#I won't have the room to tag the others xD

[fillinforlater]

Eleven to One: Hate You Lots

Male Reader x Ahn Yujin, Kim Minju, Kim Chaewon

Length: 7440 words

Tags: Daddy kink, perverted family, nudist kink, submission, kneeling, good girls, blow job, double blow job, deepthroating, face fuck, training, cursing, public, undressing, degradation, insulting, hate sex, someone calls you out on your weird behavior, sex in front of others, hair pulling, riding, bad sex, Chaewon is bad at sex, mentions of 2Kim, body licking, passionate kissing, maybe mind break?, cowgirl, fingering, dangerous sex, Yujin sells out her friend kekw

TW: hate sex, cursing, extreme Daddy kinks; Disclaimer: no, I don't believe you can turn gay people straight, ffs, I hope no one thinks that, and if you do, kindly turn on your brain or go away lol

Credit: @sooyadelicacies for co-writing

Inspiration: The big horny; also, someone has to oppose this crazy family kink/idea xD

(A/N: editing is not that great as is my health rn. Stay safe and healthy out there, everyone. Let's continue this fucked up saga with a crazy part and multiple scenes ;D)

“Daddy, you need to hurry up!” 

Yujin stands in the kitchen door and bops up and down like an excited puppy. She’d surely swing her tail around wildly if she were a dog, but that is besides the point. You’re still tired from stressful phone calls the night before. Doesn’t help that it’s still very early in the morning. If the sun hasn’t bothered showing up yet, why should you.

"Do we have to go watch this performance? They film these things so early all the time," you groan in annoyance and sip at your coffee.

"Daddy, please?” Yujin begs with folded hands and sparkling eyes. “It will be so nice to see Chaewon and Sakura perform again. I really like their new song and you will too!" 

When Yujin plays nice, it means she really wants something. This is close to a girl asking her Daddy for something—this comes too close to all the family stuff she has you fantasizing about lately. Try not to spit out your coffee and frantically wave your hand.

"Fine, we'll go. But I expect some pleasure when we get home,” you add with raised eyebrows and Yujin winks. “I have yet to meet Chaewon. Everyone describes her as lovable."

"Chaewon-unnie won't disappoint you. She sure is loveable. However, I think that she is showing new sides to herself."

"Sure, whatever. I'll set Hyewon up to go to the meeting then."

"Thank you so much, Daddy."

"Now look for a nice dress," you say, eyes roaming Yujin’s pajama-covered curves, "Only I get to see you like this."

"Of course, Daddy. I always wear outfits just for you… I think you'll like today's too." 

Yujin starts to undress. The dress is still in her room, but the pajamas fall off her slender figure already. You can never get enough of this extraordinary sight. You might be a bit pressed for time, but as you look over your naked Yujin, your lust gets the better of you. 

"I want you now, baby girl. Call for Minju too. No reason you two shouldn't be sucking my cock right now."

Yujin turns around on her heel and immediately kneels on the floor. Her hands rest idly on her lap and she gives you a hellish, seductive grin before calling out her former bandmates name:

"Minju-unnie~ come here a-s-a-p."

You hear steps coming from further down the floor. They are not normal steps, but rather from someone who was caught by surprise and stumbles towards you. A faint creak, Minju rushes from the bathroom to you and she quickly stops right next to Yujin. You eye the fresh make-up on her cheeks and light lipstick on her luscious lips. Sadly, you can't eye her naked body in all its glory, because she tries to cover most of it with her hands.

"Y-yes, Yujinie?" Minju asks shyly, trying not to stare down at Yujin’s immaculate body too much.

"I think Daddy wants something~"

Yujin's eyes narrow and she begins to stick out her tongue to show lots of drool pooling on it. She gradually crawls towards you, sticking out her bubble butt and shaking with blatant want. She is giving it her all to be desirable, submissive and still punishable. 

"Wh-what does Daddy need?" Minju asks kindly and turns to you. Make-up or not, her cheeks are rosy from embarrassment. She is still, even after a couple of weeks, not used to being in full nude before you, although she committed so willingly after you made her yours. 

You grab the hand covering Minju's pussy while Yujin finally reaches your tight pants and rubs her cheek onto the bulge with a purr. Yujin's fingers play with your zipper while yours play with Minju's clit. You flick it lightly once, then rougher. Tears glisten and sparkle in narrow eyes, and you look deeply into the mess Minju is slowly becoming. However, her arm still crosses her chest and hides her breasts.

"Daddy needs you, Minju, because you are his. I think we agreed on this, so show me your amazing body."

Her labia is wet to the touch, thus inserting a finger is easy. Minju tenses up for a second, but when you kiss her cheek, she relaxes and you plunge two more fingers into her. She screams out, but you plug her mouth the same way: three digits, hilt deep in a wet hole of hers. It’s like pushing all the right buttons to deactivate Minju’s resolve. Her arm falls from her chest. Finally, she is a bare feast for you.

"You can do better, Minmin," you say with a slight sigh of disappointment at the end. Your fingers move in and out of Minju faster and faster. In the meantime, Yujin takes a long ass time to free your length. It's probably because you are focused not on her but on teaching Minju a lesson, but this is no reason to keep you waiting. Yujin has no right to deny you your pleasure, yet she still finds ways to subtly tease you.

Remove your fingers from Minju's mouth and let her moan and whimper freely as she begins to grind on your deeply buried digits that twist and turn inside her hot walls. With your now free hand, you pull out your cock, much to Yujin's surprise, and slap it across her face. It's a shame that you have to give them a small punishment before you can get to the main course, but it's also not bad. Training puppies is more fun than you ever thought.

"I-I'm so-sorry, Daddy," Minju cries out and falls to her knees. It’s the only way to escape your fingers, however, it’s not a way to escape your rule. You immediately slap her face with your cock as well, until she finally sticks out her tongue, which Yujin instinctively does. The younger one has already stained the floor with her runny saliva, so before she ruins it entirely, you put your cock on her lips. You could call it a plug.

"Lube it up, bitch! Show me what your mouth is really useful for,” you groan at Yujin, then shift your attention to Minju. "Minmin, I called you here because I wanted you to join us, but you still have to learn a lot. I pray for your sake that you don’t stretch my patience intentionally. Get some saliva from Yujin and help her lube it up—or go back to your room! 

Oh, and Yujin: if you want to go to Chaewon's performance, you'll be a good girl, right?"

"Yes, Daddy!" the younger shouts.

"N-no, Daddy," her unnie whimpers cutely.

Two very different answers, but both are exactly what you want to hear. Minju makes a cute face while gathering saliva in her mouth and gets ready to kiss your cockhead. When Yujin turns to her however, ready to give some of her drool, Minju becomes a flushing mess. In panic, she misses Yujin’s lips and releases her collected drool all over her friend's cheek.  

Guess her feelings are quite strong for her ex-group members. 

Minju's saliva trails down Yujin's face and chin and the latter can't help but giggle. Not in her usual cute and cheerful way, but in a lewd, horny way. Yujin grabs Minju's tomato-colored head and finds her lips in a furious make-out session. The klutz is wide eyed at first, but she melts into Yujin, the Dongsaeng she so loves and her eyelids fall shut. Dams break and the flow of drool is like a raging torrent from one mouth to the other. You line yourself up right next to it.

Yujin frees herself and releases everything from her mouth. A skilled tongue wets almost your entire manhood, from your base to all over your balls and underside. Minju follows suit and her cute mouth releases a waterfall as well. It covers your tip and the remaining dry skin without fail. They both begin to spread and massage the lubricant all over your rigid shaft and full balls, making you groan deeply. Fucking finally.

"Minju, you look so cock drunk," you mock her. "I bet you are staining the floor with your stupidly sweet juices already."

"Swowwy, Daddy,” she babbles with no regard for manners as her mouth is stuffed with your rod.

"Are you sorry though?"

Yujin gives a strong suck on your balls; it’s more like she leaves a message. She is fed up with being ignored. Her lips pucker around every one of your most sensitive parts. She knows your cock inside out, of course. After all, it has been inside of her more time than she has had promotions—just how she likes it. 

You snarl nonetheless.

You don't let Minju answer as you push your tip deeper into her mouth, letting her suck it gently. You pet Yujin's head to signify you knew she was there. A surprise that it works. You really did break her back there. No bratty words, no teasing pout, just diligent stimulation of her Daddy’s dick.

Minju's cock sucking is always a sloppy affair. Her feisty face with glassy orbs is always a wonderful sight as she tries to shove it all inside her. She is still lacking however. You are sure this will not tip you over the edge, although she is able to extract precum from your slit with her quick tongue. The biggest issue is that she is scared to take the massive thing, shove it down her throat herself. Minju is not on the same sluttiness level as her Dongsaeng, who would gladly fuck herself on you until tears fall down—for a meal, for shoes, for a meeting with her Unnies. 

"Fuck, it's not enough," you groan in slight anger and slide your hand from Yujin's sweaty hair to Minju's brown locks. Grip them tightly to force her head down your phallus. Her forehead crashes onto your pelvis. Minju chokes, you groan, Yujin gasps.

"Minmin… you need more training. I'm losing patience, fuck,” you curse. This should have been an easy and casual affair, breezy and mindless but it takes effort to train Minju. If she wasn't so cute with a fuckable body, your hospitality would certainly expire at some point. Now, she is basically family, and you are willing to help her be a good girl, a good slut. Family, s-sure.

Doesn’t matter if you call yourself family, you push deeper against her throat anyways. She is here for your use. Yujin meanwhile keeps trying to put your balls in her mouth, down her throat almost, as if her life depends on it. Yujin is learning to share, with her mommies, with her sister, with her family. Not again, fucking family.

"Daddy, if she can't take it, then I'm ready. Ready to fulfill your desire."

Yujin’s purr pulls you out of your disturbingly hot thoughts. She pouts on your balls, her desperately pleading, yet sharp eyes watching you from below. She massages your thighs with her soft fingers, slobbers all over your balls and moans in her most delicate voice. Yujin doesn't only want attention, she wants to win and is determined to be the perfect, disgustingly drooling slut for you. Rivalry between siblings?

"Shut up! You better help your unnie get better at it. Maybe you'll get some reward, but that is out of your control."

This is the moment where she would usually roll her eyes, but Yujin is a changed girl now—or is she hiding her annoyance? Either way, Yujin backs off behind Minju, who chokes on your cock whenever you pull her closer to your crotch. Tears and sweat of her struggle cover her face, yet she still doesn’t get it. 

Your grip on Minju's hair loosens when Yujin's fingers seductively crawl up Minju's neck to the top of her head. The older girl gets goosebumps and wide eyes at the sensation and then shrieks. Yujin has her long, healthy locks in a tight grip.

"Unnie," she says in a bitchy and unamused tone, something very rare these days. "I really love you, but you're doing this wrong. Let me help."

What follows somewhat negates the fact that Yujin just told Minju that she loves her. With unexpected roughness, she starts to slam down the elders face onto your pelvis. Minju's forehead forcefully touches your abdomen and your dick breaks every barrier in her throat to reach deep into her. She gargles on her own spit for a second and chokes like it would actually save her from the massiveness blocking her air flow. 

"Like. This. Unnie. Down."

Yujin pulls Minju back at her hair and with each new word she mimics a deep throating motion only a goddess of cocksucking could manage—and Minju is definitely no goddess at it yet. She tries her best to take it, to go at the pace herself, but Yujin just goes faster. It's impossible for her to adapt to the speed, but for you, this struggle is an even greater joy.

"Oh God, this is good. Actually fucking good!"

You groan and smile with the confidence of someone who has earned this and the more you think about it, the further you feel validated. Your hands cannot remain idle, they want to reach for Minju's hair. Yujin however gives you no reason to do so, and so you dig your fingers into hers, those perfect brown strands on this perfect bitch.

"Train her well, Yujin."

"I will, Daddy."

"Good. Open your mouth."

Yujin smiles greedily, the cock hungriness of a million horny sluts in her eyes. Her grip on Minju loosens and you give the beautiful, ruined klutz a chance to breathe. Minju falls to the floor coughing and spitting, her makeup everywhere but their original position. 

Your girlfriend's mouth opens invitingly. Your length disappears inside her and you burst at the distinctive, perfect touch of her tongue. Yujin's eyes are bright and wide open as she receives the gift of validation, of triumph over your adoration for Minju. More than a mouthful of cum, enough to satisfy her hunger and encourage her cock drunkness. 

"You need more training," you calmly say to Minju while patting Yujin as she cleans your dick. "Otherwise Daddy will be disappointed."

"I... I understand, Daddy. D-do you stil—”

"Don't ask such a question,” you interrupt her firmly, but with more care and love than you ever did before.  “I'm sure you will do good next time, hm?"

"Y-yes, Daddy."

#

No matter how rich you are, you cannot control time. Hours fly by and the meet-up you promised Yujin to go to arrives faster than you wanted. You had to control yourself after seeing your girlfriend's outfit, that amazing dress showing off her body incredibly well. It looked as hot as her bare body, maybe even better in a way.

Control over your urges becomes better with boring people around you. The directors, cameramen and managers get easily fooled by Yujin's act. Yujin remains professional, no one can assume any kind of special or weird relationship between the two of you. A simple meeting, they don’t even ask you a single question. Is it really this easy to get behind the scenes of such a shoot?

After the boring introductions are over, you get ready for new, more fun ones.

First off is Sakura. The second she sees Yujin and you exit the conference room with all the managers, she leaves her bandmates behind and runs over. Her upper body is covered by a pink blanket to keep her warm, but below it you see hints of a white stage outfit. Baggy trousers and some kind of crop top.

The smaller Sakura stands before her Dongsaeng and gets in position to bow down, but Yujin quickly embraces her. With glee she shouts:

"Unnie, I missed you so much! It's been so long."

"Yujinnie, were you always this tall?"

"Yah! You sound like a grandma."

The two of them start to giggle and you give them a weak smile. The others should not catch you being suspicious, so you look around the vast hall. A very simplistic set, mostly colored in gray. In between the expensive camera equipment and handful of staff, you eye another person clothed in white. Your jaw begins to fall as you inspect the revealing outfit and incredible body more and more. This is definitely sluttier than anything Yujin ever wore in any of her stages. 

