#I wish I was blue too

[tumefaismal]

In the wilderness

You're my star

Wherever you are

[a-compass-without-a-needle]

This is what happened after 3.1 isn't it?

[secriden]

Just going to cry again (see: my previous post about the parallels between the storage room scene and the abandoned factory scene) about parallels and juxtapositions in the store room scene vs the one in Styles bedroom:

Both these scenes have such a tone of desperation and are characterised by an overflowing of emotions, but in drastically opposite directions.

(Note, some of what I say in this post directly relates to concepts and themes I talked about here, so it may not wholly make sense without that context.)

The scene in the storeroom is filled with frustrated desire. Fadel kisses Style because he wants Style's body and also wants to take his frustrations at Style out on his body. He doesn't need to look Style in the eye (and in fact very intentionally only does so only in small snatches) because this isn't about a connection as much as it is about a release. Fadel's kisses come fast, hard, and are intended to bruise more than to adore.

But episode 5's scene is filled with much more quiet and tender sort of desire. Style is kissing Fadel so much more slowly and purposefully. He keeps looking back at Fadel, checking in to see how he feels and whether Fadel is enjoying it. Everything Style wanted in Episode 3, he now gives to Fadel here, pours the secrets of his knowing and choosing Fadel anyway into the way he presses his lips onto Fadel's skin. His kisses linger, they carry a weight but are somehow infinitely gentle still; Style's kisses contain a purpose that Fadel's kisses couldn't in Episode 3 because in all honesty they were relative strangers back then.

There's also the way there's such a ferocity and carelessness in the way Fadel starts the encounter in episode 3 that is juxtaposed beautifully by the slow, tender, almost hesitant way Style slides his lips onto Fadel's. Both of them are in such different headspaces, between these episodes and its especially evident in the way they care so much more about the other person's comfort and how intentionally they showed that to the audience.

There's hunger present in both scenes but what this hunger is focused on is so drastically different. In the storeroom, they're both mainly focused on a physical release; its primal and visceral but lacked emotional resonance. Fadel gives Style what he knows Style wants (that hint of danger, with the hand on his neck), but its not because he really cares about what Style wants on anything more than a physical level. In Style's bedroom, however, Fadel is drunk (intentionally and by his own design) and desperate to open himself up to Style on an emotional level. Meanwhile, Style wants that desperately too, but knows that Fadel shouldn't because of his own terrible secret. So this kiss is what they both will allow themselves - an honesty and a hunger for this deeper connection they can only share in act but not in words.

In the storeroom, Style wants Fadel to want more than his body but knows (or thinks) he can't push for it yet, so he remains passive, lets Fadel do whatever he wants, lets him turn and shove and place Style how he wants because at this point, this is all Fadel will give him. Here, Style is passive in spite of what he wants. But in the bedroom, Fadel is passive because it's what he wants; he wants to let Style do whatever he desires to and with Fadel's body. He wants to lay himself as bare as he possibly can, which is only physical, and so he does.

And because the encounter in Episode 3 lacked that emotional connection, the focus is merely their respective releases. There's a sense of two people trying to find pleasure and 'finish' while remaining emotionally disconnected despite actively having sex with each other. Because in some ways, they didn't really need each other in that moment to get there (there's actually a lot of truth in what Fadel says about it being easier to just jerk off alone). In sharp contrast, the scene in Episode 5 isn't focused on the destination but on the journey. Style is taking his time and Fadel is letting him - Style is choosing to worship Fadel's body, with his fingers, with his lips, to respond to his vulnerability with gentleness and tenderness and adoration. The goal has stopped being about finding a release, it's about allowing both these men to revel in the giving and receiving of pleasure.

The point of these scenes is to show to us the ways in which Fadel and Style have grown to care for and, dare I say it, love each other in ways that are so purposefully portrayed by showing the nature of their physical connection. Because the ways in which these scenes are the same and yet so wholly different showcases how their touches are now no longer merely tied to their senses any longer, but also to their hearts as well.

[museenkuss]

January. black tea fragrant with rose petals. a fawn-brown journal and pink-cold cheeks. tiramisu. matte rosy lipstick. comforting, sensual notes of caramel and iris. gentle flexibility training. crisp-fresh baguette with fig jam. pink salt body scrub. evenings spent reading and journaling.

[hiliqht]

winter x blue for @60sgroove

[shrimpyjackal]

i got these stupid kids scissors with stamp-like(???) blade & decided to test em out on watercolor paper but i cant just throw it away so look at this doodle i made-

i think i want to make a bunch of these but i KNOW i will not have enough patience

[jerrythebug]

The movie outfits are so awful because Max('s intern) designed them himself

[blue-jos10]

love that for the current neil, nathaniel wesninski hasn't entirely ceased to exist. he's simply been demoted to one of those tiny cartoony hovering devils whispering weird shit in his ear at times.

occasionally neil listens to him and does stuff like ordering hits on rapists and the people who know neil can tell that that was just him nathanieling a moment to get things done

[avanii]

Typhlosion is finished! All handmade with super soft faux furs and minky details; featuring hand-painted safety eyes, fangs and eyewhites of felt, magnets in each of the red spots (to attach a fiery collar to once I make one), lots of plastic beans in the belly, and extensive thread sculpting on the face and paws.

He measures 65 cm (25,6 inch) from nose to bum and gives great hugs! I’m really happy with how he came out 😄 Also featuring Quilava, whom I made early this year.

See how I made him here

[fairylando]

he 🤏

[heyimkana]

good night to sung jinwoo and sung jinwoo only ❤️

[theoldkyokodied]

"For the tyrants in a rut, I got a love For the gutless dogs, I got a love For the doomed youth, I got a love Won't you tell me please Why they got no love for me"

[butcharium]

A butch (almost) every day ▪️ 02.05.2024

I continue my attempts at watercolours - this time a self portrait at a café

[chiigii]

ch 175.

WHAT KIND OF FOOTBALL PLAYER...

DOES THE IDEAL CHIGIRI HYOMA WANT TO BE?

12.23 happy birthday chigiri.

[pastelsugar6w6]

*awkwardly tense and silent family dinner in Mirkwood with King Thranduil*

Thranduil:....

Legolas:...

Gimli:....

Legolas: Daddy, can you pass the salt?

Thranduil: Of course, ion nin *reaches*

Gimli: Aye, amrâlimę *also reaches*

Gimli: 😨

Legolas: 😰

Thranduil: 👁👁

[duoghnut]

lagoona na na na