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@ghostdog-witda-mostdog bestie I'm watching Food Network and.... Potato salad with Gumbo? I'm still like 😳 it looked good but I was curious abt your thoughts or if you'd heard 🧐🧐🧐
#I wasnt aware that was a thing?#esp from a texture thing?#but ig it's a region thing?#two of the judges werent thrilled either lol#but?#interesting
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I would give anything to experience "that doesn't mean I wouldn't blow you" for the very first time again
#and an experience it WAS#the gasp i gusped#andreil#andrew minyard#neil josten#all for the game#aftg#the foxhole court#MORE THOUGHTS#i dont even remember why i read the books???? no one rec'd it to me#wasnt aware that andreil was a thing so didnt read it specifically for those little gay boys#aftg apeared to me in a dream
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Can be read as a continuation of this
.・゜-: ✧ :-
It's been a few weeks, really, since the day he met his biological father.
The oversized hoodie drowned him, a perfect haven while he waits near the entrance to arkham asylum.
The whole week rushed by after the event. His mom, wonderful, black belt, kickass mom had fretted over him the whole time, messaging his therapist not long after and getting an appointment.
His dad had been clingy, giving him bear hugs left and right, it felt nice. Jazz hadn't let him out of her sight for one moment, always searching, always studying.
Man, he loved his family.
"Are you going to visit him?" The gruff voice of Batman asks, and danny shrieks, jumping away as he looks at the vigilante with wide eyes.
"Oh Ancients—! Don't scare me like that!" Danny scolds, hand over his chest and breathing hard.
He can feel the amusement wafting off of Batman. Or something.
Huffing, the child leans against the brickstone pillar holding the gate again.
"No," he ends up answering. "I'm not here to visit... him."
Batman listens quietly, simply standing next to him. He doesn't pressure nor demand anything. If danny thinks more of it, he might get a headache.
"My sister is an intern in Arkham, we're gonna have dinner with Harley and Ivy today." A shrug, and the wind lovingly pushes him.
"Good." The man states, he hesitates a moment before he stretches his arm out towards danny, opening his hand and showcasing the items.
First is a lollipop, famous for being handed over to children after being saved by the bat himself. Second is a pin, in the shape of Batman's signature bat, it had a red button on the other side however.
"It's an emergency alert, in case anything like this happens again." Is quickly explained and Danny takes them, if not a bit tense.
He is unused to the trust the man shows him despite how short their time was spent together. Danny wonders if the bat already snooped around.
"Thanks—"
"Danny!"
His head snaps to the gate opening, brightening up as Jazz runs through and hugs him.
"Jazz!" He eagerly hugs back, thank looks up at her.
"You gotta meet Bat—" He trails off when they turn to the empty spot next to the pair, wind rustling leaves just as he finished. "man..."
Damn batman.
Danny huffs and tugs at Jazz's jacket. "Nevermind then, c'mon let's get a nice present before we visit harley."
Simply bringing her up seems to have Jazz excited. "I still can't believe we're having dinner with THE Dr. Harleen Quinzel!!!"
"And her wife."
"aND THE Dr. Pamela Lillian Isley!!!"