You cough and look back down to your girlfriend who is still giggling and chatting with Sakura. The two of them are holding hands and you see Yujin's eyes sparkle in happiness. Good for her, definitely, but your cockhead is already urging you to think of someone else. Who is wearing this loose, insane collection of white stripes barely hiding anything?

"Oh shoot, we're about to perform," Sakura gasps and quickly hugs Yujin. Before she leaves, she gives you an unmistakable wink and a classic, beautiful smile, "Thank you for coming!"

"Unnie, fighting!"

"Glad to see you enjoying yourself," you whisper, but Yujin puts a finger on your lips.

"You don't want to miss this. I'm pretty sure Chaewon will be to your liking."

#

“Impurities / show you my impurities.”

"Cut!” the director shouts as the girl group members still stand there, frozen in the final pose of their dance. “Well done! We'll wrap things up for today."

Everyone cheers and claps, the shoot went excellent. Yujin besides you joins in as well, even the last random staff sitting in the corner applauds.

Everyone except you. You are completely feral. All because of this one fucking girl, with her short black hair in stark contrast to her slutty white outfit. All because she has to look so fucking hot while dancing this already provocative dance. All because of her fucking impurities. You almost lose your cool and reach for Yujin's ass, but this is not the time, not the place, not even for this. Fucking Chaewon, fuck.

Chaewon walks over and screeches when she sees her beloved Dongsaeng. Unlike with Sakura, the two of them immediately crash into one another and exchange hugs, jokes and all the banter they can come up with. This time, you are unable to look away for long. Chaewon's ass has its own gravity. It pulls your gaze back every time you notice how long you've been staring. 

"Unnie, you are so good! And you look so good! This is going to be such a hit," Yujin babbles.

"You are one to talk," Chaewon responds in delight. "You have grown to become a beautiful woman. I bet you will make someone really happy one day."

Yujin grins and whispers directly into Chaewon's ear. From your point of view, it's impossible to understand anything, let alone read her lips. After a short while, Chaewon backs out of the hug. The situation has grown tense, cold even, but it gets even colder for you when Chaewon suddenly walks up to you. She stares—not into your eyes, but straight to your soul.

"You fucking pig."

"Excuse me?"

"You are disgusting. I swear to God, if you do anything fucked up... I'm going to fuck you up so bad, until you—ugh!"

Chaewon’s sentence is cut off by a disgusted gag. She stomps away quickly, her face filled with despise and harsh anger. The sway of her hips is even stronger than before now, which disturbs your feelings. Confusion and horniness force you to stand and ogle her bubble butt while your heart cannot comprehend these conflicting emotions inside you.

"What the fuck was that?" you whisper to Yujin, as she guides you out of the studio. "What the hell did you tell her that she would get this pissed?"

"Look," Yujin says, her tone far from playful and bratty, much closer to serious and guilty. "I knew that you would get the hots for her, but I didn't know that she would hate the idea so much."

"Which idea? What did you tell her, Yujin?" 

The two of you flee towards your car to get some actual privacy. You can't raise your voice to her in public after all, although now might be the perfect time. Depending on what she just told Chaewon, literally everything could be in deep shit.

"Chill, Daddy, I told her that you are my boyfriend and that we'd like to have a threesome with her. Nothing too crazy, just something to sooth her in."

"And?"

"I-I mentioned the Daddy kink… and a b-bit more, you-you know?"

You sigh and put on your seatbelt. The engine roars and you start to race towards your apartment. Whatever Yujin means by ‘a bit more’, it made Chaewon seriously angry, which could make things bad for you quickly. Your mind tries to find a good response or solution to it, at the very least, you should find a punishment for Yujin that suits her stupid behavior. 

A red light makes you hit the breaks. Yujin's hand immediately travels to your thigh and massages it. Coldly, you slap it away.

"Get in the backseat. I need to find a solution to this. And you better help me think, slut."

Yujin obediently climbs over the center console and positions herself in the middle of the back row. Through the rearview mirror, you see her in her gorgeous black dress with those sexy black stockings and her ruinable hair, make-up, face. You click your tongue as the lights turn green.

"Daddy, I'm sorry,” Yujin stutters to defend herself. “To-to be honest, I was convinced Chaewon—l-look, I relied on her being needy and desperate. A-and because you are so hot, I thought she was down for it."

"Undress."

"Wh-what."

"You heard me right, bitch. Get out of that dress. Slowly. I want to see what I own."

Yujin nods hesitantly. Her fingers fidget at the silky hem of her expensive dress and she begins to slowly pull up. Goosebumps of fear and excitement spread over her pale skin. She knows that those side windows are tainted, but the front is of course still wide open. Anyone could catch the unlikely, yet possible glimpse of her bare body if she continues this. 

"Go on, " you snark in excessive annoyance, "Either give me a solution or get rid of that dress."

"I-I, " Yujin stutters. You hit the breaks at another red light and stare through the mirror. Your eyes lock and before you can order her to go full nude, she jumps in realization.

"Minju! I-I know a way, Daddy!"

"What?"

"Uhm... Minju is, if you remember from our punishment game, ve-very much into Chaewon, a-and as far as I know, Chaewon feels the same."

"So?" you say impatiently, fingers tipping the top of the steering wheel. The light turns green. You hit the throttle and as the Mercedes accelerates, you can hear Yujin's plan play out in your head. Guess she won't have to drive around naked. 

At least not this time.

#

"Step 1: Get Minju and Chaewon to be on a call."

The plan starts off easy. All it takes for this to happen is for you and Minju to be home at the same time, which happens quite frankly. After all, Minju is not an actively training idol anymore and Hyewon is doing a good job right now, so you can stay at home with no worries. Now you only need to find a fitting moment.

Minju walks into the kitchen. Some sixth sense inside your crotch tells you to take the opportunity. Right now, now or never, a perfect time frame, whatever you may call it, it's enough to make you jump up and follow the naked beauty. Minju reaches for one of the upper shelves, a cookie box on top of it. She looks adorable, trying to grasp the metal frame of the colorful box. You grab her waist from behind and sit her on the opposite counter top. For no reason, you press a kiss on her lips.

"Huh? D-Daddy?"

"Fuck, you are beautiful. Uhm, did you want the cookies."

"Y-yeah, i-if I may."

"Of course."

You grab one of them and give it to her. As she begins to happily much on it, you give her her cellphone.

"Can you call Chaewon?"

"Chaewon-unnie? Why?"

"Well... I'm pretty sure she misses you. And it's shortly after noon, so she’s probably on a break right now."

You press your hands into Minju's thighs, massaging them, spreading them, while getting close to her face and whispering: 

"Don't you want to see her again? Maybe set up a meeting to kiss?"

Minju blushes. She tries to hide her face, an odd visual as her whole body is in full nude and her pussy more and more visible from your spreading her legs. Nonetheless, she still searches for Chaewon's number and calls her the second the last cookie crumbs tumble down her throat.

"Unnie! This is Minju! Yes. Yes, I miss you too. We haven't talked in forever."

The two of them engage in a lively conversation immediately. Minju is engaged, distracted, as you predicted. Her beautiful smile and giggles as she gets teased are so endearing, you feel a little bad for using her.

"Step 2: Let Chaewon hear how good you make Minju feel."

Minju's legs are spread. She is not completely oblivious to it, as she gives you concerned glances, but she does not close them. She really became a good girl, so you will treat her like one. Grab her thighs and adjust her on the surface, then lower yourself to her crotch.

"U-u-unnie, I..."

You blow on Minju's pussy and then dive tongue-first into the pink, twitching entrance.

Your taste buds get a taste of what she seems to be leaking all the time and you can't lie: it's addicting. Her juice is like honey, but a lot less tenacious and easily consumable. With your tongue spreading her lips, you get a good amount of it and she is obviously unable to understand what Chaewon is saying. 

You enjoy her taste, but her odor might be even better. She smells fresh like a rose and needy like the good girl she is slowly becoming for her Daddy. You could sniff her for longer, but the time is ticking. Chaewon won't stay on the phone forever after all, so you drag your tongue over Minju's labia. Her legs jerk lightly and she whimpers softly, softer than her folds. Those folds get greedily attacked by your licks, the left side, the right side, then all over. A first moan is imminent, and Minju releases it right into the speaker.

"Minmin?" Chaewon asks worriedly, "Are you alright?"

"Y-yes, I—hng, ah!"

Suck on her clit and Minju's phone tumbles out of her hand. You quickly pick it up and put it against her mouth. Chaewon shall hear every sound, every pant, every sexy moan from Minju's pretty lips.

"Minmin, what's happening?"

"I-It's okay, hng, it feels so go-good, ah!"

Minju's hand in your hair is unsure if it should push you away from her twitching core or deeper into it. Her thighs however are a lot more honest. They press down on your ears from each side. The more viciously you lick and suck, the less gentle they become. 

"What feels good? Wait, are you masturbating? During a call?!"

"N-no, I, " Minju stops and her teary eyes look down at you. You quickly nod and give her an award in advance: a sudden finger in her empty, greedy pussy.

"I-I'm not, Unnie, he-he is just so good, ah! I'm gon-gonna cu—"

Minju mindlessly screams and squirts as you finger-and-tongue-fuck her over the edge. The fact that she cums so easily now makes you proud and you'd love to drink more from her leaking hole, but you have your fun adventure to not only end a call, but also start a new crazy chapter in your life.

"Who, Minju who in the fucking hell—"

"It's me, Chaewon,” you say in a dismissive, confident tone. “Yes, me. The fucking pig. I bet you know where to find me. But don't get your hopes high."

You give Minju a loud, sloppy kiss as she still moans in deep blissfulness. 

"Minju is mine."

#

"Step 3: Wait."

A ring at your doorbell. Minju walks to the speaker and filled with enthusiasm, she presses the button to call Chaewon's elevator up. She leaves the door open and walks back to you. 

"Well done, Minmin. Are you not embarrassed? Being naked before Chaewon?"

"No, no," she shakes her head cutely, then blushes, "we saw each other naked often."

"Oh? So you two did more than just kissing, huh~?"

Minju's blush grows. In what can only be the universe's irony, she rather hides her face then her exposed pussy and medium size breasts. She has really gotten used to being naked—or it's because she is still euphoric from your cock being in her right after the call ended?

"Do you want to do it again?"

Your question makes Minju look up at your closer coming figure. You love the shyness and innocence she still has even after all that has happened. It makes you want to cuddle her—or break her again, fuck her mindlessly against the wall, in the shower or in front of her friend.

"Do you want to have sex with Chaewon? Or do you want this?"

You drop your dress pants and although her eyes remain locked with yours, her hand instinctively reaches for your still hard cock. Another clear victory for you, as she strokes you.

"Minmin, where are you?" Chaewon shouts from the front door.

"Tell her where you are, Minmin, " you sadistically whisper into her ear. "Tell her who owns you, tell her where you reside, where you spend your days naked and being a whore. Minmin look at me. Would you ever touch Chaewon without Daddy's permission? Would you ever want to? Or is Daddy all you need, all you ever want?" 

You put your hand at her chin and hold her up to you, oozing a wad of spit from your mouth into hers. Suddenly, Chaewon rushes in and stops in the door frame. With an inner grin, you let even more spit run down on Minju's tongue and down her chin which you firmly hold. Feeling your own saliva has rarely felt this good.

"Min... Minju what is—you fucking bastard, you pig! I'm going to kill you!"

If she would follow up her words, Chaewon would need to leap towards you and tackle you to the ground, yet she still stands there, her knees shaking from anger, her hands in firm fists. You smirk at her, not concerned in the slightest. All that matters rests in your palm and is as well-trained as ever.. It’s the same as with Hyewon: you have all the leverage, not only the feeling of power, but real power. You are not going to hold it back

"What's wrong?” you respond with utmost wit. “Come and kill me then. But I assume you won’t even step into the room, what a disappointment. Minmin, tell Chaewon what we just discussed. Tell her everything."

"Shut the fuck up!” Chaewon screams at the top of her lungs, face boiling bright red in rage. “Minju, get away from him. You don't have to do that. He is just using you to cheat on Yujin!"

"B-but Unnie," Minju gulps down your spit and gives her friend a serious, determined look. "This is my home, this is where I-I walk around naked everyday. This is my Daddy and I'm so happy he owns me and f-fucks me. Thank you, Daddy."

Minju gets on her toes and you pull at her chin to start a short, passionate torrent of kisses, while her pussy presses down on your upright shaft. Chaewon gasps.

"Cheat on Yujin?” you say with slight indignation, as your tongue slips from Minju’s lips. “I would never and have never. In fact, Yujin is the one who pushed Minju here in the first place! I didn't want her here, but she's proven to be a fun toy and a good girl for Daddy. Isn't that right Minju? 

She nods eagerly, her eyes shimmering, licking the spit on her face or the juice in her crotch. You firmly squeeze her chin and stare her down to the absolute shock of her friend.

“Now, you didn't listen to me fully. Would you ever touch Chaewon without Daddy's permission? Would you ever desire her without my approval? Who has given you the greatest happiness and pleasure in your life, who do you love the most, Minmin?"

"I love Chaewon, but I want Daddy. Daddy owns me, I only want your cock."

"Good girl," you growl with a smirk. She didn't need to be so cute about it, but you can't help but dig into her collarbone with kisses while lifting her light body up. She wraps her legs around your waist and with ease, your cock penetrates her slick pussy. Without caring for the frozen Chaewon, you carry Minju to the couch.

"Ride Daddy, Minju. Show Chaewon how you bounce on someone you really love."

"Yo-you are a bit mean, Dad—ah!"

You give her a heavy thrust and a spank on her firm ass. The hit on both her inside and outside leaves her mewling and she abides. Much to the dismay of Chaewon, Minju starts to bounce on your cock like a marble bounces down an endless staircase. Her hands are wrapped around your nape and you enjoy the sight of her delirious face and shaking tits.

"Good girl Minmin. Who has given you the best pleasure, baby girl? Is it Chaewon or me?"

"Daddy! Daddy is the best!"

"That's fucking enough!"

Chaewon finally gathered her strength. Her stomps are strong. Like an angry hoard of buffaloes, she storms over to you and wraps her arms around Minju. With one strong pull, she gets her Dongsaeng off of your cock. 

"N-no, Unnie, I want."

