#I won't be using this blog anymore

[hizerain]

i'm not really on here anymore, or any virtual platform for that matter. The past few months have been tumultous and I have changed, fundamentally, intensely, a deliberate effort to rebuild and reshape the clay of the earth.

I've reached a greater level of mathematical maturity through ego reduction, I've found an undocumented life to be better, for me. Above all, I've decided the self is a network, it's always moving. Who I am cannot be reduced, it cannot be simplified, it is what I do and what I do is all encompasing and ever changing.

[spiderman2-99]

What is your opinion about ai? (Specifically ai art and ai music (ai music means that the ai is making its own music using someone else’s voice or using its own voice))

AI art is theft.

Music is more nebulous (in my opinion). Theoretically, you could do a lot of interesting things with it if done right-- like Haircuts for Men, Frostbite Orckings-- or as, say, an assist, but it should never take the place and rights of real human artists.

[kaiserouo]

wip

i like that side look eye too much i need to spread this to the world

[averlym]

May I please request some soft parrlyn please

morning vs night gfs

[horror-stuff]

To all my followers, I'm gonna probably stop posting "girlblogging content" sorry for those of you who followed me specifically for that stuff, I will however MAYBE keep posting 2014 stuff idk

[stardivinefinale-moved]

decided i'm going to stop using this blog and just keep everything on my main @bossbabyofficial so follow me there

[riricitaa]

Just want to point out that I won't be answering nor discussing anything personal lives wise, especially here on tumblr, because:

1- it's not my business nor my life.

2- if the boys share some things so be it, if not, I owe them the respect to their privacy, I mean yes some things are obvious but still, they don't know me and I don't know them to the point where I'd have a say or discussion about their personal lives.

3- again, it's not my business.

So, I really wish Chris all the happiness in the world, God knows he deserves it. And I wish the same for Seb too and each person I love and admire.

And yes, this blog will remain the same (I'm trying my best to be more active as usual but sometimes life happens)

I love you all, and please respect my wishes, because I won't be answering the few anon asks I got from yesterday.

Take care of yourselves and if somehow you feel like this fandom isn't for you anymore? That's fine, take a step back, and hopefully everyone finds all the things they look for, and finds the love and happiness they deserve ❤️

Have a good day.

[seventh-district]

ooooooohohoho the way that i'm about to lean so hard into escapism

[subliminalbo]

The stories link on my blog does something now!

It's still a work in progress and will only work in desktop mode, but it's the easiest way to find all of my stories in one place, if anyone is interested in reading them.

Right now I only have three series on the page, but hope to add more as I find the motivation for it.

[redwingedwolves]

Thinking of ditching the spicy side and just being completely unhinged here instead. XP I'm kinda tired of switching between the two when I wanna post spicy shit.

[taegularities]

being here has never felt this suffocating.. it feels impossible sometimes to continue

[fooltofancy]

told myself i was gonna stop complaining abt money on tumblr.com so just gonna delete that and idk

[daddysropepuppy]

bf now knows about this blog everyone be on ur best behavior

[magnificent-winged-beast]

I'm incommunicado.

Can't receive asks since the message thing of my blog died.

Can't reply to my own post.

It's been 1 month. I don't hsve followers or they are bots probably, because I only got two since December. Just the secondary blogs had this rush of bots following.

Don't know if the people I use to casually chat know that I don't have this feature.

Aparently, I can't send asks either. Or I'm probably with this "pissed by the tumblr Gods energy" that no one wants to reply to me, or even tag me.

It seems they are trying to smother this blog slowly and casually. Like being a drunk on the floor and they put a gigant sing upon my body that says: Don't bother, she likes being like this and probably will bite you if you help her. And are waiting for me to just stop breathing or chocke on my own vomit.

So let it die, let it rot. I hope this isn't a sign of this side of the fandom also dying and moving on with other things. I still and adict of all the art and shenanigans this fandom still has in it even if the show ended almost 3 years ago.

Personally, I still want this to be a blog for Castiel and Misha, even if it's like 100% Destiel and Cockles since 2020. I'm really looking forward for the GK thing.

But if I've been forced to evacuate here, and begin from the 200 followers on my other blogs of personal endeavors, I should leave now.

I've been sending a request to fix this to tumblr help once a week. Not even a mail in response or acknowledge of my existence so far.

From my 6 years of experience here, I think I'm far from relevant or desirable as an user, even if I purchase stuff, pay for the no ads thing. I assume that a single person from Bolivia does not mean a demographic they want to keep, and the amount of followers it has does not count as significant, neither this blog as a part of those 6 years in the tumblr ecosystem. Because of the mass migration from Twitter, I assume, that are overwhelming their servers. Loosing me it's probably a lint in their corporate belly buttons.

Funny thing is I try to convince me that this blog matters. Even if many other people leave this site deactivating their blogs and leaving a big hole in the fandom in my opinion. But me, just fading away, or tumblr just expecting I give up leave and forget this blog, so they magically solve the thing once I migrate to another user or platform. Isn't really a big deal in the great scheme of things. I don't think anyone will notice my disappearance. I'm no legacy or important blog.

In the mean girls universe, before the let's point the blogs that gaslight us to believe that OF COURSE DESTIEL WILL HAPPEN IN THE END, how you DARE to not trust us META minds that know Dabb is our personal Jesus Christ and savior. At first I hang out with with them, but then I renegate and became the usual Cas Stan that got the "Bitter" tittle because I knew they will not have the Cojones to make Destiel actually happen on the screen as a real and indiscutible situation, like a kiss or an open declaration of love that had to go BOTH WAYS.

So, my importance here is minimal. Other blogs where more active and spoke about this inner bullying in on our Heller community. How being a Clown that got many questions and wasn't that happy after watching Castiel go to Superhell and Dean just staying there looking sad, but didn't say anything at all, wasn't the promise land they preach.

I will always protest about the awful way Misha was used to bait his fan base to watch the worse two episodes in human TV history of that finale just hoping he'll be there... eventually (I was that fool, and I waited, and I waited, and I watched... THE HORROR 😱).

Anyways, because I know this post probably will go to tumblr hell like Castiel. And be there in the empty of promises and things we prefer to believe to not loose or Collective Clown minds when Jackles has the time and has the 133563323th question about that scene that confirms that Dean was being a Bro and Cas was being a Bro and all the thing was just in our heads and Cas never said I love you, or he said it but it was more like a: BRO, I LOVE YOU, BRUH.

I'll try to reach the Server Gods, plead for my oxygen and pray for the cause of this punishment not being just another antiheller pro Jarpiss that got all the time in the world, or enough friends to ask for my reporting as whatever they could just to put me in this position.

I rather want to believe this is like a rite of passage. For what I recall, many blogs of people who I love and enjoy had a temporal deactivation or this kind of things once or twice in their history. So, that gives me hope to think, opposite of what I explained earlier in this gigant mental fart of existence and relevance on the tumblresphere, I'm probably and finally being initiated in the ancient ways of torture to became and actual real blog in its own right.

I. Really. Prefer. To think. It's just that kind of things. Not the Tall one lovers and their obsession with a gigant 40s toddler.

Still I will always keep distance from them and their Incestuos ownership of the S*PN tag.

If this are my last words, and or post, I want to say:

VIVA COCKLES!

[vespertin-y]

just saw someone say ‘dni if you sexualize kid-adjacent characters like venti xiao and the twins’ i can’t FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMOREEEE

[blake-the-shadow]

i bought undertaker stickers and they arrived today! wahoo!