Her enthusiasm is rubbing off on him, he grins, hooking up his arm around hers, and they're skipping towards town, laughing like maniacs.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#look batman is paranoid#danny “i went from two mentally ill villains to crazy scientists” fenton: im fine#batman: are u sure#he was legot concerned when he got the notif that danny was at arkham#its alr now tho#just his sister#look he gave danny a emergency alarm button thing cuz he holds harley as a dear friend#even if he and her will never be mother and son#the least he can do is give him a hand if he ever needs it#jazz will and would've broke jokers neck if arkham crew wasnt aware shes the sister of jokers kid and shes hella protective#THIS IS ALL PRE-ACCIDENT#Danny is TODDLER shaped#10-13 years#he still got few months before hell#if harley was aware he was back in gotham she would have killed the joker before he knew of his son#bruce alr knows everything abt danny#the moment danny hits 15 hes sending the internship to wayne enterprises in the astronomy wing
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was talking to my brother the other day after i rewatched dark phoenix and he was like 'why is everyone so mean to charles in this movie?? were they always this mean to him ?? is it cause he's bald now- he lost his pretty privilege??' and i fear i havent recovered
#xmen#xmen movies#dark phoenix#charles xavier#professor x#snap chats#LIKE HE'S RIGHT 1000% I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO SAY IT VLERKVJAKLJ#ANOTHER banger of a quote from my brother chat i screamed when he said that#adopting that into my belief system i fear#like really thinking on it they really did only start being especially rude after apocalypse im crying#dont quote me on that i have to rewatch apocalypse but as far as im aware. yeah 😭😭#and its SUCH a travesty cause i love how mcavoy looked in DP SO much he looks so good bald#like please if we were going to wrap up this era of xmen films why did we have to rerun DP#can we try again. please. i need him bald one more time in a movie i dont have to argue with myself i like#see DP wasnt the worst thing ever. probably. like scott got to do things again ..... and kurt .......#and the paris proposal. never forget that.#ALSO THE FUCKIN. 'no one cares charles' BIT ???? 97 ref'd that directly i know they did and i cheered#listen if they can ref the 'black leather suits' from the xmen movies i can believe they called back to that too <- delusional#anyway when james said thats the meanest thing erik could say/do to charles .... he was cooking ....#'thats the type of thing your wife/husband says' he was so right .... we know james never misses with the cherik takes tho#ok bye i have obligations that i need to complete so i can draw my favorite cue ball
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In singular deranged days work (where I was supposed to be getting OTHER things done) I made a cipher journal for decoding the ciphers in Gravity Falls, specifically for Journal 3, the Book of Bill and thisisnotawebsite.com. This included (ultimately) three pages of common ciphers used in the Gravity Falls fandom; originally I was only going to do two, but then got to the Blendin page in Journal 3, sighed deeply and made an extra page on the Vignére cipher. The clasps I made myself by hand, and the little white toggle is a raccoon tooth, which I may change out depending on what becomes available. The purple ink, although unable to be seen within the photos, actually glitters and looks rather cosmic to my delight.
Considering I made the most of it within a day, it meant I used the paper I had at hand, which wasn't good paper for actual ink as it bleeds through slightly (and is thus unbecoming), but as a fancy schm-ancy idiot who insists on using actual ink with dip pens for the 'breadth of the experience', this means I'm ultimately only using one side of the paper (to my chagrin) and the letters aren't as clear as they could be when I write on the paper. Nevertheless, I am rather happy about the result; young me from about a decade ago, who began to make a similar journal only to abandon the project would have been immensely excited that I actually made one and am currently using it to decipher things within Journal 3. There is something rather satisfying about it, I do confess.
#rose serpent press#gravity falls#journal 3#the book of bill#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#ciphers#bookbinding#jesus why is blendins letter so fucking long and a vignere cipher like i get it but yeesh#also yes im aware if i Google i would get all the things deciphered. but where the ENJOYMENT IN THAT HUH???#also immensely delighted to be able to do pull out pages for the cipher pages fuck YEAH tactile gorgeous AND useful#was i obsessed with the description of the Book Dragon Riders map by cornelia funke? yes and what about it. i still LOVE the concept#after i added the vignere cipher page i wasnt gonna reshoot the book so theres no second ribbon horizontally. so u just gotta imagine it#btw i mixed the colours myself for the colour cipher. in watercolour. because i like to torment myself#which reminds me i do need to finish whitening the raccoon skull that hangs out under my desk. like its been there for ages.
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☆ from gold, i am undone
{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, yandere, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood, implied self harm, implied suicide attempts {☆} word count 0.9k
You weren't meant to be here.
You can feel it in the marrow of your bones– it weighs you down like heavy shackles, gold bleeding from your pores until it is all you know. The taste of ichor on your tongue, the warmth of its invasion beneath your skin, that gleam of gold that lingers in the color of your eyes like specks of dust.
You are changed, and you are whole.
But you are so unbearably broken.
A shattered piece of porcelain hastily put back together with gold to fill the cracks.
Decoration, in the end, for you are not fit to walk as "mortals" do. This gold had filled every empty crevice of your body, spilled the red into your frantic hands and made you bleed so it's callous gold could make room inside your body. It has taken from you many things, given many more, but you scratch and bite and tear until it drips onto the floor and even then it never leaves. It stains the floor no matter how hard you scrub– a permanent reminder of the sickening gold that molds you into something that used to look like you– that does look like you. Desecrated, yet so horribly divine.
All you see is a monster.
Something new, something old.
A hollowed out shell, wounds left to rot and fester until you suited the image of the Creator they bore upon statues and murals, the Creator worshiped in prayers spoken in hushed whispers and joyous chants praising your magnificence.