"Minju, he won't do this to you anymore."

Chaewon reaches for both your tip and your throat. Mercilessly, she squeezes down on both of them while locking eyes. Her dark irises are like a void of hatred, sucking you in. The power of a blackhole, while her hands use the power to suffocate your pleasure. 

Yet you don't break a sweat. With a badly faked whimper, you say what she probably wants to hear.

"I'm so scared, oh no, don't kill me Chaewon."

"Chaewon! What the hell are you doing? Get away from him right now!" 

You smirk as Chaewon turns around and sees an angry, truly angry Minju. This wasn't anger of jealousy or desire, but of seeing a loved one in danger, a need to protect.

"You are out of your mind, Minju!" Chaewon shouts back at her friend and stares. The blackholes that couldn't do anything to you, seem to be effective. No matter how angry Minju is, she will always be soft at heart. She backs off, still irritated and clearly unsatisfied. 

It's a circus you love to see. Anything to make Chaewon crack a little more.

"Wow, calling your best friend these words. You must be the one out of your mind, Chaewon. Maybe the bitchiness has clouded your brain."

"Shut up, shut up, shut up! I hate you, I hate you so fucking much. I will... I will take this from you."

She squeezes your cock even tighter. 

"This? You want to rip it off?" you laugh at her face.

"No. I will drain you. Remove all the pleasure from what you think your 'power' is."

Chaewon leans to your face and digs all of her fingernails into your skin. The pain in your facade is the only thing that you don't have to fake anymore. It hurts like hell.

"And then I'll take Minju back."

"Oh ho," you mockingly hum. Chaewon rids herself of her skirt and panties. For the first time, she isn't pressing something down or into your throat. You probably bleed from there, if not it's just the sweat. But to win this, every drop of blood, sweat and tears is worth it. 

"I'll fucking fuck you till your breath stops, pathetic son of a bitch."

Chaewon does not give you a chance to respond. The palm of her hand is firmly pressed on your lips as she sinks on your shaft. Her pussy, a freshly shaved innie, is incredibly tight and she struggles to get you in. In frustration, she spits in her hand and lubes you up. 

You try to make a scene by flailing with your arms. Maybe she really believes that she can break you this way. But there is certainly a small part in her that just wants to try it. The pleasure you give to her Dongsaengs, the temptation that is your body and cock, they are all too great to not be a factor in her bizarre decision to straddle your lap.

"Shit," Chaewon winces when you finally pierce her open. This time the penetration is a bit easier, but she still struggles. Her plan looks even more embarrassing now. How in the hell does she want to hurt you if she is already hurting at this stage. 

"U-Unnie, stop doing that," Minju urges her from the side, stern concern in her voice.

Chaewon shakes her head and wipes a tear off her face. She's got you almost entirely inside her and starts to wiggle her hips a little. You can't lie, this isn't a lot of fun for you either. She is too dry inside and compared to the enthusiastic, submissive Minju, she is absolutely no fun. If you were doomed to always have sex like this for the rest of your life, she would have succeeded in breaking your spirit.

Luckily, this is not the case.

"W-well? Already hating it?" Chaewon asks, her voice trying to sound triumphant while her face contorts in pain. She removes her hand from your lips and you frown at her, unimpressed, unfazed.

"Minju, come over here."

Your command is followed instantly. Minju kneels next to you, her beautiful body upright on the couch. Her gorgeous breasts are on your eye-level and you have to force yourself to look past them. Her face is painted with uncertainty and neediness.

"Yes, Daddy? Ah!"

Instead of answering her, you stick two fingers into her entrance below. Minju begins to mewl like a cute kitten and the envy on Chaewon's face is priceless. Surely she can attack you in this position, but as she is unable to adjust to the large phallus inside her, she won't do anything.

"Your Unnie doesn't feel as great as you. Do you think there is any way we can help her, how you can help her?"

"Daddy, I know e-every spot that Chaewon-unnie likes."

"No, Minju, no," Chaewon whines, but before she can get a hand on her friend, you grab both her wrists and hold them tightly.

"That's great, but first, give me Chaewon's panties. We have to tie her up, she has been very naughty."

This is the moment Chaewon should realize that her plan was futile and stupid to begin with and that her curiosity and libido got the better of her. With her smelly panties, she receives the treatment of a caught criminal, all while her friend is playing along. The only way out would be to leave, but this would mean to leave Minju behind.

Chaewon's heart cannot allow this. It cannot forget how strong she feels whenever the taller girl smiles or waves at her, when they cuddled in bed during the covid scares, when they cried together after the final concert. All the times they got intimate together—she can't leave her behind.

"Good girl," you groan to Minju and caress her cheek. In Chaewon's mind, you're saying it to her and she hates it. She hates every last bit of you. The way you nuzzle up into Minju to whisper to her. The way you control her and force her to call you Daddy. The way you make her—

"Ah, Minju, no-not there!"

Minju places soft, slow kisses below Chaewon's navel and works her way in a zig-zag pattern from thigh to thigh. Only a few things make the fierce leader weaker than this and only Minju knows of them.

"You're doing so good, Minju."

Your praise is met with a hum when you massage her butt and then move back to gently play with her clit. Minju moves further up. She licks Chaewon's underboob, not caring about the salty sweat which resides there. Goosebumps travel all over Chaewon's skin and when Minju finally leeches onto one of her nipples, you feel it without a doubt.

"Oh, it's working,” you say excitedly as a surge of juice lubes up your shaft inside Chaewon, and you decide to tease her with it. “Chaewon, are you getting wetter?"

"N-no, pig. Fuck, I h-hate y-you."

"That's why you're here, hm? Then do it! Free 'your' Minju."

The small woman gets into position again. Your cock almost slipped all the way out of her, it's a lot easier for her to let you glide inside. However, her untrained walls still struggle with the last inch. No matter how much she forces herself, it’s not enough, agonizing for both of you. The entirety of her riding is sloppy, absolutely unenjoyable.

All her adjustments and attempts to take you faster or more of your dick end the same way: with a groan of disappointment. You let her try it over and over again, but her attempt at hate sex is nowhere near overstimulation or pain. There is a lot more boredom, although her walls have potential.

"Fuck, Chaewon, that's not gonna work."

You roll your eyes and Chaewon actually stops. Tears are in the corner of her eyes and when you look over to Minju, she seems pretty upset as well. Her only comfort is your hand rubbing her softly on her sensitive spots.

"You're pretty shit at this, wow,” you dryly whisper your factual insult. “I thought you wanted Minju back, make me resign and give up, but this is just downright bad."

"Wh-what? What the fuck are you saying?"

Chaewon is in disbelief. Her tied up hands smack your chest. You swat them away and get a hand in her short black hair. 

"I'm being totally serious here. You fuck like someone who has no experience. This way, you won't get anything out of me."

You look over to Minju and when she reacts, you press a kiss on her tender lips. You coo a 'good girl' at her and she giggles cutely. Chaewon realizes the meaning of your words and immediately climbs off of your cock.

"Fuck you. I don't need that. You're a disgusting piece of shit, I don't want your fucking compliments."

"No, I bet you much rather walk to the next guy, have sex with him and let him either lie or tell you the gut punching truth. Chaewon, only here can you train without it becoming a rumor. Only here can you see Minju. These are just the facts, but do whatever you want."

"Ugh, fucking hell,” Chaewon curses with shame and disgust written all over her pretty face. She struggles for a second, then tears the tied up panties around her wrists open. To her dismay, they are completely useless now. 

"Okay, Mr. Sex-Expert-Pig. What the fuck do you think is wrong? I bet I could make any guy cum in under a minute."

You scoff and stare her down.

"Oh, and then why weren't you able to make a horny 'pig' like me to cum? Do better Chaewon. Your technique, your enthusiasm, your movement are all weak. I—"

"Fucking fine then!” Chaewon screams and sends her skirt flying into a nearby wall. “I'll fuck you. I'll fuck my anger onto you every fucking day if it means getting bett—getting Minju back. And then you'll see!"

"Oh, you can try, but all compliments are reserved for good girls."

You hug Minju's waist. The cute girl is completely confused by what is happening, but she sure enjoys your affection and repeated kisses. When you press your palm to the back of her head, she wanders down your body and begins to lick your cock blissfully.

"Urg, I'm not calling you Daddy. In fact, I won't do anything for you. I'll fuck the compliments out of you and then Minju will see how pathetic you are, pig."

"I bet you will die trying, bitch."

[katyspersonal]

Here’s a triple whammy, Midra, Messmer, Rellana for the character bingo pls?

( @izunias-meme-hole )

Ohh bitchin'

God I just.. I will have to try to not turn it into an essay for your SANITY (ba dum tss) but in simplest terms possible, this was THE peak DLC experience for me. The Abyssal Woods already were super interesting and atmospheric, as well as learning that Midra is a NERD with so many books all over his Manse. But like.. the battle already captivated me a lot. It was just.. so well-done in every aspect. The music, the movements and attacks... No boss ever deserved the staple "battle feels like a dance once you get into it" praise more than this guy. ;-; I already was not normal about Frenzied Flame in general, but this just dhfssdfg It was so well executed god. Remember being OBSESSED with his music theme, also the first character in a while to make me often check his character tag on Tumblr. @val-of-the-north won't let me lie, I was literally drooling thinking about him in the first few days after that fight and could not think of anyone else @_@

Also I really enjoyed digging further into his story and motivations, what happened here with the Three Fingers and Nanaya. Analysis of the whole SoTe for me. This brand of despair also appeals to me at all, especially when it is tied to you and your associates being hunted like heretics (only the old ones remember!!! XD). Funny enough, just the day before I've met him in the game I've had a very unique mental breakdown where I was ranting like a madman about how much I've tired of holding the horrors and pain inside and how I wanted to just give up and unleash it. I can't get into too much details, it was very personal, however the phrase "May chaos take the world" was stuck in my head all along! And Val mentioned that 'interestingly enough, a theme like this IS addressed in SoTE' + 'you kin one of the characters for sure' so... yeah, that was something. I needed a character like this quite a lot :')

Messmer is AWESOME!! I do not obsess actively but rather just reblog the fanart and stuff that gets on my dashboard, but there are SO many things I said as my thoughts about his and Marika's relationship. And now I have even more to say! You could tell I love Midra more, but Messmer offers infinitely more to talk about and explore! And, god, his charisma, having attracted so many intelligent people to join him and even accept his serpentine nature (apparently a big no for people in the setting for some reason fdjjfds). Also one of the best designs in the Soulsborne series EVER. Also it is his voice actor's DEBUT! Literally HOW????? sfhdjhsdhgfdshds

It IS, for sure, hard to talk about him and not touch upon MANY other characters as he is tied with them so much. Marika, Melina, Fire Knights (especially Queelign), closest Black Knights that ditched him, Rellana, Gaius, Winged Snakes, god knows who else... I love how many relationship he has, but also what interesting potential he opened for exploring the lore with Abyss, Base Serpent and potentially Fell God! He is so many things. And I think this is appropriate how hard it is to discuss him outside of his relationships and curses... It is just like the character himself: having his life and purpose in it basically predefined by a curse he had no control over and his mother, and being a scourge or an idol for others, but barely being a person on his own... Discussions about him are JUST like him, you see what I mean? This also makes me emotional.

I do not have that many headcanons about her, but I am proud of those that I have! x) There is always the room to create more of course! Ok naturally 'everyone else is wrong about them' is not meant to be taken seriously fdshfhds But a big cornerstone for understanding her was the description of her swords referring to Moon and Fire having always been together in Japanese original script, which is just the sentiment from Sword of Night and Flame! So I can no longer see her as huge Erdtree/Marika simp at all, but instead as someone who, although without any hard feelings for her sister's choice, believes Cosmic Sorcery and Fire should be together (again) which makes me look at other takes like:

Just the curse of getting brain hard-locked on your interpretation fdshfhds On another note, I fucking LOVE her design, I am NOT able to enjoy any other armour anymore and just want to wear hers all the time fhhfsd 'Silly' because Twin Moons IS a silly concept, as well as cosplaying Sulyvahn XD ...but also because I see her as silly and fun person, to contrast Messmer's emo vibe x) Smug about kicking asses too! She gives me this strange feeling too, like... I can accept most of the bosses having to die for the plot and narrative, but thinking about her getting killed actually upsets me! She is an optional boss and should STAY as such. #rellanaplslive

[no-m4gic]

Hi! I'm the anom who asked for the autistic reader and I loved your writing! So may I request the same THH characters but with a reader who's try to be the sunshine in their lives (example: help Chihiro to be himself), but is secretly depressed and hide It from them cause reader doesn't want to seem fragile?

Sorry If Is complex XD thx!

i have limited free time so i know im probably never gonna complete (another) request(s) today. also i discovered i have no idea how to write for hifumi and yasuhiro, so i'm gonna blacklist them and replace them with mukuro. felt like this request seemed like a good prompt for nagito and also i feel like i could replace ishimaru's one with komaeda's as an apology.

sorry if you wanted the girls too, i'll get on them as soon as i finish my work- i didn't have enough time to write for them. i'll write for ishimaru, too. sorry for missing a lot of characters!

p.s thanks guys for your support !! i appreciate it sm <33

that's a long title 😨

the tags are such a PAIN

~ mod sitaya

THH CHARACTERS W/ AN S/O WHO IS THEIR SUNSHINE BUT IS SECRETLY DEPRESSED

BYAKUYA TOGAMI

"damnit s/o, why didn't you tell me earlier? you know i wouldn't judge you."

money = happiness to him, so he wouldn't fully understand your pain. he'll still support you though, if you need anything he'll send one of his workers to get it for you.

i mean if you were gone, yeah, he'd definitely be upset, so whenever he couldn't understand, he'll just imagine how he'll be like if you died or something.

he'll hire a personal therapist for you, unless you want him to be your therapist... which trust me, he is not good at.

bro can't even comfort anyone without making them cry more.

since he can't comfort someone psychologically, he'll comfort them physically, though he'll only show displays of affection at home or when you guys are alone, n e v e r in public.

honestly at this point, he won't give a shit if you stain his rich people clothes with your tears, he can buy the same new clothes again.

he's not that desperate, but can you imagine byakuya singing his s/o a lullaby?

not really, but he'll tuck you into bed himself personally if you fall asleep while sobbing your eyes out.

if you don't, he'll ask if you wanna fly out of japan for awhile, on his rich people private jet.

it's the least he could do to repay you for helping him during his dark times.

