricky: so J and I already have a 100% indoor cat. She’s older, persnickety, and extremely opinionated (read: a hater.) And our neighborhood is absolutely full of stray, abandoned, and feral cats of varying types. It’s bad. As a biologist at heart, I weep, for both the wildlife they affect and the cats themselves.
There is a stray who has found our yard this spring, borderline emaciated but otherwise seeming healthy, who has suddenly and inexplicably glued herself to my side (and legs). She is dismal at being a cat and clearly misses the indoor lap of luxury, so I’m left to assume she was dumped at a young age. Which is just cruel. So now I’m left to figure out how to take care of her, with the end goal that she be an indoor cat somewhere….
I do wonder if she can find it in her heart to latch onto another person. She loves laps, head butts, scritches and being held. She doesn’t like it when you try to leave and she is LOUD, so a bit much for my sensitive self. So I’m gonna do some problem solving because she doesn’t deserve the streets.
She is making it all but impossible to attend to my garden. And Zelda does NOT approve of the competition.
#cat#tortie#stray cat#literally a pain but she’s so sweet and she deserves the love she’s been denied#just don’t know if my household has the capacity to give what she clearly needs#I know it hurts feelings but cats are hugely impactful invasive species#it’s not their fault of course#obviously if both cats were more chill and whatnot then I’d take her in#if I was a handy person I would build her some sort of catio in the meantime#anyway I won’t be responding to people who argue about cats being outside so I will be deleting any comments that go that way#please don’t bother#we have failed them as a species when we put them in this predicament
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White and Sprite: *watches each other badly pretend to be their own twin* pssh I could do better than that!
Narrator voice: they could not in fact do better than that
Nant in the distance: those two are fucking morons. Did they do any research at all?
#not me#twins the series#playboyy the series#not me the series#i mean#nant is laughing at them and how bad they are at pretending to be their own twin#like at least with white it was understandable#they haven’t lived in the same country for like 10 years#but like sprite has no excuse#but he is my beloved cringe fail dork so I’m okay with that#also if i had a nickel for any time the main character in a bl had to pretend to be their own twin for any length i’d have 3 nickels#which is a lot but it’s weird that it’s happened three times#cap speaks
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Despite how much I suffered making my last isat au Aris sprite redraw, I decided to do it again and once again went through hell doing it. There’s like a billion mistakes in this (such as her having the wrong arm rip) but at the end of the day I’m still happy with how it turned out :]
#keese draws#oc#oc art#eternal gales#isat#in stars and time#sorry for main tagging feel free to excecute me if you want or whatever#grips sink cringe is dead cringe is dead cringe is dead#anyways this is a very fuzzy and vague au as I don’t rly feel comfortable going off too hard with this one#this is pretty much entirely because I know I’d have to fuck around with the worldbuilding a decent amount and I don’t rly wanna do that#Isat’s worldbuilding is one of my favorite parts of isat so I don’t wanna fuck it up yknow?#I might do some other sprite redraws once I stop thinking too hard abt aris and tali#for context tali is the king aka complicated design that makes me wanna cry especially since I made it worse by changing her imagery#instead of having tears as a thing she has like. fracturing if that makes sense?#it’s supposed to be a nod to her ‘cracked’ eye in canon#she also has threads coming from her limbs instead of long hair for similar reasons#also she doesn’t have straight hair so yknow#but yeah for additional context aris and tali are half sisters and they make me go insane#in this au the idea would be that when their grandparents divorced when the two were little tali and their grandma left the island#aris wouldn’t leave until five or so years later when she was around 12#at which point the island disappeared and all that#the two have mostly completely forgotten about eachother but there still is familiarity between them#tali isn’t any less of a piece of shit than the king in this au tho#aris for a brief moment almost remembers who tali is during act 3 but she dies before she can fully grasp it#which almost hurts more to her despite not even knowing what she was trying to recall#during act 5 her inner sadness fight is against the hazy image of a very young tali 👍#just tiny 5 year old tali using the voices of the others to scream at aris that she’s been nothing but a burden to them all#and that she’s done nothing but hurt them in her selfish attempts to fix a problem that she refuses to admit she caused#and that time and time again she’s lied that she’s doing her best to protect them and that she’s failed all of them#it’s a mix of current guilt and her hazy but longstanding guilt towards tali
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Stuck in the endless loop of suffering (have so much homework and a migraine)
#I have to write a 1000 word essay about art for a class I’ve done almost none of the readings for#like I can do it but can’t I just write an essay about whales or something#I’ve also got like five assignments for another class though two aren’t due until next week#I’ve also got readings and a lab notebook entry and I have to meet with like two people and work on a project#and half of these things are due before/on Monday#I’d love for there to be no consequences for failing a class so I could just stop caring about one of them#but alas#I can not#j rambles
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