But what magnificence is there in detachment? What joy is there to be found in carving a God out of a human? They kneel like lambs before the shepherd, but the flock has made you– and you want to unmake them. Unweave the tapestry of their being stitch by stitch until it all falls apart and the world knows the cost of casting molten gold into the shape of a human, knows the price that has been left unpaid.
You want to take it from them. Watch them squabble and pray, blind sheep stepping into the wolf's open maw– to tear the seams of their being until the world is unwound by your heavy hands.
But you know it will not satisfy you.
Nothing does anymore.
You are no wolf. Only the shepherd who guides.
And with every drop of blood spilled, they ripped the humanity from your very bones until your body was the cast in which they made something anew– something gold, something horrific. A monster as much a God, a beast as much a man.
There is nothing left but absolute authority.
You try again and again to mend this act of desecration, to peel back the outer shell and rend the gold from your marrow– but your body cannot, will not, die. It mends itself back into place no matter how damaged, and all you feel is the uncomfortable tug of your body forcing itself to live. You cannot die, but were you ever truly alive at all?
Yet with every cycle, you know only one constant besides the thrum of golden ichor in your veins– cold.
Ice that burns, ice that spreads and festers and devours. Claws that pull you apart until the gold runs thick, teeth that burrow into your bones and rip it out from the source..eyes that witness the fall of a God with reverence– hungering, all consuming reverence.
You welcome it.
It is the first time you felt pain since you were cast into an image of a being you were not meant to be. The sting of cold upon your skin makes you shiver, your body tries to reject it, but you want to welcome it– for a brief moment that lasts only as long as it takes for you to blink, you see the glint of something familiar in the reflection of her empty eyes. Something achingly, horribly familiar– something human, all the more terrifying for it.
Even when Teyvat itself crumples like paper beneath the weight of her sins – of this desecration anew, this wretched heresy – you allow her hands to do it again. You grasp her hands in yours like chains, willing her to shackle you, willing her to pull you apart and make you whole again. To break you until the gold cannot put you back together again.
You long, each time, for those eyes like spears that lodge into your skin– burrow deep and sting deeper, making gold flow like water. You long for the biting tongue, the cutting words and those teeth like weapons– long to see the spite and anger and impure disgust aimed at the woman of silver who leads you down a hall that ends only in damnation. You follow each time like the lamb led astray by the wolf, but you do not wail in betrayal when she sinks her teeth into your throat and devours you whole.
For is it a sin if you welcome it? Has their God sinned, in the eyes of the flock, for welcoming such heresy with open arms? For allowing the wolf into their home?
Is it a sin to be broken beneath the only hands that have loved you?
Is it a sin to want to love, too, those hands and teeth stained in gold?
Then you shall be damned, you swear it. Damned, but gold no more.
For death is the closest you have ever felt to being human.
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#fic tag#tsaritsa#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#tsaritsa x reader#this is. technically not a sequel but not a prequel but a secret third thing (mental health crisis)#kidding i just wanted 2 write the prev fic from more reader oriented pov bc it wasnt fucked up enough!!!!!#i need fucked up reader who is irreparably changed in horrifying ways!!!!!! and they cant die bc teyvat kinda needs them 2 uh#exist at all. and if u die well thats it. hits reset button#the horrifying fate of a mortal forced to be a god against their will and all the drawbacks that come with it#where is love to be found when they all cannot see themselves as anything but beneath you? there will always be imbalance#oh they try. they claw and scramble and beg but being the creator has changed you.#none of their worship. none of their sacrifices and gifts and pleas make you feel a thing and what a haunting thing it must be#do they reject it? delude themselves into thinking that they must try harder?#or do they accept that this is a god? absolute. horrifying in its entirety. something that even the archons cannot truly understand#a manmade god who seeks absolution in only the most heretical. the most blasphemous#literally shaking chewing on the bars of my cage LET ME OUT#i love deep dives like this sorry 2 everyone i made think i was normal my bad#i just think immortality and godhood r funky concepts and i love making them WORSE#also this took so long because i was playing b@Idurs g@t3 3 erm. censored so it doesnt show up in tags PLEASE DONT SHOW UP IN TAGS#taking i need the tsaritsa to bite me to a whole new entirely worse level!!#i just think (starts talking for 5 hours straight and doesnt Shut Up)#this one is also. considerably more openly fucked up then the other fic. even if its hidden behind flowery language uh. take it seriously.#okay im done no more angst its fluff from here on out i need 2 be NORMAL. i am a normal well functioning adult. maybe.
