#I wish life was kinder

[shikai-the-storyteller]

It's been such a bad frickin week man

[lorillee]

in honor of kakashis birthday i thought i might as well finally release my half finished mini concept of "inverse lost tower where baby kakashi comes to hang out with shippuden era team 7. Badly" because obviously baby kakashi seeing his older self have relationships and happiness that baby kks doesnt think he can or deserves to have pisses him off on such a fundamental level hes so filled with rage he barely knows what to do with himself. not to mention that adult kakashis general outward lackadaisical demeanor also makes him angry because how can they have gone through all the same things and yet he still doesnt take anything seriously etc etc u already know all this. regardless the issue more than anything else was that im not much of a writer so i could never get the words to feel right so it'll probably stay unfinished forever, but take these anyways

[crabussy]

IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING KIND TODAY!!! IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING GENEROUS TOWARDS OTHER PEOPLE!!! IS ANYBODY ELSE BEING KIND AND TRYING TO UNDERSTAND EVEN WHEN ITS HARD!!! IS ANYONE ELSE ASSUMING THE BEST OF OTHERS INTENTIONS AND RESPONDING IN KIND!!!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME

[iamfuckingsorry]

"Do you know where we are going next?" I asked ART.

Y'know what, I think maybe I don't need any more Murderbot books. I think maybe ending things here is fucking perfect and as much as I love Wells's writing I'm genuinely not sure it can get better for me.

Like, so much of the books are about MB learning how to be a person, about becoming okay with being a complete individual with everything it entails. The first thing it does once it's actually allowed to decide on its own is it runs away from it all (admittedly to go on a mission to confirm some things about its past, because it genuinely just wants to be *good*). It shoves all its emotions away as much as it's able to. Then shit happens, and it makes its first friends, makes decisions based on these friendships, goes through a lot of emotionally intense situations...

And we get to this point here. MB having zero doubts about going with ART says a lot about its relationship with ART, but it also says a lot about its relationship with its humans - it knows that wherever it goes, when it comes back, the humans will still be there. Its humans actively acknowledge its struggles with being a now-free SecUnit and MB is willing to entertain the discussions to an extent and share information about its deeply personal experiences. Hell, System Collapse ends with MB admitting it might be somewhat broken, but that's okay as long as it can keep doing its job, and agreeing to basically do counselling - this is the guy what would rewatch its favourite TV show again and again in order to avoid acknowledging it even had Emotions a couple books back.

Reading this, I know that MB will be okay. It has hopes and goals and genuinely believes in itself and it has an amazing support system that its willing to lean on for the first time in its life. I'm convinced it'll go on to do great things with ART. And that's really the only thing I need to know.

[lazlolemurs]

read stone butch blues and we both laughed in pleasure back to back and received several mental illnesses and had to draw my beloved oc to cope

Klyde Kaisyrr (He/She)

[secrettreestuffidk]

anyways i'm swithcign to mostly juice ans d sobering upa lil bc i got a n docteorer appointentment for my dog tomororw morning so that's enoush posting pfor the night

just in case you forsgot:

i clove you i love you i lobe you li lonw e you oi ilove yois i lovr yois i lov e yoids i love lout i love OWOI i love youisa i love lou i lovw youa i yoive tois i lobe loiau i love yoai i love yoi i love uoy o love yoa i love yoi i lofve yowu i love you i love yoiw i love yoiu

pleasepleaseplaseplaeaspleaseplaeaseplaeaseplaeaspleaes live bc i fuckong love you and the woirld is better with you init and i know it's scary. im so fuckin scared

and i don't wansta hav et to do it alone, so please stay alicve

i lobe you/ you're not aldone i'm not aloen

i know the grief os enourmosu but please pleaseplases try to bear it with me. dont' let them kill you

plasse don't let them kill you

[rnaeborowski]

fighting the urge to kms by showering daily and going outside and baking and cooking and drawing. works okay-ish but man am i going through it.