MAKOTO NAEGI

"s/o. how could you hide this from me? did you think i was going to criticize you...?"

he wouldn't ask the million questions running through his head first, he'd hold you first.

you come before anything.

he'll hold you for as long as you'd like, letting you cry in his shoulder while he rubs your back and pats your head.

since you helped him show the others he isn't an 'omega male' and also chased everyone who bullied him away, he'll return the favor.

he'll tell the teacher that you weren't feeling well and needed some time to rest in your room.

also he'll bring you your homework so you don't have to get it yourself and do tons of paperwork at once after coming back.

you don't need a therapist, you have naegi tell them as your therapist.

he'll listen to you go on for the entire day, and if you need to break down, you can jump into his arms and break down, using his shirt as a handkerchief.

MONDO OOWADA

"damnit... who did this s/o?!"

honestly he might just break down too.

but then he'll tell himself he's gotta be a man, with balls in front of his s/o.

he'll put his coat around you and hug you, telling you that it's alright and you can let everything out.

you can take that in any way.

he feels really guilty whenever he has to leave you for training or a competition.

but he'll always come back with a gift and your favorite takeout.

if you ever wanna cuddle, go find him. he'll be more than happy to have a reason to hold you.

daily compliments whenever you two meet up.

CHIHIRO FUJISAKI

"s/o, it's okay. you're not hopeless, you're filled with hope, you still have so much more potential,"

he'll offer to accompany you to do some activities to keep your mind distracted and also to cheer you up.

something maybe like styling your hair and making it look ridiculous by putting tons of bright, glittery accessories on your hair.

he'd ask if sharing his own insecurities would help, maybe just so you know he has other countless insecurities than just him fearing showing the others he's a guy.

if making your hair look worse than junko's didn't cheer you up, chihiro would make up some stupid games like hop like a bunny into mondo's room or sing one of sayaka's songs outside makoto's room while he's showering.

speaking of sayaka's songs, he'll blast all her upbeat pop songs in the room and you two can dance your heart out.

LEON KUWATA

"i figured. now come here i'm gonna cuddle your sadness away!"

leon would definitely try to remain positive

the only good side would be that he could skip his daily weekday baseball training, since y'know he likes hates baseball.

but no, really, he'd have NO idea on how to comfort someone properly.

he'd ask what he could do to make you feel better.

as well as bring you out to get ice cream.

while you guys are out you may or may not encounter celestia's cat wandering around aimlessly... and bring it back to leon's room.

obviously you guys return her, maybe style her a little, watch leon get scratched by her and so on.

overall at least you recovered quickly and now everyone can see you smile again <3

BONUS ;; NAGITO KOMAEDA

NAGITO KOMAEDA

"oh s/o. you didn't have to hide it from me, hopeless trash like me don't have the right to judge hopeful people like you,"

well now it was his turn to have his clothes stained with tears.

countless outfits of yours have been stained with his tears, because whenever you'd return late (which was always) he'd think you left him or something, and the closest thing he has to you are your clothes.

he's clingy.

and he'll become clingier.

everywhere you go he'll follow you like a lost puppy.

lost puppy literally. he won't just follow you, he'll beg for your attention.

anyway... back to you, once you even mention you were upset he'd pull you into a tight hug.

imagine how long that tight hug would be with depressed.

verrrrrry verrry long.

he'd wish he didn't have to let go of you.

and he wouldn't. you'd have to literally wait for him to fall asleep just to work your way out his arms.

he'll shower you in compliments and bless you with encouragements.

if you wanted he could ask gundham for a cat or dog or something, or he'd blackmail gundham just to "borrow" the four dark devas of destruction for like 10 minutes before giving them back even though nagito would lie and say they'd forever be gone.

you want, he buy. literally, you just have to say "i want this" and you'll have it.

no more despair only hope.

IM SORRY ITS MISSING SO MANY CHARACTERS ANON 😭

[fanficfish]

some random hetalia thoughts about the countries

mostly headcanons and character studies i guess. probably canon but who knows i'm too sleepy to go check. i'm gonna ramble and maybe it'll maek sense i don't know. Someoen tag me if they get anything idea worthy out of this.

link the inspired post: https://www.reddit.com/r/hetalia/comments/1eqt7ek/after_all_these_years_im_gonna_say_it_i_did_not/

I've seen a little talk about how England leaving America on his own for so long messed him up a little (thank you reddit user who go that talk going). So i wanted to think about some of Englands' other colonies and stuff i guess?

so like we have America. I still stand he's probably like, Jamestown or something and over time he became the main US rep, like how the UK has the four brothers (five? Six with Sealand) but England represents them at meetings. Or Japan reps all of Japan instead of like a couple dozen prefectures showing up. That kind of thing. And like that guy's a little messed up. In earlier parts ofhis story, he's shown to just be really explorative, stil strong tho, but mostly jsut a nice sweet kid who happens to have three teenagers fighting over him. Seriously couldn't they share? Oh wait it's hetalia no they can't XD

anyways, it's only wlater once America is firmly under British rule that he starts growing the yelling and loudness. I think that's like the sign hhat he wants a little attention f rom England- like, he's shown to just be a guy when it's Canada when they're kids but england gets the "SHOVE FOOD IN MY PIEHOLE" treatment. And I think that's just because England keeps leaving and coming back but sometimes he just ignores the kids and does his own thing for a long time. Canada ends up letting America take the lead for them. And then later on once all is said and done America revels in his big parties and whatnot because the attention is on him, and it won't heal the hrut of England just leaving all the time but it sorta helps. (Canada doesn't count they're basically joined at the hip it's not the same).

and if you compare it to like the Italies for example. Austria was still there to watch over Italy North even though he really went for the uh. Less optimal route. But he was till there, in his own way. Prussia definitely wasn't going to leave HRE and later Germany alone unless he absolutely had to. Spain didn't jsut go gallivanting around when Romano was there (no comment onhis other former colonies). Ofc you could make an argument for Iceland, but by the time Norway took over he'd been alone mostly for 300 years, and even if Norway and Denmark didn't exactly visit all the time because i headcanon Iceland stayed happily on his island 90% of the time like Aland and Faroe Islands to avoid the drama called "four nordics pretending they could get along under one roof when they definitely are not good rooommate compatable", I doubt he was entirely without parental guidance. Norway could always sense him (so themoment anything bighappened Norway would be marching right over), and Iceland mentions sending letters out. I'm jsut gonna guess he sent the letters via Mr. Puffin, and I'd guess Mr. Puffin could always deliver some words if needed from overseas. Iceland also apparantly has fairies at his house so there's that too. Not thet he'd admit it.

But if you notice, it's def circumstance that gives some character which is cool when we're talkign about stereotype-based characters. Ameriica becomes loud and "ignores" the room when he's given the stage, because if he outrages everyone then he'll get attention. Italy N.. had everythig taken care of for him and has few worries, and a pretty good work ethic since Austria isn't a slacker. Roomano is a spoiled brat. Iceland....honestly boy just needs to accept the others rubbed off on him and he's just as kooky as the rest of them. I know you're a teen and all but kid c'mon you love them mystical animals and you keep bringing up your weird museums XD (I swear this child got Norway's anti-socialness, Sweden's inability to admit things (in his case, he actually likes hanging out with the others), Finland's oddness, and Denmark's everythign else because we all know Norway probably saw Iceland at last and had a crisis over it, man knows when Iceland appears but can't get around to taking the ruling for how many years????

And then there's New Zeeland, who had to raise Austrailia when NZ was also pretty young. NZ doesn't even have the hope of hep fro manyone- America and Canada i'm pretty sure still had visitors from like France and I think the Netherlands would have popped by a few times, because they did do a bit of um. Trading. with the colonies and stuff. Austrialia used to be on the other hand where they sent English prisoners. New Zealand is not ready for that kind of craziness, and so of course we're gonna get a free range crazy Austrailia and a done with it New Zealand who got no help and probabl ygot even less parental support then America. BTW it's crazy that technically GB still techncialy rules over so many big places like Canada and Austrailia even though they also technicall ydon't like that's just so wild.

so what have we learend from this? England sucks as a dad, and Iceland's teen rebel phase is in full swing. WHat was the poitn of this? I don't know but you read it and i wrote it so.....

ima sleep i forgot the poitn already lol

[riversofmars]

Ao3 wrapped

tagged by @sircarolyn

1) Biggest surprise while writing this year?

Writing something other than Liv/Helen 😱 Absolute shocker! But I discovered Arcane so Caitvi is now on my to write list lol.

2) How many WIPs do you have in your docs for next year?

There is, of course, Time War which I'm still working on on and off (Christmas got in the way but I have a couple of chapters in hand 😁) and started on a multi-chapter Caitvi too, a deep dive into dictator!Caitlyn/pitfighter!vi cause we deserved more of that... though I probably won't wait till next year to start posting, I'm on chapter 6 already 😁😁

3) Favourite character to write this year?

I loved writing Helen in my academia fic, that was so fun and really suited her character! And I'm enjoying this new multi-chapter with Caitlyn. I clearly like a particular kind of character lmao, they're so similar!

4) The character that gave you the most trouble this year?

Benny Summerfield! I've never written her before and ended up including her in quite a lot of the Christmas fic so that was quite hard to do!

5) What's one pairing you want to explore next year?

Caitvi now that Christmas is out of the way! And of course more Liv/Helen cause OF COURSE, it's my mission. Also seeing some Ollistra/Veklin in my future when War Room 3 finally drops 👀

6) Did you receive any gifts this year?

@calunalilly gifted me three helpings of smut this year hahaha! XD <3

7) Did you do any collaborative works this year?

I did with @calunalilly! Our epic Liv/Helen LotR AU as well as a couple of oneshots in the summer!

8) What do you listen to while writing?

I don't like listening to anything while writing, but sometimes instrumental DW pieces if there are other distracting noises around.

9) Favourite line/passage you wrote this year?

Oh that's tough, I've written a LOT lol. But I would say the final showdown of my London Has Fallen Liv/Helen fic, I always surprise myself when writing action 😁

And this passage from my cyberpunk Liv/Helen AU... I really like how the use of technology came across in this world.

tagging @calunalilly @capybaraonabicycle @pia-writes-things @meluisart

[slashingdisneypasta]

Inkubus x Reader || Headcanons

Plot/Topic: Ink develops a proclivity for transforming into a little grey cat whenever it suits him.

Warnings: x1 Mention of dead animals.

Tagging: @marinerainbow , @masqueradeball , @slxsherwriter , @your-mxnd-is-mxne .

You can turn yourself into a cat!?-

Mhm, of course, how do you think I travel? Do you think that I pay full fare???

... ...

He hasn't done this for centuries, so he's a little rusty at first; slipping on hardwood floors and tile on little paws, and other clumsy little mistakes. It's funny while it lasts, but he gets the hang of it quickly again.

He starts to transform whenever you're angry with him. You come home looking to tear into him for showing up at your work and theres a God Damn cat perched patiently on top of your couch. It tilts its head at you. Can you really be mad at an innocent little cat?? He knows he's cute, the bastard.

Transforms when you're asleep, and you have so many damn cushions he can't fit in your bed with you as a man, so that he can slip onto a pillow next to your head, curl up and take a nap with you. You wake up to find that sleek old grey cat purring by you.

Introducing him, as a your pet kitty, to friends and family who visit. XD He is the most grumpy, unresponsive pet in existance. He bites people if they try to pat him! He even nibbles your fingers a little too sharply- take That, Y/N.

Not-at-all responsive to catnip. No. Don't even think about that.

Startles you in the dark (When you get up in the middle of the night for water, after you turn off you TV at night when it was the only light in the room, when you're getting into or out of bed, etc) when suddenly you feel the brush of a tail against your legs, which is bad enough, and then he, a MAN appears in your room beside you. Jesus-

-christ, Ink, don't scare me like that!! I could've had a heartattack.

Oh, my bad. It didn't occur to me that you would be startled. I'll try to be more mindful in the future.

=_= ... yes you did. =_= And no you won't.

Yes, I did (: And no... I won't (:

Him being your emotional support animal when you're anxious, or having a particularly bad stretch with your depression, or you're just having a bad day, or you're sick. Him creeping onto your lap when you're in tears, like *sigh*... go ahead. And letting you cuddle his soft cat form. Him watching TV while you run your fingers through his fur so many times it's like silk by the time you're calm.

Take a moment here- imagine the moment in the middle of the night when you're cosy in your bed, mostly asleep by awake enough to notice the moment Ink changes back from a cat into a man behind you. The dip getting deeper suddenly on the mattress by you and the warmth increasing on your back. The purring changing into a contented, human sigh as he shifts and wraps an arm around you to guide you closer.

Inkubus giving you a neighbourhood reputation as a witch!! Everyone knows about the mysterious, dark grey cat that wonders around your home. How it won't respond to anyone but you. How you'll notice it out your window, let it in and then... well, some people (busybodies. curious children. the folk across the way who happen to look over out their kitchen window at just the right moment) have noticed through that same window: what looks to be a man in there who wasn't there before, all of a sudden. Sometimes there's a kiss between you and Him.

The Man is always glimpsed through your windows, but he is never seen entering and he's never seen leaving your house- just that cat.

Its all very odd and strange to everyone and sometimes Ink will wonder, as the cat of course, over to other houses just to hear what they're saying about him. Maybe you're caring for an unwell relative? Maybe you're a kidnapper? Maybe you summoned something unsavoury one night and it wont leave? He likes that last one, best. They don't know how right they are~ Though he summons himself, thank you very much. He should summon himself right into their bedroom in the middle of the night and give them a good scare for thinking of him as such a low-level imp.

What must the rest of the street think? You wonder outloud one afternoon, chuckling and shaking your head after shooing Ink away from the window. They see a cat come in, they see a cat go. And then there's an old man in my kitchen they never saw come in.

Oh, they think that you abducted your invalid grandfather, he tells you casually, hanging over the stew you're brewing and sneaking a taste.

Your head snaps his way. -what!?