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i feel like this goes without saying but just for the record my annual eurovision posting is obviously not happening tomorrow. i was originally going to pirate it and just not post about it at all, but after all the bullshit svt and the ebu have been pulling i don't even want to watch it illegally. fuck all of that bullshit. i will be following the news cause i am very curious to see what's gonna happen, especially because i think israel is very likely to win, which makes sense since unfortunately you can't vote against anyone and MOST anti-israel people are boycotting and so it stands to reason that all the pro-israel assholes will vote as much as they can to make a point about how pro genocide they are.
if you are watching still (illegally i hope! don't give them streams! and don't vote!) you can still send me asks about it but i probably won't post them unless it's specifically anti israel/pro palestine
i delusionally do hope one day we'll be able to watch eurovision again, but as long as israel (and a couple of other countries if we're being real) are in it it's not fucking worth it. and even if they do ban israel, if they don't replace the entire board currently at the ebu, or at least whoever is pushing this bullshit if somehow it's not all of them, i'm out lol. and that sucks so fucking bad because eurovision has been one of my main sources of joy since i was like six years old. but it's not fucking worth it.
#i do think things might be different if it wasnt hosted in sweden this year though#i mean a lot of countries would go along with for sure#but a lot of the ebu is swedish#like MOST of the eurovision board are swedes#and its hosted in sweden#and sweden as a whole have been assholes about this from the beginning!!!#sure they're pro palestine now Kind Of#but it doesn't stick very deep#clearly not deep enough for their main broadcaster to not ban palestinian flags#and yes i am aware technically no non-participating countries flags are allowed in eurovision in any year#but lets be fucking real thats a fucking cop out in this scenario#anyway. fuck all of this. and i'm very sad about it.
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AUTISM POG
#for context i took this quiz 3 years ago for ''the lolz'' and my score was a bit too high for it ta be for the lolz#and now that i realize im definitely autistic i retook this and uh. the picture speaks for itself XD#100% PROBABILITY OF BEING AUTISTIC LIKE I WAS EXPECTING MAYBE 80 OR 90??? BUT??? OH MY GOD???#HOLY SHIT LMAOOOO#spacie spoinks#also realizing i was actually able 2 answer almost all the questions probably helped. like when i first took it i was like#''dude idk?? i dont think i do these things...'' (i did do them i just wasnt aware that i did)#doing research into things you think you have makes all the difference lol#cuz i started paying attention 2 myself and my mannerisms
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yk what im thinking? the fentons are 100% crazy enough to be Waynes. so what if they were? Jack could be Thomas Waynes' great-grandfather's brother who lived at Wayne Manor with his wife and kids. and they still open the portal with danny in it, so hes still a halfa. but either Jack and Maddie find out and they stick him in a stasis tube to try and fix him (what if they were also the people who figured out how to make the court of owls dead guys????) or Danny got stuck in the portal when he went inside and it doesnt open until the bats find it.
when the bats find him im thinking either they know (as well as danny) that hes half dead (the stasis tube) or they dont (stuck in the portal) and they find out all the fun stuff together. but, if they know hes dead already and so did danny there could be more creepy ghost shenanigans that could happen before they found the laboratory. which is v important
#dp x dc prompt#fic prompt#danny phantom#batman#my writing#? ig#i have been trying to make art for this au for a while now#not working out#but omg ive been thinking abt it alot#also thinking vlad could be a vampire in this au that kinda hides away once the 'fentons' die#but he finds out that the waynes newest kid looks alot like danny#well hes back to his old home wecking weird ways#thinking it would also b neat if bruces perents haunted the wayne mannor too#and danny just casually picks up conversation with them#and bruce finds out or comes across it and is just like ...#wut#huh#h uh?#also that the fenton labritorys secret entrance is in the kitchen#so the food cooked in that kitchen has made a few people sick because of the ectoplasm posioning#and that danny haunted the manor before he was found too but he wasnt quite aware what he was doing and doesnt remeber much from doing it#but bruce remebers seeing a teenager sometimes when he was a kid before he died#and dannys room was boarded up after he 'died'#how the bats find him is when jason starts coming around the manor more it makes danny more aware so he starts doing creeping ghost shit#to try and get someone to find him in under the kitchen#the reason jason triggers him like this is cuz its another 'ghost' or lazarus water/ectoplasm type thing in his haunt#so it freaks him out#or the ectoplasm makes him more aware?