[boldlybloggingon]

currently angry (+++) at the world for everything.

this feeling has been simmering under the surface for SO DAMN LONG that I can't contain it anymore.

so, if i disappear from the internet for a while, don't worry. i'll be working my ass off to become better (as a human, as a future engineer, as an inhabitant of this godforsaken planet) and find ways of actually correcting the multiple wrong paths that our civilization is going towards

i really, really wish our societies weren't engineered to lead us to these critical points, but sadly here we are. wars, famines, bigotry, always trying to stab each other in the back...

i'd like to meet other people who are tired, angry, and who wish there'd be something better for us to achieve than killing each other and destroying other species at the same time

i mean- i was raised on the values of Star Trek (which are sometimes wonky, because of the distortion due to the current american values, but they still stand). i value life, knowledge, open-mindedness and much more.

i know that change can't be a reachable goal if there's only a few people working on it. so there must be people out there, hoping for a better future.

could we work please towards that together? as one, united people?

that's a dream of mine, and i hope we could achieve this together (perhaps it's only false hope, but i'd rather die trying tbh)

- a disillusioned engineering student with HOPE and LOVE for humanity

PS: anyone is appreciated, not looking for only stem people but people who are curious and wish to learn

[passthroughtime]

if somebody noticed that i’m not that active as before, it’s just because i’m overwhelmed with Everything, and there’s not enough hours in a day, and i need to manage my pastimes and effort/time i put into them and how it correlates with my overall everyday mood, and wow that sounds too complicated than it should’ve been, i guess it’s just audhd hours as usual

[iamdangerace]

Awww

[piplupod]

so there's a trans woman who goes to the centre and everyone calls her by her birthname which she is like... fine with but only because she has no choice but to be fine about it. anyways I've known her for a while through a trans group before the centre so I asked her today if she'd rather I call her by her birthname or her chosen name and she said she prefers her chosen name but I can call her by her birthname if I want and oh my god I was about to cry for her bc god I really feel that whole situation fjdkdl, I just told her "no I WANT to call you by the name you prefer, that's why I'm asking, I want to make sure it's safe for you if I call you [preferred name]" and she seemed so grateful and I'm just :') eeurrgghh i hate how we have to be grateful with crumbs !!!

its just absolutely wild to me that she's presenting femininely and wears skirts and dresses and everything and uses her preferred name when she writes her name down on stuff and yet everyone at the centre calls her by her birthname and he/him pronouns. like. how are people so fucking rude and oblivious ??? she's even worn a she/her pronoun pin to the centre like.... people are so fucking stupid about trans people I stg.

idk I'm just hoping to make her feel a bit more comfortable and maybe if I start calling her by the right name and pronouns then everyone else will too eventually because I know she doesnt feel safe correcting people. I'm not going to make a big thing of it obviously bc I don't want to put her in danger but I will be using the correct name and pronouns now that I've double-checked with her about it, and if I start feeling like it's making things worse for her then I'll check in with her again at that point. I've honestly been stumbling trying to use he/him for her when I mention her to other ppl because she is just... she/her in my brain. it's what I know she wants to use so it feel fucking awful to use anything else !!!

[crescentfool]

beaming everyone on the dashh with good brain day vibes!!! i hope that you all can remember to extend self-compassion to yourself whenever you're feeling down about something 💙

[mayra-quijotescx]

"oh well if you're an abolitionist or want access to services without means testing that must mean you want evil people to not face consequences" *gestures at everything* look around please. Evil people already don't face consequences, plus they get all the stops pulled out for them and a red carpet rolled out in front whenever they need something. I want that amount of grace for everyone else, too.

[rosecoloredknight]

this country is so fucked up. filled with so much violence and hate. ugh.

[batmanego]

i have to organize my life by where i am physically as it has such a dramatic effect on my mental state and life circumstances

[queen-mabs-revenge]

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