And, of course- Inkubus does not need any excuse, to be a menace... but I'm sure being a cat does allow him to play a few tricks on you, and perhaps the neighbours, that he couldn't as a man XD Like popping out of small dark places to startle you, like leaving small dead animals on particular neighbours front door mats, etc. He cant help it. He's a menace.

[amethystina]

Fanfic Tag Thingie

I am choosing to be tagged by @miss-ingno because this sounded like fun and I need an escape from the realisation that I am literally on the edge of burnout and my life is a mess. So here we go! :D

How many works do you have on AO3?

76

What's your total AO3 word count?

2 237 636

... and I have around 200k more just sitting in my WIP folders. I can't write short things x'D

What fandoms do you write for?

Right now it's mainly various Kdramas (The Devil Judge, Black Knight, plus my bold venture into Strangers From Hell) but, before that, it was mostly The Losers, Marvel, Pacific Rim, and Teen Wolf. With the occasional detour here and there.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Who Holds the Devil (The Devil Judge, Gahan) at 3 390

Tech Support (MCU, Winteriron) at 3 217

Autonomy (MCU, Winteriron) at 3 137

I Won't Hold My Breath (MCU, Winteriron) at 2 914

Conflict of Interest (MCU, Winteriron) at 2 173

It's honestly a little wild to me that Who Holds the Devil has somehow managed to race to the top despite the other fics being at least four years older (sometimes more). And for a much bigger fandom, at that. You guys are not fucking around.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do! Every single one if I can, though it can sometimes take a while before I get to all of them. And I just can't help it, I guess? Partly because I want to show that I've read the comment and appreciate the time and effort that went into writing it, but also because it often gives me an opportunity to talk about my writing and the choices I made in the fic.

And, apparently, the fact that I reply to all comments has become a bit of a thing at least when it comes to Who Holds the Devil, where readers will search through my replies looking for tidbits and extra information about the fic, characters etc.

(you guys are so weird and so dedicated and I love all of you xD)

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Grief (The Losers (Comics)). Because it is, predictably, about grief and how to keep living after someone you love has died. Though I would argue that the ending has a hint of hopefulness to it since it's also about moving on from said grief?

But yeah. Definitely that one since it's Major Character Death that I choose not to fix.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Literally every single fic except for the one above xD I LOVE my happy endings, okay? And it's kind of difficult to rank them since it depends a lot on the setting, characters, and the personal preference of the reader.

Heck, I even managed to give my Strangers From Hell fanfic a sugary sweet happy ending! That's dedication right there!

Do you get hate on fics?

Yeah, from time to time. I've gotten everything from childish insults calling me a bad writer to backhanded comments questioning my choices, writing style, grammar, spelling, dedication, intelligence, etc. I've even received more targeted, personal hate where people I thought I could trust were making fun of me behind my back in private chat rooms.

Most recently, though, it's less hate and more the "I simply must tell you that you're not writing this fic as I want you to write it" type of deal. Often paired with "It's my personal opinion and I have every right to express it." Which, fair enough. But that means I get to do the same, which I've noticed is something those kinds of commenters kind of hate. Especially when I point out that they've now made me a lot less keen to write the fanfic they're supposedly so fond of.

Turns out people don't like being reminded that their actions have consequences.

All in all, though, I've learned to just delete the comments I find too offensive or hateful.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Oh god no. Sex scenes are the bane of my existence and I spend the entire time writing them looking like this: ლ(ಥ益ಥლ)

I've been told I'm not bad at writing them (the ones in Until Death Do Us Unite were quite appreciated) but anything involving sex or sexual tension is just a nightmare for me. Even more so when it's supposed to be kinky or extra spicy.

So why is one of the main ships I write for right now clearly a Dom/sub ship, you ask?

Because I'm an idiot. That's why.

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you've written?

I rarely do. The only crossover I've written is Resurrection where Derek Hale ends up in Purgatory together with Dean Winchester and they fight their way back to the world of the living (so Derek replaces Benny, basically).

I also have this one random fic (yet unposted) where Tony Stark and Eddie Brock are a couple (from the MCU and Venom movies, that is). But they're technically both in the Marvel universe so I'm not sure if that counts?

Long story short, crossovers aren't really my thing. I rarely write or read them.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, no.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! Several, in fact, from various fandoms. Mostly into Russian, Spanish, or Mandarin. And I am honestly so flattered every time someone asks me if they can translate one of my fics 💜

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have not, no. I made plans to write a fic with a friend once, but we never got to the point of actually writing it. And, in all honesty, I think that might be just as well. I'm a perfectionist and writing a fic with me would probably be very exhausting for the other party xD

What's your all-time favourite ship?

I really don't know. Like, I'm tempted to say Jensen and Cougar from The Losers, or maybe Destiel or Stony, but I think that's partly founded in comfort and nostalgia. My ships change as I do and I really can't pinpoint an all-time favourite.

But CURRENT favourite? Definitely Kang Yo Han and Kim Ga On because they present such a wonderful challenge to someone like me, who loves to go real deep into character motivations, behaviour etc. They're a delight.

What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I'm not sure. I plan to finish all the ones I've started posting but there might be some in my folders that I'll decide to abandon if I truly can't revive my interest in them. But, usually, I can.

And, speaking of that, to all my MCU peeps (if there are any of you still out there): I know you've waited six years for the Tech Support sequel but it's finally been written and just needs to be edited. It's coming, my darlings. I promise.

Basically, when I say I'll do something, I will do it — even if it takes me six goddamn years, apparently x'D

What are your writing strengths?

Characters, tone, and emotions. I'm good at capturing the essence of the characters and write them in a way that feels believable and close to canon. I'm also really good at making people feel things with my writing, I've been told. According to testimonials, my readers can often see what's happening play out inside their heads like a movie, and feel the characters' emotions as they're living through them.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Aside from the aforementioned sex scenes? I think it's my inability to keep things short. I use a lot of unnecessary words and could definitely get better at being more concise. In a similar vein, I sometimes focus so much on the details with lengthy, wordy descriptions that I accidentally forget about the big picture, which is understandably confusing to my readers.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I've done it from time to time (since my man Cougar speaks Spanish) but I'm pretty careful with it. And if it's longer sentences I always make sure to double-check with a native speaker.

First fandom you wrote for?

Teen Wolf! Which, admittedly, was because I didn't care if I fucked it up x'D I enjoyed the first two seasons of Teen Wolf, make no mistake! But I chose it mainly because it wasn't the ship I was the most emotionally invested in and so I figured it wouldn't feel as bad if it turned out that I sucked. Luckily enough for me, I didn't xD

Favourite fic you've written?

Just like with the all-time favourite ship, I'm not sure if I can answer this one. Because I like all of my fics but in different ways.

I'll always have a fondness for that first huge Teen Wolf series I wrote, for example, and had a lot of fun with Autonomy because of the world-building. Same goes with Hyperborean. But Who Holds the Devil is definitely my favourite when it comes to character work. While Allies is my favourite when it comes to tone, since it ended up just the way I wanted it to. And Until Death Do Us Unite was an absolute BLAST because I got to write horror and some really weirdass shit, which I've never done before.

So, truly, I can't say. Each one I've written has something I cherish and while some definitely stand out more than others, I wouldn't be able to just pick one.

___

And that's that! I tag whoever wants to do it! :D

[rose-sophia-isabella-rogers]

A Soothing Rain of His: Chapter VI - Test of Trust

Chapter Summary: Your jealousy grows and grows. You try to have faith in Aleksander, but it's hard when you barely see him. An accident causes him to spend time with you. You finally have a talk about your relationship and Alina.

Pairing: Aleksander Kirigan/Reader

Characters: Aleksander Kirigan, Reader, Ivan, Alina Starkov, Nadia Zhabin, Genya Safin, Marie, Zoya Nazyalensky

Word Count: 3951

A/N: Inspired by prompts: https://pl.pinterest.com/pin/207306389089684492/ https://pl.pinterest.com/pin/207306389089684549/ https://pl.pinterest.com/pin/207306389089683708/ https://pl.pinterest.com/pin/207306389089559889/ (When I found this one, I had no idea it's a quote from "Shadow and Bone". XD) https://pl.pinterest.com/pin/207306389089683636/

Tag list (let me know if you want to be added or removed):

@budugu

@intothesoul

@mizelophsun11

@pansexualwitchwhoneedstherapy

@zeeader

Things between you and Aleksander don't get better. He keeps missing your meetings. You don't remember the last time you two went riding together. The part of you that is controlled by anger wants to just go riding by yourself. But after you used the Cut, you swore to yourself to never let anger control you again. So, you're always accompanied by someone.

That day Genya is the one who rides with you. The Queen is feeling bad and wants to be left alone. That made Genya to go to you and she was more than happy to join you for a ride. To be honest, you're grateful for her company.

'You won't believe who's come back today,' she sighs at some point.

'By the tone of your voice I'm guessing it's not someone nice,' you say. Genya scoffs.

'Obviously,' she says. 'I mean, when Zoya was nice?'

Ah, Zoya is back. You've heard she's been sent away after the incident with Alina.

'She's not that bad,' you say.

'Maybe to you,' Genya says. 'And only because she doesn't know about you and General Kirigan.'

Your mood immediately goes sour. Is there even you and Aleksander nowadays?

'[Y/N]?' Genya asks softly, noticing the change on your face. You force a smile.

'I'm fine,' you assure her. But she doesn't believe you. In fact, she guesses what's wrong. She looks at you softly.

'He loves you,' she says. You clench your jaw.

'I know,' you say. But you're not sure whether you believe it.

'I saw him the other day,' Genya says. 'The room was full of people and yet he's eyes were on you all the time.'

'I'm pretty sure they were on Alina,' you say bitterly. Your friend was standing next to you at the moment.

'Nonsense,' Genya denies. '[Y/N], I know he's busy at the moment. But his love for you is still the same. I know he'd rather be with you than with Alina or anyone else.'

You want to believe her. Saints, you want to believe her so much. You keep telling yourself the words Aleksander has said to you. That he loves you, his yours and you're always on his mind. But it's hard to believe them when your beloved ignores you.

'I just… I miss him,' you say quietly. Genya reaches to you and grabs your hand. Squeezes it.

'I know,' she says. 'I know, darling. But be brave and remember. His heart is as much yours as yours is his.'

You smile weakly at her. You open your mouth to say something, but you are interrupted by loud voices.

'What is that commotion?' Genya asks, frowning. You shrug your shoulders and urge your horse to ride in the direction of the voices. You see Botkin training with some Grisha. Among them are Zoya and Alina, who apparently have a rematch.

'Saints,' Genya sighs. 'They're really at it again?'

Alina is now a better fighter, so Zoya is not winning that easily. Which makes her frustrated. You see she's about to summon again.

'This is going to end-' you start. Just then both Alina and Zoya have enough. Your friend summons the blinding ball of light just as the Squaller is about to summon wind. The light blinds Zoya, causing her to send the wind in another direction. Yours and Genya's.

It's very strong. You have to close your eyes. Your grip on the reins loosens. Which turns out to be a mistake, since your horse gets startled by the wind and branches that it sends its way. It neighs and rears.

'[Y/N]!' Genya shouts, reaching out to you. You try to keep yourself on top of the horse. But just when you think you can do it, your leg slips from a stirrup. At the same time Star moves, causing you to fly through her.

'[Y/N]!' Genya screams again as you hit the hard ground. And probably something else, since you feel a terrible pain in your side. You gasp and whimper in pain.

'[Y/N]!' you hear a panicked voice not belonging to Genya. You manage to open your eyes and see other Grisha has gathered around you. Alina is closest to you, looking at you with worry, fear and guilt.

'Are you okay?' she asks. 'Please, tell me you're okay.'

'I feel like I'm being stabbed,' you answer her honestly, your voice strained. Your friend frowns.

'How do you even know what it feels like to be stabbed?' she asks, confused. You give her a look.

'Alina, did you honestly think that in many times I've been kidnapped, I haven't been stabbed at least once?' you ask and then whimper when pain shoots through your body.

'Healer!' you hear Zoya's shout. 'We need a Healer! Someone get a Healer here!'

Yes, a Healer sounds nice. You seriously hope one is nearby. Like, really nearby.

You don't know this, but one Healer is in fact close, walking through the corridors of the Little Palace with Ivan and Aleksander. They're deep in conversation but stop talking when they see a Grisha running toward them, panting.

'What happened?' Aleksander demands, once he reaches them.

'Accident during a training… needed Healer…' he manages to say. The Healer rushes toward the grounds without a word.

'Who's injured?' Ivan asks. The Grisha glances with fear at Aleksander.

'[Y/N],' he answers. Blood runs cold in Kirigan's veins and colour drains from his face. He runs after the Healer, Ivan close behind him.

Outside, they stop on top of the stairs. The Healer has just reached you and kneels down to take a look at you. Aleksander's heart clenches seeing your face twisted in pain. He marches forward, without thinking. He just knows he needs to be by your side.

'What happened?' he demands, a pinch of fury in his tone. Grisha quickly scatter. Only Genya, Zoya, Alina and a few others remain. Zoya and Alina look down guiltily. Aleksander guesses it's their fault somehow and is about to berate them when he hears your gasp and his attention is pulled to you.

'Shh, [Y/N],' the Healer says with a small smile. 'It's going to be alright.'

You nod and close your eyes. Aleksander looks at you with worry.

'Ivan, would you mind?' the Healer asks. The Heartrender nods, understanding what he means. He puts his hands above your heart. You let out a deep sigh and a moment later you're asleep.

'We need to take her somewhere more comfortable,' the Healer declares. Aleksander simply picks you up bridal style and turns toward the Little Palace. He looks at Zoya and Alina with a barely restrained anger.

'I'll have a word with you later,' he promises. They both flinch and nod. Satisfied, Aleksander starts walking toward your chambers. He looks down at you. His heart breaks, seeing you in this state. He holds you tighter to himself. He promises you in his mind that you're going to be alright. Because no matter what, he cannot lose you.

*

Slowly, you open your eyes. You sigh in your mind. Honestly, you're a bit tired of waking up in your bed after being injured or kidnapped and tired or whatever. Seriously, will it ever end?

To your surprise, Aleksander is sitting next to you on a chair. He's holding your hand in his, while reading a book. Your heart skips a beat. But you still feel weak. And sad that he shows up now, when you've been hurt.