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my hot take is that some people who hate jkr do also let other people off the hook a lot easier
like you can say 'oh yeah i dont buy anything hp related because i hate jkr and i don't want my money to go to transphobia' but if you turn around and say you just bought lots of fnaf stuff it feels like it cancels out. like yeah you hate this one transphobe but what about the others. how much do you really care about our rights.
now i know it's different because jkr openly talks about terf stuff. so you shouldn't engage in her work! because she talks about it and even pushes this in her work! but even if people dont talk about it, but have still given money to transphobic charities, that is not okay.
you can pirate things. you can buy things second hand. please pirate things. please buy things second hand. im saying this as someone who does like fnaf btw. you can enjoy things. but do not give money to people who want to strip people of their rights, and will use your money to do that.
fuck jkr, fuck scott cawthon, fuck every rich creator that uses their profits to harm others
#ALSO even though as far as im aware vivziepop hasnt donated to any charities that are bad please pirate hazbin hotel if you can!#it shouldn't make money because if it does it will be pushed and people might think that it's appropriate to respond to a victim by calling#them a loser and also she is a misogynist. shes misogynistic.#this isnt quite as urgent but that show does contain some Shit that isnt okay#idk people codemn jkr but arent as quick to condemn men who share her views. not saying i dont hate jkr i just also hate all transphobes#anyway pirate things#oh also scott cawthon is a zionist btw if transphobia and donating to fucking donald trump wasnt enough for you#fuck jkr#fuck scott cawthon
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Already said this but since everybody is too busy on the failmance happening im gonna say it again: Vi starting their confrontation by saying “never thought [my sister] would orphan kids” only to be stopped from killing jinx. By an orphan kid.
#its about how jinx specifically calls vi her sister. thats WHY she has to kill her she wont balk from that#but vi disowns her as a sister (crazy bc she was her only blood family but thats nbd in zaun) bc thats the only way she can kill jinx#vi just GASSED zaun and is a COP now jinx should be disowning her#it wouldve been SO good if jinx flipped the s1 finale situation#and started asking what vander or mylo or claggor would think while wearing his stolen goggles#if vi wasnt so hot yall would actually call out her bad decisions or red flags but go off ig#bc this scene is also after she watched jayve KILL a kid. not even orphan one! and she was LITERALLY like ‘so? kids be dying.’#anyway the fact that isha is also aware of cait trying to shoot jinx so she hugs her. puts her head in the mf WAY on purpose#and vi has to have the same moment as jayce. ‘what have we done’ you became the very thing you swore to hate sweetheart :))#to have a child from zaun. your home btw. look at you in an enforcer uniform and shes full of fear and rightous fury.#its that day on the bridge again. vi had that same look in her eyes when vander carried her away. when did her lines and her values become#so easy to sway. well bc she loves someone of course. but she betrays you too. i can only laugh#its stupid bc s1 jinx is literally only doing what vi grew up wanting to do for vander. like actually.#bc its the same that they cannot steal from topside so it wouldve meant stealing and fighting and eventually killing people in oposition#like your sister was building nail bombs at 9 years old. you encouraged her. ‘theyll work eventually’ and then she kills and vis like 😰😰🤢🤢#bc she only sees silco. ugh kill me#can somebody talk about THEM please yknow one of the main focuses of the show#arcane#netflix arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane spoilers
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heaven help her
#メズマライザー#重音テト#初音ミク#hatsune miku#kasane teto#mesmerizer#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#my art#artists on tumblr#illustration#art#this song has me in a violent choke hold#i think if the animation wasnt as great as it is i wouldnt really care much for the song#cause this is like. the first time ive gone out of my way to listen to a vocaloid song#i didnt grow up with them. i knew miku and heard their songs#but itd be in like. speedpaints and stuff#i also listen to will stetson who covers some vocaloid songs but idk if that counts#anyway this doesnt look as good as i wanted#the plus side of getting a drawing done in a day/day and a half is that i cant get mad if it gets little attention#cause i didnt spend a lot of time on it anyway#also didnt draw their hats im aware#last time i tried drawing a characters hat it put me in such a bad mood i had to nap#and i dont want to take a nap or be in a bad mood#i have at least three more vocaloid things i want to draw#two of which are for rabbit hole#dooblenauts#i wish i sounded like teto#i know shes ai (with consent from the people that do her voice bank)#but she has an androgynous sounding voice i wish i had
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i for one would love to hear the remainder of ur thoughts on maggie tozier…
EEEE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!! This means so much coming from you Kat 😭
okay a few things to note before i begin
This is a lot
Its a lot of me redoing her from the ground up, her personality, her looks, her background, her relationships etc, etc.