'If I'm dying, let me eat cake,' you speak up. Aleksander flinches, startled, and quickly looks up at you. Then, once he gets what you said, he rolls his eyes.

'You're not dying,' he denies.

'Let me eat cake anyway,' you say. Aleksander's lips twitch upward but he fights off his smile and looks at you with worry instead.

'How are you feeling?' he asks. You think about it for a moment.

'Better,' you answer and manage to sit up. 'I guess I've been patched up pretty nicely.'

'Yes, it appears so,' Aleksander says, relieved. He hands you a glass of water and you drink it gratefully.

'How long was I asleep?' you ask.

'A few hours,' Aleksander answers. 'You needed a good rest.'

You just nod. Kirigan watches you closely.

'Alina and Zoya both have been punished by Botkin and I approved of their punishment,' he says after a moment of silence.

'You let your Sun Summoner be punished?' you ask before you can bite your tongue. Aleksander frowns.

'She doesn't get a special treatment when she breaks the rules,' he says slowly. 'And her actions hurt you. Of course, she was punished. Why would you think she wouldn't?'

This time you bite your lip. You refuse to have this conversation. You don't want to admit you've been jealous of your childhood friend. But the look on your face makes Aleksander understand what this is all about.

'I see,' he says and sighs, running a hand down his face. 'Darling, I told you. Me and Alina aren't like that. I'm just helping her to reach her full potential.'

'I thought that's why she has lessons with Baghra,' you say and sigh. 'Never mind. Leave it. And me. I'm sure you have duties to go back to. And I need to get up and do… things.'

You start standing up but Aleksander grabs your hand and stops you. You look up at him. He frowns at you.

'Do you really think I'll just leave you?' he asks. 'When you think such things?'

You don't answer him. Hurt flashes on Aleksander's face. But he also catches a glimpse of hurt in your eyes.

'[Y/N], you're the one I love,' he says softly. 'So much. I'd take a bullet for you, you know that.'

'You're immortal, and I'm going to kill you if you keep saying that,' you huff, annoyed. Aleksander can't help but smile in amusement. And he's relieved to see some sparks in your eyes.

Suddenly, there's a knock on the door. You both tense. Aleksander stands up and opens the door just a bit.

'I'm sorry, General, but they need you in the war room,' Ivan says. Kirigan glances at you. You force an understanding smile at him and quickly avert your eyes. He looks at you for a moment, before he turns his head back to Ivan.

'Tell them we must reschedule this to tomorrow morning,' he says. Your eyes snap to him. Ivan is not as surprised as you. He simply nods and walks away. Aleksander closes the door and returns to you.

'Don't do that,' you say. 'You will make me feel guilty.'

'I told you,' Aleksander says, sitting down on your bed. 'I'm not leaving you, [Y/N]. Not when you doubt my love for you.'

'I don't doubt it,' you deny. 'I just…'

You stop and sigh, frustrated, running a hand through your hair. Aleksander observes you for a moment. Then, he takes off his shoes and climbs on the bed next to you. You eye him with suspicion.

'I seriously hope you're not trying to seduce me right now,' you say.

'While I admit I'd love to become one with you, I know it won't solve our problems,' Aleksander denies. 'Now, come here.'

He opens his arms. You narrow your eyes at him.

'I promise I won't try anything,' he says. Slowly, you move closer to him. He takes you in his arms. Immediately, your body relaxes and you snuggle into him. Like always, you feel safe and sound.

'How do you do it?' you ask. 'You can make me feel at home in a second.'

'Because I am your home,' Aleksander says. 'You keep repeating that to me.'

You jab his chest with your finger. He chuckles and holds you closer.

'Alright, jokes aside,' he says and looks at you seriously. 'Listen to me, milaya. I'm sorry I've been distant lately and made you feel insecure. I'm also very sorry I wasn't there with you when your fear became very real and you fell from a horse. I promise you, you're still the most important woman to me. Person even. No one means so much to me as you.'

You stare at him with a bit distrustful look. He caresses your cheek.

'I promise you, Alina is not taking your place,' he says. 'You're all I want.'

'You promise?' you ask after a moment. Aleksander kisses your forehead softly.

'I swear,' he whispers and notices your eyelids dropping slightly. 'Now go to sleep. It's late.'

'I've just woken up,' you protest.

'That was a healing sleep,' Aleksander says. 'Now you need a resting sleep.'

You want to argue. Honestly. You and him are not done with this conversation. But you're in your bed and Aleksander is holding you and it's so hard to stay awake…

You're very confused when you open your eyes and find it's an early morning. You're also surprised to find Aleksander still holding you in his arms, sleeping. In his day clothes. Your heart melts. But your soft smile drops when you remember the conversation you had.

In that moment your lover wakes up. His eyes meet yours. He knows what you're thinking about. Your serious eyes and smile-less face tell him that.

'Stop it,' he sighs.

'I can't help it,' you say. 'You keep telling me I'm your only one, and yet you spend every free moment with Alina and keep missing our meetings. If you're not interested in her, then why are you doing this?'

'I… I can't tell you what's this all about,' Aleksander says after a moment, averting his gaze. 'Not yet.'

'Seriously?' you scoff. 'You can't tell me? And you don't want me to overthink this? How?'

He looks at you. His hair is still a mess and in the bright morning sunlight he looks more handsome and more human than you've ever seen him.

'I'm guess I'm asking you to trust me,' he answers. You stare at him for a long moment.

'Okay,' you finally say quietly. 'But only because I don't want to lose you.'

'Darling, trust me, I don't want to lose you either,' Aleksander says and offers you his hand. 'Here, hold my hand. We can stay here for a moment longer.'

'How about forever?' you ask quietly. Kirigan smiles.

'That would be wonderful, wouldn't it?' he asks. You nod and take his hand. Your heart skips a beat. Sure, things are not ideal between you two. But for this moment, however short, his all yours again. Only yours.

*

You're brushing your hair, when suddenly there's a knock on the door. You sigh. You're not in the mood to see guests. But that's the life.

'Come in!' you call. The door opens. In walk Alina, Nadia and Marie. They smile slightly at and walk to you. You're not very close with the Squaller and the Inferni. They're here more for Alina than for you.

'Hi, [Y/N],' Marie says and they all sit on the edge of your bed. 'How are you feeling?'

'Much better,' you say and force a smile. 'That Healer did a magnificent job, truly.'

'It must have been so terrifying,' Marie says. 'Falling from a horse, when you-'

Nadia elbows her on the side, shushing her. Marie immediately looks down guiltily. But she definitely doesn't feel as guilty as Alina, who looks at you with deep sadness and regret.

'[Y/N], I'm so, so sorry,' she says. 'I know what happened was my fault. And Zoya's. But mine, too. And I'm really sorry for it.'

You put away your brush and walk to them all. You sit down next to Alina and take her hands in yours.

'Apology accepted,' you say. 'And don't worry. I was terrified, but I know I can't let my fear control me. I'm going to get back on a horse soon. I don't want to go back where I was.'

Alina smiles and throws herself into your arms. Surprised, you hug her hesitantly back. Nadia and Marie smile. Against yourself, you smile, too.

You pull away after a minute. Alina seems more relaxed. Clearly, guilt was nagging at her badly.

'I've heard you and Zoya had some punishment from Botkin?' you ask. 'What was it?'

'Please, don't remind me,' Alina says, wincing. 'Trust me, you don't want to know.'

'It was awful,' Nadia agrees and shivers. 'Still, I heard it was better than the talk you two had with General Kirigan.'

Alina's mood immediately dampens. She looks down and nods. You squash the part of you that is cackling with glee.

'He wasn't shouting or anything but… I think we both would have preferred if he had had,' Alina says. 'He seemed both furious and… disappointed.'

You can tell she's more bothered by the latter. The thought of disappointing Aleksander is terrible for her. She's the Sun Summoner that is supposed to bring light to all Ravka. It's a terrible pressure. And… you fear there's something more as well.

'I've never seen him so angry, yes,' Marie says, nodding. Nadia scoffs and gives you a sly smirk. Oh, you're not liking it already…

'What about that time [Y/N] drank poison that was meant for him?' the Squaller asks. 'Or was kidnapped?'

'Which time?' Marie asks, grinning. They both giggle as you roll your eyes.

'Stop it, you two,' you say. 'It's not funny.'

'But you must admit, [Y/N], that he is very protective of you,' Marie says.

'Hey, I used to spend most of my days with him,' you say. 'And the reason I'm getting kidnapped every now and then-'

'Or every few days,' Nadia interrupts you.

'- is because of that,' you say, glaring at her. 'Plus, I've been aware I'm a Grisha for not exactly a long time. He feels a bit responsible for me.'

'I guess,' Marie says, but she doesn't seem convinced. 'Say… since you was his servant, you were preparing clothes for him, right? Underwear as well?'

'Stop,' you say, closing your eyes. 'I'm not sure where this is going, but I'm sure I'm not going to like it.'

The girls erupt in a fit of giggles. But to their surprise and delight, a moment later you join them, doing it maybe a bit more hysterically.

'Okay, what is it?' Alina asks, grinning. 'You thought of something. What is it?'

'I just remembered, how one time we were talking while I was packing his things for some journey,' you say, trying to stop another fit of giggles. 'And at some point, I got to-'

'His underwear?' Marie squeals. 'You were packing his underwear while he was watching?'

'It was so embarrassing!' you say, while girls start laughing again. 'I thought I'm going to stay red on the face forever! And worst of all, he was aware I was not comfortable, and the idiot was smirking at me! Not telling anything, but that knowing smirk was making me even more embarrassed!'

'I think you're the only person who can dare calling General Kirigan an idiot,' Nadia says, trying to calm down.

'Hey, I've seen his underwear and other embarrassing things,' you say. 'And I keep getting into trouble because of him. I have a right to call him that.'

'I'll drink to that,' Marie says and pouts. 'If we had wine here, I would, I mean.'

'Well, not now, since we're late for training,' Nadia sighs. Marie groans.

'Saints, no, I don't want to,' she wails. The Squaller stands up and extends her hand to her friend.

'Come on, no dawdling,' she says. Marie groans again but takes Nadia's hands and allows her friend to help her stand up. They both turn to Alina.

'You're coming?' Nadia asks. The Sun Summoner shakes her head.

'I'll stay with [Y/N] a bit longer,' she says and smirks. 'I don't have training now.'

'Lucky,' Marie says, sticking her tongue to Alina. Your friend answers her with the same. You and Nadia look at each other, then roll your eyes.

'Come,' the Squaller says, pulling the Inferni with her toward the door. 'I do not want to be punished because we're late. Again.'

'Yes, yes, I'm coming, I'm coming,' Marie murmurs. A moment later both girls are gone. You and Alina exhale shakily. You look at each other and laugh.

'They're both wonderful just…' Alina starts.

'A lot,' you finish. Your friend nods.

'Yeah,' she agrees. You get more comfortable.

'So, spill,' you say. 'Because you clearly have stayed to talk to me about something. What is it?'

'Okay, you got me,' Alina says and sighs. 'There's something I need to talk about with someone. I thought about Genya but… well, you've been my friend longer and… well. I'll just get on with it. How do you know you're catching feelings for someone?'

'Feelings are not a cold you can't "catch" them,' you say, frowning.

'I know, I know,' Alina says. 'But… you know what I mean.'

'I think it's different for every person. Why are you asking? I mean, I can guess why. But who is the object of your interest?'

'I… I think… I think I feel something more toward General Kirigan than I probably should.'

Saints. Oh, Saints. Your heart stops. Not that. Anything but that. She can't… No.

'What about Mal?' you ask after a moment of silence. 'I thought you have feelings for him? At least that's what I gathered from your letters and the way you've been speaking about him.'

'That… is no longer relevant,' Alina says, stiffening a bit. 'I haven't heard from him ever since I got here, so…'

'I'm so sorry,' you say, frowning. Your friend shakes her head.

'Like I said, it no longer matters,' she says.

Because you have switched to Aleksander…

'What would you like me to say, then?' you ask. 'I know how General Kirigan can be. Charming, alluring, mysterious… Almost every girl in here has a crush on him. And some men. Telling whether your feelings are something more… is hard.'

'Not as hard as figuring out whether he feels the same,' Alina says quietly. You almost miss it. You wish you did.

'All I can say is this,' you say. 'Heart is a complicated thing. Understanding it can be tricky. The best you can do is listen to it but with a level head and live your life like you want, not like you think someone would want you to, so he would like you back. You're the most important here.'

'You're right,' Alina says and smiles teasingly at you. 'As always.'

'I do happen to be wrong,' you say. 'For example, I thought I am so good on a horse that I can't fall. And look where it got me.'

'Once again, I'm really sorry about it,' Alina says, looking at you with guilt. You wave your hand dismissively.

'It's fine, I know you didn't mean to,' you calm her down. 'And although I don't have a conflict with Zoya, I know she can be difficult. Now, I wish we could chat more, but I have a lesson with Baghra. Injury or no injury, she said she has a special training for me in mind. I dread to think why.'

'Better not to anger Baghra,' Alina agrees. You both stand up. Your friend hugs you tightly.

'Thank you, I needed that,' she says and pulls away with a smile. 'I'll see you later.'

'Yes,' you confirm, nodding. Alina nods back and leaves your room. Immediately, you deflate. You exhale shakily. Now what are you supposed to do? Compete with your friend for the love of your life? While he already belongs to you? You don't like it. Nope. Not at all.

A/N: Thank you for reading! Please, reblog, like and comment if you could.

This can also be found on Archive of Our Own: https://archiveofourown.org/works/49547866/chapters/125724028

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[eggluttony]

How's Eggman and AU Gerald doing after becoming so fat they lounge on couches instead of walk? I bet they spend most of it teasing each other for how big they got, mess with each other's fat (cheeks, chins, bellies, tits, butts even? 🥰) and mess with each other a little placing the other's favorite snack on top of the other's belly, knowing their weight will make it difficult to reach lol💕

Those are cute funny ideas! I can definitely see them getting into playfully teasing each other after they've gained all the weight 🥰

To those uncomfortable the last time we talked about this- respectfully, you don't need to read more past here. Don't like, don't read.

You control your own experience beyond my tagging and read more. This is platonic family fun in my eyes but it's cool to not vibe with it.

Yes absolutely! There's nothing more for them to do when they're just lounging on the couch all day, fat spilling out everywhere and huge soft bellies pinning them down. All they can do is eat and enjoy their new bodies but they definitely can't help but tease each other for just how huge they let themselves become!

Sometimes Gerald pinches Ivo's cheeks to feel how chubby they've gotten and give his double chins a stroke and says "Goodness son, you've gotten so plump!" He has to say something about how fat Ivo looks sat next to him, from his double almost triple chin, plump cheeks, heavy sagging tits, and wide flabby soft belly.

"Oh yeah? And who was it that inspired me to start, encouraged me to pursue it, and gained tons more weight alongside me? That's right, you!" Ivo shoots back with a smirk as he grabs his grandpa's cheeks and squishes them together, then uses a finger to jiggle his double chin. Well two can play at that game!

"But the weight is clearly showing on you more, big tits." Gerald chuckles as he grabs and shakes one of his round fat titties to make his point. Ivo blushes, he didn't think his grandpa could be so cheeky and forward with teasing! He does the same to him and says "Well yours have gotten pretty big too, ha!"

In the rare times they're (struggling to) stand up and move, most often to get extra food as their robots won't bring them quite as much as their greedy bellies desire hehe, they'll tease each other for how they waddle, can't put their hands straight down by their sides and walk holding their big fat bellies instead.

They can't stand side by side at the pantry anymore, they've become too big and wide. So if one takes too long grabbing food in front, the one behind grabs the other's butt and gives it a slap or squeeze and says "Hurry up fatty, I want my food! I can't choose what to eat with this big globular thing in the way!"

The other laughs and says "Hey! I have to deal with the same when you're in front of me, just look at how huge yours is too!" and lifts it up in their hands and then drops it so it bounces, proving how thick as jiggly the other's has gotten too. "And if you eat any more out of this pantry, it's going to get even bigger!"

One will grab and jiggle the other's butt if they're taking up too much space on the couch, saying, "Shift your big butt will ya? I need more space!" The other says "If yours wasn't so big, you wouldn't need more." And it turns into them playfully slapping each other's as they stand up and try to make room for each other XD

When they're finished with a huge feast, Gerald grabs and shakes Ivo's belly and says "Finally satisfied, tubby boy?" and is surprised by how hefty and engorged with food and fat it is. Ivo says, "well have you?" and pats and squishes Gerald's huge belly too, amused by how much his hand sinks into his thick soft fat.

They also poke fun at each other for their heavy breathing and panting while trying to get around and the impact their huge weights have on their mobility. They're both so much lazier and slower now and are constantly huffing and panting. A lot of days it's easier to just lounge and let robots do all the work

When Ivo is easily worn out, Gerald laughs "Is that really such a challenge to be getting so winded?" Ivo gets defensive "Bold words when you can barely move either!" Gerald says "But my older age plays a part too, you're the one who can hardly move without age factoring in quite as much, you're huge!"

Gerald puts his favorite snack on Ivo's belly to prove his point. Ivo really wants it despite all he's eaten already but he's much too fat and full to reach forward and pick it up. Not even his long arms can reach around his huge belly to pick it up, he's panting and huffing and getting hot and flustered from overexertion.

Gerald teases him for his struggle, saying "I told you so!" It's amusing to see Ivo have such a hard time with it with his massive belly spilling out so far in front of him. Gerald has to finally help him after watching him helplessly wiggle his arms for a little while until he's exhausted and red-faced from so much effort hehe

"Oh yeah, I can do the same to you!" Ivo says as he places a snack on his too. Gerald does struggle with his also enormous belly but manages to come quite a bit closer than Ivo! They both have huge hefty bellies but Ivo's is on another level, with 80 lbs more pounds of fat piling on his thick fat jiggly body!

Gerald says he can tease him back as much as he wants but it's undeniable that title of biggest, fattest, and heaviest in the Robotnik family belongs to Ivo. Ivo says "Yeah well you're the one who inspired me and got so much bigger with me too." Gerald says "But it was worth it, wasn't it?" Ivo has to smile and agree!

They enjoy the fun teasing and banter a lot, as embarrassed as both can get when they really lay it on thick. They have a lot of precious bonding experiences in embracing their new lives as enormous greedy fatties together! 💜

[ka-go-me]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

respond to the prompts out of character!

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have? I honestly just picked Kagome up after having played Inuyasha, Kikyou, and then Naraku as main muses...The RP group I was in in the ancient and not well-known any longer AOL chat rooms had everyone but a Kagome. So, I made the screen name Kagome ex Miko in 2002 (which I still have as an AOL email to this day) and my miko was born. and--she just stuck with me...and has stuck with me for over two decades to this day.

is there anything you don’t like to write? There are ship games I won't touch with a 30-foot pole, but if I speak truly--I can be up for just about anything, as long as it gets interesting.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? I love a good AU~Those are always fun! And you never know where it'll go or end up. Mostly though, as said, I'm good with just about anything.

how do you come up with headcanons?  Most of my headcanons come through the playing of my muse...Something happens during the game and BAM that's a new HC. Also, I tend to make headcanons that go against the grain of what the majority of the fandom takes as fanon. Like for instance-unlike common fanon, I HC that Kagome's dad was a jackass and left her Mama and her shortly before Souta was born. Also, I HC that Kagome is in fact NOT Kikyou's reincarnation.

do you write in silence or do you play music?  Depends, I multi-task while I write, so sometimes I write while something plays in the background, and sometimes I don't.

do you plan your replies or wing them? I don't plan my replies. The few times I've tried--I never wound up using them. So, winging all the way!

do you enjoy shipping?  I am not a ship whore with my Kags...lmao. Her and Inuyasha are like the only characters I have ever had that I cannot STAND shipping them with anyone else other than each other....and Kikyou. I will not lie. I can, will, and do ship them with Kikyou, too.

what’s your alias/name?  Meaghan

age?  38

birthday?  October 19th

favorite color?  Lavender/Lilac, Lime Green, Black.

favorite song?  I have a LOT of songs I love, so I can't really say. Though the first song that came to mind was Meet Virginia by Train, so I'll just list that for the moment--But I don't know if it's my favorite. XD

last movie you watched?  Spider-Man: Across the Spider Verse.

last show you watched?  Once Upon a Time

last song you listened to?  Me Too by: Meghan Trainor (SUCH an Azula song. lol)

favorite food?  Greek food, Japanese food, colcannon, steak, cheeses, lamb chops, skittles, sour bite crawlers, necco wafers

favorite season?  Summer. I hate anything below 75 degrees. lol.

do you have a tumblr best friend? @loneinuyasha who is my irl gf~and @adversitybloomed she's the one I talk to the most here. xD

tagged by: @adversitybloomed (Chankies!💚💗) tagging: @peculiarbeauty, @sparesovereign, @akarxuu, @holified, @seachant, @loneinuyasha and you~ Whoever you are.

[jaggededges123]

Writing Patterns

Rules: List the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there’s a pattern! Tagged by @ripeteeth, thank you teeth! <333 i do so love tag games 🥰

(i'm gonna only count fics that i wrote and posted directly to ao3, otherwise half of it would be archived tumblr fic and i don't wanna do that so i won't XD <3)

1. “Your eyes are different.” [my eye is wasted from grief (my soul and my body also), TLT, Colum Asht & Silas Octakiseron. given what this fic is, i think it sets up right from the start the lingering sense of grief and silas's general attention to detail both. i'm satisfied. it's punchy imo, if you have the context from canon.]

2. “When you asked Colum the Eighth to hang out with you, in a low husky voice and obviously implying that you’d let him bend you like a pretzel, you didn’t think it would be like… this.” [Naberius Tern: Incest Magnet, TLT, Colum Asht/Naberius Tern/Silas Octakiseron. i do think this one sets the tone quite well, right from the get go it reads very much to me like: hey. we are now entering babs's head. i feel like it's got a smidge of humor in it too, so i'm very happy with it.]

3. “You do not always wear a headband to sleep in.” [The Incorruptible Crown, TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i guess the most i can say for this one is that it tells you right at the start that the star player of this fic is The Headband™️.]

4. “Silas Octakiseron was in a small room, in a small outpost, on a small moon orbiting their planet.” [it does not rejoice at wrongdoing (but rejoices with the truth), TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i love the repetition ngl, repetition is a favorite of mine to the point where i probably overuse it. idk what else to say about it, i feel like the next line is a lot more, so to speak, but that one doesn't work without this one. that is pretty common with my opening lines i feel like, that they set up a much punchier and/or more beautiful sentiment a little further on in the same paragraph or the next one, which is almost a little bit of a shame, i think.]

5. “Silas Octakiseron was entering his fifth heat ever, and that heralded exquisite agony for Colum Asht.” [by day the heat consumed me (and the frost by night), TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i like this one quite a lot, it very efficiently sets things up imo, including the emotional tone for the fic.]

6. “Silas Octakiseron can taste the sin on Capris Asht’s lips.” [Immorality, TLT, Capris Asht/Colum Asht/Ram Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i feel like this one is a bit different in that it starts right in the middle of it both in the sense of like, the act, but also the relationship. i like how this opener conveys that silas still is like. morally opposed to this, but also that he's doing it anyway which says a lot about the fic as a whole. it's v lovely to me tbh, i like this one a lot.]

7. “In the first month of the myriadic year of our Lord, Silas Octakiseron approached Colum Asht after the day’s duties had been performed.” [make no provision for the flesh, TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i like the implication right off the bat that this is unusual, or it would not be remarked upon. idk, it's a sturdy sort of opener. very serviceable.]

8. “It was happening again.” [the bed undefiled, TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. i'm getting a vague sense of unease and dread with perhaps a splash of annoyance, which is a great place to start this fic imo.]

9. “Colum Asht had never told Silas Octikiseron no before, let alone in the presence of others.” [The Third Sin, TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. tbh i almost wish i could redo this one, i wish i has given a bit more context in the entire opening paragraph. it starts right off from canon which suits, but i wish i had added just a smidge more detail to just really settle the reader if they haven't read gtn recently.]

10. “The pews are empty, long, and wooden.” [enter not into temptation, TLT, Colum Asht/Silas Octakiseron. a short opener for a quadruple drabble! it has a particular cadence that i enjoy.]

what i'm getting out of this is i like using full names in my first sentences, i don't put the pov character's name first nearly as often as i thought i did in 3rd limited (or at least, not recently), and i have recently just gone completely off the deep end after reading htn and now like 60% of my fics will be in 2nd person lol. also i'm uh,, learning (being reminded) that i should perhaps go back around after i'm all done writing and editing and try to rework the opening sentence or two, because a few of these strike me as rather bland (because starting a fic usually requires me to not think about the opening line too much, otherwise i get stuck in blinking cursor hell) but i would like to improve my first sentence game.

<3 i'll tag: @neverhornyoneighth, @moscca, @octakiseronliker, @ilovelunatics, @monroeknoxwrites, @snarkivistfic, @theflirtmeister but only if you want!

[memorydragon]

So I thought I was going to take a day off from ranting about how mental I am because of these gay cops, but nope. Normal levels have not receded.

First of all, I really do adore Bu Chonghua. He's a condescending prick at times, but I love him and I love how Huai Shang lets him be so very wrong at times.

Even when that wrong hurts like fuck.

There's this moment when they're both out of town-ish to interrogate someone and they stay in the same room because it's too late to go back. That morning, Bu Chonghua sees Wu Yu walking around, half asleep and shirtless and completely relaxed, and he realized that at some point, Wu Yu has marked him as 'safe'. And yes, I'm normal about that, but the point is, when exactly did Wu Yu mark him as such?

I made that post about misunderstandings being well done in this plot, but I need to clarify that there are sometimes Bu Chonghua is a condescending prick and Wu Yu is very correct when he's calling acab. The first time I read through it, I was like, yeaaaaaah, Hua-ge, I love you, but you're really being a condescending prick. And Wu Yu was well deserved in bitching him out.

The second time I read through it, it hurt like a fucking truck. Putting aside my personal flashbacks of being othered by someone who thinks you're part of 'them' while being completely and totally dismissive of my identity, when Bu Chonghua tries to draw the line between criminal scum and say they don't change, he was off. He was so off by miles and Wu Yu sneers and says he'll never become like Bu Chonghua because he really, really fucked that one up.

Which is why not even half an hour later when Wu Yu gets triggered so badly he's throwing up his stomach lining (onto Bu Chonghua's shirt XD), it had to be so jarring. Because Bu Chonghua correctly assesses his ptsd (which he knows, because he's been living that same empty life and have I mentioned I'm Normal about these trauma kittens?) then says 'I want to pull you back from that.'

If you saw my post from yesterday, yes I've been thinking about this all day to the point I can't even keep reading because massive fucking ow. Now, if you've been following me for a decent length of time, you're probably aware how I feel about spoilers. Namely, I don't care a wit about them. You can spoil me anytime and I won't care. Honestly, I prefer spoilers on some things (not to be hipster, but I was into tgcf before any of my friends and I would have really liked a spoiler about certain things but had no one to give them to me) and my enjoyment always comes from the journey rather than the destination in most cases. My spoiler tag is a polite accommodation for everyone else, which I sometimes completely forget to do, but I do try to keep up with it. (On that note, I'm so sorry, tgcf donghua second season was completely untagged for that. I completely forgot. -_-;;; ) That said, what I'm about to discuss is one of the few times I've actually danced around a major spoiler, because this one is quite big. I've avoided mentioning it explicitly in my previous posts about Tun Hai, but I'm about to mention details. So this is your warning, I'm about to talk about a spoiler that even I consider to be a significant one. If you don't want spoilers, scroll past and don't click the read more.

Because the only two people in his life who have ever genuinely cared about him and not who they thought he was wanted to take him out of that hell. Because his aunt gave him a name he can no longer use, because Xie Xing came back just for that promise. Because he's been forced to live someone else's life, the life of the only person who gave a damn, because he wants so badly to escape to a place where poppies aren't grown and he can't do that as himself. Because he's carrying Xie Xing's wish that he lives on for the both of them. And just fucking ow, little fish, please stop breaking my heart.