So just know, im taking like a thousand creative liberties with this
To begin i based her looks on the character Deirdre Barlow from an old brit soap opera called Coronation Street.
I imagine she literally looks like her kids, they get almost 90% of her genes and look like mini versions of her. Though she perms her hair to fit in with the trends, and tv has sold her a bunch of at-home perm styling kits. She's got pronounced jowls like Richie does, he probably has her wide nose too. Her fashion is very on brand for the time with lots of sweaters and jeans and big clunky jewelry.
I always imagined, much like every little homo, Richie got a lot of his fashion from his mama..
and cartoons.
She's average height, and probably is on and off diets but never takes it too seriously. Besides she enjoys baking and is always trying some recipe she saw Julia Childs make. She's kind of a stocky woman, it just runs in the family to be sorta squarish and have this bulldog look to them.
As for personality i personally never cared for Kings description of her as a kind of wishy washy woman who cried at everything Richie did or said.
For me i liked to think someone like Richie needs a mom who matches his energy and can take on his rambunctiousness. Even if it takes grabbing him by the ear and dragging him back inside to get a verbal slashing. She's not overly dominant or strict, just used to Richie always mucking up mud and knows how to rear him back even if he still embarrasses her in public sometimes with his trashmouth. I mentioned this before but i see Maggie as one of the, if not ONLY, better parental figures in the loser club. She genuinely cares about Richies friends because of how few and far between there is. Any kid in her house is her kid, she feeds and provides a safe place for anyone he brings home. Even if she doesn't understand some of their interests, or lingo, or fashion statements, or music. She's a moms mom, always referring to any kid as 'hon' 'baby' or 'sweetheart.' She can be fun and doesn't take anything toooo seriously, but she still cares about appearances. She's like an average sitcom mom who wants to look like a good mom and have a normal family with a happy life. She's also, a giant dork.
Much like her son, she too is kind of a loser. She's got that Tozier awkwardness, always making jokes where there shouldn't be, laughing too loudly/obnoxiously, always making references to pop culture even if nobody in the room has a clue what they're referring to. She doesnt really have a lot of friends 😭
She definitely tried, oh my god did she try. She would bake goodies and strap baby Richie into one of those backpack carriers and go around the neighborhood trying to introduce herself and her stinky ugly baby. And it was hard, Derrys an old, OLD small town. Backwards, judgmental, harsh, hateful. Unfortunately she just wasn't that privy with the other moms around her. But she desperately wanted to be, being a stay at home mom is lonely work. She dreamt of just being that sitcom housewife that makes the perfect dinner and snaps her fingers to clean the house in an instant and talks, and talks, and talks on the phone. She wants in on the mom gossip. She wants to be apart of a community SO badly.
Sonia is one of her few mom friends and even then that's more of a obligated friendship, their only common interests being their children and television. She kind of finds Sonia annoying and doesn't approve of her parenting methods, always rolling her eyes when the phone rings while Eddies staying the night, knowing its some new task she'll have to force the boy to do. Though she enjoys that Sonia will listen to her blabber, even if shes probably just sitting and watching tv while Maggie drones on about this and that and giving an assuring "uh huh" as a sign of life. Maggie's such a tv head too, i love to think she enjoys watching Cheers the most along with various soap operas and game shows. Her family bonds over tv with tv dinners on tv stands while they parrot tv quotes at each other. She probably has to shoo Richie away whenever Cheers is on, needing time to debrief and mumble to herself about Dianes complicated romances. And shes got a crush on Fraiser, god you and your mom have crushes on wimpy mama boys in suits lordd
I based a lot of her personality on Calvins mom from Calvin and Hobbes
I played around a bit with her background. I know she's depicted as Catholic but i always imagined she grew up Jewish, only quitting the practice when she and Went got married. Her views on religion are mixed, not wanting to really skew her children in any direction, but celebrating Christmas to fit in with everyone else in Derry. Not that it really helped because she never took them to church. Evil bastard child and her half demon brother whos annoying. Her and her parents relationship are a bit if not totally strained, they probably disapproved of Went back when they first met as teens. Their reasons were based mostly on Wents social status, but they were also just very critical of Maggie and every choice she made. She always felt suffocated by her parents and Went just made her feel clear and airy. Though it was mostly puppy love that kept them together at the time, their love would continue to blossom over the years as they got older and older. They truly loved each other.