And this is where Bu Chonghua is marked safe, even so close after he fucked up so badly, because that's the one thing he's been promised by people who actually see him, that they're going to take him out of that hell and into the light. And Bu Chonghua just casually says this, not understanding why Wu Yu is stunned by something that to him is just normal amount of caring. Because two people died before they could make good on that promise, despite how hard they both tried, and how hard Wu Yu knew they both tried and died in their attempts. And I'm so fucking unhinged by this.

Because when before Bu Chonghua has even realized it, he's put himself along side what only two people have ever tried in in Wu Yu's life. All of that night, when Wu Yu shows him his favorite 'movie' (this little fish, Wu Yu, baby, why are you like this XD), when he follows Bu Chonghua out, when he watches Bu Chonghua basically take on a whole street gang while venting, only stepping in when Bu Chonghua was actually in danger, when Bu Chonghua is sitting there thinking by himself that Wu Yu deserves so much better, and when he realizes that Wu Yu can occasionally stick his head out of his shell and look around if someone is patient enough to wait (Abso-fucking-lutely feral). All of that time, Wu Yu has marked him as safe and I'm so Normal about Them.

[chevvy-yates]

🖊️ 🖊️ 🖊️ 🖊️ feed me with loooooooore !!!

it's four pens, so I assume it's for the four boys.

Hm what to tell you, that you possibly do not know yet? xD

I have something to tell about Thyjs but gushing about this would be wrong so I sit and think right now for something else as a post with a ptsd topic will be for another post.

hmm…

What I love about Thyjs is when I imagine him talking, he always has his Dutch accent somehow. Like he can talk and understand English perfectly, but still a lot of words he speaks with Dutch accent and because he is not used to talk all English only, he throws in Dutch words as well. With Ryder around he can do that because Ry as a German might understand him easily but I imagine Vijay, Jay, Arki and others just looking at him stupid having trouble to follow/understand. Idk, I find it extremely funny when I imagine it.

I do headcanon as well that Thyjs, since he's mostly well reserved and talks less when with the squad, he may sound a little quirky when he actually says something that is supposed to be funny since he's not used to showing lots of emotions (yet) as he shut them down during his Militech career which has to do with the mentioned ptsd together with some emotional numbness he has experienced during his soldier career. He has yet to relearn it.

Ryder – seriously – him existing is all I need. <3

My little precious pixel boy. Writing his backstory made me love him more and more. And I'm so happy that so many here on tblr like him, too! Because I feared he would not be liked as he comes in black and looks often frightening (I know some people have had respect and were also scared of me in a way bc they told me xD) But I've read so many tags he's a favorite amongst other ocs they like and that makes me super happy and also very proud.

What else can I tell?

Ryder likes to take fashion-like pics. He's done it in the past (together with the BD stuff) and loves to pose in front of a camera (even though he has problems talking to strangers and forming bonds/relationships). When he can pose in cool (or naughty) clothings he feels different and somehow he loves the attention for that moment he’s got. I can imagine if he didn't become a merc (and wouldn't have his problem called BEAST) he would have become a model for dark fashion. So if you are in need of a model for dark clothes, give Ryder a call! :D

Ryder collects 'useless' things. Like things that are just maximal for decoration. He's got a huge collection of various gemstones and crystals. Some he placed around in his apartment. He also has a beer collection of unopened bottles from all over the world. Totally useless as he doesn’t drink them. They are all banned in a cupboard because they took too much room on visible shelves as Ryder needs to have everything ordinary.

I like to headcanon, that Thyjs is a little careless about his own stuff so he won't place his shoes where they belong after taking them off, leave his clothes in the bathroom on the counter or hung lose over a chair. His cartridges and ammunition boxes often stand on the couch table and I see Ryder always cleaning up behind him as he cannot stand to see the things where they do not belong. So once Thyjs is away or in the shower Ryder turns into a cleaning machine and Thyjs will never find his stuff again so he's got to ask Ryder later. I imagine they might get into a little argue here and then but nothing wild. Thyjs just accepts Ryder’s compulsion as Ry is super stubborn anyways and after all this is still his apartment (but they do share the rent once it’s decided Thyjs stays).

Sometimes however Ryder may have enough and tell Thyjs a little grumpy that Thyjs should clean e.g. the dishes when Thyjs starts his "Talk dirty to me, lekker ding!"

Jaysen likes to klep things from his friends just for fun, to watch them search for it all day long amuses him to no end just to go in like it "Hey I think I've found what you searchin' for?" x) Like when Enzo lost a tool to work on his car and swears he's placed it there but cannot find it – first few times he may never assume Jay could have taken it on purpose. But the more Jay does it, Enzo will see through that I assume x).

Anyways, what I want to say with it, is that Jaysen likes to do mischief amongst his friends and he often doesn't care if they find it funny or not (most of the time it is the latter). He will always be the little devil in the squad causing mayhem and bring the team trouble but Vijay will remind him not to do this and that, but then Jay will be like "I do not take orders by my little brother!" and laugh. Vijay doesn't take this of course. It can end in them fighting for who is stronger, while the others just watch and one of them says "siblings …"

It definitely feels weird at first having 'a brother' for real for both of them. Jay knew about Vijay, V not but yet still it felt weird from the moment they saw each other as they are identical twins. You can just very well distinguish because they do have different optics and cyberware and Vijay chose to have a beard. But in the past Vijay looked exactly like Jaysen minus the optics and eye cyberware. If Vijay didn’t have his accident getting him the artificial thyroid Jay and V would even sound almost the same when speaking.

Vijay was studying Marine Biology at NC's university for the first two years, as he intended to go back to his hometown afterwards to help maintain sea life in the ocean near Monterey, that is currently the only place left where you can still see animals in the ocean or in the aquarium because the bay is under a special protection project in the process to regain some animals as well.* The city has a huge storage with every sea animal's DNA to revive and clone.

I just love the thought of Vijay being a marine biologist, helping the best he can to revive the sealife and keep it alive in the rare places that aren't polluted, yes. If he didn't went to be a merc he would definitely do that – dedicate his whole life to this, even risk his life and still would make use of his netrunning skills as I see him being able to hack whaling/fishing ships to make them immovable so they can enter it and capture the gonks who e.g. catch sharks just to cut their fins off.

Vijay is also very sensible about the topic of eating fish in general. And he hates literally everyone who supports shark finning just by eating shark fin soup. Do not dare to mess with him on those topics – you will lose, no matter if he would do that job or not. He's read himself into it all and is an expert since it is one of his 'free time' activities to still educate himself about this and he gives a lot of his earned money to the Aquarium and other animal rescue facilities so they can continue on with the goal to revive extinct species because that aquarium is not for tourists anymore as it used to be (in our real life).**

*This is my very own headcanon as I know almost all sea life seems to have gone extinct but I refuse to accept this, even sharks didn't die in my canon, sorry not sorry.

**I stood in front of it and wanted to visit it but didn't have enough time as I had only one day to explore Monterey and the area around by bike. I would still visit it even though I am not a fan of zoos and aquariums anymore (Tokyo zoo opened my eyes a few years back) and do not support it. But I'm still curious how they keep the animals there and how big the tanks are. I mean they will never be appropriate as appropriate for wild animals is only liberty. But I want to have a final comparison to European and Asian zoos/aquariums. So I would still visit that one. And then watch and learn/study how the animals behave in their tanks and cages.

[slashingdisneypasta]

I keep forgetting to send these in XD stuff I've thought of for the ship Grycho (you don't have to post publicly if you don't want to, I just wanted to be able to use italics and stuff)

- I'm not sure how you imagine they got together. But me personally, I think it might have been like a slow burn situation. Like maybe they got separated from the others somehow (whether it be for a mission or they got in trouble), and now they have to work together. Maybe whatever this situation, they'd see sides to each other they didn't see before, and it brings them closer ^^

(Either thar or, alternate scenario that's kinda crack, they were together but broke up before the gang got together, and are nowkinda bitter exes (or rather they're still in love and don't want to admit it) and that's why they fight all the time)

- Ok so I they did get together, I imagine they'd deal with their drastic horny levels in one of two ways. One, either Psycho will sleep with Greasy (when he's in the mood) for him. Or two, they make like some sort of agreement that Greasy can still go out and find someone to sleep with, as long as he always comes back home to Psycho (I'll be honest, I like the second option a bit more. It's sweet that they'd trust and love each other that much)

- if it's the latter, Psycho would be all over Greasy as soon as he comes home. Partially because he missed his boyfriend, and partially to get the smell of another person off of him (this will also become an indicator to the others whether or not Greasy got some. So Greasy can't lie about his fuck number anymore XD

Greasy: "Oh, I found a particularly beautiful woman last night. We had quite the time too~"

Wheezy: *glancing at Psycho, who's just doing his own thing right now* "... Really?"

- I'm not sure which I like better; them fighting less because they're now in love and becoming one of those complete opposite couples thar rarely fight, or they still butt heads, but now the other weasels won't try to intervene because they know that Greasy abd Psycho are going to be gross (as Smartass would put it) again in like fifteen minutes... Kinda like Tiffany and Chucky XD

(Omg. AU where Greasy and Psycho are Tiffany and Chucky. Who would be Glen and Glenda? (Stupid and Y/N from the Smartass' daughter AU XD))

- Also, since they're boyfriends, they can now do more missions together WITHOUT anyone else tagging along to be a mediator between them. I like to think that they have the potential to be a dangerous duo.

- If Psycho can get away with it, he'll refuse to eat anything that isn't Greasy's cooking. If he's starving, he'll accept a sandwich. But he would prefer his boyfriends food anyway.

Psycho: "No! I'm not hungry!" *liar*

Wheezy: "Look, Greasy has been gone for hours, and I'm pretty certain he's gonna be gone for another few. So please, just fucking eat sonething."

Psycho: "... No."

Wheezy: *smokes harder*

- not really a headcannon, more like a crack idea; in your Smartass' daughter story, Greasy and Psycho become Y/N's crazy gay unkles. If they didn't live with each other, Smartass would be like "Oh fuck they're coming over." Whenever he gets news that they're dropping by (assuming they'd even give him a warning XDD)

(Which also makes me think of when Jessica was asking 'What if she likes girls' in your last chapter. I can't stop imagining Greasy and Psycho just looking at each other in humor/sarcasm like "Omg babe, are we homophobic?" "I dunno, our pre-outing make-out session was pretty sus." XD)

That's all I've got today. I hope you like these! ^^

OOOOOH I'm picturing the Toon Patrol have to make a quick getaway and Greasy and Psycho were too busy fighting to notice- and then the van is gone and they're left alone together for the f i r s t time ever. They manage to find a phone, call Smartass, and ask what the motherfucking heck happened. When he basically says 'we had ta get outta there. You bozos were too slow. Now get a motel room and we'll come getcha in a week'.

And thus, their rom com beginning XD Greasy and Psycho stuck in a seedy motel with only eachother for a week (Possibly more is Smartass is feeling particularly mischeivious- or Wheezy pays him).

I love the second option too!! But like, imagine if Psycho only agrees to it because Greasy's never managed to snag ass before, so what makes him think now he'll be successful?? But then one day his manipulative pervert comes home covered in someone else's stink and a smug look on his face, and- YES!! suddenly Psycho is a l l over Grease. Rubbing himself on him to get his sent back on him.

Ahhh! Contrary-wise, I actually like the idea of them still fighting a lot!! But like- it's not out of hatred anymore. Just annoyance and differing opinion. The only way you know they're more then coworkers is the very careful way they watch eachother in a dangerous situation and the way they protect eachother ^^ (IMAGINE PSYCHO GETTING TERRITORIAL OVER GREASY. Like, someone's threatening to hurt Greasy and Psycho suddenly comes out like a rabid animal. Greasy knows Psycho will always come to protect him like a guard dog now, too, so he's even less concerned these days about insulting people bigger then him 😅😅😅) (Also, IMAGINE GREASY TALKING PSYCHO OUT OF SCRAPES. Like, if Psycho chewed up the neighbours rose garden and the neighbour was p i s s e d, Greasy would be there to smooth things over. 'Sí, Sí, no it will never happen again. Never. We promise you. Right Psycho?? That growling means sí. Bye bye now!~ *as soon as they're out of earshot* and good riddance 🙄, that rose garden was heinous.')

OH THEY'D BE SUCH A DANGEROUS DUO. At least that's one thing Smartass is happy about XD Wheezy, too, now he doesn't have to mediate 😅 they'd also be a pretty... scary duo, too though. They have very similar levels of empathy... which is not a lot. They'll get the info, and still kill the guy. No one will ever find the body and the only reason Smartass, Wheezy and Stupid even know what happened is because of a very suspicious grin the two shared at breakfast.

Omgggggg, that last one 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I need to see Jessica's resonce to that. She'd be so fucking done.

[depressedhatakekakashi]

So, as I've been mentioning I've been working really hard on setting up my office space. It's not done quite yet but it's coming together really well and I wanted to show it off.

The pictures are all fanarts that I have either commissioned, requested during events, or have been gifted to me (the exception being kakashi carrying his students. that was drawn based off of one of my posts)

Artists are

@animetrashmuffin (which yes, is over half the collection XD and is amazing and deserves all of the love) Some of these were commissions thus posted on my page, so i won't tag those because i want you all to look at her beautiful page full of all sorts of delightful art

Sukea and Kakashi

KakaIru and Bull

Kakagai

Gai hugging Kakashi

Team Seven (which I wrote a whole fic for for an event)

@crypticsummons (who spoils me <3 )

@kankuroplease (which includes the only art i currently have of Hotaru and which i adore to bits, plus the Kakashi holding a Pakkun plushy because i loved it so much i wrote my first ever KakaRin fic for it XD)

Hatake Hotaru

(i cannot find the kakashi one cuz there's a lot of Kakashi art on her page XD)

@mokutone (which includes Kakashi in my bookshelf, Gai in a photoframe and Shizune in my other bookshelf. Mokutone is just so sweet and kind and make's such beautiful art and Kakashi fit perfectly into that bookshelf and i couldn't not add Gai and Shizune to the room)

Shizune

Gai

Kakashi

Kagami--Uchiha (the only Kagami/Yua piece i have and another amazing person)

Meeceisme (who drew Kakashi carrying his three very sleepy students after a long day of training. Original post can be found HERE please show them some love)

HKZV (Which was a commission that @yamanaka-shin bought for me because they're amazing!)