I had this whole idea that he and Maggie were young lovers at 18, falling in love like it was the movies as they hid it from their parents. But she would end up pregnant with Rachel like REALLY early on, and it would kind of "ruin" any "plans" they had of running off together and going to some local college while Went worked. Which only added more strain to her and her parents relationship as they went off to have a small shot-gun wedding at a courthouse. Only able to afford a dress and flowers at the time, but she still looks back at it fondly and probably passed her dress on to Rachel later in life. She is still in contact with her parents but only rarely do they go visit, Richie hates the smell of his grandpa and always tries to rile them up by doing impressions of Mickey Mouse.
She's one of the youngest mothers in Derry, only making her more of an outcast in the judging eyes of others, but she loves her kids more than she ever felt she was loved as a child. She always wanted a girl, just enjoyed shopping for one and bonding with one and brushing their hair and decorating their room and doing their nails and makeup together. She adored Rachel, she was exactly what she dreamed of when she thought of raising a little girl. Their relationship is really close even if Rachel began to pull away towards her teen years. (I have SO many ideas for her as well 😭)
Much like her, Richie was a surprise/accident. She never really imagined herself caring for a boy and found it a bit more difficult, especially since their age gap is a bit wide. But even through her rolling eyes and yelling Richies full government name when she finds her nightgown cut with eyeholes in it for his ghost costume, she loves her son.
Their relationship is VERY much like Linda and Gene. While she doesnt care much for Richies crude humor and snappy quips, she cant help but hide a smile sometimes when she hears him and Rachel bickering back and forth. She genuinely thinks her son is really funny, just needs to tone it down a notch sometimes and not be the loudest voice in the room. God, shes probably taken him to talent shows at school. Tying Wents best looking polkadot tie around his neck while he nervously flips through his note cards, getting his glasses all sweaty as he quietly asks if maybe they, um, can just go home instead. And she'd sigh and clean his stupid thick glasses for him and tell him hes going to do wonderful. "You're funny Richie, real funny." And when she see's him waddle up onto the stage, nervous, scared, and tiny. Her smile would be bigger than her heart, having to flash him a healthy thumbs up to boost his little confidence. But of course he would fumble, sputtering every joke, never getting to the punchline, or getting their too early, and he'd be too quiet for the people in the back to even hear him. And Maggie would be the only one clapping, the loudest she can too. That's her funny guy. She lets him cry to her and wipes his tears with her sleeve. She never bought into the way most moms treat their sons, she wanted Richie to grow up loving someone with his full heart. Even if it means she coddles him sometimes.
And her and Went have a very loving relationship, very average and kind of mundane in a sweet way. They're very genuine, Wents sort of a passive guy who listens to his wife nightly rants about her day and enjoys it. He loves her more than his vocabulary allows him. Simple guy, loves his wife, laughs when his kids curse at each other, works wayyyy too much.
God this family
I think that's the brunt of my thoughts, most of my ideas are just small little things that add to her greater personality. I also loooove parental parallels so there's always tiny shit between her, Richie, and Rachel even.
In chapter 2 i think she's still alive, Went died from liver cancer a bit into Richies 30s (Toziers are kind of functional alcoholics.) So now she resides in Florida, where Richie bought her a nice home near the beach. He doesn't visit, or call that often which depresses her a little. But she understands, plus Rachel still often comes by with her children to visit and catch up.
I have list long notes on all the Toziers, they're genuinely one of my favorite fictional families and i literally highjacked them and made them my own 😭
OH! and i imagine she's got a collection of antique clown decorations. Vases, paintings, statues, gnomes, you name it. It's why Richies not very fond of them. Or going into her room much.
Tldr; Your mamas a loser like you
#She genuinely means the world to me#I try to give her a lot of micro complexities that makes her more dynamic and yknow#an actual character#Like of course she loves and cares for her son#but if he told her that some killer clown monster that shape shifts and called him a queer tried to eat his face off#i mean would you believe him#She would be worried for sure but more worried that maybee letting him see The Thing wasnt such a good idea#Or The Rocky Horror Picture show#oh and of course she knows his little secret#duh every mom knows that#maybe not fully but shes got an idea about him#a mother always knows#and she will always support her children know matter who they choose to be#maybe not assholes though she taught them better than that#She probably doesnt wish for him to BE gay though#not because of any of her own prejudices or bigotry against it#but because shes not stupid#shes known Richie has already had a hard life#hes not exactly a beloved football star quarterback that all the cheerleaders follow around#shes aware of how hard it is for him out there in this ugly town#she just doesnt want one more thing weighing him down#maggie tozier#it#it stephen king#it 2017#richie tozier#ask box
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On homesickness, to a home that never was.
via ryebreadgf // the smiths, back to the old house // via wikipedia // adrianne lenker, half return // via edwardsaidpdf // sophie may, somewhere far // radiohead, (nice dream)
#nova noise#web weaving#do people make webweavings for ocs. thats what this is but im trying to keep it general#oc tag#mikan javier#sure ill actually tag him. heart i love you boy. sorry about all that#id in alt#was it necessary to link each of the songs. no. but i thought it looked funny without it. sawry#on homesickness#on childhood trauma#<- I GUESS. KIND OF. to me it is#my wws#i wanna make more :-) specifically a duo one for momo and mikan! been meaning to for aaages#I AM AWARE ITS INSANE TO PUT RADIOHEAD ON HERE. HOLD MY HAND WHILE I EXPLAIN HOW IT RELATES. IMO#the fake nostalgia of your family treating you as they should. giving you the things you need to be happy (love and protection)#it wasnt real. but its a nice dream to have#okay thank you ^_^ i like to ramble and over explain myself constantly
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Both Kamado and Volo suck, the difference is that Volo gets sent to gay baby jail and Kamado to “you remind me too much of my shitty dad for me to actually look at your actions from a justified pov” jail.
#pokemon legends arceus#kamado#volo#i keep seeing posts that are like “kamado is a better person than volo” and. why are we pitting two bad bitches#derogatory#against each other#/silly#they both suck and im tired of pretending that they dont.#but volo is easier to forgive because he didnt directly betray the protag(in particular).#kamado took everything from us#our friends our home#he essentially did to the protag what pokemon did to him#the difference was that he KNEW. he KNEW that he was doing it. maybe he wasnt self aware enough to understand. but it was a conscious#decision based on prejudice#also instead of it veing volo who helps the protag it shouldve been the miss fortune sisters#like. theyve been through this exact same thing and irida said that coin in particular was really kind
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i think like. so much would be solved if we normalized the fact that some people do experience delusions and hallucinations. like yes, its something that those people need help with/need more accommodations for, but we could use being more understanding of people with psychotic symptoms in general.
like, i can tell you that at least one person raving about conspiracy theories is someone who experiences delusions, and if we understood that, we wouldn't have such a hard time getting them back to a more grounded perspective.
i am someone who experiences delusions and I do get incredibly triggered by all the unreality bullshit, the simulation theories, all that unreal bullshit, and it is actively negatively impacting people like me.
we could really use a better understanding of those with these symptoms, because acting like having hallucinations/delusions makes you a killer is a take that makes zero sense. Like, genuinely, you have no idea what you're talking about if that's where you immediately go. I can point out a bunch of shit discussing the darkness of humanity and that logic applies to anyone, regardless of mental illness. Delusions and hallucinations don't mean you'll act on anything, it just means that your brain is creating false images or thoughts, and that can get really fucking confusing.
We could use a little more empathy or compassion towards those with these symptoms, because obviously this shit isn't going away for us, just like other disabled people dealing with their disabilities. We are not idiots or monsters, our brain just gives us random false shit sometimes and it really fucking sucks. Be more understanding or I'll telepathically insert false shit into your brain one day, y'all should see the nightmare that some of us have to deal with.
#babey posts#actually delusional#delusions#hallucinations#schizo spectrum#actually psychotic#psychosis#paranoia#hypervigilance#honestly if i wasnt aware of my paranoia. id probably believe a lot of the conspiracy theories out there because of it#like that shit is so strong it makes me feel like everyone's out to get me#and i know they're not! my delusions are just delusions#but for some people. they struggle to tell about that sort of thing and i dont fucking blame them#and we should be more accommodating of people who experience symptoms like this in general#i can handle unreality to an extent. but there's some people who can't handle it at all.#be more respectful and understanding and dont trigger people for fun
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